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philliam-writes · 1 year

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you are in the earth of me [02]

Pairing: Anthony Lockwood x fem!Reader

Content: canon-typical violene, patching up Reader, author pining for Lockwood

Summary: Your eyes pop open. Lockwood is standing at the bottom of the stairs, leaning against the banister with his arms crossed, an amused look on his face. All tousled dark hair and brown eyes as sharp as glass, he is as tall as Kipps, perhaps taller, and lankier. But their demeanours are quite different. Where Kipps is calm and steady like stone, reliable like the earth that is always solid under your feet, Lockwood seems striking like a flash of bright lightning—quick-witted and assured in the path he carves as though the mere thought of something standing in his way is so far-off that he just barrels ahead with no regard of what he sets ablaze.

Notes: [01] | [03]

Words: 7.3k

A/N: Nothing could have prepared me for the overwhelming positive feedback I got for chapter 01!! Thank you so much for everyone who's joined the ride. I hope you guys will enjoy this as much as I!! (I'm on my 4th rewarch of Lockwood & Co. and I still delight in noticing all the small details they put into the show. Also. Lockwood's voice! Makes! Me! Weak!

02: for whom the bell tolls

each man’s death diminishes me, for i am involved in mankind. therefore, send not to know for whom the bell tolls, it tolls for thee

— John Donne

The Rotwell dormitory you live in, nicknamed the Lions Den, is a stocky brick house taking up a good chunk of Dovehouse Street. There used to be a hotel there, way before the Problem, and then an apartment complex for the rich elderly until Rotwell bought the whole building and its private gardens just to prove they can. Echoing the classical Georgian townhouses of Chelsea built out of pale toast and earthy red shades of brick, every residence features timber-panelled walls, triple-glazed windows, and smoked oak floors throughout.

The front entrance has glass doors sliding open for anyone entering. Somehow, the foyer always smells like pine needle polisher. To the right side is a row of mail boxes with each tenant’s name, on the left side is the guard’s office, separated from the foyer by sleek glass panels. Someone decided to put a whole rainforest inside, monstera, rubber trees, philodendrons. They nearly swallow tonight’s agent covering the shift: a bulky, young girl with dark curls to her chin looking like a malformed porcelain doll—delicate features on top, sinewy muscle stretching the seams of her wine red agent jacket going down. She stares at you for a moment, blinking with her long black eyelashes.

You wave.

She doesn’t wave back, and returns to painting her nails a vibrant yellow you could pick out from space.

Inside your mail box, you find ads and unpaid bills, reminders to pay said bills, and a very unflattering drawing of you working out in the dormitory’s underground gym area. You crumble the note and throw it back inside, slamming the window shut.

Your two-room apartment lies at the end of a long corridor, facing the backside and gardens. It is a copy paste of all other living complexes inside this building: a small entrance leading into a spacious living area with a cream-coloured two-seater couch at its centre, a solid cherrywood desk next to the curtained window and a heavy antique armoire twice your size pushed against the wall. Behind an ornate cedar door is the small bedroom, king-sized bed and heavy bureau and all that makes it look more like a hotel room advert than a place where you could wind down after a hard day.

As always, you stand in the hallway for a moment before turning the lights on. It is quiet, the room smells of polished wood and washed laundry. As always, it feels as though the walls are closing in.

You flick the light on and stash your rapier inside the umbrella rack by the front door, ignoring the two trash bags waiting to be thrown out. The laundry has been hanging for three days, but there was just no time to clean it away because you’re barely here—every minute spend within these walls is taken up by sleeping, eating or occasionally staring bleary-eyed at the ceiling and counting the heavy thuds from above whenever the agent living in the upper apartment decides it is time to practice tango in high heels at three in the morning.

You cross the room and open the window, letting in the cool night breeze. The smell of dawn hangs in the air, crispy and cold like the crackling of dry leaves. It will take only a few more hours for the sun to rise and draw London’s people from their homes to go about their daily lives. Jobs, grocery runs, late afternoon dates, strolls through the parks. When the world wakes up, you turn in to sleep, bloody, beaten and bruised, but alive.

You wonder if every day will be like this. Fight against the Problem and only chip away at the immeasurable scale of its extent. This night, you have secured two Sources, stopped two hauntings. But how does this affect the grand scheme of things?

Your head hurts. Best to leave the existential crisis for another day; right now all you need is your soft pillow and the familiar smell of your lavender-detergent. The Problem will still be there once you wake up; it will not ruin those precious hours asleep where you don’t have to worry about anything.

Every apartment has a tiny kitchen and bath adjacent to the living area. A cup of tea before you turn in, and maybe one or two of those chocolate chip biscuit a client gave you last week in appreciation for driving off the Lurker in her basement.

The kitchen looks just like you left it: as though a salt bomb has gone off. There was no time to put away the dishes or give the pan a quick scrub before you left for your shift, and now the leftover burnt bits stick to the dark surface. The half-full cup of coffee has grown cold since the morning, left forgotten. You’re too tired to clean up. It’ll have to wait until you wake up, or maybe even after the next shift.

You consider throwing your head back and screaming for a second when all of a sudden an intense hate for this apartment geysers up and threatens to swallow you. It is tiny, suffocating. There is nothing personal about this—you could disappear from the world and it would just become someone else’s responsibility and property. Nothing would indicate that you left a mark in this place.

Putting the kettle on the stove, you pick out your favourite mug with a broken handle—Kipps’s fault when he knocked it off the table a couple months back—and return to the living room. Your coat smells of burnt fabric from ectoplasm. The agency is very strict when it comes to appearance and representing Rotwell's splendid work ethic, so replacing it will put another dent in your account, but that is still better than going through the same trouble as last month when you appeared with a chocolate smudge on your jacket and every supervisor spotting you gave you hell for it.

Half-shrugged out of your coat, you walk back, past the closed window.

And stop.

Slowly, you turn. Only your own reflection stares back at you—wide-eyed and dishevelled from today. There’s a dark patch on your shoulder where ectoplasm has eaten like acid through the fabric of your coat. The lock is latched firmly on the inside, the metal clip winking at you under the Tiffany lamp’s reflection. Suddenly, everything depends on how still you are against the moving world.

Where did you leave your rapier? Ah, inside the umbrella rack back in the hallway. What’s the closest bludgeon weapon you can get your hands on? Only an empty Pringles can, yesterday’s dinner.

In the window’s reflection, the dark patch on your shoulder rises, distorts. Grows a head. Even with the room plunged into silence, your heart beats rabbit-fast and you hold your breath to keep from making a sound. Just this once, you’re thankful you were running late this morning and didn’t have time to clean up the leftover breakfast on your office desk that stands against the wall. Not even five steps separate you from the blunt silver knife glinting under the lamp with specks of dried jam on its blade.

The shadow behind you grows bulky shoulders and broad arms. When it steps onto the small area just a little to the right from the entrance, the wood creaks.

The world jerks back into motion.

You lunge for the knife on the table when a hard body slams into yours. You crash against the wardrobe, your head hitting the hard wood with a loud crack. The room spins as all air is knocked out of your lungs. You notice a blurry shadow rising in front of you, and your body moves on autopilot—rolls to the right and falls to the ground just in time to dodge a fist punching a hole into the wardrobe.

Nauseating headache throbs like lightning flashes in the back of your head as you scramble back to your feet, wheezing from the pain spreading through your body from the impact. Your rapier. You need your rapier.

Wood splinters when your attacker draws his hand back. He is almost two heads taller than you, completely clad in black. Even his face hides behind a ski mask. All you see are two pinpricks of unfathomably dark eyes as though this man has gazed into an abyss and the abyss has gazed right back at him.

He doesn’t move for a second, stands as though frozen on the spot. Only his hand flexes, relaxes. Clenches. Silver glints off his gloved knuckles. He is here with one intention only: to hurt you.

You don’t have time to ask why. His legs are longer; he closes the distance between you with two long steps, swings his arm towards your face. You spin and fling yourself over the backrest of the sofa, bounce off its cushions and jump to your feet on the other side. With furniture between you and the intruder, you finally force yourself to take in deep breaths. Think.

The smell coming off of him. You recognise it. Grainy, woody with a fruity note. The sweetness you picked up earlier this night must have been caramel. Alcohol.

“Look, if this is about me bumping into your table earlier at the Green Goose, you could just ask for a proper apology,” you press out between gritted teeth. Your whole body feels like a giant bruise, sore and laden from exhaustion.

Every step he takes around the couch, you mirror until it becomes a dance of bodies and mind to see who gives in first; who slows down and loses focus.

At first you believe the noise to be your frantic breathing—or his rattling wheeze, but then you pick it up. A rough, scratchy voice.

“Dickey … need … dickey …”

Your muscles are so taut you fear they might snap any second. Another circle around your couch you go. “What? I don’t—I don’t know what that is.”

“The … the key,” he repeats, louder this time. “I need the key.”

“Key? What key?” You feel the gnawing urge to squeeze your eyes shut against the vertigo of this situation. “I don’t have a key—”

The memory flies back so fast it nearly knocks you out like an incoming brick. Bronze, small, resting within the cushions of a small seal. Disappearing into the deep pockets of a black coat. The echo of death and violence still sticking to your fingers even through the fabric of your gloves.

You round the couch again and stop, the desk at your back. The knife is just in reach. “I don’t have that key.”

“I saw it. He gave it to you. You have no idea how important it is to us.” His voice rises to a snarl, the quality rougher than satin scratching over bark.

“He never gave—” Another memory hurtles your way—it is a wonder you don’t pass out from a concussion. The candy. It is still inside your pocket, suddenly heavier than a stone.

Everything makes sense now.

You take a step back towards the table. “You’ve got it all wrong,” you say, your words tumbling over themselves in their haste to get out, “I don’t have the key, and I don’t know where it is. I’ve got nothing to do with it.”

“LIES!” he hollers, and punches the backrest of your couch. The loud thud is like a gunshut, and you move, whirl around and grab for the knife—and completely misjudge where it is. Instead, your hand slaps on the dirty plate.

It could be worse.

Heavy steps thump behind you. You grab the plate, turn and hurl it at the man. It slams into him, shattering into thousand pieces.

You fly past him, towards the hallway and umbrella rack where your rapier is waiting. Stretching your hand out, your fingers brush against the silver handle—

A hard grip catches the end of your trenchcoat, yanking you back. The blow comes out of nowhere, slamming into your face so hard you see stars. Your back teeth clang together. Black dots dance before your eyes and blur your vision as pain radiates from your cheek. Something sharp and hard slides across your knees, slicing the fabric of your jeans clean in half.

Fingers curling, tightening their hold around the familiar hilt, you turn and draw back your arm, and let it snap forward like a snake lashing out and sinking its venomous teeth into its prey.

The silver-tipped edge of your rapier drives into the man’s shoulder and he cries out in pain, staggers back—and takes your rapier with him. He curls his gloved fingers around the thin blade and yanks the tip out of his shoulder, throwing your weapon to the ground where it lies useless and completely out of reach.

He reaches into a side pocket and draws a jagged, razor-sharp knife.

On second thought, maybe you should just run.

You bolt for the hallway once more, this time aiming straight for the door. The sound of a fast-moving object sailing towards you—something moving quickly and swiftly and with enough force to slice the air in half—makes you throw yourself forward, just in time to dodge the glinting edge nipping your hair.

You yank at the handle, letting white light spill into the apartment from the outside hallway.

Two thinks happen at once.

You wrench the door open and squeeze through the narrow gab. The man behind you slams bodily into the door and you hear a pained groan. At the same time, something sharp cuts through your trenchcoat and jacket. Searing-hot pain explodes in your left side.

You manage to push through and shut the door with a loud slam. A second bang shakes the door; he must have run into it again trying to chase after you.

Hot pain radiates from your side. You grit your teeth hard enough your jaw hurts and follow along the hallway all the way back to the foyer.

When you reach the night guard’s office, there is nobody inside. As if this night couldn’t turn even worse. A small glass bottle lies disturbed on the table, spreading yellow nail polish like spilt blood on its surface. The girl must have knocked it over, now gone to fetch a cleaner.

Great.

You throw yourself under the table and disappear from sight; somewhere on the first floor a door slams shut.

There has to be a way out. A way to draw attention; a way to drive him away. As your eyes rake across the room to find something, anything, they land on a red button behind a small glass window. The ghost-alarm in case of hauntings inside the dorms.

You crawl out from under the desk and scurry across the room, heart beating in your throat. If you turn and he is behind you …

Slamming your fist into the small panel, the button gives away without any resistance.

Sirens blare in the building. More doors slam—opening this time as hundred agents emerge from their rooms. Voices echo from the hallways, drowned by the sprinklers going off and raining salt from the ceiling like little diamonds.

You back into a corner, wide eyes staring at the foyer and counting down the seconds until your attacker enters—any moment, any moment, any moment. Only agents begin to spill into the hall, pale faced, groggy from being rudely awakened after tiring shifts.

With the imminent threat gone, the adrenaline pumping through your body slowly ebbs away—leaving behind bone-deep exhaustion, and mind-numbing pain as though your whole body is one giant bruise.

Your clothes stick to your skin, something warm tickles down your side. You cross the room on wobbling feet, forcing yourself not to look; convincing yourself that it is just coffee, just like a few hours ago when you sat in the booth next to Kipps.

The phone receiver on a corner stand is heavier than you remember. Your fingers move as if possessed, finding the familiar numbers on the dial. It rings. Once, twice.

Tears prick in the back of your eyes as it keeps ringing, your call remaining unanswered. Maybe he hasn’t come home yet. Maybe he is still out. Your throat is dry. You feel like an animal trapped against a corner. Suddenly, everything goes blurry.

Click. Kipps’s tired groan is all you get for a hello.

“Quill,” you choke out. Because despite having to call DEPRAC or maybe an ambulance, Quill Kipps will always be the first you turn to in moments of crisis. “Quill, I might have been stabbed.”

Silence. On the other line, you hear fabric rustling, as though he is crawling out of bed.

“What,” Kipps says, his voice rough from sleep, “the fuck.”

You still don’t know what is so special about the address Kipps has sent you to compared to the hospital or Scotland Yard where you assume they are more qualified to handle your dilemma, but you hope that you arrive soon because the daggers the cab driver keeps throwing at you seem more lethal than the gashing wound in your side.

When he finally stops the car—abruptly enough to launch your body against the frontseat—you rummage through your pockets and empty them completely, leaving a generous tip for bleeding on his car seats.

You barely manage to close the door behind you when he speeds off, leaving a dust trail behind.

The sky is turning cotton pink on the horizon. Dawn spreads light and hope across the city, bright and clear, and very painful for your strained, exhausted eyes. You turn away, taking in your surroundings.

The cab has left you in a residential area at the centre of London where the Victorian semis look like they might belong on old postcards from better times, before the Problem. 35 Portland Row is an inconspicuous, four-level house at the very end of the street. Just like its neighbours, it would not suffer from a new repaint, or maybe just a good clean-up.

A lone shadow sits by the stairs leading into the building, rising when you approach. Kipps looks like you feel: his hair sticks out in all directions and there are half-moons of shadow under his eyes, as if they have been smudged there with coal. He rubs the back of his neck as though that would release all the tension from the last twenty-four hours. Worry is etched deep into his face—worry and guilt, and it is an expression you haven’t seen in a long time. It makes your heart clench, turning it into something small, hard, and cold.

He meets you halfway and catches you when you stumble into him, allowing yourself to be held at last. His hold on you is strong and hard, until you hiss when sharp pain from your wound makes it hard to walk. Kipps’s hold lightens.

“What the hell happened?” he demands, his long fingers gently nudging your head left and right by your chin. You’re pretty sure there is a nasty bruise blooming from the punch.

“Turns out someone out there really wants that bloody key,” you say, unable to put quite the heat into the words like you wanted.

The effect is pretty much the same.

It is like a door slamming shut; his expression closes off completely. He puts your arm around his shoulders and hauls you up the stairs. To your surprise, the door is already unlocked and swings open when he pushes against it with his other shoulder.

You enter into a narrow, dark hallway, only illuminated by light streaming into it from an adjacent room. The house smells of iron and salt, leather coats, and a curious dusty, musty tang. On both sides of the walls hang weird masks and odd curios on shelves. Everything about this entrance screams extravagance, but also something inexplicably homely. The complete opposite from your apartment. Voices sound from the first door to your right, silencing upon the front door clicking shut behind you. Now everything is dead silent.

Kipps leads you past an old, chipped plant pot that functions as an umbrella stand and rapier holder. They are old French models with specks of ectoplasm stuck to blades, and dents in the hilts. One long, black umbrella is bent in the middle as though someone had used it as a weapon and didn’t get around to throw it away.

You emerge into a small, cluttered living area containing a fireplace, an old sofa and a few sturdy armchairs grouped around a coffee table. Heavy dark curtains obscure half of the window where the first streaks of sunlight steal through the gap, showing dust dance in the light.

Three heads swivel your way, all in different states of confusion. You recognise one face.

Anthony Lockwood jumps out of his armchair. It has only been a few hours since you last saw him, and so far he has only taken off his black coat. His white shirt is wrinkled, his black tie thrown over his shoulder. There is something restless about him, like a moth fluttering from flame to flame.

Kipps slides you into the free seat on the sofa right next to a giant pile of crumpled ironing. Shirts, pants, and briefs tumble to the ground as you finally allow yourself to slump into the seat and let your guard down.

The room tilts for a moment. You close your eyes, trying to comprehend today’s events. Multiple voices bombard you from all directions and turn into a pounding headache at the back of your skull.

A metal lid clicks open. Careful hands remove your coat, then lift your shirt where the blood has seeped into the fabric, making it stick to your gashed skin. When your eyes flutter open, Kipps kneels before you on the rug, a deep worry crease slicing through his forehead as he inspects your wound.

“Well, good news. It’s not that deep,” he observes. With swift fingers, calloused from handling rapier and tools, he takes the antiseptic and a clean wipe from the first-aid case—expert hands that are used to medical attention; that know the dance of patching up wounds and tending to injuries. You doubt it is something any agent will forget, even when they have served their duty.

When he applies the disinfect after cleaning the blood, you hiss; your body tenses from the pain. “Cool. I’ll thank him next time I see him,” you say through gritted teeth.

Kipps gives you a curt, quick look—but there is still some relief; relief that even now you can be snippy.

“Did you see his face? What did he look like?” Loockwood asks. He’s leaning over the back of the couch, hand holding onto the backrest hard enough his knuckles turn white.

“I don’t know, I was busy trying not go get turned into a shish kebab.” You kick at Kipps when he dabs the gauze a little too hard into your wound.

“Stop moving,” he warns.

“That didn’t work out much,” a girl’s voice notices drily.

You open your eyes. Behind Lockwood’s shoulder, two agents stare at you, blinking their wide eyes like owls.

The boy’s nose twitches. “She bled on the new rug, Lockwood.”

You feel like an exhibit in a museum. Lucy Carlyle and George Karim. Names only familiar to you because you can’t remember a day where Kipps has not complained about them as much as about Lockwood.

“Yeah, why exactly—am I here?” You shift in the seat. Something is poking you in the back. When you pat the cushion, you find an old, dry biscuit.

Behind Lockwood, Lucy gives George a long, pointed look. Seems like this isn’t the first time they witness someone finding leftover snacks in the crevices of their couch.

“You said he was looking for the key?” Kipps is applying gauze to your clean wound which makes everything just a little better; you begin to feel like a human again. Now all you need is a good, healthy amount of sleep. Preferable for the next three days.

“He thought I had it on me. Said something about … how important it was to them.”

Lockwood perks up. “Who is them?”

“Well, he didn’t give me a list or anything.” You pull out some stray socks from under your bum and let them join their siblings on the ground. Slumping into your seat, you notice it is quite comfortable. You’re sinking into the cushions and there is something calming about the smell of old wood and the heavy curtain’s detergent. “But he was desperate. It seemed like … I don’t know. He’ll be in serious trouble without it.”

“Well, good thing it’s with DEPRAC now,” Kipps says, settling back on his heels after he finishes bandaging you up. The silence hanging in the room is stifling. Kipps looks over the backrest of the sofa at Lockwood. “You did bring it to DEPRAC like we agreed to. Right, Lockwood?”

Slowly, Lockwood leans away from the sofa as though that is the only appropriate measure to take in case Kipps decides to hurl himself over the sofa and strangle him. He has the good manners to look almost contrite. “I might have missed out on the chance to deliver it to Inspector Barnes,” he says slowly. His face is calm and betrays nothing, like the blank statue of a saint in a cathedral.

Kipps is on his feet in an instant. Red patches of rage have broken out over his face and throat. “You lying, conniving piece of—”

Lockwood claps his hands loudly. “This just proves that we cannot let anyone except professionals handle this case. Least of all DEPRAC. Someone’s after it because they know whatever that key unlocks is important.”

