SESSIONS.
[18+ MDNI]
AO3
Pairings: John "Soap" MacTavish/Simon "Ghost" Riley
Kyle "Gaz" Garrick & John "Soap" MacTavish
Ensemble: John "Soap" MacTavish, Simon "Ghost" Riley, Kyle "Gaz" Garrick, John Price, Kate Laswell, Nikolai
Warnings:
Heavy BDSM ⛓️ BDSM ⛓️ Dom/sub ⛓️ Size Difference ⛓️ Rough Sex ⛓️ Rough Oral Sex ⛓️ Oral Sex ⛓️ Anal Sex ⛓️ Anal Fingering ⛓️ Rimming ⛓️ Hand Jobs ⛓️ Size Kink ⛓️ Kink Negotiation ⛓️ Orgasm Delay/Denial ⛓️ Collars/Leashes ⛓️ Minimum Effort Aftercare ⛓️ Porn With Plot ⛓️ Bottom John "Soap" MacTavish ⛓️ Top Simon "Ghost" Riley ⛓️ Simon "Ghost" Riley is Bad At Feelings ⛓️ Bisexuality ⛓️ Touch-Starved ⛓️ Denial of Feelings
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Synopsis:
While out bar hopping with his longtime friend Kyle Garrick, John MacTavish accompanies him to a nightclub called the 141. Renowned for its exclusivity, rumored to house hedonism in the form of domination and submission.
An encounter with an enigmatic man in a skull mask leaves him curious, leaves him wanting. And despite himself, curiosity gets the best of him as Johnny follows the white rabbit down the rabbit hole and right to the masked man. A notorious Dom known only as Ghost. What was a simple arrangement to explore the dichotomy of pain and pleasure soon turns complicated as each session becomes less professional and more personal.
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Chapter 1: encounter
Words: 6,111
Summary: In which he has a chance meeting…
For an alcohol-fueled, bar-hopping night to turn into wandering aimlessly when a friend claimed to know a place nearby — only to misremember the way there — wasn’t surprising in the slightest. The causation was a single whim impelled by rounds of drink. The consequence was what remained of a “fun” night out after a long and grueling work week being misspent. And the culprit?: an overconfident Scouser. One who was supposedly a boy scout as a youngin and therefore knew his bearings like the back of his hand.
Yet here they were, lost somewhere downtown, their phones dead. Walking through alleyways that reeked of sewage and rubbish. All for some posh club. Johnny heaved out a deep sigh, and began to slow down his stride. Annoyance was starting to set in just as his patience thinned. The burning in his calves and the aching in his feet from all the walking, didn’t help his mood. And worse, the buzz from the drinks prior were starting to wear off, and he was getting more sober by the minute.
He let out another tired sigh before he stopped walking entirely, standing still to take a breather. He took in his surroundings with a breath. He was on some upslope backstreet surrounded by old brick buildings and townhouses. A hilled boscage of English countryside on the other side, fenced off by low cobblestone walls and iron gates. The dark was honed sharp by a moonless night that ate away at the glow of lampposts. The shadows deepened, a quietness persisted, and the world seemed to fade away at the seams.
The itch to sketch the scene thrummed through the tips of his fingers. A rarity for him nowadays. But as a cool breeze wafted through, tousling the top of Johnny’s mohawk and shivering the skin underneath the freshly sheared sides of his undercut. So went the creative urge along with it. Gone. He stared off for a long moment before refocusing towards a figure atop the street’s apex in the distance. Growing smaller as it faded into the dark, leaving him behind. Johnny stuffed his hands in his jacket’s pockets and grit his teeth, soldiering up the slope despite the strain in his legs. Just in time to see the figure duck into a side alley in his peripheral.
“Slow down, ye muppet.” He said short-winded and red-faced, jog-trotting forward to catch up with the person in front of him.
“Keep up.”
Johnny slowed to wipe away the sweat on his brow. Only to bound forward in order to not lose Gaz as he rounded the corner and onto another silent street.
“I am just not sure ’bout this, Gaz.”
The Scouser only scoffed at his words. “Middle age really hit you that hard, mate? Where's your sense of adventure?”
