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hinata-boke · 6 months ago
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i love having mismatched merch for characters, like here's kuroo tetsurou (18) high school volleyball player and his good friend bokuto koutarou (18) high school volleyball player
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gaybananabread · 2 months ago
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may i possibly request day 9 (the wake up one in case i got the number wrong) with ragatha as a lee and kinger as a ler? thanks :>
TickleTober Day 9 - Wake Up!
~The feelings I'm getting for this show are so- AGAUHH; they make me so sad in the best way. These two feel like the parents of the circus to me, so that's how I'm gonna write ‘em. Thank you for requesting, and I hope you Enjoy!~
Lee: Ragatha
Ler: Kinger
Summary: After a particularly taxing adventure, Ragatha is out cold. Knowing she needs to get up, Kinger uses a tickly technique to help his fellow circus member face the day.
Warnings: slight TADC spoilers! This is a tickle fic, so if you don't like that, scroll away!!
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Caine’s adventures always left the group exhausted. Sure, some were less traumatic than others, but everyone still crashed when they got the chance.
Their last little escapade had left Ragatha particularly drained. Of all the crazy ideas he could’ve had, why did it have to be an insect-based adventure? And, of course, the big obstacle was the Centipede King, who had 100 minions. It was generally stupid, but Ragatha’s fears had made it horrific.
The AI had apologized profusely afterwards, obviously feeling guilty; he had forgotten about Ragatha’s centipede phobia. She’d said it was fine, but in reality, she was still shaken. That sort-of-night’s rest had been a godsend.
It was well past their typical wake-up time when Kinger was sent to wake her. Ragatha was usually the first or second member awake, so it was a little unsettling when Jax dragged himself out of bed before her.
So, like any reasonable group of people who didn’t feel like walking that far, they sent Kinger to wake her up.
Before he could forget what he was doing, the chess piece knocked and opened her door. They’d learned that they could tell Caine to automatically let people into their rooms without a key; Kinger was one of those people for Ragatha.
The darkness quickly sobered Kinger up, his mind calming as his large eyes adjusted. A small, affectionate huff left his nonexistent mouth as he saw her curled up in bed, tightly clutching a plush of some kind. She looked so peaceful.
“Ragatha, time to get up,” he whispered, gently shaking her shoulder with one of his floating hands. She groaned before rolling over, turning her back to him. He brushed a loose yarn strand off her ear, causing her breath to hitch.
What was…oh, right. Ragatha was pretty ticklish, last time he checked. He’d forgotten that fact…
Nevermind his memory – he had a doll to wake up. One gloved hand traveled to her side, the other gently fluttering against her ears and neck.
Ragatha whined in her sleep, curling in around the plush to try and protect herself. She was still pretty out of it, refusing to wake up just yet.
“C’mon, Ragatha; time to get up. We don’t need breakfast, but you know it feels good to eat it.”
Kinger started to lightly poke and pinch at her sides, drawing sleepy giggles from the woman. She weakly kicked out from the feelings, striking in the complete opposite direction of her attacker.
“Mhmhmhmph, nooo…” she whined, sounding ridiculously adorable as she tried and failed to fight him off.
“Yeees,” he cooed, starting to spider his fingers along her sides, mimicking the one on her neck. It was still nice and soft, but he was growing more insistent. “You know, stubborn sleepy-heads attract a special type of bug…”
“Kihinger, c’mon. Tehen mohore minutes…” Started to wake up, she smacked at his wrists groggily. The blanket still covering her hindered the movement, making her very easy to dodge. It wasn’t the first – nor the last – time Kinger had mentioned those evil little crawlers.
“Sorry, but they’re already here. Once you’ve been infested with Tickle Bugs, they don’t leave until they’re full.”
Kinger’s fingers moved in a more bug-like fashion, scribbling and tapping and randomly changing direction all over her side and neck.
Ragatha squealed, quickly waking the rest of the way up as he started genuinely tickling her. Dang it, she was hoping to win him over through cuteness…
“N-NOHOHohoho! Kihihinger! Noho tihihicklihing!” She turned towards him, begrudgingly exposing her belly to try and shove his hands away. There was no real malice or discomfort in her tone; she just didn’t wanna sit there and take it.
“You’re giving me your stomach? Why thank you!” Kinger ignored her fake protests, instead clawing at her soft, plush stomach. He felt the fabric squish under his fingers, making the doll yelp and laugh.
“IHIHI’M NOHOHOT! D-DAHAHRN IHIT!” Ragatha was stuck in full-on belly laughter from that, still managing to censor herself. It was a rare occasion when the doll actually cursed; you knew she was mad when that happened.
“Sure seems like it…” he mused, giving the area beneath her navel a light tase. The man gasped when she tried to jerk away, feigning offense. “Hey! You can’t take a gift back; that’s rude!”
“YOUHUHU’RE RUHUHUHUDE! *snort* SHOOHOHOOT!” The tasing always killed her, especially in that area. It was barely thirty seconds into that form of tickling before she was patting his wrist, tapping out.
Kinger quickly stopped his “torment,” carefully climbing onto the bed beside her. Ragatha immediately snuggled into his chest, the fluffiness of his robe and the unnatural warmth of the chess piece soothing her. He made sure she couldn’t pull him down to actually cuddle; they still had to get up, after all.
“Y-youhuhu’re suhuch a jeheherk…” Ragatha huffed, burying her face in his stomach area as she calmed down. The gentle back rubs she was receiving were nice, but the woman was entitled to a pout.
“Whatever you say. Now, Ragatha, get up.”
With a semi-dramatic moan, she hauled herself out of the digital bed, blinking at the mirror in front of her. Yep: still a doll, still had a button eye, still a redhead. At least her yarny locks had some nice volume, thanks to Kinger’s silliness.
“Hey…you sure you wanna leave? It’s nice here, ya know, in the dark.” She asked the question softly, knowing how he’d answer. Still, she owed it to him to ask.
“It’s alright, Ragatha. I’ve come to terms with my mind.” His eyes squinted up a bit, letting her know he was smiling. That man truly was a marvel. “Let’s go get some simulated waffles.”
She smiled sadly before opening the door, watching as his eyes unfocused in the light. It was always nice to have those few minutes of complete clarity with him, even when he was being a menace.
“Hmm…oh, hi, Ragatha! Why are we in your room?” His large eyes darted around her now-lit room, seeming almost childlike in their unawareness.
“Just going to get some waffles, Kinger. C’mon.” Ragatha waved him forwards, watching as he strode into the long hall that led back to the main area of the tent.
While they might not have always been accepted, Ragatha knew she’d never get tired of Kinger’s wake-up calls. She’d cherish every one, no matter what. Especially the tickly ones…
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klarex · 2 years ago
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I know you may be waiting for another fic, but I really needed to write this one. Also it's really short.
Genre: comfort/fluff
Warnings: a little bit of angst, crying, reader had a really stressful and hard week
Summary: Bad week? Sodo comes to the rescue!
Paring: Sodo/Dewdrop Ghoul x reader
Made for each other
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Pov. (Y/n)
This week was hard. I was laying on the bed with my face in my hands. I was hiding under my blanket. The hot tears streamed down my cheeks. I finally let go after the whole day of hiding.
My anxiety kicked in again and stress was inside my body all the time, not allowing me to take one deep breath.
I heard the door to my room open.
- Hey babe! Me and Mount decided that we wanted to make you a suprise and-
Sodo's voice rang through my ears and he quickly ran to me. He sat down on the bed and slowly and gently pulled down the blanket I had on myself.
- Did something happen?
He asked with worry. I looked up at him and hugged him tightly, letting my sobs out. His hands tightly wrapped around me and he started drawing some patterns on my back, in order to calm me down.
When my sobbing stopped, he cupped my cheeks in his big, warm hands. I melted immediately and I looked into his eyes.
- Do you want to talk about it?
He asked softly and I shook my head no. I hid my face in the crook of his neck and heard him sigh deeply. His hand played with my loose hair and I nuzzled into his neck more, feeling the nice heat coming out of him. Then his eyes sparkled like every time he got an "amazing" idea.
- Sweetheart. Can we lay down?
He asked and I nodded. He gently pulled me down and hovered above me, wrapping his tail around my waist. He rubbed his nose against mine and I smiled weakly. He started to kiss me all over my face.
- Sodo! What are you- doing?!
I asked between giggles. He kissed my tears' traces dry and smooched me last time on my forehead. Then he kissed my lips softly, smiling. I put my hands into his hair, pulling him closer.
- Doin' things that can make you happy!
He mumbled against my lips with a toothy smile. He pulled away and wrapped his arms around me so tightly that I couldn't even move. He turned us around so I was on top of him. He swinged me from side to side and I giggled with him. I smashed my lips into his and heard him sigh with delight.
His grip loosed on me and I lifted myself a bit. His hands went off to my sides and I felt him tickling me. I immediately started laughing uncontrollably and I fell off his chest. He hovered above me again and continued tickling me.
- So- Sodo-! Sto- p!
I tried to shout and he stopped. He leaned against my ear.
- Only if you say that "I'm the best boyfriend ever"..
He whispered and I giggled.
- So selfish and childish...
I mumbled and he tickled me again. I laughed and felt tears forming in my eyes.
- Say it.
- OKEY! Okey!
I yelled and he stopped. He looked at my face with his big, stupid smirk.
- You are the best boyfriend ever... Happy now?
I said and he nodded. I rolled my eyes and pulled him in for a kiss. His lips felt so good against mine. It felt like he could wash away all my problems in one second. Like he know exactly what to do. Like we were made for each other.
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roseserpentpress · 3 years ago
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A tongue-in-cheek Kakashi x Iruka anthology modelled after icha icha paradise. I kept reading about Kakashi's love of erotica (and icha icha), while reading, well, erotic kakairu fanfiction. As a result I kept going 'same hat' (although I'm probably not going to be in public reading it. It's not subtle, although it'd be fun to see who would recognize it?) and then had this idea as a result. I've always loved subtle breaks in the third wall and self-containing/perpetuating systems, so this really tickled me. I may or may not be planning to do the entire icha icha series as kakairu anthologies and most definitely have not started on icha icha violence, idk what ur talking about.
Edit: click to see the Icha Icha series master post.
Icha Icha Paradise Anthology Fanfiction list:
A Heat-seeking Cuddle Octopus (4k, G)
It wasn't that Iruka wasn't willing to share a tent with his squad leader. It's just that he wished that Kakashi wasn't such a cuddle-octopus in his sleep.
Responsible, forever, for what you have tamed (4k, M)
Kakashi gets hit with a Jutsu and becomes feral.
Always Only One Night (6k, M)
Iruka has a one-night stand with a man whose face he has never seen before. Only it's not just one night, and there is something about the man that seems familiar, if he could just figure out what.
The Heart that Hungers (7k, T)
With Naruto away training life for Umino Iruka had gotten quiet, but that quiet had been broken up periodically by the kindness of Hatake Kakashi, who discreetly delivered him letters from their mutual student whenever he got the chance. Which was great, amazingly thoughtful even, but the problem lay within the fact that it made Iruka's heart starved for more. For Kakashi. And so he kept a polite distance, didn't let on to feelings he had no right to have for someone as incredible as Hatake Kakashi. But the universe had a way of setting things right, of pushing people like Iruka, who deserved more than they gave themselves credit for.
Enter Senju Tsunade, Godaime Hokage of Konohagakure, and resident overly-stressed medical professional who could not take another second of Kakashi being a reckless idiot. She assigns the most caring man she knows to care for the most infuriating man, official mission scroll and everything, and calls it a day. And while Iruka takes the assignment (though whether it was willingly is up for debate) he can't help but wonder if he can survive a week in the company of the man his heart hungers for.
Fine Point of a Blade (9k, E)
Iruka’s body froze as terror gripped his heart. With claws. He watched a gloved hand deftly pluck the blade out of the air, bringing it up to a porcelain mask painted with red, waved lines. ANBU.
A strange meeting with an ANBU in his childhood leads Iruka down a life-changing path.
Willful Concealment (13k, E)
“Are you planning to keep my hair tie?” Iruka asked suddenly, a hint of amusement in his voice.
“I’m holding it prisoner for crimes against the citizens of Konoha.”
“What are the charges?”
Kakashi smiled, twirling the band around his forefinger like a kunai. “Perjury and willful concealment.”
Iruka huffed and shook his head, lips thinning in a way that made Kakashi think he was holding back a grin. “You know, if I’d realized you had such a thing for long hair, I would have started wearing mine down years ago.”
Kakashi’s thumb caught the hair band, halting its revolution.
“Years?”
(Or, in which Iruka asks for a single night, and gets a whole lot more.)
Worst Mission Ever (21k, T)
“Iruka, how would you feel about taking on a solo mission for me?” Sandaime asked.
Thrown by the change of topic, Iruka blinked at him.
“What do you want me to do?” he asked.
“Befriend Hound.”
A Stupid Favour (33k, Not rated- I'd say M or E tho)
"Iruka-sensei! Do you have a moment?"
"Yes? Tsunade-sama?" Iruka's voice came, drawing closer with every syllable.
"Someone has a stupid favor to ask you."
Shifting cloth and more clicking of shoes said Tsunade had come back into the room, followed by another person, whom Kakashi assumed was Iruka.
"The brat either needs to stay in the hospital or to have a babysitter for two days," Tsunade said bluntly.
OR, in which Kakashi is blind and sans chakra for two days but is desperate to find a way to leave the hospital until his sight and chakra can be restored.
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sugarylawliet · 3 years ago
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May I pretty please have a nsfw Light x Fem!Reader fic where Light is horny af and tries to seduce the reader but since it’s so rare to see Light needy like that, the reader decides to use this and pretends like she’s busy etc. and drives Light crazy af which leads to angry Dom!Light sex ;)
WHEW i got outta breath just reading this req-
warnings: nsfw/smut, dom! light, degradation with slight praise, this one has more plot than usual i think
taglist: @ygm1slt
"Y/N, do you mind?"
You glanced up from the dozens of tan manilla folders you held in your hand, spread out like a hand of playing cards, each one filled with documents upon documents about the legend you and your coworkers were chasing. The stacks of papers felt like the scribblings of a child in your hand; useless to you, because you knew who Kira was already. Hidden in plain sight, he was the man who had just called your name from the front of the room where he sat, beckoning for you to come near.
You let out a long sigh under your breath, slowly placing the papers onto the desk you stood in front of. You and Light were not dating, no, in fact you could barely stand to be in the same room as the man. His aura was suffocating, despite the large and sprawling rooms of the headquarters building, you could always pinpoint just where Light was; you could feel his arrogant energy wafting off of him, making it clear who the superior one was in the room. It was asphyxiating, and his words were even worse. Everytime he called you to come closer to him, your heart skipped a beat- and though you were sure it was from disgust, you never denied any of his requests. Your love-hate relationship with him only made your interactions more intoxicating. You weren’t gonna deny yourself the excitement.
Your footsteps echo through the almost empty room as you walked towards Light, the only other people at the task force at the moment being L, Matsuda, and Soichiro, all of whom were working together on the right side of the room, their focus on L’s computer.
“What is it?” You ask as you approach Light, stopping next to him.
“I’d like to know your thoughts on this, a second opinion would be helpful.” He gestures towards his computer screen, which was packed with data you could barely read. As you attempt to decipher the text, Light places his hand on your upper thigh, gripping it horizontally. You hold back a gasp, trying not to draw attention to yourself. Light stares at you, your eyes unwavering from the screen in front of you.
“Umm, well, it’s....”
Light’s hand slides up your thigh, his fingers inching up your skirt and brushing the fabric of your panties. He moves his fingers slightly with the slowness of a lover brushing their thumb up and down your hand as you hold theirs. Your breath stutters as you found yourself craving a harder touch from the man you thought you hated.
You break your gaze from the computer screen and glance at Light- his eyebrows were turned downwards, and the image gave you an idea. You grab Light’s hand, peeling it from your leg and dropping it into his lap. “Actually, Light. I’m kind of busy with these documents right now, sorry.” You smile, walking away and returning to your spot at the other table.
You sort through the papers, your mind off of Light before you feel the vibration of your phone from the table. You check to make sure L wasn’t looking before checking your phone, opening the message notification.
Light Y.
brat.
You glance over your shoulder before typing a quick response.
                                                                                                                        Y/N
                            i’m sure i don’t know what you mean.
You place down your phone screen-first on the table and turn your ringer off, not bothering to see whatever quip Light would respond with. You catch him rolling his eyes out of the corner of your view before returning to his work. He places a hand over his mouth and throws one of his legs over the other, crossing them. You smirk to yourself.
This was a back and forth you and Light Yagami often shared ever since you joined the Japanese Task Force. Light, the esteemed man he is, never places doubt in his ability not only to seduce women, but to get what he wants, whatever that may be; in this case, it was you. You, on the other hand, prided yourself on being strong- a stubborn person with an unwavering will, someone who could out-work and out-show the men who thought they were better than you. Often you forgot the end goals of your little adventures to prove yourself better than, getting caught up in the chase of it all. You and Light’s relationship was a quite hectic blend of both of your guys’ stubborn behavioral habits, and neither of you would settle for losing.
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“Light-kun, it’s getting quite late. You two aren’t tired?” L asks, glancing at you and Light, as the three of you were the only ones remaining in the main area of task force headquarters. Everyone else had either gone home or gone to their designated rooms in the building.
“No, There’s a lot of work to be done so I’m fine with sacrificing a little sleep.” Light glances at you briefly. You knew he was expecting to be left alone with you, but you decide to push the envelope a little further. You refused to give into him; at this point, your ego and desire to not lose rivaled his.
“Actually, Ryuzaki, you’re right. I’m gonna head to bed.” You wave goodnight to the men, sending Light an innocent smile as you walk upstairs to your room. 
You made yourself comfortable in your bed, as surprisingly Light had taken several hours to come upstairs- he didn’t want to chase after you, you assumed. Though, you could see how desperate he was through his facade.
Eventually, though, the door to your room opens with a creek, as Light steps his way inside and locks it behind him.
“Oh, hi Light. Do you need something?”
“Don’t play stupid.” Light runs his fingers through his caramel hair, frustrated. He walks over to where you sat on the edge of the bed, taking your jaw in his tight grip and forcing you to look at him.
“What was that all about, huh?” He places his hand on your leg, sliding further and further upwards as he speaks. “Teasing me as if you have the right. Have you forgotten who you’re talking to? I don’t appreciate the bratty behavior.” His fingers return to the position they were earlier, softly brushing up and down over your clothed heat. You bite your lip, holding back a moan; you weren’t going to give into him this easily. No, this was a competition for pride, and you were determined to win.
“Actually, Light,” You push his hands away from you, standing up, “I’ve had quite a long day. I’m gonna go get some rest, maybe you should too?” You remark before leaving, shutting the door behind you and finding another room to sleep in. You were going to win.
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“Are you guys coming with?”
You stand in the main hub of task force headquarters near Light, as L was on a seperate floor working and the rest of the task force was getting ready to leave for lunch.
“No, sorry, I wanna finish this work as soon as possible. But Matsuda, do you mind bringing Y/N and I something back?”
You whip your head towards him with a sour look as he volunteered you to stay with him- alone.
“Sure, text me what you want!” Matsuda exclaims cheerfully before leaving with the other detectives. 
The loud slam of the door echoing through the large half-vacant room did not draw your attention away from your work, as you were determined to remain focused.
“You know, Y/N,” Light stands up from his chair, approaching you from behind where you sat. You take in a breath, preparing yourself for the antics he was about to pull.
“You never did apologize to me.” He places his long slender hands on your shoulders from behind, slowly rubbing up and down.
“Apologize? What do I need to apologize for?”
“For being a fucking brat.”
Light abruptly grabs the sides of the chair and spins you around to face him, his nose almost poking yours and his hot breath tickling your face, flushing your cheeks red. You take the opportunity of your close proximity to lock eyes with him, slightly shaking your head no, your confidence unbreaking. 
With haste, Light knots a finger in your hair and roughly pulls you towards the nearest table, shoving you chest-first into it. He smacks your ass, earning a yelp from you. “How hard is it to follow fucking instructions? God, is your ego that big?”
He creeps his hand up your legs, dipping under your skirt and pulling your panties down to pool around your ankles. He runs his fingers up your slit, leaning down to whisper in your ear, “Just give into me...”
You shake your head as best you can with Light still gripping the roots of your hair and whine out a small “Nuh-uh.”
He dips two fingers inside you, curling his fingers upwords and making a beckoning motion inside of you. Quickly, he pulls his digits out, extending his hand to force you to suck on them. “Hmm, taste all that? It sure looks like you want to give into me...”
You pitifully whine around his fingers, pushing your backside to press against the bulge forming in his pants, asking for more.
“See? I knew you were needy for me.” He removes his fingers from your mouth and slips them back into your cunt, pumping in and out at a steady pace before adding a third finger. You pathetically squirm under his methodical movements; he was too good at this. You try to bite back your moans to save your confidence, but soon fail as Light scissors his fingers inside of you.
“Mm, I love the sounds you make, you sound like such a slut.”
Light increases his pace and depth, curling his fingers against your walls until his fingers were no longer visible. His manipulation of your senses drew your orgasam out quicker than you expected, causing you to clench against his digits. Light, sensing this, promptly removes his fingers from you, causing you to whine.
“Light...”
“What, you think I’m gonna let you finish?” He chuckles leaning down to speak in your ear, “Just say you’re sorry, Y/N. It’s not that hard, really.”
“I have nothing to apologize for.” You pant. 
He smacks your backside again, the hand-print stinging with the frustration building up inside the man. “Don’t talk back to me, brat. You know, you’re really being difficult and I don’t appreciate it. Maybe I should just leave you here...” He removes his grip from you and begins to walk away, and you’ve never felt more alone without your arch enemy.
“No, Light...” You bite your lip as you call him, the swing to your ego panging your chest.
“Hm, what’s that?”
“Light...” You look away, feeling embarrassment bubble inside your stomach.
“You only get what you beg for, Y/N. I can’t hear you...” He walks closer to you, a smirk forming on his lips as he backs you against the table, “C’mon, pet. Beg for me to fuck you, I know you want to.” He places a soft touch on your clit, rubbing it slowly in circles.
Against everything you’ve been fighting for this whole time, against your pride, your body was aching and obeyed, “Light, Kira, I need you so badly, please, please just fuck me already.”
“Hm, I don’t know. Are you sorry?”
“Yes, yes, I’m really sorry.”
“For what?” His tone grows more stern.
“For being a brat, for teasing you, for not listening to you, I’m sorry, I’m so sorry, just please, touch me....”
Light hums in appreciation as he unbuckles his belt, tossing it on the floor and pulling himself out of his tan pants, “Mm, that’s Kira’s good girl, I knew you’d come around.” He pumps himself a few times, sliding the head of his cock up and down your slit, pushing slightly in every now and again just to evoke a mewl from you.
A slew of “please”s and begging whines spilled from your lips like a desperate prayer as Light continued his torturous teasing.
“You’re nothing but Kira’s pet, right?”
You nod rapidly.
“And you’d do anything for me? You’re mine, mine to use how I please and dispose of? Mine to use as a fucktoy?”
You nod again without question.
