#they shouldve done it it would’ve been sick

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one thing i always wanted tmnt 2012 to do was pull an idw and have hun as casey’s dad

[samdyke]

top 5 scenes/episodes/arcs that deserved horriblebreakdownnatural go!

OKAY MICKEY I DID THINK ABT THIS A LOT and these are Not in any particular order but i have thoughts SO (below the cut bc its long)

1. sometime in s2 (after having met max for sure like seeing his powers be used for something violent & learning he also has psychokinetic abilities) sam shouldve had a full meltdown about his powers this is a PRIVATE MELTDOWN he goes to the woods or smth in the middle of the night and just loses it. full screaming at the sky “what the FUCK is HAPPENING TO ME” yes his psychic abilities would act up during this display and he would cause like. a crop circle or knock over trees and that would freak him out even more so hes like crying and trying to calm down because he’s terrified of what will happen if he Doesnt calm himself down. there’s a lot of choking down tears here because he just wants to be fucking normal, he tried so hard, and he has no idea what the hell is inside of him. he slips back into the motel before sunrise and dean never finds out about this one. like this post was Correct

2. okay this is SIMILAR but not the same hear me out. PRE swan song, as in the night between dean agreeing that sam can say yes and try to fling himself into the pit and it actually happening, sam shouldve been able to fully lose it. because holy fuck???? what the goddamn fuck is this? this breakdown potentially all happens at bobby’s house once again alone - he goes out to the scrapyard and looks up at the sky and prays to god to help him, asks why this is happening to him, why god wont do anything. please. please. there is, of course, no answer. this is sam’s last night as sam, and if things go well he’ll spend the rest of eternity locked in hell with lucifer; i think he’s entitled to a little screaming and crying and desperation

3. i gotta say like. fitz was right on the money with a post soul-fixed sam dean having a complete and utter meltdown like this. its just like......sam couldnt process for so long and dean was absolutely repressing everything for the year he lived with lisa and ben and to truthfully recognize what sam went through and everything.....horriblebreakdownatural MUST include both of them having a very late night hazy crying fit because once DEAN starts crying about how he never shouldve done it he shouldve said yes to michael or found another way sammy oh god you were so good im ao sorry you did it but i shouldve protected you i shouldve protected you then sam would also cry i think. they need this. its catharsis

4. i personally think dean should have had a breakdown after learning that mary was a hunter. not then and there in the past because goddamn no time (hah), but there’s no fucking way he would’ve been able to cope with thee mother mary, angelic perfect figment of comfort and home, the pure martyr for whom his entire life was ruined, was actually. a killer. a hunter. and she hated it. i think maybe he would be telling sam about it and it would hit suddenly and he would just feel sick, this is the kind of breakdown where you’re throwing up bile and you cant catch your breath and maybe youre crying?? but thats not the point its the absolute crushing weight and sickness when you learn that someyhing in your life has irrevocably changed in the worst way

5. cry harder repression boy: i want that tearful horrible painful breakdown from dean that we were all waiting for after despair. when he processes what cas said? and what that MEANS? oh i wanted the full breakdown here. this isnt something he can drink away because cas is fucking DEAD and cas loved him, he’s deaf Because he loved dean, like. i think that it would be jack asking where cas was that would actually seal this particular breakdown deal and dean would have to flee to go privately lose his shit which is of course not that private. think a prayer like purgatory 2.0 but 20x more desperate, which turns into threatening chuck because rage is the natural companion to grief

honorable mentions: sam after expelling gadreel (this would be horrible. imagining sam sobbing about killing kevin is genuinely making me ill), dean after leaving cas in purgatory (a prayer that turns to desperate painful screaming at the sky which sam hears but they never talk about), dean after getting cas BACK from purgatory (to cas), sam learning that he’s lucifer’s true vessel, at some point i think dean or sam shouldve had a car meltdown (u know screaming at the top of your lungs while barelling down the highway, crying, lots of obscenities).....theres def more but these simply came to mind. feel free to share w me your epic horriblebreakdownatural moment suggestions

[jjbablocklistcallouts]

The Blocklist: A essay (this is very long)

I know everyones sick of it at this point but I got shit to say so feel free to not read this absolute unit of a poorly written essay. The jjbablocklist divided their list into two different list now. One for creators and one for consumers/rebloggers and I cannot stress enough about how dumb that is since it shouldve been done since the beggining. Also, following alot of these artist and “consumers” of these medias, I noticed some of them are falsely accused, others while being minors. here’s why:

1. A lot of teens and young adults in the community like ships like GioMis, FuMis, NaraGio, MisTrish and plenty more and I know your singular shared braincell cannot handle the idea of 2-3 year age gaps not being pedophilia, but uh, newsflash for ya, THEY AINT. Legally, it is not a crime and that in america where the age of consent is 18, not in Italy where its 15 and not in Japan where its even less. Under the general United States Law, which is where I assume the list makers/defenders are mostly from, these ships are not classified as pedophilia or should be problematic and the ages of consent change to lower ages depending on state. The only way you can add these shippers for their “crimes” is if they promoted or created the interactions of these characters in a sexual or intimate manner whether they are aged up or not, which is still wack if their age is above that of the age of consent in writing/art and the fact that minors, in this case teenagers with the VA cast, are allowed to express themselves with people of their own age group in a sexual manner, real life kids do it all the time amongst themselves so why shouldnt people be able to create it, the whole ordeal is ridiculous imo BUT I can see how it makes a lot of people uncomfortable, a lot of it makes me uncomfortable too so we gotta make compromises somehow so absolutely no lewding the mafia lolis/ jojo lolis in general and if you do, tag it properly so it doesnt spread onto the basic hastags of characters and the show. If you dont you on the list.