“Or he was the Visitor’s killer and he knows it could be evidence,” George points out. “Like Annabelle Ward and Fairfa—”

Lucy slaps her hand over her coworker’s mouth. Her wide eyes stare at him, then pin you down. George blinks, then nods slowly.

You raise your hand. “You know, being the one who got stabbed over this, I veto you let the adults handle it.”

Lockwood gives you a dazzling smile. “Overruled.”

“Let’s sleep on it first,” Lucy says, rubbing the exhaustion from her eyes with her sleeve. “We’ll decide what to do next when we wake up. And yes, leaving it with DEPRAC is still an option.” She looks over at Lockwood, her eyebrows raised. You can’t think of many who manages to make a proposition sound like a threat.

“First reasonable thing I hear any of you say today,” Kipps scoffs. There is still anger in his voice, but you don’t think it is directed at anyone specific this time. This anger smells of frustration. It stems from knowing days like these are in the fine print of becoming an agent. The danger from having to deal with the living from time to time, which can be so much more dangerous than the dead. He turns to you. “Let me drop you off at a hotel.”

“I—” You don’t want to be alone, not after tonight. But Kipps also lives in the Fittes dormitories and they are mercilessly strict when it comes to non-employed visitors, despite being a senior supervisor like Kipps who enjoys some privileges.

“We must assume whoever attacked you might be out there still tracking you,” Lockwood says, and leans forward to settle his elbows against the backrest. His white shit stretches taut over his shoulders and back, catches over his spine. He lowers his dark eyes to you, within which swims a quiet, but solid confidence as though he has never faced a situation he couldn’t handle. It makes you want to rely on him, a thought you quickly push away the moment it steps into your mind. “We have a spare couch in the library you can crash on until morning—” He glances over his shoulder towards the window where sunlight peaks through the heavy curtains. An almost coy smile captures his lips, showing the hint of a dimple. “Until we wake up.”

You raise both eyebrows. “I can?”

Both Lucy and George give Lockwood the sideye. “She can?”

Lockwood frowns. “Unless you have somewhere else to go?”

“A couch sounds perfect.” You are tired enough you wouldn’t mind sleeping on the floor. You throw Kipps a quick look. He doesn’t look happy, but even he realises this is better than leaving you all by yourself.

With nobody objecting, George heaves a defeated sigh. “Let me go and pick up the empty chips bags,” he says, and shuffles out of the room. You hear wood creak when he stalks down the hallway.

When you tear your eyes away from where he left through the door, you notice Lucy keeps staring at you with an odd look you can’t place. As though she doesn’t really know what to think of you and why you are suddenly here, only 'here' doesn't seem to apply to the living room of her home. It feels like she doesn't seem to know why you have suddenly stepped into her life. She manoeuvres around Lockwood, painstakingly making sure there’s furniture between you and her.

Kipps is by your side helping you up. He follows Lockwood's directions through the entrance hall. You pass the stairs to the end of the hallway where George is carrying an armful of empty bottles and plastic bags out of what you assume must be the library.

It is a small, oak-panelled room across the hall from the lounge. No light sneaks inside with the heavy curtains shrouding the windows. Up to the ceilings, hardback volumes are crammed into black, heavy shelves that line all four walls. It smells of books and ink and printed paper, making you immediately feel at ease under the dim, warm light of an old standard lamp tucked into a corner.

Kipps makes sure you’re comfortable on the leather couch, throwing a worn, chequered wool blanket over your legs. He looks at you for a long moment. Then he seems to crumple inside, like paper; he sinks down in the leather chair opposite you, and puts his face into his hands. “I should have just told Lockwood No when he asked for someone with Touch. I never wanted you to get involved like this.”

“It’s a little too late for that now, isn’t it?” you state, but there is no malice or accusation in your voice. You are too tired for that.

Still, Kipps makes a sound like a kicked puppy. When you look over at him, you see him pale and slumped down, like someone who’s taken so many blows that the doesn’t want to stand anymore.

Your grab for his hand and squeeze until he returns your gaze. His pale green eyes look haunted. “I don’t think this is anyone’s fault,” you say. “Least of all yours.”

Kipps purses his lips. You squeeze his hand tighter.

“Maybe,” he allows. He scrubs at his face, eyes flitting over the hardcover books surrounding him. You grow drowsy with every steady ticking of an ornate mantel clock above the fireplace. To your side is a small, mahogany Victorian pedestal table with a leftover cup next to a stack of London Society magazines. “Or maybe I should have been more careful,” he continues. “Be more careful. So this doesn’t happen again.”

The fog of sleep that almost takes you is cleanly cut by his words. You blink against the dizzy feeling that tries to pull you under; dragging you down like wet clothes when you swim. You let go of his hand and sit up. “You are not responsible for me,” you say, unable to keep the heat out of your voice now. It comes back full force, scathing and blazing. “I can look after myself perfectly fine, and I would not have you waste your life away because you think you are obliged to protect me.”

“You could barely fend off that attacker by yourself,” he shoots back—his voice strains to remain diplomatic, calm, but this is Quill Kipps, and he has never been capable of putting the lid on the smouldering fire when it comes to your safety. “I made a promise and I mean to keep it until you’re retired and old and stop getting into danger—”

The rage that always lives inside you rears when he says that ugly word—promise. It is an almost physical pain, like nails against flesh.

“You are not my brother,” you snap. “And I don’t want you to be!”

All colour drains from Kipps’s face, then comes back in a rush of angry red as he tries to keep his anger under control. You know a lot about rage. How hard it could be to rein it in without a lifetime of practice. How it could eat you up inside.

He stands, slowly, calmly—and that is so much worse than when he explodes. This is him in his upset mood that you call ‘scary-calm.’ It is a calm that makes you think of the deceptive hard sheen of ice before it cracks under your weight.

“Quill—” you begin, but he is already moving towards the door.

“If I were Matthew,” he says at the threshold, not looking at you, “I would actually be able to protect you.”

It is a blow not meant to be a blow, and yet it drives through your chest like a poison-tipped spear. It stirs up age-old dust from a past you try to bury so hard that now you choke on it.

Matthew. Mat. Mat is gone because of you. And now Quill leaves you too.

You jump to your feet, ignoring the piercing pain in your side and stumble after him. Kipps disappears down the hall, then you hear the front door open, and slam shut.

You close your eyes and bang your head silently against the doorframe. Beneath your gloves your palms are slick with sweat and your fingers shaking. All day you felt like walking on a tightrope, and now a single misplaced step sends you plunging. You have never felt this alone before.

“Do you do that because you enjoy it, or because it feels good when you stop?” says a drawling voice from the corridor outside.

Your eyes pop open. Lockwood is standing at the bottom of the stairs, leaning against the banister with his arms crossed, an amused look on his face. All tousled dark hair and brown eyes as sharp as glass, he is as tall as Kipps, perhaps taller, and lankier. But their presences are quite different. Where Kipps is calm and steady like stone, reliable like the earth that is always solid under your feet, Lockwood seems bright like a flash of lightning—quick-witted, assured in the path he carves as though the mere thought of something standing in his way is so far-off, he just barrels ahead with no regard of what he sets ablaze.

Any retort dies on your lips when he throws something your away, and you catch the first object mid-air, pulling a face when your wound protests. It is cold and heavy—a pack of ice cubes wrapped in a towel. The second thing hits you in the shoulder and clatters to the ground. A package of painkillers. If you would look up the word Oops in the dictionary, you’ll find a picture of Lockwood’s current expression.

You bring the ice pack up and press it against your cheek. “Thanks.”

Lockwood gives a crooked smile. “Plenty of time to figure everything out later. If you need anything, our rooms are just another floor up.”

Your mouth is dry. He isn’t nice because he wants to; he too does it out of an obligation. “OK. Thanks.”

He crams his hands into his pockets, eyes raking from your feet up to your face. It seems as though there is something else Lockwood wants to say, but he decides otherwise and ends up simply nodding before he ducks back towards the kitchen where you can hear the hushed, urgent voices of Lucy and George.

You retreat into the library and shut the door gently. Only the clock’s ticking fills the room now, so loud it is almost grating against your ears. You tug your gloves off gingerly and place them next to the magazines. The skin on your knuckles and the back of your hand is dry like sandpaper. Later this evening, you have to make sure to get your hand lotion.

Ignoring the unpleasant feeling, you lie down and shimmy under the blanket. You tug your hands close to your chest where there is no danger to accidentally touching anything—you know there is no threat from objects belonging to the living, but after almost a decade of experiencing death echoes ranging from mild joy to severe depression, it is soothing to know that the gloves conjure a sense of separation, of safety. Without them, you feel naked and vulnerable.

Just a few hours of sleep. Then you’ll figure out what to do. Maybe you can pretend the whole day didn’t happen—run a few jobs, clean up your room after the attack. Return to normalcy. Return to your day-to-day life before you got roped into Lockwood & Co.’s business and their wayward modus operandi.

You close your eyes and pretend you don’t feel strangely safe listening to the muffled voices coming from the other room.

Something has taken a hold of your legs.

Your stomach roils with panic as you thrash against its grasp, smelling damp soil and rotten leaves—someone is trying to put you under the ground, bury you alive in unholy ground where all hope and virtue is lost, just like—

You jerk free—

—and fall.

The floor is hard and unyielding, slamming you awake on impact. The pain follows right after, radiating from your side to the rest of your body. Groaning, you try to turn to your other side, but with your legs still half-entangled in the blanket, you don’t make it far.

There was a dream. At least you think there was a dream. You can’t remember much, only the smell of rotten soil and copper.

From under the closed door, you see a slim sliver of late afternoon sun peak into the dark room. You lie very still for a moment, even though your back and neck hurt from being curled up on the small couch all night. It is not the foreign place that startles you, but the noises that belong to a lively home: cabinets open and close. Dishes clatter. Water boils. Voices drift through the walls, muffled but heartily warm and bright. It smells of heated butter, herbal tea, and something burnt.

A home. This is a home where people come to wind down after work, to be vulnerable, to pick up the broken pieces after a case.

For just a minute, you close your eyes and imagine this is your life. Your home. This is your room, smelling of books, ink, and candles. Somewhere downstairs a cup smashes into bits, but there is only laughter, bright and cheerful—someone shouts a jolly “Luce!”

You pop your eyes open; the pipe dream dissipates. Your body is a medley of bruises and aches as you get up. Kipps was right, the cut isn’t too deep, you didn’t even bleed through the gauze during the night. You look at the ornate clock hanging above the fireplace. It is past three o’clock. You have to be at Rotwell’s in an hour.

Blinking against the sting in the back of your eyes, you get up and grab your gloves from the small table and your torn, dirty Coat hanging from a chair’s armrest. The fabric stinks of blood and sweat, but there is no time to get back home and change into clean clothes. You can’t get late to work a second time this week.

Your initial plan to just march through the front door and leave doesn’t work out when you pass the open kitchen door. It is a small, cluttered room with a huge table in its centre like a pillar of strength. Several plates with food have been placed down, breakfast served for three people: boiled eggs in cute little eggcups, sandwiches, a fruit bowl, some hot, greasy sausages just out of the pan. There is flatbread and right beside it a plate with small bites like fruits, walnuts, sliced cucumber and radishes.

The agents of Lockwood & Co. coordinate around each other in a way that seems like a practised dance—Lucy swiftly dodges George carrying a plate with doughnuts while Lockwood steps out of her way striding towards the water kettle without even looking.

When she pauses and says something to him, he does that thing you find annoyingly attractive in men: since he’s much taller than Lucy, Lockwood leans down and tilts his head towards her to hear her better. He has a striking side profile, all sharp lines and elegant curves, a pointed jaw.

You see him smile, and grow increasingly annoyed at how effortlessly handsome he is.

George clears his throat, and then all three are staring at you standing in the doorway.

Lockwood’s mouth twitches into a smile. “Hiya.”

Lucy’s mouth twitches into something that hasn’t decided yet if it wants to be a smile or a scowl.

George notices you looking at the food on the table and promptly says, “We don’t own enough dishes for another person.” He calmly closes the cupboard behind him where you see another stack of plates and cups.

“Wasn’t interested. I’m not much into burnt toast,” you say like a liar. George huffs in offence. “I have to go anyway. Work and all that.”

Three heads nod at the same time, a conjoined Hydra.

Remembering you have something like manners, you quickly add, “And thanks for letting me stay.” That should be enough pleasantries. You hastily make your escape through the front door and manage two steps downstairs before you hear footsteps behind you.

“One more thing,” Lockwood says, propping himself against the doorfrome. You wonder if he owns any other piece of clothing other than his white shirts and ties. “Regardless however we proceed with our case, it would be to both our benefits to work out an association. There is no harm in having friends in established circles.” He puts on a smile, one you recognise from meeting him for the first time. Charming, but bashful, he plays coy to try and pull you around his little finger.

So this is how he wants to play it.

You slip into your jacket and smooth down the fabric to appear at least somewhat dignified. “We are not friends, Tony,” you say, and notice with some satisfaction the tick in his jaw whenever someone uses that nickname. “And frankly, if our paths don’t cross anytime soon, I wouldn’t mind. Now, if you excuse me—“ well aware of the ectoplasm stink and the tears in your jacket, you push your shoulder blades together— “we at Rotwell are quite busy with actually solving the Problem instead of playing detective games.”

With a confidence you don’t feel at all, you grant Lockwood one of your sly grins, your usual selling argument whenever you’re wearing your Rotwell armour. Lockwood’s face remains impassive. When you turn, heading out to the main street to get a cab, you feel his eyes burying like a dagger into your gut. In the distance, a church bell rings on the quarter hour, and you try and remember the poem about the bell tolling.

A/N: I cheated a little, the Rotwell dormitories are pretty much the Auriens Chelsea apartment complex. I'll upload a masterlist for this sometime this week to keep things a little more organised.

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astyrial · 6 months

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hold on, for me thomas x teresa (angst) synopsis: canon divergence for thomesa week word count: 1k warnings: death, bleeding, explosions masterlist | requests are open

the veins in janson's forehead pop out, thomas' fingers feeling the pulse racing through his jugular. despite janson's hands pulling at thomas' shirt, ripping sections off, he can still feel the muscles with every clench. "you'll regret thi-" janson's now gravely voice is cut off by the sound of snapping, his eyes bulging.

no amount of blood-curdling noises or the sight of janson's tongue jutting from his mouth can stop thomas' blind rage. their capture, the experiments set on them, newt's body filled with a metal bullet. all of their lives were consequently ruined by janson's actions, by his blindness for something else. thomas' hands stay wrapped around janson's throat, body limp.

the sound of explosions burst his eardrums, face red with anger. even the palm of a hand slapping the side of his face can't seem to shake him from such violence. a noise, a voice of sorts, shouts in his ear. he can't quite tell what it is, the noise a mere buzz compared to the building falling around him. "he's dead!" minho appears in front of him, shaking his shoulders to bring thomas back to his senses.

"he's dead," minho's voice softs as thomas stares back into his eyes, knowing he finally got through to the runner.

thomas finally lets go of janson's neck, bruises forming where his hands were, leaving an eerie shadow. he stumbles upwards, minho helping him stabilize before pulling him close, shouting in his ear, "we put them all out of commission! we need to go!"

two explosions rattle the storage room. minho and thomas push through the dust and debris as they run for the maintenance room, ignoring the walls crumbling around them. a piece of ceiling falls next to them, sending thomas to the ground, his arm scratched and soon to be bruised. minho grabs at thomas's arms, one hand under his armpit, pulling him until his feet can gain traction.

the ground rumbles as another explosion goes off in a nearby room, throwing minho against a wall. his body slams into the wall, a groan leaving his lips. "we need to hurry!" thomas shouts, pulling minho, trying to throw minho's arm over his shoulder.

minho stumbles to follow him, nearly running into brenda who appeared from another hallway. as thomas lays eyes on her, he instantly thinks to teresa. where is she? is she injured, dead? as if he manifested her himself, she runs up to them, tumbling through the rocky flooring.

she's dirty, blood smeared around different parts of her clothing. teresa's gaze lands on thomas, the sight of a large piece of ceiling tearing from the rest of it. she shouts for him, running towards him, "get out of the way!"

just as she jumps towards him, the piece falls from the ceiling. every part of her wanted to make up for the pain she had caused thomas, even if she believed in wicked's intentions. she wanted to watch him grow old with happiness in a free land. she wanted him to love her just as she did for him. maybe, in a way, he does, especially when he takes the last second to push her away.

the ceiling collapses onto thomas' legs and midsection. it crushes his bones and organs, blood seeping onto the tile flooring. "thomas!" her voice screeches at a tone that never seemed possible for her, completing taking over the sounds of rocks colliding around them.

his face is covered in grime, and she can't help but run to him, yelling his name again. she pictures him nearly dying to gally, the spear just nearly colliding with him. the thought of wicked taking a saw to his skull, blood splattering. he could've died in so many ways, in so many times. yet, now, when all he could've done is let teresa do the right thing, he can't stop it.

"thomas! please! please, i can't do this without you! i'm sorry!"

he looks over at her, eyes meeting hers, watching as the blue fades into a clouded gray. his mouth barely moves, the sounds of his voice quiet and only audible as she moves in closer, "me too... i only ever cared for..."

his lips stop moving, time freezes around teresa and all she can do is watch, "thomas, just hang on a little longer! please! you have to hang on just a little longer!"

she brings her hands up to his face, pushing back the hair that hung down, "thomas, just a little longer, for me." tears build up in her eyes, cascading only after it begins to blur her vision. for a moment, she realizes that that could've been her. teresa could've been the one to have left thomas alive. she could've taken the easier route than being alive without the only person she ever truly loved.

teresa's hands pull from him as someone yanks her away from thomas. they pull vigorously, her body numb and unable to fight whoever had the strength to still save her. after everything she did, after everyone decided she was the betrayer. they still pulled her through the rubble and continuous falling of the building around them. when she finally catches a glimpse of who was pulling her, minho, she knew that this was her defining moment.

minho, the man who hated her since the building, the one who never trusted her, saved her. maybe it was because she attempted to save thomas. maybe it was because he knew that thomas would've done anything to save her if he had the chance, and that was enough for him. she held back tears and strengthened herself enough to make it through the maintenance door with them.

on the other side is a flat trans, the room empty of any other people. she looks over at minho and quickly follows him towards the flat trans. the echos of flames crackling behind them accompany the thick booming of the building slowly falling and crushing every room with it. any second they could be dead, but all teresa could think of before jumping forward into the icy grey wall is thomas.

a/n: i hope you all enjoyed (or at least at much as you can lol)! @thomesa-week

#thomesaweek2024 #day two #thomesaweek2024 day two #thomesa #tmr #the maze runner #tmr thomas #tmr teresa #the death cure #the maze runner fanfic

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patchworkgargoyle · 7 months

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oc fic: freaks to the front

For @strangerthingsocweek!! This isn't the first idea I had, and I wrote it in a rush, but hopefully it's fun.

You all might get sick of me and Dominik by the end of this week tbh, but too bad.

Pairing: transmasc OMC x Unnamed Freak || Rating: T for language || Words: 1,192 || Tags/Side Characters: Canon setting, post-season 4, Kali Prasad and her crew, Dustin Henderson, Jeff, and Gareth. Title from Freaks to the Front - Amyl and the Sniffers, mostly for the Freak reference and also for the vibes.

When Kali had told him they had to go help her sister, Dominik hadn’t imagined this.

Spending a couple days on the road to drive through Indiana to get to a shitty little town? Easy. Dodging past a military blockade? Fucking concerning, but not that different from evading police. Seeing ash fall from unsettlingly dark clouds that flashed with red lightning? Well past concerning and right into what the fuck is happening?

Kali sat in the front passenger seat of the van, staring intensely out the windshield as she told Funshine where to go, apparently getting directions from her telepathic sister named Eleven, of all things. Dom had seen a lot in his short time with Kali, he knew all about her strange powers, but he hadn’t heard the whole, basic rundown of her story until now.

Figures that the government would be running shitty experiments on little kids. That the experiments worked was still wigging him the fuck out.

“Turn left,” Kali said, and the van veered around a corner, jolting and rocking over some rubble, knocking Dom off-kilter and into the wall with a metallic thud. Axel whooped, loud in the crowded space, Dottie cackling from the floor, and Dom just glared at them. He looked to Mick, who was watching the tiny town speed by with a serious frown.

“What’s going on out there?” he asked, and Mick shook her head.

“Hard to tell. Kali, where are we going?”

“El said some of her friends are in trouble, asked us to pick them up on our way,” she said calmly, before giving another direction. Funshine sped up.

“I hope they aren’t more brats like she was,” Axel grumbled, and Mick shot him a look.

