#this blog is like a diary time-machine kinda thing

[17lads]

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[asunas-junk-drawer]

welcome 2 my blog !! (>w<) <- (me being a huge poser!!)

new intro cuz old one is hella outdated teehee

╰┈➤ I go by the alias Asuna, and refer to people in my reality (whenever I’m loserposting) by nicknames in order to respect their privacy.,.,

I originally used this blog as an online diary, and would blog whatever happened in my day here as a way to express my feelings. After a while I kinda stopped but I still loser post every once in a while :p (loserposting is what I call my ‘diary entires’ (>//w//<)

╰┈➤ I’m into a variety of things, such as 2000’s fashion and Internet culture from that time, and love the edgy aesthetics that weirdos like too

-,’ Stuff I like!!

Hazbin Hotel, Heathers and Mean Girls.,. Blue Eye Samurai, a handful of VTubers from Nijisanji EN (most notably Vox Akuma :33, and also Luca Kaneshiro and Shxtou, I’m trying to watch other livers though >~<) and hololive, Vocaloid music (Kikuo and Maretu are my fav) and J-Pop (Kyary Pamyu Pamyu, Perfume, Shinsei Kamattechan!!), Attack on Titan, Genshin Impact (except I don’t really play it as much as I do anymore), Little Nightmares, Bendy and the Ink Machine, Poppy Playtime, The Dragon Prince, Godzilland!!! (Huge Godzilla nerd tbh…) and probably more but I’m too lazy to track down all my interests sooo….

╰┈➤ About me:

I am Mexican American, Cupioromantic and Sapphic. I go by she/her or he/him pronouns :3

ALSO HUGE WARNING!!!

I repost smut here and there n can get a bit too comfy on this blog.,. I recommend you don’t follow me n stuff cuz I usually don’t have the energy to actually talk to people lol ><

anyway ty for reading have a nice night/day or whatever :333

╰┈➤ Also listen !!

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[vampykween]

for the ask game!! :3

🖤 - favorite hobbies outside of your blog?

💉- do you have tattoos and/or piercings?

🎵 - favorite artists?

🔥 - craziest thing that’s ever happened to you?

🫐 - some place you’d love to visit?

🖊️ - what character do you not enjoy writing for?

🍀 - what is your comfort show/series and why is it your comfort show? how has it helped you?

🖤 - oh god i am so lame, would be believe i have like no hobbies. i would playing sims is probably the only other thing i really like to do besides write ☻

💉 - i have my ears and nostril pierced. i want to get my septum too but im holding off on that for right now. no tattoos, but that is soon to change ive like a million tattoos i want cooking up in my brain and i finally have the money to get them hehe yassss

🎵 - okay this one is so hard for me cause i listen to so much music i feel like my faves change too much. my go to artists are: sleep token, hozier, chevelle, deftones, melanie martinez, the 1975, florence + the machine, pierce the veil, harry styles, and noah kahan. honestly that doesnt even feel like them all but alas we move on

🔥 - im going to avoid trauma dumping and pick something crazy that didnt happen to me but i witnessed it. so last summer my gf went on vacation with my family and we went to six flags in georgia. we got on this huge rollercoaster and all of a sudden fucking coins start flying at our heads like a lot of coins. we're all ducking and when the ride is finally over my gf goes "omg guys i think something hit me lol" and i turn and look at her and her head is drenched in blood and i start fucking panicking. it was so insane she had to get stitches cause her head was cut wide open, but we did get free tickets. in fact we ended up going to six flags for our anniversary like a month later lmao (way too long of a story omg im sorry)

🫐 - id love to visit scotland or ireland, but in the us i want to visit oregon so badly! i need to be amongst the trees.

🖊️ - honestly i dont think i could ever write for konig, simply because i feel like i could not do him justice like im not about to embarass myself with shitty german translations. i already felt so awkward writing for valeria and i know spanish

🍀 - okay you can laugh at this but my comfort show is ncis. i thought it was so stupid at first but then i started watching and was like wait... i kinda love this. its my comfort show becasue its so predicatble, there's always some crime to get solved and you can just put it on in the background and not have to pay much attention to it. also ofc there is a love story in there between two of the agents and it hits for me every time. if i was 17 and you asked me, vampire diaries would be my comfort show simply because i am obsessed with vampires and romance.

[nachoscheesy]

Tumblr Revival

Tl;dr

Tumblr has a large interconnected community of artists and content creators, and should focus on its strengths and what it does right. Instead of trying to compete for space against Facebook, Instagram, and Twitter. Tumblr should focus on empowering its community and giving that community the tools to develop the site's unparalleled uniqueness.

Tumblr is the crossroads of the internet, with a monthly user traffic of 300 million it is the perfect space for artists, content creators, and small businesses to grow their following without having to fight for a seat at the table against companies with huge budgets.

Hi, I go by Nacho here on tumblr, and I'm sure as many of us on tumblr have noticed, the (hell)site is kinda going downhill. Tumblr was bought by Automattic in fall of 2019, and I am sure they have the best intentions to help tumblr stay afloat. However, I think it's time the community took a more deliberate approach to how tumblr is handled, and hopefully Automattic and @staff will hear us out. I think I have a solid solution to tumblrs money issues, that will help both the site and empower its online communities.

First and foremost, I am not involved with Tumblr or Automattic. I am just a simple blog trying to help out a place that I've been on since 2010, and I would hate to see it die here around 2023.

So, let's get to the root of the problem on tumblr right now. That being money, tumblr is currently costing more money that it produces, as we've seen with its 97% drop in value from 1.1 billion dollar sale to being sold at around 3 million dollars.

So the first thing that must be improved before anything else can be improved on tumblr is how much money they're bringing in a month. I don't think folks on tumblr hate monetization as much as we all collectively say we do, I think the issue is that most advertisers are completely disconnected from the groups they are trying to advertise to on here. Tumblr comprises roughly 65% millennials and 30% gen-z, the two generations that advertisers seem to have the hardest time advertising to for a myriad of reasons. The main one being that they don't fully understand what we want, and sometimes just don't listen to what we are saying.

Lets look at how tumblr makes its money, Tumblr has four main revenue sources,

Ads by sponsored posts

Display ads through video posts

Sponsored Day ads or banner ads

“Premium Themes”

I'll go into depth on all of these and how tumblr could make potential changes to improve their revenue anywhere from three to six months after it implements some or ideally all of these changes.

First tumblr ads and sponsored posts, these changes are going to be contingent on tumblr allowing its users to share, like, and comment on ads much like all other media sites currently allow. Or at least giving advertisers the ability to turn that on or off as a function.

The average tumblr post gets reblogged 14 times, that number increases significantly if the ad is engaging and actually caters to the communities wants and needs. My reasoning for giving users the ability to reblog ads is to increase user engagement while maintaining their current ad vetting process and all of the nonsensical ads that are run on tumblr 90% of the time.

The other reason for allowing tumblr users to share and comment on ads, or have it be an option for advertisers to turn on or off as they'd like, is that the appeal of tumblr is the ability to propagate and obsess over the most niche things (i.e OSHA.)

All the while allowing content that gets shared all over the internet bubble up to the top through the collective hand of the tumblr community. Along with this tumblr has no way for small users to share their own products or services, every single major site has a way for users to advertise their pages or products through the site.

Tumblr is a content machine that creates imagery and memes that get shared all the time across the internet, so the ability to share and curate its own ads is paramount to improving advertising and user engagement on tumblr.

My proposal here is for tumblr to expand its advertising capabilities to all users, while charging a flat rate fee to advertise on tumblr, with additional charges for popular tags or trending tags. Tumblr currently has no self service advertising system much like Facebook does for example. Where facebook charges a daily rate on cost-per-click(CPC) or cost-per-thousand(CPM)

Charging a flat rate fee at a rate of a day, week, month, or quarterly basis with variances in prices based on the lease term and what the advertisers would want to have their ads show up on certain tags. This would open up the doors for small businesses that don't want to advertise on places like facebook, twitter, or google with their complicated CPM and CPC models. Also bringing in more small locally owned businesses with the added value of less competition for ad space on tumblr.

This would also take some of the weight from tumblrs own advertising staff from having to explain a convoluted system to potential advertisers. Creating a simplified model with the the advent of tumblrs own infrastructure able to get a single post to a large variety of users. Where the current ad model uses a “shotgun” method to hit as many people as possible, the tumblr model could encourage advertisers to curate a more personalized and intimate experience that tumblr users would love.

Why not just advertise elsewhere? Tumblr still in fact gets over 300 million views a month as of June 2021 (Statosta), and the added benefit for users to be able to like, share, and interact with ads would allow ads that the community enjoys to be talked about more. Giving advertisers more honest feedback about their ads while increasing their SEO’s.

Also small businesses that can't compete with the vetting processes that are used on other sites, would have a better chance of developing their business and increasing their clientele on tumblr whose core demographics are approximately 60% millennial and 35% gen-z. This core demographic does in fact care about being able to shop at local stores, or even a store across the US that is trying to drum up its own online sales.

These ads could be placed inline on the tumblr dash while moving other sponsored ads to the right of the site on desktop, but making them alternate on mobile between user ads and sponsored ads.

