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What if large units were once regular ones? What if it was a choice to be rebuilt into a weapon at the cost of your old life?
What if that choice was made for you?
#skibidi toilet#comics#cameraman#myart#fuck this is a lot of art for a meme series#dont perceive me#oc optical#titan cameraman#YEAH.#this headcanon has been consuming my brain for the past 2 weeks#felt cringe for using my oc to tell it#but tumblr skibidi discord ppl got to me with all their nice messages so i caved#i scheduled this to post when im asleep to escape the silly#rebuilt hc#chief engi trio#skibidi toilet fanart#skibiditoilet fandom#dafuqboom#skibidi toilet oc
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*appears*
(imagine that one random time-lord in The Autons, floating mid-air)
Greetings once again,
Some more questions for you, because THOSCHEI, THOSCHEI, THOSCH-âŠ..
Prepare yourself for a barrage of questions! (No pressure ofc)
Commencing in three, two, one..
*explosion*
1, 2, 3, 5, 8, 9, 11, 12, 17
21 - Headcanons for your favourite ainley pairing
24 â gimme more info about the thoschei fan incarnations that occasionally pop up on your feeds. It is vital information!!!
*looks around at the impact caused by the questions*
Whoops
Have a good day/week! :)
*disappears*
SO IT WAS YOU ALL ALONG, THAT TIMELORD... That makes sense! Thank you so much for all the quest- (loud explosion) AAAAH!
(sooo prepare for a very long post đ€Ł)
1. How did you get into thoschei?
(gets out from under the table) Uhhh has the noise stopped? Yea. Okay. So it all started when I heard a rhythm of four beats?? And then I think my brain got infected. All I could think about is some sad pathetic aliens hugging each other and I guess one was dead and??? then he wasn't? Yeah so I saw tensimm and I got obsessed. That was, if my calculations are correct, about 8 years ago.
2. What is your favourite thoschei flavour?
At the moment it's fiveainley! Or sevencrispy...
3. What is, in your opinion, the most toxic thoschei dynamic?
Why did I even make this question. All of them there's no salvaging the toxicity. Uhh imma go with tensimm or spydoc though
5. Any fan content recommendations?
Honestly THBU it's just. Sublime. Okay so I might have been about to cry just one chapter in? Yeah??
Also Please Attend Carefully if you want podcasts abt the Master because who doesn't.
Now, that's all sfw but on the spicy smut side, here's a fiveainley fic that plays with hypnosis. I found it interesting how the author wrote it in first person, and their Ainley voice is just fantastic. Make sure to read the tags first though!
Do also check the ppl I reblog from's profiles some of them have AO3 accts I plan on munching on when I can!
8. Favourite thoschei story?
Honestly the Master audio atm. Or the Five Doctors cuz it's really funny to see Ainley TRY... just really try... Btw 1st Doctor x Ainley!Master when
Ngl I have to rewatch all the nuwho episodes w the master on it so my thoughts might change. These two stories are consuming my brain rn
9. Favourite thing they have said canonically to each other?
"Wonder what I'd be without you"
"Yeah."
And this
11. Song that reminds me of them?
I want to make an animatic with this so badly
12. Any thoschei headcanons?
My most heartfelt headcanon for them is this if it even counts as one đ€
17. What's an underrated thoschei pairing?
SIXAINLEY FFS SIXAINLEY IS SO UNDERRATED. More of them pls...
21. Headcanons for your favourite Ainley pairing
No I'm not picking just one >:0
Fiveainley:
-In my head the Master contacted Fivey after the whole cheetah stuff in hopes he could help him. Not talking abt how good or bad that went but Fivey can't remember anyways.
-The Master loves the smell of Fivey's sweaters. Anytime he's entered his TARDIS he's stolen a few. Fivey still doesn't know where they went.
-Oh it's definitely Ainley!Master's fault the Doctor's regenerations became weirder. Yeah after what he did to Fivey he just messed them up. Like Fivey's legs. Hey, if the Master is having trouble being in a Trakenite body it's only fair, right?
Sixainley:
-The most likely pair to do spicy stuff actually. They're both into BDSM although probably not in a sexual context exactly. No I won't elaborate
-The cat pin? Yeah that's something the cheetah Master left in the TARDIS during that Fivey visit. Six just doesn't know. The Master finds it amusing.
-The Rani has tried to block all contact with the Master because he keeps calling her to talk about his latest plan to kill the Doctor. She's so tired.
Oneainley:
-The Master actually visited 1 on a few occasions during the Doctor's past after the events of the Five Doctors, wearing disguises of course so he wouldn't recognise him later.
-He invited him to lunch and they conversed. The Master finds this Doctor kind of endearing in a way, he's the closest he has to things being alright between them anyways. Just some quiet conversations, no mention of the Master or Gallifrey. No murder intent, they just were. Two "strangers" sharing lunch having candid intellectual conversations.
-Eventually, he stopped. Why? I leave that to your imagination.
24. Talk abt your fan Doctor and Master incarnations
OKOK IM GLAD YOU ASKED... So I met this classmate who's a dw fan and as we became friends he told me he had his own fan Doctor incarnation. Eventually we started LARPing for fun and I made my own Master, then we started making up tons of stories and that's how they came to be!
ONE DAY HOWEVER... He said. What if the Master and the Doctor were bigenerated?? Yeah from the same entity but the Time Lords erased their memories. And Dhawan!Master knew this but that one bit he never told, the Doctor never uncovered it, and this is part of why Dhawan wanted to become the Doctor. And boy this broke my heart because thE IMPLICATIONS. That'd mean the Master is ALSO the Timeless Child. So now that's canon for my Master and surprise, it's been selfcest all this time except not exactly because they are not the same anymore and they can never be.
So based off that, my Master loves to make a point on how different they are whilst his Doctor searches for similarities instead when he learns this. My Master is convinced that they're destined to be the worst parts of the Doctor forever, whilst the Doctor got "the better part". So why would they make it easy for him? Gallifrey is gone anyways so let's prove they can never be the same. Let's prove they're DONE. And they're immortal too I guess so why conform with having nothing no. They're owed the Universe and they're not sharing. Meanwhile the Doctor is wondering what would be of the Master if they had lived anything similar than what they did, if they're actually the same, if there's any kindness left on them, if they could have become the Master... He's stuck on his past in a way, too, missing companions and simpler times and stuff. And I intend to destroy his hopes of truly enjoying his current self you know?
...so yeah uh we also have companions we're making and we're slowly developing all of this + some random "episodes" (plots. that is) and one of them is Dak. Dak is well, kind of a Dalek kind of not. I have no idea how this happened he hasn't told me yet but apparently Dak has the genes of one of his companions? His mind when he was a child. So he's like a curious kid travelling with the Doctor except he's got Dalek Issues (tm) and I have such awful plans for him I'm so sorry little Dak ily but Daleks can never be good you know âșïžâșïž And I also have my subconscious eating beings that hate the Master for reasons but shhh. My friend doesn't know yet.
Anyways here's my Master treating the Doctor with love as usual
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Hey... hey. Wait. Don't go! *looks around* Uh... who will help me pay for all the repairs??? đ
ALSO thank you so much for that twogado recommendation I will proceed to scream
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Part Four Headcanons!!
@tyriantyrantâ Father...Iâm so sorry this took so long...but it is finally here. The moment has come.Â
@jjadegreenâ is and always will be my headcanon buddy and she really took the reins on this one because my stupid mushy brain could barely think of ANYTHING. Go check her out. She makes good shit. If you like headcanons youâll love her.Â
Without further ado, join us on this long-awaited half-crack half-serious journey once more:
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Okuyasu
-He swallowed a spoon. Like...one of those tiny collector spoons...
-Donât ask me how Okuyasu managed to do this, but he did.
-He was sitting in his room trying to think of something cool he could do in front of Josuke and he was likeÂ
âBro what if I did some kickass spoon trickâ (Yes, he did find a little collectorâs spoon at an antique shop and bought it cause it was shiny)
-It did not go well
-He choked on it for like a solid 2 minutes before he FUCKING SWALLOWED IT and sat there for 15 minutes like âoh shit oh fuck-â
-His dad was just watching from the corner like ;-;
-At first heâs like âahh itâll be fine, right?â
-âRight?â
-Then he starts thinking about it a bit more and realizes how fucked he probably is
-He COULD call Josuke but he really doesnât want to explain to him that he not only swallowed a tiny fucking spoon but he also did it while simultaneously trying to think of something cool to do in front of him
-So he doesnât call Josuke
-Instead he paces around, trying to think of some solution:
Can I throw it back up or something?
Should I like...drink that stuff that makes metal dissolve? Thatâll work, right? Shit wait-
Maybe itâll just turn out okay?
-His chest is on FIRE and heâs absolutely convinced that this is the end for him
-He calls Josuke
-There are tears...many tears
-Our boy Josuke rushes over and starts freaking out because all he knows is âOkuâs hurtâ and when he bursts through the door Okuyasuâs just sitting on the couch crying and Josukeâs just â???â
-Heâs the most supportive bro tho and sits down on the couch and is like âoh shit bro did you need emotional healing instead? I gotchu either wayâ :â)
-He reaches over to hug him and Oku jumps back in a panic and screams âNO DUDE DONâT JOSTLE THE SPOONâ
â...â
â..the spoon?â
-He tearily explains the spoon
-It ends with Josuke punching the spoon out of him with Crazy Diamond but he found the entire situation so fucking funny because Oku is so fucking mortified
-he swore not to tell a soul and keeps to his word but he buys Oku a tiny spoon every goddamn chance he gets
Rohan
-Most of the time, Rohan does not embarrass himself
-But sometimes our man slips up a bit and most of the time people donât notice the dumb shit he does cause heâs always doing dumb shit
-But this is different
-Picture an almost empty house...instant ramen wrappers everywhere...alcohol has been consumedâŠthings have been done...
-Rohan thought this was the best time to answer some of his fanâs FAQâs (he puts them at the end of every new issue)
-He answers most of them fine but once he comes to the âhow tall are you?â question his mushy stupid brain decides to put âabout ten inches.â (GOD I'M BEGGING YOU IF YOU DO NOT UNDERSTAND THIS REFERENCE OPEN GOOGLE AND LOOK UP âhow tall is Rohan Kishibe?â PLEASE PLEASE I BEG)
-Just for fun
-Because his editor will just fix it, wonât they? Even if he wakes up the next morning and forgets about it, it could never get past the other stages of publishing, right?
