#theyre from my german exam

[sugaroto]

Everyone's expectations for my future job/university be like:

My aunt: kindergarten teacher

My mom: HR, boss in a hotel, you'll go to that good university nearby

My teacher: that university you liked once, you'll come out as a tour guide probably (or something, that uni has a bunch of different job options relating to the languages they teach you there)

My grandpa(when drunk): doctor

Me: 👁👄👁💢 I don't even know if I passed my exams yet

ALSO. GRANDPA. I CAN NOT FUCKING BECOME A DOCTOR. THAT OPTION HAS BEEN OUT OF THE QUESTION FOR THE LAST 2 YEARS SINCE I JOINED THE HUMANITY STUDIES

AUNT. STOP INTRODUCING ME AS A KINDERGARTEN TEACHER. I AM NOT ONE. I ALSO DONT HAVE A DEGREE IN CHILDREN'S PSYCHOLOGY, I DO NOT KNOW WHY YOUR DAUGHTER IS FIGHTING WITH THE NEIGHBOR KID

MOM. I DO NOT WANT TO WORK IN A HOTEL. I DONT WANT TO BE A BOSS

TEACHER. YEah ok I liked the school but you have too much confidence in me😭😭

[lostacelonnie]

Whoops i lost track of this one my bad. Discord messaging is so much easier with the notification staying there. Anyways. Hell yeah getting to be not near people you do lnt vibe with is the best love that for you. Ah yeah gulls will just be an asshole about anything so at least they gave warning? Still dont like em though. Australian magpies are probably worse. Thanks! I adore german & it just. Having very specific words for things. So im excited to dig into that. Oh i didnt know that but honestly not surprised by it. Another piece of history from nazi germany to add to stuff i know. History was never my like. Favorite subject but i try to study it where i can. Its important. Mobile gave me bronya finally so its goin well & seele is coming back in 1.4 so maybe ill be able to get her & bronya both. Though i find it weird that we're heading back to belobog already? I havent even finished the next story part yet though. I havent used fire trailblazer much yet but will when i have more of her eidolons. Theyre both real fun rcg was short so i beat it quick still workin on dredge. Ill let you know how rain world goes for sure. Oh very nice. I finally did mine into purple & it looks really good im gonna keep up on it i think. Ive been breaking off from both to play other stuff but 4.1 fontaine is still fun to explore i love it. Cant wait for furina to drop. Oh shit history exam i hope that went well for you.i will say bronya is nice to have especially with kafka. Give her a turn boost to get her follow up action back works real nice. Damn that is. So much stuff but sounds so worth it. For all the merch & the choker who doesnt love a good choker

OH ITS OK IT APPEARS THAT SO HAVE I. AHHH. IM SORRY. schools been a Lot lately [7 tests this week......] and im going to alicante next week so its probably not gonna get easier for me to respond soon..... and oh yeah it totally is. i ❤ discord cos i can at least give ppl Signs Of Life instead of silence. anyways. THANK YOU!! ive been having a lot of fun with the new group lately its great. and yeah they really are ajdkfkjfj im Thankful for the warning yeah. and also that not even a single gull tried to steal my food. ooh tell me ab it i havent heard any australian magpie horror stories...... and yeah as i said. german is Such a nice language, i esp agree with the words bc theyre just. Great. love em. but yeah didnt have much luck in my previous years of learning it. and oh well the more you know!! honestly it was never MY favorite either bc, even tho ive always found it interesting, i just. could never remember anything. but honestly now that im on hist-geo its really growing on me ahdjfkkgj. probably also because i have a cool teacher. AND HEY CONGRATS ON THE BRONYA and good luck with getting seele!!! i have Not opened star rail even once recently [<- was only playing the game to get wolfie and kafka] so idrk whats been happening. have fun tho!! fire trailblazer IS good with her eidolons but tbh i just never had the energy to build her. and ah epic!!!!!! and yes please do keep me updated if you end up playing rain world!!!!!! its sooooo good its so good. AND AHHH NICE!!!! i want to do mine purple someday but i have a pretty dark natural hair color so id have to bleach it and i dont really Wanna Do That yet. and fair ahsjfkfk ive actually been playing genshin More recently, at least when i have time. which is not often. IM ALSO SO SO SO EXCITED FOR FURINA I HAVE LIKE 170 WISHES SAVED ALREADY................... anyway!!! it did actually!!!! but were doing pretty easy material rn so well see how it goes in the future ajdjhfjg....... it is what it is. and ah yeah that does sound like a pretty good team actually...... and yeah it def was!!!!! havent gotten a chance to wear the choker out yet [<- scared of old ladies on the bus] nut im Going To

[weightlessau]

midlife crisis [ateez; jongho]

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prompt from reedsy:

“I’d like to buy a plane ticket to your furthest destination today,” you told the airline employee

please pretend that everyone in ateez can speak fluent english or that y’all can speak the same language idk... 。(*^▽^*)ゞ

It's completely normal for people in their 30s and 40s to question their life and choices they made along the way. This became such a widespread problem that it even got its own name: the Mid-life Crisis.

People have the desire to go through drastic changes in their life even if they already have established a life of their own.

This phenomenon however should not be common for young people in their 20s or even teens, people who have not even begun making a life of their own.

Or so the elderly think.

After graduating high school, you didn't know what to do with you life. You didn't know what to do in college either so you just went and got a job as a hair and make up artist after an apprenticeship to apease your parents and at least do something with your life and for your future. At least you could earn some money while being hopeless with your decision.

But the months came and went and a year later, you still didn't know what to do.

So you just up and went and went to the airport the very same day.

"I'd like to buy a plane ticket to your furthest destination today," you tell the airline employee.

You must look crazy to them. Tousled hair, clothes not matching and dragging a heavy suitcase behind you, demanding a flight as far as possible.

But this employee seems to be used to your type of customers as she just glances at you for a second before starting to type on the computer in front of her.

"We have a flight to South Korea in about two hours, if that's alright with you?"

"Perfect." You hand over the necessary money and dash towards the gate to put your baggage away.

And not even a day later, you land in a completely new country, surrounded by unknown people.

