#theyll. appreciate it. eventually

[lycianlynx]

As soon as her own dance concludes and there is time between rounds, Deirdre rushes off in the direction that Chad fled. It is not easy to find them and she wanders about the hedge maze calling their name, hoping they might here. "Chad! Chad, please, it is Deirdre! I know you are hurting and I would like to help but I do not know where you are!"

It's blessedly quiet on top of the flower they had vaulted onto, the boy now able to decide on whether or not to have a full breakdown at his relative leisure —

"..."

Until it's not. Well, it's not like they're fully able to avoid the elementals like this, either, bird's-eye view that they have, and the chance one would pluck them up and plop them back into the crowd isn't zero... Still, frustration, irritation dents their brow when they hear Professor Deirdre's voice — They know their escape wasn't the most... Subtle, much less elegant in their borderline panicked state, and while the instinct of flight still roars loud in their ears (more natural than fight, always more than fight), they're just —

Why does everyone have to worry for them so much?! Can't everyone just forget this happened, wouldn't that be best for everyone involved!? It's enough that they've humiliated themself in front of every other goddamn motherfucker at the Academy, the last thing they want is to worry someone on top of it all, but they keep making everyone worry themselves sick anyways when they're supposed to be competent and reliable and — And —!

Stupid, stupid, stupid! Fucking dipshit dumbass. The boy grits their teeth as they hear the sound of their name ring out in the night — Saints, woman, do you have to broadcast to the whole party that they're cringe as fuck —

But — Ugh, this isn't her fault, this is theirs. And... They really don't want her to draw any more attention to their absence, to the fact they need help (they don't, this is their problem), yeah? She doesn't need to help. She shouldn't have to feel the need to...

Flight loses to something not quite fight. Gloved hands test at their eyes, the bottom of their nose for heat, for wetness, before they let out an aggravated sigh and inch towards the side of the flower — The flower tilts, and the boy slides off and onto a hedge just behind the Professor, legs a-dangle from where they perch.

"I'm here, Professor," they say, voice shockingly steady, praying the light is low enough that any other unsteadiness is hidden from sight. "Don't need to yell."

A pause, a quiet breath as they try to straighten their shoulders. "I just needed a moment to cool down. I'm fine, so there's no need to worry, yeah?"

[kind-of-a-shitty-wizard]

i think that the concept of haskill + mantling as a gradual process is the coolest everever, because imagine you serve a god for ages but regularly hes replaced by another person... haskill knows sheogorath's personality will overtake the HoK's eventually but theres still a period where sheo's essentially died and been replaced, and this new person barely knows him even if he technically knows everything about them. i imagine theres a lot of onesidedness, cos haskill's unfalteringly loyal to / caring for / knowledgeable about someone who basically doesn't know who he is and maybe its a little tragic for him to watch sheogorath forget himself over and over

i can imagine him bringing (for example) tea to the HoK a few months into their mantling transformation, and the HoK is like "wow i didn't even know i liked this kind of tea before" and haskill just stoically goes "very good, your grace" but inside he knows that, of course they like it, its sheogorath's favorite. ough. agh. ough <- taking overtime poison damage from this thought

[koolades-world]

i saw the cat and corvid mc ones and i wanna see dog-like mc so bad, like one whos very loyal, loves cuddling with loved ones, if they had a tail and one of the gang came home itd be faster than a helicopter i think, if they see anyone with food theyd just come up to them with their puppy dog eyes, they just lounge around in random spots nearby the characters or even lays their head/body on them. sometimes theyll be playing with something and be possessive over it and a "Whats that in your mouth" situation comes in and they run away taking random stuff they found lying around the HoL, maybe theyre also rly playful and love playfighting and stuff like tug of war

thats just a few things that come off the top of my head lol how the mc is like is up to you, sorry if theres too much or doesnt make sense! xoxo

haha hi!!! yes of course!

this is such a fun idea. i may or may not have based this reader off my goofy goober of a dog. she's so sweet but sometimes i wonder if theres even a single thought in that head of hers haha

enjoy <3

Dog-like Mc

Lucifer

getting lock out of his bedroom always proceeds as such: being sad that you're locked out, sitting sadly in front of the door and scratching at it, lucifer feeling bad and eventually letting you in so you can sit on his bed and ruin the freshly made sheets lol

rinse and repeat the cycle nightly

the puppy dog eyes work very well on him

since he handles his brothers so often, he's good at getting you to listen when you're off in lala land or something along those lines

Mammon

he himself is kinda dog like, so the two of you get along pretty well

both of you would follow the other to the worlds end <33

you probably steal his sunglasses from time to time and he has to hunt you down to get them back, just because when he said “drop it” you accepted that as a challenge lol

the only difference in the two of you, however, is that you’re much more open with how you feel and will not hesitate to admit that you love him even if it flustered him haha