Second, the display ads should be changed to allow tumblr users to share and further interact with ads to generate more user engagement, incentivizing more businesses and companies to build their brand status on tumblr. Tumblr has a good model for creating short diaries or daily vlogs for companies that wish to show off their products on social media. This includes smaller businesses and vlogers that want to post videos or tutorials of themselves on their blog.

Tumblr is a good site for user engagement with a pool of creative potential for anyone wanting to gauge the desire for a particular subject or piece of media, maybe even an upcoming show. Having the ability to share and comment on sponsored ads would also help advertisers by allowing them to get more bang for their buck with a considerable uptick on how users engage with that content.

Third, tumblrs sponsor day ads and banner ads are inexpensive and should be highlighted as a selling point over their competitors. Tumblr 24-hour banner ads are considerably more affordable for businesses when compared to places like twitter with their 200k price point. For the same amount of money on tumblr a business could have their company at the top of the dashboard or app for 8 whole days. Much longer and much better than the competition.

Keeping this price fixed, with a change in the price CPC is still a much more lucrative and attractive selling point than any of the competition on the internet today. I know this might not be exactly what tumblr wants to hear when it is hemorrhaging money right now, but let's look at the cost for these 24 hour daily ads and banner ads. If tumblr hypes up the price point on these ads they could see a significant rise in advertisers considering the lack of competition on tumblr and past success stories of companies who did advertise on tumblr.

At the same time larger advertisers should be encouraged to make engaging ads and blogs on tumblr that will make people want to actually go to their blogs, that then link to an external site or page. Not ads that instantly try to force you to go to some other site, by rewarding or offering special discounts for people who find a special code or something off of the actual blog. Or even for giving the same code to everyone who reblogs a certain post made by the advertiser.

Seems too good to be true? Look at “Asos” back in 2015 when they held a shirt design competition on their tumblr blog. Where they had 900 submissions, four of which were picked, and were sold out of the user generated shirts in 10 hours.

This is not the only case however, but FX ran their own campaign for the show “Man Seeking Woman” where they saw a 2.8% increase in user engagement, 86% increase in their tumblr followers, and they actually saved money through advertising on tumblr.

All this leads me to believe that tumblr actually was and continues to be the best place for brands, small businesses, and artists to develop themselves through genuine user engagement.

Finally, the “premium themes” that are available on tumblr that allow for unparalleled customizations that you hardly find elsewhere on the internet anymore. Tumblrs ability to take a variety of media sources, as well as having an unparalleled level of customization, user interconnectivity, and a vibrant artistic scene shows that it is ripe with potential.

Tumblr could still use its post+ feature, but in the same way that Discord uses its subscription service. For cosmetic changes that can be added modularly to the site or individual blogs for an additional monthly fee. In conjunction with partnering with community artists to bring small cosmetic additions to individual blogs, while paying the content creator and tumblr taking a small portion of the profits over a certain amount.

To be completely honest this is probably the hardest portion of this entire pitch to make changes to in a shorter period of time, considering all the testing and “under the hood” changes that must be made. However, I think that implementing this as well as the other changes I have proposed will bring back more foot traffic to tumblr as well as increase its revenue and profitability.

In closing, I am simply working with whatever information I was able to find online and a good amount of time invested on my part to do this. I think tumblr has a ton of potential still to return as a force for good for the communities that exist and want a change from what the internet has become. Time and time again when any company or public entity dies it was because it did not change and refused to adapt and innovate, oftentimes not at the hands of the people working everyday to keep the site running. Instead at the hands of people who dont see the value in what has fallen in their laps.

If you agree and think this is something that can be done, please reblog this post and follow me for more updates. If I don't hear back or this does not gain any traction by the end of the year, then tumblr can go to its inevitable end. I will be here sinking with the ship.

@support @engineering @music @wip @changes @photomatt

[jordynhaiku]

Hey there!

I really love your writings ❤❤

Can u pls gimme some tips tht helped u improve?

(I am actually goin thru a kinda block 😭 but mostly I am lazy n cant get off the phone 😭😭😭. I hv a tonne of ideas but written none or very few... idk wt to do😪 )

And, who are your favorite writers and artists?

Hi!!

Thanks so much for the compliment, it really made my day!!

In terms of tips to get you out of a block -

Try writing in an unfamiliar form. Sometimes a more exact and restricting form forces you to find creative ways to write. For example the haiku forces me to find new words to try and fit the big ideas I have into the limited syllable structure

I like to write a lot of my poems in second person (??probably not the right term) as if directed to whoever I'm writing about. This gives the poem a sense of intimacy that really involves the reader. I don't know if this is a tip as much as it is just my style.

Also read as much as you can to find what you like and don't like. Personally I prefer when things are short and sweet - book chapters, poetry, etc - so I also write short form poetry. Also listen out for great lyrics when listening to music. (My poetry is often inspired by bands like: The Wonder Years, Death Cab For Cutie, Neck Deep, Bright Eyes, Modest Mouse, Mayday Parade, Florence + The Machine, etc)

And to answer the question about my favourite writers - I know its a bit cheesy to say but I really love Tumblr poetry. I love the informality of it and the community around it. I'll finish this post by tagging some of my favourite blogs, I'm sure some of these writers are sure to live on to become classics.

@bcmaxwell @think-through-pen @robynshaikucorner @most-ment @poppiesandpromises @vixen1012 @betterthannonfiction @songofsutarima @somebodyssongbird @agathokakologicalstuff @timeflieslikeabanana @anjo-umbra @safeshadows @novinablog @luiethepoet @rsaveragewriting @the-stars-collided @the-random-girl-diaries @voidic3ntity (if I could tag literally everyone I would but I'm short on time so sorry if I didn't get to you)

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𝕲𝖔𝖙𝖍𝖎𝖈 𝕱𝖔𝖓𝖙 𝕲𝖊𝖓𝖊𝖗𝖆𝖙𝖔𝖗 was used for some of the font on this post.

The dividers mostly came from The Horror Gif Necronomicon.

Personal thinky blog posts are under the tag slipmoth's thoughts

DNI's: none... anyone's welcome here until you prove yourself otherwise, or I just decide that I don't like you.

@bonesinthebath is my lovely boyfriend (he doesn't know anything about Tumblr bless him)

Be warned: there'll probably be flashing images, careless comments, and somewhat sensitve content on this blog.

𝕱𝖆𝖛𝖔𝖚𝖗𝖎𝖙𝖊 𝖒𝖚𝖘𝖎𝖈: Slipknot, My Chemical Romance, Kittie, Mötley Crüe, Murderdolls, Megadeth, Hole, Avril Lavigne, anything by Frank Iero, Marilyn Manson, Florence + The Machine, Lana Del Rey, Get Scared, The Used, FOB

𝕱𝖆𝖛𝖔𝖚𝖗𝖎𝖙𝖊 𝖒𝖔𝖛𝖎𝖊𝖘: Star Wars (I-VI), The Craft, and anything with Johnny Depp in it; Tim Burton; too many others to list...

𝖁𝖎𝖉𝖊𝖔 𝖌𝖆𝖒𝖊𝖘: Halo, Skyrim (TES), COD, SSO

𝕱𝖆𝖛 𝖕𝖔𝖉𝖈𝖆𝖘𝖙: Welcome To Night Vale

𝖙𝖛 𝖘𝖍𝖔𝖜𝖘: The Vampire Diaries, Silent Witness, Once Upon A Time, Stranger Things, Wednesday

𝕮𝖚𝖗𝖗𝖊𝖓𝖙𝖑𝖞 𝖗𝖊𝖆𝖉𝖎𝖓𝖌: The Vampire Diaries

I also casually practice witchcraft and I write poetry- take a look

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[peace-coast-island]

Diary of a Junebug

Riding carriages around the camp

For arts and crafts week we've been building carriages and testing them out. Edie, Jamila, Easton, and Anissa have come to visit the camp and help us build these fun rides. So not only we get to build a bunch of cool stuff, we also have a new appreciation for the beautiful scenery - an unexpected but super sweet bonus!

It's so good to see Edie and the others again after so long. The trip is kinda a big deal for Anissa as it's not easy for her to travel. Edie and Jamila reached out to me a few months ago to plan this outing, leaving things as open as possible in case something happens with Anissa.

The building carriages event was something separate that was kinda a spontaneous thing that happened to line up perfectly with the visit. Jamila and Edie love working on big projects together while Easton and Anissa help out so they were excited when I told them about arts and crafts week. Also, riding the carriages was a good way to get around the camp as well as explore outside the usual hangout spots.

I was (still am) surprised when Jamila messaged me and wanted to take Anissa out here. Out of all the places she could have gone, Anissa instead chose the camp. She had once told Jamila that she'd wanted to visit the camp someday and that they probably would've done it by now if it wasn't for her. That conversation stuck with Jamila for a long time and when things took a turn for Anissa, Jamila, Edie, and Easton wanted to make the most out of the time they have left with her.

