#thinking abt it and doing nothing in the meantime

[strawglicks]

i can feel myself drifting from the TTCC community .. like i still love the characters and their dynamics, but ive been thinking less about toontown as a whole and just some of the characters are lingering . this usually happens towards the end of my obsessions

plus i just dont feel in touch with the community LOL i just kinda stick to my own stuff and sometimes like the art and stories ppl make .. but im in this awkward spot right now where im MENTALLY not engaging as much. idk if this is anything

[bubuslutty]

fluff, fluffy, sweet sugary fluff!!!

thinking abt how 141 will accompany their captain and his wife on a family outing with their little girl who's a year old.

they go to a shopping mall, that has a trampoline park inside, and end up getting themselves tickets for the toddler session in the morning.

it's sort of funny, four massive military dudes sitting down and changing their socks into trampoline appropriate socks and wearing their little wristbands with a tiny bundle of joy already excited to go join the party inside.

John's wife doesn't feel like jumping so she picks a table and sits, the men leaving their shoes and things with her. Before going in, John hands his little one to Simon to hold while he goes and gets his missus a drink and whatever slice of cake she wants to have in the meantime. When she's all set, he kisses her and goes back to his men.

They get checked in by an employee who asks them to show their wristbands and socks and says hello when he sees John's little one, already giggling and clapping, kicking her legs.

It's pretty noisy, the music they're playing on the speakers is loud, not obnoxiously so, and there's a parent with every single toddler in sight. It's adorable, how many little ones try to jump and bounce and end up falling.

John decides to put his darling down and see where her tiny legs take her, she immediately starts to waddle, holding onto the edges of some higher, flat, platforms, trying to bounce but when she can't seem to do it she looks for her daddy and calls, "Dada !"

Gaz laughs, "She wants your help, go on."

And John bends down and holds her little hands in his, using his knees to make the trampoline go up and down, not too much, she's too tiny and may fly away if he does it too hard.

That's how the rest of the 1h session goes, they follow her like hawks, actively circling her in such a strategic manner that no rogue adult accidentally jumps on her. They take their job very seriously, and it looks like even other parents have noticed as well. Some mums smile at them, while others when they accidentally bump into them when backing away say, "I'm so so-- Wow, you're huge!"

The trampoline park even has two basketball areas, which are empty, and so the boys take advantage of the fact and goes to throw in some hoops, and it takes nothing for everyone to get competitive. Which they're busy competing against each other, John takes his baby back to where mum is and gives her a drink to hydrate her a little bit, she was bouncing and bouncing and running a mock after all.

Meanwhile, the boys move to a place called airbags. It's a high platform with stairs on the side, right below it there's trampolines and a massive airbag where you land. It's empty, so it's safe for them to go with no fear of accidentally stepping or jumping on a little one.

There's three trampolines lined one next to the other, so they each take one, jumping at the same time. Johnny somehow manages to do a backflip and lands on his belly, Kyle a front flip and Simon just lands flat on his back. They laugh and go up the stairs again, this time Johnny looks at Simon and glances at Kyle, whatever silent communication happened between them went right over Gaz's head. So they both grab him and throw him into the airbags and he lands with a scream, "Oh, fuck off!"

Johnny laughs his ass off until he has to escape Simon's arms wrapped around his waist, trying to throw him over, "Oi, no !"

Johnny doesn't want to full on wrestle his friend up in a trampoline park full of babies so he allows the giant of a man to lift him, spin him and chuck him in the airbag, sinking down down until he has to make his way out on all fours.

John comes back with his baby and they keep playing with her until she gets tired, and eventually their 1h session ends and they have to make their way out of the trampoline park. John's missus is laughing at them, because they're sweaty and looked like they had way more fun than their baby. They all plop down on the chairs to drink water and dry themselves with some tissues, change their socks and wear their shoes back on.

John's little one is tucked in her pram, little belly rising up and down as she sleeps with her little hands balled up into fists. John gives her a little kiss on the head and kisses his wife right after, thanking her for giving him this, for giving him everything he ever wanted. It's sappy but true.

When they're ready to leave, John pushes the pram out of the park, his wife locking one arm with his and the other with Kyle as he talks to her about some series they both like.

Simon walks on the other side, his shoulders sometimes brushing against his Captain's when he peers down and check if the baby is still asleep, and it makes John warm everytime.

[zarisdonut]

Okay so first The Way of Kings Update!!!

I'm nearly halfway done (lit at the 48% mark) and I thought it would be fun to write my general thoughts:

First of all, Jasnah? THATS WIFEY. Like, shes a secondary character but i love her sm i hope she becomes more of a mc, but also i don't want anything bad to happen to her so maybe I don't want that???? lmaoo

In my own sick lil lesbian brain, Shallan has the biggest crush on Jasnah and Jasnah is a lesbian (She actually told me herself so its literally canon).