Levi

he's a little wary of having you in his room

he has lots of valuables that he treasures and while he's a little afraid you'll steal and or mess something up, he genuinely cares about you and is willing to get past that

however he did need a day away from you after you drooled on his Ruri pillow haha

after he got to know you better, he really appreciated always having an outgoing buddy to go out in public with someone that wasn't one of his brothers

Satan

sitting with him while he reads!! randomly laying your head in his lap <3

you always check out what's in his mug while he reads despite the fact that it never changes (it's always tea) but maybe one day it'll be something delicious, like chips haha

he's wary of taking you into a cat cafe, but surprisingly, all the cats love you!

now he's questioning if he's really a cat, or if he's a dog person lol

Asmo

you let him do any kind of skincare and treatments he wants on you

and he thinks it's great! until he sees you at the end of the day and it kinda looks like you swam in a mud puddle

he's not going to be the one to subject you to a bath so he always shoos you off and tells you to go clean up before you can get something else done (my dog hates water lol)

if he's ever missing one of his rather tasty smelling skincare products or a brush, or something like that, he just opens a bag of chips and summons you + beel (see below lol)

Beel

please the amount of food you're getting from him

those puppy dog eyes work so well and he can't help but give in every single time

both of you come running every time someone opens a chip bag even if it's on the other side of the house haha. if the others have issues finding you, that's how they do it quick and easy

every meal of yours is eaten together, of course

Belphie

the realest cat and dog dynamic ever!

please there's no way you're not jumping on his bed just for fun while he's sleeping in it. he's convinced it's to annoy him but it's just you being incredible oblivious and wanting to have fun

you guys are best friends. i don't make the rules haha

when you do want to nap with him, however, it's the best nap you've ever had and is probably a very cute pic

[anonymous-eggy]

Quest with an artist Mc

bc i cant stop thinking ab himb....

i wrote this very impulsively so. yeah. theres a bit of horny towards the end, but theres also fluffy sweet things

• he learns of you being an artist when you find the time to create bloomic fanart.

• and you got endless showers of praise from him on how good it was (especially if the fanart included Xander)

• he just thinks its so neat. his artistic expression of choice is poetry, so he's not much of an artist when it comes to drawing.

• he can draw some basic flowers, but thats where his talents end.

• no matter your usual art media, buy gold (body safe) paint and paint his scars. kind of like how you paint the cracks of repaired pottery and such? except make it a vulnerable bonding experience.

• he has many scars all around his body from past accidents and gang related violence.

• i feel like he gets really insecure about them sometimes and worries theyll make you think too much about his past

• but seeing you turn them into something golden and beautiful with such ease and affection... gives him a new appreciation for those parts of him.

• he loves it even more when you connect nearby scars like intricate rivers of gold flowing across his body.

• make sure you fill the comfortable silence with lovely soft words of affirmation and kisses every now and then for the best results.

• absolutely call him your golden boy.

• the only issue is that he feels really bad for having to eventually wash them off.

• so take pictures and send them to him for just you two to hold onto ;)

• despite feeling bad about washing them off, he always feels so much better about his scars and body.

• and let him know this is exactly how you see his scars <3

• i feel like during times when you're not able to paint on him because of a late shift or something, he just looks back at the pictures and replays the soft memories for comfort.

• this is more towards the beginning of your relationship with him, when his insecurities about his past bothering you were the worst

• moving on from that, he is the perfect man to reference.

• he would find it so very funny if you ever complained about parts of him that are hard to draw.

• i could imagine just sitting there watching him work out and just... drawing the way his muscles flex and the way his body bends... dear lord those thighs...

• when you first did this, he immediately noticed. he didnt quite have the courage to ask if you were drawing him (after all, forms of art are very personal things)

• but when he sees you're staring at the sketchbook page more than him, he decides to take a break and ask you.

• not because he's getting jealous of the notebook. hes not a jealous person. the curiosity just takes over because the stares mean you're stuck on smthn or you're finished.

• and boy is he beyond flattered. flustered even.

• he's never really... thought much about himself. physically and mentally. so the fact that he's worth being sketched touches his very soul.

• if you're the type of artist who loves gushing over defined shapes and begin to ramble about the shapes that you love about him, his cheeks will be red and he will patiently listen to every word you have to say.

• as weird as it is to listen to someone describe his physical features with such passion, there's something special about the way you talk about it.

• especially if you suddenly realize what you're saying and get flustered.

• he likes feeling like art when its you. he loves the way you map out his body and turn the shapes of him into strokes of graphite poetry.