Edie has been friends with Anissa and Jamila since they for as long as they can remember. During the summer the twins would join the Sperry family on their yearly trip to Edie's grandma's farm, which holds many of their favorite childhood memories. During the school year Edie was a frequent guest at the Amine household and the three would play together for hours, letting their imagination run wild. There, Edie was allowed to be carefree and not have to deal with constant criticism from her father.

As Edie got older, she became part of the Amine family. She and Anissa were often in the same class so they stuck together a lot. Jamila didn't mind being the third wheel as she was happy to be doing her own thing at home while the other two often went out and about. Even though it didn't look like it to the grown ups, Jamila never felt like she was left behind.

Then Easton came along and he too became an honorary member of the Amine family. The girls were ten when he was born, the youngest and only son in the Sperry family. Easton was born missing half his left leg so he wears a prosthetic and other than his father, everyone else treats him like normal. Out of all the siblings, he's the closest to Edie, always tagging along with her.

For a while every day was pretty much the same. Edie, Anissa, and Jamila would walk home from school, sometimes stopping by the Sperry house to bring Easton along if Edie's mom had her hands full. The three would do their homework while the twins's mom watched over Easton. Then Edie and Anissa would usually be playing on the tire swing while Jamila knitted on the porch and played with Easton. Sometimes Edie would bring her banjo along and played some songs while the twins sang along, a highlight during summer nights at the farm.

Their favorite thing to do together was playing pretend in the attic because everyone had something to do, even Easton. The girls would often pretend to be accomplished women with successful lives full of adventure. Anissa was the one with the most creative imagination, often making up funny stories that would leave the others rolling on the floor with laughter. She was great at improvising with Easton, who was happy to join in on the fun.

When the girls were twelve, Anissa's life changed forever. The girls were playing pretend as usual when Anissa complained about a headache that quickly grew worse. She was rushed to the hospital and in Jamila's words, that was the last time she and Edie saw the old Anissa. A blood vessel had burst in Anissa's brain, resulting in a stroke that left Anissa comatose for several days.

While the damage from the stroke was not as extensive as initially feared, Anissa was no longer the same. Edie and Jamila were determined to bring back the old Anissa, only to be disappointed when they got their hopes up too high. Anissa was still set on marching to the beat of her own drum, trying to prove her independence whenever she could, which further convinced Jamila and Edie that she was going to make a full recovery. It took a long time for the girls to accept that things would never go back to normal.

The whole ordeal made Edie and Jamila closer than ever. Edie would help the family care for Anissa and in turn lift Anissa's spirits up. When Anissa got stronger, Edie would bring Easton along and he too provided some much needed sunshine during a difficult time.  Edie's mom and sisters helped out a lot as well, making sure that the Amines were doing all right.

Edie, Jamila, and Anissa have always been a tight knit group. Although Anissa was made strides in her recovery, the effects of the stroke still linger. Jamila and Edie became Anissa's caretakers when the three moved in together, living about twenty minutes away from their old neighborhood. Both families agreed that it was good to give Anissa some degree of independence as by then she could take care of herself for most part and didn't need constant supervision.

In recent years, various complications arose, which was expected but that didn't make it any easier. Anissa was well known at the hospital as she was a miracle. She beat the odds not only by surviving but also by living. What happened to her was rare - her doctor told that in the hospital's two hundred year history, only three other kids suffered from the same condition. One died on the way to the hospital, another slipped into a coma and never woke up, and one lived for two years before suffering from another stroke. No matter what happens, at least one thing's certain - Anissa always marches to the beat of her own drum.

Anissa for the most part managed to live a somewhat independent life. She got her GED, was able to relearn various skills like playing the piano, reading, and cooking, - all which she documented on her blog: Searching for Anissa.

When I started making plans with Jamila and Edie, I later found myself re-reading Searching for Anissa. Reading the stories of the girls, from the recollections of simpler days in the farm to the struggles of everyday life - it's such a fascinating read. The blog's more like a memoir that's a work in progress with Anissa writing her thoughts out and Jamila and Edie contributing by filling in some of the gaps and sharing their own memories.

The blog hasn't been updating regularly for a couple years because life's been getting in the way. But this year Anissa's hoping to post something at least once a week as she wants to keep writing while she still can. In the past year she's had two mini strokes so her hands don't work as well anymore, making it difficult for her to do a lot of things. While she's sad that she can't type anymore, Anissa found it therapeutic to say her thoughts out loud as it helped her accept what lies ahead for her. In turn, her blog posts have been a lot more free flowing as she contemplates her uncertain future.

For now everyone's doing their best to make sure Anissa's comfortable. She's been doing well physically so that's good. Good thing we have carriages so Anissa can explore the camp and enjoy the scenery. Also, Jamila, Edie, and Easton had a lot of fun building the carriage as well as taking it out for a spin at Breezy Hollow.

At times it seemed like the camp was being taken over by carriages. We even managed to make a train by attaching a bunch of carriages together, which was a really fun way to travel! First, we visited the meadow where Jamila knitted a blanket and Edie took out her banjo. Since the weather was a bit chilly I wasn't sure how long we were gonna stay there but thanks to Jamila's blanket, we ended up hanging around for a while.

Then we went down the trail by the mountains, which went surprisingly smoothly as the carriages went by with little difficulty. At the forest we split up into two groups with Daisy Jane, Edie, and Easton going for a short hike in the mountains while I stayed with the twins. Anissa admired the scenery, taking in the sights, sounds, and textures around her while Jamila began knitting another blanket, creating intricate patterns with ease.

Something about the way Jamila knits makes me want to grab some yarn and needles and join her - which is why Edie and Easton have picked up the hobby too. I think it's because she makes it look so inviting, like a fun bonding activity if you want to spend some quality one on one time with someone. The way she knits - on one hand it's like she's a machine because of how much she's able to do in a short time, but on the other hand she totally gives off the vibe of someone who shows appreciation through thoughtful, handmade gifts that she puts her heart and soul into.

After that we passed through Shovelstrike Quarry, OK Motors, and Lost Lure Creek. At Saltwater Shores we hung out at the beach and set up a barbecue. It was too cold to go swimming but we sorta went boating with a carriage built by Whitney and Rolf that can travel on water. The barbecue was a good way to keep warm as it got pretty cold around midday.

Daisy Jane and I cuddled up in our new blankets that Jamila surprised us with. I swear, her hands are like magic when it comes to knitting! While she started another knitting project, Anissa and Easton took a walk down the beach and Edie played her banjo. Later the others joined us by the fire pit for a fun singalong and impromptu concert.

We were planning to head back to the main camp when Anissa said she was feeling up to seeing more of the camp. Since the day was still young and the weather was warming up a bit, we decided to head to Sunburst Island. Anissa got to sit back and enjoy the sunshine while the rest of us harvested coconuts and went bug catching.

Around evening we headed back to the camp, where the campers set up a bonfire to warm things up. Whitney, Goldie, and Rolf went foraging in the forest while testing out their carriages so they found a lot of tea leaves that were perfect for a chilly night like this. After a busy day of riding carriages around the camp, it was nice to cozy up in front of the fire with a warm cup of tea.

Tomorrow will be more of the same - testing out more carriages and exploring different parts of the camp. Thankfully the weather's gonna be much warmer so that gives us even more of an excuse to go sightseeing!

[whats-the-story-tc]

JULY TC CHALLENGE

To show you how very not dead I am, here are all my answers! Challenge made by @baeby-tc who is an amazing asset to the community and I'm so glad she's here

1. Describe your TC's physical appearance.

Well, she looks like me.

What do I look like? Her.

2. What was the first thing you've ever said to your TC?

Probably "yes" or "here" as I vaguely remember her taking attendance roll the first time I met her as a substitute.

3. Is your TC single or taken? Or are you unsure? And are you single or taken?

She's taken, I'm single with no real need to mingle rn.

4. Is your TC more of the athletic type, the nerdy type or the artsy type?

All three, somehow. She's incredibly athletic, a huge ass nerd, and a tiny bit artsy, though I don't think I've seen her draw, but I know she sometimes crafts things.

5. If you and your TC were in high school together, do you think you'd be friends?

Most likely. Though I think we'd be constantly pitted against each other, what with our similar strengths, and those are prone to ruin relationships, but... sure. I think so.

6. Name one song that reminds you of your TC and explain why that song reminds you of them.

Oof. What the Water Gave Me by Florence + The Machine. Back in like January-March, when I was probably most head-over-heels for her, I listened to it all the time.

7. Is your TC fashionable or are they more of the simple type? What is one outfit you'd love to see them wear?

Smart casual, I'd say, with a hint of geek. And I'd really love to see her in dresses more often. She kills it.

8. Would you be willing to become a teacher and teach your TC's subject if it meant you two could be together?

I'd do it without her, because if it wasn't for theatre, I'd probably go into literature, but... yeah. Sure. I'm all for confusing students which one of us is which.

9. Does your TC drink or smoke?

Oh, she drinks. I have a feeling the stories she shares with us are the mild ones.

10. Name one item that is always on your TC's desk.

Her bag. She comes in and throws her tote bag on the teachers' desk, first thing. But if we mean the one in the teachers' lounge, where all her stuff is... the stuffed fox on the cabinet next to the desk.

11. Has your TC ever done anything that has either thrown you off, annoyed you, angered you or bothered you in any way? If so, what did they do?

