#this fandom has had NOTHING to be happy about for five years LET US HAVE THIS

[hkthatgffan]

Hey, Kiki-Kit. Your customers are waiting!

Well, this is a painful post to make given the respect and admiration I had for her, but a long overdue one because I'm not alone in this mess and I refuse to let another fan fall for it when I could've said something!

Back in February, I bought a commission from Kiki-Kit. You may know that artist as she was one of the best in the Gravity Falls fandom back in the day and the illustrator of Don't Dimension It in Lost Legends.

She'd been running emergency commissions at the start of the year and I got one from her for $40 USD.

I have the invoice and everything saved and also messages with Kiki of us talking about the comm and me paying her. I owe nothing on my end money wise! I paid in full.

She said later she'd have them finished by around the end of March but come late April, still no response. So, I messaged her about it. Nothing odd I thought. I get things can happen and if Kiki is busy, at most she'd reply telling me it'll be a while longer and all's good.

But I got nothing. I messaged her, emailed her on the commissions email she had and tweeted at her. NOTHING! Turns out there were other people, including some friends of mine who had not heard back either. Then in June, Kiki made an update post explaining the situation.

Naturally I felt bad and wished her the best. She said iirc, she'd have the remaining comms done by the end of the Summer but here we are at the end of October and still nothing. I messaged her too again and no response.

You know, it's one thing if there's a reason for no response for a few days but then another when it's been months and still nothing. Oh and btw, I very much remember Kiki on Twitter liking tweets (back when Twitter let you see liked tweets) while I was there messaging her for an update. Real sus if you ask me.

But okay, I shouldn't rush it. Everyone has reasons to take time and maybe Kiki is just very busy and can't get back. She went through a very rough and difficult experience and I can understand and respect that. I'm more than happy to wait. But how long is too long without an update? Maybe a bit longer I guess. Art takes time.

Well, IDK about you all, but I don't remember any other Gravity Falls fan artist taking oh, idk...FIVE YEARS TO FINISH A COMMISION AND STILL NOT RESPOND!!

FoxieSkullzArtz on Twitter made me aware she has been waiting since 2019 for Kiki to respond to a commission they paid her for.

2019!!

I'm not an artist, so forgive me if I'm wrong. But I don't think it should take any artist 5 years to make a commission and even if, at least communicate with the person who paid you about it so they're not left guessing.

Oh, and it gets worse. I got another person who let me know they've been waiting since 2020 for a comm and Kiki handled it far worse!

Oh yeah, she blocked them for asking about it!

And okay, even if we give Kiki-Kit the benefit of the doubt and assume she has reasons to not communicate with people and maybe even assume people messaging her are being mean about it, then why not refund them? Nice or bad, you were paid by them to do something but also have the power to deny it and refund their money. And yet, Kiki did not even do that. And even if we be super kind and assume everyone is lying, I'm still here.

I paid Kiki-Kit $40USD for a comm I thought I would get in late March and it's now late October and still nothing. And even if you don't wanna believe me cause you can't believe an artist like Kiki-Kit would do this and assume I'm after clout (which would be odd, given why would I take pleasure in calling out an artist I respected)...well, there's gonna be someone else who says this too. And people have been saying this for years and she still is getting away with it!

It's disappointing honestly. Kiki-Kit is a name so many in this fandom know and love. And I love her art too. She's a fan artist who got to be on Lost Legends. We all celebrated that in 2018 and still remember it. And I know how hard it may be to hear this, but it has to be said.

I do not like having to do this, but I have a platform that can get this message across further than others could and having been someone who lost money to her too, I know first hand what all these people have been through.

And before you say "Kiki was going through a rough time in her life. Why are you blaming her? Be patient and she'll get your stupid art done," read over everything again. I'm not saying Kiki-Kit needs to be making art 24/7 and fulfilling these comms. I'm not saying she isn't allowed to be offline and not finish things on time for reasons out of her control. What I'm saying is that she hasn't communicated properly with anyone here who paid her and has continued to accept more and more commissions from people despite not finishing ones she has backlogs of.

When an artist opens commissions, why do you think they have slots or only accept a few? Because they know they can get that many done in a certain time or know anymore will take longer. And even if it took longer, at least they give updates. I bought a commission for the interview with Alex Hirsch and got it both on time and with proper communication from the artist.

And even if you disagree with all this, be honest with yourself...is making someone wait since 2019 or 2020 for a comm and not responding to them really something still worth defending?

I'm not here to cancel anyone. I don't want Kiki-Kit's reputation to be that of an scammer who stole money from people. But she's painted herself that way to far too many people who have been warning about this for ages but no one either saw or listened to them.

I tried to be nice and messaged Kiki-Kit over and over for an update and she never responded. I had friends who she took money from who similarly have not heard anything back! If you know Kiki directly, tell her to reach out to these people and all the ones she has taken money from and not gotten back to and either refund them or commit to finishing their commissions. Please don't be rude or hostile either though, given despite it all, she is still a person like your or me who deserves a chance to make things right.

I wanna believe Kiki-Kit has just made some negligent mistakes and isn't the best with time management or communication. I mean, I'm not the best either. But I'm not asking people for money for something and then not getting back to them with it. I'm sorry to everyone who is learning about this who saw Kiki in a positive light and I'm sorry also to everyone like me who lost money to her.

I hope if nothing else, Kiki will respond and make whole everyone she has taken money from. If she really cares about this fandom that put her on a pedestal high enough that Alex Hirsch himself picked her to work on his book, she can respond to us and fulfill what we paid her to do.

I'm not asking for my commission to be done tomorrow...I just want an update. That's all. We all do! No more stalling, @kiki-kit. Please respond to us now!

Sincerely,

Every person who has paid you for a commission and has yet to hear back from you and every Gravity Falls fan who your work inspired and are now having to learn this about you!

[mushroom-words]

Play the Cards with Spades to Start || Marauders

Fandom: Harry Potter Pairing: None, but it's implied that the reader is in a relationship with Remus Words: 1313 Note: I'm not sure if I've posted this on a previous blog before, but it's been rewritten if I have. This is also something I wrote years ago. I think rewriting it made it a little better, but I'm not too confident about it. Warnings: None. Just James and Sirius being idiots and Remus and Lily putting up with them. Summary: James and Sirius are fighting. Remus and Lily are betting. You decide to take things into your own hands.

“MATE, I DON’T want to hurt you. Now step back.”

        “Why should I back off? It’s mine.”

        “Prongs, this has never been yours. It will never be yours.”

        “Step away, Padfoot, or I will be forced to hex you.”

        “I’m serious, mate.”

        “And I’m James. What of it?”

        “It’s mine, James!”

        “You lie!”

        “I would never!”

        Sirius Black and James Potter proceeded to glare heatedly at each other while the object of their argument rested innocently on the table between them. The only thing that had sparked the bickering was that it was the only sugar quill left from their stash. Logic would tell them that they could just make a visit to Hogsmeade and replenish their Honeydukes supply. But when had Sirius and James ever been logical?

        “Sirius Orion Black, I will feed you to the giant squid if you touch that quill,” James threatened. Their small audience only laughed.

        James proved himself serious when he whipped out his wand and pointed it at the other boy’s neck. Sirius snorted. “You really want to risk that, mate?” he said, not worried about his friend actually hurting him over a piece of candy.

        You, Lily Evans, and Remus Lupin watched on from the safety of the couch in the Gryffindor common room. Lily leaned closer to you. “Still think Potter has the upper hand here?”

        Remus’ fingers gingerly stroked a pattern along your arm as he tipped his head. His eyes crinkled with a fond sort of exasperation that only came from being friends with them. You hummed as you considered the view. James thrust his wand closer to Sirius’ throat, but you still doubted he would actually use it on him.

        “I still think he’s ridiculous,” you said after a second. “I mean, fighting over a sugar quill. How old are they?”

        James suddenly flicked his wand to the side and blasted a hole in the Gryffindor tapestry. You scoffed and muttered a soft, “Merlin,” at the destruction. Professor McGonagall was not going to be happy about that when she found out. And this time, you were willing to leave behind the mess for her to see. You were getting tired of cleaning up after them. Especially over such silly matters.

        Remus chuckled. “Seeing as how Sirius isn’t bothering to get his own wand out, I’d say his chances are pretty good,” he decided.

        Lily nodded her head, keeping her watchful gaze on the two boys. Determination had hardened James’ features. Sirius continued to sport a lackadaisical smirk that called his bluff.

        “Five Sickles says Potter loses,” she bet.

        “Ten says he wins.”

        “Deal.”

        Lily and Remus shook hands to seal the deal. You just shook your head. The three of you continued to laugh at the absolute absurdity of the two sixth years. Marlene McKinnon came down from the dormitories with a frown, annoyed at all of the shouting that had disturbed her nap. It only deepened when she spotted you with the two Gryffindor Prefects who were doing absolutely nothing to stop it.

        She then turned to James and Sirius. “Potter! Black!” she scolded. “Keep it down, would you? Some—”

        “Not now!” they snapped. Everyone chuckled at their petulance. Marlene rolled her eyes and stormed over to the couch.

        She perched herself on the arm near Lily and pushed some hair from her face. “What the hell is their problem now?”

        Lily let loose a breath while Remus held out his hand, opening it to reveal some Sickles. “They’re fighting over who gets the last sugar quill. Lily here bets five that Sirius has it. I’ve got ten on James,” he explained.

        “So, the usual,” you said with a grin. Remus chuckled and kissed the side of your head.

        Marlene nodded and watched them bicker for a moment. Then a sly smile touched her lips.