“Good, that’s what I like to hear.” Light rewards you, finally pushing himself inside of you after what felt like an eternity. He rocks his hips to meet yours as he stretches your walls out, the moans from both of you mixing in the echoey room.
“God, Y/N, you feel so good. All this time I’ve waited...”
“Fuck, Kira,” You cry, wrapping your legs around Light’s waist, pulling him as close as possible. Your fingers curl into the hard, cold desk beneath you in an attempt to grapple with the amount of stimulation you were receiving.
His forehead came to rest on yours as he pounded into you relentlessly, “God, you’re such a good little slut for me Y/N, yeah? Nothing but a dirty fucking slut for my cock, fuck you take me so well.”
“Light, I’m gonna cum...” Your loud moans were hiccuped by the rhythm of Light rocking into you.
“Cum for me Y/N, cum all over my cock like the slut you are, make a mess so everyone knows how good I make you feel, how you’re mine and only mine to use for my pleasure.”
The harsh words that tickled your face encouraged your on-coming orgasam as you soon came around Light. He continued to thrust into you until he threw his head back with a groan, cumming inside of you.
Light pulled himself out and tucked himself back into his pants, tidying up his appearance with still labored breath. “Don’t even bother to clean up,” He head tired at the sticky liquid that was leaking down your legs and dampening the table beneath you, “Everyone knows you’re just a slut anyways, might as well let them know you’re my slut.” He winks before leaving the main room, walking off into a seperate hallway presumably to collect himself.
You stood up from the table, still panting. The fight was over, you had lost. Lost. Lost to the man who always seemed to win despite being plagued by misfortune. You huff, pulling your clothes back on and allowing the sting of losing your pride battle with Light Yagami to overpower the pain you felt in your lower half.
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justtryingtobecreative · 3 years ago
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Lost and found part 2:
Lost and found
(A Poly Albus x oc x Gellert story smut with eventual plot)
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The way of life together:
The next months went by quickly, after their shared moment of touching the boys had been extremely protective of her. And even though they had been very forward of touching her last time, they had also given her space to get used to the idea. They had a far more important task than just love one another and they would carry that out first and foremost. 
Their purpose was great and was contantly in progress, with gathering followers, trying to find the elder wand and the way they had apparently become helbend to protect her more than ever from all the 'dangers'.
That did however not mean they did not still share their special moments, they had actually been forward with her when it came to kissing or hugging. And she might not have known this but her boys did everything in their power to get her ready for them before they leaned into her completely. For them this matter was simply not something to be rushed. 
It was Christmas day about three months after their last shared moment when one of the two rascals got tired of waiting. Albus`s two siblings had both been gone as his sister was at their aunts house and his brother was working at the inn. Gellert had put up the tree per her request, the Christmas tree not something wizards usually participated in but something she had wanted. And so she had gotten. All had been going swimmingly, that is until the star had to be placed on the tree.
“Come on Gellert, you’re the tallest one here!” She pleaded holding out the paper star she had made that afternoon. “I will not do so, I refuse to conform to anything muggle related, it is already a privilege I let you get the tree.” He muttered folding his arms over his chest and turning away. She grabbed his hand “Pleaseee”, he scoffed leaning toward her ear. “I love you, but if you continue your whining I will have to place you over my lap and spank you” His deep voice whispered, as his breath tickled her neck. 
She squealed and ran toward Albus “Please help me Albus, I really want to put the star on the tree” her voice took on a whiny tone making Albus smirk. He leaned down and put his head on her shoulder as they were both looking at Gellert. “I might help you..” He hummed in her ear, as she smiled happily. “If we can get something much more valuable in return that is” His eyes twinkled in delight at her pouting. 
“Well? What is it then?” She asked curtly. Albus tutted her “You may only know that, after we help you”. She thought about his words for a second, finally sighing loudly “All right deal, If you help me I will give you what you want”. Within seconds she was sitting on Albus`s shoulders as she placed the star neatly on the tree. “I believe it is tilted a bit to the right” Gellert interjected. She placed it a bit left to correct it, “Is this better?” she murmured. “Now it is a bit to the left” She placed it toward the right. “Better?” She asked. “Maybe it`s best to just take it off, I feel like it`s tilted” she whipped her face to him an annoyed expression on her face only to see the teasing grin on his face.
She glared at him and placed the star in the middle, “You tease” she was quickly placed on the ground by a now messy haired Albus, “What took you so long?” he teased. She groaned attempting to walk away “Stupid boys always teasing me” She muttered. A hand was placed around her waist as she was hoisted on Albus`s hip like a child “You might want to stop there, as I demand my payment” He smirked looking at her lips. “All right I will do it. What do you want?  For me to do your chores for a month?” She assumed giving him an innocent look. Oh how they loved that look.
Albus showed that teasing smile again, “I had something a bit different in mind” he turned to Gellert who was looking at him with interest. “If you would please draw a nice hot bath please”, Gellert furrowed his brows at his lovers words, what was he planning? He did as he said anyway. Albus suddenly had an intense look in his eyes as he looked at the small woman “If you want us to stop you can say so, please don`t feel pressured. She looked at him in confusion for a second but finally nodded. “I will”
And that was why about half an hour later she was sitting in the big bathtub at Dumbledore Manor. The bathtub was made from copper and filled up the room almost completely its back resting against the back wall, she believed the whole tub could fit at least four people. Albus had added some Rose petals and Lavender soap to the warm water making her mind a bit fuzzy already, but she still couldn`t shake the nerves settling in her stomach. She rubbed her bare shoulders with her palms, her warm hands warming the cold skin.
She heard hushed whispers from behind the door. What were they planning? 
Thankfully she didn`t have to wait that long for answers as the door opened revealing her lovers. Gellert had taken of his tie and shoes and was only wearing his trousers and button up shirt. Albus had only taken of his shoes leaving him in his usual black button up shirt and trousers. They didn`t say anything to her only walking toward the bathtub in silence both taking a side. 
It was an almost threatening sight as the two tall figures loomed over her, thankfully they sat on their knees next to the tub, both giving her a kiss on the cheek as greeting. She huffed in frustration, why had they even placed her here? The look in their eyes darkened, she might have been a bit too mouthy lately.
After a second of silence Albus started talking “You have been pushing your limits recently love, so this is simply something to make you learn” at his words Gellert took of his tie holding it “Love please give me your hands” His mismatched eyes raked over her exposed skin, not even trying to hide it. She held out her hands hesitantly, placing her wrists in his cold hands. He wrapped the tie around her wrists in a secure manner, She wouldn`t be able to get out of this herself. 
“Please hold your hands above your head” Albus whispered guiding her hands above her head. He wrapped the cloth around the faucet tightly leaving her stretched out above the water with only her waist resting in the warm concoction. Her Nipples perked up at the cold air and goose bumps started to cover her skin. Gellert`s eyes observed the change reaching over to graze a hand over her shoulder and over the side of her breast. “Are you a bit cold love?” He whispered in her ear. “Yes” her teeth chattered a at the cold. 
His hand moved over to the centre of her soft breast ghosting around one of her rosy buds before placing a hash slap on it making her gasp loudly “Good” He taunted her, his eyes gaining a strange glint. His fingers rested around her nipple as he looked her in the eyes “You have been a naughty girl haven`t you?” the words set off a strange feeling around her body making her shiver. 
Albus spoke up suddenly gaining their attention in an instant “I believe you should really answer him love” his normally soft features were now set in an intense stare, his eyes grazing over her body in obvious want.  She shivered again as Gellert grabbed her chin “Answer us” he almost growled the words and she breathed in deeply in surprise.
“Yes I am a naughty girl” Her voice was uneven and shaky as she started shivering from the cold, although the burning feeling between her legs had to have been part of it as well. Their movement fastened at her words as they both grabbed one of her legs and placing them over the edges of the tub completely displaying her to young men. 
The cold of the tub make her shiver even more as her legs are exposed to the air too. “What are you do…” She is interrupted by a harsh tug on her nipple making her let out an surprised moan. “You don`t get to speak.” Gellert hisses at her. Albus smirks at the sight “Haven`t we tortured her enough my love?” Albus has a lazy smile on his face just enjoying the view, obviously not at all unpleased with their torture.
The burning between her legs becomes almost unbearable as she couldn`t help buckling her hips forward just hoping for some kind of friction, She lets out a filthy moan pushing her chest forward into Gellert’s awaiting hand. Gellert gives her an amused look “Even though she looks at her limit, I am not entirely done with torturing our darling, how about we let her see how pleasure with us would look like first?” Gellert’s eyes snap over to Albus giving him an intense look. “Get in the tub darling, face our love” Albus slid into his submissive role in a second transitioning perfectly into Gellert`s good little boy. 
Albus follows his command without a word, but not before removing his shirt and trousers leaving himself completely bare. Gellert places a hand over her eyes to block her view from Albus as he himself observes the lean muscle of the younger man shamelessly an satisfied smirk on his face, Albus steps in carefully sitting down on his knees in front of her his face inches from hers. Gellert removes her hand and she is faces by the mesmerising blue eyes of her lover. 
“Hello” She whispers not being able to stop herself to give him a sweet smile. Albus was about to lean forward and give in to the girl when an arm curled around his torso pulling him into a familiar chest, “Not yet” the demanding voice of Gellert fills his ears stopping him in his tracks. A muscular arm snakes around his body massaging the underside of his stomach, “Don`t you think you should be pleasured too?” He whispered. Albus nodded at the words yearning for the touch of his former best friend.
Gellert`s hand slid over to Albus`s nipple placing his fingers around the bud with a strange precision, He gave it a light tug before moving his other hand downward wrapping his hand around the younger man`s length. The reaction was immediate as Albus let out a loud moan, the sound echoing around the room. She stared at his face in wonder, his eyes were fixated on her as he reached out his hand to touch her. His hand stroked her face slowly his thumb brushing up the tears that had somehow landed there. 
Gellert moved his hand stroking Albus`s member in a arithmetic symphony of movement. The pleasure shot through the Dumbledore with sharp tugs, and all he could manage to do was stay upright in the tub and moan. He gave into his urge with a snap as his lips met hers in a feverish kiss. 
“I love you so much…” He groaned the words in her ear before he leaned forward smashing his lips against hers again, the feeling of his tongue was familiar to her and she tried to focus on the action. She honestly couldn`t help focus on the other feelings on her skin, the way his chest moved up and down against her nipples for example, or how his hand strayed lower and lower toward her core, and the way her hips couldn`t help buckle against his stomach. 
Albus got higher and higher on his peak, his moans piercing through the room harshly now, he only interrupted them by kissing his girl. “Do you like this love? Do you like how daddy pleasures you? Do you like how she is looking at you now?” The voice of Gellert whispered in his ear making his attention drift to her once again. 
Albus really felt like he was almost about to explode, and just as the feeling of pleasure was too much for him the wave of release waved over him like a drug hazing his mind almost completely before it clears a bit again, his eyes roll back to his head for a second and his fingers dip lower rubbing on the girls clit in a feverish fashion. He really wanted to give her as much pleasure as possible. 
She squealed at the sudden action, as she was completely distracted by the way his cock had stiffened up before releasing the white liquid she didn`t know existed. It had been the most addicting sight she had ever seen and the way his eyes had been skewed shut and Gellert’s arms had held him in place would be engraved in her mind forever. 
Albus`s fingers moved quickly and skilfully as he rubbed me with fervour, his mouth was stuck to my neck as he pushed against me with his knee making me grind forward almost sending me over the edge already. The feeling of pleasure almost burned now, and she swore she would not survive without her release. 
Gellert’s hand made a fist in Albus`s hair pulling his head back harshly as he tutted at the man “I didn`t allow you to touch her, did I?” Albus widened his eyes shaking his head. “You will get out and stand in the corner, it is your punishment to watch her get her release without you.” He smirked seeming far too happy to be able to punish him. 
Albus gave me a hazy look not daring to do anything else before stepping out of the tub, pulling on his dress shirt and pants quickly. His blue eyes focussed on them again and Gellert only focussed on hr again when he was sure Albus did as he ordered. 
Gellert crawled forward like a lion, his exposed flesh glinting in the light his manhood erect and ready. She looked the huge appendage with a strange sense of unease, she wasn`t sure she was ready for that yet. He reached up loosening her bound hand from the wall, her hands still bound and placing them around his neck her body surging forward as her chest pushed against his her legs dangling around him. 
He leaned back In the water as he rocked back and forth making her shiver, the rubbing was addicting and she whined softly as his gaze hit her with admiration. His manhood lay flat on his stomach and she surged forward a bit from the rubbing sliding atop of it without it penetrating her. He could barely contain himself from sliding it inside her inviting heat, but he knew she wasn`t ready so he settled for just letting her ride him this way. 
The bulge of his member felt hot against her heat, her body surging in response every time it rubbed against her clit. The feel of her folds keeping him satisfied as well. The wet sliding sounds filled the silence, the strange sound echoing in her ears. A strange feeling hit her without warning as he inserted a finger into her tight hole, the temporary pain filling her mind. She dug her nails in his back letting out an uneven moan, “Are you all right?” He mumbled keeping his finger in her tight heat as she squirmed. 
She breathed loudly trying to catch her breath, “I think so, it feels so strange” Her voice felt strained and unfamiliar in her ears. She moved against him again sliding his finger in and out of her slowly, the feeling of fullness was so overwhelming that she couldn`t imagine having all of them inside of her. After a second or so she nodded slowly signalling that he could move, what he did however was something different. A second finger joined the other one and she let out a loud moan this time at the pain. 
A few tears escaped her eyes as she stared at him in the eyes, the mismatched eyes looked conflicted obviously not sure on if he should continue. She rubbed against him in a feverish manner, his knuckles feeling strange inside of her body. Her attention was caught by his cock again suddenly finding her fingers around it rubbing it slowly. Gellert let out a surprised moan at the action, and she almost believed she heard Albus gasp from the other side of the room. 
He moved his fingers in and out of her with purpose, her fingers stroking him in the same strange rhythm. His low moans filled the room as well own as they both tried to reach each other’s peak. The pleasure build up quickly their minds hazing as their bodies worked. Her mind grew numb with the new feelings her body acting on its own to reach this new high. He groaned letting out a slew of words, “Love, please continue like that. You feel so good” He murmured in her ear. 
She nodded in agreement but was interrupted by her own body. Her breathing quickened suddenly, her legs shaking, the edge of the bathtub digging into her back harshly not registering in her mind at all as pure hot pleasure shot through her mind. And it was at that moment just as the feelings came to an high that Gellert kissed her lips in a sweet slow kiss, his tongue moving into her mouth. She felt him groan softly into her mouth as he hardened and something sticky hit her hand, and she moaned back as she clenched around his fingers her walls loosening and tightening around him.
His fingers left her body slowly as he brought his hand toward his mouth  tasting her on his fingers, “You taste so good baby,” His eyes raked over her face as he held her check in his hand. he honestly hadn`t expected for just this taste of her to be so undeniably good. His arms rested around her gently in a satisfied embrace, her mind slowly returned to her and the lavender scent registered to her again. He looked down as her hands were still wrapped tightly around him, “Are you going to keep holding on dear?” He smirked teasingly. 
She startled letting go of his softening member quickly raising her bound hands splashing them both with the water. “Might you untie me please then?” She had a sheepish smile on her face and Gellert couldn`t help but peck her lips before reaching over to untie her. “Yes my love, of course”
Their gazes finally loosened looking around the bathroom like it was the first time they actually looked at it. The blue eyes of Albus hit theirs as he stood in the corner with a smirk back to his usual self. “You enjoy yourself loves?” He teased them a shit eating grin on his face. 
Instead of getting mad Gellert just looked at him in contentment a small smile on his face. “I think we sure did” before placing an arm around her. “Heads up!” Albus yelled as he took a sudden leap jumping into the bath splashing the water anywhere. “By merlin`s beard!” She yelled laughing loudly even Gellert joining her. They all sat in the water for as long as they could before it would run cold and it was a memory the two men would treasure for a while to come.
Cause even the good times must become a memory someday, and that day might be soon for the three of them.
(If you like this part 2 please tell me! I have some plans to also include some older versions of grindlewald and dumbledore, so let me know if you guys like that idea! Not my picture! It is from pinterest)
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lesbian-deadpool · 4 years ago
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Happy Little Accidents
Part Two: Hope
Natasha Romanoff x Reader
Words: 2,317
Warnings: I don’t think there is any?? Crying/light angst, adoption process, stress??
Request: Yes
Summary: You work on getting you little girl back. And hope that it’s successful.
A/N: It’s been a long time coming, I haven’t proof read it or anything (but when do I ever? Lol), so bare that in mind.
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Being a pair of Avengers and going through the adoption process was so very complicated.
On one hand, you were well known across the globe. Household names.
But on the other. You were dangerous people, with violent past's -and futures to come- with more enemies than you could count. Some of which you didn't even know existed. And who in their right minds would ever let a child into that environment? People have been turned down for much less.
However.
You were basically celebrity's. And as everyone knows, that comes with a lot of special treatment. Even if you and Natasha -And most of, if not all of your team- denied to use any of it. But in this case? For little Hope? You would do whatever you had to.
So, it was thanks to that, that you were even allowed to be considered for adoption.
And there was so much work that had to be done.
Papers to sign, meetings to attend, visits and screenings every which way. And so much more.
It was a long and tedious journey. And you still had a long way to go.
Right now, you had to watch as someone picked apart your home -once again- to make sure it was okay for your little girl to come home. Where she belongs.
You had moved not too long ago, maybe a little over two months, and in that time, it had been looked at three times. Which really made it seem like you weren't doing anything, in their eyes, considering you were busy working and renovating the whole place out at the same time.
The day after you and Natasha had to say goodbye to Hope, you knew that you had to get a bigger place than the apartment you had both shared. And began looking for new homes the very same day.
Tony's help wasn't needed, you had plenty of money, but he insisted. So when you two found a townhouse that you absolutely adored, not too far from SHIELD HQ -where you both now worked most of the time. As when Fury found out that you were both to be adopting Hope- or trying to at least, the man lowered your hours and took you off missions altogether. Just until you were all settled-, the billionaire bought it for you, the moment he got wind of it.
You were moved in three days later. Deciding to work on the house while you lived there.
"So, where would the child be sleeping?" Your caseworker asked.
"Oh, right this way," you said, leading her down the hall to the newly decorated bedroom. Natasha following behind.
You gestured to the light pink, yet slightly sparse room. "This is it."
"We still have to pick up some of the furniture. But we've been waiting for the room to be decorated first," Natasha said, excusing the bare room.
"Yeah, Hope's not going to sleep on a stack of paint cans," you tried to joke. To which you barely got a smile from your caseworker, Stephany Halla.
"It look's decorated to me?"
"Oh." Natasha smiled. "We're having a friend of ours paint a mural or two on the walls."
"Yeah, Hope has a few favourite Avengers, so he's gonna paint them. And he's been learning how to draw cartoon characters for it, too."
"He's actually trying to adopt the two kids he took in with his fiance."
"Steve Rogers?" Stephany asked.
"That's the guy," you said, nodding along with Natasha.
"I've seen him around the office," She spoke again a few moments later. "So, when are you planning on getting the furniture for the room?"
"Hopefully, within a month," Natasha replied, "But with our and Steve's schedules, things are up in the air."
It was a difficult start to the adoption process, more so than it was now. Considering that the children legally didn't exist to the world. So, everything was so confusing and thrown up into the air while waiting for the kids to be registered.
Almost like you didn't know whether you were coming or going. Everything stuck in limbo as you waited to see what kind of adoption process you would have to take. And even with all of your connections in the world, you were still left in the dark.
There was the fact that the kids were found overseas in Romania, so they could be considered Romanian. And so, you would have to go through international adoption.
However, none of the children have birth parents and were brought to America because you had rescued them. So, some would say they could be considered immigrants.
Nothing like this had ever happened before.
Babies that had been grown in a lab and saved from a further torturous life, that now needed legalization in the world's eyes.
You and Natasha had to watch as Government's essentially fought over these children you saved. Over the same child, you clothed and fed. The one you played games with and bonded with the little girl you grew to love and consider your own.
So, as the world fought for the right of your child, your little Hope, you waited. Just wishing and wanting to bring your daughter home.
But, luckily for you, the children were now classed as American citizens. Which made it ten times easier for you to adopt than it would otherwise.
Which is honestly just crazy to you, considering just how intensely hard this is.
There were times you didn't believe you could ever adopt your child.
On more than one occasion, Natasha would come to you, saddened to her core, because she truly believed that you would never have Hope in your family.
It was so fucking hard.
Natasha had rolled over one night after you two had -once again- gone through the rules and regulations of adopting. Uttering how you were, "Never going to get her back" that there was "Juts no way, they will let us adopt", as she cried into your arms.
But still, the process continued.
"Well, your home seems to be in good standing. So for. But I advise you to get the furniture for the child's room as soon as possible," Stephane commented as she began packing up her belongings and paperwork.
"Oh, we know."
"Steve did say that he was going to start work on it in the next few days," Natasha added, nodding along with you.
"Well, that's is good news." Stephane smiled. "I'll see you at our next meeting with Hope."
Natasha sighed happily. "We can't wait."
"Well, goodbye then."
You whished the dirty-blonde woman farewell, closing the door behind her.
"We get to see our daughter in a couple of weeks," your red-headed girlfriend said excitedly, dancing from side to side out of pure happiness. Her bright smile filling your soul with warmth, that travelled all the way into your bones.
You matched her emotions, hands coming to curve around her shoulder blades and pulling her close to you.
"I know, Honey. It's been so long since we've seen her. And we're gonna bring her home one day."
That was all you could say before your mouth was covered, with the crushing feeling of Natasha's plump lips against yours.
***
Nerves rattled through you, but you hadn't the faintest idea why, considering this wasn't the first time you had seen Hope. However, it had been one of the first times you were able to see her since the day she was taken away from you.
If you thought you were bad.
Natasha was far worse.
She was practically shaking. From nerves or excitement, you didn't know. But you had a good inkling to think that it was both.
You had done so much for this child in the short span of time you had known her.
And yet, you couldn't imagine your life any other way. The thought of how your life had been that time last year.
No Hope. Surrounded by missions and work. Every free moment you had was spent with Natasha, and the rag-tag group of hero's you had grown to call your family.
It all seemed so foreign now.
Like a past life.
'Wow', you thought, 'Maybe I really am growing up'.
A part of you was afraid that the girl you thought of as your daughter wouldn't recognise you or your []. And would be scared of the two strangers that had just barged their way into her life. Breaking both of your heart's.
"Mommy! Mommy!"
Was the thing that greeted you, as soon as the door had swung open. Making you realise just how stupid your train of thought really was.
Natasha rushed forward, scooping the girl up into her arms, with a bright smile upon both of their faces.
"So, I still don't get a name, huh?" you joked, walking over to the reuniting girls.
Brushing a hand over Hope's short hair. Grinning when she reached her arms towards you, ready to give you a hug of your own, which you gratefully accepted.
"Don't worry," Natasha said, rubbing Hope's back as she hugged you, "You'll get a name soon."
"I better. Or else I'm gonna have ta tickle it out of her."
Hope's squeals reached your ears as you threateningly poked her side with your fingers.
"Here, baby. I'll save you," Natasha called, pulling the giggling girl from your arms. Both of them watching as you pulled your hand's in front of your face, wiggling the fingers almost spookily as them. The girls turned to each other, "They're silly."
