#thinking abt it and doing nothing in the meantime

[strawglicks]

i can feel myself drifting from the TTCC community .. like i still love the characters and their dynamics, but ive been thinking less about toontown as a whole and just some of the characters are lingering . this usually happens towards the end of my obsessions

plus i just dont feel in touch with the community LOL i just kinda stick to my own stuff and sometimes like the art and stories ppl make .. but im in this awkward spot right now where im MENTALLY not engaging as much. idk if this is anything

[strayheat]

it's okay guys we just have to get through thursday and friday we're good

[bubuslutty]

fluff, fluffy, sweet sugary fluff!!!

thinking abt how 141 will accompany their captain and his wife on a family outing with their little girl who's a year old.

they go to a shopping mall, that has a trampoline park inside, and end up getting themselves tickets for the toddler session in the morning.

it's sort of funny, four massive military dudes sitting down and changing their socks into trampoline appropriate socks and wearing their little wristbands with a tiny bundle of joy already excited to go join the party inside.

John's wife doesn't feel like jumping so she picks a table and sits, the men leaving their shoes and things with her. Before going in, John hands his little one to Simon to hold while he goes and gets his missus a drink and whatever slice of cake she wants to have in the meantime. When she's all set, he kisses her and goes back to his men.

They get checked in by an employee who asks them to show their wristbands and socks and says hello when he sees John's little one, already giggling and clapping, kicking her legs.

It's pretty noisy, the music they're playing on the speakers is loud, not obnoxiously so, and there's a parent with every single toddler in sight. It's adorable, how many little ones try to jump and bounce and end up falling.

John decides to put his darling down and see where her tiny legs take her, she immediately starts to waddle, holding onto the edges of some higher, flat, platforms, trying to bounce but when she can't seem to do it she looks for her daddy and calls, "Dada !"

Gaz laughs, "She wants your help, go on."

And John bends down and holds her little hands in his, using his knees to make the trampoline go up and down, not too much, she's too tiny and may fly away if he does it too hard.

That's how the rest of the 1h session goes, they follow her like hawks, actively circling her in such a strategic manner that no rogue adult accidentally jumps on her. They take their job very seriously, and it looks like even other parents have noticed as well. Some mums smile at them, while others when they accidentally bump into them when backing away say, "I'm so so-- Wow, you're huge!"

The trampoline park even has two basketball areas, which are empty, and so the boys take advantage of the fact and goes to throw in some hoops, and it takes nothing for everyone to get competitive. Which they're busy competing against each other, John takes his baby back to where mum is and gives her a drink to hydrate her a little bit, she was bouncing and bouncing and running a mock after all.

Meanwhile, the boys move to a place called airbags. It's a high platform with stairs on the side, right below it there's trampolines and a massive airbag where you land. It's empty, so it's safe for them to go with no fear of accidentally stepping or jumping on a little one.

There's three trampolines lined one next to the other, so they each take one, jumping at the same time. Johnny somehow manages to do a backflip and lands on his belly, Kyle a front flip and Simon just lands flat on his back. They laugh and go up the stairs again, this time Johnny looks at Simon and glances at Kyle, whatever silent communication happened between them went right over Gaz's head. So they both grab him and throw him into the airbags and he lands with a scream, "Oh, fuck off!"

Johnny laughs his ass off until he has to escape Simon's arms wrapped around his waist, trying to throw him over, "Oi, no !"

Johnny doesn't want to full on wrestle his friend up in a trampoline park full of babies so he allows the giant of a man to lift him, spin him and chuck him in the airbag, sinking down down until he has to make his way out on all fours.

John comes back with his baby and they keep playing with her until she gets tired, and eventually their 1h session ends and they have to make their way out of the trampoline park. John's missus is laughing at them, because they're sweaty and looked like they had way more fun than their baby. They all plop down on the chairs to drink water and dry themselves with some tissues, change their socks and wear their shoes back on.

John's little one is tucked in her pram, little belly rising up and down as she sleeps with her little hands balled up into fists. John gives her a little kiss on the head and kisses his wife right after, thanking her for giving him this, for giving him everything he ever wanted. It's sappy but true.

When they're ready to leave, John pushes the pram out of the park, his wife locking one arm with his and the other with Kyle as he talks to her about some series they both like.

Simon walks on the other side, his shoulders sometimes brushing against his Captain's when he peers down and check if the baby is still asleep, and it makes John warm everytime.

[anguesinherbalatentes]

I wud like to hear more on gary going to happy volts

Damn I have a lot to say abt that. Warning it gets heavy and serious but I gave most bully characters heavy stuff in their backstories bc I’m insane. This also isn’t a way to justify the little beast but to explain his behavior in horrid ways. (Warning for suicide ment, general abuse, forced drugging, etc)

Well to answer that we should go far back. Maybe when he was still a little boy. Ahhh the year was 1997

Gary used to be a rather normal kid. A pair of loving parents and a few good friends. Sure he was kinda kooky (would talk to himself, not stand still, write and draw in class, make a mess of plants flowers art supplies and insects all the time, would be very loud and emotional) but that mostly was waxed up to him being an imaginative child. Plus he was rather ok in school. His mom was named Tonya Borisov and his dad’s Gareth Smith. Tonya was an English teacher and Gareth a lawyer who was attempting to freelance his way out of the Smith’s family’s business because he wanted to be independent from their law firm. Quiet suburban life. He met his best friend ever in the world at the age of 5 because they lived on the same block. Aka Petey Kowalski. They’ve been getting up to no good since forever, but him and Gary’s whole thing was running away from playground bullies together and make up stories about their own little world.