        You raised a brow. “What’s going on in that pretty little head of yours, Mar?”

       She stood from the arm of the couch and said, “I bet you fifteen Galleons that I can get it.”

       You let out a low whistle. She was confident, that much was for sure. The Gryffindor Prefects both stared at her in disbelief. There was no way she would be able to get around the two quarrelling Marauders.

        “That’s not a good idea,” Lily said.

        Marlene only shrugged, but Remus reached out to grab her lower arm. He turned her back around to face you. “Marlene, James already tried to hex Sirius. I wouldn’t get in the middle of that,” he told her.

        She hesitated, glancing back at them. You saw her resolve crumble. Even she knew better than to intervene when it got that serious. But you never seemed to learn your lesson.

        “I would,” you grinned.

        “You’re not.” Remus immediately tugged you back down when you went to push yourself up.

        “Oh, come on,” you whined. “It’s so fun messing with them.”

        “(Y/N)—”

        “I’ll be fine. Just watch and learn, darling.” You kissed his cheek, flashed him a grin, and jumped up from the couch before he could stop you. “But I want those Galleons,” you said, pointing at both him and Lily.

        Lily raised a brow. “If you can manage it, I’ll give you twenty,” she said.

        “Don’t encourage her,” Remus scolded.

        You blew him a kiss that he rolled his eyes at before you walked over to where James and Sirius continued to go back and forth. All over a bloody piece of candy. Children. You cleared your throat and approached their table, feeling everyone’s eyes on you as you entered the danger zone.

        “Hiya, boys,” you grinned, edging closer to them. “I was just wondering if I could maybe just—thank you! Bye now!”

        You snatched up the sugar quill and turned on your heels. Hearty laughter rippled from your throat as you raced towards the stairs leading to the girls’ dormitories, knowing full well they couldn’t follow you up there.

        James and Sirius just stared at the empty spot on the table before sprinting after you.

        “Get back here, you little demon!” James shouted.

        “(Y/N), baby girl, don’t do this to me!” Sirius cried.

        You raced up the stairs and stood at the top, twirling the sugar quill between your fingers. They scrambled up after you, only for the stairs to transform into a slide when they were halfway up, forcing them to crash back down to the ground. You giggled and stuck the sugar quill between your lips.

        “Thanks for the treat, boys,” you called down to them as they continued to try to beat the magic, only to slide back down each time.

        Marlene, Lily, and Remus watched on in amusement. You caught Remus’ eye and winked at him. He rolled his eyes and turned to the girls.

        “Neither of you would happen to have twenty Galleons, would you?” he asked sheepishly.

        Lily huffed. “Why would I have twenty Galleons on me? I’m not even sure I have that much in my vault.”

        “Then why did you agree to it?” Marlene asked.

        “Well, I didn’t think she would actually do it!”

        “Great.” Marlene slumped onto the couch. “So what do we do now?”

        “Avoid her?”

        Remus snorted. “You two share a dorm with her. Besides, it wouldn’t be right to weasel our way out of a deal.”

       Lily glared. “I don’t know, Remus. Look, (Y/N)’s pretty forgiving. She’ll understand we don’t have that,” she said.

        “She probably wasn’t serious about it anyway,” Marlene added. “I mean, when has she ever tried to get anything out of any of us?”

        “To be fair, that’s probably reward enough,” Remus chuckled, gesturing to his two best friends as they grumbled and sulked. “Shall we continue studying then?”

        “Yeah, that sounds good.”

        “...”

        “...”

        “Fifteen Sickles says that James figures out how to get to her first,” Remus said.

        “Twenty on Black,” Lily returned.

        “Deal.”

[ofstarsandvibranium]

Hurts Like Heaven

Fandom: Ted Lasso

Pairing: Jamie Tartt x F!Reader

Summary: You and Jamie were nothing more than friends with benefits…then Jamie realizes that the way he feels for you is more than friends.

A/N: inspired by the song I Think I Like You by The Band Camino

You and Jamie had been friends for a few years. You met through Keeley and he'd tried to get into your pants after they'd broken up. But girl code meant you don't sleep with your friend's ex unless they say it's okay.

Years later, he and Keeley still aren't together. It originally saddened Jamie, however, he learned that he valued her highly as a friend and he eventually lost feelings for her.

That's when you came in.

Jamie didn't feel ready to get back into serious dating, but he also didn't feel like going back to random hook ups like his early days. That's when you suggested a friends with benefits relationship.

The suggestion surprised Jamie, especially since you rejected him a few years ago.

You rolled your eyes at him, "Yes, but I've gotten Keeley's permission to sleep with you if I chose to do so."

His brows rose, "I'm sorry, what? When did this happen?"

You shrugged like it was no big deal, "Like a year ago."

"So you're telling me we could've been fucking for a year now?"

You snorted, "I didn't think you'd still be interested."

He grinned at you, "Oh, I'm still very interested."

It was nice. He thought the arrangement would change things but it didn't. He still texted you about the things Jan Maas said or a new song that Dani introduced him to. You two would facetime for hours while he was at away games until you both fell asleep. He used to be a man of not many words, but he found himself never shutting up in your presence.

You grabbed lunch or dinner when you could and instead of going your separate ways, either one of you followed the other to your respective homes and you had sex.

Some days, you didn't have sex at all. He'd come over with take out and you two would watch a movie. Or he'd help you cook dinner while you're both singing Harry Styles' lyrics at the top your lungs. He felt so happy and at peace with you.

It was great. It was nice...until you told Jamie that someone had asked you on a date.

"It's fine. We're not dating or nothing, so why would it matter?" he asked you when you broke the news.

You shrugged, "I dunno. Guess I-nevermind. I'm going to cancel our movie night on Friday then."

"What? Why?"

"That's when my date is. Unless...I cancel it?" You looked at Jamie like you were hoping for...something. What you were hoping for he didn't know, but he shook his head, "No, no. It's fine. Could probably go to the pub with the lads or something." He then pointed a finger at you, "But you let me know if he does something that makes you uncomfortable. I'll pick you up. Just say the word."

You nodded and give him a smile, "I know. Thanks, Jame."

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It's the night of the date. Jamie has been on edge the entire day and he's not exactly sure why. You'd sent him your outfit for the date and you...you looked beautiful, sexy, gorgeous. There was a pit in stomach when he realized that you'd never dressed up for him like that. Why would you? You two are only friends who also sleep together. Nothing that would warrant you to put much that effort...but Jamie wanted it.

Fuck, did he want you to dress that way only for him, to take you on dates and call you his girl.

Holy fuck, why did he have to realize this all too late?

Even when he went to a club with the lads, he couldn't stop thinking about you. He kept checking his phone every five minutes to see if you'd messaged him. The last thing you sent was you telling him the restaurant you were at and he'd sent you a thumbs up.

He stood at one of the standing tables, nursing a beer and just watching the crowd. His teammates were drinking and dancing with women, except for Colin who was dancing with his boyfriend, Michael.

Getting a bit anxious, he pulls his phone out again, looking at the thread of texts between you and him.

"Are you alright, Jamie?" Sam asks above the club's music.

Jamie sighs and pockets his phone, "I'm gonna step out for a bit!" he shouts back and Sam responds, "I'll come with you!"

They take their beers and head out to the back patio of the club. The music is still loud but not as much.

Jamie lets out a deep breath, letting the cool air encompass him. Sam nudges him, "What's going on?"

Jamie chuckles to himself, "Think I'm in love, Sam," and then winces.

Sam cocks a brow in confusion, "Why do you look so pained then?"

Jamie sighs and runs a hand through his now brunette hair, "It's complicated."

"Is it Y/N?"

Jamie's head whipped to Sam's direction, "How the fuck did you know that?"

Sam can't help but laugh, "You don't hide it very well when you're with her. You're...happier with her."

He scoffs, "'M not so happy now, am I? She's on a date right now."

"Why?"

"Some bloke from the IT department asked her and she asked me how I felt about it and I said it was fine. That her going on that date doesn't matter 'cause we're not exclusive or nothin' and now I fuckin' regret it 'cause I fuckin' love her!" after his mini rant he looks back as a smug looking Sam, "What?"

"I think the solution to your problem is very simple, Jamie."

"Yeah? And what's that."

"Tell her."

He's immediately shaking his head, "No. No. I can't. I can't. It'll ruin everything."

"I don't think it will."

"How do you know?"

"I don't, but I have a strong feeling it'll be okay."

Suddenly, his phone is buzzing and your contact photo is staring up at him. He looks up at Sam and his teammate is grinning at him, "Tell her," he says before patting Jamie on the back and heading back inside.

Jamie nods and answers your call, "Hey, you alright?"

"He was a complete prick! He yelled at our server because his pasta wasn't al dente and complained about me eating too much bread."

"Pft. You love bread."

"I love bread so much!" you sigh, "I'm having uber me drop off because there was no way in hell I was getting in the car with him again."

Jamie frowns to himself, "You should've told me. I could've picked you up."

"I texted you ten minutes ago and you didn't respond!"

Jamie curses and pulls back his phone going to the text thread to see you had texted him, "Shit. Sorry, love."

"It's fine. You can come over after your night with the boys."

"I'm leaving right now. Wasn't very exciting anyway. Want me to grab some food?"

You groan, "Yes, please. That meal wasn't satisfying enough."

Jamie finds himself smiling, "Alright. I'll be over in a bit. Get comfy for me."

"Waaaay ahead of ya. Tossing the dress in the hamper as we speak and pulling out my comfy clothes. Shall I pull yours out as well?"

"Please."

"Got it. See you in a bit, Jame."