Well, apparently not as unknown as you thought. Something special must be happening because a gaggle of girls push against the barrier of the arrival gate next to you. Is someone famous coming to Korea?, you ask yourself, but ultimately decide not to stick around for the drama. You need to find a place to stay first.

Just as you are about to turn away from the turmoil a hand grabs your arm and pulls you away from the crowd. You try to rip your arm away from the man dragging you, but you are surrounded by eight more of them. A panicked scream crawls up your throat. You just arrived a minute ago! Is this really how you're going to die? Your mom warned you to be careful with strangers.

Before your scream can burst out of your mouth a hand clasps itself over your mouth, almost covering half of your face.

"Please, don't scream," the person dragging you pleads with you. Why does he sound panicked? You're the one getting kidnapped!

As if he can read your thoughts, he continues, "we're not trying to kidnap you, I swear."

Finally, the boy that held your mouth closed sees that you won't shout anymore and releases you mouth.

"Who are you?" you burst out, tears springing into your eyes. Being surrounded by at least five strange men at once is more terrifying than you could have imagined.

"Oh no," one of them says with a frown on his face, "please, don't cry. We just tried to get away from the fans."

"That doesn't make it any better!" A pout forms on your face as you try to surpress the tears.

An even taller man, with prominent eyebrows, speaks up, "We were about to be mobbed by our fans, so we had to find a way to get around them, unsuspected."

"Are they here for you guys?"

"Yeah, kinda." The tallest of the bunch admits and scraches the back of his brown hair.

"And why, for the love of god," you ask exesperated, "would you grab me for that?"

This time the smallest of the group speaks up, the one that grabed you, you glare, "I don't know! I panicked, okay?"

"No! Not okay! Do you know how," you take a deep braeth, "Do you know how terrified I was? I thought that I was getting kidnapped." He let go of your wrist.

"She could distract the fans while we get in the van?" a quiet voice chimes in from the back. He is quite pretty, you have to admit.

"And why would I do that, princess?" you bite back snarkily.

Ignoring you nickname for his friend, the other large man with fiery hair replies enthusiastically, "we'll get you a room to stay in!" he says as if it's the best idea, "if you don't have one yet, that is?" he adds.

"You're lucky, I don't," you glare at each one of them once more before you stomp over to the fans after getting the managers number, for insurance.

"Guys, look! Over there!" you squeal loudly and point to the opposite direction of the boys' van.

Later you find out that they do, in fact, not have a room for you to stay in. The company deeming it a waste of money to get you a hotel room, so, to keep you quiet, they let you stay in their dorm for the while. Most (your mother) would flip out and ask you why the hell you would accept the offer to live together with eight boys in a dorm. The only answer you have is that you're broke and a cheapskate, who doesn't have a job and who just arrived in a foreign country recently. Even if you die, you're not going to leave much behind. That sounds dark, but you're in a Mid-life Crisis and don't really think that anything in life has worth or meaning. And what does it matter if the boys kill you? At least they're nice while they do it, giving you a warm bed next to Mingi's bed and delicious food, made by Wooyoung himself.

You have to stay with Mingi while his roommate, the youngest of the group, Jongho, has to suffer on the living room couch for his elders.

You are just about to enter the kitchen, for one of those delicious meal times, when you happen to overhear a conversation going on between Jongho and his members.

"My back is killing me, hyung. The couch really isn't comfortable," he moans as he hunches his own back a few times to relieve the pain.

"Bear with it a little more, Jongho. You know Mingi can't sleep on the couch because of his back and you were the one volunteering to sleep there," Hongjoong answers him sympathetically.

"And you know that we can't just throw her out or move her from bed to bed the whole time. We brought her into this mess and I bet they aren’t all that comfortable with the arrangement, too," Seonghwa adds.

Mingi walks up behind the sitting figure of Jongho and begins massaging the tense muscles in his back. He feels bad for being the one to offer you a place to stay and not even being the one to suffer because of his mistake.

That's when you decide to walk in with an apologetic expression, "I can take the couch, guys. It's no problem."

All eight of them startle from your sudden appearence at the doorframe.

"I don't want you to feel uncomfortable in your own home," you talk to Jongho directly.

"No," he shrugs Mingi's hands away, "what are you talking about?"

"I heard you talking, Jongho," you roll your eyes and finally sit down at the table.

With a shake of his head and his left hand, he tells you, "I still won't make you sleep on the couch. I can endure it until you find another place to stay at. It's no problem to me. I'm still young and perfectly healthy," he insists and ends the conversation completely, cutting you off whenever you want to object.

It's time for bed for everyone at the dorm, as Hongjoong likes to tell you all, even though he is a hypocryte and never actually goes to bed himself. After a few minutes of restlessness, you decide to do something against your parched mouth and leave Mingi's soft breathing behind you as you quietly tap over to the kitchen. While you gulp down the cold water, you notice heavy sighing coming from the living room, along with rustling, indicating a lot of tossing and turning.

Before you can change your mind, you quickly make your way towards the sounds of the obviously still awake Jongho.

"Jongho?" you still ask into the dimness to be sure.

"Hmm?"

"Don't be stubborn. I can take the couch for a few nights."

"No need, (y/n)."

"Well," you exhale, "if you don't want me to sleep on the couch and I want you to sleep in your own bed, why don't we share?"

"Share what?" he questions.

"The bed, you stubborn dummy. It's big enough for the both of us."

Nervously you hold you breath, waiting for his answer in the dimly lit doorway to the living room. You hear rustling before Jongho appears in front of you, arms full of his blanket and pillow, "alright, let's go." In the end you share the bed. Although you estimated that both of you would fit comfortably just fine, you still are awoken by the boys giggling like little school girls and phones in your faces.

Groggily you open your eyes a little more, trying to make out where you are and feel a heavy weight on your waist and warmth in front of you. That's when it dawns on you.

You try to rip yourself out of Jongho's tight embrace, but to no avail. It even gets tighter.

"Jongho," you whisper, glancing back at the boys recording behind you with possibly the reddest face you have ever had, "Jongho," you try again a little louder and still struggle against his grip. He wakes up to see your tomato-like face and immidately flashes back, hitting his head on the side board of bed in the process.