• .... he wouldnt mind if you drew him suggestively as well... so long as its for your eyes and his eyes only...

• of course there would be teasing about just how much you seem to adore his body, but never in a way that deters you from sketching him more.

• which, knowing Quest, his teasing quickly veers into horny territory. at the very least deep kisses.

• he says he just want to "give you more inspiration" and that "its his job as your muse"

• he definitely develops a fixation on your hands specifically. the way your hands trace his body delicately as if trying to memorize every line of him while making out with him on his lap.

• it absolutely drives him insane.

• the way his large hands encircle your wrist while his fingers press on your palms in bed. or when his fingers tangle with yours. and he can see you looking at it. memorizing every moment of it. of him. of the emotions tied to the image.

• that part he loves the most about your art. the pure emotion of it captured so perfectly

• oh yeah it definitely awakens something in him. especially if he finds you sketching those the next day peacfully at your desk.

• honestly i think you being an artist just changes the way he sees things. in the best of ways.

• he also finds himself massaging your hands absent mindedly while cuddling. and softly kissing them... they work so hard and he wants to take care of them for you.

• he is just so very happy to be your favorite muse.

~sigh. time to make a Blooming Panic section on my masterlist...

[ultra-raging-ghost]

I hope when bad resets he has to completely relearn english, because i would love to see a couple 100% rp streams where he's completely silent for them until he gets his mind in tact, where he just stares openly and pleasantly at people who are trying to talk to him, when they ask him for things he doesnt know how to respond but scurries off to go retrieve a chestplate or a book and even if he has to do it two and three times to eventually get it right theyll appreciate it, id love that

[howlsofbloodhounds]

killer meeting reapertale chara when he is abandoned by all people he knows?? good stuff, good angst. just the idea of killer missing his chance with color, being discarded by nightmare, by death's door only to call out for help one last time. and this time, someone actually comes to help him, and it's chara.

they've both been abandoned by the gods. and now in killer's darkest hours, reapertale chara holds out a hand to him.

i think it would be interesting if reapertale chara genuinely likes killer, but still mean to him. they like core frisk enough despite core frisk being a pacifist and a person who always helps people - the total opposite of reapertale chara. would be fun if chara tries to guide killer into being their acolyte, because it isn't different from what killer has been doing.

what would killer think about it though? having a support of a godlike being is advantageous to him, but will they abandon him like others before? there would be a period where killer would constantly mistake reapertale chara as his chara. i wonder if that would trigger him into stage 3 and 4 often. i think reapertale chara would appreciate those stages of him best, though they feel it might not be good to break a valuable tool so quickly.

~ crowshipping anon

I do think the Anaomly would be rather mean to Killer too, but probably moreso in the way high school bully, annoying sibling way with a dash of ‘deities not really relating much to mortals,’ although i think that part may be something Chara learns quick not only because they were once mortal before their Corruption, but because they genuinely like Killer and want him to work with them willingly. So theyll put in the effort from the start.

I can definitely see Chara playing up their favoritism with Killer just to upset Flowey for amusement though 💀. Probably also taking every opportunity to ditch him or leave him behind, even though Flowey always just keeps catching up again.

And given that their drawn to Killer due to their shared Anaomly status, Chara would probably be just as curious in Killer as he is in them, and would probably be very curious about his soul, and eventually, possibly even his codes. How they were changed, how that affects Killer, his Stages, if it can be fixed or altered further.

I do feel like Killer would probably attack them in Stage 3, as i feel he would’ve even been willing to do with Nightmare when in this Stage. But unlike Nightmare who’d probably restrain Stage 3 or use his tentacles to force Killer back into a more desirable Stage, Chara may find it both interesting and amusing.

Perhaps they’d redirect that frenzy on to others such as Flowey, as if both making a peace offering and using Killer’s state to both bully the flower and for some amusement. As well as a chance to study killer more, as they know he has also been doing to them.

I get the vibes that this Chara would utilize Killer as both a tool and an attack dog, when it benefits them, but they aren’t exactly doing it to be malicious nor are they cruel. They do their own fair share of work, and attends to killers mortals needs.

They may struggle to find or realize what killers limits are, simply because killers limits are often pushed by others and he’s figured out how to hide signs of “weakness” such as exhaustion and hunger and they themself aren’t exactly mortal, but i feel they’d only be looking for this information just so they know when to stop and not break him.

I feel like if killer starts worrying about being abandoned again he’d probably close off, detach himself from any emotions about this situation—probably start working on autopilot even and maintaining distance. Probably not even reaching out to touch for any type of reality testing/grounding. Not to mention if he’s still struggling to come to terms with whatever may have happened with Nightmare and Color.

