#they be cutting class they aint NEVER graduating

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Shh he's sleeping

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random but i cant stop thinking how hyuck is likely to end up with someone thts as witty as him cs like its fun for him to be with someone tht can keep up with him and banter with him BUT IMAGINE if his s/o’s only weakness is anything remotely sexual and blushes easily at intimate affection like he wld use tht to get the upper hand soooo muchh sbjdndkkd ; on another note, ppl say yr s/o is most likely similar to yr best friend and for hyuck we can conclude its mark (apart from dreamies) and hyuck rlly likes being with ppl who often give him the reactions he wants when he jokes and maybe someone a little gullible lol now im thinkihg of his yandere side and we have brat tamer yandere!hyuck who giggles a bit when he tells u yr punishment and u never know whether he’s telling the truth or not so every moment with him is anxiety-induced and he loooveesss setting up traps around the hse making u think you have a chance of escape only to end up with him right in yr face saying, “you fell for that again?”

fail | haechan

"the saccharine smile made your anxiety spiral. it was always something unpredictable with haechan." — unknown

warnings. mentions of blood, implied kidnapping, toxic relationship, threats, mentions of arson

disclaimer. this aint love. this isnt a normal relationship.

note. anon, you won. this sparked my inspiration like crazy lmao so thanks for that.

the window is open. the cool breeze is a gentle caress against your clamoring skin, goosebumps rising as you begin to sweat. it wasn’t in the least bit humid, no, because summer has long kissed the soils of seoul goodbye as the autumn season sets in. you would’ve appreciated the leaves’ earthly tones if you were allowed to go out and feel the sunlight against your skin.

haechan snoozes next to you, an open book lying flat against his chest. you knew he hates reading, you knew he was probably playing with his switch behind that paperback. not to mention he isn’t some sappy, sentimental guy. if he wants to make his act believable, then he should’ve picked another book and not paper towns by john green. you knew he was only humoring you, pretending to indulge himself in reading, or else you’ll never tolerate being in the same room as that despicable human being.

you swallow, a shaky breath escaping you when another breeze seeps through the open window. this isn’t right. something is not right and you know that because underneath haechan’s aloof and playful nature is a cunning, meticulous man who doesn’t make errors. he won’t purposely leave that window ajar. no, he won’t.

but... what if?

the floorboards let out a demure creak but in such a tranquil room, it might as well be a loud roar. beyond the window is a lush green forest, walk north for fifteen minutes and you’ll see a beautiful waterfall (haechan took you there one too many times). but walk farther and you’ll find the main road the main road leading back to the busy civilization of the city, away from the suffocating countryside living your boyfriend has forced upon you.

you should’ve noticed, really. how vastly different your dreams were. he wanted a quiet, mundane life with you. which is surprising considering how rambunctious and flippant he is, always glowing whilst in the middle of attention. you had dreams of your own, too. you wanted to study for a master’s degree after finishing your bachelor’s, and then after that, travel the world. it was too flashy for him.

and when you didn’t comply, he resulted in more creative methods that included a can of gasoline, some matches, and a threat to burn down your house. cops aren’t going to help you, not when his mother’s running as a mayor and he’ll be graduating top of his class with not a stain in his records. no one will believe you.

when your hands grabbed the dry windowsill, you could’ve cried as you pushed it farther open to be able to fit yourself through. it was by sheer dumb luck that the cottage is a one-story house. should you choose to jump out now, your feet will only come in contact with the damp soil of the forest.

you take a quick look at haechan’s immobile body on the plush couch and your heart clenches. he looks like his old self, carefree albeit petty and loud but it was what drew you to his light. until his trust for you started to falter and your freedom was but a mere illusion — no, no, that’s not your haechan, he is but a cynical man that used his reputation and money to bend you to his will.

your dress catches on a nail, hindering you from placing your other leg over the ledge. “come on,” you whisper, blindly pulling as your nerves start shortcircuiting. “please, please…” the tears were an onslaught. you already grasped onto the hope of freedom, you weren’t just about to let it dwindle through the gaps of your fingers.

the dress lets out a loud tear when you forced it off —

just as strong arms circled around your waist and pulled you back inside. the stray nail cuts against the skin of your thigh as he unceremoniously hauled you back. despite the loud sobs wracking through your body and the blinding pain of your skin tearing, the resounding lock when he shut the window closed was deafening.