Their respective families got along too. Long story short everything seemed peachy. Tonya loved Gary beyond words and tried to accommodate his quirks because they reminded her of her own. A little reckless she was but nothing out of the ordinary. Gareth didn’t understand his son very well and was frequently frustrated with his behavior but he tried because god that’s his only child. Plus Tonya helped him out since he was clearly clueless about parenting. So was she. But there was no one to watch her back, so she had to make do.reasonably this doesn’t last long.

You see. Gary’s psychological issues are inherited from his mother. She already suffered from depression and it only worsened after pregnancy, even if she tried to bottle it up to the best of her abilities because god forbid she asked for help or couldn’t keep up the facade she’d carved for herself. Gareth didn’t help matters. He likes to think he did, but he’s always been too work oriented and weaponized incompetence has always been his best friend. Their relationship strained as Tonya’s mental health deteriorated and little Gary was caught in the middle. He watched his mom grow more and more uneasy (and her patience towards him drained bit by bit) n his dad kept getting snappier and he thought he had something to do with it all.

Around the year 2000, Tonya killed herself. It was unexpected to those with not enough care to see through the cracks. It was one hell of a blow for the little man who suddenly found himself with no actual guidance, and even that had been uncomfortably fluctuating for the past few months.

Gareth was absolutely lost. It’s not that he didn’t have good intentions, it’s just that he didn’t even have the willpower to try and find out how to act without somebody telling him what to do step by step. Still, he tried. But him being kind of an unsuccessful lawyer , now widowed and with a “difficult” kid, surely did wonders for his psyche. And consequently for his patience and relationship with Gary.

Mr Smith, yes the town npc, he’s Gareth’s father. Lets just say he’s not very approving of his son’s fumbling, notably because his siblings successfully integrated in the business and he’s the only one out of place. He constantly berates him and tries to take him back into his home and under his control, and for the longest time he’s unsuccessful. Until the rest of the family begins talking badly of Gareth and his son, and Gareth’s financial situation goes even more down south. In the meantime Gary’s mental health as an unchecked 10 year old boy left to his wits kept deteriorating. He fell behind in class, stopped talking to most of his peers, answered rudely to teachers (even if he didn’t mean to), the whole shabang that frames you as a freak for the rest of your life in little towns. His father did nothing to help. He only began yelling at him more frequently because his tolerance for his hijinks was running thin.

Gary learnt from a very young age that adults couldn’t, and wouldn’t watch his back. That most of the time he was a nuisance and nothing more, no matter how hard he tried to behave he just messed it up in some way.

A turning point to him and his father’s relationship was a party held at his grandfather’s estate. All eyes were on the both of them, especially Mr.Smith’s, and Gary, bored out of his mind and irked at the incessant bickering, answered rudely to the wrong relatives who tried to persuade him into talking about his home life and made a fool of himself gobbling down too many canape’s and retching at a glass of champagne he wasn’t even supposed to have. The whispers were a bit too much to bear for Gareth, and on the way home he snapped at his son like he never did before. Both in the car and in the house.

Gareth’s outburst is however less about Gary’s behavior and more about everything Gareth has been holding inside. It’s not just Gary’s tongue or almost involuntary defiance that sets him off. it’s the mounting pressure from his family, the echoes of his own failures, and the crushing weight of trying to hold it all together in an environment like that. But he still fucks it up.

In the past he’d made it clear he was proud of him, and that his presence was cherished. His only son, his only boy, etc. but he started blaming him for Everything going wrong in his life. In a tone that can only be compared to pure and utter Despair. That he didn’t know what was Wrong with him. That he tried to help him but he just kept acting like an animal one way or another. That his mom dying was the kid’s fault as much as it was his own ( right after comparing him to her in the negative: “You’re just like her, you know? Your mother. Always making a mess of things, always dragging everyone down with you.”) That she began feeling ‘sick’ ever since he’d been around. And that he kept tearing his life apart by being a complete nuisance. That he didn’t know what to do anymore. That maybe Tonya was right back then (they got married because Tonya was pregnant, even if she wanted to abort before. This is a low blow). Overall he slurries the foulest shit under the guise of being Tired. However, Gareth’s intent doesn’t erase the impact of his words. Even if he regrets saying all of that later (which he likely does), the damage is done. And because Gareth is too emotionally stunted to apologize, Gary is left to carry the baggage. This disarms the kid ( who’s 12 at the time) in a specific way and feeds into his eventual decline even more.