2. Claim genderswapping/r63 is transphobic all you want but until I see clear and definitive proof of it being purposely made for that purpose then it’s absolutely ok. If someone makes it to offend someone then its wrong and they should be called out for it (which has never been the case in this fanbase as far as I cant tell) It’s creative, it allows people create new desings for characters or adjust current ones for cosplayers or other artist. Im sure one of your mods can relate, since the do the exact same thing as we do while not addressing a certaint character properly by their canon pronouns. Genderbending does not promote the attack or harrasement of the trans community and that is a fact unless its done by actual problematic artist like Sh*dbase and others, which is still a stretch because I dont think they’ve done it to target people or make fun of them but they are the popular problem icons. So get the actual transphobes on the list, aka those who created the content specifically to harras a specific person, or remove the catergory entirely. Its unnecessary and hypocritical.

— The rest of these are just things that bother a lot of people in the community so if you only cared about minors being on the list then you dont have to continue reading. —

Tumblr is infamously known to be a shitshow of a site where all you can find is problematic content. If you dont like this kind of content, why the hell are you here in the first place? There’s a lot of safer websites to use where like instagram, twitter, amino, facebook, and more. They have actual filters unlike tumblr and finding content you dont like is a lot harder unless you are purposefully looking for it, and even then it could be a challenge due to shadow bans or privatized accounts. Tumblr has none of that, everyone knows it, all of those who dont like it try to stay away from it or use it very scarcely. Why do you think that most of these “problematic” artist/creators/consumers are here? Tumblr has always been its own weird realm, trying to make it anything else goes against what it stand for.

You’re crimes make are literal nonsense sometimes because you include such obvious personal attacks like “Made a literal essay defending GioMis” and “All kinds of awful stuff” as crimes. You added a few account because they message you about how ridiculous the whole ordeal is and you take to findind the slightest bit of “evidence” that can aid you into making them look bad. You know thats not a good reason right?? Even if it were, yall are even more guilty for committing acts of Liable and Defamation and you are choosing to for those you incorrectly put on the list, invluding the minors! Let alone hypocrisy but yall are tired of hearing that one.

Dont add other fandoms into this mess. The Hetalia fandom has been dead for more than 5 years and it aint none of your buisness. It has nothing to do with Jojo. Unless you plan on making more blocklist for ALL fandoms then, goodluck, though make em better.

Jojo’s Bizarre Adventure is a wonderful and yet problematic series, guess who’s fault it is... its Araki’s. Created a hilarious nazi character, nah its the fanbases fault for roleplaying such a funny character. Pedophilia and rape represented in Jojo and not treated seriously, nah its the fandoms fault for romanticizing it. Homophobia as character traits and degradation of women in Jojo, pfft nah f a n d o m s f a u l t for painting such “false” representations of the characters. Ah, but yall wont drop Jojo cuz that kid your trying to control media for wont drop it either. It is not your responsibility to create a childproof community when the show already has heavy themes. Its their caretakers/parents or the childs own responsibility.

I despise the argument “well Jojo is a 17+ only show so no kids allowed!” you might be right, but has that really ever stopped kids from doing anything?? It does the opposite, it creates a sense of overwhelming curiosity which leads to venturing unkown territory which they may or may not end up enjoying. The problem lies wether young teens are mature enough to watch it or not and judging by this whole fiasco, alot of the people, teens and adults, involved are not.

YOU ARE NOT JUDGE JURY AND EXECUTIONER AND YOU ARE NOT ALLOWED TO POLICE A MEDIA YOU DO NOT OWN OR TAKE RESPONSIBILITY INTO DOING IT FOR SOMEONE ELSE

I will give you this guys this, theres a few artist and creators that do belong there, very few as far as I could see and read into and some are missing since they are mostly on twitter instead of tumblr. But hey, I managed to find like 12 accounts that I probably wouldn’t like seeing the content of, and I found a lot of good accounts too. A hell of a lot more.

I know Im harsh and a total loser but y’all really gotta do some damage control and think ahead. Merely ignoring the fact that your movement cause a floodwave of hatred, deaththreats and suicide baiting is disgusting, adress it properly, dont condone it. Cuz Im yall wouldnt like 200+ messages of “Kill yourself you of lowlife degenerate. I dont like your the disgusting trash you like so I hope you rot in hell for the rest of your life” It isnt fun, a lot of people have received these, some are even worse and a lot dont even deserve it.

Run the list correctly, its a good idea, it could’ve been handled way better than this and you guys know it. This would’ve been great for 14 year old me not stumbling onto a lot of problematic ships when I first looked up Jojo and it can help many children in the community in the future, but you are ruiling out a majority of the fanbase with such vague and pointless rules as regular shipping and creative freedom. You are demonizing people who like basic shipping and different character desings, and that’ll scare them because they dont want tobe hated for something they like. Because a few biased opinions decided to rule out that what the kids liked is morally wrong and irredeemable. Cuz thats all I can see on the list with the exception of maybe a 12 people on the list. Thats all the rest of the JJBA community sees.

[bibillyrusso-blog]

so today I finished season 2 and I've had a few hours to really think everything over. im sure in the coming weeks, ill have lots more to say once I rewatch it and talk to people about it. im gonna put my review under the cut bc lots of spoilers for those of you that haven't seen it. if you feel differently than me, thats totally cool and im down to chat about it with anyone so feel free to message me to talk. so lets jump into it.

lets start from the beginning. immediately I felt as if franks action were disingenuous because lets face it: frank castle would not just open up to some random woman and then proceed to have sex with her while wearing his wedding ring around his neck. the shots continuing to focus on the ring really upset me and made me feel unsettled because that isn't who frank is. 

overall, I think things like that are my biggest issues with this season. characters aren't acting like themselves. frank wouldn't hook up with some random woman and he wouldnt have killed billy that way. there were some scenes with Amy that had me scratching my head because it felt like it was a betrayal to who frank is. Dinah fell victim to this as well. I got very sick of people writing her off and treating her like she was crazy and invalidating her trauma. I think her character ultimately paid for that which didn't make sense. Karens late arrival also didn't make a lot of sense to me but I get it with the filming of daredevil interfering. and billy was a whole other and we will get there soon.

