#things are just kinda strained atm

[mokutone]

Hey I hope it’s okay to message you! Just wanted to check in on how you were doing… I wanted to DM you but I’m way too shy, I wanted to let you know— in 2023, after four years of complete silence, your art inspired me to start creating again. From 2019 to 2024, I was completely run dry. I didn’t create a single piece of art! But seeing your wonderful drawings, the way your compositions seemed to breathe life into your art, and your gorgeous use of colors… helped me to start creating art once more! It’s almost a year since then, and I’ve still been steadily creating. Thank you so much for bringing joy back into my life!! I had forgotten that it existed all along… I appreciate you and your art so much, I hope that you have many happy things to smile about. Peace and love 🫛🤍

i've gotten a handful of asks gently prodding me to make sure i'm alive (theyre very sweet) and i'm answering this one only bc it touched me deeply if i wait a while to answer it i know the asker won't get alerted so! 1) it's definitely okay to message me! but, that said: i probably will not reply to most asks for a very long time (sorry!) 2) that is, i think, the sweetest thing you could possibly say to me—maybe to any artist. i'm really, really, profoundly glat that my art made you want to make art too!!! other artists have done this for me when i was stuck, and i am eternally grateful to them, and now eterernally grateful to you, for finding what you needed in my art, that's a beautiful thing, and it's an honor as an artist!! i hope that somebody is brave and kind enough to tell you that your art inspired them to create—its a feeling like nothing else. i'm SO, so glad, that art is bringing you joy again!!! 3) (as for how i am doing—life continues, in its own way. most things are not good, but some are! i've made a promise with myself not to post on this blog until i sort out some unfortunately very real life difficulties, and.......it's been a year and i'm still working on it! life continues. good days and bad days. i suppose i'm also in a bit of a silent period of my own at the moment, in many ways! it happens to everyone, and it'll end eventually for me too)

and, with that said—let the silence resume for now.

[twistedchatterbox]

you > work

“summary: how would they act around you during work? ft.Azul and Floyd (seperately) tags. GN Reader, Fluff, This is basically my first ever “fic” reformatted, No Spoilers, yes I am biased as fuck mind your business, the fish mafia acts like an actual fish mafia, loveels, domestic Azul, Floyd is a lover for you and a danger for literally everything else, Jade makes a cameo, the fish are all so lovesick oh my god, no beta we overblot like men; i am kinda busy atm so please just accept these crumbs while i work on many things at once lol,, enjoy.

Wordcount; 700+ | Masterlist & Taglist

They’ll treat you the way they always have; adoringly and lovingly. As unpredictable as they can be, for you, they’re simply smitten. Lovesick fish. It’s adorable, really. The way... The way Azul’s eyes light up into a look of excitement upon seeing your contact light up on the screen of his phone would have been contagious.. had his witnesses not been thoroughly terrified and possibly beaten out of their wits to even think or consider commenting on it. He quickly gathers himself, though, and asks his clients if they’d mind waiting a moment as he casts a spell; pointing his pen and channeling the spell directly against their throat, effectively ridding the poor unfortunate souls of their voices.  Elegantly rising up from his chair in a well-practiced manner, he grabs his phone and heads towards privacy, where his own voice turns sweeter than honey as it fills to the gills with affection for you. Azul chuckles as he whispers a “Hi”, sighing as your voice brought him the fresh breather he’s yearned for all day. “Hi darling, has everything been alright?” he asks, softening with not only his voice but his smile as it turns genuine for you; which only intensifies as you explain you just called him to ask what he’d like for dinner, since you remembered the two of you forgot to assign kitchen duty today and you arrived home early. Azul’s eyes crinkle and he finds himself indulging in a closed-eyed smile, fondly shaking his head as if you could see it. “Ah, is that so?” Azul teases with no edge to his tone, “You just wanted to ask me what I’d like for dinner? My, my, aren’t you so benevolent today~?” he playfully murmurs, enjoying himself. But he can’t take too much time, since he does have a real answer for you. Sighing, he says so, “You truly are the sweetest thing...Can you please make my favourites today?”, feeling proud of himself when you pick up on it and ask if today has been exceptional, nodding as if you could tell. Azul feels sad that the call cannot last forever, yet he knows a way to remedy it so he gently murmurs his response, “Yes, today was great, thank you darling, i’ll see you at home. I love you.” Feeling more refreshed than ever compared to earlier, Azul re-corrects his posture and draws a breather, determined to quickly finish his leftover work early so that he can join as you soon as possible. Plus, getting home early and being able to wrap his arms around you while you navigated the kitchen just sounded perfect.

Now, visiting Floyd during work was Russian roulette with all chambers rigged for most people, meanwhile you could only describe it as a game of hide and seek. To say he adored you and was biased for you is an understatement.  Wearing a warm, fluffy on the inside winter coat, you walked alongside Jade as you neared the place Floyd was supposed to be at around this time- according to Jade, at least. And today, that hunch seemed correct. In your sights was Floyd Leech in the flesh, humming a cheerful tune as he dragged a trash bag alongside the floor with a carefree smile that turned strained whenever the contents seemed to move around- or at least tried to. The way Floyd’s entire figure is engulfed in an excited and thrilled way is a familiar and endearing sight to you; making you smile when he notices you in the middle of his previously assigned task, looking directly at you as soon as you entered his line of sight. Smiling from eye to eye, unable to suppress the trill of sheer joy your surprise visit brought him. You couldn’t help but notice how his clothes were clean as of now, which meant- “Shrimpyy~~!! Gimme a hug~!” Floyd’s laughs with a lovestruck grin, showcasing his sharp, white teeth as he opens his arms for you. And his smile only grew happier as you ran upto him, jumping into his ready arms; he hugs you securely as he twirls you around- he has always been so careful of his strength when it came to you, protective of you, far more gentle towards you than anyone else has been, or ever cared to be. And as his right foot pressed down cruelly onto the tie of the suspicious body bag that finally stopped squirming, the none-existent audience was his witness. This gentleness would only ever be reserved for you.

[the-heart-of-a-monster]

HOPPING ON HERE AGAIN FOR ANOTHER SUPER LONG THEORY POST BOYSSSSS

Hello THOAM people! How are you all doing today? Good? Great? Did you just have one of the best days in your entire life and you are certain that nothing could possibly ruin it for you now??

WELL YOU ARE WRONG. /j I AM HERE TO RUIN IT ALL.

that is very much a joke I’m sorry I’m very high on adrenaline right now becAUSE THE NEW COVERS FOR ISSUE 9 JUST DROPPED AS I’M WRITING THIS OUT AND I AM SO EXCITED TO SEE WHAT HAPPENS NEXT AND I HAVE SO MANY THOUGHTS. So why don’t I just cut the dilly-dallying and get right on with it?

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So, first thing I wanna mention is Sonic’s current state and his relationship status. (You may take that as out of context as you want lol) Sonic is currently in an internal state of panic mixed in with exhaustion. MAJOR exhaustion! Bro had to rush to Omega’s aid right after fighting Shadow in a cave full of ice. If that’s not draining as heck then I have no idea what isn’t. And on top of all that, he not only almost killed Omega, but he also knows now that his friends have known what was going on with him for a while! Probably ever since the scene where him, Tails, and Knuckles went out for breakfast and he passed out at the table. (I can’t remember which issue that was atm. I think issue 3…?) In short, Sonic is experiencing a whole rollercoaster of emotions right now, and he isn’t even awake yet! As soon as he wakes up I theorize he’s gonna be asking everyone a lot of questions, and will then ask for elaborations on top of all the answers he receives! I also don’t think he will be as trusting of others anymore, since his friends all knew of his biggest kept secret for a long while now and nobody said or did anything about it!

Now combine that with the guilt he must feel for Omega… The last thing Sonic witnessed before passing out was him going on a rampage and almost killing the robot. He must not feel great about that…! 🫢 And his relationship with Team Dark will be relatively strained as well. I mean, aside from Rouge probably. She loves Omega, but knows the context behind the situation and doesn’t blame Sonic much for what happened, so I think she won’t change much around the Blue Blur. Though his relationship with Shadow was already strained before all that, so… Yeah.

ALRIGHT TIME TO TALK ABOUT CHIP WOOHOOOOOOOO

We all know now that Chip has finally experienced what I’m calling, “✨God Puberty✨”

(Imagine there are pretty pink sparkles floating around the name. Kinda like the classic “You’re watching Disney Channel” thing)

This ✨God Puberty✨ has essentially opened Chip’s eyes, and changes the game completely! Now we not only have a god on our side but also a god who has context! I believe Chip will try and guide Dark Gaia back to its sleeping state to restore balance like they usually do, as explained in the comic, but the attempt will backfire seeing as Dark Gaia was awoken prematurely by Dr. Eggman. (More on him in a second) Chip will keep trying, because they’re a big floofy funny god that just wants food and just went through ✨God Puberty✨ so they’ll naturally wanna keep this going at a peaceful rate. Because despite all of his power, Chip is still Chip. Just a smol bitty guy who wants ice cream. With the addition of being a god. Sonic will then of course have to step in, leading to him getting his Gaia energy taken away and him being free of this curse, and then the events of the game finale play out as normal. Probably. It’s getting late now and I’m getting tired so my brain energy is wavering so idk exactly if that’s what will happen but it’s some food for thought I suppose.