“Just don’t want to get mugged. Bit dodgy nipping through ginnels at night. Especially out here.”
Gaz shrugged, waving at him dismissively as if it wasn’t a valid concern but a mild hypothetical. “Heh, more reason for you to keep up then.”
Johnny huffed. “D’ya even know where you’re going?”
He was met with a flash of pearly teeth, a boyish grin thrown over the shoulder reminiscent of old times. A childhood full of skinned knees, blistered palms, a broken arm, and growing pains.
“Of course.”
“You sure? Think we’ve been down this street already — twice actually. We're going in bloody circles at this point.”
“Huh, no sense of adventure and no sense of direction. You’re one strike away from a retirement home, Soap.”
“Oh, sod off. Don’t want to waste the rest of my night trying to find some clubhou — Wait, look.”
Gaz stopped in tracks and turned to see what the Scotsman was directing his attention towards: a lamppost that was a bit crooked with a dimming bulb. A maintenance concern, sure. A hazard even but not anything worth stopping for. He lifted a brow from underneath his ball cap, eyeing Johnny who was pointing at it as if it was an omen.
“See, been here before. I remember that lamppost. And those’re yer shoe prints!”
“The bevvies are messin’ with your bloody head, Soap.”
“Just admit that you don’t know where you’re going, Scouser.”
“Christ, stop whinging,” Gaz told him, stopping where the pavement met a T-junction. “Come on, the night’s still kickin’.”
He watched Gaz duck into a side alley of a warehouse building, disappearing in the dark. He let out a deep sigh.
“Boy scout, my fuckin’ ass,” Johnny mumbled under his breath and chased after him.
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It felt like hours before they both came across surroundings that they both recognized. The alley had led them down another network of alleyways and dead ends, trapping them like lab mice in a maze. But they eventually stumbled onto a street leading back toward the downtown area. The way back was illuminated by neon signs from afar piercing through the cold night and the sounds of city life echoing in the distance. Before long, they were right on the edge of a city center. And immediately the pavement was overrun by other people, soused and boisterous despite the week night. Faces in the crowd blurred, the outlines of bodies silhouetted by the flashing lights of the sign boards overhead. Flocking to the nearby restaurants and pubs, making it difficult for him to follow along. Cutting through the opposite way of foot traffic was like swimming against a river current. Despite it, he heeded Gaz’s words to keep up and stuck close.
He assumed that the place they were heading to was located somewhere nearby in the heart of it all. But the relief he felt drained away as Johnny was led further past it into the outskirts. Not as heavily populated as the prior, making it easier to move around, but still a bustling area nonetheless. Gaz and Johnny stopped on the corner of a roundabout with a stone fountain at its center and hedges lining its circumference. A sight that made Gaz walk faster with a newly gained energy and across the way, towards an adjacent street’s laneway. Gaz nodded upwards, tilting his head towards a cluster of buildings and warehouse that were ahead of them. They halted in front of one of them, a multistory that loomed over them. Its stonework was weathered and begrimed, and, from what he could tell, it was seemingly empty.
“This is wha’ you dragged me all the way here for?” Asked Johnny as he stared up at it disapprovingly.
“Not this. It's by it though.”
“Let me guess, we have to go down another alley?” He teased, a small smirk on his face. Only for Gaz to ignore him and walk away with the shake of his head.
Johnny gave one last look at the building then followed Gaz to the side of it. They didn't walk far, only a few meters before they came to a stop. There, in front of them was a metal door tucked along the wall. Inconspicuous if not for the two men guarding it.
“Huh. An underground club, eh? Didn’t know that was yer kind of scene, Gaz.”
“No, it’s not an – it’s more like a … lifestyle club.”
Realization hit Johnny like a whiplash.
“You took me to a sex club?”
The bouncers turned towards both of them at the rise of Johnny’s voice and the shushing by Gaz.
“Listen, just trust me, alright.”
“Gaz, I dinna-”
“Look,” Gaz sighed out as he turned and grabbed onto Johnny’s shoulders, “Just want to check it out that’s all. We’ll go inside. Grab some drinks and if it's not up to par, we’ll leave.” At the uncertainty on Johnny’s face, he added: “I’ll even buy you a bloody pint. But please trust me on this, ok?”