"Right. Bye." After he ends the call, he heads inside to say his good-byes to his mates. Sam is giving him a knowing look and a "Good luck" as he walks out of the club.

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Half an hour later, Jamie is letting himself into your place with the spare key that you gave him. He places the takeout on the coffee table in front of you.

"Go eat. I'm gonna change."

"Thank you!" you holler as he walks down the hallway to your room and where you've laid out a pair of joggers and a t-shirt for him. He quickly changes and heads back to your living room where he sees you shoveling your face with the food he's brought.

He's smiling wide as he sits beside you, "Good?"

You nod, "Soooo good!"

He grabs your remote and plays the movie you picked, "Guess we ended up having our movie night after all."

You snort, "Shout out to Liam for IT for being a prick, I guess."

Jamie stills. His brows furrow and you see he's thinking hard about something. You set your food down, pause the movie, and turn to completely face him on the couch.

"What's going on?"

"I realized something."

"Okay...is this a good thing or a bad thing?"

"Depends on how you take it, I suppose," he turns to face you as well, "I...I think I like you more than I should."

"Meaning..."

"I'm in love with you. I think I have been for a while now but it just didn't hit me until you were out with that prick-"

"Liam-"

"and all I could think about tonight was losing you. I hate that you looked absolutely gorgeous for someone else. I hate that it was him taking you on a date and not me. And I hate the thought of someone else being where I should be."

You chuckle, looking away and shaking your head, "Jamie Tartt," and this is when Jamie prepares to be rejected by you, "took you long enough."

Oh. Oh. That's not something he expected.

"So, uh, so you-"

You lean in pressing your lips against his and when you pull away you're smiling, "I love you too."

"Oh. Great. Cool. That's-That's good."

You laugh, "Did I break you?"

"Maybe?"

You laugh more and he's smiling again. Your laugh is music to his ears and it's filling him up with so much warmth and love.

You pat his knee, "Alright, loverboy, let's continue this movie night , yeah?" you press play and you grab your food. You curl up into Jamie's side and he relishes in your warmth while you feed him some of your food.

A day later, Jamie posts a picture of you sitting across from him at the same restaurant you went to with Liam, with the caption: Dinner with me girl <3.

His comments littered with applause and congratulations from his teammates and fans. They all love you, but Jamie loves you the most.

[screamlet]

fic authors self rec

thank you for the tag @rcmclachlan!

Fic authors self rec! When you get this, reply with your favorite five fics that you've written, then pass on to at least five other writers. Let’s spread the self-love 💗

i've also been writing a long fucking time, so check out that fandom spread, lol

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what are your intentions? (9-1-1, bucktommy, 143k)

It's Tommy and Buck—the family they find and the family they make.

Tommy's too old and been in this world too long to be this nervous about a first… third… fifth? Date with this guy. He's twisting the bottle of red wine in the palm of his hand as he takes all of six steps to Evan's front door, where he'd been standing not even a week ago. He had no idea what was behind the door when he showed up that night and now that he kind of knows what to expect, it feels worse. It might feel worse. Whatever. He's a gay firefighter. He's a pilot. He flew into a hurricane once and got a medal for it. He owns a lot of cool jackets. He can handle a date.

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the arrival of 290287 backstrom 🔒 (hockey rpf [washington capitals rpf], nicklas backstrom/alex ovechkin, 18k)

Nicky has an asteroid named after him; that's just the beginning.

He never held himself back around Nicky, but he was holding back now. “What?” Nicky asked. He could hear his own voice, choked and rasping. Every word was hard to spit out; every breath was hard to swallow. “I’m sorry,” Alex said. “This is all we get.” “What? This fucking room in this nothing city?” “This. Living. This is all we get. That’s it. No big narrative, no hundred banners hanging in the arena. This is it and it’s okay.”

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the providence falconers are happy to select (check please!, kent parson/alexei mashkov, 5k)

In 2009, Alexei spent his first week in America with his parents.

In 2009, Alexei spent his first week in America with his parents. From Montreal and the draft, the three of them and Lisa from the Falconers flew to Providence and immediately looked at ten apartments downtown before his parents bought him the seventh one on the list. “Seven is a good number,” his father assured him. “Three bedrooms for this price? You can stay here forever,” his mother said. “We get you a new washer/dryer for Christmas. These are just okay.” She looked at Lisa from the Falconers and Nancy the broker, and made sure to raise her eyebrows at them. “Just okay for this price.”

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Dwarf-Elf Relations at the Close of the Third Age (the hobbit movies, kíli/tauriel [background bagginshield], 7k)

Tauriel had entered his life barely a season ago. She captained the guard that imprisoned them in the last days of autumn as they raced towards Durin’s Day and the beginning of winter. Killing the dragon, readying their armies and allies, the battle itself—a lifetime of action fit into such a short time.  He woke from the longest sleep of his life to her stockinged feet resting on his bed. Her chair was pulled close to his bed, her arms crossed over her chest, her eyes lightly closed. If he was dead, he reasoned, this would have been much more transcendent with much more choral singing. He remembers very little of the third or fourth time she saved his life, but he remembers her incantation, that glow, the bag of walnuts someone used to pillow his head.  This was so ordinary. He had to be alive.

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the five year mission (star trek AOS, kirk/spock, 11k)

15% — the percentage of the original crew roster that will be reported as dead or MIA within the first three years of a deep space mission. * The crew of the Enterprise tries to survive their first five-year mission.

“Seriously,” Jim sighed. “How did we end up the most ethical people in Starfleet? Do I look like a paragon of virtue here?” “Not at the moment, no,” Spock said. “Dr. McCoy did upgrade your status to the crew from processed lunchmeat to fresh death, but even figuratively speaking, you are not the north that anyone should calibrate their moral compasses to follow.” “I thought people were supposed to be nice to you in the hospital,” Jim said.

tagging anyone and everyone!!! come play!!! i wanna see what you got!!! where have you BEEN

[recurringwriter]

Twenty Questions for Fic Writers

tagged by @demial4! thanks for thinking of me! went with this blog since it's the more main one aksdjgh

1) how many works do you have on ao3?

sitting at 109! i never saw that one coming, i'll be real

2) what's your total ao3 word count?

961,632!!!!!!! my goal is to get to 1 million words this year, should be doable [imagine a super flustered blushing emoji here]. i just need to work on any of the longfics i'm stuck in the middle of.

3) what are your top five fics by kudos?

this is why i chose this blog--it's all f/ire /emblem:

say it with swords - felix/sylain/bernadetta/annette this diminuendo only gets obscene - rodrigue/manuela (my best series) i know i never make this easy - arospec felix coming out to rodrigue is it bad enough to call it off - i think this is the rodrigue & annette fic Hate to let you down - this whopper is my first fic. the Eh-U

4) what fandoms do you write for?

mainly 🔥emb/lem and i'm now expanding into the finalled fantasy, which is a series i've never played myself. but i'm greatly enjoying learning about it! i also have 1 monster hunter fic and i'd love to write some weird crossover stuff for old book series no one has ever heard of.

5) do you respond to comments? why or why not?

i try!!! but sometimes i am overcome and don't know what to say, and then put it off, and then feel silly to answer months later and so i never do. trust me it haunts me. i'm always so grateful for comments.

6) what's the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

it was whatever doesn't make me stronger kills me which i hated for a long time (it's not bad just not to my taste). very ambiguous what happens to sylvain in that one. but then i added a chapter because my beloved fave band released a new album. i still have to add an end proper. since then it's probably anything in the divorce au where i explained the absence of felix's mom. SORRY i just remembered I love you, sincerely, yours truly, yours truly. weird time travel sci-fi sylvain/ingrid.

7) what's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

this is really hard because i like open endings that don't feel like endings, or softly happy endings, so they all feel 'quieter' than i might imagine most happy ends. but nothing is like it was, there's nobody here but us (eh-u, rodrigue introducing felix to manuela) is really positive. then there's Rodfic #50: Something in Which to Believe, which i wrote to cheer myself up. rodrigue/reader.

8) do you get hate on fics?

i had the ghost of anne rice comment on a fic but otherwise people have been extremely nice! i'm very grateful.

9) do you write smut?

😏 i actually was writing smut when i was tagged in this

10) do you write crossovers?

yessss i love crossovers!!!! i don't typically do very long ones, they're sort of like the pilot episode of a longer series that never gets aired. but i thoroughly enjoy them.

11) have you ever had a fic stolen?

okay so i don't Believe it was stolen. but i was browsing tags and saw something with Extremely Similar concept to one of my fics and was like. the likelihood that this is stolen is So Low because my fic has under 90 hits. but i was Shocked when i read it.

12) have you ever had a fic translated?

not at this point!

13) have you ever cowritten a fic before?

sort of! i have two co-written fics in progress both are smut and very often share as i write with a friend or friends!

14) what's your all time favourite ship?

suuper hard question because i throw any characters i can into the brig together to see what happens. but probably Rodriguela has the highest spot for being the first one i acted insane about.

15) what's the wip you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

i'm sort of doubtful i'll ever finish wildfire just because it keeps growing. but i'd love to. my felicity-adopts-sephiroth au has also hit an unfortunate wall and i lost all momentum, but i would really like to finish that one.

16) what are your writing strengths?

i have a huge ego so we could be here all day. dialogue, fight scenes, humour are my favourites though.

17) what are your writing weaknesses?

describing um. clothing. aaaaaaaaaaaa or deciding what characters should eat. don't make me!!! go read a redwall or something if you want food

18) thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

i'd probably say 'he said in french that they should go see the hockey match' rather than write out the actual phrase. but if it were something simple i might take a crack at it. i've used fictional words in wildfire now.