The boys seem to have a field day with your reactions and struggle to hold their phones steady on you faces, before Seonghwa decides that it's enough and they should leave you two alone. But of course that little shit doesn't close the door before shooting you both a suggestive wink.

In spite of you two barely being able to look into each others eyes the whole day, Jongho comes back that night and sleeps in the same bed as you again.

This continues on for two or three more weeks, before you finally find a job and your own cheap place to stay in. Coincidentally, you are able to get a job as the new make up and hair stylist of Ateez, the ones giving you the job not knowing who you really are to the boys.

After weeks of this arrangement you had with Jongho the two of you became much more comfortable with showing this contentment openly through skinship. Though you like hugging Jongho, the boys love it even more when you do that.

"Well, well, well. Would you look who we have here, Sangie."

Speaking of the devil. The worst of them all, Wooyoung and Yeosang.

"I see them, Woo. Jongho looks awfully comfortable hugging (y/n) for someone, who always screams bloody murder whenever we try to do the same, don't you think?"

"Leave us alone," Jongho says nonchalantly and waves them off behind your back. You, on the other hand, aren't as casual as Jongho and burn up brightly, hiding your face in the crook of his neck. You knew you would regret, coming to the dorm for a visit.

You feel Jongho's heartbeat pick up, when you bury your face in his nape. Maybe he isn't as uneffected by the teasing as you thought.

Wooyoung's cackling laugh echoes through the hallway when he and Yeosang leave you two alone again.

"Fuck it," you hear Jongho whisper before he pulls you away from him at an arms length to look you in the eyes. Your confused look greets him, questioning why he broke your embrace.

"What's up?" you ask, tilting your head, looking into his deep brown eyes.

Not meeting your eyes, he takes a deep breath to calm his hearthbeat, "I feel these things and I don't know what to do anytime I'm with you except hug you and wish to maybe kiss you and cuddle with you and tell everyone that I can cuddle with my partner if I want to and whenever you leave I look forward to seeing you again the second you're not in my eyesight anymore and I really like you," Jongho rattles down in one breath, eyes darting around, still not meeting your face, which has morphed from confused to a bright smiling face.

"Will you maybe, possibly, consider being my girlfriend/boyfriend, maybe?"

You smile up at him. You also like him, have been since you started falling asleep to his soothing voice lulling you to sleep at your nightly talking session after Mingi had already fallen asleep.

"I maybe, possibly, do want to be that, Jongho."

bonus (suggestive):

You finished everyone's make up and hair and the last member is sitting in the other make up chair with your colleague. You finally get to relax your feet and sit down on Jongho's lap, his hands coming up to rest on your hips instinctively, as you talk innocently with each other, not caring for the other staff members in the room. They're used to your PDA anyways, seeing as you two never actually get a moment alone, away from everyone else. They're so used to it that even Seonghwa looks away. At the beginning of your official relationship he watched you two with hawk eyes to ensure that you didn't do anything naughty, the 'innocence' of the youngest still very precious to him.

You're using the time before he has to go on stage to finally catch up after hectic running around during the styling.

"-and then I found the lipstick in a purse I haven't used for like two months!" you rant to him, him smiling fondly up at you, "Can you believe it? I don't even know how it ended up there! I really nearly came late to work for that shit."

"It looks really good on you, baby," Jongho compliments your lip color, that you spent precious minutes searching for that morning.

"Thank you," you smile down at him and go for a kiss.

Before you can reach his lips, he leans back slightly, "nuh-uh," he tutts, "no, kissing, babe, sorry. You worked so hard on my make up so no ruining it."

You pout at him which vanishes as an idea pops into your mind. "You're right," you agree with a devious smile, but still lean towards him again.

This time you aim further down. You press a light, brushing kiss (or two) onto his sensitive neck and leave him a shuddering mess underneath you, as you bend back towards the side of his neck. His hands tighten on your hips, maybe as a warning for you or maybe as a way to control himself and his pressing urges.

Thankfully you are in a corner of the room, your kisses unseen by the rest of the crew.

Just to tease him a little more you drop another kiss onto his sensitive neck and suck a little before letting go again. A quiet sigh leaves him accidentally when he slants his head to give you easier access, your hands trailing up his sides and making their way into his hair. You are mindful not to mess up his hair, but can't resist tugging it to give you even more room to kiss. Your lips drag down a path on his neck, biting and kissing on random spots, careful not to suck a mark minutes before the show begins.

"(y/n)," he breaths out into your ear, making you shiver as well.

"Stage in five, everyone."

[wongyukheis]

do schools not realise that theyre damaging pupils like..... a lot

[youjustwaitsunshine]

ok so I’mma ask a really dumb question. What do you mean when you say that you can tell that German wasn’t a good subject for Seb in school? I’m assuming it’s something in -how- he’s speaking? Is that a big deal in school? For me as a usamerican, public speaking or formal speaking isn’t much taught unless it’s for a particular vocation, so people usually don’t speak in that way.

not a dumb question at all! also esp other germans, feel free to discuss/add your point of view

so first off the education system in germany is a ~huge~ mess because our federal states all manage education separately which leads to really big discrepancies in the value of your final exams (it's way easier to get full marks in some states than others etc and unis then have to accommodate to that, it's among other things something that adds to the rift between former East and West Germany) and not only that, it even varies within the federal states because the schools are funded by the idk the english equivalent, i guess you could say counties? so i can only truly speak about my experiences (but the subjects are still more or less centralized and vary mostly in the depth theyre gone into with)

In Seb's case, he often struggles to express himself clearly in German, uses examples and often repeats sentences/sentence fragments that he seems comfortable with. He often leaves thoughts unfinished and although he's quite eloquent when he knows what he wants to say his words get more 'simple' when he gets stuck explaining himself and talks in what a German teacher would consider 'bad style'. Funnily enough, he's more eloquent (/consistent in his level of eloquence) in English, probably both due to it being his second language and that he uses it a lot more in a professional context where it's extremely important to report back to the team clearly. It's important to note though that the people interviewing Seb are excellent at German (or English) and often studied journalism so it's very noticeable while it probably would be less so in a discussion with people whose profession isn't tied to eloquence.

