#they may choose their coping mechanism ok

[holy-mother-of-whumpers]

Crying Yes it's worth it

For every bunch of bad characterizations there is going to be a gem, and I don't mind mining the rocks to get to the diamonds🤲

torn between wanting more people to know about the thebaid vs fearing how badly every single character would get fandomized. angry smol uwu bean tydeus. tragic rebellious sadgirl antigone. argia and deipyle would be DELETED so tydenices can kiss

[shishuri]

Ive been rewatching Vision of Escaflowne (because youtube algorithm compelled me to).. ohh boy.. watching the anime with adult brain you realize a lot of things you probably missed when you watched it when you were a child

Ex.

Allen was 21 in the anime, and Millerna and Hitomi were 15.. it gave me big ick whenever one of those two flirts with him. And every time he kiss one of them i keep saying "15, Allen, get away).

When i was a kid i did wonder about the Dilandau/Celena situation, specially what goes on down under.. i mean Dilandau is suppose to be male so does Celena grows the matching parts too.. I realize now that Dilandau is probably a split personality for Celena to cope with whatever experiments were done to her, the experiments probably just enhanced Dilandau's presence. Because at the end Jajuka told Celena that its ok to turn back to the gentle Celena. And that is way sadder than what i thought when i was a kid and also what the hell was i thinking 😂

Dilandau was a major jerk, i never thought of it before but he was so abusive with his subordinates and now i wonder why those guys are so loyal to him.

Duke Freid is based af, he is the father who stepped up. He knew, he fucking knew that Chid wasnt his but he acknowledged him, loved him, took care of him and even trusted the future of the Duchy to him. He didn't care about Marlene's former lover, and the fact that she still chose him in the end, I am 100% sure this man is a green flag.

Chid was swole at 5 yrs old. This little man was able to carry a huge ass sword twice his size to present to the zaibach empire for their treaty. Either that shit was not as heavy as it looks, there is magic shenanigans involved or Chid was swole af. Also, for a 5 yr old he speaks like he's 10. Either he is a genius or children in Gaea age faster or the author never met a 5 yr old.

To this day i am still upset that Van and Hitomi never really got together in any media made (manga, anime, movie), Hitomi will always end up going home, now i am more upset that Allen got to kiss Hitomi and Van only got a goddamn hug at the end.. I want my farewell kiss at the very least.

Since Van is a king he may still need to be married to have heirs to continue the Fanel bloodline. However, if he was responsible enough and realized that he shouldn't have kids to avoid the Draconian bloodline to be passed on and possibly repeat the same problem he had with Escaflowne. I know he wanted Escaflowne to never be used again, but shit can still happen and may inevitably be needed to be used again. If who inherits the throne is not very strict in Fanelia, this should be fine.

What the actual hell was Asturia's power hierarchy. The king had 3 daughters, supposedly, the first born should be the heir, but he sent her off to marry into the Duchy of Freid, but the duchy doesn't seem to be part of Asturia, so it's probably a duchy of another country. The next in line should be Eries, but when the king couldn't do his job after Zaibach attacked Asturia, Dryden was in-charge and he married the Mallerna the 3rd princess, and even before that Dryden assumes or maybe told that he will be king when he marries Mallerna. Even in a 90s anime there was a middle child syndrome. I didn't care about this when I was a kid, but somehow it bothered me now. Justice for Eries (the forgotten middle child).

Dryden was actually a green flag.. i think when i was a child I didn't like him for whatever reason. But now I realize that he isn't so bad. Aside from marrying a 15 yr old (he was 21, according to wiki), but that's Royal marriage for you, unfortunately. Besides the ick when he flirts with Mallerna. He bought a mermaid to set it free, paid the repairs for Escaflowne (the price of his main ship), helped Asturia during the war, and he wanted to wait for Mallerna to choose him.

Escaflowne has a "click here to call the Repair guy" mechanism in it. Literally, they can call the Ispano and they'll come right away whenever, wherever if they need it repaired 😂. Top notch Customer Support service. Nowadays, if you call the repair guy it might take 5-7 business days.. that's being generous.

I still dont understand Folken's motive to destroy Fanelia.. he is literally the first born of the king of Fanelia, he can open Escaflowne, he could have just returned with a dragenergist and claim his right to the throne to get Escaflowne before Van's coronation. But instead he let Van claim Escaflowne and had Fanelia destroyed. It could be argued that Van needed to take Escaflowne. But at the start the target was just "the dragon" Escaflowne, not Van.

I also still dont understand why Zaibach needed to wage war and it was necessary for the Zone of Absolute Fortune. Of course everyone's wishes will be tainted with their thoughts of war, that was the last thing they were doing, their adrenaline is still working overtime. They haven't sat to think what is going on so of course they would unintentionally wish for the fight to continue, they were still on survival mode.. i think they would have a different result if the Zone was activated when everything was peaceful. Did they need the situation to be dire?

Dornkirk is Isaac Newton. Lol

By the way, the way Dornkirk described what happened when he arrived in the Zaibach Empire.. bro was having a major god complex, "sent there to save these people" like sir.. you end up there cause you wished hard enough.

I kinda missed animes having a bit meta in it with their opening and ending songs.. ex. The opening song for Vision of Escaflowne is the tune in Marlene's music box.

[celticcrossanon]

BRF Reading - 6th of August, 2024

This is speculation only

Cards drawn on the 6th of August 2024

Question: How is Queens Camilla's health?

This is a one card reading

The card drawn was The Seven of Cups

Cups are about emotions, so Queen Camilla's emotions are affecting her health.

The Seven of Cups is a card about choices, choosing between various options, but it can also be a card of fantasy and illusions, i.e. thinking you have options when you don't, daydreaming, wishful thinking, and indecision.