Kaladin I love you so much I would give my life for you you're hands down one of the best things that have ever happened to me oh my god. Everything I learn abt him fascinates me. I love the fact that we're getting to see his upbringing and his whole arc with the ppl from bridge 4???? I'm devouring his chapters like a filthy animal.

Then there's Dalinar and... OH GOD DALINAR. First of all, the whole Kholin family already fascinates me but Dalinar???? I need to wrap him around with a warm blanket and hug him like I'm so serious abt this.

I want to make a separate post talking abt the Kholin family cause damn there's so much to say but in the meantime I'll just say this: I FUCKING LOVE THEM

Rn, id say my #1 faves are Kaladin, Dalinar and Jasnah hehe but we'll see how it goes.

So far, I'm loving the book. I will not lie, it was hard AS FUCK, cause I'm not kidding when i say that it wasn't until i reached the 200-page mark where I finally felt like I was starting to understand things (little things, I'm still mostly confused lolll) but once you pass it, damn it is enjoyable. I do understand, though, the little criticism I've been seeing abt how nothing happens in 80% of the book, and yes, i do believe that's somewhat true but also, I'm here for the long run, yk. Like, yes, i actually do want to hear Tien yap abt some rock he found on the street. It is important to him, and it is important to me. Idk, i have always loved learning abt my fav characters. I think its important to set a good base so when the plot starts plotting, I understand to the t who each of these people are and why they're doing what they're doing but i def understand why ppl might not be into this lmao bc damn, this book is long.

Anyways, so far, 10/10. Writing this was kinda fun lol, I'll keep updating :)

[ohmygs-blog]

hi my loves <3 warning for u as this will be a bit of a long post bahaha but hopefully it will help explain to u guys :) i haven’t been very active on this account, or my second account as a lot of u guys have noticed. i appreciate all of the different dms and inboxes checking in on me and i’ve missed u all !!! and i promise i’m okay !!!

ive been doing a lot of thinking in the past couples weeks and i 100% do not plan on leaving this account or my writing anytime soon.

honestly i don’t have the words to explain what i mean or have been feeling but ig the best way would be; i’ve been losing the excitement that comes with posting and writing on tumblr.

im not sure what changed and that's what majority of where the frustration i have is coming from. i don’t want to say ive outgrown this because i don’t think i have, its just the struggle of thinking of ideas and messages that match with the little personas ive created.

i’ve talked abt it before and taking inspo from the dreamies irl personalities i’ve tried to create my own personas of them and it’s important to me idk hahaha. what i’m getting at is ive become a bit of a perfectionist and if i don’t think an idea of mine matches w their character its discouraging if that makes sense idk???

instead of the excitement, ive honestly just been stressing myself out and finding anything i can to pick at and tear down. which leads towards more stress because i honestly love writing and seeing all of ur comments & messages and interacting with u guys and when i feel like i have nothing to offer i feel bad ahahah.

ANYWAY all this to say, that im not closing my account or leaving u lovely ppl behind. i have a couple drafts written and saved in my drafts so ill be posting them and working on requests when inspiration strikes !!!!

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in the meantime if ur missing my writing (pls miss me bc ill miss u dearly), here's some of my other socials that i will be active on !!!!

pinterest !!! see what goes on in my brain, fic inspo boards, nct dream bf inspo & other boards :D

twitter !! @/ohmyyygodddd (idk what i’m going to do on my twitter lol but i’ve been waiting to make a 2nd account and i just made it today lol)

wattpad !!! fics below !! pls check them out i’m begging haha i’ve worked so hard on them and i’d love to share them w you guys :D

the alliance: wherein a group of friends can't get enough of their random internet feuds or taking down their enemies !

love department: wherein dani's friends are embarrassed over the lack of love (and boys) in her life and decide they need to help out.

[abslvr111]

blue banisters

cw. wlw (men dni), smut, fem!r, dom!els, sub!r, soft!ellie, no outbreak au, slight hair pulling, fingering (r!rec), cunnilingus (r!rec), wall sex 💀, titty sucking (r!rec), miss kink, this is jus me rambling abt ellie ngl 🤗

sum. you heir ellie to paint your banisters blue.

wc. 1.4k

it all started with an ad you saw while walking down the street, a local woman in your town just looking for odd jobs. it was perfect, you had been meaning to get someone to paint your banister, and you had a beautiful baby blue color you’d planned to use.

you dialed the number once you got home, it rang once, twice, a woman (you shortly found out to be named ellie) picked up, her voice was smooth and quips slick, she knew how to talk to people— she knew how to talk to women. your conversation with her made you wonder what she looked like, so you scheduled for her to come as soon as she could, you had nothing better to do, might as well meet your mystery woman as soon as possible.

