#this interpretation doesn't make a lick of sense

[jackthepeeper]

English is not my first language, I've never written a fanfic before

Ramattra x GN!Reader

CWs: Slight NSFW(?)

Summary: Ramattra enjoys having repairs done to him way too much

You cautiously reach deeper inside, with your hand disappearing up to the elbow in his chest cavity through a small opening in his midriff, each section of his "abs" detachable if need be.

There's enough room to wiggle your soft flesh without touching the surrounding machinery. You're sat in his lap, with his visors burying holes in your forehead from underneath the emotionless plate of his face. The pressure is driving you wild, and you lose yourself briefly trying to decide which is hotter: his insides, where the scorching wind from his fans licks your skin, already sleek with sweat, or your cheeks, flush with embarrassment.

You're not an engineer. Far from possessing any meaningful prowess in mechanics, only having fixed house appliances a couple times in your entire life. But you're the best thing he can count on, and the task is more than simple: you just have to replace an extremely distinct knob just under his shoulder blade, easily accessible from the inside if you are lucky to have hands small enough to fit through the access hole. He sighs, flexing his giant palm idly. If he wanted, he could've closed his fingers around your thigh with ease.

You locate the knob, feel its melted form and unscrew it as carefully as you can while the edge of his armor digs into your skin, drastically reducing the freedom of movement you have. With your fingers tiptoeing around a ruined part of his, your eyes track every movement of the rest of the omnic's body. You don't trust him, just as much as he doesn't trust you. He sighs, his giant frame shuddering, vents creaking open and fans whirring louder as his head comes to rest against the wall he's leaning onto. You continue.

The knob falls into your palm eventually, and you can almost feel his disappointment of being empty as you retrieve it, completely pulling your hand out of the oven of his chest. He puts a heavy hand on your hip - a gesture you interpret as him making sure you don't run off without installing the new part in place of the ruined one. You shift against his thigh, and he grips harder as you plunge your hand back inside, bolder now than before.

Rough movements of your palm, metal being dragged against his insides as you try to insert the new knob where it belongs, failing miserably. He groans, and you feel every single one of his slender fingers dig into your flesh. You are sloppy, way too confident, a stray wire catching onto your finger as you screw in the knob. His heavy breathing replaces all your senses, leaving only the task at hand and the heat enveloping your body. Why would an omnic breathe anyway?

This time you can't even get your hand out without trouble. You're stuck in a rat king of his inner workings, your fingers slithering along the edges of his machinery, tracing thick wires in an attempt to find a way out of the endless loops, and to your horror you feel him tighten around you, heavy breaths turning into gasps and whimpers as you become more frantic, trying to free your hand from the scorching hot trap. Your lower body comes flush against the plate covering his groin as he drags you with both hands now, moving your flesh closer to his metal torso, deliberately grinding against the softness of your belly - you are too scared, too concentrated on the wires ensnaring your wrist to read him. You think he is in pain.

Your ass is the perfect size to fit in his palm, meat squeezing between his fingers as he holds you in place while his hips buck to meet your welcoming curves. He moans, silver caps on the ends of his flat cable "hair" clanking against his shoulders as he throws his head back and relaxes as suddenly as if he'd pressed his own power button.

You remain in his lap, playing with the limp wires until he wakes up.

[sailorblossoms-snowbaz]

Simon "not feeling anything"

“It was fine, it was sex” is one of those lines I keep coming back to because what does that mean. Even removed from context, in a scale of things that are supposed to be mind-blowingly fantastic or, at the very least, actually good, just "fine" will be perceived as negative. If you prepare someone a meal and they say "it was fine, it was food," you're probably going to think they didn't like it. If someone went out to pick a dress for a special occasion, and they go "it was fine, it was a dress" about the dress they picked... if you don't think they fucking hated that dress, you're likely assuming that person doesn't care about dresses at all. Like, dresses do not cause positive emotions at all. Picking a dress feels like nothing, perhaps. Maybe it's even it's even boring as hell.

A big component of that line is that it sounds dismissive, even more so because it comes with a Simon who is trying to change the subject. He would very much rather not talk and think about this at all (his final word on the matter is a dismissal as well – "it doesn't matter" – which comes in the context of highlighting the difference when you actually want it... "this is how it feels like when you're in love and turned on and so I actually want to do it, whatever works between Baz and me, as opposed to that other time when it wasn't like this and it was the opposite"). But there's something else I want to highlight here...

Fine, in the context of negative things, might not necessarily be seen as positive, but as something that you can handle.

In that sense, maybe it was "fine." In a fucked up way, maybe it was something that could be handled because it felt like nothing. (If this is something impossible for you to imagine, I invite you to look up conversations of real people who fall somewhere in the acespectrum sharing things in the vein of "I tried sex to see what all the buzz was about and it felt like literally nothing. Like washing my car: a tedious exercise. Maybe we're wired differently" – it's obviously not literally nothing, you can very much feel if something or someone touches you, but maybe you get the idea of what I'm trying to say.)

Simon has completely convinced himself that not feeling anything is fine – it's part of why his feelings for Baz are so difficult, and not just when it comes to deciphering them... having them at all is difficult. It's so much. The lack of feelings is what he liked about dating Agatha, after all. Having different interpretations is obviously alright, my own interpretations are richer after seeing others point out things that made me see things I didn’t notice (or saying things that sound wrong and interrogating “why does reading this make me feel like I just licked a goddamn lemon”) but sometimes, somethings are just missing the point. The point is that Simon doesn’t have those feelings for Agatha. If he had been attracted to her, he would have experienced certain feelings he would need to negotiate with. But he never had to do that – he's thrown into the reality of his feelings for Baz with no map, no guidelines, no clue of what do with himself at all. His attraction for Baz throws him into uncharted territory, not just in terms of intensity, but in terms of feeling anything of that nature at all. That doesn't fit into Simon's fucked up idea of "fine." Baz notes Simon goes from 0 to 100, without realizing how much that truly applies. (I'm sure I have other posts that are basically: before discovering he loves and wants Baz, Simon's only intense emotion that he's familiar with is anger, and it would be easy to mix up that heat with attraction to Baz, with whom he's constantly picking fights with, seeking his attention...)

Part of the point is that Baz is the first time he’s dealing with what attraction and romantic love truly feel like, and on top of that, is intense as hell. It's The Love. The Attraction of a lifetime – of many lives, even. Of all of them. If Simon ever had such feelings for Agatha, she would never have felt safe. I don't think people truly realize that when they speculate "there must have been the flames of something" between them at some point. If she had awakened those things at such a precarious and controlled part of Simon's life – we can't ignore how much his emotions had an effect on his crazy magic – it would not have been "fine." She wouldn’t have been an armor, for him ("if you’re as beautiful as her" — not only conforming but standing out in terms of beauty standards is a form of “standing out” in "the right way," of being aspiration — you are untouchable — the opposite of being neglected or rejected for someone as him). "She's the type of person a boy like me is supposed to want" wouldn't have been safe by itself if she also made him feel like exploding (his attraction for Baz, when Simon tries to act on it, feels like going off).

For the record, Simon's "fine" is not the good type of fine. It's not the type of "fine" that makes you sigh in relief. This is a guy who could get shot and say "I'm fine" while bleeding out. And that's just the thing. Simon "not feeling” is necessary so he can live according to others like he does, but it’s not that he doesn’t actually feel anything. He's not made of stone. But he represses his actual feelings, even without realizing (sometimes he's not repressed he can't even identify the thing being repressed, it's just hidden away somewhere... until he can) and seeks situations that don’t awaken anything in him. It's what's more comfortable... and you have to keep in mind this is someone who's used to be uncomfortable. Discomfort is familiar. It's "fine." Being in situations he doesn't actually want to be is "fine" because he can't even identify his own wants. It's not even a factor.