I also had a hard time really caring about pilgrim and his issues because I feel like he was haphazardly thrown into this mix to merely be a connector between frank and Amy and I just wasn't interested in him at all until the very last episode. I think if they wanted to include him, it needed to be further developed so I could at the very least understand him.

I think by far the worst part of this season was Krista dumont. this is excluding the issues I have with the actress that plays her. she was a giant waste of screen time and my energy. season 1 did an amazing job of creating these strong and interesting female characters that I could root for and identify with, even as they made mistakes. the addition of Krista ruined all that for me. she was another character I couldn't bear to give a shit about. and I could go on about how she's a bad person and a bad doctor and manipulated billy but really that isn't even my biggest gripe. its that there is this character who's purpose is to “fix” this very mentally ill man with her love which is just all around bad. not to mention that it makes no sense considering who billy is. billy can't be saved by love because if he could, he would've been by frank because frank is the only person he's ever loved. she enabled him and it was very frustrating to watch this very disturbed and sad man be ultimately destroyed and killed because she wanted a boyfriend and to “fix” him. I could go on about this for days but I won't because it only frustrates me.

lets talk about Billys death. that isn't what should've happened and its not what frank would've done. frank loves billy (which is a point that is focused on a lot this season as well as last) which is part of the reason why he can't kill him. and now we find billy in a place where he is hurting because he knows he has been hurt by the one person he loves but can't figure out why and he doesn't know what he has done. im sure people would disagree with me but while I don't think billy can be “saved” (duh), I think the moment between him and frank in the basement shouldve been frank telling him what he did and what happened and THEN putting him down. its the only thing that makes sense to me. thats a relationship I could talk about all day. 

I find myself worrying that even if this isn't the last season, frank won't get a happy ending and I just don't see an ending for him that makes sense except MAYBE with Karen but I know that can't and won't happen. 

Curtis was the emotional center of this season for me and I think him and Amy’s dynamic with frank really made it good for me and seeing frank as soft as he was with them (as well as Karen) made me happy.

overall I have mixed feelings because some things were good but there were a lot of glaring issues. we shall see how my feelings change overtime if they do at all. again feel free to come talk to me about this, my bf is so sick of me talking about it im sure LMAO.

[langsty-langst-lance]

Prompt: Lance is dying. The team want to save him. But no cure. Until they find an item capable of healing any disease. But little do they know said item is inhabited by a malevolent spirit. They mix it with Lance's food/drink, completely healing him... But now the malevolent spirit resides within Lance. And it can control him whenever it likes. By the time the team realize, it's too late.

This has been sitting here, completely done fOR SO LONG I AM SO SORRY OH MY GOD THIS TOOK WAY TOO LONG AND THERES NO WAY ITS GOOD ENOUGH TO MAKE UP FOR HOW LONG JT TOOK IT JUST SAT HERE AND I KNEW I SHOULDVE POSTED IT BUT I JUST NEVER DID AND I HATE MY SELF SO MUCH FOR IT I’m so sorry omg anyways, here, I hope you like it and don’t hate me for taking so freaking long

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Lance leaned against the wall gasping, his head dizzy and his whole body shaking. It wasn’t the first time, it happened quite frequently. After it had happened a couple times people started getting concerned. That’s when they did a scan on him using the castles fancy technology system only to realize he had managed to get infected by an old space disease, one that was rare and had varying affects on different races. On humans, the effects seemed to be catastrophic.

Upon learning of the disease, the team stuck Lance into a pod to see what would happen only for him to pop back out immediately; his cuts and bruises gone but his illness still there. So, Pidge decided to do some extensive research and found that the disease was fatal to most species and, considering humans seemed to be one of the weakest species they had met in space, it would be fatal to Lance as well.

Further research revealed there was no cure- you got it and you were doomed. Until Pidge found an old remedy that was often considered folklore. Legend said that it could cure any disease. It was from a rare type of plant. In order to get it, you had to take the root of the plant, smash it until it became liquified, then mix the juice into water and, viola, you were cured. Unfortunately, the plant existed on a total of six planets. Six planets in the entire universe, spread out randomly. The universe was big and there was most certainly a lot more than six planets.

At that point Lance was sure he wouldn’t make it. He had nearly come to terms with his death. But the team didn’t agree with him. The team fought with Lance who was insisting they couldn’t stop the fight with Zarkon just to go out of the way and save him- after all he was only the blue Paladin, they could do without him, find another Paladin, he wasn’t even that good. But the team refused so Pidge figured out which planet that was growing the mysterious plant, was closest.

Now the four Paladins that were left were on the planet trying to track down the plant. Lance, who was ordered to stay in bed and rest in order to save his energy, disobeyed orders and attempted to get up and walk to the command center to see how it was going. After all, if he was going to die, he didn’t want to waste his last couple days laying in bed by himself. He wanted to be with his friends, looking out into a beautiful scene. He would’ve rather preferred the ocean but the vast, hazy abyss of purple and black dotted with white would do.

Of course Lance didn’t get very far. Two steps out the door and he was vomiting and struggling to stay conscious. He tumbled another step forward, attempting to cling to the wall and hold himself up as much as possible. He managed a couple more steps before collapsing into a heap on the floor with a loud moan.

Lance lay on the floor wondering if it was really worth getting out of bed. His head was spinning, he was sweating profusely, his hands couldn’t stop shaking, he was constantly wrenching, coughing, and vomiting up whatever was left in his stomach, and he could barely keep consciousness. He just really wanted out of his room.

Lance lay vomiting on the floor as pain surged through his body. He wondered how long he was going to have to wait there until someone found him. Would he die before they got to him? What if he passed out and they found him and brought him back to his room, the one place he didn’t want to go?

His question was answered when he heard footsteps coming down the hall. He wasn’t sure how long he had been there- time seemed unreal and useless at this point- but he was happy to hear someone coming. That “someone” ended up being multiple people though. He heard yelps and screams of his name as he lay there, curled up and shaking next to his own vomit.