Then they walked away.
With you calling after them.
"Hey! I may be silly, but-... I have no rebuttal!"
Natasha laughed at this, then greeted the care worker that was patiently waiting for you both. The one that you had only just noticed.
"Hello, Stephany," Natasha said in greeting, shaking the woman's hand. You following suit.
"Hey. How have you two been?"
"Missing this little one," Natasha replied, bouncing the girl on her waist. Receiving fun-filled giggles in return.
"I bet you have. And you, Y/N?"
"Exhausted," you told her honestly, "With moving house and everything, I just want to have Hope home, then sleep for a week."
The care worker laughed at that.
"Let's hope that that's sooner rather than later, then."
Your few hour's with Hope passed faster than you ever could have imagined. You played with blocks, ate lunch, "helped" Hope colour in her haphazardly filled colouring book. You absolutely adored the way her eyes lit up, and she started dancing and flailing her arms when she saw bubbles for the first time. You almost couldn't continue blowing them because of your bright smile.
And now you were watching as Natasha spoke gently to the little girl. Hope's hand's resting on the red-heads cheeks, watching her mother with such concentrating eyes.
You adored your little family.
You just wished you could have them all home.
'One day', you thought, 'one day'.
Saying goodbye was one of the hardest things you've ever had to do.
Just like the last time.
And the time before that.
And the time before that.
And the one before that.
It just got harder and harder each and every time you did this.
Hope was crying. And so was Natasha, albeit silently, as she tried to console the toddler.
"I know, my little love, I know-"
"Mommy!" Hope cried.
"I know, angel. We'll be back before you know it, I promise."
"Mommy!"
"I know."
Once in the car, you let your tears fall, Natasha sobbing in the seat beside you.
"I don't think I can keep on doing this anymore," you admitted. Deciding it was best you explained when Natasha turned to look at you, an incredulous look upon her face, "Keep on seeing her, and not being able to bring her home."
"We'll get there," your [] reached over the centre console to squeeze your hand, "We will. You're the one who's always saying that we've got to take after her namesake and have hope."
"But it almost seems endless, Nat."
"I know, honey." She wetly kissed your tear-stained cheek. Her lips, brushing against it as she continued, "We'll bring her home. I just know it."
"I hope you're right."
***
She was right.
Of course, she was right.
She was Natasha Romanoff, after all.
It was like she just had this inability to be wrong.
But in this case? You were so fucking happy about that.
Granted it had taken a while longer -a good eight months- but finally, you were here.
Exiting the courthouse with Hope in your arms, and Natasha by your side. Bright smiles upon all of your faces, about to take the little girl- Your daughter home.
You would never have to say goodbye to her, like that, ever again.
She was legally a part of your family now. And nothing would ever change that.
"Ready to go home, sweetpea?" Natasha asked the beaming girl.
"I don't know about you," you started, "But I think this deserves celebratory ice cream."
"I think you just want ice cream before dinner."
You gave an overdramatic gasp.
"Why I would never! How dare you accuse me of such a thing?"
Natasha laughed at your antics but nonetheless nodded her head.
"I agree. This does deserve celebratory ice cream."
"Yes!" you exclaimed happily to Hope, your free arm raising above your head in victory, making the girl copy you by raising both of her arms.
She was already taking after you.
Your red-headed girlfriend sighed dreamily after you, as you chanted, "Ice cream! Ice cream! Ice cream!" On your way to the car.
She couldn't remember a time where she was this happy.
It had been a long time since then.
And Natasha just couldn't wait to see what the rest of her life would bring with the two of you now by her side.
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shyficwriter · 4 years ago
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Who's Tougher?
Guardians of the Galaxy fanfic | Reader x Guardians (With Yondu and Kraglin!)
Summary: Guardians find out that Reader maybe isn't Terran while playing with one of those labor pain/period cramp simulators. Inspired by that one episode of Lucifer where Lucifer got tased.
Author’s Note: Based off this dumb post I wrote earlier, because sometimes my dumber ideas are the funniest.
Part 2 here.
Word Count: 2,376 It had started with a bet.
Who was tougher? You or Peter?
Tired of hearing your bickering one day, and after having come across a video on the internet where a couple of guys were using a period cramp simulator, Rocket decided to whip one up with some spare parts he had lying around. Took him about 10 minutes, 15 if you count the time it took him to sort through his spare parts drawer.
You and Peter where sitting at the table with Kraglin when Rocket hopped up and slapped it on the table, interrupting your bickering.
"What's that?" Peter asked, his face one of confusion.
It looked almost like Peter's Zune, only bigger and instead of headphones it had four long wires coming out of it that were attached to thin disk-shaped objects.
"This is gonna settle your argument on who's tougher once and for all so I don't gotta hear your constant whining anymore." Rocket said.
"Hey! It's not constant!" you say, a bit offended, but also not looking forward to doing whatever Rocket was suggesting. "What is that even supposed to do?"
"Saw a video online where a couple of Terran-types were using electric pulses to simulate period cramps. It does that, more or less."
"More or less??" You cry uncertainly, "You want to electrocute us? Because that's what I'm hearing."
Peter laughs, "If you're scared you can just admit that I'm tougher." He leans back in his chair with a smug look that makes you want to smack him.
You glare at him. "I'm not scared. I'm just being cautious of accepting offers to let Rocket stick electrodes on us!"
Kraglin snickers from his side of the table. "Sound scared to me. If Yondu could trust him to wire his fin into his skull, I'm sure ya can trust him not to fry ya with that little thingy-ma-bob."
Yondu, having heard his name while walking by, stops by the table. "What's going on here?"
"Rocket wants to electrocute us!"
"Do not!" Rocket defends. "Well, not much... I just want to settle which one of them is really tougher so they'll quit whining about it."
Yondu shakes his head, chuckling. He looks at you. "So you're really gonna give in and tell Peter he's tougher cuz yer scared of a little shock?"
You glare at him. You knew he was only trying to razz you up, but you couldn't help it. "I'm not scared, I-"
Peter cuts you off. "Then prove it." He was bluffing, he didn't really want to try either. Who in their right mind would willingly let Rocket hook them up to an electric shock machine?? But his poker-face was good. Too good.
"Ugh. Fine. If to only wipe that smug grin off your dumb face." you say, rolling your eyes. "How's it work?"
Rocket grinned, as did the other two. "Ok, so you each get two of these electrodes," He held up the white disk, "and you stick them to your stomach, and then I'll take this," he held up the Zune-looking thing, "and turn it up until one of you taps out."
You begrudgingly took the electrodes from Rocket and he clarified his instructions by telling you both to place them below your belly-button. You retake your seats at Rocket's behest, him cockily saying that you 'might want to sit down for this'.
"Ready?" he smirked.
You looked at Peter's cocky grin and rolled your eyes. "Sure."
Rocket turned the dial. Nothing happened, so you assumed it had only just switched the device on, but you did see Peter give a little jolt.
You turned your head to him and laughed. "What you jumpy for, Mister Cocky? He hasn't started yet."
"Yes I did."
You looked back at Rocket, confused. "What?"
"I did start it. It's on level 1 now."
You look at Peter. He confirms it's on. "You don't feel anything?" he asks. You shake your head.
Rocket give you an odd look and says he's turning it up to 2.
Peter jerks again, softly grunting. "Hey, how high does this go?"
Rocket answers that it goes up to 10, and Peter makes a face that makes it obvious he's regretting his life choices.
"Oh, I can feel it now," you say, your mouth twitching upward in a grin. "It kinda tickles."
"That doesn't seem right?" Rocket switches it off. "Switch your leads, I want to make sure there's not a short in the wires."
You and Peter do what's asked. As soon as Rocket sees all the leads are stuck down properly he cranks it up to 2 without warning.
Peter jerks forward and grabs the table with a grunt. "Dude! What the fuck! A warning would be nice!"
You, however, only start softly giggling with a, "Hey!"
Rocket scratches his head, and turns the knob to 2.5.
Peter squeezes his eyes shut and tries, but fails, to sit back up straight. You also close your eyes, but it's because you've brought a hand to press on your forehead as you lean back in your chair, still giggling.
As soon as Rocket turns the knob to 3, Peter taps out.
Rocket turns the device off and looks at you suspiciously before glancing at Yondu and Kraglin who only shrug in response. "I don't get it? That's not supposed to happen?" Rocket says looking his new device over.
"I'll have a go." says Kraglin. "I bet Pete's just being a baby."
This earns a chuckle from Yondu and an annoyed outburst from Peter, who challenges Yondu to do it with Kraglin if they're both so tough.
Smirking, Yondu actually agrees. You and Peter hand over your leads and Yondu and Kraglin put them on.
Rocket repeats the same process. He starts them out at 1, and neither react. He goes up to 2, and Kraglin winces like Peter had. Up to 3, and Kraglin grunts and starts to grip the table while Yondu only acknowledges he can feel it pinching, but from the look on his face you can tell he's just putting on a tough act.
Rocket turns it up to 4 and Yondu exhales out his nose while looking up at the ceiling. At 6 Kraglin taps out and Rocket turns the device off.
Yondu laughs and tells Peter, "Guess everyone here is tougher than you, boy." to which Peter calls bullshit, says he wasn't ready, and demands to go again, this time against Yondu.
Peter doesn't make it past 4, and you laugh at him, prompting him to glare at you and say, "You wouldn't make it past 4 either!"
You call his bet, laughing, "Guess I'd need to go up against Yondu or Krags then, because we know you sure can't."
Before Peter can retort the rest of the team has come over to see what the fuss is about.
Rocket explains that you're seeing who's the toughest, and this promptly makes Mantis and Groot, in their innocence, want to try. However, this is immediately shot down by Gamora, who says that any game, or whatever it was that you were doing, where you willfully electrocute yourself, was stupid.
Drax, however, says he'll have a go, and Peter jumps on this, telling you, "There you go! Go up against Drax. If you can outlast him I'll finally say you're tougher than me."
"Quill." Yondu says in a warning tone, the implication clear that he didn't think anyone could beat the behemoth and that he knew that Peter egging you on like that would only result in you pushing yourself too hard to prove him wrong and getting hurt.
"Relax, old man!" Peter turned to you with a smug grin. "You can take it, right?" Peter is really pushing his luck, but you agree, taking back your leads from Yondu, and Rocket instructing Drax what to do as he takes Peter's chair.
Once you were both settled Rocket made sure you were ready before turning the device up to 1, then after a moment 2, and after another moment 3, where you had left off before.
Drax was just sitting there unfazed, but you were giggling again like before, prompting Drax to ask you what was so funny.
"It tickles!" you say, covering your face again and giggling harder once Rocket announced he was turning it up to 4.
"I bet you're faking it just to mess with us." Peter grumbled at you as Gamora gave him a strange look.
They heard Mantis giggling and looked over to see Mantis pulling her hand away from your arm, her antennae glowing. "Nope. Not lying. I don't sense any feelings of deception."
"Well, that doesn't make any sense, but here's 5." Rocket said, turning the dial.
You jerked in your seat, drawing one foot up into your chair as you tilted your head back laughing, still covering your face with your hands. "Ok! Ok! Wait a minute!" you squeak.
"Are you saying you give up?" Peter said with a smirk. "Guess that means you can't say you're tougher than me."
You flip him off. "No! I didn't say that!" This makes Yondu chuckle. Like most of the rest of the team he had started grinning at your reactions. You may be being stubborn, but he supposed you being tickled was better than you being in pain, though by all accounts it didn't make sense. He had done it himself, and it most definitely didn't tickle.
"Well it's up to 5, you couldn't get past 4, Pete." Kraglin corrected, letting Peter know that you technically had just proved you were tougher by being able to go to a higher setting than him.
"That's not the deal we made. Besides, how can it count if it only tickles? The higher settings are bound to hurt." He knew his logic was flawed, but he was stubborn too, he wasn't just going to hand you a victory.
Seeing as you weren't giving up yet, Rocket went ahead and dialed it up to 6.
"How you doing Drax?" Kraglin asked.
Drax just shrugged. "Fine. It's not the most pleasant feeling, but it's completely bearable."
They didn't ask how you were doing. It was pretty clear how you were doing. You hadn't quit giggling this whole time, much to Rocket's frustration because it just didn't make sense. It was, however, the only thing keeping Gamora from making Rocket stop. She knew Drax could take almost anything, so he'd be fine. You didn't seem to be in pain at all, so she assumed you must be safe.
Rocket dialed up to 7.
Drax nodded his head. "There it is. I can feel it more now." However, there wasn't an ounce of pain etched into his face. Dude obviously had one hell of a pain tolerance.
You were still curled in your chair. One hand covered your mouth while you giggled, the other rested on your knee. You tried to psyche yourself up. It was only a tickle. You weren't a baby. You got this, right?
The foot that had been in your chair then slammed to the floor as you lurched forward with a shriek of laughter, gripping the metal armrest of your chair as your other hand wrapped around your middle.
"How can that still tickle!? It's turned up to 8!" Rocket questioned in disbelief, holding up the device to Yondu as if to prove it.
"Eight!?" you cry, "You were supposed to tell us, you rabid raccoon!"
Drax began to laugh as well and in disbelief Peter said, "Drax? Seriously?!"
"It doesn't tickle," Drax clarified, his laughter dying into a light chuckle. "It's just very funny to watch the smaller Terran react."
You attempted to glare at Drax for referring to you as the "smaller Terran," but failed at it. You stomped your foot on the ground as you felt the tickle get somehow worse, and knew Rocket had turned it up again. "Rocket! Please!" you whined, making a few of the others laugh. Maybe you don't got this.
"That one was for calling me a raccoon, asshat." Rocket said with a grin, his previous frustration seemingly gone in favor of mischief.
You quickly reach for the little shit, but you recoil as he jumped out of reach, a smug grin on his face as he turned the dial to the last setting.
"And that one was 'cause I can."
Drax barely reacted, but you were suffering.
Shit. Shit. Nothing had ever tickled like this before. You don't got this. You still had a death grip on the arm of the chair and you were laughing so hard you couldn't sit up straight. Screw the bet, time for begging. "Ok! Ok!" you squeal. "Rock-Rocket! Ahaha! Ok! I'm sorry! Please! I can't- I give up!"
Rocket and Peter laughed triumphantly as you continued to plead for mercy. Yondu had pity on you and chuckled saying, "Alright, Rat. That's enou-"
He was cut off by a metallic squeal and a snap that made everyone jump. The sound was only followed by the sounds of your dying laughter as you caught your breath.
You threw your leads up on the table, having had ripped them off when you couldn't take it anymore (and after having finally realized that was an option.) You finally look up at Rocket, still giggly and gasping for breath as you say, "Youhoo suck! Eheheh... you- you little brat... haha... Jeez..." Your eyes were glowing a bright blue that slowly faded as you raised an eyebrow, noting how your companions expressions have changed to something resembling "WTF??"
"What's with the faces?" you ask, only to follow Mantis's eyes down to the arm of your chair, or rather, what used to be the arm of your chair.
You had snapped it, but that wasn't all. It was now twisted both outward & downward and the place you had been gripping it had been crushed to form to the inside of your fist as if it had been made of foam board.
You hear someone hesitantly say, "Ya ain't Terran... are ya?"
You look back up at your friends' expectant faces with a nervous grin, squinting and blushing as you rub the back of your head. "Well, aha... This is awkward..."
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intheticklecloset · 3 years ago
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Off Day (Haikyuu!!)
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Summary: See above.
A/N: I'm glad you're enjoying Haikyuu!! (With the understanding that this prompt came in months ago, so hopefully you still like it!) I hope you enjoy this fic as well! ^^
Word Count: 1,023
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Set, spike, receive. Set, spike, receive.
Hinata tossed the ball into the air, beginning his approach immediately afterwards. Suga lined up under the ball and set it back to him. The redhead leapt into the air and spiked the ball to the opposite end of the court, where Daichi was always in time to receive. If he’d had another player on his half of the court, the ball would come right back to them. As it was, Hinata landed on the floor of the gym and hunched over, panting and sweating.
“Nice,” Suga said approvingly, nodding. “You’re getting good at those.”
But Hinata grabbed his hair and pulled in frustration, letting out a shout. “Ugh! I can’t get it past him!”
Suga chuckled. “There’s only three of us here. When you set up to spike on only one half of the court, it’s easy to know where you’re going to hit it.”
“But he’s only one person!” Hinata cried. “If I can’t get it past one person, how am I supposed to get it past a whole team of blockers and receivers?”
“Don’t beat yourself up over it. You may just be having an off day.”
“Hey, give me some credit where credit is due,” Daichi teased from the other side of the net. “I’m just that good.”
Suga chuckled, but Hinata let out a huff and stalked back over to the bin, where only a handful of balls lay inside. The gym was a mess and becoming more of a play hazard, but he didn’t care. He was determined to get one ball past the team captain before this night was over, no matter how long it took.
Set, spike, receive. Set, spike, receive.
“Aaaagh!” Hinata stomped his foot on the ground, growing more and more irritated with himself. “Come on!”
Daichi straightened, frowning. “Look, Hinata, it’s okay to have off days, you know.”
“I’m not having an off day! If Kageyama were here I would be nailing every one of these spikes!” The gym went silent. It took Hinata a moment to realize what he’d implied. He turned to Suga, horrified. “I – I’m sorry! I didn’t mean it like that, I swear!”
Suga smiled. “I know you didn’t. It’s okay. You two really do make a heck of a team. But I honestly think you’re just a little off your game today. He may very well have something to do with it.”
Hinata cringed, turned, and went back to the bin. One volleyball remained inside. “One more?” he asked. It was true that anytime Kageyama wasn’t around to be his setter he felt a little off. But he never usually had it this bad. Stupid Kageyama.
“Sure.” Suga nodded. “Daichi?”
“Last one,” he agreed, then got back into position.
Hinata tossed the ball into the air. Suga got under it to set it to him, but his mind was far from where it should have been at this point. He’d had an idea, but he only had a split-second window in which to execute it. He set the ball, then immediately lunged forward to grab the spiker while he was helpless in midair and started tickling.
Hinata flailed, losing all concentration as surprised laughter burst out of him. He managed to tap the volleyball in a dump style, forcing Daichi to dart forward to try and receive it. The captain completely missed for the first time all night, but Hinata wasn’t even paying attention to that anymore.
“Suga, nahahahahahahaha!” He laughed, struggling against the older setter as he was wrestled out of the sky and onto the floor. He shot his arms to his sides, kicked, pushed, rolled around, anything to try and get away. But Suga – like Kageyama – was incredibly fast and able to keep up with him easily. “Stohohohohohohop!”
“I had a thought as you were jumping just now,” Suga observed casually as he continued to tickle his younger teammate. “Every time you get agitated, Kageyama ends up tickling you until you promise you’re feeling better. So since he’s not here to do that, I thought perhaps I should step in on his behalf.”
“Nohohohohohoho!” Hinata giggled, bucking around as Suga squeezed his sides and hips. “Plehehehehehease!”
Daichi shook his head fondly at the two of them as he ducked under the net, but he was smiling all the same. “Never a dull moment in this gym, huh? I swear, you two are just as bad of a combination.”
Suga flashed him a smirk. “Get down here and help me, captain, or you’ll be next.”
Daichi laughed, kneeling down behind Hinata and grabbing his wrists, pulling them above his head. With full, unprotected access to his ribs, Suga went for it, drawing loud, screechy laughter out of the little redhead – especially when he found his bottom ribs and drilled in with precise purpose.
“NAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!! SUGA, PLEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEASE!!” Hinata laughed, kicking his legs frantically to make up for not being able to pull his arms down anymore. His smile was bright and he seemed to be having more fun than he was a few moments ago, but just for good measure, Suga decided to mess with him a little more.
“Feeling better now?” he asked.
“YEHEHEHEHEHES, YES, I’M BEHEHEHEHEHETTER!!”
“You’re not upset about your spikes anymore?”
“NOHOHOHOHOHOHOHO!!”
Suga shared a smirk with Daichi, who added, “You actually got that last one by me, you know.”
“I DIHIHIHIHID?!”
“Yeah, you did. You dumped it. Slick move, kid.”
Hinata tossed his head back with a squeal when Suga switched from drilling to kneading. He struggled even harder against his teammates and pleaded, “OKAY, OKAY, I FEHEHEHEHEHEEL BEHEHEHEHETTER NOHOHOHOHOW I PROHOHOHOHOHOMISE!! PLEHEHEHEHEASE STAHAHAHAP, SUGAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!”
Suga laughed and let up on his tickly attack, allowing Hinata a couple of moments to gather himself before offering him a hand back to his feet. “You good?”
“Y-Yeah, I’m good.” Hinata smiled up at him, his face a little flushed but his eyes brighter than ever. “Thanks.”
“All right, if you two are done playing around, let’s get this gym cleaned up and packed up for the night,” Daichi said.
Suga and Hinata both nodded their agreement. “Right!”
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spencersawkward · 4 years ago
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I love your ff first of all, I'm obsessed and second of all I would ask you a suggestion, idk if maybe is that too much and you're totally free to not do that but you ever thought to do something in the line of the knive kink? I think it will be awesome
i'm so sorry this took so long! big thanks to my guardian angel @voidsfilm for giving me inspiration bc i literally struggled with this one more than i should have. never written a knife kink but i’m glad i tried lol.
summary: reader finds an antique knife that Matthew's kept in a drawer.
content warnings: unprotected penetrative sex, fingering, oral (male receiving), knife play (no blood drawn), Soft!Dom MGG, degradation and praise.
word count: 3.6k
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if there is one thing I absolutely despise, it's working out. getting sweaty, running until my legs hurt and my lungs are burning for air... not really my thing.
but when Matthew brought up the idea a couple months into our relationship, I couldn't say no to him: he had a goofy smile on his face and the kind of look in his eyes that made me relent and ask what kind of stuff he wanted to do.
I think that I've found the one thing that Matthew can't make fun.
"I'm gonna pass out." I bend over and set my hands on my knees, trying to catch my breath. Matthew slows to a stop a few feet ahead, turning around and making a strained expression.
"oh, come on." but his voice is pretty breathless, too. he gently guides me off the path so that we don't get in the way of the other people out enjoying the day. a couple walks by us with their dog, strolling calmly, and I feel a rush of envy. if our workout routine had consisted of a few pleasant ambles around the city, I would have been totally willing.
"Matthew, I wanna go home." I whine impatiently. the only nice thing about this is that he's got one of those stupid sweatbands on his head to keep his hair out of his face, and it makes him look like a 1980's housewife.
"we can go home in fifteen minutes." he smiles, puts his hands on his hips, stretching in an exaggerated way.
"do you promise?" I brush a piece of hair out of my face.
"promise," he's lucky he looks so cute in his workout outfit. "we can even get one of those fancy juices for you on the way back."
"seriously?" I light up. this might actually be worth it; they have this amazing mango and lime combination that I can't ever manage to recreate with our own blender.
"if you beat me to the rock, then sure." he references the enormous boulder in Central Park that we both gawked at on our first date-- ever since then, it's been the end point for our runs. my lips curl into a grin.
"you're on." I take off, making sure to push him out of the way in order to gain a head start. he lets out something of a protestation but is quick to follow. I can feel his feet pounding behind me, trying to catch up.
