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CRYING IT'S THEM
they're so normal actually. just three guys that fucking hate each other
Yeah this is their dynamic.
Make no mistake Killer and Marigold hate each other but they can join forces and mutually hate on the same bitch sometimes
#blaise reblogs#bitterverse#common gen w#marigold IS justified i fear#you cannot change my mind#they are the beloved and they are correct 100% of the time#let them be a little violent#they're going thru it so it's okay
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on masks
so shockingly miracle mask has huge mask theming in like every aspect. basically every significant character is 'wearing' a mask literally or metaphorically, except for luke who remarks in ludmilla's costume shop that he doesn't think any of the masks suit him (since the events of the previous game luke can be authentically himself now.) this is fun to notice on its own, but there's more to be discussed than just the presence of masks.
every mask in miracle mask backfires on its wearer to some degree! the most obvious case of this is descole and the masked gentleman straight up underestimating their own mask/s and failing to see their plans to the end, and the resulting consequences. dalston and henry's masks of stoicism turn out to have kept them from years of friendship they could have enjoyed, and paint them both as suspects in the masked gentleman case. angela's aloof facade and distance from everyone around her allows her to be kidnapped for a significant portion of the game without anyone but the professor noticing (and even then, he notices that something's up with her, but chalks it up initially as not knowing her anymore). less obviously, emmy's mask only means she'll end up hurting the people she has come to care for even more when the time comes.
most interesting to me, though, is hershel! even as a teen he's remarkably reserved, though clearly passionate. he keeps himself very controlled, and seems to care very much about coming across to others as helpful, grounded, and 'normal'. the interests that we know he has he keeps locked up, literally hidden away in cupboards, not to be acknowledged aloud to himself or others. he never gets angry or ever really displays any stereotypical teen behaviours apart from awkwardness.
now what this means is he is treated as the reliable one who will nonetheless go along with whatever randall wants him to do. he's never particularly assertive (something he will learn to be as an adult) so his willingness is taken for granted. he's put in mortal danger in akbadain because it never occurs to randall that hershel's protests are anything more than for appearance's sake.
and when randall falls and hershel is alone, he yells! he falls to his knees, completely overcome. he cries. he pushes through. and when he reaches angela and henry, alone, covered in dirt, looking completely haunted... they don't even ask him if he's okay. angela bodily shakes him. in the past and present, nobody treats hershel as if he's been through something traumatic - to everyone else, he was either a bystander to or complicit in randall's death, but controlled, mild-mannered and rational hershel is never considered a victim in his own right even after years have passed for everyone to think on it. years after the fact angela apologises to hershel... when she realises she needs his help. and henry immediately accuses him of betraying randall's memory and abandoning him.
and to be clear this isn't me saying oh they're evil or whatever but it's significant that they acknowledge how the trauma affected them and their behaviour from that point forward but it doesn't occur to them that hershel's behaviour and life trajectory was also altered forever! because hershel has for his whole life masked so well that to everyone else he does not have an interior life that isn't puzzle solving.