she came just a few days later, pulling up your driveway in an old pickup truck, no doubt loud enough to alert you of her arrival. you watched her from your front porch, seen her hop out of the beat-up truck, slowly making her way towards you.

she wore a white tank top, one ready to get ruined by paint, it left her arms on display, her tattoo the last thing you noticed when her muscles were there, and a pair of worn-in blue jeans gathered with a brown leather belt around her hips. her short auburn hair pushed back behind her ears, intense green eyes trained on you, one married with an eyebrow scar, freckles decorated her soft cheeks, and her lips although slightly chapped they were still kissable, you decided.

she was gonna be nice to look at for the day, you thought.

you greeted her with a warm smile one she returned, the two of you talked about the job as you brought her through your home, you had a nice home, small, but fitting. it was cozy on the inside, with rugs and paintings on every wall and inch of floor, plants littered the complex cozily. it was quaint, nice, and well taken care of, the outside showed it the most, it was truly beautiful, with flowers growing everywhere to be seen, stones placed intricately to form a path to the quaint porch, a porch decorated with a nice wooden swing, the place was perfect, and she understood the pride you had in taking care of it.

she followed you obediently, standing just far enough from you to be able to watch your hips sway in the sundress you wore, the fabric hugged your figure nicely, and when you’d turn to look at her while you talked, she’d get an eye full of your cleavage at the bust of the dress, each time she tried her best to avoid staring to long.

you both made your way to the back porch, cans of blue paint lined up neatly on the dark wood, paint brushes and rollers in a plastic container, and everything else she needed to get the job done. the sweltering heat beat down on the both of you viciously, making sweat bead at ellie’s split brow, she shielded her eyes from the blaring sun with her hand. she looked even better with the sun shining on her, you felt your hand move towards your chest, toying with the necklace there, taking a sigh deeper than you meant to.

ellie noticed, watching your hand glide towards your chest, boobs rising and falling with your deep breath, you played with the pendent of your jewelry shyly, like you wanted to say something to her. but you were off before she could so much as mutter a word and so she was left to get started on her work.

in the meantime you occupied yourself in the kitchen making lemonade, it was peaceful, squeezing lemons and watching the world go by in your kitchen window, it also made for the perfect place to spy on ellie as she worked— an added perk.

you didn’t have to think about what you wanted to say to her yet, content with watching from afar. you looked at the way her wrist flicked with each movement of the paintbrush, the way she’d slightly bite into her bottom lip when concentrating, the way sweat highlighted her face perfectly and made brown strands of her hair cling to her forehead, it all made you swallow thickly, and hurry to finish the lemonade.

when it was done chilling in the fridge, you walked onto the balcony, the heavy door alerting ellie of your presence, she turned to face you from her crouching position, rasping out a, “hey, miss.”

miss, she started calling you that the moment she opened her mouth to speak to you and hasn’t let up since, not that you minded, it sounded nice rolling off her tongue— made a shiver roll down your spine.

“i made lemonade.” you beamed, she smiled back, her arms flexing when she moved to stand up straight. before taking the glass from you, she wiped the sweat off her forehead with the bottom of her top, exposing her defined abdomen to your eyes, you probably looked like a deer in headlights, a sly smirk formed on her face as she took the glass from your loose grip.

that was the night ellie asked you on a date, covered in paint and sweat— you obviously said yes.

to say your first date with ellie went well was an understatement, once you were back from dinner, and your front door was shut behind you, the two of you were on each other before you could even blink.

one of her hands tangled through your hair, effectively pulling you closer to her, while her other hand groped at your waist, her tongue was quick as the two of you started kissing, desperate and needy. you felt yourself moaning at the sensation, the feeling of her strong grip on you and her tongue on yours, it made your mind fuzzy.

you felt her hand go for the zipper of the cute dress you wore, unzipping it easily, she pulled back from the kiss, in favor of pulling at the straps of your dress, just enough to watch the way your tits slightly bounced at the motion. she took no time in immediately taking them into her hands, bringing her face down to suck tentatively on one, she hummed against you as you whimpered for her.

she softly pushes you up against the wall, mouth still on your tit, she takes the rest of your dress off, the only thing keeping you modest being your panties. ellie pulls herself from your chest with a lewd pop, getting you to step out of your dress completely, and pushing the fabric aside before getting to her knees in front of you, she glances at you through glazed eyes.

“you alright there, miss?” she’s smirking now, your cheeks feel hotter than before, and you feel yourself getting wetter.

