#they said I was engaging and did a really good job 🥺

[forever-rogue]

Hi Bee! I've been a long time reader and fan of your blog! The way you write for Eddie is insane 😭😭😭❤️❤️❤️ I love it 🥹 if you feel comfortable, could you please write something for fem!reader x Eddie where she has a history of being bullied (physically & verbally) and one day they could be arguing or something and Eddie is on edge and raises his voice and moves too quickly and she flinches (or maybe has a panic attack or something) I would really appreciate this ❤️🥺 comfort and fluff at the end because I need that rn ❤️

AN | Okay, but this is a little angsty but mostly soft 🥺🥰

Warnings | Language, mentions of past verbal abuse 

Pairing | Eddie x Fem!Reader

Word Count | 2.3k

Masterlist | Main, Eddie 

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It had been a long week. Weeks, really. And you felt like you and Eddie were like ships passing in the night more than anything else. You were busy with college classes and your part time job, and he was busy working at the shop. He’d been working a lot lately, even more than he normally did, but you hadn’t questioned it. You knew that you didn’t bring in a lot of money only working part time while you finished your degree, but it would be worth it in the end. 

But Eddie, good, kind hearted, wonderful man that he was, insisted that you it was okay. He wanted you to be able to focus on your studies, rather than have to worry about working. He was the main provider for your little family of two, and while it was a lot of pressure, he wouldn’t have changed a thing. In fact, one of the reasons he’d been working even longer hours and helping a few customers on the side, was so he could save up to buy you an engagement ring. You always insisted that you didn’t need anything fancy, but Eddie wanted to do this right, he wanted to do all the things with you, including proposing with a pretty ring.

Right now though, you were desperately wanting to spend some time with him, so you went ahead and planned a little date night for the two of you. You’d gotten a few very generous tips at the cafe lately and stashed them away in the rainy day fund; and now it was time to use them. You wanted a nice night out for both of you. 

“Eddie Spaghetti,” you were grinning from ear to ear as you walked into your shared apartment. You’d just gotten out of class and he should have been home a few minutes before you. He didn’t respond to your excited call for him and you wondered if he was home yet, “babe?”

You walked into the bedroom and found him sitting at the edge of the bed, boots off and a fresh change of clothes. He was breathing deeply, eyes closed and leaned back on his hands. Poor thing looked tired, and you knew he deserved the rest. 

“Babe-”

“I heard you,” he said, not altogether rudely or kindly either, “hi sweetheart.”

“Hello my love,” you kneeled at his feet, reaching for his hand to take in yours, “I missed you today! I’ve been missing you a lot lately.”

“I’ve missed you too,” he responded with a gentle squeeze of your hand, looking into your eyes for a split second. You could see the exhaustion in them and it made your heart constrict.

“Listen, I set a little bit of money aside for us and I thought we could go out tonight,” you were grinning, but there was an unreadable expression on his features, “get dinner and maybe catch a movie?”

“Not tonight, sweetheart.”

“I just think it would be nice to have a night out to ourselves-”

“I can’t tonight,” he repeated as you pouted at him, “I’m sorry - maybe this weekend, okay?”

“But Eddie-”

“Please!” he snapped suddenly, dropping your hand as he gave you a sharp look. You’d never heard him raise his voice before…especially not at you. The only time you really heard him get loud was when he was in the thrill of the moment during a new campaign, “I’m exhausted and I have to go back to work tonight.”

“I don’t think you should-”

“Really?” his eyes narrowed and you gulped nervously, “then who is going to pay for everything, huh?”

“Eddie,” you stepped back, your heart racing as you felt the stinging of tears in the back of your eyes, “I-I-”

“Not all of us have the luxury of going to school and working a few hours here and there at a coffee shop!” you’d never heard him this mad before, not in over three years of dating, and it frightened you. You didn’t like this Eddie and wanted your Eddie back. You flinched away from him, trying to hide how scared you were.

“I just thought you could use a break,” your voice sounded so small and hurt that it broke Eddie’s heart. He shouldn’t have snapped at you, shouldn’t have taken his momentary anger (which was not even at you) out on you, “you’ve been working so hard. I-I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have said anything.”

“Sweetheart,” he tried to reach for you but you shook your head and pulled away to where he couldn’t reach you, “honey - I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to yell. Will you come here, please?”

“No,” you shook your head and clambered to your feet before scampering towards the door, “please just don’t.”

“Angel,” he got up and tried to walk over to you but you ducked in the hallway, “what’s wrong?”

“I-I’m going to go,” you stammered nervously, almost running into the living room to grab your bookbag. Eddie followed you slowly, trying to keep a bit of distance that you obviously needed, “I-I’ll see you later.”

You were gone and out the door before he could say anything else, heading to your care. You weren’t sure exactly what to do, but you just needed some space. You’d never had a single moment with him like that before and it felt terrible. This wasn’t Eddie, and you knew that he wasn’t going to turn into some monster, but the moment had settled harshly in your bones. 

Eddie’s eyes welled up with tears as he stared at the door. He hated the look on your face; he hated himself more for snapping at you. He’d just been so tired and run down, and it had all come to a head. Unfortunately, it was you that was caught in the crossfire; his love, his princess, his angel. The last person he ever wanted to hurt. And he’d just gone and done that.

“Fuck,” he sighed at himself, closing his eyes and letting out a long breath. He wanted to come after you, figuring you’d more than likely have gone to Steve and Robin’s place. But, more than anything, he wanted you to be comfortable, so he opted to give you space instead. 

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By the time you got home, Eddie was already in bed. But he wasn’t sleeping, instead he was staring at the ceiling, unable to calm his worried mind down. He heard the front door open and close, followed by your soft tread, but remained still and silent. He noticed the hesitation in your tread after he heard your bag settle on the floor, followed by your shoes. He hated the idea that he was the reason for your quiet shyness. 

You paused outside the bedroom door, noticing that it was still partly open, almost like a sign of apology. You paused with your hand on the knob before slowly pushing it open and letting yourself in. There was a soft glow from the bedside table where the small lamp was still on. It illuminated his body, but you knew immediately that he was still awake.

“E-Eddie?” you whispered softly, padded over to your side of the bed, cautiously sitting down. Your boyfriend rolled over so he was facing you, blinking softly but not yet saying anything so he wouldn’t push you further. You met his eyes and offered him a small little half smile. He visibly relaxed when he saw that you weren’t shying away, “I know it’s late, but can we talk?”

“Yeah - y-yes,” he sat up and leaned against the headboard, lightly patting the space next to him. You didn’t even bother to take off your clothes before crawling into your side of the bed, sitting cross legged next to him, “I…first of all, I want to say how sorry I am. I should never have talked to you like that. I know you probably don’t believe me right now and I don’t expect you to, but I will never talk to you like that again. I swear it.”

“I know,” you nodded softly, playing with a loose thread hanging from the sleeve of your sweater, “I know you won’t, Eddie. I know that a one time thing isn’t going to change our entire relationship.” 

“Yeah?”

“Of course,” you raised a tentative hand before reaching over and touching his cheek, brushing your thumb over the apple of his cheek. He leaned into your touch, eyes fluttered closed at the feel of your soft palm on his skin, “I think I owe you an explanation too.”

“Sweetheart,” he wrapped his fingers around your wrist and brought your hand to his lips, pressing a soft kiss to your knuckles, “I am tired, and I’ve been tired and I know you have been too. And it’s not because you don’t work hard - I know you do. I know it’s not just going to school full time and working part time. And it’s nothing I hold against you, because that’s what we agreed to, and let’s be honest, school ain’t for me.”

“Eddie, you’ve been working so much,” you whispered, “and I don’t want you to run yourself into the ground. We’ll be okay if you cut back your hours, especially the extra ones. I can always pick a few more hours on the weekends…but we’ll figure it out.”

“I…” he swallowed thickly, taking a moment to collect his thoughts before continuing, “I know I can cut back and we’d be okay….I took the extra shifts and hours because I was using them to save some extra money.”

“Oh,” your brows furrowed in surprise; you spotted the dark pink flush in his cheeks, “whatever for?”

“I was saving up so I could buy you a ring,” he confessed, looking like a shy boy rather than a grown man. Your eyes widened in surprise and you couldn’t prevent the small gasp that escaped your lips. A wave of emotion caused your eyes to prickle with tears, “I know you said you didn’t need an engagement ring or a big proposal or any of that, but baby, I want to do this. I want to do it right, and get you that ring.”

“Oh Eddie,” a few tears had prickled up and rolled down your cheeks, which he tenderly wiped away, “I had no clue…I…I love you so much.”