As a health card, it indicates living in a fantasy world, believing in illusions, being very unhappy, and addictions.

The energy of unhappiness and illusions is coming through here. It feels like the Queen is making decisions based on what she wants to happen, i.e. illusions and daydreams, rather than on what is actually happening in real life. She may have retreated into daydreams as an escape from the stresses of her day to day life.

I don't think she is looking after herself 100%, to be honest.

Underlying Energy: The Eight of Cups

This is a card of mourning, abandonment, walking away from something. It is also one of my cards for approaching death, as the card shows Psyche descending into the underworld. it can be a card about being unhappy with your current life.

As a health card, this card indicates exhaustion, fatigue, being emotionally drained, being unhappy, feeling lonely, and moving on after the death of a loved one.

The recurring theme here is unhappiness. I think the Queen is unhappy and dissatisfied with her current life. The energy of this card is of a deep sadness, grief/mourning, and a desire to leave it all behind - making the decision to distance yourself from things emotionally.

This is more mental health than physical health.

Conclusion:

Something is making the Queen very unhappy in her life. It could be the King's illness, or it could be something else. The Queen has had to distance herself emotionally from this situation as it is just too difficult for her to cope with otherwise. She may be keeping up a pretence in public and acting like everything is OK, even making plans like everything is OK - the illusions and daydreams of the Seven of Cups - but this is a coping mechanism. Everything is not Ok, and she knows it, and it is eating away at her and making her very unhappy.

[bloedewir]

Ok I have nothing on my Rook yet.

Most of my OCs backstory comes to me like a daydream or a vivid vision when I'm fighting with CC. But I have a few wip ideas to start with.

Rook is well aware of who the Inquisitor is and not only because that big scary organization saved the world. Rook knows Inquisitor. Some years ago Inquisitor made an official visit to the headquarters of Rook's fraction. Living legend, a hero and all that. So Rook was kind of a fan back in time.

That's why they joined Varric without a doubt.

Rook: Wait, isn't he the famous writer.. something-something Hightown?

Brother in Christ fraction: Pretty much but Tethras is also a hero of the Inquisition. One of the inner circle actually.

Rook: Is he? Hmm..

I can't help myself and always choose necromancy when it's available, so my Rook may be a member of Mourn Watch. Not sure yet because it's a mess: Inquisitor is a necromancer, Emmrich (possible LI) is a necromancer and Rook is a necromancer too? Weird. Too much bones to bear.

If all that pretty stuff about CC is true (and I hope so), I want to make Rook a short mess of an elf. Something small and wretched. A morally and mentally questionable jester. Perfect recipe: Sera + 50% adequacy + the Cryptkeeper sense of humor + bit of a chaotic energy.

Their mind has to be a nettle labyrinth in which a guilt, repressed memories and urge to do better is all mixing up yet it's too complicated and heavy to face it, so Rook is in a constant denial, wearing a mask of carelessness and hiding behind humour. A coping mechanism, yup. Beginning of DA4 would be a some kind of an unwanted push for things to change.

Yet. It's still in development.

[colleencrossingg]

So this happened.

I apologize for my inactivity, school and work has been absolutely insane. I have been playing New Leaf every day though to get as much as I can before the servers shut down. Yes, this includes exchanging 100 visits with randos on Reddit for unlimited hacked Sanrio items. I decorated the bottom floor of my house, so I’ll post that later. I also started the Beautiful Town ordinance, because I am SICK of watering flowers.

I finished funding for both the Roost and the Dream Suite (with the help of friendly Redditors), so my main focus has been trying to visit others and get to 500 dreams. If you want me to visit, leave your Dream Address!

Things in my personal life are not going as well. My dog passed away yesterday at 6 years old. We have no idea what happened, but it seems as if he had severe organ failure. He was always very sick, even as a puppy, but this was very unusual and he declined very quickly. I don’t want to get into it, but this was the third major health scare in less than 9 months where we thought we’d have to put him down.

I am struggling to get things done because I am having POTS flare ups and I have been dealing with depression-related fatigue. I am trying to keep going, but it is hard. I am also dealing with a lot of stress because of my fiancée, because we might have to move in June so he can start grad school. He is stressing me out with financial talk and trying to convince me to enter a mortgage on a property I’ve never even seen in a city we’ve never been to. The FAFSA delay is screwing us because we don’t know how much in loans we’ll have to take out, so this affects which school he chooses to attend. I also don’t know what I’ll be doing until I can start my MA program. I may try to take Chinese or Vietnamese courses as a nonmetriculated student at the university my fiancée is going to, or I may be ambitious and try to do it at the Ivy League school nearby…

I recently won two awards for my thesis as well as my service to the department I belong to. I am dealing with major impostor syndrome because of this. I don’t feel like I deserve to win, and I even consulted my favorite professor to make sure that he didn’t influence the decision in any way because he is the department chair. I’m not sure if I want to even attend the ceremony because I am dealing with intense body image issues and if anybody tries to take a picture of me, I’ll go insane.

I will try to post occasional updates if I can. Animal Crossing is my main coping mechanism through everything going on. I have so many other games I want to play, but so little time.

I want to try the new Stardew Update, but I have such minimal progress in my main save file. I’m horrible with getting through the Skull Cavern mines, and it’s really holding me back. I haven’t played Stardew in a very long time, so I may just play from a completely different save file and start over.

Another game I’ve been playing more lately is Minecraft. I wouldn’t say it’s been a full-on intense Minecraft phase, but I started a new "Survival" world (I play on Peaceful until it’s not convenient for me - I have been playing for 12 years and beaten the game numerous times, I know what I’m doing!) and I’m trying to exit my comfort zone by building in biomes I would usually skip over.