Keith, being one of the fastest of the group, found himself next to Lance first. “Lance!” He shouted as he knelt down next to him to make sure he was still alive. Lance moaned in an attempt to let him know that, yes, he was still breathing, even if it was extremely painful at this point. “Oh, thank Quiznack!” He shouted relieved as he saw Lances eyes flutter open and close.

The others came by him, huffing from their run to get to him as quick as possible. They were all still in their armor, clearly they had just gotten back from the mission. Shiro bent down and hooked his arms under Lance, readying to lift him up.

“It’s okay, buddy. We found the plant. Coran is readying the drink now. You’ll be okay. Let’s get you back to your room,” he said as he lifted him up with a grunt.

Lance moaned at the pain that seared through his body at the movement. As Shiro took a step and entered into Lance’s room, Lance’s eyes flew open. “…no, no… no…” he muttered, resisting his room as much as he possibly could which wasn’t much. Lance tried to shake his head and move his arms to signal to Shiro to stop but his head pounded with every movement. Shiro looked at Lance questioningly. “Not… m’room…” he managed.

Shiro looked up at the others for input then nodded towards Lance. “Okay, not your room. How about the medical bay? Where the healing pods are, is that good?” Lance meekly nodded.

Shiro carried Lance off to the medical bay with the Paladins trailing close behind out of worry and panic. Once they got there, Shiro placed Lance on a makeshift medical table they had set up the other day when they first examined him. With a groan Lance lay on the cold metal, his head swirling as he attempted to stay conscious.

Hunk came up next to him and gave him a look of worry but comfort. “Hang in there, buddy, Coran’s working on the remedy, just a bit longer.” Lance tried to nod but he couldn’t move any part of his body with out massive amounts of pain flowing through.

After what seemed forever but was only a couple minutes, Coran walked through the door holding the drink for Lance. Lance watched as the blurry figure walked toward him. He felt his body suddenly get higher, his head raised by someone else. Coran carefully put the edge of the cup into Lance’s mouth and tilted it back slowly, allowing Lance enough time to swallow it down.

The drink burned as it went down his throat. The liquid was spicy and bitter and made Lance want to vomit. He gagged a couple times but Shiro held his hand over Lance’s mouth to make sure nothing came out. After a couple minutes the burning feeling had subsided. Already Lance’s head had stopped spinning as much. Slowly through the night Lance continued to get better. There was always someone there with him, making sure he was okay, but no complications ever arose.

The next morning Lance awoke and felt as good as new. He sat up and looked around the room, vaguely remembering the events of last night. Next to him Pidge startled awake, her glasses nearly falling off her face as she realized Lance was awake and holding himself up.

“Lance! Your awake!” She noted. “How are you feeling? I’m going to run some test and scans on you to see how you’re doing and alert the others that you’ve woken up,” she told him as she brought out a computer screen and some high tech devices Lance had never seen before. Lance nodded but said nothing as Pidge did her thing.

As she neared the end of her tests, the rest of the group walked in, happily greeting Lance. “Hey, bud, how ya’ feeling?” Hunk asked tentatively.

Lance thought for a tick before answering. “I feel good, actually,” he finally decided on.

Hunk took a slow step forward. “Sooo… I can give you a hug?” He asked. Lance laughed and nodded his head, his arms wide open for Hunk. Hunk threw himself into Lance, nearly tackling him to the floor with a bone crushing hug. Lance laughed lightly and Hunk allowed tears to form and fall out of his eyes.

“Ahem-“ Pidge cleared her throat to get everyone’s attention. “If you’re all done with the sappy moment, I finished checking up on Lance and he seems good as new. The disease is gone and he doesn’t seem to be sick in any other way. He looks perfect,” she stated, adjusting her glasses.

“Well, duh, of course I look perfect. Have you never seen me before?” Lance joked with a sly smile on his face.

Keith groaned. “Well, his humors back.” The others laughed as they continued to talk about what had happened and what needed to be done in upcoming missions and how happy they were to see that Lance was doing better. Lance listened intently and agreed with them, yes, he was happy too. What he didn’t tell them was that something was still bothering him. It was like an uneasy feeling in the pit of his stomach, a mix between a stomach ache and anxiety. Something was there, something was wrong, but he wasn’t completely sure what.

It wasn’t until the next day during training that something felt wrong again. Lance had taken aim straight at Keith. He didn’t mean to. He didn’t want to. He just did.

Keith managed to jump out of the way just in time. “Lance, what the hell?” He shouted at him. The simulation stopped and they all gathered around.

“Sorry,” Lance mumbled looking ashamed.

Shiro placed a hand on Lances shoulder. “Don’t feel too bad, it might be because you just got back to being healthy. Just give it some time,” he reassured. Lance wanted to protest that they didn’t have time but let it go. Shiro was right, he had just regained his health. 16 hours ago he was on the brink of death. He was just tired and a little rusty, he needed some rest.

They decided to go their separate ways and Lance went off to bed to take a nap. Maybe then the uneasy feeling in his stomach would finally go away. He slept for a good couple hours. He slept past dinner that was an hour after they had taken their breaks. Hunk had come in to wake him up but when he saw him sleeping soundly he let him lay there, unwilling to awake him from his peaceful rest.

Lance woke up a couple hours after dinner. Most of them had gone off to bed themselves. Lance shot up from bed, now awake. What freaked Lance out, however, was that he didn’t feel fully awake. It felt like a dream. Like he knew what he was doing but couldn’t do much to control his own actions. Everything seemed hazy and dazed and his body felt heavy. Maybe it was a dream. Maybe he was still asleep and dreaming. Or maybe he wasn’t as over his sickness as he thought. Whatever it was, it was weird.

Lance walked out of his room, unsure of where he was going. He was walking… to the bridge? Why? When he got there he found Allura staring out the window. Lance snuck up behind her. He wasn’t sure why he was being so quite. Why didn’t he yell out and say hi? Why was he being sneaky?