Perhaps that’s how the Anomaly starts trying to get closer. Comforting him in Stage 1 after horrible nightmares or whenever he starts missing home and family and friends—consistently comforting him before ST1 can even think about just ending himself again.

I can see Chara making degrading comments about Nightmare and probably eventually Killer’s Chara the more they learn about the two, saying things like how they didn’t “know what they had” and how their treatment of Killer is simply unneeded and there are better ways to go about it, etc.

[nautilusgays]

Hey I love your nemonnax content!! It’s good to see some content with our sea gays lol. Do you have any more relationship headcanons for Nemo/Pierre? NSFW or SFW - anything you have in mind, Im really curious to hear what you have in mind:)

Hi!! Omg thank you so much!! I'm so glad you enjoy it that means a lot 🥺🥰

Sorry it took me so long to reply!!

More headconnons! I love thinking about these two!

SFW Headcannons:

- They have flirty chess games that people hate being in the vicinity of - especially before they get together because the unresolved tension/feelings is unreal.

- The first game they ever play Pierre wins and he looks up through his eyelashes, smirking as he purrs "check mate, Captain". Nemo is completely caught off guard and gets so so flustered and quickly leaves. Pierre pouts "I would not have expected him to be such a bad loser." Ned is losing his mind.

- After they've gotten together Pierre sometimes uses his rizz to distract and fluster Nemo to increase his chances of winning. Nemo sulks because its often effective.

- Pierre enjoys sketching Nemo but is anxious about Nemo ever seeing them. The thing is when Nemo is in the Saloon and Pierre is sketching him he's incredibly unsubtle so Nemo knows the entire time. Pierre is mentally doodling hearts around every drawing.

- There are times Pierre reminds Nemo a lot of his wife and sometimes it causes him to have mental spirals of being worried he's being unfaithful to her or is forcing Pierre into being a replacement and projecting her onto him.

- Nemo has one of those therapeutic dreams where he's talking to his wife about it. She approves of Pierre and thinks they would have been good friends; and that they would have drunk tea and gossiped together. (I wrote this as a drabble lol)

- Pierre is very tactile. Before they get together Pierre kept having to stop himself from touching Nemo like he would with his other friends. Nemo at first appreciates the respect but as the months go past he gets a little frustrated that he's the only one Pierre doesn't touch.

- When they're together Pierre is a cuddle bug now that he has permission - Nemo loves it (he didn't realised how touch starved he was poor guy).

- Nemo radiates a lot of heat and Pierre has declared him his hot water bottle.

- Pierre enjoys swimming and Nemo will occasionally make up issues so they spend a day or so in one place so Pierre (and eventually other crew too) can swim. It took Pierre way too long to realise the 'lucky coincidences' of the Nautilus having a technical issue when they're in warm areas were not just coincidences.

- The crew greatly approve of them, and had a betting pool on if/when theyll get together going from the first day.

Again thank you so much for the ask! I'm sorry I took a while to respond I've been moving house.

(NSFW/Explicit Headcanons under the cut!)

Spicy head cannon time!

- Power bottom mode Pierre makes Nemo very flustered especially if Pierre straddles his lap and starts kissing his neck - it's almost guaranteed to have Nemo raring to go very quickly.

- Pierre obviously having had more experience teaches Nemo about many things and helps him become more comfortable with sex in general since it's been loooong for Nemo.

- When Pierre first talks to Nemo about being tied up Nemo is a bit confused, also hesitant about putting Pierre in such a vulnerable position especially since at first he was imprisoned in the Nautilus and of course Nemo had drugged him once. But they talk it out and slowly ease into such dynamics.

- Nemo becomes much more confident quite quickly and Pierre is enjoying it but also suffering because Nemo will walk past him in the ship, place his hand on Pierre's lower back, whisper a sensual promise to him, and keep walking; leaving a very flustered Professor behind.

- Nemo is a bit embarrassed that he's become more...lustful...he thinks he should be better than that. Doesn't stop him tho lol.

- Meanwhile Pierre is delighted to climb that man like an oceanic tree.

- Conseil is slightly traumatised by the time he walked into Pierre's room and saw him and Nemo in a comprising position.

- Pierre loves to ride Nemo, who enjoys lying back and enjoying the view everything and getting to watch Pierre.

(part of me wanted to be more explicit but also I didn't want to go too wild lol)

[brandwhorestarscream]

starscream x shockwave

I'm imagining this as TFP Shockstar, post war: the whole mess with the predacons and Megatron abandoning them, he does the most logical thing to guarantee their survival: bends Starscream over the nearest flat surface and frags him so full of transfluid there's no way he's not sparked up. The autobots won't execute or even imprison them if they're expectant parents: sparklings without healthy parents don't grow up well, and with any luck the baby will come out with their sire's original alt mode. Shockwave may be a warframe now but his CNA is completely civilian. If their baby is going to have a good life, they'll need to get lucky and inherit his alt.