-Wrong.
-It manages to slip past every single stage and before he knows it, the latest issue is out and it says heâs almost a foot tall
-Heâs reading the one of the newly published copies at breakfast and SPITS OUT HIS FUCKING LUKEWARM SHITTY TEA
-He calls his publisher and just like âuhhh...hey...what the actual fuck guys?â and apparently NONE Of THEM NOTICED??
-They swipe them off the shelves and re-edit them but by now its far too late
-Josuke and Okuyasu have already made jokes about squishing him
-He gets fanart of him being the size of a pencil (which heâs convinced are also done by Josuke and Okuyasu)
-The banned issue where Rohan discloses his supposed âtrue heightâ is a novelty collectors item in the manga community now
-This is Rohanâs legacy now. This is how he will be remembered
Josuke
-He wanted to be super edgy when he was around 14
-And what better way to be an edgy 14 year old than with cigarettes??
-The problem is that heâs a literal fucking dumbass and doesnât know how they work
-Like at all
-He somehow gets his hands on a pack and tries to do it in front of his friends to impress them
-He doesnât light it. He just...sucks on it??
-He sucks really hard on the unlit cigarette while all of his friends watch and thereâs this really long silence and all of them are thinking âyeah is this actually how it works though?â
-Josukeâs like âwaitwaitwait I can make smoke come out of it watchâ and sucks way too hard on it and IT GETS LODGED IN HIS FUCKING WINDPIPE
-He starts choking because he really really, doesnât wanna swallow this thing and all of his friends are like âOH SHIT SHITâ
-Thereâs always that one homie who knows the Heimlich maneuver and on that day, the Heimlich is maneuvered.
-He coughs up a wet cigarette covered in nasty throat juices and his mouth tastes like shit
-Heâs still totally shocked about what just happened and just kinda starts laughing but everyone can tell that its forced
-Everyone forgets about it and heâs too embarrassed to tell a soul but the Heimlich kid and him make eye contact in the hallways sometimes and heâs always reminded of that fateful day
-This is the soul reason why Josuke never smoked in high school and probably never will again
Koichi
-This might seem off topic to start but please just bear with me.
-why, for any reason, does Koichi know who joseph is??? Joseph is an American Real Estate agent. Why would a 15 year old Japanese kid be like âoh yeah that famous real estate agent Joseph Joestarâ???
-well I present to you the most top tier headcanon: Koichi is a real estate fanboy.
-he planned to be a real estate agent before getting wrapped up into stand shenanigans
-But, being 15 and having REAL ESTATE as one of your biggest interests is not something you really want people knowing, especially considering the fact Koichi is a huge nerdy real estate fanboy for Josukeâs DAD.
-He buys these real estate magazines made for 45 year old men like once a week. They are what he looks forward to every week.
-one time Josuke and Oku come visit and see a magazine on Koichi's bed.
-He totally panics and dives for the magazine and tries to hide it, acting all nervous.
-Josuke and Oku immediately assume itâs a⊠yâknow, NSFW, not for kids magazine.
-Because why would koichi need to be embarrassed about any other kind of magazine?
-So antics ensue of Josuke and Oku pestering koichi about the magazine, teasing him and begging to know what he was hiding
-after a few days, Koichi begrudgingly admits that the magazine is the âSPECIAL JOSEPH JOESTAR INTERVIEW ISSUEâ which he bought 3 years ago and has reread countless times.
-Okuyasu laughs really hard and Josuke is like â...you mean my dad.....â and koichi wants to DIE
-They buy him real estate merchandise for his 16th birthday and EVERYONE thinks itâs some kind of joke gift but koichi is internally grateful
Jotaro
-Jotaro is not very good during social situations. That is very obvious.
-but when he hears that Koichi got a girlfriend, he decides he wants to be a coolâŠuncle? Nephew? Father figure? Mentor?
-so one day, Koichi and Jotaro are chatting while they go on a walk and Yukako walks by
-Koichi blushes and waves at her, she waves too
-Jotaro thinks, âalright. Time to show koichi Iâm a cool guyâ
-as Yukako walks away, Jotaro nudges koichi and sorta smirks
-Jotaro forget a few very important things about himself and Koichi:
-first of all, Koichi is so short, attempting to nudge the kid ended in Jotaro violently jabbing his elbow into Koichiâs skull
-Jotaro is much stronger than he thinks and Koichi, while he can take a hit, is very much weaker than Jotaro
-so an attempt at a simple nudge ends in Koichi being jabbed in the skull, flung into the road by the force of the hit, and hitting his head, hard, on the cement.
-needless to say Jotaro called and ambulance and Yukako tried to literally murder Jotaro
-He ended up with a mild concussion, but no long term damage.
-Jotaro is Not Good At Words so he apologizes in weird awkward ways like buying koichi stuff, quietly handing him 5,000 yen at random times, taking him out on the town, etc...
-Koichi keeps insisting it was an accident and heâs alright, but Jotaro feels AWFUL
-He NEVER lives that moment down in his mind
-Itâll be 2008 and Jotaro is visiting and heâll just look the newly married koichi in his tiny eyes and say âhmhghggggg is your head okâ
-and koichi is like âIT WAS 9 YEARS AGO MR JOTARO PLEASEâ
âââââââââââââââ
That was a wild ride Iâm so sorry
Did yaâll have a favourite? I gotta say, real estate Koichi is just...Jade, thank you for that...
Have you seen our embarrassing part 5 headcanons yet? If not, go check that out!
#jojos's bizarre adventure#diamond is unbreakable#diu#jjba#josuke higashikata#okuyasu nijimura#koichi hirose#jotaro kujo#4taro#joseph joestar#rohan kishibe#headcanons#headcanon#jjba headcanons#crack#crack treated seriously#kinda#ask-c-c-cherry
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johnny as your boyfriend; radio!au
a/n: thIS was requested a looooooong time ago, and i am so sorry that i only wrote this now. My mocks are finally done, and they actually went pretty well, so i hope my results will match whatever i am claiming skdjkjd. This headcanon was really fun to write, and it was overall just adorable oof alright, imma head to over to my next oneshot now. Hope all of you have a great day.
Okay so yaâll are in uniVersity (as expected because I am writing this)
You met johnny 2 years ago when you were freshman looking for a job on campus cause um,,, college is a bitch
And you saw this uni radio show âNight Nightâ which went live every wednesday at 9 in the evening
You honestly had no idea what they talked about since youâve never listened to one
Despite the fact that your roommate Sicheng always talks about it and claims how great it is
BUT ANYWAY
You always enjoyed radio shows in general, and saw that they were hiring for another radio show personality
HMMmmMmmmM i wonDEr wheRe tHIS Is gOInG
You were one intellect my dear; you were studying political science at Konkuk University, meaning, you were one opinionated ass individual
But, you also had your crack side acCording to ur roommate
You fucking chased Sicheng around with those incense sticks cause you couldnât find your go-to rolling pin to scare the shit out of him for eating your pack of strawberries
I swear the two of you are great friends yaâll just show love to each other in quite a unique way
ANYWAYS
YeAH so you went to ask for the job cause you need money to buy a safe for your precious strawberries
You brought whatever requirements they asked for, and nyyOoooOOooooOOOOnged your way over there
It was a pretty old building, or radio station per se. not that it was bad or anything but, it isnât exactly a place you would like to step into
Going up the stairs, you just saw a really TALL and attractive guy clearing out a few things in the booth. Your guess was that he was also probably new to this and whoever lent him the place didnât exactly clean up the place.
With whatever courage you had in yourself
Or i guess how much sugar you consumed this morning cause you casually just walked it without contacting the guy
âUh... hello?â
HE JUMPED, whatever shit he was holding? Yeah it dropped
Which caused you to jump too, not expecting the huge ass pretty guy to have that big of a reaction
he looked over to you, surprised to see a person in the radio station because um,,, nobody ever goes there except for him
âHello to you too??? uhhh, not meaning to be rude or anything but, why are you here? Are you lost?â He asks, looking extremely concerned
You just shook your head and deadass told him that there was a job offer for another radio show personality, and he looked eveN more concerned
Sorta like a âare u fucking seriousâ face
âOh! Right. That job has been open for about a year now so I didnât expect anyone to come at all...â
OHHhhHhh????????
Well,,,, i guess you have a better chance of getting the job?
âWell.... do i get a higher chance of being accepted then for being the first to show up? You ask, unsure if whatever you said made sense, or was even socially acceptable
Imagine going to a job interview being like: âso i saw ur job offer, and since i actually showed up, Iâm accepted right?â
Babe i dont think it works like that, but letâs continue
Johnny honestly had nothing to say against you though. You were right in a sense that you had no competition since you were the only one that actually came to apply. At the same time, he wanted the quality of the show to still be good even if there was a limited audience
âHigher chance is indeed right. But tell me, uhh, whatâs your name again?â
âI actually never introduced myself, but itâs _______â
âIâm Johnny by the way. So _______, why do you want to be a radio show host for Konkuk University?â
you had two ways to answer this question: (1) be blatantly honest that you really need the money, and talking to earn cash seems pretty great in your opinion or (2) repeat whatever the fuck sicheng has told you about the show
And of course, you were going with the first option
âi honestly need the money because college is a bitch. And also talking and having discussions is a pretty fun and interesting method to get some cash in. Also because my roommate loves your show and why not ruin it for him by including me in itâ
Babe
BABE SKDJKSDJKDSJKSDJSKDJKSDJ
Johnny actually wanted to accept you immediately. I mean for starters, he found you pretty adorable marching up to the radio station determined to get the job. And not only that, you were quite the talker, which is something that could spike up the show since it was just always johnny speaking
And also because he was feeling quite lonely but he would never admit that
âAlright _____, meet me this friday to talk about next weekâs segmentâ
OOFT
And let me tell you, tall boiâs assumptions were right. During your first show together, the two of you decided to talk about the book â1984â by george orwell and although it may sound boring on a superficial level, yOU made it sound pretty interesting and johnny was actually just laughing the entire time
You and johnny just clicked in an instant, and your way of describing things made âNight Nightâ known by the students
Nobody could ever forget your infamous line about the book: âgeorge orwellâs sexual frustration is honestly so transparent in the book; all he needed was to get his dick wet then maybe he wouldnât have let julia and winston be caught by the thoughtpolice.â
And things like this happened every wednesday. The pattern of your radio show just included you being you, and johnny trying to make shit be on track
The two of you were doing it for a very long time now, and back to toDAY where yaâll have been doing it for two years, well... it would be a lie to say you hadnât developed feelings for johnny
of course the man was beautiful and well-built. But his personality and laugh? Yeah sicheng shouldâve warned you about that.