He creeped up behind Allura and reached out to her. The fact that his hands went straight to her neck scared him. It seemed to scare Allura even more because she flipped around and punched Lance square in the nose.

Lance jolted back holding his bleeding nose with his hand, his eyes wide. He felt awake again. Nothing was no longer hazy. Everything felt clear and his nose hurt like hell. It definitely wasn’t a dream.

Allura’s eyes widened as she saw what she had done. “Quiznack! Lance! I’m so sorry! You scared me! Are you okay?” She asked hurriedly as she reached for his face to see how bad the damage was. She looked around and found a rag nearby that Hunk must have left there. “Here, take this,” she said handing it to him.

Lance nodded gratefully as he put the rag to his nose that was still bleeding profusely. “Thanks,” he mumbled but it came out nasally.

Allura shifted on her feet nervously. “Maybe you should go into the cryopod. Just to be sure?”

Lance shook his head. “No, it’s fine. ’m fine. I shouldn’t have done that, ‘m sorry.” He held the rag tighter to his face. He was pretty sure the bleeding had slowed down. Why had he done that?

“Where you trying to scare me? I’m sorry, Lance, I guess you scared me too well,” she said with a nervous laugh. “Are you sure you don’t want to go into the cryopod?”

“Yeah, ‘m sure. I don’t think it’s broken or anything. And the bleeding looks like it’s slowing down,” he reassured. “I’m just going to go to my room. Night, Allura. Sorry,” he said as he turned and walked out.

“O-oh, o-okay, Lance. H-have a good night. I’m sorry about your nose!” She yelled out to him as he walked out the room.

The next day he woke up with his nose seeming slightly off and still a little painful but no one asked questions. Lance was grateful for that, he wasn’t sure what he would say to them.

Once they were all awake they got ready for a mission. It wasn’t anything crazy but it wasn’t a super easy mission either. It involved attacking one of the bases. As they flew down together in their lions, Lance felt the strange feeling arise in his stomach again. He tried to push it down but it didn’t completely work.

They neared the base and took their shots. Galran fighter pilots came out to attack the lions but they defended and fought well. They were almost done when Lance felt a strange feeling wash over him before everything became hazy again. Lance hit the controls and sent him downwards towards the ship. He wasn’t sure what he was doing. He felt like he was watching his body do things through a tv.

He continued to near the base when the comms crackled in his ear. “Lance, what are you doing?” It was Keith trying to figure out why Lance was going somewhere he didn’t need to go and deviating from the plan. “Lance,” he called out again as he followed Blue downwards towards the ship.

The rest of the team stopped as they took notice of what was happening. They called out to Lance over the comms multiple times but did not follow him like Keith had.

Suddenly, a laugh came through the comms. It was Lance’s but it sounded cynical, very unlike Lance’s. “Stupid Paladins, you should have just let him die,” he laughed again. The other team knitted their eyebrows together in confusion. He? Who was he?

“Lance, what are you talking about?” Keith asked as he continued to follow him.

Lance laughed again. “Well, doesn’t matter. I guess he died in the end no matter what.”

Something clicked in Shiro’s mind as Blue neared the base, feet away. “Keith, get out!” He yelled as he bucked his own Lion away from the ship. Hunk and Pidge followed him but Keith hesitated as he attempted to process everything. What was Lance doing? What was he talking about?

Lance flew Blue straight into the ship. He watched it all happen like a slow dream sequence. He wanted to do anything he could to stop himself from steering his Lion downward and stop the words coming out of his mouth. But he was stuck. Or he felt stuck. Stuck watching himself fly right into the most explosive part of the base.

As soon as Blue made impact the base exploded with a loud bang as fire erupted. Lance banged against his seatbelt as he felt painful heat overtake him.

Keith noticed too late. “Lance!” He shouted as he tried to pull back as quick as possible but it wasn’t enough time. The explosives got to him, pushing him backwards through the air. Everything got hotter but thanks to Red, nothing overheated. Keith tumbled through the air as he screamed and his mind raced a mile a minute with only confusion and the word ‘Lance’.

Shiro knew what happened before anyone else caught on. Lance had been acting strange lately, that was true. Something had been wrong with him and he should have noticed earlier. Now he watched as the explosion neared his own lion and Red went tumbling with Keith, Blue no where to be found. It was too late.

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Anyways, hope you enjoyed and ppl send in more asks bc I’m officially out of them. My inbox is dry af so pls I need inspiration and I promise I’ll do better to answer quicker oh god I feel so bad for taking so long on this. Anyways yeah send me more asks!!!

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Peter Hayes x Reader Divergent