That said, i do feel like there's a lot of value placed on properly expressing yourself throughout all subjects. In German class (and also second and third languages, in my case English and French) you write a lot of argumentative essays and have mock debates and class discussions. There's of course a lot of literary analysis but that still comes around to expressing yourself concisely and clearly. We don't explicitly have public speaking in German class but the mock discussions are (or at least were at my school) held not only in German class but also in Politics class, Geography and Economics class, Religion/Ethics class (the subject differs depending on if you're protestant or catholic or a different confession/religion/not religious but the topics are largely the same, ethics, morality, the world religions) and to an extent in History class. Also a lot of schools have project weeks where you have a model parliament debate, be it model UN or EU or whatever which is pretty cool.

To get back to German class though, it's one of the core subjects in the education system for most of your school career (when i finished school even more so than now because the education system ~in my federal state~ changed right after i graduated) together with the languages you learn and math and a lot of the skills from german class transfer over to subjects that get less hours/week.

Tl;dr: German class is definitely (among other things) putting a focus on teaching students how to be effectively argumentative both in written and spoken word and Seb often speaks German a bit clumsily and in simple(r) terms (than those around him).

[sa-gt-tarrius]

please talk about the borrower! Gavin bros they are in my head and won't leave

I have SO many thoughts about them… I think the plot of aa4 would be incredibly different if the gavins were borrowers. Spoilers ahead!!

My friends on the server also put forward some really cool ideas, so credit to them for helping me workshop this AU!

Klavier and Kristoph have travelled across the ocean looking for a safe place, after being discovered by a couple humans in Germany. They eventually find themselves in the Wright and Co. Law Offices, where they make their home. Unfortunately, they only speak German, and most beans in this new country speak English. This is going to be difficult.

Luckily, they manage to get by just fine for a while. Klavier and Kristoph begin the slow, arduous process of learning English while struggling to find food. They’ve set up their home in a law office that only has one attorney, so they have a lot of free time to roam and borrow supplies.

Kristoph takes an interest in law and starts stealing books, case files, and reports. He also takes an interest in botany and toxicology. Who knows why?

One day while out borrowing, Klavier and Kristoph are caught by a man—the same man who discovered them back in Germany. Why is he here? Did he chase them all the way across the ocean?

The man, Miles Edgeworth, accuses Kristoph of tampering with some crucial evidence, which led to his friend getting disbarred. Klavier is shocked. His brother would never do such a thing! But before they can get any straight answers, Kristoph slips out the top of the cage theyre kept in, leaving Klavier in the hands of the human.

Miles takes Klavier to his home, and Klavier is scared out of his mind. Why did his brother abandon him? What was Miles going to do with the borrower in his grasp? Was Klavier going to survive?

Surprisingly, Miles doesn’t seem to bear any ill will towards Klavier. He feeds him, gives him new clothes, and explains that Kristoph is not a very good person. Kristoph had developed a grudge against the attorney they borrowed from, and took actions to make sure the attorney got disbarred. Klavier doesn’t believe a word of it, but he appreciates the care he’s received.

Klavier learns that Miles is a prosecutor. He decides he wants to learn about the law and help capture criminals like Kristoph. Miles is hesitant at first, but he can’t deny such an eager request to attend court just one time. Klavier is so bright-eyed and passionate about the legal system.

As technology advances, the courts begin to incorporate virtual court hearings using video chat. Klavier begs Miles over and over to pleeeease take the bar exam so he can be a real prosecutor!! Miles can’t say no. Klavier has good puppy-dog eyes.

They develop a system. Klavier pretends to be a foreign prosecutor who still lives in Germany, which is why he can’t attend trials in person. While this is happening, Klavier’s keen interest in music drives him to post a music video on YouTube, which goes viral overnight. Klavier is now a famous musician AND prosecutor, and nobody knows that he’s really a borrower.

Kristoph, meanwhile, makes his home in an entirely different law office so he can continue his studies. He meets another borrower, a young lad named Apollo, and takes him in. They study and survive for many years until one day, they get discovered by Phoenix Wright, the same man that Kristoph had gotten disbarred. Phoenix is livid and angry—and Apollo is terrified and confused. Just like before, Kristoph manages to escape using Apollo as live bait for Phoenix to capture instead.

So now we have Phoenix, who has captured a very terrified Apollo, along with Miles, who harbours a rockstar prosecutor who is secretly a borrower. Their first trial together should be interesting, to say the least.

[faunina]

tag game!

i got tagged by @villalunae ! thanks babe xoxo

Nickname: Nina, Ninchen, Kaninchen, and then theres also Weirder ones but those are all german injokes i have with my irl friends and family. so. DM me for details lhgkjfdf

Zodiac sign: scorpio 

Height: im gonna say 1,70m and pretend that thats uuuuuuuuuuuuhhhhhh around 5′8 or some shit 

Hogwarts House: ravenclaw!

Last thing I googled: ”apollo temple palatine” bc our docent had told a Funny Anecdote about it and i had to check (said anecdote being that the house of emperor augustus had a private passageway directly into the temple and so ppl accused augustus of being roommates with his chosen patron god apollo)(oh my gd they were roommates)

Favorite artists: hozier is UP there right now, but ofc regina spektor remains an all time fave, as well as uuuhhh sufjan stevens and others

Song stuck in my head: “No Plan” from Hozier’s Wasteland, Baby! (ive fallen into shipping hell with Good Omens so now all my brain has been playing for DAYS is that album interspersed with Queen)

Following: 101 -cocks gun- okay one of those has to GO

Followers: 299! ayyyyyee i hadnt even noticed im that close to the 300 milestone. time to make Spartan Jokes

Do you get asks: very rarely, and the latest was some fuck trying to tell me im Straight bc im aspec. theyre usually better than that but. ya feel.