NOW WE CAN FINALLY TALK ABOUT EGGMAN OH MY GOSH YES LET’S TALK ABOUT THE PATHETIC EGG-SHAPED SCIENTIST THAT WE CALL A MAN MADE OUT OF EGGS

To keep this short and simple, I’ll discuss Eggman within the context we have based solely on the new covers alone. Meaning the only speculation I’ll be doing is based off of those and the last few times we’ve seen the guy in the comic. Which actually was… A long time ago, actually. If I’m remembering correctly, that is. I could be wrong. ANYWHIZZLE LEMME STOP JABBERING AND LET’S GET ON WITH THE THEORIZING-

So the first cover shows a new, most likely final form of Sonic’s, encasing Eggman in a cracked eggshell while using his claws. Or more specifically, there is Eggman, acting as an egg yolk, sitting in a puddle of egg whites with the shell on each side of him, while Sonic’s Gaia claws slowly close in on him in the back. Sonic is staring at him menacingly, his anger and frustration reaching a boiling point due to all the stress he’s most likely experiencing combined with the Dark Gaia energy within him. This cover makes me assume that this issue is gonna act as the final battle against Eggman, a final “Screw you!” To the fat man in red. Obviously, Eggy ain’t going down without a fight, as shown in the next cover, but we’ll get to that in a minute.

The first cover suggests that Eggman is gonna be the main role of the issue, and that he’s gonna get his ass kicked. Sonic is gonna confront him, fully transform into his final Werehog form due to anger and stress, and we’ll then move onto the next issue probably. Again, I’m getting tired so this theory is getting pretty sloppy.

Now onto cover numero dos! I love this cover honestly, and it’s literally only because Knuckles and Tails are seen defending a transforming Sonic from Eggman. They are literally using themselves as like. A meat shield. Normally I’d be like “Oh no what happened????” But right now all I can think is “Omg ✨Brothers✨ 🤩”

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AGAIN IM GETTING VERY TIRED NOW SO I WILL UNFORTUNATELY END THIS HERE AND WILL NOW GO BRUSH MY TEETH BUT HOPEFULLY I WILL REMEMBER TO COME BACK AND ELABORATE TOMORROW IF I HAVE THE TIME. THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR READING, IT MEANS A TON THAT YOU TOOK THE TIME OUT OF THE DAY TO DO THAT.

oki ima go sleeb now thank you bai

The art for the covers was great btw I just wanted to let you know it’s absolutely wonderful I could look at it all day

you're gonna love what's gonna happent his issue, i can tell!!!!!!

only um. i think you were wayyy too tired so you confused sonic with metal sonic. either that ur ur just very polite to metals insistance that he is the real sonic.

[cynningly]

TW: body horror and eye strain (glitching)

rewatching tribetwelve atm so take this gif i made!! It’s mostly just an excuse to make my own headcanon Firebrand design. It was originally just gonna be a doodle of him but i spiraled lmao

still might change Firebrand’s design. I love body horror stuff and i wanna play with the idea that he becomes visibly more monster looking when he defects from the collective and his powers aren’t being held back by Slendy anymore. Especially with his “Rogue God” thing and creatures like angels and stuff being absolutely horrifying to look at in religious canon.

However, as much as I think the burn scars look cool (i hope you can tell they’re burn scars), they’re a such a pain in the ass to draw. So are the teeth, the teeth might actually be worse. I wanted to make it look like his cheeks and lips got like burnt off (Noah’s house got burnt down when he was a kid so i like to think this Firebrand is from a session where Noah didn’t make it out in time) so his teeth are exposed and that’s what kinda gives him his uncanny smile.

But he kinda barely looks like Noah anymore. I kinda wanna see what I can do balancing his horror with becoming a monster while giving him a design that still looks like his past self (cause the horror of seeing the fucked up creature you’ll become while also being able to recognize yourself in it is just *chefs kiss*) and is maybe just a bit easier to draw lmao

Adam Rosner apologists dni or i swear to god i will beat you away with a stick

also quick psa about how I draw Noah cause i do plan to draw and post more t12 stuff:

tldr at the bottom cause this turned out long, sorry

I know a lot of people have been shifting their Noah designs cause Adam is disgusting, and that’s a perfectly fine and more than respectable thing to do. however, i plan to continue to draw Noah as he is. before all this came out, t12 was a massive part of my childhood and Noah was definitely always one of my fav characters. I simply cannot separate t12 from Noah in my own head.

I can, however, separate t12 from Adam.

I rarely ever saw oog tribetwelve stuff, so I will always associate that face with Noah first and Adam second. I will continue to see Adam as a horrible excuse of a human and Noah as a character who suffered because of their actor and writer. In my own humble opinion, Noah can still be a good character even while taking his actor’s deeds into consideration. I believe that you can enjoy t12 while also hating and not supporting Adam. Separating the art from the artist, as some say. Again, if you don’t like drawing Noah as he was in the series and you don’t like seeing the image of a man who did absolutely horrible things that should have put him behind bars, that’s completely understandable and ok.

tldr,

So yeah, i’m gonna draw Noah as he is, but i get people’s desire to change his design to further distance the awesome series of tribetwelve from its awful creator. I just won’t be doing that. I just wanted to explain my reasoning for how I draw him in hopes that 1: y’all can understand how I see this situation and more importantly 2: so you don’t think I support Adam just because I draw Noah canon to how he was in the series. I do not and will not ever under any circumstances support Adam Rosner.

[estbela]

ur my hero fr…. can u maybe tell me more about serbro + bul’s dynamic 🥺

🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹

Noooo, you are my hero!!!!!

OFC!!!!

(Tho this post is kind of a mess sorry)

You see, Ro & Bul are very good friends, and so are Serb & Ro, but Bul & Serb have had...rather tumultous relations over the years, sometimes being friends & allies, sometimes rivals, sometimes even enemies(also had some wars in the middle ages and probably modern era too I think), and they probably met when they were kinda young children, which in nationverse would be the (early) Middle Ages.

Anyway RoBul date for some time(like. Hundreds of years), then break up, for a bunch of reasons, one of the reasons for this being Serbia in a way?(well they argued bcs of him sometimes). Its way more complicated than that tho

Tbh sometimes Bul was basically the third wheel in his own relationship as Serb & Ro got closer over the years and his relationship with Ro got more strained.

Anyway tho I'm gonna talk less about history and more about their general dynamic! (Mostly cause I dont feel like constantly checking every historical fact i say atm)

Imagine. That couple that is so annnoyingly affectionate and also really chaotic (they might have commited several felonies together) and the most depressed pathetic guy with the soul of an old man who complains all the time yet keeps hanging out with them.

And the guy is kind of their ex too!

That is them!!

Even if he complains at every turn they keep Bul with them cause he has that pathetic whimsy and can be just as chaotic as them.

And Bul keeps hanging out with them cause next to Serb & Ro he appears Normal. And cuz he still loves Ro and might like Serb too

cue him being kinda sad and just,,,,,,thinking about the fact the Ro has moved on while he has trouble doing so right as idk. Serbro is doing fun couple stuff (although what they consider fun couple stuff might involve setting someone's house on fire)

Tbh Ro doesn't like the fact that Serb & Bul don't always get along but he knows he can't like. Force them.

An in a perfect world he'd never have to choose between them. In the past, thought, he would have chosen Bul, bcs of how close they were and how much they shared.

But as time went on, he grew unsure of his relationship with Bul and in the end, he sort of choose Serb, or at least, that's how it felt for Bul.

So there's that too.

There are probably more things I could say about them but my brain isn't cooperating at the moment 😔😔😔

Anyway 10/10 dynamic I think they could be so fun but I honestly don't think about them a lot like this kfjddjdkd (in most of my stories all 3 of them are in some weird dysfunctional polycule or robul is officially dating but both of them have some thing going on with Serb more or less lmao) but just serbro dating and Bul also being there is so interesting to think about thank you lili for asking me this!!!!

[megamanrecut]

I was rereading season 1, which has been very fun, lots of details that stand out more with more context, but there's this one bit with Proto man that shows up more than once that's interesting.