Dom craned around to look out the tiny window by his head and saw a crumbling building whiz by. “This place looks like a fucking warzone,” he said under his breath, hearing Mick hum in agreement.

Kali glanced into the back. “We’re close. Dottie, get ready to open the door, El says to watch out, and that guns won’t hurt it, only push it back.”

“It? What do you mean, ‘it?’” Dom asked, sounding more shrill than he’d admit, but the van barreled over more debris and interrupted anyone who might’ve poked fun. His heart raced in his throat when Kali told Funshine to speed up, and for the first time since he’d been kicked out of his home, Dom regretted throwing himself in with these maniacs.

“Get ready,” Kali commanded, and Dom’s hand clenched around the handle of his machete. Dottie clung to the door handle next to him, ready to whip it open, and Axel and Mick braced, guns at the ready anyway.

Tires screeched, Dom tensed, and the door whipped open. He launched himself out of the van, brandishing his machete, shouting at the five people he spotted immediately. “Get in!”

All five looked at him. Or, four of them did. It was only when he had a chance to pause that he saw the fifth was way too tall and didn’t have a fucking face. It was a maw of teeth and flesh surrounded by… petals, or something, and his skin crawled just looking at this—this monster. In real fucking life.

Then it roared, or screamed, sounding like a chainsaw on crack, and absolute disbelief was the only thing that kept him from fleeing from the thing in terror as the sound of it pierced his eardrums and made his hair stand on end.

“The fuck is that!?” Axel screeched.

“Demogorgon!” one of the actual humans said, and Dom was shaken from his fear when he realized he was a child.

“Like fucking Dungeons and Dragons!?” Dom yelled, and the kid gave him a surprised look before shouting at the other guys as he raced to the van.

The monster roared again and tried to follow, but Mick and Axel started shooting, bullets not even piercing its sickly grey, leathery skin. But the impacts distracted it, knocked it back, and Dom motioned for the kid to haul ass and praying to a god he didn’t believe in that that thing wouldn’t recover too quickly.

The kid barreled past with a slight limp, shouting at the other guys as they scrambled into action. When he reached the van, Dottie hauled the kid inside, getting out of the way for the others. Two clambered in, but not before the monster got its bearings, straightening up as he heard the telltale click of a pistol out of ammo. Shit.

The shortest, a floppy-haired guy, spat fuck fuck fuck fuck as he ran. Shaking its awful, disgusting head, the thing walked, and then picked up speed. Dom backed up to the van and said, “Kali, do something!”

“I’m trying,” she hissed.

Of course, right then, the guy tripped. Dom darted forward on instinct and snagged his hand, yanking at him as he flailed for balance.

But the monster was on them.

Shouting, “Go, go, fucking go,” Dom hauled them both backwards into the van. His legs hit the floor, he toppled back, and strong hands grabbed his arms and pulled him and the floppy-haired guy clung to each other in a blind panic.

The monster lashed out, one massive clawed hand raking down the guy’s leg before grabbing his ankle. He screamed, and Dom acted without thinking. He kicked, teeth bared in a furious grimace, steel-toed boot colliding wetly with the meaty, tooth-filled hole that passed for a mouth. Someone yanked the machete out of his hand and started chopping at the thing’s arm as he kept brutally kicking out.

Tires squealed and spun until they caught on the pavement and the van lurched into motion just as the monster let go with a wounded, wailing gurgle. The person behind him pulled Dom and the guy further in and Dottie slammed the door closed, leaving that horror in the dust.

The van was quiet except for the road of the engine and everyone’s panicked breathing. Dom blinked, realizing that Axel and Mick were still by the door. Who the hell had gotten them in the van?

Dom looked back and came face to face with the biggest of the four guys. His pretty blue eyes were still wide with fear, but he was looking back at Dom, darting over his face, inevitably glancing at all his piercings before pausing at the ones in his lips just a touch too long. When Dom’s jaw dropped in surprise, the guy blushed and looked away.

His usual recklessness reared up, fueled by the adrenaline pumping through his veins. “Thanks for the save, darling,” he purred, smirking, and the guy’s face flushed an even deeper red.

“Dominik, can you not be a slut for one minute?” Axel sneered, and Dom just flipped him off, still watching the cute guy’s face as he tried to look at anyone but Dom. Oh, he was cute, and Dom thought he might have fun in this shithole called Hawkins after all. Aside from the fucking monsters.

The floppy-haired guy put an end the awkward pause. "Could someone please do something about my leg?"

#if anyone's curious they were going out looking for eddie :D #strangerthingsocweek #goth babygirl dom #freak #freakdom #(haven't used that tag in a bit!)#kali #dustin henderson #stranger things #ficlet #ocs aweigh #niko's notes

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callofthxvoid · 11 months

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WHO: Minnie Garcia, Xander Garcia, and Lia Flowers

SUMMARY: Minnie makes a choice.

"You know what," MINNIE mumbled halfway through her pumpkin cookie. "I wasn't sure this would work flavour-wise. But it totally does." She looked over at Lia with a wide smile before spotting Xander approaching behind her. "Eyy, there's the future dad," she greeted with a big wave. "You want a pumpkin cookie? I may have bought too many."

XANDER had an easy grin on his face when he spotted Minnie and Lia. "That's me!" He said chuckling before glancing at Lia, "Cal was happy to take Juniper, said he might even nap in his office if she gets too tired." Turning back to Minnie he shook his head, "Hey we can always take turns throwing them into Scout's twister, not sure how she's staying fed in there."

"The texture is really good too. Soft but not too soft" LIA nodded about the cookie as she tore off another little bite. She had finished the bite as Xander came up and gave him a smile, "oh good. It's probably getting close to her nap time actually." She tore off another bit of cookie as Xander mentioned Scout, "wait Scout is dressed like a twister?" She asked with a soft laugh. Now how had she missed that?

"She's a menace in that thing, she can't even see out of it," MINNIE replied with an amused laugh, handing two cookies to Xander before going back to her own. Breaking a piece off, she popped it in her mouth before a soft rumbling under her feet caught her attention. "Wait, did you guys feel that?"

XANDER shook his head, "My mom has been wrangling her all day," glancing at Lia he grinned again, "Vetoing twister as future costume for any of the kids." Taking the cookies he'd been about to break a piece when the ground shook. Both cookies slipping from his hands and cracking on the ground. Staring he watched as when they landed cracks appeared on the ground, following one up the side of the building they were next to. It felt like things had gone in slow motion, a window shattering above them, his head whipping down to look at Lia and Minnie panic clear on his face as the rumbling got worse.

"We should get away from the building" LIA said, she'd seen movies and shows with earthquakes, and being in or around buildings was always a recipe for disaster. "I need to find Cal." She started to look around in hopes that maybe he was nearby with Juniper.

MINNIE glanced between Xander and Lia before nodding in response to the latter's statement. As the ground shook beneath them, making it harder to keep their balance, she pulled both of her companions in front of her while managing to narrowly avoid a piece of debris that fell near her. She let out a small breath of relief, briefly staring down at where it lay on the ground beside her, before looking back up. Immediately, her eyes widened when she saw where Lia was standing—seemingly focused on looking around for Cal and Juniper. "Lia, watch out!" Minnie shouted as she stepped forward and pushed Lia out of the way, toward Xander, before part of the building that had previously cracked crumbled down on her.

XANDER was stumbling back away from the building as the ground rumbled. He was trying to get his footing, grabbing Minnie briefly when some debri fell near them. Hearing her call Lia's name he dropped his hand from her turning his body fully towards Lia. Barely brings his hands up to catch her when Minnie shoves her into him, trying to regain both their balance. He's about to ask if she's ok when he hears a crunching sound, head whipping up he feels his body lock up as he stares at where Minnie is now laying under rubble. He can see blood starting to surround her, "Minnie…?" The name barely above a whisper as his grip loosens on Lia.

LIA had no time to register what was going on when she was being pushed forward by Minnie into Xander. One ankle rolled as she went forward and winced some at the sudden jolt of pain that hit. The focus on her ankle is cut off when she hears the same crunching sound and her focus is drawn over to the rubble now there. Where she had been….where Minnie now was. "Xander" she reached for his hand, tugging at him. "Xan we have to go" It's all a shock and she is shaking herself, but the longer they stay there the more dangerous it becomes for them too.

The last thing MINNIE remembered seeing before everything went dark was Xander catching Lia. Another sigh of relief left her lips before she found herself on the ground, buried in debris, barely coherent. Vaguely, she registered that something was very wrong and that she was in a lot of pain, but as her eyelids grew heavy, it was getting hard to focus on that. It was getting hard to focus on anything at all. "Xander," she mumbled, vaguely aware of Lia's voice, although it sounded far away.

XANDER feels Lia tugging on him, but he can't move. He thinks he says Minnie's name again, vaguely he can hear people around him, thinks he hears Knightley whose checking on Lia. "Minnie, she needs…", he's moving before he can think rushing to her side. "Minnie," his hands are shaking when he touches her face, his visions blurring and he's having trouble seeing. Someone's tugging on him again and a broken sob slips out when he sees blonde hair before he registers that it's Zarina not Minnie. "I don't…I…" His body's shaking, "What…what do I do now…"

LIA tried tugging on him more, understanding why he isn't moving, but growing more afraid that if he doesn't that something else bad is going to happen. She felt Knightley pull her away in order to check on her. She watches Xander, wanting to be there for him to comfort him, but she isn't sure how much use she's going to be.

MINNIE blinked. Each second felt slower and slower, the outside world growing more and more distant until eventually, it was just her. The patches of light she could see coming through the debris were so blurry that she barely registered them as light. The voices were quiet, a low hum and a whisper in the wind to comfort her as she lay in what she now understood were her final moments, the very last moments of her life. She took a second, a second to mourn herself and apologise to Wylie, before she let out one last breath and smiled.

You're going to be an amazing dad, Xander.

XANDER's too out of it to register that Zarina's a lot stronger than he thought, tugging him up and away. He knows he shouldn't but he looks back, feels something crack inside him before he has to turn to keep up. It's not until they're at the fire station with Lia on a cot that he's reaching for her hand. "I… I'm sorry about your ankle… I should have caught you better… I should go find Juniper or my siblings or… " Trailing off he's leaning against the cot shoulders slumped. "Lia… What the hell do I do now?"

LIA shook her head some as he apologized for her ankle and now catching her better, "you caught me just fine" she swallowed as she moved her thumb over the back of his hand. "I don't know" the answer is honest because she truly doesn't. What were any of them supposed to do now?

#interactions: minnie #minnie: xander #minnie: lia #minnie: pumpkin festival #event: pumpkin festival #tw death

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magnoliacharmed · 2 years

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Chapter 3 - Keep Thundering

[Also available on Archive of our Own!]

Ch. 1 | Ch. 2 | Ch. 3 | Ch. 4

Summary:

The worst hangover you'd ever had leads to an argument with Kevin and a meeting with Sting.

Author’s note: 18+

Your entire being was consumed by darkness.

Your physical self was enrobed in some sort of void, a fog that followed you around at your lowest moments. Shifting around under the comforter, you kicked off the heavy blanket for some semblance of freedom. Even with the air conditioner on full blast and your body unrestricted by clothing, you still felt trapped. Your breaths gasped and hitched in a desperate attempt to fill your lungs with air. No matter how much your brain screamed at you to just open your eyes, your lids wouldn't open. When you finally felt like you were reaching your last moments on earth, your body shot out of bed.

The cool air of the room whirred around you but it didn't provide the relief you needed. The sheets were drenched in sweat, the comforter on the floor completely kicked to the other side of the room. Strands of your hair stuck to your forehead and lips. Your mouth tasted faintly of toothpaste and heavily of whiskey, the residual alcohol sending your stomach into flips. Your hardest, most strenuous workout at the gym hadn't even made you lose your breath this way. It was an ordeal to even look down on the carpeted floor below you. The way your vision moved in and out of focus made you feel like you were standing at the top of the Empire State Building, staring down at the scenery.

The whiskey bottle was tipped to its side. The liquid was drained completely from it, which wasn't a huge cause for concern. Hangovers weren't usually such an ordeal for you, so why today of all days did this one feel like literal death? Glancing over at the clock radio on the nightstand, your brain short circuited at the flashing numbers in front of you.

12:00 AM.

12:00 AM?

There was no way it was the middle of the night, unless you slept for twelve hours straight. With the jolts of panic you experienced through the night that made you wake up, that just didn't seem possible. You slid out of the bed and onto the floor in one large slither. You were nothing but a worm, a giant sniveling worm fueled by shame, liquor, and inadequacy. You weren't good enough to walk, you didn't deserve it. Your eyes crumbled around you while you blinked into the darkness of the room. Why was it so dark?

Crawling over to the window was a journey. With every pathetic knee forward you couldn't muster up the energy to push the negative thoughts away. A drum beat pounded away rhythmically in your head and it was preferable to the awful things you thought about yourself. Finally you reached the curtains. An anguished grab at the bottom of one kept you from collapsing completely on your back. Your heart began to beat out of your chest with the amount of effort it took to hold yourself up. A fling of the heavy fabric above you showed just why it was so dark outside. Your ears rang at the sound of the curtain rings sliding against the rod.

It was pouring. Rain beat against the windows harshly as if it was threatening to break its way in. It was so dark outside you weren't surprised at why you thought it was night time. Your eyes shut as you placed your cheek against the freezing cold glass of the window. This rain was just what you needed. Thunder boomed close by with a flash of lightning shooting through the air shortly after. If the earth was this upset you figured you could be too. Grabbing at the curtain again, you hurled yourself up onto your feet. Your body swayed at that amount of movement and you had to place your hands on your knees to keep from throwing up. Shuffling to the room phone you sat down on the edge of the bed and dialed down to the front desk.

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Sting awoke with a start. His head felt like it'd been dunked in a bucket of ice water. The alertness was foreign to him, exciting but strange. His hands reached up to scratch at his hair in confusion. He could've sworn that you were in his bed last night? There was no sign of you anywhere in the room… must have just been a vivid dream. Turning onto his side he saw lightning flash outside of his window. Looked like it was going to be bad weather for the day. There was no way they were going to hit the road any time soon. That was fine by him in any case, gave him a reason to relax.

As he got up from the bed and stretched the previous night came to him in flashes. He remembered talking to you backstage. You were covered in… soda? Why was soda dripping off of you?

Oh yeah. All of a sudden, everything returned to him. The quips, the insults, bat pulling, lips by your ear… coming to the thought of you. He winced at that last part, almost as if he'd been burned. It was a "I touched the hot stove top" kind of burn, the one where you knew not to do it but did it anyway. A simmering irritation bubbled in him. He was hard again. You kept doing that to him. With a groan he rushed into the bathroom and started the shower. After stepping under the water, he reached down to grab at himself. Maybe he could get you off his mind this way. His grip tightened around his cock as he stroked himself.

"Hi, superstar. Still thinking of me?"

Sting gasped at your voice whispering in his head. The sensation was too much, it felt too real.

"When are you gonna hurry up and fuck me already? I know you want to…"

He stopped to catch his breath, his eyes glazing over at his impending orgasm. His lids shut in an attempt to ground himself.

"Let me show you just how much of a slut I am for you, Stinger… if you can handle it." Your laugh was mocking.

Sting spilled into his hand with a growl. It washed down the drain quickly and his irritation was now replaced with embarrassment. You were even brattier in this particular fantasy. The way you talked back to him was so irritating, so hot. He wanted to shut you up. The ringing of his cell phone shook him out of his head. He walked back out into the room and picked it up in a slight daze.

"Steve, it's Kevin."

The daze was still showing on Sting's face. Him and Kevin weren't close friends. They got drinks together and shared a few jokes once or twice, but neither man would choose each other as their best friend. The only thing they had in common was you. You'd never had a better friend than Kevin. You both never thought a platonic relationship could be so strong. Sting though… he couldn't figure how he felt about you. He just knew whatever it felt, it was intense.

"What's up? Is this about--"

"Yeah, it is. I was trying to tell you last night that she's been kind of… sensitive recently. Bischoff has been messing around with her, making her think she's not important in the company. It's bothering her. That's why she was in that mood last night. I promise you man, she's usually a lot nicer."

Sting didn't have a lot to say. Of course Kevin would defend you, you were friends. He was the one who advocated for you to get signed to WCW in the first place. The wind blew the trees outside violently. This was shaping up to be some storm.

"What is her problem with me? I've barely even talked to her."

"I honestly don't know. Why don't you give her a call, actually? It'd be good for you to talk it out. She still hasn't gotten a damn cell phone though, so you'll have to page first."

Kevin gave Sting your pager number and a weak excuse to hang up. Sting didn't mind. His head buzzed at the idea of talking to you. A normal conversation. Maybe you would even come to a truce. Sting stared at your number on the notepad below him.

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"Hi," Your voice was entirely too gravelly. You sounded like you'd been drinking salt water for the last few days. "I just woke up and I… my alarm clock is blinking."

There was a pause before the front desk woman spoke. "Yeah, the power went out for a few hours last night. We can send someone up to reset the time on it."

"That's okay, thanks though."

The woman didn't even attempt to pretend to be a beacon of hospitality. She sounded over it, both bored and exasperated. You imagined her rolling her eyes at the sound of the phone ringing. This soothed you for some reason, knowing that you weren't the only miserable person in this hotel. With a click of the phone you both hung up at the same time. As soon as you put the handset down, the tinny noises of your beeper rang through the room. Digging under your clothes from the previous day, you squinted your eyes at the numbers and the time. 10:18 AM. Kevin's phone number. Your hand shook as you picked the phone back up to dial him.

"Get a cell phone. They're gonna put a crazy charge on your room bill for making this call."

He always managed to have a quip ready.

"Kev, man. What's up with this weather? Feels like it came from out of nowhere."

"It did. I was watching the news and they were just as surprised about it, too. Looks like we're gonna be stuck here for at least another day."

You groaned at this news. The last thing you wanted was to be stuck in this hotel room alone. At least the power was back on.

"Relax, you get a damn break. You need it." As soon as Kevin spoke those words, he imagined your face screwing up on itself. He knew better than to mess with you when you were hungover. From the scratchy tone of your voice alone it had to have been an extra rough night.

"What is that supposed to mean?"

"You know exactly what it fuckin' means. You acted like a bitch last night. Don't let whatever weird problem you have with Sting mess the show up."

"Are you kidding me? He was being a dick! Did you call him to give a lecture too or is it just me who gets the pleasure?"

"That's not my responsibility, it's Bischoff's."

"As if Bischoff gives a fuck about what the golden child does. I'm not your responsibility either. Thanks for calling to ask me how I was doing, by the way. That was very caring of you."

"You just said I wasn't responsible for you!" Kevin paused, a frustrated noise cutting short in his throat. "Look, I'm not gonna baby you, okay? You're my friend and I care about you, but you're an adult. Stop making your problems everyone else's problems. You need a day alone to figure your shit out because you're in no shape to go back out in front of everyone so soon."

The tears that ran down your face felt like lava. Your already dry eyes stung even more from how salty they were. As hard as you racked your brain for a response, you just couldn't come up with one. Kevin was right and you hated it. You tried your hardest not to betray your feelings but the need to sniffle was too strong.

"Yeah. Alright Kev, I'll talk to you later."

He began to speak as you gently pressed the phone back down into its cradle. There was nothing else you could say. You wanted to be pissed at Kevin, as Sting, at Bischoff, at the whole world really… In the end, the only one you could be angry at was yourself. You were causing your own problems. There was no point in taking it out on him. Leaning back against the sheets, you stared up at the ceiling and let the tears flow. The muscles in your forehead were incredibly strained. You dreaded having to turn on the lights but there was no point in sitting in the dark. You reached over for the phone one more time. The same woman picked up again with the same amount of boredom in her voice.

"Hey, can I get-- uh. Some Tylenol? Do yall have Tylenol?"

"We can send some up."

"Okay. Do you have champagne? And orange juice?"

"Yes, ma'am."

"I'll take that too. Can someone change my sheets also?"

The woman repeated back your requests and said it'd all be done within the next half hour. That gave you just enough time to shower and change. You stared down at the whiskey bottle on the floor again, wondering if you were embarrassed enough to hide it away from the hotel staff. You weren't. You flipped on the lights in the room and bathroom, then ran the shower water as hot as possible. Before you knew it the pulsing water of the shower head prickled at your scalp and back. You washed yourself up and continued to stand under it until the water ran cold. A shiver got you to shut off the water and grab a towel.

Stepping out of the shower, your sheets were fresh. The nightstand contained a few small cartons of orange juice, multiple packets of extra strength Tylenol, and a cold bottle of champagne. The time was even fixed on the clock radio. You grabbed up the cartons and stuffed them in the mini fridge, slamming the door shut and falling on the bed. The little packets had two Tylenol each in them. You ripped open a packet frantically and dry swallowed them while hastily opening the champagne. The pop of the bottle sounded like a bomb. You chugged some of the sweet bubbly liquid down, then burped instantly and loudly. You'd feel better soon enough, you thought as you turned the TV on and flipped through the channels. Just as soon as you settled on a melodramatic made-for-TV movie, your pager beeped again.