Johnny narrowed his eyes at Gaz, eyeballing him. Saw the eagerness on his face, the nervousness of his stature; his uncharacteristic bashfulness that was borderline desperation. And the Scotsman wondered if it was more than just innate curiosity that made the Scouser bring them over here specifically. He looked from the man in front of him to the bouncers in his peripheral then back to Gaz again. Who looked at him imploringly like a kid begging their parents for a new toy. Tensed brows furrowed over wide brown eyes, lips pursed in a plea, and a light sheen of sweat from their trek.
Johnny let out a huff.
“Fine,” He brushed away Gaz’s hands on him and shouldered past, “But you owe me more than a bloody pint.”
Gaz’s face fell into sudden ease, that wide boyish smile returning as he took a big step back.
He nodded at Johnny. “Right, just follow my lead.”
Johnny was right behind him as Gaz took point. All the while the bouncers’ attention never left them. They glowered as Johnny and Gaz approached, looking both of them up and down, sizing them up.
“You lost, lads?” One of them asked.
“No, just trying to head inside.”
His eyes squinted at Gaz, skeptical. “Hm. Name?”
“Uh, Kyle Garrick.”
With a sneer, the other bouncer crossed his arms across his chest. “Don’t recognize it. Either of you got a membership card?”
“We don’t bu-”
“Then I suggest you turn around and get going. No membership, no entry.”
“I’m a guest. I was invited here.”
The bouncer in front of him let out a hearty chuckle. “Sure you were, lad. Now, piss off.”
“I’m invited,” Gaz ticked his jaw, his cool demeanor disappearing by indignation. “I’m supposed to be let in.”
Johnny stood up straighter as the bouncers walked forward, standing next to each other with crossed arms. And formed a bulwark against them to assert their edict.
“I said, ‘No membership, no entry’.” One growled out, glaring at Gaz who was standing chest-to-chest with him. Johnny furled the hands at his side, his body intuitively going tense as the other bouncer did the same to him. They were deliberate, trying to coax a reaction out of them that much was obvious. But before Johnny could step in and say something provoking, Gaz was the first to break the tension.
“Chimera.”
The hardness of the bouncers’ sneers faltered as both their faces fell in recognition. They stood quiet for a moment, their lips pressed into a thin line. And reluctantly, the bouncers moved back.
With a tipping of the bouncer’s head towards the door, the second bouncer moved away from Johnny to open it.
The bouncer stepped towards the now opened metal door and stood in the doorframe. “This way, lads.”
Johnny and Gaz shared a look. They were led through the door by the bouncer and down a small set of stairs.
Johnny leaned towards Gaz as they descended down. “Did ya say the magic word or something?”
The bouncer looked over his shoulder but said nothing. Gaz gave Johnny a pointed look, but chuckled anyway at the notion. They were escorted into a narrow foyer of some bricks-and-mortar facility. It was pointedly bare but minimalistically so. Taking up most of the space was a large semicircular desk of a reception area by the front brick wall; velvet stanchion posts formed a waiting line – which was currently empty – and led to the fore. And to its right, hanging along the wall, were dark dupioni silk drapery, the indentation of a doorway barely noticeable against the fabric.
As they neared, an older woman greeted them with a warm smile from behind the front desk. The bouncer leaned against the desk, leaning himself on it, in such a casual manner that it made the receptionist quirk her brow at him.
“Brought you some visitors.” He said, jabbing his thumb over his shoulder towards the men standing awkwardly behind him.
Her smile dropped as her brows furrowed in confusion. But it was quick to reappear, more professional than anything as the receptionist glanced behind the bouncer to Johnny and Gaz.
Her eyes flicked away to the man leaning on her desk. “I thought we weren’t allowing any more visits.”
Johnny felt the man next to him go tense as a board.
“Thought so too but they’re invitees.” The bouncer rubbed the back of his neck, “Chimera’s.”
Her face hardened.