In the first episode, Proto man tells Mega man that "Doc never got around to naming [him]... Too busy with his other inventions." Which is followed up a little during the Mega Pinocchio episode, with Proto man saying he's always been Proto (although not actually saying Dr. Light named him that, which turns out to be true), and when Mega man comments on that sounding a little cold, comments that Dr. Light is "Oblivious to details... I like Proto. It's better than Paaasd or something" (which lol)

Now that I've read the season 0 episode, it caught my eye that the name thing doesn't really get talked about there! Proto names himself very quickly, with no thought or fanfare behind it. Very fitting, but paired with the season 1 lines, I'm trying to puzzle out the incongruity of it (Proto you lying bastard why can't you be easier to understand!!!)

On one hand, if the subtle but present implication that Proto might feel bitter about his name is a retcon, it's one that I wouldn't have spotted if I hadn't reread season 0 recently. It's also just as likely that I'm reading into a set of lines that were just meant to be snarky, he definitely does that a lot too lol.

But I am curious if there's some level of truth to that sort of bitter undertone that I thought was implied! Proto man is a difficult character to understand, especially in season 1, and in general when trying to understand his feelings towards Dr. Light. Their relationship is so interesting to me, so sorry if I really did just read way too deep into it haha!

There was a slight perhaps retcon! (sorry this took awhile, limited internet access atm, also this is long/rambly lol)

I wrote season 0 waaay after season 1 (between Master of Disaster Part 2 and 3 to be exact) and in original s0 drafts, the naming thing didn’t happen as early, but when I finally began editing it that seemed unnecessarily weird/creepy for Dr. Light. So, instead the name thing came up on Proto’s activation day. Some of the emphasis around Proto’s name in S1 (particularly E1) was for dramatic irony.

So for character analysis:

Outside of that, still same deal with Dr. Light/Proto, just more focused on char divisions over specific, resolvable drama. The whole dynamic between Dr. Light and Proto has always been strained at best to total estrangement at its core, and sometimes painful to write. Dr. Light was never really in the wrong, Proto just developed into his own person that wanted nothing to do with ‘domestic human life’ or to have any type of authority figure. Its a huge philosophical difference, but its also a son who feels smothered and hopeless rejecting his loving father who tried his best to understand but could never make it work in time. That dynamic still exists, unsolved, in the good!Proto AUs (Master of Disaster Part 3, Become the Night)

Still, Proto isn’t really bitter by Dr. Light’s actions per se, he was just bitter about living under his roof where he was bored and under stimulated. Even Mega was surprised by this at first. In Mega-Pinocchio he was expecting a specific drama lead to Proto’s defection then was surprised when Proto also denied that Dr. Light really did anything wrong, and even reassured the naming thing didn’t bother him (I had already written the ‘naming’ scene in season 0, which remained unchanged, just happened earlier) It wasn’t until Future Shock when he began understanding Proto a little.

Either way tho, Proto wasn’t really bitter about his name (at least there was never intended bitter subtext there, but can be interpreted however!) I think in a way even if Dr. Light *had* given him a name (like Blues?) he would have been quick to drop that when he became Proto Man (kinda like how he thinks ‘Break Man’ is cringy in Become the Night or how Elec Man calling him ‘Light’ drives him nuts). He doesn’t really like the connection, and would prefer to have no name or a generic one over one picked for him by Dr. Light.

[toxycodone]

hello, here to read some of ur birth chart!! lmk if anything was accurate, my chart reading abilities are rusty at the moment </3.

obviously let's start off with your sun :3 you're a capricorn sun in the eighth house. (my sun is also in the 8th house!!! twinsies!!) you might go through a lot of career changes throughout your life & your identity itself may evolve and change pretty frequently. lots of rebirths me thinks. imagine a pheonix rising from the ashes, that's u! you might have a difficult or strained relationship with your father lol. i think your sun is in the 29th degree, but assuming that it is, you might go through a huggeee life change when you're 29 years old. since 29 is a leo degree, that might involve having kids or just becoming more confident and gaining a higher self esteem. u probably like having attention. but who doesn't lol

you're a first house cancer moon, you might resemble your mother quite a bit or have a round or square face and large eyes. you could have been very emotional growing up and potentially very attached to your mum. (which is kind of vague ngl a lot of people were attached to their mothers when they were young but eh whatever). you and your mum may have a lot in common. you may be very transparent when it comes to your emotions lol like you probably can't hide when you're upset whatsoever! like your face just says everything. your cancer rising says more or less the same, since it talks about physical appearance/how you present yourself. round face/baby face, may be ticklish, especially on your tummy. silver jewellery may suit you, or u just prefer silver

you being a aquarius mercury in the 8th house explains a lot about u and why you're so 𝓯𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓴𝔂 on the internet LOL. like the second i saw this placement i laughed so hard because it could not be more perfect. aquarius usually represents technology, the internet, community friendships stuff like that. like i said before, the 8th house talks about rebirth and change, but it also represents death, sex, inheritance blah blah taboo topics in general, really. which i think if you take one look at your blog it speaks for itself LMAOOOO. like piss kink? monsterfucking?? those are the first things that came to mind IT WAS SO OBVIOUSS. but like also no judgement. because i'm also an 8th house mercury. and i like those things. so. anyway to put it simply u were literally born to post freaky shit on tumblr. you've successfully made a lot of friends + garnered an audience that enjoys the same stuff as u. congratulations ^_^ your mercury being in the 8th house made it so you are comfortable talking about topics that others may deem as uncomfortable, which is very very important. also you were probably told you were smart a lot as a kid and may have been considered 'gifted'. meow meow. your 8th house placements are screaming that ur extremely self aware. like to the point that it's a pain in the ass for u. u probably suffer from some kind of anxiety or paranoia of some kind. you probably prefer online dating

that's all the brain power i have atm but if u want more just say the word and i'll be back 😼

ALSO i'm the same anon who sent u this ask --->

https://www.tumblr.com/toxycodone/756122177045135360/minimum-wage-laios-but-hes-not-broke-at-all?source=share

so hello again :3 also have a safe flight to london????? it lowkey sucks here and it's humid as shit right now but still, i hope you have fun LOL

okay I am NOT a horoscope person (I’ve always been kinda ehhhh) but? oh my God…?

Okay this is SUPER accurate. I’ve legit changed so much in the past 3 years it’s INSANE. Even like, if you compared me to a few months ago. My style changes (like at the root it’s the same but still), hair changes, body changes, etc.) I’m always doing something new. Getting a new hobby (recently it’s logic puzzles and sudoku), starting a new series—YEAH. I like to keep it fresh.

my dad and are cool but like. Our relationship IS strained. He doesn’t communicate well and as an autistic person it kills me (like I just recently learned he’s been having knee problems and had been to the doctor for steroids like. WHAT! WHY DIDNT U SAY ANYTHIBG DUDE.) He also doesn’t listen to me or my brother which frustrates us to no end.

AND IVE BEEN TOLD IM LIKE MY MOM. I have a lot of her mannerisms and I was attached to her hip as a kid—she babied me too much. But I’ve finally outgrown that lol. We are still close too.

Okay, I am baby faced as FUCK. Recently my coworker learned I was 24 and she was shocked. She thought I was like 19 at most. And someone thought I was a high schooler recently. Bruh. And I love silver jewelry,,,I mix metals a lot (I’m wearing more gold bc it’s summer) but…silver has my heart. And yes I. Am freaky as FUCK plus. Yeah. I am one to talk about stuff others don’t want to ahsjdhdj I am just really blunt and straightforward but also like…not nervous to discuss taboos.

AND YEAH. I’ve been a gifted kid since elementary (still in honors college to this day) 😭 and my self awareness is off the charts. I’m always like, just aware of what I’m doing (and like, others don’t realize it but I do know when I make people uncomfortable. I just like pushing buttons.)

THE ANXIETY AND PARANOIA GOT ME. Dude. I’m on Lexapro hardcore but before that I was so anxious I genuinely thought others could read my mind and that there was someone living in my house besides me. And my psych diagnosed me w anxiety driven paranoia so. YEAH. YOU GOT ME.

BUT WAIT?!?? UR IN LONDON? Dude maybe we’ll cross paths!! I’ll probably be open about what I’m doing and shi, I’ll be there for 2 weeks. Hehe, maybe I can buy you a pint or something (is that what you Brit’s call it 🤔 /s)

TY FOR THE WELL WISHES AND TYSM FOR THIS YOU ARE AWESOME!!!

[ambalambs]

Don't think I didn't see your tags about Miko's Azem. I need to know all about them! Do you have a name for them? What kind of personality do they have? How do they get along with Hades, Hythlodaeus, Venat, Hermes, Themis, et al. How would they get along with Miko and how are they similar and how are they different?

Oh geeze the cats out of the bag, I do have an azem concept for Miko xD his name is Dionysus! Or Dio for short to his friends. I see him being a pretty energetic guy who strives to live for excitement and fun and just loves being around people. You'd just rarely find him alone or not busy with something.