You didn't recognize the number, but that wasn't any cause for concern. You moved back over to the room phone and dialed the number absently. Sting's cell phone rang and buzzed in his hands. You called back so fast he didn't have time to prepare himself.

"Hello?" You both said at the same time.

Your face darkened. Sting.

"How the hell did you get my beeper number?" You spat at him.

Whoa, already pissed. Again, hot. And ridiculous. He'd barely said a word!

"Kevin gave it to me."

The two of you stayed silent on the line for a long stretch of seconds. What was the point of all this?, you thought. You just wanted to watch this stupid movie and get drunk again.

Sting cradled the phone between his shoulder and ear as he pulled his jeans on. Looking in the mirror at himself, he wondered why he was even going to all of this trouble.

"Listen to me. I don't have any time for this 'I hate you, you hate me' back and forth thing. You're distracting me, and you're not important enough to distract me this much. Tell me what hotel you're staying at, I'm coming over and we're talking this out."

You had to admit that the sternness in his voice made you wet.

"I'm not telling you--"

"Stop acting like a fucking brat. Where are you staying?"

Sting was to the point of hanging up in your face. This is what he deserved for trying to be the bigger person. A vein throbbed in his neck as he waited for you to speak.

Oh, man. You were way more turned on than you thought you were capable of being. Ha-ha, you'd made him mad again! You upset him so easily it was hilarious. His nerves were so easy to press on.

"Hilton, room 1215. Hurry up," You slammed the phone down. Good luck to him trekking through the rain just to yell at you.

#sting #sting wcw #steve borden #sting x reader #kevin nash #wcw #world championship wrestling #wcw fic #wcw fanfic #wrestling fic #wresting fanfic #wrestling #magnoliafanfic

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BTHB 2023 - Fill 3 - Passing Out From Pain

For anyone who wanted Mariano to get a break, here you go! Back to Will for a little bit c:

TWs: Gore, impalement, crushing injuries, building collapse, death

"Bennett?" Sophronia called, coughing. Dust choked out the meager light that dotted the roof of their space, and she had to tug her shirt collar up over her nose and mouth to even think about breathing. "Bennett, can you hear me?"

William's soul was nearby. That much was certain. Even if it was too dark to see, at least she could feel him.

Gingerly starting to crawl, Sophronia winced as sharp debris dug into her knees. It didn't matter, really, her clothes were bloody enough from the initial collapse of the floor and walls. Something had gouged her side when she fell, deep enough that even breathing felt like overdoing it.

William still hadn't answered.

Getting deeper into their makeshift cavern, she finally heard something. A hitched breath with a squeaky, breaking sob. It came from where William's soul was.

She froze for a moment, trying to discern if it was really from him. When was the last time she'd heard him sound like that? Could she remember? Was it when he was a freshly dead, shivering soul of a teenager? When he was escorted to her after escaping Daniel?

"Will?"

The noise abruptly stopped, traded for a shuddering gasp. "Sophie...?" She felt sticky fingers brush against her wrist, and instinctively she tapped into her magic.

Magenta light filled the area, and only thing that stopped her from audibly reacting was her years of experience in the field. "Bennett--I'm here." She said, unable to take her eyes off of William’s chest.

A dull metal rod disappeared into the dark fabric of his coat, dyed darker by blood. Twisted concrete bloomed at the top, rising up and away like a horrific flower. Trailing down his pinned body, it took Sophronia another second to realize that the metal seemed to be the only thing holding him in place.

"I'm--this, this sucks..." He managed to gasp out, a desperately suppressed laugh threatening to shake him. "Is anyone else...are the others okay?"

"Yves and Charlotte managed to get out before it all came down. They're helping the living, right now." Sophronia said, taking note of the busy souls above them. She could feel Charlotte helping people out of the wreckage, and Yves hovering in one spot--doing triage, most likely. "I need to get you out, alright?"

William struggled to take another breath, his face twisting when he did. She heard a dull scrape, metal against something hard, and felt her stomach turn. "It broke...it's through my sternum." He managed, fingers twitching like he wanted to grab at the rod. "It--god, Soph, it's...I don't think you're go-onna unpin me."

Sophronia swallowed hard. "I know. Let me--" Another rumble cut Sophronia off, and her magenta eyes snapped upwards. The concrete above them started to shift, dust starting to stream down.

Sophronia managed to throw herself over William as it all fell, stifling a harsh cry of her own as her side lit up with pain. Her chin pressed against his dust-caked hair as though she could shield him from more damage. His chest trembled against her own as the world crumbled around them.

A muffled scream erupted beneath her, and she felt William arch despite the metal through his chest. He was a line of tension, shaking from the force of it. He fell quiet, and then still.

When the avalanche of concrete stopped, Sophronia pushed herself back upright. Amid the choking dust and the slowly seeping blood from her side, she found her own head was starting to spin. "Bennett?"

Looking to her other side, Sophronia saw the reason he'd fainted.

The heavy concrete that had fallen from its own weight had landed on William's legs. She didn't dare touch--one look at the odd, jagged lumps under his pants fabric told her everything she needed to know. "Okay, that's alright Will." She said, taking a breath. "This makes it much easier, good job."

It was a miracle he wasn't still conscious, really. He would've clung to awareness as long as possible--to life as long as possible. It would've made what she needed to do more uncomfortable for him.

Instead, she ran her fingers through his messy, bloody hair, and wordlessly slipped her other hand into his chest. Her fingers met no resistance as she passed through his shirt, past skin and bone, until she found his soul and plucked it out. As his body dissolved into purple smoke, Sophronia could finally get them both to help.

#whump #bthb #bad things happen bingo #building collapse #gore #blood #impalement #crushing injuries #a gentle death #started as a quiet friday night #I imply vaguely that it's an #earthquake #but it's so vague

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Ashes In The Fall - Chapter 14: The Road Less Taken II

Book 2 of the Calendula Chronicles

Resident evil, Wesker X OC

Story Summary: Marigold Ashford escaped the mansion, only to face new incarceration with a familiar jailor. She may yet have to make a deal with the devil, if she can unearth what this Faustian bargain would cost her.

There is always something left to lose.

Chapter summary: Marigold comes up with a business proposition.

The last light of the day was fading when Wesker pulled the van up to the warehouse. Given the situation rapidly unfolding, it was the only really viable place to stage operations from. About half a dozen vehicles already lined the side of the building. Suits and soldiers of varying pedigrees ran between the building and the vans, barking orders, and carrying gear.

He parked at the end of the row, turning off the ignition. They sat quietly for a moment. Finally, Marigold spoke. “To what end?” He glanced over to her, waiting for more.

Finally, she cleared her throat. “It’s escalating. If it’s in the water system, then it’s going to spread fast.” She paused. “Is it like the mice?” She asked, voice small.

Wesker sighed. “It is,” he confirmed.

Marigold stared straight ahead, not reacting. “In the woods too. They didn’t seem that dangerous. Just…sad.”

Wesker’s brow creased slightly. “I had assumed you had simply avoided them. Did they not come after you at all?”

Marigold seemed to fold into herself without moving. “I wasn’t entirely myself. But…no.” She thought about it. “They felt…hungry. Everything felt hungry. It’s hard to explain, and it felt easier to push the lot away and keep moving.” She seemed about to say more, but she glanced at him and stopped short. Then, a look of dawning horror came over her face. “They…bite, don’t they. To infect. That’s what’s happening in the town. Mindless, biting automatons.” She looked over at the people running back and forth across the lot, touching her mouth with an unsteady hand. They were carrying gear. Electronics. Storage containers. “What is all this? To what end?”

Wesker seemed to sigh again, more quietly this time. “We still have people in the city. Some of them are embedded in Umbrella itself. With the town crumbling as it is, they have an opportunity. This is the closest facility to the town to coordinate and support those operations.” He paused, then in a quieter voice, he said, “I know the infrastructure. The chief of police is likely barricading roads as we speak- Umbrella pays him to do as much. William would have been out by now were he not attacked. Some things need to be seen through.”

Marigold had spent years working with academics and researchers who jealously guarded their results. She didn’t need to ask more. But…”That’s a narrow window. They won’t allow this to spread beyond the city.”

Wesker nodded. “There’s self-destruct mechanisms and paramilitary from Umbrella that will descend on the town and salvage what they can. They won’t leave evidence.”

“Not that.” She shuddered at the thought anyhow. The company itself had turned into a behemoth in her absence. Although more likely, it had just matured and metastasized. “The actual American military. The world might have changed a bit in a few decades, but they’ve been hand in glove with Umbrella for long enough. They’re the market for all of this, yes?” She didn’t wait for a response. She was starting to get good at reading the answers in Wesker’s silences. “Complicit. If they can, they’ll throw Spencer under the bus as hard as they can and bomb the town out of existence. Spencer would have the leverage secured to buy himself some cover…”

Wesker nodded, mildly amused. It was easy to forget that she had once been a senior VP at Umbrella, albeit one focused on outreach. She darted a look at him and grimaced. “I only know that because I brokered the connection….” she trailed off, raising her head as a thought coalesced. Her eyes went wide.

“Just how secure is the phone line here? ”

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They made their way past the people running through the lot. Some glanced at the newcomers. One or two did a double-take - the young woman trailing the operations commander was barefoot, and looking curiously around like it was her first day on the job. They quickly shrugged it off. There were other things to concern themselves with, and that sort of thing usually came out through the grapevine sooner or later. They’d set up, get what they needed from the site, and break it back down as soon as the crisis passed.

She looked around at the throng, worrying her lip. Eventually, I may want my gloves back.

Wesker shot back, You were hardly worried before.

Your two muppets have a sensible level of self-preservation. What am I going to do? Infect you further? She smirked. You don’t put out that sort of red flag anyhow. Marigold paused. Frowned. I don’t think I got to Doctor Birkin. I shouldn’t have been able to…hear that.

You can still hear him?

Not exactly. It’s like a headache composed of cicadas and tinnitus. It’s…quieter than it was.

They reached the small, adjoining office where Wesker had been spearheading the operations in Raccoon City. Before he could ask her to explain herself, she looked around and said, “This is where you’ve been going, these last few weeks. It smells like you.” She pinked. “It’s odd. Being able to say that sort of thing out loud.”

Her eyes fell upon the phone on the desk. “Might I use this?” She asked. If they can trace it back, I might have to go elsewhere.

“Wait,” Wesker said, reaching past her to open a desk drawer. A small pile of Nokia phones sat, charged and ready. It was never a bad idea to have a burner available, in his line of work. “These ones are programmed to block the number on the other end.”

Gingerly, she reached in and plucked out a little black phone, awkwardly flipping it open. The affected movement was becoming familiar to him- less a mild distaste of the environment, as she had meant it to be perceived, but rather exaggerated care to not break her surroundings. There was a bird-like quality to the way Marigold handled things, especially considering how small and fragile everyday objects must have seemed at this point.

She looked back up at him, clearly waiting for him to excuse himself. He looked back, calm, implacable. Her mouth thinned. Fine. **She stepped around him, carefully, to sit. Carefully avoiding Wesker’s gaze, she dialed.

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The line rang thrice before clicking open. The voice answering it was both familiar, and not at all. “Hello?”

Marigold laughed in surprise before catching herself. “My goodness, is that little Derek? My word, how time does fly.” She smiled a little at the sharp I take of breath on the other end. He might or might not actually remember her. There was a good chance she only existed as a ghost story to this man. “I trust then, that this call was expected?”

Derek C Simmons, scion of the Family, paused for a brief moment at the other end of the line. He sounded much like his father, truth be told. A shuffling sound on the other end broke the silence. “Ah,” Derek said. “It may have been. Are you alright?”

“This is hardly a social call, if that’s your meaning.”

Daniel did something to the phone. The quality of the sound changed very slightly. “My- he just came in. I’ve put you on speaker.”

Marigold smiled. Good boy. “Very good. I am sorry to have taken so long to call. I’m afraid I was rather detained for some time.” Daniel’s voice could be heard in the background, a sharp bark with a rough edge from age. “Are you aware of the current situation in Raccoon City?”

Wesker shifted uncomfortably behind her. She could feel him at her shoulder. She looked up at him and rolled her eyes. Settle down.

Daniel’s voice finally crackled over the line. “Arklay’s been settled.” He was being careful. That meant he understood she wasn’t able to speak completely freely.

“You know that’s not what I meant,” she said flatly. “Do you expect me to believe that you’ve heard nothing?”

A long pause. “Your uncle called earlier today. He has leverage that would survive a missile strike. There, in the city. They need time.”

Marigold paused. “Leverage.”

Daniel sighed. “Contracts. You did your job too well, peach.”

She closed her eyes briefly. “So I keep getting reminded.” Then- “you can’t possibly mean….”

“Lots and lots of construction over the years. Lots of new homes and jobs.” A frustrated sound from Derek. “Smug old bastard. Blathers on about the ‘wisdom in gifts’ they’d shared over the years with the world.”

Marigold blinked. “Oh.” She made a face. He actually had the gall to hand them the encrypted access key, and they didn’t even notice. “Ugh. Of course. Safehouse, then?” She turned to watch Wesker’s face when she asked the next question, suddenly glad he had insisted on staying. “In-house, I presume. When would this have been done?”

“Late eighties. They installed a couple of researchers who were starting a family. We have a list, but there’s heavy CCTV surveillance all over the city. Not worth the risk in peacetime.”

“And too many fires to put out when things are falling apart,” Marigold supplied. Her eyes narrowed. Wesker had near turned to stone at this news. She cocked her head very slightly to one side. You know whose house this is? Wesker gave a small nod. **

“You’re certain of this,” she said out loud into the phone, eyes on Wesker. Daniel made an affirming sound on the other end of the line. Wesker, in his turn, replied, It’s the house Birkin was installed in when they moved to the city. Spencer installed them in a new development home as a wedding gift. Annette convinced him to move closer to downtown a few years later, but another researcher was moved right in after.

Marigold looked at him a long moment, mouth tight. Then, “I wonder, Daniel. Perhaps you’ve considered whether it’s time to divest.”

Daniel made an approving noise on the other end of the line. “Ah, Rome burns, dear. In the end, we’re all just barbarians, are we not, dear Placidia?”

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A short conversation (and another, somewhat indignant explanation about why the elder patriarch had called her Placidia, after hanging up) later, Marigold snorted in disgust. “I have a theory.”

Wesker waited, and she continued. “The lot of you failed art school, and are taking out your dramatic histrionics upon the world.” She threw up her hands. “It’s the simplest explanation.”

Wesker’s jaw twitched in irritation, and she turned her palms forward in apology. “I keep thinking that the cloak and dagger nonsense is over, and then realize that everyone I grew up around subscribes to it wholeheartedly. Riddles in plain sight. I wouldn’t need brute force to access what they’re asking for.”

“What you offered.” He finally said.

Marigold leaned back and looked at him with a faint scowl. “What you absolutely let me offer while standing proctor over me the entire time. Anyone left in the city is going to have their hands full, will they not? This wasn’t even on their radar.” Her frown deepened. “What am I missing, then?”

Wesker finally spoke, choosing his words carefully. “It’s more than the people. If the NEST was compromised, the city may be infested. Experiments were run across multiple species. Insect, avian, crossbreeds. Do you really expect me to believe you’re prepared to deal with hordes of civilians? You said yourself you have little combat experience.”

The comment was a baited hook; he had seen the intelligence on the old Ashford estate; seen the abandoned ranges. The cold smile that drifted across her face still forced him to suppress a shudder. “I said, I try not to touch people. Taking them apart is detrimental to discretion, you see.” The smile faded, though not completely. “Have you ever been sent to Romania, in all your work? Near Brasov, a little place in the mountains?” Wesker stilled and she sensed the affirmation. “I told you, Arklay wasn’t the first little trap I’ve been sent into.” Just this first one I didn’t walk back out from, she finished, in his head. “Spencer was always going to model his life’s work after that. Why else would I have come armed to the lab? I normally carried more than that, to be clear. Besides, they gave us a timeline for how long it would take for Congress to set an exclusion zone. The real deadline is likely much tighter.”

“You want to see it, don’t you. Why?” It made sense. Besides, there was a set of gear in storage in this very building that had been ordered with her in mind. He hadn’t imagined her to be so eager for it. Ready to jump into the fray...

No. Not quite eager, that was the wrong word, but…close. He had himself been planting the seeds for this, with a different target in mind. She had that look in her eye again - the same one she got whenever he prodded her about Alexia.

Did he want her cooperation? Yes. Would she be capable of forwarding his goals in Raccoon City before the collapse came down? Given the headstart she had given the team, it was probable.

Marigold Ashford was still a slippery creature. She’d gone out of her way just now to remind him that her network was still intact, still ready to be called upon. If she were this determined to go in, the motivation was almost certainly personal.

As if sensing this thought (surely not), Marigold practically growled in frustration. “I would have thought you wanted half a reason for a good field test. I need to see. If it’s just one little house in the suburbs, I could slip in and out with very few problems. So what am I missing?”

Albert Wesker closed his eyes a moment. There was one complication to the plan that she hadn’t considered. “The security system would be wired into the Umbrella Security Service. The security system is normally on low level- it would have to be, for a residential area like that - but this isn’t a normal circumstance. The system is alarmed to go straight to Chief Irons, on whose discretion, the security forces Umbrella has on hand can be deployed immediately.”

“Oh,” Marigold said after a moment. “That could be a complication. Still. Good thing you’re not the one volunteering.” She smiled, slowly. “Besides, I doubt anyone would really try to stop me from spitting in that man’s eye at this point, from my understanding of the situation. I don’t think this will be terribly complicated.”

“That may be so,” Wesker allowed. “But if you’re to have support on this, you would have to go in with a plan. There will have to be some level of oversight - you’re still technically a civilian. And,” he continued, one hand coming up to cup her jaw, “We’ll need to come to terms on a few things.”

#calendula chronicles #resident evil fanfiction #marigold ashford #albert wesker x oc #ashes in the fall

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boxed in [ matt murdock ]

⋯ SUMMARY ; matt takes it upon himself to teach you how to box ; you have some... unethical methods of winning up your sleeve

⋯ WARNINGS ; female!reader,smut [ sexual innuendos, guiding, cowgirl position, unprotected sex -- no glove, no love ] + mature language

⋯ NOTES ; this content is strictly for those 18+ ; any minors // ageless // blank blogs interacting with this post will be blocked

matt pushed the door to fogwell’s open, holding it open to allow you to step through the threshold and into the old space. coming around beside you as you dropped your bag to the bench and started to pull off your winter gear.

the snow had been relatively bad lately, surprisingly early for the area of hell’s kitchen. yet, regardless of weather, matt was still making the trek out to the gym for his training sessions. you always offered to join him -- a mix of worry as he tended to get himself into trouble and you enjoyed getting to watch him in action.

matt wraps his hands, stepping up and into the ring to start his circuit when he looks over at you, “why don’t you come up here with me?” he calls from the ring with a smile. you slightly surprised by his offer, not seeing how it would benefit you. previous times you had accompanied matt to the boxing arena, you had wondered off to do your own thing, having found enough equipment laying around to complete some of your regular workouts.

“come on, you come here with me all the time and go to do your own thing. let me show you how to box for a change.” you snort, climbing up and on to the boxing platform, “you want to teach me how to box?” he nods enthusiastically, stepping over to the ropes that surrounded the ring and separating the ropes enough for you to slip under and join him.

“are your hands wrapped?” he questions, head tilting in curiosity as you respond, “yes, they are.” he nods, turning to step in line with you, “good, now i’m gonna show you some basic movements and you try to follow them.”

“how will you know if i’m doing them right?” he pauses for a moment, gesturing toward his ear, “i can hear how a punch moves through the air.” the response causes you to snort, almost falling into a fit of laughter, “if you can hear how a punch goes through the air, then how is it i keep having to patch your ass up almost every night?” you tease, causing him to chuckle as he shrugs his shoulders, “i don’t have an answer for that... anyways, lets just get started. unless you want to keep taking verbal jabs at me.”

he walks you through the basic movements, correcting your form whenever something sounds off and lets you try again. eventually, complimenting you and feeling a sense pride wash over him as you complete a circuit of air throws.

you work for over an hour, building a sweat as matt couches you from the side, mirroring each of your movements with adding perfection before stepping over to adjust your stance. he steps back after you’ve bent over, breathing heavy and deep from your chest as you wipe the sweat from your forehead, “how was it?” he asks gently, handing you a water bottle as to all but crumble to the floor.

