#they don't sugar coat things at all. They're not thinking about stuff for someone else's sake

[soulsxng]

Difficult vs Likeable person tests! (Eleare edition)

A somewhat difficult person (53.57%) | A somewhat likeable person (60%)

[theoddest1]

Hey, isn't it so..."Great" that Viv is out here liking posts that clearly find moments where Angel is being sexual with his rapist "Hot" How much more telling can this all get, right? We really sit here, having to explain how fucked up it is to take SA, try to tackle it "seriously" but then proceed to not even do it for that reason. Only for it to be for angst and goon material. How do you expect me to SIT HERE and take whatever Viv has to offer seriously? The number of people I have seen trying to justify this gross behavior is abysmal. If you have this kink or whatever, fine not like I can stop you, be into that shit somewhere else, but DO NOT try and TACKLE IT only for it to be not even seen as serious or as a way for you to get off to your sick fantasies.

Why the hell would you like this? "Angel with his abusive rapist boss😝, so hot guys! Can'tstop thinking about it!"

What good reason would Viv have in liking this post? Why do over 4k people find a post like this neat? "Oh they're fictional, it's gucci, stop bitching" wouldn't need to bitch if people didn't outright sexualize moments meant to tackle an irl fucking problem.

By the way, this person ships Angel and Valentino together. Their pinned tweet is legit sexual Val and Angel art. I wouldn't recommend attacking them regardless if you disagree with their ships and what they deem...ugh "hot."

Fair warning to I WILL be showing some of their arts and reblogs as evidence, so if you are not into that sort of thing (anything NSFW), I highly recommend scrolling past my post or past this section of it.

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I'm pretty sure Viv actively searches for this sort of thing on Twitter, like it's PAINFULLY obvious that she does. How you just so happen to like a post clear af lusting for this abusive relationship YOU CLAIMED to take seriously that ALSO happens to be from an account that ships the abuser with the victim? Gtfo with your two-faced shit, just say your find this hot instead of lying your absolute ass off. The audacity for some fans to go after one group of people for liking questionable stuff only to let other questionable things slide. Like homie, you can let rape slide, but draw the line for any other questionable thing? How's about you have that energy for EVERYTHING with your hypocritical asses. Ion wanna hear y'all stank ass make callouts if you're okay with a rapist being shipped with someone he actively harms in various ways.

And Viv

You say this entire sequence is meant to be uncomfortable, meant to not sugar-coat how awful this situation is, and supposedly have people who are victims/survivors themselves, yet here you are liking posts from people who do anything but take it seriously and even sexualize it. That's absolutely insane to me. And reminds me how you were drooling over some pins that glamorize the abuse Angel and supposedly Husk goes through, you know, the same character that COMPARED his abuse with Angel's.

Ah yes, let's downplay how horrible Angel's situation is further, shall we? Let's especially do it after adamantly arguing with other SA survivors who "haven't seen the episode yet" and need to shut up or don't watch 😃. Let's ignore the fact that Husk and Angel's situations STILL aren't comparable but it's still very odd to have pins on TWO situations taken seriously in the show. So do you actually view the situations seriously or not Viv???

God she's....actually fucking stupid and horrid.

[gothy-froggy]

Slashers with Alt!S/Os

"Hey idk if you remember me but I was the one who was looking for the Sinclair bros and a few other slashers reactions to a female (gender neutral change) metalhead/goth reader who know alot about true crime/horror movies? Idk if you can do that and if not it's fine but if so thank you <3" - Requested by @raven-the-cryptid

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Vincent Sinclair

Vincent was absolutely hypnotized when he first met his alterative s/o. When they first showed up to the abandoned town, he couldn't even bring himself to think about what Bo wants him to do. Bo was generous enough to let them live.

He saw how obsessed Vincent was with them. All the watching them wandering around, the sketches, the paintings, all of it. He seemed different ever since he met them. He seemed..happy. Bo pushed Vincent to introduce himself.

He fell hard after the first conversation. He got hooked on the music she listens to. Loves to listen with their and watch true crimes and horror movies. He'll give his s/o gifts that can help with her style, especially if they're new.