Im gonna put the rest under a break just in case I get carried away here lol

So basically he's a super cheery and approachable guy but he is definitely someone you wouldn't want to get on his bad side. He has a habit of coming up with unorthodox ideas and if someone decides to hurt him or someone he cares about he will take joy in making them suffer lol but he's usually a sweetheart otherwise! But yeah just he's got of a bit of a deranged quirk to him like I mentioned about the butterfly concepts in those tags you clearly saw xD but most of the time it's harmless ideas. For example he'd probably ask if he could give a caterpillar concept two heads, and when asked why he'd even want to do that he'd reply with something like "so it wouldn't feel lonely 🥺". And just in general I kinda see him being a little creature at times like there's no doubt Hades has had to pluck a few leaves or twigs out of his hair before they go into a meeting. Boy is a free spirit lol

As for relationships he is closest to hythlodaeus. I feel like during the whole final days stuff when he learns of hyth's sacrifice it was most likely the final straw to break him. Just based on canon tho he'd of course also be friends with Hades. He'd take immeasurable joy in pestering him lol but he'd know the limit and only push his buttons on a good day. Themis would be like a little brother to him and possibly an awful influence in most of the other convocation member's eyes lol as for Venat he would've definitely looked up to her as a mentor and since she was a kindred spirit when it came to relations with the people and exploring he felt extremely comfortable with her. He'd always talk her ear off about his wild ideas or things he'd see/experience on his travels. Im not sure if he'd have ever had a deeper relationship with hermes tho beyond just "this is a guy I work with and he seems sad so im gonna chat him up when I see him, maybe show him a cool bird concept ive been cooking up. He seems to like birds." Lol

I do have this idea, or theory I guess, that venat told azem about the whole future stuff with hydaelyn and zodiark and the final days at some point. And this would've been devastating for him to learn and hard to accept and why he left the convocation and everything behind. He'd have been angry having to sit aside and let fate play out as it must so I think that really strained his relationship with Venat and of course Hades. I could go on deeper about all that probably but idk how atm lol but it does play into how I feel like he'd feel about miko.

Like if they were to meet i feel like there would be a deep sadness and resentment for miko. Dio would just take one look at him and wonder "why you?". But there'd also be respect. That something so small, just a piece of himself, could continue on and accomplish all that miko has. And to witness all the love and compassion and hope and courage in this little shard would eventually sway him and Dio would come to love miko, not as a piece of himself but as his own person. Ngl I'd love an azem vs wol battle to test their worth or something xD I feel like thatd be fun. But yeah I mean there are small similarities between them if one knew where to look. They both have that joyous nature and are good with people. Their ability with song. Dio is just more unhinged than Miko is in like Miko doesn't take joy in fighting or hurting others even if they've wronged him and he's more chill than Dio is in general I think lol if that all makes sense.

Also im gonna be bold and share a basic concept doodle I did of him just cuz I needed to get an idea out of what he'd even kinda look like. So this is all subject to change but I do see him at least having long hair with this color and silver eyes.

[sapphicautistic]

My incisions are all across like my lower belly around my belly button and I'd expected some to be up like near or on my ribs so I had an inaccurate picture about which muscles I'd need to avoid using too much for awhile.

But I'm finding the advice I solicited on my big blog (about which of my mobility aids will strain my incision sites) is still really helpful. My rollator has been invaluable esp since walking at all seems to strain my incision sites but I need to do it for circulation etc reasons.

Walking with the rollator actually feels like it's straining the sites less than when I tried walking with the cane? And esp compared to the few steps I've taken unassisted. Not sure why that would be so though.

I think I could self propel my clunker wheelchair on hard floors rn but I don't have to go far rn fortunately so the walker is sufficient atm and moving my torso at all while sitting is very painful/feels like it's pulling on things so I'm glad I have the option of not using it!

I haven't fallen down once since surgery!! (close call at the hospital but I landed on the bed and wasn't injured so it doesn't count) which my gf has been very concerned about cuz I am a fall risk in general, and I'm high as balls on the pain meds so even clumsier and a fall now could reopen my incisions.

I had to eat soup and take meds after my gf's p usual bedtime last night and she got out of bed and heated up my soup and hung out with me while I ate it 😭 she was worried I'd hurt myself, she's been really sweet taking care of me!!

I do think she was right and I maybe overdid it yesterday walking around (w rollator) in an attempt to improve circulation/ work out the air they blew into me to have more working space around my organs. Bedtime last night was kind of brutal on the same dose that felt like overkill earlier in the day.

I had actually emailed my doc to see if I could take half a pill instead of the 1-2 pills prescribed, like if it's safe to cut these in half, bc in the afternoon I was just super high on one and my pain was totally ignorable when not moving. But yeah at bedtime I seriously debated taking a second one cuz my pain was not controlled.

It eventually calmed down enough that I got to sleep though and managed to avoid taking more and even skipped a dose in the night cuz I fell asleep 20 minutes before I could've taken it and wasn't aware of any pain so that ended up being ok.

But this morning I woke up way too early just to pee and after getting up and moving the pain was awful so I took another dose in hopes I'd go back to sleep.

I'd been hoping to wait till my normal breakfast time but ¯\_(ツ)_/¯maybe tomorrow it'll work! Or the next day lol

I think my schedule is gonna be kinda fucked up for awhile!

[ouroborosman]

brainrot ideas brainrot ideas

Sound the alarm, fellas.

The Wally actor AU is consuming my life atm so here's some ideas for my self insert~

~Actor Wally and Jay ideas!~

Just general lore, Jay isn’t actually regularly employed by the Welcome Home company(?). She covers for people when they call in, usually tasked with prop creation, costume designing, etc. Craftier things like that.

It embarrasses the hell out of Jay, but she tears up when getting yelled at, no matter what. It makes the already hectic work environment on set worse for her

Wally would probably end up seeing this and go off on the person.

Jay’s grateful, but is like ‘hey can you not do that again it just draws more attention to me that I don’t want ;w;”

And wally’s like >:I

(Jay and Wally already in a relationship at this point, he sees her dinky little apartment for the first time)

Wally, forcing a smile, “it’s so…”

Flashback to his mansion, then back to Jay’s apartment in front of him

“...quaint?”

Jay probably gradually developed a crush on Wally as she worked at the studio, and was pretty excited when Poppy asked about setting Wally up on a blind date with her

Somehow she finds his weird behavior during their date, and lack of relationship experience cute and kinda endearing 

As they get closer and Wally becomes ‘hot and cold’ towards her, it probably puts a strain on their friendship. The days that he’s sweet toward her are nice, but Jay is terrible at reading between the lines in situations and genuinely thinks he doesn’t like her.

If it went on for too long, she would probably eventually confront him like, “What the hell, why do you ignore me sometimes? Do you hate me? If you’ve only been pretending to be my friend, please don’t bother anymore”

Does Wally admit his feelings to her? Does he double down and sever their friendship? OOooh who knows~?

(In a relationship) With as much as he has to do everyday, Wally is used to getting up around 5am to get started on things

Jay, with unreliable employment and frequent late nights to meet work deadlines, has a terrible sleep schedule

Jay wakes up in Wally’s bed (or in her own room in his house idk) to the sound of him coming home. He walks into the room she’s in to grab something.

Jay: “Oh hey, are you getting ready to leave for work?”

Wally: “Uh, no. I just came by to grab something, it’s 12pm. Are you just waking up?” Jay:”...”

Jay:”no..” rolls over and goes back to sleep

[evintide]

✧.   get to know the author !

name : zeta

pronouns : she / her

preference of communication : im’s via tumblr atm! i’m on discord but i am EXTREMELY shy so that is currently saved for mutuals at the moment.

most active muse ( s ) : as of right now midna is my main gal! though i’ve been feeling very tempted to pick up lumine since it’s been awhile. i have a few other muses that are burning a hole in my pocket (along with an oc or two) but they’re either a) a passing fancy or b) i feel... way too embarrassed to even think about offering them to anyone. LOL.

experience / how many years : as if i didn’t feel old enough turning 30 in June LMAO... i would wager at LEAST twenty or so years at this point, but i’ve had a lot of irl things that took me away from writing for stretches at a time during all of that.

best experience : hooo this is hard... probably back when i was writing in my original fandom and i found a writing partner with an awesome au that i just clicked with really with. we don’t talk much any more but i still care for them deeply, and i loved working off their ideas. we even had a single thread that continued for MONTHS. wild to think that i had the mental stamina for that! also i was in a group chat (same muse) and someone mentioned that our thread (albeit a short one) felt very in character and i was just. beyond touched at the time. small things like getting asks and stuff were always a big treat too! (and still are!!)

rp pet peeves : when people don’t give me anything to work off of. rp is a two way street, and while i know not every reply has to be a novel or move the characters in a certain way every time, if i’m left carrying the scene on my own it dries up my interest very quickly. also, not fully rp related but over complicated blog themes. i love themes! coding is absolute wizardry to me and people who can make and/or edit stuff beautifully are magic! but if i have to highlight the page to try and see where links are or have to copy/paste text onto a text document due to eye straining colors? nah dog. i’m outtie.

plots or memes : i ADORE plotting! not every detail has to be hashed out but getting a feel for the direction for the rp or if there’s some sort of idea you’d like to talk about and experiment through writing? LET’S GOOOOO!! though that can also easily be brought up or be inspired by memes so! kinda both? is that an acceptable answer?? i’m admittedly prone to getting super hyped to talk about plots and then... have my mind go blank from a stage fright response, LMAO. so having memes to work off of can be INCREDIBLY handy for me. the two more or less go hand in hand in my book!

are you like your muse ( s ) : yes and no? IT’S A BIT HARD TO EXPLAIN. but at  least one thing midna and i share is that we care very deeply but expressing it, especially through words is. very difficult. or we make it more difficult than it should be. :,D at the very least i know for a fact ALL of them would disown me the minute i started spitting puns (which is very, VERY often.)

tagged by. @hyruin thank you friend! ♥

tagging. @riwrite @twilitae @cyclebound @legendryhero @silenthime @calamight and anyone else that reads this! >:D

[brick-a-doodle-do]

Well thank you!

