#i wrote this when i was rlly eepy

[quanblovk]

I have 2 interpretations of dametagala:

One where GK's a huge dork and DMK's a goth hobo (The dynamic that i've been making a whole bunch of content for basically, love it!)

The other where GK's an old, grumpy war veteran with a huge grudge against chivalry and knights while DMK's a chaotic bastard who acts in the most outrangeous ways unbefitting of a knight that charms Gala. (Still kinda under developed, but making content for this interpretation is definitely on my to do list.)

More detailed stuff under cut:

The first one is where GK's actually more of a dork contrary to how he's universally potrayed and he falls in love with that one scary hobo everyone stays away from. DMK was always being bad mouthed whenever he was the topic of any conversation and MK never talked much about him even when he informed GK about the events of KATAM. This made Gala even MORE curious and he made it his decision to know this guy better himself if they ever were to meet. Once he knew more about him, he realized he was just really misunderstood. Sure he was bad in a sense, but he never really seemed like he'd want to hurt anybody for no reason. Not to mention that his world is AWFUL. No wonder he's so grumpy all the time......

While on DMK's side, he really appreciates GK seeing him as someone more than an evil Meta knight. He achknowledges his existence and accepts his flaws. At first, he didn't know how to react and retorted aggresively at GK's actions. Though, once he calmed down and actually thought things through, he understood GK a lot more and fell in love.

Now OHOHOH! The second one is an entirely different AU! The Dream friend AU! GK's personality is a lot different here. He's much more hot-tempered, violent and holds the most spiteful grudges against anyone who had caused him pain (Watch out Sir Arthur...). However, he still has his heroic traits whenever there isn't any war. This Gala "acts" more mature than the one in the first interpretation. I say "act" because they're both equally serious. It's just that the circumstances for these two are very different and they have to act accordingly to their surroundings. Anyways, going back on topic, he hates Meta Knight with a burning passion due to his past with the GSA. In his eyes, Meta Knight's a kiss assing, boot licking servant who would do anything to get praised by everyone and increase his image (which isn't true, but that was the impression he got from MK when they were both very young. It still hasn't changed, but it definitely would once they interact more.). While DMK is a whole 'nother story. When they first met, he didn't care for him, as he saw Dameta as nothing but a reflection of MK's bad traits, therfore, he should be just as bad as Meta, maybe even worse. However, when Gala traveled with DMK more to save the whole universe of Void Termina, he got to know him a little better and even got charmed by his violent solutions to even the most trivial problems. He doesn't even care about chilvary or any of that knight nonsense that MK values so much. His murderous, carefree spirit entertained GK through their journey. It made his life on dreamland a lot more lively too. DMK has a special place in his heart!

maybe he'll convince him to go find what's left of the Ancients and slaughter them together~ 💖

While on DMK's side, he first saw GK as someone he could manipulate into giving him more infomation on the Jamba hearts so he could use their power. He was pretty confident he could pull it off until he actually met him and kind of chickened out. It was cowardly, but still a smart choice. He even felt kind of bad about it after GK opened up and told a few tid bits of his tragic backstory. When Dameta saw this guy in action, he immediately fell in love. Imagine the stuff they could do with this guy! The epic pranks! Maybe even overthrowing Shadow Dedede and taking over all of the mirror world! Gala wasn't opposed to the idea of opening up more and making new friends too. As he knew well that being overly cautious in Dreamland was a stupid idea. Then they somehow became the most chaotic and dangerous duo in all the galaxy, causing MK even more migraines than the one in the first interpretation.

[hollowknightinsanity]

ok let’s try this again shall we? *grabs my internet* you’d better fucking work this time or i swear to whatever god you pray to i am going to rip you in half.

*scrambles out of The Pit, shaking uncontrollably* DONE!!!! ITS DONE

*SLAMS THIS ON THE TABLE*

HOLLY REF SHEET.

my babygirl. my darling. my beloved. prettiest bug in hallownest.

i would’ve added their shade, nail, and random doodles, but i was eepy… and i hit my 40-layer limit like 3 times. that’s what i get for working on such an unnecessarily bigass canvas

hex codes and rambles under the cut <3 (cw: i talk about self harm when i bring up their scars)

also ignore the fact that i left the silly little meme face in the ref. i dont feel like getting rid of it

#0f0f0f (skin/hair) — #1d1d1d (scars) — #c4a0a5 (inside of their ears) — # edebea (shell/healthy leaves) — #9abfa7 (healthy leaves) — #5e5e5e (shell damage) — #3e332f (prosthetic) — #292c53 (cloak) — #eeded5 (cloak fluff/inside of their cloak) — #e5e5ee (silk wraps) — #192030 (eye base) — #d5e2ff (pupil) — #000000 (blood) — #160828 (blood/soul) — #ffc171 (fixed crack) — #ceffdf (new leaves) — #a9a8a6 (wilting leaves) — #666e68 (wilting leaves)

yeh they have a TAIL now!!!! with LEAVES!!!!!!! their mom’s genetics :)))

the leaves are VERY poisonous to any species except their own and rootkin (aka wl’s species). like most plants, they need sunlight to grow, and if they got enough, holly would have leaves growing from their horns too!!! but they stay underground most of the time, so they only have leaves on their tail.