“hell. i don’t see how you do that every day.” you grumble against the cold floor, a stark contrast to how warm you’re running after the unexpectedly intense workout matt had put you through. he shrugs his shoulders with a soft smile,“oh, but i usually have someone throwing punches at me. this is a little different.”

you pull yourself up to your feet, standing just a few paces in front of him as you reach out, “show me how?” he hesitates a few moments, not wanting to hurt you in anyway considering the differing level of experience between the two of you. he outs his mouth to state so, narrowly avoiding a quick jab of your hand near his side, blocking it before you could get any further, “really?” he questions with slight offense, which doesn’t last long as you throw another series of moves his direction, watching as he blocks each one with precision and grace.

it continues for a while, matt throwing in a few jabs himself to see how you react. chest swelling with pride when he catches you mimicking his movements from before. he takes it easy on you, not wanting to hurt you to throw something too advanced in your direction.

until he knocks you from your feet, wincing as you land quite roughly on your back. he’s immediately kneeling down to your side with apologetic eyes, “i’m sorry sweetheart, i didn’t mean to be so hard on you - oof!” you roll him over onto his back just as he lowers his guard, your legs straddling his hips as hands pressing into his chest, “sorry, babe. but i thought you would have known of that trick by now.”

he chuckles to himself, not ready to let you know that he sensed what you were getting ready to do and simply let you, "i’m only not rolling you back over due to the slight wheeze in your right lung.” your face scrunches up in confusion, taking a deep breath to find the very faint sound of wheezing, “there it is. why don’t we take a break?” he suggests, hands moving to your hips to slide you off his lap.

you push back against him with a little defiance, “i’m quite comfortable where i am. it’s not often i get to be in this position.” the words were innocent enough -- meaning you hadn’t been able to pin matt to the floor for the past hour as he kept winning. however, the words lit a fire in matt’s mind, and thought back to the pleasurable rounds of intimacy you had over the past week, and it was safe to say, you were right.

“i agree, it’s not often you are on top.” he observes, smiling softly as he hears the sound of blood rushing to your cheeks and the way your heart speeds up in the slightest. he tilts his head, hands rubbing gentle circles at your hip bones before he’s ever so slightly rolling his hips up to brush his building erection against your core.

the action throws you off guard, a needy moan leaving your lips has you feeling embarrassed as you attempt to scramble off his lap. yet, his hands hold you in place, “was this what you planning on? getting me into this position so you could be on top?” he teases from his position under you, jutting his hips up to brush against yours. this time more deliberate in his actions and actively grinding you down against his cock.

you moan out, hands bracing against matt’s chest as your hips move on their own accord. the bruising grip on your hips just pressing you down further. your clit catches the seam of your leggings, sending you into a mewling fit as matt’s hands guide your to rut against him faster. then, there’s a pause, before a silent agreement is made and then a slight rush as you quickly slide off matt’s lap, kicking off your gym shoes and the leggings and panties you had on. matt’s sweatpants pulled down far enough to free his throbbing cock.

you settle back atop him, hand wrapping around his length to jerk him a few times before hands steadily guide you to hover over his cock. holding you in place until the head catches your entrance before slowly guiding you down until your fully seated and flush against his pelvis. a shared, broken moan fills the gym as your hands rest back against matt’s chest. a deep breath as you adjust to him, hips rolling experimentally as you stretch around his cock.

matt waits for you to move, letting you set the pace before his hands come to rest at your hips to help guide. the pace is slow, hips rolling as his cock drags along your walls, taking time as your clit brushes against his naval.

sucking in a breath when you squeeze him, nails biting into the flesh at your hips in efforts to keep himself from taking over -- after all, you won this fair a square. yet, it doesn’t stop him from jutting his hips up to meet yours, slightly throwing you off rhythm. you raise a brow his in direction -- not that he can see.

“come on, angel. i know how bad you want to come. so, why are you drawing it out?” he purrs from the floor, gulping down his words with a light curse as you tightly squeeze him again. you decide in that moment to take pity on him, rolling your hips with a little more speed, matt’s hips thrusting up to meet your hips, driving himself deeper into you.

you whimper, chin dropping down against your chest as instinct takes over, hips moving on their own accord just chasing after the high building in the pit of your stomach. matt groans below, hips sputtering as he feels you tighten around him, squeezing him like a vice before he’s spilling in you with a low moan, feeling your own orgasm wash over the two of you as he strokes himself a few more times to empty himself fully.

your arms give out, slumping against matt’s chest with a grunt. knees hurting and thighs straining from the position. hands glide along your back, coaxing you back to a normal breath before caressing your face, “that was quite the workout.” you mutter against his shoulder, earning a deep chuckle from the man below you.

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spectorings · 3 years

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This is terrible, and quickly written with no proofreading but I’m so horny for these two men and I needed to write this. It ended up being waaaaay longer than intended and like??? It’s just bad and it reminds me why I literally can’t write actual imagines or fics and why I write headcanons instead lol

COMPLETELY NSFW HORNY SHIT - SEX AND THREESOME TYPE SLUT STUFF PLS (it’s about Chris Redfield and Piers Nivans)

Fuck, just imagine having sex with Chris, him slamming into you and you biting down on the inside of your cheek to desperately stay as quiet as you can so no one hears. Chris behind you, one hand pulling your hips back towards him so he can get as deep as possible, his other hand around your throat, pulling your head back towards him. He’s groaning in your ear, telling you how good you feel around his aching cock, how long he’s been waiting to fuck you senseless. Then out of nowhere, Piers walks in to ask his captain something, only to see his captain screwing the brains out of you. He stands in shock, just staring at you both like a deer in the headlights, you look up embarrassed but you can’t get any sentences to form as Chris just continues slamming into you mercilessly. Instead of Chris freaking out or stopping, he asks Piers what he wants but Nivans has completely forgotten, he’s just staring at you instead, his cock getting harder by the second as Chris pulls you back to be sat in his lap, giving Piers a full view of your naked body. Chris signals for Piers to come over, to help him make you cum, and sheepishly, Piers agrees.

Imagine he walks over, his hardened bulge clear as day pressing against his trousers. Chris stopped moving inside of you and has an arm wrapped around your waist to stop you from desperately bouncing on his fat cock. Piers stands in front of you, not exactly knowing what to do, and you just hear a slight chuckle from behind you - Chris pulls out, to your dismay, and he pushes you to your back, pulling one of your legs to the side so your slick pussy was on full show to the young man in front of you. You quickly looked away and felt a large hard grab your chin and force you to look back towards Nivans, “why don’t you give her a taste, Nivans?” Piers gulps, not being able to tear his eyes away from your glistening cunt, your slick covering even the inside of your thighs. He slowly gets down on to his knees and wraps his arms under your thighs and places his hands on your hips, pulling you forwards toward him. Without giving you a chance to even move, he’s already tasting you, his tongue flicking across your sensitive clit, moving in circles before he pushes his tongue into your hole. You throw your head back and let out a low moan, subconsciously grinding your hips against his face to have more contact, as you do Chris latches on to one of your nipples. He roughly sucks on your nipple and rubs his tongue over it a few times like an apology before doing it again, his hand rubbing up toward your other breast, and rubbing your sensitive nub between his finger and thumb. You instinctively pull on Chris’ hair, yanking at it without any thought, the pleasure just too overwhelming. As you do, Piers takes advantage of your distracted mind and pushes two fingers deep inside of you while his tongue continues working miracles on your clit.

Piers pushes his fingers as deep as he can, searching for that soft spot inside of you that would make you crumble in an instant, without searching for long he finds it and makes fast work of moving his fingers against it. Your legs squeeze against his head as you begin feeling that all familiar knot build up in the pit of your stomach, your legs start shaking and your breathing becoming more unsteady. Chris notices and one of his large hands come up to your throat, lightly squeezing the sides, just enough to make you barely light headed as you cum everywhere. Piers groans against your cunt, licking up your juices like it was the only meal he’d eaten in the last week, he slowly pulls his fingers out of you and licks them clean before looking up to you. He’s breathless and Chris just looks down towards him, noticing how clearly and unbearably hard he still is, and all Chris does is nod. “You know, you should probably sort that out” Nivans looks down and palms at his cock through his trousers and shudders, he looks up at you and you bite your lip, spreading your legs further apart as an invitation. Piers gladly accepts unbuckling his belt and making quick work of pulling off his trousers and boxers, his cock finally springing free. Chris moved back out of the way slightly, allowing Piers to climb over you, the head of his cock resting against your entrance as his head rests in the crook of your neck. He finally pushes in you, and he let out a loud groan as he did, gripping to the mattress below you. He slams into you at a quick pace, barely able to control himself as your gummy walls squeeze around his pulsating cock, he bites lightly on your neck as you moan loudly into his ear.

After not even five minutes of Piers fucking into your pussy, Chris sighs and leans down, giving you a few light kisses before giving you a little smirk. Chris lightly palmed at his cock, still being hard from being inside of you not long ago. He rubbed his hand down the side of your body towards your arse as you lifted your legs to wrap around Piers’ hips. Chris had a glint in his eye and you and Nivans both knew exactly what he was hinting at, without missing a beat Piers pulled you up to him so your chest was pushed against his, making your arse fully bare to Chris - who in one fluid movement was behind you, his chest pushed up against your back…

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touyasdoll · 3 years

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Dreaming

Follow up to this drabble.

Minors DNI

Pairing: Denki x reader

Warnings: car sex, daddy kink, unprotected sex, biting

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The sun had quickly tucked itself beneath the horizon, leaving just the stars and dimmed, yellow streetlights to light your way. Denki fumbled with the keys in his hand once you found his car in the sea of vehicles outside of the concert venue.

It didn't help that you were standing behind him, kissing along the part of his shoulder that was exposed beneath his tank top while your hands roamed to the front of his shorts, rubbing gently at the base of his cock. He swallowed hard, clearing his throat as he suppressed a groan, frantically clicking the unlock button before throwing the back door open and sliding across the seat, taking your hand in his to pull you inside and straight into his lap.

He reached over to pull the door shut before capturing your lips in a frenzied kiss and resting his hands on your ass to give it a firm squeeze as your knees fell on either side of him. You carded your hands through his hair, giving it a gentle tug while you rolled your hips on top of his. He pressed your hips down, shifting his hips upwards to meet yours as a low groan left his throat.

"I'm not dreaming, right?" He chuckled between kisses, his hands wandering up your sides to pull at your tank top until your bra was exposed.

"No," you giggled quietly, reaching back to unhook your bra while you sucked on his bottom lip, nibbling on it gently while he helped you shed the garment, leaving your breasts completely exposed for him to massage in his grasp. "But if this was a dream," you moan, arching into his touch as his mouth closes around your nipple and you cradle the back of his head. "What would you want to happen?"

"Mm," he closes his eyes, tongue toying with the sensitive nub, one hand pulling gently at the other while his other hand slips back over your ass and he looks up at you through his lashes. "If this were a dream? I'd already be inside you, baby."

His lips connect to your neck, tongue roving over your heated skin as he kisses and sucks and you keen, tossing your head to the side as you pant and run your hands over his chest, undoing his shorts in a hurry.

"What're you waiting for then?" You tuck your fingers into the waistband of his boxers and he's quick to lift himself off the seat, allowing you to free his leaking cock. "Fuck," you marvel at his length as you spread the precum on his tip along his shaft, stroking his cock languidly. "You're gonna stretch me out so good, aren't you?" You smirk, kissing along his jaw to his neck, sucking on his pulse as his hips buck into your grasp.

"Fuck yes I am," he sighs, hands scrambling to undo the front of your shorts while you grasp his shoulders as he spins you to the side, laying you down to hunch over you while he peels your bottoms off.

“Fuck me, daddy,” you whine, toying with your clit as you spread your legs wide. “Please..”

“Oh my God. I must be dreaming,” he shakes his head, leaning over and diving between your thighs while he pumps his cock, moaning between your folds while he takes a generous taste of you, tongue pushing it's way inside you while his nose nuzzles against your throbbing clit.

"Shit," you groan through gritted teeth, pushing your fingers into his hair to lift it away from his face as you watch him greedily lap at your core.

He slips his middle finger inside, tongue laving against your clit while you clench around his digit, tossing your head back and shifting your hips forward, fucking yourself on his finger.

"You really want it, huh, baby?" He murmurs, kissing your sensitive bundle of nerves while he grins up at you, adding a second finger.

You nod, mouth hanging open, brows knit together as you throw your hips forward faster while he kisses and nips at the skin along your innermost thigh, his moans vibrating through his lips.

"C'mere," he sits up, curling two fingers at you and you comply, tossing your leg over him as you sit up to straddle him.

He holds your hip, his cock pressed between the two of you, keeping you in place while he tucks a finger beneath your chin, holding it under his thumb as he looks into your eyes.

"Hey," he speaks quietly, a gentle smile on his lips. "I know things are moving a little quick right now, but I don't want you to get the wrong idea. I really like you. I'm not trying to just hit and quit it, okay?"

It takes a moment for his words to permeate your lust-adled brain, but your eyes soften when they do and you rest your hands on his neck, swiping your thumb along his jaw as you search his gaze.

"I'm not trying to do that either," you smile softly, "I really like you, Denki."

"Really?" His eyes light up, full of hope and excitement that melts your heart.

"Really," you nod, a breathy laugh leaving your lips as you press them to his.

His fingers press into the flesh of your hips as he sinks you down onto his cock, groaning into your parted lips while you keen at the stretch before claiming his lips again, moving them more needily against his while you roll your hips, letting your arms drape around his neck.

The windows fog, the cab of the car becoming thick with the smell of sex and the tension of young love, avidly being explored in the easiest way there is to navigate it.

His hands are all over you, mapping out every dip and curve of your frame while your hands dig into his shoulders, your new favorite set of handlebars, as you ride his cock, burying your face into the crook of his neck as the pressure between your legs builds and builds and builds, so close to crumbling as you whimper in his ear.

He slips a hand between you, his middle finger swiping back and forth against your clit while he coos in your ear, "You gonna cum for me, beautiful?"

You don't get the chance to respond before you're gushing in his lap, shaking in his grasp as his arms close around you, holding you in place against his chest while he leans back and thrusts up into your, wanton groans and grunts echoing off the clouded glass windows until he pulls out, his cock slapping against his abdomen as it erupts, spilling his seed onto his sweat-slicked skin.

"Still think you're dreaming?" You smile against his shoulder, pressing a kiss to it as you lean back.

"Yes," he chortles, still breathless as his hands slide up and down your thighs. "I'm not the brightest bulb, but I know enough to recognize that you're outta my league."

"Shut up," you shake your head, pushing on his shoulder playfully as you sit beside him to gather your clothes and start pulling them on. "I uhm, I was thinking though, if maybe you'd like to just come back to my place? I'm sure Mina wouldn't mind giving Kiri and Kats a lift if you wanted to just head there now?"

"I'd like that," he nods, lifting his hips up off the seat to pulls his boxers and shorts back up. "If you're sure?"

"Oh, I'm sure," you grin, leaning in and kissing him sweetly as you turn to face him, sitting sideways on the seat while you chew on your lip, looking him over with adoration in your eyes. "I'd really like to spend the night with you, if you'd be willing to stay. Maybe we could go for a round two?"

You lift a brow, dancing your fingers along his collarbone and he perks up, "Yeah?"

"Maybe a third or a fourth," you shrug nonchalantly, a sweet smile on your lips as your watch your fingers glide across his skin and briefly glance up at his electrified eyes. "Whatever you're up for."

"I'm up for losing count, baby," he chuckles, pushing his hands into your hair to pull your lips to his, kissing you deeply. "I'm up for whatever, long as you're there."

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monako-jinn-stories · 3 years

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Captain Rex X Fem!Reader Fanfic

Underneath the Poncho

I’m back from my mental health hiatus. Again, thank you to those who noticed and reached out, your messages were so kind and sweet. I can’t be more thankful to know such amazing people <3💜

This one goes out to my love @megafrost4 I know you love Rex and you’re an amazing friend, and I also know you were excited for this one😂

Master List

Warnings:

Adult age+, lemon, finger stuff fem receiving, mouth stuff fem receiving, p in v, trying to get past the tag ban

You’re sitting on your couch, watching an old holovideo when you hear the bedroom door open. You don’t pay much attention to it, figuring Rex was just wandering out to join you or grab a snack. Your eyes stay on the screen as Rex makes his way over. His hips are swaying, and he has a smirk on his face. He stands in front of you, cocking his hip and placing a hand on it.

“Well, hello there, Captain,” you say, your eyes leaving the holo screen to look at him.

“Hello, mesh’la. I have a surprise for you under this,” Rex says, briefly swishing the poncho that was covering his form. You let your eyes trail his covered body, noticing he wasn’t wearing long pants underneath.

“Ooh, can I see?” you ask, subconsciously licking your lips as you meet his gaze again.

“Yes, but first, I want to give you a show,” he says. You nod eagerly, biting your lip as he steps forward. He turns to the side, meeting your gaze as he slowly drags the poncho up. You watch intensely as he reveals a hidden garter straining around his thigh. It’s 501st blue, and made of very delicate fabric. You reach a hand out, wanting to pull it back and snap it against his skin, but he pulls away and tuts at you.

“Didn’t I say this was a show, mesh’la? You can watch, but you can’t touch.” You can’t help but let out a slightly annoyed huff at his comment, but you settle back into your seat to watch. He turns again, this time facing away from you. You watch hungrily as he slowly reaches up and pulls the poncho all the way off of his body, and you gasp when you see what he’s wearing. It’s a full lingerie set, and he’s never looked more delicious to you. You have to snap your mouth shut to keep from drooling over him, and you press your legs together to push down the feeling that was already building in your core.

“Maker, Rex,” you breathe out, and you watch his shoulders, those strong, broad shoulders, shake with a laugh.

“Like what you see?” he teases, and he looks behind to see you nod. “Well, I think you’ll like the front as well.”

“Wait,” you say quickly, and he gives you a questioning look. “I haven’t looked at that ass enough yet. Like, wow.”

“I know, right?” he chuckles, giving it a playful smack. You watch, wishing that it was your hand smacking it, but you patiently sit there and enjoy the show for him.

He slowly turns around, and you let out a whine when you see how strained everything is. You swear you see strings tearing apart as they try to secure his chest, and his length is barely contained by the tiny lace fabric.

“Rex. Rex, baby what made you buy this?”

“I thought you might enjoy it,” he says, throwing a smirk at you.

“Enjoy it? Enjoy it? Rex, that’s by far the sexiest thing you’ve ever worn,” you respond, bringing your legs together tighter and shifting slightly. He takes notice of your action, and chuckles again while stepping forward.

“How sexy is it, mesh’la?” he breathes out in a deep, sultry voice. “How does it make you feel?” You nearly crumble under his gaze, legs instinctively spreading for him as he closes the distance between the two of you. Your head tilts back as he leans forwards, his hands resting on either side of your head. His face is close enough to yours that your noses nearly bump, and you can feel his hot breath fanning over your body. Somehow, you manage to find your voice through this silent torture.

“How about you lower a hand and find out how it makes me feel,” you breathe, and he groans in response. He leans forward to connect your lips and moves a hand down to your core. He lets out another groan as his fingers meet the slickness that has been building ever since you laid eyes on him.

“Mesh’la,” he says, slowly dragging his fingers through your folds, “if I would have known this would be your reaction, I would have bought this ages ago.”

“Rex, baby don’t say that,” you whine.

“I thought you liked it, mesh’la?” he says, pulling back slightly. You quickly grab him and pull him back, grinding into his hand.

“No, Rex, fuck, I love it. But Maker, if you would have worn this before…kriff I don’t think I could have handled how hot you are.”

“Oh really?” he says, finally sliding a finger into your entrance. You tighten around his digit, and he breathes in harshly.

“Fuck, I just wanna…”

“What, mesh’la? Use your words,” he says, slipping another finger in. You moan out as he curls them and begins to reach deep, already trying to chase your orgasm. His fingers expertly find the right spot and pace, and you grip onto his arms tightly.

“Rex, fuck, please…can we-can we move?”

“Where to?” he asks, keeping his fingers busy, lewd sounds filling the room.

“Ju-just let me lay down,” you gasp out, trying not to let your words turn into moans. He pulls away, depriving you of his fingers and letting you shift before he crawls on top and smirks down at you.

“You know, I’ve felt how this makes you feel,” he says, dragging his fingers through your folds again, collecting up the slick. He slowly brings them up to his mouth and sticks them in, groaning as he sucks them clean.

“But now I want to taste how it makes you feel,” he says. His fiery gaze meets yours and he doesn’t look away as he lowers his head to be positioned between your legs. He gently runs his hands up each one before tossing them over his shoulders. Still not looking away, he leans down and drags his tongue slowly over you, groaning as he tastes you.

You can see him fighting to not let his eyes roll back or close, you can see that he wants to watch your reaction, and so you let your head fall back as a soft moan leaves your lips. He drags his tongue over you again, pressing his face closer to your core.

