#thinking about Raphael makes my heart hurt 😭

[quietwingsinthesky]

look at me. I’m so normal about the line “in the role of Michael Corleone, the archangel Raphael.”

[theyhavetakenovermylife]

Ok so I have a dorky request… I loved your MM fics and especially loved Donnie’s wholesome family one, SO CUTE!! Aww my heart!

Anyway I was wondering if you could do one where the reader has been friends with the family since they were kids like toddlers. And one day at dinner Splinter makes a comment about how they are part of the family and like a sister. The boys get uncomfortable and make gagging noises and the reader is just like ‘??? I thought you liked me?’ And the reason they didn’t like the sister comment is because they have a crush on them? It can be one of them or all of them or separate I don’t care.

Anyway I LOVE YOUR WORK! I have low key been stalking your blog for content…but before anything take care of yourself!! Drink water, eat food, and get rest! Ok love ya, bye!!!

Family Friend (Fluff)

MM!Raphael x reader

A/N: You’re an absolute cutie! Please continue your stalking as much as you want💚😭 I think you would like to know that I had a full breakfast before writing this, and a full glass of water by my side throughout😉 I decided to make this with Raph, because… well, Idk. Guess I’m a little Raph sick this morning lol. Hope you enjoy❤️

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Warnings: Spelling, because my dyslexia has been bucking this morning, a little bit cracky at the end😅❤️

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Splinter never really liked humans. No actually, he had always kind of hated them. Before he mutated he feared them, and after he just generally disliked them. And all four of his sons knew that very well. He had warned them several times, telling them never to get close to the humans that lived above ground, unless they wished to get hurt, or even worse, milked. Splinter used to tell his sons horrible stories about the humans, and how they hated everything that they didn’t understand. Well, that was with one exception; you.

First time you met the turtles and their rat father was by pure accident. Somehow, at the age of four years old, you had managed to get lost in the sewers, crying for your parents, unsure which way to go. Therefore you sat down, bawling your eyes out in the middle of the gross sewers of New York City, believing that this would be the last of you, and that you never would see your parents again. But to your luck, somebody heard you. Somewhere in the sewers, not far away, four turtle brothers heard crying, running to their father screaming about a ghost outside in the sewers.

Splinter, being the caring father that he was, told them he would go out and take a look for them, thinking it was probably nothing but the imagination of his sons. And that’s how Splinter ventured out in the sewer, his four year old sons following closely in his heels, before they found you crying somewhere in the corner.

Splinter’s first reaction was to run, leaving you behind while he tried to bring his sons back home safely. But his sons, being so incredibly slippery and hard to catch, with their big love for humans, had already taken a great liking to you, not leaving your side until Splinter agreed to bring you back to the lair. And that was how you spent the next few hours, safely in the lair, cuddled up with four mutant turtle toddlers, while Splinter tried to locate your family.

After that day, Splinter relaxed, thinking that his family was once again safe and hidden away from the humans. So could you imagine his shock when you stood in the doorway, asking if his sons wanted to come and play with you in the sewer. Even more shocked were he to see his sons already at your side, big puppy eyes as they waited for his permission. Splinter had already lost that battle.

Over the next eleven years, you would become a common occurrence in the brothers’ lives. Whenever you got the chance you would find yourself in the lair, hanging out with the boys that would become your closest friends. Even Splinter started to take a liking to you, even if it took a little longer than it had done with his sons. It went so far that he would invite you down to the sewers for family dinners, holidays and birthday parties, and even bring you gifts on your own birthdays.

You would become one of the few connections the boys had to the outside world, other than their few grocery runs every now and then. When the five of you weren��t playing video games, watching movies or running through the sewers or dark alleyways and rooftops, they would hang over your shoulder, watching as you did your homework, asking you all sorts of questions about human schools.

Raphael however, asked more than the others. How big was your school? Was it just like the schools in the movies you've watched together? And your teachers, were they just as horrible, and did they give you a lot of homework? The content of your homework however, didn’t interest him much. But watching you do them while telling him about your day was what he found interesting. Sitting at the kitchen table, balancing his sai between his finger and table, head resting on his other arm, stealing glances at you when you weren’t looking, deeply invested in whatever subject you were studying. He couldn’t help but hide a smile against his arm, whenever he saw you bite your lip in frustration.

Raphael’s brothers weren’t blind. They had noticed the way he would act whenever you were around, comparing it to how Leonardo would react whenever he saw a girl in a movie; awestruck. He was the first to greet you in the lair, and often the one to ask if you would come down for a visit. Once you would be in the lair, he would hover around you, unconsciously doing anything he could to stay close to you. How you still hadn’t noticed Raphael’s growing crush on you was a wonder to them. The way he would try to hug you longer than any of his brothers, and how he would poke you throughout the movie. His crush was so obvious, he might as well have been screaming it out loud in the lair. And yet you didn’t notice. But that wouldn’t last long.

It was regular Thursday evening, and you had once again been invited down to the lair for dinner with the turtles and their father. It went how it usually did, with Splinter and Michelangelo making dinner, while the three others kept you entertained. I didn’t take much, as you always found yourself having a great time in the lair.

After dinner was made, and the boys reluctantly had set the table, all of you sat down to eat. You talked about school, and that one test you had been nervous about. Splinter listened with a proud smile as you told him how it went. It did not matter to him what grade you got or how far you were in class. What mattered was how brave you had felt, making Splinter feel like a proud parent, remembering the scared little girl he and his sons found in the sewer. And it was with that feeling of proud fatherhood, that Splinter made what was meant to be a friendly comment, to who he now considered a surrogate daughter.

“It makes me happy to know you felt brave today. I think all of us feel so”, Splinter said, gesturing to the smiles on his sons’ faces. “Your growth makes me proud, but not just as a friend. (Y/N), I hope you know that we view you not just as a close friend of the family, but as a part of the family itself, like a daughter and sister”.

You smiled at Splinter, wanting to tell him how much it meant to you, and that you too felt like their family had become like a second home to you. But you couldn’t before laughter erupted from the boys, along with gagging noises, fingers pointing down their throat as they acted as if they were going to throw up. Raph however stared at his food in horror. No way his dad just said that to you!

You looked at the boys in confusion. It wasn’t uncommon for them to tease you, lightly commenting on your human looks or your smell. Nothing you couldn’t take. But that moment was different. Raphael avoided eye contact, head docked low looking displeased at his father. But his brothers looked like they were having the time of their lives, sending teasing smiles Raph’s way, making him cross his arms over his plastron, sulking even further into his chair.

“Hey!”, you said, catching their attention. “Don’t look that sad. I thought you liked me”.

“Oh, we like you, okay”, Donatello said, turning his attention towards Raphael with mischief in his eyes, nudging him with his elbow. “Some more than others”, he sang, wiggling his brows. Raph scowled at his brother, crossing his arms tighter. He now regretted sitting beside you, forcing himself to look away from you, his cheeks burning hot under his mask.

“Maybe you should quit it out, Donnie”, Leo said, a smile still plastered on his face. “You know how he gets when we tease him about that”.

“Shut it”, Raph grumbled, sliding even further down the chair, until he was almost laying on his shell.

“Teasing about what?”, you asked, still not fully understanding what was going on. “What is wrong with your dad saying I’m part of the family?”

The brothers giggled, before Mikey stood, hands cupped around his mouth as he yelled, “Raph has a crush on (Y/N)”.

“That’s it!”, Raph yelled, standing from his chair making his brothers jump in laughter. “Come here you little shits!”

You and Splinter watched as Raph chased his brothers around the lair, telling them to stop as they yelled about everything his crush on you had made him do or say.

“Okay, maybe you’re not like a sister to everyone”, Splinter said with you nodding in agreement, a small smile creeping up on your lips. Family or not, these boys meant everything to you, and you could not imagine a day without them.