But it's not really fine in the good sense of the word. If it was, he wouldn't self-harm through that conversation, for once (using physical pain to distract himself from the internal discomfort – external discomfort feels good in comparison). It's not "fine" to date someone long-term when you don't feel anything (other than friendship, very tellingly) for them. It doesn't "save you" from feelings, it just makes you sad.

Since Simon avoids processing, he lacks vocabulary to describe what’s happening. Not thinking about what he wants also means he doesn’t question what he doesn’t want... and even if it doesn't seem like a big deal, doing unwanted things still has effects, even if you avoid processing them (I'm sure I wrote that post so I'm not going to elaborate here but I''ll say: associating sex with pressure, not pleasure – only food is associated with pleasure before Simon has sex with Baz – is one such effect). “It was just going through the motions” is Penny’s vocabulary. It's something she says to Simon when he's still not ready to process that everything he believes to be just "fine" it's not. The way he's been living up to that point (according to what everyone expects of him, following a map, not ever making choices about anything ever outside of battles and stalking Baz – Simon's only "me time" is about Baz) is not fine. If you make a list of every moment Simon acts genuinely, truly happy on the page? Most of them are about him being close to Baz. Kissing Baz, touching Baz, taking to Baz. Making choices about how to live his life (by itself unfamiliar, and does not feel "fine").

Sex with Baz is not fine. And it's not just because it's better than fine on a scale of "was it good?" (even acknowledging something like "I had sex and it wasn't good" it's feeling something – negative feelings are also not fine if the full force of them are processed, they're only fine if they can be pushed aside and repressed). It's not fine because it makes Simon feel so much, and after being so used to nothingness, it's a complete shock to his system. It's going from 0 to 100. It's bigger than magic – even the one he had (and back then, releasing his magic was the only type of release he knew... it's no wonder that another type of release would be so difficult, after all, the only type of release he's used to is destructive... but that's another post, too)

[nightchai05]

Genshin men x reader

hidden relationship x flirting

mostly gn pronounces, except female once. slight mention of +18

Neuvillette, Wriothesley, Kaeya, Thoma, Baizhu, Tartaglia, Itto

Neuvillette

Doesn't understand the human desire/thrill to hide a relationship, but will participate, playing his role very well. So well that you wonder if you really are going out together.

Somehow manages to graze your palm when he passes out signed documents to the Melusines, or slip you a hastily written note inviting you to dinner at a restaurant "as colleagues". You nearly burst out laughing during an important meeting with the marechaussée

Sometimes, his hairpiece falls out, and instead of putting it back on himself, he asks if you would be so kind as to help him. The Melusines are kind, but alas, too short for such a feat, there are no mirrors in sight, and you are the nearest person in the room...

When you are present during trials, he will notice you immediately. And even if he cannot always stare at the same place during the judgment, his eyes will always return to you. You have to wink or smile once, and the man must clear his throat to continue talking normally. A bad, bad person you are, playing with your man's hectic heart like that.

Wears your favourite flower as an ornament on his robes.

Permits you to make funny statements during breaks, like pointing out the uncanny resemblance between him and the otters, or that he must trip over his long robes often. Both are truthful, but not everyone is allowed to voice them. You, however, have a badge of honour slapped on your forehead: whatever Y/N says regarding Monsieur Neuvillette is fine

Wriothesley

Shows up unnanounced to "bring documents" to the Opera, knowing very well where and when you work to catch a glimpse of you.

Whenever he gives out orders to the gardes in the fortress, he will keep prolonged eye contact with you - some believe it is to establish dominance, and there's some truth to that.

You love his canines, so whenever someone makes an unfunny, nerve induced joke, he will smile widely, showing off his teeth, which is often interpreted as woflish scowling. It does not help his reputation.

If you ever spar in the Pankration Ring, he will always be nearby, personally making sure you're alright.

Talking of sparring, he takes great pleasure in fighting with you - it gives you both a chance to be up close and personal, without revealing the true nature of your relationship. Like pushing you to the ground, him on top, breathing hard into your neck. He shows off both his strength and candor, as he helps you get up, his hand lingering in yours.

Certainly has fantasies of bringing you to his office and taking you on the desk or on the couch during work hours. However, he settles on inviting you over for tea, making sure you smell like the finest tea after you get back to the surface.

Licks his lips and loosens his tie when you're around, completely nonchalant. When his eyes meet yours, you know your cheeks are warm. He sees, he senses it all, so he takes off his jacket too, playing around with the sleeves of his blouse. That's it, tonight you make him beg for it.

Kaeya

When your group is sharing a drink at Angel's Share, he leans closer put his hand on top of yours, asking to show what's in your glass. As you describe the exquisite barman's work, he glances at you, his fingers gently pinching yours.

Whenever you have a bad morning, he will take some duties off your shoulders, and shield you in front of the other knights, stating that you are a lady first and need to be treated as such, no matter if you are a knight of Favonius too.

Plans it so the bar has music playing at some point - so he can make a joke or two, and amidst the laughter and shyness of others, take you to dance.

Shows off his swordsmanship dramatically whenever you're in his field of vision.

He is known to be quite a flirt, or if you will, a charismatic extrovert, so he often puts his arm around your shoulders as a jest - but you both know it's not. Tonight, you might as well get more than a few heated kisses behind the cathedral.

Itto

Let's be honest, he wouldn't be able to hide. But he tries very hard for you.

He makes more jokes about you constantly winning the onikabuto fights. He acts hurt in public, but the grin that comes after always proves it false.

Is always jolly whenever you're around. Kuki obviously realizes something is going on. Maybe she thinks it's not mutual and that Itto is simply a lovesick guy.

You can't hide your giggling either, when the Arataki Gang's leader brings you a bouquet made of onikabuto and naku weeds. It's a friendly gesture, for sure.

He tells his gang that a certain district in Inazuma City must be protected from thieves and scoundrels at night. Why, you ask? Because he believes hat justice must reign, and you gotta start somewhere. SO why not start in the district where the beloved Y/N lives?

Shares his favourite food with you (he plays the hidden relationship so BAD you are embarassed). With chopsticks he takes a piece of fried chicken and puts it in your mouth, making fun of your expression at the same time.

You believe he misunderstood the concept of secret flirting. Apparently, for him, hiding means doing couple things but also making fun of your partner?.. In a good way, of course. Whatever. Kuki knows, and the gang are... dense. So you can continue having fun as long as you aren't woken up by the authorities knocking on your door in the middle of the night due to off-key singing at your residence's window. You KNOW that if you look outside you will see Itto playing a taiko.

Thoma

As the housekeeper and fix-it-all of the Kamisato clan, he is always running around. Sometimes it's a blessing in disguise.

No one asks where Thoma is because the answer is usually: "he's fixing the roof after last night's storm" or "he is making milk tea for his lordship because he was thirsty". Ever since he started going out with you, he disappears for only five minutes, to give you a bouquet of flowers he picked on the way and to kiss you passionately (so you can have something to look forward to later that evening).

When you are invited to the hotpot game, he usually keeps his distance, but is always very mild with ingredients he adds. He doesn’t care if the commissioner or his little sister are suffering, but your palate… yes, he’s very scared you won’t be able to taste his cooking after eating fifteen chili peppers in a row.

You both like petting animals, and this time, a group of homeless cats were lying under a small Sakura tree. Thoma will caress the same one as you – and both your fingers will touch, lightly and nearly invisibly to the naked eye. His cheeks will grow scarlet right then. You have effect on him, but he is not the main force of the housekeeping for nothing. He can withstand your charms during the day, 100%.

Baizhu

Is quite amused by the idea, so he plays the game.

Suddenly, you have more appointments at the pharmacy than before. He lets Qiqi bring your herbs, teas and ointments for whatever you have today. When you sneer and cross your arms, making it quite evident that it’s the perfect moment for him to flirt with you, he will keep a neutral face, ignoring you completely.

However, the next day, he will go to your workplace, breathless and sweaty, passing you a bag of dried herbs. “You forgot these at the pharmacy, lady” and your fingers brush and just before he turns around, he gives you the sexiest smirk.