Bo Sinclair

I'm not going to sugar coat (too much anyways) for Bo. Bo is an asshole. He makes the jokes that are tiring. At first, Bo treated them just like any other visitors (victims). Flirty, charming, somewhat of a gentleman...but something changed when she complimented his music tastes.

The sassy comebacks and the back handed compliments targeted at him. Something about her just drew him in. He decided to keep them alive, and in town. He still makes his offensive jokes. But when they don't laugh he'll cough awkwardly and changes the subject.

He'll ask Vincent or Lester for gifts. But he refuses to admit he gave them a gift. He'll pretend to be upset an be all grumpy, mumbling to himself.

Lester Sinclair

Lester does make a joke that's a little offensive but will apologize when he realizes it was offensive. He doesn't really mind the subculture. He has no issues with the style itself. If his s/o is into bones and stuff he'll gladly gifts some to them from his little roadkill.

Since he doesn't mind the music, he'll listen to it with them. That's really the only reason. The other time he would is if he's gone from them for a while and misses them. If they rant about how someone harassed them for their looks he definitely responded with, "I think so look hot" comment. He found out it wasn't the best way to respond after that.

He's trying to be supportive. Sometimes he doesn't realize the things he says can come out a little...odd. He loves his alt s/o very much and wants to help the best he can.

Asa Emory

He doesn't really care. If they aren't part of the collection, then it his reason being with them was to keep his "normal life" in check. He kept them around solely for that reason. As he got to know them more he was drawn to them. Not like how it is with certain victims for his collections. Something different.

If his s/o is into insects, he'll have a slight faster realization that he does in fact love them. Asa allows them to put a hand on his shoulder when he truly loves them. He kind of gives them bones if they're interested? It's more of leaving bones out in the open for them to find them than giving them the gift.

Definitely is into alternative music. Though he doesn't do couple stuff with his s/o. They're dating, they love each other, and trusts each other. What else would they need? Couple things are very rare with Asa. In his eyes, he prefers it that way. It makes them more special.

Michael Myers

Just like Asa, he doesn't really care. Myers is the shape. He's nothing but pure evil. How did YOU pull him? He has no emotion? No humanity? Anyways, yeah he doesn't care. Michael doesn't really listens to music. Not a fan of dressing up either (obviously). He's most likely using them just to hide and be sheltered. Even then it's hard to believe.

I have nothing else to say so...good? He doesn't really mind?

Ghostface

Ghostface definitely fetishes goths and metalheads. Besides Ghostface's little fetish, they're somewhat respectful? Is a fan of alternative music and obviously true crimes & horror movies. Ghostface spared their s/o because how amazing they found them. How kickass they really are.

Gets gifts. 100%. They just place an outfit and wait for their s/o to see it. Then just pops out of nowhere to get them to wear it. Lots of accessories as gifts as well. Ghostface is taking pictures. Doesn't matter if their s/o doesn't want to.

They need pictures for later...Yeah, definitely fetishizes the style. Total pervert. At least s/o gets gifts, right? Don't get Ghostface wrong, it isn't just a fetish. They truly do love their s/o. They love every bit of their s/o and wants to support...as well get pleasure out of it along the way.

Billy Lenz

New type unlocked

Billy finds the style horrifying but so beautiful. He always asks questions about the style and music. He's kind of like Ghostface with the fetishizing, but he doesn't really know he is?

He isn't a fan of the music. Especially metal. Too loud for him. Hands over his ears while curling up in a corner, seconds before an episode. It was an accident, he knows. And he forgives his piggy. He wants to give gifts to them, but he really only give out bones.

Billy doesn't really want to go outside a lot so he finds dead animals, gets the bones, cleans them, and wraps them up. Billy loves his s/o very much, just doesn't know how to support them very well. He's trying. I swear!

[freedomaddict]

my own personal opinion on the rottmnt turtles in hogwarts houses:

Miguel: Ravenclaw. Mikey is SUPER creative, it's kind of his thing. Ravenclaws also value wit, and all of Mikey's jokes are well-timed, he's got a mental sharpness and has an inventive way to make a joke. He's also really smart - the episode with the mystic metal? he says to raph "we're not saying you never have good ideas, we're just saying that sometimes we do to!" he's got street smarts and creative smarts, and strategic smarts. (he could really be any house, i think

Ravenclaw would be the best fit tho) he's the ravenclaw who you think doesn't belong there, but once you get to know the house you'd never be able to imagine him anywhere else.