How come you're gonna attack my ask box? 👀

I'mma use this to give you a short paragraph now:

Idk if you really got what I was asking completely but I'm gonna do what I meant regardless

(btw your thing being in light mode is a curse to my eyes when I see the screenshots lmao)

Paragraph:

This game had been going on for a while now. The two had been trying to get at each other for similar reasons. Except now night had fallen and the larger was asleep for once, prompting the smaller to sneak grab their sharpened, blade like needle, and head out there. They ran across the floor and expertly got onto the table. Only after jumping the gap to the bed did they start to sneak, being as quiet as possible. Once to the target, the back of the neck, they raised the needle and swung it down to plunge it into the skin...but it never happened. A hand reached around and grabbed them in a loose fist, the larger's crimson eyes staring up after they rolled into their back, holding the smaller above their face. The chilling, cold voice calmly enthused, "Seems I won our little game." Whelp. Guess this was karma for trying a sneak attack.

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I will stop there but I fully combined both of what you mentioned mwahahaha

I love combing two things into one

It could be an au of my original idea...but I mainly didn't mean both the borrower and human being vampires, only one. I don't really think vampires could feed off each other very well. Maybe as a fill in for not having human blood? Hope you like the paragraph I gave you tho...you can do with it what you wish, and yes, I purposely didn't go to the noms part, suffer

(Not rly I just didn't want to put the first attempt in a random paragraph I didn't really intend to continue atm)

Enjoy the paragraph of a story that I didn't detail as much as I could have :P sneak peak of how I write books

yes of course! and i meant i'd attack your askbox with any ideas i had. so like in a /pos way :D

ooooh treated immediately :0 a treat!!

oh my godddd light mode. i have so much to say about this, so just bear with me,,,

i have tried SO many different modes on computer. i LOVE goth rave and could DEFINITELY get used to it, but the activity box! it's so bright!! i have to strain my eyes to even see text 😭 and dark mode i have the same problem with, also it's too dark. low contrast mode looks like it's fucking underwater, cement is WAY too bright, cybernetic is kinda cool but again the activity box sucks and pfps don't go well with the colors (and that pisses me off), canary is blinding, ghost is worse, vampire is cute but the ACTIVITY BOX MY EYES IT'S SO GREY WTF, pumpkin is alr but the orange is overpowering and THE ACTIVITY BOX!!!!!!, snow bright sucks, and pride is just way too wild. so true blue for the win! i will sit with goth rave and see if i can live with it, but for now i'm sticking with light mode as painful as it is (fyi i don't have light mode for ANYTHING else if that eases the pain <3)

OKAY now that that's out of the way!

OHHHHH 3D I LOVE THIS! I LOVE HOW YOU MIXED BOTH PROMPTS TOGETHER AND AJDSJFJ I AM BEGGING FOR MORE SOON! JUST A CRUMB! FEED THE POOR!!!!

ohh okay sorry i totally misinterpreted that :') oh my god totally i didn't even think of that i am stupid for not realizing that would just NOT work DSJFGFJSD

i do love it!!! i'm already hype for more :D

and mmm creative process sneak peak!! fun fun :> and no hard feelings for not wanting to waste your first nom writing on a paragraph that'll be showcased on my blog AAJFD i totally get that lmao

[southern--downpour]

in other news i got the body of the first octokitten prototype done! gonna do the ears & tentacles tomorrow when hopefully im not tired and my back doesnt hurt like a bitch lmao

[btsmosphere]

Number 45 | KNJ

~summary: The man at number 45 becomes the highlight of your shift... Five times you delivered something to Namjoon, and one time he gave something back to you! ~pairing: namjoon x female!reader ~word count: 2.5k ~delivery girl!reader, fluff, slight angst, strangers to lovers ~rating: g ~warnings: allusion to injury (very minor)

~a/n: @bangtanwritingbingo has me actually writing atm, so you guys get another fic!! this one has sat in my wips for aaages, but it kinda lost direction before the ‘5+1′ square gave me the idea of structuring it like a 5+1. hope you enjoy!

Number 45

The first time the man at number 45 – Kim Namjoon, it said on the parcel – opened the door for you, he tripped on his doormat and fell into your arms.

Unfortunately, in your startled state, you had jumped back too, leaving him scrambling for stability until only the box in your arms separated you. He was grasping onto your forearms, finally righting himself against you.

Staring back at him, you found incredibly pink cheeks bursting into a dimpled grin as he backed away.

“S-sorry, sorry,” he had stuttered, gladly taking the package and hurrying back through his doorway.

“Have a nice day…” you offered, perplexed, before awkwardly turning back to your van.

You hadn’t been on the route for long, and you already had a story to tell! And at least he was cute, so you were able to smirk about it and get on with your day.

The next time, you hadn’t really made the connection, not being familiar with the route just yet. But one particular package you had to deliver that day had made you smile, and it was addressed to number 45.

Pulling up at his street at last, a silly grin spread onto your face as you heaved the thing out. It was a smallish tree, just less than your height, but with a large bundle of roots wrapped up at the bottom.

Carefully manoeuvring it to the ground, you decided it better to knock on the door first, which you did.

Though you recognised the guy almost instantly, you pushed aside the recollection of your last visit and brightly informed him that you had brought his tree.

It was downright impossible not to smile at the way his face lit up on seeing the plant waiting for him, and he eagerly offered to help you lug it up the path. Between you, you shuffled it right the way to his door.

“Want any more help getting this in?” you smiled.

“Yeah, okay, er, if we could just put it over there-“ he strained as you heaved it up again, crossing the threshold and eventually setting it beside a large pot standing in his kitchen.

“Thanks a lot,” he grinned, wiping his hands off.

“Not a problem,” you brushed your palms against your trousers and made to head out again.

It was a much cheerier goodbye this time, with him waving you off briefly. And maybe you stared a little too long, but what was the harm?

Barely three days later, a large bag of soil was in your delivery truck. Addressed to number 45. Kim Namjoon.

“Er, your soil?” you gestured to the bag at your feet when he answered your knock.

“Ah, yes,” he rubbed the back of his neck, colour rising in his cheeks.

“Kind of important for a tree, don’t you think?” you joked as you lifted it over his threshold.

“Probably…” he laughed, looking down his hallway behind him.

Sure enough, the new tree was right in the spot you left it, next to the pot that would be its new home.

“Hopefully you have everything you need now, then,” you grinned and bid him farewell.

It didn’t take long for Kim Namjoon, number 45 to become the highlight of your delivery round. It was a shame he didn’t get more things delivered, you thought as you sorted through the parcels in search of him.

Each time you were given a delivery for him, you felt more excited than you probably should be towards the guy, who you had to remind yourself was in most respects a stranger. But it lightened up your shifts a little, at least.

One day, you saw his address on the box of a food mixer as you loaded up in the morning. Already, it put a smile on your face.

It did the same to him too, apparently. The bright dimpled grin you recognised so well lit up his doorway just moments after you knocked..

To your delight, he seemed to be spending a while signing for the parcel you had brought to his door.

“Planning on cooking something nice?” you enquired, given the contents of his order.

“Hmm?” he turned his attention back towards you, “oh, yeah. Well… maybe.”

He rubbed the back of his neck with a shy laugh when you tilted your head in question.

“My friends are coming over and insisted we make food. But I’m not really cut out for the kitchen.”

“Best of luck, then!” you laughed at his admission.

Unfortunately, you did have the rest of your round to get through, so you reluctantly reached for the tablet to sign.

“Uh… sorry, I don’t think it’s working,” Namjoon said.

Taking it back with a frown, you prodded at a few things but it seemed he was right. You probably could have figured it out with a bit more investigation (you managed it before your next stop), but you took this as a chance to hang around a bit longer.

