#this hurt to think about anon... truly just. ough

[ghostypetrainer]

What would of happened in the zoroark possession au if the parents hadn't died?

OUGH.

Now that is a painful thing to consider. What if their parents didn't die, and therefore they were never freed from being under their thumb? I can't imagine it would go very well for Ingo- they likely wouldn't let up on their poor treatment of him, and would continue to isolate him from Emmet as much as possible... I don't think Emmet would go along with it, but there'd definitely be a distance between the two of them.

It's also very easy to imagine Ingo taking the first out of the situation he can get- he leaves on his 'trainer journey' at fourteen. He still tries to keep up communication with Emmet, but tries not to be obvious about it because he doesn't want to get Emmet in trouble. As for Emmet's part, he's out of there as soon as he turns eighteen and goes to track Ingo down. He's free! He doesn't have to listen to his parents anymore! No one can stop him!

Ingo makes his money off of Pokemon battles those first few years before he gets his first job at the railyard. He doesn't have to pretend he's not also interested in trains anymore! I imagine he works as part of the janitorial staff at first (where he picks up his Trubbish), and eventually ends up working on the Battle Subway as a Depot Agent. Emmet is happy to join him at that job!!!

It takes the two of them awhile to connect and really get in sync, since they've spent so long with either a forced distance between the two of them or a LITERAL distance, but they're still brothers. They're still close.

(And Ingo still keeps his secrets.)

[crushedsweets]

it’s been a while back so i’m w more song analysis!! this is too long i’m warning u now. in fact this might not even be readable im so sorry it’s just. so much rambling 😭

when memories snow (more mitski mm also i got tickets for her tour and i will not shut up ab it!!! she’s so cool!!!!!!!) is incredibly tim coded. the very sinister chords at the chorus, really makes you *feel* him spiralling - and the LYRICS ugh very ‘i’m trying to ignore/suppress my memories but they keep coming back against my will’ slash ‘bottling up all my feelings and forging on with my work. pretending they don’t exist’

hate yourself by tv girl is very nina x kate (in the sense of kate watching nina destroy herself for a man who does not even like her) ough. ‘i think you’d fall in love with anyone who fell in love with you / and they frequently do’ BC KATE DID!! kate fell in love with her!! also ‘i’ll just wait til those arms belong to me’ is so subtly manipulative which is very. yeah. kate’s definitely not perfect and i wouldn’t put her above being like that if she really wanted to. + the deceptively happy instrumental with vaguely dark lyrics = nina being overly outgoing and social to make up for the fact that her mental state is in absolute shambles (poor bby)

the wolf by siamés is both tim and brian but i think leans more brian (what is it with this man that makes me think of ‘walking music’. ykwim? the chain, the wolf, house of the rising sun all remind me of him. all very slow-threatening-determined-walk songs) once again, driving beat, heavy bassline. (i play bass guitar so i love a song w an interesting bass part) i think shows resilience as well as grounding - imo he’s always been one of the more mature / level-headed creeps, to the point he’s very self aware. this man knows exactly what he’s doing at all times. ‘somewhere far away i can hear your call’ even in the future when he thinks he’s escaped from slender he knows deep down he’ll never be truly free…. yes ok

keep myself alive by get scared for jane. she’s so angry - AS SHE SHOULD BE and i feel it’s just a audible version of her rage. ‘i just wanna leave this place behind / everytime i see your face in mine’ because her and jeff have the same burned face thing going on…….. ough. she can never escape from the man who ruined her life. the guitar shifting from this melancholy, reverb-y tone in the verses to the loud distortion in the chorus reflecting her mood shifting from self-pity to raw anger

bonus: class of 2013 by mitski x toby

i should rlly make a playlist for each creep but i use musi not spotify 💔

- 🌙 anon

sorry for making u read all of this ❤️

anon. oh my god. i need you to know how often i think about this ask. and how guilty i feel knowing i shouldve responded forever ago but kept putting it off. im going to respond now with shame. thank you so much for your patience. my god

when memories snow for tim is soooo real. i associate him with a longing for life before slendy, while also repressing it cuz it hurts knowing itll never ever come back. going to bars, hanging out in his friends apartments, going to class, late night driving... "I shovel all those memories, clear the path to drive to the store" i think even the imagery of him shoveling snow out of a driveway gives off that sort of strong, cold idea of him. and 'drive to the store' obv being...proxy work... SO SAD