“yeah,” your trying your best not to stutter, you don’t trust your voice the most right now, “it’s just, you look really hot.”

she laughs, it’s small, and now she’s pulling at the edges of your panties, they’re off your body quickly. two fingers are fast in circling your hole, drawing small moans from you, when she dips her fingers in, her other hand brings one of your legs to rest on her shoulder, and she traces your thigh with warm fingertips. your mind is muddled with thoughts of only ellie, and when you feel her warm mouth on you, her name is the only thing coming off your tongue.

she sighs against you, like this is the most relaxed she’s ever been, like she’s not currently got her face between your legs, and her tongue on your clit. your hand combed through her hair, bringing her pretty face closer to you, head buried between your thighs her tongue works in tandem with her fingers, both working fast on you.

your other hand found your tit, needing the soft flesh as ellie drew moans from you, softly you pulled at her brown locks, whining at her, wanting more of her. she gave in, tongue licking harder at you, slender fingers curling inside you, your thighs felt numb, fingers gripping her hair even tighter, you came whining her name like it was the only thing you knew. she took her fingers from you, messily sucking them clean, before getting up to her feet to kiss you, tongues touching you could taste yourself on her tongue, it makes you moan into her mouth, you could’ve stayed like that forever.

[millionmaggots]

did/osdd/posdd/etc havers, can i mayhaps get ur opinion on something please?

i havent rlly been posting abt it bc the plural/system space online is HELLA SCARY with all the fakeclaiming n discourse n shit, but im realizing i proooobably have some kind of dissociative shit going on 😭

- can't remember the first 10 years of my life with any detail, then it gets a little clearer until age 15 or so when i can remember pretty well / maybe normally (idk what normal really is tho)

- i lose hours at a time

- i don't have distinct people in my head except for this one lady who's basically the ceo of violent / upsetting intrusive thoughts (i don't think i experience switching)

- but i do have a very disorganized train of thought, with a lot of different things going on at once / overlapping (i also have adhd tho)

- ive heard voices (that don't sound like me) on and off since i was like 8 or 9

- ^ i got tested for schizophrenia and i do not have it

- my parents get annoyed with me bc apparently i take / move their stuff, but i often have no memory of doing it, and little/no reason to have done it, despite evidence that i did. i usually just say that although i have no memory of doing it, i guess i did and im sorry. this one happens probably at least weekly and causes me a lot of distress bc it's scary being told that i did something i don't remember / wouldn't do

- people (esp my parents) sometimes tell me im acting off / different, and it's really confusing, bc as i see it, im always acting like myself

- i have a history of acute dissociation / depersonalization, especially when i was working a rlly stressful job

- i have an absolute dogshit short term / working memory

- i space out and fail to process things ALL THE TIME, especially auditory information. i need about 20% of everything said to me repeated.

- i get inexplicable feelings of dread from things i have no (conscious) emotional connection to

- i have cptsd symptoms and at least 2 distinct triggers associated with bad experiences ive had

- accidentally called myself a 'we' when talking to my psych? i remember everything about the appointment except the context around why i would've made that mistake

- like i said, i have adhd, and my adderall helps me focus, but doesn't do anything for my general inattentiveness / spacing out / forgetfulness

- my childhood was like. fine? in terms of like parents/housing/money/friends/etc, but i grew up not knowing my gender identity or that im disabled, and i had a severe undiagnosed anxiety disorder dismissed by adults as me being "shy" and "sensitive" so there was a constant ever present feeling that i was just inherently a bit off / wrong / broken

- nothing bad was directly done to me when i was little (as far as i know?) but i was, in hindsight, emotionally abused by my principal and homeroom teacher all throughout middle school (severe depression and anxiety, i was told to "stop being so negative" or i would be put in a different classroom without any of my friends <- the people who helped me and made me feel at least a little bit safe)

tl;dr: if anybody w osdd/did, etc, took the time to read all this, i would REEEEALLY appreciate u guys giving all this a sniff test 😭 not asking 4 a diagnosis obvs just kinda a peer review

i have a psych appointment abt this in about a month but in the meantime i would love to hear from systems who know abt this kind of thing. what do u guys think is up?

(PLEASE don't drag syscourse over here bc i know it'll just make everything im dealing with worse and more confusing /gen /srs)

[yuurivoice]

hi hi hi! nothing of real substance here, just wanted to drop in and express how HYPED i am abt eoe!! it is so intriguing to me, ik we don’t have the whole puzzle yet but i’m already gnawing at the bars of my enclosure in a very good way! thank you for sharing your creativity <3

I'm going to be working very hard to make sure y'all have something to sink your teeth into soon, and I'm very excited as well!

I went from "well I need to wait for EoE episode 1 to be completely done before touching supplemental content" to...well, thinking of a bunch of different things I could do in the meantime.