He is probably one of the most open-minded person in the world, and he knows a bit about everything, making him so well-rounded. And and and heâs to kind???
If you tell him that you canât make it to the radio show, he says itâs okay and even gives you snacks the moment you come back and he just makes you so soft in general iâ
Meanwhile for johnny, damn is he in love with you
Over the past 2 years, you definitely helped him open up more. With the way you speak along with your galaxy brain, he couldnât help but fall for you? You were intelligent, you had your own mind, and being friendly and funny in general is something johnny really liked about you
The time when he realised he loves you was when you curled yourself up against the seat while you were discussing about what to talk about next week, and you just fell asleep. He noticed how soft and peaceful you looked, and that he would want to see you like this on a daily basis
Shit this is getting me all soft i wasnt planning on this nsndnsndnd
So yeaHHHHH this weekâs segment, you guys were talking about the spanish conquest of mexico and peru woohoooo
AND you were very excited for this because this was one of your (my) favourite topics you learnt during your time in high school
âOKAY, good evening everyone I am ______D,â
âAnd I am JohnD, and welcome toâ
âNight Night. Oof, weâre getting better at our introductions arenât we JohnD?â
âNope, you just learned how to say it without cringingâ
âTouchĂ©â and yaâll began your discussion. And things actually got pretty interesting.
âSo _____ youâre telling me that it was Cortesâ leadership that allowed the Spanish to successfully take over Mexico?â He asks you in disbelief.
âNo you tall dumbfuck, itâs one of the attributes that led them to succeed. Both Cortes and Pizarro had disease on their side and better weapons, so of course theyâd win. I just wanted to include leadership as i donât know, to see the defeat of the aztecs from a new lens?â You respond, deadass looking at johnny in the eye
âWell, i donât think i can argue with that, mainly because i am too scared too. That is it for today, but before we end this, i would like to add one more thing.â Johnny says, which took you by surprise
huHhh?
You looked confused, in fact, you were confused.
What the fuck was going on?
âThis academic year is ending, and this so happens to be my last year here at Konkuk University...â
Oh shit
Your eyes softened at his words, just realising now that johnny was two years older than you, and yeah, heâs graduating this year
â... this year has honestly been one of the greatest years here at Konkuk, but for me, I think of my my most memorable memories here was when ______D entered the station and giving me a huge frightâ
You laughed a little, remembering how much you scared the man
âTaking this opportunity, ______D, I want to ask you somethingâ
Shit
Shit
Shit
BRUHHHHHHHHH
âI just want to congratulate you and thank you for joining âNight Night.â You made the show livelier and massively increased the viewer rate with that big brain of yoursââ
âI prefer the term galaxy brainâ
ââyes, galaxy brain. I hope that you can continue this radio show, and maybe recruit someone else while iâm out in the world of disgusting adults. So yes, thank you ______. And because we wonât be colleagues in a bit, will you be my girl/boyfriend?â
You were initially teary eyed, buT yEET those tears out biTCH what????
You wanted to say yes, bUt how?????
Do you just nod at him and go âye,â or do you like, confess?
You felt weird in the stomach. Not that you can exactly do 459343948 cartwheels in one go, but thatâs exactly what your stomach was doing. If you were to speak, you could have vomited.
Idk what happened to you, but you took off your headphones, and went to the tall boy and just hugged the shit out of him cause umm,,,, SAME????
And johnny wasnât sure what that exactly meant so he just hugged you back, bringing you to his lap and holding you tight against him cause honestly, when will he be able to do this to a person he genuinely loves
There was a moment of silence of you two just holding each other, until you realised you were still live with lord knows how many people were listening.
âU-um, yeah Johnny, I w-will gladly be yoursââ
â_____ I love youâ
OKAY RETRIEVE THOSE TEARS BISH YOU CRYING NOW TF
You sorta just placed your head on the crook of his neck, quietly whispering to him
âI canât believe I love your tall ass too...â
âSHE SAID SHE LOVES ME TOO!â
#johnny suh#nct#nct 127#nct dream#nct u#wayv#johnny#seo youngho#johnny as your boyfriend#fluff#radio au#johnny x reader#johnd#yuta#haechan#mark#doyoung#taeil#jaehyun#taeyong#jungwoo#winwin#sicheng
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Headcanon meme - Ezra (Prospect, 2018)
Um⊠This has been in my drafts for like... a week already. Ages ago I reblogged this Headcanon meme but I got zero asks. So, being in the mood for headcanons and slightly obsessed with Prospect I just started randomly writing them about Ezra. Somehow I ended up writing the whole meme. Not sure if anyone would be interested to read these, but since I finally got to clean up my drafts, here we go.Â
No warnings, gif by me (credit if use please)
⟠- sleep headcanon
With his tough life Ezra doesnât often have a luxury to sleep in a comfortable bed, but heâs got this superpower to sleep anywhere, anytime, in any position. He doesnât have problems with getting up early, but heâs still usually a bit grumpy in the mornings.
â
- sad headcanon
Ezra does not often allow sad and depressive thoughts to consume him. In fact, his incredible optimism and confidence that itâll work out somehow and everything will be okay in the end, even if you have to go through a lot of crap before it happens, always helped him to survive even the most dangerous situations. But of course heâs only human, and he can be gloomy too. He has regrets as well, but he refuses to focus on sad stuff, because he knows very well - in the world he lives, thereâs no time for whining. Once you give up - youâre dead.Â
â - happy headcanon
When Ezra is happy, he smiles a lot. Yes, he is mostly talkative, but sometimes heâs just quiet and has this soft and content smile on his face with a lot of warmth behind it. These are rare occasions, thatâs why theyâre always so precious.
â - angry/violent headcanon
Heâs not naturally violent. If thereâs a possibility to settle the matter peacefully, heâd rather try it. But if someone threatens him or his loved ones - he will fight back without hesitation.
Ezra is never violent just for the sake of violence, he doesnât find joy in it. Unfortunately sometimes he has no choice.
Ezra is capable for murder. He happened to kill, but heâs not proud of that. Itâs more like a burden he has to live with, but he accepted it, because⊠Thatâs just life. Basically his life motto is whatâs done is done, so whatâs the point in torturing yourself about something that cannot be changed.
Generally Ezra is very reasonable, but when heâs angry he may become poisonous and say things that can hurt, or be brutally honest and tell someone the truth they donât really want to hear.Â
âż - Sex headcanon
I mean⊠this guy is full of big dick energy, so yeah⊠Sex with him is mostly rough and passionate. Sloppy kisses, kneading and biting, sex against the wall - all this is about him. On the other hand, he can be gentle too. Youâd be surprised how tender he actually can be in contrast with his tough guy appearance and demeanor. Heâs not selfish in bed, and if heâs got real feelings for someone, he becomes pretty soft and caring, making sure youâre comfortable and feel good. He doesnât often have much time to enjoy the intimacy without hurry, but when he does, he uses this time to the fullest.Â
Ezra is quite experienced - heâs an attractive man and has a charm, so itâs not that hard for him to get a girl into bed. For sure he had just casual sex not once and not even twice⊠Mostly when he was a bit younger though. But when it comes to love and affection - itâs way more complicated. Thatâs why he really appreciates it. So even if your encounter was rough, you can always count on a soft kiss or cuddle afterwards. There are times when all he wants is just to hold you and feel your warmth.
â - Â Bedroom/house/living quarters headcanon
Heâs mostly on the road and seldom has an opportunity to settle for a while. Once he does, his living quarters are quite messy. He usually doesnât bother himself with folding his clothes or making the bed. Thankfully he doesnât have many belongings, they all fit into his backpack so he has no problems finding what he needs.Â
⥠- romantic headcanon
In the world where Ezra lives, not many people have the luxury of being romantic. Even a simple trust is a gift which is not that easy to gain. Ezra appreciates this gift though, heâs been lonely for quite a while, even without completely realizing it, even among people. So, even more than being with his love interest physically, he cherishes emotional closeness.Â
Yes, thereâs no time and place for romance in this world, but Ezra always finds ways to show his affection, either itâs holding hands, soft looks and touches during the rare moments of intimacy, or being protective of his loved one.
â„ - family headcanon
Ezraâs life is a constant fight and one adventure after another. Deep inside this tough guy really needs to care for someone, but he never seriously thought about settling down and starting a family of his own.
âź - friendship headcanon
To be honest, real friendship is not a very common thing in Ezraâs surroundings. Itâs not always safe to trust people here. There are some people Ezra can work/deal with, but as for the REAL friends - he doesnât have many. And maybe thatâs why he cherishes them. As well as with his love interest, with his friends Ezra is loyal and protective.
⊠- quirks/hobbies headcanon
Secretly, Ezra really likes to read. Heâd certainly do that more often if he had time.
Sometimes when he teams up with a few people for work, he doesnât mind playing cards with them. Heâs really good at bluffing.
⯠- likes/dislikes headcanon
Ezra likes smart people. Physical beauty is attractive for sure, but this kind of attraction doesnât last that long. Yep, brains and wit are really important for this man. If youâre arguing with him, he may look not very pleased, but secretly he loves that too. If the partner agrees with his every word it, he can get bored pretty soon.
Ezra likes to talk, especially after heâs been alone for quite a while. It can even be a bit annoying at times.
Ezra likes it when you run your fingers through his hair. This soft intimate gesture makes him melt.
Ezra is mostly a man of his word, so he dislikes it when people fail to keep their promises.
⌠- childhood headcanon
For some reason Ezra doesnât remember his childhood very well. His parents were far from being wealthy, and they were mostly occupied with how to earn money to pay the debts rather than paying attention to him. He lost them in his teens when they went for another risky job. He used to hang out with some shady guys and even was involved into some stuff. He learnt lots of survival lessons at quite a young age, but he doesnât complain. In the end it only made him stronger.