Starscream knows it's the most accessible failsafe they have: not even Arcee would lay a finger on him so long as he has an innocent newspark nestled close to him . Theyll have access to energon and shelter and the autobots won't be able to protest because they're prioritizing rebuilding the population over everything else. They're an endangered species, after all.

But despite all that, Starscream bitches constantly. He's got monstrous cravings and his fuel tank is a bottomless pit: it's pretty obvious he's eating for more than just two. In true seeker fashion he's got multiple infant sparks orbiting his, 4 of them: assumably 3 seekerlings and an extra civilian. He's sore everywhere, in his pedes and ankle joints, in his wings, even his wings are aching. He's always starving but the bitties pressing on his fuel tank means he throws up if he drinks too fast, for the entirety of the carrying cycle. It's really rough on him, honestly.

Shockwave, just by nature, isn't anywhere near as emotionally available as Starscream needs him to be. But he does his damn best to take good care of him: he may not be able to feel love and joy like he used to, but he has a sense of muted pride and appreciation. Starscream is preserving his future and giving him a legacy all at once. The intense demands on his body are clearly taking a great toll on him. So he tries to make it as comfortable as he can for him, the highest quality energon they can manage and even using his technological know-how to make some comfy fibers for a few wing cushions.

Starscream doesn't know how to show his appreciation because he has -5 points in his Emotional Intelligence stat, so he just grabs Shockwave and demands affection. Usually late at night, creeping into Shockwave's room. The two of them are living together in light of the sparklings, and as time goes on Starscream abandons his room entirely. Moves into Shockwave's space and always worms his way under his arm, demanding him to, "Hold me like I deserve! I'm carrying your spawn, the least you can do is rub my wings."

When the sparklings are born, Shockwave was right: three tiny, scrawny little Vosians with a single civilian ground frame. He struggles to hold them, only having one arm, but tries his best. Starscresm is preening like a peacock because look at how beautiful they are! The first new citizens of New Vos, brought into the world by their Crown Prince! Take that autobots! As soon as he's able to walk again he's strutting around with all 4 of them--even the grounder--and showing off so smugly to everyone. He doesn't trust the bots around them but wants them to know now he's truly invincible for the next several million years. They won't hurt a carrier with dependent children so political immunity, here he comes!

Eventually, I like to imagine that the shadowplay and empurata are reversed or at least treated, alleviating some of the symptoms and allowing for the regaining of further emotional range. When it happens, and Shockwave gets to hold his children for the first time? You'd be hard pressed to find a more radiant smile anywhere on Cybertron, and Starscream is honestly floored at how handsome he is. He's only ever known Shockwave post-empurats: he had no idea he had such a beautiful face! He'd of course seen pictures of Senator Shockwave, of course, but they never did him justice. Shockwave looks so bright and cheerful softly cooing at his babies, poking their cheeks and holding their little servos, bouncing them and making them giggle. Shockwave is too enamored with them to notice him staring, but afterwards when they climb into berth that night, Starscream suggests perhaps giving Shockwave some political immunity too 👀 besides, an aerie isn't an aerie without at least a few dozens sparklings running around, so shouldn't they get to work making more?

They take turns, going forward, on who carries: Shockwave second, Starscream third, Shockwave fourth, etcetera etcetera until they're satisfied 🤭 as it turns out, these two really, really like making and having sparklings, and are a better match than they ever thought possible.

[wishing-stones]

Your badsanses with a s/o who loves cooking for him. He wakes up they make him food, he comes n from work they have dinner made, hes out otherwise they either come with him or when he comes back theyll ask if hes eaten. And everything they make is super healthy for him.

If asked if theyve eaten, they look sheepish and admit they havent. They wait for him.

For funsies, they grew up n a family of strong hard workers who were always hungry, and they have always been the one to do the task/pleasure and an honor n their eyes.