Part of the struggle is that I love the visual component of BitterSweet, etc now but we are limited in what we can do because time and effort. But we've got artwork, I've got the ideas, I could easily make audio-only stuff in the meantime that could help build interest and hype for the Main Event, so to speak. lol

There are a few side characters in particular who could definitely have at least an audio or two to get to know these characters before the big story kicks off.

We'll see what happens, but I'm definitely thinking outside of the box I put myself in when I first had those ideas.

[daily-outsiders]

I keep thinking abt this bc it’s so funny to me, can you imagine Magic in clearing 2? Like she’s just going about her day and suddenly she’s screaming in pain bc surprise girly!! Broken leg!!!

Would she feel Owen’s exhaustion? Bc he didn’t sleep for a while pre lever pulling. Actually maybe since it’s a dl au he’d avoid doing some of that bc he’d feel bad for whoever his soulmate was,,

(Btw do you like. Prefer us sending dl asks to this blog or your main? Bc idk if you have a separate mcyt blog or if you’d rather keep all your daily outsiders art separate or what and I don’t want to clog your inbox whenever we wanna say we like your au :( )

(sending it all here works!! <3 for the most part i just dump all my outsiders stuff here anyway :D all my sideblogs are INCREDIBLY inactive and my main blog is pretty much nothing but reblogs atm)

IDK HOW I FORGOT ABOUT THE WHOLE BROKEN LEG THING OMG POOR MAGIC????? OUCH???????

shes just like. going about her day. leading her clearing. then Boom. broken leg.

it is fun to think about the dynamic with the outsiders and their soulmates before they know who their soulmates are, wanting to take care of themselves to not hurt the other even before theyve met

maybe magic would feel his exhaustion and then sleep extra for his sake to try to help, i could see her doing that (and she can have like mae or someone run the clearing in the meantime)

i ALSO think emotions and stuff would carry over!! since, if PHYSICAL pain carries over, it only makes sense EMOTIONAL pain would too. poor hugger duo would be feeling each others stress and then itd just be like stress²

[seaweedbraens]

can I just say how much I Love the way you did justice by Piper?

She was always my favorite character in this fic, and you've made her resolution is so cathartic and beautiful, especially in regards to Shel.

One of the biggest issues I have with RR is how he treated Piper and basically ignored her trauma. Like, Piper had so much baggage and issues surrounding her relationship with Jason and gave her a new relationship just cause, literally in the next book.

The way you've written it, it's just really clear that she's hurting. She wants to heal, she needs to heal, but just slapping a new relationship on as a bandaid isn't going to do anything, and the way that you've written her coming to terms with her healing journey is phenomenal.

(I hope this made sense I'm just really emotional about her okay?)

piper's was my FAVORITE epilogue to write. it felt good to help her start to heal - she has been through SO MUCH and i think it is important for her to slowly come to accept the idea of love (in any form) again. to me shes the character with the most love to give, she is generally kind and accepting, and she has been hurt what feels to her in a way beyond repair. i think anyone in her situation would find it hard to let go and even begin to thinking of someone new, but it has to happen eventually and so i wanted piper to slowly come to terms with that and all that it entails.

in the end, i want piper to remember jason with love, but to also recognize that it is a love that has passed. that doesnt mean she loves him any less, but it does mean that she will one day open her heart up again. it doesnt have to be anytime soon, or at all, tbh, but in the meantime, she has her friends. :)

also lets get something clear i HATE canon shel. like first of all piper moved on too quick like who IS this woman, and secondly thats a stupid ass name, i made it short for shelby because i had to give her SOMETHING 😭😭 also the way we know NOTHING ABOUT HER LMFAOOOO @perseannabeth had to educate me on all things we dont know abt shel aside from the fact that shes native american apparently (which also i didnt know because i didnt do a SHRED of research so. whoops) but anyway. the good thing abt my version of her is that i made her a Person with a Personality because she was a blank canvas and now i quite like my take on her. oh well

[fishiteeth]

I'm just thinking about some of the data leaks (?) I've seen for Palia and I'm rolling in my grave waiting for the Elderwoods update.

Talking abt said data leak below the cut , potential spoilers

I can't wait for the elderwoods it's driving me crazy

So the website paliapedia* has a few pages where you can see bugs and fish and plants and stuff right? Well, alongside the bugs we can see in-game, we have a bunch that aren't there yet

A bunch of new bugs? And most of them are moths? Pretty safe to assume the Elderwoods is gonna be relatively dark, if not in a consistent state of night.

With some of the descriptions of the new bugs, we can also begin to assume that the Elderwoods will be a bit more inhospitable toward players. More violent, per se. Some bugs feast on dead meat, other are meant to look creepy.

So with that, I'm thinking we will get some sort of hostile new animal in the Elderwoods (unless the butterflies and moths can figure out away to kill on their own) and I'm just gonna say I won't be surprised if it's the Elderwoods Beast.