The rest of their conversation was hushed between themselves. Johnny caught a few snippets of it: Watcher. Unhappy. Policies. Crossed the line. But he found himself uninterested after a while, not caring to eavesdrop. Johnny's eyes flicked around the foyer looking at nothing really until they landed on the drapery on the wall. He shifted, feeling a sudden shiver along his skin. Wondered what to expect in this place, what sort of debauchery it had. Surely more than just a bar with watered down drinks and an empty dance floor. Maybe some ropes and chains? Blindfolds and gags? Voyeurs? Plumbers? Tax evaders? The possibilities were endless if his dabbling of adult films was anything to go by.
Before he could think further on it there was a dig in the ribs. He turned to Gaz who gestured his chin to the front desk. Their discussion had ended and the bouncer was moving away with a tired sigh.
“Best of luck, lads.” He said as he walked past with a curt nod, out of the foyer and up the steps.
Then, “I can help you gentlemen here.”
With a nudge, Johnny walked forward and greeted the receptionist with a rather clumsy ‘hello’. Though strained, the receptionist’s smile remained warm and welcoming. She fixed the reading glasses on her face, her hand typing away on her keyboard. Johnny couldn’t help but be impressed by how fast she typed. She abruptly stood up from her chair and brushed out the wrinkles in her pencil skirt. She riffled through the file cabinet behind her, pulling out stapled packets that she fastened to two clipboards.
“Here you are,” The receptionist handed both of them a clipboard. A pen dangled off of it by a bead chain, “Fill these out. If you’re confused or need any clarification on any of the questions please let me know.”
Johnny glared at the first page like it was a school exam. Eyes squinted as he looked it over. It was a standard form for personal information: full name, date of birth, gender identity, sexual orientation, marital status, etcetera, etcetera. He flipped through the rest. Medical survey. Informational pages. Risk and safety. To-do and not-to-do sheets. He shifted as he skimmed through a short questionnaire about his interests. Then the last few pages were rules, policies, agreements, information pamphlet and an NDA; all needing his signature. Johnny stole a sidelong glance at Gaz. The man was focused, wholly engrossed in the task. Concentrating like it was his life on the line. He was half way through the packet now. Grasping the pen in his hand, Johnny quickly followed suit, finishing it just in time as Gaz did – his writing neater than his own.
“Hope this isn’t too much trouble.” Gaz apologized, giving her a small smile as he handed her his clipboard. The Scotsman rolled his eyes at him working his charm on the older woman. “Don’t want to be a bother.”
The receptionist blinked. Smiled shyly. Seemingly flustered as she shuffled in her office chair. “You’re not a bother. Not at all. Just a little misunderstanding on our end. We’ve postponed any guest visitations for the foreseeable future. But it looks like the new policy failed to be... specific regarding certain conditions.”
She cleared her throat, realizing she was being too transparent, and continued, “Luckily, on that note, because you're both invitees your entrance fees are waived for your first visit.” The receptionist opened a side cabinet below the desk, ruffling through a drawer before grabbing two opaque plastic baggies. “Ok, now show me the wrist of your non-dominant hand. Now turn it, palm up.”
She clasped a gray tyvek wristband onto Johnny’s wrist. Then with a shaky hand, she did the same to Gaz.
“You guys are all set.” The older woman wiped her palms on her skirt. And motioned to her left from behind the desk, pointing to the drapery.
“Welcome to the 141. Please, enjoy yourselves.”
141.
He thought it an odd name for a clubhouse. Unconventional by his standards. Wondered what the numerical nomenclature alluded to or the significance of it. Or perhaps he was thinking too much on the underlying meaning of just some numbers.
Johnny stepped away from the front desk, his hands clammy by his growing nervousness. He messed with his wristband, twisting it around the joint. Prepared himself to internally clutch his pearls at what he was about to witness: all the perversion, all the lechery. If his mother only knew what her wee boy was getting himself into. And knowing her, the Protestant woman would drag him out by his ear and crucify him herself. Be it due to peer pressure, curiosity, temptation support of a friend or idiocy, Johnny was here. Willingly.
And a little bit of sin didn’t hurt anybody. Right?
The imprint of the doorway grew clearer against the material as they stood face-to-face with it. The faded blur of lighting and silhouettes apparent from the other side. An exhale from them both. Then they walked through.
“Steamin’ Jesus.”
Johnny looked around wide-eyed, gawking around the place.