Oh, she has. Half of it you know. There's one I don't think I've told you about, though, from October of 2018, one month into us knowing each other. I got into an argument with Cynical Twat in class, and V jokingly asked "Are you two dating?" to which I very loudly responded "WITH HIM?". I was super embarrassed about it, and for about two weeks, I was really angry with V and looked for any chance to get back at her for it. Then I just... forgave her, over time, like nothing ever happened.

12. Does your TC have any past jobs that you know of, before becoming a teacher?

Nothing I know of that wasn't teaching.

13. Does your TC have kids or siblings? If so, how many?

I think she might have a sibling. She mentioned it to me once, but I'm not entirely sure.

14. Are you taking your TC's class next year?

If V remains my English teacher next year, which is more than probable, we'll be meeting even more often, four classes a week instead of three, plus one English extracurricular which I'm taking because of my pre-graduation exams, so that's... five classes weekly with V. If she stays, you guys will be spoiled.

15. Has your TC ever met your parents? If you were there, what was the meeting like?

She has seen both of them, and both have seen her, but I don't think either parties remember each other. With my mum was when we briefly met V in a shopping mall in December of 2018, and with my dad in June of 2019 at school. I remember telling both of them "that was my literature teacher", but I don't think they'd recognise her face.

16. Has your TC ever given you detention? If so, what was it like?

Ain't no detention where I'm from, oop----

17. Has your TC ever failed you? If so, how did you react? If not, how would you react?

As in, fail me from English? Bitch, I feel bad if I get a B in her class, if she failed me I'd probably move to Peru or some shit-----

18. What are your TC's hobbies/interests? Are they similar to yours?

Well, we're alike in liking books and watching shows, but she's also a gamer and likes cooking.

19. Have you ever spoken on the phone with your TC? What did you talk about?

Nope, haven't had the chance.

20. If you had your TC's class during quarantine, what were your Zoom calls like? If not, have you spoken to your TC since quarantine?

I did have her class, though they weren't on Zoom, and as you could probably see from my posts, they were a fucking rollercoaster.

21. If you had the chance to go anywhere in the world with your TC, where would you go? What would you do?

I have a favourite park in my city, one that's always really calm and has this insanely magical athmosphere. I'd probably take her there and just... talk. It wouldn't have to be a confession kinda conversation, not at all, just... just us, having time and talking because we can and we want to, about absolutely anything.

22. Does your TC have any nicknames for you?

No specifics for me, but she has called me something that best translates to babygirl/babydoll on two occasions, both of which you can read about below.

23. Have you ever cried in front of your TC? Why? How did they react?

January 24th is all I'm saying.

24. Have you ever walked/drove to/from school with your TC?

Nope :c

25. Do you know which teachers your TC is friends with at school? If so, do you like those teachers?

She doesn't really have friends, per say. She's friendly with her colleagues (my homeroom teacher, for example) and can be seen talking to them, but I don't think she's actually friends with any of them.

26. Why does your TC's voice sound like?

Why? Probably because she's speaking?

All jokes aside — soothing. My next story post is gonna prove that.

27. Do you like your TC as a teacher? Are they a good teacher?

She's bloody fantastic at her job. One of the best I've ever had, and this is not just my bias speaking. The woman scored herself an in-school award for teachers THE YEAR SHE CAME HERE. Believe me when I tell you: she's that good.

28. Does your TC prefer books, shows or movies?

Knowing her, probably books.

29. Is your TC stern or easy going in class?

A bit of both. What she needs to be in that given moment.

30. How would you describe you and your TC's relationship?

Close. Sometimes we get along like a house on fire, other times we don't at all seem to understand each other, but even so, I'd say we're close. And I don't mean to be assuming shit here, but I think we both mean a lot to each other, though on vastly different levels.

31. Do you address your TC by their first or last name?

- Miss, when I'm addressing her directly

- Miss [Last name], when I'm talking about her to other teachers or adults, like my parents or my psychologist

- Last name, when I'm talking about her to my classmates

- First name, when I'm talking about her to my friends

- V, here on the blog

- Either one of the many nicknames I have for her, in my diary

This was a lot of fun to do! If you guys find the time, go ahead and do it yourselves~

~ S ♡

[dansiere]

FIVE SONGS

list five songs associated with your muse and its meaning to them as a character, or to you as the writer. this can be applied in-character or out-of-character. it can go as deep as looking at the song’s real-world origins or meaning along with the themes it carries to the muses’ story, values, or experiences, or as simple as if your muse would listen to this kind of music, or even if you just listen to these pieces for inspiration.

TAGGED BY: @handspoken, who kinda hates me? Just kidding I love you okay. TAGGING: @rosiqe, @citialiin, @absolutia, @huntershowl, @blossomingbeelzebug, @foxcharmed, @noirtux, @hiskniight, @ndeavor, @kissafist, @ahsterism (muse of your choice!), @carvedbones, @enshijou & @ettards. -- steal it, honestly. It is a great meme.

01. Both Sides Now - Joni Mitchell Moons and Junes and ferries wheels, the dizzy dancing way that you feel as every fairy tale comes real. I've looked at love that way. 

I have probably talked about this song so often already but BOY where do I start? I was watching “Love Actually” & Both Sides Now started playing; it’s the scene where Karen (Emma Thompson) almost breaks down & cries while realizing that her relationship is a farce, that she has been foolish & blind & delusional. It continues with her doing her absolute best to calm herself down, to not collapse but function instead; she pretends she is fine, fearing that she might ruin her family’s Christmas party otherwise. It’s a raw, emotional scene unfolding itself while Joni sings about how she came to realize that everything has two sides; the very thing we dream off, aka we imagine / how we wish things are & the harsh reality. No song could ever express Pearl’s delusion with life & love [but also realizing one’s naivity] better than this one; the aspect of pretending that she is fine in order to not ruin her family’s lives with her agony fits excruciatingly well too. -- in fact, the stanza “I have looked at love from both sides now, from give and take & still somehow it’s love’s illusions that I recall. I really don’t know love at all” has been my blog description for months & I won’t change it any time soon. Additionally, this song is about growth & personal change sung with a certain candidness that words can’t really describe  -- this song single-handedly inspired me to create this blog, ngl.

02. Dernière Danse - Indila Oh my sweet torment, no point in fighting, you start again. I'm just a worthless being, without [her] I'm troubled. I wander around alone on the subway, a last dance: To forget my great misery. I want to get away, everything to start again.

Number two on my list is a bit of an oddity; it is the song that inspired me to change my URL & bottom header quote. I have always related this song to Pearl basically because it SOUNDS cheerful, has a more upbeat melody & seems positive enough on the outside; however, upon looking at the lyrics & understanding what the artist actually sings about you may or may not get chills. It’s literally a song about losing oneself, misery & the horrid feeling of loneliness after loss all wrapped up in some funky & cheery melody. It seems rather SURREAL at first & upon translating the lyrics you might believe Google is messing with you but... no. The cheery intro fools you, just how Pearl fools everyone in believing that she is a-okay. -- the song grows more & more serious / dramatic with the melody / beat becoming “heavier” over time. While still rather peppy, you can tell that something is wrong the second the background choir kicks in. -- needless to say, I consider the lyrics to be a reference to Pearl’s extreme directionlessness, her lack of purpose, severe lethargy & how she lost herself in her misery.

03. Dark Paradise - Lana Del Rey And there's no remedy for memory your face Is like a melody, it won't leave my head. Your soul is hunting me and telling me That everything is fine, but I wish I was dead.

At first, I wanted to use this meme as an excuse to gush on & on about It’s Over, isn't it? but then I remembered that Dark Paradise is a thing. Lana Del Rey simply had to be on here due to her habit of utterly & completely romanticizing tragic romance & death to an almost unhealthy degree. Pearl is guilty of the same issue. -- glorifying things you should absolutely not glorify. Dark Paradise deals with the loss of true love & the trauma that follows; not being able to move on, not being able to let go, blind devotion, stuck in the same grief, the same melancholy, the same subtle craving for death (through drowning). It’s haunting really, but these are topics that not only fit Pearl aesthetically but also motif wise. The largest part of her season 1 - 3 arc dealt with her grief over losing Rose & her inability to overcome her trauma in that regard. Dark Paradise strikes that nerve & expresses that despair rather accurately. 

04. Blinding - Florence and the Machine And I could hear the thunder and see the lightning crack All around the world was waking, I never could go back Cause all the walls of dreaming, they were torn wide open And finally it seemed that the spell was broken.

I wanted to add a song that might describe Pearl’s mentality more; something from Sleeping At Last, Aurora or Sia maybe, but given how I have been gushing about Florence & the Machine lately, I felt like I had to include them because of their extreme Pearl-esque aesthetic alone. Blinding is massive. It shakes you to the core & drags you along, whenever you want it or not. Its heavy percussion & lyrics, the REALIZATION hit you like a truck; I have always associated this song with the moment Pearl realizes who she is. May it be before the war or after "Now We Are Only Falling Apart". It has a revolutionary feeling to it: she wakes up from her Homeworld induced trance & breaks her conditioning, she wakes up from her lethargy & takes a stand for herself. It works either way, really. 