ALSO FUCK NINAKATE MENTION IM IN TEARS ok listen. theyre both really bad. and i super agree that kate might be a bit deceptive and manipulative (intentionally or not) cuz she wants nina to completely remove jeff and take his place (NOT HIS ROLE, just his place in ninas arms). also "how long will it take before you start to hate yourself and go straight to the arms of someone else" i think its undeniable that ninas obsession with romance is related to her own self image, and kate doesnt really like herself that much either. "im not saying that you love me, im not saying anything" OHH BUT SHE WANTS NINA SOOO BAD... man.

also im absolutely in love with how you take the sound itself into account, not just lyrics. the way you explain the wolf connecting to brians determination, reslience, and grounding presense is SOOO PERFECT and i can see it in the first few lyrics as well. the also "sneaking in the pain, every truth becomes lie / i wont trust myself once i hear your call" THATS TIM AND BRIAN COME ON GUYS DO YOU HEAR THIS

also i love keep myself alive. i heavily agree she has every right to be angry, and thats a core part of her character - rage, grief, strength. "to sleep i of course think i'm stronger now / to sleep i gotta catch myself" im crying. the sleep menton + she feels alone. she has a support system, a literal wife, but she still holds all of her grief on her own shoulders. who the fuck else can relate to being violently stalked for months, walking in on your parents being tortured together, being attacked, nearly burnt alive, then LOSING your parents? also "how could this dark cloud make me stronger now" i think a lot of people would have told her that her experience made her a survivor and made her strong and whatnot. but i dont think she feels that way. i think she feels like a victim, she feels tortured, she feels like that same little girl who'd sleep in her parents bed after a nightmare - but this isnt a nightmare she can wake up from. her parents bed burnt to ashes. there is relief in just letting yourself grieve and hurt - but she's so beyond focused on being strong. and it doesnt make sense to her. doesnt make sense how she can be strong after all of that . but she is, cuz she has to be

ALSO YES OH MY FUCKING GOD CLASS OF 2013 DFUCK FUCKFUCKF FIFJF FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCKKKKKKK i dont even need to explain why this gets me. yall already know. my god

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

THEEEEE WIP GAMEEEEEEE AAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!! screaming to the top of my lungs for it sweet ari :33 but first of all!! the aquarium is getting bigger!! that’s amazing news, we should celebrate with an underwater party 🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️✨

anyway…….. going back to the ask game!! there are so many interesting stories (gently kissing your brain for blessing us with your ideas!) TT i’d like to know more about each one but i’ll simply ask for two of them which are:

“come, come over to me, to the place where the fox sleeps” …….. wow, the title is already beautiful (i’m a sucker for longer titles 😔) but ever since you mentioned kitsune!geto i’ve been growing curious about him and the story in general so :3

and then……

“consider the hairpin turn” :O i was about to ask for the cult leader!sugu x preschool teacher!reader but then i saw this!! if i’m not wrong you’ve already talked about it?? but i saw the tropes and it looks so interesting…… that ‘fractured narrative’ has me in a chokehold in a very positive way

hope i’m not late for this game!! and that september has been treating you well 🫶🏼🫶🏼 sending you lots of hugs and love and a bouquet of beautiful shells i picked from the shore :3 —🐟

FISHNON MY ANGEL !!!!! tysm for participating hehe. the aquarium is truly growing… we’ll have to celebrate with all the other underwater nonnies !!! :3c

BUT WAH ….. you managed to pick my absolute favorites of the bunch i think!!! 🥹🥹 i am beyond excited to get to writing these…….. already talked a little bit about the bfb au in other asks, but i’m always happy to ramble some more :333c

’come, come over here to me, to the place where the fox sleeps’……. i’m so happy you like this title 🥺 it’s one of the lyrics to the fox’s wedding, it’s a scary song though!!!! proceed with caution!!!!!! but i think the grittyness of it all, and the coaxing tone of the title, made a good fit for the fic :3c kitsune!geto is without a doubt my most twisted geto, and also one of my favorites !!! i have lots of lore planned for him…. and i think his view of reader is the most . problematic 💀 he treats you very well, he’d never hurt you, but he’s a God and that . makes his Love very fractured…..