Whenever your roads cross in public, he will invite you to hold Changsheng (to which she consented, of course). You will be pulled together by the doctor’s companion, strapping you in place. How are you going you act now that half of Liyue at the docks are seeing whatever that’s going on?

Whenever you have a real issue with your health, he will even more meticulous than with others, putting you into the backroom and offering you his services for free. He can’t have his significant other sick, not when he has so much planned for the weekend.

Tartaglia

He has to work on his flirting techniques, because the “you’re pretty, girlie” doesn’t cut it.

You go to furniture stores and cosmetics shops for fun in your free time. Of course, he will offer to pay, as everyone is aware he has the means to. But in the darkest corners, he will press his body to yours, kissing your exposed neck once and disappearing behind a shelf right after.

When your business takes you to the Northland bank, and he’s there, he will bite his lip (not at all obvious) and forget what he was talking about.

Offers to play with kids at the harbour, invites you as well. When the kids run off and hide, or chase after one another, he will steal glances and then glide his hand to your lower back – as a silent invitation to follow the children. Amidst the glee of youth, he will hug you tight, only to let you go swiftly and proudly say “whoever wins the next round gets to hug Y/N. I already did once. Now who is next?”

When he’s in Fatui mode, he doesn’t play around. If you are ever in unsafe business, he will stay close, tapping his vision, as a warning for the shady people to forget about scamming you, or touching you.

[nqueso-emergency]

Not necessarily a question so much as 2 observations because today's anons have been... a lot.

The whole Buck as another parent to Chris and that tsunami being proof of that is just ridiculous. Obviously Buck was going to save Chris. Even if it wasn't his best friend's kid, he literally saves people for a living. More than that though, it's his best friend's kid. Maybe the bestie boos don't have friends with kids (because they are kids), but I can remember the visceral terror I have felt every time some friend of mine plopped their baby in my arms because they had to do something in another room for a bit (like go to the bathroom or get food). Being responsible for another person's wellbeing is huge. For that person to be literally the most important person in your friend's life makes it even more daunting. That doesn't make you a co-parent and no adult in their right mind watching scenes between Buck and Chris are interpreting their relationship that way.

Unrelated observation (rant) number 2, no one is paying them to be here blowing up your inbox. Can't speak for everyone who sticks to the BT tags, but me personally, when I see a blog I don't like, I block it. If I see tags that ick me out (added Ryliver to the list today), I filter them. Anyone with a lick of sense knows you can't change someone's mind on the internet. We are just trying to have fun and share theories. Sending you messages about how wrong you are and that Buddie is the best and soon to be canon is just harassment. Why is it so hard for them to just play in their own dang sandbox? There are plenty of pixels for everybody.

Anyway, thank you for your service. Your blog is awesome.

This ask is a few days old I believe... but thank you so much for your observations!! I agree with both

[dr-futbol-blog]

Poisoning the Well

Poisoning the Well (S01E07) is a Beckett-centric episode so we get less interaction between Sheppard and McKay.

It is noticeable at the very outset, though, that they are getting to know each other pretty well. Sheppard is able to communicate a complex idea (this culture is clearly more primitive than ours but they are so proud of their accomplishments and we are trying to make friends so you need to curb your need to be right and just go with it) to McKay just by saying his name using a certain voice. Sheppard has his back turned so his tone of voice is actually the only cue McKay gets. This suggests familiarity.

However, it's actually more striking that McKay actually seems to understand John's meaning. Just in the previous episode, Childhood's End (S01E06) McKay seemed unable to understand that when someone asks whether he has chocolate on him, they actually want to have some. That is, he has trouble understanding social cues and interprets things very literally which is on par with fictive representations of geniuses.

This tells us two things: 1) Sheppard has observed McKay enough to be able to anticipate what he's going to do (cf. previous episode for Sheppard keeping a keen eye on everything Rodney does) and 2) McKay must be trying really hard to understand Sheppard, which is something he would not normally bother doing.

Further, Sheppard keeps exhibiting signs of attraction. He seems to sense McKay's movement behind him (physical awareness), his eyes automatically go to him, he aborts the movement once he catches himself but then looks anyway because it would be silly to keep himself from looking at his entirely platonic team member.

Also, McKay places himself close enough to touch and not only does not John pull away, he pushes back into him (accidentally-on-purpose-touches).

He glances at McKay when he thinks that he's not looking:

In the episode, we are once more reminded of the importance of looks and subtextual information carried therein with this exchange:

Weir: Major, have you made any progress with your prisoner? Sheppard: Well, not yet, but he just blinked. McKay: He blinked? What does that mean? Sheppard: It means he's still holding on but he's indicated to me that he may break soon. McKay: And he indicated this to you by ... blinking? Sheppard: Yes.

The episode also marks the start of Sheppard antagonizing the wraith by giving them human names. He later names Todd after a pale guy a knew in college which makes one wonder if all the names he comes up with are from people of his past. One would venture that he would give the wraith names of people he didn't particularly like but then, there is this strange erotic undertone to his taunting of the wraith. Could the sources of the names be exes or former crushes?

Further, when they're walking side by side, Sheppard actually turns his entire body toward McKay:

Also, while the licking-his-lip thing seems to be a nervous tick, something that Sheppard does when he's not sure what to say or to deal with some emotion (here, McKay reminds him that he's the one responsible for waking the wraith), he does it twice here in very short order. One of them was wraith-related, the other was purely McKay-related.

Also notable: John clearly blames himself for waking the wraith, and he could easily have interpreted the look McKay throws at him when the topic comes up as blaming him. But once alone, McKay actually tries to alleviate Sheppard's obvious guilt with "You haven't told them that we practically woke the Wraith from hibernation, have you?"

For a socially inept dude he certainly is able to pass as a human being for this man and this man only.

Also, this exchange:

McKay: Reminds you of Area 51, doesn't it? Sheppard: Circa 1918. Ford: I don't think Area 51 was around in 1918, sir. Sheppard: Well, the area was.

Commenting on a topic that you hope will interest your crush. Teasing reply. Someone else jives in, you do a complete 180 to defend the comment of your would-be boo. This is textbook stuff.

There's innuendo in Sheppard's "Weapons come in all shapes and sizes, lieutenant," especially as it is paired with a shot of a phallic vial being handed to him with a suggestive look from the chancellor with a drawled "Major Sheppard, I think you'll find this intriguing."

Through Sheppard and McKay's discussion with Beckett on the planet, we establish that when someone is not a part of the military, Sheppard can't give them commands. For some reason we, as the audience, really needed to be reminded of that during this time.

This episode also marks the start of several references to Star Trek. It's actually Sheppard that brings it up with "He's worse than McCoy!" completely unprompted, albeit Rodney seems to catch the reference right away. Over the seasons we see further examples of Sheppard revealing what a complete and utter geek he is where McKay just keeps not noticing this fact in spite of their frequent geeky conversations. Also, since Beckett is Bones, and McKay thinks that Sheppard is Kirk, although it is never mentioned, that probably would make McKay Spock. Kirk and Spock being the OG sci-fi television relationship with homoerotic undertones, which were also more or less confirmed by the creators.

According to creator Gene Rodenberry, "I definitely designed it as a love relationship. And I hope that for men… who have been afraid of such relationships… that they [Spock and Kirk] would encourage them to be able to feel love and affection, true affection… love, friendship and deep respect. That was the relationship I tried to draw. I think I also tried to draw a feeling of belief that very few of us are complete unto ourselves. It’s quite a lovely thing… where two halves make a whole."

The introduction of Perna is interesting. When she arrives, Sheppard's gaze first completely slides over her, finding the back of Beckett's head to be more interesting. But a polite fellow, he introduces himself in response to her introduction with a polite smile, then turning to introduce his team and when he's about the introduce McKay, Beckett chimes in, obviously captivated by her.

He's looking at her intensely, starts macking right away. And it's only then that Rodney jumps in with what can only be described as a need to compete with Beckett for the attention of the lady. And John seems pleased as a peach when the Hoffan scientist only seems to have eyes for Beckett.