05. The Fantasy - 30 Seconds to Mars Do you live, do you die, do you bleed for the fantasy? In your mind, through your eyes, do you see? It's the fantasy Maybe, tonight we can forget about it all: it could be, just, like heaven. I am a machine: no longer living, just a shell of what I dreamed.

I needed a renegade song; something fast & aggressive; this one had the perfect vibe. The Fantasy it is loud, emotional, gritty & chaotic; it’s fast-paced, it’s desperate. It opposes all Past Pearl is supposed to stand for. It builds up, it swells, grows more & more apoplectic over time. -- “Dying for the fantasy” is another big motif on this blog; in fact, her dream / fantasy controls most of her early life to the point where it becomes an obsession. -- this song embodies the very compulsive drive she had, once. Reaching for a Golden Future that eventually turns out to be “just a shell of what she dreamt”; the fairytale that almost cost her her life in the end.

06. Honourable Mentions songs I need to list somewhere or I will burst.

Running Up that Hill - Kate Bush, Eight & Three - Sleeping At Last, Falling Infinite & Strangelove - Black Math, Everything I wanted - Billie Eilish, Send in the Clowns - Barbra Streisand, Bird Set Free - Sia, God is a Woman (cover) & Infections of a Different Kind - Aurora, Love is a Battlefield - Pat Benata,  Beautiful Lie - 30 Seconds to Mars, Love Lockdown (Cover) & Pork Soda - Glass Animals,  One Match & Romeo - Until the Ribbon Breaks, Over the Love & Hardest of Hearts - Florence & the Machine, Beautiful Crime - Tamer, Truth Is a Beautiful Thing - London Grammar, Diary of Jane - Breaking Benjamin, Do I Wanna Know? - Arctic Monkeys, Far too Young to Die - Panic!At the Disco, Cut the Cord - Shinedown, The War - SYML  & Reborn - Talos.

[marypickfords]

Tell us about some things you enjoy, anything from dishes to books to movies or maybe just a flower! You said you were bored of people asking for recs

slkdmsklf it’s okay anon, it’s just that i’ve long noticed i don’t really get the same kinds of q’s as others and it’s mainly people asking me for help on looking for a movie (which is fine) or for recommendations (also fine but i’m v burned out and there are only so many times i can list the same movies since i don’t even watch that many yk!). i do like helping, but i’ve done it all at this point, i have a page on my blog with links to the places i use to dl movies and i still get asks about it often, whenever people ask me for a movie i use those sites and more often than not the movie is there, you know? it kinda is my job to do this stuff (i am a librarian after all) and like i said i’m into it, i love researching and all, but sometimes it just feels like i’m here to give people stuff and not just share content i’m consuming and enjoy lkfmskf and like atm i’m not even getting bad comments or anything but there are times when i’ll get a lot of ‘i love your content but i dont like you’ and it’s.. okay?? am i here to just give my followers a bunch of movies that have my seal of approval (whatever tf that means) and not just be a person who likes movies sharing what she’s into? kinda sucks. but i know it’s not just me, this happens to a lot of ppl online. i just hate the idea that allegedly all i do online is mine content for others, that is not at all what i want lskfmsk i’m just doing what i enjoy and putting it out there as a reminder of what i’ve seen and when and also bc a lot of this stuff doesn’t get the same treatment as other movies so i like sharing them to an audience that otherwise probably wouldn’t even hear of them.. but it’s not a matter of being a content machine, i hate that idea.. like my twitter is a personal diary/scrapbook at this point and i still get ppl following me just for when i occasionally post a screencap ksfmsl it’s just, why omg.. follow an acc that is for movies only or something!! sflskfm :|

[lovel-y]

Tag Yourself: WINX CLUB edition✨🧚‍♀️

💙 🔥 Bloom 🦋 🐇 : takes the subway to school; law student; has a lion heart; wears two scrunchies on their wrist; hot tea; tries their best; always fighting for her friends’ causes; wide-eyed; feels guilty a lot; messy hair; loves adventure; has a bad temper if you cross them; homesick; ed sheeran’s biggest fan; also listens to shawn mendes and now united; loves photography; giving their whole heart to someone; instinctive choices; post it note reminders; new year new me; learning to accept your flaws and be free; jeans; customized T-shirts

💚 🌸 Flora🍃🍑 : wears braids and flowers in their hair; lives in a cottage; bakes bread and cookies; fairy lights; watches pride and prejudice at least once a week; cures everything with tea or essential oils; pressed flowers everywhere; listens to hozier, roo panes and florence and the machine; wakes up early; dances in the sunlight; big juicy peaches; will knit you a scarf if they like you (probably will); literature student; writes poems on every piece of paper; summer dresses; ancient world lover; lots of lace; farmers markets

🐬 🐚 Aisha 🌊 💚: can’t live away from the sea; activist; loves jack johnson, ben harper and big mountain; goes everywhere by bike; drinks lemonade by the sea; vegan; practices yoga every morning; oceanography student; body goals; will invite you to go hiking no matter the weather; road trips; cargo pants; sketches strangers on the streets; the moon reflecting on the sea; cool tattoos; old films; mermaid hair

🤳  📱 Tecna 🎮 💜: black coffee; rainy days; up all night; dreams of going to Tokyo; heart to heart over DM’s: has the answer for basically everything; listens to imagine dragons, queen and lana del rey; loyal friend; cried when got their MIT acceptance letter; science is bae; comfortable outfits; always hungry; sarcasm gang; tags you in memes; the glow of city lights; plans everything; smells like lavender; changes their hair every two months; arcade dates

💄 👸 Stella ☀️ 💍: mini skirts and a big heart; carries lipstick wherever they go; reads Vogue for breakfast; always speaks their mind; fashion design student; owns a blog; impulsive decisions; listens to taylor swift, little mix and dua lipa; friends always borrowing their clothes; spends their weekends at their family’s place in Milan; good intentions, bad results; has an opinion about everything; never admits that they’re wrong; chocolate covered strawberries; asks the questions others are afraid to ask; matchmaker

🎧 🍬 Musa 🐞 🎼: has a playlist for everything; kinda clumsy; ladybugs; good girl likes bad boys; sees the good in everyone; perfect eyeliner; uncontrolled laughter; pink cheeks; lots of comic books; always watching a musical; blackberries; cries in almost every movie; goes to concerts every weekend; lives in the bustling NYC; sleeps a lot; writes lyrics as her diary entries; plays every instrument; judges a movie by its soundtrack; lots of glitter; reads fanfiction

BONUS: The Trix

❄️🤍Icy 🐥 🍾 : determined; hates to be compared to frozen; b*tch please, she’s way more powerful; born to rule; champagne at 10 AM; always on time; girl boss; wise but a rebel; very competitive; doesn’t catch feelings; really impatient; loves lady gaga; doesn’t need help; skipping gym to workout at home; glossy lips; expensive jewelry; fancy gowns

💎🔮 Darcy 🥀 🕷️ : 70′s girl; celebrates everything; has a pet spider; music festivals; plays the guitar but doesn’t tell anyone; will read your hand if you ask nicely; bottles up their feelings; seems laid back but really they’re stressed about everything; earl grey tea; deletes pictures to forget the memories; probably takes ceramics classes; becomes friends with uber driver

🌪️🌩️ Stormy 💥 🌒: one night stands; listening to the rain and thunder; here for a good time, not a long time; probably cares more about her nails than Stella does; 80s music; fancy drinks; writes their essay the night before its due; troublemarker; conspiracy theories; used to be punk; leather jackets; sneaks out the window; heartbreaker; has a thing for boybands;

[catvicddlm]

Grenetine D’Chessur

(Riku: So, yeah, as this blog deputy, it’s my job to introduce this girls to their respective fandom... Sorry for those who may find me unbearable, but this is how the blog works. Anyway, since D’Chessur here is the one who has the most complete paperwork, she’ll be first)

Name: Grenetine Dioica D'Chessur Manjary (though she mostly goes by Grenetine D’Chessur)

(Riku: Thankfully)

Name Meaning: Grenetine comes from grenetina (Gelatin). Dioica is meant to be the Pimenta dioica (Allspice).  Manjary= Mangiare (Italian)= Eat.

(Riku: What does D’Chessur stand for?)

(Grenetine: I thought it was obvious)

(Riku: Well, no)

(Grenetine: Then we’ll leave it for them to investigate!)

Nicknames: 

Greenie (family and Dahlia)

My Lady (Jolly and servants)

Strawberry Shortcake (Mudira)

Heartslabyul's Little Duchess or the Little Duchess (Reappina, Suha and several others)

(Riku: How original...)

(Grenetine: In my defense, you don’t get to chose how others nickname you)

Twisted from: The Duchess (Alice in Wonderland)

Affiliations:

D’Chessur family

Manjary family

Lilyaceae family

Night Raven Collage

Heartslabyul Dorm

Dormitory: Heartslabyul

Year: 2nd

Age: 17

Birthday: October 6th

Likes: Sweet treats, savoury foods, literature: poetry, novels, etc, puns, puzzles, getting references.