and the absolute funniest thing about it is that when hershel confesses this all to emmy and luke.... it's immediately back to the investigation, "where do we go now professor!" i'm sure there's no reason to ask if hershel's okay, he's probably unaffected by all that, let's go! readers i laughed out loud. tfw you mask so well everyone forgets you're a person
#take this with a grain of salt since i just finished akbadain got thru all that and then saw luke go okay anyway!#genuinely laughed aloud like damn. we're just gonna move right on past that huh#scribbled this down and am now going back to gaming#wait fuck i hope i don't have the morning shift#thank god i have the late shift okay back to gaming#professor layton#meta#hershel layton#and again this is not any character neg it's just really funny that they're like yeah that whole thing affected me so bad i founded a city#not hershel though i think he's totally fine#miracle mask
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how grateful i am, to be able to call you mine
#my art#twisted wonderland#riddle rosehearts#ace trappola#ridoace#acerido#twas fun rendering practice.. thank u riddle for being my silly little experiment w the skin rendering and everything#still so proud of riddle's expression he's sooo in love!! with ace!! they're such babey i love them#for such a silly confident dude ace gets embarrassed so easily#but doctor prescribed me ridoace for my crippling loneliness </3#when mourning the friendships that could've been just draw ur fave blorbos#sorry guys im kinda going thru it lmao. but ridoace always makes me feel better so it's okay
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i'm gonna be honest i'm doing pretty bad rn. i'll live but somethings gonna snap sooner or later
#germ and disease paranoia mixed with emetophobia mixed with the state of the world#mixed with feeling bad abt feeling bad bc EVERYONE is living thru most of this stuff and is doing fine. they've got jobs and lives and stuff#meanwhile i'm holding on by a thread here.#snapping could be as small as shaving my head or as big as running thru the streets naked screaming i'm not entirely sure#another level of fear for me. what do i do at my breaking point. i've never been there before#but i'm walking on a tightrope rn#it just feels like i get like 5 days out of every month we're everything is okay. and the rest of it is just bad and fear#and i'm expected to use those 5 days to be productive but i have to use it to recharge#and it isn't even enough days to do that#i'm just tired in my head. the last time i wasn't was 5 years ago and that's hitting really hard#and that's an example of what i'm talking about! everyone lived thru covid and they're LIVING THEIR LIVES NOW. i should be able to too#i have no room to complain so many have it so much worse than me#i can't keep having breakdowns in bed at 2 in the morning. it's been on and off for 5 years#when are things gonna be ok again. get good without something else getting worse.#is it ever gonna be that way again? can it please be that way again?#i miss being 10 i miss my old house i miss my hometown i miss when things were simple#i had all these things to do i had friends and was every teachers favorite student and everything felt like it was gonna be alright#now it feels like nothings ever just gonna be ok. i think everything gonna just be wrong forever#i'm gonna go take a shower and try to clear my head i'll be back later#sassy speaks
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Hi ! It's the anon who asked about the duo stimboard, just wanna say it's alright !! The way I typed that ask does seem confusing anyway, oops, sorry about that !
Anyway can I get a duo stimboard for Plasma B Cell and Memory B Cell from Cells at Work! with themes of books/ library, microbes, and maybe general blue and purple theme? Sorry if it's too much (or too little ) and thanks !
Plasma B Cell & Memory B cell stimboard for anon!
reblogs>>>likes
#🦴 they're all just jealous of how pretty i am ♡ stimboard#too tired to tag#also sorry requests are taking so long everyone#we're going thru a lot of mental changes (?)#we're also spending like 10hrs a day playing regretevator#autismcore#lolz okay we're done ranting in tags
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had to go to mexico today (Tj) and this is the cool stuff i saw\happened:
the little ceasers there has a drive thru. american innovation ur nothing.
ordered a frappe fm a coffee shop and it was for real loaded with coffee. i have never had anything so strong. they are holding back the caffeine intake in america. it must be stopped.
i think the barista loaded it the frappe on purpose bc i paid in dollars and she had to do the peso to dollar and vice versa calculation. and i was flustered when i ordered. im sorry.
the caffeine crash wasn't fun : (
the mcdonald's had an ad saying they were selling espressos now. american fast food ur nothing.
we got detained and sent to a secondary location for inspection and it was 'so random'.
has never happened to us. did not enjoy it. was absolutely premeditated.