Sorry for my inactivity, shit is rough right now. I don’t know what else to say. I deal with grief really weird for someone who is extremely mentally ill and emotionally unstable. I’m oddly fine. He died in such a traumatic state, so maybe it’s me knowing that he’s at peace now. I don’t know.

Also this has been me every morning sitting in my office at school high as FUCK listening to Strawberry Switchblade/Rose McDowall and getting absolutely nothing done. I have absolutely cooked my Spotify Wrapped and it’s not even April.

Ok I’ll update you in another month. 🫡

[a-little-bit-of-tradition]

Hello! Some of you may have seen me around. I'm technically a nobody in this fandom on here as I like to keep to myself, but am taking a plunge and getting this off my chest now that the show's over for me. I don't see myself as a writer, but I have my own headcanons now for how I would have taken the Upstead story that I've written out and thought I'd share in case it helps other people. I've lost a lot of ships in my time! It never gets easier, you just learn new coping mechanisms. Will continue posting/reblogging content of older seasons to remember what we had. 💕

As I mentioned here in tags, events may have given them a nudge, but all their decisions were made out of love. They may have experienced trauma and their own demons that influenced their methods, but this relationship and being together was always where they wanted to be. Their relationship was never a trauma response. Immediately leaning on someone else is a trauma response.

Headcanon 1: (personal fave) Tracy leaves first half of season.

In those 6 months, Jay and Hailey were talking and were both starting to open up and connect again. We learn divorce is brought up but they choose to work through it. Hailey was therefore feeling less pain and reintegrating herself back in the team. Jay lets her know that he has an end date and he wants to come home to her if she wants him too and that he's sorry. He thought that was what he needed but now knows all he wants is a life with Hailey.

Hailey decides that she's experienced enough in Intelligence and wants to try something new and lets Voight know she's leaving and that she and Jay are good. We learn Hailey and Jay have made plans to leave Chicago as they both have too many ghosts and need a fresh chapter. (Insert casual reference/joke to starting with a very belated honeymoon/reconcilation time, perhaps in a cabin in Northern Wisconsin if that still exists, or just anywhere).

Once Hailey has left, we later learn through a team conversation in passing, that they are in Seattle (humour me!) and she has taken up a new position in a role that's closer to the cop she wants to be. And Jay is doing something quieter in a more educator/training position rather than full combat. The two are happy and now prioritising their marriage and joining their lives together.

Headcanon 2: More in line with canon with my attempt to try and make sense of it...

Hailey and Jay are now divorced. Jay could hear Hailey was in pain in those 6 months and felt obligated as the cause of it to free her from him, even though we as the audience knew it was the opposite of what Hailey wanted from him which was to just come home. Hailey's mad because it's not how she wanted things to go but doesn't actually tell Jay that, thinking she has to let him go, so now has to bear a life without the man she loves and focus on the one thing she has avoided, (according to canon) herself.

Through talking with Kim she hesitantly decides to start therapy and in the next 5/6 months, slowly starts to think about who Hailey is and what Hailey wants. She decides that she's ready to leave Intelligence and try different areas of policing. She's a "good cop" but wants to be a better one.

Then in the last 2 eps, Hailey has reached out to Jay, to let him know she's ok and hopes he is too. He's thrilled to hear it as he didn't want to reach out in case it caused her more pain and feared she hated him. She's in a better place and at this point they can talk as old friends and she tells him she has a new job and will leave soon. Jay later mentions he has an end date and that he'd love to see her if that's something she'd want. She cautiously agrees, as she knows that is in fact what she does want, and they make plans to. We learn next season through the team that they are trying again with a fresh start.

💕

[whentherewerebicycles]

okay that was a great weekend with an excellent and hilariously witty crew of people lol. I am glad I went but also my body is broken from travel and I badly need to be back in my little routines!! 2.5 hours left in this flight then I gotta get the shuttle to my car and drive 40 min home before I can crash in my own bed at last!!! thankfully I have three full days of solitude before bachelorette weekend activities begin which should be enough time to get back on a normal sleep schedule, go for a couple short runs and a few long walks, and cook myself food that includes actual vegetables. I’m still responsible for the pugs which means I’m not fully relaxed (so many dogs and only half of them housetrained 🫠) but it’ll still feel REAL good to be in my own space with nowhere to be.

somewhere between four and nine business days left on the job decision wait. it might be sooner than that as the first round went a lot faster than they originally said, but I’m not going to count on it! I sent a thank you email to the committee earlier today and I feel like I’ve done everything I can to demonstrate that I’m a good fit. if I look deep into my heart I feel like I don’t expect to get the job, mostly because I am my mother’s daughter and that means I assume that if I want something too much the universe will choose to shame/humiliate me for wanting it. fun feelings to unpack someday or never! but I still really enjoyed most of the experience (except the last 24 hours of working on that talk lmao) and I feel like this experience has fully reinforced for me that I just really really REALLY want to get back into a university setting. I don’t find learning & development work interesting enough to find another job in my current field and I can’t stay in my current job—I’m too emotionally checked out. so if I don’t get this job, I’m going to give myself a day or two to be crushed, and then I’m going to turn around and apply for two open positions at the same campus (I really liked the general vibe there apart from the meh feelings about how white the faculty/staff seemed to be). I may also apply for a lower-ranking job in the same office if I feel like they let me down nicely/seem generally positive about me. anyway I know I am doing the thing where I try to preemptively rehearse and rationalize my feelings away so they can’t hurt me when they happen but just let me practice my silly little coping mechanisms okay.

mm ok I think I’m gonna read fanfic because I feel too tired and bleh in my body to do anything more productive than that.

[hyper-vigilante]

I struggle to talk about my issues with people for a lot of reasons.