They are in contrast. Sheppard is uninterested. Beckett is immediately and completely taken. McKay's interest is perfunctory. The pretty lady is the trophy of a competition that he just lost.

Perna and Beckett get real close, real fast working side by side together. While this is obvious to the audience, since it is taking place between a man and a woman, the romantic nature of their relationship isn't actually explicitly stated. It is played out through gazes, positioning, intimacy of their rapport. We naturally read this as romance. Everything that takes place between them also takes places between Sheppard and McKay, only spread over several episodes. It's funny how that is.

[atalienart]

Sorry, idk how to respond to comments on mobile (if it's even possible) so screenshot. Anyway...

@nonthepratt that is a great advice. In Polish I like lips (usta) and tongue (język) the same amount but I wouldn't use lick (lizać) because it sounds weird, kinda creepy xD I guess it's all about how words feel. It's always so interesting! I always wonder how things feel for the native speakers, it's all so nuanced. Why do tongues feel less nice. Fascinating.

Also, I have to mention one thing. Thank you for giving this example of "tastes like hope". I read it and immediately heard "Oh BuT hOW dOeS hOpE tAsTe?" I'm so annoyed every time someone complains that things like that make no sense. They do! Also, I will always get excited reading "he smelled like night and wind" because I have imagination and brain that can interpret more abstract things. I get it when authors overuse it or use it incorrectly because it happens but not everything must smell like sweet vanilla or manly sweat so the readers feel safe they got it right. Like, chill. And yep, something can taste like hope or long forgotten dreams or regret. I fell like many people want things to be so literal, so obvious and one way, and this is why if you say you like black, you must hate white and anything grey doesn't even exist.

[theflyindutchwoman]

Why do you think Tim kept his breakup with Ashely a “secret” from Lucy? Like why didn’t he want to tell her?

My guess is that, at first, he probably didn't want to talk about it. At all. Tim is already not the type of person to easily open up on the best of days, and this wasn't a good day. So I can see why he would not want to have this conversation, especially while he was at the hospital. There was no way to escape which put him in an extremely vulnerable position. Besides, he most likely needed time to process the break-up too. He was just waking up from a major surgery, still feeling the effects of the anesthesia, when Ashley decided to call it quits, and Lucy showed up a few hours later. It was too fresh. He needed some time for himself, to lick his wounds so to speak. On top of that, he was also having a moment with Lucy : it was the closest they got to normal since Vegas. I can understand the instinct to stay on safer topics and the desire to linger in that moment. Talking about the break-up could have made things awkward again, forced them to acknowledge the elephant in the room and honestly, I doubt he was ready for that.

As for later, once he was back at work… Well, the fact that they were at the station couldn't have helped… it's hardly the most private place. It's one thing to talk about personal matters in the shop : there's still a sense of privacy - despite the cameras. But at the station : decidedly not. Which brings us to the other issue : the first time he saw Lucy at work, she was laughing with Chris. Judging from the way he greeted them, it's clear that he shut down. This encounter just brought back so many things to the surface that he didn't want to deal with. Hence the extra grumpiness. There was a moment later in the episode, when he confronted Lucy in the bullpen : it looked like she was getting through to him. But he chickened out. And we come to the crux of the matter. Telling Lucy meant coming to terms with his feelings for her. He could no longer hide behind his "I'm with Ashley so I can't have feelings for Lucy" any longer. He was pining and was trying to hold on to his denial as long as possible. And there might have been a bit of fear in the mix. Because what if he tells her and that changes everything? Or what if he tells her and it doesn't change anything?

It is extremely telling that in the end, he did fess up, but only once Lucy admitted feeling like she had overstepped his boundaries. The scavenger hunt was her way of trying to reach out and cheer him up, despite not knowing why he was upset, and I think that a part of him actually enjoyed this little game between them. As the senior officer, he could have just ordered her to give him back his radio otherwise. But the second she became unsure, he told her about the break-up and promptly reassured her that she didn't overstep anything, that he was touched by her attention - and intention… And that's the irony : all this time, he didn't want to talk about it, only for him to practically treat it as an afterthought. In that moment, he was more focused on making sure Lucy knew how much he appreciated her gesture. I'll always be curious as to what he was going to say before Chris' interruption by the way. But in any case, his defeated posture when he saw Lucy leave with her boyfriend makes me believe that this was precisely why he was keeping it a secret.

And lastly, in terms of storytelling, it was a way to showcase how Tim and Lucy's dynamic was still a bit off-balance. They were tiptoeing around the other, and while they had made headway at the hospital, things were still awkward between them. At least, that's how I interpreted it :)

[sharonisthebettercarter]

Starlight isn't interested in being a mom, she'll protect kids when the situation calls for it and be supportive of said kids, but she's not gonna take care of a child 24/7. She's more "protective auntie" type than "Good mom energy". Nobody expected Billy to be all nurturing towards kids, they shouldn't expect the same from starlight, it doesn't matter if the latter has a stronger connection to kids. We never saw her talk wanting kids nor shown any implications of her wanting to join motherhood. She definitely seems like she's someone who likes kids, but doesn't want any of her own. So yeah, don't expect her to be anyone's mom. Nobody expected Billy to be anyone's dad, especially if you read the comics, don't expect starlight to be anyone's mom. Idgas if she's nicer to kids than billy.

idk what you're on about anon but it's fuckin' weird, i'ma tell ya that.

starlight wanting kids is basically schrodinger's cat here. sure, she's never said or implied she specifically *wanted* kids.

but she's never said or implied that she specifically *doesn't* want kids either, in either iteration so whatever you thought this was, it's just a great big can of nothin' word soup.

or in other words, this random ramble that showed up in my inbox? it don't make a lick of sense.

also, why even care so much if starlight becomes a mom or not??? that is an exceedingly weird thing to grasp onto, i gotta say. it sounds more like *you* specifically don't want her to have kids and are possibly projecting your own desire onto your interpretation of the character, so headcanon i guess?? which fine, but why bother me with it???????? who even cares whether she becomes a mom or not? if they go that route, they go that route, if they don't, they don't.

butt.

i will also say that if starlight didn't ever want kids or had some sort of issue with adopting one, she probably would have freaked out the first second hughie mentioned 'may have signed us up to adopt a kid'. she was pretty unfazed in response so it either just wasn't something she cared to give much attention to in that moment (half because she wouldn't mind/half because more important topics at hand), or her and hughie *are* actually at the stage in their relationship where kids aren't necessarily the goal, but they're okay with becoming parents and have probably talked about it (at least once, generally an important conversation for a healthy het couple that is sexually active)

and why in satan's red hellscape would you designate her as a 'protective auntie' specifically to bar her from 'good mom energy'?????????? first of all, WHAT?? who are you to decide that for another woman?????? how do you even decide *for another woman* 'yeah, she likes kids but def never wants any of her own'??? leik wut?? when did she say *anything* even remotely implying this???????????

why do *you* get to speak for *her*?????? what the hell are you even basing this assumption on????????????

and second, why couldn't she be both???? people can be *both* moms to one kid and aunts to others. if your mom has siblings(or super close family friends/besties), and her siblings(besties) have kids, which would be your cousins(or conisdered family), she's an aunt too(or could be considered one)!

and if mom's sibling is a sister and they both have kids, wouldn't ya know, they're *both* mom/auntie combos!!

leik where is the logic here?????????????

shoot, we might even see them actually adopt a kid (maybe teddy stillwell) if that paperwork did actually go through and i could def picture hughie freakin' out but annie bein' a total boss about it (also lmao would be kinda great since the kid's powers match hughie's, could also picture butcher pushing hughie to adopt teddy specifically to use him... FFFFFFFFFFFFFF--)

butt~ there's also leaked spoilers of a pregnancy reveal in the next season, big chance it could be starlight's, leik big enough to make a safe bet i'd guess, but who knows.