I may not be good at running long distances, but I'm sure as hell faster than he is.
...
it's quiet when I step out of the bedroom, drying my hair with the towel and wandering into the living room. Matthew is sitting at the table with his sketchbook, drawing god knows what while he waits for me to finish up.
"what are you up to?" I ask softly as I plop down across from him. my head is slightly tilted while the towel rubs my scalp.
"I'm not really sure." he shrugs, frowning and holding up the notebook from a distance as if that'll help him figure out what to do.
"can I see when you're done?"
"of course," he sets it on the table again, then runs a fingertip across his chin. "actually, can you do me a favor?"
"sure."
"I have a set of colored pencils in the desk over there," he points to an old piece of furniture under the window. "would you mind getting them for me?"
"yep," I reply, getting up and leaving the towel on the table. "least I can do after kicking your ass."
on the walk past him, Matthew grabs my waist and pulls me into him, attacks me with tickles. I squeal and hit his shoulder.
"stop!" I laugh.
"you barely beat me!" he gives a dazzling smile and finally lets me go. I lightly smack him upside the head and head over to the desk, rifling through the drawers for the colored pencils he wanted.
as I push around various art supplies, glue sticks and random paintbrushes that look to be on the brink of falling apart, my fingers pass something cool and metallic. I grab the thing and pull it out.
it's a knife; like, a fancy one with an intricately decorated handle and what seems to be a pretty dulled edge. before he can notice what I've found, I start to move the thing between my hands curiously. there's a nice weight to it, but it's definitely old.
"hey, Matthew?" I ask warily.
"yeah?" so unassuming and sweet.
"why do you have a knife?"
there's a scratching as he gets up from the table to walk over to me. I lean against the desk. Matthew doesn't seem too bothered by what I'm saying at all, only gently taking the weapon out of my hands and examining it himself.
"oh, yeah!" he lets out something like a laugh. I raise an eyebrow and wait for him to continue. "do you remember when we went antiquing in Cape Cod, like, a month ago?"
"yeah." I nod at the memory. he'd been lucky enough to get some vacation days and we'd spent them sitting by the water with glasses of wine and nothing but time to talk. it really was a great trip, now that I think about it.
"I found it there." he still hasn't looked up and I realize that there's something he's not telling me. I don't know what I'm missing, but I start to get nervous.
"...why?"
"I was gonna ask then, but I guess I just forgot." his tongue darts out across his bottom lip as he lifts his face to meet my gaze. my heart thuds when he opens his mouth again. "I kinda wanted to try something."
"like?"
"I've been thinking about maybe using knives... in a sexual way."
"what?" I frown, confused by his wording. Matthew seems to realize that he's phrased it awkwardly and shifts his stance. he keeps glancing between the object and my face like he's worried about scaring me away.
"I don't mean I'm gonna stab you or anything," he laughs. "I just mean I think it sounds fun."
my hand finds his, brushing my palm over the steel to touch it myself again. there's a curiosity that burns through me now, something I'm a little unsure about but not enough so to deny the possibility of trying it.
"what do you wanna do with it?" I peek up at him. he bites his lip. we're speaking in gentle tones and I notice that our bodies have gotten closer within the last few moments. a warmth, a tension.
"like, pressing the blade flat against your skin while I fuck you." he takes the thing and demonstrates. the cool silver rests on my neck, too dull to really threaten a serious cut if he were to move too quickly. a shiver runs down my spine at the sensation of the metal.
I gulp, feel the curve of my throat push against it when I swallow. it's nice.
"oh." is all I say. Matthew is watching me intently, but he doesn't make any motion away from it. like he's entranced by the sight of me with a knife to my throat.
"are you interested?" he asks.
I mull it over. on the one hand, weapon play is something I've never considered in my sex life before. Matthew and I aren't vanilla, but this hasn't crossed my mind. that said, now that I can really feel it, there is a desire forming in my stomach. it would be a strange, new sensation.
"yes." the confirmation makes him smile a little. he lowers the thing and instead wraps me in his arms, kisses me passionately until our tongues are dancing over each other. I love how he holds me, our torsos against each other while my body leans slightly back to accept the weight of his touch.
he goes to my head like alcohol. and it's even more surreal when I feel the blade move under the hem of my shirt to rest against my back. I smile into his mouth. he doesn't do anything with it, just leaves it to remind me.
he starts to rut his hips against my lower stomach, getting aroused at the proximity of our bodies and the heated nature of our kiss. there's an urgency to all of it, like he's holding back. I don't want him to hold back; I want him to give me everything he has, everything beneath the surface.
my fingers twine in his hair and tug on the ends, causing him to groan into our embrace. there's no way we're going to make it all the way to the bedroom with the way he's grabbing at my body, so I stumble backwards towards the couch until the backs of my thighs hit the arm of it.
"you're horny." I giggle slightly when he pushes the hem of my shirt up my body, his nails dragging over my ribcage and trailing the object along with it. I feel the excitement growing.
"I'm just glad you're willing to try this." he murmurs the words, holds our foreheads together before his lips eagerly seek mine out, again. somehow, even with a weapon leveled against me, I can sense the love in every single action. I wouldn't have said yes if I didn't trust him to treat me with the utmost care.
I work at the buttons of his shirt, pushing it over his lovely shoulders and arms as he unclasps my bra. we're fervent, greedy in our movements, trying to kiss despite the attention needed to remove our clothes. mostly we just tangle up in each other until there's nothing left but my shorts for him to shove down my legs. he keeps his pants on.
"c'mon, beautiful." he mutters, pushing my legs open so that I'm sitting on the arm of the couch. he tilts my head and leans closer to suck on my bottom lip, and then starts to massage my tits. I can feel the handle of the weapon against my nipple.
when he reaches to slide his finger between my folds, I hiss out a breath at the cold sensation of his skin.
"is this because of me or the knife, baby?" he asks, corners of his mouth twitching up while I moan into his mouth. he starts to rub my clit with the collected wetness, teasing me too much. I want to fall back, but I can't. I won't let myself.
"both." I find myself turned on by the way the blade sits against my ribs again. the edge is just sharp enough to elicit a reaction from my body.
"feel that?" he angles the thing the slightest bit. I exhale and nod.
that isn't the response he's looking for, however, because he moves it so that it's under my chin. goosebumps on my skin while I pant uselessly against the weapon. I can feel it press harder with every breath out of my lungs, and I love it. I love the risk it brings out of me.
while Matthew dips his index inside my pussy, I writhe against it and tilt my head even more so he has better access.
"look at you," he lets out a dark chuckle, thrusts into me to the last digit. "you want more of this, don't you?"
"yes, sir." I breathe. my neck is actively moving against the metal. I glance down at his body and see his erection straining against his pants, craving release but finding none as he plunges his fingers in and out of me. I can hardly breathe from sheer focus on the sensations he's giving me right now.
"what are you looking at, sweetheart?" he quickens the pace of his movements and uses the object to make me focus on his face.
"you're hard." the words nearly die on my lips. he stares darkly at me, lifting his brows just enough to make me question whether I should have spoken at all. I bite my lip in anticipation.
"and what are you gonna do about it?" his voice is raspy as he stands back, removes his fingers from my pussy, and lets me drop to my knees. I'm weak both from the stimulation and from the loss of it, but I make quick work of undoing his belt, pulling the pants down his legs until I'm face-to-face with his cock. it sits against his stomach, throbbing impatiently while he watches. he uses the metallic point under my jaw to angle my face up to his.
"are you gonna suck me off, baby?" he smirks. I nod rigorously with wide eyes and an open mouth, dragging my tongue along the underside. Matthew's nose scrunches up for a moment at the shock of contact when I tease the head. all his concentration is on watching me wrap my hand around the shaft and pumping him gently. "spit on it."
I obey and spit right onto the tip before rubbing my thumb over the top to gather the precum. as I start to swirl my tongue and move my lips onto him, he throws his head back, lets out a wanton noise. it urges me on. I take every moment with a deliberate attention to the veins and sensitive spot he has.
"that's it, that's it." he rasps while knotting his hand in my hair. the other keeps the knife pressed to my throat. he lets me move on my own for a bit, gauging my desires from the way my eyes attempt to memorize the sight of his face above me, that jaw dropped in licentious craving. I can tell that he wants to fuck my face, but I go slow just to draw it out a little. it makes the soreness of my jaw worth it when he gets all impatient and flustered.
I hollow my cheeks and bob on his dick, bat my lashes, pull myself off him for a second just to kiss the tip.
"can I use your mouth?" he asks through a restrained groan. I open it and nod, sighing at the feeling of his fingers twining through my hair again before he pushes back into the opening. now that he's got full control, he starts to develop his own movements, sometimes meeting his thrusts by pressing my face against him.
he gets deep in it, never losing his grip on the knife, until my nose is pressed to his stomach. my throat closes instinctively around him even more tightly, and he lets out a guttural moan.
"such a cute mouth when I'm using it." he thrusts until I gag and then he's smiling. "get up."
he removes himself so fast, my eyes water at the sudden lack of blockage in my throat. I gulp air while he hooks his hands under my arms and hoists me up. I'm about to turn around so I can lift my leg and give him better access, but he sits me on the arm of the couch and parts my thighs.
"I wanna see your pretty face." he leans down and pecks my cheek. I smile at the surprising tenderness-- although it doesn't last long. steel sits against the space between my neck and collarbone. it's only a moment before he positions himself between my legs and slides his cock into me.
my back arches and I look him in the eyes, gasping.
"fuck, baby." he drags out the first word as he inches inside. I mewl helplessly at the way he stretches me out, my pussy clenching every few seconds. he keeps one hand on my lower back to support me and bring me closer to his pelvis, and then we're staring into each other's eyes as he finally settles in it.
his hips start to thrust into me, hopeful for any kind of contact while I accustom myself to the shape of him. it happens every time, despite the amount of times we've done this. and I'm bad at patience, but he's worse. his body stutters against mine.
"is it good enough, sir?" I ask quietly. he tightens his grip on my back and on the blade, the edge threatening my skin the perfect amount. I suck in a breath at the way it stings a little.
"you're doing perfectly." he recognizes what I want to hear as he finds my sweet spot and begins to hit it repeatedly, smoothly works my body. I swear there are planets in my eyes when I stare at the expressions on his face, both of us so wrapped up in each other that every other thought becomes obsolete.
he moves the knife to under my chin to rest on my throat.
"feel that?"
I nod so the edge bites more. he smirks.
"just to show you who you belong to."
my hips push up to meet his thrusts, needing more stimulation, more friction. what I want is for him to be relentless, to slam into my body with the kind of hunger I know he has. there are sounds, movements, that he's made before that make me want him to use them. but he's withholding, probably hesitant about the dangerous object on my pulse point.
"I belong to you, sir." I egg him on. he likes the sound of that, grunting and starting to pound into me.
"yeah? you're my dirty little whore." he speaks through gritted teeth. I shiver.
"mhmm."
"I use you how I want, when I want." his fingertips dig into my skin and he yanks me closer so that he can hit a new angle. I let out a surprised noise when he brushes my g-spot. it's otherworldly and I expose more of my neck to him.
"my little slut likes pain, huh?" he nudges the weapon harder into my skin. it doesn't draw blood, but I can sense the mark it'll leave. I love it.
"yes, sir." we're both getting needy, but we can't hold each other the way that we want to in our given positions. my palms are occupied on the arm of the couch to hold myself up and one of his hands is too busy holding the object for us to fuck as deeply as we need.
"are you gonna take it like a good girl when I cum in it?" he mutters. he runs his tongue over my jawline and the weapon nicks my skin. I moan at the mingling of sensations that's building all across my body.
"yes, sir." I plead. it's nearly unbearable, how much I want him. we're chasing our orgasms and I know what will finish me off. he knows, too.
Matthew drops the knife. it clatters to the ground, but there's no time for me to register it with the way he grabs my hips and lifts me into the air, my legs wrapping around his waist while he keeps fucking into me. he maneuvers us with shocking ease, laying me on the couch and positioning himself at the right moment so that I can drag my nails over his back and keep my thighs locked around him.
"mmm... baby, I'm gonna cum." he drives into me recklessly, both of us finally able to cling to each other. the angle is just enough to stimulate my clit and I nod, using the leverage of my legs to pull myself to him and roll my hips for friction.
Matthew slams my body into the couch, grunting in my ear as he finds his climax inside me. it's so deep, I have to work to keep the yell inside, but he's not done. he rides it out and plows into me while I reach the edge.
"tell me how it feels." he orders in my ear. I sigh.
"so-- so good, sir." my voice is thin. "I'm close."
"show me." he leaves bruises on my hips with his hands. I feel the knot finally snap, every muscle in my stomach spasming chaotically. I finish with a loud moan, begging him to drag it out further. my vision nearly goes black at the tide that threatens to overtake my body.
"Matthew--" I gasp. he moans quietly at the way I say his name, still rocking his body into mine while I come down from the shocks of orgasm. it's nearly overwhelming, the pleasure running through my body.
slowly, we come to a stillness and he drops his head into my shoulder, panting. he doesn't let go at first, but then he withdraws from my pussy and lets me take a rest. I lay there on the couch while he kneels between my legs, pressing gentle kisses to my neck.
"I love you." he repeats it over and over.
"I love you, too," I hope he can feel the meaning, despite the sheer exhaustion in my tone. he runs his fingertips across the red marks where the thing went a little too deeply, but I'm not worried about it. "we should try that again, sometime."
"you liked it?" he smiles brightly. I love the lines by his eyes.
"definitely."
he lets out a cheerful noise and buries his face back into my throat because he knows how much it tickles. I screech and giggle, my legs kicking wildly around me. more contented than ever before.
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kuroopaisen · 4 years ago
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tiny love || 10
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➵ as tooru’s younger sister, falling in love with iwaizumi hajime was easy. iwaizumi ultimately decided to rebuff you. through a few strange twists of fate, you’ve ended up living with the very boy who’d broken your heart. but, perhaps it’s not as bad as you thought it’d be. he is the perfect gentleman, after all.
warnings: f!reader, implied nsfw, reader is hopelessly infatuated with iwaizumi but who isn’t 
wc: 1.5k
m.list |  ch. 9 ↞ ch. 10 ↠ ch. 11
It’s strange, waking up in a bed that’s not your own in your very own house.
Stranger yet is that you have nothing to blame expect your own temper. You weren’t there because you’d drunk too much or taken something that’d impair your judgement.
You were there simply because you’d gotten so angry.
What happened didn’t fix anything. Maybe it’d just make everything messier.
But you couldn’t bring yourself to be upset about it. Not when Iwaizumi’s arms were wrapped around your waist and his peaceful sleeping face was just a breath away from yours.
He looks so soft, that small kink in his brow that’s around so often he may as well trademark it is gone, the corners of his mouth are upturned instead of tugged downwards by the weight of all his responsibilities, his hair all un-styled and messy due to all your ‘hard work’ last night.
Your eyes flicked down to a red mark on his collarbone. Whoops.
Granted, perhaps you should’ve been grateful that was the only obvious remnant from the events of the previous evening. Not that you had any idea what you looked like. Maybe you hadn’t made it out so clean.
Regardless, you just wanted to take the moment to admire him, to let yourself lie in this quiet moment.
Iwaizumi’s eyes flickered open, still heavy with sleep.
You held your breath.
What if he regretted it? What if the morning brought some kind of change? What if he’d had the so called ‘post-nut clarity’?
The softest smile you’d ever seen spread across his face as his eyes focused on you.
It’s enough to make you blush, all things considered.
He brought a rough hand up to cup your face, running his thumb gently over your cheek.
“Good morning,” he murmured, in what was perhaps the sexiest voice you’d ever heard.
“Morning,” you whispered back. God, why were you so bashful?
Iwaizumi was still smiling at you, an overwhelmingly fond look in his eyes.
“Sleep well?” He yawned, his arms tightening around your waist.
“Yeah,” you admitted. “You?”
“Best I’ve slept in ages,” he mumbled, gently tugging you closer to him. You conceded.
His shirtless torso was so warm, so inviting. And his arms… His arms… You’d fantasised about being wrapped in those muscular arms of his more times than you were willing to admit, but you were delighted to report that they did not disappoint.
This whole morning felt it was straight out of one of your teenage daydreams.
“Don’t you go for runs in the morning?” You asked, smoothing a hand over his side and up his back. It was enough to make your cheeks flare up again, but he couldn’t be the only one being all touchy.
Iwaizumi grunted, burying his face in your neck.
You giggled as his breath tickled your skin. “Well, I’m glad you didn’t just abandon me.”
Iwaizumi chuckled lowly, smoothing his large hand over the small of your back.
You shivered against his touch. It was almost like every nerve in your body was on fire. Iwaizumi still seemed positively sleepy, but you were wide awake.
“Hey,” Iwaizumi murmured, his lips brushing against your neck.
“Hm?”
“Is this what you want?” He asked.
You paused. Did he mean… this? The situation you’re in right now? Or did he mean ‘this’ on the broader scale? As in…
“What do you think?” You mumbled, your chest fluttering as you tightened your arms around his shoulders. It was safer not to assume anything. Not when it came to Iwaizumi.
Iwaizumi chuckled, his breath tickling your collarbone. “It’s a serious question.”
“Are you asking me if I want…” You trailed off, your mind caught in a war between dramatized recollections of last night and the will to discuss said events seriously.
“I’m asking you if you’ll have me,” Iwaizumi murmured, his voice low. “If you want to give us a shot.”
Everything stopped. Was this… was this really happening?
It felt irresponsible to let yourself believe that. Not when there was still so much unresolved tension.  
“Hajime…” You gazed at him for a long moment, your eyes roaming his face. “But, last time…”
“I was an idiot,” he smiled. “I thought we established that.”
“I know,” you pouted. “But what about…”
Tooru.
You don’t need to say it. Iwaizumi understood.
“Hey…” He brought a hand up to your cheek, caressing it gently. “I want to be with you.”
He’d said them. The words you’d always wanted to hear.
But it still wasn’t enough.
“Are you willing to say that to Tooru?” Perhaps your tone was firmer than it needed to be. Perhaps the question ruined the mood.
But you deserved an answer.
One quiet, frozen moment.
“I have to,” he murmured.
“What if he gets angry?” You asked.
That was one of the things he’d been so scared of all those years ago. It was only one brick in the wall between you; but if you had to chip away at it bit by bit, you would.
There was a long pause.
“This is what you want, right?” Iwaizumi’s voice was more fragile than you’d ever heard before.
“Is this what you want?” Given the situation, it might seem like a stupid question. But you weren’t going to make him fight for this if it wasn’t
“Yes.” He said it without hesitation. “I should’ve told you that a long time ago.”
“Yes, you should’ve,” you grumbled.
But your chest felt like it was both collapsing and expanding. It was like flowers made of light were sprouting from your bone marrow, twining through your ribcage and tickling your lungs.
Not that you’d let him know that.
“But… if he gets angry, we’ll just… have to work it out,” you said. It didn’t feel like much of a solution. It was barely even a comfort. But, you had to say it. Even if it was just a promise to yourself that you’d face this, even if every instinct was telling you to run.
“I can talk to him alone,” Iwaizumi said.
“But—”
“He’ll be angrier at me.”
You bit your lip. “I… I guess.”
Iwaizumi was right. But part of you felt like that was only the case because Tooru kept babying you. It was like he thought you were still twelve, young and innocent and completely unaware of the world of relationships.
But Tooru had to accept that you were growing up. Iwaizumi Hajime was part of this, whether by sheer chance or as some part of a great cosmic prank.
“We’ll tell him together,” you said.
Iwaizumi lifted his head and stared at you, eyes slightly round. “You sure?”
“Yeah,” you nodded. “That seems fair.”
“But—”
“I’m not a doll, Hajime,” you said. “If Tooru thinks he has a right to dictate who I can and can’t be involved with, then he’s going to have to speak to me about it.” 
Iwaizumi laughed. A true, genuine laugh. It was a beautiful sound.
“My bad,” he smiled, bringing a hand up to stroke your hair. “We’ll talk to him together, then.”
It was happening. It was finally happening.
Iwaizumi Hajime was within your reach. And this time, he wasn’t running away. This time, he was letting you in with open arms.
Nice as it was, it was disorienting. You didn’t know what to feel – proud? Ashamed? Stupid?
You were lying in his bed, after all. You can think of at least one person who’d berate you for that.
But Amaya’s inevitable scolding aside, you don’t feel… bad, about it. Was that just because you hadn’t really done anything like this before? Were you moving too fast? Or was it okay, given your history? But then again, your history probably meant you’d need to go even slower…
“Hey, Hajime?” You asked, your voice tiny.
“Hm?”
“Do you think we… rushed things?” You asked.
“Maybe,” he sighed, drawing back from you. “If you want to slow down, then—”
“No.” Your cheeks bloomed red in recognition of how embarrassingly quickly you’d cut him off.
Iwaizumi smirks. “No?”
“I just mean that—well, you know—” You swallowed, rifling through your brain like an office worker who’d lost a very important piece of paper. “It’s just that—we’ve already, you know…”
Iwaizumi laughed, the corners of his eyes crinkling in the way you’d always adored. “Are you saying you can’t keep your hands off me?”
“That’s not what I meant and you know it,” you huffed. “You pervert.”
“Pervert?” He grinned. “If I remember correctly, you were the one begging for—”
You kissed him coarsely in a meagre attempt to shut him up. You felt him smile against your lips, his hand moving down from your waist to your ass.
“Like I said,” you mumbled against his lips, “Pervert.”
Iwaizumi chuckled. The warmth of the sound spread from his lips through your whole body. 
This is where you were meant to be. 
✧ ✧ ✧
a/n: hh hi sorry this is incredibly overdue i hope it doesn’t disappoint 
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zuffer-weird-girl · 4 years ago
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Soulmate Au
Before you meet your soulmate you have to deal with a chibi version of them before actually meeting them. So can you handle it?
Hawks point of view
A/n: finally I kicked the sloth aside and wrote this...
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Soulmates weren't a good thing... that was at least what your mother told you.
Soulmates crushed your heart. Not all soulmates accept their own ones with kind hearts and cozy and loveable chibis... Your mother fell for your father, a loveable chibi who appeared in her life, everything was fine until... your birth.
Your father's chibi was cold and uncaring about the baby. The fruit of your mother's unconditional love from him. And with what he returned? Bullshit.
They got separated. They never once married, and the chibis ran away from their owner... never appearing again.
Your father and mother shared your custody even though you pass more time with your mother and the mom of your dad.
"I hope you never get a soulmate (Y/n)." Your mother spoke as she carresed your hair, hate evident on her words as she comforted your crying self due to some hurtful thing your father had said to you.
"W-why not mama?" You sniffled as she wiped your tears with a frown.
"They can hurt you as badly as some knife on your chest sweety. If you happen to have a soulmate, promise me you will not put your heart on their hands, dont give yourself away for the cuteness of some chibi. It may not be real."
That was when you started to have a fear towards the cute things...
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You walked around your school, seing all of your classmates cheering or talking about their chibis. Some on their shoulders, others on the top of their heads...
You grimaced. You felt... left out. Despite your fear to getting one, how you wished to find your soulmate... just hoping that you didn't ended up like your mother... or worse, like him.