â - old age/aging headcanon
Oh thatâs funny. For some reason I seldom think about my favorite characters getting old. But I think Ezra could be a really funny grandpa. I think heâs got these protective instincts that would make him a good dad, so I think itâs possible for him to have children in the future, and then grandchildren. And Iâm pretty sure they would adore listening to the stories about the adventures of his past :)
â - cooking/food headcanon
Ezra is absolutely not picky about what he eats. Food is just fuel for him. So, snacks, protein/chocolate bars and so on. If he lived in our realities, heâd be a fast food kind of person for sure. Iâm also not sure if thereâs coffee in Ezraâs world, but if there was - heâd totally drink a lot of it.
⌠- appearance headcanon
He doesnât care much about appearance, mostly because he just has no time for it. But if he fell for you and wants to make good impression, he could trim his beard or even shave though :)
Ezra is not sure where he got this blond streak of his hair; he thinks itâs either some kind of a natural mutation, or something happened to him when he was a kid. Anyway, he has it from quite an early age. Â
à” - random headcanon
When he was young, about 18 years old, Ezra got into jail for some⊠Not very legal business he was doing with a bunch of âfriendsâ. He was the youngest and the less experienced among them, so they managed to get away with it, and he didnât. In jail, there was one older man, and Ezra really admired his way of speaking. When some bold dudes tried to bully him, he could say something so fancy in reply sometimes that they just stared at him in confusion, trying to figure out if he offended them or not. Ezra found it hilarious. From this man he learnt that words can also be a weapon or just a really helpful tool to achieve what you want.
This was my headcanon about where Ezra got his unusual manner of speech :)
â - Any other question of your choosing
Ezra has a habit to give nickmames to people he hangs out with. He can often call you âsweetheartâ, âlittle birdâ, âdarlinââ or something like that. He does this somehow so naturally that even if youâre not a fan of pet names it sounds cute.Â
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I might write one more fic about this character but only after Iâm done with 2 Rockwell characters fics Iâm currently working on :â)
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Rules: answer 10 questions, write 10 questions for people, tag 10 people
(I will be breaking one of the rules here, I donât have 10 people to tag :â) or I will just randomly tag people that re-blog my nonsense, Iâm so sorry, strangers).
thank you @see-it-all-so-clearâ for the tag
1. What was the last piece of media that made you cry? Why (optional)?
I read a short story recently that was the sweetest thing ever and so pure and so peaceful. I was tearing up from the middle on. And by the end, I was crying. It wasnât even sad, at least I read it as something not sad, it was just filled with emotion and I loved it so much.Â
2. Do spoilers actually bother you or not? Do you ever seek them out deliberately?
This is a very complicated thing for me. If I want something spoiled, I will seek it out, but if someone spoils something I donât want to know, I will probably never finish that. For example: my first partner spoiled Death Note when I started watching it and I have never finished it (itâs been 10 years already since then), and I also donât have any plans to finish it ever. And I only had a couple episodes left. But if I feel like I know where the story is going and I just want to make sure I donât send my brain to some kind of a wild chase, I might just check to confirm if Iâm correct or not.
3. If you were to describe yourself using a colour palette, which colours would you use?
I would use black, greys, violets and purples.Â
4. If you were a fictional character, which songs would you want people to associate you with and which headcanons about you would the audiences probably make, based on your life so far?
I have no idea about the songs, sorry? But Iâd love to know what songs people associate with me irl, I think that would be so fun to know. But for the headcannons?
a) Depressed angsty witchy headstrong bastard, who gets into a lot of trouble they didnât have to get into, because they have to solve all the problem of all the people they care about and because someone said: âYou canât do this!âÂ
b) Probably makes weird concoctions in the basement.
c) Has at least 12 knives and all of them have names.
d) Either clumsy as fuck or maybe itâs a curse passed down from last-born child to last-born child that makes it impossible to go a few days without a stupid injury.
5. If you were to design a card or a tarot deck, what pattern or motif would you put on the back of the cards? Would there be anything special about the deck? What would be your inspiration for the motifs?
I would probably make them black and white in the front, with just one colour added for contrast. The imagery would definitely be a bit macabre, with elements of death and decay, but also with new life from plants. The backs would probably be completely mirrorable (this isnât a word but I know you get what I mean), with plant/foresty imagery. The colour used for the contrast would also be colour of the edge, so that when theyâre stacked theyâre not just plain white. Iâd probably add something shiny somewhere, like a metallic sheen that can only be seen in certain lights.
6. Are there any songs that you canât listen to anymore because they remind you of someone or something too much? Would you still choose to associate the song with them if you had the chance not to?
Not anymore, I try to disregard the pain, I guess? But in the past, there were certain songs that carried too many painful memories. Some still remind me of people or events from my past, but itâs not as painful anymore. I canât really turn that off, the memories come back vividly whether I want them or not. Iâd rather have the ability to sever the connection, so I could fully enjoy the song again.
7. Do you have any piercings? If no, are you planning on getting any? If yes, are you planning on getting more?
Yes, yes I do. And yes, Iâm planning many many more, re-piercing some that closed since I had to take the jewellery out and adding some completely new. Canât wait!
8. Which/what kind of noises do you find the most soothing? Which/what kind of noises annoy you the most?
I really like the sound of waves and water flowing and rain. But I hate sounds that have a rhythm to them, like ticking clocks, or water falling from the tap or any kind of screeching noises. Also, the noise Kayako makes in The Grudge. Fuck that.
9. Do you like reading poetry? If yes, what kind? If no, why not? (Optionally, add a poem recommendation)
I love poetry. I really donât have a preference, I used to prefer anything connected to romanticism and decadence, but now I just like poetry for itself. For recommendations Iâd say : Pablo Neruda -Â Sonnet XVII (one of my favourite love poems). I only had half a coffee so far, so I canât remember any other poets right now, sorry.
10. Which fictional characters would you say influenced your personal development the most, if any?
I donât really think there is one? I used to consume so much books and movies and series that everything I am is more of a mishmash than one certain character. Or as I like to call it.. a Confusion.
My questions:
1. What book marked you the most and why? Did you actually finish it? Do you often reread it?
2. If you suddenly got the chance to move any place in the world and build your on safe space there, where would you go? What kind of a place would you create?
3. What is your opinion on body-modification? Do you partake in it or do you think itâs just a whim? If you do partake, what is your favourite âpieceâ? Optional: if you could modify anything on your body, what would it be?
4. If you met your younger self, would you try and avoid you or would you approach and try to give advice? If an older version of yourself visited you right now, would you listen to them and follow their advice?
5. What special magical ability would you choose to have, if you could? How would it help your life? Why would you choose it?
6. What is you favourite herb? Why? Do you use it?
7. People closest to you invited themselves to your place tomorrow. You want to be a good host and make something sweet to eat. What do you make? Optional: Include a recipe.
8. What is your favourite smell? Do you like scented candles, incense or oil diffusers? If you could make it smell like anything you want, what would your perfect perfume smell like?
9. If youâre home alone, do you like to sit/read/create in silence or do you need something to break itt? If yes - does sound bother you? If no - what do you listen to? Optional: include media recommendations to break the silence.
10. Do you enjoy board games? If no - what do you do to entertain when people are over? If yes, what are you favourite ones? Optional: what is a board game you always wanted to try, but donât have friends who are into it?
Thanks to my activity page and you people reblogging my nonsense in the last week or so, I tag: @see-it-all-so-clear @arcana-majeure @notwastingtoday @whitemoths - and this is all folks. If anyone else wants to do it, please feel free to do so! :)
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Letâs talk about The Twist of Good Omens (Pt. 1 of 2).
This is HALF a meta / scene analysis and praise for the actors, and HALF an Ineffable headcanon following the meta, so I hope youâll bare with me as my brain spews out this shit thatâs been going through it all week. Itâs gotten really long, so Iâm going to split up the meta / analysis and the headcanon into two separate posts because as I was writing this, it was getting long, and I know some people are here for either/or.
Spoilers follow, obviously.
A little known fact about me (or perhaps well known if youâve been here for a long time) is that I LOVE the body swap / face swap trope. OBSESSED ABOUT IT. Loved it since I was a kid. I think itâs more the psychology of it that interests me (like I also consider âplopping a brain into a robotâ part of this trope too, and the ensuing crisis intrigues me... a lot of my old Sonic fanfiction dealt with this type of thing). That and my innate desire to not be me, but I digress. One of my favourite movies ever is Face/Off... not a fantastic movie by any means, but damn if I didnât obsess about it because of the psychology of it all. I LOVE watching actors pretend theyâre the other actor playing their role. Itâs amazing to me.
And AS someone who has consumed this trope like life since as long as Iâve consumed media, it probably took me less than a couple minutes to spot the twist ending in Good Omens. I immediately sensed something was off, mainly in their discussion in the park and the mannerisms of the characters when they went to their respective places.Â
When Aziraphale hesitated on saying âineffableâ before death showed up, THEN Crowleyâs hesitation on what Deathâs appearance was, and THEN the âtickety-booâ from Crowley, is when something was niggling at me upon first watch of the scene. I wasnât REALLY certain about my suspicions until C!Aziraphale and Gabriel were talking in the scene immediately following. Azzie was VERY subdued in Heaven, more like he was just trying to buy time or he was bored, when in the past he would... well, essentially not shut up and try to make small talk when he was confronted by the Gabriel or the other Angels.Â
Instead he looked like a man who was lowkey annoyed and bored of being there, like heâs seen it all before. He didnât question the demon bringing up the Hellfire. Just placid indifference.
It threw me for a loop, and thatâs when I said, âOh, they switched bodies, didnât they??â. And itâs upon rewatches that I really REALLY became obsessed with this entire ending scene, because thatâs when everything sort of falls into place, and you begin to see the minutiae of Sheenâs and Tennantâs acting in these scenes, and ALL the previous mannerisms from their characters are absorbed into each otherâs portrayal of, well, each other. Essentially:Â âDavid, play this scene the way Michael would play this scene as if he were pretending to be you shamming the demons.â Itâs amazing.
Hereâs where I need to fucking praise Sheen and Tennant on their acting, because GODDAMN did they ever get each otherâs mannerisms down pat, because upon subsequent rewatches, this is where Iâm seeing all the clues about the twist ending that are GLARING, and I AM LIVING FOR IT.
So letâs jump back to the beginning of the scene, where they each return to their respective favourite material things: Upon returning, each character, if they were themselves, would have been OVERJOYED by their material items being back in tact. Azzie loves his books, and Crowley LOVESÂ his car. Instead we just see... indifferent satisfaction that everything was restored? It was odd, but not alarming. You could stock it up to them being tired from the events of the day. It was still red flag one, for me.