they got a lot of their mom’s genetics. the leaves, the long ass tail, the height, the rounder face, the eyes, the fluffiness, all inherited from wl.

hornet made their cloak a few days after they escaped the black egg. she saw how fucking RAGGED their old cloak was (the damn thing was torn to shreds and COVERED in blood), and she was like “damn, i need to make them a new cloak.” so she did that.

she had holly pick the fabrics. they like blue, and the faux-fur they found was SO fucking warm they just had to pick it.

and their silk wraps are indeed made of weaver silk, also courtesy of hornet. she’s a great little sister btw

almost all their scars happened after the seals faded. the only one that appeared prior to that was the crack on their face.

their arm was fucked up and destroyed by the infection (y’know, cysts growing everywhere and all that), and the only thing keeping it attached to holly’s body were the seals, so after they faded, it kinda just… fell off.

the stab wounds in their abdomen and chest are from them stabbing the shit out of themself thinking radi was still inside them. they has enough adrenaline in them to move around, so they attempted to evict her already deceased ass in the worst way possible. after that little show, they stopped being able to move for a few days, until they eventually crawled out of the black egg and scared the ever-loving fuck out of hornet who thought they were dead.

their blood is a mix of void and their soul, which is purple!

i wrote a whole thing about soul colours and their meanings back in 2019 or 2020, so its rlly old and i only have vague memories of what’s in it, but i do remember writing that people with purple souls are generally quieter and stricter, but generally are nice unless you piss them off. that description fits holly absolutely perfectly, so they have a purple soul now.

also, fun fact: holly needs a cane to walk sometimes. being chained up and suspended in the air, completely unable to move for 60 years really does something to ya.

fuck, now i need to draw their cane too.

theyre really old in the main au, btw. theyre 79. ancient ass. unlike their branch-off au counterparts, who are both in their early 30s.

ok that’s all *falls back into The Pit, still shaking uncontrollably*

[sawyer-is-eepy]

idk if we rlly count as traumaendo but we'll give it a go

we consider us to be traumaendo because i created my headmates more or less intentionally, but i had a lot of issues growing up due to being a maladaptive daydreamer from a really young age(and also probably some of the issues i had growing up with ADHD). i felt isolated and alone, not to mention weird and like i didn't belong. i found peace in my daydreams and that's often where i would go. so when i heard that i could make my characters and ideas exist in my own head, to be there for me and maybe even have a chance to show them the world that i live in so they could see my reality, i was so unbelievably happy. well, actually, i was really nervous because i was worried about the whole debate over tulpas, but when i felt a bit safer to explore it, it felt a lot better.

i think in a way my trauma contributes to dissociation, but not in the same way it does for CDDs(as far as my understanding of CDDs goes, at least). because it was mostly a MaDD thing, i dissociate more when upsetting things are happening but i also just do that all the time. it's been something i've done since i was very young, it's kind of just my regular process ngl? i daydream too many times to count daily and then sometime i just go blank for a short amount of time. i think i'm daydreaming during those times but i honestly don't remember them very well, so it's closer to just regular "zoning out." usually it's like a minute or two at most where i'm just completely outside of my body. which is probably closer to the dissociation you usually think of. but yeah, if daydreams count as dissociation then i do it a ton, so it's kind of linked to my trauma but it's hard to gauge that because it's also just how i do things in general hdljfaskjd

it absolutely does! i went into it above there but since i do it so often it's impacted a lot of things. i struggle to engage with some media, but that might also be in part related to my ADHD. i sometimes struggle to maintain conversations and i'll come off as rude for zonig out and asking people to repeat things. or if i'm alone and doing something important that takes a while i'll often randomly lose focus and just daydream for who knows how long, which makes things like homework or chores very difficult.

yup actually! i wrote a post about it a while back- https://www.tumblr.com/sawyer-is-eepy/748300783297118208/madd-and-plurality?source=share some of this is a bit outdated but it still applies pretty much. it makes communication really hard because of the type of dissociation. it makes it to where i'm basically unable to move or do anything until someone/something gets my attention externally. 9 times out of 10 i can't pull myself back, it has to be something external

idk exactly what this means, but if you mean as in having my headmates, yeah!

i honestly don't *hate* my trauma i guess? not that it didnt suck but i've come to live with it i guess. i don't really think about it much. i don't like to dwell on things that have already happened liek that very often. did it make me more bitter? yes. did it also make me more sensitive? yes. but do i love myself and my headmates anyways? yeah!!

I'm kinda bored and I wanna start a more interesting conversation so

Question to Traumaendo Plurals

so y'all consider yourself endo right? How come? Do you think your trauma contributes to your dissociation at all? Do you think that it has any effect on your daily life? Do the dissociative aspects interfere with your system? Do you like being seperate? Do you hate your trauma but love being plural?

I'm genuinely curious about it all. Y'all tell me your experiences because we have no idea how that works.

-♠️