Dislikes: Bland foods, the noble court, people messing with her things, open endings, being called pig, being mocked for the curse.

Hobbies: Reading (especially mystery), writing in her diary, baking, playing the violin and the piano, gardening, anti-stalking: learning about other persons routine to avoid them (guess why)

(Riku: You need more original hobbies)

(Grenetine: And do you have better hobbies?)

(Riku: Touche)

Occupation:

Student

Competition judge (informal)

County heiress

Personality: 

Most of the time she’s a calm person that tries to be polite as much as she can. Truth be told, most of the time she comes off as rude. This is because most people only deal with her in class wich is...not the best. Grenetine is the type of person that thinks that is crucial for one to make things by themselves. So she not only rathers to work alone but also doesn’t offers a lot of help. She also is the type that takes very seriously responsabilities and duties... and she will always insist on them. She has a really strong determination. Always keeping a regal like posture.

The only exception is if she notices that the others are hopeless, in wich she’ll be more sweeter and helpful. Right now she has a soft spot for the “poor things” that are the Heartslabyul first years.

Those who talk to her outside academic situations see a different side: a more laidback girl who likes to have really long talks about anything. Some are even surprised of how easily she can change the topics. They also notice how she overanalyzes everything and how much she mutters. She’s a much more curious person and is willing to more things. This doesn’t mean she’ll do anything, she quickly realises when they are trying to take advantage of her.

Again, this is not easy to reach, so many consider appeal to the “duchess” as a last resort. This plus her cute looks gained her certain fame.

Alligment: Lawful Neutral

Skills:

Disappearance and appearance.

Hide presence and amplify presence.

Stunner spells.

Transformation spells.

Weapon summoning: The Pepper Grinder. This weapon has two forms: a hidden form that looks like a key and the other, the true form, a pepper grinder shaped gun. It also has three modes:

Non-lethal: the target weakens phisically but the proyectiles don’t actually harm them (they do hurt though)

Magic piercer: affects only to magical manifestations (force fields, magic levels, enchanted objects, etc). Magical beings can be harmed.

Lethal: self explanatory. Acts like a normal weapon but magical.

(Riku: I just checked a picture of this...You have a fucking machine gun?!)

(Grenetine: It is not a machine gun)

(Riku: It looks like a machine gun, it behaves like a machine gun, IT’S A FUCKING MACHINE GUN! How are you even allowed to summon this?!)

(Grenetine: A lady has her secrets)

Backstory: 

Grenetine was born as the second child from the duke D'Chessur and a noble lady from the infamous Manjary family. They have curse wich would turn them into pigs at some point of their life. Grenetine and her siblings knew from an early age what was coming for them as a lot of nobles excluded them, sometimes outright mocked, for “ruining” their family. She was the biggest target as she was the one that more resembled their mother (and also was very fat). 

Out of all her siblings, she was also the one that showed more magical potencial and more learning capacity. She was a very lonely child so she spent the time reading and developing a more analytical mind. 

One day, her grandmother, the last of the Lilyaceae line, decided to educate her to make her the heir to her county. During this time, Grenetine got fed up of the humilliations and decided to end the curse that ruined her life. 

She, along with her father, spent years finding several clues of the curse’s origins. Then, they discovered that all of them lead to Night Raven College. So when she recived an invitation from the institution, she didn’t think it twice.

Theme song: “Fairytale”- Alexander Rybak

Relationships within the dormitory:

Riddle: It’s complicated. He doesn’t like her very much due her noble status, but at the same time, he kinda wants the approval of an actual noble. He’s also annoyed by the fact that she spends zero time at the dorm yet somehow became quite popular. On the other hand, she avoids him as much as she can. She thinks he hates her guts and it reminds her too much to the court at home. Still tries to please him, she has better thing to do than to face the leader’s wrath.

Ace: Not friends but not total strangers. He likes her better when she’s sweet and willing to help, especially on school problems. She thinks he’s quite likable but doesn’t trust him too much. They usually have long conversations.

Deuce: Similar to Ace’s. They do bond a lot more due their similar interests. He’s impressed by her and is very curious about the whole curse investigation. She also prefers her on her sweeter side but understands and respects her work mood. This is why Grenetine prefers him a little more over Ace.

Trey: Just like the rest of the dorm, Grenetine trusts Trey as a deputy. Surprisingly, he seems to prefer her more serious side, as she’s one of the few that can get work done right. However, they do clash a lot, mostly due to her “stay out of the dorm troubles” policy. He’s one of the responsable to drag her back.

Cater: Also complicated. Cater likes to tease her everytime he gets the chance, wich she dislikes. Nevertheless, they actually enjoy each other company, as they surprisingly discuss more mature themes. Grenetine considers their interactions as necessary break. She allows herself to be sarcastic and intentionally rude with him. Along with Trey, Cater is the other responsable for bringing her back.

Jolly: Her cat companion, her family adopted him along with his siblings when Grenetine found the abandoned as kittens. Jolly is more than a mere pet for her, is a dear friend. She’ll constantly demand respect for him. She’s one of the few people who Jolly likes to talk to as she likes to listen him.

Relationships outside the dormitory:

Dahlia (another OC): They are bests friends. They met due to a similar interest in flowers and haven’t separated since then. Dahlia is one of the few who can influence her and usually dissuades her from her more unhealthy habits. Grenetine is one of the few who knows Dahlia’s complete backstory.

Idia: Even less than acquaintances. Since she’s friends with Dahlia, she has spent a lot of time at Ignihyde. He kinda reminds her of her older brother in personality. He thinks she talks too much but sometimes makes very interesting questions.

Chausiku (another OC): Not really friends but they get along and hang a lot together. Chausiku likes that Grenetine isn’t a princess like girl or a rich spoiled brat. Grenetine admires her determination but doesn’t share her goals. She also kinda wishes to have Chausiku’s imposing presence.

Ruggie: They have a relationship totally based on favors (Grenetine pays him to do some simple jobs for her, usually in form of either money or baked pastries). On ocasions, they have worked together to keep order. They interact mostly through Chausiku. Ruggie is actually disgusted of how insanely rich her family is, but doesn’t reject being paid. She thinks he’s competent enough and a little greedy but doesn’t blame him for that.

The Tension Quartet (again, OCs): Grenetine serves as some kind of judge for them. This often translates to keep them out of trouble. Even though they hang a lot, she mostly keeps herself professional.

(Riku: Take a shot for everytime “one of the...” appears.)

Phrase: "You can't spend a day doing nothing! There's always something to do"

[dawsim]

simself tag

i was tagged by the lovely @teael

i tag: @hiddenspringss, @simphoniae, @enismald, @glazeio, @simsdork, @tropicivy, @elnorasims, @bearcula, @ohhiplumbob, @obi-uhie, and @pixelddump <333

traits: music lover, goofball, gloomy, loner, foodie

You have to make a simself and put whatever you wish there, traits, anything about you.  After the keep reading thingy are +100 questions I found that you can answer if you want, but you don’t have to.

What is your full name? madeleine

What is your nickname? dawson, maddy, mads, daw, bitch

Birthday? december 26

What is your favorite book series? i’ll just say harry potter :-)

Do you believe in aliens or ghosts? aliens.. maybe? ghost YES

Who is your favorite author? uhhh idk

What is your favorite radio station? i literally only listen to spotify so idk maybe chill lofi beats to study to

What is your favorite flavor of anything? vanilla

What word would you use often to describe something great or wonderful? cool, amazing, incredible

What is your current favorite song? smile a little smile for me, the flying machine

What is your favorite word? FUCK

What was the last song you listened to? the rain the park and other things, the cowsills

What TV show would you recommend for everybody to watch? bojack horseman

What is your favorite movie to watch when you’re feeling down? hercules

Do you play video games? eh

What is your biggest fear? losing the spark for life or losing my big brother

What is your best quality, in your opinion? i’m pretty clever

What is your worst quality, in your opinion? i’m awkward and insecure sometimes

Do you like cats or dogs better? i love cats

What is your favorite season? fall or winter (right in between them)

Are you in a relationship? nah

What is something you miss from your childhood? before webkinz was turned into a capitalistic cesspool 😞😢 and when i wasn’t a sad bitch

Who is your best friend? i’m gonna say my mom

What is your eye color? brown

What is your hair color? brown

Who is someone you love?  my mom and brother

Who is someone you trust? my mom and brother

Who is someone you think about often? my dad :/

Are you currently excited about/for something? winter break so i can hang out with all my friends who are off at college again

What is your biggest obsession? danny devito

What was your favorite TV show as a child? DRAKE AND JOSH <3333

Who of the opposite gender can you tell anything to, if anyone? my brother or my friend dylan

Are you superstitious? i just have a lot of anxiety that it spills into that zone sometimes

Do you have any unusual phobias? nothing unusual really

Do you prefer to be in front of the camera or behind it? probably behind

What is your favorite hobby? guitar

What was the last book you read? the scarlet letter for school (rip dimmesdale 😩😢)

What was the last movie you watched? the shining

What musical instruments do you play, if any? guitar

What is your favorite animal? i love raccoons

What are your top 5 favorite Tumblr blogs that you follow? i can’t narrow them down to 5

What superpower do you wish you had? time travel

When and where do you feel most at peace?  alone in my room

What makes you smile? my sims

What sports do you play, if any?  nah

What is your favorite drink? lemonade, cream soda, rootbeer

When was the last time you wrote a hand-written letter or note to somebody? i do write for rights every year so like last march or so idk

Are you afraid of heights? yeah

What is your biggest pet peeve? so many

Have you ever been to a concert? yes

Are you vegan/vegetarian? no

When you were little, what did you want to be when you grew up? someone with a dog lol

What fictional world would you like to live in? the shire in middle earth

What is something you worry about? my dad

Are you scared of the dark? no

Do you like to sing? sometimes

Have you ever skipped school? yeah lol

What is your favorite place on the planet? my house

Where would you like to live? idk. a suburb that’s so boring but yeah

Do you have any pets? i have a cat named buzz!