“I have some paper copies somewhere, we can use those,” you told him.

To your pleasant surprise, he accompanied you down the path and to your van, offering to hold the tablet while you rooted through various things to find the form.

“I hope this isn’t a bad omen,” he joked, “I’m really good at breaking things. Maybe I shouldn’t attempt cooking after all…”

“I’m sure you’ll do fine,” you encouraged. Honestly, his earnest hope to cook for his friends was endearing.

By the time everything was sorted, you had heard about everything he was planning to make. It didn’t sound too tricky, but you wished him luck anyway, sensing his nerves about it.

He was too cute.

A week later, you frowned at the contents of your delivery.

A food mixer. For number 45. Kim Namjoon.

Maybe he had accidentally ordered two?

The only way to find out if there was some confusion was to talk to him, which you weren’t going to complain about, so you made your way as normal to his door, depositing the food mixer on the ground as you waited for him to open the door.

He took a bit longer than normal. Eventually, though, the handle clicked and you looked up-

That wasn’t Namjoon.

“You’re not Jimin.”

Those were the first words the dark-haired man at the door said, leaving you even more confused.

“No.”

The man’s eyes found the box on the floor beside you then, and understanding dawned on him. To your surprise, his eyes widened and a smirk slipped onto his face as he stared at you.

“Joon!” he yelled suddenly, startling you, “it’s for you!”

Then he walked away.

Moments later, the man you recognised came hurrying to the door. After that strange encounter, you were even happier to see those adorable dimples again.

What you were less elated to see, however, was a bandage on one of his hands.

“Hi,” he said, a bit breathless.

Blinking, you pulled your eyes from his injury and reminded yourself of the task at hand.

“You… ordered another food mixer?” you asked.

A sheepish smile bloomed on Namjoon’s face, melting your heart and striking concern through it at the same time.

“Yeah… the cooking may have gone slightly wrong,” he winced, gesturing to his bandaged hand.

“Oh gosh, let me bring it in for you,” you offered, “how did you even manage that?”

“Told you I was good at breaking things,” he laughed softly, and stepped aside to let you into the house with the large box.

It was the same as last time you had been here, except the kitchen was strewn with flour, chopped vegetables and random utensils in absolute chaos. Simply raising your eyebrows, you turned back to ask where you could possibly put the delivery.

For a moment, you thought you saw the other man peering around the doorframe, but Namjoon took your attention soon after.

“Thanks so much, you can just put it on the floor. It’s kind of a disaster in here…”

Chuckling, you obliged. As you set it down, you caught sight of something familiar.

“The tree looks great!” you commented. And you weren’t lying. The plant you had delivered a while back had really flourished – now that it had soil.

“Plants are something I am good with,” Namjoon smiled as he followed you back to the front door, “I should stick to that.”

“I can tell!” you assured him. “And um, good luck with the rest of the cooking. Don’t hurt yourself! Then you can get back to the gardening.”

“Oh, I’m not cooking!” he laughed, “at least, not much. After the mixer incident, I called Jin in to help. Sorry about him, by the way…”

“Why are you apologising?”

“I don’t know, he probably did something,” Namjoon grinned.

“I can hear you!” Jin called from inside, making you both laugh.

A moment later, someone appeared from behind you.

“Hi Joon!” he greeted, then looked questioningly at you.

“Oh Jimin, there you are,” Jin had come outside now, “I thought you said you wouldn’t be late?”

As the new arrival began to defend himself, you said a quiet goodbye to Namjoon, who thanked you again. As you walked back down the path, you heard a bit of their conversation drifting to your ears.

“Was that-?”

Jimin was cut off by a loud shush from Namjoon. Ignoring his friend, Jin spoke over him – quite loudly, you might add.

“Do you reckon he only broke it as an excuse for her to come back?”

An even louder shush followed. Loud laughter erupted, only cutting off when the door shut behind the men.

Of course, you kept going, pretending you hadn’t just heard that. Inside, meanwhile, your heart was hammering. Surely they couldn’t have been talking about you…?

After that, you had to admit your crush on Namjoon grew further. You let yourself daydream a little on your shifts and relished in all the small interactions you were granted with him. Without fail, his smile was the highlight of your days.

You got on fairly well, but of course you were only able to have brief chats in your busy shifts.

Today would be one of the busiest. It had only just begun, but you could already tell. It was valentine’s day, and the back of your van was full of red and pink envelopes, heart shaped boxes and even a bunch of balloons.

Perhaps this was the one day you didn’t want to be taking a delivery to Namjoon’s house.

But, apparently, the world loved making a fool of you.

Your heart dropped when you found the package. Now you stood at the end of Namjoon’s front path, red envelope in one hand and a small pot of flowers in the other.

It was stupid to feel so deflated over this. You had a crush on the guy, nothing more. But still, it hurt to know that if he was seeing someone, that would overshadow your interactions from now on. You wouldn’t feel right about trying to flirt with him or being so eager to see his smile if you knew he had a significant other already.

It was best to get it over with.

Finally, you took a breath and pushed the gate open, making your way to knock on his door.

When he appeared, it was with the same dazzling smile you had come to love, ignorant of your disappointment.

He looked so happy to see you. You swallowed down the false hope welling in you.

You couldn’t even muster a ‘happy valentine’s day,’ the words feeling too bitter on your tongue. Squeezing a half-hearted smile, you turned away quickly after he thanked you for the items, not noticing that he hadn’t even shut the door yet.

You hurried through the couple of deliveries for his street, just wanting today to be over.

Returning to your van, you were walking around to the driver’s door when you heard quick footsteps. Looking around, you soon found their source as Namjoon dashed from his gate. And he was coming towards you.

Slightly alarmed, you slowed down. Perhaps he had broken the flower pot already?

You cursed the part of yourself that was happy to see him again. Usually, you loved to take any excuse to draw out the time you could spend together. But knowing what you did now...

Now, Namjoon stopped in front of you. He was holding the flower pot, but it was miraculously intact from what you could see. In fact, he had the envelope with him too…

“Hey, sorry,” he panted, “I didn’t expect you to leave so quick. I um, I hope it isn’t too forward but I…”

A light frown formed between your brows as you tried to follow what he was saying. At the moment, his usual shy demeanour was only amplified as he shifted on his feet, dimples showing from his nervous smile as he watched you for a response.

“I got these… for you,” he said, “i-if you don’t feel the same then it can just be a nice present? It sounds silly, but I really like seeing you and I just wondered… well…”

The frown had faded from your face. All you could do was stare in shock. Could you believe your ears right now?

Namjoon pressed the gifts carefully into your hands. You noticed he had opened the red envelope and clumsily tucked the flap into itself to re-seal it.

Curious, you opened it. In the time it had taken you to make the other deliveries, he had written a message inside the previously blank card – blank! All your worries dissipated faster than ever, an exhilarated rush coming in to replace them.

His handwriting was very neat, you thought as you read. It was really pretty.

Inside was his number, and an invitation on a date. I’d love to get to know you more, he wrote.

You couldn’t believe this. It couldn’t be real.

Unfortunately, your disbelieving stare at the card meant Namjoon’s nerves were about to fail him.

“What do you say?” he asked tentatively.

Slowly looking up, you gaped at him. Lost for words, you made an admittedly poor choice of topic to start with.

“You made me deliver my own gift?” you sputtered.

Namjoon’s ears turned redder.

“Sorry, I couldn’t help it! You are the cutest delivery service, after all.”

That was it, your heart was going to give out. He looked distinctly embarrassed at his words, but managed to ask again in a hopeful tone.

“So… do you want to come on a date with me?”

Laughing, you tucked the card away and held it to your chest. You gave one more glance to the flowers as well. They were so sweet, not a bouquet but something that could grow, like Namjoon loved to do. The same way you hoped your relationship would blossom.

“Yes.”

Thank you for reading! I always love hearing what you thought💜

For more, my masterlist is here

Taglist: @aianloveseven @preciouschimine @un2-verse @taegularities​

[realcube]

haikyuu!! boys’ reactions to you speaking 💗 uwu💗

characters: tsukishima, ushijima, yaku, kenma & iwazumi

thank you anon for this cute request 💕 idk what i just wrote but i had fun 👍

IWAIZUMI & KENMA’S ARE AGED UP! MUTURE THEMES - MINORS DNI

tw// fluff, swearing, uwu language, cwinge

kenma’s hcs tw// sexual themes, implied switch!reader, phone sex(?), mentions of a blowjob, mentions of punishment

iwaizumi’s hcs tw// breeding kink, fem!reader, orgasm denial

Kei Tsukishima

you realised he didn’t like it so you did it just to annoy him LMFAO

he was scrolling through tiktok and a girl popped up on his fyp talking like that, so he snarled and immediately flicked it away, muttering something along the lines of ‘why do people speak like that? do they think it’s cute? ‘cause it’s really not; it’s just embarrassing.’

so you wasted no time in responding, ‘sowwy? what was that?’