The nervousness dissipated as the sight settled in. It was a regular looking place, nothing out of the ordinary, and not what he expected a supposed ‘lifestyle’ club to look like. There was no man being dog-walked by a Dominatrix or a lit stage where people gathered to watch a sadist punish someone like it was an public execution. Nor were there any orgies happening in the middle of the room. Not even a couple displaying any PDA. It was more like a pub than anything. More posh and classy, sure. Yet it was rustic like old English pubs usually were, warm and smoky. Carpet and flagstone flooring. High top tables. Aged brickwork and joinery, solid wooden furniture with dark accents. And had low lighting that was similar to a club’s atmosphere. It emphasized the shadows, perpetrating a mysteriousness to it. An embodiment of the theory of omission, that there was more to this place if he scratched the surface long enough. Dissimilarly, it had a strange hushedness.
The place wasn’t packed per say but there were other occupants. Some outfitted rather formally in refined garbs like leather, lace, satin and silks as of it was a ballroom. Adorned themselves with jewelry, brooches, bows, and even feathers. But there were other occupants that were dressed informally like Johnny and Gaz were. Even then, both men couldn't help but still feel out of place. All their staring didn't dissuade the feeling.
Still, Johnny couldn't help but be underwhelmed. And from the glance at Gaz, he seemed to feel the same by the deflate of his shoulders, and the drop of his facial expression.
“Kyle? Is that you, приятель (priatel’ - friend)?” Someone called out from somewhere near them.
Johnny turned towards an extensive mahogany saloon like bar, an antiquity that reminded him of American western movies. There, a man beckoned them from behind it. Gaz instantly perked up, his face lighting up. He went towards the bar with Johnny trailing behind.
“Nik!” Gaz clasped hands with him in a firm shake. But laughed as the man surprised him with a tug of his arm and leaned over the bartop to give the Scouser a one-armed hug. “It’s good to see you here.”
The man, Nik, chuckled. “Likewise, my friend!”
For a man tending to the bar in such a place, he was dressed quite casually in jeans, a shirt, and a brown leather jacket. With a gold Cuban link chain around his neck and his raven hair slicked back. He had an Slavic accent that was sonically rhythmic. Harsh yet smooth. Russian, Johnny soon recognized.
His eyes were quick to hone in on Johnny staring from behind Gaz. With his hands shoved deep inside his jacket pockets, unsure of himself. Gaz clapped Johnny behind the shoulder with a grin.
“This is John. John, this is Nikolai. A friend of mine.”
“Nice to meet you,” Johnny shook his hand. A bit more firmly than he meant to. By the look on Nikolai’s face, he was a little surprised by it.
He hummed, seemingly impressed. “Strong grip.”
Johnny grinned from ear to ear at his words.
“Please take a seat, my friends.” Nikolai gestured to the wooden barstools tucked underneath the bartop.
Johnny shrugged his jacket off, hanging it off the back of the barstool as Gaz settled into the one next to him. He heaved out a sigh, knackered by all that walking. His feet still ached in his boots, calves a bit sore. But the coolness of the wood grain was nice against the skin. He felt a sudden shiver run down his spine. Goosebumps trailed along his arms, raising the hairs. Like he was being watched.
“Can I get you, anything?”
Johnny rubbed at his arms, blaming his nerves. He couldn’t stop himself from smacking his lips together, mouth dry, feigning for a nice cold pint. “A Tennant’s Lager, if you would mate.”
Gaz looked at the drink menu. “Think I’ll take a Black Russian.” He winked, “Needing something a bit sweet to wake me up.”
With a smile, Nik nodded, “Right away.”
And went off to fetch the drinks.
“Your tab, aye?” Johnny lifted a brow at him in reminder. “Owe me a round. Maybe two.”
Gaz tsked, taking off his ballcap. “That’s all I owe ya? Surprised you’re not gonna hold it over my head.”
“Heh, feeling a bit lenient s’all. Like yer wallet’s going to be, aye. Hope yer promotion to a bloody peeler is paying well. We Scots have a high tolerance. Takes alotta bevvies for us to get sloshed.”
