#they're still messaging me and others

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[skrunksthatwunk]

actually i'm still thinking about the moral orel finale.

he has a cross on his wall. do you know how much i think about that bc it's a lot.

a lot of stories ((auto)biographical or fictional) centering escape from abusive/fundamentalist christianity result in the lead characters leaving behind christianity entirely. and that makes complete sense! people often grow disillusioned with the associated systems and beliefs, and when it was something used to hurt them or something so inseparable from their abuse that they can't engage with it without hurting, it makes total sense that they would disengage entirely. and sometimes they just figure out that they don't really believe in god/a christian god/etc. a healthy deconstruction process can sometimes look like becoming an atheist or converting to another religion. it's all case by case. (note: i'm sure this happens with other religions as well, i'm just most familiar with christian versions of this phenomenon).

but in orel's case, his faith was one of the few things that actually brought him comfort and joy. he loved god, y'know? genuinely. and he felt loved by god and supported by him when he had no one else. and the abuses he faced were in how the people in his life twisted religion to control others, to run away from themselves, to shield them from others, etc. and often, orel's conflicts with how they acted out christianity come as a direct result of his purer understanding of god/jesus/whatever ("aren't we supposed to be like this/do that?" met with an adult's excuse for their own behavior or the fastest way they could think of to get orel to leave them alone (i.e. orel saying i thought we weren't supposed to lie? and clay saying uhhh it doesn't count if you're lying to yourself)). the little guy played catch with god instead of his dad, like.. his faith was real, and his love was real. and i think it's a good choice to have orel maintain something that was so important to him and such a grounding, comforting force in the midst of. All That Stuff Moralton Was Up To/Put Him Through. being all about jesus was not the problem, in orel's case.

and i know i'm mostly assuming that orel ended up in a healthier, less rigid version of christianity, but i feel like that's something that was hinted at a lot through the series, that that's the direction he'd go. when he meditates during the prayer bee and accepts stephanie's different way to communicate, incorporating elements of buddhism into his faith; when he has his I AM A CHURCH breakdown (removing himself from the institution and realizing he can be like,, the center of his own faith? taking a more individualistic approach? but Truly Going Through It at the same time), his acceptance (...sometimes) of those who are different from him and condemned by the adults of moralton (stephanie (lesbian icon stephanie my beloved), christina (who's like. just a slightly different form of fundie protestant from him), dr chosenberg (the jewish doctor from otherton in holy visage)). his track record on this isn't perfect, but it gets better as orel starts maturing and picking up on what an absolute shitfest moralton is. it's all ways of questioning the things he's been taught, and it makes sense that it would lead to a bigger questioning as he puts those pieces together more. anyway i think part of his growth is weeding out all the lost commandments of his upbringing and focusing on what faith means to him, and what he thinks it should mean. how he wants to see the world and how he wants to treat people and what he thinks is okay and right, and looking to religion for guidance in that, not as like. a way to justify hurting those he's afraid or resentful of, as his role models did.

he's coming to his own conclusions rather than obediently, unquestioningly taking in what others say. but he's still listening to pick out the parts that make sense to him. (edit/note: and it's his compassion and his faith that are the primary motivations for this questioning and revisal process, both of individual cases and, eventually, the final boss that is christianity.) it makes perfect sense as the conclusion to his character arc and it fits the overall approach of the show far better. it's good is what i'm saying.

and i think it's important to show that kind of ending, because that's a pretty common and equally valid result of deconstruction. and i think it cements the show's treatment of christianity as something that's often (and maybe even easily) exploited, but not something inherently bad. something that can be very positive, even. guys he even has a dog he's not afraid of loving anymore. he's not afraid of loving anyone more than jesus and i don't think it's because he loves this dog less than bartholomew (though he was probably far more desperate for healthy affection and companionship when he was younger). i think it's because he figures god would want him to love that dog. he's choosing to believe that god would want him to love and to be happy and to be kind. he's not afraid of loving in the wrong way do you know how cool that is he's taking back control he's taking back something he loves from his abusers im so normal