HELL 👏 FIRE

his blood literally ran cold, he was aware that you liked taking the piss but he didn’t expect you to do it to this extent

 ‘what did you just say?’ he murmured, silently praying that he had just misheard you

you rolled your eyes before scoffing ‘nothing.’ you deepened your voice, just playing around at this point tbh

tsukishima hummed in agreement, deciding not to inquire further as he figured that he must’ve heard the echo of the girl’s voice in his head rather than yours

so he was just about go back to scrolling until he heard you coo in a high-pitched from behind him, ‘tsukishima is a lil’ bitch.’

‘(Y/N), FUCKING STOP!’ he let a throaty scream at you

‘you’re so boring, tsukki-’ you spoke, quickly cutting yourself off so you could switch to your uwu voice, ‘or should I say; bowing.’

you said, hopeful that your voice would make it clearing that you meant ‘boring’ rather than the act of playing an instrument with a bow

‘go to hell.’ he grumbled, trying his best to tune you out by pulling his headphones over his ears 

‘babe~’ you purred, shuffling over to him and peppering kisses along the nape of his neck as you were feeling extra evil today, ‘wuv you~’

‘jail.’  tsukishima simply stated as he switched over to Spotify so he could blare some Mother Mother to drown out the sound of your voice

the worst part was that he couldn’t even tell if he liked it or not PFFT

like it was cute but the fact you weaponised it against him annoyed him

but you were also giving him kithes so he couldn’t exactly complain 💞

Morisuke Yaku 

ok don’t even lie yaku does a variant of the uwu voice whenever he’s trying to insult kuroo IUGBEIGVA

it’s something like ‘aww, kuwoo, does your lil’ undewdeveloped bwain not undewstand algebwa?’ but in a mocking way yk?

so when a he watches a lil’ tabby cat approach you on the street, then you busted out the uwu voice that he had never heard before- he was taken aback

at first he was like ‘woah why are you making fun of that cat?’ bc he always associated that voice with ridicule LMFAO

but when he processed all the nice things you were saying he realised that you were being nice lol

so then he was like ‘awwww 🥺 (y/n) + cat = SO FKN CUTE!! 💕💗💖’ *click click* and he just starts taking photos

he probably puts them on his private story with the caption ‘their an angel 😍’

(then kuroo probably replies with ‘they’re*’) (don’t ask why yaku put him on his private story ✋)

anyway, he’s probably so fond of the voice too like ofc he thinks it’s cute

bc it’s a lil’ kitten and you’re talking to it in a high-pitched voice as if it can understand you SO FKN CUTE

he’s not too effected by it tho- it’s mostly how well you get on with the cat that he really admires

then he couched down beside you to talk to the cat too and y’all had a whole conversation with it in uwu

‘aww, look! are you hungwy, baby?’ you asked the cat as it licked the back of it’s paw

‘i think, it is!’ yaku continued, aware that if anybody from school caught him doing this, he’d pass away on the spot but what can he say? he’s soft for you (´▽`ʃ♡ƪ)

 ‘i have some blueberries in my bag, you can have some if you say please.’ he told the cat

you were both met by the cat’s blank - but adorable - stare, accompanied by silence until the kitten let out a faint, ‘mew’

‘AWWWWWW!!! 💞💕💖🥺👏 ’ you both squealed in unison, impressed by the kitten’s response 

‘it understands us!’ you gasped while applauding the cat for it’s excellent communication skills

‘the voice must work!’ yaku concluded as he scrambled to throw his bag off his back and rummage through it in search of the tub of blueberries

you nodded, watching in awe as yaku pulled out the tub to carefully pick out the plumpest berries and feed them to the cat

yaku noticed your expression out of the corner of his eye and chuckled, ‘what?’

‘you’re so cute.’ you snickered, lighting bopping his nose with your index finger as he continued to allow the cat to feed out of the palm of his hand

a furious blush immediately covered his cheeks as he hastily turned his head away to hide it - in a typical anime fashion, ‘be quiet.’

Kenma Kuzome

it’s a sex thing-- it’s 100% a sex thing

a kink perhaps?

ngl he loves it when you do the voice in bed 

like don’t ask why it turns him on so much

he’s weak for you whenever you do the voice tbh

BUT it’s only hot when you do it 

when any other person does it - especially if it’s over text - he literally gags 🤢🤢🤢

when a streamer he watches does the voice, he’s just thinks ‘ew ✋ that isn’t cute. pls stop.’

but when you do it- boner alert pfft

especially when you moan in that voice yES HE LOVES THAT

you just execute it in a way these other bitches just can’t, okay? 💅 IUERBGFERIBG

he doesn’t mind putting the voice on sometimes if you like it when he does it but he’s really embarrassed by it 🙈

he’ll try to say something in the voice while you’re rearranging his guts for a change and you’re praising him like 👏👏👏 ‘awh, precious kenma bb.i love that voice on you, i might just let you cum early--’

and he’s fucking groaning from pain, pleasure and humiliation 

‘never again.’ was the single coherent thought he could form

you’re only giving like 20% of the time but if you happen to giving on a day that you’re feeling especially evil, you might make him do the voice in exchange for orgasm privileges

but he gets you back for it though 

you’d call him, whining and pleading for him to help you with the throbbing between your legs or at the very least, give you permission to touch yourself

but considering that the day prior, you had tortured his ass to the point were he was now struggling to sit down, ofc he was just like ‘no ❤’ when you ask for his assistance 

even after your continuous begging, he didn’t budge 

‘don’t you dare put your hands on yourself until i get home. i’m leaving right now so i should be back in half an hour but if you keep pestering me like a little bitch, then i’ll be sure to go extra slow on the highway.’

although, for kenma ‘extra slow’ is probably the speed limit lmao

(istg he drives like he’s in mario kart)

however, half an hour was just too long 😩 i mean, you had probably been on call with him for 5 minutes already and it took you 20 minutes to get him to pick up the phone so by now, you were clearly on the brink of madness

‘kitten~’ you whined, desperately trying to think of a way to convince kenma to aid you 

then you remembered; his weak spot

‘pwease, baby?’ you softened and raised the pitch of your voice

kenma perked up as he realised what you were trying to do, the tips of his ears burning, ‘don’t bother to try that with me, (y/--’

‘i’ll suck you off when you come back.’ you promised, keeping the voice on, the aching getting worse and worse by the second

kenma was now partially able to relate to your circumstance as he began to feel a straining of his own, between his legs at your cutesy tone along with the image of the last time you blew him tormenting his mind

‘whatever. but only use your hands. i can tell when you use a toy so don’t even try; or else i’ll dick you down ‘til the sun rises- okay bye.’

atm the moment, that hardly sounded like a punishment but then you reflected back on how you’d be crying for a mercy after the fourth round with kenma so- yeah

anyway, moral of the story, if you perform the voice well enough, it’s basically kenma’s weakness so use it wisely 

Hajime Iwaizumi

you first did the voice in front of him while you had a friend’s baby in your arms and you were trying to communicate with it 

it kinda looked like 

you: hewwo babyy~ who’s the most precious thing? you are! 

the baby: 🤠

the parent: 🙂

iwa: 😶

iwa ON THE INSIDE: breeding kink go brrrr 😩 i want to put a baby in her so bad- she’ll scream my name in that fucking voice tonight

and he was right

cut to him pounding you while demanding that you say his name in ✨the voice✨ or else you won’t be allowed to cum

ofc you had too much pride for that so you just let him dick you down and cum whether he likes it or not but he could tell that was the plan you had in mind so he suddenly pulled out just as you were about to reach your high

he looked at you with a mean scowl, ‘fucking say it or i’ll stop right now.’

if he were to stop, it would kinda be a punishment for him too but he didn’t care- anything to see his lovely gf suffer tbh 😇

also he could get off to you fingering yourself, struggling to orgasm- he’s done it before and he’ll gladly do it again if you don’t say his damn name 

‘iwa..’ you groaned, gripping at the sheets as you anticipated him sliding his cock back into you 

‘in the voice.’ iwaizumi reiterated, delivering a hard smack to the side of your thigh out of annoyance

you hissed at the sharp impact , gulping to lubricate your dry throat before choking out in your best imitation of the voice he desired, ‘iwa~’

he was only half-satisfied with what you uttered but i mean, it got the job done

his dick was throbbing, practically begging for the comfort of your warm cunt once again so he hastily slipped back in, letting out a low groan as he did so

so he’d continue hammer you from behind, probably muttering incoherent things about your babies and your voice while doing so but you chose to pay little attention to it as you couldn’t help but focus on your own intense pleasure

once he finally climaxed, he did it inside you which you wasn’t surprising as y’all had already established that you love being being filled up and he loves filling you up 💕

but then he insisted that y’all go for another few rounds to increase the chance of pregnancy 

like- sir-

you didn’t have the heart to tell him that you were on birth control 

bc surely......he would’ve known

but he didn’t

you eventually told him that you had no interest in coming off birth control and he wasn’t mad LMAO he didn’t even want a baby tbh he was just caught up in the moment 

yeah no but if you do the voice again, the cycle will continue

Wakatoshi Ushijima

you were both hanging out in your bedroom, doing your own things, and you were sending your friend a (video) snap so you ironically used the uwu voice

ofc this caught his attention so he shifted his gaze off of his revision sheets and onto you, shooting you a weird look

you couldn’t help but snicker, turning to him and continuing with your little impression, ‘can i hewp you?’ you tried to ask in all seriousness but you couldn’t suppress the smile that was tugging on the corners of your lip

were you a little high? yes

ushijima just blinked rapidly, wondering why you sound like a cuter version of mickey mouse all of a sudden

was it a trend?

or maybe it was for one of those ‘tiktoks’?

either way, ushijima couldn’t help what he said next

‘no. i’m fiwne.’