i hope that white man gets ran over and anyone who chooses to work for border patrol dies <3
#like is gonna help u get a promotion to being an even bigger pig?#they had us get out of the car so they could inspect it#told us to leave everything in it#but then in the same breathe told my mother 'oh we dont want anything in ur bag'#but still had to keep all bags inside#and then in then they were like 'we need ur dad's documents'#okay well they're inside the car u dipshit#so i had to go and get it for them#mind you both parents have renewed documents meanwhile im the one with the expired passport#also before anyone adds--yes there are pizza huts with drive thrus but not little caesars--who btw gets more business than the hut
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i dont wanna be a dick and act like i have no responsibility in this but after a point dont u think if all you ever say to ur friend is Omg you never make it out why dont you ever come out with us you bail all the time youre such a flake etc. dont u think that person (me) is like. not gonna feel so inclined to. be there
#like. yeah i was bad last semester i get it. and probably i shouldve tried at least once or twice to push thru#but i was so exhausted. and every time they would bring up hanging out it was on my longest days#and when i casually brought this up they were just like Well we have long days too. Okay!#and i love and miss these friends and i know for the most part. or at least think. theyre just teasing#i hate being seen as the flake like any time i do have to be like Oh i cant make that or Shit im sorry i have to bail#i try to offer an alternative???? and they never compromise on that. how is that fair like im not just outright rejecting u all the time#not to mention most of the time last semester it was always gonna be somewhere super easy for them to get home and far from me#im not like constantly holding this against them btw but i feel like they're holding it against me and i dont have any more apologies in me#anyway. that said. if theyre somewhere really expensive and far from me tn and i get out of work early#i. probably will not make it. lol! if theyd be willing to come a little closer to my place to one of the dives or some shit thatd be great#and like im not doing much today until class and work so really like. i WILL try. but i think they could sometimes not go for the most#expensive and inconvenient option as well. and these r all things ill say if it becomes like a problem problem or smth#but rn im not gonna be a dickhead and shit on their plans#but also! ok whatever im not gonna keep going on i just feel shitty im not 100% better from being sick and im just frustrated#about having to fuckign grovel over and over and over. i meant it the first few times now im just like#u could try not to be an asshole to me for five seconds too. like. i am very clearly not someone trying to secretly stop being friends#w yall. things happen#abby talks#and maybe this is an esp sore spot bc like ive certainly had some of you bail on me or be flaky or whatever before. and i didnt throw#a fucking fit to your face about it. probably bc it actually did feel more mean spirited sometimes#OK im sorry im not trying to make my friends sound evil and its mostly just the one and like im working on forgiving her for it cause it#was years ago but also like christ!
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it would feel so nice to work towards a career that has meaningful impact and makes millions of people happy
#i follow this person cleo abrams on youtube and she's always talking so excitedly about scientists#and their amazing discoveries cool facts and she's so excited and starry eyed and hopeful#she genuinely just wants to educate people and has so much hope that we can make the world a better place#also like idk maybe unrelated but i saw the mv of new romantics and just. wow#say what you will about her but there's no doubt she's made an insane number of people happy SO HAPPY that they're crying#so many tours#idk i want#i wish my life was bigger#i feel so isolated and always just focusing on myself my career my health my enjoyment#what about everything everyone else#i keep trying to be completely okay with being alone i keep telling myself to not need anyone and be 100% independent#find happiness within hobbies interests#but it feels like a losing battle#i don't know i just. miss everyone 😭😭😭😭#but it hurts too much tbh always more sad than happy always more crying than laughing#i miss my bestfriend i don't know what i did wrong but she won't pick up my call she keeps saying she's busy#i don't want to be clingy because she hates that shit i don't want to drive her away but she's my only friend#i miss my fucking mom she doesn't care if i live or die obviously but i miss just having her presence in the house#and even tho my sister is here she's never fully present always on her laptop working#i wouldn't really say i miss my dad but wow it's been so long since mom and dad stayed together at home it was almost#always miserable but sometimes at the lunch table it was nice#i don't know everything and everyone is moving and changing so fast and i can't breathe under it and it's already september#but this entire year felt like a blur it's like everyone who left took a chunk of my heart with them#and i should be happy because im so close to the exam which will get me out of this house finally be financially independent#like i wanted since i was 11 i could finally start my life#but it all feels so. i don't know the whole future seems black like i can't imagine life past november 2025#how do you imagine happiness if you've never been happy?#and all these feelings are making it so hard to study and studying is so fucking important because if i don't ill be stuck here forever#and i don't want to go thru attempts fail and pass again atleast back then i had a reason first heartbreak‚ not getting to go to college#but what now why now i don't even understand i know objectively i do not have it that bad it's literally better even if i compare to my own
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I've been watching/reading Death Note every once in a while for the last couple of months and this is the funniest most unserious serious anime ever.