Killer appreciates the hard work, babe, but you gotta eat too. Have a snack while you're cooking, the world(s) won't end. You're more than welcome to wait for him to sit down and have cute little meals and stuff, but if it's interfering with you staying fed, he's going to object. He can be gone for days at a time sometimes, and if you don't eat in that whole time, he deems you too weak to cook for anyone, him included, and you get takeout. the healthy food is great, but he loves his junk. Dust is... actually really flattered by this and it makes him feel kind of soft. He, too, loves his junk food, but he always eats what's made for him. He is adamant about you eating while he isn't around, though, because it's a terrible habit, and while he's flattered you like to eat with him, if he's not around, you do need to feed yourself. Similar to Killer, he puts his foot down if it's been too long and he thinks you're too weak to hold a soup spoon. Axe might propose on the spot, tbh. Feeding others is his love language, and if you beat him to it, he's just. Absolutely lovestruck. He absolutely doesn't allow the willful starvation without him being there and puts a stop to it really fast by making sure there's things around for you to eat when he's not there, and he'll get pretty upset if you don't eat it. He's the one with the biggest issue with this because of what he went through. Cross is very flattered by this and adjusts his schedule as much as he can to make sure he's home for lunch if he's off doing something, so even if you wait for him, he's on time for three square meals a day so you eat them, too. He gets a little stern if his schedule doesn't allow for it, though, and makes it clear he expects you to eat whether or not he shows up. He's good at communicating if he's going to miss a meal or be late, though-- he always texts you with updates unless he knows he's going to be unable to come home in advance. Baggs is a little hot-and-cold on this. Having nice healthy meals on time every day is nice, and makes him feel better, since he's garbage at eating well himself, but he's a little crabby if it interrupts something he's working on. He eventually schedules out meal breaks with an alarm an hour preceding so he knows to find a stopping point soon to break for lunch or dinner. He really doesn't tolerate the inability to eat alone and if the behavior doesn't change, he'll intervene and get to the root of why. As it is, he'll make you think about why that is in the first place, but when it becomes a problem, he fixes it. Fast. Nightmare is thoroughly charmed by this, but also does not abide by the whole 'waiting to eat until you're home' thing. It helps no one, least of all you, and you aren't going to be able to cook well if you yourself aren't nourished. He'd hate to think what happens to a weak, shaky hand when slicing up vegetables. You must eat, even if he's not there. However, when he is, he delights in getting to have nice sit-down meals prepared just for him.

All of this is magnified by the fact that intent gets poured into cooking easily, and your intent to make sure they're all happy and fed makes the food better for them.

[just-peach]

How did you become one of A's kittens? Does it bother you they have so many?

Mutual respect is a big big big big BIG thing. I never tried to push boundaries and neither did they. Honestly i think i just lucked out by liking one of their writings in kinda their early days of the blog and we just got to talking about what i liked about it and such. And i dont know we just sort of became friends and eventually i started sending them stuff i was gonna post before i posted it started sending them rambles and ideas for them to hopefully write for fingers by them is still one of my favorites lol but i know they appreciate literally anything their kittens send them as long as they read their pinned and respect them like i said mutual respect is a big thing. And it doesnt bother me at all they have so many i used to get a lil jealous tho but thats past bc i know when i send them stuff theyll appreciate it just like if you or any other one of their kittens send stuff they'll appreciate it.

Thanks for the ask!

[narzissenkreuz-ordo]

u kno im in deep with an oc when i already have complete narrative writing itself in my head

im trying to avoid anything that may or may not happen during the penacony questline bc ill have to adjust it in the end anyway

but i got a better feel for aster's character (while making a hot pocket in the kitchen at 1 am):

dead!aster = dead friend who shapes my OC's identity

fake!aster = my actual OC, who is just referred to as aster to other characters

dead!aster probably had some sort tragic background where their entire planet just [insert bad thing where dead!aster is the sole survivor] and is living afterward in absolute despair before becoming nihilitypilled.

and moments afterward theyre just like 'no im not accepting this' and goes through the process of radical acceptance and is constantly trying to find some sort of good or beauty or wonder in the terms of 'oh [insert dead family member/friend here] would have liked these flowers i will appreciate them in my friend's honor'

so by the time dead!aster and fake!aster meet, dead!aster is pretty kind and gentle

while fake!aster, before all this. is a pretty jaded memokeeper. she is not a cremator at all but is like 'when someone dies their memories are kept alive by their loved ones. but there will be a time eventually that not even the living will remember this one person. we are preserving these memories but theyll just sit here.... forever'

they were probably on their way to becoming nihilitypilled herself but the two eventually does find companionship in each other. trying to find a way to bring meaning back into the inevitable process of being erased once the living no longer can remember you

but then ofc dead!aster dies and fake!aster is abt to fuckin spiral out of control right into IX's empty void before coming to the realization that she can keep dead!aster's memory alive forever if she just wears their face & identity and can carry out their goals on her own

the timeline of dead!aster finding meaning in living for others and on their own death fake!aster does the same thing for them, in her own fucked up way

so i think it would be neat, that fake!aster wearing the skin of dead!aster covers up the fact that theyre a memokeeper. theyve probably deflected from the garden of recollection by now. but its fucked up and kinda manipulative that she fronts as this unassuming character but she can literally store and preserve memories. theres nothing stopping her from just Knowing the memories of those she comes into contact and feigns indifference

she is sure gonna gaslight gatekeep girlboss everyone on penacony [looks at aventurine]

