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Royal Pains brain rot got me writing a thing.
"you're better off without them"
Rich and Brooke observe another Jake and Chloe break up, once again trying to urge them that they're better off apart- despite knowing that it won't work. No matter how much it hurts.
“You’re better off without her.”
Rich sits across from Jake.
Jake’s tears have long since dried and they sit in silence, the only sound is Jake’s ragged breathing. It’s always bad when they break up, but Rich is always there to piece him together.
“Do you wanna talk about it?”
Jake sniffs and shakes his head. “No.”
That’s always the answer. But Rich always knows what’s running through Jake’s head, anyway.
It’s routine, by now.
They break up. Jake calls Rich. Rich is by his side almost immediately. Jake is crying (and he hates that he still cries over her but goddammit it still hurts every single time). Rich sits with him.
Rich sighs.
“You can’t keep doing this, dude.”
Jake doesn’t respond. He doesn’t look at Rich.
Jake knows that Rich is right, but he doesn’t want to let her go.
It’s intoxicating.
And he knows its not good for him but he can’t stop. Her claws are dug too deep into his shoulders, he can’t imagine them not.
He can’t remember what it’s like to not be in her grasp.
Rich didn’t expect Jake to respond.
“You’re better off without her,” he tries quietly.
“I’m not.”
Rich frowns.
“Jake…”
“I’m not. I need her. I need her, god, Rich. I need her.”
Rich is silent for a moment.
“I don’t- I don’t know what to do without her. I can’t just let her go.”
“She hurts you. You go back to her and she hurts you all over again. And it breaks you every time.”
“It doesn’t.”
Rich knows that Jake doesn’t want to hear this. He’s tried this conversation before.
“Jakob, you’re not good for her. She’s not good for you-”
“Who are you to decide what’s good for me and what isn’t?” Jake snaps.
Rich doesn’t flinch.
He doesn’t shy away from the glare that’s turned on him.
“Your friend.”
The word pains him.
“I care about you too much to watch you destroy yourself like this.”
Jake turns away from him.
Rich knows that this is the end of the conversation for now. But god, he wants to talk more.
He wants to plead with Jake to let her go.
He wants Jake to see how much he’s destroyed himself over her.
He wants Jake to see the damage they’ve done to each other.
He wants Jake to see that he’s right there in front of him.
He wants Jake to see what they could be.
But Rich knows he won’t. So, he’ll continue to piece Jake back together as carefully as he can.
“Do you want me to stay?”
There is no hesitation in Jake’s nod.
Rich hesitates, his hand moves forward to take Jake’s.
But he doesn’t.
If Jake noticed the small action, he doesn’t say anything.
“I’ll stay.”
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“You’re better off without him.”
Brooke sits cross-legged on Chloe’s bed, watching as she paces around the room.
She’s on edge. She can see the tears building up in Chloe’s eyes but she doesn’t know if she’s going to scream or yell or cry.
She’s been through this before.
And she knows Chloe.
She knows to treat this situation like she’s walking on eggshells.
“Chlo?” She speaks softly.
Brooke knows that it’ll snap Chloe out of her head. Brooke knows that Chloe’s attention will zone in on her. Brooke knows that she’s going to be the recipient of every horrible thing she has to say about him. And Brooke knows she will sit here and take it.
Chloe will take it out on her, and she will let it roll off her shoulders because it’s better than Chloe taking it out on anyone else.
And it’s better than Chloe running back to him.
As predicted, Chloe’s venomous glare turns to her.
“I hate him. I hate him, I hate him, I hate him so fucking much. He can fucking rot in hell for all I care. Why should I care? He’s nothing but a fucking prick.”
Brooke nods idly.
Starting with yelling.
Brooke listens as Chloe spouts off every insult she’s ever used for him.
And she agrees, because she doesn’t want to make it worse by saying she’s wrong about him.
Chloe screamed and she yelled and half the things she said weren’t true.
And she could never truly hate him.
She was wrapped around his finger and she liked it that way.
He was always there to make her feel good,
Feel wanted.
His rough lips on her neck and his careful touch,
She could never get enough of it.
When she was the centre of his attention, it was intoxicating.
She felt wanted, needed, complete.
It wasn’t healthy, god it wasn’t good.
But she just couldn’t help herself.
She couldn’t remember a time where Jake wasn’t all hers.
Brooke watches as the tears well up in Chloe’s eyes.
The crying step will come soon.
Chloe collapsed on the bed next to Brooke.
