#this fandoms probably different since the majority of ppl I talk t o in it are neurodivergent and like. get it | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

badgirlcoven-official · 1 year ago

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Having RSD in public spaces is the worst bc it's like I need permission to exist too noticeably. Even if everyone is super friendly if I'm even risking being boring or "too much" then I get so scared like oh god everyone's going to get so sick of me as if the worst crime I could ever commit is to be uninteresting

#vent #ask to tag #this isn't about anything in particular/a vague post dw I'm just putting it here bc it's fandom related #audits getting back into fandom spaces after the countless horrors adventures if u will #I'm like omg why am I so worried abt this stuff who would care #but then I remember as a teenager if I infodumped. in. infodump or topic specific channels. dedicated for doing that #my 'friend' would berate me for 'taking up too much space'#and ppl got mad at me for OC posting when they tried to drop hints that they didn't want to hear about my OCs (said hints being like.#not responding or just changing their tone slightly not anything clear) or in some cases just complained to the afore mentioned friend who #opted not to tell me when these complaints were being made but to blame me for not having done anything about what I wasn't told #this fandoms probably different since the majority of ppl I talk t o in it are neurodivergent and like. get it #but everyone is so cool that I talk to I'm like oh my god if I can't be exactly who/what they want to talk to at all times they're gonna #jeff the kill me like oh my god girl chill out #I'm not shy but someimes I wish ppl would coax me out of my shell a little so I didn't overthink it all/LH #I do think it's funny how much I feel the need to fit in with everyone/not be TOOO weird/irrelevant in the fandom whose source's main theme #is being an unapologetic weirdo as long as its harmless but haiodfhgiofdhgiodhfoighfidhgafdg

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