Around eight grade everything is too much for the little dude. He can’t get a hold of himself, cannot keep friends for the life of him due to his instability, he’s been separated from Pete due to middle school and the kid moving lanes , and his father’s growing emotional distance and neglect aren’t exactly the most formidable recipe to mental clarity.

He tried to kill himself like his mom did, via locking himself in the janitor’s closet and chugging down drain cleaner. They found him before it could kill him. A week’s stay in the hospital later, he was mandatorily sent to happy volts. You can imagine his father’s reaction.

Even if in my personal canon happy volts isn’t designed like a literal prison, but is more so adjacent to the institution described in Girl Interrupted, with the proper accommodations and architecture and all, that’s where the Gary smith we all know and seethe over fully formed. Where his convictions on the world and people really cemented. All because of one man in particular : Dr Bambillo.

He’s head doctor of the department Gary was in, for a good while. Prided himself of being the “friendly” and “approachable” professional. Lets just say it’s the farthest thing from the truth. Things happened there that are a little too heavy to elaborate on. But atop of those, after breaking Gary’s trust (who already was wary of trusting him in the first place, but desperate enough to cave into validation, for crying out loud he was 13) he also had him heavily medicated, and because he’d resist he was put a little too often in solitary confinement. Things got so bad he tried to get out of the place via throwing himself out a window and gouging his eye out with a sharpened piece of a plastic food tray to get to the nearest hospital. It did not work. It only extended his stay. That’s where his eye scar comes from btw. If someone asks he changes the story every time.

The meds he’s given are a source of great discomfort for Gary because they dampen his conscience and act as tranquilizers more than anything else. He was never prescribed the right ones. I took this from his voice lines lmao.

Days and weeks blur in and out, and the only reason he’s let out is because he’s fully blanked out. Or at least that’s what they think.

The place made him realize and internalize no amount of honesty would’ve kept him safe, and that the adults were nothing short of useless. So he had to lie his way through being set free, tongue his pills, remain alert and vigilant because no one was to be trusted. And it got him far. But after his release, he moved onto Mr Smith’s estate with his father, and was immediately sent to Bullworth to be Straightened out.

His lying only got finer and more extensive, and his budding loathing for everything around him began turning him into what he became in sophomore/junior year. He made friends and found Pete again but he fucked that up severely due to his delusions of grandeur and his conviction that life was a simulation at That point lol. But that’s the topic of another post. Aka my personal headcanons on Bully prequel and the rest of the shitass backstories I gave others.

Hope that wasn’t boring lol

[ohmygs-blog]

hi my loves <3 warning for u as this will be a bit of a long post bahaha but hopefully it will help explain to u guys :) i haven’t been very active on this account, or my second account as a lot of u guys have noticed. i appreciate all of the different dms and inboxes checking in on me and i’ve missed u all !!! and i promise i’m okay !!!

ive been doing a lot of thinking in the past couples weeks and i 100% do not plan on leaving this account or my writing anytime soon.

honestly i don’t have the words to explain what i mean or have been feeling but ig the best way would be; i’ve been losing the excitement that comes with posting and writing on tumblr.

im not sure what changed and that's what majority of where the frustration i have is coming from. i don’t want to say ive outgrown this because i don’t think i have, its just the struggle of thinking of ideas and messages that match with the little personas ive created.

i’ve talked abt it before and taking inspo from the dreamies irl personalities i’ve tried to create my own personas of them and it’s important to me idk hahaha. what i’m getting at is ive become a bit of a perfectionist and if i don’t think an idea of mine matches w their character its discouraging if that makes sense idk???

instead of the excitement, ive honestly just been stressing myself out and finding anything i can to pick at and tear down. which leads towards more stress because i honestly love writing and seeing all of ur comments & messages and interacting with u guys and when i feel like i have nothing to offer i feel bad ahahah.

ANYWAY all this to say, that im not closing my account or leaving u lovely ppl behind. i have a couple drafts written and saved in my drafts so ill be posting them and working on requests when inspiration strikes !!!!

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in the meantime if ur missing my writing (pls miss me bc ill miss u dearly), here's some of my other socials that i will be active on !!!!

pinterest !!! see what goes on in my brain, fic inspo boards, nct dream bf inspo & other boards :D

twitter !! @/ohmyyygodddd (idk what i’m going to do on my twitter lol but i’ve been waiting to make a 2nd account and i just made it today lol)

wattpad !!! fics below !! pls check them out i’m begging haha i’ve worked so hard on them and i’d love to share them w you guys :D

the alliance: wherein a group of friends can't get enough of their random internet feuds or taking down their enemies !

love department: wherein dani's friends are embarrassed over the lack of love (and boys) in her life and decide they need to help out.