#mani.txt#death note#i'm gonna take a chip... and EAT IT !!!!#it's so funny. i hate this show. < is obsessed#i dont often watch anime so i forget how campy it can get but oh my god#i'm still recovering after ep 16 & 17. that spun me. shook me to my core. i went a bit insane. like how. why. HOW.#how did all the charas go back to normal after that. this is not plot armor this is trauma armor.#how is misa okay.#How is light's rship w his dad unaffected.#how was there only ONE fist fight over this. and a WHILE after the fact. what. am I just weird for thinking this. i feel crayzoi.#i genuinely can't explain how much i want to throttle each and every one of these characters.#save for ryuk n rem n sayu n naomi. they're amazing wonderful fantastic#and light. but i need to throttle him too.#when i tell you naomi should've lived......... when i tell you she should've been L's friend......... [takes damage takes damage takes da ]#also. i love how neither L nor Light know how to be normal. ever. insane4insane. (doesnt even ship them)#+ after reading thru the manga i'm a 'the only person Light truly cares for is Sayu' truther. this will never change.#in conclusion: this show says so little about criminal justice and so much about the adverse effect of being the son of a cop.#it's a product of it's time. whatever. (death gripping my chair)
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#when im extra depressed i watch old yt compilations#this week is critical role moments#and ugh. Ugh#i always forget how mf touch-starved and affection-starved i am until i watch those 8 interact w each other#like. always touching. so much touching#i havent had a cuddly / touchy friend in like 6+ years and i am Suffering for it#like as much as w any other people im v touch-averse and dont want that at all#when it comes to friends i am extremely pro touch and genuinely love being affectionate#and i Can't#and sometimes that sucks ngl#no shade to my friends who aren't comf w that obviously#that's 100% gr8 and i would never push or wanna make them uncomf lots of ppl dont like that#i just. used to always have at least 1 friend who /was/ okay with it that i could be as cuddly as i wanted with#and now i dont and it ??? is getting to a point where it is almost painful#like str8 up i've had to talk to my therapist abt this the last 6 months bc its becoming a bit dire#hugs r wonderful dont get me wrong but thats the max amount of touch for my ok-with-touch friends#and the rest r no-touch#whereas im sitting here like 😭😭😭 PLS I JUST WANNA HOLD SOMEONE'S HAND#OR LEAN MY HEAD ON SOMEONE'S SHOULDER OR HAVE AN ARM AROUND A WAIST OR A HEAD IN A LAP#OR STR8 UP SNUGGLIN ON A COUCH#I DESPERATELY NEED IT#ANY OF IT IT DOESNT NEED TO BE ALL OF THAT#I FEEL LIKE I AM SHRIVELLING UP LIKE A SENTIENT RAISIN INSIDE#JUST HAVIN ALL THE LIFE SUCKED OUT OF ME THRU LACK OF TOUCH#I WANT SOMEONE TO RUFFLE MY HAIR OR PAT MY ARM OR KISS MY CHEEK#HELL I'LL TAKE A HAND ON MY BACK PURELY FOR THE PURPOSE OF STOPPING ME FROM WALKING INTO TRAFFIC#WHICH AT THIS POINT I AM TEMPTED TO DO DUE TO EMOTIONAL DISTRESS LMAO (DEVASTATED LAUGHTER)#aiyaiyai and i cant even just go and Make New Friends bc most spaces to do that arent accessible or safe for me#the only friends i've made in the last few years r thru Mutual Autism Vibes~ and they're all anti-touch#WHERE R THE OTHER TOUCH-STARVED CUDDLY AUTISTICS AT ??? WHERE R U ??? COME FIND ME PLS I BEG !!! i feel like im gonna die fr
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pinning to the workshop corkboard: you've heard of winston "i'm cassandra" billions clairvoyance concepts for fun & profit, hear also of winston billions sphinx concepts (you must be This understanding of what he means to proceed)
#not a brand new one but the other day i was like have i ever put that to words & post? then i saw two unrelated sphinxposting reminders#winston billions#the riddlerrr sphinx also like yeah yeah winged lion form. kind of a hassle but optional perhaps still b/c yeah that's fun#did have the thought ''what if his pet cat is also secretly what has the winged lion that kills you form lol''#also the thought that whatever Gate / Boundary / [cannot proceed] happens could be Varied as well as Involuntary#would add to the like episodic type possibilities like oops how do we get past this? what's the issue? even winston may not know#meanwhile like Deliberate Obfuscation would only go so far re: the metaphor here being relevant to winston the autistic person#he Has to be understood; on his terms. you gotta work to & actually figure out what he is conveying to you#i suppose also ''or die'' is an option here lol. nightmare scenario for everyone who'd rather steamroll him forever to be sure; but#[you just Can't proceed] applied less lethally than that still affords plenty of You Have To Understand What He Means possibilities#see also: [rian as basically an oc based mostly on pre production hiatus funny little guy status] translating what he means....