[beelanddiavolosimp-blog]

I made something! You can use it to your advantage as well but I am dumb and forgot Luke my poor child.

Context! This will be basically my Mc's world where me and my sister are in devildom alongside everyone. (Updated feelings!)

Lucifer : I have heavy daddy issues so once I saw Lucifer and how he acted I was like 👀. There is a little red because sometimes I hate him so lol. Due to me having a massive crush on Dia and Beel I slowly had my feelings converted to friends since though I am a slut I am a loyal slut. So I did have romantic feelings/crush beforehand but my feelings became stronger.

Mammon: Ofc the poor boy is smitten but since it's with both me and my sister he has feelings for both. I absolutely adore him and if I didn't want dia and beel so bad he would be next in line. But I do also find him a great friend.

Levi: Lmao okay the little hate is because I cannot stand the way he talks I have stated this before but that's really it. Otherwise I think he'd be a great friend because I do enjoy anime and totally would play video games with 24/7. I do not find myself dating him and view him as only a friend. Though sadly I feel like he'd gain a crush on me with how often I'd be around him.

Satan: Don't get me wrong he is hot and all but not that much my type (doesn't like blondes). We would be great friends I feel like since we have bad anger issues to fix together. Again I feel like he would like me slowly because I love to piss off Lucifer and can relate to him.

Asmos: Now I have like zero romantic interest in him. So I would like being friends since I do enjoy makeup and skincare. Because I enjoy some angst I feel like he would gain a crush on me but I would have to push him away and let him see me actively love after someone else knowing I am not doing it on purpose.

Beel: straight up in love with him. Everything he does makes me smile and make my heart hurt. I feel like even though it's hard for him to speak of his emotions he would be heavily in love with me too. I adore family and would do anything for them along with being strong on my beliefs and opinions. I also often self sacrifice because I care for others too much. (I swear I am not trying to be a pick me I just see qualities the brothers would like about me and they would push feelings too far with them😭)

Belphie: of this little slut has a crush on me he is constantly up my ass and very protective whenever someone else touches me (not beel). I would definitely have a crush since I like protective men. Tho again my feelings for his brother would overpower that. I would absolutely love him as a friend because starting shit is so much fun and I adore sleeping.

Solomon: this fucker is someone my sister would go after so I will back off (in this au). We would be great friends and I'd probably tease him for the crush he has on my sister.

Raphael: surprise! I don't fully hate him anymore! He's grown a bit on me since I can see he does care a little but I still get irritated by him. I feel like he wouldn't care much for my existence and tolerate me when I am around but not fully hate me.

Meso: dear God his attitude in the game gets me furious. I will definitely butt heads with him and constantly argue. But I do feel like at a calming point we'd be a little bit of friends in that time.

13: my beloved wife I want to marry her. It'd be the classic wlw troupe of best friends who have secret feelings for each other that everyone can see but them.

Simeon: he's sexy to me and actually very sweet so I would have a tiny crush on him. That would soon turn to friends due to others but it would be like me and him raising luke basically. Which would lead to him liking me since he'd love me as Luke's (mom).

Dia: I am in love need to marry immediately. He is such a sweetheart that if I'd tell him slightly that I like him he would go off the rails and do anything in his power to come after me. (Id love it)

Barb: again belongs to my sister so no romance. We would enjoy tea and peace and quiet. Kinda like two older siblings finally getting a break together 🤣.

Luke: I would treat him like my little brother or son because he's so cute I wouldn't be able to resist. I'd be aiming for an older sister role but he most likely won't see me as that and more motherly.

Please do not take this as me being a pick me this is my take on how things would be like in my world/au of Obey Me and it could end in many different ways that I can write about if you'd like.

[misc-obeyme]

Here's a kinda angsty thought I have with dateables!

Okay, the brothers and side characters (not Luke ofc) love MC, yeah? And MC makes it very clear the brothers are their first choice whenever they have to choose between them and the side characters.

Imagine Diavolo, Barbatos and Solomon hell maybe even Thirteen when they realize no matter what they do, the brothers will always be on top for MC. Sure, MC is great with them but they only truly relax and show their real self with the brothers and it shows.

What do you think? [BTW have a great night/day!]

MY FRIEND I AM SO SORRY.

Apparently this ask was sent way back in October?!?! It only just showed up today!!! Tumblr, whyyy??

I got your other ask today, too and I will answer that one as well! But I think this must have been the mystery message my ask box kept telling me was there, but I could never see it?! It was like you have 1 message, but then it'd also be like your ask box is empty and I was like which is it?!

I'm so sorry if you thought I just ignored your ask 😭

That is absolutely not my style at all, so a note to everyone who has ever sent me an ask: if I don't respond in maybe a week, please send it again!! I usually answer asks within a couple days, but I'm saying a week just in case I have some extenuating circumstances lol.

ANYWAY lemme actually answer your ask from two months ago! 😭

I think about the potential of this scenario when I wanna get angsty lol.

So here is what I think it would be like for the side characters realizing that MC will always choose the brothers over them:

Diavolo: Ahh, our prince would be so gentlemanly about it. Especially if MC ended up with Lucifer specifically. But either way, I think he would prioritize MC's happiness over his own. He would see MC's choice as a good one. He would see the way the brothers love MC. He would get sad about it sometimes and I think he'd have some sleepless nights where he wishes MC was beside him. But in the end, he would focus on his job and let MC go. Seeing them be comfortable and happy with the brothers would bring him a sort of bittersweet happiness, too.

Barbatos: I think Barbatos would withdraw. I think he would become quieter and even more formal around MC than he already was. He respects MC's choice. I also feel like he would deliberately restrain himself in order to keep the peace. He cares too much about Diavolo, the brothers, & the state of the Devildom to really fight for MC's affections.

Simeon: Quiet suffering, but willing to cry about it when he needs to. Like I see him being honest with himself about how much it hurts, but never letting anyone else know. He would watch MC with a soft fondness, but from afar. Willing to let them be with the brothers if that's what makes them happiest.

Solomon: To be expected. Solomon already believes this. He already thinks MC is going to choose the brothers over him every time. He's prepared for that inevitability. It still breaks his heart to watch them slip away from him. Deep down, it probably devastates him. But he's determined to be there for them in any way he can, no matter what that looks like. And he would never let them know how he really feels... unless he got drunk maybe.

Thirteen: I see her being kinda like, Fine! Who needs you anyway!? But she says it with tears in her eyes. She gets abrasive as a response. And at first she might be a little stand offish with MC after she realizes. But I think in the end, her love for MC would soften her again, but it would hurt, too. She would need some time to transition herself to "friends only" status.

Raphael: I see his response as being kind of a mix between Simeon and Barb. Like, he's going to accept MC's choice and wants them to be happy, but he's also going to have to restrain himself from fighting for MC. Mr Spears does not strike me as the kinda guy who would just let someone go if he really loved them. But he does seem to be the kind of guy who cares a lot about doing the right thing. And I think he would consider letting MC go to be the right thing.

Mephisto: I could see him trying to push MC away himself, in an effort to protect himself from getting hurt. Like oh who would want a human anyway? Only fallen angels, obviously. But that's not what he really thinks, it's just a coping mechanism. And he can't keep it up anyway. He's secretly soft for MC. So I see him just transitioning to hating the brothers. Not going out of his way to make their lives difficult, but not helping them out either. Only being nice to MC. Keeping that pain inside because he can't admit it even to himself.

Nooo I made myself sad lol. I guess that's the point of angst though, huh??

Anyway, I am very fascinated by this topic! Once again, I'm sorry you had to wait so long for the response, I'm still so annoyed at Tumblr lol.