[liquidstar]

chat i'm once again thinking abt how much i love the development of the emilia/subaru relationship. i just think they way they communicate with each other is so good.

both of them WANT to be together, they make that very clear. however their respective circumstances and traumas make that difficult at the moment, so they're kind of just hanging out. but everything is out in the open! they both know they like each other and wanna be together, but they're making the active choice to not act on it yet. given how fucked up they both are in the head... this is, like, remarkably healthy (and shows a lot of subaru's growth after feeling entitled! and emilia's growth in opening herself up to the idea that she could be loved!)

subaru constantly dotes on emilia, and its something she enjoys and feels comfort with. she feels like something is wrong when he doesnt (like in arc 6 w his amnesia). he tells her all the time that he loves her, expecting nothing back. shes not ready to commit to an "i love you," yet, but she's thankful to hear it, and she still wants to say it back someday. she outright says she can't marry anyone else because she's already chosen him! even if theyre not in a relationship, its like they're preparing for the day when they can be. they still both understand. and subaru is so patient with her about this now, he doesn't feel insecure about whether she likes him or not either. he knows! they both agreed to wait. they both know they're not fit for a real relationship but they're still committed to each other in this Just Hanging Out phase.

and from a writing standpoint i think this is GREAT because they can be a slow burn... and have open and honest communication about all their feelings for each other? thats so rare! literally no one is doing it like them. and i think their eventual relationship will have more payoff with less will they/won't they about the whole thing for it, imo. because 99% of the time w these kinds of stories, you know they will anyway, but what's cool here is that THEY also know they will.

i just think what they have going on is really cool and i love how it shows their growth. yes, its okay if theyre not "really" a fully romantic couple, that's too much for right now. but they can still be together in whatever way works for them, and slowly work their way into whatever comes next. they ARE working towards some kind of future together, but they're taking their time, testing the waters, and not settling into any specific roles just yet. just going with the flow, seeing how things turn out (especially w how hectic their lives are lol), but still undoubtedly loving each other (in emilia's case, even if she's not ready to commit to romantic love, you can't deny she loves subaru in a platonic way, or somewhere in-between).

its cool! its a cool dynamic that you dont get very often! but its also a very real one to me, they really feel like two troubled people just taking their time to figure stuff out with each other. not jumping into anything, but also preparing to eventually, and really communicating to make it work! that theyre both comfortable with how the other feels about them too, and easily settle into this nice peaceful dynamic they have in the meantime. theres no rush! they trust each other, and theyll get there.

[abslvr111]

blue banisters

cw. wlw (men dni), smut, fem!r, dom!els, sub!r, soft!ellie, no outbreak au, slight hair pulling, fingering (r!rec), cunnilingus (r!rec), wall sex 💀, titty sucking (r!rec), miss kink, this is jus me rambling abt ellie ngl 🤗

sum. you heir ellie to paint your banisters blue.

wc. 1.4k

it all started with an ad you saw while walking down the street, a local woman in your town just looking for odd jobs. it was perfect, you had been meaning to get someone to paint your banister, and you had a beautiful baby blue color you’d planned to use.

you dialed the number once you got home, it rang once, twice, a woman (you shortly found out to be named ellie) picked up, her voice was smooth and quips slick, she knew how to talk to people— she knew how to talk to women. your conversation with her made you wonder what she looked like, so you scheduled for her to come as soon as she could, you had nothing better to do, might as well meet your mystery woman as soon as possible.

she came just a few days later, pulling up your driveway in an old pickup truck, no doubt loud enough to alert you of her arrival. you watched her from your front porch, seen her hop out of the beat-up truck, slowly making her way towards you.

she wore a white tank top, one ready to get ruined by paint, it left her arms on display, her tattoo the last thing you noticed when her muscles were there, and a pair of worn-in blue jeans gathered with a brown leather belt around her hips. her short auburn hair pushed back behind her ears, intense green eyes trained on you, one married with an eyebrow scar, freckles decorated her soft cheeks, and her lips although slightly chapped they were still kissable, you decided.

she was gonna be nice to look at for the day, you thought.

you greeted her with a warm smile one she returned, the two of you talked about the job as you brought her through your home, you had a nice home, small, but fitting. it was cozy on the inside, with rugs and paintings on every wall and inch of floor, plants littered the complex cozily. it was quaint, nice, and well taken care of, the outside showed it the most, it was truly beautiful, with flowers growing everywhere to be seen, stones placed intricately to form a path to the quaint porch, a porch decorated with a nice wooden swing, the place was perfect, and she understood the pride you had in taking care of it.

she followed you obediently, standing just far enough from you to be able to watch your hips sway in the sundress you wore, the fabric hugged your figure nicely, and when you’d turn to look at her while you talked, she’d get an eye full of your cleavage at the bust of the dress, each time she tried her best to avoid staring to long.

you both made your way to the back porch, cans of blue paint lined up neatly on the dark wood, paint brushes and rollers in a plastic container, and everything else she needed to get the job done. the sweltering heat beat down on the both of you viciously, making sweat bead at ellie’s split brow, she shielded her eyes from the blaring sun with her hand. she looked even better with the sun shining on her, you felt your hand move towards your chest, toying with the necklace there, taking a sigh deeper than you meant to.

ellie noticed, watching your hand glide towards your chest, boobs rising and falling with your deep breath, you played with the pendent of your jewelry shyly, like you wanted to say something to her. but you were off before she could so much as mutter a word and so she was left to get started on her work.