19) first fandom you wrote for?

f/ire e/mblem again. it was the pandemic, i'd just gotten through claude's route, and felix was so silly. so i started the eh-u

20) favourite fic you've ever written?

this is impossible to answer because i love so many. but here's my first curling fic: steal of two

i'll tag @omgkalyppso @umbralstars @lumeha

[pebblume]

I never realized how liberating writing fanfiction would be. I hadn’t written creatively in years. It’s been so long that I kind of forgot what it felt like. The childlike rush of pouring your heart out onto a blank page, not caring about the results as long as you were having fun. I’ve tried writing fanfic a couple of times, for different fandoms across the years, but never finished anything I was really happy with, nothing that I felt comfortable sharing with the world. But something just clicked for me this past week. I realized how much fun it was to stretch out my writing muscles, to get inside the heads of my favorite characters. I realized that it didn’t have to be perfect to be worthy of being shared and loved by others. I realized that I had so many stories inside myself - more than I thought possible. 

But perhaps what I’m most in awe of is fanfic readers. The people who read my work and leave kudos and bookmarks and comments - one word comments, sweet comments, silly comments, paragraph-long comments. I love them all. I used to be afraid of leaving comments on AO3, afraid I wouldn’t have enough words, wouldn’t have the right words, to depict how I felt. But when I felt firsthand how much those comments meant to me I started leaving more and more of them, spreading a digital paper trail of love to all my favorite authors. More and more often I recognize the profile names and images in my comment section and think, Hey, I know you! Now I’m not just a guest on AO3, or a passive reader. I belong here. 

I won’t lie and say I don’t miss drawing a bit, my previous creative outlet. There are plenty of drawings inside me too, itching to be realized. I really just don’t have the time for two time extensive hobbies, not when I need to balance school and practicing and little things like sleeping and eating and relaxing. I miss it, but not as much as I thought I would. There’s a level of investment to sharing a story online that feels…special. When I post my art, I get engagement, and it feels nice, but ultimately, most people are only spending about ten seconds looking at the work I spent eight hours on, if that. When someone reads my fics, we’ve now spent time together. You’ve lived inside my head for a bit, made it your home. It’s about feeling seen, I think. Writing makes me feel understood in a way visual art sometimes doesn’t. It makes me feel vulnerable in the same way performing music does, but less exposed too. It’s interesting to me. 

The only downside, if you can call it that, is now that the writing bug has infected me, I’m finding it harder and harder to stop. I’ll have an idea and then suddenly five hours have flown by because I’m on a creative streak and I just want to write one more idea down, which turns into two, and so on and so forth. I dread stopping, because what if I forget something? What if I get into a writing block later? Suddenly I have people who want to read the things I write and I want to provide it, I really do, but I also have responsibilities. I say, as I write this, ignoring my audition tomorrow afternoon. 

I still have a bit of embarrassment attached to fandom works. When I tell acquaintances that I like to draw or write, I rarely tell them I mean fanart and fanfiction. As if loving something that deeply, that sincerely, is inherently shameful in this age of irony and soulless remakes. Especially when my interests usually consist of media marketed towards children, nevermind the fact that it has more emotional maturity than most ‘adult’ works. But I’m trying to get better about it. A lot of my closest friends know about my hobbies, and some I’ve even let see my work. It’s terrifying but also giddying, seeing them like an art post or comment on a fic. After all, to reap the rewards of being loved, one must submit themselves to the mortifying ordeal of being known, or something like that. 

I realized today that I’ve written over 30,000 words in the past two weeks about about two characters who don’t belong to me, but whom I’ve made my own.

And I’ve never felt happier

[nightlilly0110]

This is literally a villain death tally for BNHA. Spoilers, obviously. I…hate this. I absolutely hate this. I knew some of them would die and I know that character deaths don’t necessarily have to have meaning, they could just be casualties, but the way this played out, it just seems to fit into a neat little box of “the bad guys are not allowed to have a happy ending.” Which. Goes against the entirety of the premise of Deku’s reasoning to become a hero of “I want to save people.” The only named character I can think of that he saved was Eri (not counting rescuing Bakugou from the League, Iida from Stain because they’re not civilians, feel free to tell me any others I missed) and she fits the stereotypical Perfect Victim trope. She’s just a child. Anything bad she did (rewinding people out of existence) it was done by accident, because she didn’t know any better. She has the chance to be rehabilitated into society without any of the bitterness that the League carry with them.

I really don’t like that there’s a subsection of this fandom that’s like “well they got what they asked for.” And yeah. Don’t use whatever issues you have going on as an excuse for your shitty behaviour (read: don’t be like “well the villains are abused so they have a right to kill people”) but also maybe think before saying “I think it’s good that the guy who got abused and manipulated as a child and groomed into being a mass murderer died. I think killing the murderer instead of addressing the societal problems that made him that way will fixeverything.” Your “they got what they asked for” also falls a little tone deaf with “what they asked for” boils down to “don’t be treated like shit” and the narrative of the manga has always been “we should save people.”

I also think these deaths are in bad faith when you have the hero side critically injured every five seconds and coming back from that (with the exception of Midnight, don’t get me started with that I hate that she was the only named casualty of that arc other than the racist guy) with Bakugou literally having his heart stop especially, and then with the villains it’s like “well can’t do anything about that, bye loser.”

So yeah, here’s what we know about the villains with the last three-ish chapters pending and a bit as to why I’m more than pissed about how this turned out, keeping the above sentiments in mind.

TLDR They died in vain. They accomplished nothing, no one bothered to listen to their message, and they died.

Magne - died protecting her friends from Overhaul. Body not recovered because it was cut in half (top half exploded) and only her legs remained. Might be reading into this a bit too much but a little weird that the trans woman was the first death we had in the series. Also weird that her motivations to join the League was presumably her horrible treatment for being trans but we don’t get that context until the circumstances surrounding her death. We know very little about her backstory.

Twice - Literally stabbed in the back while trying to flee. Body left in an active war zone, assumably recovered by the Hero Commission/whoever is responsible for cleanup. Mild closure in the fact that he did find out that he was the real copy of himself but not really because we still have people, years after this death, saying that it was “justified” and “a necessity” because Twice was resisting arrest trying to flee while being a non-combatant. I cannot stress enough that he was unarmed while he was running, ran past Hawks and did not attack him, and the “help” Hawks was offering him was throwing him in jail and never letting him see the light of day again. I don’t want to talk about this anymore.

Toga - Sacrificed herself to save Uraraka (semi-implied she might have been in love with Uraraka). Only Uraraka knows of her sacrifice. Has to endure in death people saying that she was nothing more than a villain, same as in life. Nothing changes for her - she’s still considered creepy, a freak, a villain. Body assumably left in an active war zone recovered by Hero Commission.

Mr. Compress - Arrested and in prison. We still don’t know why he joined the League. (Thank you @themattress for correcting me in this, glad he’s not dead but damn.)

Kurogiri - MIA. Assumed dead. Not mentioned in the final act and without closure as to his identity, only that he is still loyal to the League.

Spinner - Hospitalized. Says he’s going to preach about Shigaraki’s message. Honestly, it’s a good sentiment, but he’s clearly going out into a society that is a) hostile to people with mutant quirks like him b) hostile to villains c) canonically resistant to change and resistant to anything related to Shigaraki if those TV interviews were anything to go by. It’s a lost cause.

Dabi - Alive, but barely. He’s restrained and being kept alive by medics equipment but it’s clear his life will be short and in pain. I saw someone say that it’s “ironic justice” because he always wanted Endeavour to watch him and now he has no choice in that his family is going to be (in Dabi’s words) “gawking at him like a tourist attraction.” He’s miserable, he’s going to die, and he doesn’t even get the freedom that he wanted while his abuser walks off without punishment and still adored by society. This isn’t justice, it’s cruel, especially when we know it’s possible for him to be properly put back together (since that’s what happened after he “died” as a teenager).

Shigaraki - Dead, turned to dust after being possessed and used as a puppet by AFO after being his puppet and manipulated by him for years. Was not saved despite the fact that the entirety of the last arc was propped up by the sentiment that Deku was trying to reach out to him and save him, specifically Tenko, the spirit of a little boy who wanted to be a hero. I don’t believe in redemption through death. People calling this a redemption arc is an insult. It wasn’t a sacrifice - he was killed. He had no agency in his life and didn’t even get to choose his own death. Deku tells him to his face that his death is his own fault (what happened to saving him?!). He died hoping his friends would be able to carry on and something about hero society changed. His friends are dead, dying, or have lost everything, and society stayed exactly the same as it was at the start of all of this.

[sgiandubh]

What makes a very mature and educated woman confuse the charisma of Jamie and Claire and fall behind the illusion of Sam and Cait?

Look at this picture and many others, look at Cait's smile and the happiness in her eyes

Look at the color of Tony's lips, I don't need to continue

Below this picture are many pictures of them from many years ago

This man has been a reality since 2015, so let us accept reality even if we do not like it

Note: I would love to read everything you write aside from Outlander and S&C

Dear (b)Itchy Anon,

Ah, yes. You folks are definitely a very predictable bunch, because you simply cannot help yourself and just have to do it. Every. Single. Christmas. Eve. For reasons transparent enough to make you & your kin instantly unlikeable.

I was just thinking, the other day, believe it or not. I was thinking of the disingenuous way you - or someone like you - engaged with @cb4tb on another Christmas Eve and told myself: 'I bet the farm this year it's going to be me'. And here we are, with a rather long - and also, rather curious- comment. What am I going to do with you, Anon? Just write a rather long and ironic answer to your delirious rant, what else?