Are you more of an early bird or a night owl? i think i would be an early bird if i wasn’t so lazy

Do you like sunrises or sunsets better? sunrises

Do you know how to drive? no

Do you prefer earbuds or headphones? earbuds

Have you ever had braces? no

What is your favorite genre of music? 60′s-70′s pop, 60′s soul, 2000′s pop-punk, indie, rnb, some hip hop

Who is your hero? my mom

Do you read comic books? nah

What makes you the most angry? clingy or ignorant people

Do you prefer to read on an electronic device or with a real book? the real thing!

What is your favorite subject in school? zoology

Do you have any siblings? two older brothers

What was the last thing you bought? pho

How tall are you? 5′4

Can you cook? yes

What are three things that you love? days off, clean clothes, my cat

What are three things that you hate? sunday nights, monday nights, ignorant people

Do you have more female friends or more male friends? depends which friend group but probably girls

What is your sexual orientation? probably pan idk

Where do you currently live? us of a

Who was the last person you texted? my friend

When was the last time you cried? lol an hour ago

Who is your favorite YouTuber? my faves: kurtis conner, drew gooden, danny gonzalez (i also love david dobrik vlogs bc heath is just. my type)

Do you like to take selfies? nah

What is your favorite app? spotify

What is your relationship with your parent(s) like? my mom is my best friend i love her more than anyone and my dad is eh :/ it’s rough rn

What is your favorite foreign accent? liverpool accents

What is a place that you’ve never been to, but you want to visit? new orleans!

What is your favorite number? 26

Can you juggle? no

Are you religious? i find religion so interesting and sometimes it’s a good escape place.. but there are so many terrible aspects to it as well so idk

Do you find outer space or the deep ocean to be more interesting? deep ocean

Do you consider yourself to be a daredevil? no lol

Are you allergic to anything? no

Can you curl your tongue? yes

Can you wiggle your ears? no

How often do you admit that you were wrong about something? if i’m really wrong i’ll admit it right away

Do you prefer the forest or the beach? beach

What is your favorite piece of advice that anyone has ever given you? idk :/ to prioritize my own well being

Are you a good liar? nah

What is your Hogwarts House? hufflepuff

Do you talk to yourself? oh yeah

Are you an introvert or an extrovert? introvert

Do you keep a journal/diary? sometimes i keep a dream journal if i’m trying to get back into lucid dreaming

Do you believe in second chances? if what they did wasn’t despicable then i believe they should get a chance to redeem themselves.. but not a ‘second chance’ cuz that kinda makes it seem like what they did is erased

If you found a wallet full of money on the ground, what would you do? depends but probably hand it in

Do you believe that people are capable of change? probably

Are you ticklish? a little

Have you ever been on a plane? yes

Do you have any piercings? i have some closed up ear piercings

What fictional character do you wish was real? lana winters from ahs

Do you have any tattoos? no

What is the best decision that you’ve made in your life so far? to stop caring what my stupid high school classmates think about me

Do you believe in karma? yes

Do you wear glasses or contacts? YES lol my vision is so bad and i haven’t gotten a new prescription for like 3 years… my vision with my glasses ON is 20/50 and 20/60 hahah

Do you want children? maybe

Who is the smartest person you know? my friend deming

What is your most embarrassing memory? it’s not the most embarrassing of mine but i recently was in an airbnb and it had a lot of dachshund knick knacks and i opened one of them and a bunch of powder came out and we all thought i had just spilled some dog’s ASHES everywhere but after like 20 minutes of trying to put the ashes back in we realized it was a pepper shaker ahahahah

Have you ever pulled an all-nighter? yes

What color are most of you clothes? blue

Do you like adventures? sometimes

Have you ever been on TV? don’t think so

How old are you? 16

What is your favorite quote? my friend recently said “my roomate asked me to watch the communal juul for the night but i don’t fuck with nic”

Do you prefer sweet or savory foods? savory

[pinkuboa]

I need to make a game of the year list since I kinda position my blog as a sorta games news site. But let's see your top games of this year let's gooooo

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Did I play any new games this year??? I guess I did.  These are all the games I can remember playing this year.  I barely have any RPG Maker games since I haven’t really played many things this year in general, so LET’S TRY AND DO THIS (note: this is half assed and hardly serious, although I did enjoy almost all of these games)

Pinkuboa’s (somewhat real but not really) GOTY List in no particular order aside from 1 which is the best ever:

6 - Cuphead

A great game that’s tightly planed and wonderfully executed.  I was looking forward to this one all the way back in 2013-2014 when I heard it announced, and my goodness it doesn’t disappoint.  I love how unique each boss battle is and can’t help but love every bit of playing the game, even the frustration is the kind of frustration I like.  The details in the sound design are amazing and I love how each boss battle’s theme has unique solos that play out randomly via variables, and I hope more games do cool thing with music like that in the future.  

It’s hard to say anything that hasn’t already been said about this game already, but it really is that good and deserves all the complements it gets. :)

uh shit that’s the only new game i played that came out this year uhhhhh 

5 -  Sonic Adventure 2 & Sonic Adventure DX

I played both of these games this year so it counts.i’m trying ok

  SA2 is still as terrible but fun as I remember it and SA1 is fucking terrifying with it’s mouth movements but the controls suck less than SA2 amazingly enough. 

This game’s graphics aged like fine wine i tell you (with the cork left off).

Both are fun platformers that get hard at the end because sonic hates you and wants you to die, but are still worth playing in my eyes since SA2 is one of those nostalgic games I grew up with. These are both the kind of messes I love and i’m glad they were ported to steam and killed me.

4 - Red Dead Redemption

You play as a cowboy named John Marston who runs around in the desert solving problems, punching people, shooting people, riding horses off cliffs, and getting mauled by cougars

there’s a glitch in the game where you can summon a near endless wave of bears, one of the hardest enemies in the game, once you kill one of them.  One player reported killing 25 bears in one go.

I failed a mission because I decided to run my horse off a cliff and it said “Mission Failed: Your Horse Died” and I couldn’t stop laughing.

The first time I got attacked by a cougar there was a comical cougar noise, and John Marston fell to the ground near-ragdoll like and very casually said, “Damn, I hate these things!” like getting mauled by a murder machine was just a common annoyance here in the desert of New Austin.  I wasn’t able to kill the Cougar unfortunately because my weapon on the weapons wheel was set to “Fist” instead of “any other gun” and it was super funny when he died.

i need more games like this in my life

3 - Stardew Valley

I put 100 hours on this game in a single week what the fuck is wrong with me

2 - Bad Ratz

This game makes me want to wipe out Kongragate and Steam at the same time 10/10

ban sidescrolling physics games 2018

1 - The Entirety of Dream Diary Jam

FUCK YEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH

BONUS Quick list of the worst games I played this year: Neko Para 2 (”thanks” Ebeth), Cat in the Hat (GBA on a dare), Dark Elf (Fuck you @ralphrius)

[waldowski89-blog]

Two Lazy Weeks in the Making… (somewhere at the beginning of August 2017)

(Edit: Okay, the title sounds more dramatic than the actual bulk of this post but lets get into the ramblings of a madman who talks about nothing whilst trying to make it sound interesting. I’m also going to have to do a lot of writing as I want to catch up with all the post I’ve missed… which is a lot. Off we go into the post then)

(After Edit: Scroll to the credits music at the bottom and you can also listen to some albums/music that I listened to while writing this)

Hello again, I’m back! Not that I really left. I’ve been over on Twitch and Twitter mainly. So I’ve got lots of plans for social media stuff and am keeping myself busy. I know this shouldn’t be a diary type thing. Those can be boring. Especially mine seen as nothing much really happens in my life… honest!

I will be starting an Instagram account this week… yay! Please feel free to follow me on all my different accounts. It sounds like it’s all me me me (meme, har har) but I promise you it will all be entertaining… like a train wreck is entertaining. Tune in to watch a fully grown man go slowly insane. (Edit: That’s a laugh)

I’ve said before that: “Waldowski” is a character of mine and he is. However, my own personality seems to be… “shining” through in his work… or my work I suppose.

(12/8/17 (Edit: English style date)):

Right, so I wrote the top part a few days ago (Thurs 10/8/17 I think) and now I’m coming back to this. I’m going back to my old schedule and goals and adding a few things. When I do Twitch streams, which should be everyday. TWITCH STREAM ERRYDAY *AIRHORNS* I may do longer than an hour. I just bought Assassin’s Creed Origins too so stay tuned for that, exciting stuff! (Edit: I literally just bought it because I forgot to enter the discount code. What a mess!)