[truths33k3r4]

Hi! Gosh the part in your Strength in Weakness story where Leonardo just breaks down after hurting Raphael was so well done 😭 which leads me to a QUESTION! How are each of the turtles with expressing emotions or crying in front of each other? I know in society boys (and teens at that), are typically not going to be publicly emotional.

Hello, another Anon! (seriously my brain is STRUGGLING trying to think of who this is.)

Thank you very much!!! As someone who has three siblings, I’ve somewhat been in that position a few times, so it came pretty naturally to write about it.

Ahhh good question!! I’ll go through all of them by their ages. (Heads up this is gonna be LONGG.)

Mikey- Mikey is the most open with how he feels towards his brothers. He’s never been afraid to cry in front of them, and is always encouraging them to be just as open with him. When Lotus comes around, this empathy and emotional-forwardness only grows, trying to prove to Lotus that she can trust the family with her heart.

Lotus- She takes a long time to willingly cry in front of her adopted brothers. The other times she’s wept in front of them were not really her choice. And if she could choose to not feel anything she would. She tries to keep her sob-story to herself unless the information is vital, (not only because it’s painful to relive those memories, but also because she hates being in the spotlight of any kind.) Besides crying, she is VERY open with expressing her annoyance and anger. Her temper is one that rivals Dons, so she wears a scowl more often than not. But on the more rare occasions, she willingly allows a smile and laugh to bloom on her face. (Especially if it cheers someone up.)

Don- Don doesn’t cry in front of anyone. Ever. Tears find his eyes foreign, and emotions that cause tears are just as odd to him. Going by logic, he has a very good life filled with a loving family and a safe home. Soooo no reason to be sad. With other emotions, especially anger, he uses his tone more often than his expression to voice it. (Except for with his twin, Raph. With him Don’s filter vanishes in an instant.) Logic and emotion don’t always go hand-in-hand, so his attempts to cheer someone up usually fall flat, accidentally being laced with apathy and hard, emotionless facts.

Raph- Tears are nothing but liquid weakness. Having that kind of emotional vulnerability exposes way too much, and therefore shouldn’t be allowed to be seen. Raph hates seeing his brothers upset, and so he assumes they feel the same way if they ever got the chance to see him be emotional. It doesn’t help that he has no clue HOW TO HELP, so WHY would he put someone else in that position??? But with anger, joy, and other stuff like that, he’s quite open with expressing himself to his family.

Leo- Emotions have two sides. They can push you and help you grow in passion and kindness. But they can also hinder you, make you not think straight, and cause you to fail those that you love. Tears are the same way. There’s a time to cry, even for a leader. But those times are few and far between, seeing how the leader needs to be the foundation of his team. How helpful can a foundation be when it’s crumbling and broken? Leo is usually adorned with a concern-filled expression. His anxiety always leaves thin lines near his eyes, and he finds it a bit difficult to goof off ever since becoming leader. But there are times that his family changes that. And he loves those moments dearly.

Thanks for the question! :)

~ Melissa

[im-out-of-it]

season 1, episode 7, I present part 3

23. FUCK I KEEP FORGETTING WHERE I LEAVE OFF but anyways, alec has made a fool out of himself and I’m here for it. the funniest scene in the whole episode

24. Luke took the “you’re pack leader, you don’t need to ask for help” when it comes to clary because it doesn’t mean putting clary above your wolves each and every time especially when it means downworlder lives are at stake smh

25. Jace saying this will take all day when clary is looking at pictures of her mom. bro her mom is gone????? usually I’m not on clary’s side but that was just a rude ass remark

26. “It’s not like this is the first time alec has saved your life. I doubt it’d be the last.”-Izzy. that’s the whole premise of the books and the show

27. well, simon is on his way to becoming a vampire

28. side note- I like how Camille and Magnus have similar styles. black nail polish, eye shadow, lace clothing, moods can be similar

29. “I’ve been so focused on my mom, i haven’t realized all you’ve done for me.”- clary 🙄 all jace has done? HE HAS RISKED NOTHING. Jace could go on and kill as many people and the clave still wouldn’t care. but if Alec did the same? then it’s a problem. Alec risked everything and now it’s come to bite him in the ass. Clary is one of the most selfish characters in this show. I didn’t realize all you’ve done? oh because we break clave rules for everyone? she doesn’t understand or care about rules or any of the ramifications. she only cares if she gets what she wants

30. I still don’t see why clary has the gifts “angels” gave her. the most undeserving, selfish character who uses the angel gifts to get what she wants at any cost (I see using them for actual purposes and when it’s needed but she abused the purpose for them)

31. ew the worst kiss ever 🤢 I won’t torture y’all and attach a gif. I actually care about y’all 🥹

32. side note- the straight characters can kiss for hours on end or pages worth but when it’s a gay couple, it’s like a second or half a page. not saying I need them to make out for 20 minutes or so, but it’s something I constantly see in media 🙄 straight characters always gets more screen time but at least here, Malec gets a better developed story

33. “I want this institute on high alert, clary only matters” -jace. bro you can’t just force the institute to look for her. you aren’t in charge of it and thank the devil for that

34.I just want to talk about Alec for a second. everything he’s been dealing with I’m assuming in the last few days- feelings about jace, jace not choosing him, family duty, family honor, meeting Magnus, trying to decide if he can be happy, gay, and a shadowhunter all in one, being a shadowhunter, covering up for a girl he doesn’t like, taking all the heat, watching the guy he supposedly loves (I’m not here for Alec and jace stuff) catch feelings for the girl who keeps ducking up his life, and now has to watch that guy make out with that girl who is making shit worse for his family HAS TO FUCKING HURT

35. and Izzy knowing how Alec feels 😭

36. I’m just so sad for Alec. I don’t want him with Jace but it hurts my heart to see Alec sad over this worthless dick. he deserved so many apologies and amends from season one. ALEC WENT THROUGH IT

37. Izzy stealing the spotlight one pair of heels at a time (this happens in the next episode but whatever, Izzy slays)

38. now let me go cry for Alec 🥹 ITS OK HE WILL BE HAPPY SOON

39. well Simon is dead now so clary is going to care until he’s dead. vampire Simon coming soon 🫶🏼 I mean, raphael did warn him but this can 100% be blamed on clary. and I can’t wait for Simon to go off on her about this lmao CLARY CHOSE FOR SIMON

thank y’all for attending our Alec deserved better meeting and whatever name we used before. 39 (I think) was the number today 🥲 let’s see what we get for our next one, and thank you to anyone who is here and reading the dumb shit I post, love y’all

[yellowhollyhock]

Yo! Hit me with 11 and 28

11) Which version of Raphael is your favorite?

This one is a really difficult choice, lots to love about each of them, but I gotta go with 2003

He takes such good care of his brothers. The first moment I knew tmnt was going to become the lens through which I see the world was a Raph and Leo moment early in 03

Leo: Hey guys, I got my split kick figured out! Watch *kicks two PDs in the face*

Raph, smirking: I didn't see it. Show me again.

Leo: *kicks two more bad guys*

Casey: I give you a ten

Leo: Hey Raph, only six?

Raph: That's all I got bro!

Because for one thing, what obnoxiously cheesy fight choreography I love it. I hope the bad guys continue to walk directly into Leo's foot like they rehearsed it. (in 03 not so much but I got attached for other reasons)

But mostly, ajdhakdb my heart. Raph speaks with so much warmth and it's extra fun because he's usually saying something sarcastic. Or just straight up aggresive. But there's so much love written all over his face.