Calling me 'very mature' made me spit my Pepsi - always better in Romania than the eternal Coca-Cola - and I have to dubiously and cheaply congratulate myself, too. In about six months, you were forced to transition from 'Christ, shippers are stupid' to 'Golly, some -if not most - of them really are educated people'. An apparent paradox that never made you question your surroundings.

For instance, I do not need to wear a turban, sport a cigarette holder, rent a garish tent and call myself Miss Cleo, in order to tell with eerie precision English is not your mother tongue, either. You still do have a big problem with phrasal verbs, because you couldn't have possibly meant I 'fell behind the S&C illusion', but rather that 'I fell for that illusion'. You see, falling behind is 'failing to do something in time' or 'being late with a due payment' or 'being unable to make the same progress as one's peers'. We, shippers, naturally have this kind of superpowers. And seasoned bullshit-o-meters, too.

For your information, I haven't. I explained it at length. There is no possible way to do it if one uses common sense and street smarts only. What I did see, along with thousands of other people, mind you, had absolutely -forgive me, Father, for I am about to sin again - fucking nothing to do with Seamus and Sorcha. I mean, d'oh - is this your best argument, Anon? That sad, wilted talking point? Wow. Just wow.

Then, you totally lose control and take The Scarecrow out of the closet (yes, pun totally intended), in the hope you'll make me screech with dread & horror, I suppose. Exactly which one of the five to ten max Tait pics am I supposed to look at? The one at the marathon, where he checks her pulse? The one in Australia, when he pitifully dangles that stick on a beach? The one with the flute? The fist-in-hand one? The one at this year's IFTA, where she looks through him and he begs for a smile? I shall never know, because you do not add any picture and since I am not Miss Cleo, there's no way I could ever guess. Instead, you describe Neverland in Technicolor, lips included (so help me God, I never looked at McIdiot's lips: I take pride in being mentally sound). Indeed, there is no need to continue, Anon, lest you would insist to ridicule yourself.

This man has been a (questionably) useful prop since 2016, in order to give credence to a narrative. You all know it. You all deny it. You live in a parallel reality, currently embraced by PR. Amen. That does not give you the right to police this fandom and no, your derailed zeal will not get you any Brownie points from C.

Speaking only for myself, I will tell you one last time: I will never blindly accept a convenient compromise fiction just because TPTB and/or PR tell me so.

Note: I doubt my writing interests you. I really do, because I don't deal in fanfic. And even if I am an Oriental, know flattery never worked with me. In fact, I can't stand it.

It's Christmas. Take a break from all this pathetic hatred, Anon: if you have but a cell left of humanity in yourself, you can't possibly be proud of this message and there are far more interesting and meaningful ways to spend this special day. He came for you, too. And that is the most important thing in the world, right now.

[dewitty1]

Carey ‘W’Recs Wednesday(｡•̀ᴗ-)✧ presents:

Maybe This Time by Hatsonhamburgers @hatsonhamburgers

Rating: Explicit

Archive Warning: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings

Category: M/M

Fandom: Harry Potter - J. K. Rowling

Relationship: Draco Malfoy/Harry Potter

Characters: Harry Potter, Draco Malfoy, Ron Weasley, Hermione Granger, Kreacher (Harry Potter), Luna Lovegood, Original Characters, Hannah Abbott

Additional Tags: Post Hogwarts AU, Potioneer Draco Malfoy, Oblivious Harry Potter, Pining Draco Malfoy, Enemies to Friends to Lovers, POV Multiple, Fluff and Smut, Pensieves, Questions Of Consent, but nothing unconsentual, I promise, Top Draco Malfoy, Bottom Harry Potter, Top Harry Potter, Bottom Draco Malfoy, Explicit Sexual Content, So much smut, Lots of plot, Angst, Angst with a Happy Ending, Hurt/Comfort, Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder - PTSD, Mental Health Issues, Mental Breakdown, janus thickey ward, Triggers

Language: English

Words: 32,380

Summary:

Draco Malfoy has returned home from France after a five-year Potions Mastery study. He opens a shop in Knockturn Alley, is researching mental health treatments, and has a lovely flat all his own. The ire toward his name seems to have blown over, and he's treated kindly by even those who were opposite of him in the war. His life feels so full, but he can't ignore that he knows what's missing: his old nemesis and obsession, Harry Potter. But something's wrong with Harry. He seems to have had a complete breakdown after the war, and has spent the last five years trapped in time. Every day is the same, and every day, Draco makes amends to him. Potter seems to have lost himself to the trauma, and Draco wants to be the one to help him recover. But not all is what it seems, and Draco may need Harry just as much.

(੭ˊ͈ ꒵ˋ͈)੭*⁺˚. * ･ ｡ﾟ☆

Excerpt:

“Harry,” Hermione called, “let him go, and put down your wand.”

Harry immediately responded to the witch’s commanding Mother voice and tucked his wand away. Draco felt the ropes loosen and disappear. He stood, rolling his shoulders.

“Thanks, Gra- Hermione,” he grimly smiled at her, and sat on the sofa where they had just so recently made love, the memory now wiped from Harry’s mind. Draco buried his face in his hands.

“Harry, what do you remember?” Hermione asked softly.

“Er-” Hary stammered. Draco looked up to see his face flush as he thought through his story.

“It’s 30 October, of course,” he answered, side-eyeing Draco. “I just woke up and found him wandering ‘round my house.”

“I wasn’t wandering ‘round anywhere, I was coming to check on you,” Draco retorted blandly. This was getting tedious. But he clung to his memory of the night before and took a deep breath.

“Al-alright,” Harry said unsure, “okay, er- thank you?”

Draco stared at him, incredulous. Was this a Harry that he had already been intimate with at least? The blush on Potter’s face was still there so apparently he did remember something- his day before must have been a good day.

Draco broke out into a smile. “Oh thank Merlin. I’ll bring you up to speed. I broke you out of St. Mungo’s using your cloak, brilliant that thing is, by the way, and Luna even helped us sneak out! We came back here and…” His eyes shot to Ron and Hermione’s faces, and he sensored himself in time. “We researched Kairos Black, my old missing wand, time-turners, and your tiresome obsession with bringing back the dead,” He knew he was weaving into dangerous territory, but he was so tired. “You must have been careless and-”

“You were in my room,” Harry said coldly.

“Yes but I also-”

“Harry, he means well, mate,” Ron said, “he said he has some information about your time loop.”

Harry’s eyebrows went up sharply. He shot Draco a look of complete betrayal. Draco physically jerked back from its power. His chest ached. I didn’t tell them anything, he tried to communicate with his eyes and Harry hesitated. Harry nodded almost imperceptibly.

This was going terribly. Draco stood. “I might suggest you look in the attic, Hermione, if you are so inclined, I must away to Hogwarts to speak to a portrait.” He said in his most imperious voice. “Good day.”

He picked up his cloak, threw it on with a swirl Snape would be proud of, and headed for the front door. Much more dramatic to slam the door, or better yet, leave it open and Apparate than to use the floo. He flung open the door and was met with steady rain, bathed in early morning light, barely turning the roads a lighter shade of gray.

He tried to turn, but the wards tugged at him, keeping him from Apparating. He frowned and took the steps into the rain, throwing on his hood, shivering as the cold quickly seeped in. He cast a quick warming charm and hurried down the street. Away from Harry and the insan-

“Malfoy- I mean, Draco!” Harry’s trainers slapped the sidewalk, approaching him from behind. He spun to see Harry running toward him, getting soaked with no coat on. He stopped, mere inches from Draco, heaving and breathless. Draco closed his eyes at the onslaught of breathless whispers the night before, trying to push the thought away.

He opened his eyes, and Potter was there, all green eyes and fogged glasses, which he pulled off and stuffed in a pocket. He was so close. Draco held up his wand.

“May I,” Draco gestured to Harry’s soaked state. He nodded and Draco cast an Impervious and a drying charm. Harry smiled.

“I don’t know how much I told you,” Harry said nervously, “and I don’t even know what I know, as stupid as that sounds. But I know I don’t want you to go.”

Draco leaned in as if pulled by magic, and kissed Harry gently. Harry’s lips softened under his. Every kiss felt like a first kiss and this was no exception. Draco opened his cloak, pulling Harry into it, shielding him from the outside world, from his own pain, loss, and desire to undo the past.

They parted lips, breathing each other’s air a little longer.

“I have to go, Harry. But there’s always tomorrow and I will always feel this way about you. Always.”

His words trigger something in Harry, because tears began to well at the corners of his eyes. He looked away.

Harry laughed humorlessly. “Tomorrow. Sure, it will all be fine tomorrow.”

Harry pulled away, turning his back to Draco. It twisted his heart to see Harry like this, but Draco needed to find the portrait of Kairos soon, and perhaps they would have a tomorrow.

“Goodbye, Harry,” Draco whispered, Apparating with a crack.

❤︎⁄⁄꒰* ॢꈍ◡ꈍ ॢ꒱.*˚‧

[juniperhillpatient]

thank you SO much @missjessefantastico for the tag <3 ALSO EVERYONE READ THIS SERIES ABOUT VAMP WILLOW, THE UNDERRATED HYENA KIDS, & MORE!!! It's so good btvs fans who love underexplored ideas & characters pspspsps

20 Questions For Fic Writers

1. How many works do you have on Ao3? 19

2. What’s your total Ao3 word count? 3,027,073

3. What fandoms do you write for? It's been Avatar the Last Airbender for the past few years. I have an old & probably not-good Rick & Morty fic up. Before that, I had some IT fics. I've got an orphaned fic for scream & one for house of 1000 corpses.