“Fuck you taste great,” he mumbles, swiping his tongue over you again. Your hand instinctively goes down to hold his head in place, running through his short hair as you rock your hips up. He groans into you when your nails start to dig in, and his own hips grind forward.

You lift your head and watch his small but desperate movements before meeting his eyes again. You feel your cheeks heat, and you try to look away but he reaches up and grabs your chin, keeping your eyes on him.

“Now now, sweetie, keep watching,” he mumbles against your skin, “this is still a part of the show.”

“Rex,” you cry out, the heat from your cheeks spreading over your body as his tongue prods at your entrance. He pushes his tongue deeper, his nose rubbing against your clit as well. The extra noises he makes send vibrations rolling over your body, causing you to tremble in pleasure. You dig your heels into him, your nails scratching again. He ruts his hips again, still desperate for attention to his own sex, but not yet finished with his meal of you.

Rex slips his tongue out of you then, dragging it up until his mouth is over your clit. When his lips wrap around the bud, his hand that isn’t occupied with holding your chin moves to shove two fingers inside you. You moan out loudly again, hips rocking up as he sucks on your bundle of nerves. His skill is undeniable, he drags you ever closer to your orgasm with every circle of his tongue, every pump of his fingers.

You try to say something, anything, wanting to give him words of encouragement, but all that comes out is moans and mewls for him. Your only sign to him to keep going, to keep fucking you like this, is your hips rolling up and heels trying to drag him closer. Your mind is a haze, and you can’t comprehend anything except his actions.

“You gonna cum for me?” he says, only briefly stopping his assault on your clit to ask you the question.

“Yes, Rex. Please, keep going! I’m so-kriff so close!” you respond, your hand holding him close. He hums in response, his lips wrapping around your clit again. His tongue gives a few flicks over it before his teeth gently graze over, and that mixed with his fingers curling into that perfect spot has you crying out and spilling all over him. Desperate cries of his name fill the room, and your body trembles as the waves of pleasure consume you. He finally lets go of your chin, and your head falls back as your chest arches up.

Only when you feel as though you’ve ridden it all out are you able to look at him again. He’s giving you a smug look, using a finger to wipe up the mess around his face before sucking it clean.

“I make you taste pretty good,” he says, sitting back as you catch your breath. You just feel your cheeks heat slightly, before they burn as you lower your gaze. You can see a dark stain on his bottoms where his bulge is. You can’t tell if it’s just precum, or if he finished untouched. He notices your gaze, and looks down as well with a smirk.

“Something you want?” he asks, palming himself through the fabric. You push yourself to sit up, reaching forward only for him to grab your wrist.

“Sweetie, mesh’la, what have I been telling you?” he asks. “This is a show. You get to watch, not touch.”

“But Rex,” you whine, licking your lips as you let your gaze flick down again. “I want to feel your cock.”

“Oh, trust me, sweet girl,” he says, grabbing your other wrist and taking them both in one hand. “You will.” With that, he leans forward and uses his one hand to pin your wrists above your head. He moves the fabric covering his length to the side, and he springs out before you.

“Maker, I finished once already untouched,” he says, using his free hand to work himself back up, “but I think I still have more than enough to fill you up.” You moan at his words, legs spreading for him as he lets his eyes roam over your body, only to flick up to meet your gaze at the sound you let out. His smirk grows, and his hand gives a few more pumps to his length.

“You like that, mesh’la? You want me to fill you up? Stuff you full of a Captain’s cum?”

“Fuck, yes Captain. Give it all to me,” you say, and he leans forward, dragging his tip through your folds and gathering your slick onto himself. He covers his entire length before he nudges your entrance. He looks up at you, and you nod. He slowly pushes in, not stopping until he’s buried himself deep inside you.

“You okay?” he asks, running his hand along your hip.

“Yeah, I’m okay,” you respond, bringing your legs up to wrap around his hips. He lets out a deep growl, his eyes squeezing shut as the new angle buries him deeper.

“Fuck you’re so tight,” he breathes out, his jaw clenching hard.

“You look like you want to bite something,” you say, knowing you were playing a dangerous game. His eyes snap open, the darkness taking over any color as they’re blown out with lust. He narrows them then, snarling before leaning down and pulling out, only to snap his hips back into you in a harsh trust as he bites your neck.

You cry out at the actions, both sensations sending different feelings throughout your body. His tongue immediately runs over the spot, soothing it while he keeps up a rough pace with his hips. You desperately want to reach around to grab the back of his neck, keep his mouth against your skin, but he won’t let go of your wrists.

“Rex, I want to hold you,” you whine, hands fidgeting in his grasp.

“You can hold me later, mesh’la. When we’re done, I promise you can hold me all you want.”

“Rex, please,” you beg before gasping as you hear his deep breathing right next to your ear.

“I’m in control, mesh’la,” he growls deeply, and you can’t stop the tightening your body does around him. Your legs seem to pull him closer as your walls clench around his length. He stops thrusting in favor of grinding and rolling his body against yours. The sudden new friction to your clit sends a shock over your body. He reattaches his mouth to your neck, marking you up and soothing the delicate skin. His spare hand moves to toy with your breasts, taking a nipple and rolling it between his fingers.

“That feel good?” he says, giving it a tug.

“Yes, baby, it does,” you agree, “but your mouth would feel better.”

“Fuck, you’re right,” he breathes out, pulling back to look at you. He pulls out then, and you groan in protest at the loss of his cock.

“Mesh’la, I promise I’ll give it back,” he chuckles, running his hand over your thigh, “but let me do this first.” You just nod, and he kisses you briefly before moving his head to your breast. You watch as he starts to lick around your nipple, careful not to touch your hardened tit. He circles the other one with his finger before he pinches it, simultaneously wrapping his lips around the other and sucking on it. Your chest rises into him in reaction, and again you want to hold him against your skin, but his grip is unrelenting.

“Shit, Rex,” you sigh, his mouth switching breasts as he changes hands.

“Hmm?” he mumbles, the vibrations tickling your tit. You don’t respond, not with words, as another moan falls from you in a gasp. His teeth graze over you before he moves slightly, releasing your tit from his mouth to nip at your skin, immediately soothing it with his tongue. He does this a few more times, planting the bites across your chest. Though he is the only other person besides yourself that will see them, he can’t help but mark you as his.

Although you love when Rex enjoys himself, you begin to grow impatient. You squirm a little under him, trying to signal that somewhere else needs attention. He peers up at you before his lips turn into a smirk and he chuckles against your breast.

“What’s wrong now?” he asks, depriving you of all touch except for his hand on your wrists.

“Rex you know what I want,” you say, bucking your hips to try and reach him. He just chuckles again before sitting back.

“Let’s try something different tonight,” Rex says. You nod, and curiously watch as he finally lets go, only to position himself almost out of your reach. He then reaches underneath both of your thighs and lifts your legs up, propping them against his shoulders. Slowly, he aligns himself with your entrance, and with your new position, he has perfect access to your hole. Groaning as he easily slides in, Rex bottoms out before looking down at you.

“Now, I’m going to go a bit rougher than normal, okay? Just tap my leg three times if you want me to stop. Or say Skywalker.”

“I hate that safe word,” you mumble while rolling your eyes.

“Well, it kills the mood, doesn’t it?” he teases, and you can’t deny that he’s right. Rex gives a few testing thrusts in this position before setting his pace. His thighs slam into the back of yours as he does as promised. This is the roughest he’s ever been, and your loud moans spur him on. The room is filled with noise, moans leaving both of your mouths and skin slapping against skin echo throughout the small area.

One of your arms flies back to keep your body from inching towards the armrest, and the other holds your breasts as he slams into you. Using one arm, he holds your legs against him while his other hand reaches down and starts to toy with your clit. Your thighs squeeze together in response, and a deep groan falls from his lips.

“Kriff, do that again mesh’la,” he says, and you squeeze your legs back together. “Yes, keep them like that. So…tight…”

“You like that, Captain?” you tease, and he lets out another deep groan that rumbles through his chest.

“Say that again,” he growls through clenched teeth.

“Yes, Captain,” you say, and in the next second he’s letting go of your legs and allowing them to fall back down. His body is next to fall as he lowers himself, your chests pressed against each other as his hands hold the armrest behind your head.

“Oh, Captain,” you whine as one of your legs wraps around his waist. Your arms wrap around his back as well, and you feel his muscles tense when you use his title.

“That’s right, mesh’la,” Rex says, his pace still not slowing from the earlier position. “Maker, I’ll have you screaming that name before I’m done with you.”

“Please,” you cry, and he changes his angle only slightly, but now his thrusts have him grinding against your clit again.

“I’m gonna cum,” you warn, earning another deep growl from him. It sends vibrations throughout your body as it rumbles in his chest.

“Ask nicely, mesh’la,” he says.

“Please, Captain Rex, let me cum.”

“Oh, fuck mesh’la. Yes, cum. Cum with me, now!” Rex responds. Your body tightens with his permission, only for the coil deep within your core to snap seconds later. Your nails dig into his back as he roughly grinds his hips into you. You both cum like that, chests pressed together, bodies as close as you can get them. Rex grips the couch behind you, biting into your shoulder as you scream out in pleasure underneath him.

After a few more lazy thrusts, fully riding out your releases, Rex stills and lifts himself up slightly. He smiles softly down at you, giving you a gentle kiss while wiping away the few tears that slipped down your cheeks. He then sits back, pulling you into his lap as he does. He holds you close, rubbing your back soothingly for a few silent minutes as you both regain your composure.

“You better wear this all the time,” you say, breaking the silence and tracing the lace around his body.

“It’ll only last a few more times,” he chuckles, and you shrug as you touch the ripping threads.

“Then I guess I’ll just have to buy you more sets.”

“Hmm, I think I’d like that,” he says, turning to give you another soft kiss before burying his face in your neck. “I love you, mesh’la.”

“I love you too, Rex.”

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blu-joons · 2 years

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Crisis Talks ~ Yoo Taeyang

You didn’t quite know where to look as usual when you came home to see that Taeyang had already arrived. Neither of you said a word as you walked through the house, both doing everything that you could to pretend that you hadn’t noticed each other and carry on as if you were living in your own little worlds together.

It had become the norm for the two of you, placing distance between the two of you wherever you could. The last conversation that you’d had was something that you couldn’t even remember anymore because of how long ago it was for you both.

Everything around you was slowly crumbling down, and you had no idea how to build it back up. It was almost as if you had a stranger living in your house, someone who was there, but not someone who you had any sort of relationship with.

As you made your way into the kitchen to start looking around, everywhere was bare. It represented the two of you perfectly, and as you made your back into the living room, you felt a blank expression looking back at you on the face of Taeyang.

“I ate out with the boys tonight,” Taeyang told you, not worrying about dinner for himself.

“Of course, you did. When don’t you?”

Taeyang’s eyes widened as he heard you mutter under his breath, “excuse me for having friends that want to eat out with me.”

“Excuse me for thinking there was the tiniest bit of hope that we could eat a meal together,” you retorted, “as if that would ever happen though given the way we are.”

It didn’t even surprise you that the first time you actually talked to Taeyang, you were at each other’s throats in seconds. You couldn’t remember things being any other way, it scared you at times how normal it felt these days.

“The way we are we could eat on other sides of the world and not care,” you added.

You carried on mumbling hoping for something from Taeyang, but he gave you nothing. The most he did was fold his legs as he sat on the sofa so that he could turn his frame away from looking in your direction, finding it easier for him to pretend as if you weren’t in the room rather than entertain anything that you had to say.

It felt like you were living in disbelief, struggling to understand how a relationship likes yours survived. You weren’t even sure if you could call it a relationship anymore, the two of you were just existing because you had no other choice but to stick around.

“Would you rather I lived on the other side of the world?” You pushed Taeyang, refusing to back down against him. “Would it be easier for you if I just shut myself in the spare room and had nothing to do with you? Life wouldn’t be so much as a chore for you then, would it?”

He slowly turned around to look at you, letting go of a sigh. “I never said that any part of my life is a chore, so don’t go putting words into my mouth Y/N.”

“Your face gives it away Taeyang. Every time I come into a room you look strained and fed up, as if you don’t want me there.”

He thought he had managed to hide his expression well, but you had caught onto it just about every single time. Each time was like the knife being forced further and further into your back to remind you just how unwelcomed you were.

He remained silent, feeling your eyes continue to stare across at him. “Even just talking to me is taxing for you, I mean what’s the point of any of this anymore?”

“It’s not as if you want to talk to me either,” Taeyang replied to you, watching as your head shook back at him straight away.

You had tried several times but got nothing in response. No one could blame you for losing the effort, for stopping in your attempts to get something from Taeyang when every single time you got nothing in reply.

He knew that he had messed up again though as he watched your eyes roll. “I don’t want to be like this Y/N,” Taeyang found himself calling out, throwing his arms up in despair as for once, Taeyang showed just a tiny bit of enthusiasm.

“Then why aren’t you trying to change anything that’s going on between us?” You called out back at Taeyang, “why are you doing everything in your power to make things worse?”

A shrug of the shoulders followed from Taeyang, knowing that he had lost his way. Like you, he had no idea where things had suddenly started to go so wrong, unable to even recall what the problem was that started you both on your downward spiral.

“I don’t want for the two of us to separate,” Taeyang whispered as you took a few steps into the room. “I want for us to make this work so that we can go back to how we used to be, this isn’t the way for any couple to survive or live either.”

“Why now?” You asked him, “what’s suddenly clicked for you?”

“You, or losing you,” Taeyang sighed.

You weren’t quite sure if you were hearing him right as you ran your hand through your hair nervously. “It took you this long to realise that I wasn’t happy Taeyang, that I didn’t want things to be like this?”

“I thought it would just go away,” he admitted in reply to you, “but now I know that it’s not just going to go away.”

“This is too big just to go away,” you sighed.

“I know,” Taeyang assured you, inviting you to take a seat down on the sofa beside you. “Maybe I just didn’t want to face the fact that we were a failing relationship, I’m not too sure, but one thing I am sure of is that I want to fix this.”

For the first time in a long time, you found yourself believing what Taeyang had to say, even just hearing his voice felt like a bit of a first for you. He sounded exhausted, it was no excuse, but you understood it at least.

“I wish that things were like they used to be Taeyang, that we talked with each other and enjoyed our time with each other,” you told him. “Little things like sitting down and eating dinner with one another used to be the norm for us, I still can’t really remember when that started to not be a thing for us.”

“We can work on all of that,” he promised you, “with a bit of time there’s nothing stopping us being the couple that we used to be. We might not be perfect straight away, but if we both want to move on from whatever it is that’s going on between the two of us right now, then that’s a start, isn’t it?”

“I mean I know that I want to heal our relationship,” you sighed.

Taeyang nodded, understanding that you still had your doubts. “I do as well,” he quickly spoke up though, trying his best to assure you. “I know that most of this is my fault, you kept trying and I stopped, but I want to prove to you now that this is something that I want, you and I together, not apart.”

“This is a start,” you lightly chuckled, “at least we’ve been able to be in the same room for more than five minutes.”

“We could probably stay here for at least five hours with how much we have to talk about,” Taeyang joked back at you.

Your head nodded in agreement, “there’s a lot of air for us still to clear Taeyang.”

“I know, but we’ll get there. I know we will.”

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helliontherapscallion · 3 years

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Surprises (Sweet Betrayal Part 2)

Part 1 Part 3 Part 4

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Warnings: swearing, alcoholism, abuse (physical and mental), depression, suicidal thoughts

Word count: 3,587

A dash of madness is what’s needed to get things done. It was the thing that caused Manberg to rise from the ashes of its terrible leadership prior to Schlatt, and it was going to be the thing that fixes the aftermath of the meddling of your ‘brothers’. At least that's what you thought on the matter.

It was a bit hard to form rational thought when reminders of your brothers were everywhere. The buildings that stood populating the city were built by them. The dents and scratches on the wood of the stage were caused by them. Your bloodstain on the concrete was caused by them. The burn scar that took up half of your face and the now clouded blind eye was caused by them. You couldn’t even look in the mirror without being reminded of them; it was like they followed you everywhere you went. Tormenting you with every step you took. With every breath you took you were breathing in the same putrid air they breathed. The air would be purified once you were done with them.

The only person you actually trusted nowadays was Schlatt. Oftentimes he would yell at you in a drunken rage, telling you that you were useless and undeserving of love. His words hurt you unbelievably, but he would always apologize in the morning. He had hit you occasionally leaving bruises and a fear of anybody moving too fast, but he had always apologized to you so you brushed it off. He was the first person that had shown you actual love after all. He was still the loving man he was before the presidency.

He would do the same to your other father Quackity. You both comforted each other after he would do that. He confessed to you one night through tears that you were the only thing tethering him to his marriage with Schlatt. It was something you couldn’t understand; why would he ever want to leave Schlatt when he would apologize to you two every single time? It wasn’t like he could control his alcoholism. It had a grip on him that he couldn’t shake.

You weren’t there when Quackity had killed Schlatt, as you were roaming the streets of Manberg at the time, but you were there when he ran into you in a panic.

You were walking past Niki’s deserted bakery with a skip in your step and a smile on your face. The sight of the broken glass and the looted remains of the building took away most of the stress that living in and governing Manberg brought you. The citizens and the cabinet had grown distrustful of you and Schlatt, making it hard for you to get any work done. You had taken up most of the responsibilities of the presidency due to Schlatt falling off the deep end with his alcoholism and truth be told everything was stressing you out. You needed to keep smiling, you’re never fully dressed without one.

You came to a halt in front of the bakery, your hand reaching up to graze the scarred skin on the right side of your face. The once relaxed smile that gently stretched your lips turned strained. ‘Don’t cry, you’re never fully dressed without a smile!’ A soft voice sang in your mind, his light laughter reminiscent of happier times. He would not be happy with the path you’ve taken. Oh well, you liked who you were now; he just needs to put up with it when you see him again.

Your thoughts were interrupted by something, or rather someone, colliding with you. You were about to fall onto the glass-strewn pavement before someone caught you and pulled you into a tight embrace. You couldn’t see who it was, but their jacket smelled like a mixture of blood and cologne. Their shoulders were bouncing as they sobbed into your shoulder. Papá?

You felt his wings embrace you fully, much like they did during the festival. You awkwardly rubbed his back until he calmed down enough to pull away from you. His eyes were bloodshot and puffy, face blotchy, and a swollen lip graced his face. Your dad was probably just drunk again.

You tried your best to smile at him gently, the smile threatening to falter. “Papá? Is Dad drunk again?”

“We have to get you out of here, mijo.” He tried to grab your hand to pull you with him but you moved it out of the way. You needed to know what was happening. You didn’t like not knowing what was happening.

“Why do you have blood on you, where are you bleeding?” Schlatt’s never made you or Quackity bleed before, so this was new. He was probably drunker than he usually was.

You watched as his dark brown eyes flicked down to his bloodied hands and clothes before they flicked back up looking more panicked. “It’s not mine. C’mon, we need to get out of here.”

This time, he firmly grabbed your hand and started to pull you towards the borders of Manberg. Towards Pogtopia. You weren’t ready to enact your plans for the brothers yet, so you dug your heels into the ground. That didn’t stop the man, in fact he pulled you close to his body and spread his wings to take off into the cloudy sky. Before he could, you pushed him away.

“Papá, who’s blood is it?” You already knew, your voice was shaking and the smile had completely faded. Surely, he couldn’t be dead again, right? Quackity’s face told you all you needed to know. Schlatt was dead.

Swallowing past the lump in your throat, you whispered “what happened?”

“He- it doesn’t matter. Come with me, I’m leaving this place,” he spat out the last word with hatred. “It isn’t too late for you, Pogtopia-”

“Pogtopia? You’re seriously going to that pathetic excuse of a ‘country’?” You barked out a somewhat forced laugh, the smile finding its rightful place on your face. “Are you stupid? Why would you ever leave a nation as prosperous as Manberg?”

“Can’t you see? Look around you, this nation’s crumbling under Schlatt’s rule! How is that ‘prosperous’?”

“Did you hit your head or something? Our nation’s thriving under Schlatt’s leadership!”

“He isn’t even fucking leading! All he’s doing is getting drunk off his ass having you do all the dirty work! He’s using you, (y/n).”

“Shut the fuck up Quackity,” he flinched back slightly at the use of his first name being thrown about, “Dad’s the best thing that’s ever happened to me and you, you’re so stupid to just throw him away when he needs us the most.”

He put his hands on your shoulders and gripped them tightly to avoid you ripping yourself out of his grasp. He looked you dead in the eyes with the most sincerity you’ve ever seen from someone. “(Y/n), we tried to help him. We did our best, but he’s too far gone. He isn’t the person we knew; the presidency no, this nation, changes people. If you stay, he’s gonna… You have to come with me to Pogtopia. Your brothers-”

“They aren’t my brothers.”