You had affection towards your dad for a while... but as the years passed by, you noticed how his "play" was more of hurtful words. The man only cared about himself and his money... yet you couldn't leave.
You felt like a bird on a cage.
Sighing, you sitted on a bench... alone. Picking your art supplies as you started to doodle on your notebook. You hummed a song while the pencil on your hand leaved trails of graffiti before smilling at the sound of birds chirping.
Something felt on your notebook then... you let out a confused sound at the thing.. a drop of some red fluid. You looked up and frowned before you went to brush your hair before gasping at noticing it was YOUR blood which had fell.
"W-What?!" You whimpered, now the pain starting to manifest as you hissed. It was like a knife had cutted your skin! And gosh, how it hurted...
Grabbing your things and rushing to the bathroom you didn't noticed something entering your backpack... you wiped at the blood and sighed.
"I will have to go to the enfermary... but what will I tell the nurse?! Suddenly this appeared?! Urgh!" You hitted your forehead in the mirror with closed eyes, opening them slowly after.
Seing a blond and feathered chibi looking up at you. Your eyes widened and blinked to confirm it was real before it squeaked at you. You screamed and dropped in your butt, crawling your way until your back hitted the wall of the bathroom.
The chibi squeaked. A worried sound as he flew, getting closer and closer to you as you trembled.
"S-Stay back-!" You grabbed a ruler that felt and pointed at him, making him stop on his flying as he arched one of his eyebrows and let out a giggle..
Sure, you would laugh as well if someone pointed a ruler to you as if it was a weapon...
"Stay back! Go to your owner or something!" You shouted before he furrowed his eyebrows again, smile fading as he flew and dropped inches awya from you. It came out a soft squeaked, and somehow you could just feel it was like a apology.
"I-Its okay. You just scared me appearing out of no where..." you hesitantly dropped the ruler back and hot on your knees, looking down at the chibi.
It had such messy hair... golden eyes, shining as bright as the sun, yet it carried a deep pain and some sorta of loneliness. You could certainly understand him...
"I'm sorry, did I scared you as well?" He shook his head as he pointed at his own cheek and squeaking at you. You touched the wound and got what he was supposed to say "I'm okay... didn't know where the heck I got from though..." you mumbled the last parts.
He squeaked at you again, opening his little wings and flying at the at the height of your eyes. Some little feather coming out and tickling your cheeks which you giggled a bit.
"So that's your quirk!" You giggled, the chibi letting out a yelp of glee of seing you smile as he did a black flip. "Okay okay, you're nice... Where are your soulmate though?" You tilted your head at it as he stopped and pointed at you.
Oh...
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You caried it on the palms of your hands as if it was going to break it... get frowning at him for being so.... handsome and... too perfect.
Your mother's words echoed in your head as you entered your father's car and he drove you out of the school. He saw the chibi and started saying bullshit like "got a soulmate dolly? Heh!"
You ignored at his clearly fake smile and smiled at the chibi flying around your head and chirping and squealing. It reminded you of a bird!
Maybe... you could just trust your own soulmate?
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"(L/n)-san!!! You are a life saver!" Your coworker moaned while holding onto the table as you finished your drawing.
"Sure."you giggled before signing it. Waiting a few minutes before you saw the puppy slowly coming out of the paper and jumping at the floor, shaking and barking cutely at your coworkers.
You snorted at hearing the sound of tiny hands clapping inside your jacket pocket. Birdbrain. The chibi always encouraging you of using your quirk.
"Thank you so much! My nephew then will get some ideas on what kind of dog he will want!" Your coworker chuckled at the puppy licking their cheek.
"It will be like this for at least four hours, but then they will return to the paper. Dont forget." You warned, allowing your birdbrain to flee as free as he wanted out of your pocket.
You smiled at him, opening your hand for him to sit on it. Such an ass, your soulmate was surely one of the most laziest man around.
It had passed years since he appeared on the bathroom for you. Yet you felt your guts twist in anxiety at only the thought of getting to know the actual male that was your soulmate...
Words of your mother ringed in your earbuds each time and your relationship with your father was no better than before. Now aparently he was trying to rebuild only because he knows he is getting old and needs help...
A strong crashing and sound of people shouting and crying made you break out of your thoughts. It all happened so fast. Endeavour, the top one hero crashed your window and if it wasn't for your chibi you squeaking loudly and pushing you out of the way you were going to get hitted.
A voice from another hero came up and for some reason the feathers of your chibi ruffled up as he widened his gold eyes up before you rushed out of the building along with him.
:we have to get out of here before this collapse on us!" You shouted as bird squeaked along as you helped some coworkers of yours along the way to get out.
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You didn't stay up to watch the fight... you just wanted to get out and go home to where it was safe.
Yet your chibi completely disagree with that as he squeaked, flapped his wings... heck, even threw a chicken wing at your head.
Your birdbrain NEVER would throw a chicken wing away. Never. You come to notice his love for nuggets and other chicken related things like that at a young age, joking about him being a canibal.
You had enough when he just flew past your head when you were going to eat and pushe dyour head while pointing at the winfown
"Fine! You won!" You shouted, glaring at him when he made an action whose was almost shouting hallelujah, before getting out and him flying behind you.
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The night was quite beautiful as you and your chibi walked, him rested on your shoulder as he smiled at looking at you.
It was peaceful before he jumped on his feet, his little wings wide open as his feathers ruffle up. Eyes sharp as a Hawk.
"You're okay? Birdy?" You asked in worry before gasping when he just flew like the speed of light away from you.
"BIRDY!" you shouted, running after him on the path of the park.
Shit! If you lost your chibi then you would never get to meet your soulmate! Tears started to form on your eyes as you searched for your chibi oi the dark of the night.
If you werent so anxious and stupid! You could meet your soulmate even if it wasn't for this stupid fear of having a relationship like your mom had!
Suddenly your heard distant squeaking, recognizing as you almost sobbed in relief and followed the sound. Noticing him flying back to you.
"You bird brain! How much did you wanted to-... to.." you stopped talking immediatly when you saw a tony version of you on his arms, smiling and cuddling up to his chest like it knew him for ages..
You blinked before hearing footsteps coming closer, and when you looked past the chibis your heart jumped before being shooted by an arrow.
The man in front of you, was no other than the actual version of your chibi. The number 2 ranking from the heroes. The man whose was know for being way too fast....
"H-Hawks..." you greeted shakily, not quite believing yet. Sure, your chibi reminded you of Hawks a lot, but... it seemed yet more intimate. More clingy and desperate for affection and actual love... You just put in your head that it was another man, with a similiar quirk and appearance as him.
Well, you were wrong. Hawks was indeed your soulmate.
He let out a chuckle at your gretting. His wide eyes and shock washed away with relief, smugness and... love, actual love on his eyes.
"Since we're soulmates, I guess you should at least call me Keigo..." he mused with a smile, taking his visor off to take a good look at you, frowning when his eyes were at the aim of the scar you had... the one whose mysteriously appeared on your skin many years ago before meeting your chibi.
"How long do you have this?" He asked, you felt your cheeks warming in self conscious at it. You never actually cared when other people asked but with him was another story...
"Since my childhood I guess... It was out of no where." You mumbled in embarrassment yet with a smile, praying mentally taht he take your mumble as a joke.
You widened your eyes when his hold brought you closer to him before he touched his forehead with yours, lovingly golden orbs staring at you with care and not a piece of judgement inside them.
"I like it chickadee." You snorted before a series of giggles escaped your lips at this, hounding quite hilarious that you also named your chibi something bird related.
"Chickadee? Really?" You asked breathless as he let out a raspy chuckle.
"Well, you did called the little fella over there birdbrain. Guess we're mates for life..." he mused with his husky voice as the chibis prefered to watch from afar on a nearby tree.
You smiled at him... somehow.. You just knew it this relationship with him was going to work. You were going to be, as he said, mates for life.
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fluffyglass · 4 years ago
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WELCOME TO DILLYDALE! (UPDATED!)
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The updated cast is finally here!
Y'know how I mentioned my sister and I were working on a project? Yeah, this is that.
Welcome to Dillydale! is a fanmade Reboot of The Mr. Men Show, thought up by two teenagers who have absolutely nothing better to do.
With a much more story-focused narrative aimed at slightly older kids, Welcome to Dillydale! features numerous small story arcs starring all your favorite little misses and mr. men!
Full Cast + Extra Info below the cut
Mr. Tickle - You know him, you love (or don't love) him, he's the absolute classic.
Mr. Greedy - Your friendly neighborhood chef, taste-tester and gourmet all in one!
Mr. Happy - Dillydale's favorite constantly-smiling TV host!
Mr. Sneeze - Achoo!
Mr. Bump - The accident-prone little dude himself.
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Mr. Small and Mr. Nosey - that one gay couple who everyone knows and yet nobody seems to remember how they met
Mr. Messy - The filthiest resident of Dillydale.
Mr. Fussy - The least filthy resident of Dillydale.
* Mr. Clumsy - While not a resident of Dillydale, he occasionally pops by to visit his cousin, Mr. Fussy!
Mr. Nervous - Dillydale's paranoid jelly man. Don't startle him, or he'll melt into a puddle before your eyes!
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Mr. Lazy - Possibly the second-most brilliant inventor in Dillydale - if only he had the motivation to act on his ideas.
Mr. Mean - Probably deserves Mr. Stubborn's catchphrase more than he does.
Mr. Bounce - Boing! Boing! Boing! Boing! Boing! B
Mr. Strong - If anyone in Dillydale had to be the most fitness-obsessed, it would have to be Mr. Strong. That's like - his thing, y'know?
Mr. Quiet - Can't hear you, next please!
Mr. Grumpy - Getting too old for this entire town's nonsense.
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Mr. Skinny - Was incredibly easy to fit in this character list!
Mr. Cool - Whatever he is, he's too cool for you.
Mr. Rude - At this point, he's more tired of everyone's stupidity than actively rude. He's still rude though, don't get me wrong.
Mr. Scatterbrain - Can probably bend reality. If he could/can, he'd use it to make himself a sandwich.
Mr. Stubborn - May or may not be an alien. He's totally an alien.
Mr. Crosspatch - Violence incarnate.
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Little Miss Bossy - Karen
Little Miss Naughty - A criminal
Little Miss Sunshine - Dillydale's favorite female constantly-smiling TV host! After all, they can't just pick between her and Mr. Happy!
Little Miss Tiny - Just you wait until she grows up! (She never will)
Little Miss Helpful - She is not helpful. But she sure does try to be.
Little Miss Magic - (⊃。•́‿•̀。)⊃━⭑・゚゚・*:༅。.。༅:*゚:*:✼✿
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Little Miss Shy - Barely anyone knows her, because she barely leaves the house. Poor girl, honestly.
Little Miss Splendid - Can afford to live in a way fancier city, but stays in Dillydale because she knows she can flaunt her wealth better there.
Little Miss Late - Her description was late, it'll be here in a few hours. Or days.
Little Miss/Mr. Twins - Which is which? Why, if they swap their bows, nobody could tell!
Little Miss Chatterbox - Oh, Little Miss Chatterbox is such an interesting character! Y'know, while I was drawing her, I remember thinking to myself "oh, Miss Chatterbox has such an iconic design!" and thus she ended up being one of the characters who's design didn't change at all, oh, speaking of characters who didn't change, I also-
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* Little Miss Stubborn - Lives on a farm out in the countryside. Still pissed that an alien stole her identity.
Little Miss Fun - Can't sit still for more than 3 seconds at a time.
Little Miss Somersault - Good at basketball, probably
Little Miss Scary - RAWR!!!
Little Miss Whoops - Probably the clumsiest resident of Dillydale, much to the dismay of her brother, Mr. Bump.
* Little Miss Calamity - Disappeared from Dillydale years ago. Her whereabouts are still unknown.
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Little Miss Princess - Wait, wasn't Dillydale's monarchy overthrown?
Little Miss Hug - *Hugs you*
Little Miss Inventor - The actual most brilliant inventor in Dillydale.
* Little Miss Daredevil - She moved to the moon, but visits home often. Why did she move to the moon? She's Miss Daredevil, that's why!
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Wow, what a lovely group of characters!
BUT WAIT, THERE'S EXCLUSIVES!
(Aka ocs we put in for funsies)
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Little Miss Autistic - Dillydale's resident "if you ask me about this book series I will tell you every fact about it known to man" girl.
Little Miss Gleeful, Little Miss Rampant, and Mr. Witty - Miss Bossy's three little tyrants.
Mr. Fancy - Prettier than you.
Little Miss Perfect - Perfect, perfect, perfect.
Little Miss Purity - The purest diamond around. Or so she'd like you to believe.
I reached the image limit for a tumblr post, so the remainder of the characters shall be in a reblog! See you there!
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dontfeeltoohot · 3 years ago
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Anything w allergic or photic Casey or Chase is always a good read for me!
So uh. I went originally with Photic Casey. And then....it spiraled into 2.6k of photic Casey and then added allergic Casey. So. I hope you enjoy!!
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It’s something Matt’s hated since he was a kid. Up until dating Sylvie, he’d not even known there was a word for it- photic, she’d said. All Matt’s ever known is that when he walks out of a building or gets out of a vehicle, and the sun catches his eyes, the need to sneeze overwhelms him and he turns away, stifling a sneeze; or sometimes two, into his arm. (And yes, that’s another word he’s learned from is ever-knowledgeable girlfriend- stifling. He’s always just assumed it’s called ‘not letting a sneeze out to be quieter’. Though honestly, that’s a long name for something so simple.)
Sylvie thinks it’s kind of adorable, and always gives him this soft, fond smile when they get out of his old truck or her car, and he has to pause after taking a few steps. His eyes will flutter shut, his nostrils will twitch, his brow furrows, and then he’ll turn away from whoever is near him to let his body get at the irritation. He’s learned over the years that wearing sunglasses sometimes helps, but usually he likes leaving those in the car, or he’ll forget them wherever he sets them down. A hat works too, but in the summer it gets too hot.
Even though Matt is ridiculously shy about things like this, drawing unneeded attention to himself, he thinks it could be worse. At least he’s not loud or obnoxious (hello Severide), and he’s usually able to keep his sneeze near silent. Is it still embarrassing? Yes. Does he want to sink through the floor when it happens on scene and someone blesses him? Absolutely. The idea of any of their victims or bystanders thinking he could be sick makes his skin crawl. But all things considered, it’s not the worst.
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As he jumps out of Truck 81, Matt’s boots hit the concrete driveway outside the apparatus floor. Boden‘s instructions during the morning briefing had been clear- all rigs were in desperate need of a wash, so Kidd stops the truck outside as they make their way back from the most recent call.
As soon as the May sunlight dances across his face, the common, tell tale sign of his body’s stupid reaction to it starts prickling in the back of his sinuses. Eyes closing, the firefighters breath hitches and then he brings his right arm up to his face, tucking his nose and mouth into the crook of it.
“h’gKt!” Shaking his head, Matt gets five steps closer to the app floor, then ducks his face again, inhaling another shaky breath. “ihh’kXT’uh!” Blowing a breath out, the Captain sniffles and rubs his face into his arm, thankful when the tickle recedes. As he makes his way towards the common room door, Sylvie appears at his side, playfully bumping into his shoulder.
“Bless you.” She’s got that same usual, fond smile, and Matt feels a blush creep onto his cheeks. He knows that she knows he gets flustered at comments like this, so he gives her a pointed look, but it lacks heat and he squeezes her shoulder.
“Thanks.”
Before going back out to help clean up 81, Matt finds the extra pair of sunglasses he keeps in his quarters and shoves them on, not wanting to bother with the sun again.
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The call they’re on is one of their…stranger ones, to say the least. A small kitchen fire is nothing out of the ordinary, but when they make their way into the home, light smoke drifting out the door, they’re met with what the guys would venture to guess is about fifteen cats. At least. Internally, Matt groans, but outwardly he assures the woman who’d placed the call that everything will be alright, and the damage shouldn’t be bad. He’s right, of course, as he surveys the kitchen after Kidd uses only an extinguisher to get the flames down. For how much he’s about to suffer, he wishes the call had been a little more substantial.
As he talks to the kind woman, who thanks him over and over, Matt feels one or two cats encircling his legs and gear. Keeping professional, the dark blonde keeps his eyes trained on the homeowner, and gives her a few suggestions of different contractors or workers who can help get the paint and backsplash back to new. He guesses, as the woman continues to talk, that he’s been in the house roughly twenty minutes. He’s already getting stuffy, and his eyes are starting to feel vaguely irritated, along with his sinuses.
Sniffling, Matt gives her a smile. “Make sure to remember to turn the burner off next time,” he says kindly, letting her know the department cares about her safety. As he goes to move; the rest of the crew already out the door, a long haired grey cat jumps up onto the counter and moves with him, brushing against his turnout jacket. Grey hairs float around in the air, and Matt subconsciously holds his breath.
“Oh, and Captain!”
Matt turns, momentarily forgetting about the animal next to him. “Yes ma’am?”
“I have a daughter who I’m guessing is around your age. I’d be happy to give you her number, she’s a nurse down at the local children’s clinic.”
Momentarily stunned at the boldness of the woman, Matt freezes then composes himself, responding with a smile. “I’m actually seeing someone right now, I’m sorry. I bet your daughhter is lovely though.” A tickle that’s been laying low in his head suddenly flares up, but he keeps talking, resolutely ignoring it. His gloved hand swipes quickly at the underside of his nose, and he sniffles again.
“Oh, I..I apologize,” she laughs awkwardly. “I don’t know what came over me. I hope you have a nice day.” Matt notices her blush and nods, ready to get out of the cat-infested house, too.
As soon as he steps out, the tickle sparks again, as if coming back with a vengeance. He gets halfway to the truck before he has to pause. Though to any truck member, the scene is all too familiar and mostly ignored by now, Matt’s acutely aware this isn’t his usual sunlight induced sneeze that’s about to happen. The itchy feeling is far too strong. No, this is his ‘I’m ridiculously allergic to cats’ fit that’s about to happen, whether he wants it to or not.
“hh’NGKt! h’Kgxxt!” He rubs his face against his arm, rough material only serving to exacerbate the ticklish feeling, and the cat hair all over him isn’t helping either. “ihKTschh’uh! h’ihKSCH’uhew!”
He continues walking, desperately wanting to just get in the truck and head back to the firehouse. As he makes his way, Matt takes his turnout coat off, balling it up as much as he can so the hair on the outside is now on the inside. Getting in, Matt sniffles wetly and rubs at his face.
“Everything good?” Mouch asks from the back, sitting next to Gallo.
“Fine, she just wanted to thahhnk us all,” Matt speaks through the urge to sneeze. His nostrils twitch in warning, and he snaps his head down, unable to bring his arm up quick enough. “gh’KT’uh!” Another wet sniffle. “hih’Tschh’uh!”
“You alright Captain?” Gallo’s voice is drowned out in his head by a soupy sniffle, and he waves off Stella’s concerned look as he rubs his nose roughly.
“Mhmm. Let’s go.”
He manages to stifle half a dozen more sneezes into his arm on the way back, and finally turns when Gallo once again speaks up to see if he’s okay. Thank god two out of his three truck members know not to question him.
“I’m fine, Gallo.” He doesn’t mean for the words to come out as snappy as they do. “I’m just allergic to cats.” The words feel foreign on his tongue, it’s not often he out-right admits to it, hadn’t even told Sylvie when offering a place for Veronicat to stay during shift months ago. Gallo seems to understand and sits back in his seat. Matt turns back around and waves off Kidd’s look of worry, giving her what he hopes is a convincing smile.
“Really, I’m okay.” Another rough scrub at his nose and face, and Matt blinks hard, eyes watery with allergic tears. “S-Sohhry..” He knows it’s gross, witnessing an allergy attack like this, especially when they’re in such a close, confined area. Kidd shrugs, driving up to the firehouse.
“Hey, I get it. You’ve seen Severide when it’s Spring. You’re not nearly as bad.”
He knows she’s being kinder than she needs to be, but it makes him feel less on edge. A second after they park, the firefighter opens his door and then freezes again. His nose is an annoying combo of runny, stuffy and itchy, the tickle flares up, but as his breath hitches, the feeling recedes just enough to make it tease Matt, and he lets out a breath. Desperate to get the feeling out of his head, the Captain hops out and looks up, directly into the sun.
“ih’ngKTsch! ihhkTSCH’ew! Dahhmn it..eh’itschh’ew!”
Impossibly stuffy and itchy sounding, Matt turns away from the firehouse, unable to stifle the last two. He takes a moment to rub at his face, knuckle pressing and rubbing against his left eye. He’s sure he must look a mess, and he’s not looking forward to walking past everyone to get to the showers. Blinking rapidly, eyes blurring with allergic tears, Matt directs another two, smaller ihkshh! sneezes down to his arm before heading to the turnout room to put his gear away. The action makes more of the cat dander and fur fall around him, and Matt has barely two seconds before he inhales sharply, desperately, then grabs a green bandana from his back pocket of his work pants- the one he couldn’t reach in all of his turn out gear. Pressing it snuggly against his face, the Captain’s head tips back as his eyes shut.
“hihh! hihKTSchh’uhew! ih’gKSst’uh! hih’kshh’ew!”
The sniffle he gives after is thick and it only makes another tickle appear. He’s unaware of the woman behind him, too caught up in another itchy triple, but when it ends, she puts a hand on his shoulder and he tenses, before turning to see his girlfriend.
“Stella wasn’t kidding when she said you were dying,” Sylvie says, half sympathetically and half teasing. She’s not ever seen Matt like this, not this allergic to anything. He’d been mildly allergic to all the dust they’d kicked up when they’d moved into a new town home together, but that was nothing compared to everything in front of her now. The firefighters eyes are red and irritated, puffy below. His nose is a bright shade of pink, mess accumulating around his still twitching nostrils. There’s a few tear tracks running down his cheeks, but it’s when she spies a few small, red blotches on the right side of his neck, that Sylvie kicks into PIC mode.
“Okay, hey, lets get you to the ambo, yeah? I’m going to give you some diphenhydramine and an ice pack to see if we can get some of the swelling near your eyes to go down. Are you able to breathe okay?” Worry pools in her stomach at the idea of him going into anaphylactic shock. Five minutes ago she hadn’t even known Matt was allergic at all to cats.
“Yeah, I can breathe ok, just not through my nose…”
Sylvie winces at the ridiculous amount of congestion in his voice. If she wasn’t paying attention, she’s not sure she would be able to understand him. As they move towards 61, she looks over her shoulder to the Squad table.
“Severide, I need you.”
The dark haired man looks up, and Sylvie’s aware the scene must be odd, her pushing Matt towards the ambo while he scrubs at his face. Within seconds, the Lieutenant is by their sides, frowning hard.
“Jesus Case, what happened?”
Matt looks up at his best friend and grumbles something about their call and a cat lady. Both others wince.
“Can you tell Boden that we need to find someone to relieve Matt? He can’t work like this, and I’m about to give him enough Benadryl to knock out a horse.”
With a quick nod, Severide claps Matt on the shoulder, then jogs off into the firehouse to find their Chief.
“Okay, come sit…” Sylvie gestures to the gurney.
“Bohhssy…ihKTch’uh!” Matt tries his hardest to aim the sneeze away from the blonde, but he’s pretty sure he only half misses. He’s too miserable to care though, more focused on wanting to claw his face off.