Often times me trying has lead to people not understanding or not really knowing how to respond, or even upsetting people. Which isn’t their fault, it is upsetting stuff, it just sucks that I can’t express my hurt without hurting others.

When I choose not to talk about certain issues with others, there have been times I’ve been told that I’m ignoring my problems. That I’m repressing them and refusing to face them. That when I act happy despite all the stuff I deal with that I must be putting on an act. That’s not true. I am happy. I can be happy. My struggles are hard yes but I’m not just wholly suffering 24/7

And I’m not ignoring my problems. Far from it. I think about them constantly. I write about them constantly. I privately work through them constantly. But I don’t always want to talk about it, or at the very least with how I’ve learned people tend to respond, I don’t really feel like I can.

I’m not ignoring my problems when I refuse to talk about them. I have coping mechanisms, I understand my issues for the most part, I’m doing ok. Talking about them hurts though. How people respond to them hurts.

Cause again it’s always either people don’t understand/don’t know how to respond so it’s just awkward, or people get upset in one way or another. To some extent, that’s validating. It’s validating to know my issues are real enough and “bad enough” that people are left upset or lost when they hear about them.

But that’s also the issue. When I talk about it, I’m fine. I’m detached enough that I can talk about it just like facts and not get too upset majority of the time. But when I have to deal with how other people feel about it, it forces me to face the reality of how bad everything is.

For me it’s just another Tuesday of all these things I already know about my life and do what I can to handle, for other people, it’s this dark hurt filled history that they didn’t previously know about and are rightfully upset happened/happens to me.

I’m the host of my system. I believe I have been, in the state that I am, for at least a few years. I am frontlocked. I cannot leave front. I cannot take a break. I most likely directly split off from any previous hosts we’ve had based on the memories and traits I have and how I know they line up with how we were when we were younger.

Part of my job is that I can’t face how bad things are. I’m always looking at the bright side, the silver lining, I’m always downplaying, I’m always detached. I know things, and logically I can understand that they’re things that negatively impact me, but emotionally, I can’t really grasp it.

I can’t grasp how abusive my mother has actually been because all I can do is try and understand her perspective and look at the things she does right. When I’m upset with her it hardly lasts more than a day.

I can’t grasp how unhealthy and unstable all of my father figures have been and how that has permanently impacted me in ways that make me feel disgusting.

I can’t grasp how unfair it has been being the eldest child in my family and all the responsibility that has been put on me since I was a very young child.

I can’t grasp how dealing with how the world treats queer/trans/neurodivergent is actively adding loads and loads of stress onto me. Makes me fear for my life. Makes me angry. Makes me feel stuck. Makes me feel less than and ostracized.

I can’t grasp the fact that despite what I’ve thought my whole life, I may have in fact been sexually abused/harassed/assaulted in my life.

I can’t grasp just how bad and unfair everything is, because if I did, I would break. I would lose hope and I would give up. It would be too much.

Talking to other people makes me have to face those things more and with the lack of support I end up receiving, I cannot handle that.

So I keep everything to myself. To my own mind, my own journals, my own artwork, and now, my own secret/private vent account.

That way I don’t have to face other people facing my trauma.

[this-should-do]

um for the fanfic writer ask game thing, A D E R if that is ok !!

A- urhghggh honestly its so hard to choose, but overall, i definitely enjoy Point Insertion a lot, exploring two different sides of an interaction as weighty as that was really fun. my runners up tho are: Deep Blue and Cut Away the Extraneous

D- most personal would probably be Am I My Own Reflection . that one was written to vent about my own experiences and struggles with depersonalization/derealization

E- Lol you may not believe it but Gordon, i touched on it in the last one but i put a lot of my own coping mechanisms and struggles/fears into how gordon interacts with and navigates the world around him. Pretty much all of my fics are representative of this mindset, just in different ways, like Point Insertion gets more into the sense of time loss, Paper Work talks about sudden onset panic attacks and disproportionate reactions over feeling inadequate and taking perceived rejection really hard and it all getting channeled into rage and violent thoughts, it all just kinda permeates how i write gordon, with similar baseline themes just being present in most of the fics that feature him

R- urhgghgh, definately the first one that comes to mind is my bud Nymm, theyre a really talented writer and you should go read their works, over on their ao3, they recently published a creepy pasta mansion fic and its soooo fucking good,

[worthington-iii]

Hey! Just wanted to respond to some stuff and clarify since I think we're actually just saying a lot of the same stuff in different roundabout ways lol.

"He knew he couldn't afford to show them - not because he was ashamed."

I never said he's ashamed of the mutation itself, just that he struggled to reconcile with being a mutant at first. It takes time for him to go from being a teenage boy denying himself pleasures because of his identity and visible mutation (in the aforementioned Season One) to a loud and proud mutant leading a team. I think by the time we hit Champions, he's gone through that character growth. So I agree that he's got something to be insecure about, and a lot of it is societal! (Screencap from X-Men: Season One.)

(FWIW I also don't consider First Class to be a part of mainline canon because it directly contradicts other established works i.e. Warren's parents being aware of his mutation.)

"But they have him cheer and celebrate because he inherited money?"

I may be misremembering, but I never really got the impression he was celebrating any of it. In Hidden Years and the original Ka-Zar issues, it feels like he does carry resentment toward his uncle for that murder, and he continues to fight in his dad's name (Marvel Comic #335 below) despite having a tense relationship prior to that . I think he has good reason for that relationship to feel strained and nuanced (Revelations #3) so maybe his mourning process doesn't look the same as someone with a healthy dynamic.