[at-the-end-of-extinction-fic]

bit of a weird ask but how do you feel about fics of your fic? ive been having a drought in motivation recently so it wont be coming out anytime soon and i have summer school but ive just been wondering what lucis been thinking esp regarding charlie. js wonderin :3

i was shocked that there was already a chapter today. while im glad that lucis back, i feel like hes being to harsh on husk and angel? like they have gone through hell (heh) and back for this girl, i dont think theyll be trying anything anytime soon

I'm totally okay if anyone wants to make fics of the fic! It's the same as I'd feel for fanart, playlists, and any sort of art/appreciation for the fic. It's a huge honor!

And, yes, Lucifer was a little harsh, but he does have his reasons. He does acknowledge that Husk and Angel have been through a lot trying to get Charlie home, but there are so many outside forces that we're about to learn about that are kind of influencing his paranoia. He's also kind of in shock, because he initially thought Charlie was safe back in San Diego, then learned she almost died and was being escorted by two relative strangers across the country, then they dropped off the face of the earth for the majority of a year, and now suddenly they show up with his daughter out of the blue? And when he does find them they're sneaking through smuggler tunnels with his kid? Like a pretty blatantly dangerous method of getting into Boston and their reason was because they were smuggling stuff in for someone who gave them a ride? Yeah, he's a little guarded, and a little suspicious.

I think he's also dealing with some guilt and taking it out on the wrong people too. He left his daughter in a place he thought she'd be okay, thinking they'd only be gone a few weeks to a month and she almost got killed. Then she went missing again for another 8-9 months and he couldn't find her.

And that's not including the reason he's even in Boston in the first place and all of the crap going on there, but I can't go into much detail with that without spoiling endgame things.

TLDR: Luci's a lil stressed out, but he'll warm up eventually.

[drpeppertummy]

it's not just a want but a NEED. a lusty, dusty desire I have for Dark Sunny Lore

You Sicko . The Dark Sunny Lore [warning for illness death suicide self harm child abuse/neglect etc]

his dad never wanted him bc he only wanted 3 kids & sunny was an accidental #4. was always very open about not wanting him bc hes a shitty old bitch

additionally sunny was sick all the time & frequently in the hospital (asthma + other respiratory ailments) & dad was resentful bc he never wanted this sick kid taking up all his time & money

his mom was super loving & wonderful but she died when he was like 12. she died from some kind of respiratory situation & the question of Was It His Fault And Will It Kill Him Too is always in the back of his mind

not long after mom died his dad tried to passively let him die too by refusing to take him to the hospital when he was really sick. his sister giuliana finally took him after coming home from school one day & seeing how awful he looked

was good about being in the hospital as a kid & was always like the nurses little darling bc he was such a sweetie but now has a medical phobia bc in his brain its associated with all that misery & pain & fear

outside of his home life pretty much everyone always liked him & he always had a lot of friends & was popular etc but nothing ever made up for the damage his dad did to him mentally

he knows people like him on a superficial level bc he knows hes cute & charismatic on a superficial level but hes scared that if people get close to him theyll realize hes just annoying & hate him

secretly terrified that his friends hate him & are just tolerating him

prone to bouts of depression, often spirals into a terrible mental state if he stays up late. Night Brain hits hard esp when its mixed with rsd

when he was in college he tried to kill himself by taking a bunch of random medications with a bunch of vodka & it made him sick & knocked him out for a while but miraculously didnt kill him

he woke up in the same spot he left himself in & realized nobody found him or noticed & therefore nobody could care. wanted to tell someone so bad bc he Needed somebody to care & hug him & say they were glad he was alive but he was scared to bc he thought theyd get mad at him or think he was too much or not care since he was "fine" so he just peeled himself off the floor took a shower & went to class like nothing happened. his professor scolded him for coming in hungover

(he eventually told gray about it years later & gray held him & gave him that years-awaited love & care & it was like a soul-healing moment for him)

(gray knows more about him than anybody & he worries about him a lot & sunny feels bad for worrying him but he also appreciates that grays always there for him)

as a kid he would bite himself a lot if he was upset/frustrated/overstimulated & he still does sometimes but only when hes alone. its almost like a reflex & if anyone saw hed be mortified

once in a while tho he like actually cuts himself. if someone asks what happened he gives some absurd excuse like "i got mauled by a bear" & refuses to elaborate bc hes scared & ashamed

hes trying to get better but he almost certainly will attempt suicide again someday. he wont succeed but he Will be so so terrified that his friends are gonna be mad at him for it when he comes to (spoiler: they wont be mad at him)

apart from gray his friends dont know the extent of his mental health problems bc he tries to keep it to himself bc he doesnt wanna worry them & bc hes ashamed & afraid they wont want him anymore. the most they really see of it is him being moody sometimes

once in a while somebody will see him break down over something & they know his dad sucks & they know he misses his mom & they can piece together that hes gotta be hurting but hes usually so bouncy & bubbly & cheery that they dont realize how bad it is

[sundrenched-smilez]

Brutal honesty I P AND N

I - The last time I felt jealous, and why.