Now, Iâm not going to point this one out as âred flag twoâ because I canât recall at all a time BEFORE this scene if this next thing ever happened, and perhaps someone can let me know if they recall before I get a chance to do my fourth run-through of the series: The flavours of ice cream they each end up eating; it would be a tell if theyâre each eating what the other normally does. It would be a neat little clue that they each donât realize theyâre really doing thatâs out of character. So... red flag 1.5 I will say until confirmation.Â
The âtickety booâ, Iâm going to label as a Red Flag 2: rewatching the series, we see Azzie uses the phrase when shitâs going tits up. Crowley mocked him for it, but never ever said it other than that one time. On first watch, you just write it off as Crowley picking up Azzieâs phrases, since Crowley says a lot of silly phrases, but upon second watch, youâre like, OH SHIT, wow, itâs totally Azzie, should have seen that.
Then thereâs each of them in Heaven and Hell. I already talked about my tip-offs for Azzie, so letâs talk Crowley. A!Crowley was stammering on his speech, in that way that Azzie does when heâs nervous and unsure of himself and heâs trying to formulate his thoughts and understand what is happening. He was SURPRISED about Michael working with the demons, because â even though he saw Beelzebub and Gabriel interact, he had no idea how twisted in their own schemes both sides were. This is uncharacteristic behaviour for Crowley, I think anyway, because he would know that some of the Angels get away with all kinds of shit and STILL never Fall. Azzie... ahh, I love him, but I donât think he would.
And A!Crowley STOOD like Azzie would... Crowley has this... way he sort of stands still (ie. trying to be cool but heâs really not). He wasnât doing that at all in this scene. And the fact he was concerned about his clothes getting ruined? Yeah, when has that ever stopped Crowley? It was sort of a sweet thing that this Lovely here pointed out and I only remembered about it when I read this post. Azzie didnât want Crowleyâs brand new coat to get ruined, aww.Â
Jumping back to C!Aziraphale, still super quiet and indifferent and almost ANNOYED at the proceedings, and not once does he stammer at all. Azzie always stammers (a little more than his usual speech patterns, anyway) when facing the Angels, especially Gabriel, but this is legit the first time he doesnât. Just smart-arse remarks and a âdevil may careâ (hur dur) attitude about the proceedings.Â
I think I was 90% sure about my theory about the twist when the the bathtub scene that follows appears, because it didnât really make sense to me in my head that the Holy Water WASNâT doing anything. The demons later surmise itâs because theyâve âgone nativeâ, but are they really sure? Hmm. Anyway, this whole scene is HILARIOUS to me upon rewatch, because itâs now Azzie CERTAIN that he canât be harmed here from the punishment even if heâs wearing Crowleyâs face, and he FINALLY lets himself BE his own person. Funny how him seeing through a demonâs eyes is WHY he finally lets go (which, you know, is kind of what happened with Crowley 6000 years before... realized the world wasnât fair and it wasnât going to treat him with kindness). He finally understands Crowley, I think, in a way, because of this incident.Â
Azzie is FINALLY certain and unafraid of being himself. He no longer stammers, and literally strikes fear into the demons in the dorkiest of ways and THEN secures Crowleyâs future of being left alone. That tiny little thing there is really sweet and so Azzie.Â
As for C!Aziraphale, heâs a dramatic bitch in the Hellfire to scare away the Angels. And though itâs not seen, Iâm certain Crowley would have guaranteed Azzieâs safety in the same way that Azzie did his... Iâm just assuming since itâs alluded to in their final park-bench conversation.
And â segue! â as we switch back to the park bench scene, I think this was when I was, on my first watch, all âyep, they switchedâ. Look at even just the camera pan-in: theyâre sitting on the wrong sides (Crowley has ALWAYS sat to Azzieâs left-hand side), and Azzie is slouching. Azzie NEVER slouches, just as Crowley is never straight-backed and proper when he sits. I absolutely adore Tennant playing a reassuring-Azzie so beautifully, and then the uptick in the intonation of âAnyone looking?â is SO Aziraphale, that if you hadnât picked up the clues by now, that should have set you off, as well as... why would Aziraphale know if âanyone is lookingâ? Crowley has ALWAYS been the one whoâs able to sense other beings around, and I feel like itâs BECAUSE of his status as a demon that he can do this (as a former angel, it might be a âskillâ he retained when he fell, and then gained the skill to sense other demons, so then he would be able to tell if either-or are around, whereas Azzie would only be able to sense love, happiness, and other angels, is my theory).
AHHH And then. AND THEN, Sheenâs impersonation of Tennantâs speech patterns when he says âRight. Swap back then?â and then with the face he makes. Itâs ALL Crowley right there. GAWD, perfection.
I love their little interaction after the switch... Azzie is just SO DAMNED PROUD OF HIMSELF, WHAT A PRECIOUS CINNAMON ROLL. And Crowley is enamoured by it all. He VISIBLY sees the change in Azzie, what seeing the world through Crowleyâs eyes has done to him. So much so he chances to ask Azzie out, and he FINALLY accepts, no hesitation.
AH. Thatâs a WHOLE other meta in-of itself.
Next, Part 2, is my head canon for the lead up to this scene. Itâs more of a musing than anything else, spawned by a thought I had about why are they able to switch so easily... and how did they know that they could? It wonât be nearly as long as this so I should have it up in a few days when I have a free moment :)
Anyway, Iâd love for yâall to add your own thoughts or expand upon mine here if youâve anything to say!
Cheers everyone, and welcome new people to my blog that my other GO meta may have enticed you to here <3 Weâll see how many meta this show squeezes out of my brain, probably not nearly as much as Johnlock does, but there we are, LOL <3
#good omens#go meta#go final twist#spoilers#go character analysis#go scene analysis#my meta#my thoughts
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30 Days of Autism Acceptance 2020: Days 1-10
This is a list of questions by @autie-jake (full list here), where youâre supposed to answer one per day for every day of April. I learned about it a few days into April and intended to start doing it but I forgot, I guess, or maybe decided against it. But I wanna do it now, so hereâs the first ten days really quick.
April 1: Introduce yourself. Talk about who you are as a person.
This is kind of a hard question for me. I think my younger sister (by 3Ÿ years) would say this, if she just made a new friend the same age as her and she asked about me:
âWell, she goes to college, but sheâs graduating this semester. She does something with proteins, but honestly she should really be a linguist. I actually really hate discussing linguistics with her, because she gets so annoying and overbearing about it. I donât understand why sheâs doing whatever she is. Sheâs a pretty weird person. She has all sorts of problems with, like, depression and amnesia and stuff. Oh, but, sheâs trans, so, like, thatâs a thing, yeah. I donât like talking about most things with her because she thinks sheâs always right. And also, sheâs kind of mean to our mom. I donât know why she does that. But at the same time sheâs, like, really sensitive, and will be offended by the stupidest things. Okay, this is making it sound like I donât like her, but I do, okay? Sheâs my sister, of course I love her. Weâve bonded a lot. Sheâs moving to DC in October, so weâll be able to hang out during the school year, and thatâll be really fun. I think Iâm just a little fed up with her right now from having to live with her for a whole month.â
April 2: Post your red instead selfie today! Alternatively, you could talk about why you choose to go redinstead and what it means to you.
I donât know what âredinsteadâ is. I googled it and it sounds like you wear differently-themed stuff from whatâs recommended by Autism Speaks, to dunk on them. Like a lot of people, Iâm stuck inside this April, so thereâs no point in me wearing pride clothing, because nobody will see it. But I do disapprove of Autism Speaks, because they donât treat autistic people like people, and they try to spread that ideology. If you trick them into thinking youâre a person first, they wonât change their mind; instead, theyâll say youâre not autistic. People defend them by recounting the problems that nonverbal autistic people face, as though nonverbal autistic people have an inherently worse neurotype than everyone else, and not just one thatâs more difficult to accomodate for society, and as though that justifies the abuses levied against them by Autism Speaks. I could go into details, but I wonât, because it would be emotionally draining for me as a writer, and you as a reader.
Suffice to say, I love being autistic. It has inspired a lot of people to treat me very badly, and probably led to a degree of abuse and neglect in my childhood that resulted in dissociative identity disorder. But all of my autistic traits are things that I love about myself. I like how emotionally expressive my stims make me. I like how Iâve learned to dissect a lot of social stuff and I can explain it. I like how I can just dispense with all of that social stuff around autistic people. Hell, I think it gives the neurotypical people I hang out with some relief, too, when Iâm straightforward and explicit all the time. I like how good I am at linguistics, and how I can use it as a way to relate to the world.
April 3: Talk about special interests. Do you have any? What are they? How long have you had them? What does it feel like to have special interests? What does having special interests mean to you? Talk about your past special interests
My special interests are unusually slow burns. Iâve had linguistics-related special interests for the past ten years. Theyâre peripherally useful for language learning, but mostly Iâve just accumulated academic knowledge. Theyâve, however, also led me to reconnect with my Ugric heritage culture, which is very important to me. (It wouldnât be important to me if language werenât my primary way of relating to the world; paradox?)
I have a wide variety of other interests, but few of them are really âspecialâ. As a kid, my special interest was marine life. Unfortunately, I havenât retained much of that, although I do have the privilege of having a diverâs license, which Iâll use again someday when I pass better naked. I also briefly had a special interest in⊠building computers, or something. I didnât have the money to make anything particularly powerful (not that I had anything at the time to use computational power for), but I did run some workshops for middle-schoolers.
I think maybe my interest as a kid in Homestuck was special? It ran pretty deep, anyway. Itâs hard to say, when you canât remember most of your life.
April 4: Do you consider your autism to be an important part of your identity?
Because we have DID (or something like it), we donât have an identity in the traditional sense. We do have a system identity, but thatâs built around our mutual goals and guidelines. However, weâd be very sad to lose our autistic traits. Also, it might mess with the standard of consistency weâve established for ourselves; we might not be able to predict our future actions, because losing our autistic traits may interfere with our ability to follow the aforementioned goals and guidelines, which are what help keep us focused and consistent.
April 5: Talk about your living situation. Do you live with your parents? Do you live on your own? Have roommates? Etc. If you live on your own how hard was it to get used to?