“Yeah, whatever. Just mind ya self, Soap.” He nudged his arm, “ I don’t want to have to break up another fight and drag your sorry ass back home. Earned myself a shiner in Glasgow the last time.”
Johnny huffed and rolled his eyes, “Says the man who pissed himself then cried in the bathroom. I know my limits, ye ken. Not like ye.”
But before Gaz could continue their banter with another comment, Nikolai returned with their drinks in hand.
“Cheers.” Johnny was quick to grab his lager, immediately taking a gulp of it. The cold golden alcohol was like flowing ichor. A much needed treat despite it being a light brew. He let out a satisfied exhale.
His skin grew aflame, then another shiver down his spine, rattling his shoulders like the rush of an unexpecting cool breeze. He thought it was because of the alcohol but the feeling of being watched grew stronger. Despite himself, he turned around. There amongst the dark, was a figure looming in the far corner, blending in well with the shadows. A big, scary bloke from what he could tell even from where he was. He stared on as the figure slowly leaned forward, catching the low lighting from the bar. And saw upon the figure’s face was bleached bone – a skull.
Johnny swallowed.
A gentle grab onto his shoulder and he jolted up. Eyes wide as he turned around and met Gaz’s.
“Soap. Everything alright?” Gaz followed his gaze, trying to see what the man was staring at. Then, with a laugh. “You see another lamppost?”
He blinked at Gaz’s words and swallowed again, his mouth feeling dry. “Eh, n-no.” Johnny took a swig of his lager, letting the liquid settle on his tongue. “No. Just see some fucker tall as one.”
Gaz turned back to him. Johnny's proneness for puffing out his chest and peacocking earned him a sharp glare.
But Johnny brushed the glare aside and smiled up at Russian bartender. “Heh, didna know it was the spooky season already, Nik."
The man gave him a blank stare back. “I don’t know what you mean.” But by the quirk of the Russian man’s brow, Nikolai was amused. His small smirk only encouraged Johnny. Much to Gaz’s disfavor.
Johnny tilted his chin behind himself with pressed lips. Kept his voice steady. “Talking ’bout the Halloween decoration in the corner - the big boy with the skullface. He looks ready for some trick-or-treating. Probably gonna scare your customers away though.”
Nik’s smirk grew wider, his eyes twinkling as he shined a pint glass. It reminded Johnny of a fox.
“Soap.”
“Aye, aye. Just being observant.” He relented and elbowed Gaz’s arm in jest, “Don’t worry yer head, I'll be good.”
“Tch, you better mate.” Gaz swirled the Black Russian in his hand. His fingers clutched tight around the glass. Despite himself, as Gaz and Nikolai were talking, Johnny peeked over his shoulder again. But saw that the figure was gone.
Despite the alcohol boosting their mood, dismay still lingered. Gaz grew less talkative than usual, more interested in nursing his drink than their bantering. His face was impassive but Johnny could tell he was in a sour mood. Affected by the belief that this place was not worth all their effort or the ‘invitation’. Confused on how a purported sex club was more saintly than a church service and twice as dull.
If it was any other night, Johnny would’ve relentlessly taken the piss out of him. Never letting him live it down. But now wasn’t just any other night. Nikolai seemed to sense it as well, hanging around them whenever he wasn’t serving orders or cleaning the bartop. By Johnny’s second lager, Nikolai’s presence seemed to help Gaz’s mood. By Johnny’s third, it didn't take long for them to get Gaz to brighten up. Dismay dismissed from the mind.
And by his fourth, Gaz had disappeared. Gone off like some wean in the supermarket. Was it to go check out the price of the tab or was it to head to the bathroom? Johnny couldn’t remember. Either way, it’s been almost half an hour since. And Johnny was worried.
“Want another one?” Nikolai came by and cleared the empty mug, wiping away the small puddle that had gathered from all the condensation.
“Aye, another.”
The next drink clunked against the wood as it was placed down in front of him.
“Ye seen Gaz, Nik? Don’t know where he's gone.”
Nik scratched at his beard, thinking, before saying, “He was talking to someone by the rooms. Haven’t seen him since.”
“Un-fuckin’-believable.” He grumbled into his drink, peeved. “Bloody Scouser.” Then Johnny let out a deep sigh, “Aye, well. Thanks, Nik. Make sure this one’s on his tab too, eh?”