4. What are your top five fics by kudos?

the benefits of getting a flat tire this is Zuko running away from home & running right into the gaang - also uncovering some family mysteries & reconciling with Azula. modern au. it's Zukka & aw I'm nostalgic for those early days of mine in the fandom

if this were a movie this is basically an ATLA Hollywood Au. Zukka & Azutara. Past Jetko. I was happy with some of the dramatic moments in this fic.

not another high school au lord help me lmao. I'm SO sorry if you are reading this & you happen to love this fic but it's not the thing I'm most proud of. this is basically just me dipping my toes into writing ATLA modern AUs & in that sense I guess it's nostalgic? this is the fic I wrote as a newbie to the fandom just trying it out & I still do lovingly appreciate everyone who was kind & welcoming in those early days!

six feet under ATLA TVD AU MY BELOVED OMG. this is a vampire diaries au. there are no 1:1 translations but azula is damon, katara is a mix of jeremy & elena & so is sokka, zuko is stefan & YEAH. also aang is bonnie & iirc I probably even gave toph something fun to do. ozai is Katherine which is forever hilarious to me. yeah, this was a fun fic.

5. in search of glorious happenings of happenstance this fic is about nothing & everything at the same time. atla/modern world fusion with the four nations existing but also it's modern. all the atla teens/kids are going to college at ember island university & the fic takes place across a year. it's slice of life, comedy, drama, & chaos. lots of ships but I think azutara & jet/zuko/jin are probably, at the end of the day, the romances that are at the heart of this story although platonic relationships are also pretty important in this fic, IMO as much as romances. it's probably my magnum opus or something.

Do you respond to comments? yes <3 I am sometimes slow & I am not perfect but I TREASURE comments & do attempt to let people know as much. I write for myself, I post for the connections I make along the way.

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending? the devil you know for sure. this is my atla/scream modern au. I talk about it constantly because I'm so insanely proud of it but if you don't know it's exactly what it sounds like. it's horror & tragedy that I feel really proud of & I do think those elements are at the heart of my writing passion despite me usually being a bit nervous about using them. so. I'm proud of this fic. & it has a very bittersweet ending but the tragedy is...there's a lot of tragedy. no more spoilers because I want people to read this!

7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending? most of my fics have decently happy endings despite me claiming to prefer tragedy lol. I seem to recall the things we leave behind (mailee youtuber au with jetko & auztara. & they were roommates!) having a tooth rottingly fluffy ending lol

8. Do you get hate on fics? not really. it's happened before but it's not a big thing.

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind? sometimes I write the smutty scenes from my fics then save it only for myself. no you can't see. it's probably terrible. there's some shitty zucest smut of mine out there somewhere but I'm not sure it's any good & couldn't tell you where to find it lol

10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written? I think the AUs I write are called "fusion" because it's more "inserting characters into another world & the characters of that world aren't a thing." but my fic the balance of things was actually a crossover with characters from both wizards of waverly place & atla interacting. also I wrote THIS one-shot that's a crossover between the game the coffin of andy & leyley & the show wizards of waverly place. I didn't post it on ao3 but I'm just saying.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?  I don't think so?

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before? I have vague memories of doing this with this girl I was online friends with back in my fanfic.net days, years ago. I think it was Destiel.

14. What’s your all-time favorite ship? to write? I don't have one right now. I think maybe I got kinda burnt out on everything having to be about one ship or whatever rather than just telling the story & maybe that's a small part of why I'm taking a temporary break from fic writing & focusing on an original story so I'm not staying within fandom approved in parameters & I can just do whatever feels right ya know? I like Cisne's answer about any willow ship tho. me with my faves tbh hehe

15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will? can't think of one but I can think of fanfic ideas I'd like to return to & fully realize after I get back in the mood

16. What are your writing strengths? I like to think I'm okay at characterization although moving away from fanfic & working on something original has me questioning myself constantly!

17. What are your writing weaknesses? I'm very lazy & often neglect research. sometimes if I don't know how to explain something I just change the whole scene so i don't have to bother.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic? could be neat in the right context!

19. First fandom you wrote for? probably family guy lmao

20. Favourite fic you’ve written? maybe 'in search of glorious happenings of happenstance.' I think 'the devil you know' is objectively the strongest. but happenstance is just such a specific version of the characters that's fun to me? it's one of those two that's my favorite, depending on my mood

this is very long so these tags have even less pressure than usual:

@reythespacebae @theowritesfiction @imaslowlearner-butilearn @chasingfictions @hello-nichya-here @matchamarshmallow @akiizayoi4869 @dont-leafmealone @peony-pearl @lunaintheskyforever

also, anyone who wants to do this just say I tagged you!

[gerec]

any of these d/s universe fics?? I mean not exactly bdsm fics, but those fics that take place in a universe where people are born subs or doms (like something genetic, I don't remember this verse lore do much... ) do you remember? This used to be popular in the fandom but I can't find it anymore.

Lots of great d/s verse fics in this fandom, Anon! Here you go - happy reading :D

Nation Building and other Diplomatic Negotiations by Pookaseraph

With the recent passage of a submissive registration law in the United Kingdom, there are now only two industrialized nation with a relatively stable government to have neither a mutant nor a submissive registration law. Erik Lehnsherr, the newly minted King of Genosha, and his Prime Minister Emma Frost intend to take advantage of this turn of events to bring the Xavier Institute to the island nation of Genosha. They both know bringing Charles Xavier, the noted activist of mutant and submissive rights, to the island will necessarily politicize the man, and create all manner of complications. With a constitution not yet finalized and external threats to Genoshan security all around them, Erik, Emma, and Charles will fight for what they believe in to shape Genosha into what it should be.

Put me in the backseat, and they took me for a ride by tahariel (Backseat 'verse series)

When Erik enters the bedroom, pausing on the threshold just to look, near shivering with excitement, his new sub is waiting for him, laid out on top of the bedclothes like a present. He’s draped with a length of rich black silk, which clings to his naked body and hides nothing, accentuates everything.

Erik’s mouth runs dry.

Coax me out my love low by tahariel (Frontseat 'verse series)

It's hard enough waiting a year to meet the man you're engaged to, but harder still when that man doesn't even want to stay bonded to you. Charles is determined, however, not to let Erik get away.

Unbound by Cesare, helens78 (Bound and Determined series)

Thousands of miles apart, Erik Lehnsherr and Charles Xavier form a soulbond. But when that bond is severed five years later, they have to spend the next ten years trying to rebuild their lives alone.

Imprint by PoorMedea

The moment of imprinting: overpowering, irresistible, and most importantly, uncontrollable. As Charles and Erik are about to find out.

Never Need to Make You by Pookaseraph

Erik had always been alone, and he never expected to find a Dom that would suit him. He certainly never expected Charles Xavier to claim him just minutes after he failed to kill Schmidt in Miami, his mind in turmoil. He hated it, but at the same time he couldn't deny that Charles seemed to know exactly what he needed.

Homeward Bound by Cesare, helens78 (Homeward Bound 'verse)

An alternate version of the Charles/Erik story from the Bound and Determined universe, in which (with Edie's help) Charles and Erik meet as young teenagers.

Support Your Local Claiming Center by Not_You

Erik is a sub who has quite literally been to the wars. He's older and more damaged than he thinks anyone wants. Charles proves him wrong.

surrender doesn't have to mean defeat by deacertes

 In a world where partnerships between Dominants and Submissives take place under the watchful jurisdiction of The Institute of Designation, Charles Xavier is a kindly, cardigan-wearing Dom who opposes many elements of the official system. Meanwhile, Erik Lehnsherr's past has taught him to struggle against his Submissive inclinations.

When the two are placed together by the Institute, Charles has to find a balance between his conscience and his desires, whilst trying to teach a conflicted Erik that surrender doesn't have to mean defeat...

Hold Back the Rain (front!strict mashup) by euphorbic

Charles Xavier: society darling, powerful political activist, well-known professor, and Dominant. Erik Lehnsherr: anti-social, international motorcycle racer, and defiant submissive.

Erik is at Sepang in Malaysia for the fourteenth leg of the International World Championship. After doing poorly in qualifying, he's furious to find he has to take another VIP around the track instead of meeting Charles at the KL airport.

By Your Side by motleystitches (furius)

Charles plays chess with Erik as often as possible in the evenings, but Erik is Cain's sub and Charles is planning to leave Westchester for Oxford at the end of summer.

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20 questions for fic writers

I was tagged by @khorazir and @raina-at. Thanks so much for tagging me!

1. How many works do you have on AO3? 47 (how is it that many?!) 29 for BBC Sherlock 18 for The X-Files

2. What's your total A03 word count? 897,533

3. What fandoms do you write for? Currently only BBC Sherlock

4. What are your top five fics by kudos?

(Never) Turn Your Back to the Sea

White Knight

Incidents with Dogs, Curious and Otherwise

Another Auld Lang Syne

The Dead Detective

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not? I try to! I'm not always the best at keeping up, especially lately as my schedule has been erratic and I can only steal a few minutes here and there for fandom activities. But even when I don't have a chance to reply, I do read and treasure each and every comment.

6. What's the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending? I guess maybe The Pillar upon which England Rests has the saddest ending of anything that I've ever written, but I don't really consider it a sad story. It's set immediately post Reichenbach, told mostly through flashbacks as Mrs Hudson shares the story of how she met Sherlock with John. Sherlock is still "dead" when the story comes to a close, and John and Mrs Hudson are both grieving, though we as the reader know their loss is temporary.