Right now, Iâm quarantining with my mom, my sister, and my brother (who is actually my sisterâs boyfriend), at my momâs house. The mess thatâs accumulating in the house is slowly causing my mom more and more stress, I think. Iâve never really lived on my own. For a lot of college, I lived with roommates or housemates, but I donât think I was very good at that. Also, my mom lived nearby, and I stayed at her place on the weekends. The closest Iâve come to living on my own is watching my momâs house for up to a few weeks at a time, and that wasnât sustainable. (To be fair, what kind of house has a lawn? When I get a house with a lawn in the future, I will make sure that itâs a wild lawn that I donât have to mow.)
The third to last time that I house-sitted for my mom, I ended up getting hospitalized for self-harm. It took her a while to let me do it again after that. Although, not a very long while, I guess. That was at the end of last September.
April 6: Are you able to drive? If you can, was it hard for you to learn? If not, what alternatives do you use, if any
Iâm not able to drive. Driving is scary and difficult for me. I went through the motions of learning it in high school, but my track was interrupted by a move across state lines (I lived in the US at the time), and I never recovered. Iâve failed the NJ written driverâs exam, which grants you a one-year permit with restrictions, a total of roughly ten times. Iâve never been this bad at a subject; itâs like I have the opposite of a special interest in driving. A special lack-of-interest. My brain wonât retain any information about NJ driving laws whatsoever. It doesnât help that I had a traumatic car crash when I was very young.
So far, Iâve just gotten my mom and coworkers to drive me places, or taken Ubers or trains. Iâve resigned myself to the fact that if I leave NJ, Iâll probably have to get a driverâs license. Although, Iâve already got a carpool set up at my next job in October.
April 7: Talk about autism in the media. Do you think that autism is typically portayed well? Badly? Is there anything youâd like to see more of when it comes to autistic representation? Who are your favorite autistic characters? Do you have any headcanons?
The media that I consume doesnât really have autistic characters, so I canât comment on how autistic people are portrayed, except that Iâd like us to be portrayed more, period. Iâve only really seen us in teen dramas. To be fair, one of my favorite webcomics, El Goonish Shive, is a teen drama, and has a great autistic character (Susan). Iâd say I identify with her, but not really. Itâs very hard for me to identify with people, fictional or nonfictional, because my neurotype is greatly influenced by autism, DID, chronic depression, and gender dysphoria, and you donât see combinations of traits in media that come even close to that.
Speaking of another teen drama, I wish I were half as cool as Matilda from Everythingâs Gonna Be Okay. I guess that makes her my favorite canon autistic character, but thatâs pretty easy, because I donât know any other ones. I canât say that I wanna hug her, because she doesnât like that, but her general substitute for hugs is dancing, and I canât dance. I guess Iâd learn how, to show my appreciation for her.
Archer from Archer is probably autistic. I like him a lot.
April 8: What are some misconceptions/stereotypes about autism that you hate?
âHatingâ is not something I can really do, even when itâs recommended to do it. I havenât been open about my autism, so I havenât been exposed to too many misconceptions or stereotypes about it firsthand, anyway. I guess if I had to pick, it would be whatever made my dad call me autistic as an insult and use a bunch of ableist slurs at me a whole lot. I donât know how he understands autism, however. He doesnât seem to realize that he has it himself. (Itâs not usually oneâs place to diagnose other people like that, but one of the most degrading things that my mom says to me very often is that Iâm exactly like my father. He even has some traits that I donât, like touch-aversion and samefoods.)
April 9: How sensitive are you when it comes to touch? Are you pro hug or anti hug?
Iâm hyposensitive. Iâm really losing it here under this quarantine. I had a girlfriend who always made me feel so respected whenever she responded to my touch-based needs, by squeezing me, hugging me, or otherwise cuddling me very tight, but then she broke up with me because of my mental health issues, and because her parents hated me and her friends were made very uncomfortable by me.
April 10: Do you have trouble understanding when someone is being sarcastic or joking?
It depends. I think Iâm as good at it as Iâll ever be, and my false negative rate is under 0.5 (and my false positive rate is very low, but not 0). But I donât think the same thing goes on in my head as in neurotypical peopleâs heads when I determine something to be a joke. I almost explicitly do a Bayesian calculation; âBased on what I know about this person and this context, how well can I imagine them meaning this statement unironically in this context? How well can I imagine them meaning this statement ironically in this context?â Itâs pretty automatic now, but sometimes it doesnât work very well, when Iâm not so familiar with the person and/or the context, and occasionally the intended interpretation of the statement.
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@jollysunflora : The second half of my complete list of modern AU Animorphs headcanons, approximately one per book. Â
28. âAx,â Marco says, âHow come you can roll out âventi dulce de leche dark-chocolate frappuchino extra whipâ without batting an eye, but you giggle every time you have to say the word âsoyâ?â
âIt has so many vowelâowl?âsounds, in so little space,â Ax says. Â âThat long sssssssssss, so pleasant on the tongue, but then that odd oooyyy ooy-yah? Â All in the back of the mouth. Â Very strange. Â Sssoooy. Â Ssususs-oooyaaa.â
âAlso, heâs moved on from the frappuchinos,â Tobias adds. Â âNow he keeps spending all our hard-stolen bitcoins on espresso mack... mach...â
âEspresso macchiato con panna,â Ax explains. Â âDoppio.â
29. Cassie feels herself sweating as she props the laptop across the room from her, tools laid out and Ax unconscious on the table. Â She never expected to find a YouTube video on how to perform brain surgeryâand to be honest, itâs actually about âhow neurosurgeons perform an orbitozygomatic craniotomy,â not intended to be a how-to manualâbut itâs the best she can do under the circumstances, and so sheâll follow along for now. Â
MM3. Â âThatâs the kind of strong leadership we need.â Â Jake gestures to the full-color television (this yearâs latest model) where a program of their current leader plays on a loop. Â âKeeping the wrong kind of people out of this country, saving America for the right kind of Americans.â
âYeah, yeah, whatever,â Rachel says. Â She and Tobias and Jake are the only three Animorphs, except when Melissa joins them sometimes, and listening to their âSupreme Leaderâ blather on gets old sometimes. Â âAll I want to know is whether itâs true that within a few years people will really have phones that plug into their cars. Â Thatâd be cool.â
Tobias rubs his eyes against the silk of his wing feathers. Â They itch constantly, since he doesnât have a gas mask to wear every time he goes out into the pollution-opaque air outside the way that his human friends do. Â Jake and Rachel take bets sometimes, idly, brutally, about whether heâs the last raptor left on the face of the planet.
âMagnificent!â Â Drode appears in their midst, and both the Berensons immediately point guns at his head.
30. Marco is lying on his bed the day after watching Eva fall, staring at a patch of wall above his dresser, when he registers that his phone has been buzzing for a while now. Â It goes off so many times he assumes he has to be getting a call, but when he checks his notifications he just discovers heâs gotten seventeen text messages in the last hour. Â
The first is from âSmurfette,â and says âDid you know that there is a type of food that involves baking a cinnamon bun inside of a donut? Â We must secure as many of these as it is possible for a human to consume, as soon as possible!â
The next one, from âHawkgirl,â reads: âfound out recently that apparently ax still thinks you invented flea powder. Â i told him that if youd invented flea powder wed all be a lot richer right now.â
âTeam Dadâ (not to be confused with âReal Dad,â which is how Marco lists Peter) sent along several invitations to team missions on League of Legends this afternoon, along with a threat to have Cassie play Marcoâs avatar if Marco doesnât join in.  âwe both know that by the time you get back youâll have only healing attacks and sheïżœïżœll have trained it to apologize automatically for stabbing people,â Jake adds.
One of the many texts from âJulia Butterfly Hillâ suggests that Jake has underestimated Cassieâs diabolical streak, because itâs a screenshot of a clone of his account which has had its name changed to HarambeWasFramed.
The real surprise, however, is the single text from âXena: Warrior Princess.â Â Itâs a link to an article about a disaster in the local national park and the efforts to clean up the wreckage of an as-yet-unidentified craft which went down in the canyon. Â Marco has to read it a few times to understand the point sheâs making, because itâs all about whatâs not there: the article makes no mention of any human bodies being found among the wreckage. Â
Marco gets halfway through typing a reply to them all which informs them in no uncertain terms that he sees through their transparent attempts to cheer him up and doesnât appreciate it, but he deletes without sending. Â He can practically hear his momâs voice saying it: he can focus on the fact that heâs still surrounded by people who love him, or he can focus on the negative side of everything. Â And being constantly negative is no way to live. Â
31. âSharing this again, because its been 3 months,â Jakeâs cousin Brooke posts on Facebook. Â âAnyone who has any news at all about Saddler, no matter what it is, PLEASE contact my family. Â Big brother, I dont know if youre still out there, but I miss you. Â I miss you like crazy.â
Jake turns up his Spotifyâs Offspring channel a little louder to drown out the sounds of Tom and his dad shouting at each other downstairs. Â His eyes flinch past Brookeâs post, but they canât move fast enough to prevent the thought that flashes across the surface of his mind: Is this going to be me a year from now?
32. Tobias texts Rachel and Jake an article from Audubon.Org, where several birdwatchers are going into ecstasies of scientific fascination at the bald eagle and peregrine falcon seen flying in close formation in a cell-phone video taken near a highway overpass downtown. Â His only comment is, âTold you so.â
33. Â In the aftermath, Rachel does a Google search: âPTSD treatment symptoms outcomes.â Â She reads through the WebMD site, the NIMH page, the Wikipedia link to a DSM-5 entry. Â She thinks of Tobiasâs withdrawn silences, his antipathy toward so much they used to enjoy, but she thinks of other things as well. Â How exhausted Jake seems any time theyâre not on-mission. Â How badly Cassie flinches when the school bell rings and doors slam. Â How Ax seems to be gradually losing interest in the thingsâcooking shows, new condiments, human history trivia, These Messagesâthat once drew his fascination. Â How last week Marco flicked an ant off the back of his hand and then went white like heâd just kicked a puppy. Â How good it had felt when sheâd hurt David, spreading the pain around, giving it back.
She catches an Uber to the clinic downtown, filling out forms in the waiting room based on the checklist written on her phone for âhow to get tobias an ssriâ: Yes, she often feels tense and worried. Â Yes, her heart often races for no reason. Â No, she hasnât thought of ending her life. Â No, she doesnât feel out of control when she eats. Â
She gets as far as developing a cover storyâitâs about how sheâs never felt the same since her parentsâ divorceâbut in the hallway to the office she panics and calls Cassie. Â âAm I doing the right thing?â she asks, after sheâs explained.