“I love you,” he promised, “I hope you’re not mad…”

“Of course I’m not mad,” you beamed at him, “I think you’re a stubborn man that won’t change his mind, huh?”

“I won’t,” he agreed, causing you to giggle at him, “I’m gonna cut back my hours, I swear. But I’m also going to get you that ring, yeah?”

“Okay,” you didn’t need or want fancy material things like shiny rings, but damn. You weren’t about to say no to Eddie. You knew now that he’d spoken his piece, it was your turn to speak yours, “I, ugh, also want to apologize for how I reacted earlier. I, umm, growing up kinda sucked, you know? Well, I know you know. I never really gave you the full details, ‘cause it never felt necessary. But in school I was bullied a lot, especially when I was young because of being different. Home wasn’t much better; my mom, she…liked my older brother and sister a lot but with me it was different. For whatever reason, she hated me and my life a living hell half the time. She used to call me names, tell me I was stupid and unlovable, and would never get anywhere in life.”

“Sweetheart…”

“She liked to yell, a lot, almost like it was her form of a drug,” you shrugged, “I’m sure that’s why I don’t like any sort of yelling nowadays. I never really left like I fit in anywhere. Not until I met you….you and the rest of the gang.”

“I…I’m sorry,” was all he managed to choke out as he settled his hand on your neck, his thumb rubbing soothing circles into your skin, “I had no clue…I-I’m sorry you had to go through that.”

“We all go through our own things,” you put your hand on top of his, giving it a gentle squeeze, “I should have told you sooner…but I want you to know that you are the best thing that has happened to me. I love you very much, Eddie.”

“I love you too, sweetheart,” he leaned in and pressed a soft barely there kiss to your lips, “will you forgive me? I know it’s a lot to ask for.”

“There’s nothing to forgive,” you leaned your cheek against his, breathing in slowly, “we both…it’s not that we made mistakes, it’s just that….we just didn’t quite sync up today. And that’s okay, because we’ll learn and it won’t happen again.”

“It won’t,” his eyes were soft and bambi-like, making your heart melt. You loved this man beyond measure, and you knew he left the same, “how about we use some of that extra money we’ve stashed away and go away this weekend, huh? Just the two of us, no cares in the world.”

“I’d like that,” the smile on your face was breathtaking and electric and Eddie was positive he’d just fallen a little more in love, “let’s do it.”

“Let’s do it,” he agreed softly, “I love you so much, sweetheart.”

“I love you too, Eddie.”

[valiantstarlights]

Your work is so good and definitiely brightens up my day!

How do you think personal trainer Dream would react to finding out that Hob has to leave the country for an extended period of time due to work?

Would Hob be limping on his way to the airport? and be spoiled by random care packages (and other packages iykwim) from his clingy and insanely horny boyfriend? Sexy videocalls with heartfelt longing?

ALSO AWAITING YOUR VAMPIRE AU WITH BATED BREATH. THE ROMANCE OF DREAM CROSSING OCEANS OF TIME TO BE WITH HOB

Aww, thank you! 🖤 I'm glad I made your day brighter. 😊

And omgggg the Vampire!Dream Soulmate AU (a.k.a. Lord Dimitrescu!Dream AU) 🔥 I said I'll post the first chapter this week, but RL happened, and...👀 But the first chapter is complete! (I had it typed down and everything before I even wrote the prologue 😂) I just have to find the time to edit it. 😊

Okay, so about personal trainer!Dream being informed by Hob that he has to leave for an extended(!!!) period of time because of work stuff.

Honestly, my first thought is that Dream would drop everything and go with Hob wherever he's going because he's insane like that. 😂 But no! He's an adult. He has responsibilities.

Watch him become a sulky mess anyway and be more clingy than usual. He knows Hob has to go, and he won't try to dissuade him from leaving, but that doesn't mean he's happy that Hob has to leave. He can be supportive and mopey at the same time.

Like, Hob is an amazing person! Of course he deserves all the best career opportunities. 🔥 In fact, anyone would be lucky to be in his presence. Dream is just sad that, for the next few weeks/months, he won't be one of those lucky people. 🥺

During this time, I think Hob would also be clingy with Dream. He's nervous about the job assignment, living in a foreign country for a while, and he's very much not looking forward to being away from his boyfriend whom he loves, and who loves him just as much.

The night before Hob leaves, Dream is going to fuck him so good and slow that Hob would always blush at the memory of it, even months later.

And you know Dream would personally drive Hob to the airport and stay with him until Hob's plane absolutely has to leave. The other people in the airport will know just how much Hob is loved by his boyfriend because Dream is going to be so schmoopy and give him sweet, longing kisses while cupping his face in his hands like he's something precious. People will think that they're filming a romantic movie, and highkey want what they're having. 👀👌

And Dream sending care packages??? Yes.

Hob will receive the sweet care packages like, every couple of days. They're filled with (healthy and delicious) energy-boosting snacks, scented candles for relaxation, tea blends that Hob likes...just, all the things. (Maybe even a couple of Dream's shirts, because Hob misses him so much and his bed in this foreign land feels so empty 😭)

The other teachers in the conference/retreat/teacher exchange program(?) will see him always being sent care packages and be like, "Wow, your spouse is really going all out, huh?"

And Hob is like, "He's not my husband yet..." and then going blushy because Dream...as his husband... 🥰🥰🥰

The other people in the room will notice him openly daydreaming and be like, "Professor Gadling? Hello? No, I think we've lost him."

And of course Dream and Hob will video call each other daily. And after the spouse comment, I imagine the call will go something like:

Hob: I received the latest care package you sent me! 🥰 The other teachers said you're really going all out, but they referred to you as my spouse.

Dream, fiddling with the engagement ring he bought ages ago out of sight of the screen: Imagine that. 🥰

And Hob can't say, 'I did! I daydreamed about being married to you for like an hour straight, and I totally missed what everyone said during that time,' because that might sound too much for Dream to handle (spoiler: it's not), so he just says, "I'm so happy you're my boyfriend. 🥰 I never felt so loved in my life."

And then Dream will be totally normal about that and it will be all he thinks about until Hob returns. But he will return the sentiment, and add that Hob is the only one he wants to love for the rest of his life.

Dream: I...hope that's not too forward of me to say.

Hob, already crying: If you say that, then I should also tell you that when the other teachers said you were my spouse, I daydreamed for an entire hour imagining our life together. So...😭 Sorry if that's too much. 🥺

Dream, a feral bastard barely restraining himself from booking a plane ticket and proposing to Hob as soon as he lands: No, not at all. You know how much I love you.

Hob, crying harder: I love you too 😭

And that's pretty much the only time they didn't have phone sex during this period, probably. 😂

As for spicy care packages, realistically, I don't think Dream will send them? 👀 Because the packages are inspected, and Hob could get in trouble. However, that's not to say that Hob doesn't have toys with him. It's just that he probably already had them in his luggage when he left. 😂

I think the toys that Hob brought with him are all very discreet and travel-friendly, though. And most days, they're definitely not enough, because he got spoiled by the size of Dream's cock and his scorching touches back home. But he can do nothing about it because he doesn't want either of them to get in trouble. So he just has to satisfy himself with what he has.

That doesn't stop him from whining that he wishes Dream were there to fuck him in person when they have video call sex, though. He would be plunging his own fingers in and out of his hole, tiny bullet vibrator against his cock, crying that it doesn't feel the same as when Dream does it to him. Hob does gets to cum every time they have video call sex, but it's mainly due to Dream's lustful voice praising him for being so good and obedient, and how he can't wait for Hob to get back so they could start training his hole again, which has tightened up considerably when they parted 😏 Can Hob even take Dream's cock when he returns? Or will they have to go back to thigh and titfucking?

Suffice to say, their phone sex sessions test Dream's self-control about booking a flight to where Hob is and giving him everything that he wants. 😂

Hob is gonna be so tight when he returns, and Dream is looking forward to training him again. 😏

When Hob is finally(!!!) scheduled to return, Dream clears out a week of his schedule. He doesn't fucking care. Hob has been gone for (what feels like) ages. And his siblings, having witnessed how mopey he became almost as soon as Hob's plane left the ground, are like, "Yeah. Have the week off. Heck, have two weeks off. Just get out of here with your sad cat looks."

(Dream takes the two weeks off.)

And then he's off to fetch Hob from the airport.

I don't think Dream would have a huge welcome banner or balloons, but he'll for sure have a bouquet that will mean something like, 'I went insane when you were gone and I'm so glad you're back because I can't live a single day without you.'