Brooke carefully wrapped Chloe up in her arms as she cried.
Brooke wouldn’t say anything as Chloe cried.
She wouldn’t comment on the tears.
Instead, she just held Chloe as her heart ached, listening to Chloe curse him out again and again.
Brooke knew the words she said could switch Chloe right back to screaming at her.
But they were words that Chloe needed to hear.
“You’re better off without him, Chlo. You don’t need him. You don’t need his attention to make you feel better. You’re more than enough without him.”
“You just- You don’t understand, Brooke. I need him! I need him, but god I hate his fucking guts.”
“Chloe, you destroy him and yourself and everyone around you when you’re with him.”
And Brooke knew what it was like to destroy yourself for someone else.
“We’re supposed to be together, Brooke! He’s mine, I’m his. That’s how it’s supposed to go. That’s how the story always goes. We’re good for each other!”
But Brooke’s words were true, and Chloe knew it.
Chloe wasn’t ready to admit that.
Of course, Brooke knew that.
But she would keep waiting for the day Chloe realised that she didn’t need him.
She would keep waiting for the day that Chloe would open her eyes and see what was right in front of her.
Maybe Chloe rejecting her would hurt less than watching Chloe try to hold herself together after every single breakup.
Until then,
Brooke would hold Chloe as she cried, listen to Chloe as she screamed, and watched as they would get back together and destroy themselves all over again.
#lohst.txt#bmc#be more chill#jake dillinger#chloe valentine#rich goranski#brooke lohst#royal pains#richjake#pinkberry#lara stop writing fics in a poetic form challenge#did i proofread this before posting?#nah#i couldnt figure out how i wanted to end the brooke and chloe part#so have whatever this is#jake and chloe mourning their destructive relationship#brooke and rich putting them back together and desperately hoping they will acknowledge how bad they are together#but brooke loves chloe too much and rich loves jake too much so they will go through this over and over and over again#because what else can they do?#this could be.... so much better#but it is 1.15am and i am tired and i needed to just get this out#i would like to say i'll edit it later#but ill probably forget
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You should call him. Really? Heck yeah!
#911#911edit#911 abc#911 on abc#911 on fox#911 fox#911 spoilers#buddie#buddieedit#evan buckley#eddie diaz#oliver stark#ryan guzman#tuserkaz#mystuff#my guys <3#this could not have been a better scene#i loved it so so much#eddie diaz and evan buckley are both angels#1k#5k#10k
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Soup solves everything.
#dungeon meshi#dungeon meshi spoilers#Senshi#izutsumi#chilchuck tims#laios touden#marcille donato#THE SOUP CHAPTER HAS BEEN ANIMATED#I have so many thoughts about senshi's backstory and how much that experience has shaped who he is.#This is such a powerful moment because it makes it clear how *stuck* senshi has been because of his trauma.#Up until now he has been a mystery! He's the chef guy! Don't worry about his apparent reclusiveness from society!#Don't worry about his intense need to make sure 'the young ones are fed'!#Senshi still has a lot of healing but this was the moment he could finally forgive himself.#This chapter is so important to me because sometimes you truly do need to face the most terrifying things to move past them.#This joke here is a bit too narrow to be funny for the masses...but mdzs fans know.#MDZS :handshake: Dungeon Meshi: Soup moment.#Laios and Jiang Yanli have a powerful magic call "Eat some soup and maybe you'll feel better'#That is also a spell you can cast upon yourself. Go eat some soup and you will feel better. Merry Soupmas everyone.#One more week of Thistle Thursdays....I'm not ready to say goodbye B*(
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kabru gave me so much trouble on this dawg I NEED HIM GONE
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Jensen Ackles saw this early script draft and made the choice that Dean would NOT make Cas feel bad for hugging him after the angel thought him dead
In fact, he let Dean be fully embraced by Cas, let him melt into the hug with a soft smile. Dean got to proudly Introduce his angel to Mary without shame or embarrassment, and that’s beautiful
#so often it’s oh man just think of what we could have had or we were robbed#but sometimes we get something so much better than what it could have been#I love when Dean has control of the vessel#supernatural#spn#jacting joices#dean winchester#destiel#castiel#deancas#misha collins#jensen ackles#spn crack#spn scripts#12x01#spn 12x01#profound bond#mary winchester
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beach episode
#undertale#frisk#flowey#toriel#sans#mettaton#asgore#temmie#papyrus#undyne#alphys#alphyne#soriel#<if you want:)#my art#i have wanted to make a summery ut drawing for SO LONG and i finally comitted to it#i was hoping specifically asgore would br a little more readable but looking at him on my phone screen it could be better#im still reallt happy with thid though it was so much fun#smile
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SO IVE BEEN GOIN INSANE SINCE THIS TRAILER DROPPED. JUST. SIMON. SIMON. SIMON.