“-Wilbur, Tommy, and everyone else that used to live in Manberg is on their side. You’ll get killed if you stay.”

You tilted your chin up and looked down at him with cold eyes and your signature smile. “Then so be it. I will see to it that anyone cowardly enough to run when things get the slightest bit tough will be taken care of,” his grip on your shoulders loosened for a moment in shock at your words. That was all the time you needed, you ripped yourself out of his grip and turned to walk away leaving the devastated man in your wake. You stopped and turned your head to look at him through the corner of your good eye, “I suggest you run as far as you can, P- Quackity. It would be a shame if I had to kill you if you stayed a second longer. Get the hell out of my nation, traitor.” With that you turned back around and started walking again. After a few seconds, you finally heard him move.

“I’ll be back for you, I promise. I-I love you, mijo.” You heard the ruffling of feathers and the batting of wings behind you as he left Manberg. The smile on your face was wobbly and weak as tears started to slip out of your eyes. You took a second to compose yourself before you broke off into a sprint towards the White House, passing a few Rutabagaville members and Badlanders stopping to look at you in confusion. Your dad needed you.

After that, you slowly began to question Schlatt’s words, especially when he was drunk. Now that you paid attention, he never said that he loves you anymore. He only had you do his work, the only things he would talk to you about anymore was about the upcoming war and how useless you were as he berated the paperwork you had no idea how to do. There were no more talks about how you mattered, no more side hugs, hair tousles, or soft headbutts, nothing. Maybe he was using you after all.

So here you were, standing in front of his office with a shaking hand hovering over the oak doors. The smile on your face was incredibly forced, feeling painful for holding it for so long. Just as you mustered the courage to knock on the ram hybrid’s door, it swung open to reveal the hybrid himself.

Your father was swaying on his feet as he looked at you in surprise, “I thought I gave you the night off. Ender, can’t even get your own schedule right? Why’re you even working for me?” You could smell the alcohol on his breath and it reeked. You shrunk in on yourself slightly eyeing the bottle in his hand. The last time he yelled at you he smashed you in the head with it. You forgave him obviously, but it left you with fear whenever you saw a glass bottle in his hand. It happened only last week shortly after Quackity left. The gashes it left on your face and head were still healing.

Since Quackity left and he went through yet another death, Schlatt had become more irritable, paranoid, and violent. He started yelling at and hitting you more, crying and begging afterwards for you to forgive him. He promised that he’d never do it again, but he always did. You always forgave him in the end because he was the only one that loved you and the only one that you actually talked to anymore. You craved any type of physical touch from your adoptive dad at this point, you didn’t care if it was violent or not. Any touch was a happy touch.

“I’m sorry for disturbing you Dad, but I was wondering if you wanted to hang out with me tomorrow for my birthday.”

“Birthday? BIRTHDAY?” He barked out a drunken laugh, his words slurring together. “You want me, the leader of a nation during a fucking war, to take a second off just because of one day that never should’ve happened?”

You fiddled with your fingers and shuffled your feet, struggling to keep the trace of a smile on your face. You couldn’t lie, that one stung a bit. If you didn’t know any better, you’d compare it to how you were treated at your previous family’s home. You’d never compare Schlatt to those cowards though. He was far better than them. “I’m sorry Dad, but I just thought that I’d celebrate it this year, I’m turning six-.”

“Awe, is it gonna hurt your wittle feewings if I told you that I don’t care? Wake up, (y/n). We’re in the middle of a war. We don’t have time to celebrate anything. You and I are working tomorrow. Now get out of my face before I fire your sorry ass for unprofessionalism and misconduct.”

“Okay, goodnight Dad. Love y-” before you could finish, the door was slammed in your face. You could hear him laughing and mumbling incoherently to himself from behind the thick oak doors. Sighing, you turned around and walked straight into your office. You took out a rope from your desk drawer and stared at it blankly.

It’d be so easy to off yourself again. If you made the noose properly unlike last time, your neck would snap and you’d be killed immediately instead of slowly suffocating. No one would stop you, no one would care. Schlatt would. He loved you like you were his biological kid. You fantasized that as you were about to jump off your desk that he’d open your door and attempt to apologize before he would realize what was going on and comfort you. He’d hold you like he did before he won the election telling you that your life mattered. You’d give anything for that to happen, but in the deepest darkest corner of your mind you knew that it’d never happen. He’d just drown himself in alcohol not realizing what’s happening in the room down the hall. Hell if anything, Karl would be the one to find your hanging corpse as he had a meeting with you first thing in the morning.

Besides, you had to live to carry out your plan to murder Tommy and Wilbur. You obviously wouldn’t be able to kill Philza or Technoblade because the former is immortal and the latter is, well he’s Technoblade (though you have been talking to Dream more lately. Maybe you could ask for a favor). That didn’t worry you; they’d probably kill you on sight once they’ve heard that their precious boys have been brutally murdered by you. You didn’t care if they killed you afterwards, your mission would be complete. It’d be a devastating blow to the family (if you could even call it that at that point, it’d be just father and son), something that’ll take them a while to recover from.

You put the rope back into your desk drawer and curled up onto the couch you had in the corner of your office. Wrapping yourself in the blanket you kept in a filing cabinet drawer, you quickly passed out.

The next day felt just like another day. You woke up, put on your suit, and started on some paperwork that you had to complete before the end of the day. You didn’t feel any different, it was just another day of trying to keep this nation afloat during wartime while juggling two jobs at once. Schlatt was right, your birthday was just another day. You felt silly for confronting him about it last night. It was stupid of you to do, all you could hope now was that he’d forgive you.

A knock on the door made you look up and plaster a smile onto your face. “Come in.” Karl’s messy mop of brown hair came into view before he did. Like usual, he had a dopey grin on his face and was wearing that ender awful hoodie. You hated that hoodie, it was unprofessional to wear in such an important government building. It looked like he was wanting to say something, he looked slightly anxious. Looking back down at your work, you quickly reorganized it. “Good morning, Mr. Jacobs. I’m assuming you’d like to walk and talk?”

“How-”

You walked over to him with a smile, “I can read people’s body language pretty well. Now let’s start our meeting. It’s not like we have all day.”

You both walked through the halls of the White House talking about what you usually talked about in meetings; progress reports, the extent of which Pogtopia is expanding, and brainstorming ideas on how to take the rebelling country down. The entire time he was casually throwing around jokes of which you would reply with a ‘stop messing around’ and quickly reel the conversation back in. Eventually, he stopped dead in his tracks in front of a spare room you and Schlatt used for storage. It was relatively empty inside with the exception of a few boxes.

“Karl, why have you stopped? We still have much more to discuss before our meeting’s over.”

“Open the doors.”

“Wha-”

“Just do it! You’ll like what’s on the other side, I promise.” You eyed his excited smile suspiciously before you sighed, “fine, I guess I’ll entertain you just this one time. Don’t expect me to-” you cut yourself off as you saw what was behind the door.

Grinning faces stared back at you. Each member of the Badlands and Rutabagaville were in the cramped little room. Well, it was cramped for Bad and Sam with their heights, the rest of them fit just fine. In Bad’s hands was a homemade cake with neat letters printed on the top in your favorite color. It read ‘happy 16th birthday (y/n)!’.

You were frozen as Karl put a hand on your shoulder and gently nudged you inside the room closing the door behind him. You stayed frozen as they started to sing happy birthday to you, Karl and Sapnap competing to sing the highest note at the end of it. You stayed frozen as they looked at you expectantly waiting for you to blow out the candles.

“Well? You gonna blow out the candles, gem?” Skeppy gestured with a hand to the cake, the flames’ light being bounced off his ridgid skin in a slight rainbow.

“I-I don’t- We don’t have time for this, we’re in a war. I’ve got a lot of paperwork to do-”

“Nothing’s gonna happen if we celebrate for an hour,” Sam gently told you, “the paperwork can wait.”

“Yeah, you’re still a kid; you deserve to at least have an hour dedicated to you on your birthday,�� Ant told you.

You stayed there looking at them skeptically, you remembered how they looked at you during the festival. However unlike their looks of fear and disbelief they all wore during the festival, they were looking at you with warmth and empathy. You honestly didn’t know what to do, you haven’t celebrated your birthday since… well since him. By Ender, you missed him.

“C’mon, imagine the fire is your enemy! Blow em out! Blow em out!” Skeppy chanted, the others joining in with encouraging smiles. Bad looked like he wanted to scold them for trying to pressure you, but he eventually joined in as well placing a giant clawed hand on your shoulder with a gentle smile and a nod towards the cake.

You hesitantly leaned forward and blew the candles out. The plumes of smoke that drifted off from the burnt wicks reminded you of the cigarettes Schlatt would smoke. The men in the room cheered with Ant gently patting your shoulder and Karl, Sapnap, and Skeppy cheering the loudest. Sam was clapping and giving you the most genuine smile you’ve ever seen from the creeper hybrid and Bad put his hand on your head and ruffled your hair. You could feel your forced smile turning genuine as you felt a warm joy bubble in your gut and spread through your body for the first time in years.

“Good job, muffin! What’d you wish for?”

You craned your neck to look up at the demon in confusion, “I was supposed to wish for something?”

“Yeah! Haven’t you done this before?”

“No, can’t say I have. Am I supposed to wish for something now or am I too late?”

“It’s never too late, muffin. Go ahead, wish for something,” Bad gave you a small smile. You nodded and stared at the cake intensely raking your brain for something to wish for. The only thing that you truly wanted was for Tommy and Wilbur to finally die and for Technoblade and Philza’s lives to be ruined. That was the only way you’d be happy, so you opened your mouth only to have a frantic Skeppy cut you off, “no! If you say it out loud, it won’t come true!”

“Alright, I’ll keep it to myself then.”

After you ate some cake (it’s been a while since you’ve had the sweet, it was tastier than you remembered), you tried to glance at the clock only to be blocked by Ant, “relax, Schlatt’s out today. You can spend as much time here as you want.”

“He’ll find out, my Dad’s been stressed lately. I-”

“Kid, you work your ass off twenty four seven. You’re almost never out of your office.”

“Language Sapnap! But… he has a point though. You need a break. You shouldn’t have to worry about this kind of stuff, you’re still a kid.”

“Loosen up a bit! I’ll put on some music, what do you usually listen to?” Karl grinned widely at you gesturing to the jukebox in the corner of the room. You saw some records laying around on top of one of the boxes. It looked like there was a full collection of them.

“I don’t usually listen to music. I don’t really have the time for it, but uh, you can pick out anything as long as it’s not Cat or Mellohi.” You hated those discs with a burning passion. It was like you could still hear the muffled medlies drifting through the walls in your childhood home.

Once Karl put on a disc, some fast paced harmonized notes sounded from the machine.

“Let’s fuckin party!” Sapnap shouted.

“Language!”

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Sunrise (10)

summary: After an explosion takes his arm and his only sense of belonging, Bucky is content to live out the rest of his days in the hollow comfort of the dark. This is, until Sam drags him down to the local VA and he meets you. (Modern AU) pairings: bucky x reader chapter word count: 6.9k warnings: smut (18+), angsty angst, this time I dont leave you with a cliff hanger 😉 🧡 series masterlist / series playlist

“Come on, Bucky! I know you’re in there!”

You hit your fist on the door again. Perhaps you would have been more mindful of the the hour, but you’d heard glass shattering as you raced up the stairway just moments ago. You’d heard him shouting himself hoarse and heavy footsteps as he paced inside his apartment. You’d heard the cracks in his voice – the consumption of grief and fury and shame swallowing him whole.

One of Bucky’s neighbors had rung Sam the first time Bucky’s screams could be heard through the thin apartment walls. It was the fifth time in as many nights and Sam promised Bucky would get it under control before they went to the landlord with noise complaints. He made no such promises that he would be the one to do it.

An elderly woman in a nightgown peeped her head out into the hallway, scowling at you as you continued pounding on the door. Her beady eyes narrowed and you only spared her a moment’s glance before you returned to the door.

“I’ll wake up the whole building! I swear to—”

The door was pulled from under your fist. In its frame, stood a ghostly version of the man you knew. Dark circles hung heavy under his eyes. His hair was disheveled, blood dripped from a cut in his palm. Behind him, furniture was turned on its side, glass on the floor, magazines and unopened mail littering every surface. He'd torn his place apart.

“What are you doing here?”

You swallowed, forcing your voice stronger than you felt. “Sam called me.”

Bucky’s grip on the doorknob tightened. “Of course, he did.”

He paused only for a moment before he turned his back to you and walked inside the apartment. The door was left open in his wake and you took it as permission to enter.

Cautiously, you took your first steps into his apartment. You tried to ignore the dust lining the curtains and the fleeting thought wondering when the last time he’d allowed the sun to touch his skin. The latch clicked behind you and you winced at the intrusion to the silence.

Bucky meanwhile was staring out into the mess of his living room. His gaze rested on the couch turned on its side, then to the box of trinkets spilled on the floor by the mantel, then the broken glass by the window. His shoulders sagged; his expression unreadable. Slowly, he knelt down to the edge of the couch to flip it back on its legs.

You watched him carefully, not uttering a word or daring to move closer until he finished. Once the couch was right side up again, he exhaled a tired breath and leaned against the edge. Exhaustion flickering through his eyes, though you suspected it had little to do with the exertion of moving furniture.

As Bucky moved to throw the cushions back to the frame, you realized suddenly how he was dressed. Plaid blue pajama pants hung low on his waist. Bare feet prodding over hardwood floors too close to where broken shards of glass waited. His chest was exposed; skin glazed in the dim glow of moonlight as it peered through the small slit between the curtains.

You could see his shoulder blades move along his back as he tensed. The lines of his spine and the dips along his hipbones. When he turned to face you again, your eyes were drawn to his shoulder and the frayed mess of scar tissue and burns. It was mesmerizing, the intricate patterns and the markings on his skin. Pink and red and faded with time. You wondered if it still hurt, if he could feel the nerve endings there or—

Your gaze flickered back to Bucky’s. He was watching you, barely taking a breath. So vulnerable as he stood in front of you and he had no time to prepare for it. He probably didn’t realize how exposed he was until he noticed you staring. You’d imposed on his home, on his space. He couldn’t have known he’d be confronted with this tonight.

All the effort it took for him to simply remove his jacket and now he was left standing before you without a single layer to protect him.

You could see the doubt swimming behind his eyes. No matter how hard he tried to pretend like this connection between you was something he could easily push away, like he could let go of it without much of a second thought or a single word in his own defense, you could tell he was ripping himself apart at the seams, wondering whether you found him as repulsive as he saw himself to be.

He shook his head, his features hardening over again. He gripped at the side of the couch until his knuckles turned white.

“You should go home,” he said, breaking the silence. His voice was thick as gravel. “Sam shouldn’t have bothered you.”

“Shouldn’t have—?” You scoffed, stunned. “Bucky, look at this place!”

“I’m fine,” he replied flatly and you almost laughed if it weren’t for the deadpanned look upon his face.

“You’re clearly not fine!” You dared to take a step closer, aching to remind him of the lightness he carried weeks earlier, only for him to retreat. He rejected the contact on instinct – a flinch throughout his whole body. Your heart clenched as if a hand had slipped in past your ribs and squeezed until it burst.

Your breath was tight in your lungs as you tried again, a little softer this time, “you’re not fine, Bucky. You’ve kept yourself held up – alone – in this apartment for days on end. You’re pushing away the people who care about you. You’re not sleeping. You... You look like you’ve been through hell.”

Bucky’s jaw was clenched so tight, you wondered if it might shatter. His gaze was unfocused, staring down at the floor by your feet.

“You don’t have to put yourself thought this,” you eased, though the tension would not fade from his muscles. They remained locked as stone. You inched forward, a hand extending to him, an anchor to ground him. “Bucky, please... let me help you.”

Something snapped – as sudden as a rubber band pulled taunt until its breaking point – and Bucky’s cold eyes met yours.

"There is NO helping me!” he roared, startling you enough to flinched back a few paces, your hand curling back against your chest protectively. He curled his shaking hand to a fist. “I can't escape this shit! Even when I thought I could—when things were finally bearable again and I had a reason to get out of bed in the morning and I actually wanted to live through the fucking day— it all came back anyway! One word and I’m right back to where I started! I’m a fucking nightmare to be around! Don’t you get that?!”

His breaths were coming in ragged, too quick. His cheeks were flushed, his eyes red. He hit his knuckles against the edge of the couch, on the wooden frame under the spine. Bucky barely took in a full breath.

“I can’t keep my shit together and I’m -- I’m only going to hurt you, okay? You shouldn’t want anything to do with this. I—I mean, look around you!” He kicked at the glass near his exposed feet, angry tears burning on his cheeks. “This is what my life looks like! Is this—is this what you want for yourself? You really want to sign up for this? This—this fucking endless parade of night terrors and panic attacks and anxiety? Huh?”

He was brimming with pain. It was spilling over the surface and coating the floor. You were drowning in it and all you wanted to do was cross the room to him, to hold him, to soothe even an ounce of that suffering away because it would consume him whole if he let it.

Bucky’s right hand was shaking so badly, tremors wouldn’t cease even as he clenched his fist. His body betrayed the stone he etched into his features. It was crumbling under the weight.

“You really want to throw away your life for that? For me?” he spat as if the very idea itself carried venom in its implication, as if it were nothing more than a fool’s errand to spend a lifetime by his side, as if choosing him would be choosing to tie a noose around your neck.

You’d never seen the evidence of his self-loathing before—not in full view and smothering the man you adored. He was expecting you to recoil, to run, to fight and argue and ultimately accept that you could never love a man so broken. It was a reaction he could wait a century for and still never find even a glimpse of hesitancy on your features.

You steadied your breathing. Focused on the heart of the man standing in front of you, determined to push past the destructive fog he’d surrounded himself in. You took a step toward him, and this time, he did not run.

“You’re not going to scare me away, Bucky.”

Shame quickly spread through his body, replacing the threads of anger with something much crueler. His eyes fell to the floor, his chest rising unsteady and he stumbled back a few paces to give you space from the rage he wasn’t able to control. He looked about a decade younger as his features softened again, cowering back into the shadows.

“I’m not going anywhere,” you eased, daring another step.

Bucky shook his head, reflective lines along his cheeks. His lower lip was chewed raw.

“You don’t deserve this mess. You should—You should be with someone whole. Someone who can give you a better life than I can.” He could barely choke out the words.

“I don’t want someone else.” You took another step closer, determined to close the space between you. “I want you.”

The tips of your fingers brushed against Bucky’s hand and a shiver cast up his spine. His eyes were transfixed on your touch as you slowly encased his hand in your own, easing the tension through his body and crumbling the stones in his chest with a gentle slide of your thumb against his palm. He started to sink against it, his whole body caving in to the very thing he’d been keeping at an arm’s length. He was suffering withdrawal.

“You don’t know what I’ve done,” Bucky whimpered, tears slipping past his eyes as he shut them tight, as if he could cast away his demons if he were blind to their shadows over his shoulder.

You tugged gently on his hand, pulling him down to the couch. He followed you easily, his body moving of your accord as if he were made of clay. When you wrapped your arms around his shoulders, you felt the slight tremble along his spine, the shakiness in his bones. His head laid against your heartbeat, his right arm snaking around your waist in fear of letting go.

“I don’t need to know what happened. I don’t need the details,” you sighed against his ear. “I know you. I know you’re a good man, Bucky.”

Bucky was quiet for a minute. The silence hung thick in the air.

“What if I’m not?”

You tried to ignore the twist in your chest. “Oh honey, please don’t say that.”

“I lost eight people, Y/n,” he muttered out, holding onto you a little tighter. You could feel his heart pounding as you raked your fingers through his hair, hoping to ease him if only a little. “Eight of my unit. My friends. If I... If I had said something sooner... We were sitting ducks and... and...”

It was impossible to draw the pieces together. You couldn’t see the vivid image he held in his mind, but the details of that day weren’t necessary. He trusted you enough to outline the frame, to provide glimpses into the worst day of his life, even if they were messy and blurred. His body shook as he spoke, like maybe it was the first time he was saying the words aloud.

You ran your fingers along his spine, drawing patterns along his shoulder blades. He shivered.

The gentle glow of the moonlight caught the reflective edge of something on the floor. A medal. A Bronze Star. You pressed a kiss to his forehead, remembering what Natasha had told you about its merit for exceptional bravery.

“Were there any survivors?”

Bucky held his breath and slowly he nodded. “He was... He was just a kid when it happened. Peter. I think... I think if it wasn’t for him, I would have died out there. I would have given up. Woulda been easy enough. My arm would have bled out pretty quick and the sky... the sky was so beautiful that day. I don’t know why I remember that. Not a cloud for miles. It would have been a nice last thing to see, you know? I would have been okay with that. But Peter... Peter was so young and I... I wanted to bring him home.”