otherwise, i mean if you wanna write starlight not being a mom in fanfic, that's an option. it is free. have at it.

just maybe don't bother the people who do make her become a mom in their own fics or want to see that in the show, or try to implement your personal vision of 'what starlight should be' onto them, that much is a bit of a dick move. (you can make your own meta and nicely discuss but this ask is hella weird)

leik you could have just been honest and said 'i don't want starlight to have kids' and it would have made a 1000 times more sense and been more valid than whatever the hell this thing was.

i ramble a ton but don't care one way or another, which just makes this extra weird anon. honestly wtf. this might make more sense if i gushed about starlight becoming a mom as much as i did about butcher getting impregnated~<3 but i've only ever mentioned it in passing, probably once or twice?? normally in reference to predictions for *if* ryan survives, which i've made pretty clear i'm *not* holding out for. (that kid died in the comic by butcher's hand, given the parallels with the kid accidentally killing his mom in both comic and show, i'm expecting a similar parallel for him and butcher eventually) you sure this one was meant for me???

also, the way things are going + leaked spoilers, maybe don't be surprised if she does in fact become a mom in canon? (or if butcher causes her to have a miscarriage i guess. would not put it past him... FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF--)

[miasmaghoul]

If no one has asked already, could we please hear your NSFW headcanons about Aether please?

BUT OF COURSE!

Switch, but usually tops.

Pleasure dom, full stop.

Doesn't really go into sub mode, likes to guide his partners. To encourage.

Enjoys using his size to his advantage. Mountain may be taller, but Aether has a solidity to him that is unmatched. Even Swiss, with his broad chest and strong arms, likes it when Aether makes him feel small.

Big into body worship, giving and receiving. Having a partner lose their mind over his thighs, his belly, his chest - few things get him harder.

Simply adores having his balls played with. Squeezed, kissed, licked. Anything goes, he's weak for all of it.

His thighs jiggle when he gets close.

L o v e s using his magick on his partners. There are so many interpretations of this, and Aether loves experimenting with it. He can hypnotize and entrance, can manipulate the physical body and the mind with ease. Sometimes this manifests as him taking Dew out of his own head long enough for the little ghoul to let himself be used. Sometimes it's Aether removing another's senses, sometimes it's him keeping them just on the brink of consciousness so they can float while he makes them cum over and over again.

This can get Very Bad (positive)

He's a caretaker at the end of the day. Sometimes he just happens to show it by making someone else cum until they can't anymore. Until they're in tears and begging for it to stop. But then Aether will run a soothing hand over their cheek, let his power seep into their minds, and what do you know? Suddenly they're begging for more.

Enormous daddy kink, one that Dew uses to his advantage on a regular basis.

Not the kinkiest, but enjoys experimenting. Definitely has his interests though.

Enjoys being restrained, on occasion. Likes having the control he prides himself on taken from him.

Usually wants eye contact, but will forego it if it means getting a brutal grip on someone's hips, bending them over and fucking the breath from their lungs.

His dominance only leans cruel with Dew and Rain, when he can tell they need it. Or when they deserve it.

Utterly, horribly weak for Dewdrop. Will do anything he wants, anything he asks, and Dew knows it.

Lactation kink. Will manipulate his own body until his tits get just a little swollen. A little puffy. Sensitive. Full. Dew, Mountain and Swiss lose their whole minds for it, and will spend h o u r s toying with Aether's chest. Getting him to let down so they can curl up in his lap and nurse for a while. Or, alternatively, treating him like a cow. Whichever.

Gets off on the teacher/student dynamic in a major way. Dew, Rain and Cumulus indulge him frequently.

Loves getting his dick sucked, the promise of a mouth will get him going way quicker than that of a hand or a hole.

[hell-of-peccability]

pulling aus out of my ass #1:

> kuni(kida/haru) !!

okay. so. hear me out.

them. as the same person. for an au.

(for clarity's sake, I'm referring to all of the Saiki family by their first names. if you arent aware of them; Kusuo = Saiki K , Kusuke = Saiki's Brother , Kuniharu = Saiki's dad , Kurumi = Saiki's mom. I had to look up his parents names for this so I don't blame anyone.)

MY REASONING:

almost the same haircut??? definitely the same bangs. kunikida's hair would probably poof out the way kuniharu's does if he snipped off the rattail.

people's hair typically gets darker as they age (blond to brown)

people's facial structure typically rounds out a bit as they age as well

both wear rather similar glasses -- kunikida switching up his pair at some point would logically make sense.

kunikida to kuniharu. even if kunikida's first name is doppo, if this was some sort of "lets change my identity to blend in with normal society" he may keep "kuni" as a tribute to kunikida. (especially since 'kunikida' is the penname part of what the actual author went by, among other pennames)

it would make (some) sense for kusuo's dad to have some form of ability, as would result in his psychic-ness.

taste in women;

kurumi definitely looks similar to sasaki (which can be interpreted as probably kunikida's ideal woman), kuni(kida/haru) would probably find kurumi attractive, "Kurumi is a kind and gentle mother [...] She is also very trusting of and never doubts other people. However, when driven pushed her limits, Kurumi becomes scary and hunts down anyone who threaten her family. She loves her family a great deal." (saiki k wiki) this description of someone WOULD probably be close to his ideal, as kurumi is pretty much the ideal mom in herself. I believe she's close enough to where kunikida (if he's actually into women & not secretly gay) would settle for, if not seek her out.

THE BLATANT PROBLEM:

Aside from, yk, this not being the same fandom, the biggest issue comes with Saiki Kuniharu's personality.

"Kuniharu is unreliable, reckless and slovenly, often begging with disgusting teary faces towards his son. He is a doormat who is always nice and respectful to people no matter how rude or scornful they are to him, such as his boss, who orders him to lick his shoes, and his father-in-law, who harbors a strong hatred towards him. On occasion, he can be self-serving." (saiki k wiki)

I think the best reason that can be given here, is it's dazai's fault. Dazai manages to successfully drive kunikida so insane that he flees not only the agency, but yokohama, going to hidari wakibara to escape.

Kuniharu could be Kunikida after his ideals are (mostly) shattered, and his personality snaps. He suddenly conforms to authority, loses his schedule, begs in the same way dazai always harassed him with, either as a mask to hide under, or because he was driven to become that.

or, in other words, Kunikida lost his shit (*cough* possibly due to the current & former manga arcs *cough*) and ran off to start a new life, without his notebook, his schedule, and the ideals he lived his life by.

OTHER AU DETAILS:

If Kunikida's ability relies on his notebook, it would be pretty easy for him to shove that thing in a drawer and pretend to be normal. Maybe it so far as kuni's mind was wiped, which would account for Kusuo never reading that in his mind. It's just gone.

Kusuo wouldn't necessarily be aware of ability users if they weren't in his mind-reading vicinity, as he doesn't seek out psychics but he is aware of what they are when he gets close to them. He may not be aware of Yokohama due to this. (if any of this is wrong, shut up.)

Kusuke (given his mega high iq) is probably known by some of the BSD cast (for instance, Ranpo or Dazai) and dislikes them for being like his shitty brother.

Kuni HAS to have at least once accidentally used his powers and thought Kusuo was fucking with him. Or better yet, has had that happen enough to where he's afraid of writing because Kusuo will fuck with him. Maybe he even makes Kusuo write things for him whilst eying him suspiciously. Kusuo has likely chalked all of those thoughts up to Kuni being an idiot, and hasn't thought any more of it.

TLDR:

kunikida is kuniharu because this is MY corner of the internet and I SAID SO.

fuck you im claiming this is my new au that i cradle close to my heart. we are ignoring all the basic reasons why this is impossible kunikida just shrunk to 5'9", and changed his birthday and blood type to spite YOU.

i,,,, may need to write something off this.

[charlotte-y7]

Homura answered my question about Kirari's spin-off. The original Japanese audio was very long, so I selected only the part where they answered Kirasaya and transcribed it using voice-to-text technology and used ChatGPT to translate it. Afterwords, to ensure better understanding, I also did some editing and added annotations. I hope you enjoy reading it.