Amount of sleep: Terrible, Currently. IDEALLY id get 7,5h each night with an occasional 6h and 9h on the weekends. PRACTICALLY im getting 7,5h on the weekends and 6h/4,5h in the week. also were starting into exam month rn so -shakes 8-ball of fortune- Outlook Not So Good

Lucky number: 12 is a nice number :^)

What you’re wearing: idk man, jeans, t-shirt and a cardigan. the hot weather has overridden my German Need To Be Bundled The Fuck Up

Dream job: i deadass dont know how to answer that. is being a Hermit a job. can i be that. is that an option

Dream trip: kinda wanna explore more foreign countries, kinda just wanna do Heimaturlaub and explore all of germany (and german-adjacent). like i could go for some north sea vacation on Sylt rn, or a week in switzerland, or a couple days of chilling at the Bodensee 

Instrument: i DID do piano once and then never went anywhere with that. and i DID do very groundworks kinda shit with like. flutes n ukulele over one summer, And Then Never Went Anywhere With That. if i had my pick tho id love to be able to play an ancient greek instrument. for the Aesthetic™

Language(s): german and english fluent, my latin is Getting there, i really should attend some more to my greek and sanskrit and hebrew, and i remember fuck all about chinese and french. But Id Like To

Favorite songs: this has no fixed answer but im just gonna pick Warm Foothills by alt-j rn bc that song is VERY calming on one hand, has very like. “strong sunlight thru thick birch canopy at the edge of a sparkling little pond that ur dangling ur feet into” vibes, and it has overwhelmingly positive associations for me 

Random fact: did you know that the proto indo-european language had no reconstructable way of expressing the Future or the passive voice, but it DID have two distinct words for Farting Softly and Farting Loudly. Priorities.

Aesthetic: honestly, just kinda the places and what not surrounding my hometown. like esp the natural little spots full of trees and rivers and sunlight and high grass thatd id go exploring on my way home from school, esp during my last summer at highschool. ALSO standing in a forest of high standing pine trees on a grey autumn day, and watching and hearing the tops sway in the wind, and suddenly feeling like youre standing at the bottom of a Sea of trees looking up at the surface. I Like Forests

im TIRED and gay so im not gonna bother tagging anyone rn, but my mutuals are invited to feel tagged As Always, as are my followers bc why the heck not

[disloyalpunk]

god i’m just in this constant state of crisis with phd apps looming and im constantly turning back and forth between “lol write ur dissertation on memes!!!!” which would be Valid but then there’s catholic activism in the 20th c but also biographies of dead missionaries from the 1800s call out to me like i could read them all day anD NOW i’m sitting here writing about said dead missionaries and all i want to do is write porn! because! god! hates! me!

god i had a progress meeting today for my ma and the woman (who is SO SMART and i suspect is friends with my thesis adviser from undergrad cause theyre in the exact same very specific field) looks at my grades like “you’re doing great, it seems!” and i’m like hmm am i. am i really i passed that stupid german academic reading exam that is true but lord dear lord what do i want to do with my life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

god how many more paragraphs can i start with the word god

[forestlion]

@agardenintheshire tagged me!!! thank youuu!!!!

1. Which book has been on your shelves the longest? probably some. Prinzessin Lillifee book, havent cleaned my shelf in a long long, long long long, long long time. also, and i say this as a southern raised catholic child: the bible and the children’s bible

2. What is your current read, your last read and the book you’ll read next?  present: ive been gnawing on Sturmhöhe (Wuthering Heights) for quite some while

past: some... either Disability Studies text or Native American Studies text bc i’ve gone from The Biggest Reader to I Can’t Be Bothered Who Has Cursed Me To Become This Shell Of Myself

future: i really want to read the “new” harry potter book-play? but the negative reviews etc around it has put me off.... don’t know

3. Which book does everyone like and you hated? The Mortal Instruments Saga (bzw. Chroniken der Unterwelt) lmaoooooooo....bitch......fuck that shit. i have offended people with my opinion on this in the past, frankly, darling, i dont give a damn

4. Which book do you keep telling yourself you’ll read, but you probably won’t? mmmh yes maybe the Harry Potter play...... i just don’t know. i love HP, i dont want to ruin it for myself. 

5. Which book are you saving for “retirement?” ????????? im leonie im 21 and i never learned how to retire

6. Last page: read it first or wait till the end? ...............theres...........nothing wrong with doing this you haters..........i just...... Gotta Know. sometimes i even do this with movies. i just need to know if its worth it? if the end is interesting enough to get me thru bitch

7. Acknowledgements: waste of ink and paper or interesting aside? i didnt write the book, so, authors, acknowledge whomst you want. the book woulda been 20 bucks with or without 2 pages of acknowledgements probably anyway

8. Which book character would you switch places with? i want to be someone from Harry Potter but after Harry Potter when nothings happening except exams bc i love magic so much!!!!!!!! i want to fucking..... magic!!!!!!! “youre a wizard harry” GOD  I WISH THAT WERE ME. also cathy from Wuthering Heights, just to know what its like to have a Kate Bush song written about you lmao

9. Do you have a book that reminds you of something specific in your life (a person, a place, a time)? i guess so. Hunger Games and Percy Jackson reminds me of early high school, when me and my friends would always trade books. also 16 Moons (i think its called?) reminds me of a Mallorca holiday. yes, me, a german, auf Malle, incredible

10. Name a book you acquired in some interesting way. i bought many a book in old antiqu...antiquarieties..... Antiquariat.... hmmm.... that might be the most exciting...... on flea markets....... hmm

11. Have you ever given away a book for a special reason to a special person? for birthdays? otherwise.... not really. i tend to hoard my books or get them from the bibliotheque

12. Which book has been with you to the most places? dont have such a book, i usually take the one im currently reading. maybe some  Required Reading Book

13. Any “required reading” you hated in high school that wasn’t so bad ten years later? eeehhh............ i have not.......really reread anything from high school except for Kabale und Liebe. at school i didnt expect to read nice and interesting books bc its, i mean, its Goethe and Schiller, isnt it

14. What is the strangest item you’ve ever found in a book? a postcard from the time of the scnd world war (flea market book)

15. Used or brand new? both

16. Stephen King: Literary genius or opiate of the masses? my mother has so many books of his but i havent bothered reading one so far. dont care for horror and scary books too much

17. Have you ever seen a movie you liked better than the book? the Narnia books, couldnt read them. the movie was alright 

also Tschick! the book was good and the movie was really lovely

18. Conversely, which book should NEVER have been introduced to celluloid? quite a few but i enjoy book adaptions, generally. theyre different etc but i usually dont mind the changes. i know a movie has to roll differently than a book, it doesnt have the time or space. anyway.....Avatar the Last Airbender movie was trash (not a book OG but ya feel)