And once again, the people in the airport will think that Dream and Hob are filming a romantic movie because Hob will run excitedly towards Dream, and Dream will speedwalk towards Hob like he's competing in the Olympics, and when they collide, Dream will lift Hob up in an embrace as they kiss like long lost lovers.

Then, once they're home, Dream will prove to Hob (for two weeks) that actual sex is better than video call sex. 😏

And just when they're about to sleep, Hob would confess that this is one of the things he missed the most when they were apart: him falling asleep next to Dream. He'll say he missed being held safe in Dream's arms, and pressing his ear against Dream's chest to hear his heartbeat, while feeling Dream's breath ruffle his hair.

Dream will once again be extremely normal about this, and shower Hob with kisses. He's thinking if he should pull some strings with his academic contacts, to make sure that, in the future, Hob will have more control over where his work will take him, and for how long. Because while he wants Hob to be by his side 24/7, ultimately, it's Hob who gets to decide how much time he'll spend where.

(And of course, Hob will always choose to be with Dream. 🥰)

[tkblythofficial]

New current reading (that one was notold but their energy changes very fast and I was trying to make heads and tails of stuff).

So, funny thing: T did try to approach Z (I asked because you planted the seed) and its not like she ignored him but was quite overwhelmed and he felt alone (I'm seriously feeling sorry for the dude ngl).

The way she saw it in her head (that's her thing, it's like she can see how it mightve played out, it's like she's there, it's a thing don't ask) it's that he was like: oh can we hang out maybe? 🥺 and she's like yeah, sure! But she was busy networking and then so was he and then he decided to leave without talking to her again and she tried talking to him and ask why he left and he just said he had a headache.

Well about BB, she engages more when she feels like T is slipping, she considers this place a reliable source of information and someone close to the three of them has provided y'all with Intel. So's definitely around (hi BB! Please dump T)

T was triggered by the infamous picture, it's like he doesn't get how R can settle for someone that doesn't really love her and he's growing resentful of J because of it because he feels R deserves to be loved completely.

When asked why is T misconstruting R's behavior, she said: he's think she's distant but not in a way he can handle, but growing apart from their connection and he feels that she's realizing how he feels and it's pushing him away, all the while wanting to push her away too and said I quote: "Boy, take your fucking pick, you can't berate for doing the thing you want to do".

Regardless, he feels unseen by her. She used a music to clarify through my Spotify. It was on random with more than 2000 musics and she asked for a song and it went to Stonehenge - from a Brazilian band called Freano -. For context, the song tells the story of someone that's feeling disconnected and trying to reconnect, from someone that feels as though the other person doesn't deserve their feelings. It talks about distance and from a other that isn't connecting to them and that doesn't seem to care about the writers behavior. It talks of emotional distance and of feeling as though they don't exist.

She then asked why T is so contradictory because for R at least makes some logical sense (she sees T a certain way and tries not to diverge from that, doesn't play hot and cold, doesn't run away like her ass is on fire) and she said that's because he doesn't want to feel this way about her, at all.

He's contradictory because his feelings are. He knows he should love his girlfriend, doesn't want to repeat the same patterns he saw before, looking for love in people he'll never find it because he needs to learn to stand on his own two feet.

It doesn't look good because he's pulling away emotionally which he apparently didn't do the first time he ghosted her and it's going to hurt R more than the first time. If R is somehow reading this, my friends advice is not to approach T now. He needs time because if she does seek him out he might say or do something he can't take back.

I know we all joke (and please take this with a grain of salt) but now would not be the time for any rash decisions to be made. He's hurting and he's doing one hell of job of hiding it from people.

She asked for another song and it went to Empty Space by James Arthur which if you listen to it, speaks for itself.

MORE READINGS? YOU SPOIL US ORANGE AND PEELER! OMG

“So, funny thing: T did try to approach Z (I asked because you planted the seed) and its not like she ignored him but was quite overwhelmed and he felt alone (I'm seriously feeling sorry for the dude ngl).”

The way I thought you were talking about T Holland and Zendaya and made sure I was on the right blog LOL. He approached her? He felt alone? Oh no 😭

“The way she saw it in her head (that's her thing, it's like she can see how it mightve played out, it's like she's there, it's a thing don't ask) it's that he was like: oh can we hang out maybe?

and she's like yeah,

sure! But she was busy networking and then so was he and then he decided to leave without talking to her again and she tried talking to him and ask why he left and he just said he had a headache.”

Orange gets “play out” visions too? Interesting 👀 I can totally see this happening

“Well about BB, she engages more when she feels like T is slipping, she considers this place a reliable source of information and someone close to the three of them has provided y'all with Intel. So's definitely around (hi BB! Please dump T)”

This blog? Reliable source? Oh. That’s oh….BB, honey, I want to hug you. I mean it too 😭 and yeah, someone else to them is definitely here. I hope they find the blog funny.

“T was triggered by the infamous picture, it's like he doesn't get how R can settle for someone that doesn't really love her and he's growing resentful of J because of it because he feels R deserves to be loved completely.”

The infamous pic = R kneeling I’m assuming? 😬 Growing resentful? I know he saw that horrible relationship for 2 years 😭 but I guess it’s getting worse

“When asked why is T misconstruting R's behavior, she said: he's think she's distant but not in a way he can handle, but growing apart from their connection and he feels that she's realizing how he feels and it's pushing him away, all the while wanting to push her away too and said I quote: "Boy, take your fucking pick, you can't berate for doing the thing you want to do".”

Distant but not in a way he can handle? OK, T, pot calling the kettle black. Tbf I think R knows about his feelings so he’s lowkey right but he needs to pick a side lol. Either leave her alone until she figures it out or stay by her side until the boar leaves.

“Regardless, he feels unseen by her. She used a music to clarify through my Spotify. It was on random with more than 2000 musics and she asked for a song and it went to Stonehenge - from a Brazilian band called Freano -. For context, the song tells the story of someone that's feeling disconnected and trying to reconnect, from someone that teels as though the other person doesn't deserve their feelings. It talks about distance and from a other that isn't connecting to them and that doesn't seem to care about the writers behavior. It talks of emotional distance and of feeling as though they don't exist.”

That’s so sad 😭 R and T are always on an emotional roller coaster

“She then asked why T is so contradictory because for R at least makes some logical sense (she sees T a certain way and tries not to diverge from that, doesn't play hot and cold, doesn't run away like her ass is on fire) and she said that's because he doesn't want to feel this way about her, at all.”

Same, T, but R is like a fever you can’t shake 💀 I do think R is more reliable and consistent with her feelings which is good.

“He's contradictory because his feelings are. He knows he should love his girlfriend, doesn't want to repeat the same patterns he saw before, looking for love in people he'll never find it because he needs to learn to stand on his own two feet.”

Unfortunately he can’t control his feelings 🤭 you either love someone or you don’t. This applies to R and BB.

“It doesn't look good because he's pulling away emotionally which he apparently didn't do the first time he ghosted her and it's going to hurt R more than the first time. If R is somehow reading this, my friends advice is not to approach T now. He needs time because if she does seek him out he might say or do something he can't take back.”

He’s pulling away at a good time I guess. He has to promote BTK then will film AFTA later this year. He’s going to be very busy soon and can use work as an excuse.

“I know we all joke (and please take this with a grain of salt) but now would not be the time for any rash decisions to be made. He's hurting and he's doing one hell of job of hiding it from people.”

No, T 😭😭😭 stop, this reading hurts.

“She asked for another song and it went to Empty Space by James Arthur which if you listen to it, speaks for itself.”

Great music taste. Link to video lyrics.

[neonacity]

ive been using tumblr on and off for years reading fics for different kpop fandoms and enjoying the content, but lately ive gotten so bored.

i noticed the same tropes repeating themselves for different idols with the same repetitive storyline and predictable ending. and these type of fics are so popular which makes the algorithm push them in your face even more😭😭

but writers are allowed to write what they want to write and readers are allowed to support and read what they want to read and i stand by that, but at the same time its hard to find something other than the 10-15 tropes ive read like 30 times before -each😭😭-

and like i said i use tumblr on and off so i dont really dig -that- deep for fanfics + the tumblr algorithm makes finding what i want 10x harder so im just bombarded with the same stuff i read like tons of times before in the form of a fanfic for a another idol

so when i found lucid and arcane it would be an understatement to say i was so so pleasantly surprised 🥺🥺🥺 your work is so original and i can confidently say i haven’t found anything like it on tumblr, you’re so talented and your ideas + storytelling are literally the best ive found on this app so far

it would be such a shame if you didn’t continue arcane, its such a good story and its idea is so original and unique, leaving it unfinished is such a waste.