In response to any of the Apocalypse stuff, I feel that it manifests more in the sense of Warren being afraid of what Archangel is capable of even if he has renounced Apocalypse himself. He didn't fully get comfortable with Archangel until way after X-Factor, if ever at all. I agree with Betsy's analysis below (Uncanny X-Force #2) and looking at the word choice to support him, it does feel like she's been feeling his discomfort with Archangel and everyone's reactions to it.

And even after Xavier helps him gain more control, he still understands the power that the image of Archangel has alone, both threatening and negative to others (X-Corp #2 below). He chooses to hide it publicly until he reaches a breaking point and invites Monet to provoke him.

As far as Giant Size 2024, it was never really my personal cup of tea, but it still has merit for analysis' sake. I do think it has some interesting takes that I'd say reinforce that Warren is insecure at heart, wary of change, and doesn't always have the healthiest mechanisms to cope with it. I hate to side with Maze, but I do think she's right about him in some aspects lol.

"...how Warren longs for stability and a family."

Pulled from my original post: "I'd propose that [his confidence] is a big influence of having Candy in his life - some form of stability and care for him that he couldn't find within the X-Men. Part of his reason for leaving (at least seemingly as he agreed with Jean) was wanting to seek out meaning away from the X-Men, potentially with love and a family in the future. I'd say this is probably the peak of his mental health."

He definitely has always felt to me like he wants more to life than just being an X-Man. While being a hero brings satisfaction, he thought he needed a relationship for self-fulfillment. He's always thrived on other people's attention. I'd contest, though, that Warren broke things off with Betsy completely of his own accord. The first time they split, Betsy was beginning to drift and found interest in someone else (X-Men Vol. 2 #109) so I'd say the breakup feels mutual. As for their second breakup - it was never majorly addressed outside of Warren losing his memories and Betsy having planted her roots elsewhere while the "real" Warren was gone. I'd love to see them back together someday, even for a brief fling, but I don't expect it to happen with the way they've taken Betsy lately, and that's ok! Since the last time he lost Betsy, he hasn't really had any genuine romantic connections while earlier on, he's flirting with nearly everyone and having all sorts of short term relationships (i.e. Dazzler).

And yeah, I am a Candy truther. She's a total baddie, ready to go toe to toe with supervillains in Hidden Years or Defenders. Warren really seems to be the happiest out of all his stories when he's with Candy and things are going well between them. He didn't have to worry about the Archangel thing souring the relationship, and she was one of the humans who could see past his mutation or his status as an X-Man, likely because she knew him before all that happened. I see her as a grounding point for Warren between his old life and his new life.

To wrap this up, I still believe the core thread of Warren's character is a story about accepting and adapting to change. He has to revoke his "golden boy" status to present publicly as a mutant, and once things finally look perfect, he gets torn back down again and has to work his way back up. Rinse and repeat. Heirs of Apocalypse and Giant Size 2024 felt like a satisfying punch in that narrative, where he finally acknowledges the cycle he's kept himself in and seems determined to break it. The writing and plot has been wildly inconsistent for him over the years, but I still like to find what meaning and through-lines I can. I hope the writers going forward will follow an arc of "You Beat The Scary Thing....What Now?" That would be the most personally satisfying to me!

Some scary Archangel badassery for the road:

SOMEBODY GIVE ME YOUR CHARACTER BREAK DOWNS

I NEED TO LEARNNNN

SOMEONE GIVE ME THEIR ANALYSIS ON THE PSYCHOLOGY OF WARREN PLEASE

I WANNA LEARN HOW DEEP CHARACTERS GO

If you’ve been desperate to tell someone about a character you’ve dug into

TELL ME

as long as it’s a Marvel Character I’ll listen

And I’ll even take select DC characters but don’t push it.

[avelera]

Hob “I’d die for you (because death is the worst thing he can think of)” Gadling vs Dream “I’d live for you (because living is the worst thing he can think of)” of the Endless.

It’s not quite right but my brain isn’t giving me anything else

I think I see where you're going with this, but if I may do a certain flavor of "Yes, and!" and not dismiss this statement as such but dwell on it a moment, because I firmly disagree about Hob.

Gonna put this under a cut cuz we're gonna be dealing with some suicide ideation here:

Because here's the thing, I don't think Hob would die for anyone. Absolutely anyone. He didn't give up on life after his own child died. And here's the thing, I think that makes him very good for Dream.

I don't think Dream should be with someone who would die for him. The reason for that is, I think Dream sees the world in stories, for very understandable reasons, and a loved one dying for him gives him permission to die. I genuinely think he sees his check ins on Hob as seeing if he, Dream, has permission to die yet. If a man who loves life this much gives up on life, doesn't that mean Dream is allowed to? Doesn't that mean there's truly nothing the bleakness of the world won't crush, so the only sane thing to do is leave it, if it can make someone like Hob want to die?

So it is so, so important that Hob never gives that inch. That even if it meant saving Dream's life, in theory, he wouldn't die for him. Because someone like Dream could twist that moment, that story into a justification to die, or to die for Hob. Hob can't give him that inch.

If Hob jumped in front of a speeding car to save Dream, or anyone, he would do so on the certain understanding that it was only because he knew he'd survive. If he thought he'd die, he wouldn't do it, because it'd probably just get them both killed and yeah he'd feel rotten about it but he has lived with far, far worse things on his conscience.

Now, Dream choosing to live because it's awful? That's very interesting. Very interesting indeed. Because that's the sort of shit you can trick Dream with, that Dream can trick his own suicidal brain with, to keep living.

Dream lives in stories. He's a romantic. He would suffer any horror for someone he loved.

Well, Hob would challenge him, will you live for me?

And Dream might balk. It might force him to confront that when he said he'd do anything for love, he wasn't sure he meant that. Which might make him realize there is a limit. That maybe there are things one shouldn't do for love (stay in terrible relationships, for example).