Is it like saying you want to read a Kirari’s spin-off like Midari and Twin? Thank you very much. Kirari is great, right? You probably like the spiciness/ zing between the president and Sayaka, so if you do a Kirari spin-off, it's natural to come out at the end and you may have that kind of feeling. But when you think about it realistically, Kirari can't lose in the spin-off, right? That’s invincible in gambling. Writing about it wouldn't make much sense. So what to write? It might turn into a story where you just write about the lovey-dovey between Sayaka and Kirari. Indeed, it would be a difficult content to create.

Little by little, well, regarding Kirari to Sayaka, I have something to say.

In the spin-off novel that I wrote, I added their interactions with a sprinkle of trip and purification techniques, but particularly among women. (Note: It may refer to the scene where they washed each other's backs in the novel about hot springs)

I put my heart into it, of course, and thought about each characters, but I couldn't imagine what the president was thinking, so I couldn't grasp it. Well, I wrote a spin-off novel in which I put in a lot of Sayaka's interaction. Therefore, I thought about Sayaka and even put my heart into creating her lines. As a result, I became too emotionally invested in Sayaka and when she is involved in the main story, it becomes a bit painful. It's not that I don't want to see it, but it's just that my emotions while reading it become kind of...not unbearable, but sad. I don't like being tossed around so much, Kirari. Well, it's more like admiration for how difficult it is. Yeah, that's right.

How many other followers the president has. I say "followers," but there are probably many who are just not interested and cannot approach her. Do they love her? When you think about it, is Sayaka okay with just being there, considering other people's feelings? As a secretary, is it enough to just exist in that role? Well, I guess it's not easy to get noticed if your abilities aren't really high. Sayaka probably doesn't sleep much, and she's also studying. Oh, I remember something from a bonus novel I wrote. I think I described her as being really busy. No, she's definitely like that. I'm sure doing well in her studies, and she's the top in her club. In that case, it would be better for Sayaka to miss the perfect score. She probably arranges everything, like Kirari's lunch. That's definitely busy. If the president goes somewhere or has a meeting with someone, Sayaka will definitely follow her. As an assistant, she probably doesn't have much private time, right? So, if I were to categorize it, it would be interesting to do it from Sayaka's point of view. I might want to see it a little bit. If you want to read it, please contact Square Enix's Gangan Joker editorial department. So, that's about it for today, right?

Well then, instead of advertising, or rather as a way of promoting it, I just want to say that the way Kirari and Sayaka interpret 'this'. In the volume 6 of the main Kakegurui series called 'Tower of Doors' and this 'Perorin' thing. (Note: 'Perori' is an onomatopoeia expressing the sound of licking.) If you watch it, I think everyone who's interested has already seen Perorin. It was definitely shocking. As I mentioned before, it's Naomura-sensei ’s forest. (Note: Mr. Naomura is the illustrator of Kakegurui. I’m not sure about 'forest' It’s maybe referring to the field of lilies), so I was surprised too. It was like 'Pero' with a licking motion. It was quite the impact. There's also another 'Perorin', and even the second 'Perorin' seems to suggest something in the advertisement. But it might be too early. This is an advertisement saying that. Yes, that's right. Well, that's all for today. Thank you very much.

[cipher-zoo]

Have you considered what Buggys’s reaction would be if during a fight between cross guild and the red haired pirates, shanks offered for them to team up and head to LaughTale together?

Okay, I finally get around to answering this!

TBH. I have tried to answer before and that ended with me going on a 500 word tangent about a different subject because I got distracted ... and I really didn't want to subject you to that, so now I am trying to stay on the topic!

Firstly, thank you so much for the message! 💙 I am always happy to talk about Shanks and Buggy and especially this specific part of their dynamic.

I was surprised, when I realized that this is actually a hard question for me - on one hand, because I keep going off on tangents, while trying to answer and on the other hand, because I think Buggy's answer and reaction would be very dependent on where they, what exactly is going on and how Buggy is doing in general.

I can already tell this answer is going to end up being far longer than it needs to be, I am so sorry, please bear with me!

Before I say anything else, please note that this is simply my opinion and my interpretation of the character and if anyone sees this differently, you are very welcome to do so. Let me know how you would answer this question!

Now, let's talk about Buggy.

Buggy, in my eyes, is characterized by two very important - and at times seemingly contradictory - traits. His sense of survival and his pride. And I know what some people (those who are not nose (haha) deep in Buggy Characterization Hell) are thinking:

"Cipher, in what world does snivelling, growling "I'll lick your boots" Buggy have any pride? Don't you mean Shamelessness?"

And to that I say, no I mean pride, because Buggy is a lot of things but definitely not "shamless" in fact Buggy is riddled by shame - but I won't go into that right now.

What I want to talk about is his pride. It's not the same pride Sanji has in his cooking or Zoro in his swordsmanship. No, Buggy's Pride, like so many things in his life, is often a mask.

One he puts on, when he gets hurt.

For example: He is deeply ashamed of his nose, so as compensation he turns himself into a clown, a "genius Jester", puts on a whole show and takes (or fakes) pride in being not only a pirate but also an entertainer of sorts. Because nobody can hurt you, if you are proud of your flaws (now, this of course doesn't work out in the end, because his shame and his body dysmorphia is stronger than his pride, but - in my eyes - it is still an attempt.)

The same goes for the whole Shanks situation. I, personally, don't think that Buggy hates Shanks. He can say so, and he does, but his actions speak louder. Because when they met again, what did Buggy do? A favor for Shanks [And yes, of course Shanks offered him a treasure map in exchange, but come on. If you hate someone to the level Buggy claims to hate Shanks, would you agree to a deal like that? I personally wouldn't.] No, Buggy is deeply hurt by Shanks and that is something he doesn't want to be. Because being hurt by someone is out of your control, you take a passive position in that case. But hating someone, being angry at them, that is something you can "chose".

When Shanks told Buggy that he wouldn't be looking for the one piece straight away, but still offered to sail together, Buggy claimed his pride as reason why he wouldn't.

"I'm not going to work under you!" that is what Buggy tells Shanks. The reason why I won't keep sailing with him. And we know that is simply not true. Because barely a panel above Buggy is fine sailing under Shanks as long as they are looking for the One Piece. In fact, he tells Shanks, "You said it yourself, didn't you, Shanks. You said your crew would to reach Laugh Tale one day too"

There is no indication at that point that Buggy has a problem with being a part of that crew. In fact, I get the sense, that he needs to be a part. Because his dream rests on Shanks' shoulders. But then Shanks makes the (rightful) decision not to look for Rogers Treasure, Buggy sees his dream die and immediately switches from "hurt in his feelings" to "hurt in his pride."

But his pride isn't always a character flaw. No, I think the whole scene, where he tells Crocodile and Mihawk about his dream - or, to put it differently, the scene where he finally reclaims the dream he gave up as a kid - is a show of true pride. A moment of being on the floor, as low, as he could possibly sink, and still not giving up. And that is the first time Buggy's pride is stronger than the other character trait I mentioned before.

His sense of survival. Or better said: His deep longing to survive. Buggy is a character who desperately wants to be alive. He is prideful, in his own way, but that won't stop him from grovelling at Crocodiles feet, because what does his pride do him good, if he dies?

We have seen this throughout all of One Piece. In Impel Down and now at Cross Guild, especially so. Buggy wants to live, and he is smart enough to know what lengths he has to go to, to do so.

But in that moment, when his sense of survival takes a backseat, we finally saw a glimpse of his true pride. Not the one he puts on as a show.

NOW! Did I say all of that just to talk about Buggy? Yes, but it is also important for my answer, because I think, the question we would have to answer is: "What is Buggy dictated by at that moment." His fake pride? His sense of survival? Or his true pride?