#simon petrikov#fionna and cake#adventure time#goin insane over him#thers no words to describe how im feelin#i wish i could draw somehtin better but i am goin INSANE#FINALLY. AFTER ALL THESE YEARS. we are being FED.#ALSO?? HOW THEY SHOWED HIM EXACTLY WHEN THE LYRICS GO ''WHATS WRONG WITH ME'. LIKE HELLO???????#ive seen so many good theories PLEASE GOD WRITE FICS I AM BEGGIN I LL DRAW U FANART BLS HEL P#IDK WOT IM GONNA DO FOR A WHOLE MONTH#SOMEONE KNOCK ME OUT TIL THE 31ST. HIBERNATE ME. HELP.#also i need to put it out there the first thing i thought when i saw this trailer was simon is tryina rewrite fionna and cake#which is why their world keeps changin so much? idk idk#ive seen so many different ideas and they are all so good please help#ALSO GOD. THIS MAN IS JUST GOIN THRU IT. AND ITS ONLY BEEN A QUICK TRAILER.#im sorry for so many tags idk where to put these help#maybe i should make an actual blog for like. whatever. n reblogs. help.
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Columbo and the Knight (1984)
put me in the universe where Columbo ran through the 1980s and had a crossover episode with Knight Rider. I think they deserved it, and I am not just saying that because they're my two favorite Old Shows. @telebeast wrote a little fanfic blurb about it and I HAD to visualize it into a comic (which is also the longest comic I have finished thus far at five pages...), so writing credit goes to them.
Autism W!
#columbo#knight rider#art#michael knight#kitt#comic#highlight reel#crossover#telebeast#there are two small easter eggs here. can you find them. they were somehow not Entirely lost when i resized these for the public#this is what i mean when i say I Draw And It's Everyone Else's Problem. look at my INCREDIBLY niche crossover comic boy#if the knight rider fandom has like 12 people in it. how many of y'all have seen columbo#this comic is for like 4 people and me and phoenix are already two of them#niche is my specialty lets be real. weird niche obscure shit and ships nobody's paid attention to yet#not to suggest this is ship art. columbo has his wife and michael has his car lmfao#stylizing real people is EXTREMELY hard btw sorry for when they get off model. its partly a 'better imperfect than never finished' situatio#cant tell you how much i redrew some of these panels. weeps#this took me 2 weeks but i think i thumbnailed it all in may and the ideas been rollin around in my head since march#is anybody good at editing. please edit michael and columbo into an image together like its a screenshot. NOT generated. edited.#it would be so cool#ive drawn columbo a lot but i haven't drawn a lot of michaels. i was learning things about his outfit AS I WAS DOING THE DAMN#COLORS ON THIS. all the lines done. it was too late to change anything. i did all the lines and colored page by page#i realized my mistakes on like page 3. 1 and 2 were already done. it was Too Late.#imagine it though. them working a case together. switching between the more serious tone of columbo vs the goofier#action antics of michael and kitt. columbo being so impressed by Modern Technology. there's more i could say but phoenix may write#more of this crossover and i don't want to spoil it :'3#there's opportunity here though i swear. there's gold to be dug.#i like how kitt gets shading but columbo's junker peugeot doesn't. kitt looked wrong without any. columbo's car is matte and dirty#i also applied effects to this to make it look a little film-grainy and VHS like. some CRT TV vibes#the only question left is. did they put knight rider into columbo; or columbo into knight rider 🤔
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hey if something about your environment or body is bothering you right now & if you’re able to, please take a moment to adjust that thing. turn off the lights if theyre hurting your eyes, grab a pair of socks if you’re cold, move into a better position if you’re in an uncomfortable one.
it’s easy to get stuck in a “this isn’t good but I’ll survive” mindset, especially with executive dysfunction, but you deserve to feel more okay in the spaces & body you’re in.
#posts inspired by me realizing i didnt have to just suffer thru the overhead light being on & i could turn it off & it’s so much better now#0
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Etho base.