in the meantime you occupied yourself in the kitchen making lemonade, it was peaceful, squeezing lemons and watching the world go by in your kitchen window, it also made for the perfect place to spy on ellie as she worked— an added perk.

you didn’t have to think about what you wanted to say to her yet, content with watching from afar. you looked at the way her wrist flicked with each movement of the paintbrush, the way she’d slightly bite into her bottom lip when concentrating, the way sweat highlighted her face perfectly and made brown strands of her hair cling to her forehead, it all made you swallow thickly, and hurry to finish the lemonade.

when it was done chilling in the fridge, you walked onto the balcony, the heavy door alerting ellie of your presence, she turned to face you from her crouching position, rasping out a, “hey, miss.”

miss, she started calling you that the moment she opened her mouth to speak to you and hasn’t let up since, not that you minded, it sounded nice rolling off her tongue— made a shiver roll down your spine.

“i made lemonade.” you beamed, she smiled back, her arms flexing when she moved to stand up straight. before taking the glass from you, she wiped the sweat off her forehead with the bottom of her top, exposing her defined abdomen to your eyes, you probably looked like a deer in headlights, a sly smirk formed on her face as she took the glass from your loose grip.

that was the night ellie asked you on a date, covered in paint and sweat— you obviously said yes.

to say your first date with ellie went well was an understatement, once you were back from dinner, and your front door was shut behind you, the two of you were on each other before you could even blink.

one of her hands tangled through your hair, effectively pulling you closer to her, while her other hand groped at your waist, her tongue was quick as the two of you started kissing, desperate and needy. you felt yourself moaning at the sensation, the feeling of her strong grip on you and her tongue on yours, it made your mind fuzzy.

you felt her hand go for the zipper of the cute dress you wore, unzipping it easily, she pulled back from the kiss, in favor of pulling at the straps of your dress, just enough to watch the way your tits slightly bounced at the motion. she took no time in immediately taking them into her hands, bringing her face down to suck tentatively on one, she hummed against you as you whimpered for her.

she softly pushes you up against the wall, mouth still on your tit, she takes the rest of your dress off, the only thing keeping you modest being your panties. ellie pulls herself from your chest with a lewd pop, getting you to step out of your dress completely, and pushing the fabric aside before getting to her knees in front of you, she glances at you through glazed eyes.

“you alright there, miss?” she’s smirking now, your cheeks feel hotter than before, and you feel yourself getting wetter.

“yeah,” your trying your best not to stutter, you don’t trust your voice the most right now, “it’s just, you look really hot.”

she laughs, it’s small, and now she’s pulling at the edges of your panties, they’re off your body quickly. two fingers are fast in circling your hole, drawing small moans from you, when she dips her fingers in, her other hand brings one of your legs to rest on her shoulder, and she traces your thigh with warm fingertips. your mind is muddled with thoughts of only ellie, and when you feel her warm mouth on you, her name is the only thing coming off your tongue.

she sighs against you, like this is the most relaxed she’s ever been, like she’s not currently got her face between your legs, and her tongue on your clit. your hand combed through her hair, bringing her pretty face closer to you, head buried between your thighs her tongue works in tandem with her fingers, both working fast on you.

your other hand found your tit, needing the soft flesh as ellie drew moans from you, softly you pulled at her brown locks, whining at her, wanting more of her. she gave in, tongue licking harder at you, slender fingers curling inside you, your thighs felt numb, fingers gripping her hair even tighter, you came whining her name like it was the only thing you knew. she took her fingers from you, messily sucking them clean, before getting up to her feet to kiss you, tongues touching you could taste yourself on her tongue, it makes you moan into her mouth, you could’ve stayed like that forever.

[yuurivoice]

hi hi hi! nothing of real substance here, just wanted to drop in and express how HYPED i am abt eoe!! it is so intriguing to me, ik we don’t have the whole puzzle yet but i’m already gnawing at the bars of my enclosure in a very good way! thank you for sharing your creativity <3

I'm going to be working very hard to make sure y'all have something to sink your teeth into soon, and I'm very excited as well!

I went from "well I need to wait for EoE episode 1 to be completely done before touching supplemental content" to...well, thinking of a bunch of different things I could do in the meantime.

Part of the struggle is that I love the visual component of BitterSweet, etc now but we are limited in what we can do because time and effort. But we've got artwork, I've got the ideas, I could easily make audio-only stuff in the meantime that could help build interest and hype for the Main Event, so to speak. lol

There are a few side characters in particular who could definitely have at least an audio or two to get to know these characters before the big story kicks off.

We'll see what happens, but I'm definitely thinking outside of the box I put myself in when I first had those ideas.

[daily-outsiders]

I keep thinking abt this bc it’s so funny to me, can you imagine Magic in clearing 2? Like she’s just going about her day and suddenly she’s screaming in pain bc surprise girly!! Broken leg!!!