Other than just bugs, there are new plants as well

Not too much I have to say about them, really.

Probably gonna get a new tree with the Kopaa Nut.

I'm wayyyy more interested in the flowtato. Could on and on about that, and I might just do that later.

As of right now, there is nothing on the website in regards to new fish or animals, so we still have those to look out for.

Anyways

I'm really excited about all of the content we can see and am anticipating everything we haven't see yet. BUT. I really don't forsee this update coming in the next few months. I'd honestly estimate another 7-12 month before we get any word on what they're doing with the update, if not more.

In the meantime, we really just have to sit back and watch. With all the layoffs and the merge with Daybreak, I can't imagine the stress S6 employees are under, so I wouldn't push for updates or news or anything, and I'll just take what I can get.

Anyways that's my piece.

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[jinxshideout]

Hello, we adore this blog's current setup & are very interested in consulting your shufflemancy playlist, please if that would be alright :]!

into the unknown - aurora

bravado - lorde

seven - sleeping at last

these songs together seem to imply a transitional stage, regaining strength / confidence, and moving on to new situations!!

aurora's version of 'into the unknown' is beautiful and haunting. a voice calls to her that she tries desperately to ignore — she is cautious, careful, and afraid of upturning her current life. at the same time, she cannot help but be curious. what if this is what she's been looking for this entire time ? this could represent a new opportunity calling to you that you may be scared abt at first !!

lorde's 'bravado' reads to me as a song about accepting , even thriving under attention. intentionally pushing past long-held anxiety / withdrawn nature to move on to being comfortable when looked upon. Asserting that you Do deserve the admiration + spotlight — it may frighten you, but you have always been worthy of it <3 u can fake it till you make it (pretending in the meantime is better than nothing) !

sleeping at last's 'seven' echoes these messages, yearning for new adventures to enjoy with the lasting loves in his life. staying stagnant ends up worsening his state of mind . the song speaks of readiness to explore and take risks . it also emphasizes hope for the future and a desire to properly appreciate the good, kind people in life! there is also a slight air of throwing urself into new situations to distract from current emotions. it's important to slow down sometimes as well!

interesting note: both lorde and sleeping at last reference mountains ! 'It's a marathon run or a mountain you scale without thinking of size' from the former, and 'Let's climb this mountain before we cross that bridge!' for the latter :3

[the-bjd-community-confess]

i’m the same anon who confessed abt dxg1rly not sending my dolls for almost a year exactly, mod if u see this before my other one apologies for any confusion haha. tldr/summary: i believed in dxg1rly, bought a full 3D doll when she said she was gonna stop selling dolls + desperately needed cash last year.

anyway she keeps putting off bc now she’s out of boxes ig, and before she accidentally ruined the doll after finishing sanding but never sent pics, and at this point she keeps being like yeah i’ll send it next week!! it’s all finished i promise!! at least 3 times within the past FOUR weeks. she says she so behind but what keeps annoying me is she keeps making and printing more dolls and selling them in the meantime, when I know she’s behind on other dolls bc my friend recently also fell for her and bought a few dolls and keeps getting strung along. i wasn’t annoyed until my friend started getting mad because hes more assertive. and now im realising that my support means nothing, if she cant deliver, because i’m supporting someone who isnt reliable.

anyway what sparked that is because she posted about low sales at one point, then she was out of money after buying boxes, and then her bf is going to be layed off or something i guess. and now she’s printing a million dolls and sculpting more and talking about selling dolls for buying probably another h@ru doll.

anyway some people HAVE gotten their dolls. mines was a 3D print on sale so i think like $200 in USD. my friend got casted, 2 3D prints, and a garage kidt. 3D prints & garage kit are way over due at this point but not as much as me. :/

so take this info with a pinch of salt, if you want to buy. i don’t say she is a bad person, but i am not a happy customer for her. Btw i DO like her sculpts. this is nothing against her artistry.

~Anonymous

[yj-98]

Ok can I be a hater too. Just for a sec.

Yeah fanon Tim and Jason can be pretty bad. But you know what the worse fucking thing is? Fanon Cass and Jason.

First of all the way some of them think that Cass and Jason gets along? At all? If Tim at most feels distant disdain and co-workership for Jason, Cass would straight up hate that bitch.

The thing is that Cass does not hate killers. She is pro-redemption. She does not care that you killed she believes that you can stop and be better. But I think what would set Jason out from the others is that he wants to make others kill as well. Mainly, Batman.

Cass would hate that. So much. Because Batman? Who is this big symbol for her that stands for everything she believes in? In helping people, in saving people, in giving it your all to do better and find another way.