19. Have you ever read a book that’s made you hungry, cookbooks being excluded from this question? hmmmm........ yeah? i love food. i love reading about food, i love seeing it on the screen. am always envy of the food

20. Who is the person whose book advice you’ll always take? my friends? as i think ive already said... we been trading back in high school and they and i usually read Fantasy and Urban Fantasy typa stuff

[boysyourenotalexturner]

30 to 70 please (for the massive ask post) (:

30 extrovert or introvert? introvert, im shy af (tho my friends find me an extrovert)

31 celebrity crush? Miles Kane, duh

32 early bird or night owl? none, i sleep a lot ;’)

33 do you believe in love at first sight? Yes and no. You can fall in love with someone not knowing them, but the love can disappear when you get to knoe them. I used to be in love (kinda) with someone i barely knew, bu t when i got to know him i realised what a dick he was. Rn I’m into a girl i talked with maybe three times. i guess i dont learn from my mistakes :D

34 favorite book quote I dont have any :

35 three wishes you have get into a collage i wanna go to, find someone i can trust, go to as many gigs as possible

36 do you believe in magic? I dont, but I wish it was real

37 do you believe in soulmates? I do, but i dont believe i’ll ever find one

38 zoo or aquarium? This one’s too hard, both

39 cats or dogs? Dogs!

40 how many languages do you speak? Fluently - two. i learn german, but i struggle with it really much (and i have to pass a truly important exam in it in only one year, no idea how i’ll do it)

41 how has your life changed from last year? i dont travel anymore, my mental health is in better state, i realised i aint straight, i dont have a father

42 why do you have your name/url? isn’t it obvious? :D

43 do you keep secrets? how well? I do and im great af, i’d appear as even weirder person if anyone knew my secrets

44 favorite animals Hedgehogs, they’re just soooo cute

45 what is love to you? trust and support

46 future children name? idk yet, something that its not gendered, in case my kid was trans, so it wouldnt be uncomfortable for them (tho i dont think names should be gendered, but still, most of ppl dont get it)

47 favorite color baby blue!

48 favorite movie Love actually

49 cuddles or kisses? cuddles or both

50 if you could have any person in the world over for dinner, who would be? Gordon Ramsay cos he would make it, i suck at cooking. lol

51 someone to bring back from the dead all good dogs which didnt deserve to die (itd mean literally all of them), my grandpa (ive never met him) n David Bowie

52 lipstick or lipgloss? lipstick, who wants their hair to stick to their lips, ugh

53 are you street smart or book smart? street smart and i think it’s more valuable than being book smart, as knowledge from books is not really practical 

54 your biggest strength i’m independent (tho i’m still afraid to ask a shop assistant to help me), but it’s not like i have a choice, i have no friends k (glad i dont need em tbh)

55 favorite sport i’m a lazy piece of crap, there’s no such a thing

56 favorite drink? tea, duh. i’m able to drink over a litre per day

57 favorite winter activity laying in snow n making snow angels

58 last time you went abroad two years ago i visited England 

59 favorite dessert anything with mascarpone

60 favorite artist Alex Turner

61 favorite singer/band Miles Kane, Arctic Monkeys, TLSP, The Kooks

62 favorite dancing song anything that is old and pop, like ‘In the heat of the night’ by Sandra

63 favorite crying song Garden by Pearl Jam (pls listen to this) and Only ones who knows by Arctic Monkeys (the lyrics makes me cry every time) I sometimes skip these, not willing to get sad

64 do you wear glasses? No

65 first thing you do when you wake up Check my phone (i takes me a while till wake up completely and get up)

66 how long do u usually sleep for? uh,twelve hours at night, about two during a day (its different on school days) Ahh, thats a lot

67 one thing you lost and you want back A father? not the same one tho lol Nah, but seriously, my pc games

68 biggest fear not having friends ever, not getting into collage

69 favorite carnival ride omg, i dont know names of them! ok i googled, its Evolution

70 do u have birthmarks or scars? scars on my left wrist, but theyre not really visible

awwww, that’s a lot, but i love doing things like this, so thank you!!

[dettsu]

Do u have any christophe/mystery man headcanons youd like to share? Im super thirsty for them ngl and im sad theyre not more popular among the fandom so youre like my fav yoi artist for providing me any christophe/mystery man content tbh...

Hello, anon! Hmm I will try my best to list them down! Also, one of my favorite things is seeing JP twitter calling boyfriend “karepi” which is derived for the JP term for boyfriend (kareshi). 

(Origin of “karepi”)

That wasn’t rly a headcanon, but it’s nice to repeat since that’s what I call him now too hahaha! Anyway, here are some headcanons :D

Chris and Karepi met when they were kids. Christophe had taken a liking to figure skating at a young age. (He has mentioned he lives for the ice.) So I believe coach had to babysit his nephew while facilitating training!

Karepi is 3 yrs older than Chris, and 1 yr older than Victor

Karepi is of Romansh descent, and can speak fluent French and conversational Italian because of the nature of his family’s business. (Switzerland has 4 official languages: French, Italian, German, Romansh.)

Karepi lives in the area of Switzerland near France (Geneva-ish?) while Chris lives and trains in high altitude (maybe Davos?) sadly I still can’t find where it is;;; but I might be correct?

Giacometti is an Italian surname, so Chris’s family was probably originally from the area of Switzerland near Italy

To note, Switzerland is surrounded by 5 countries: France, Italy, Germany, Austria, and Liechtenstein and that’s why they have 4 official languages lol. But in canon, Victor speaks to Chris in French. “Chris! Allez!” So I also think Chris speaks French and some Italian. (Also, I just assume everyone has at least some basic English down and that’s how they all talk with each other hahaha)

They live in opposite sides of the country so they barely see each other during their childhood. Karepi’s family is actually very businessy so they move around a lot so he wants a change of pace and attends a boarding school for high school where Chris studies! (maybe a headcanon school would be nice also??? haha)

They eventually spend more time together in high school

Karepi goes to Chris’s training sessions with Coach Josef and they always go home together!

This is the time when Chris finally debuts in the senior division where Victor wins GPF!