Big Red: Hufflepuff! Raph is like ... the definition of Hufflepuff. Loyalty, patience, trust, strong sense of justice, hard-working. Literally Raph. I think he could be in Hufflepuff and Gryffindor, but Hufflepuff would suit him best (in my opinion.) Plus, he's always trying to better the team by doing team building exercises (at least i think he does that often, seems like something he'd do) and teamwork is a big part of the hufflepuff house. he's the stereotype of the house - looks open and friendly, who's hugs are warm and safe.

Von Ryan: Slytherin. Before anyone yells, I'm both a donnie kinnie and a slytherin. Donnie belongs here lmao. The way he always tries to improve himself and is extremely goal-oriented. Slytherins value resourcefulness, and Donnie has had to learn to be resourceful when living in the sewers. He gets all of his stuff from a junkyard. Plus, dry humor? perfectionist? big on cost/benefit analysis? donnie fr. he seems like the stereotypical slytherin, the one who's quiet and everyone thinks is evil. (he'd also excel at potions.)

Leon: Tbh, he's pretty hard. I think he could either be gryffindor or slytherin, but also ravenclaw and fit almost perfectly in those houses, but I think he belongs in slytherin. im also a leo kinnie (heh) and honestly? Sarcastic humor, confident (or pretends to be,) competitive and charismatic? literally both signs of gryffindor and slytherin? it's so hard but he has a practical eye and the ability to quickly adapt when needed. he also has a lot of common sense, instead of taking on things he knows he can't do he results in something achievable (paper theives) and he's incredibly persuasive, a trait valued by slytherins. he seems like the slytherin who thinks they're better than everyone else, and once you get to know them you realize they actually are.

April: Hard one! She's so spunky and full pf personality (i love her so much) but i think she belongs in gryffindor. The first episode alone shows me that. Gryffindor traits are bravery, honor, loyalty, boldness and have strong moral centers. I think this is mostly shown in her interactions with the boys. (which is like the only interactions she has ok i know) She's willing to dive head-first into a conflict if it meant she could help her family somehow. There's no doubt that she would go to the ends of the earth for them, and if you think she'd turn her back her boys, you're crazy.

Cassandra: Gryffindor. Don't argue. When reading her wiki (it describes the characters way more in depth than i could) it talks about how much she values being loyal to the foot clan and how energetic/enthusiastic she is. She's courageous and stands up for what she believes is right, just like a gryffindor. She's always wanting to better herself and is quite stubborn.

Casey Jr: I know what house he's in, but i almost didn't want to sort him because it meant someone would be alone...he's a hufflepuff, through and through (i feel bad for leaving mikey alone, but he'll make friends soon enough.) Casey is hard-working and loyal, as we can see in the movie - taking on the mission leo told him to, and not once complaining, just worried about how he could complete it. He has honest the whole way through, not sugar coating anything to beating around the bush. and unafraid of being direct. He's also very polite and kind (i love him guys) and listens to other's input and ideas.

[violetnotez]

hello! I would like to request a jjk matchup. i'm a 4'1 girl who is bi. i'm chubby and i have thick thighs and im quite busty. i have short dark brown puffy hair and caramel skin. i have really dark brown eyes that are very tired looking. i really like watching anime and playing video games. im usually a very calm person but i bottle up my emotions a lot. i have slight symptoms of social anxiety and yet i have a fear of abandonment. im pretty good at listening to people rant about stuff that goes on in their life. i have an entire collection of plushies that i love and i always name them. im usually extremely blunt but i sometimes sugar coat my words. i have insomnia but when i do sleep its for a long time. i really like affection and giving affection as well. i have a preference for people who are taller than me but i don't mind if they're shorter than me. im extremely loyal but im also insecure so im always scared people will leave me. i hate when people yell at me and when they do i start crying, i also am someone who flinches when i think someone will hit me during an argument. im a very good liar so it's hard to tell when im being honest or not. i love disney movies and i like listening to pretty much every genre except for country music.