Ok, but if he balks, that means there's a limit, that means he's not a perfect romantic lover. That means he's not just a story. He's a person with limits.

Ok, Hob might challenge him then, but will you live for me? Not because you're a story, but because you're a person, and I want you to live, and I want to be alive together with you. Will you do the worst thing, hardest thing possible for you, and live?

Or, maybe Dream will continue to dress it up in being a romantic hero when Hob asks him to do the most difficult thing, pursue the most difficult quest, weather the most difficult storm, which is live.

And maybe, because these things are not accomplished overnight, because maybe seeing himself as a story was a coping mechanism for Dream that is now hurting him but at one point helped him get through difficult times. Maybe, Dream starts the journey towards wanting to live again on the premise that he is a story and he is in love, and Hob asked him to do the most difficult thing, so he must. And gradually, over time, he finds he does want to live. And the thoughts of death aren't there as often. And the weariness towards the world begins to lift and Hob is waiting there, ready to keep living with him.

[frozenmoonshine]

Tokyo Revengers Characters Appreciation

I've been thinking a lot recently about the series as a whole, and just how meaningful and amazing everything about it is, how many invaluable life lessons are interwoven into the story plot, into characters, and everything in between, and I just cannot stop being moved to tears constantly, if I think of how much of a genius Wakui-sensei really is! 🥹

Anyway, I decided to write all that down and share with the world, so, here it is:

‌Thank you, Hanagaki Takemichi - Crybaby Hero, for teaching us that being imperfect is ok, that we don't have to constantly strive for greatness and to impress anyone, as long as we don't lose against ourselves!

‌Thank you, Sano Manjirō - Invincible Mikey, for reminding us how important mental health is, that it's ok to cry, hurt, be 'weak', and ask for help, and thank you for giving us a reminder to check up on our friends and loved ones who seem strong and smiling, 'cause those people usually need the most help!

‌Thank you, Ryūgūji Ken - Draken, for being the realest one, and the backbone of the series! You da real bro, bro! *pats on the shoulder*

‌Thank you, Sano Emma, for being the most loving one in the story, and the epitome of all kinds of love, familial, romantic, and platonic alike!

‌Thank you, Tachibana Hinata - Hina & Tachibana Naoto, for providing us with a certain level of "normalcy" against which we can compare all other characters!

‌Thank you, Kisaki Tetta, for being the most hateable villain in the story, it would have never been the same without you being so awesomely written!

‌Thank you, Hanma Shūji - Shinigami of Kabukichō, for always being so chaotically entertaining, and a spice in every dish!

‌Thank you, Matsuno Chifuyu, for being everyone's comfort character, and showing us what a true friend, ride-or-die, and a trustworthy partner is supposed to be like!

‌Thank you, Baji Keisuke, for warning us that fighting alone all on our own leads to nothing!

‌Thank you, Hanemiya Kazutora, for showing us that healing from any bad experience is possible, that no matter how low we may fall in life, we can always get back up, as long as we are willing to admit our mistakes and face our demons!

‌Thank you, Mitsuya Takashi, for being an exemplary role model for all and any eldest siblings out there!

‌Thank you, Hayashida Haruki - Pah-Chin & Hayashi Ryōhei - Peh-yan, for being the sweetest, funniest characters in the story, and for providing us with the wholesomest bromance that ever bromanced!

‌Thank you, Kawata Nahoya - Smiley & Kawata Sōya - Angry, for always being cute, wholesome, and entertaining!

‌Thank you, Sanzu Haruchiyo - Loyal Mad Dog, for setting an example of always going an extra mile to achieve your goals, resilience, blind devotion, discipline, and not giving up! Or, simply, thank you for being that one unhinged psycho with a katana and a tragic past, that we can't help but simp for!

‌Thank you, Mutō Yasuhiro - Mūcho, for introducing our baby Haru <3 to cheesecake!

‌Thank you, Kurokawa Izana, and thank you, Terano Minami - South, for showing us that monsters are most commonly made, not born, and for pointing out that music is a good coping mechanism!

‌Thank you, Kakuchō - Brawler, for warning us to pay attention whose side we choose to be on, and who we choose to follow and attach ourselves to in life!

‌Thank you, Mochizuki Kanji - Mocchi, for showing us that honor goes beyond which side one's on.

‌Thank you, Madarame Shion - Leader of the 9th Generation of Black Dragon, for being the comic relief! (Hey, somebody's gotta do it, alright?!)

‌Thank you, Haitani Ran & Haitani Rindō for being the neverending sources of inspiration for fanarts and fanfics!

‌Thank you, Shiba Hakkai, for reminding us that we can always stand up to our abusers, and that toxic relationships should always be severed, because family is so much more than just blood!

‌Thank you, Shiba Yuzuha, for showing us what being a badass female/strong woman is all about!

‌Thank you, Shiba Taiju, for leading by example to give a helping hand when needed the most!

‌Thank you, Kokonoi Hajime - Koko, for reminding us that money does not buy happiness!

‌Thank you, Inui Seishū - Inupī, for being unapologetically blunt and always saying what needs to be said and heard!

‌Thank you, Sano Shin'ichirō, for being the Big Bro™️ of the whole series and the entire fandom!

‌Thank you, Akashi Takeomi - God of War, for giving us a warning about overindulging in hedonism, and teaching us to keep our feet grounded, lest our heads starts floating too high in the clouds, for the fall will be disastrous!

‌Thank you, Imaushi Wakasa - Waka - White Leopard & Arashi Keizō - Benkei - Redcliff, for being the coolest, most iconic, legendary duo, and parental figures to our Princess Senju!