This is small, but i'm p sure the last time i was jealous recently, was bc i don't have big enough tits to rlly fill out clothes and bras the way some ppl do, and that makes me rlly sad sometimes :~(( like it genuinely gets to me, i want nice, big titties that I can flaunt and show off and have things like underboob, or have them spill out of a bra, or bralette. it's frustrating, and like Maybe theyll grow eventually, but uggghghhgghgh i just want.... fat tits.... please. and a pushup bra........and lingerie. please and thank you.

P - What kind of music I like.

i like bouncy music that sounds fun and interesting!! i like songs i can jam out to and sing along with!!! i like!!! sad songs sometimes!!! i have like a sad girl oc playlist i'm working on and it's rlly fun, i think the fact that music has as wide an array of emotion as people do is fantastic, really special, and insane tbh!!!! ppl don't utilize that enough when they just make cash grabs. music should say something!!! even and especially if, that something is as simple as "get up and dance!!" or like "have fun!!" "I'm sad and needed to get this out!!" "it's okay to cry!!" "grrrr mad"!! music is so so so so special, and i adore listening to everyone's take on it, everyone's taste, and how they vibe n jam to it!!! listen to my #street beats tag if u wanna see some of my favs!! that r like, Unlisted songs and music that ppl just Make like out in the wild, or on the streets!!! (hence the name hehe) i rlly fuckin ADORE crunchy guitar strums, acoustic guitar, fun vocals, and just!!! i like to harmonize w the ppl singing, bc i'm very good at that c:

N - If you want to know how I treat my friends.

SO well. i love my friends SO so fucking much. like i cherish them everyday, and every night when i'm in bed, falling asleep, i wish each and every one of them a goodnight, until i fall asleep with so much love in my heart for them. my friends are my treasures, and I will always give my all to them, and let them know Just how much i love and appreciate them, how sweet or funny they are, and you KNOW i'm always there to hype them up <33333 some of my loved ones, i'm a lot closer with than others, like you!!! i don't just tell every friend i have that i want to be with them, and move in with them and share a life together!!!! so you're very special to me, and I can't wait to meet you so i can give you the BIGGEST hug and kiss your cheek and spend some hardcore quality time with my bestie <3333 💛💛💖💝💟💛💛❣💛💞💓💛💗💛💛💛i love youuuuu

[botherbug]

Also , asks, i see them and im staring. Theyll get done eventually, likely. I appreciate the interaction.

[ghost-of-the-machine]

why am i always being mistreated? why am i the bottom of the fucking barrel? do i deserve it?

the amount of times ive wished i was dead just to hurt them, just to make them feel SORRY. to make them love me and hurt over me. isnt that so fucked up? the only way i can feel appreciated and valued is if im dead

if i ever told them that, theyd call me dramatic. of course i am, dramatic as usual. nothing i say means anything, none of my feelings matter, im just.. maybe i really am worthless. maybe i matter as much as the dirt under their feet. if i was more useful, then id deserve to be treated nicely

if its not them its someone else, why? why is someone from my family always trying to hurt me? my sister used to give me hell, then my mom, now its my sibling. what about me is so.. unlikeable? i know the answer to that already, but it still hurts to think about

you know what the craziest part is? theyll hurt you and then like. give it 10 minutes and theyll act like nothing happened. theyll think YR the weird one for still being upset

all this time i spend fucking terrified and killing myself over every little thing i do, scared to be a terrible person. am i too much? am i too little? am i hurting them? was that manipulative? am i abusive? all this fucking fear and overwhelming self awareness and they just fuck around and inflict random emotional damage at any point in the day like its their fucking job. its so... im tired

do i not deserve peace? not even in my own home?

if its not stress from how im being treated, its fear of fucking domestic violence, did you know? the last week, thats SEVEN DAYS. ive had nightmares about it. terrible little dream where theres screaming and yelling and fighting and then i wake up and i hear all that shit in real life too. i cant fucking escape this!!! hell, i feel like im in hell. maybe hell is just wherever my family is

whatever, i. just keep dreaming, keep holding yr pillow and keep dreaming. this will be over eventually. i cant be stuck here forever