𝒯𝒽𝒶𝓃𝓀 𝓎𝑜𝓊 𝒻𝑜𝓇 𝓎𝑜𝓊𝓇 𝑜𝓇𝒹𝑒𝓇, 𝒾𝓉 𝒽𝒶𝓈 𝒷𝑒𝑒𝓃 𝓇𝑒𝒸𝑒𝒾𝓋𝑒𝒹: 1 RAMEN BOWL| 1 MATCHUP

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Hey bb how are you? I ship ya with-

Junpei!

Look at this fucking cutie I CANTTTT

Anyways, Junpei would literally be the most shy but respectful dude to date I’m telling ya-

Would most deifnitely stay up all night with you playing video games, watching movies, or catching up on anime, cause he probably has trouble sleeping too (he gives me those vibes)

Dude he would try to make sure all the time you feel safe 🥺 holding your hand gently when you feel anxiety coming up or just reassuring you he’d never leave you 🥺🥺🥺

He’s so grateful he can rant to you

Poor thing has been holding in so much for so long, so it’s nice to talk to someone about it who won’t judge him and just listen

Also you two just hang out alot- its just nice being in the presence of someone else ya know? And someone that cares

Ngl this boy would probably and secretly worship your figure like he just thinks you're so pretty 🥺

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[onebangtanstan]

Power Style - Chapter Eleven : The revenge

A/N : Ok this is shorter than the previous chapters but DYNAMITE CAME OUT so that's what I've been doing. GO STREAM! 💜

He notices me staring him down. He scoffs before coming my way. We lock eyes and start an unspoken staring contest, just like the other day. As he's getting closer to me, I feel the muscles in my body tense up. His presence is enough to piss me off.

"You're late Namjoon." He's now standing right in front of me, forcing me to look up.

"It's M.Kim to you." His eyes are shooting bullets at mine, and so are mine, but neither of us looks away. We're both way too proud to do so.

"I don't have time for this." I turn away from him, starting to feel dizzy from keeping my head up to look at him. "Go get your make up and fitting done, we're all waiting for you Namjoon." I refuse to give into his twisted game, we're here to get a job done, whether we like it or not.

He executes himself, but I sense he's not happy with that. We can all see that he's stalling, and trying to annoy us. Thank God my team knows what they're doing and isn't giving into him either. 

We can finally start the shoot an hour and a half after the original time. He stands in front of the camera, and I don't recognize the man posing right now. He turns into this extremely professional guy. The harsh lines he usually wears on his face have completely disappeared, making him look even better than usually.

Even though he annoys the shit out of me, I have to admit that he is a beautiful man. He's the stereotype of the ideal guy : tall, well-built, perfect amount of muscle, a jawline that could cut you. Even when he's the biggest asshole, his clenched jaw and frown make him look good.

To my surprise, we actually finish the shoot quite quickly. The team packs up and starts heading back to the office. I'm about to do the same when I'm turned around by a firm hand on my arm. I am facing Namjoon once again. I mean, I am being towered by him once again.

"Listen to me" He spits, talking only a few centimeters from my mouth. "It's the last time you talk to me like that, do you understand me?"

I set myself free from his grip by throwing my arm down. "No, you listen to me." I feel the fury raising in my body. "We have to work together, and I couldn't care less if you don't like me. The thing is, I am in charge of this campaign so you're on my turf now. You listen to me and do what I say. Am I making myself clear enough for your tiny brain?" 

It looks like he wasn't expecting this reaction from me. He's about to answer but I immediately turn around and start storming out of the room.

I walk back to the office, feeling the need to clear my mind. I can't have him disturbing my schedule, and I most definitely can't go into the meeting with the mindset he put me in.

By the time I get back to work, the whole team is already sitting in the conference room, working on the editing. We do that all afternoon and plan the group shooting for the next day. We're going to have to take unit pictures, group pictures and shoot the commercial. We will be there all day, so I let everyone go early to get enough rest for tomorrow.

I decide to chill at home for the evening. I still have a bit of a bad mood because of today, so I put on yet another cheesy rom-com.