I kinda went on about Leo being hope when I answered fave Leo so I hipe you'll forgive a little rambling about Raph being Love, limiting to 03 so that I'm answering the question

Raph's big struggle is that he feels so much so intensely. That makes it hard to stay cooped up: he wants to go experience the world! He has so much zest for life, the moment we meet him is in a vehicle which Leo reminds him Don hasn't fully tested, and the first thing he does is slam the acceleration. He wants to go fast! He wants to meet people! I think a big part of why he loves fighting so much is because it's pretty much the main way he can safely connect with the outside world. If he can't befriend people at least he can protect them, and why not push his boundaries as an athlete and have fun about it if he's gonna be beating up bad guys anyway

But also the restraint he shows! Like when he's with his bros one of them is often holding him back, usually not to stop him from fighting but to get him to wait for the right moment. But when he's alone, he usually talks things out. He meets Casey by stopping him from taking beating up a bad guy too far. And of course there's Tyler, Mrs. Morrison, the planet race situation: Raph isn't hit first ask questions later unless he's with his bros, which makes me think he acts that way because he's protective of them

And he loves all his brothers so much 😭 Like he is always taking care of them? Helps Leo make new swords when he's in his funk at the farmhouse. Quick to praise Donny and constantly watching his back in battle. The space arc when he jumps in front of him to protect him like he always does, and gets told off for it, and says "NO. We protect our own!" He's just guileless and he's guileless without being naive. He are make me emotional

And Mikey. ahdhaj.

Raph: It's been fun guys

Mikey: Even me?

Raph: Especially you ❤️

shut up shut up shut upppp why are you so full of love. I can't take it

Just the way those two are always sticking close to each other, how worried they get for each other when one of them is hurt, how much they can annoy and how deeply they can hurt each other. ehegatkf

Also Raph sticking up for Leo during Reflections when he gives his sappy family speech. I'm not crying you are

And the position he took in City at War was all about protecting his family, he literally says to Leo "just try not to get these other guys killed" as he's walking away and then he comes back you guys he says "I was being an idiot" like he was rightfully frustrated but as soon as he had space to think and talk it out with someone be trusts he's like 'yeah I don't even care about any of that I'm not gonna walk away from my bros when they need help' fjshdjakdjdj

Just the way his motivations always when you get to the core are about helping his brothers, whether that's protecting them or pushing them out if their comfort zones (him naming Leo Fearless Leader I I can't)

28) What is one thing you'd like to see explored more in tmnt art/fics?

ooh ooh especially with the 03 turtles, their co-dependency. More so than any other group I feel like they... hm how do I explain. Mikey's little speech about how none of them have to he responsible because that's Leo's job? The same thing applies to all of them with different traits. I'd like to see adult turtles struggling to figure out how to live independently. Leo not knowing how to set boundaries because usually when someone asked too much or he just took on too much Raph was there to rein him in and Mikey would make him take breaks. Donny not knowing how to bring up when he's upset because his bros always just noticed, or if something was unfair Raph or Mikey spoke up first. Raph starting to avoid Mikey because he's realized how much he relies on Mikey's sense of humor to cope with their turtle luck and wants some distance to figure himself out. Mikey getting himself in trouble not realizing how accustomed he is to his brothers catching him when he falls or quieting him before he says the wrong thing to the wrong person.

Like not painting it as a bad thing that they rely on each other but acknowledging how extreme it got and the ways that hurt them. Exploring the consequences of such extreme isolation except from each other as they start trying to do their own things. Raph helping troubled teens and seeing some familiar family dynamics in troubled homes he visits. Donny having to be a leader at work and just. Longing for the days when he could disappear into his lab and let Leo and Raph hash out the decision making while he worried about simple things like Big Cool Weapon/Vehicle. That sort of thing

[chaosteddybear]

Things I want to know about my fellow writers!

Thanks for the tag @theemptyislost ☺️

I'm tagging @dmagedgoods @ineadhyn @mslanna @eve-is-random @scuttlingcrab @loveless-nameless-graceless-two (no pressure! And sorry to those who have been tagged already!) and you, dear reader! ❤️

Last book I read: 

The only one I feel comfortable sharing is Beautiful World, Where Are You? by Sally Rooney. I actually only just started it but I am excited! The others are mostly about mental health and such, and even the last smutty novel was very dark so this'll be a breath of fresh air I expect 😅

Greatest literary inspirations: 

I am so inspired by lmm that it's embarrassing. More at my core though, would be books from my childhood. They might have formed a little more about who I am than anything else. So for example Lemony Snicket is my heart, and those books meant so much to me that I am pretty sure they're the subconscious reason I love dashes so much, for example. Also the Scary Stories To Tell In The Dark series... I am still obsessed with the way they set a mood, the way they have a goal but never a conclusion, the creepiness and how they toy with various different ways to be terrifying.

Things in my current fandom I want to read but I don't want to write:

Pretty much anything Raphael (bg3)! I am so insecure about my ability to write Raphael...

Things in my current fandoms I want to write but I think nobody would be interested in them but me: 

More OC stuff. I find it easy to write "you" or canon characters if they're ones I know well and feel comfortable writing, it just flows. But I'm not inspired to write that stuff anymore even a little bit. I want to do OC stuff, but it's so scary. Writing plot? *shivers*. I don't know how to turn it into anything, it's all just chaos in my head, and my wrists hurt even thinking of trying to untangle it.

You can recognize my writing by:

Feral tone. Probably no plot other than using kink and power dynamics to communicate. I'm sorry, and also not sorry, it is what it is 😭

My most controversial take (current fandom):

Sometimes I like to think that Haarlep leads a cushy life and makes Raphael happy! I like to imagine Raphael keeps them safe and happy and clean too 😌 just two cozy lovers 😌

My top three favorite tropes: 

1. Regular person does something extraordinary, 2. Hero can't accept that they're a hero, 3. Misunderstandings, especially if it's two people who love each other but can't see that the other feels the same.

What’s your current writing mood (10 – super motivated and churning out words like crazy, 0 – in a complete rut): 

Honestly, a 2. I'd say 0 but at least I have WIPs I keep running through in my head, I just can't write them down, and I'm still RPing.

Share a random frustration:

I just hate when my ideas are too complicated to write down 😭😭 usually my brain is very stream of consciousness and I can just write it as it flows, but when I'm thinking in multiple directions, it all breaks and I can't get anything down at all.

[themafia-terrapins]

I have a hard time with angst.

But.

Although Raphael “likes“ Immogene, he pushes down any feelings towards her, tout suite. So, maybe a spin off of one of the prompts. Why does she keep popping up? He probably knows…but the Brute doesn’t pussy foot around when he wants to know something.

Thank you!

i feel like i've definitely misinterpreted this lmao but i hope you enjoy regardless ❤ i wanted to have convo between them two originally but it didn't go to plan so it's him and don. hence why it's so rushed 😭

♧♧♧

"you like her" donatello skimmed his fingers gently against the wall as he walked in. he sat upon the chairs, eyes watching his older brother carefully. he deduced the following observations, one that his hot-headed brother was unnaturally quiet and the second was something, or rather someone, plagued his thoughts

"hm?" the brute was captured in a daydream, his toothpick caught between his scarred lips as his fingers toyed with his pen, dangerously close to snapping.

"immogene" it was her name that startled him, the pen shattering and flying opposite sides of the room. raphael composed himself, sitting upright as he eyed the genius carefully. the other looked at him calmly, a mischievous twinkle in his eyes. he knew, of course he did.

"i don't-"

"don't insult me by pretending, raph. i know she's what been on your mind these last few days. i'm not here to judge you. but... as your brother i'm asking you truthfully do you know what you're getting yourself into?" donnie raised his eyebrow, his arms crossed over his chest.

"no... for that first time in my life i don't know what i'm getting myself into. and i don't care, i don't want to know. i just wanted to experience this feeling for tha first time" raphael sighed, his head in his hands

"she's so unlike kiki. her mannerism, her characteristics, everythin" the brute replied thoughtfully, thinking back to the bar and the encounters for the first time.