the general story is that you, the reader, venture up to an old forgotten shrine up in the mountains of a rural town !!!! to leave an offering for the fox deity said to reside there. and then he appears :3c and grows fond of you (even though he generally detests humans)….. basically takes you in as his unofficial shrine maiden. i don’t have more plot than that in mind really, the fic will focus on the character/reader dynamic + kitsune!geto’s backstory!!! i will say. that he Kills a guy for you LMAO . i’m hoping to make this fic a little more gorey than usual !!!!!!!

as for ’consider the hairpin turn’ !!!!!!! like you said, i’ve talked about this one before, it’s my masterpiece of a fic that …. will probably not be written for a while 💀 i am ridiculously attached to bfb!kenny. this is another one with just …. a lot of lore, and a focus on the reader/character dynamic. reader’s view of kenny in comparison to how they view suguru……..

BUT YES :33c the fractured narrative!!!!! i’m so happy you asked!!!!!!! this is part of the reason why the fic is giving me so much trouble lmao…… my plan is for it to jump back and forth between their childhood and present time !!!!! in present time, kenjaku is just coming back to visit you and suguru in the town you all grew up in. and the childhood chapters gradually reveal why he left, and what he means to you. there’s a lot of longing and teasing involved because kenjaku is essentially your estranged childhood friend, who you’ve been waiting to see again. he knows you like him, you know you like him — so there’s a lot of tension. bfb!kenny is kinda manipulative and very charming and just …. ough . need him bad 😵‍💫

ANYWAYYY this got long ;;; but tysm for asking 🐟 anon!!! i’m so happy you’re excited for these!!!! :’3

ask me about my wips !! <33

[definitelynotshouting]

OK! ANON HERE WITH THE FIRST ROUND OF ANALYSIS/SCREAMING INTO THE VOID. (I have more quotes but i dont want to overwhelm you and do them all at once)

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"This fantasy carries him through the rest of the night, past false dawn and into the early onset of staccato birdsong. Grian stares blearily at the bleeding warmth creeping in through the window; gentle golden hands that march over the floorboards and press their palms against the walls. They're less frenetic than the moonlight had been— the shadows here are dappled, innocent things, splaying over stripped bark and playing in the whorls within planks. They breathe depth into this tiny, wooden box, shifting slowly under daylight's cautious curve into the sky, until scintillating rays curl like shackles around his wrists."

- the word choice in this is just so masterful. It's so TENSE, Grian's emotions and thoughts are a complete mess, and this is mirrored even in how you describe the environment. It feels like nothing is safe, which is brilliant, because Grian's currently driving through life on a cord as thin as silk. Its the way even the birdsong is frantic and unsafe "staccato". The "gentle" hands that harden to "march" and "press". Things start out kindly, and then the words become harsh and cold, and this just perfectly reflects how mistrustful Grian is. Nothing makes sense to him; everything is out to get him.

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"Grian snorts without meaning to, then claps a hand over his mouth, something ugly coagulating in his heart. He doesn't deserve this kind of laughter, this reluctant amusement simmering in his chest. It burns him from the inside out, scorching the back of his throat; hot coals between clenched teeth. Grian inhales embers, exhales ash, and summons every spare ounce of willpower at his disposal to keep his voice from shaking."

- Oh, this. This hurts so much. I can talk about how bird boy's mental state is so poor he's even depraving himself of laughter, and how this is an extension of how he started out starving himself of food, then sleep, now laughter. The fire imagery here is so potent as well. He's burning himself from the inside out, which i feel like is such good imagery for what is actually happening: his code breaking apart. Mans IS literally coming apart from the inside. Ough

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"It's a pretty effect; it makes Grian's gut plummet all the way down to his lap."

- CRYING CRYING CRYING

- They know each other so well. Grian and Scar learnt each other's tells under the desert sun. He understands how tension and anger and sadness plays on Scar's face and body language when theyre in the games, and in those games everyone's emotions are caused by grian. But now theyre not even in the games and all grian can see is how HIS existence is hurting the people he loves most

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That's all im going to do for now. Thank you for tearing out my heart and smashing it on the pavement <3

(Also idk if you want me to leave an anon identifier? Maybe i can just stick with the ☀️ if no one else has taken it?)