#just Not Really A Problem shrugmoji (audhd solidarity (rian 5x05 thru 07 oc continues))#yet would hardly imply taylor is a party who wouldn't also usually understand winston easily & accurately (not like 5x07 does either)#plus then complications like do ppl twist Understanders' arms for cheat codes sometimes. try to posit them as hypotheticals lol#in this world where sometimes a coworker is a sphinx or is; in tandem with his cat? well sometimes they're autistic. nonbinary#genderfluid. wear glasses. just another day at the encouragement to crush coworkers factory#anyway something where if i had a zillion detailed thoughts on this it might be other than a brief nocturnal text post but#see also: who says solving a riddle can't be a conversation / the riddlerrr is also trying to figure it out.#like sure i guess i can give clues & hints but i'm not even sure they're useful / not sure what i'm clueing you in to either#clue....like minotaurs out here (clew like the thread/yarn. like is used to find your way through / out of a labyrinth)#anyway e.g. like oh you can't do [xyz] in whatever thwarted way? how can Figuring Out Smthing W/Winston help? maybe he doesn't know either#maybe his cat has materialized huge & Theoretically lethal to thwart smthing. maybe regular size & just swatting at you. who can say#maybe winston is like hm i see that i can fly or kill you more than usual. who else can say. &c. imagine#meanwhile tfw ''okay i genuinely get what you mean'' doesn't guarantee then like. proceeding w/any basic respect beyond that lol#but already more leverage / more effort in that by far & perhaps that ability to just shut ppl out of plenty of [access / do whatever]#when indeed even that leverage had / effort given is considered Too Much#can only be guaranteed basic respect in the winston billions guaranteed basic respect au
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Huh, wild speculation time, but am now thinking Li Tianxi was in some way responsible for how the situation with Liu Lan and Li Fan turned out then Li Tianchen took Li Tianxi's powers and she was relieved because she could no longer mess things up again (and obviously was heavily traumatised) until she realised how far Li Tianchen had gone, but had no real way to stop him. (This does have some grounding in terms of the powers aspect but the parent thing is more vibes + crying/apologising Liu Lan + the fact we've still not seen the full death scene and how the knife got involved)
Red eyes says "I can't wait to take your power and experience it for myself" in s2e1 which sounds like something he has experience of. CXS picks up on this too so it's supposed to be something we as the audience consider.
In the dive with the twins CXS (who is in LTX for the dive) is shunted across to Liu Lan through a staticky signal before he's chucked out entirely. When we the audience last see the twins in the dive LTX is holding the photo and LTC is holding her but not touching the photo himself. In other words, the photo power is (at least initially) Li Tianxi's.
However, we have several instances where the red eyes possession can't have been using touch (Emma and Liu Min being the obvious ones here). And yet both Emma and Liu Min *spoke* despite us knowing full well that Tianxi is mute and the possessor's traits override the host. So Li Tianchen is definitely using the photo power to do this.
I suppose the main remaining question then is whether Tianchen permanently has her powers now or whether he's just able to use her powers using his own. Neither have particularly happy implications, but we know that touch-based possession basically knocks you unconscious for the duration which gives me even more questions around Chen Bin if Tianchen is using Tianxi's powers by touch possession. But at the same time, if Tianchen is able to take powers permanently then how come Cheng Xiaoshi's are still intact when they've been in contact with each other? Is some extra step needed?