[tenojan-in-tevinter]

I think if Anders didn't talk about Justice like he's some crazed animal, a friend he once knew and never will again that turned evil, if he didn't discount Justice as still a person, if there was some kind of direct dialogue between them... Justice would be far more reasonable in the heat of the moment, and he would probably go Murder Mode less often and he and Anders would have co-control of their body instead of fighting each other for the wheel constantly. I think Hawke (in a romance with them) should help them figure this out. Especially a mage Hawke. Justice isn't just going to go away, Anders needs to accept that vengeance has always been a part of Justice, and there's never a time when it won't be. Like he himself says "Justice is righteous. Justice is hard."

[stevemcqueencheese]

So I'm watching the horror movie Smile, and decide to browse the house tag cuz I gotta fill up my queue, and 5 minutes in I hear this familiar voice and I'm like wait wtf-

And I look to the screen and it's FUCKING KUTNER WHAT

[sarahlancashire]

in case anyone noticed my disappearance earlier, tumblr terminated my account, but they've reinstated me now, i'm back to annoy you all again 😊😊😊

[icewindandboringhorror]

There's always a slight yearning in the back of my mind wishing I had been born in the right place, time, family situation, income level, etc. to have just lived in one single house for my entire life. Imagine being born in a place that still suits you, even through all of your personal evolutions and etc. The idea of deep familiarity with an area because you've lived and explored it for 40+ years, being encased in a web of memories and connections. Being able to clean out your old childhood bedroom and find personal artifacts, to dig in the yard and remember. I know those lives can still be plenty imperfect, but there's just something so seemingly solid and stable and Grounding about it that I sometimes wish I could have.. (At least from my outside perspective as someone who's moved around a bit geographically and even within the same area, never lives in the same house/ apartment /etc. for more than a few years usually.) Like... having a place that is printed upon, fully your own, rather than chronically a visitor, every thought of a space always tempered with the notion that one day soon you'll have to pack it all up again, etc. There's something peaceful about the permanence.

[meggsssart]

My precious blorbo Elden

Typical good boy paladin who is this close to being done with his party's lawless bullshit

[shimmershy]

Hello! Uh, so, I know it was a while ago since it was published but since I’ve been meaning to write this for a while I figured what better time than now since it’s already the new year. I just wanted to say how much I enjoyed your undertale fic “There’s Only One Last Thing Left To say, This Time”. It actually makes me nostalgic to reread it as I first read it back in May of last year when I had actually only gotten into Undertale a few months before and it opened up a whole new world for me. I remember reading it for the first time and the description near the end when Chara tells Asriel they’ll miss him through Frisk and actually tearing up a little. You just. Captured the feeling SO well. And I could relate to Frisk’s feeling of not wanting to let go. Even rereading it now I get a bit teary. I remember thinking about it for days after reading it. I even loved it so much that I read it to my dad (before filling him in on the game lore) and he loved it too. Soo.. I guess what I’m trying to say is, thank you so much for writing it as well as your other fics, and thank you for creating the art that you do, and thank you for being you. You were one of the first artists I got into at the beginning of my Undertale obsession and have inspired me so much. I hope I can write and draw like you one day ^^

I very genuinely teared up while reading this, thank you so much..... It means a lot to me to hear you enjoyed the fic, and I really appreciate you taking the time to write such a nice message. :) It's such an unreal but cool feeling to hear something I created impacted someone's life in some way. Just that fact alone makes me so unbelievably happy! I guess it's just really cool to not only create something that means a lot to me, but to also hear it means something to someone else. That's like, the best feeling in the world!

I'm really glad you (and your dad!) liked the fic! Thank you for reading it, and thank you for being here. :) And I'm really happy to hear I inspired you. I hope you keep writing and drawing, because I'm sure you'll create some amazing things! I hope you have a wonderful day!