Would she feel Owen’s exhaustion? Bc he didn’t sleep for a while pre lever pulling. Actually maybe since it’s a dl au he’d avoid doing some of that bc he’d feel bad for whoever his soulmate was,,

(Btw do you like. Prefer us sending dl asks to this blog or your main? Bc idk if you have a separate mcyt blog or if you’d rather keep all your daily outsiders art separate or what and I don’t want to clog your inbox whenever we wanna say we like your au :( )

(sending it all here works!! <3 for the most part i just dump all my outsiders stuff here anyway :D all my sideblogs are INCREDIBLY inactive and my main blog is pretty much nothing but reblogs atm)

IDK HOW I FORGOT ABOUT THE WHOLE BROKEN LEG THING OMG POOR MAGIC????? OUCH???????

shes just like. going about her day. leading her clearing. then Boom. broken leg.

it is fun to think about the dynamic with the outsiders and their soulmates before they know who their soulmates are, wanting to take care of themselves to not hurt the other even before theyve met

maybe magic would feel his exhaustion and then sleep extra for his sake to try to help, i could see her doing that (and she can have like mae or someone run the clearing in the meantime)

i ALSO think emotions and stuff would carry over!! since, if PHYSICAL pain carries over, it only makes sense EMOTIONAL pain would too. poor hugger duo would be feeling each others stress and then itd just be like stress²

[millionmaggots]

did/osdd/posdd/etc havers, can i mayhaps get ur opinion on something please?

i havent rlly been posting abt it bc the plural/system space online is HELLA SCARY with all the fakeclaiming n discourse n shit, but im realizing i proooobably have some kind of dissociative shit going on 😭

- can't remember the first 10 years of my life with any detail, then it gets a little clearer until age 15 or so when i can remember pretty well / maybe normally (idk what normal really is tho)

- i lose hours at a time

- i don't have distinct people in my head except for this one lady who's basically the ceo of violent / upsetting intrusive thoughts (i don't think i experience switching)

- but i do have a very disorganized train of thought, with a lot of different things going on at once / overlapping (i also have adhd tho)

- ive heard voices (that don't sound like me) on and off since i was like 8 or 9

- ^ i got tested for schizophrenia and i do not have it

- my parents get annoyed with me bc apparently i take / move their stuff, but i often have no memory of doing it, and little/no reason to have done it, despite evidence that i did. i usually just say that although i have no memory of doing it, i guess i did and im sorry. this one happens probably at least weekly and causes me a lot of distress bc it's scary being told that i did something i don't remember / wouldn't do

- people (esp my parents) sometimes tell me im acting off / different, and it's really confusing, bc as i see it, im always acting like myself

- i have a history of acute dissociation / depersonalization, especially when i was working a rlly stressful job

- i have an absolute dogshit short term / working memory

- i space out and fail to process things ALL THE TIME, especially auditory information. i need about 20% of everything said to me repeated.

- i get inexplicable feelings of dread from things i have no (conscious) emotional connection to

- i have cptsd symptoms and at least 2 distinct triggers associated with bad experiences ive had

- accidentally called myself a 'we' when talking to my psych? i remember everything about the appointment except the context around why i would've made that mistake

- like i said, i have adhd, and my adderall helps me focus, but doesn't do anything for my general inattentiveness / spacing out / forgetfulness

- my childhood was like. fine? in terms of like parents/housing/money/friends/etc, but i grew up not knowing my gender identity or that im disabled, and i had a severe undiagnosed anxiety disorder dismissed by adults as me being "shy" and "sensitive" so there was a constant ever present feeling that i was just inherently a bit off / wrong / broken

- nothing bad was directly done to me when i was little (as far as i know?) but i was, in hindsight, emotionally abused by my principal and homeroom teacher all throughout middle school (severe depression and anxiety, i was told to "stop being so negative" or i would be put in a different classroom without any of my friends <- the people who helped me and made me feel at least a little bit safe)

tl;dr: if anybody w osdd/did, etc, took the time to read all this, i would REEEEALLY appreciate u guys giving all this a sniff test 😭 not asking 4 a diagnosis obvs just kinda a peer review

i have a psych appointment abt this in about a month but in the meantime i would love to hear from systems who know abt this kind of thing. what do u guys think is up?

(PLEASE don't drag syscourse over here bc i know it'll just make everything im dealing with worse and more confusing /gen /srs)

[seaweedbraens]

can I just say how much I Love the way you did justice by Piper?

She was always my favorite character in this fic, and you've made her resolution is so cathartic and beautiful, especially in regards to Shel.

One of the biggest issues I have with RR is how he treated Piper and basically ignored her trauma. Like, Piper had so much baggage and issues surrounding her relationship with Jason and gave her a new relationship just cause, literally in the next book.

The way you've written it, it's just really clear that she's hurting. She wants to heal, she needs to heal, but just slapping a new relationship on as a bandaid isn't going to do anything, and the way that you've written her coming to terms with her healing journey is phenomenal.