Tldr; Tianxi initially had photo possession. Tianchen has touch-based possession and currently has access to photo possession, though it's unknown to what extent this is "his" power.
#I would've come to this conclusion so much sooner if I wasn't sus enough to consider mastermind tianxi bc can't trust anyone in this show#link click#link click spoilers#shiguang daili ren spoilers#I was sorta going along with tianchen being able to use tianxi's powers but thinking it through he could also them as his own now#also not mentioned here but how powers interact is very radio static at this point. lg+cxs synergise but what about ltx+ltc?#and ltx (or ltc touching ltx depending on how you interpret it) interfered with the lg+cxs connection during the ltx dive#I've seen it suggested ltc touching ltx is what causes the signal loss but they're touching later on and lg still gets through.#the difference btwn when signal gets thru or doesn't is that ltx is holding her hands together when lg is cut off. does it count as a clap?#okay okay this is my last post tonight fr. gotta sleep and will check out the new ep tomorrow evening o7
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BREAKING NEWS🚨🚨🚨🚨
I AM ALIVE!!!🥳🤩💃🏾💃🏾
#omg im so sorry for being offline for so long#i miss this website so much :((((((((#life was beating THE HELL OUT OF ME😮💨#okay so first i'll talk about some of my thoughts with football and what i missed and then updates about what's been going on with me#**i really wanted to come back online and let y'all know what's up but my sis's getting married this Sunday so i ill FULLY be back Monday#i just wanted to catch up on my notification but I'll go thru my inbox on Monday/Tuesday#okay FOOTBALL:#screw psg like sincerly#i cant believe theyre causing all this mess with him after he took his family on vacation😭#like the pics are SO CUTE??? how could you possibly punish him for that#also it speaks SO MUCH to his character that he FULLY recorded an apology vid like i thought he just released a typed statement#he really showing them so much more respect than they are treating him#im still salty about the lack of wc celebration....and fans booing him outside his house?? losers LOSERSSSS#i also think they're trying to act snobby about not extending him but with neymar most likely leaving they literally have too much to lose#also neymar expecting a child???? how did not know the girl he got pregnant?? so crazy SO crazy#anyways im also not optimistic about barca and messi....as much as they may talk the big variable here is La Liga allowing it to happen#they were the reason behind messi leaving and they're the only thing stopping him from coming back#as much as i dont BELIEVE messi would go to Saudi Arabia right now....i still really hate the rumours about Al-Hilal...like shut up please#if all else fails.....Pep por favor please just bring Messi to city...its not too late#he can be on the bench i don't even mind....i just HATE him at psg but i don't want him to leave Europe#In other news....Arsenal.....my heart hurts too much and I've expected that they wont be winning the league :'(((((#NOW about ME :))))#bad news first - DESPISE my job LIKE to the point where I'm crying almost daily about it but i cant quit. i jus want one summer to relax#good news: OFFICIALLY DONE MY UNDERGRADUATE DEGREEEEEEEE💃🏾😭🤧✨#THANK GOOODDDDDDDD ALHAMDULILAHHHHHHHHHH#SO DAMN HAPPY SO SO SO HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!#i also took my graduation pictures yesterday (thank you to the anons that told me i should get them done)#and i took the NEW ARGENTINA JERSEY WITH THE 3 STARS AND MESSI ON THE BACK AND POSED WITH IT😭😭🤣#im OBSESSED with the pic omg if i wasn't so paranoid about showing my face on this website i would've shared it#but yeah and my graduation is JUNE 9th!!! I AM SO EXCITED! Got a really pretty dress and it literally couldn't come soon enough :)
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( updates. )
i know this was like a really quick turnaround, but i think?? i'm mostly finished with renovating this blog ( i didn't end up changing the url just bc i think it still can work for the muses here...that and i can't really think of a good one at the moment, if i do though i might go back and change it then... ) - i still do need to update the bonds page on some of my muses though!!
but for the time being, aside from switching to a simpler theme ( and darker aesthetic ) here some overall changes i made to the roster:
rewrote & condensed my rules.