Tears were openly streaming down your face and you were thankful Bucky couldn’t see them as he laid against your chest. You tried to stifle the sob as it broke through. You kissed at his hairline again, holding him as tight as you could manage.

“You saved his life,” you stressed, hoping he might be able to hear it.

Bucky swallowed, tears brushing against the thin fabric of your t-shirt. “I lost eight others.”

“Yes, you did.” There was no disputing that. Eight lives had been lost and he was grieving his friends, his team, blaming himself for each life he didn’t save. His body tensed and you were mindful to draw pressured lines along his back to ease the rigidity there.

“You did everything you could, honey.”

Bucky shook his head. “No, I could have... I—I should have...”

“Some things are just outside of your control.”

“But I—”

“It wasn’t your fault.”

Bucky froze, the recognition present in his body as he slowly lifted his head from your chest. “That’s....” He blinked a few times. “That’s what Sam always said. Those exact words.”

You smiled, brushing the hair from his eyes. You wiped your thumb along his cheekbone, drawing away the tracks of tears on his face. “Sam’s a smart guy.”

Bucky searched your eyes and you could tell he was wondering how you’d come to know Sam’s mantras, how they’d become words you often repeated to yourself in your darkest moments, but he couldn’t quite find a way to ask. He pulled himself from your lap and propped himself up beside you, your hands intertwined. He squeezed it lightly and an aching smile pulled at your lips.

"Sam used to have to write it on paper for me,” you admitted at the bittersweet memory. “I couldn’t say it to myself and he figured if I could read it in his writing, maybe I’d believe it if it were coming from him. After a while I started to say them out loud and hearing it my own voice... I don’t know. Sam kind of tricked me into healing, I guess.”

You laughed under your breath and you felt Bucky ease slightly beside you. He squeezed your hand again, a silent reminder that he was there. You focused on the feel of his grip, the callouses on his palms and the warmth of his skin. Real and tangible. Your Bucky.

“Sometimes I think Sam’s the only reason I survived after I lost Riley.”

A slight pinch formed at Bucky’s brows, his eyes narrowing—a subtle sort of curiosity, though he waited patiently for you to continue. The silence didn’t seem to frighten him as much as he focused on you, his eyes darted to your lip as you dug in your teeth.

You hadn’t let yourself be vulnerable next to Bucky before, afraid to take away from his own suffering in favor of your own. But you had known pain of a different kind.

You knew what it was to crave comfort, to silently beg to be held. You knew how it felt to be rejected by a man too shattered to offer any piece of himself away without breaking apart entirely.

The way Bucky was watching you, even through the dark circles under his eyes, the exhaustion pulling him in... it settled the twists of nerves in your stomach. His thumb traced at the edges of your palms, gentle sweeps to ease the tension away. His back straightened, a determination returning to his features, a sense of belonging – of purpose – in his comfort of you.

“He was a pararescue in the Air Force,” you continued after a moment and a flash of realization crossed over Bucky’s features. You pressed out a sad sort of smile as you said, “you remind me of him a little.”

You thought of the t-shirt you’d lent Bucky the evening you’d gotten caught in the storm together, how it clung to his chest. Bucky’s shoulders where broader than Riley’s had been. It was slightly bigger on your frame the next night you wore it. The logo had faded with constant washing, the soft green of the fabric muted to a grey. You’d worn it to sleep nearly every night for weeks after Riley left for his final tour, longer after he’d been killed.

It was the most cherished thing you owned. Lending it to Bucky that night had taken a strength you hadn’t allowed for yourself in years. It brought back memories you’d left untouched and an ache in your chest you’d forgotten. But somewhere, under it all, it had released you.

Riley would have liked Bucky, you thought, might have considered him a friend. You hoped he wouldn’t mind being the bridge that allowed you to move onto a new sense of peace, a new comfort. Even in Riley’s darkest moments, he only ever wanted you to be happy. You desperately hoped he meant that.

“I loved him so much,” you told Bucky, your mouth feeling suddenly dry at the admission, “but the war had hurt him beyond the scars on his body. Most nights, he woke up screaming. I tried... I tried to comfort him, to ground him back to what was real, but Riley was always so stubborn. He insisted he was fine, as if I didn’t notice the dark circles under his eyes or that he started drinking coffee in the evening before bed. He never told me what happened. I know he wasn’t trying to hurt me, that he was just doing what he could to hold himself together, but... the truth was, I lost Riley long before the officers showed up at his parents’ house.”

Bucky nodded, watching you intently, though he didn’t say a word. You could feel his eyes on you as you kept your stare ahead, focusing on the imperfections laced into the brick of the fireplace across the room. You studied the curve of the cement, the nicks in the mantel, the divots of the stone. It was the first time you’d uttered Riley’s name in years.

“I know you think I can’t handle this stuff, that it’s too much for me, but this isn’t the first time I’ve been around someone with nightmares, Bucky, or panic attacks,” you said, memories flashing over Riley sinking to the floor with his hands pressed to his ears, tears streaming down his face, images of him turning his back on you and disappearing for days on end. You had hoped he’d open up in enough time, but he never did. He couldn’t, he’d said, or it would consume him whole. Even years later, you still wondered whether it was under the weight of his pain that he suffocated, not in the prospect of its release.

“Riley struggled after his first tour,” you continued, a lump burning in your throat. “He... He came back different. He couldn’t adjust to civilian life. I could tell from the second he got home that he was itching to go back. Despite all the pain he endured, all the nightmares and the guilt, all he wanted to do was go back.”

You glanced over at Bucky to find his jaw clenched in understanding. It wasn’t an uncommon feeling, for soldiers who waited so tirelessly to be reunited with family and friends to feel isolated and insignificant when they returned home, to want to return to the one place they felt like they belonged.

“I tried to stop him,” you continued, wiping your eyes as unshed tears started to blur your vision. “I begged him to stay. He was out of his contract. He didn’t need to go back but...” You sighed. Bucky’s hand gripped yours and you drew on the ounce of strength he was offering. “The worst part was that he was better when he was over there. He was smiling again and laughing and making jokes like he used to. He was promising things for our future I hadn’t even allowed myself to consider before then. Being over there... it offered him something I never could and I was... I was glad for that. I was thankful he’d gone. I was... relieved. I’d missed him so much and I was just happy he was himself again, even if he was a world away, even if it broke my heart. Seeing him happy again... it was enough.”

You brushed at your eyes, the calloused touch of Bucky’s palm sliding along your jaw to gently wipe the wet from your cheek. His breathing was even again, the shakiness in his hands subsided. He waited for you to gather your thoughts again, not uttering a word in favor of the crickets chirping outside the window – unparalleled kindness in his patience.

You swallowed back the lump in your throat, urging yourself to continue. Your eyes met Bucky’s, finding comfort in the warm shades of blue and the encouraging glimpse of a smile that barely rose at the edges of his mouth.

“When Riley died, I blamed myself for a long time,” you said. “I told myself I could have stopped him from going back. I could have done more to convince him to stay, to get him the help he needed. I could have fought harder for him—for... for us. But Riley was his own person. He made his own choices and I couldn’t have done a damn thing to stand in his way. Sam helped convince me of that.”

Bucky’s face slacked. “That’s why you started volunteering at the VA.”

You nodded. “Sam and Riley were partners. They had some sort of pact to take care of the other’s family if something happened. Sam held up his side of the bargain whether I liked it or not. He dragged me to the open house that year and I haven’t left since. I do it for Riley, but... I don’t know... I think I do it for myself, too.”

You exhaled a heavy breath, turning away from the fireplace to face Bucky. His eyes weren’t as red as they had been, a frown no longer etched into his features. His gaze full, though heavy, and he watched you as if you carried the entire world in the palm of your hands.

“So, you have to understand... I can’t lose you to this war, too,” you choked out, squeezing at his hand to feel the firmness of it, to remind yourself that he was real and sitting right beside you and not an ocean away. “I won’t survive losing you, Bucky. I need you, okay? Please.”

He looked as though he was about to argue, but he quickly held his tongue as he watched the tears slip down over your cheeks. Reflective in the dim light from the window.

You took in a long breath, straightening your spine as you met his eye, your voice stronger than it had been since you started. “Not everyone comes home, but you did. You survived and you wandered into my life and somehow, you made me believe in love again. Even on your worst days, just being near you is the best part of mine.”

Bucky’s lips parted, a semblance of shock flashing over his eyes. You smiled at him through your tears, a hand sliding along the side of his cheek. He sighed against the touch of it, sinking into your embrace as if hadn’t ever expected to be held like that again. Your sweet Bucky, still so surprised that you could adore him as much as you did.

“So, I will take your nightmares and your panic attacks,” you told him, smiling through the trembling in your lips. “I’ll take your bad days and share the weight you carry on your shoulders. I’ll take every ounce of shame and self-loathing you have until the day comes you can hardly feel it at all. I’ll take the empty side streets with you and we’ll drive so far out into the country side we’ll never hear a firework again.”

Bucky chuckled at that, a smile pressing up along his cheek until you felt it under your palm.

“I will take anything you throw at me,” you sighed, your thumb brushing over his lips, “as long as you’re mine. As long as I’m yours. That’s all I want, Bucky. It’s all I ask. Just you.”

Bucky stared at you, a strange mixture of awe and disbelief on his features. You could see the hope burning behind his eyes, how badly he wanted to believe you, but doubt crept in and sunk its talons into his spine.

His smile sank. “You’ve... you’ve already been through so much. I don’t know if I’m worth all that.”

“You are.” You slid both hands along his cheeks, holding his gaze, until you leaned in closer, inch by inch, and pressed your lips to his forehead. Slow, lingering, you kissed his temples, his cheekbones, the tip of his nose, his jawline, pausing only when you found yourself a breath away from his lips.

“You are, Bucky,” you said again, brushing your thumbs along his cheeks and catching a tear in its path. He bowed his head, a slight trembling in his jawline. It took everything you had not to collapse into him.

“Honey, I promise you, it won’t always feel like this and I’ll convince you every day that you are enough, if you need me to,” you told him, your voice shaking as you held back tears. “I’m not going anywhere, okay? You’re not alone. Not now. Not ever again.”

You leaned forward to kiss the crown of his head and his whole body seemed to sink in response, lightening, as if he’d let go of a boulder strapped upon his shoulders. His muscles softened, the tension slipping from his spine, until slowly, he began to lift his head, hair parting away from his eyes. Though they were strained and red, a crystalized ocean current stared back at you.

You could feel the ease in his body taking over, a realization and a determination present in his stare, in his body.

His lips parted, a steady breath in. “I love you.”

***

It was the easiest thing he’d ever said; slipped from his lips as if the words had simply tumbled out on their own. Lost in how tenderly you touched him, how your hands never once left his body even as he held himself firm as stone, how you entrusted him with the most painful parts of yourself, how you gently coaxed him away from the shadows threatening to drag him back into a darkness he’d never recover from – he’d never been so certain of anything in his life.

“I love you,” he said again, just wanting to hear it one more time. His voice was stronger this time, steadier, and he could feel his cheeks curving up into a smile. It ached from disuse, but it was a pleasant feeling. A kind one.

He slipped his hand to rest on yours as it laid against his face and gently pulled it back just enough to kiss at your palm. It wasn’t often he found you at a loss for words, but it he didn’t mind the silence, not like he did before. He could still hear the slight hitch of surprise in your breath, the nervous laughter carrying in your exhale. You were smiling so wide, he wondered if it were even possible to love you more than he did in that moment.

“Really?”

God, you were so beautiful when you looked at him like that. Starry eyed and so full of hope.

He nodded. “Yeah. I do.”

You kissed him then, full on his mouth, arms thrown around his neck, and he had to stifle a laugh against your lips. He could feel the smile growing against him, laughing in between every kiss as the tears dried on your cheeks.

“I love you, too, Bucky,” you beamed, drawing him in to kiss him again.

He shouldn’t be surprised after all you’d said to him tonight, but it still fluttered in his chest, still caused butterflies to swarm in his stomach, still cast a blinding light deep into his heart that pushed out the remaining darkness lingering behind. His arm snaked around your back, holding you as tight against him as he could manage. He was breathless by the time you pulled away.

“Will you stay?” he asked, suddenly feeling nervous as his eyes flickered over to the bedroom door. “I know it’s a mess out here, but—”

Your lips were on his again and he swore he’d never talk again as long as you kept kissing him like that. Slowly, you began to stand from the couch, tugging him along with you. He pulled away from your lips just long enough to navigate his way to the bedroom, stepping over broken glass and the remnants of his nightmare on the living room floor.

His bedroom was untouched, at least. The sheets were thrown haphazardly off the bed, but other than that, it was pristine in comparison to the damage he’d done out there. A shame tried to work its way deep into his chest, but he felt your hand slip into his, carefully drawing him close to the bed, and it released him to your care.

His back bounced against the mattress in tune with the sweet sound of your laughter as you crawled over him. Thighs caging his hips, you straddled his waist and he looked up at you, certain he’d find a glimmering shine of a halo behind your head. The moonlight touched over your shoulders as you leaned down against him, kissing his lips.

He’d missed you so much. Those two weeks left him in a hole he couldn’t possibly dig himself out of on his own. He was scraping at the bottom, nails filled with dirt, digging himself deeper and deeper until he could no longer see the sunlight as it touched over the surface. It wasn’t until you jumped down into the pit with him that he noticed there were notches in a wall once perfectly smooth, allowing him to crawl his way back up to the top.

You leaned back a little, breathless, as your hands slid along his chest. It was the first time he’d been so exposed in front of you, the scars and burns on full display, and he was surprised that there was no hesitancy in your touch, no reluctance as you brushed your fingertips over the corners of the damage to his skin. But you paused, eyes flickering to him.

“Can I?”

Bucky sighed, his heart aching. You knew how difficult it was for him, for you to see this part of him. He hadn't even taken off his jacket once in the first few weeks of knowing you. But now, he nodded eagerly, wanting to feel the tenderness with which you handled him upon the broken remains of his left side.

Your hands slid up over his shoulder, brushing along the bumps and ridges in his skin. Hardened tissue and raised edges. The way you touched him, like he was something beautiful and adored, made his heart swell. It wasn’t until you leaned down to press a feathered kiss to his shoulder, just over the burn marks and the glimpse of what he’d lost, that he choked back tears.

“Is it too much?” you asked, noticing the trembling in his lower lip, but he quickly shook his head.

“It’s perfect,” he replied breathily, drawing you back to his lips. “You’re perfect. I don’t deserve—”

“Hush,” you warned, kissing him to cut him off, “don’t talk about the man I love like that. You deserve every ounce of love I can give you, you hear me?”

He stared at you for a moment, studying the sincerity on your features until the gravity of what you said sank in, and slowly, he nodded. It would take time to believe that, but he hoped the more you said it, the easier it would come. He’d believe just about anything if it came from your voice.

“Let me show you.”

Bucky stilled; his throat suddenly dry.

“Let me show you, Bucky,” you asked again, your lips against his neck. He shivered. You sucked at his skin, drawing a map along his collarbone. You tongue licked at the indent by his neck. “Please.”

When you met his eyes again, Bucky wondered if maybe you saw him with the same wonder and enchantment with which he saw you. It only took the slight tilt of a nod before you crossed your arms over your waist and slowly pulled your shirt up over your head. Your bra came next and Bucky shifted uncomfortably, realizing you were still straddling him, his hardening length prominent against your thigh.

He stared up at you, studying over the curves of your breasts, the dips in your hips, untouched and exposed – so incredibly beautiful.

He stopped himself as the thought entered his mind, the wondering whether he deserved such beauty in his life, wondering how he’d managed to trick the cruel twist of karma to allow him to love a woman like this – to love you like this.

He cast away the doubt, forcing it back to the shadows where it belonged. It was easier to do that when you smiled at him like that, like he was truly worth something.

You laid down against his chest as his hand slid up along your spine, feeling for the slight dip in your back and the goosebumps following in his wake. You shivered under his touch and for the first time, Bucky remembered what it felt like to be wanted.

He couldn’t stop kissing you, even as your hands slipped to his waistband. It was like you breathed new life back into him; reviving him with every touch.

He helped you push down the band of his pants until you could easily drag it down his legs and drop it to the floor by his bed. It had been a long time since he was so vulnerable in front of a woman, but he didn’t mind when you looked at him the way you did. There was no ounce of judgement in your eyes, no cautious glance to his shoulder and the absence there. There was only love.

You slipped the remaining clothes from your body and Bucky held his breath as you climbed over him again, straddling his waist, bare.

Bucky was trembling as he reached for the drawer at his bedside. Blindly digging around for a box in the back of the drawer, he felt for the edge of foil wrapping. He brought it to his teeth, careful to rip the packaging, though as he held it in one hand, he let out a heavy sigh.

“Would you...?” he asked, a blush creeping up into his cheeks.

He didn’t know why he was so embarrassed, given that you were both naked, but this was one of those things he couldn’t do for himself. It would have felt emasculating if it weren’t for how eagerly you nodded and how good it felt as you placed the condom on his tip and slowly rolled it down his base. He closed his eyes, sinking back into the pillow at the feeling, wondering how he was going to survive this.

“You alright there, honey?” you called, giggling under your breath and, damn, if it wasn’t the sweetest sound he’d ever heard.

“I won’t last long,” he admitted, his hand sliding up along your waist, thumb brushing over your breast. He tried to catch the whimper as it left his lips to no avail.

You smirked. “I think we’ve waited long enough. Don’t you think?”

You sank down on him and he choked back a moan, embarrassingly loud, but it only seemed to spur you on as you rolled your hips, giving him little time to adjust. You were so tight, squeezing around him, and – holy shit – when you dragged yourself against him, using him as you sought out the angle you were looking for, he’d never felt anything like it.

He held his breath, focusing on the ceiling as he listened to the sweet sounds you made as your hands curled against his chest, hair falling down into your face. He knew he wouldn’t last as long as he wanted— hell, he would have stayed in you like this for hours if he could have – and it was taking near everything he had to hold out long enough for you to finish.

Thankfully, you were just as riled up as he was – high on missing him, aching in the distance – and Bucky gasped as he felt your walls clench around him with the rushed circles between your legs. You picked up in pace and Bucky found himself meeting you half way, thrusting up into you as he braced himself on the headboard.

“Oh God – Bucky,” you whimpered, your chest falling down to his, unable to hold yourself up. He kissed your neck, his hand sliding from around the wooden of the baseboard to grip your hips.

If he could, he would have had a hand on your breast, teasing at the nipple, the other sliding down to the space between your bodies, rubbing circles on the nerves that left you so breathless you could hardly hold yourself up. But he was learning again, getting used to his body and his limits, and all he could focus on was holding you, guiding your hips, giving him leverage to fill you whole.

Judging from the sounds you were making, your body molding like puddy against him, you didn’t mind at all.

“I’m close,” you gasped, breath hot against his neck. “Ah, God, Bucky... I’m-- I’m--”

He could feel it before the words left your lips, the clench in your walls, the spasms in your muscles that left you weak against him, overstimulated as you pulled your hand away from your clit. Your cries gave him the permission he needed to let go, only a few more thrusts was all it took, and he shuttered as he came.

Breathless, hardly able to control the laugh as it bubbled in his chest, Bucky could hardly believe that he started this night in the darkest place he’d been in months, only to end up lying here with you, so full of light and love he could hardly stand it.

He didn’t let you go at first, just wanting to hold you a little longer. He felt the sweet touch of your lips as they trailed along his neck, smile brimming against his ear. Then slowly, you rolled off of him, gently removing the condom and tossing it to the bin. A shiver slipped up his spine at the touch.

“I’m sorry I pushed you away,” Bucky confessed as you laid against his chest, curling up to his side. He pressed a kiss to the crown of your head. “Don’t let me do that again, okay? I can’t stand to go another day without you.”

You smiled against his chest, your fingers tracing along the lines on his shoulder, touching over old scars and burns. You traced them as if they were simply lines on his body, just another piece of him worth loving, worth memorizing. He wondered if the next time he saw them in the mirror, he might remember this moment and see them for something more than the evidence of his loss that day. Maybe, he might see them the way you did – as evidence of his survival.

“I love you,” you sighed and Bucky felt his heart swell; it grew and expanded so wide inside his chest, he wondered if his bones might bend to make room as it split him so lovely at the seams.

“I love you, too.” He curled his arm tighter around your shoulders, drawing you close to his side. Over your shoulder, a cast of moonlight seeped in through the windows, touching over your skin, illuminating the room in a gentle glow. He closed his eyes as sleep drew him near, comforted by the patterns you drew against his shoulder.

When he fell asleep, he fell willingly – protected in your embrace, safe, from the nightmares laying in wake.

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