Just as I sit down with a bowl of popcorn, I receive a text from Jin. For once, I don't have that tightening in my stomach. I open it :

J : Hey, how are you doing? We haven't talked lately..

G : Hi! I'm good, how about  you? I know, I'm sorry, I had a lot going on..

J : No worries, I've just been thinking a lot about you..

We end up texting the whole evening, catching each other up on our lives, and it feels really good. We eventually start talking about deeper stuff. Jin tells me that he really likes me and can't stop thinking about me, making me blush. Thank God he can't see me right now. I start typing and send a text without thinking too much about it. I have to give him something.

"Jin I need to tell you something. One of the reasons I have been distant with you is because I have issues with relationships. I'll explain it to you eventually but not by text. I hope you understand that it has nothing to do with you, and that I appreciate the time we spend together."

A few minutes -that feel like an hour- pass before he answers, making my heart pound. 

"That's okay Gina, I understand. I'll go at your pace." I smile at his text.

We say our goodnights and I end up falling asleep with a warm feeling inside of me.

I wake up in a good mood, but the group shot pops into my mind, bringing my mindset down just a bit. I feel very pressured and anxious about it. Everything has to go perfectly, because we won’t have time to redo it.

I do the usual, get ready and head to the set. I stop on my way to get a cup of coffee and also get a big bag of french pastries for everyone. We'll be needing a bit of sugar before the day starts.

The boys haven't arrived yet, but we are already going through the schedule for the day. I talk with each person to make sure they know what they're supposed to do. Of course they do, I'm just doing that to calm my nerves.

Tae and Kook are the first to arrive. They're very clingy towards each other which makes me smile at them.

"Hey guys" I say as I hug each of them. "How are you guys doing?"

"We're very good." Tae tells me, making Jungkook blush. My heart could burst, they're so cute. I haven't gotten to a point where I can talk to them about whatever is going on between them, but I feel like that will be coming up sooner than later.

"Perfect. I need you all in a good mindset today."

"Well, we'll see about that." Jungkook starts, making me raise an eyebrow. "Yoongi is riding with Hobi and Jin, he spent the night there. And to be honest, we never know what to expect from those sleepovers, especially about where their minds are set."

Tae elbows Jungkook in the arm, making him realize he spilled something he shouldn't have. He opens his eyes wide.

"Shit" He says, rubbing the back of his neck with his hand.

"It's ok, I had figured something was going on there. I won't pry, don't worry." I wink at them. 

I notice relief on their faces. I offer them to get something to eat before getting their makeup done, making Jungkook run towards the bags of pastries. 

While they're picking out what to eat, I hear the door open. Jimin enters the room and boy, does he make head turns. He has that je ne sais quoi about him that makes his presence noticed. He barely looks at anyone, heading straight for Tae and Kook. I see him take a pastry, only eating a few bites, and leaving towards the toilet straight after. "JIMIN" Tae starts running after him.

I quickly look away, feeling that I shouldn’t be witnessing whatever is going on, and notice the door open. Yoongi, Jin and Hobi enter. Jin is first, and comes straight to me, giving me a warm hug. It feels good to be circled by his big arms. He breaks the hug with a peck on my forehead. There must be an army of butterflies in my stomach at this point.

Hobi comes in for a hug next, being his usual charming self, but something is off. The spark in his eye is not there. It almost looks as if he's cried? I hold on tight to him, sending some love through my arms. I feel him sigh. 

"Fancy a drink tonight?" I ask him. He needs someone, I can feel it.

"I would love that." He speaks in a low, appreciative voice. I can see his eyes twitch for a second.

"Your coat is amazing!" I quickly change the subject, sensing he's about to breakdown. He smiles back at me and goes to say hi to the boys.

Yoongi, who was already with them, came towards me as Hobi arrived. Shit, there's going to be tension today.

"Hi Gina" Yoongi is near me now, and he looks.. Well, he looks like himself. Nothing is being let through by his face, nor his eyes.

"Hey! How are you?" I ask, trying to hide the fact that I know something is wrong.

"Okay, I guess.." 

We both turn our heads as we hear Jimin's voice coming from the other side of the room.

"V, I said let it go!" 