Chris talks about Victor a lot because Victor is a legend a prodigy and he’s also rly prettyyyy

So yeah I guess Chris does have a little crush on Victor

(who doesn’t?)

It actually annoys Karepi sometimes because all Chris talks about is Victor Victor Victoooor

Karepi grew his hair out “just to try” but it was actually because Victor has long hair lmao

Karepi’s jealousy was what made him realize his feelings for Chris!

Karepi confessed to Chris after Chris’s first podium win (because Chris and Victor were flirting lmao he can’t take it)

Karepi asked Chris to be his boyfriend on his graduation (because he’ll be moving to a university either far from the rink or out of Switzerland)

Chris loved him since the beginning but was anxious because of Karepi’s family background and business (internal queer socio-economic monologue)

“Victor is just a crush.” “Okay.” “You don’t sound convinced.” “It doesn’t matter.” “He’s really pretty, you know.” “I know.” “Is that why you grew out your hair?” “Hurry up or you’ll be late for training!”

Chris is an innocent shota trope deep inside

But Chris has Mature Eros down to a tee because he discovered Mature Eros from Karepi hehehehe

Actually, I believe Karepi taught Chris pole dancing!!!

Karepi was probably too busy with his studies and work so he’s not very athletic, so when he hangs out with Chris he gets tired easily and he decides to pick up pole dance as sport (it was unique and it fit his schedule by coincidence)

No one rly knew he took the classes until he brought up with coach that maybe Chris needed an image change for the next season from innocent shota boy to irresistable sexy beast

So they all talk about it and Chris thinks about the image change

And he drops by a gym on the way home and sees a pole dance session going on and he was so impressed

Turns out Karepi was the one performing haha so he tells coach about it and so they take pole lessons together!!!

I haven’t thought about their first time having sex but this would be the perfect time for them to do it

Chris took French/linguistics as a major in college

Karepi is all sorts haha a combination of Marketing, Business Administration, Economics, etc. because he will inherit the family business

Karepi is currently taking his MBA (and I believe he had exams and that was why he was never seen early on in the series)

Hmm, so far that’s it for my own headcanons! If you’re on twitter and you wanna see more Chris-related stuff, here are the people I follow! If you can read Japanese then you’re probably in for a wild ride :))

So there! That’s a lot of writing HAHA I wanted this to be brief but no :))) Also, fun fact!!! One of the stereotypes for Swiss people is that they’re always early for meetings/appointments (Maybe that’s why he always comes early wahahaha) and it was probably derived from their clock/watch making indistry :D

And this is why I ship Chris and his boyfriend so much because I have so many ideaaas even tho we don’t rly know who he is :)) I actually want to write more fic for them, but I lack Suisse research haha. Maybe in due time!

[imisswonho]

(1/7) Ahhh don’t worry u can answer whenever u feel like it,I can wait and I always check from time to time so that I don’t miss any answer.. I mean I’m already on tumblr approximately 24/7 but I still check ur blog separately... SAFETY FIRST !! 👀 I mean I already have shit to deal with so I don’t need any friends problem🤓And after all,some friendships just aren’t meant to exist for too long.. Sad but true ☹️💞 Ugh I hate teacher that always say things like “u need that amount of words!!!”

(2/7) Can’t they just let us write as much as we want to ? Whenever I have a german exam our teacher says something along the lines “U need 500+ words otherwise u don’t even have to give me ur exam” ITS SO ANNOYING 😒 Our teacher wouldn’t say that we’re not allowed to use google translate bc they know we would do it anyway 🤷‍♀️😌 AND CONGRATS FOR BEING THE BEST IN UR CLASS !! IM A PROUD ANON 💞 (Since when does orange hearts exist ?!😱🧡) I wish But I missed most of the AMA’s..

(3/7) the twitter live started at 12am for me and I watched until around 1:30am,that’s when bts had their red carpet interview 👀But then I went to sleep bc I had school that day and bc my exams start I wanted to get Atleast 4h sleep.. The actual performance would’ve been at 4/5am for me and sorry but no.I have to wake up at 6am so I wouldn’t have gotten any sleep.. And even tho I didn’t watched the whole thing I was still SOOOO tired 😭 And I haven’t watched videos yet.. I should do that but

(4/7) school… ☹️💔 Ok but that’s cute with the flowers and the cake zksnxkdk It’s a actual goal !! 💞 Older people are so cute ☺️ Ich hoffe deine Oma hat einen Schönen Tag 🤓 And studies and school are….. Well… Shit. I have 10 exams and only finished 1.I have a PE exam tomorrow and the person,also know as my friend of 10+ Years,randomly decided to attend the exam with a other person even tho we practiced together for months ??? Now I’m alone and probably get a F 😒😒😒 That Bi- ..

(5/7) And I’m maybe gonna go to a different school soon !! It’s a higher school and for me a better one,I don’t like the one I visit that much.. And I wanna be free from my friend.Im sick of her using me all the time.She’s asking me EVERYDAY for homework,book pages,barely brings her schoolbooks into the lessons bc “they’re too heavy” AND UGH IM SO SICK OF IT !!!! I actually love helping and being there for someone but this is too much for me since it’s like this for years 🙅‍♀️🙅‍♀️🙅‍♀️

(6/7) But I also have good things to tell !! I talked to my french teacher about my grade. U gotta know I really suck at french so I always got bad grades ☹️ But when I talked to her on Monday… SHE SAID I HAVE A C 😌🎉🎉 And with that C I can change to the other school bc otherwise I maybe wouldn’t be able to do it AND IM JUST SO HAPPY BC REALLY IM SO BAD AT FRENCH AND NOW I HAVE A C WHICH IS THE BEST I EVER GOT AND IM AS HAPPY AS THE BALL OF SUN AKA HOBI ☺️☺️☺️💞