It is different with Jason because I totally believe that Cass is down to work with people who think that in some occasions, you can do nothing but kill (Helena.... God I am so insane about the potential of a Cass and Helena relationship) but Jason fully believes that you should take the power of killing and direct it towards someone. To choose and paint a target on someone's back and shoot.

I do think that Jason's relationship is very complex and interesting and more than just "I kill people bc they deserve it" but for Cass it does not matter.

(Ok this is very long apologies 😣😣😣)

CAS UR ALWAYS WELCOME TO BE A HATER WITH ME!! u dont have to apologize ... ur so right . youll have 2 forgive me because i do tend to avoid fanon cass because the . rampant racism and misogyny makes me want to die. and i have not Yet read a whole lot w/ cass in it

this is related to what rus and i were talking abt in the replies to a post, esp what she was saying about like. especially cass would not stand his ass

i really do think that jasons ability to get along w/ cass (and tim) would hinge on his own journey. one that they have not rly given him in any meaningful way. bc ur right unless jason was working towards the change (ill be so real idk what theyre doing w/ him rn. i stopped paying attention to a lot of what dc writes w/ him post-resurrection) aside from the rubber bullets thing, it just.... does not respect her character motivations to have them just. Get along.

this is all also hinging of course on the direction of batfamily/wayne family writing. and like. whether or not you WANT them to get along eventually or for jason to have any sort of meaningful divergence from the motivations he had like. over a decade ago LOL............

this chasm between cass and him within the family could have a lot of weight if dc cared! the writing could be fun. if dc cared. like i said w/ the other stuff. there could be interesting arcs to be had if the characters had to work for some kind of resolution or common ground. in the meantime (or just as a baseline) i really feel like there should be someone who is the foil to jason amongst the 'kids' who can be the counter. it would just make for better writing overall

idk if any of that made sense but. i am shaking your hand.

[theophagie-remade]

I know we're supposed to wait for the officials and see more stuff coming out, so i won't judge too much.

So Idk how to explain exactly the way i see it, but i had the same reaction when Deku was mentioned. I went from "oh noooo" to "HELLO???" really fast i almost had a stroke lmao

But i guess it has to with how Uraraka compared something she admire abt Deku, a hero friend in common with Toga and applied that to forward how strongly she felt abt Toga and that caused her to make that gay ass confession and commit to Toga in a deeper way and so on.

It's all a jambled mess of thoughts and words, bc, well emotions still running high lol. I hope i can come up with something better bc i really wanna talk abt it

XD

I don't know, I'm super torn 😵‍💫 I haven't seen images of this one scene yet, so this is all based on what the leaker said, but to me Uraraka thinking about Deku and then saying that she wants to be like Toga automatically read as "oh, I want to be upfront about my feelings too", that's why I'm... annoyed/frustrated with it, like girrrrl you were doing so well, and then you had to bring mr brocoli into it (+ I think it's kind of dumb to put an ordinary crush on a boy on the same level as Toga's feelings, even if it is to validate them/show that there's nothing wrong with them, that there's something admirable in the way they're expressed)

I mean, I was an absolute doomerist for this arc (with some of my old posts as proof askxkgk), so what happened has wildly surpassed my expectations as it is, and Uraraka will always be gay-in-love with Toga in my heart no matter what 🫶🙏 to me it's one of those classical shonen cases where In Theory there's a couple we should pay attention to and look forward to seeing (izu//ocha), but In Practice the members of that couple have waaaaay more interesting things going on with someone else (LIKE "DRINK MY BLOOD, FOREVER" HELLO ?????), but with girls too for once lol. Idk, patiently waiting for @/pikahlua's translations in meantime to have a clearer idea of what's going on 🫡

[revasserium]

but in the meantime, i love love love childhood friends to lovers too <3 all the best with the zoro fic! -- @anonymilk

i love how in the previous reply of my ask you said you don't have the energy to write and your new zoro fic is estimated to be hella long. go girl, give us your blood, sweat, and tears <3 (im saying all these with a sincere and endearing tone XD). how is the progress of that fic? you said that you normally write without much planning, and you seldom do drafts (iirc), but is it the same for long fics? how do you handle longer fics? what sparked the idea?? also don't forget to drink water and take breaks! also, dw abt not having "that girl" tips for dealing with stress. i also have a few bad habits up my sleeve, although thankfully it has been sort of controlled and i hopefully won't spiral again XD

LMFAO LAWD go on -- expOSE me some more why dont u HAHAH. no but in all honesty, i think it was a combo of me feeling super inspired by opla, opla fandom being fucking HYPER active right now, and actually (!!!) me forcing myself to read like actual books that i enjoy reading!

i always forget (for some stupid reason) that nothing inspires me to write like reading does. and you'd that after almost 20 years of reading and writing voraciously, i'd have learned that by now but alas, here we are -- every single fucking time.