Tae walks behind him, arms hanging on each side of his body, a powerless look on his face. All the boys turn around to him with an empathetic smile, almost as if they were telling him « it’s okay, you did your best ». They seem know the struggle he’s just gone through. The whole crew is looking at them too, which is exactly what Jimin wanted. He knew that by coming in here, the conversation would stop.

"The only one that could talk to him right now is Joon" Yoongi tells me. I scoff, having trouble seeing Namjoon comforting someone. Yoongi turns to me "He's actually lovely to the people he cares about. He helped me through a lot."

"Yeah, well he made it clear that he doesn't care about me or even about making my life easier."

Yoongi is about to answer, but a loud bang resonates. It's the front door.

Namjoon appears with his leg still in the air. Everyone has stopped what they were doing to stare him down for kicking the door open.

But I couldn't care less about that. I've noticed something else. Something that could fuck up the entire shoot. 

Seeing it sends me in a state of rage so intense that I clench my fists, feeling my nails press into my palms. He stands tall in the doorway, his hands in his pockets. He's proud of himself, and he's now looking at me with a defying smile.

HE IS FUCKING SMILING AT ME. I am dumbfounded by the nerve this man has.

It might not seem like a big deal for everyone else, but I know that he did this on purpose to delay the shoot as payback for what I said yesterday.

He dyed his hair white.

A/N : White-hair Namjoon is back. Hands down his best era, no argument on that (second best, now that we have Blue Namjoon)

I mean LOOK AT HIM.

[writerpoetstoryteller]

thirteen reasons why encourages SUICIDE and i don't know why the fuck u like it or are promoting it what is wrong with you do u want ppl to kill themselves and think what they're doing is okay???????????????

Okay several things here. I appreciate you coming to me with your concerns so I’m going to do my best to address them with what I believe to be the truth. You and others are more than welcome to disagree and to voice that, I will read everything and take it into account, I can always learn something.

Go below the cut to see my thoughts on this, sorry it got so long.

1). Is there any need for you to be so rude and aggressive towards me just for saying I like a very popular show? Personally, I don’t believe that there is. I appreciate your frustration and anger over this, I know it is an important issue so I sympathise but please don’t take it out on me.

2). I like it for a lot of reasons. It is a very cleverly done show in a lot of ways and I appreciate it for what it is. Things like having Clay hurt his head early on so we can distinguish between present Clay and the flashbacks easily is a great technique and as a media studies student I spot a lot of stuff like that. I also appreciate the diversity and representation throughout the show, particularly the way Tony’s sexuality was handled. It’s also a much grittier version of the YA contemporary genre than I have previously seen and that’s really interesting to me. In fact, that opened me up to a whole new genre for my writing as I’ve previously only written sci-fi/dystopia/fantasy. So I love it for that, I’m now writing a contemporary novel!

3). Personally, I don’t see it as encouraging suicide. I do know that the usual guidelines dictate that you should not show the suicide being acted out on screen as this might encourage impressionable people to copy cat and that they did break that guideline. This is just my personal opinion but: 

I believe there is a world of difference between what 13 Reasons Why did and say, what American Horror Story does in Murder House with Violet. Let’s dissect that. (Warning: Seriously, don’t read the next bit if you have any trauma or triggers relating to suicide. Please don’t. Just skip to part 4).

In American Horror Story, Violet takes a lot of pills. This is a relatively peaceful way to go, there is no mess, it is portrayed as almost glamourous: Violet the beautiful blonde, eyelids fluttering shut as she sinks into the bed, delicate grip on the bottle loosening as she loses consciousness, that close up of her slender wrist outstretched on the bed.

And of course it is shown to be romantic. Tate is there to save her (or not as it turns out). He is the hero, he takes her to the bath and tries to wake her and he screams that he loves her. His pain is being used to make it seem worthwhile somehow - she got his attention but alas too late. It is supposed to be tragic, Romeo and Juliet style. 

That is hugely problematic. Can’t even begin to talk about how problematic that is. 

In contrast, we have Hannah’s suicide scene in 13 Reasons Why. This is not glamourous at all. They were careful with how they portrayed this (note: in the books it is implied she took pills. They could have done it the same problematic way as AHS but chose not to). Hannah gets into the bathtub to kill herself but they deliberately kept her fully clothed and in very loose, plain, boring clothes at that. She is not glamourised. This is not the pretty choice. 