moved ga-ram, nell, & alfred over to to main muses status. will eventually make full profile pages for nell and alfred ( planned on doing that for a while anyways - this way, i feel like i have more permission to go ham with them ^^ ).
moved mana & aeri over to request muses. please note, i'm not dropping any threads or dynamics with them- this is just because they both don't have as many active dynamics and threads as the others do.
also moved raphael over to request muses- i was going to take him off, but i know there are still some ppl whom i'd like to throw him at. at this time all threads with raphael are dropped, however.
that's it for now bc i'm tired and i wanna do something else, but hopefully i can get to writing something maybe on sunday/monday, we shall see!!
#that would be truly wonderful ( ooc. )#( psa. )#alright i'm out!!#but yeah i know it's good to get rid of the old but.....couldn't do it to mana or ray :'D#mana at least well she went thru shit and came out okay#so she's pretty chill in comparison to the others....which is probably why it's harder to get her engaged#ray is in the same boat </3 he's just better at hiding and going thru things#so yeah :) they're request#meaning if you want to interact with them they need a plotted dynamic :D#instead of fall cleaning let's just call this....fall arranging :'D
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Can you belIEVE ME. ZIM(a trauma holder) would have a fucking trauma response(im a trauma holder)?! UNFATHOMABLE (i carry the majority of the bodily trauma including emotional shit).
#im an idiot#mitten in headspace meeting with my family at the cabin like muttering betweenst each other “im worried about zim”#“i knowww hes been in front for a WHILE this shit doesnt happen”#“its gonna be just like October” “i knowww something must be building” and i enter the apartment from taking the trash out.#so i feel like i have enough privacy to actually enter innerworld and ask hey wtf guys what#and they all look at me like hey buddy. wide eyes. “you okay?” like yeah what the fuck is going on???#and im like last time i fronted this long no one had any issues!! and they just kinda.“you know thats nOt true. there was so many”#and i just silence bc idk what to say bc they're right Nd im like. but im fine? isn't kiba the one???? and they're like yeah but. he direct#ly impacts u and everyone else bc were in 1 body and ur literally a trauma holder n u literally just described being triggered numbly#and im like psshhhhhh *goes and has a full body trauma meltdown shaking and hyperventilating and groaning incoherently bc it hurts and i can#t speak or breathe or think and they have to soothe me thru it* and then go back to what i was doing like huh. huh. hm. im. here for a purpo#im traumatized LMFAO and anyway im using this blog as it's supposed to finally#got a lottt done today im proud but goD my body did Not Like that#zims stink#actually plural#osdd#traumagenic#invader zim#fictive#vent#cptsd#trauma response
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#not that it's remotely the point at all#which is why i am not writing in the main body or tagging anything bc i don't want to distract from what actually matters#but everything with n13l ga1man and the reaction from GO fans...#i am seeing the same people that made post after post about how hp fans just needed to let it go and how continuing to interact with aspect#of the hp fandom was tantamount to transphobia by association and all hp fans were ignorant at best and evil 9/10 times#saying shit like separate the art from the artist just because he was a horrible person doesn't meant that we can't still love GO#and after all some of us are autistic and it's our special interest and it's helped us thru so much and we created so much community around#this we can't just let it go#like i don't necessarily disagree i think all those reasons for continuing to interact with GO are valid#like it personally PERSONALLY puts a really bad taste in my mouth now and i wouldn't want to financially support him#but i get it#but it's the hypocrisy Oh NOW you believe in separating the art from the artist Oh NOW it's complicated about people should stop bullying u#like is everything about feelings of personal moral superiority for you people???? as soon as the thing you like goes against the things yo#claim to stand for you fold entirely???#again i don't care that GO fans are still GO fans#my personal philosophy has always been that people find the level of envolvement they're comfortable with and have to live with the consequ#personally i won't be financially supporting GO or NG anymore just like i don't finacially support JKR#and i really do feel for the GO fans i don't think it's a simple or easy decision deciding how to react#but the HYPOCRISY god it's so annoying it does eat into my sympathy for them esp considering how much NG's victims like'#actually suffered#like my god#okay done
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