I was watching a vid earlier about Michael Jackson’s involvement in creating the music for Sonic 3. It was very interesting and I have heard about this before. The whole thing is pretty much confirmed now but it’s interesting to follow all the theories and research that’s been done into this. I won’t reiterate what’s already been said but I will link the recent vid on the subject. There are links in there too so hopefully I haven’t sent you into a research, insomniac inducing frenzy of a pit of information where you’re just holding a steaming cup of coffee with straggly hair and bloodshot eyes just looking for your next fix on that Michael Jackson/Sega music conspiracy… and breathe. Sorry for that long sentence, I got carried away.

Okay I’m back writing this again on 13/8/17. I’m going to finish this post tonight! I’m watching Key and Peele again. Those guys are funny, anyway, what I’m doing is writing out four pages by hand with my brilliant Parker fountain pen… okay… I think I’ve really lost it. I’m coming back out of retirement (secret link of more Key and Peele I didn’t post on twitter) (Edit: I put it in the Research section below too. Also, thanks to Philip DeFranco for the idea of a secret link. What fun!)

More plans are a: “Let’s Read” YouTube channel called: “Waldowski Reads”. I still have to get a few things to set that up first. It will be much like a let’s play channel but with me trying to read a book… funny, eh?

This kinda reminds me of when I’d do work at University. I’d have to set goals, plan things, etc… I have been doing this but falling behind lately. In any case none of that matters now. I’ve gotta move on and get on with actually doing stuff.

So, everything’s planned out for a little while for me. Anything happening out there? (apart from all the bad news of course. I already know about that stuff) I genuinely mean it too with following me on social media. I try to talk to as many people as I can nowadays.

Blergh, how did I do this before? A few months ago I’d bang out 1,000 words like it was nothing.

Oh my God, I totally forgot, Na Wri Mo (Edit: Almost, but it’s Na NO Wri Mo because it happens in November) is happening soon. Ugh, I’d always wanted to try it for years. What I’m worried about is one whether what I write will be any good, if I stick to it (quitting will feel like a massive failure for me) and if I’ll take it seriously (nothing should, I suppose) (Edit: Kinda gave up on the numbering of reasons, didn’t I ?) but I’ve had a tendency to let things travel into the realm of ridiculousness before… hmn, maybe that’s a good thing? It might turn out silly and fun for once. I’m not putting “The Vague Chronicles” in there either. Maybe the characters can crossover, I dunno.

It’s pretty much 12:00am as I write this. I’m gonna get it finished before I sleep anyway. So it’s four sides of handwritten A4 pages… did I already write that?

In any case, I keep liking vids on YouTube but they don’t stay liked (random I know but what else can I write… look at this shit. How the fuck is my Na Wri Mo (Edit: Pleb) project going to look? I don’t even have a plan Jesus Christ. Also yes I’m swearing… I’ve been drinking a little bit too. I’m not an example of how life should be lived… this is just an account of how I’m living mine)

Shit, I’m supposed to disappear. Well, at least in novel writing I am. Writing is about the characters not me, at least that what I’ve been told. I’ve also been told: “Write what you know”.

Back again. Been distracted by life. In… anyway what I was saying was ugh… it doesn’t matter I’m not supposed to be in the story, my characters are… but why do I become them sometimes? I have to… that’s the point.

So, this is the last page (handwritten anyway)

Damn, look at this, I’m letting myself get distracted at every turn. It’s 4:04 in the morning and I haven’t finished. I’ll have to type all this up tomorrow. Hello me! Weird right? You’re typing this up and I’m talking to you. (Edit: … yes very… I hope I get back to the point, whatever it was)

So, seriously. I dunno. This pen is kinda cool, right? Tired AndwewsiesTM. This will go up on Tumblr. I know I’m irrelevant at the moment. So drunk WHO CARES ABOUT THAT!? Nevermobf.

So, Assassin’s Creed Origins is coming soon… in October. Hopefully I’ll be ready to do a let’s play/stream hey I might even do an unboxing. It’s a collector’s edition with a figure and other stuff too. I’ll do it like the vid I’m showing someone now. Wink wink. (Edit: It was just me reading the handwritten version out… HUSHIES) She gets to see the handwritten stuff. This is her day after all! The best fan/troll anyone could ever hope for.

Gosh my writing is getting bad, so drunk. I’m okay of course. Oh! So there’s like four things I think I have to link in this “blog”. Um, the Michael Jackson Sonic 3 vid, the music from the Jetzons associated with that, the Key and Peele vid, oh and finally the AC Origins pic.

I’m back but for now… goodbye and I will see… MAY see you tomorrow. My name’s Waldowski and thank you to everyone who read this or listened.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, ILY UWU!

AW

Research Links:

A Brief History of Michael Jackson's Sonic the Hedgehog 3

The Jetzons - Hard Times(Sonic 3 Ice Cap Zone Act 1 & 2 Remix)

Michael Jackson's Moonwalker - Sega Genesis - Angry Video Game Nerd - Episode 63

I’m Coming out of Retirement One Last Time...

Credits Music:

Thought Beings - Italo Nights

Tommy '86 - Disco Machine - [FULL EP]

Nightcrawler - Strange Shadows - [FULL EP]

VHS Glitch - Halloween Strangers [FULL ALBUM]

Bonus

Off we go...

Into uncharted lands...

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idk if those tags still work lmao but anyway well I guess I’m fucking back here!!! Bc stupid Elliot felt the need to follow my blog so I can’t post a minor little bitching about something anymore so I got post long bitching and spirallings here now. I should just diary but it’s too late now. Anyway I just wanted to make a list for posterity:

Stuff to cover whenever I finally fucking get therapy:

Making sure I do not under any circumstances grow up to become my father. I already see parts of him in me and it makes me sick. My moodiness my irritating quietness when I’m annoyed my judgemental ness my quickness to anger the way I yell I need it all to stop. I need to get on some anger management techniques as early as possible so I don’t fester like this forever. I have so much rage in me sometimes and I used to revel in it but I can’t do this anymore it just hurts.

My complete inability to exist in the real world the amount of time I waste on social media the amount of time I spend in these fucking fantasy worlds of my own creation bc I cannot cope with a single negative feeling in reality. Whiskers died and I went into a three month Neopets fugue state. Like I literally don’t remember anything from that time except playing and drawing neopets. And it got me back into drawing which is good but that led to posting more which led to another twitter addiction which led me to draw more shit for attention which then blew up to like HUGE attention that I didn’t expect which led to getting over 1000 followers which led to a big head which led to me still just pretending. Animal crosssing has also been a huge time suck. It’s all cuz I was coping with quarantine and also like there was nothing else to really do but idk I need to be more present. I need to remember how to make art that isn’t for an audience and how to not feel the urge to post every single thing I’ve ever made.

The classic fear of intimacy that has plagued me my whole life I am literally so fucked up with that man. Can’t say I love you anymore. To anyone not even like the hollow I love yous we used to just say to mom and dad daily like I just realized I do not say that anymore. And it’s not that I don’t love people it’s just that I can’t express it and I think I am regressing in that Regard. It’s like expressing any emotion is cringe to me. Empathy machine broke. Has been for a long time. Been really haunted by the now almost TWO YEAR OLD marlis stuff lately and idk why. I was such a freak. I only liked her when she was being mean to me and when we had weird sexual tension and then we she started being nice and wanting to spend time with me sexually and non sexually I couldn’t take it and I essentially ghosted her. We had a little make up over insta dms months ago which I’m glad about but I stupidly opened her reply while drunk and didn’t respond then kinda forgot to reply and then it was too late. And like I miss her friendship sort of. We weren’t that close and like we had nothing in common but like we did kinda be vibing doe. I really want to talk to her about Elon musks kid name

My inability to speak to people and communicate well and some of that is brain and some of that is like mouth literally. Increasing social anxiety and inability to hold conversations or want to initiate them. Honestly scared I have some level of autism at this point. Even since Trevor called me autistic or aspergers or whatever as a weird joke I can’t stop thinking about that. I thought I might be add or adhd for a bit but I think adhd right now is what bpd was in 2014 where everyone is just self diagnosing and spewing symptoms of it that I feel like are just Being a Person and also who’s to say that like anyone is not adhd in these times where we are constantly like bombarded by stimuli. Like do u think adhd existed pre electricity. Were there cavemen who were like fuck fuck I can’t focus on hunting today I need to go dig a reall deeep hole for no reason besides self satisfaction.

This was supposed to be a fucking bullet point list of shit I need to cover in therapy dude. Summary

Don’t want to be like father (easy to anger, pathetic, moody, wont talk)

Aggressive fear of intimacy

Bad at communication

Complex hierarchies within my own mind that hold me back from literally everything

Social media addiction

Purposelssnesss and helplessness

Resentment and envy I have for most others at all times

Severe self esteem problems and bad relationship with what I look like

I miss my cat

Can’t take self seriously

More to come probably!