Ok I'm trying again, don't judge. I sit with my friends in a circle. We had just finished our fear simulations, and I was terrified. Not so much of the fear, but because I finished so quickly. Tris was the best, but I was second. I dont want anyone to find out I'm divergent. Actually, only Tris knows, and I have a feeling she is too, but I'm not sure yet. Then there's Peter. He's third, and I'm afraid of what he's going to try to do. Last week he stabbed Edward in the eye. I barely knew him but I was mortified. Peter is always snarly and sarcastic, but for whatever reason, I can't keep my eyes off him. Maybe its because I'm from Amity, and no one acts like him there, or maybe its that charisma, I dont know. My thoughts were interrupted by Christina snapping in my face "What? I'm listening" I say. Knowing she's from candor, she'll know I was spaced. "No you're not." There it is. " you were cross eyed for the longest time, I thought your face was gonna be stuck like that." She makes a face impersonating me, and everyone giggles. " Really, its "gonna stick that way"? Someone's obviously not from Erudite. " I retort. "Okay, okay" Uriah interrupts. "I wanna know what-or who- (y/n) was thinking about" he wiggles his eyebrows. I instantly feel my stomach drop. " Um, no one, just the simulations." I stutter. "Liar. I think it about Pet-" I elbow Christina hard in the side. "Owwwwww! Was that necessary? Wow, you two really are a match" she says. I give her a look of mock hatrid before almost laughing. I look around the room. Tris and Marlene both look at me with a shocked look on their faces. Will and All don't care, and are debating about something. Uriah looks at me with an odd look, yet still smirking. "Oh my God! You like Peter?" Tris whispers. I facepalm and look down. "You two would be adorable together!" She says out loud this time. "Yeah. Maybe if he got someone to make him happy he wouldn't be such a coward all the time. Besides, he's kinda hot." Christina says. "If you can change that sour disposition, go for it. But, if he ever hurts you, you come to me." She looks me dead in the eye, and honestly, I'm kinda scared. I laugh though. "Yeah, its kinda a shame that his face was wasted on a person like him. He is hot." Marlene says. Then I hear a voice behind me. "Whos hot, Marlene?" Peter stands right behind me. I blush, hoping he doesnt notice. Uriah and Christina try not to laugh. Marlene speaks up. "Well...(y/n) thinks you are." She laughs, collapsing backwards on the floor. I shove my face in my hands. Peter sits down next to me. "Oh really? Hmm interesting. You know what, (y/n), why dont your meet me in the pit after this, and I'll let you in on a little secret." He winks at me and leaves. Around me everyone yells "Ooooooohhhhh" I blush even harder. I'm sure I look like a tomato. "Are you gonna go?" Tris asks. "Well yeah!" I say. I need to know what he's going to tell me. _time skip_ I walk into the training room hesitantly. Peter stands by a punching bag, tapping on a screen, which he slips into his pocket when he sees me. "Hey." I say, somewhat flustered. "Hey, you came. I didn't think you'd show up, but here you are" he says. He scratches the back of his neck. "So what did you want to tell me?" I ask. He walks toward me a few steps, until we're inches apart. I blush. He gently places his hands on my waist and pulls me closer. My hands hit his chest. I blush harder. " I'm in love with you. And I don't really know how to deal with it, because I don't know how to love people without messing it up, but I love you and I want to make this work. I've done a lot of bad stuff, but I swear, with you by my side, we can be incredible. Like the dauntless power couple that doesnt terrorize the faction. When I saw you jump before me in that Amity yellow, I swear, I fell in love for the first time. I lo-' I kiss him, mostly to shut him up, but also because the closeness is killing me. I want the space between us to close. I wrap my arms around his neck, and his strengthen around my waist, keeping me there for who knows how long. It felt like eternity, but aat the same time, it felt like only a few seconds. I head howling from the pit walls and see Mar, Tris, Uriah, Christina, Al and Will up there. Christina wraps her hands around her mouth and yells "Get it, girl!" Across the pit. Peter holds his hand up, his palm towards them, and kisses me, everyone yelling "Awwwwww" with the exception of a few who opt for fake gagging. If we had been alone, the moment would've been perfect. Later on that night, I fall asleep thinking about earlier. Im not sure if were technically dating yet or not. Just as I was about yo doze off, I feel two strong arms wrapping around me. "Hey" I whisper. Peter hums and buries his face in my neck. I sigh, and fall back to sleep. The next morning, Eric comes so wake us up for training. We're supposed to be up earlier than usual today for some reason. Peter sits up next to me and wraps his arm around me. He wears a black sweatshirt, mine is burgundy. Erics eyes land on us and I stand up to pull m hair into a bun. I walk out into the training room and see Eric holding knives. This can't me good. Tris almost got stabbed last time. "Peter. Based on last nights events, you are going to stand infront of the target. You shouldve though about what I told you." He leans in toward Peter and hushes his voice to a whisper. "You knew I loved her." My stomach drops. The thought of Eric liking me makes me sick. "She doesnt love you Eric." Peter responds. "You. Target. Now." His voice is harsh and louder than usual. He walks infront of the target. the knife sails over his head and sticks in the wood. "Stop now, Eric! If youre going to do this, at least get Four so you don't kill him!" I yell. Eric ignores me. The next knife hits the target, only this time it hits his hand. He walks away, thankfully alive. That night I sneak into the infirmary to see him. He wraps his uninjured arm around me and I lean down to kiss him. He's alive. And so am I.

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in the past 24hrs i feel like everything has been knocked off and nothing feels right. everything that i once knew has been destroyed i didn’t sleep at all and had several nightmares. the ones which made me wake up crying and throwing up. The first in many years so i should’ve known. I was waken up at 4am to hearing my dad fall upstairs and my mum shouting at him. at that moment i didn’t know what the issue was but i should’ve realised something. I should’ve done something.  later at 12pm when i finally woke up properly after falling asleep and waking up constantly i couldnt move. i just lay on the sofa and if i moved i knew i was going to throw up more. my mum was sat on the other sofa next to mine cursing my dad under her breath. She got me involved. saying how she found out my dad had been trying to overdose and was getting mad at him. This isn’t how you deal with shit like this.but i couldn’t stop her. i feel stupid now. she kept raising his voice and making sure he heard. saying how she didn’t care if he died. i couldn’t handle it. i feel like a coward but i got changed and left the house. wandered around for 2hrs and got back home at 3:10. This would’ve been when my mum would’ve left the house to pick up my sister from school. she wasn’t picking up any of her calls. for some reason i felt unnerved. i guess it was a good reason i felt like this because i ran back home. I was going to wander around for another hour but i didn’t. i ran back home. i kept knocking on the door and my dad opened up the door from the floor. I don’t know why i didn’t think anything of it. i just felt annoyed. annoyed that they made me worry, that my mum wasn’t picking up her phone. his words were slurring. that scared me. but he called the ambulance before. i dont know how but they got here a few minutes after i got home. looking back i remember hearing sirens but i didn’t register it. they stayed with him for half an hour. my mum shouldve been back by then. nothing felt right. that was the first time i ever saw my dad cry. i didn’t feel anything then. not even worry. because i knew he was going to live. as soon as they put him in the ambulance and the driver asked if i was okay and i nodded and turned back was when i felt my face contorting. i locked the door behind me and felt like i couldnt breathe. i was home alone. and there felt like there was no oxygen. all i remember was my breathing was too loud. too quick. too noisy. i didnt like it. i think i fell on the floor. i dont remember much. someone helped. but i couldnt see and everything felt tingly and numb. that someone helped a lot though. i calmed down quicker than i thought. hanna came back around 5pm. My mum came back around 6pm. she wasn’t concerned. she was indifferent. she shouted at me claiming i was on his side. stupid. this isn’t about sides. she told me how when she was in the same position 10 years ago he turned her back on her so she would do the same. i didnt know what to do. I shouted at her. it’s not every day someone sees their dad in the aftereffects of overdosing on sleeping pills. it’s not something i can forget. we had a quiet dinner. after that she left. she took hanna to the hospital to see our dad. i stayed at home with kany. she’s 8. and she was crying about my dad dying. i didn’t know what to do. we baked a cake. i feel bad. i kept snapping at her later on because i felt annoyed by every little thing.  i didn’t want to snap but she was making it difficult. she fell asleep by 11pm. they came home near midnight. i tried to help my dad take off his coat. i dont know what i did wrong. but he shouted at me saying he never wants my help. me and hanna are sleeping downstairs now. well hanna’s asleep. i cant sleep. i either feel too sick or i have nightmares. i tried. i dont think i deserve anyone’s help. i want help. i want it desperately because i cant do this alone. but i dont deserve it. and i feel guilty when someone wants to help. i used to say ‘i wanna kms’ jokingly even though i still meant it. i dont want anyone to live through what i did in these 24hrs. i cant bear myself to say it jokingly anymore. it’s not that i want to die anymore, just that i didn’t exist in the first place.

