#they have all suffered indescribable amounts of loss because of it and grief cannot be quantified in that way

[pocketgalaxies]

laudna might be horrifically corrupted by an endlessly evil and manipulative presence but she does have a fair fucking point and i wish someone in the party explicitly stood up for that. it's inappropriate to assume that the people around you will be comfortable with you wielding the blade that they lost their life by, or watched their love die by. just because you died by it and your love died by it and you still want to use it to strengthen yourself and for poetic justice doesn't mean that everyone with that experience will be able to stomach it, let alone support it

and laudna especially, plunged into darkstone for what felt like a lifetime because of it and struggling for weeks on end to come to terms with how she was changed by it. the implied trauma olympics of "that sword is orym's to do with what he wants" is so invalidating to the complicated, messy, scary, ugly experiences and feelings that laudna (and fearne) has attached to it. it doesn't matter the body count of loved ones felled by the thing, it only matters how each person is affected by it