I have a few shorter fics with ambiguous endings that lean in the angsty direction:

Nothing Happened in Belarus deals with accidental time travel, with grief-stricken S4 Sherlock finding himself briefly in the care of S1 John. Alas, the reprieve is a short one, as neither Sherlock nor John become aware of what is happening in time to take advantage of the opportunity.

At the end of Leaves Sherlock and John have either triumphed over the hallucinogenic vines that have invaded 221B… or they haven't. (I have my own theory, but you are free to interpret the ending however you choose.)

In EXECUTE John inadvertently deletes Mary from existence. He gets his happy ending, but has to live with the uncomfortable knowledge of the choices he's made.

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending? Most of my fics have happy or at least hopeful endings. I like leaving the boys in a good place. I guess it depends on the flavor of happy you're looking for. But I'd say that these are probably the happiest:

(Never) Turn Your Back to the Sea

Inscrutable to the Last

White Knight

Another Auld Lang Syne

Whirlwind

8. Do you get hate on fics? Thankfully, no. A few weird comments here and there, but nothing too bad. The vast majority of my interaction with others in the fandom has been absolutely wonderful.

9. Do you write smut? Most of my sex scenes stay in R rated territory. But I tend to roll with whatever the plot demands of me.

10. Do you write crossovers? I've done quite a few fusion fics, but not crossovers. Crossovers aren't usually my cup of tea.

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen? Once, sort of, but I don't believe it was done maliciously and I don't wish to call attention to it.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated? Yes! I'm always flattered by requests to translate my writing.

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before? A friend and I used to write together quite a bit in high school, but nothing that has made it out into the world.

14. What's your all-time favourite ship? Sherlock & John and Mulder & Scully.

15. What's the WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will? Crime Writer is a Sherlock/Knight Rider fusion that ran out of steam a while back (although it was intended to be episodic and IMO doesn't feel too horribly unresolved where it ends, so don't let the unfinished nature of it put you off if you're inclined to read it).

I'm still optimistic about most of the WIPs in my WIP folder, heh. I guess we'll see what next year brings.

16. What are your writing strengths? I like to think I'm good at writing complicated people with complicated feelings that don't always resolve neatly.

17. What are your writing weaknesses? I don't think my smut is particularly inspired. And I have a very hard time writing fluff or domestic situations without having some angst to drive the plot.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic? I personally wouldn't attempt it. I'm not fluent in any other languages and there's far too much nuance to leave in the hands of Google Translate. :)

19. First fandom you wrote for? X-Files! (Unless you count unrefined and unposted scribblings from my younger years, I definitely went through a phase where I was trying to fix the Terminator time loop in a way that allowed Sarah Connor and Kyle Reese to live happily ever after.)

20. Favourite fic you've ever written? Oh, this is always such a hard question to answer. The Pillar upon Which England Rests is the first fic I wrote for the Sherlock fandom, so it has a special place in my heart. I'm really proud of the cases and complex plot in Out There. (Never) Turn Your Back to the Sea is the one that seems to resonate with the most people. And White Knight is the fic I'd most like to see turned into an episode of the show. :D

I'll tag @thetimemoves @insistentbass @lololollywrites @arwamachine @naefelldaurk @clueless-mp4 @totallysilvergirl and anyone else who would like to play along!

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God, Blondie was ballsy putting Question…? out on an album. I’ve been noodling on it for 364+ days and I still cannot believe this one isn’t either (a) more veiled in secrecy/using secret language dialect or (b) in the vault.

From the second the song starts, there is no doubt as to its subject, with the OOTW sample. And all the details that even we fans recognize; they are undoubtedly many more only the two of them will spot.

It’s honestly as if she took the bridge to The 1

And decided: f*ck it. No more resisting temptation. Asking!

And let’s be real: she already knows the answers to these questions. That’s not the surprise. What’s shocking is the fact that she is asking them in the first place!!

There is plausible deniability built in; it could be in the past. Until we get to the bridge because she’s referencing an ongoing relationship he’s still in.

In happiness, we know that:

But this evermore track? Was written before the OW news broke (maybe even before they met). The only significant, long term romantic partner that he’d had in years, other than CR (about whom little was spoken outside the fandom and/or until they’d already broken up).

So I don’t see how this can be about anyone else:

And since Midnights was mostly written in fall 2021, he’d been with OW for a year and she with YB for nearly FIVE when writing this.

So some of it asks if he wishes he’d made different choices at critical moments. Which: obviously yes. Those questions use verbs in the past tense.

But some? Are in present tense. Questions like that “what’s that I heard? That you’re still with her…” as well as:

And this doozy, repeated a whole bunch:

Of course he does, Blondie! So nice of you to rub it in!

But besties, here is why I have been noodling on it for so long: why would she do this?

This is not I Bet You Think About Me or High Infidelity or WCS or any of the songs about sh*thead exes. This is one clearly directed to a man who—at minimum—has spent years and years kindly praising her, disclosing no secrets, and still writing glowingly about her.

She already suspects/subconsciously knows the answers to these questions. What was she planning to do if he confirmed her suspicion?!

I don’t think she had the answer to MY question, or really let herself think about it. But if she planned to do nothing other than bask in the glow of his ongoing love and desire for her (while continuing to build a life with another guy): that sucks. That would make me think less of her because that’s cruel to someone who’d never do the same.

Anyway - I still don’t know where I landed with respect to her internal motivation for writing and releasing this song. I hope she wasn’t doing it to toy with a good man—one she admitted she’d hurt in happiness—but I honestly don’t know.

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20 Questions for Fic Writers

Tagged by: @zealouswerewolfcollector @melestasflight & @niennawept - thanks guys!!!!

Under the cut for length.

1. How many works do you have on Ao3?

43 total. 26 on my reg runawaymun account, and 17 spicy works under spicy_runawaymun.

2. What’s your total Ao3 word count?

466,324. Geez.

3. What fandoms do you write for?

Currently just Tolkien. Mostly focusing on early third age and late second age. I used to write for Stargate and Doctor Who but that was like ten years ago.

4. What are your top five fics by kudos?

To Partake - 842 kudos - Longfic in progress. Elrond/Celebrimbor set in the second age, based loosely off The Rings of Power but it's really gone off the rails now because I didn't like some choices in the show and am trying to fix them haha. Show knowledge is honestly not needed because I stop following it after like the seventh chapter. Mostly an Elrond character study disguised as porn.

And the Stars Shine the Same - 695 kudos - Longfic, complete. a look at early third age Rivendell as told by two kids from proto-Rohan who get adopted into Elrond's family out of harsh and traumatic circumstances.

Beneath a Boundless Sky - 520 kudos - longfic and in progress. Sequel to above. Much wider scope. Dealing with the politics of proto-Rohan and exploring Fram's rise to power, while also keeping a firm focus on Elrond, his relationship with Maglor, and his relationship with his family. Oh yeah, and there's an eldritch monster in the mix (one that isn't Elrond that is!)

A Gown Spun from Starlight - 400 kudos - Thranduil x Reader insert oneshot. Mostly fluff.

Supine - 358 kudos - exploratory kidnap fam multi shot. Mostly Maedhros-centric.

Tinúvion - 289 kudos - Oneshot. Elrond and Sauron meet and hiss at each other and fight over Gil-Galad for 1972 words. Sauron shits his pants. Transitive property Luthien-Elrond.

5. Do you respond to comments?

Yes! Sometimes often my spoons are low so I am not always as fast as I like. But I endeavor to respond to everybody!

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

Ohhhhh. Let me think, here. Probably That We Are Still - in which Elrond has a foresight nightmare about Cel's death and they have sex about it, which fixes nothing.

7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

Most of them have happy endings, because I love happy endings and I've written a good deal of fluff! I think And the Stars Shine the Same has the happiest/most satisfying ending, though. But it's an unfair comparison because it's a longfic. But Never Doubt I Love (Russingon) has a happy/bittersweet ending that's one of my favs. And Equinox (Elrond and Lindir's first meeting) is just pure sugar haha.

8. Do you get hate on fics?

Not that I recall, honestly. Hopefully it stays that way. I've gotten one or two slightly homophobic comments but I believe the commenter meant well. It was a weird experience.

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

Yes! I find exploring how characters are sexual really really fascinating. It's like a microcosm of everything -- of their relationships, of their trauma, of their securities and insecurities. It's so interesting and fun! And especially the journeys that characters can take sexually, learning to open up and explore :) it's very rewarding. All of that is over on my spicy account. It's nearly exclusively Celrond but there's a few others in there.

10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written?

I've written a few, but none on AO3. My favorite was one I wrote a long time ago where SG-1 (Stargate SG-1) got into a tangled up mission with the Eleventh Doctor and River. I also do a lot of daydreaming and play in my free time imagining my OCs from my original works winding up in middle earth. :)

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not that I am aware of.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

I've had someone offer but if it wound up happening, I wasn't tagged, so I am not sure! But receiving the offer was very nice <3

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Not any of the ones posted to AO3, but @the-commonplace-book and I have collaborated on a lot of work together! I'm always open to collaboration. It's so much fun.

14. What’s your all time favorite ship?

CELROND CELROND CELROND. Though Brimbrond is becoming a close contender now!

15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

All of them, really. I try not to doubt I will finish things and just trust my process. I am a naturally slow writer who's a perfectionist and tends to hop from project to project, which is why I focus myself on one or two longfics at most, and I just let the others percolate in outline form until I finish something. I used to not finish things ever and it drove me crazy, so I try my best to stay focused so that things will always get finished in their due time.