“Of course.”
When another ten minutes had passed with Gaz still gone, Johnny was more than just a little bit peeved. He finished the last of his drink and stood up. Feeling the need for some fresh air and a smoke – something to get his mind off of being ditched. Johnny reached over the bartop for his charging mobile and unplugged it. And sent Gaz a quick text. Gaz had charged his dead mobile a bit before Johnny did his own. He knew Gaz took it with him wherever he had gone.
Johnny shrugged on his jacket, stuffing his hands into the pockets. Despite the later hour, people were still there mingling and drinking amongst themselves. He could feel them staring as he left the bar and towards a non-emergency side exit along one of the walls. The door clicked open as he pressed against its push bar and stepped out into the tenfoot.
The cold night was a welcome sight, its chilliness was another. His chest rose as Johnny gulped in the night air. Lungs burned as he held it. A second then another, then it blew out harshly past his lips. He leaned against the side wall, the entire night settling in his bones, weighing heavily on him. Maybe Gaz was right, he was getting old. Johnny ruffled through his pockets until he found his carton of cigarettes. The cardboard was partially squashed, the box flattened at the corners from travel and use. They were the cheapest kind, just a pack he picked up from his local Tesco a few days ago. But it was almost empty now, so another visit was needed for resupply. Johnny shook the remaining few in the carton, hearing them shuffle inside.
He grabbed one, putting it in his mouth and held it between his lips. He patted around his pants for his zippo but let out a harsh sigh when his search for it came out empty and he cursed under his breath.
“Need a light?”
A sudden voice in the night. Gruff, deep and husky. Johnny jumped away from the wall, startled, teeth almost biting through the filter paper. Goosebumps riddled his skin, hair stood on at the ends. He whipped around, wide-eyed and his heartbeat pounding against his chest like a rabbit’s. A silhouette emerged from the night. Appeared suddenly as if he manifested from the surrounding darkness. The edges of him blended well in the night like a pencil sketch, barely there. He stepped out into the dimmed light of the flood lamps above the exit door. Face eclipsed in shadow, white skull gleaming.
Johnny stood paralyzed as the skullfaced figure walked closer to him. Slowly, deliberately. He was a towering, hulking behemoth of man; built like a brick house. Dwarfing the Scotsman with his sheer size as he stepped beside him. Johnny thought himself pretty muscular but even he was nothing comparison. He realized then and there that ‘big, scary bloke’ was a descriptive understatement. He hoped that the man didn’t hear what he had said at the bar. Johnny was frozen in place with eyes blown out like saucers, adrenaline pumping through his bloodstream. The natural instinct to run coursed through his body. But his feet stayed rooted to the ground, like they were made of concrete. Fear shot through his body like a cold bullet. And he wondered if the man could smell it, like a predator could.
The man was dressed in dark clothing, a navy windbreaker taut against his broad chest, brawny arms at his sides. One arm rose and Johnny flinched. In a large gloved hand, he held a metal zippo out to him. But Johnny could do nothing but stare, breathless, speechless. He blinked, then blinked again. Dumbstruck. His brain muddled, overwhelmed by his flight-or-fight instinct. The Scotsman hesitated, eyes darting from the lighter in his palm then back up to him. After a moment, with a clammy hand, Johnny reached out for it. Their fingertips brushed, skin slid against the rough material of the man’s gloved palm. Johnny quickly pulled his hand away, zippo in hand, clutched it against his chest as if scalded. The man’s eyes narrowed at the gray wristband peeking out from Johnny's sleeve, visible from the motion. The burning stare made Johnny shiver and he fixed his sleeve, tugging it down to the wrist. Hiding the gray band like it was a scarlet letter.
Johnny's mouth opened to say something, anything to thank him. But his throat was hoarse, mouth dry and the words never came out. Instead he thumbed the flint wheel until it struck and bore a tiny flicker of fire. The man watched with interest as Johnny lifted it up to his mouth. The amber flame reflected in the deep set eyes behind the skull mask. Dark as black tourmaline. Shakily, Johnny lit the filter tip of it. Killed the little flame as he flipped the top back on and took a drag of his cigarette. A burst of nicotine on his taste buds, shooting up to his brain as smoke filled his mouth. He exhaled it, letting it pour out from parted lips.