"don't kid yourself that something there. don't have...." they both looked at each other, understanding the last word silently. hope, don't have hope

it made him sad, how many times they needed help and how many times the world shut it's eyes and ears. how him and his brothers couldn't rely on anybody.

"one thing i don't get is why me? anyone in the world but she wants ta know about tha mutant turtle wit a target on his head" he gazed wistfully from the window, wishing for once he was one of those people scurrying hope to his significant other. away from the murders and the blood and the screaming and fighting. wishing that perhaps once in his life he would've have a normal relationship.

"ya can't love a villain in this world. no human can't love someone like us, don. it doesn't happen, its not natural" he leaned against the desk, his head bowed while his mind was poisonous montage replaying all those bittersweet moments. moments he may never get to experience again.

"and in tha end, i can't even guarantee her safety. i can't guarantee they won't get ta her. they won't torture her, they won't hurt her. i can't promise to rescue her in time" raph inhaled a shaky breath, knowing that he'd never be able to feel this way again. knowing that this couldn't happen again.

he couldn't jeopardise her life for his pleasure. he would not watch someone life fall apart because of him again

"i gotta stop. we can't be together, why hold onto hope? why torture myself with possibilities that'll never happen. i gotta stop pretending we ever had a chance. i gotta stop pretending she was the...." with every unsaid word his heart grew heavier, at any moment it would burst and those feelings he had done such a good job of hiding would reveal themselves.

a strange yearning took over his heart, he was surrounded by many people but nobody really knew him intimately. she had come close but it was enough to make the beast back into the corner.

for if he revealed his true self, could she take the horrors that lay just behind the shadows? could she see him as he was and still love the mutant? perhaps not, perhaps she'd go running for the hills and who could blame her? in this world, nothing beautiful existed. not in the mafia. they took everything good and beautiful and destroyed. obliterated it until it was dust.

sometimes love simply wasn't enough to keep two souls together.

[rillils]

its just me and the never-ending, all-consuming rabbit hole that is deciding which angel i headcanon crowley to be before she fell

right now im loving the idea of some angels not existing at all and most of their traits are tansfered to one angel instead so i see crowley as raphael, seraphiel, and jophiel

AND

AND AND AND AND AND

JOPHIEL WAS HIS ANGEL NAME.

ANTHONY J CROWLEY

AND HE SAYS THAT THE J DOESNT STAND FOR ANYTHING BC IT HURTS HIM TOO MUCH TO HAVE TO THINK ABOUT IT

BECAUSE IT HURTS HIM TOO MUCH TO HAVE TO THINK ABOUT IT

not you breaking my heart again on this fine November day 😭😭😭

Okay but like, all those possibilities! It's so difficult to stick to just one, right?? I've seen so many angel!Crowley headcanons over the last few years, some super detailed too, some really really really convincing - and the truth is, I just can't make up my mind xD

I'm pretty sure Neil will never ever confirm any of those headcanons, either - unless, of course, he plans to reveal Crowley's former angel name in a possible season 3? Like, it doesn't seem very likely but it could happen, right??

Personally, I like the Jophiel headcanon just as much as the next person 💖 The fact that it would fit the infamous "J" is really enticing, I must admit :P After watching s2 though, I'm mostly wondering if Aziraphale ever knew Crowley's angel name in the first place tbh. We see Aziraphale introduce himself when they first meet, but Crowley/Star-maker doesn't reciprocate (too busy being awestruck by his beloved stars 💖), and we don't really know how long it was before he went and Asked his Questions and was cast out as a result, nor if he ever got to interact with Aziraphale again before that happened. fjsgdjskssk I don't know, there are so many blank spaces here, and so many things could have happened in between!!!

All I can say is, out of all the headcanons out there, like the ones that posit Crowley as former Raphael, or just him as a very powerful archangel in general, etc, I tend to prefer the ones where he was just. Just an angel, you know? Not particularly renowned, not amongst the "big names", you know, God's "favourites" like Gabriel or Michael or Lucifer or whatever, just… just your average angel, who happened to be curious, and creative, and caring, and sweet, and wanted to watch his stars and nebulas grow and develop into their full potential 💖

If I'm being really, really, really super honest though, I keep thinking that… this might be the one mystery I wouldn't mind leaving alone. I'm only speaking for myself, of course, I can't stress that enough! But… does it- I mean, does it really matter who Crowley used to be? It doesn't change who he is now, nor how much he is loved - loved for who he is, a tender-hearted demon, or I guess a "former" demon, since Hell's pretty much disowned him at this point.

I guess what I'm trying to say is, it doesn't make any difference to me whether or not his former name (would it be appropriate to call it a deadname?) is ever revealed. He's Crowley, a demon who only goes along with Hell as far as he can, who cares so much and loves so deeply, and that means everything to me already 💕💕💕

[khaleesiofalicante]

"Man is the least himself when he talks in his own person. Give him a mask, and he will tell you the truth" - Oscar Wilde

Ok, last weekend was shit. But I loved this chapter. Just some points:

Raphael being the real MVP as always 😎

Magnus prefers to be sun-kissed.

And the LA sun doesn’t just kiss you.

It full-on makes out with you.

Idk why I laughed so hard 😂😂

God, the photoshoot looked great😍

I kinda like you, random sir hdgsjdhdj

The thing about boundaries was soooo on point on the way things went for him!!

The way he knew he made the right decision even if it hurted😭

This doesn’t sound like his heart making shit up. This sounds like his heart. SCREAMING CRYING THROWING UP JFHDIDJDK

Magnus not taking shit about the company us badass behavior😎

“If you like her so much, then you should date her.” “Oh, I wish.  But I’m tragically heterosexual,” Have I said I love Catarina in the last 5 minutes?!? She is just🥺 🥰

When will this man stop walking in on everyone?!?!?! Honeslty this scene was so funny tho😂😂

I love Luca ok?!?!? But also yes, raisins are bad!!!

Luca and his raisins can suck it. OMFG

THAT PHONE CALL MADE ME VERY🥺🥺🥺 THEY ARE SO SOFT AND IN LOVE AHDHKDVDOF

“I know that,” Alec chuckles. “I just meant, like, it makes no sense. We are just saying random shit. Cute buttons and cold shoulders.” This man gets me😌

I love that video with my soul jdhdjdhdkjx

I read some comments analysing the way Max and Rafe are scared of Alec and Magnus, saying thta they aren’t scared of their anger, they are scared of their saddness and I just- 😭

“I’m actually surprised that Max is scared of me,” Alec chuckles. “Little shit doesn’t act like it.”Its all about pretend honey jdgdjjd jk, jk

HE WAS ABOUT TO SAY SOMETHING?!! FUCK!!

Max a lot of potential, but as that snippet said, sometimes you dont know what to do with it!!

ANJALI IS THE ABSOLUTE BEST, THE REAL MVP, A GODNESS, A QUEEN, THE BEST THE WORLD HAS TO OFFER, THE-

Honestly, I love her!! She could step on me and I would thank her😍😍

"She is the kind of person who doesn’t need to be told twice." Like the badass she is😎

Anjali be like: Yall are a mess and you did fucked up, fortunately you have me to smack some sense to you and that is very sexy of her😌

"He stayed with you every day after that. That was his choice. So, don’t you ever fucking question whether Rafael loves you. Don’t ever question my Rafael’s love. Not when that’s all he knows how to do.” 💙💙💙💙

The scenes with Ben were actually amazing and really sweet!! I hope my boy finds the love he deserves!!! He took care of Rafe and he is his friend and I am emo🥺

Even amidst all the chaos and pain, he looks perfect and beautiful. This boy knows how to have a break down. Anjali sighs dreamily.  Honestly sams Anjali💕

Magnus and Ben talking about Alec is something I didnt know I needed but absolutely loved it!!!