Cassie is silent for a long time, never a good sign. Â âIâm not sure an SSRI would work on a bird,â she says at last, âand thatâs even if we could figure out a dose that would work without killing him. Â I know you want to help, and I think you should, but...â
Rachel hears what sheâs not saying: but what if her mom asks too many questions? Â But is this risk really worth it? Â But what if the psychiatrist (the receptionist, the pharmacist) is a controller? Â But isnât it them, and only them, against the world, and isnât that just how it has to be?
âThe war wonât last forever,â Cassie says weakly, and Rachel hates her a little for it. Â âWhen itâs over, when we get to tell everyone whatâs happening...â
Rachel hangs up. Â She goes home, morphs, and flies out to the woods. Â
«You know I love you, right?» she asks Tobias later that evening.
«Of course I do.»  He sounds exhausted.  Sheâs never felt more helpless in her life.
34. The Yeerk Peace Movement, as it comes out, has a Twitter feed. Â It is rather painfully obvious that it has been set up and run entirely by aliens who are doing their very best to communicate with humans, and not quite succeeding. Most of the posts are couplets, for some reason that none of the Animorphs can fathom. Â
âWant to be On Fleek? When you see someoneâs rights threatened, speak!â
âDonât be a Belieber anymore - end slavery and even the score.â
â#tbt: Remember when we were symbiotes? Â Give taxxon freedom your sympathy votes!â
âNickelback is super lame, and keeping involuntary hosts is just the same.â
âRespect your hostâs rights today, and make your human into your bae!â
35. Itâs Marco who comes up with the idea for how to take down William Roger Tennant. Â This is a guy, after all, whose cockatiels have their own Instagram account: he runs his fame on the internet. Â
âIt's simple,â Marco explains. âWe start a hashtagâ#notsonicetennantâand we make it go viral. Â All we have to do is film this guy everywhere he goes, and eventually the yeerk will slip up.â
It proves not to be simple after all. Â Their gif of Tennant twitching madly mid-EPA speech gets overshadowed by the news story about One Direction nearly getting poisoned with spiders at the same banquet. Ax does not understand the concept of hashtag, and keeps adding #notsonicetennant to his retweets of what Marco calls âfood porn.â They train one of Tobiasâs repurposed GoPros to follow poodle-Marco, but that becomes a meme mocking the world's most obnoxious stray dog rather than Tennant himself.
The plan finally, finally comes off when they pull out all the stops and just confront him in morph. Â The smartphones that Rachel rigged up in the surrounding buildings don't pick up the thought speak, but the audio of Tennant screaming at the aliens to leave him alone comes through just fine.
When the scandal breaks, the internet (in truly predictable fashion) drops #notsonicetennant and starts using #tennantgate instead. Â
Ax reposts an old photo of Tennant eating a quinoa saladâzoomed in on the saladâand tags it #tennantgate. Â All of his teammates assure him they appreciate the attempt.
36. âAll right, thatâs just weird,â Marco says, looking at the final entry in the underwater creepshow theyâve been walking through for the past hour. Â âAll the other ships have been getting more modern as weâve gone, but this one? Â Looks like it was made in the sixties, at the latest.â
«The worldâs creepiest museum curators are getting sloppy with the placement of bodies as well,» Tobias points out.  «Thereâs no way that many people could fit on a boat that small.  Theyâre practically falling over the sides.»
Jake and Cassie look at each other, seeing the same realization reflected in each otherâs eyes. Â Neither one of them wants to say it out loud.
Jake becomes the one to bite the bullet. Â âDonât you get it?â Â He points to the ragged clothes, the emaciated bodies, the modern smartphone tucked in among the antiquated radio equipment. Â âThey were refugees.â
37. Rachel shuts the window on the library computer as soon as she hears someone walk into the room, but she can tell she was too late by the look on Jakeâs face when she turns around. Â
âRoy Ludvig, huh?â Jake says. Â âHeck of a name.â
âHe was at the T.V. studio when we attacked.â Â Rachel looks down, picking at her nail polish. Â âNo civilians were supposed to be in danger.â
Jakeâs expression softens, as much as it ever does. Â âAnd now youâre scrolling through his Facebook, looking for something thatâll let you sleep at night.â Â
âHeâs got a grandson,â Rachel blurts. Â âJordanâs age. Â He...â Â She shrugs. Â Heâs dead, and itâs more or less her fault.
âShouldnât be looking on Facebook.â Â Jake sets his phone on the library table next to her, taps the screen to bring up an official-looking report. Â âYou should be, say, borrowing my dadâs computer. Â Sending an email from his account to ask for the guyâs medical records. Â If you had, youâd know that Mr. Roy Ludvig had a heart condition. Â That he had maybe a year to live, at most, and doctors said he might die at any old time.â
Rachel looks down at the report for a long time, and eventually looks up at Jake. Â âDoesnât make it okay, what I did,â she says. Â âHeâs still dead.â
Jake shrugs. Â âYou donât have to forget it ever happened, but you do have to live with it. Â Live, and fight another day.â
38. In the aftermath of Estrid's visit, Tobias is flying over the boardwalk when he sees a henna artist who clearly smokes way too much pot to be a Yeerk. He gets Ax, they morph human, and both get henna tattoos of Elfangor's name. (Ax had previously expressed an admiration for the human tradition of commemorating a lost loved one by making markings on one's body.) They know the tats will disappear when they demorph, but they're both glad they did it. The artist asks how long they've been together, and Tobias says in a scandalized voice, âhe's my UNCLE!â Thus, Tobias succeeds in both of his goals: making Ax laugh, and reminding him he has family here on Earth. Honestly, the reminder doesn't hurt Tobias either.
39. âYou know, not all squirrels are like that,â Marco is fond of saying after a morph goes wrong. Â âNot all termites are horrifying worker drones.â Â Sometimes itâs, âYou know, some of my best friends are fleas.â
Itâs Cassie, however, who gets the last laugh out of that one.  «You know, Marco,» she says as they swim away from the wreckage of the helicopter, «Not all ants are like that, right?  I shouldnât say that all ants are killers, right?»
Marco stares at her in silence while the others snicker, watching him war between the two impulses: to keep the joke going forever, and to express his honest hatred of ants. Â
«Come on.»  And now Rachel has joined in on the teasing.  «Youâre just going to let that kind of besmirching of the ant community stand?» Â
«Okay, okay!»  Marco gives in.  «Ants suck.  Yes, all ants!»
40. âOur experts have examined the video extensively, and near as we can conclude, this footage is genuine and unedited,â the newscaster says. Â âGiven how viral this video has proven to be, with over two million views since it was posted to YouTube on Wednesday, everyone wants to know: is this footage proof that aliens exist? Â Is this a publicity stunt for the upcoming Fantastic Beasts sequel? Â Or, as one YouTube commenter asks, did a Smurf just have sex with a centaur?â
«Potential new ally?» Tobias suggests.  Heâs already tapping out a search for the original video in his modified tablet.
Ax laughs.  «Of course not.  Heâs crippled.  A vecol.  Useless.  We must respect the privacy of his isolation.»
âYou know what? Â Fuck that,â Marco snaps. Â He shoves to his feet, posture tight with anger. Â âJust... Fuck that,â he tells Ax. Â âI have ADHD. Â Attention Deficit whateverthefuck. Â I take a pill every morning to help me function because my brain isnât good enough to filter stimuli all by itself. Â I got a fucking 135 on the worldâs most boring IQ test and Iâm still failing half my classes. Â Iâm a vecol. Â You think Iâm useless, huh? Â You gonna start refusing to talk to me because of some bullshit about ârespectingâ my âprivacyâ? Â Huh?â
«Thatâs different,» Ax says.  «Youâre not...»  He doesnât seem to know how to finish that sentence. Â
«If heâs an exception, I hope I am too,» Tobias says more gently.  «I got screened for anxiety disorders as a kid, and I guess weâll never know if I qualify or not, âcause my aunt decided that doctors cost money and if the test said I needed one then she didnât want to know about it.»
Ax doesnât answer for a long time. Â He doesnât seem to know where to look. Â
«Letâs go tell the others what we found.»  Tobias taps a button to send the video to himself.  «We can talk more about this later.»
MM4. Tobias flinches when his phone makes the small ping sound that means he has an alert. Â The new kid is the easy target in every school on the planet. Â He wonders what itâll be this time: another Facebook post where the semi-anonymous account Toby IsALoser tags him in another meme about how he has to pay people for sex because the sight of his body would make any normal girl run away screaming, another unnamed Instagram ping telling him he should kill himself so that no one has to look at his stupid fat face anymore, another Snapchat image of a puddle of vomit with the caption âme when I think of you,â an email with the most disgusting gif anyone could find after a quick search...
Itâs not, though. Â Itâs an invite to join a private Facebook group, called The Sharing, with several hundred local members. Â Most of the names Tobias recognizes are cool older kids from the high school. Â Intrigued, willing to trust for the moment that this isnât some ridiculously elaborate prank, Tobias clicks âjoin.â Â
41. Jake looks around at the enormous open field, concrete pitted with openings and low hovels of corrugated steel and rebar. Â He can see for nearly half a mile in every direction before the smog makes it impossible, and the tallest things around are the hunched hork-bajir. Â âWhere are we?â he asks.
Cassie frowns. Â âThis? Â Jake, this is downtown Manhattan.â
He gapes at her. Â âWhat happened to it?â
âTall buildings are targets for drone strikes,â she says casually, turning away. Â âThe only way to be safe was to go underground.â
42. Marco doesnât bother going to the house of the guy who photographed them, nor does he try to catch the kid before he uploads the video anywhere. Â Instead he waits for the image to appear on YouTube, then becomes the first commenter. Â âSweet manip!â he says. Â âIs that Photoshop, or can you do that in free programs like Gimp?â
43. Â âEarthIsOurs-dot-tumblr-dot-com?â Marco says incredulously. Â âWhat does Taylor do there, post pictures of her pet taxxon? Â Reblog plans for planetary domination?â
«Judging from her archive history, sheâs had this blog for many years,» Ax says.  «She recently changed the domain name, but some of the content on here is from as early as 2008.»