16. What are your writing strengths?

Prose. Action and horror. Long character arcs -- especially the unfolding of characters who are recovering from traumatic experiences. I have a pattern haha.

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

Descriptions of settings and characters (I know what they look like in my head and have to actively remind myself that this image isn't downloaded into someone's brain). Politics and schemes. And IMO I am not good at twisty plots. I tend to write pretty linear progressions with few unexpected surprises.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic.

I like peppering individual words here and there, or perhaps small phrases. Pet names, absolutely. But nothing more than that. IMO adding in language can really help ground a story in the worldbuilding.

19. First fandom you wrote for?

Funnily enough, Tolkien. When I was a kid I set out to rewrite the entire books just from Merry and Pippin's perspectives. I did not get very far.

20. Favourite fic you’ve written?

I think it's honest to god And the Stars Shine the Same. I am obviously fond of To Partake, but Stars just is in its own special category for me. It came to me at the exact right time in my life when I really needed it. It's a very personal story, and it revived my love of writing and reminded me why I liked doing it.

I am rather late to this and I am not sure who has been tagged and who hasn't, so forgive me if I tag someone who has already done this! But no pressure tags for: @emyn-arnens @jaz-the-bard @lordgrimwing @greyjedijaneite @maglor-my-beloved and whomever else would like to participate!

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Why do you think Matsuda was grinning when he offered to make the eye deal in Death Note? For that matter, what do you think would have happened if he had? How could it happen? What would happen differently if Matsuda died and Soichiro lived? Honestly, I just really want to know about this AU, and you seem like the fandom Matsuda expert!

hehehe i LOVE this question!!!

matsuda is someone who desperately wants to be useful. far from this being something he learns to deal with through the series, it's a need that gets exacerbated as the story goes on. he has a deep-seated anxiety about being useless, and this fuels a lot of his actions. theres a reason his Yotsuba Shenanigans were prompted by him being brushed off repeatedly by L and told to just do menial tasks. he wants to be important to the investigation, and at first, he's just kinda stupid about it — willing to put himself in danger to be useful, but it seems more like just recklessness than deliberate self-sacrifice. like he doesn't really understand the stakes

this...changes, after the timeskip. matsuda still gladly puts himself in danger, but there's a tint of desperation to it. like he better understands the danger, but that doesn't change anything. one standout example is when matsuda tells soichiro to tell mello that matsuda is L — it's very clear that this puts matsuda in massive danger, but he does it anyway. and, crucially, soichiro goes along with it. there's a new degree of trust there — the task force knows now that matsuda is gonna pull this shit and there's nothing they can do to stop him. and of course light picks up on it.

like, the thing about matsuda volunteering to take the eyes is that it's not an out of nowhere thing like the Yotsuba Shenanigans were. light was surprised by that. but five years later, he knows matsuda a lot better — enough to know he'll volunteer to take the eyes.

venturing into the realm of conjecture and hc, i think there's a few things going on here. i think that matsuda is someone who really keenly feels the danger they're in, and is most afraid when he's helpless. to him, that fear goes away when he's Doing Something About It. and i think this meshes well with my h/c that matsuda was on a riot unit prior to the NPA. while everyone else is a thinker and investigator, matsuda is a doer. he feels a lot of anxiety when he's just sitting around, and feels useless because he's not much help in the more cerebral parts of the investigation. but then something Must Be Done and Action Must Be Taken, and matsuda is in his element — he doesn't hesitate to come forward, and feels a rush of relief as he finally has some degree of control over the situation. so i kinda read his happiness as him finally having a way he can be useful and something he can do to catch kira.

as for what would have happened if he did take the eyes...well, it's not a happy story, and there's a damn good reason that light planned for him to take them. matsuda absolutely would have killed mello. wouldn't have even let him open his mouth. he doesn't have the same hangups around the death note that soichiro does — hell, after the chief's death, he was willing to let near use the death note to kill mello, though it's hard to know just how much of that was motivated by mello basically killing soichiro. light would have then used matsuda to prove the 13-day rule by killing him after he didn't write any names for 13 days. it would have been SO easy to convince matsuda's self-sacrificing ass that it was better for him to die than to live by killing criminals with the death note or something.

....though, well, there is a chance that, riding the high of the raid, light would have taken a risk. after all, he already thought matsuda understood him, and matsuda killing mello would only prove that further. why not have matsuda kill a death row criminal every 13 days? why not eventually escalate it to matsuda killing an escaped death row criminal? you see where i'm going with this. it would be a crack to open up, to start to let kira's ideology infiltrate the task force.

that could potentially work if soichiro died — it's pretty heavily implied that he would have only lived a few days after the raid if he didn't take the eyes anyway. but if soichiro lived, i don't think matsuda could have been convinced to use the death note after the raid, even to save his own life. matsuda's moral compass for much of the series is the chief, after all

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20 questions for fic writers

tagged by @koipalm tyyyy tho it's so funny to call me w my 3 fics a fic writer I appreciate it tho love and light

1) how many works do you have on ao3?

3 :^)

2) what's your total ao3 word count?

76,252 baby

3) what are your top five fics by kudos?

well as previously mentioned I've only written three but of those it goes don't you want to share the guilt, no charming smile no violet eyes, and lastly a heaven so sweet you don't have to die for it young (<- guy who can't stop using rlly long titles)

4) what fandoms do you write for?

just cql because it has an iron clad grip on my brain like nothing else

5) do you respond to comments? why or why not?

no which I feel bad about now but I started out not responding because I suppose I wasn't sure how?? and now it feels too late to start 😭 but know that if you've ever left a comment on a fic I love and cherish and appreciate it and think about it often 🩷

6) what's the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

a heaven so sweet you don't have to die for it young.... it's unfinished at a sad part but it was also never going to have a happy ending because it's a speculation on jiang chengs grief in the years that wei wuxian was dead, and the end of that thought is just the part of the canon story that we know is miserable and sad for him. it was also written at a very very difficult time in my life and that for sure comes through in the writing

7) what's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

uhm probably ncsnve. I think even dywtstg leaves some things unsaid and a lot of grief unhealed but everyone is doing pretty solid at the end of ncsnve lmao

8) do you get hate on fics?

I've gotten exactly two hate comments on a fic. one was incest appology so it doesn't matter and the other was immediately clowned on by other people 😭 and honestly that one was a compliment to me because it was an "ugh why is the author so Mean to jiang cheng" kind of comment and I was scared that I had been too forgiving to him in that fic so shoutout to that person

9) do you write smut?

no because I refuse to be a virgin writing porn and also I'm full of shame. the best you'll get from me are some flowery illusions to sex 👍

10) do you write crossovers?

no and I'm not rlly a crossover fic reader either. it just doesn't rlly do anything for me I don't care about my guys being in a different universe. I think also like the reason I write fics is to explore the themes and feelings that could not be explored in the show, and a crossover doesn't really fulfill that purpose in any meaningful way to me

11) have you ever had a fic stolen?

not to my knowledge? I don't think anybody cares enough to steal my writing 😭

12) have you ever had a fic translated?

again not that I know of? I wouldn't be opposed to it tho

13) have you ever cowritten a fic before?

no I would hate that so bad. I write for me and me only baby I'm not letting anybody else in here. I also have a very uhm. let's say Strong Personality and I think if I tried to write something with another person I'd kill them

14) what's your all time favorite ship?

wangxian 🩷

15) what's the wip you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

shoutout to jiang sect mo xuanyu au you are so fun and also dead

16) what are your writing strengths?

uuuhm I think that I have a very strong writing "voice" and a good grasp of tone. I'm very articulate and a big stickler for not using the same word multiple times in the same section of writing + finding just the right word for what I mean which I think results in good word choice and interesting prose. I like to believe that I'm good at motifs, parallels, and symbolism, but who knows if thats actually true. at the very least I am very dedicated to them 😭 I've also been told that I'm very good at accurately capturing emotions, which I think is a goal I have in any art I make. one of my favorite compliments I've ever gotten on a fic is that I had written a character with a lot of compassion, and I hope that that is a strength throughout everything I write. at the very least, I put a lot of love into everything I create. also I'm hilarious

17) what are your writing weaknesses?

I struggle a lot w dialogue, both in making it sound the way actual human beings speak, and in keeping strong and consistent character voices. I tend to not know how to separate My voice as a writer from the characters voices and how they actually speak. the barrier of cql being in a different language where everything is translated for me and thus changed also makes this a challenge. I will also be the first one to admit that I am not really a plot guy when it comes to fics. I struggle with plot in my original writing as well and I think that fics as a medium are more forgiving of this weakness but it also limits what I write about when all I'm doing is exploring emotions and not really telling a story. it's a lot to ask people to read 50k words of absolute nothingness 😭 I think my strength of being articulate can also be a weakness at certain times? sometimes I read things I've written and just cringe because certain things come off as gratuitous or miss the mark of being eloquent or poetic and just sort of end up being pretentious or silly. at a certain point it's better to not know all of those synonyms. there are also some grammar things that I simply don't understand. like there are some things that I have a strong grasp on and that I'M very picky about but there's just some writing conventions that I know are a weak point and I'm sure it pisses some people off lmao. as is made evident by these answers I have also been known to sort of go on and on, which I'm sure can get tiring at a certain point

18) thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

tew be so honest no I don't have thoughts on that 👍

19) first fandom you wrote for?

it's a secret

20) favourite fic you've ever written?

ncsnve I put a lot of love and heart into it :^) there are things I don't like and wish I could go back and change because they make me want to tear my hair out but overall I think it's a strong piece of writing. you should read it btw xoxo

I'll tag my good friends @wutheringheightsfilm and @mqfx