IUERSBGTOHAROHSGBGFRO

HE SAID IT LIKE ‘fi - whine’ THO

you passed away 💀⚰

‘TOSHI!!!’ you screamed, feeling your soul leave your body

ushijima gasped, thinking that you had just been possessed or sumn, ‘hm?’

once he realised that you were in fact sane, he figured that your reaction must have something to do with his response 

‘did i say something wrong?’ his lips curling into the tiniest of smiles, simply because you looked so joyous so ofc he was he was happy seeing you happy

‘nope! please say it again, toshi! i’m beggin’ ya’

‘no.’

although he loved hearing you laugh more than anything, the man had his limits

ngl he doesn’t mind when you do it - it just doesn’t especially effect him, that’s all

you could just randomly start talking like that during a conversation and he’ll just go from 😐 to 😐

but he gets butterflies when you call him ‘baby’ which is something you usually pickup whenever you put on the voice lol <3

pls call him ‘baby’ or ‘babe’ more he just wants to feel cared for and loved for a change instead of always having to constantly put on a front of ‘big, stoic man with no feeling that you can push around to your hearts content’  around literally everyone. sometimes he just wants to come home and feel like he can actually express himself and be soft without getting ridiculed  

[cursestothemoon]

Could you do some more headcanons that feed Fred’s and my innocence kink?

Fred + innocence kink is on my mind 24/7

yes. innocence kinks all around ✋🏻

17+ IF YOU ARE TAGGED AND DON’T WANT TO BE TAGGED IN SMUT PLEASE LET ME KNOW

warnings:NSFW, innocence kink, possessiveness, praise!kink, virginity being lost, oral (male and female receiving but male goes into more detail), mentions of face fucking

aLRIGHTY THEN 

i love this so much 

so let’s say you’re a virgin when you first start dating fred 

and you wanted to have sex, but no one had really done it for you like that and quite honestly most of the guys you had been with made you a bit uncomfortable 

prior to fred 

fred was just 

walking sex appeal 

you couldn’t help clench your thighs 

shift in your seat

bite your lip

when he would do the simplest things 

concentrate on something

write his essays 

sHOW YOU NEW BRACELETS 

that was a big one, he has nice forearms and wrists

or when he’d tell you something serious 

bUT HIS SERIOUS FACE IS SO SEXY 

AND YOU KINDA JUST NOD OBEDIENTLY 

BECAUSE HE COULD TELL YOU TO DO ANYTHING WITH THAT LOOK AND YOU’D DO IT

fred also notices how you react to his serious, ‘take charge’ voice

he uses it more often 

just to see you squirm 

alright so it’s late one night

you guys are in your dorm 

you’re a prefect 

it just makes sense, adds to the image

go with it

so you guys are in your dorm 

having some fun

heavy make out session

mother mother is playing in the background, you can pick which song

your on your back, fred is on his side with half his torso resting on you 

his hand is running up your bare thigh (you’re still in your school uniform) and his tongue is becoming well aquanted with your own

that’s when his hand trails up under your skirt and starts playing with your underwear band resting on your hip

and you want to 

you really want to 

you’re ready but you’re also nervous because you are a virgin and super inexperienced 

so you kind break away and try to get him to make eye contact with you and pay attention

but fred’s a little lost in the moment, trying to dive into your neck to start kissing the skin there 

you grab his face and say you have something to tell him which gets him to pay attention, he can tell it’s serious 

you just come out with it 

you’re nervous and can’t really look him in the eye

but you say it 

“i’m a virgin, freddie”

“oh, love, if i was making you uncomfortable earlier...”

“no no no, i just...i want to, i really want to, but i don’t know what i’m doing i  don’t want to disappoint you.”

and fred’s going through many emotions rn

because you’re blushing and batting your eyelashes at him so innocently 

and your hips and just barely grazing against his own and he doubts you know what you’re doing

and you look so shy and actually worried that he might be disappointed in you

as if 🙄

so he tells you exactly that

that he could never be disappointed in you, in any way shape or form

then it’s what you utter next that has him holding in a moan

“maybe you could teach me!”

and you’d sit up on your knees really fast

because this is exciting for you too

and you think its actually kinda hot 

fred is biting his lip with a smirk at how excited and obedient you look

“whenever you’re ready I’d be happy to be Professor Weasley.”

“i’m ready now, Fred, just wanted you to know”

fred asks if you’re sure about... a billion times 

before pulling your face back down to his to continue kissing 

and i think this night you’d lose your virginity and that was his main focus 

just making sure you were comfortable and ready and having fun

baby steps

ok now lets talk about Professor Weasley teaching you different things 

ok so fred’s a dom

i think he’d be a mean, teasing, sarcastic, borderline sadistic dom

and you are eager to please, innocent, obedient, painfully submissive 

its great for everyone honestly 

so you come up to him one day and tell him you want to give him a blowjob

and you want him to teach you how 

fred is hard ✨instantly✨ 

ok he’d sit on the edge of the bed and move to unzip his trousers 

and you’re sitting on your knees patiently waiting

looking up at him with doe eyes as if you aren't about to let him be the first person ever to fuck your mouth 

that’s a big thing that turns him on 

how he’s the first person to make you feel like this 

to corrupt you like this 

it bleeds into his possessiveness kink (there has to be abetter name for this but i can’t think of it atm)

because he knows that because he’s the first

hes the teacher

if there happens to be other guys after him in a way you still belong to him because of this 

not that he’d ever want there to be other guys 

he loves you

and wants to be with you forever.

but the thought really gets him going 

that no matter what

sex will always bring you back to him and you guys fucking 

anyway

back to you waiting to learn how to suck him off 

i feel like fred has a really comforting aura 

so you are more excited than nervous 

and don’t have an issue with being open about your curiosity 

testing things out 

what happens if you swipe your thumb across his tip

or if you kiss it

and fred is trying so hard not to just grab you by the back of the head and start fucking your pretty little mouth because god this was way too attractive 

the way you still looked so innocent as you sucked on the tip of his cock

your eyes wide and looking up at him waiting for praise but the only thing he was able to grunt out with a strained voice was

“just like that”

or

“good girl”

he’d have a guiding hand on your face 

his thumb lovingly running across your cheek one 

wiping tears once you started to take him deeper and insisted that you were fine even though he could feel you gagging on him 

and he’d get close to cumming embarrassingly fast but it’s fine

you didn't know any better 

but he’d tell you ask you to swallow 

“m’ gonna cum, yeah? think my good girl could swallow?”

you’d nod and hum around him

and that would push him over the edge 

he’d cum in your mouth and you’d swallow just like he asked 

it didn’t taste bad by any means

different at first

but as you kept sucking you’d actually start to really enjoy it

it was salty, just a bit tangy, but it was knowing that it was Fred’s cum that had you wanting more 

you’d keeping sucking, making sure to get every last drop 

and fred was hypersensitive at this point

with shaky breaths and grunts turning into high pitched breathy moans and whimpers 

he’d have to pull you off of him 

“tastes good”

he’d nearly lose it again

he’d also pull you in for a heated kiss because jesus christ he cant believe he's this lucky

had to have been a saint in his past life 

the first time he eats you out is also a whole experience 

fred would live in between your legs if he could

he loves your little whine and whimpers as he goes down on you

he dreams of them

oK FRED ALSO LIKES TO MAKE YOU BLUSH BY SAYING THE FILTHIEST THINGS AT ANY POINT IN TIME 

HE WILL WHISPER THINGS IN YOUR EAR THAT HAVE YOU SQUIRMING AND BEGGING TO GO BACK TO YOUR ROOM

oR he’ll tease you and say 

“my poppet’s pussy is so responsive to my touch...”

because it’s T R U E

anyway 

innocence kink is where its at you didn't hear it from me 

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