“aw, my petal, you failed!”

“i wasn’t escaping! i swear, i just wanted to go to the waterfalls. haechan, please, you have to believe me —” the sentence he said, slapped you out of your reverie. failed? “what… what do you mean?”

the saccharine smile made your anxiety spiral. it was always something unpredictable with haechan, and if he means what he meant… you’ve utterly lost the moment you eyed that open window like it was your lifeline.

“it means, my stupid little rose petal,” he crouches, a nimble hand wrapping around your throat. “that you failed my test.” he scoffs, pulling you up to your feet with the tight grip he had. “you wanted to see the waterfalls, bullshit. you know what i do to liars, right?”

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                                          〔  MADISON BAILEY, 22, CIS FEMALE 〕                                         ╰  TROYE KENNEDY  just  came  over  half - blood  hill .  you  know ,  the  child  of  APOLLO  who  was  claimed  three  months  ago ?  i’ve  heard  chiron  say  that  she  is  PASSIONATE & WARM ,  but  if  you  ask  the  aphrodite  kids ,  they’d  say  they’re  MEDDLESOME & NAIVE .  i’d  say  they  remind  me  of  hearing  whispers  in  the  wind  that  no  one  else  seems  to  notice ,   leaving  kiss  marks  on  a  love letter ,   quietly  humming  while  doing  chores ,  especially  since  they’re  FOR THE NEW CABINS .       

hello  beans !   i’m  weachy   &   this  right  here  is  troye  kennedy .   she  is  a  brand  spankin’  new  muse   &   i’m  so  excited  to  figure  her  out  as  time  goes  on !   however ,   what  i  do  know  about  her  is  under  the  cut .   trigger  warning  for  slight  mentions  of  injury   &   excessive  rambling  as  i  truthfully  don’t  know  when  to  shut  up   ––   like  right  now !   anyways ,   as  always ,   if  you  would  like  to  plot  with  her ,   go  ahead  and   press  that  little  heart  to  the  side   &   i’ll  snake  into  your  ims !   i’m  so  excited  to  be  here  and  join  all  of  you !

full name :  troye  brightly  kennedy date  of  birth :  march  18th ,  1998   (  making  her  a  pisces  ) gender :   cis  female pronouns :  she / her sexual  orientation :  bisexual  /  biromantic goldy  parent  :  apollo  (  god of music ,  poetry ,  healing ,  medicine ,  archery  ) family  :  apollo  (  father  )  ,  tawni  kennedy  (  mother  )  ,  brother  wc  up  on  the  main . playlist :  aint  no  sunshine  (  bill  withers  )  ,  sweet  creature  (  harry  styles  )  ,  talking  to  the  moon  (  bruno  mars  )  ,  i  hope  you  dance  (  lee  ann  womack  )  ,  &  dust  to  dust  (  the  civil  wars  ) influences : jenny  humphrey  (  gossip  girl  /  solely  season  one  jenny  no  other  jenny’s  exist  to  me  )  ,  maria  (  from  the  song  maria  maria  by  carlos  santana  )  ,  nadia  shanaa  (  elite  )  ,  &  donna  sheridan  (  mamma  mia  )   tropes :  ingenue  &  girl  next  door pinterest :  linked  here !