[bread-making-vikings]

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[vuulpecula]

✖ alright alright alright. hi i'm still here, life just keeps throwing really annoying curve balls my way while i'm already busy. anyway, the kitchen reno is at a standstill, the garden is full of weeds, but i have a whole host of baby chickens and i love them. pics incoming sometime in the future.

i'm going to try to be around more in a few weekends, but i wanted to apologize to anyone waiting on a reply, a starter, a meme response, an im, or a discord message--it isn't y'all, it is most definitely me. until then, i really hope everyone is doing well and is enjoying pride month <3 i miss and love y'all to the moon. xo.

[batsplat]

Wondering how Casey feels about Valentino being a dad to two girls just like him.It is so sweet.💞

17/2/2012 // 27/3/2022 - does it ever drive you crazy.....

[nyxypoo]

i don't like drake BUT

[teenagefeeling]

new years eve got me really obsessed with kiribati it's like, fascinating. so the country itself consists of 32 different atolls with a total of 313 mi² of land, but they are spread out across 1.3 million miles of ocean!! there's only one gilbertese radio station that can reach all the islands and they have a special satellite phone network for more official government communication across islands. it's also the only country to exist in all four hemispheres!!!! the line islands have a unique time zone that literally only they use!!! gilbertese is also interesting because from what i can tell it's still the most widely spoken language there, but since they were a british colony for a long time, there's a LOT of interesting loanwords, like "kamea" for dog (comes from listening to english settlers saying "come here" to their dogs)

[brutalmasks]

bunny mask is literally the living embodiment of songs like ' dog days are over ' by florence + the machine and ' rebel girl ' by bikini kill. and no, i will not be taking criticism

[pyro-madder]

it's no news but i wanna articulate how i really love the good hunter as a protagonist

I love that they're a clueless rando thrown into Yharnam's chessboard. While part of the narrative is MP and to a lesser extent Amygdala playing doll with them, they're not a chosen one or anything. They're the latest in a long line of people with enough mental fortitude to - at least initially - resist the call of the beast, a quality from within which THEN brings them to the Dream and its plot armor. They're not the first dreamer and, depending on the ending, not the last. And in the ending in which they ARE supposedly the last, where they succeed when none of their predecessors did, by collecting the clues left by those before them, balancing blood echoes and insight without succumbing to bloodlust nor frenzy - again, their own doing, their own skills, their own way of being.

Of course there are many ways to play as them. Personally, I tried bb on a whim, only aiming to reach 2-3 early game characters at first. But then I kept going, figuring that if I had managed to beat the first 2-3 bosses (after 26734859 attempts, but managed nonetheless) I could do the rest - but also because I got my curiosity piqued. I wanted to understand what was going on, how did we get here, what were this world's inner machineries. And when I was told the Byrgenwerth spirit lived on within [me], I thought, "oh, i'm in-character, alright." Their own curiosity pushes them on, and - in a blind playthrough - their own choices will connect them to the world and its characters in a way or another.

It's as the Chapel Dweller says : "not because you're a hunter, but because you're you !"

[treesbian]

the other day while i thought this blog was still terminated someone sent me the stupidest fucking anon. i blocked them so i don't have it but it was stupid. they said smth like comparing the "civilian casualties" in the "year long gaza war" is in no way comparable to the holocaust (referencing that poll I made where I was just listing historical oppressive atrocities) and saying that it is or calling it a genocide at all is "wildly antisemitic."

if they had looked at who they were messaging for 2 more seconds they would've seen I'm literally choctaw by heritage and they look fucking stupid saying that shit to me. don't tell me what I can and can't call a genocide i'm literally native! I know what a genocide looks like. the nakba and the trail of tears are very similar!! and I've seen those fucking fliers to sell palestinian and lebanese land to settlers for cheap!! really reminds me of something!! anyway. they looked stupid and I know it was not a good faith critique!!!