Hello! First of all, thank you so much for sending this. I almost did not want to answer it because I want to keep it in my inbox and reread it every time I need inspiration. I want to share my thoughts with you though.

I know that there are certain tropes that work well here and I completely understand their popularity. Some people just prefer a certain genre and storyline and I myself are a silent enjoyer of them too.

I do know that my fics mostly are not a common preference of some and I am honestly okay with that. It is simply a style that I am comfortable writing and I'm happy to stick with it.

On the other hand, I will be lying if I say that interactions do not have an impact on my work. As someone with a fulltime job and other adulting responsibilities, writing a full chapter means I will have to spend many hours of my limited personal time for a fic. Now, imagine doing that and having little engagement–you can't even be sure if there are still people reading.

I wish I could be the same like before and say engagement doesn't matter as long as you love what you are doing, but it does. This is why I want to thank you for sharing this with me because even something simple as this can make a creator's resolve.

Thank you for supporting Lucid and Arcane!

[septemberrie]

Hiiii, first of all THANK YOU (yes in capital letters) for writing Battle Lines. I've been reading Silrah fics since last year (many wonderful) but BL has become my favorite. While I wait for a new chapter I like to reread those already published and I am surprised because I find different nuances and details each time. Wow, you really are an admirable writer and have me completely obsessed with your writing!!

On the other hand, it makes me sad to think that this is 9/11 bc I really want more of this story 🥺

PD. Please tell me you'll update soon, I can't stop reloading the page waiting for a new chapter. 🙏

Hiiiii, first of all, thank YOU for this lovely message!! (Lol see what I did there) 🥰🥰 It means so much that you not only gave it a shot but are rereading it, too! I confess I did enjoy planting a couple details and easter eggs and I’m so glad you picked up on them, maybe when the fic is over I’ll make a post calling them out bc I’m quite proud of them 😅

Yes I can’t believe I’m getting to the end!! But don’t worry, the last two chapters are going to be very drama-packed and action-packed so rest assured there is a lot more to come for these two and I can’t wait for you to read. My writing has slowed down a bit because I have some personal busyness going on and I’m also trying to write some S2 missing scenes/fix its, but you did inspire me to write a bit more of the next chapter of this last night! 

Since I can’t give a good timeline of when it’s coming here’s a spoiler-ish snippet of the next chapter if you want to read (fair warning, it’s a draft and may change!):

“Right. You can feel, you’re just not allowed to discuss, address, or otherwise engage with it.”

She wasn’t going to let it go. Their argument from the morning was still unfinished, much as Saul wanted to move on because he knew she’d never step down from what she thought was expected of her as queen. Even in a time of war, even when she risked her life. He was a fool for thinking he had any sway to convince her. He was a fool for thinking that his recent confession meant he had any sway over her at all.

He tore his gaze away from her to examine the hotel room’s door lock again, finding it easier to speak the truth to the vacant wood than to the queen. “I’m not angry with you, I’m angry with myself.”

But when he turned back around it wasn’t to a softened queen but to one whose eyes flashed in not just irritation, but hurt.

“You do understand why that’s insulting to me, right? That falling in love with me is so repellent that you quit your job to escape me?”

She always knew just what to say to rip aside his carefully constructed posture and flay into the man underneath. “That’s not fair and you know it. I was hired for a job, to make you safe, and I cannot do that if I’m…” He stuttered “I’m—”

“Compromised,” she filled in, her lips a thin line. “You already said that.”

He swallowed. “It doesn’t make it any less true.”

“Do you always flee when it gets complicated? You left Sky, too.”

[formulapisces]

see I'll be mutuals with fans of any driver. there are certain sports teams that are a block on sight, but for f1 I'm a lot less fussy about who somebody like. I find how they deal with people they dislike to be a much bigger issue, and if you deal with it by engaging in parasocial hatred then I just think it is a massive red flag. to be doing it to a driver who is on great terms with the same guy you claim to be defending is just msmfleld unhinged. they need to get over this, and get over themselves 😭 I don't want to unfollow this person unless I have to bc we're genuinely good friends and I would hate to lose them

ngl I am incredibly wary of following charles' fans because they are just as guilty of this as anybody else. daniel fans are also very hit or miss 😭

I am glad you're feeling cosy right now 🥺 it feels very chilly where I am so I feel jealous. how is your temp? 🦇

oh yes, i have to go through everyone’s accounts really carefully before i follow them because it’s the worst feeling when you think you’re following all ‘safe’ people and then you see all of this hate on your dash all of a sudden 🙃 if i follow you then congratulations you are one of the chosen ones 🫡

i think i’ve done a good job of curating my dash (or i thought that until this weekend when i did some spring cleaning 😅) i follow some fans of almost every driver on the grid, i don’t care who people support, how they post about the people they don’t support is more important to me personally.

honestly there are fans of certain drivers where most of the time i won’t even bother with looking because of the amount of bad experiences i’ve had. i obviously don’t think every fan of those drivers are like that but you just have to be extra cautious sometimes you know? ive said this before but every single driver has at least some fans who are horrible, it’s just the extremity of the hate and the concentration of those people in the fandom. sure i don’t like certain drivers too but i won’t send death threats to them or their fans or send anon hate etc, i’ll just try to ignore and avoid them and not get involved, it’s just the logical thing to do imo. another important thing - if i do ever have anything negative to say about a driver or team it goes in the ANTI tag!!!!!!!!!!

im getting a hot water bottle right now because my whole body is just aching but my temperature is around 36.7°c / 36.8°c so i haven’t got a fever or anything yet :)

also because i had to call in sick today i didn’t actually end up quitting, i think now i’m going to do that once i get an alternative sorted out 😅

[jimimn]

Oh I'm sorry you had to go through that :( And I'm happy you were able to find something (or in this case someone) to be there for you ❤️❤️

OH I need to do that too!! Immediately googling how to add songs to Spotify 🧐

LMAOO yes I had the same thoughts cause set me free also had cursing and I was like ight how they gonna broadcast it on music shows but they are doing it, so? 😂 Maybe they bleeped the words, there aren't many after all 🤷‍♀️ Or they were also like Park Jimin can curse on a music show as a treat 😂

Oh oh oh and can we talk about the like crazy dance because????? I'm obsessed. His dancers were so BEAUTIFUL both the hybe and the late night show dancers. AND the way I saw people trying to say the woman in the mv wasn't representing him and fighting tooth and nail to prove that just for Jimin to have this dance LMAO he really said sike. Love that for him. I'm so in love with his dance between the male and female dancers and how he switches between them and how they pull and push him and and and IT'S JUST SO GOOD. My favorite is when the girls pull him towards them and then circle him and the first girl just kind of grips his chin (not really but the hand motion is similar to that) and turns it?? Idk why but I'm obsessed with that move. She really said bitch look at me, embrace yourself.

Also am I the only one who's kind of side eyeing everyone on twitter right now? Because everyone is saying "karmy we're exaggerating the dance wasn't even that sensual" and I'm like?? They didn't exaggerate though 😭 at least the translations I saw weren't like that.. Karmy did say the dancers touch him (chin, bicep, thigh etc) which they did, and that Jimin kind of warned them it would happen, but I don't think they exaggerated? Like they just told us what will happen. Or maybe I just didn't see those tweets lmao 😭 Idek why I'm bothered by this 😭 -🦋

thank you! 🥺 oh and the Spotify thing is really easy btw you just have to go to settings and switch on the local files option. then download the song and under your library on spotify, a playlist named "local files" will show up and you'll be able to see the song there. and then just normally like we do with songs, add the downloaded song on your normal playlists!!! it's a life saver 😭 i couldn't imagine going to YouTube every time i wanted to listen to letter 😭

LMFAO I think maybe jimin just won't sing the "fuck" during smf like hobi didn't on mama during arson. BUT!!! they should be allowed idc 😌

YESSSSSS please I'm obsessed with the like crazy choreo lord knows how many times I've watched both the Fallon performance and the dance practice video lmfao 😭😭😭 they did such a good job!!! whoever choreographed like crazy pls take a bow. BTS choreographies literally never disappoint they're just so good. And please, I've seen too many people invalidate the queer themes associated with like crazy. Like pls stop jimin just embarrassed you with the choreography. whoever denies it is just dumb atp like the woman is CLEARLY his reflection lmao 😭 I also saw homophobic armys attacking queer armys for saying that they related to the song like bffr art is subjective everyone has different stories and how they relate to the art they consume is none of your business 💀 AND OH YES THAT PART YOU MENTIONED PLS MY JAW DROPPED 😭😭😭 the entire choreo is just art i love it so much i can't fckin wait to watch more performances.