“Okay. Don’t ask me how I know this. But I technically can. It’s called parental kidnapping and it’s illegal in the state of New York.”👀👀

“Max carries a lot of pain too. Just because it doesn’t look like yours, it doesn’t mean it hurts him any less.”  they are both hurting and it is hurting me too!!!

“I sometimes wish I was like him,” Rafael says quietly. “I wish I could do instead of think.” BITCH THE WAY I RELATE TO THIS BOY IS WRONG JDHDISJ

Rafael, baby, please take care of yourself and dont be so hard on you. You are doing already amazing. You are allowed to take a break and rely on others!! As someone once said "You gotta practice that self-love, honey!"

"I only wish I had known how to stop. I wish I had looked at you and told you that you’ve done enough." Don’t mind me. Just going to make this another quote that will live 24/7 in my brain🥰

LIKE FATHER LIKE SON😭😭

“You are not weak. You are tired,” Magnus smiles. “Enough now. It’s time to rest.”

///

“My Rafael,” Magnus whispers. “I wish I was half as strong as you are on your weakest day.”

PLEASE I NEED SOMEONE TO HUG ME AFTER THIS DJHDKDJ

“Because if there is one thing I know for certain, it is that Alec loves me more than anyone,” THE RANGE THAT THEY HAVE OMFG<3333

Let's get this babe some sobriety, love and therapy🥰

ROSEWOOD RIGHTS FOREVER❤️❤️

Welp, this days have been horrible honestly, I can't even begin to infodump jdhdjdjd so I haven't read the new chapter, but I just wanted to say tlnd has actually been a way to distract myself and help me get through this shit. Thank you for that💚

I hope you are doing fine. I'M SENDING THE BEST PRODUCTIVE VIBES YOUR WAY!!! I have like 3 essays to submit, so I feel you jdhdkdjd

Song rec: Call out my name, cover from Ruel (I have been listening to this on repeat)

This is an OFFICIAL threat to god to give you a mf-ing break or i will unleash my wrath :)

I hope you feel better soon. I'm glad this chapter helped and reading your thoughts made me so emo.

ALSO BABE.

BAAAAABE. YOU ARE KIDDING RIGHT?

Call out my name *THE RUEL COVER* is literally how TLND came to be. I was listening to it and came with the idea of magnus not being able to call alec alexander anymore and alec not being able to call magnus baby and hence tlnd was born. THE POWER OF RUEL >>>>

[onetimetwotimesthreetimess]

A couple of things I loved from chapter 7:

Jace and Alec

I’m so happy Alec had someone to help him sort through the density of his emotions. Just figuring out that he is valid in how he feels but he doesn’t need to punish himself anymore, that he fucked up but knows how to fix it. To really trust himself, listen to his heart and trust in the love he and Magnus shares.

Clary (and Andrew) being thirst trap dealers

The unofficial hero’s of LRHWY. Hoe annie watch yourself.

Alec and Zara

LOL. The thing this single minded man will do for love. I know Magnus lost his mind when he saw that video from Raphael. I’m glad Magnus’ friends made him do that, showed him he needed to realise he couldn’t just have automatic access to Magnus. Reminded him that Magnus has some pretty fucking loyal friends who will always love and protect him too (so much so that they are willing to help Alec make Magnus happy again)

“Let me do this for us.”

I’m glad Malec realised they have to meet in the middle, even when shit gets tough. That they can’t give up on each other and just run away from their problems. That he hurts so much more to let the emotions fester and eventually make us sick. That reconciliation scene was so lovely, Alec taking care of Magnus, not getting jealous over his ex, booking a separate room, apologising and making Magnus admit he didn’t feel comfortable with them in the same bed. It was so important for them to have that space to slowly come back to each other. To find that trust and home within themselves again.

Arrow

I love this little cupid so much. Forcing Alec to get out there and be social, cuddling him when he’s feeling down and making him feel less lonely. We love Chairman but Arrow gets just as much love too 😻

The love triangle

Okay wtf, so many things. Like Magnus hates public proposals, would never cheat, broke up with Imasu and slept with Alec. All in one chapter? The 1 Alec simp? LOL chaotic as fuck. It’s clear there is something off with him and Imasu that he was probably trying to tell Alec but got distracted and then Alec just shutdown. I mean think about it, Alec finally felt at home again laying across Magnus only to have all that ripped away from him. His bubble being so aggressively burst when he had been avoiding that pain for more than a year. I know he was hurting but I wish he just took a moment to listen to Magnus. I just don’t ever see Magnus being that heartless to sleep with Alec when he’s committed to someone else (tho I suppose he kinda did lol). I know that they will work it out but fuck, the painnnnnnnn. Alec just can’t catch a break, I hope he doesn’t run away and do more dumb shit I swear. Magnus definitely has some explaining to do, he kinda created this mess? (Not that Alec is making it any better lol)

Such a great chapter! Hope these silly boys actually talk with voices and not with tongues and moans next chapter 😭🙈 (Although they can do that too, just clarification of feelings first please)

Hope you’re feeling better. I know you had a tough week 💖

Special place in heaven for readers who leave comments on their favourite paragraphs skshsksk that’s you btw Mia.

I know a lot of this chapter was overshadowed by the ending (which is fair cause that was some whack ass shit I wrote) but the middle parts were my favourite. I really really liked writing Malec’s reconciliation scene(s). I think they were very much needed. And also Alec stupidly asking Magnus to get married was just *incoherent screaming*

I think communication issues are something that never gets resolved. Like, I don’t think it’s something you work on for 6 months and then you’re perfect at it. It’s stuff that people have to keep on learning and trying every single day. And sometimes it can get exhausting. These little shits will talk about everything soon. Just remember that Magnus and Alec always try to do good. But sometimes even they make mistakes.

[bytedykes]

god just !! magnus + younger downworlders!! he’s such a caring and good man !!! he doesn’t want others to suffer !!! knows how hard it is to exist as a downworlder in all forms !!!

magnus and younger warlocks !! the ones he housed in s1, the young girl who lost her dad to a circle member. MADZIE. so many others !!

and his little vamp troupe !! raphael and how “magnus raised him”! the fact that he’s a source of safety when aldertree (cringe) bashed him up !!

i can’t remember anything with younge werewolves + magnus but luke is like 1/12 of his age and like even then !! mutual respect and all that stuff !!

god magnus, a man who understands empathy and human connection. love him that funky little bastard

thank u so much for this ask anon ik im answering it late but it's because ive been looking at it every day as motivation to get thru my finals 😩💞

yes!! god i love magnus so much, he's such a loving and caring person it breaks me sometimes hghrjdd

honestly i really love how he takes downworlders under his wing like this, he really just wants to do what's right and help people,,, he pretends he's a flippant and powerful man, and he is powerful, but he just cares so much,, he wants to do good!! he cares about people, even if he doesn't know them personally, he cares about them because theyre "HIS" people,,, he cares so much!!

i love magnus + younger warlocks so much,, the way he is with all of the small children who are aware they are capable of dangerous things,,, the small children who have been hurt by the world and who magnus wants to protect from that!! magnus who relates to them and doesnt want them to go through anything like what he did aaa i love him

GOD yeah, raphael and magnus make me so emotional, i am Not immune to them caring about each other 😭💗 like honestly i have no words they just make me :')) <3

magnus and luke are so good, i wish we had more content for them aaa also no words i just think they should hang out. and ur so right like the respect they have for each other!! just aughg my heart

magnus is so good!! hes such a good person!! he wants to do good and he cares about people so deeply!! ik im repeating myself but AAAA i love this man SO much 💖💘💗💓💝

[khaleesiofalicante]

Hola Dani 👋🏼💚 ¿que tal te va en tu nuevo empleo?