And they continue with that. When she cuts herself she is trying not to scream in pain. It is hard work, it hurts. When she is found, it is her parents who find her. Her parents who scream and cry for their baby girl.

The message is very different: in AHS it is easy to die, glamorous, romantic even. An impressionable person struggling with depression say, might believe that lie and try to copy. In 13RW it is painful, hard to watch, heart breaking. It is not sugar coated, that is why it is so important for the camera not to look away. it is the truth of the act of suicide or as close as we can get and I would hope that anyone watching would think what I did “god. i don’t think i could manage that.”

I know that this is just my opinion, but this is how I read that scene. That’s why I don’t have a problem with it as much as others do. 

4). Having said all of that, do I believe this is a good representation of suicide as a whole? No. I don’t. The concept that there is someone to blame for suicide is not a healthy one. Indeed, as someone who’s mother is in counselling for guilt about two suicides that have occurred in or around our family (more on that later) it is an incredibly harmful one. There should have been far more focus on mental health and Hannah’s deterioration and things like the rape and the impact that had on her mental health, rather than on the onus put on others. I agree with that. Jay Asher, the author behind the book, did talk about how Hannah is meant to be a flawed character, just because she blames others does not make it okay. I think the text is problematic in that this is not clear enough to viewers. Maybe I was able to enjoy it more because I felt that Hannah was an unlikable character and so questioned her judgement throughout anyway? I don’t know.

5). You are also right that I should not be promoting this show to just anyone. I would never ever recommend that anyone with suicide or self-harm in their past or who has a loved one who struggles with these issues and is impacted by that, watch this unless they are mentally prepared for what is to come. 

6). What is wrong with me? Good question. I have an anxiety disorder (probably GAD. It’s suspected but I haven’t got a diagnosis yet, i intend to persue that once my exams are finished). I have many of the anxiety symptoms related to being raised by an alcoholic (I wasn’t but my mum was and I as a child have inherited these traits). I am a recovering self-harmer (its about two years more or less since I cut. I’m doing good so don’t worry about me). I’m not telling you this as a guilt trip or anything so I hope it doesn’t feel like that. I’m just telling you so you know that I do know about these kinds of issues and about mental health first-hand. 

Which leads into:

7). Do I want people to kill themselves? No. I mentioned earlier two suicides in my family. My grandfather who I have never met because of depression and suicide. And a very close friend of my mum’s. She was the one who found him, in much the same way Hannah’s parents found her. She’s traumatised by that as you would expect. 

Maybe that’s why I appreciate the visceral way that 13RW showed that scene. Maybe because on some level I feel it represents the pain and anguish my mum went through when she found someone. I believe that art shouldn’t look away from our pain. Maybe I liked it for holding up a mirror to what my mum went through and is going through.

But that’s just me and the life experiences I brought with me to that scene. Everyone interprets things differently based on what experiences they bring with them. So you’re more than welcome to disagree.

Just no. I don’t want anyone to kill themselves. I’ve seen the way that messes up the people who are left behind. And maybe you could have learned something from the show: after all, the message is that you don’t know what is going on in someone else’s life or how your actions might affect them. So anon I want you to sit down and think about the fact that I shouldn’t have had to tell you something as personal as all this. Think about how your actions of implying that me liking a show means I want people to commit suicide might affect someone like me, who has been impacted by suicide. Think about it. Learn from it.

8). Do I think what they are doing is okay? it’s hard for me to say. I don’t think they did anything evil. I appreciate the show for a huge number of very different reasons. But I do also believe that there were things they didn’t do and should have done. 

- Made it clearer how flawed Hannah was 

- Given a representation of being able to seek help and has this be positive (so people struggling know they can get help. You can. I did and it’s what saved me in the end). 

- Made it clearer that in the end it was her choice and others should not be blamed for that

- Put more focus on mental health. The bullying story and moral were important and very well done but should have been given alongside a mental health one. 

Especially since they are aiming for a teen audience like me. When you make something for kids you are obligated to protect them and I think there are ways this could have been done better. 