Jake and Marco get caught up in debating with Cassie about what exactly to send to her, but Tobias just scrolls quietly through Taylorâs old posts. Â She didnât lie about being beautiful, he realizes, or about being popular. Â Thereâs a long blank period in her tumblr account in mid-2014. Â And then she posted one selfieâjust oneâafter the fire. Â
He canât bring himself to read the names that the trolls call her, or the discussions about how much money theyâd have to be paid to have sex with her. Â But thereâs no overlooking the suggestions that she kill herself. Â The posts are too numerous, too vitriolic. Â
âEvery chick ever to wander onto the internet has gotten that crap,â Rachel says; clearly sheâs been reading over his shoulder. Â âShe shouldâve developed thick skin, not joined the Sharing.â
Tobias thinks of the Facebook page made at his old school just to discuss the fact that heâs a chubby zit-face, of the posts which eventually overwhelmed his Instagram with death threats.  «Yeah, I guess,» he says.
44. Â It takes a long time for Cassie to get home from Australia, but at least theyâre not too worried for most of that time; she texts them her location and a brief description of the insanity that landed her in the Outback as soon as she gets in contact with Yamiâs family.
45. Â âNone of this makes any sense,â Peter says. Â âIâm hallucinating, or youâre delusional, or elseââ
Marco sets his phone in Peterâs lap. âCheck the timestamp, Dad. Â I took that six months ago.â
Peter stares at the phone for a long minute, and then slowly looks up at Marco. Â At a clear loss for words, he tilts his head back toward the screen.
âI know.â Â Marco laughs, the sound wet with tears. Â âThat blond wig looks terrible on her. Â But itâs really her, Dad. Â I swear.â
46. âSo theyâre going to get the U.S. embroiled in another war,â Marco says. Â âAnd this one with a country that can actually fight back.â
«Seems like,» Tobias says.  «Only why bother with all the secrecy and political wrangling?  Why not just send a couple mean tweets to Donald Trump and Kim Jong-Un?  Thatâd probably do the job just as well.»
âNo, it wouldnât.â Â Jake runs a hand through his hair, looking around at them all. Â âThe yeerks need a total war. Â Everything the U.S. and its allies can pull out, against everything China and its allies can muster. Â Our military has gotten too used to sending drones to fight its wars, to âtactical strikesâ against insurgents. Â If the yeerks want half the species annihilated, they have to do a lot more than poke a couple of egos.â
47. âNews flash,â Marco says. Â âYour average suburbanite ainât gonna accept a seven-foot-tall alien for a neighbor. Â You know the number of times my momâs been asked for proof of citizenship before she was allowed to vote or cash a paycheck or buy a car? Â How many times sheâs been pulled over by cops while driving the speed limit with her seatbelt on? Â And sheâs a regular old human being. Â Tobyâs rightâthe hork-bajir have a whole other fight coming if we ever win the war.â Â
48. Rachel feels the blood drain from her face when she opens the Facebook message and sees the name attached. Â Davidâs Facebook account has been defunct for almost two years now; thereâs no one left who would want or even be able to access it from the outside. Â Should be no one.
Miss me? the message from Davidâs account says.
Who are you? she types with shaking fingers. Â What do you want?
I know what you did. Â Iâm coming for you. Â Iâve got friends all over the place and theyâll find you. Â Theyâll kill you. Â Amazing the allies you can get, when you know where the bodies are kept. Â On the internet, no one knows youâre aâ
Rachel hits âblock.â Â She tells herself that the screaming nightmares she has all that night and into the next are the product of having a stressful life, sheâs an Animorph for peteâs sake.
She doesnât stop shuddering every time she gets a message for the next two weeks, but she never hears from whoever (It wasnât David. It couldnât have been.) it was ever again.
49. Â They stagger away from yet another hopeless fight, all of them injured, half of them missing limbs or bleeding to death. Â Dragging their damaged bodies behind the first dumpster they find, they demorph, remorph, and force their minds to focus long enough for the long flight home. Â Itâs only when Rachel is in owl morph, staring around the dimly lit alleyway, that she sees the security camera pointed directly at their location. Â
«They must not check it that often,» Marco says without much hope.  «Or else theyâd be out here already to come looking for us.»
«Doesnât matter,» Tobias says harshly.  «It had a perfectly clear view of all your human faces.  And that building is owned by the yeerks.»
They all stare at each other in dull shock as the realization sinks in. Â They always knew this moment was comingâthey could only be so careful for so longâand yet, on some level each of them hoped it never would. Â
«Take one more night to be with your families,» Jake says at last.  «We evacuate everyone in the morning.»
Jake loses his phone, again, somewhere amidst all the chaos. Â This time around he doesnât bother to replace it. Â Itâs not like his mom is going to be wondering where he is, not anymore. Â
50. Â âSo,â Jake says, âthis is going to sound crazy, butââ
âAliens are invading the planet, and youâre the only kid terrorist who can stop them?â James suggests. Â âWe do have wifi up here, you know. Â Youâre Jake Berenson, right? Â Youâre all over the conspiracy theoristsâ forums right now.â
âUm.â Â Jake runs a hand through his hair, starts again. Â âYeah, pretty much.â
James nods. Â âIn that case, youâve got thirty seconds to convince me your storyâs not a load of crap before I call security.â Â
51. Ax secures their wifi in something a billion times better-hidden than Tor. Â With that reassurance, they all end up starting blogs.
Marcoâs is a rambling string of wry comments about everything from the invasion to his parentsâ science projects. Â Sample post: âInsider source (aka my mom): Visser Three has morphed human and eaten AN ENTIRE BAG OF MARSHMALLOWS in one sitting, ON MORE THAN ONE OCCASION. Â Pass it on!â
Jakeâs is the place that people go to find out how they can help, and to get his reassurance that the help means something. Â Sample post: âAs Barack Obama says, âWe the people recognize that we have responsibilities as well as rights; that our destinies are bound together; that a freedom without a commitment to others is unworthy of our founding ideals, and those who died in their defense.â Â This fight will never be over just as long as we keep supporting each other. Â I canât tell you how grateful I am to you all for the KickStarter donations.â
Rachelâs has beauty tips for the American girl on the run, light and self-deprecating enough that you often donât notice the undercurrent of desperation. Â Sample post: âIf you want to be able to look at yourself in the mirror, try fixing your hair using reflective surfaces such as pots, ponds, or pieces of Bug fighter wreckage. Â Alternately, just say âfuck itâ and never look at yourself again.â
Cassieâs tells people how to stay safe, and how to keep their environments safe as well. Â Sample post: âEveryone please remember, itâs important to stock enough food and water for family pets as well as humans when retreating to an apocalypse bunker!â
Tobiasâs has a lot of good-natured grumbling about everyday life in the valley. Â Sample post: âIn other news, my girlfriendâs mom is currently arguing with the smartest being on the face of the planet about where to put the new latrine facilities. Â Sorry Naomi, but my moneyâs on Toby.â
Axâs has a lot of food reviews, of course, but again thereâs that undercurrent of desperation, almost like heâs trying to convince someone else (or maybe even himself) that humans are worth saving. Â Sample post: âMarco assures me that there are no less than 23 distinct flavors contained within every sip of Dr. Pepper. Â Just think of the years of experimentation and innovation it must have required to produce a drink which can inspire 23 different reactions from human taste buds, all at the same time. Â Truly inspired genius.â
52. They run drills upon drills for what to do in case of a drone strike. Â Using any morphs they have that can dig or buildâmole, taxxon, elephant, beaverâthe Animorphs create an extensive network of tunnels and shelters, posting guards at all times to keep their eyes on the sky. Â The hork-bajir valley doesnât show up on satellite imagery, which they only know thanks to Peterâs definitely-illegal fact-gathering missions on the darkweb, but they donât know for sure whether an overhead camera would be subject to the same strange perceptual distortions they all experience when flying there as birds. Â They nearly lose their precious secrecy when Naomi sends several emails from her work account, claiming sheâs being held hostage and asking anyone who will listen to come rescue her. Â Eva generates a hasty follow-up from the same account asking people to ignore âthe prank that I now realize was in poor taste,â but none of them are sure it worked for the next several days. Â
53. Rachel makes one last post on her nearly-extinct Instagram account. Â This time the scrap of paper she uses appears to be torn from the back of a food label, but the penciled script is as intricate as ever. Â It reads âWho wants to live forever? âFreddie Mercury, 1986â Â
54. After itâs all over, Tobias retreats, he hides, but he keeps a thread of communication open. Â Cassie shoots him an email with the subject line âHawk patient with intermittent aggression and lethargyâany idea what could be causing it?â Â Marco sends him idiotic memes that now feature the Animorphsâ names and faces. Â Ax asks for constant updates on the new wing of Taco Bell being built downtown, and repays the favor by leaking confidential information about the search for the Blade ship.
And then he gets one of the stranger emails heâs ever received. Â Itâs an offer of a full legacy scholarship to Harvard University (which has just found the means to explain some inconsistencies in the records of one âAlan Fangor,â who graduated in the â80s) in exchange for Tobias teaching one class per semester on any subject of his choice. Â He agrees, with the stipulation that all his classes be online.
The resultant course (Ornithology 442: An Insiderâs Perspective) is like nothing the students who participate have ever seen before. Â Tobias will write out rambling treatises on Why Blue Jays Suck or All the Ways Hawks Are Superior to Eagles with a thought-speak-to-text recorder. Â Heâll deliver online lectures from a shaky webcam pointed into a nonspecific tree, occasionally wandering off for hours at a time to go hunting. Â Students who ask him personal questions about Rachel get regurgitated mouse skeletons Fed-Exed to their campus mailboxes. Â Essays that donât demonstrate much effort get feedback such as âeven I can tell this sucks and I have a seventh-grade educationâ or âmy grandmother could make better sentences than this AND SHEâS AN ANDALITE WHO DOESNâT SPEAK ENGLISH.â Â Assignments include âfind one bird fact in a textbook and explain why itâs a load of crapâ or âgo film a Boston pigeon until it does something interesting, I dare you.â
Nevertheless, enrollment is so popular that Harvard has a three-year waiting list and charges students an extra $500 just to sign up. Â When Tobias finds out about the extra fee, he promptly video-calls the Intrepid, gives Ax remote access to his computer, and explains why he needs Ax to convert the course illegally to a MOOC. Â Harvard University fires him for breach of contract; Yale hires him on that very same afternoon. Â
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