01 .  past .

   troye’s  like  was  everything  ordinary  half  a  year  ago .   well ,  as  ordinary  as  it  came .   she  had  an  older  brother   &   a  mother   &   they  lived  in  uptown ,   a  chicago  suburb .   there  wasn’t  much  talk  about  her  and  her  brother’s  fathers .   they’d  always  known  they  were  half  siblings ,   but  any  attempt  to  ask  their  mother  about  them ,   they  were  quickly  shut  down .   by  the  time  both  of  them  were  in  school ,   it  seemed  as  though  life  had  gotten  much  harder .   it  was  extremely  hard  for  them  to  focus ,   and  they  figured  the  dyslexia  was  a  trait  passed  down  by  their  mother .

   school  was  absolutely  difficult  for  troye .   she  wasn’t  interested  in  math  or  history   &   she  sure  as  hell  struggled  in  most  active  parts  of  her  schooling .   however ,   in  music  class ,   it  was  almost  as  if  the  music  moved  her ,   she  swayed  and  felt  the  notes  in  her  bones .   almost  as  if  listening  to  music  gave  her  the  energy  to  survive  a  strenuous  day .   as  she  went  through  school ,   making  her  do  her  homework  was  like  pulling  teeth ,   but  place  a  guitar  in  her  hand  and  she’d  go  on  for  days .

   as  for  her  mother ,   she  was  gone  quite  a  bit .   she  was  raising  two  children  on  her  own   &   had  to  provide  for  them  as  well  as  her  elderly  mother .   so  when  troye  was  not  struggling  through  school ,   she  was  typically  playing  music  for  her  grandmother  and  doing  other  adult  /   motherly  things  around  the  house .   by  the  time  she  was  twelve ,   she  could  have  been  classified   as  a  master  chef .

   only  six  months  ago  did  she  notice  an  extreme   (  what  she  thought  was  a  change  )   in  behavior .   she  had  barely  graduated  high  school   &   college  wasn’t  exactly  something  she  desired  to  complete .   instead ,   she  spent  her  time  volunteering  at  a  children’s  home  when  her  mother  and  brother  were  off  working .   she  took  her  grandmother  with  her ,   and  would  sing  songs  and  tell  stories  and  help  them  with  all  things  she  was  confident  in   ––   poetry  &  music .   however ,  one  incident  occurred  with  a  child .   unknowingly ,   she  held  the  child  and  began  to  sing .   when  the  child’s  scrapes  and  bruises  were  completely  gone ,   she  truthfully  didn’t  know  what  to  think .

   that  night ,   she  confronted  her  mother  with  her  new  found  knowledge .   it  was  only  then  that  she’d  come  forward  with  the  truth .   troye  was  a  demi  god   &   her  father  was  apollo .   troye  had  less  than  three  months  to  handle  this  new  found  knowledge  and  research  and  read  things  about  her  father  before  she  was  claimed  by  him   &   started  attending  camp .   as  a  new  camper ,   she  has  no  idea  what  she’s  getting  herself  into .

02 .  present .

  it’s  been  three  months  jam  packed  with  learning  the  knowledge  of  demi  gods   &   learning  of  the  issues  that  camp  half  blood  held .   it  seemed  obvious  to  her   ––   being  all  inclusive  was  only  fair   ––   besides ,   why  wish  troubles  on  those  just  because  you  dealt  with  them ?   she’d  never  blinked  at  the  possibility  that  not  everyone  she  be  treated  fairly .

   over  the  last  three  months ,   troye  has  been  working  on  learning  about  her  gifts  that  she  didn’t  know  about  before   (  or  didn’t  make  a  connection  to  )   she  realized  she  was  a  demi  god .   she  focused  on  the  medicine  aspect  of  her  powers   as  well  as  further  into  the  explanation  as  to  how  she  was  able  to  heal  that  child .   also ,  very  recently ,   she’s  taken  up  archery ,   and  discovering  her  gifts  with  that .   despite  never  really  being  an  active  child  and  rather  a  creative  mind ,   she  has  chosen  to  take  all  of  her  gifts  and  run  with  them ,   to  excel  and  express  herself  through  all  of  them .