hmm about that i think it was a little bit of an overreaction though 😭 from what i saw. and i think it wasn't just because of karmys though it collectively blew up bc of engagement from both sides. I'm majorly side eyeing the people who are overcompensating saying things like "forget him i want her" just trying to prove a point which does not need to be proved like I'm sorry but you're coming off as equally obsessive as the people who are saying they are jealous lmao. like can we please be normal about this ffs 😭 but anyway. yeah. jimin keeps slaying that's what i care about 💅

[s-brant]

it’s 3am and i’m sobbing . i cannot do this. i’m actually broken like this is so sad. despite everything i know they both care for and love each other so so much. tell me a cute memory of harry and y/n once had pls i am so sad like idk maybe they baked cookies together 😔

haven’t been on here in awhile cuz i was in la for his shows and i come back to this where my heart is literally getting ripped out of my chest like i am so broken . he loved her so much :(

ik i’ve said it a million times but no other fic has affected me the way getaway car has and i truly think it’s one of the most beautiful pieces of work i have ever read. usually when fics have multiple parts, the plot kinda ends up dying or it just becomes boring, but you did such a good job in keeping every chapter interesting and engaging and i feel as tho there weren’t any obvious fillers that were unnecessary. i love it so much. you’re so talented i will forever say that like truly <3

i will be laying here imaging the two in another universe where they’re happy and no lies were told and they love each other so bad and they have a dog together and everything is okay and they’re able to say i love you to one another

*hugs* one of the happier memories i like to think about with them is just the two of them sitting on the couch watching tv shows together. it’s mentioned in passing a few times without being given an actual scene or paragraph devoted to describing it, but they did hang out and watch a lot of stuff on the couch together. i like to think they always made popcorn and she would bake something like cookies, and they’d get really into whatever show they were watching.

yes he did love her so much 🥺 literally he loved her so much it makes my heart ache. but i hope you had fun at your LA shows!!

and thank you so so so much 🥰🥰 it has been a joy to read all of your lovely feedback, i always looked forward to seeing your username in my inbox, and i really appreciate you. i also appreciate what you said about it not becoming boring or dragged, i really did try to not put any filler parts in there and love that you took notice of that!

oh i always try to imagine what it could’ve been like if they just met without any of the leo or hitman stuff in the way. like if harry hadn’t had to borrow the money and they met and fell in love like normal. they’d totally have a pitbull puppy and a few kids. harry pre-leo was an absolute sweetheart and would have worshipped the ground she walked on just as much as he did in the current timeline of the story.

[tomiokasensei]

hellooo it's your secret santa again <3!! how was your weekend? i hope it was great! thank you for answering with your opinion about tomioka, it was very cool and interesting to read i totally agree with you! his arc was such a surprise but a really good one. to see that he really wasn't like the "chosen one" like the other hashiras and was really lucky to have passed the test of becoming a demon hunter due to his friend sacrifice made him even more interesting as a character. and to see that he always felt guilty and didn't deserve to be on the water hashira place.. it's so genuine like we see the true tomioka on those chapters and at the same time it's so sad... but he really did a great job through the path and truly deserve that title of hashira! his fight with tanjirou with akaza in the end of the manga was so awesome i can't wait to see that animated! ohh you like naruto! that's cool! i still haven't watched the whole anime but sasuke is so 😍 i really get you! as for the yu yu hakusho i heard about it but never watched it, it seems pretty awesome! could you tell me about more of it marilyn? 👀 wish you a good and enjoyable week!

my weekend was pretty good and i hope you enjoyed yours as well~💜

lol i may go on and on when discussing my favourite characters it might not be engaging to ppl too much but i am glad to hear that you found my opinions interesting XD you have said you are also a fan of giyuu and hearing that makes me happy, i love interacting with others with similar interests💙

i absolutely agree that giyuu deserved to be the water hashira despite his insecurity and he proved to be worthy of that title: he created his own form, slays demons with grace, and despite nezuko being a demon he made the judgement to keep her alive to even vouch for her with his life. his fight with tanjiro against akaza is fantastic - i am excited for it to get animated!! akaza is definitely my second favourite character after giyuu~ 💜 he has such a well-written backstory and just grabs my heartstrings in the way giyuu's does...🥺

naruto is such a long anime i followed it thoughout my childhood up to my high school years haha but it was worth it (the fillers not so much lol)!! and sasuke himself is such a dynamic character but also corrupt... he may be an acquired taste for some and may take some time to like... XD

yu yu hakusho is such a great anime i highly recommend it. if you heard of hunter x hunter it is created by the same author/ artist. it is about a juvenile protagonist, yusuke, who has to prove himself worthy of coming back to life (because he was dead since his first appearance lol) his death was unnecessary, but it was by a good act so he was granted a second chance at life mainly cuz the afterlife didn't know what to do with him at first xD he's recruited to serve the afterlife ruler by investigating supernatural phenomena in the world of the living that have connections to the underworld, a.k.a "demons" but not in the way of kny lol basically hell on earth and yusuke is the guy to fight off and send demons back to hell. this is just the gist of it but if you like action-packed animes this is full of it!

thankyou for dropping by again, secret santa~! ! ! 😍🥰 hoping you have a wonderful week and until next time~! ! !✌️

[richmond-rex]

Regarding my most recent ask, I almost began my answer by writing ‘baby girl, baby 🥺🤍’ but I didn’t do that for a reason.

Don’t get me wrong, this is still very much the feeling I get when thinking about Elizabeth of York but I didn’t want to feed into that because I’ve noticed there’s a certain.... tradition in fandom and pop history in general to patronise Elizabeth in some way or the other? Especially dismissing her as domestic/home-oriented (‘lived for her children only’) because she engaged in traditionally feminine pastimes like embroidering. I think it’s very easy to get caught up in the tragedy of her death and the way that for all we know she was very much a good and charitable person, but that’s unfair to Elizabeth the historical person in a number of ways.

For one, you really shoehorn her into the position of a 50s housewife when queenship was a full-time job and required real abilities (and a Venetian ambassador did call her very able/of ‘grand governo’), and you really make this woman’s whole life to be a tragedy when it already had enough tragedy in it as it was. Once I saw someone on the comments section of a blog say that Elizabeth took ‘the worst possible outcome and made it work’ — I’m sorry, becoming queen of your own home country, so in that process being elevated to a position where you could help your relatives, stay close to them, and be able to speak your native tongue your whole life—none of which would have happened if Henry VII didn’t take her as his wife—is the worst possible outcome? Go off, I guess.

But another thing that plays into this ‘martyrising’ of Elizabeth of York, I think, is that we only know her good qualities. That is true, but she was also a real person—that is, she was a real person who had real flaws! We don’t know which flaws those were because it wasn’t convenient to document or talk about them, but they must have existed. By reducing Elizabeth to a Perfect Beautiful Barbie Girl Princess (whom you can project yourself onto, no less) who got unfairly married to dastardly evil villain Henry VII who didn’t deserve her and got oppressed by his dastardly evil mother, you’re engaging with history in black & white terms, and real life doesn’t work like that. It’s what Anna Duch has said here: it’s engaging with the damsel in distress trope rather than the real person. 

[what-do-1000-swords-look-like]

Babe, I think I’m gonna cry.

im so new to tumblr and don’t really know how to work it yet. And then I ended up in the wrong side of tumblr. And people are literally trying to manifest Eddie’s death and are calling Ryan’s acting sh*t and it’s. I’m not gonna go there again, but I’m just- I’m digging myself into a really bad hole, cause I’m already in a bad place mentally right now.

I mean, I know it’s not in the job description but can you… I don’t know. Is there any way to comfort me a little?🥺

Omg Nonnie, I'm coming!!!! Please don't cry!!!!

First of all, how dare people try to manifest Eddie's death? That's truly horrible. I hope they don't mind me manifesting my foot kicking them where the sun don't shine because that's about to happen if I see any of that crap anywhere on this hellsite.