‌Thank you, Kawaragi Senju, for being a badass ball of sunshine and a deadly cinnamon roll, and showing everyone that a girl can be a boss babe, physically strong, cute, feminine, and a tomboy, all the same time!

‌And lastly (but most importantly), thank you, Peke J, for being a cat! <3

[fortpeat]

hello hello hello. i absolutely love your hot takes on prapaisky so today im here to drop one of mine and ask your opinion on the same. as much as i want sky to seek help from the right person, go to therapy and start his healing journey (of course prapai has already helped in that quarter but i see most people want to SEE sky go to therapy), i personally think he's too stubborn to do just that and i don't mean this in a bad way. everyone has their coping mechanism and we know sky doesn't have the healthiest one but something about sky seeking professional help just doesn't sit right with me. i feel that apart from being extremely stubborn, he's also incredibly smart and terribly shy. stubborn because he will refuse therapy, smart because he knows how to deal with his trauma and exactly what needs to be done to heal (part of it includes climbing into prapai every chance he gets and clinging to prapai for the rest of their lives, among other things- and we know both of them absolutely love it), and shy because well that's pretty self explanatory. he has been dealing with it on his own all this time and he may have developed a few too many unhealthy habits but that's beside the point. now, considering how difficult it was for sky to open up to prapai in the first place (and for good reason), and just how much time it took for him to trust prapai, i don't think sky is the kind person who would want to discuss his trauma with just about anyone, it doesn't matter if the other person is a professional psychiatrist/psychologist with fifty degrees and what not. he did it with prapai because prapai proved to him just how much he loves and accepts sky for who he is. prapai has EARNED that privilege (yes it IS a privilege). it's PRAPAI!!!!! so i don't think sky will ever be enthusiastic about going to therapy. yes maybe it's not fair to prapai if sky decides to only rely on prapai. yes it's not fair to sky himself, it's not fair to their relationship but again that's beside the point. that's just the kind of person sky is. of course i could be wrong with my character analysis and i would really really want sky to go to therapy if it helps but idk this is my two cents or whatever ahhhhh im so sorry for the dump i just have too many ~thoughts~

Hey Nonnie ❤️☺️

So first things first sorry for the late reply. It was pretty late when I received this and I was so sleepy and I knew I wouldn't be able to answer it properly and you my dear who wrote this beautiful analysis deserves my full attention. So it's morning here btw I had to sleep on it coz the answer is pretty serious.

Ok do I want Sky to get therapy. Yes I absolutely do because I believe it would do him really good. But do I think he will go. Not really. But if we had a Lita S2 and they showed Sky in therapy I would be a very happy soul.

Now why I don't think Sky would go to therapy. I am Asian and in our culture Therapy and anything mental health related is considered a taboo. We are seen as weak for choosing to go to a professional to seek help. (Bunch of BS). And this is one factor. Another is just like you said Sky can be pretty stubborn and I believe by now he has developed some habits/techniques to help him with his trauma and sometimes for some people that's more than enough and it's what they choose to be comfortable with. Sky is someone who has major trust issues and like you said Sky won't trust a random person out of the blue to open up about his past. It took so much time and effort for Prapai to have Sky trust him and that is okay coz Sky can take as much time as he wants coz this is his story and he gets to decide when and where to tell Prapai. Rain whom he knew longer didn't even know about Sky's past until that awful night. And that's okay as well. Sky don't owe anyone anything. It's upto Sky to choose how he handles his trauma coz only he knows what he has been through and how much pain he has suffered. So if he believes that being with Prapai and being loved and cared for by him is enough to heal then we should respect that. And forcing him to go to therapy will only backfire and make him close himself off and we know Prapai would never force Sky to do anything that he doesn't want to. And if Sky decides that yes all he needs to move on and heal is time and his Prapai then Prapai will gladly be there for him no matter what. In fact Prapai would consider it as a privilege that Sky trusts him enough to accept Prapai's unwavering support.

Why I want Sky to be shown in therapy. Like I said mental health related issues are still considered a taboo in many places. So this could be a very good representation to show that going to therapy and seeking help is never a sign of weakness and that if you think you need help to be better then you should do so without the fear of being judged or alienated.

[ki-ssmyshades]

Hahahahaha like damn ok i guess i didn’t choose my mums happiness anyway but i didn’t get to fucking move out and i never will i may as well just kill myself like i originally wanted to Okay what Who What That’s not me okay whatever who cares let’s just use my badddd recent coping mechanisms 😛😛😛😛😛😛

ahahaaha future letter from march24 Like okay then i guess ^__________^ like i guess it’s good im out of the disgustingly long suicidal era because god that was literally insane i don’t know how i got 3 As when i literally had a plan to end it all God i hate my life everything i do rn is just a way of coping from how much i hate it i try not to think about it but god i hate everything

[findingmyselfatm]

This is the last post on this series, venus-chiron

Usual disclaimer: I am no professional, take what resonates.

To find out your chiron placement, go on astro.com (make an account if you don't have one) and click on Horoscopes. After that, under "Drawings & Calculations" you will find the extended chart selection. There, choose Chiron from the additional objects.

Chiron represents out deepest wounds that will never be completely healed. It also represents pain, but not necessarily unfortune. Where Chiron is, you will become wise in that area and grow into the "wounded healer" archetype. Venus represents love, romance, self-esteem and relationships. Combined, these aspects are a little hard to handle (like all Chiron aspects tbh), but they are plenty interesting.

Venus-Chiron aspects:

Venus-chiron brings pain and wounds to relationships, romance and self-esteem.