What the Fuck is Wrong with French People?

THE BEGINNING

Ok Alec my beloved twin you need to chill because this is NOT the way!!

Raphael is a King!!!

Raphael nods and looks at Alec. “I’m watching you.”

He wanted Magnus to stop taking shit from people and tell them to fuck off.

Fuck Camille!!! Why are you still talking to her??? Have you learned nothing??? She will only make it worse!!

He slaps her across the face.

😱😱😱 Alexander! And now is worse!!

So, he drives and drives until he gets that familiar sense of calmness inside his chest.

This is giving me bad vibes, car crash vibes 🥲

“Alec Lightwood?” the cop asks. Alec nods. “We need you to come to the station with us.”

I new something bad was going to happen!!

Ok fine I guess Robert is out of the fuck you club 😒

“People will never stop hurting you, Alec. So, you need to decide whether you want to add to that pain or move on from it,” his father tells him and starts the engine.

I needed this... thank you Dani 💚

“If you are texting him ‘baby, take me back’ I’m going to break your phone.”

Jace!!!! I am love him!!!

“People who leave…They don’t do it because they don’t love you,” Jace says quietly. “Sometimes people need space. Sometimes love makes it hard to heal. So, you need to be away and just be with yourself.”

I'm glad Jace is there for Alec!! My twin is breaking my heart 😭

THE MIDDLE

OMG!!! He is going to France!!! They are going to get David right?? Right??? ALSLSLQLQ!!!!

“Are we poor?” Max asks.

My precious chaotic child your father is about to bring you back something priceless 🥰😍🥰😍🥰

“You better not come home with a baby,” Magnus points out.

This one will stay will Jace and Clary for a few years before joining the Lightwood-Banes don’t worry 🤣🤣

Rafe mi bebé precioso... Rafe es demasiado dulce y tierno, lo amooo!!!

JACE WAS SHOT???? 😱

Alec shrugs. “I don’t know. I know you don’t like it. I know the girls don’t. but I feel like there is someone out there who will love this house. It feels wrong to give up on it.”

Ooooh keep it!! Keep it for David... I mean, he is a prince!! And if he goes there he can live out his RWRB fantasies with Max 🥰😍🥰😍

But there is also so much pain and sacrifice and struggles people can’t see.

As someone who's seen it, I wish I hadn't 😭😭😭😭

THOMAS!!!!

AND ALISTAIR!!!

Stop asking questions and go get my petit prince charmant!!!

Fuck Albert 🤬

“You don’t speak French?” Alec asks.

“Only a little,” Thomas replies.

Bitch!! He is just pretending, get a clue Alec... I see you Thomas 😉

“No, they didn’t,” Alastair replies. “Believe it or not, this kind of complicity is not uncommon.”

Fuck them all... our beloved staff would never 😒

He takes out a cigarette and lights it up.

Then he hears screaming.

Your honor, I request we remove mister Lightwood's right to be a sexy smoker, I am a hoe but I am a David stan first 😌

“It’s pretty.”

Alec blinks.

Did he just talk??

Mavid!!!! 😍🥰

Thomas and Alastair seem to be bickering.

Please find a room and resolve your issues 😈

Oh Alec 🤦🏻‍♀️ really?? You can't see what's going on??

But David getting Thomastair together is top tier shit!!!

"You were right," Jace tells him that night. "This place is yet to be lived."

Yeah... by Mavid 😍

Max frowns at the boy, looking up and down. “This is not chocolate milk.”

Wait till you get a taste!!

Then he raises the boy’s hand to his mouth and kisses the inside of his wrist. “My bapak says kisses heal boo-boos faster.”

THE END

“So did everyone in the mansion to lie me?” Alec asks. “Or was it just the people I trusted the most?”

Come on brother!! You weren't even a little suspicious 😒

Bless Leslie!!!! That woman is a Saint 🙌🏼🙌🏼

“I don’t think so,” Izzy sighs. “He said he is going to see a friend.”

Ok we need an intervention ASAP!!!

Also... Alec needs to talk to someone about the Minyun situation, my twin is too sad 🥲

“Actually,” Alec corrects. “I came here to see you.”

I hope this conversation ends wells I don't need to cry again

You can only be so much for other people before you forget who you are to yourself.

Exactly, go to therapy, find yourself and then get your husband back!!!

Alec stop snooping!!!

“What? No!” Alec puts down the notebook. “I was, uh, just looking. I got bored.”

And stop lying 🤣

But he doesn’t smoke in front of the boy. He never has.

Good, you should stop completely because now I can only think about my poor prince in pain 😭😭

Alec chuckles. “David. I don’t think there is anyone out there who hates you.”

Is impossible to hate you sweetie!!!

Alec smiles. “You go therapy, son?”

He called him son!!!! And also yeah he goes to therapy!!! You should try it sometimes!!

This is such a beautiful moment!!! I didn't know how much I needed this conversation!!!

David takes it and clutches it to his chest. 

I'm so happy...!!! Is this really TLND?? 🥰

His mouth drops. “You’re the one who has been baking this whole fucking time?”

Seriously... how is he running an entire state???

Then he drives.

I don't like all this driving 🙃 please don't crash!!!

Thank youuuu Dani 💚💚💚💚💚 I didn't cry with this one I'm in shock... I'm actually happy!!!

THE "CONGRATULATIONS YOU PLAYED YOURSELF" FUCKING ENDED ME OMG.

Here is a mavid song rec for you bebe: London Boy by Taylor Swift.

[khaleesiofalicante]

Holaaaaaa!!!!!

I'M SO EXCITED!!!

Please let there be Mavid in this chapter 🙏🏼🤞🏼🙌🏼

It's Just a Dumb Fucking Stereotype

THE BEGINNING

Oh no poor Magnus

He is losing track of time again.

I don't like this, make it stop!

“Indonesian,” Alec says shyly.

Alec is the absolute best boyfriend ever 🥰

“You didn’t wash the rice?” Magnus asks again.

🤦🏻‍♀️🤣 I still give him an A for being a cutie pie 🅰️

Alec smiles at him. “And don’t worry, I didn’t put any raisins.”

Dani stop with the raisin hate... Raisins are great!!!

Okay. Okay. He can eat unwashed rice for this man.

I would eat my own arm for this two!!

He continues to eat, slowly. Not only because this is the worst nasi goreng in the history of nasi gorengs, but also because eating has been a little difficult lately.

If he tells him that is bad, then Alec can improve and maybe next time it'll be better, these two need to communicate 🥲

He isn’t very hungry.

He isn’t in the mood for a drive.

He isn’t in the mood to be outside at all.

Magnus honey I beg you, use your words 🙏🏼

Alec is not really good at driving. He is even worse at parking.

Yeah, he can't park straight 🙃

Cause he's gay!!

I'll see myself out 😬

It's Raphael 😍

This whole interaction is gold, GOLD

Neither Alec nor Raphael are particularly social creatures. Magnus did not think this through.

Yeah, no shit 🤣🤣

He doesn’t know if it’s something he is allowed to ask.

Yes, it is, you're his boyfriend 🥺

“So, Alec,” Raphael clears his throat. “Why can’t you date someone your own age?”

Raphael is the best...!! 🤣🙌🏼

Religion as a common ground 🤌🏼👌🏼

“I don’t like your boyfriend,” Raphael points out.

Give him a chance, he'll grow on you!

Magnus leans against one of the bookcases and watches Alec fondly.

This is the stuff moodboards are made of 🤩

He's educating himself about these issues 😍

When you think you can't love him more he does shit like this 😭 my heart, lo amo demasiado 💕

“He is fine, I guess.”

Told you!!

THE MIDDLE

And now Rafael, is this my favorite chapter? 🤔

That letter

Once, dad was on this magazine too. Because he is very important and very gay.