“I would say bless you, but I’m pretty sure I would owe you another fifty at this point,” she jokes, first grabbing an alcohol swab and wiping down his upper arm, then drawing up 50 mg of the antihistamine from a small glass vial. Checking to make sure it’s the right amount, she sets the vial back down and then gives her boyfriend a small smile. “Just a quick pinch, ok? I’m going to give you two of these…”
Matt nods, still sniffling wetly, pressing the bandana to his face. Sylvie thinks it’s vaguely endearing, the fact he has a bandana he carries around with him. After administering the first dose, she’s in the middle of the second when Boden appears.
“Casey..” both she and Matt look up when they hear their Chief. “What happened?”
“Uh…call we hhad…woman had a lohht of c-h’kTSchh! Cats..”
“There’s no way he can stay on shift. I want to keep him here though, he needs someone to keep an eye on him, just in case the meds don’t help,” Sylvie steps in, not wanting Matt to have to try and talk anymore. He’s already barely understandable even without the interspersed sneezing.
“Understood. I’ll put in for relief, but until then I’ll be with truck. And I think we should probably get a couple of pills into a bottle to keep on truck,” Boden looks at the Captain, who nods tiredly. “You worry about getting yourself better. I’ll talk to truck to let them know what’s going on. Brett, take care of him.”
At that, the man leaves them alone, and Sylvie finishes up putting a bandaid over the injection site. “Shower time. Then lay down in your bunk, I can bring you some tea, see if it helps open you up at all. I didn’t know you were so allergic…” she rubs a hand through his sweaty hair before they both get out of the rig.
“Mm, have been since I was little. My mom got Christie a cat when we were kids…” Matt pauses to sniffle and rub at his nose. “He lasted less than two days in our house. I was..well…pretty much like this after my first encounter with him. Christie was upset of course, said I ruined her life, but then she goht..ih’tschh’uhew! got a dog, and forgot all about her terrible little brother ruining her life.”
The story warms something in Sylvie, like always. Hearing anything about Matt’s past, especially the good things, is never taken lightly with her. It means a lot he’ll share his memories with her, knowing how secretive and closed off he usually is with people. But then again, they’re dating, so she must be above most people, and again, she feels warm at that.
By the time they’re at the showers, she presses a quick kiss to his lips. “I love you. I’m kind of glad you’re more of a dog person. Veronicat ruined the idea of a kitten for me, but a little puppy one day could be nice.”
Matt grins tiredly at her, nuzzling her shoulder briefly. She can tell the meds are starting to take effect. “Go shower, or you’ll be regretting it when you fall asleep standing up.”
“Yes ma’am. Thanks for taking care of me Syl.”
“Eh, it’s what I do,” she teases back, then turns and leaves so he can have his privacy and get cleaned up. What a day.
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pocketfulofrogers · 4 years ago
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Everything Comes Back to You
Pairing: Dean Winchester x Reader
Summary: Dean can count on one hand the amount of weaknesses he has. Despite his every effort to keep his distance over the years in an effort to keep you safe, he find himself at your door a few too many times. Everything changes when it you who calls him.
Notes: My first supernatural piece! A story told through many years.
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September 14, 1996
There were few things you despised more in this world than calculus. The lecture had drug on and on, monotone and continuous, until you felt like you could scream. A miracle of reprieve came when the door opened and in walked a boy who seemed to glide on charisma. He made some kind of offhand joke and flashed a smirk that had half the girls already in his palm.
For you, it was what you saw in his eyes that drew you to him. Something akin to the pieces you kept buried deep within you.
December 22, 1996
You’re sweet, unbelievably so. The way you taste, the way you sound, the way you feel. It’s so easy for Dean to bury himself in you, forget about everything that isn’t in this bed. You had been the solace he didn’t know he had been searching for- offering just a few moments of peace in this life he had no say in.
Most days he believes you may be the light that will save him, other days he believes it unfair to ask such a thing of you.
You nuzzle into his chest and his arms around you tighten. “What are you thinking about?” You ask.
Maybe it’s how tired he is, running between the motel to check on Sammy and darting straight back to the comforts of this bedroom that has him feeling so unnaturally mushy. You’d say it’s the Christmas spirit looming in the air, threatening to infect him with just a bit of joy.
You did love Christmas, and he loved you.
But love was not something he was allowed in this life - stability never something he’d known. Dean knew the drill all too well. The moment he allows himself to plant any semblance of roots, it’ll be time to load the Impala and disappear. Kansas may have been home once, but it isn’t home now.
Still, he couldn’t help himself when it came to you.
Sometimes his mind wonders to what his life could be if he were to just ask you to run away with him. Leave this little town and never look back. No more hunting, no more fighting, just wonderful, uncomplicated, boring life. Life with you.
He’s never met a hunter that’s successfully left the life, though. The longer you knew him, the higher the chances got for you to get caught in the crossfire and he’d never forgive himself if something were to happen to you.
You’re silently watching him, waiting for a response to a question he had already forgotten.
“I should go check on Sam.”
April 18, 2002
“You gave my address to who? Mom, just because someone says they knew me doesn’t mean you should tell them where I live! It doesn’t matter if he seemed like a ‘wonderful young man’ you know there are things out there.” You’re pacing in your living room now, tempted to grab your shotgun.
“Oh, Y/N, stop it with that nonsense. He had a photo of you and now he’s on his way.” Your mother dismisses you.
You groan and toss your head back. “Well hopefully you can describe what he looked like to the cops when they find me-“
Then a car pulls up, engine roaring and rock music blasting. You knew that car, you knew it well. Sneaking up to the window, you take a peek around the curtains and see the sleek black Impala. A man gets out, the leather jacket he’s wearing tickles a memory long buried.
It isn’t until you see his face that it settles in- butterflies swimming in deep rooted anger. The boy who left you with nothing but an aching hole and a postcard with no return address was all grown up and damn if he didn’t look good.
“Gotta go.” You hang up the phone.
When he knocks, you brace yourself- scrounge up all the will-power you have so you can kick him out. There will be no apologies or pleasantries. No sir. None. Not one.
But Dean’s always been one step ahead of you, so, he’s quick to start when you open the door- death glare only momentarily stalling him. “Listen, I know-“
“Get back in your car and go home.”
“Just hear me out for a minute.” He pleads.
You want to tell him to go, you really do, but one glance at those green eyes and every fiber of your being is pleading for you to just wait. Call it hope, call it weakness, call it a desperate need for some form of closure, you let him in.
Narrowing your eyes, you ask him, “Why are you here?”
“I wanted to see you.”
You hate how that almost settles your anger, how after all these years he still had some ridiculous hold on you. “How can you possibly believe I would want to see you after what you did? That kind of hurt doesn’t just disappear, Dean.”
“I know, I know. I’m also here to apologize. I should have said more-“
“More?” You interrupt exasperated. “Please tell me you did not come all this way to ask me to absolve you of your guilt.”
“That’s not-“
“Because you showed up on my doorstep, asked me to pack a bag and run away with you- leave my life and everything I’ve ever known to go who knows where with you. And then, when the sun rose in the morning, you were gone.”
“You hadn’t exactly been happy with me.” He tries to defend himself.
“Yeah, but you know what I did that night? I packed a stupid bag and waited for hours in front of that stupid diner. Waiting and waiting, but you never showed! You just left me! Know what I got out of it? A postcard from Topeka with a half assed ‘I’m sorry’ written on it.”
He falters under your gaze. “Y/N, I am sorry. I really am.”
“I just want to know why, Dean.” Your voice falls and he can no longer meet your eyes. “Come on, there are a million excuses. You couldn’t leave Sam, you couldn’t leave you dad, you didn’t actually love me. Just pick one so I can move on.”
“I did love you.” He bites back.
“Then what, you couldn’t leave the life?”
His eyebrows furrow as he takes a step closer and lowers his voice. “What do you mean?”
You sigh. “I was young but I wasn’t stupid. The family business wasn’t sales, Dean.” His eyes widen. “People started disappearing right before you and your family showed up. They stop disappearing and then all of a sudden, you’re gone. I had my suspicions, but it wasn’t until I met another hunter a few years later that I knew for sure.”
He makes his way into your living room and you want to ask what gave him the idea that you wanted him in your home.
“If you know about that side of this world, then how can you blame me for wanting to protect you from it?”
Of all of the reasons you had come up with as to why the boy you thought was the love of your life had left you high and dry, this wasn’t one. Had he truly loved you? Had he weighed his heart and your life to determine which he valued most? You can’t tell if that idea hurt more than the rest.
“Who were you to make that decision for me?”
“Who are you to expect me not to have?”
It’s quiet, uncomfortably so. Dean rakes his fingers through his hair and your arms tighten across your chest. This wasn’t how it was supposed to be. None of it. He wasn’t supposed to have left you destroyed, calling out for him in the middle of the night. You were supposed to have moved on, supposed to have said goodbye to the boy with so much sadness in his eyes and so much love in his heart.
You never really do forget your first, though, do you?
He sighs, drawing your attention back to him, and pulls his gaze from the ceiling. “This isn’t what I came for.”
You tighten your arms across your chest and take a step closer, then another. “Do enlighten me, then. What are you really here for?” You’re dangerously close now, a breath away and Dean can barely think. “What is it you want?”
You look up at him and in a second he’s gone, just like that first day. It’s nostalgic and painful and warm all at once. How was it you still had this power over him?
“You.” He breathes out.
October 14, 2006
“Hey, uh, Fairmont? That’s close to Eudora, right?” Dean asks, trying so hard to seem casual.
Sam peaks around the bathroom door, noticing his brother has been ‘cleaning’ the same weapon for the last thirty minutes, and raises a brow. “Yeah, not too far.” Dean just hums. “What’s in Eudora?”
“Huh? Oh nothing, just thought a detour would be nice with everything going on.”
Sam spits his toothpaste into the sink. “Didn’t we spend a Christmas there?”
Dean stalls. “Well, you know, we moved around so much it’s hard to tell when we were anywhere, really. I couldn’t-“
“No, no, I’m sure we did. I had that English teacher that snored through Shakespeare.”
“Your memory is definitely better than mine, I couldn’t tell you much about-“
“And there was that girl, gosh, what was her name again?” Sam prompts his brother, already knowing the answer.
“There’s been so many girls, Sam, can’t expect me to remember all of their names.” Dean chuckles nervously.
The flop sweat on Dean’s forehead is almost reward enough, but hearing him sputter and flail was just too good for Sam to give up.
“She had the hair and the mom, liked Christmas.” Dean stutters again. “Oh right! Y/N! Aka the girl who’s name you say in your sleep on a weekly basis.” Now he’s red. “How long has it been man? If you could’ve made it work, you would’ve. What’d she say when you saw her last?”
Suddenly the floor is very interesting to Dean. “That I can’t keep coming in and out of her life.”
“That’s all the closure you’re going to get, Dean, take it.”
October 18, 2006
Work had been the worst. The only thing you wanted was a bubble bath and a huge glass of wine. The last thing you expected when you finally reached your driveway was Dean Winchester sitting on your porch, but of course, with the cluster fuck of today, this might as well happen.
You take a moment to collect yourself before stepping out of your car.
“Heard you took down a Rougarou in Tennessee. Thought you said you didn’t want a part of this life.” He raises a brow and you can’t tell if it’s an accusation or an ‘I told you so’ moment.
“Was there for business, it was just good timing. Guess you were right, though, can’t just sit by.” You shrug. He looks like he’s waiting for something, something you’re sure you can’t give him. “What are you doing here?” You ask, sounding more tired than upset.
“I know, I’m sorry. But we had a case nearby and Sammy told me no, but next thing I know I’m in my car and then I’m here. Really, it’s your fault. Should’ve moved.”
You snort. “And you wouldn’t have found me?” He only shrugs. “What is it you want, Dean?”
“A friend?”
“You drove all the way out here for a friend?”
“Guess you could say I’m in short supply.”
You look him up and down, noticing the bags beneath his eyes and something in you aches for him. Of course, you had heard about the passing of John, that may be the very reason he’s here, but knowing Dean, it’s not a subject he wants to touch.
Ten years later and you can still read him.
“Fine, but don’t ask me to run away with you.” You tease. “Twice is enough for this lifetime.”
June 16, 2013
Dean is in the middle of another argument with Sam trying to defend the importance of bacon when his phone rings. Sam’s dramatic sigh of relief earns an eye roll from his brother.
“Dean Winchester.” He answers, but he can’t hear anything on the other end. “Hello?” He tries again and this time he makes out heavy breathing. “Who is this?”
“Dean.” His name barely slips from your lips and to his ears before you groan.
He leans forward quick enough to earn concern from Sam. “Where are you?”
“Sound stressed.” You chuckle before sputtering.
“Y/N, tell me where are you.” His voice is the kind of calm that would usually send ice through your veins, but right now you were struggling just to keep your eyes open.
“Not sure.” Your speech is slurred and the panic Sam sees in his brother’s eyes drives his fingers faster as he works on a trace.
“How bad is it?”
“You should see the other guy.”
“Dammit, Y/N, not the time. Where are you hurt?”
“Broken ribs, I think. This gash in my side seems a little alarming.” You squint down at it trying to determine if your blurry vision was a result of the gapping wound or the nice blow to the head you took. “Objectively, all very bad.” You mumble.
Dean is over Sam’s shoulder now and if he hadn’t looked as terrified as he did right now, Sam would be making a less than funny comment about it.
“Were you on a hunt?” His voice is still cool, but he begins to waiver when he has to strain to hear your confirmation. “Is it still after you?” He has to press the question two more times before he gets a response, by then he’s already started the Impala.
“Finished him ‘for he finished me.”
“Y/N, were on our way.” Dean grits out. “You just hold on a little longer and we’ll get you all patched up.”
You barely manage to hum response before everything begins to fade out, Dean yelling your name in the background.
June 17, 2013
They had only barely made it in time. Dean had come sliding to your side, bandages already in hand. He spoke softly to you, a drastic contradiction to the frantic shake of his hands.
Sam had never seen his brother like this before.
“Dean, I don’t think…”
“No! Just,” Dean tossed the keys to Sam and slipped his arms beneath your limp body. “Get us to the nearest hospital.”
He sat in the back seat with you holding as much pressure against the flaps of skin as he could, still talking so softly to you. Sam’s heart ached as he heard his brother beg you not to leave him and make promises they both know he can’t keep.
When he could no longer feel you breathing, his eyes shot up to the review mirror and Sam slammed on the gas.
Squealing into the ambulance drop off, Sam began to yell for help as he pulled open the back seat door. Dean was frozen, all of the color drained from his face.
Emotion cut off from his voice, he had barely managed a whisper. “I think she’s gone.”
From there, he had spent the last six hours trying to force himself to come to terms with the fact that he had lost one of the only good things in his life. Sitting there in some criminally uncomfortable waiting room chair with his head in his hands.
All he could see was you. You twirling around in a bright sundress with the Kansas sunset kissing your skin. Your eyes closed- lips parted slightly as you slept soundly. You angry, red in the face accusing him of using you as some kind of sick tie to a simpler time.
Was that all she was to him? No, he shakes his head at just the thought of it. To him you were the only thing that made sense. A singular constant that he felt like his whole being revolved around.
But he had never told you.
Finally, by 5am he had almost convinced himself that he would be fine.
So, when the doctor comes out with blood speckling the bottom of his scrubs, he wants to shut down, but he needs to know.
“Just give it to us straight, doc.”
“She’s alive.” He says. “The surgery was tough and she gave us quite a scare, but she is alive.”
His knees almost give out from beneath him.
June 20, 2013
Everything hurts. Your side, your chest, your head, your skin. The gentle breeze from the vent above you is what pulls you out of the darkness. The harsh fluorescent lights are almost enough to send you right back to the comfort of the dark, but a shifting pressure at your thigh piques your interest.
Slowly, trying not to groan despite every muscle in your body screaming, you look to your left. Dean’s arm is draped lightly across the tops of your thighs, his hand curling in at your hip. For a moment you do nothing but watch him sleep, his eyes fluttering behind his eyelids every so often.
He looks like shit.
Dark, sunken bags have built up beneath his eyes and it looks like he hasn’t shaved in days. A part of you feels flattered imagining the fuss he had to have made to not only get you here, but to stay here himself.
Without thinking, you begin to move your hand to caress his cheek. Your fingers trace the lines of his now furrowed brow before you thread them through his hair. The movement hurts, but it’s worth it.
Especially when you’re rewarded with a lovely green as his eyes slowly open. For a moment you think there may be no yelling or ‘are you out of your mind’ speeches when a smile begins to slowly light up his face. And then, as if he’s suddenly remembered what has happened, his smile shuts down into a scowl.
“You almost died.” He hisses lowly.
“Almost.” You echo and try to cough out a laugh, but it devolves into a groan. His alarm doesn’t disappear when you try to wave him off. “I’m fine now, so why don’t you go shower or something? You smell.”
“So you can try to slip out?” He narrows his eyes at you. “Not happening.”
“You’re usually the one that slips out.” You mutter, but he doesn’t hear you. “You can’t kidnap me, Dean.”
“The hell I can’t.”
June 23, 2013
“Bedroom here, bathroom down there. Sam and I are here… and here.” Dean’s pointing to doors as you struggle to hobble behind him on his tour of the bunker. When he stops, you almost run into his back. “Sammy went to grab some stuff from your house, but it looks like you don’t live there anymore.” He only raises a brow when you advert your gaze.
Instead of responding, you turn around to point at a door a couple down. “Mine? Sounds good.” You scurry as quickly as you can into the room, but Dean catches the edge of the door before you can shut it.
“You’re not going to explain yourself?”
You laugh bitterly. “Explain myself? Are you kidding me? I don’t answer to you, Dean.”
“You know that’s not what I meant.” You want to turn away from him, but he’s holding your gaze too intensely. “What’s going on with you? You’re living out of cheap hotels and hunting on your own now?”
“Oh, that’s rich coming from you.”
“Y/N, cut the shit. It’s just you and me here. Have you even told your mom what happened?”
And it’s this comment, this sincere question that takes the final piece of your resistance from him. He watches as the tense set of your shoulders fall and your face relaxes. The malice and resentment slips from your features and it’s a relief.
“She’s dead.” You barely manage to whisper. “Vetala. Didn’t know they worked in pairs. Her husband found her tied up in the kitchen three years ago.”
He’s stunned. It’s probably the only thing you could have said that would steal his fire in an instant. He knew that kind of pain, that kind of drive. He knew it too well. You sniffle before quickly wiping your eyes and his face falls imagining the pain you’re feeling.
To his surprise, the moment is gone as quick as it started when he watches you swallow down your emotions and rebuild that wall in almost an instant.
“Don’t worry, I know you’re not one to be domestic. I’ll be out of your hair the second the doctors clear me.”
It stings. “Just like that?” He asks, not caring this time if you hear the hurt in his voice.
“Why would I stay? You make it clear what you want each time you stop by my house for a quicky and then slip out without a word.” The stunned look on his face is infuriating. “I get it, Dean. It’s convenience and consistency. Not love.”
“Not love?” He repeats your judgement, rolling the word around his tongue and he has to admit he hates the taste. He repeats it again, louder this time and it startles you. “Y/N I gave up everything I ever wanted that night I left you at the diner because I love you. I have tried and tried to stay as far away from you to keep you safe because I love you. I show up on your doorstep in moments of selfish cowardice because I can’t stay away! Almost my whole life I have been drawn to you time and time again and I know it hurts you. It kills me to hurt you, but I can’t stop because I love you.”
Dean’s chest is heaving, his breath falling across your face with how close he is to you now. “You love me.” He has to strain to hear you, but you need the clarification. Love or loved?
“When I saw you laying on the ground, bleeding out, I wished it was me instead. But when I held you in my arms and you…” His voice breaks and his eyes water. “And you stopped breathing…”
Before you know what you’re doing, you have your hands cradling either side of his facing, soothingly hushing him.
“Dean.” You murmur. “I’m okay, you saved me.”
“Stay.” The word bursts through his lips without his control. “Please, just stay.”
A single tear falls from your eyes as you nod knowing that the idea of a place called home had changed over the years, but this, him- he had always remained.
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Pairing: Hal x Reader
Summary: You grew up as witness to the atrocities committed under the British crown. Lord Grey is your father and newly pledged councilman of the royal court. Now, England has a new boy king, one who is set on keeping peace in Europe. You are determined to see England burn, even if it means corrupting the lionhearted boy of Eastcheap.
Word count: 10k+
Warnings: explicit smut, strong violence, sacrilegious imagery a blowjob in a chapel lmao
A/N: l’ incendie ; French translation for fire
..so..I watched The King back in November and have had this idea in my brain for the past 2 months now?? It literally consumed me. All throughout my last few weeks of classes and final papers, this is honestly all I could think about, like I’ve been bumping the soundtrack and rewatching the film to plan this, I looked at Lord Grey’s true lineage (he aint Scottish btw I made that up..but he really was related to King Edward lol).......I’ve just had to get this out of me for so. long. and I’m so happy that I finally have! It feels like this huge weight is gone, but I’ve enjoyed this creative process so much, like it’s so exciting when you hyper-fixate find a new piece of media that you enjoy so much that you dive completely and utterly into everything about it that you can get your hands on, and this is my piece for this!
And my boy Timmy?? Had no fucking clue who this guy was before I saw the film, now I’m writing fics about him a;sdkfjskj but you’re here reading this so. we’re both guilty.
I love story arcs like this where you see a character’s slow descent into corruption and having it revealed that someone was talking in their ear the whole time....i eat that shit right up. Reader’s character is heavily inspired by Lady Macbeth. Using wiles, using sex, etc. Ooh baby. I had fun with this. 
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Scotland was once your true home. Moors, lochs, rugged mountains, biting cold, all. You remember the endless mist and gloom, the wet winters of your childhood that made the creaking wood of your cottage whistle and moan. Summers were warm and mild and the highlands bursting with rich green and sunlight, running through fragrant fields of heathers, bluebells, myrtle with your skirts damp with dew, shrieking and choking on laughter as your older brother, Callum, chased you all throughout your little village of Kirkcaldy. Laughing himself, grabbing at you and wrestling you down into the mud, blossoms, and river water.
“Yield! Yield to the English crown or perish, wretched witch!” Callum would boom in mock play, tickling your sides until you’re gasping for air and tears stung your eyes.
“Aye! I yield!”
“What? You mad girl! Take it back! We are Scots!”
And then Callum would descend on you with all the wrath of England and you’d be howling with giggles and screams.
Returning home at nightfall smelling of wind and rain with vibrant wildflowers tangled in your hair and dirt streaking the skin of your cheeks, still plump with baby fat. Scarce food, but stomach full of adventure and blissful naivete. You were happy. 
Your father would scold you promptly before his voice would soften a touch, smoothing back your hair from your face. Round, curious eyes and missing teeth. A feral, untamed child. 
Daughter of Lord Thomas Grey. His precious girl. So much of your mother in you, the same fight, the same spark and love for life. Until you had ripped her body from the inside out and she had lost too much blood, the wet nurses unable to stop the bleeding and she had given her last breath cradling you lovingly against her naked chest.
You had killed your own mother. 