Let's say it's his fake pride. Let's say the fight between Cross Guild and the Red Hair Pirates is not tipping in one direction and Buggy feels like he could actually win: I don't think he would accept the offer: There is a Star Trek quote that Jean-Luc Picard says to Miles O'Brian. It goes: "I think, when one has been angry for a very long time, one gets used to it. And it becomes comfortable, like old leather. And finally, it becomes so familiar, that we can't remember feeling any other way." [man, i love me some star trek quotes]

And I think Buggy is teetering dangerously close to that feeling. To not remember any other emotion he every felt towards Shanks, other than hurt and anger. And in that case, Buggy would say no to teaming up.

Now, let's say it's his sense of survival: If the Red Hair Pirates are clearly winning. If the threat of Crocodile and Mihawk is minimized? Yeah. I have no doubt that Buggy would say yes to a team up. We would complain about it and have his conditions and boast to his men that he managed to convince Shanks to a ceasefire (he is still Buggy after all) but yes, if Shanks actually met him on eye level [at this point I am keeping myself from going off on how, during their meeting at Marine Ford, Shanks kinda looks down on Buggy - even if he maybe (doing a kind reading here) doesn't do it consciously], then I think a team up could happen.

Last but not least, what if it is not that fake pride that makes Buggy angry or his sense of survival that makes him stick to the strongest player? What if it is his "true Pride" that we saw so little so far? Well, the boring answer is: I don't know.

I have spent a lot of time thinking about Buggy in different situations and context, but this Buggy is so new that I still need a little more time to decide how he would act.

I hope you aren't too disappointed by this answer, because I do feel like I am taking the easy way out, giving you an "Anything could happen" but yeah, the truth is what it is. I don't know.

But I would love to read everyone's opinions!

[shmowder]

Request for whenever ♡ Which characters do you think would be a good match for a shy, inexperienced reader? (Interpret inexperienced in whatever way you wish.)

... and maybe who would be the least compatible/most awkward? 👀

I am both haunted and amused by this post and the tags in the reblogs: https://www.tumblr.com/herbgroom/724992331947933696/victor-kain-vlad-olgimsky-eva-yan-and-andrey?source=share

🐿️ anon

Lmao That post is hilarious. Maybe Add Yuilia for her relationship with Eva, The Saburov, who definitely tried for a child at one point, Bad Grief too? Wasn't there a herb bride sitting by his side at the hideout? I always assumed the two of them had some sort of casual thing together because why else is she here in a dwelling of criminals and goons.

Artemy isn't a virgin either. He can claim to have been married in the past in a p2 dialogue choice. Maria does kiss someone, which indirectly causes their death a week after. She is also alludied to have been in a relationship with Andrey at some point? And he's still alive, so. Yeah, Andrey is the town bicycle dw about it. Young Vlad isn't either bc he enters a marriage with Maria in P1 utopian ending bachelor route.

On the opposite end, the ones who seem most likely to be inexperienced or virgins are: Rubin bc he was studying under Isidor the whole time, Anna because she is deeply mysophobic, and maybe mark Immortell bc who would fuck him.

I'm choosing to interpret it as a reader who's inexperienced and a virgin, I hope it's what you're looking for and that you like it. slight smut below cut

Would be the most gentle with an inexperienced reader

Eva Yan

She'd be the most considerate out of everyone, starting very slowly and checking in with you every step along the way. Being around Eva makes you feel as if the weight of the world was lifted from your shoulders. There are no expectations set upon you to perform.

It makes sense that the person contiguous with their authenticity would be the best option to take your virginity.

She is very romantic about it, soft kitten licks and brief kisses. Honey pouring from her lips with every word spoken against your skin, describing how beautiful you look sprawled atop her silk sheets. As ethereal as a painting below her, as lovely as a song. She litters kisses up and down your body, she guides your innocent hand to her body, feels her heartbeat, then lower and lower, and it's her heat your fingers are caressing. All of this, all of her, is for you.

Stanislav Rubin

His hands are trembling as you confide your truth in him, entrusting him with such a precious thing. Stakh barely hides the look of shock on his face, of you choosing him to... be your first time.

He's extra careful, handling you with such delicate touches he himself never thought he was capable of.

Pleading eyes nervously glancing away from your gaze as he peels your clothes off one by one, insisting you lay on the bed... He'll take care of everything. Barely paying his own needs any attention during the act itself. Instead, you become his whole world, and the urge to bring you pleasure and comfort is consuming his mind. It feels like drowning in the best possible way.

Alexander Saburov

Thoughtful of you and your comfort, protective in the way he lays a pillow under your head and another below your hips. Large hands just holding you for a moment, getting you used to the feeling of being touched, caressed and felt. It's like slowly dipping into a bath of hot water, turning putty in his grip the more he massages your body.

You're pampered beyond what's necessary and then even more.

He doesn't speak much, but his eyes tell you everything you need to know, the raw adoration reflecting alongside the glistening light. He's never too slow or too fast, never lifting your thighs to a discomforting height, never pressuring your body down with his weight. Instead of you arching your back, he would rather lift you slightly off of the mattress to adjust the position. He doesn't push for anything beyond vanilla either, gentle lovemaking under the candlelights. Even if you argue that you can handle more, he isn't undermining you, but it's better to start slowly and gradually build up.

Would use it as an education opportunity

Victor Kain

He takes the information in and closes his eyes for half a minute, deciding how to proceed. Victor tries to assess your knowledge and what's the most efficient way to fill in the gaps. He reassures you it's no problem. He had a sneaking suspicion but didn't want to jumb to conclusions. He is thankful you were so upfront with him.

He runs you a hot bath and tells you to take your time.

He is patient after you come out, asking you to join him and sit down. He keeps his hands to himself as he would rather start a conversation instead, watching your tense shoulders relax as you get more and more comfortable.

Prepares the room in the meanwhile, clean towels covering the sheets, some water and a small plate of fruits on the nearby table.

The atmosphere is light. He extends his arm and asks to hold your hand. Brushing his thumb against the back of your hand as he keeps the conversation going, getting you used to the feeling of his touch caressing your skin. Your body leans into him, and he gladly closes the distance.

A slow soft kiss, making sure to never cage you in or overwhelm you. Calculated seconds as he pulls away before you lose your breath. asking if it was enjoyable for you, or would you prefer something else. Observing your dilated pupils and glistening lips.

He's very caring with you, unbelievably so. Victor lets you set the pace as he encourages you to follow his lead. Like learning a ballroom dance for the first time, no matter how clumsy you are, he effortlessly makes up for your mistakes while nudging you towards the correct steps. Thin long fingers exploring your body, learning what makes you tick, which parts are the most sensitive as his fingertips glide against them. Watching your reactions and adapting his behaviour along, helping you understand your own needs better.

Using lubrication and protection no matter what, making sure you're well prepared before taking him inside. He might even overdo it just in case. Never pushing in fully, instead slowly inching insides. Pausing every now and then to check in with you, running his hand up and down your sides to get you to relax, melting the tension away from your muscles as he gently squeezes and caresses them.

Whispering how good of a job you're doing, being so well behaved for him. Praising you for learning so fast, taking him in so well on your first time.

Aglaya Lilich

It was easy to figure out, especially with how you'd react each time her lips curled into a confident smile before she kissed the sensitive skin peaking just above your collar. Her keen eyes catching the subtle shiver rippling through your body, you probably didn't even realise the adorable face you were making, staring at her all wide-eyed.

She's been slowly getting you accustomed to being at the receiving end of her affection ever since the two of you first expressed a hint of attraction to one another. Be it the way she'd pronounce your name with care and weight to it, to the way her hand deliberately brushed against your own each time you handed her something.

Gradually growing bolder throughout the weeks.

Linking her arm with yours to help you cross a street but not letting go afterwards. Standing a little too intimately when it's just then two of you in a room.

Offering you to take a seat atop the corner of her desk while she works. Making you very aware of how close her hands are to your thighs, the way her hairbun is looser than usual, the relaxed expression she's wearing.