[imperfectfools]

(( bc one person im’d abt miles’ & franziska’s individual trans experiences i will now make a bullet list of things

this was 100% done when i shouldve been doing homework ))

Miles has legally always been Miles! His mother died in childbirth ( as far as my basic main default verse goes ) and never found out Miles’ assigned gender. She was very insistent on the name since the moment she’d known she was pregnant though and refused to come up with alternatives so Gregory ended up going along with her wishes despite the side-eyes from the doctors and nurses.

( She always said she had a feeling he was a boy & felt Miles would suit him )

Gregory tried, a few times, to at least call Miles by a more feminine nickname like “Millie” but stopped when Miles said he didn’t like it.

Miles always admired & idolized his dad and wanted to dress like him which Gregory was fine with

( And when Miles mentioned that he liked it better when people “mistook” him for a boy, Gregory smiled because of course his wife had been right all along, she always was )

School had some hitches but Gregory was down to Fight anyone who dared say his son was wrong or made his boy feel bad.

After DL-6, I wouldn’t say Manfred was accepting, he just saw an extra point of leverage. Something he could pull up later and say “look, i didnt throw you out of the house for this & in fact, i supported you so be grateful”

Puberty, Miles got more sketchy and less comfortable in his skin. He hated all the period help pamphlets and shit that were all abt “~*~*yay ur a woman now!!*~*~”

He asked Manfred about HRT & top surgery, but Manfred ultimately denied surgery; refusing to let Miles take that much time off afterwards

Miles did end up getting top surgery later, much later, after he’d moved back to America and settled down a bit. Manfred berated him when he found out, again, due to the “wasted time”. After that Miles never took a sick day or a vacation until his outright disappearance post-Rise from the Ashes

Franziska did not figure herself out until her early teens

The long hair she sports at 13 was actually one of the first sort of ways she started expressing her gender identity. And this was when she started using Franziska

This caused some friction with her father but ultimately he “relented” for the same reasons as he did with Miles. Though the fact there was noticeable friction at all attests to how certain he was Franziska was well under his thumb.

She didn’t worry about hormones for quite a long time, not actually liking the idea of regularly sticking herself and preferred just adjusting her wardrobe and adopting an extensive make-up routine.

After the events of Turnabout Goodbyes she did decide to begin HRT; the news of her father being a murderer who then tried to pin that murder & another murder on Miles not helping the mounting dysphoria that came with growing up

As I’ve mentioned before sometimes the complicated feelings toward her father overlap with dysphoria which is just a mess honestly and she hates it but the most help she ever seeks is with Miles.

Franziska sometimes wonders if maybe she could’ve stayed her father’s “son” she would’ve gotten more of his attention

Both Miles & Franziska will have moments, when they discuss Manfred, where they say he wasn’t “that bad” because he let them be who they are with little fuss.

But throughout all of this Miles was super supportive of Franziska and tried to help as best he could. And Franziska was just as supportive of Miles even before she knew they shared a boat in that regard & honestly Miles would say that the fact she constantly called him little brother meant more than the world to him

[survivorpacificislandallstars]

Ep. 7 - “We're putting our fate in the hands of Jordan Pines” - Kevin

See, I don't exactly know why people think they can not have a conversation with anyone and get off scot free. *Me, who hasn't started conversation with two of my tribemates* Like what the fuck, I don't understand how multiple people in the game so far have thought they can not hold a conversation with anyone and not be voted out? If you don't want to leave, talk to me. Sam did it and now she's fine. I love Gabby, I love Jordan, I love Madison But DAMN you guys need to talk or shit's gonna get thrown your way for being inactive. I get it. I hate talking to people too. *Has been avoiding Steffen and Billy* But you gotta hold conversation if you wanna keep your torch lit. That might work at merge but if you can't challenge beast your way there at least hold a conversation. It might save you.

Omg I just found out a merry go round idol exists and I'm screaming because if sam b replaced me that means I WOULD'VE GOTTEN IT AGAIN. Sam is a true queen because instead of having to play the idol she was able to get the votes turned around. Though I'm really annoyed because voting sam is way smarter than voting out gabby. Someone said it best...gabby is inactive...this is all stars and you have to get out strong players before they get you out. Also I'm really annoyed with mitch because he got the rakiura idol clue (made easier by monty actually /saying/ how the initial thing worked) and it's even easier to find than the izu one!! Even if it's not for his beach, by putting another survivor he would find the page eventually!! Ugh so frustrating. Stevie may or may not be getting closer to figuring things out because he was asking me about what the old rakiura page was. Goooo stevie! 