So very very gay 🤣🤣 also I need details on that cover 😁

“Dad bought so many copies,” Rafael giggles.

Because he is very gay!! And very horny!! And very much in love 🥰

A boy is on the sand, his face is wet with water and his mouth is wet with blood.

Noooo!! Max NO!!

“I’m going to kill Zara when we get back,” dad says.

Of course, of course it was this bitch!!!

Fuck Zara 🤬

I don't like all this fighting 😭😭

“He is always bugging me to talk to him,” Max groans. “I don’t like talking sometimes. I just want to be alone.”

Oh Max 😭

Because he wanted Rafe to have fun on his birthday.

This stupid, self-sacrificing family 😭😭

“Next time, you need to put your thumb over your middle finger,” dad says, holding Max’s hand and making a tiny fist. “Like this. If you do this, you won’t get hurt.”

Well... He clearly misunderstood the assignment

Bapak kisses his cheek. “And that’s why they said I was cheating. It’s a stereotype people have about bisexuals. They think bisexuals are unfaithful.”

This hit me right in my bisexuality 😭

I think she already found me, Rafael thinks.

I can't 😍 😍 

THE END

Ben??? 🤔

Most importantly, the kids love him.

Sounds perfect, not Magnus perfect but pretty good, what's the catch?? I don't trust you Dani 🙄

It’s even harder when you are crazy in love with him.

😭😭😭

“Edom anniversary stuff.”

Oooooh is coming, the cover from hell is upon us 🥵

¿Tu padre está ocupado esta semana? Sí.

I love it when he speaks Spanish, Tu padre 🤣 so formal 😌

OMG Alec... don't just eat shit from strangers like that, we both know Dani is not above poisoning 😭

Unless the brownies are from David, in that case indulge away!!!

Alec is pretty sure it’s Magnus’ account and they are all just mooching off of it.

He's a billionaire, is fine 🤑

He hates the stupid, pretentious language. It doesn’t help that Magnus, and especially Max, speaks it fluently.

And your son-in-law 🥰

“You are moaning!” Magnus all but shrieks.

“I’m in the middle of something!” Max yells after him.

Is that something David?? 👀

“Nah,” Alec grins and puts out his cigarette. “Merci!”

Alexander you have problems 🤣🤣

Max looks at his naked chest, which is all sweaty and shity. “Nah. D-My friend in there likes me shirtless.”

Ooooh it is him 🔥

He is comparing the parents.

Oh Alec, no 😔

Max flinches and looks at him in shock. “What?”

Or maybe it’s the dumb – but delicious – brownies. David used to bake too. Alec remembers going with Jace to buy a baking oven for the boy.

If this was about Magnus and someone else he would have figured it out by now

“No. I never said that,” Alec corrects firmly. “I told you not to sleep with him.”

He has Magnus saved as Baby... kill me now!!!

I absolutely LOVED this chapter, it is PERFECT

Thank you Dani ❤❤❤❤

YOUR GIFS ARE KILLING ME OMG (IN A GOOD WAY)

They are so funny I can't please-

love yooooou.

[khaleesiofalicante]

"Sudenly you are ripped into being alive. And life is pain, and life is suffering, and life is horror, but my god you are alive and its spectacular" Joseph Campbell

It’s not like he had known when Alec had stolen his heart.🥺🥺🥺

YES OUR GRUMPY IDIOT IS HERE!! RAGNOR IS THE BEST. I AM LOVE HIM. HE IS SO WISE AND INCREDIBLE AND AHHH

What’s this in-between nonsense whether you are neither sick nor healthy. Ugh. That is the worst!!

That scene reminded me of "I love him with it. Because of it. On purpose. I love him on purpose."

I won't get over the fact that Alec wanted to make Magnus happy and decided to bring his best friend over and pay for everything so he could see him😭 Ragnor loves him and we all know it!!

Raphael is a petty little shit but we all love him and we stan😎

I'm love Nemo and Dory💙

Max and Elyaas is something that can actually be so personal🥺🥺

"So, I realized I need help. I don’t…I don’t want Max to feel alone. It’s very easy to feel lonely, you know. Especially where we live. I want him to be happy.” Istg I'm not crying, you are!!😭

“Hello, Master Max,” the man smiles softly. “I’m Elyaas. You can call me El.” THIS MAN>>>>>

"Bring me something pretty?” “Noted,” HOLY SHIT YES!! YOU HAVE NO IDEA!! HE WILL MEET RAFAEL!! AND HE WILL BRING HIM HOME!! I'M DYING 💙💙💙

Fanfic is important in society, Alec!!!

The way Max loves Magnus>>>>

BABY MAX>>>>>

“Not all days are good as this one,” Magnus points out carefully. “That’s just life,” Elyaas shrugs again. THE WAY I WILL PROTECT THEM BOTH WITH MY LIFE-

I LOVE MAX’S POV'S AND I THINK WE ALL SHOULD. Half the time I'm laughing and the other half I'm crying. I call that balance😌

Just.. All the notes to self are ✨GOLD✨ and the playlist omfg! I just have on playlist with my name and like 26 hours of music but I love the comitment of some people ndbdjdjsj

Elyaas saving the day as usual :)

"Maybe they are all right. Maybe he does ruin things. Maybe he is poison." Imma stop you right there. Just stfu :)

JCDSL. Jace is a chessy shit and I'm love him too🥺

Can David stop getting any nicer or hotter??? Also, yes! Feel you Max. That shit is hot af

They sing the chorus together, laughing and kissing and giggling. I'm crying, but dont worry. The simple beauty of this scene got me emo🥺

HERONSTAIRS!! HELL YEAH!!

“What did Jesus say?” Max tuts. “Knock and the door will open?” No, no. He's got a point...

FUCK. THAT WAS THE MOST ROMANTIC SHIT. AND HE STILL THINKS THIS IS NOT A DATE?!?! WITH A PICNIC?!? AND PAINTINS?!?! AND GIFTS?!?

David has a life. Unlike Max. Ouch💔

"You deserve everything your heart wants, David.” Kindly fucking stop bc my heart can't handle it😭

Yeah, fuck you, Swedish Prince. Mavid supremacy forever!!!

“Ah,” David says. “We finally meet eye to eye." Savage😂😂

Where can I get this room!?? Clary and Jace, can you adopt me??? Also not the parallels of their home and the mansion omfg😭😭

Because Max doesn’t have a present with David – not even a future. They just have a past.

Because Max hadn’t been there. Max had missed it. Along with a million other things.

These. These were my favorite quotes of the chapter. Just, wow. Pure angst but can't get them out if my head!!

Note to self: For fuck's sake. Did no one warn this boy about the praise kink? I think he is aware of it😏

"Sex with you feels like giving into temptation," David explains gently, his eyes intent on Max. "And I will bite the apple every time." if it doesn’t feel like giving into temptation, then whats the point??

If he is going to hurt David, he should have the fucking balls to witness it. This boy needs therapy yall... And so do I after this

The thing David does with the wrist-kissing shoud NOT be legal!!!

David smiles faintly and mumbles into the pillow. “Goodnight, Mon Ange.” Max leaves. Pain. PURE PAIN. I'M FINE😭😭

No thoughts, head empty except ✨Mavid✨

Seriously, they are going to ruin me forever!! The beauty, the angst, the pain... LOVE IT💙

Anyway, song rec: One of Us, from Mama Mia (I feel old as shit recomending this but idc)

Take caree💚

Yeah my head is full of Mavid too. I've been listening to french shit for the last two days. Send help.

Also hating on Mamma Mia is my toxic trait lol. But the song was soft? I'm physically incapable of complimenting this movie idk wtf that is.

I HOPE YOU HAVE A GREAT WEEK. THAT IS AN ORDER, COMRADE.