Edit: the background to anyone who wants it for some reason
#idk how to tag this#noodleyart#small artist#hermitcraft#hermitcraft fanart#hermitblr#ethoslab#etho fanart#etho#etho tag#hermitcraft etho#hc s10#hc10#I love his base#Also this inspired by Steven universe#Steven universe I love u#Had so much fun in baground that the base was second priority#Could do better but pretty happy w/ this#Yay
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saw some mangy dog on the outskirts of town
#my art#oc#els#werewolf#furry#anthro#illustration#you would not believe the hassle this gave me lmao....i want to do more with it but i have to wipe my hands of it#idk if this looks good but it has to be finished i have to be finished with it#WORD OF ADVICE that allows a small glimpse into the horrible time i've had: PLAN YOUR COMPOSITIONS#GOD. initial drawing of els: 1-2 hours at most. trying to find a composition that doesn't suck: 100000 hours and ongoing#i think my problem is this els looks better zoomed in but finding a way to keep it zoomed in....mission impossible#i love this els face though. i will admit. i had to persevere to get SOMETHING that at least vaguely worked so i could show off this els#okay. okay. anyway it's greengage season again. big ups to greengages for making life just that much brighter#also the owls are goin crazyyy outside my window rn they are speaking and i am listening. in a delirium
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the real reason tmagp is on break 'til april 11th is so sam can observe ramadan without being chased by a murderous clown blob
#tmagp#tmagp s1#tmagp spoilers#the Magnus protocol#if for some islam-related reason this joke doesn't work plz tell me - i was thinking. i would like to see some content#exploring/including sam possibly being muslim considering his name and VAs ethnicity#and what better way to support that than make it myself?#joos yaps#samama#samama khalid#tmagp sam#but i am v much an outsider so lmk if i missed something#tbf. i cannot think of any way this could be somehow misconstrued. but you dont know what you dont know!
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Wait, Tommy's gay?
#911#911edit#911 abc#911 on abc#911 on fox#911 fox#911 spoilers#buddie#buddieedit#evan buckley#eddie diaz#oliver stark#ryan guzman#tuserkaz#mystuff#my guys <3#this could not have been a better scene#i loved it so so much#eddie diaz and evan buckley are both angels#1k#5k
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Happy birthday to the most special girl in the universe!! Wanted to try something ambitious and ended up with the biggest comic I've done to date
#signalis#ariane yeong#elster#overestimating elsters ability to paint so ignore how it looks probably way better than she could have done ok?#myart#i have nothing cool to say here i am so tired. i baked a cake from scratch lol and that took so much out of me...#im old..#im like cycling(hah) thru three diff elster designs bear with me here#elster seems like the type of person to be really good at gifts..kinda feel like u gotta be when ur on the same ship for um like. 15 years
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something about "your anger isn't scary to me" is making me so emotional. something about as above so below, cassandra as a mirror of kristen. something about "I've been dropping the ball a lot lately" and kristen's struggles with adhd. something about teenage girls and rage and fury and justice. something about adaine's vision of ruining fallinel and the sylvaire looking for revenge. something about sadness and doubt and anger and love. something about "I choose to understand" being the absolute core theme of d20 in general. something something.
#something about kristen's adhd making her fuck things up and being mad at herself and that manifesting#as her deity being overcome with rage#something about fear and anger and shame and the inability to do better even when you're trying so hard#and something about people loving you anyway#something about 'your anger isnt scary to me'#as someone who had undiagnosed pcos in early high school and got so fucking MAD#something about adhd and how you're always failing and you have no one to blame but yourself#and how heart breaking it is to watch your life fall apart around you KNOWING you could do something#but being unable to do it right. always forgetting always slipping up#and how mad that makes you. at yourself.#this fight is so much#fhjy#d20#dimension 20#fantasy high
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nami day!! 🧡💐🍊
#one piece#nami#that's incense and mandarin flowers on a big shell in the first drawing in case its not very clear!#(i'm alive!! life got busy again!!#i havent drawn nami nearly enough but i rlly do love her . thank u 4 all u endure .....#tmi: my laptop only has 1 usb port (sadistic) so until now i could only use my drawing tablet OR my mouse OR a hotkey pad#today i finally got a multi usb port (?) and i can use them all at once .... its insane actually .... so much better 4 my wrists#im sure itll boost my productivity- next drawing will be in 2 rather than 4 months .....#oH ALSO the font used here is called 'chiffchaff' and i believe it was inspired by old newspaper fonts ... isnt it so pretty!!
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