She planned for the perfect day, taking you out to a proper dinner date beforehand. Showing you exactly how you should be treated, how you should be adored before anyone even dares they have the right to lay a finger on you. Bringing you back to her home, offering to make some tea while you get comfortable.

And poping the question out of the blue, would you like to share her bed for tonight? Yes, as in sleep together. She would certainly like that, yes that is why she is asking in the first place. While she remains hopeful and certain that all the signs you've showed so far had a 90% chance of you agreeing, she is still prepared to the off chance that you decide no. Completely dropping the subject and deciding to enjoy a warm drink with you instead, cherishing your company either way no matter what.

If you agree, you'd be blessed by one of her rare smiles. The woman with a steel heart shouldn't have such a smile that could rival the sun in warmth, and yet she does, because of you. She guides you to her bedroom, asking if you'd like to shower first. Would you like her to join you or wait here? She's pleased with either answer.

The sight of Aglaya in a dark nightgown is a stark contrast to the full coverage dress she wears all the time. She's beautiful in her elegance, still looking powerful in just silk. The room lights are dimmed.

Aglaya is simply content with holding you on the bed. Letting you feel her heartbeat, describing how meeting you felt like a miracle by itself, complimenting your mind, the traits making up the majority of your essence. Her love is surprisingly soft, easy to swallow, and her words almost make you fall into a trance.

She asks if you're sure again, if you're ready. She is in no rush. Only your explicit confirmation would get her to continue.

Aglaya takes a hold of your hand and guides it along your own body, then onto hers. Teaching you what makes her feel good, what she suspects would make you feel divine. You're laying below her as she spreads your legs atop her own thighs, looking at you from above with her black hair framing her face.

One kiss against your ankle.

Another below your calf is a third on the tender skin under at the inner side of your knee.

She makes her way up gradually until she settles between your legs. Her hot breath against your intense heat, your most sensitive organ bare in her grasp. She expertly moves her fingers, explaining what's happening, what she's planning to do next, and how it might feel. Drinking in every last bit of your essence, describing your taste, what a growing addiction for her it might become.

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slowly haciendo el trabajo de hormiga and transfering still relevant canons from xóchitl's old blog to here.

original post here.

char notes: Xóchitl being a god, and how it affects sex and intimacy

so, sex w/ xochi is weird. you’re sexing a god and that's bound to have some weird experiences. esp. if it’s a god of me/xico (gestures to all the poetry written about the country and how surreal it is) SO:

it depends upon a lot of scenarios, but in general you can expect for the experience to be surreal and sensual. dream like. you’ll be able to like, stay grounded enough to know what you're doing and who you're doing it with, but also it’s easy to get lost if that makes sense. afterwards, you’ll remember the motions, probably the feeling and what you thought during it, but you’ll remember the dreamlike stuff in flashes of sights and sounds and feelings. i compare the experience to drugs, but safe. (inb4: xochi is a gateway drug).

This being said, what makes it surreal is like...she’ll change? During it? Blink and suddenly she looks a bit younger? Her hair is silkier or more wild. Or her hips seem bigger than they did. Her skin is really hot and burns, but like a pleasant burn. In deep euphoria, you can see the afterimage/aura of a halo on the crown of her head, lmao. That’s all her god side, I think it interprets sex as a form of worship so it just...does its thing. Elevates the experience

Mmmm, the physical experience is altered too. Like smell, for instance, like there’s normal human sweat, but also as a God, her sweat smells like...idk, gardenias. Dahlias. Floral. It matches her name, ajajaja. It's not artificial, like it doesn't register as a perfume or body spray, more like she rubbed flowers on her skin or kept blossoms in her brassier for their natural scent to stick to her.

Taste? If you lick or bite her at any time, not just during sex honestly, it’ll be tamarind and mangoes. Maybe sweet grapefruit on occasion? Idk. As for like, the land down under (ajaja, hilarious), I’m not sure. Normal human vagina taste + something more indescribable? Nothing tangible, it bothers me when people expect vaginas to taste like candy or some shit. Let's say Xóchitl tastes like indigo or some abstract shit like that.

This stuff, she has no real control over, but she can try to reign it in. It’s most powerful when/if she’s with humans. When with like, other Gods or non-human beings (who are not moral) it’ssss less intense.

Outside of like, gay romantic shit, you’ll feel more grounded to her. Like “everything else in the room disappears” type shit, wanting to be near her/create more skin contact. It’s a huge urge, and can escalate to desperation if the right conditions are met. This part she can control more or less, it’s just the God side wanting more concentrated ‘worship’. So she can give clarity, but you’ll still feel like a tug/light buzz/instinct to just =w= be near her. I guess you can call it possession? She can do that with her people, like instill in them her vigor/valor/inspiration for battle/revolution/etc.

It’s the God side that senses that she/human side REALLY likes what’s happening, and wants/needs more. It also happens when she’s getting paid attention to a lot by her people at like, parties/gatherings. All that love concentrated on her u____u. It’s just more intense here because it’s physical touch and so direct, you know? So intimate. Plus she hasn’t had sex since 1453. It’s been a while.

Ifff you touch or pay attention to a scar in particular, you’ll like, not see flashes of how she got it but you’ll feel something. Like that spot in particular needs special care/that something really big happened there. The tattoos might have an effect too, but I’m not sure yet. They’ll probably have a similar, but more positive effect.

Afterwards, you’ll realize probably a curiosity/appreciation for a certain cultural aspect or geographical location in Me/xico since, well, ya just sexed a God of Me/xico.

If not having sex, but intimate/fooling around/etc. you’ll get like, a light fuzz/preview. Sleepy and pleasant.

There’s a lot of (over) stimulation involved, esp. if she’s less in control like...Less human. 5th dimension sex man.

[unanimoustwins]

i am so desperately trying to wrap my head around the win states for purgatory

cursed team loses: "say goodbye to all your lives and eggs"

but also

"if any of the other [non cursed?] teams win, they get to pick some eggs to bring back"

so thats like straight up two conflicting statements unless im interpreting wrong.

praying to GOD that this intentionally doesn't make a lick of damn sense, that its a smoke screen for the players to see past and work around.

[peterlorres21stcentury]

@noirgasmweetheart replied to your post “Yaaaay, Toady appreciation! 😊 I have to wonder if...”:

I'm positive that the "Casablanca" parallels are deliberate. Near the end there's a really obnoxious scene that rips off Bogie's moment of forcing the villain to officiate some documents to save the lady...but Burt Lancaster just looks like a preppy underwear model trying to be Bogart. It was very groan-inducing for me. Toady's Ugarte ripoff however was a delightful treat. Because it was still Peter Lorre in the role, not some generic pretty-boy.

​I'm still chuckling at "preppy underwear model" because you're not wrong. I'm re-watching the film now (this will be the third time?? And the first twenty minutes of plot are still rather opaque to my tiny brain). I think both leads, Burt and Corinne, are rather badly miscast. Corinne is beautiful and I think she had the beginnings of a good character but... how shall I put this delicately... she's kind of annoying?? Claude Rains really has no reason to humor her pathetic attempt at blackmail and I'm amazed she didn't get murdered at some point in this sleazy town for attempting it before. Not saying it's right, but she's taking a huge risk all the same.

Edited to add: hey stupid me, you forgot the first rule of old movie plots: if something doesn't make a lick of sense, the reason is censorship. They couldn't say that she was a prostitute looking to pick him up, so she """blackmailed""" him, wink wink. That's how I choose to interpret this, anyway.

Oh, and her enunciation is terrible and wildly distracting to me for some reason. I know I'm being unkind, but Hollywood was filled with international actors of all accents and fluency and none of them were this grating. It's like she's trying her damnedest not to sound French and failing miserably. I'm trying to put myself in the perspective of Burt Lancaster's dull character and wondering what on earth I would find compelling about her, apart from "wow, she's hot." Maybe that's all some losers men need, I guess.

Petition to re-write this whole movie to be about Toady and Martingale plotting to steal diamonds and/or kill Vogel, fuck everything else, don't need it.