Secondly, while it's their opinion of Ryan's supposed "shitty acting" I beg to differ:

Above is Eddie's non-heart eyes, a somewhat restrained smile though he's attentive to what Ana is saying and politely engaged, but he obviously has something on his mind (even if we didn't know what was coming)

Above is Eddie's performative smile, wide but tight in some areas, still slightly restrained

Above is Eddie's sneaky (or thinks he's being sneaky anyway) heart eyes

Above is Eddie's unrestrained, happy and full of enjoyment smile (hard to see from the side but it's there) as he laughs

Above is where Chim's words hit Eddie and he realizes this may be the end for Shannon (this to me is one of my favorite scenes of Ryan's in season 2 - he absolutely did this beautifully, you can see the tears increasing in his eyes, it was that good)

And all of these examples are Ryan. This is his performance as Eddie Diaz. He said it himself, he understands the character. I'll admit that before I saw the show, I didn't know anything really about Ryan's career. I had only seen him in The Boy Next Door with Jennifer Lopez and if I'm being honest, I wasn't impressed. That's why I figured I never heard of him again in any more mainstream movies. But then when I watched this show, he absolutely took me by surprise and blew me away. I not only fell in love with the character but also his portrayal of the character. My opinion of his acting abilities only grew the more and more layers I saw that he was bringing to Eddie. Not only that but he seemed to understand Eddie in a way that made me appreciate him as an actor and wanting to see him in other roles. (same for Oliver who I had never heard of before until I saw 911, same for Aisha Hinds and Kenneth Choi and Peter Krause) Ryan has the acting chops. He may not be in an Oscar worthy role at the moment, breaking ground and starving himself to drop 50 pounds (or stuffing himself to gain them) to have this big transformation onscreen that we've seen other actors do over the years, but that doesn't take away from the role he performs or the job he does every single day on set, and does it well. Same goes for Oliver.

So for anyone to sit there and crap on Ryan's acting, again, it's their prerogative but they're wrong in saying that the man can't act. He very clearly can.

Honestly, Nonnie, I think what you came across, if I had to guess, is more of the Ryan hate that's been going around since last year. (other nonnies and I discussed this and how some people on here perceive Ryan and his views on Buddie further here & here) That it has more to do with their dislike of him based on what he said a year ago than it is his acting or the character/his story itself. I had no idea what occurred last year since I wasn't in the fandom then, but when I did finally hear of it this year, I was shocked to discover that people demanded his firing and even started petitions to have Eddie recast (which obviously didn't go anywhere). And all I could think was, I get why people are pissed, I really do, but #1) people make mistakes and they often forget to include the context of him reacting to people sending death threats to his pregnant wife at the time (not excusing what he said but like any other case, we have to take all the facts into consideration), #2) he did apologize at some point after being called out publicly by his co-workers including Oliver (so that definitely means there was a conversation between him and his people and the network/show), and #3) that recasting would be an absolute mistake and it would ring the death knell for the show. I'm not saying 911 is all about Buddie, it's definitely not, it's an ensemble cast, but if anyone thinks that one of the main draws for people to continue watching every week isn't Buddie, then they're only kidding themselves. But thankfully, the network/show seems to have worked it out. And I will say this, after 4x14, I don't see them killing Eddie off. I think if Ryan ever left the show, of his own volition or not, killing Eddie would also ring one death knell for the show. While a lot of people love Buck and Chim and the other characters, a lot of people do love Eddie's character and Christopher. Even if Buck took over as legal guardian for Christopher (to keep him in the show), whether Eddie left or died, there would always be a negative space in the scenes of Buck and Christopher, meaning no matter how hard the show might try to draw the audience's attention away from that, it wouldn't work. Who is missing from that scenario would be too loud. And Tim isn't an idiot, he knows this. So, Nonnie, don't worry. I don't see Eddie being killed off and those chuckleheads on the wrong side of Tumblr can manifest all they want, it's not happening. The only time the show could have gotten away with it (and I say this loosely and hypothetically) was when Eddie was shot in 4x13. And the show chose not to do that. Because it doesn't make sense to the story they're telling, just as a general rule of good story telling. So good luck manifesting that, idiots.

As far as Tumblr goes, I've been right where you are and I too am still trying to learn the ropes here. I've been very fortunate that 96% of my asks have been very positive and I've found some amazing and supportive mutuals on here for all of my main fandoms I've been in and out of. If I can give you some advice, Nonnie, one thing I've definitely learned, though, is you need to curate your experience as best as you can. Meaning, if you need to block a blog, do it. Don't feel bad and don't worry about that blogger might think. I can't tell you how liberal I've been with the block button lately. Anything that is going to upset you or not make you feel good, when you come on here to enjoy the things you love, block it. If you don't want to see something specific in the tags, go to your account settings:

Then scroll down to the filters part:

You can see some tags in both screenshots I've added here. Click on the edit button:

And just add things like "anti eddie diaz" or "anti ryan guzman" or "ryan guzman hate" or anything you don't want to see. Tumblr will filter it for you. And as you move through the site more and find some blogs to follow, you'll see posts pop up on your dash that will be greyed out and will tell you that's it blocked due to the filter and you can still see it if you want to but they won't show it to you unless you click on it.

And one thing I definitely recommend that I tend to do 98% of my time on this site is scroll right past the stuff I don't want to see. For example, one of my tags is anti Buddie but when I go into the Eddie Diaz tag I always saw posts that hated on the ship and its shippers and was pro Eddie/Ana (until recently anyways). I just kind of rolled my eyes and scrolled past all that bs. Even when they brought it into my inbox, I just laughed it off and was like "sure, Jan, sure". (and I'm not showing you that to bring more negativity to your doorstep, that's the last thing you or anyone needs, but to show you that this is just some of the ridiculousness you'll come across on this site and you just kind of have to go "okay, sure, right", give them the one finger salute, and then go hunt down the content you're looking for) There will always be that special brand of fucknut negativity on here but the good thing, the positive usually outweighs the bad. For example, I love Destiel and Dean. That fandom experience, to me, was one of the harshest and still continues to be. Not so much that I got hit with a lot of hate myself, but I watched other people get hit with it and I really learned from how they handled themselves. They didn't stop posting what they wanted and basically took the attitude of "I'm gonna love Destiel and Dean harder". And thanks to them, I was able to curate my own experience in the Destiel and Dean tags, find my mutuals to follow, and navigate the fandom. I knew not to go into the "Sam" tag for example, not because I don't love Sam, but a lot of the hate tends to reside in that tag. But the mutuals I followed do post Sam content from time to time and so it's a win-win for me.

I don't know if any of this helps you, Nonnie. I hope it does and I hope I was able to bring you a little bit of comfort. I know what it was like starting out on this site and a lot of it was frankly overwhelming. But now I enjoy my experience with it and all of my different fandom travels. And I only hope you will start to have that soon, too. I think doing the filter blockage will definitely help. =) And I'm sorry, Nonnie, I've been there and the last thing you need is any kind of negativity or seeing things that upset you. So only look at things that make you feel happy and that you truly enjoy. I wish I could give you a hug, Nonnie, but for now this will have to do: 🫂 And if you need any recs on positive blogs to follow or some cheering up in the future for anything you come across that may be negative in nature, hit me up. I'm always here, Nonnie, and I will always provide comfort where I can. =) Sending you kisses, love, and all the good thoughts I can!!!! <3 <3 <3 <3

[saintobio]

I- ….I mean…

This how I be feeling after that chapter.

You are such an amazing writer I have to say. Like are you a magician?? The way you have my emotions flip flopping, hate emerging, then sadness, then happiness, then anger, then SADNESS. I’m about to get whiplash I swear.

Like damn I really want to hate Hoejo so bad. But that little whimpering, abandonment issues hoejo has me soft like WTF. 😭 then we she was like I won’t leave anyway… like I bet that tugged his heartstrings. Still. I’m more sad for y/n. Her suffering was so palpable this chapter. The loneliness. Feeling despondent. Ugh it gutted me. I’m glad we got a shimmer of happiness with Toji. Just like her I’ll take whatever crumbs I can get 🥺😭😭😭

Anonymous said

Okay first off I love how y/n finally stood up for herself that's amazing for her 🥺 but gojo can literally suck my ass 🖕but then I felt bad with the mom thing and then I remembered how he was thinking about fucking y/n while he was with sera so I got over it😌 and then the whole "you make it hard for me to hate you" bitch 😡😡 you make it hard for me to not want to claw out your motherfucking eye balls like bitch🤨 do you want to fight me. An when he had the audacity to be all clingy😑 just like Hayley Williams said " once a whore you're nothing more" . If he wants to make me happy he better eat her out till she's fucking crying 😫 and not because she's sad for once -🐚anon

Anonymous said

GOD CHAPTER 6 WAS SO GOOD. I LOVED COLD Y/N LIKE THE POOL SCENE WAS IMMACULATE. I LOVED IT SO MUCH SEEING GOJO KINDA ANGY THAT SHE WAS BEING THIS WAY! 😭 I love your writing sm 😞 it’s so good like I feel pain but it also makes me so happy yknow? :) THANK YOU FOR WRITING SUCH A GOOD SERIES IM SO EXCITED ( but also scared ) FOR WHAT YOU HAVE FOR US NEXT! 💕:)