With as much courage he could muster, Johnny turned around and held out the zippo to return it. Dark eyes never left his face as the man grabbed it. Fingertips brushing again, gloves against clammy skin. Johnny swallowed – hard. He swiftly turned around and leaned back against the wall. The man next to him followed suit. Johnny kept his gaze to the ground, not wanting to catch the man’s eyes. Wishing he could melt into the wall and disappear. He could feel the man’s eyes on him every so often, stealing small glances at him from the corner of his eye as Johnny smoked. The man was still and silent as they took in the night, loitering together in the tenfoot. The man reminded him of the sit-and-wait type of predators in nature documentaries. Hiding just out of plain sight. Waiting patiently. But for what?
Johnny took another drag of his cigarette, letting his head brew it over. Then a moment of boldness as he offered the lit cigarette to the man next to him. Tilting his head, the man plucked the cigarette from Johnny and held it between his thick digits. With his other hand, the man rolled his mask up, the balaclava sitting just below his nose. Revealing pale skin and a sharp underjaw, cleanly shaven. A scar marred across thin pink lips. It was Johnny’s turn to watch him now. Gawking as the man lifted the cigarette to his mouth and inhaled, the tipped ember burning brighter with his intake. With a slow exhale, the smoke tumbled out from his lips like a dragon’s breath. Coiling up and around, catching the light before dissipating into the cool night.
Something stirred within him, something in him ached. Watching the man smoke, inhaling and exhaling - broad chest rising up and down. Jaw tensed, lips wrapped around the end with every drag. Johnny met his gaze when he pulled down his balaclava and handed the cigarette back for him to finish. Dark eyes bore into blue as the cigarette rose to Johnny’s lips. The man moved from the wall, standing up to his full height. He stared down at Johnny just as he exhaled, the smoke blown out against his clothed jaw. Black tourmaline eyes went to Johnny's mouth as his tongue darted out to lick chapped lips. In those eyes, Johnny saw himself — round-eyed, cornered. Johnny shifted, fingers twitching as he let out a strangled breath, blood thundering in his ears. He couldn’t think straight, couldn’t breathe properly. The man’s presence was all-consuming, all-encompassing. Suffocating him. Overwhelming his senses. The Scotsman was struggling to keep it together with him so close. He could feel the heat coming from the man’s body. Could hear his respires.
Those same eyes that pinned him in place, narrowed as they darted away from his face, moving back and forth. As if thinking to himself, processing it all. Weighing out his options. The man was quick to step back, moving away. And without a word, he turned on his heel and walked away. Down the tenfoot and disappeared into the night. Johnny finally breathed and slumped against the wall, not trusting his legs. Hands shaky, mouth dry as he gasped for air. His clouded mind was unable to grasp what just happened and what led up to it. He rubbed a hand down his face and sighed, exhaustion and confusion settling in. Johnny didn’t know how long he stayed there in the tenfoot by himself, staring up at the moonless night.
The exit door opened with a grinding squeak and he turned to see Gaz squinting at him from the doorway, ballcap in hand.
“Soap? That you mate?”
“Yeah.” Johnny pushed himself off of the wall. Dropping the cigarette bud on the floor and crushed it with his heel even though the ember had long since died out.
“You alright?” Gaz’s eyes looked over his face in concern as he stood in front of him. “You look like you’ve seen a ghost.”
Johnny could only stare at him wordlessly.
“Come on. Let’s get a hackney home.” Gaz went to the door, rubbing the side of his neck. “It’s already way past your bedtime.”
Johnny nodded, his usual snark gone. He walked forward to follow but his foot stepped on something on the ground. He stopped and reached down, picking up something cool to the touch. A metallic zippo. The same one that belonged to the man in the skull mask. It must’ve fallen out of his pocket. He clutched it in his palm, skin warming the metal casing, and peered behind him to where the man had disappeared to. Johnny licked his dry lips, the taste of smoke fading on his tongue.
Then with a deep sigh he went through the exit door and followed after Gaz.
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