HEY ANON. WHAT IF I CRIED AND SOBBED AND WEPT!!!!!! HOLY SHIT THIS IS SO !!!!!!!! /POS /POS /POS!!!!!!! LOSING MY MIND RN IM GRINNING FROM EAR TO EAR SO EXCITEDLY THIS JUST MADE MY ENTIRE DAY

hooooly shit i cannot thank you enough this is so kind and wonderful and just!!!!!! listen i LIVE for people analyzing my writing bc i try to put SO MUCH into it, as much as i can possibly cram without oversaturating, and to see people pick up on this stuff is like being handed an immaculately wrapped present every single time. This is truly making my mind go crazy im so fucking happy rn oh my gods, thank you so much this is such an incredible treat

Im not sure if the sun emoji has been taken or not (i think i had another one a long time ago???? but im not sure if you're the same one or not djehdjdjr) but!!! Absolutely feel free to leave an emoji identifier, whatever you want!! :D i rlly enjoy seeing regulars in the inbox so absolutely feel free to do that if ur comfortable!!!!!

[cassyapper]

thank you for the Jotaro content. i'll never say no to Jotaro content. do you have any Jotaro thoughts that are occupying your mind that you'd like to share during this category 4 event or is it just a bunch of vibrating in place and pointing at the man (bc I get it)?

god anon you get me so completley

sequence of jumbled jotaor thoughts it's not a steady line of thought im jsut fucking crazy also im not proofreading this

im thinking about how the first time jotaro smiles in the manga it's when he's holding a gun to his head

i think about how holly screamed. i think about how it's implied jotaro did this more than once because he knew his brains werent going to blow out in front of his mom he did this to show off star platinum's frightening abilities he wasnt trying to die....this time at least. but earlier? well

i think about how he was 17 when his entire world is flipped upside, when he truly meets his grandfather for the first time, when he understands why his mother is the way she is (dont get me started on this ohhh do not get me started on this). i thinka bout how he met his first friends got 50 precious days with them and then lost them. even the ones that lived. him and polnareff are a tragedy of "we could've been great" because, with their differences in circumstance and their individual forms of grieving, i honestly think they both resent the fact that the other lived and not someone else just as much as they resent that they themselves lived. survivor's guilt spilling over and being directed at the only other person who understands. it sucks. also he loses joseph cause after being without oxygen for that long he had brain damage (as evidence by how much he aged in the 10 years btwn diu and sdc as opposed to the 50 years between bt and sdc) and he just, broke i think from the guilt of getting his friends killed again (avdol and kakyoin particularly). i think jotaro was alone again in anew way and it RUINS THE REST OF HIS LIIIFE

i think about how jotaro was beginning to trust the others when boom, the second he tries to trust them in the final battle to do their own thing, they die. every time he isnt there people die. polnareff wouldve died if he wasn't there. jospeh would've died if he wasnt there. everyone else died cause he wasn't there. he literally WAS ON THE WAY TO GETTING BETTER TO LEARNIGN TO TRUST PEOPLE but it fell in at such a critical moment and had such dire conseqeunces and he couldnt he couldnt he couldnt and so he didnt and it culminates 23 years later when he's not enough by himself to save his daughter, he trades the world for her and he still couldnt do it because he tried to do it alone ough my GOD

i thinka bout how he loved the crusaders so much he was so vulnerable with them he showed off his underbelly so sevrely and then he's hurt and hurt and hurt and he becomes so consumed in his own hurt that he runs CIRCLES trying to find a way to make sure he has the power to never ever ever let it happen again and so he isolates and he does things alone and he doesnt train the world cause he has trouble seeing it as anything other than dio (but it's him too he couldve made it his own but he didnt and it led to not having enough of a girp on it to save his DAUGHTER when seconds were the most preicous thing in the world)

i think about how he loved them i think about how he did the stupid cigarette tricks with them about how they knew how to comfort him when he was acting erratically and scared how this implies that he's done that before how it means they saw and helped him through it and he communicated how they can help him through it HOW HE ASKS THEM TO HELP HIM i thin abuotu how the only time we see him trust his loved ones not just himself BUT HIS LVOED ONES to someone else is in stardust crusaders and then it's gone and he never does it again i think about how losing the crusaders made him so grief stricken that he essentially signs his death warrant like he had gone past the event horizon but couldnt fall in just yet it was done it was done he was done

i think about how he killed people and he was so scared and he had blood on his hands i think about how he's teeth and nails and fists and it manifests in star platinum's offensive abilities i think about how he is so scared and he is so desperate and he loves so, so, so much, he tries to punch to distract the fact his heart is on his sleeve