In your early years, Callum and your father gave you nothing but warmth and protection, the sole surviving daughter of Grey lineage. But a child can only be sheltered for so long. Your world is a man’s world. Your country is no stranger to bloodshed. 
The Anglo-Scottish Wars have endured for as long as you can remember, rebel leaders beaten down by English captains and more Christian blood staining the lush lowlands with every day. Robert the Bruce. Percy Hotspur. Blood all the same.   
You are bleak, wild, uncivilized in the eyes of the English. 
It’s all your people have ever known. Weary, resilient Scotland. 
You have no memory of your mother, your earliest memory being the image of William Wallace’s torso strung up in the village square and the ensuing riots that had truly put the fear of God in you, mounted soldiers and civilians clashing in a fury of slick, gory steel, longswords and blacksmith daggers, a fear so raw and primal it struck you frozen and you’d soiled yourself in the midst of chaos. Callum had grabbed you and raced the four miles home as you bellowed atop his back with great, ugly heaves, snot and tears dribbling down your chin. 
You didn’t need to understand the politics of rebellion or Wallace’s stake in it all to understand a massacre. 
You have no memory of your mother, only murder in the name of the English king. 
But you’ve learned to nurture that little glowing kernel of survival, of the fighting spirit and grit inside you that had evidently cost your mother her life. You’ve kindled it, watched it ignite with every passing year of war, your body flourishing into the figure of a young woman with embers in her soul. A stable simmering of flushed coals beneath your skin, glistening in the pools of your irises, ready to flare up and burn all you touch should you choose to. 
You feel it now as a jostling carriage takes you to Northumberland, England. You sit quietly, watching the hills of Scotland tremble by, eyes hungrily drinking up as much of its strong landscape as you can.
Your father and brother have already gone ahead to England to make arrangements for Callum’s recent engagement to Isabel, Countess of Essex and only daughter of the Earl of Cambridge. You are reuniting after a lonely week, perhaps your last, to ever see your homeland. 
Callum’s betrothal didn’t come as much of a surprise, rather, you’ve been counting down the days until your village lifestyle was doomed for inevitable change; for years, your father has been preparing the two of you for noble life outside of Scotland. Son and daughter subjected to the arts of chivalry, proper etiquette, gentility. The best that your little village could accommodate.
Your father and his maternal ancestry have interestingly long influenced the English courts, as his title of Lord would suggest. Through his grandmother’s side, you are distant descendants of Margaret, Duchess of Norfolk. 
King Edward himself. Now cold and buried in London’s Westminster Abbey. 
The coals jump, flames twisting at the idea of relatives long dead sitting idly on the opportunity and resources for a coup d'etat, instead choosing to line their own pockets and watch your country crumble from the comfort of their English estates. 
The carnage and murder of monarchy feel that much more personal to you. 
With your brother’s new marriage, Callum will acquire lordship and be gifted property in Essex. Your father will be secured a seat in the king’s council. You will be given rooms and hospitality in the castle as a noblewoman available for marriage. As Lady Grey. 
A lick of fire coils up your throat. 
God save the king. 
**
The switch cracks so hard against the skin of your knuckles that your lip draws blood when you bite back a scream. Pain diffuses up your arm in fractured, ringing jolts and your eyes flood with hot tears. You hazard a look at where an angry welt has already started to flush, red and pulsing on the back of your hand. 
“Again.” Says Miss Hunt.
Your gaze falls to the open manuscript in front of you, to the passage that you’ve rehearsed aloud for the past two hours. Your tongue works nervously in your mouth, swallowing. Sweat glistens your brow. You think you may even be trembling. 
You draw in a quick breath and begin again:
“Time and tide wait for no man.
The life so short, the crafts so long to learn.
People can die of mere imagination.
And gladly wolde he lerne, and gladly teche-”
Another crack and this time you can’t restrain the cry that leaves you. You blink back the heat blurring your vision, set your jaw when Miss Hunt clasps her hands coldly behind her back and looks down at you over her hooked nose. 
“Your voiced consonants are absolutely horrid, girl. Don’t close up your mouth. If you are to perfect the King’s English, you are to completely forget that savage dialect before I cut out your tongue. Am I understood?”
Miss Hunt gives you a smart swat to your cheek.
You nod quickly. 
Another stinging swat.
“Am I understood?”
“Yes, Miss Hunt.”
Satisfied, she turns on her heel, granting you a few precious moments of quiet, of rest. Afternoon light filters into the chamber in dusty, silvered shafts, hueing the book’s pages in a drab of diluted grey. The inked words of Chaucer bleed back up at you as you settle your breathing. 
This English sits like gravel in your mouth, low and rough and choking up your throat. Sharply iambic, as if everyone is talking down to the other. 
England’s English sounds slow and stupid.
You wonder if Callum had this much trouble mastering the accent. You wonder if Callum, as a Lord, has ever been slashed with a switch.  
Since your arrival to England and for the better part of a year, Miss Hunt has dissected every syllable of your speech through bodily punishment and repetition, ripped out any trace of Gaelic, any remaining trace of Scotland on your tongue and sutured it back together with mouthfuls of Chaucer and pompous, exaggerated vowels. 
But pain, degradation, and humiliation are wonderful motivators. And to your horror, it has worked.
Your father recently introduced you to a few councilmen out of courtesy and as the sister of the soon to be Lord Grey of Essex. You politely discussed politics, entertained banter and jests of marriage proposals. None questioned your status as an English noblewoman. 
Masquerading with voice and poise. 
But that hasn’t stopped your secret, unseen resistance. 
Miss Hunt may have taken your language and cadence, but her practices have only shown you the true powers of speech, knowledge, shown you just how intimidated and afraid all of England is of the bold north, of any European empire threatening its legitimacy. 
A cowering dog with raised hackles and snapping teeth, but only so out of mad fear. 
The harder Miss Hunt pushes, the deeper you dig into your own studies. By day, you are her sole pupil. By night, by candlelight, you are the pupil of Cicero, studying rhetoric and the power of spoken influence. You’ve also begun to study French as a means to bolster your wiles and mental arsenal. 
You are already a so-called savage by blood. Learning the language of England’s arch rival will do nothing to hurt your reputation. 
You feel a bead of sweat slide down the base of your spine as the switch swishes impatiently in Miss Hunt’s clutches. Oral recitation and the simultaneous reduction of your accent demands every ounce of your concentration. You know already that if you are hit again, the skin will break and you’ll only be reprimanded harder. Miss Hunt is sadistic and cold with her beady eyes and that ugly high starched collar.
“Again.” Her voice clips evenly.
So, you inhale a strong, supportive breath and begin again, pushing down the smolder in your chest.
**
The day of the wedding is cloudless and full of sunshine, a rarity for England. Callum has been bustling about the chapel’s back rooms in nervous energy all morning, fixing his hair and dress shirt over and over. You send your father to go and calm him down as you tend to Isabel, shooing him away quickly so your father’s mirrored jitters won’t affect her before the start of the ceremony. She gives you a small smile of thanks.
Isabel looks beautiful sitting in front of the mirror as her maids finish arranging her hair. Back straight as a board, plump lips and cheeks the color of a rosy, coral pink. You help to pull the veil over her face and the thin fabric does nothing to mute her radiance.
You see the flickering range of emotions in her eyes as she sees her own reflection. The life that all women are fated to live. Her last moments of true freedom, uncertainty for the future, and that small, significant trickle of vanity at having a perfect day of her own. 
You see it all. After all, you are a woman. 
She relaxes a bit when you lay a comforting hand on her shoulder. Her gaze finds yours in the mirror. 
“You and I will soon be sisters,” she laughs softly. You give her a pleasant smile.
“I would want nothing more.” 
Her throat works as she swallows tears, gives you another radiant laugh. “Someday, you will be sitting here, too.”      
The truth of her words causes your smile to weaken, but you quickly hide it by busying yourself with her skirts and lace. Your world is a man’s world, even outside of war-torn Scotland. One man’s world, to be exact. 
King Henry IV.     
“And I expect you, my dear Isabel, to be at my side when that day comes.” You say to her. She nods kindly. 
Your brother and Isabel are married a few hours later beneath the rainbowed, iridescent wash of stained glass and chiming church bells. And as the newly wed couple beam at you and their close company of friends and family, as you see Callum hold his wife proudly on his arm, you think that the bride and groom may truly love each other despite their arranged marriage. The possibility of such a happiness makes you grin wide and the familiar coals to simmer down ever so slightly.     
The reception then moves to the chapel’s outdoor gardens. Ornately trimmed hedges, chirping birdsong, bubbling marble fountains, and the sweet fragrance of daisies and roses perfume the budding spring air. 
The sun is warm on your skin, the air brisk and comfortable. You keep your fur lined mantle draped around your shoulders, your embroidered sleeves catching hints of daylight, the jeweled metalwork glittering about your waist. And with your hair twisted with ribbon and pinned back with a light linen caul, even Isabel herself murmurs that you look as refreshing and incandescent as the flowers surrounding you. You smile back teasingly, whisper that no one could possibly compare to the blushing bride. 
As sister of the groom, you mingle politely, accepting congratulations and kind regards.  
You see familiar faces, lords and fellow council members alike, and some of those not yet well acquainted. You meet Cambridge, Isabel’s father and a bird of a man. Gangly limbs and a flittering that accompanies his quick movements, but cordial and gentle. He tells you the union of your families will be prosperous, benign. You agree.  
Then, Cambridge is pulled aside by a young man. Cambridge seems to recognize him instantly and clasps him into an embrace, chuckling heartily.
“Hal! You made it!” he exclaims. The two talk together briefly before the young man turns to you. 
He’s tall and lean, broad chested with sloping shoulders. The angular planes of his face are undeniably handsome, a strong nose, full dark lashes and brows that frame his bold complexion. Black, unkempt curls and soft, hooded green eyes that hold an undertone of vigor, like his very gaze has commanded attention his entire life. They flicker over you quickly, as if you’d imagined it yourself, a trick of the light. 
You don’t miss the way they linger at the exposed dip of your neckline, however.
“Aren’t you going to introduce me?” He then asks of Cambridge, his voice a soft murmur and his eyes never leave you. 
Cambridge looks quickly between the two of you, as if acknowledging your presence again for the first time since this young man’s interruption. He burns bright red, stammering, then gestures to the stranger beside him.
“Of course. My lady, may I present my cousin, Henry. Prince of Wales.”  
The suddenness and sheer absurdity of it all almost makes you burst out in laughter.
Cousin? King Henry IV’s eldest son is the cousin of your father-in-law? 
With this marriage, you realize your family is now tied to the most powerful family in all of Britain. Yet, no one in the wedding party seems to have even acknowledged the presence of the boy prince dressed simply in dark cloak and tunic.
And then you remember. Prince Hal is a drunk, a dangerous playboy from Eastcheap. His claim to the throne is as illegitimate as the probable dozens of children from his bedded girls. 
And asking for a formal introduction from his cousin? It’s utterly laughable, pathetic even.
Hal’s gaze is unwanted, skin prickling from where his eyes trace the curve of your chest in a way that makes you feel vile. 
So, you wet your lips, pretend to wordlessly accept his flirtations and give him a slow flutter of your lashes. The reaction he so craves from you as his chin tilts back in delight, hungry to see more. 
“Your reputation precedes you, my lord.” Your words drip with venom. Flowery girl with a serpent’s sharp tongue. 
The barb makes Hal’s features tick in surprise, shock before settling back into a cool demeanor. 
“Then you’ve heard of me.”
Your mask of amour stays firmly in place.  
“It is hard to be deaf against such defamatory gossip.”
Hal hums softly with a hint of a smile, breaking his gaze to look out over the reception, ego obviously bruised. Cambridge goes pale as a sheet.
Isabel suddenly swoops in with the apology of wanting to introduce her father to a newly arrived guest and excuses him, hauling him away by the arm. Cambridge looks relieved to go.
And then it’s just the two of you beneath the halo of rose-tinted light. 
“Beautiful ceremony.” He says simply. Hal is incredibly soft spoken for a prince and you find yourself unconsciously leaning in to hear him speak. Part of the intimate charm that makes him so alluring to women, you think. A whispered promise only for you.   
“I thank you, sire.” 
He takes a step forward. It startles you, enough for him to crowd you against the garden trellis wall. Ivy and lavender press into your back, dancing in the same breeze that peppers goosebumps down your spine. You shiver softly. Hal steps closer.
“I pray this is not the last of today’s festivities?” His words ghost over your throat, tickling the shell of your ear. 
“No, sire. There will be a dinner tonight,” you reply just as quietly. You understand the game perfectly because it is the same one you have been playing your whole life. You indulge him, fire sparkling behind your fluttering eyelashes. “Surely your cousin will be expecting your attendance.”
Hal leans over you, hair tickling your face, green eyes glimmering. Up close, you see that freckles and beauty marks dot his skin. “I’m sure he will.”  
You think you see him incline his head as though to kiss you. For a moment, you’re frozen, entranced. 
You turn your cheek and his lips brush your temple. He hesitates with a low chuckle, keeping his close proximity.
“Then, I will see you tonight, my lord.” You whisper. Your fingers graze his arms as you sidle out of his reach. You can feel his eyes on you as you go and rejoin the other guests. 
You leave him burning. 
**
The tavern teems with merriment and the sound of fiddle, fife, and drum. You feast on broiled meats, roasted potatoes, greens, sweet breads and cakes until your stomach is full to bursting. 
 The glow of candlelight is lush and sensual, throwing shadows over the faces that only hours before you had shared with in prayer and communion in the church of God. Now, every attendant indulges in debauchery.
You’re drunk, blood pounding with mulled wine and spiced ale and cider. Pleasantly warm and head swimming, watching Callum and Isabel and friends and family dance about the room as if possessed, twirling in swirls of colored fabric that make you laugh and clap along in breathless euphoria. 
You catch a glance of a figure standing in the doorway. You see the motion of a glass moving to lips, throat working to swallow drink. When the glass falls, you lock eyes with Hal.
You beckon him forth with a crooked finger. He grins wickedly and sets down his cup. 
Despite the obvious wine in him, his steps towards you are sure and true and his hands feel good against you when they caress your waist, pull you against him.
You play coy and twist out of his arms. He groans. 
He follows you like a dog until you’re in the midst of spinning bodies and then you turn to him. Giving him the permission to finally touch you.
His eyes ignite. He splays a hand on the middle of your back, perfect pressure, authoritative, the other gripping you tight and then you’re both cackling with drunken mischief as he guides the two of you across the creaking wooden floor. 
You let him support you, lean against his chest, enjoying the sensation of being held so close. The thrill of feeling wanted. 
Even if it is all a charade. 
The strings and beat of thumping drums careen to a crescendo that has the entire tavern whooping and hollering in delight. You break apart from Hal to join in as the music flows through your limbs, absolutely enchanted, throwing back your head like that feral child from girlhood.      
Hal looks just as wild, the rumored wayward prince. Long, dark locks falling in his eyes, tunic unbuttoned and disheveled. Light and shadow dancing across his face in a manner that makes him look devilish.  
He pushes a glittering goblet into your hands, eases his strong fingers around your own to help bring it to your lips. You see the unmistakable red slosh of wine and wordlessly drink. He watches you tip back the goblet, watches rubied jewels of crimson spill down the sides of your mouth and down the skin of your throat.   
“That’s it. That’s a good girl.” He cooes. 
The flames feel desperately hot, flushing your skin and cheeks, burning bright behind your lips. Or perhaps it's the alcohol? Or the prince’s wandering touch that now seems to be cupping your breast, tongue lapping at the trails of wine…
The heat is suddenly too much and you push away to a secluded corner filled with empty tables to catch your breath. Hal slumps beside you. His head lolls, dipping to press another whisper of a kiss to your jaw and his weight feels comfortable against your side.
You don’t know what comes over you. Perhaps you truly are possessed.
You turn into him and then your hand is reaching between his thighs. 
Hal exhales sharply in your ear. You harden your touch, feel him widen his stance to accommodate you. He braces an arm behind the small of your back, supporting himself on the space of the wooden bench as your fingers slip below the waistband of his trousers. 
He gives a strangled sigh when you grip him tight and begin to coil your hand. His head lolls once more, nuzzling into the crook of your neck, panting, bursts of hot breath fanning over your throat. You feel your own breath quicken, feel yourself getting excited.
You mesh your other hand into his curls and pull him closer, press your body flush against his. Hal moans, keening, his arm now around your waist. You shush him quietly, tightening the hold in his hair.   
To any patron, you look as though you’re only consoling a drunken boy, simply talking in the muted light. The shadows hide you both but the flames shine in your eyes.     
“Enjoying the festivities, my lord?” You sigh into his cheek. 
“Please don’t stop..” Hal whimpers. 
You chuckle through a half-lidded gaze and work him harder. It’s delicious, erotic. 
You hold all power, all of England in your delicate grip. 
You watch his mouth fall open, dark brows furrowing, feel him tense against you before the eldest son to the crown spills himself onto your fevered palm with a sharp gasp, chest heaving.  
“Good boy..” you murmur with a cheshire smile, running your fingers soothingly down the line of his jaw. Hal shudders with aftershocks, eyes closed, forehead glistening with sweat. 
Before he can attempt to try and reciprocate the favor, you wipe your hand on his cloak and stand to fetch another drink. 
**
You avoid Hal afterwards and don’t see him again for the remainder of the night. You think he must have gone home with another girl to satisfy himself and it makes you smile knowing you are responsible for laying that trap, for letting him taste pleasure, driving his desperation and taking it all away just as easily. 
Your brother and Isabel spend their honeymoon in London before returning to her home in Essex. They write to you, informing of their safe arrival at the new estate and that you will have to come visit in the very near future. It warms your heart. You already miss them terribly. 
Soon after, your father is awarded the scarlet, fur-trimmed peerage robes of the House of Lords and with your new rank, you experience the privilege of wealth for the first time. 
Rich foods, dresses and flowing silk skirts, cosmetics, more books and manuscripts than you can imagine. You glow with health, beauty, pride, and sharpened wit.
But you have not forgotten your burning flame. Aided by money and status, your little light only grows stronger.
**
King Henry IV dies of sickness on a warm March morning. It had only been a matter of time, the stubborn man had been calling your father and the other lords to his bedside for the past several months to continue to discuss the politics of his own wars. In his dying breath, Henry IV saw that his empire had fallen to civil strife. 
Court and kingdom are called to witness the coronation procession and as you stand with the lords and ladies of the crown inside Westminster Abbey, inside the church containing the tomb of your distant descendant King Edward and the generations of his forefathers, the same Gothic abbey where British monarchs have turned men into rulers and tyrants, you watch the archbishop anoint Prince Henry of Wales with holy oil. 
His curls have been trimmed clean, his bare skin and body presented to be blessed with the sign of the cross. All old ritual, old prayer and Latin incantations that have been performed for over a thousand years.
So what is a new boy to wear the crown?
Beneath the arched stone cloisters, baptized in the sunlit streams of stained glass, you watch that same ceremony unfold again with burning heart. And harmonized by the tolling of bells, Hal is dressed in royal robes, regalia, scepter and all, shedding the title of prince as you all pledge homage to your new King of England.
“All hail King Henry.” The archbishop calls out to clergy, God, and country.  
“King Henry!”
**
Neither you nor Hal feel the heat of embarrassment when the court is ushered into the dining chamber and you meet again in candle and firelight. The feast is an intimate setting, shared by the company of Hal’s new council, clergymen, and close family. Your father is seated alongside Cambridge, Chief Justice William Gascoigne, and the archbishop; even his sister, Queen Phillipa of Denmark, is in attendance.
Hal’s appearance and demeanor is surprising to you.  
He looks striking, handsome as ever in his new robes and you can sense that familiar aire of charisma and confidence you remember from the wedding as Lord Chamberlain presents gifts from the monarchs of the world. A jeweled vase from King Wenceslas of Bohemia, a trinket of a mechanical bird from the Doge of Venice. Hal is jovial, good humored and merry. 
The presence of his cousin and sister seems to comfort him greatly. And rightfully so, considering he now sits on the throne of his dead father. Dead as well is the alter ego of the delinquent prince.
Like a spoilt child opening wrapped packages at Christmas. The privilege of royal blood. 
When the final trunk is presented, a gift from the Dauphin, you quite nearly let out a low snicker. 
A ball for the boy king.   
You see Hal hesitate before picking it up and the silence throughout the chamber is long, uncomfortable. The entire court seems to be holding its breath. Yet, you know there is an aspect of truth to the Dauphin’s gesture. 
A boy indeed. You recall Hal’s touch and him gasping into your neck, his muffled begging, how quickly he had finished in your hand…
Then, the cool magnetism returns to his features. He locks eyes with you and you wonder if he is thinking of the same moment. You are both proud challengers, wielders of personal charm. 
You wonder how long it will take to break him completely.    
There’s a glimmer in his gaze you think to be from the blazing hearth as he tosses the ball once against the chamber’s stone wall, then catches it deftly with youthful poise. 
**
After the coronation dinner, the court is dismissed and you find yourself to be one of the last remaining patrons as guests trickle out into the adjacent hallways and disperse through the rest of the castle. You deliberately hang back, watching your father, Cambridge, Phillipa, and William slip through the doors, slowing your step so that Hal can catch sight of you.  
“Lady Grey,” you hear. His voice is galant, hushed with that same temptation of seductive promise. With your back still facing him, you can’t help but smirk. 
You feign surprise and turn.     
“Yes, my lord?”
Hal beckons to where he stands by the fireside. You gather your skirts and join him in the welcoming nimbus of light and warmth. When you bend to curtesy, his fingers find your chin, tilting your eyes to his own and forcing you to rise to your feet.
“None of that is necessary, my dear,” he whispers. He keeps your face cradled between thumb and forefinger, a delicate pressure, one that makes you feel precious as he holds you close. “Tell me, did you enjoy tonight?”
“Immensely.” You smile. Indeed, you have. The Dauphin might as well have spoken on your own behalf.  
Hal hums, pleased. His thumb brushes the corner of your mouth, then eases in between the petals of your pink lips. You purse them ever so slightly and watch his self-control start to simmer. The candles burn low around the two of you, the only source of light emanating from the hearth itself. You are reminded of how the shadows flickered on the planes of his face the night of the wedding. Now, you see the same shadows again, but as king.  
“I want you to have something.” He says finally.
He looks reluctant to break his touch from you, but you see his hand disappear within the folds of his robes. He then produces a glittering pendant with a golden chain, a necklace that looks ablaze.
Amber, you realize. 
The surprise that crosses your features is genuine. Baltic amber set into teardrop sterling silver and gold, a gift from Rupert of the Palatinate and the kingdom of Germany. An extraordinary piece.
Hal’s hand finds your waist and you turn to offer him your bare neck, pulse pounding. You have no say, no power to even deny this token of affection. 
His caresses against your skin as he fastens the chain are soft and featherlike and you can feel his breath on the top of your spine. The pendant is heavy, rich with precious stone and gilded metal, settling between the valley of your breasts. It feels cold, but shines like an inferno. 
He lingers, tracing your shoulders when his mouth presses to your ear. 
“Turn. Let me look at you properly.”
When you do, the weight of Germany itself, of foreign and fallen kingdoms and countries, conquered and pillaged and burned, simultaneously settles between the tender skin of your sternum. 