Anonymous said

Wow, chp 6 had so much yet so little happen! I can feel the foreboding brewing up! That being said, that convo between (No name) and Hoejo (what a manipulative switching ass he is) has only shown they’re not making it to the end, only to be each other’s downfall. Like Gojo said he could’ve cover her expenses if needed and completely defying his father (what a bad move 🥴) she still kept that from him, who knows what else she’s hiding and willing to do behind his back. The same for Gojo still being with Y/N (like dude, that’s your wife 🤨) acting as if he’s gonna be put to death if he doesn’t engage in normal marriage things… this chapter also has given me some faith in y/n’s path, while mistakes are gonna happen, she’s starting to set boundaries with Hoejo (which’s she shouldn’t at all), getting pieces of the puzzle together and learning a lot about herself. She just need better allies and more confidence in herself, that’ll scare the unholy, unwanted duo no one asked for. I feel Gojo will see she’s more than meets the eye and actually fall for her, only to realize it’s a little too late…. Good job babe! And take of yourself 🥺🤩🥰

Anonymous said

"i shouldn't have yelled at you and i shouldn't have blamed her." *GASP* IS THAT ACCOUNTABILITY I SEE? good job sera, you're learning 😊 but i will admit if i was sera i'd feel a lil hurt. still, she needs to understand mc's situation. like others have said before she and gojo are still very selfish.

"why did you hide hat my dad gave you ten million yen?" oop 🙊 we finally learned the truth. i felt like it wasn't for bad reason.

also i'm glad mc is being more defiant and cold with gojo. but she's still too nice 😭 i can't lie tho, i'm kinda like mc in that aspect. i just find it hard to be mean even if i'm treated like shit. so i understand mc on that level. also the moments with toji are so sweet 🥲 gojo's not gonna like this at all, i feel like he's gonna throw a fit 🤔

did gojo have a crush on mc when they were kids? at first i wanted gojo to find out mc is on birth control out of spite but now i'm like "fuck he's gonna be so mad 😭" i actually feel bad for taking it but he needs to be less of a bitch. i feel like he'll think reader is taking it so she could have sex with him and not because she wants him to be more genuine and loving.

Anonymous said

That scene with Gojo and Sera together made me sick 🤢. It was traumatizing. They look so good together that they should rot in hell.

Y/n is too kind and understanding 💗 Ms.Mam should just leave Gojo's sick ass. I am so proud of her when she started distancing herself from Gojo cuz YES! THAT'S RIGHT! IGNORE THAT MF. Whatever Gojo's playing is going to bite him in the ass hard someday.

Thankyouuuu for today's update 💗 Take care, aiii ❤️ Just don't push yourself too much😽.

(u don't have to respond cuz we understand 💗)

Anonymous said

nah cause what the PHAWK 😃 all gojo has is the mf audacity!!!! my resentment towards him is starting to grow more and more oh my lord 🥲

i’m glad mc is starting to get a grip but holy crap why does gojo feel like it’s necessary to make things SO hard for her 😐. like i get it mc may be the antagonist in his story but if he just took five, LITERALLY FIVE MINUTES of his day he would know better but no 🙃.

obviously everyone has some sort of fault in this but JEEZ gojo AND SERA wanna be the victims so bad. it dead ass feels like the two of them are trying to make a competition on who’s situation is more tragic. like newsflash buddy, the world doesn’t revolve around you ‼️

i think the only thing that made this chapter feel less angsty is definitely mc and toji interactions and i really hope there’s more bc now toji really is mc’s only escape from the hell she’s going through. although i don’t believe toji and mc will be endgame i still like to think about it here and there bc i love imagining how PISSED gojo would be 😌

anyway sorry for this long bit, I HOPE YOU’RE DOING WELL <3333

Anonymous said

so well written as always

ngl sometimes I don't insert myself as yn just cause obviously a random author isnt going to write them like my personality. like up until now I've had zero patience for gojo and his antics. like if u wanna be w her then go tf lemme be happy w whoever ugh. but this chapter YUP YUP YUP YN WAS THAT B. IT WAS GIVING ROMAN'S REVENGE NEVER LET EM PLAY U GIRL.

but yessss i like where this is going bestie ahhhh

Anonymous said

Why am I so like Y/N?!? All of my anger and hatred towards gojo suddenly disappears because of the microscopic crumbs of affection we get from him.🤡😖

Anyway hope you are having a great day! I'm soooo excited for the next chapter

-🍣( It's me againnn!!(≧∇≦)/, I'm not sure if you did get my ask last time but yeah I'm still shy and you don't have to reply to this ask hahshs)

Anonymous said

Lowkey wanna see y/n lose it lose it. Like next time Gojo says some shit like “know your place” I lowkey want her to be like “bitch you know your place. I could legit ruin your life in a second by telling both our family’s about the affair. I AM IN CONTROL” i know she won’t cause she’s so nice and sweet but just imagine the satisfaction from seeing Gojo’s face

publishing the messages for everyone to see !! i’m sorry i no longer have the mental capacity to provide lengthy answers gahah ai’s brain is tired :(( but thank you sm for sending these through !! AND YES i do love seeing y/n finally standing up to satoru, but ofc she will do it based on her personality. she’s not gonna do a 180 and suddenly be a baddie :D she does it y/n way and honestly i think that’ll hurt satoru more

[choerrypuffs]

i have been doing okies thank u so much for asking <333 how are u, hows life going for u? :3

but expanding on what u said, jaes characterization in electric bugaloo is definitely one of the best ive seen (esp for a free fic on tumblr) !! there is so much depth to his character, from the way he thinks and the innate care he still has for his sister, but at the same time hes unwilling to let go of his evil (what he deems “good”) deeds but at the end u can truly see that hes not heartless and is truly just a human but yet !! it makes u wonder how hes used that + the charmspeak to manipulate others and use their sympathy. so yes like u said, a villian is much more dangerous when u start to sympathize with them 😭 tldr; jaehyun evil but also not really but like very evil actually

also yes renjun is such a tsundere even to his members 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫 but i loved how u charaterized him to consistently think “im in love w yn im in love w yn omg hug kiss mwah yn” and then be completely stoic on the outside. i was a bit frustrated at first bc i was like “just kiss her !!” but ykw thats just him and ill have to deal with it 🤞😔 #touchygfproblems

i hope u have a wonderful weekend lovely <333 also im sorry if im basically blabbering in ur inbox about ur fic and i totally dont mind talking about something else i just really really like the way u write lmao (/ω＼) and i rarely get to talk about tumblr fics so in depth (with the author too !!) so this is (⁎⁍̴̛ᴗ⁍̴̛⁎) very nice

- morknon

ahhhh i’m so sorry for this late response, my love!! i’ve been doing great 🤩🤩🤩 my birthday was on the 26th so my friends and i went to an anime convention and just had a fun girls trip for the weekend 🥰 i’ve also downloaded the sims 4 bc it was on sale for $5 and now all i’m doing is downloading mods and playing dress up DJSJJS 🤧 how have you been, lovely?

omg pls thank you so much i’m so honored that you think so highly of my characterization of jaehyun you are too nice 🥺 i really did try to cram in as many layers as possible in the fic like a smushed onion or something 😭 bc i didn’t really give him any development in jeno’s fic which i regret </3 but you’re so right!! my goal was to humanize him bc i think it’s much scarier for the characters and the audience when the villain seemingly still has sound of mind y’know? and i wanted to people to think about what they would do if they were put in y/n’s position (obviously bc y/n is a self-insert but you know what i mean HDJSJS 😭) ! it’s also been super fun to see everyone’s reactions bc a lot of people feel sorry for jaehyun and even forgive him despite what he did, in fact, the scenes with jaehyun are actually the most talked about (from what i’ve seen in reblogs and asks) even more so than the romance 😳 it makes me really proud that so many people empathize with him bc that means i did my job properly :’))))

YESSS renjun’s characterization is my fav to write!! i just love a tsundere whose love language is acts of service 🥹🫶 if anyone has seen the anime “my sweet tyrant” renjun is literally akkun like pls 😩 OMFG I KNOW THE FEELING I’M SUPER TOUCHY AND CLINGY TOO 💔💔💔

please don’t apologize, my love!! i should be thanking you for taking the time to talk to me about my fic 💞💞💞 it’s every writer’s dream to engage with their readers about what they liked or didn’t like about their fics so i’m really happy you enjoyed the fic enough to write such kind feedback <3333333 thank you so so so much again 💖💓💘💝💟💕

[softzhongli]

summary: a closer look at the most exclusive group chat in all teyvat. we have two oblivious idiots in love, two horny bastards afraid of their feelings, a grumpy cat and his sunshine boyfriend and one very single and tired girl... among many many others warnings: swearing, probably some angst info: crack fic, multi-chaptered, social media au, not much difference they just have phones lmao pairings: childe x kaeya // xiao x venti // zhongli x diluc + lumine and other characters requests: open posted: 15/02/2022 a/n: i think i might make albedo like a occurring character, just randomly throwing him in, idk seems fun and i don’t want to have too many “main” characters so the chat-like chapters aren’t that messy and hard to follow. even now tho i added thoma to the list and stuff he’s still smaller compared to the main seven so there probably won’t be any more very significant addition at least i don’t think so but i change my mind way too easily so we’ll see lmao maybe there’s someone y’all wanna see? make sure to let me know! 