i think about how uncomfortable he msut be with knives or anything sharp after everything i think about how he needs pressure but if something is too tight on his chest he'll hyperventilate i think about how he can't look at clocks and he can't look at his own stand and he can't look at himself i think he must hate the color yellow (his daughter has blond streaks in her hair, it must be some sort of joke)

i think about his relationships with people and how they both save and damn him simultaneously i think about how the relationships he has post part 3 give him some solace while he's marching toward his own deathbed and his refusal to deviate form that path means the relationships get strained and ripped and a chunk of his heart falls away every time it happens he is bleeding so so much so to speakby the time he even makes it to pucci it's no wonder he barely put up a fight it must have been a mercy (it was until it meant his daughter had no one left to be a shield for her)

i tink im drying. dying.

[dhmisreolrants]

Pspspsps hey i'm the anon that asks about histories and just uses too many words to request something simple

I've seen some post of you where you talked about how you we're working on some digitaltime angst and the curiosity is KILLING ME RN

SOOO can you tell us a little bit about this Au of yours because I just love hearing people rant about those two (*And slowly killing them but don't tell anyone*)

OOHHH YESSS- i'VE BEEN WANTING TO TALK MORE ABOUT IT BUT MY SHYASS THINKS IT WOULD BE MUCH A BOTHER BUT OH IM GLAD YOU ASKED (long rant warning ough) VVVVVVVVVVVVVVV

This au has been a bit delayed because of other stuff, But im still working on it;

It's basically a "Past Life" AU, Where it came out from a theory i had about maybe the teachers too having a past life and such- It is mostly focused on memories and flashbacks, Sometimes even stories about the past life they had before becoming puppets, While just uncovering it again with some triggers mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm yes depression

Simple explanation of how Ton and Colin feel and act in the au: lots of ✨depression✨, Comfort fluff and your normal uhhh.... making Colin have a panic attack because remembering stuff literally HURTS him

More better explanation: They all start just slowly remembering stuff by one of those hurting memories episodes Colin has, Which Ton try comforting him all night until he finally gets some rest. They all just start noticing that specific triggers specific emotions, And if the trigger that is making Colin even get hurt from just- trying to remember who he where in the past- Stuff just starts to get even more bad from now on because it can hurt then too without any fixing ehEHehh "Which characters most suffer?"... obviously Colin and Ton <3 Also Ton's trigger mostly is specific to the future (take that motherfuc-), He is fine remembering PAST, Even if it makes him feel a bit hurt, But thinking of what even the future could now have for him now that he knows whatever the thing he is now is not what he truly is feels like a knife in his brain and heart~ I HAVE SO MUCH MORE TO RANT ABOUT THIS AU BUT I THINK ITS A BIT ENOUGH FOR NOW-

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

hello!! i’m so, very late but i just finished reading knight!sugu and royalty!reader, and i’m so :,,) my heart is truly captivated and in your hands. it was so beautifully written and i absolutely fell in love with sugu and the reader. they are both so perfect for each other. their story really reminds me of “cinnamon girl” by lana del rey, especially the lyrics of “there's things i wanna say to you, but i’ll just let you live, like if you hold me without hurting me, you'll be the first who ever did.” i felt like i was living in the moment with them and experiencing their love blooming.

thank you so much for writing such a wonderful masterpiece!! (and other masterpieces that i have to binge read). i’ll never stop thinking about knight!sugu now <3

ANON !!!!!!!!

i am !!!! so so SO happy that you enjoyed the fic!!!!! 🥺 i promise you it’s never too late to read a fic or comment on it, it means so much to me…..!!!!

AND … i’m overjoyed that you liked both knight!sugu and royalty!reader!!!! they’re my babies….. i’m so happy they could steal your heart a little too 🥺🥺🥺 AND THE SONGGGG it’s so pretty and soft and perfect for them…. the tenderness and longing for someone to hold them…….. the mutual trust…… ough . they still make me so emotional 😭😭 thank you so much for reading and watching them grow!!!! knight!sugu lives in my head rent free too <333

also ….. slides this towards you . moss is my fav writer ever and they caused my knight!sugu brainrot….. i will never be free. their knight!sugu is the sexiest man on the planet no exaggeration pls do yourself a favour and ogle him with me