(7/7) aaaaaaand… I’m one of the Army’s that pre ordered the 2018 Season greetings 😌👀🎉 I can’t wait for it to arrive and then have it in my shelf and the calendar AND JUST EVERYTHING ☺️☺️ I’m so so so so happy I got to pre order.. It’s the first time I pre order something 🙊 And I really hope that BT21 Merch get’s released !! I really wanna order all the plushies THEYRE SO CUTE I MUST HAVE THEM 😭😭❤️ (I hope I mentioned everything I wanted to say.. It’s a bit long!!) -Overwatch anon

omg!!! i forgot if i asked u this but are we mutuals??? you’re a bits blog right?? for some reason i feel like you said tae was your bias but i could be totally making that up HAHAHAHAH bt omg I hope you’re able to watch it soon!! My flatmates and I were cramped in the corner of our kitchen bc that’s where we get the best wifi and the 5 of us watched everything from the red carpet until their performance and we were so tired but we made it thru!! i CAN’T BELIEVE WE WAITED 4 HOURS TO WATCH A 3 MINUTE PERFORMANCE SJDFSDKFSHJF BUT IT WAS SO WORTH IT!!!

and omg our uhh ‘friend’ doesn’t sound ike a friend at all… I’M GLAD YOU’RE GOING TO BE ABLE TO GET A FRESH START!!! I’m excited for you!! and toutes nos félicitations!!!! i remember learning french… I don’t know how i passed the class HAHAHAHAHA A C IS AMAZING!!!!! I’m so proud of you!!! and hobi would too hehehe ☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️

AND OMG I SAW THE 2018 SEASONS GREETINGS!!! I’m still a pretty recent army so i don’t know what the packages are BUT!! I SAW THE PICTURES AND IT LOOKS LIKE IT COMES WITH A LOT OF COOL STUFF AHH I know how exciting it is to preorder something sdkfalfjlskdf AND OH MY GOSH I REALLY WANT THE PLUSHES TOO ASDJFALSDFJAKLFAS I’M GOING TO CRY IF WE CAN GET OUR HANDS ON ONE!!!! i’d love the Koya plushie skdfjdkfs and I also want an RJ one and Tata too but then if i get more than Koya i feel like’s be leaving ot7 out so i think ‘ll stick with Koya if i’m lucky hehehe 

[performanceteams]

5 pm and its already real emo hours?

ya girl kat is back at it again

*deep sigh*

yep, it seems like i have existential crisisies every damn time before i have a huge assessment (which is all the damn time in this hell forsaken ib program)

i just i dont know like always i feel kinda empty, in fact i’ve kinda felt like this for awhile, not just a sorta sadness but also a kind of tiring emptiness

even when i laugh or smile or im having fun, theres still this kind of underlying sadness or worry at the back of my mind

theres a lot of reasons i feel this way, and i dont think i can pinpoint it on one particular thing or event, but i guess to sum it up i feel like im sort of regressing. I used to have these big dreams of being some lawyer and going to a super legit ivy league, and being successful and happy.

but because of this fuckign program i realised i cant do that, i guess yeah its good the difficulty helped me realise that life is hard eariler than later, but a part of me quite frankly would have prepared 2 more years of blissful ignorance. so like last year i decided no i cant do that i cant take the stress im not smart enough that jist blah blah so i guess i kinda haphazardly decided ummm ill do psychology?? its something im interested in and my friends always go to me when theyre down and im pretty good at cheering them up and i did well on the psych course i took 

but the thing is im so unsure o fgoing into this when all my friends are doing ““successful”“ majors like comscip or engineering or premed. and im not even sure of the major i want to do....

i know my parents say therye okay with it but like the truth is i know they arent. like my dad looked so dissapointede in me when i told him i didnt apply to any buisness schools

what im also scrae dof is doing psych at uni and having the whole being assesed thing make me hate it. nothing kills passion than having it associated with dissapointment and stress

my parents sort of instilled this idea in me that if something isnt useful dont do it. which is causing me a lot of grief and stress rn with the recent intersts and hobbies i have. there around 3 but ill just talk about one right now

languages, since like grade 6 ive been fascinated baout languages, i wanted to learn more and wanted to be those cool polygots. i didnt get that far you konw preteen attention span, i learned the cyrillic alphabet and really basic german in the brief period of time tho

in like grade 11 i spent time (and still am) spending time relearning how to read and write chinese, that wasnt a struggle because well i am chinese and its a DAMN useful language

but then grade 12 (aka me last  2+ weeks) i stumbled upon the langblr community and i remembered the interest and spark i used to have about languages, and i saw so many people and so many RELALY GOOD RESORUCES and i was like wow.

so i was like ugh whatever i guess il download duolingo just to check out the features ill probably ditch it anyway

well two weeks and 100 lingots later... guess i didnt ditch it.... but then like theres this nagging voice in my head thats telling me to stop wasting my time learning french, russian, spanish (and german kinda but i haveent startred that yet) these languages arent going to be useful for my future i should sjust stop im wasitng my time

im wasting my time just like i always do, i waste my time doing meaningless things i wont even be able to speak or read these languages that well ill forget eventually so why am i wasitng my time now?

this voice is just so damn loud and i wish i could tell it to shut up

i wish i could truly enjoy something that makes me happy wtihout thinking im wasting my time and im a loser i really ohenstly dont feel that im good at anything or have any geniune long lasting passion i feel like ill ditch the whole langauges and the other two hobbies soon i just feel like ill continue my cycle of mediocirty

another part of me just wonders if im seeing tthe past through rose coloured glasses, so i went back to read some of my old journals and stuff  and i think with the exception of some periods of time

i was geniunely happier then than i am now

but i also had some unhealthy ideas about myself, interests, and i was kind of unhealthily obsessive over some things, granted i still have some problems with that. but i think the main difference is now i’m aware

and to be frank, being aware im not entirely sure if thats a GOOD thing, in fact it kinda makes my not so good feelings feel worse since im aware.

what is geniune happiness? what is the difference between a hobby or interest that brings true joy or just unhealthy escapism? i dont know well i think i know what the answer might be but its still blury and vague

well from this i think one thing im not that bad is im alright at expressing myself and my emotions, im almost too in tune with myself, but the problem is yes i may be aware yes i may be able to articulate myself. but i dont do anything to change

so my circumstances and my feelings and the general state im always in, i guess its just my fault

i hope to look at this months or a year or maybe even years from now and say i didnt have anything to worry about and that things became better

but then again, maybe in the future ill be saying “wow yo u had it easy, i wish i could go back things are much worse now”

honestly i have way more to say but this already seems to o long so maybe another time i have an exam tmrw anyway