(I hope this made sense I'm just really emotional about her okay?)

piper's was my FAVORITE epilogue to write. it felt good to help her start to heal - she has been through SO MUCH and i think it is important for her to slowly come to accept the idea of love (in any form) again. to me shes the character with the most love to give, she is generally kind and accepting, and she has been hurt what feels to her in a way beyond repair. i think anyone in her situation would find it hard to let go and even begin to thinking of someone new, but it has to happen eventually and so i wanted piper to slowly come to terms with that and all that it entails.

in the end, i want piper to remember jason with love, but to also recognize that it is a love that has passed. that doesnt mean she loves him any less, but it does mean that she will one day open her heart up again. it doesnt have to be anytime soon, or at all, tbh, but in the meantime, she has her friends. :)

also lets get something clear i HATE canon shel. like first of all piper moved on too quick like who IS this woman, and secondly thats a stupid ass name, i made it short for shelby because i had to give her SOMETHING 😭😭 also the way we know NOTHING ABOUT HER LMFAOOOO @perseannabeth had to educate me on all things we dont know abt shel aside from the fact that shes native american apparently (which also i didnt know because i didnt do a SHRED of research so. whoops) but anyway. the good thing abt my version of her is that i made her a Person with a Personality because she was a blank canvas and now i quite like my take on her. oh well

[fishiteeth]

I'm just thinking about some of the data leaks (?) I've seen for Palia and I'm rolling in my grave waiting for the Elderwoods update.

Talking abt said data leak below the cut , potential spoilers

I can't wait for the elderwoods it's driving me crazy

So the website paliapedia* has a few pages where you can see bugs and fish and plants and stuff right? Well, alongside the bugs we can see in-game, we have a bunch that aren't there yet

A bunch of new bugs? And most of them are moths? Pretty safe to assume the Elderwoods is gonna be relatively dark, if not in a consistent state of night.

With some of the descriptions of the new bugs, we can also begin to assume that the Elderwoods will be a bit more inhospitable toward players. More violent, per se. Some bugs feast on dead meat, other are meant to look creepy.

So with that, I'm thinking we will get some sort of hostile new animal in the Elderwoods (unless the butterflies and moths can figure out away to kill on their own) and I'm just gonna say I won't be surprised if it's the Elderwoods Beast.

Other than just bugs, there are new plants as well

Not too much I have to say about them, really.

Probably gonna get a new tree with the Kopaa Nut.

I'm wayyyy more interested in the flowtato. Could on and on about that, and I might just do that later.

As of right now, there is nothing on the website in regards to new fish or animals, so we still have those to look out for.

Anyways

I'm really excited about all of the content we can see and am anticipating everything we haven't see yet. BUT. I really don't forsee this update coming in the next few months. I'd honestly estimate another 7-12 month before we get any word on what they're doing with the update, if not more.

In the meantime, we really just have to sit back and watch. With all the layoffs and the merge with Daybreak, I can't imagine the stress S6 employees are under, so I wouldn't push for updates or news or anything, and I'll just take what I can get.

Anyways that's my piece.

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[fictionhelpers]

Hello, we adore this blog's current setup & are very interested in consulting your shufflemancy playlist, please if that would be alright :]!

into the unknown - aurora

bravado - lorde

seven - sleeping at last

these songs together seem to imply a transitional stage, regaining strength / confidence, and moving on to new situations!!

aurora's version of 'into the unknown' is beautiful and haunting. a voice calls to her that she tries desperately to ignore — she is cautious, careful, and afraid of upturning her current life. at the same time, she cannot help but be curious. what if this is what she's been looking for this entire time ? this could represent a new opportunity calling to you that you may be scared abt at first !!

lorde's 'bravado' reads to me as a song about accepting , even thriving under attention. intentionally pushing past long-held anxiety / withdrawn nature to move on to being comfortable when looked upon. Asserting that you Do deserve the admiration + spotlight — it may frighten you, but you have always been worthy of it <3 u can fake it till you make it (pretending in the meantime is better than nothing) !

sleeping at last's 'seven' echoes these messages, yearning for new adventures to enjoy with the lasting loves in his life. staying stagnant ends up worsening his state of mind . the song speaks of readiness to explore and take risks . it also emphasizes hope for the future and a desire to properly appreciate the good, kind people in life! there is also a slight air of throwing urself into new situations to distract from current emotions. it's important to slow down sometimes as well!

interesting note: both lorde and sleeping at last reference mountains ! 'It's a marathon run or a mountain you scale without thinking of size' from the former, and 'Let's climb this mountain before we cross that bridge!' for the latter :3

[the-bjd-community-confess]

i’m the same anon who confessed abt dxg1rly not sending my dolls for almost a year exactly, mod if u see this before my other one apologies for any confusion haha. tldr/summary: i believed in dxg1rly, bought a full 3D doll when she said she was gonna stop selling dolls + desperately needed cash last year.

anyway she keeps putting off bc now she’s out of boxes ig, and before she accidentally ruined the doll after finishing sanding but never sent pics, and at this point she keeps being like yeah i’ll send it next week!! it’s all finished i promise!! at least 3 times within the past FOUR weeks. she says she so behind but what keeps annoying me is she keeps making and printing more dolls and selling them in the meantime, when I know she’s behind on other dolls bc my friend recently also fell for her and bought a few dolls and keeps getting strung along. i wasn’t annoyed until my friend started getting mad because hes more assertive. and now im realising that my support means nothing, if she cant deliver, because i’m supporting someone who isnt reliable.

anyway what sparked that is because she posted about low sales at one point, then she was out of money after buying boxes, and then her bf is going to be layed off or something i guess. and now she’s printing a million dolls and sculpting more and talking about selling dolls for buying probably another h@ru doll.

anyway some people HAVE gotten their dolls. mines was a 3D print on sale so i think like $200 in USD. my friend got casted, 2 3D prints, and a garage kidt. 3D prints & garage kit are way over due at this point but not as much as me. :/

so take this info with a pinch of salt, if you want to buy. i don’t say she is a bad person, but i am not a happy customer for her. Btw i DO like her sculpts. this is nothing against her artistry.