PUNPUN HAD A BLEEPING IDOL IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII. it all makes sense as to why they didnt want to vote brandon just in case, but honslee im glad i did bc if ashley played smth then it wouldve been 0-0 and i dont want to mess with anymore tie votes.anyway! this tribal worked out perfectly and hopefully we can win some immunities bc itll be tough voting out anyone in this game. im just prayin that sammy is safe on the other side or else my f2 is dead :/

me:*prayin that sam will stay* me:*shouldve been praying for gabs to stay* honslee? i cant wait to get revenge for gabs!! >:~)

Conf #15: Honeslee This tribal went so well. People dont expect Stevie and i are working together (And I was the one who suggested voting Gabriel so I mean im not saying I ran that vote but im not not saying I ran that vote) I dont see me or Stevie going on this tribe and With that said HOPEFULLY there isnt a tribe swap soon

I DID IT. I SUCCESSFULLY GOT JORDAN PINES TO THINK HE HAD ME IN HIS BAG OF MINIONS. OH FRAPJOUS DAY! CALOOH CALLAY!

tribe swap deliberation is going amazing as van basically let me set it up exactly how its beneficial to me. Cause i have them thinking that their tribe of nunuwhetu is like a strong tribe which keeps them safe. And honestly i’m hoping van makes it through cause i like van a lot. But i am sure some triple tribal or something will be coming and all it means is one of those strong players is going home, and i set up each other tribe so that either by the grace of random.org or by the positioning of people from whetu i can be safe with strong allies and like easy vote offs. This could not have went better

Okay I don't know how much I like working with Chrissa, she's very all over the place. She's basically pushing Kevin then a few people say they'd rather Brandon and then it's just like "okay I voted Brandon!" Like damn girl wait until we have a decision before just saying "okay I voted" I'm pretty sure she did that with the Ashley vote too. Anyways apparently there's gunna be ANOTHER swap next round which I'm kind of excited for because then it's Burma and I loved Burma and it's the reason I'm here so yay for Burma! Speaking of that, I'm sad Ricky isn't here so we could just use my host chat from that as an alliance chat. That's a lot shorter than I thought it was, I feel like I have more to say but I've been sick all week and I can't think so that's it for now I guess Also drew has informed me that he's not going to start caring about this game until final 14 so I mean maybe that's why he's just been very whatever about talking about game or anything but I don't know. I really wanna work with him but I'm not gunna wait until 14 to start doing anything dbskdbdk

Oh yeah and I don't think that Jordan wants to vote Brandon so this will be interesting

Well yknow I was hoping today would be today I could make Andrew proud and vote out Gage, but I guess God hates me because I sure fucking thought. Just when I mention the thought of voting out Gage to one person, that person being Drew, because Gage is sneaky and I can't trust him after the Rhea vote, some asshole decides to ruin an innocent 12 year olds hopes and dreams!!! And if you ask me, folks, that's just messed up. But good news!!! Other targets include Brandon and Chrissa. I told Brandon that both of us were being targeted and that we need to work together, and this was like a half lie and half truth bc at the time I was bsing just to get him on my side but then like five seconds later I found out he actually was being targeted. But um yeah. So far it looks like we have five votes for Chrissa which if you ask me is very festive: Punpun Karen Drew and Brandon, all icons unless they flip on me then they can choke. But I just need one more vote!!! Don't know who the fuck that would be but!!! We'll have to find them someday

PUN PUN IS SO DONE! i swear to fucking god they ask me about the vote then go against me claiming they love me and are with me! I was for punpun! i made sure they were safe, FUCK YOU PUNPUN thanks a fucking lot.

Well this season is gonna suck if Brandon goes he's like the one person to reach out to me!!!!!!!! I know God hates me but he doesn't have to stoop to this low of a level. SUPPOSEDLY we somehow have Gage of all people on our side, I mean I don't know if I support it but like, if it isn't me... I've heard Brandon's name a lot but like!!!! I both want to be in the game while also being a person with morals who values friendships but I guess these people severely disagree

Honesty the fact that we're putting our fate in the hands of Jordan Pines is appalling and sad, cause we're really just playing ourselves as well as adding to his ego. But um... I think we've convinced him??? But things are so uncertain and I can't rn

I am so fucking pissed off, first of all I just said Brandon was being voted but before that I was fighting to get the votes for someone else out that is not brandon, but news flash PUN PUN AND KAREN: I AM NOT IN CONTROL OF THIS VOTE! If Brandon wants to be fucking safe he needs to pm people which he doesn't do obviously as that's the reason everyone has went for him. Ash was right he gets far because of all of his little SHEEPLE. Have fun being up Brandon's ass when he is voted out!

If Brandon leaves tonight I will finally feel vindicated

Why the fuck does everyone want to vote my friends out

You know why I hate Rakiura? Because of the merry go round idols. You know what Jeff Probst just deep throated me with? A little green man that is collectively known as the merry go round idol. Ughhhhhhhh I want to be iconic with it and just blow up everyone's plans but it's too early to be doing stuff like that, especially with the overwhelming amount of tribe swaps we have had and will come in the future. Right now the vote is between Brandon and Chrissa and I'm voting brandon just because I see Chrissa being more loyal to me down the road (once I blindside Samantha G AKA Godmantha) I'm not playing the idol unless something happens at tribal, and odds are I'll probably give it to ash. Also I found out Karen has a sapphire idol. Hopefully she gets blindsided with it in her pocket like Jordan in Izu.

I guess I was wrong, Jordan does wanna vote for Brandon so that's good but now it's gunna be 7-4 Brandon to Chrissa possibly? Hopefully none of them 4 have that stupid merry go round idol but who knows they probably do. At least it's Chrissa and not me.

so i am probably getting voted out people are scared to go against the majority premades rule the game what else is new