These people can have trauma coming from their relationships with others (Unpleasant experiences keep happening)

They might think a lot about what others think of them

And they might tweak their personality because of that

I believe people with venus-chiron can feel inadequate for their friends/partners/social circle

They are more likely to be criticized by others regarding their social status

Issues with self-esteem are huge here- even softer aspects, but the free therapy firstly goes to harsh aspects lmao

They might romanticize pain as a coping mechanism

They can also escape or distract themselves with pretty or positive things (not always bad, only if they neglect their trauma)

Venus-Chiron can also make someone like the idea of bettering a partner/friend. This can go both ways as in the worst case they might attract people with a ton of trauma and who depend on them to be fixed. In best case, these people like helping their partners/friends grt over their sorrows and are very accepting

Talking about helping people, venus-chiron's type in romance might be someone with a wise attitude, who is aware of the painful aspects of life, someone Chiron-like. They might also be into wisdom.

Venus also rules over artistic skills, so I think these people can create stuff related to wounds and hurt in other words, emo poetry-ok no jk, but there is potential. I have seen authors with venus-chiron who have written beautiful pieces capturing emotional distress and heart ache

They are most likely respectful to others' issues and don't like overstepping boundaries

People are more likely to come to them to vent about others and romance (just an observations of the few folks I have encountered with venus-chiron)

They can sometimes be too tolerant of others

And they can be quite sensitive to others' opinions, what others say

People with these aspects can grow to analyze relationships very well and give great advice on this matter.

Random note but, they may experience creativity blocks often?

Venus-Chiron can make someone hesitant in relationships, perhaps slow to open up or keeping an emotional distance

The best partner/friend/connection people with these aspects can have is someone who respects their boundaries as well and is open in diving into issues together, someone who will be there for them

They are more likely to benefit from talking things out, either with someone close to them, or a therapist, but also creating art!

Venus conjunct Chiron smashes the planets' themes together. They bring love and wounds together. I think these people make excellent healers, and are very accepting and kind. People might take advantage of them because of this, so they should be careful to not tolerate toxic behaviors without realizing.

Venus trine Chiron is an easy aspect. Things flow easily, so these people are very accepting as well. They like being there for others. Artistic skills, but make it slightly edgy lmao- good listeners. But the trine has dark sides too, because there is potential that talent can be brushed off and left undeveloped. They can ignore their problems and escape into their fantasy land. They could forget to put effort into keeping their relationships fair, either ending up taking advantage or being taken for granted. Conscious work is required, but it is easily harnessed.

Venus sextile Chiron is another positive aspect. These people are great at understanding and offering support. Big potential for deep artistic skills as well. I am sensing they're a little on the introverted side.

Venus square Chiron is our first harsh aspect. The square creates inner tension and is hard to deal with, but also has its benefits. These people may be constantly wronged or treated below their worth. They can be taken advantage of because they understand emotional pain easily. Relationships can make them feel trapped and like their healing is being sabotaged or slowed. There is also a lot of self-critique. This is why they should surround themselves with equally devoted and understanding people who do not overstep their boundaries.

Venus opposite chiron is another difficult aspect. The opposition manifests more outwardly. There is a strong imbalance between relationships and the self, their own healing and well-being. They could have their boundaries overstepped constantly. There also exists a strong sense of indecisevess, and they may overthink a lot in relationships because of past events regarding this topic. They can also feel held down by others, just like venus square chiron. The key here is finding balance. They need to help themselves, but also sustain the relationships worth sustaining.

As an end note, venus-chiron are like the wallflower archetype. They have been hurt in the past, have lots of scars from relationships, but it is these very scars that bring them wisdom :)

Thanks for reading!

[13thdoodle]

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(huh.. only less than 200 posts this year? man im getting rusty :squint: )

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(of course my longest tag is me venting kasjndjkaasd)

My Top Posts in 2021

#5

Cursed thought:

What if blob ghosts can't fully possess someone, at least not the normal way most ghosts do, so instead they sorta drive em around, like Remy from ratatouille?

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Ok I know u said cursed thoughts and that it had the potential to be cursed

but also i cant help but think the blob ghost controlling ppl like remy sounds super cute ??? maybe not even actually possess just.. flop on people's head n nudge em to where they wanna go??

they tryin their best uwu

998 notes • Posted 2021-07-27 05:58:06 GMT

#4

Phandom Truce gift for @the-random-phan

They wanted Danny meet Peter Parker so i hope i get it right?

I’m sorry this took so long i have no excuses orz

1109 notes • Posted 2021-01-11 07:50:54 GMT

(I'm glad this one made it here~)

#3

[ Dannymay Day 13 : Daydream ] cont. Nature

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Kitsune Danny being the ominous cryptic lil shit that he is

1221 notes • Posted 2021-05-14 10:00:18 GMT

(HELL YEA Kitsune Au my beloved~ I'm glad this one got here too aksjnaksskdn somewhat surprised the animatic one isnt here tho)

#2

[ DP kitsune au : continuation from candlelight n midnite prompt ]

sam n tucker : everything is sus

danny : shit i gotta gaslight gatekeep girlboss my way outta this

he maybe criptid but he's still danny so he work with two braincells at best

also i may or may not have tried to look up if green candles are normal or easy to get so thats why we're here lmao

1302 notes • Posted 2021-05-12 17:49:30 GMT

(the singular braincells trio)

#1

Okay how about the au where its demons instead of ghosts x the au where danny goes to college and stops caring

so... like @louroalka's demon AU? hopefully its okay?

Bad coping mechanism College Danny VS the demon on your shoulder telling you to take some fcking nap and eat healthy for goodness sake

I had the usual danny being sassy to demon but this is wayy funnier lmaoo

1538 notes • Posted 2021-06-21 18:00:37 GMT

(i cant believe its this one thats more popular somehow aksjadka i guess the ones with more notes are from 2020.. n this year i was more into ocs so maybe thats why aksjndkjads)

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