~Anonymous

[yj-98]

Ok can I be a hater too. Just for a sec.

Yeah fanon Tim and Jason can be pretty bad. But you know what the worse fucking thing is? Fanon Cass and Jason.

First of all the way some of them think that Cass and Jason gets along? At all? If Tim at most feels distant disdain and co-workership for Jason, Cass would straight up hate that bitch.

The thing is that Cass does not hate killers. She is pro-redemption. She does not care that you killed she believes that you can stop and be better. But I think what would set Jason out from the others is that he wants to make others kill as well. Mainly, Batman.

Cass would hate that. So much. Because Batman? Who is this big symbol for her that stands for everything she believes in? In helping people, in saving people, in giving it your all to do better and find another way.

It is different with Jason because I totally believe that Cass is down to work with people who think that in some occasions, you can do nothing but kill (Helena.... God I am so insane about the potential of a Cass and Helena relationship) but Jason fully believes that you should take the power of killing and direct it towards someone. To choose and paint a target on someone's back and shoot.

I do think that Jason's relationship is very complex and interesting and more than just "I kill people bc they deserve it" but for Cass it does not matter.

(Ok this is very long apologies 😣😣😣)

CAS UR ALWAYS WELCOME TO BE A HATER WITH ME!! u dont have to apologize ... ur so right . youll have 2 forgive me because i do tend to avoid fanon cass because the . rampant racism and misogyny makes me want to die. and i have not Yet read a whole lot w/ cass in it

this is related to what rus and i were talking abt in the replies to a post, esp what she was saying about like. especially cass would not stand his ass

i really do think that jasons ability to get along w/ cass (and tim) would hinge on his own journey. one that they have not rly given him in any meaningful way. bc ur right unless jason was working towards the change (ill be so real idk what theyre doing w/ him rn. i stopped paying attention to a lot of what dc writes w/ him post-resurrection) aside from the rubber bullets thing, it just.... does not respect her character motivations to have them just. Get along.

this is all also hinging of course on the direction of batfamily/wayne family writing. and like. whether or not you WANT them to get along eventually or for jason to have any sort of meaningful divergence from the motivations he had like. over a decade ago LOL............

this chasm between cass and him within the family could have a lot of weight if dc cared! the writing could be fun. if dc cared. like i said w/ the other stuff. there could be interesting arcs to be had if the characters had to work for some kind of resolution or common ground. in the meantime (or just as a baseline) i really feel like there should be someone who is the foil to jason amongst the 'kids' who can be the counter. it would just make for better writing overall

idk if any of that made sense but. i am shaking your hand.

[theophagie-remade]

I know we're supposed to wait for the officials and see more stuff coming out, so i won't judge too much.

So Idk how to explain exactly the way i see it, but i had the same reaction when Deku was mentioned. I went from "oh noooo" to "HELLO???" really fast i almost had a stroke lmao

But i guess it has to with how Uraraka compared something she admire abt Deku, a hero friend in common with Toga and applied that to forward how strongly she felt abt Toga and that caused her to make that gay ass confession and commit to Toga in a deeper way and so on.

It's all a jambled mess of thoughts and words, bc, well emotions still running high lol. I hope i can come up with something better bc i really wanna talk abt it

XD

I don't know, I'm super torn 😵‍💫 I haven't seen images of this one scene yet, so this is all based on what the leaker said, but to me Uraraka thinking about Deku and then saying that she wants to be like Toga automatically read as "oh, I want to be upfront about my feelings too", that's why I'm... annoyed/frustrated with it, like girrrrl you were doing so well, and then you had to bring mr brocoli into it (+ I think it's kind of dumb to put an ordinary crush on a boy on the same level as Toga's feelings, even if it is to validate them/show that there's nothing wrong with them, that there's something admirable in the way they're expressed)

I mean, I was an absolute doomerist for this arc (with some of my old posts as proof askxkgk), so what happened has wildly surpassed my expectations as it is, and Uraraka will always be gay-in-love with Toga in my heart no matter what 🫶🙏 to me it's one of those classical shonen cases where In Theory there's a couple we should pay attention to and look forward to seeing (izu//ocha), but In Practice the members of that couple have waaaaay more interesting things going on with someone else (LIKE "DRINK MY BLOOD, FOREVER" HELLO ?????), but with girls too for once lol. Idk, patiently waiting for @/pikahlua's translations in meantime to have a clearer idea of what's going on 🫡