Hal’s eyes cloud with dark delight when he sees the flaming amber. He takes your chin back in hand, angling your face every which way, studying how the firelight glints off the pendant with a sensual curiosity. 
“Beautiful.” He murmurs. 
Your body begins to react on its own accord, chest rising and falling with faster breaths, your cheeks blooming. 
“I thank you, my lord.” 
Still cradling your jaw, he brings himself closer with only a whisper between the two of you. His crimson robes seem to swallow you completely, like the gaping maw of Britain’s lion, a mantle of blood. He speaks into the gap between your mouths, yet you feel every word upon your lips.
“With this gift, I expect to see you more around my court, Lady Grey. Am I understood?” 
The tension he commands is unbearable. He watches you carefully, dark eyelashes fluttering. Trapped like a pinned butterfly. Then, you understand he’s waiting for a verbal response. 
“Yes, my lord.”
He releases you.
The pendant suddenly feels more like a collar. 
You’ve underestimated Hal. He is just as much the player as you.
**
You keep your promise. You see Hal daily in passing, often dressed in full regal attire as he comes from the council chambers, your father, William, and the rest of his train tailing close behind. The twinkle in his eye when he sees you is discreet, reserved only for you. The amber pendant remains fastened around your neck at all hours of the day, even while you sleep and bathe, like fire and ice between your breasts. A piece of Hal always with you. 
The two of you are a queer, twisted pair of sweethearts. You’ve yet to be fully intimate since that wedding night, but the pressure that ripples with every fleeting glance, every grazing touch of lips and skin is enough to prove your attraction for each other. Or rather, the attraction to the game. 
You keep Hal on his toes, never fully give in even when he invites you out for evening strolls in the palace gardens and the safety of darkness envelops you both. It is your nightly ritual to walk the grounds together amongst hushed breezes and chirping crickets, you as a means to unwind before bed, and a way for Hal to clear his mind of the day’s tolling demands. 
And tolling they are. Despite his bravado, he is easily irritable, tense. You listen when he speaks to you plainly about his frustrations for the court and archbishop, how they all expect from him the same swift retaliation of his father. 
You find Hal’s consciousness of this want to break tyranny quite curious. Sons are typical to idolize their fathers and see past faults. It is why you know how cruel kingship has endured in Britain for generations; learned behaviors become expected and change more difficult. You’ve even seen that same behavior in your own brother.
And Hal’s trust in disclosing even this to you is telling. The thread to unravel the boy king.
Tonight, you dare to pull at it, heighten your girlish wiles and offer him a lingering kiss and soft words. You tell him that Christendom is damned and tease that it’s his own fault his council is made up entirely of old, graying men, your father included, when he could have anyone else.   
Hal’s spirits seem to lift a little with a ghost of a smile, understanding you perfectly as his arm snakes around your waist. He pulls you into a secluded labyrinth and settles into the stone seat of a fountain, pulls you atop his lap. The kiss he returns is fierce. 
Without the burn of alcohol to subdue your senses, every touch is intensified tenfold. Hal feels it too, his breath coming ragged as he breaks the kiss to mouth down the skin of your neck, the dip of your collarbone, your chest. His hands wander beneath your skirts.
“It is only polite that I return the favor..” You hear him say.
Your mind is reeling. You knew this moment would eventually come, yet you feel ill-prepared when his fingers brush your core, his other hand gripping the back of your neck. You gasp, finding his lips in another tangled kiss, straddle him completely. 
It’s strange, exhilarating to be on the receiving end of your little game. 
If you are to truly break Hal, you are to first make him believe that he holds any sort of power over you, to reverse that dynamic you had set the night of your brother’s wedding. 
You are to let him touch you. 
And like the flaming sword of Raphael, Hal’s pendant, it is time to finally draw upon your fire. 
You hate how good Hal is at this. He knows just where to caress inside you, the right amount of pressure, the weak spots at your throat and just below your ear. Your competitiveness takes over and you push him back against the fountain, start to circle your hips, grind yourself down on his hand and grip at the rich fabric of his tunic to better anchor yourself. 
His eyes pool with lust with every sigh from your lips, watching you closely. He rolls his thumb, picks up the tempo of his fingers, relishing the sight of you slowly falling apart on top of him.  
But it isn’t enough. You lean in and wrap your arms around his neck. He responds in tandem, gathering you close as you rock against him, the friction of his thighs sending you closer and closer to that threshold of pleasure. 
“Please..I need t-to…” you whisper into his neck, into his mouth. 
Words of magic. Hal’s expression flares with masculine pride, the delight of pleasing a woman. 
The last of the day’s golden hour spills over you both in glowing, peached splendor and with the sound of the fountain’s rushing water as your only witness, you muffle your final moan with a desperate kiss, bliss pulsing behind your eyelids. Hal keeps his fingers where they are, coaxing the last waves of your orgasm out of you, cradling your chin with his other hand as his lips part yours, slipping tongue as you come floating back down to earth.
You’re dazed, flushed, lazily kissing when he removes his fingers. Slick when you suck them into your mouth and taste yourself. The velvet of your tongue makes him shiver.
“Now, what ever are we going to do about your council, my lord?” You murmur once you catch your breath. You gently kiss his fingertips.
Hal only smirks and pulls you to him.
**
Your plan begins to take motion. With each passing month, you worm your way deeper into Hal’s heart with honeyed words and empty promises. He confides in you more and more as he grows wary of his councilmen, trusting only the pretty face he sees in the privacy of his bedchamber each night. Graced against silk pillows. 
You sense the crushing pressure upon him, his own doubts and fears. You slowly leech away his magnetism, his charisma, and take it for yourself. His eyes dim, harden with resolve. Gone is the assurance for peace. Hal instead grows cold, timid, questioning his every move. 
You only burn brighter.  
**
There is talk that a French assassin has breached the castle.
You hear the conversation for yourself when your father and William are called down to the dungeons, hear Hal speaking directly to this assassin as you linger at the top of the stone staircase. 
“Qui êtes vous?”
“J'ai été envoyé par le roi de France pour vous assassiner.”
Hal’s voice is cool, calm as he pries for details. The assassin’s responses are noticeably vague. You infer it to be out of his own self interest. 
Then, nothing. Days go by with no direct action from Hal.
You grind your teeth. War with France would be the perfect fruition of your schemes, the final act in a tragedy deemed to be an epic of British monarchy. War with France would show Europe and the rest of the world the extortion and murder of the English crown; not that these neighboring countries needed such a reminder. But England and her king have been blind for too long.
Previous attempts at quelling war had caused Percy Hotspur to rebel, Prince Thomas of Lancaster to push on and die alone on foreign soil. 
Is Hal not trying to prove himself in this same way? Proving he is not like his father? Just as Thomas had wished for his peers to see him as a commander and better equipped to bear the crown despite being the youngest son, is Hal not guilty of this same charge of public approval? 
And having the privilege to sit idly atop a throne amidst all this makes your blood boil. Idleness is instability, you’ve learned this years ago. 
You will be the one to push Hal to war.
**
You are sewing one afternoon in an empty chamber when the strained voices of your father, Cambridge, and William reach your ears. Hushed and argumentative, it draws you to your feet, possesses you to lean against the frame of the door and just out of sight.
You hear the disgust in your father’s tone when he speaks of the king. The weakness in forgiving France, the lunacy of Hal’s ascension. It amazes you, grips you tight at hearing such passion and loathing; you’ve never heard your father speak this way about anyone, let alone the head of England’s monarchy. Slander and defamation carry swift punishment. 
You learn that he and Cambridge have been approached by French agents. The three men debate quietly as you stand against the door, nearly panting. A coup d'etat? The idea excites you more than it should. But you perish the thought quickly before you can get ahead of yourself.
Why only approach the two of them? Surely to turn England’s people against their ruler, a greater number of conspirators would prove to be more efficient? You know distrust is not uncommon among Hal’s council, so possible traitors would not be hard to find.  
This approach means your father and Cambridge have been judged weak in character by the French. Insecure, lacking, most likely to bend at the knee for candied prospects in exchange for loyalty.
And now as you eavesdrop on your own father, you know Lord Grey does not have faith behind his king and is too afraid to do anything with it. You know that if you had not gathered this knowledge for yourself, you would never have been told so, unseen as all women are expected to be.
These French agents and councilmen think they hold all power with their debates and their meetings in private, oblivious to the fact that it is women who move the world. Women like you, wielding their very sex to push these men as pawns. 
Are men not born into this world by women? Do men not seek a woman’s tender embrace for love and comfort and to carry on long, unbroken lineages of royal blood?
Your own father, as all his peers, are blind to the influence you bear over Hal. Even Hal himself. 
**
You find yourself in the king’s private quarters one cold night, sitting in front of the hearth and watching the crackling, shimmering flames that warm the room. The soft silence is comforting to you as you sit bathed in orange glow, wrapped in furs and waiting for Hal’s return. 
Your mind wanders. You think of the French assassin still held captive in the dungeons beneath your feet, how the man had been granted asylum in exchange for a confession. 
“Quel était le l'ordre?”
“Que je devrais tuer le roi d'Angleterre.”
And with the French approaching Cambridge and your father, it is certain, undeniable that tension is thick and stakes high for all of England. 
You are standing on the very brink of war, standing flush at the edge of a swallowing cliffside with dragging winds and dark, inky waters swirling beneath you down below. Waiting to embrace you, like the jagged shores of St Kilda, the northern shores of Scotland. Calling you home like a siren’s song. 
And Hal only needs one final pull before you both fall together. 
The chamber door opens and the king steps inside. His presence is stormy, like a cold wind blowing into the room. 
He’s dressed handsomely in a navy tunic and dress shirt, a mantle that drapes over his burdened shoulders. Yet, his hair is mussed and disheveled and you can see the tightness around his eyes. His once youthful glow now gone, but a sharpness to him that you think resembles a pike; diligent, wary, and still capable of hurting you if you’re not careful.
You pretend to quickly wipe away tears before you stand to greet him. Hal sees this and his brows draw together in concern, further contorting his expression into one of pain. He comes to the fireside.
“Good evening, my king,” you say as he takes your hands.
“What upsets you so?” he asks you directly. His voice is strained, sets your pulse aflutter more than it should. You give a small, breathless smile, a shake of your head.
“Nothing of your concern, just innocuous thoughts, my lord. Let us go to bed.” 
But you do not move in the direction of the luxurious canopied bed, one you have grown intimately familiar with. You stay exactly where you are and let Hal’s mind race.
His fingers grip your chin and when you meet his eyes, they’re bold and smoldering, the first touch of life in them you’ve seen for sometime. His grasp is strong and a muscle ticks in his jaw.
“Speak freely to me. Please,” he whispers. “Of all people. My dear, speak true.” The last word falls like a plea from his lips. You suppose it is one as he pulls you closer. A boy desperate for truth, constricted and poisoned by a council of vipers.
Unknowingly turning to the girl with the pretty mouth as she pours poison into his ear. 
At this, you bite your lips and summon tears that spill forth, pool your vision. You let the familiar sensations take over, the shortness of breath, the depleted posture, and pretty soon you’re trembling, weeping in Hal’s arms.  
“This assassin. It frightens me,” you say finally, broken. “If he had fulfilled his order and taken you from me, left me here all alone…oh, Hal. I’m so afraid.” 
His thumb circles your cheek, silent. You sense that dangerous cocktail of anger and darkness simmering just beneath his skin. Anger at the world, anger reserved for his dead father.
“France means to have you killed, Hal. Then what of us?”
Us? England?
Tears drip down your neck and onto your rising chest. Where you’ve left the first clasp of your blouse carefully unbuttoned. You press yourself to him ever so slightly, look up through tear-soaked eyelashes and embered iresis. 
“Then what of me?” you whisper.
Hal’s lips are crushing against yours. You feel every ounce of his anguish, every bit of tension wound tight in his frame, every doubt, every fear. You feel the restraint as he cradles the back of your neck, his other hand finding your waist as he pushes you flush against him. The dichotomy to feel love, to feel comfort and safety and to relieve and dispel just a hint of the pressure building inside him. The dichotomy to conquer, the urge to channel this animosity in a way he must be familiar, to ravish you completely. 
With your bosom rising and falling so sweetly, eyes glittering with tears, looking almost divine with firelight circling the shine of your hair in a golden halo, you watch Hal’s walls collapse. You let him succumb to that mirage of safety and warmth, to ease his conscience. You will both get what you want, eventually. 
You break apart to kiss the line of his throat, his pulsepoint, where you know he’s weakest. Hal gasps as you thread your fingers through his curls, bring your lips to his ear in a soft lull.
“May I have you tonight, my king? Completely?”
His response is immediate, yet wordless when he tilts back his head and feels your mouth against his jugular, the hand at your waist tightening. 
At last, you lead him to the bed with the intent of christening it. 
He pulls you atop him, helps you unthread the bodice of your nightgown. Despite the blazing fire behind you, the air chills your shoulders, your chest as you slowly expose more and more skin, finally letting the thin fabric pool around your waist. The feel of his bare hands cupping your body fuels you, act as your catalyst. Soft, firm. 
The amber necklace swings like a golden pendulum when you stoop to kiss him again, his fingers ghosting over the skin of your back. Hal’s desires are plainly stated as you feel him harden against your inner thigh.
There is no time for coy deception tonight. You make quick work of his tunic, leave his trousers and instead unfasten and pull him through, positioning where he wants you most. Hal is already nearly panting.
You arch as he settles inside you, a biting stretch that has both of you sighing when you bury yourself into the crook of his neck. Something long-awaited. You stomach the discomforting pressure and set a rhythm, one that has Hal cursing into your hair.
“You must protect the women of England, my lord,” you whisper. “Who will do so if you are gone?” You punctuate your point with a well-timed swivel of your hips and Hal moans low and guttural. “Your wives and children. Can you protect me?”
Hal’s arms wrap around you, nearly choking on pleasure. “I will. Anything for you. Please...” 
Unseen by him, you grin. You can practically hear the crashing ocean waves, to feel the quench of water at long last! You think you could make him do anything in this moment with how enthralled he is in bliss. 
You sit back and Hal’s hands glide over the smooth expanse of your stomach, watching his eyes grow dark, the amber pendant swinging between the two of you. The discomfort in your belly is gone and you start to mirror Hal’s pleasure, head falling back, sighs growing louder. 
And as the two of you finally fall from the cliffside and towards the waiting waters, Hal gives a soft cry, vision rolling and you feel his heat spill onto your inner thigh. You kiss him until the strength drains from his body, a true succubus as Hal at last descends into sleep, relaxed. 
You have the king’s word. 
**
You awaken the next morning to find the bed empty and cold. Surprised, you dress alone and return to your chambers to call for your breakfast. When you send for your father to share his company, the servant returns and tells you Lord Grey is currently engaged and his presence cannot be requested.
“A meeting, you mean?” You ask the servant rather crossly. Why must everyone speak to you in riddles? You obviously did not sleep much the night before and had trouble long after Hal had finished, like a slumbering babe beside you. Typical.
Your mood sours further in that you won’t be able to share this meal with your father. You despise spending mornings in solitude. It seems like it’s been ages since you’ve last seen each other in private, with no councilmen lurking about.
“No, my lady,” the servant stammers slightly, the words stumbling out of his mouth. “Lord Grey is condemned and is forbidden from taking meals before tomorrow morning.”
“What?” You growl at his vagueness. Your anger and irritation rise hot and fast and you’re tempted to hurl the glass cup of strawberries at this blubbering young fool. 
“Lord Grey and Cambridge await execution tomorrow morning for treason, by order of the king.” 
Your world stops. You send the servant away with a ghost of a whisper.
When the door snaps shut, you laugh mournfully. So the gossip had come to naught. Hal had indeed kept his word. Your stomach turns in nausea. Food is suddenly the last thing on your mind.
You rush to your writing desk, overturning bottles of ink, hands shaking when you retrieve quill and parchment, attempt to pen a desperate letter to Callum with a fevered hand. But before you can draft a single sentence, your blood turns cold.
You have not heard from your brother, from Isabelle in weeks. Have your worst fears already come true?
Glass and fruit explode against the far wall.
You tear out of the room like a bloodied banshee in search of Hal, fingers tinted crimson from cut glass and mashed berries. 
And if thy right hand offend thee, cut it off, and
cast it from thee: for it is profitable for thee
that one of thy members should perish, and not
that thy whole body should be cast into hell.
One of Miss Hunt’s chosen passages from the book of Matthew comes crashing into your mind. You are like Eve, you think. Bearing the burden of Original Sin with lust and curiosity. You have tasted the fruit and have seen the evils of mankind. Never in your wildest dreams could you have imagined your plan backfiring so horribly. 
Now, hellfire awaits your father, for you when you draw your final breath your last day on this earth. Suddenly seeming to loom that much closer. 
You approach Hal like Samuel’s ghost did to King Saul on the eve of war, the Philistines instead of the French. Interchangeable, cycles of warfare that have dawned for milenia and will continue until the end of time.  
He looks terrifying, colder and more severe than you’ve ever seen, outfitted in those horrible blood red robes that one coronation dinner long ago you had once thought he looked becoming. 
You know with one wrong word you could be joining the two men to die at first light. Your mind races. 
“My lord, to think my own father had been plotting against you sickens me,” you speak slowly. The sentence stings like venom in your mouth, damning your father. Hellfire burns brighter. But it is the only way you can protect yourself. Your grisly appearance, your quick breaths, it is all to sell your story. “May I accompany you tomorrow morning as witness?”
Hal’s lips twist into a hint of a smile, the shadow of his former self. “Of course, my dear. Lord Grey may have failed his fatherly duties as protector, but I will not.” 
**
And so, with your hands wrapped in fresh bandages and stitchings, you stand in a courtyard with wind whipping around you, the only Christian woman among councilmen and knights as you watch your father lay his head upon the chopping block. His hair has been shaved off to ensure the killing blow will be swift and true. Shivering, pale, and damp with sweat, he looks like a ghost. Soon, he will be one. You want him to see you in these final moments, for him to know that you will utterly destroy this king, but you cannot risk the danger. 
Like the coronation, Latin prayers are recited, only this time they are prayers for your father and father-in-law to find peace in the afterlife. The last time you, Hal, Cambridge, and your father had shared company like this had been at the wedding. You know now that Callum and Isabel are truly dead. In the blink of an eye, Hal has slaughtered your entire family.
Weary, resilient Scotland.
You do not cry. You must show your loyalty.
“Requiescat in pace.”
Weak, fragile as Lord Grey starts to whimper aloud. No daughter should see their father, their protector through girlhood, like this. 
The axe glimmers in the sunlight and is brought down with deadly precision. Your father’s head rolls grotesquely off of his shoulders in a wet gurgle. His body is shoved aside and Cambridge is pushed onto the block next, now slick with fresh blood. 
Neither you nor Hal flinch.
**
You are now fatherless, Hal, kinless when you enter the neighboring chapel alone. You sit in the first pew respectfully, head bowed as Hal crosses himself and kneels before the altar. With his back to you, you study the firm line of his spine, his clasped hands with the beaded rosary held firmly between. Unmoving, statuesque. He prays for a long time.
Thou shalt not kill. 
You wonder if God is so forgiving.
The images of angels, of Mary and Joseph and flawless purity are what drive you to march up to Hal and kiss him hard. He hums in surprise, brows furrowed, the pressure behind his mouth mirroring yours when you grip the back of his head.
You want to kill him the same way he had murdered your father. But you settle with digging your fingers into the back of his neck and relishing in the way he hisses against your lips. You fumble blindly with the fastening of his trousers.
“What are you doing?” he growls.
“Shut up.” You bite back.
You’ve never been afraid of Hal before today, you’ve had no reason to be. You’ve been so careful to build the reputation and the facade he sees, using words and sex to push him like the chesspiece you had thought him to be. And he’d pushed right back.
You want to hurt him in the only way you can.
He cries out when you suck him into your mouth with teeth and harsh pressure. You’re anything but gentle, taking him as far as you can so that you’re choking and Hal is grunting and pulling at your hair and the lewd sounds of your lips and tongue echo to the tops of the vaulted ceiling. 
You’ve both lost family today. You are both selfish and full of quiet rage. The consequence of Hal’s choice is evident in how hard and wet you mold your mouth around him, how his hand tightens and pushes you farther down, wordlessly ordering you to finish him off in this holy church.
Like Christ Himself with bandaged hands, you twist and work at whatever you cannot fit between your lips. His hips snap forward, tears collecting at the corners of your eyes with burning throat, your scalp stinging from where he yanks back your hair, your linen caul disheveled. Saliva dribbles out of your mouth.
When his moans grow high and desperate, you take him out of your mouth and Hal’s release splatters white on the skin of your cheek, mouth still agape. He slumps forward on his knees, panting, as if still in prayer. The rosary dangles between his fingers. 
Thou shalt not commit adultery. 
The cross looms before you, silhouetted by candlelight. It is too much and you turn away.
**
If the change in Hal’s nature had not already been felt by all, it is seen in his dress. No longer does he donn the regalia of red cape and sceptre, but dark tunics and jackets that fit snug over the expanse of his chest. No more are the billowing robes, now replaced with tight military clothing and jackboots. A captain preparing for battle.
Hal recruits John Falstaff and countless other marshals for his campaign. It’s truly happening, you think. France will soon feel the wrath of England as your homeland and countless other countries have. 
The amber necklace sparkles.
Tomorrow, Hal sets sail across the English Channel. Another crusade to add to the Hundred Years’ War. You wonder if French women are just as lustrous as the rumors suggest. 
This is the last night you will be together like this for some time. The thought of Hal with another woman makes you quicken the hand you have around him and he gasps into your chest, spilling onto your thigh like that wedding night centuries ago. You’ve already made love countless times tonight, your bodies fitting together because it is only natural for two corrupt souls to find solace in the other. 
Masquerading with voice and poise. A boy from Eastcheap and a Scottish girl. 
As Hal shudders against you, kissing your throat and twining his fingers into your hair, he tells you he loves you.
You think you may love him too, in that twisted way of how fire craves oxygen. You need each other to fuel chaos. 
You understand better than anyone the burden of a child forced to grow up, the weight of decisions and the toll it takes. Only the strong can endure such hardship, only the strong can triumph and come out on top. It has been so forever, a law as old as the world. 
 The speed at which Hal is already hard again makes you chuckle darkly. He pins you to the bed, hovering, eyes bearing into you before he enters you just the same.
“You were made to be beneath me,” he rasps, gripping your face with a single hand. His eyes glitter in the low light. The double entendre of his words make you rake your fingernails down his back in angry lines of red. He sucks a bite into the skin of your collarbone. 
 You know that when Hal returns from France, he will no longer be yours. He will be changed, most likely to marry a foreign princess to ensure peace. You think of Isabel and how she had evidently been the one to put you in this position of status, how a marriage is a man’s means to gain power. A law as old as the world. 
Do you want him to be yours? The same way the English crown has raped and pillaged for the thrill of conquering the barbaric? A trophy? A prized kill? Still, the thought makes you bitter.
You say you love him back when he finds the spot below your ear, pushes your legs apart to drive into you that much harder.
There’s a bit of you that prays he will be victorious, that he will return to England and be yours again. But even if your paths do not cross in the future, you know you will see him again where the flames grow hot. Be that in his chambers or down below. 
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