So there you go anon. I hope this answers your questions. Again, thanks for coming to me with your concerns. Please, feel free to continue to do so (about this or anything else I say), my inbox is always open.

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robron/prison headcanons

- aaron wakes up horribly early and just watches robert sleep for a while and can't bear the thought of not seeing him like this for so long that he runs his finger along his shoulders and whispers every reason he loves him that he can think of, and the only reason he doesn't feel stupid is because Robert is asleep the whole time

- when he's leaving he can't kiss Robert for tears so he hugs him instead and they both know they need to keep it together so Robert hugs him so hard he leaves indentations of his fingerprints in Aaron's coat and he presses his head into his shoulder with enough desperation that it hurts and holds him for so long and so tight that they start struggling to breathe and it sums up the fact that they always do this, have something they love hurting them at the same time

- Robert repeats the bit of his vows where he promises to be faithful and Aaron promises to trust him and maybe it's the rings that have changed things but there's not a shred of doubt this time

- he makes a dinner and accidentally sets four spaces instead of three (him, Liv and Chas) and they have to ask paddy to join them because no one can bear to put them away

- Robert writes Aaron a letter and it's just five sides of A4 full of things he's planning to do to annoy Chrissie while he's not there

- aaron also never appreciated quite how bad his handwriting is until he reads his letters and 'god Robert how do you run a business with writing like this'

- he starts taking his tea with sugar in it because he made it like that once accidentally and then realised Aaron is actually right and sugar in tea is good, although he isn't going to ever tell him that

- Robert goes to the scrapyard to pick some stuff up for work and Adam gives him a cuddle, but once the moment has passed they're both too awkward to discuss anything other than the weather

- the first time Robert drives to the prison to see him, he cries almost the whole way there so he can get it out of his system and he won't cry when he sees him since that will make things difficult (to say the least)

- Robert takes the opportunity of Aaron not being there to tell Chas and liv all the stupid and dodgy stuff he's done that he's not told them about

- he has to sleep on the couch for the first few nights because being in bed without Aaron is worse than not being there at all

- he develops a habit of twisting his ring round his finger, which Chas had noticed was actually Aaron's habit first, but doesn't mention it

- there aren't many perks of his husband being in prison but thank god he can wear that brown leather jacket now and not have to listen to complaining

- he also starts wearing floral print again and really enjoys his new sense of fashion independence (although he is the only one)

- Aaron won't answer any questions about his ring and barely manages to hide the fact that he misses Robert so badly he gets a jolt in his chest whenever he sees blonde hair

- the visits aren't long enough and they can't talk properly and neither of them can decide if it makes things better or just makes them worse

- 'you know how you can tell aaron's not here Chas?'

"because Robert's miserable, liv?"

'no'

"because i don't have to buy obscene amounts of bread?"

'no'

"because we don't have to constantly fix things?"

'no. because it doesn't stink of man'

(Robert is quite offended by the last part)

- about a week after Aaron leaves, Robert can't hold it together anymore and sits with Chas on the couch and the pair of them have a tearful conversation about what they'll do when he gets out

- Robert is always Aaron's phone call and Chas moans about getting less than a minute to speak to him, but after she heard them discussing how much they loved each other like they'd not seen each other for years, she didn't have the heart to take more time away

- Chrissie pulls a sarcastic 'are you missing your boyfriend, Robert?' and gets an equally sarcastic 'he's my husband nowadays actually' in return

- without deciding if it's bad of him, Robert makes a mental note to buy Aaron more shirts in that colour because even if it is prison uniform, he pulls the colour off to no end

- Robert is rude to Finn on several occasions because even though it's not really his fault, he needs to blame someone (and not Aaron)

- Robert actually wins a game of darts for once

- he can also watch awful telly and enjoys himself far too much

- he makes so many plans of what they can do when he gets home that he eventually loses track of outings he's booked and things he's bought and it doesn't matter anyway, because once he sees Aaron and knows he doesn't have to visit him on schedule, they only need to watch the football together in the front room, more tangled in each other than they'd ever felt comfortable to do in public before to be as happy as they would be anywhere else- because they've both realised that they don't have the time to hide from things, and since they're married and have the rest of their life ahead of them, it doesn't even matter anyway