PREV II MASTERLIST II NEXT

CHAT: R.I.P. KAEYA ☠️ ⮡  members: lumine / diluc / xiao / venti / childe / kaeya / zhongli / thoma (+albedo’s cameo)

lumine: THIS IS NOW A SINGLES' CHAT

lumine: no love allowed

lumine: y'all are blocked for today

venti: i think xiao and I are engaged?

lumine: WHAT

lumine: THE

lumine: ACTUAL

lumine: FUCK

lumine: I just said no love allowed why must you hurt me like this

lumine: okay, one love allowed then it's over for you bitches

lumine: but "you think"? how can you not know if you're engaged

venti: well I asked him yesterday if he'd marry me someday and he said if it's something I want I just have to say a word

lumine: wow

lumine: talking about marriage on valentine's day

lumine: how original

venti: imagine being this jealous, couldn't be me

lumine: i'm disgusted by your happiness

venti: 🖤

lumine: 🖤

lumine: so... is it something you'd actually want?

venti: honestly it was mostly something I just said in the moment

venti: but I really like the idea of spending the rest of my life with xiao

lumine: gross but also adorable 🥺

lumine: I mean you've been together even before I met you

lumine: so I can't imagine you two not being together

lumine: you've been a package deal for the whole time I've known you

venti: yeah, time flies

lumine: ugh, ew, stop being cute

venti: I CAN'T HELP BEING IN LOVE

xiao: 🖤

lumine: oh no 🤢

lumine: i can never win

lumine: @thoma come be single with me 😭

kaeya: wouldn't that make you not single anymore

lumine: oh look who finally decided to show up

lumine: after ghosting me for the whole two days

lumine: 😐😐😐

venti: 👀🍿🍺

kaeya: i told you childe wasn't feeling the best

kaeya: someone had to help him

lumine: you're so in love with him and it makes me so mad you won't admit it asdfhhjkl

kaeya: 😐

lumine: 🙄

lumine: anyway, how's he feeling now?

kaeya: better but still not the best

kaeya: i was gonna go back with you and diluc, but I'm gonna stick around until he's okay

lumine: welp then I guess I'm coming back alone

lumine: diluc's also staying behind

lumine: he wouldn't say why but I think we all know 🤦🏼‍♀️

venti: ha! they must've had a pretty good valentine's day lol

kaeya: @lumine you can always stay too

lumine: no can do, gotta some things to do in inazuma

kaeya: *somone to do

lumine: I'm not going there for thoma

kaeya: I've never said anything about thoma 🤡

lumine left the group.

venti: that's a first

kayea: we finally did it

venti: good job team, proud of you

thoma: damn I missed her?

venti added lumine to the group.

venti: there you go my dear new friend

lumine: 😐

lumine: leave me to be alone and single in peace

thoma: a little birdie told me you're coming to inazuma 👀

thoma: so single and ready to mingle?

venti: so SO single

kaeya: definitely ready to mingle

lumie: and who asked the two of you?

lumine: go be in love and leave me alone

kaeya: oh you want some time alone with thoma?

venti: should've just said so

kaeya: 😈

venti: 😇

lumine removed kaeya from the group.

lumine removed venti from the group.

lumine: finally peace

xiao added venti to the group.

xiao: @lumine don't do that again

lumine: fuck I forgot you were online ☠️

venti: @xiao i knew i could count on you, baby

xiao: 🖤

venti added kaeya to the group.

kaeya: all's right in the world again

lumine: it was supposed to be a chat for singles today

lumine: why can't I have anything nice?

lumie: if zhongluc suddenly appear istg I'm done

kaeya added albedo to the group.

kaeya: here, have another single one

thoma: 👀

albedo: ?

lumine: omg @albedo I'm so sorry for him

albedo left the group.

lumine: @kaeya stop trying to set me up with your ex ☠️

thoma: yeah, not cool

lumine: thank you @thoma

thoma: set her up with me instead 😉

lumine: 😳

venti: omg

[anlian-aishang]

10 said by Levi? 🥺😂 (I’m sorry, I had to I HAD to!!)

Yes, you did have to 😂. It could work in any setting, but I thought this one cute!

Word count: 700 Tags: levi x reader, sfw, fluff, humor

10. “I can’t reach it.”

It was not just a nice day, it was a perfect day, one that only came around every once in a while. Warm, clear, and brightly sunny. As soon as Levi fetched your hat, you would be good to go. 

Except, it was taking a while… 

With haste, you made for the bedroom, eager to get the day started. “Hey, Levi?” 

You were about to ask him what was taking so long, but when you turned the corner, you had a different question instead, “What are you doing?” 

Levi was standing on a chair, on his tiptoes at that, entire body outstretched with his arms above his head. He chose not to look at you, keeping his gaze fixated above as he replied, “Doing what you asked me to, sweetheart.” A tinge of annoyance in his voice.

Your mouth gaped, taking a moment to size up the situation. Then, you realized: size and up were just the issues. A sympathetic smile worked its way across your lips. 

With your eyes now on him, he knew he had an audience to impress. A few more stretches, he felt he was not doing a very good job. His struggle was not only obvious, it was pitiful. 

You stepped closer, reaching your hands to his hips, hoping to help him down. “Levi, honey, I’ll get it.”

He snapped his gaze to you, “Cut it out.” The edge in his voice was startling, making you walk backwards in retreat, “I’ve got it.” He turned back to the task, any signs of embarrassment hidden by sheer determination.

You bit down on your knuckle, trying to hold back a laugh. It was not that he was short, you were well used to his height. It was how heated, how stubborn, how angry he was getting in the face of such a small task. Maybe small was not the right way to put it, you threw your hand over your mouth and giggled.

He heard you, but deemed against engaging, instead holding back nasty words with a bite of his lip. Internally, he was hoping - praying - you would just go back outside and wait for him there. Ears were alert for the sound of furthering footsteps, but his wish was left ungranted as you stayed there, enjoying the show.

A show it was indeed: leaning this way and that way, balancing on just a few toes, getting his calf raises in. He really was giving his all for the task, for you, adorable. The cutest part was how he tilted his chin up towards the shelf, thinking that this would be the motion that would finally get him there.

The chair would go out before he gave up. When the wood started to creak, the humor was gone. Your voice turned frantic, “Levi, you’re going to hurt yourself!”

Under his breath, he finally admitted to himself, “I can’t reach it.” 

Unintentionally, perhaps unknowingly, he had admitted his failure to you as well. You made for his makeshift step stool, planning to rub his back and cool him down. It’s not a big deal. I can get it. In fact, I don’t even need it. 

Instead, he stepped up to your dresser, notably taller than the chair. With all your clutter on top, there was only room for one foot, not even. When he slipped on a t-shirt, you pivoted behind him, becoming his spotter but having no clue what you would do if he fell. Fear in your voice, you scolded, “Levi! Are you crazy?” 

Maybe, but at least he was tall enough. One last reach and he had finally snagged it. With a flick of his wrist, he threw the hat like a frisbee and landed it perfectly on your head.

Towering above you, he took this as an opportunity to intensify his warning. He pointed a finger to your face and shook his hand, “You’re going to forget you saw this.”

Past his frustration, embarrassment, ordering, you could sense the sliver of humor in his expression. He was slowly coming to terms with how ridiculous this had been and was trying his hardest to hide it.

You reached up and tousled his hair, “Thanks, honey,” but wishful thinking.

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[quercus-queer]

You cannot imagine the serotonin im receiving from the anonymous comments from classmates on my essay I did the night before it was due