it's like pms-ing, and then realizing when u get ur period that u were feeling genocidal bc of pms... and just like living through that cycle every month. whomph.

and yes, you're right -- i do write with zero plan. i still write with zero plan. but the its like... hm. how do i say this without sounding absolutely unhinged and literally clinically insane --

whenever i feel inspired to write down a story, i'll hear/see/feel the first few lines in my head, like literally word for word, the sentences will just... unfurl inside my brain. and i'll get this like vague, misty impression of how the story might go. now IF at this point in time, i'm in a place where i can write down the first few lines and "pin down" the start of the story, then it's safe. it's home free. think of it like... tendrils of silk on a high wind -- if i manage to catch the end of one and pin it down, the rest of the string might still flutter in the wind, but there's much less chance of it just flying away.

now if i DONT manage to get those first few lines pinned down to a word doc or a notion page or like... the back of a grocery store receipt, then the story simply flies off, towards another willing creative who might have the time and energy to pin it down instead. it's happened plenty where the start of stories will come to me when im in bed or riding the subway or whatever, and i'm too tired or there's no service or whatever -- and i decide to let that story go. but literally it'll just flitter through me and then by the time i sit down somewhere i can actually write, i'll have forgotten the whole thing.

but after i've got the beginning down, there's a high chance that while i'm writing the beginning, i'll get some idea of how i want it to end (this isn't always the case; a lot of times the end won't come to me till i'm solidly halfway through). so i'll like write down roughly how the story wants to end, and from there, i have to do the legwork of filling in the middle -- aka GETTING from the beginning to the end.

and truthfully, i still don't plan. i have no idea how most of the story will go. but i like to think of the story as it's own kind of living thing as opposed to it coming from like... inside me. so i trust it like it's a living thing too, i trust that if i write down the beginning and then as much as i can of it, it'll stay put where it's supposed to be till i have time to come back to it. and so far, that's what's worked for me.

this is the case even for my "longer" fics, and i think the longest i've written on this blog is like... 4/5k, but in my personal "archives" of fics i've just written for myself (there's a kakashi fic, a criminal minds spencer reid fic, and an inuyasha fic, that are all like 50k+ words each, and unfinished), this is still the case. i just write what comes to me, and trust that if a story wants to and is meant to be told by me, it'll stay put for as long as i need it to till i can find the time and energy to take care of it and write it down.

there's no advanced planning, no like... outlines or anything. i still just sit down and write.

before, back when i didn't have to get up at 8am to work a big girl job, i would just tough it out and stay up all night writing till i was done with the story or it was done with me or i got too delusional to keep on writing. but now, as long as i've got a decent start penned down, i can kinda close out the fic whenever i want to, and then come back to it later.

and thank you for reminding me to drink water!!! it's highly necessary haha. AND YES I LOVE CHILDHOOD FRIENDS TO LOVERS BRO. i can't wait till this fic is finished <3 now this answer got WAYYY fucking long but i hope you enjoyed reading my answer regardless.

[ichnoviriform]

back on the topic of health anxieties: i almost certainly have sleep apnoea n it definitely affects me, n i really should get tested + look for treatment (altho, my friend has a cpap n their cat eats the wires n is therefore banned from the bedroom, n i don't want to exile carey...)

+ i'm vaguely worried abt having MS since my grandpa does n if i do/am likely to develop it, it's better to get on top of it even if it's just preventative or ruling it out.

+w my nan getting randomly diagnosed stage4 cancer i shld get a full check up my goddd.

+i wanna get fuckin meta but there's no surgeons in aus, n only one that does phallo?? so like i'd have to go overseas for it if i could even afford it, which i can't

+i still need to actually reply to the psychologist i was thinking of seeing. i keep putting that off too. man.

medical stuff's so costly. n i love my gp but she's got 15mins tops per patient n always stressed n i absorb peoples' stress n i should just book a long appointment, man. or find someone new but fuck me it took me 2 yrs to go back to the dentist for routine cleaning, finding a new gp isn't easy 4 me.

...anyway in the meantime i'm waiting for my psychiatrist to get back to me abt making an appointment bc i'm out of adhd meds x_x death&dying.

n in general i need to get on top of weight/exercise bc i really don't do much exercise n i have watched what that does to three out of four grandparents and spoilers: it's not good! but i hate going outside and being Seen. so i don't go to a gym or just for walks. n just stay inside being anxious n restless lol. i miss hospo like the 10hrs standing/moving shit was Fine n i liked it. also i wanna get into fuckin medieval larping! i wanna wear armour n swing a fucking swooord! but i need a car first to b able to go anywhere lmao.

i'm just paralyzed by Everything like there's just too fucking much going on at all times so i get absolutely nothing done n stay resentful of all the wasted time. i wanna be doing somethingggg i really really do