03 .  personality .

   the  best  way  to  describe  her  personality  is  through  the  song  maria  maria  by  carlos  santana .   she  would  happily  give  the  clothes  off  her  back  for  anyone  she  passed  and  has  spent  the  past  twenty - two  years  of  her  life  doing  just  that .   she’d  rather  spend  her  entire  life  volunteering  and  helping  other’s  than  get  an  ounce  of  credit  for  anything  she’s  done .

   still ,   at  camp  half  blood ,   she  is  overly  protective  and  mother  like  to  anyone  she’s  met  so  far .   kind ,   down  to  earth ,   and  gentle  seem  to  be  the  most  common  phrases  people  use  to  describe  her .   fighting  is  not  her  specialty  and  something  she  definitely  does  not  excel  in  at  camp  half  blood  but  she’s  determined  to  work  on  it .   despite  her  gentle  spirit ,   being  upbeat  is  not  really  her  style .   she  is  more  of  the  type  to  have  a  soft  spoken  voice  and  only  say  what  needs  to  be  said  rather  than  filing  awkward  silences  with  words .

04 .  instances  of  her  powers  in  every  day  life .

looking  back  on  it  and  knowing  the  truth ,   troye  can’t  picture  how  she  didn’t  put  it  together :

   archery  expertise   –––   this  was  the  last  puzzle  piece  she  put  together .   it  wasn’t  exactly  an  archery  past  that  she  remembered ,   but  more  so  how  great  she’s  been  at  darts  her  whole  life .   they  had  a  dart  board  in  her  house  for  a  short  amount  of  time .   (   a  boyfriend  of  her  mother’s  had  moved  in  and  it  was  something  he  enjoyed   )  .   she’d  never  lost  when  they  played ,   and  looking  back  now  her  expertise  in  aim  definitely  aided  that .    vitakinesis   –––   this  was  described  in  an  above  section .    audiokinesis   –––   this  was  more  of  an  internal  thing  than  external .   any  songs  she  heard ,   she  could  manipulate  them  in  her  thoughts .   until  she  got  to  camp  half  blood ,   she  was  sure  that  everyone  could  do  it .   it  was  her  own  way  of  basically  remixing  songs  in  her  head ,   and  being  able  to  completely  replicate  them  the  second  she  picked  up  an  instrument .       excelling  in  the  arts   –––   the  biggest  give  away  for  this  is  the  fact  that  she  has  had  perfect  pitch  since  she  was  a  baby .   she  can  know  any  note  that  is  spoken  or  sang  the  instant  it  flows  from  one’s  mouth .

05 .  wanted  connections .

she  has  not  been  at  camp  long ,   but  disliking  her  isn’t  really  common ?   so  i’d  suspect  she  has  quite  a  bit  of  friends  as  well  as  those  that  might  share  her  interests .   she  also  loves  helping  so  if  your  muse  is  at  all  interested  in  music  or  needs  help  in  any  way ,   she  would  love  to  assist .   i  would  also  love  if  she  had  someone  assigned  to  her  to  help  train  her  to  fight  /   teach  her  aggression ?   that’s  not  really  something  that  comes  easily  to  her .   because  she’s  new ,   she  doesn’t  have  as  many  past  relationships ,  but  i  would  imagine  her  having  a  fwb  but  the  benefit  is  friendship  sorta  thing ?   she’s  a  dweeb ,  n  e  ways .

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HypMic: BNHA

Anon asked: How about the characters being students/teachers in Boku no Hero Academia as a part of the universe? And please, take all the time you need, honey.

Well well well, let’s go

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Let’s get one thing straight first, all TDD members (with the exception of Ramuda which I will explain later) are part of the top 10 heroes, Jakurai being the closest to number one followed by Samatoki and Ichiro interchanging every once in a while)

Ichiro

He wouldn’t be a teacher I can tell you that

But he would have his own agency

And honestly, he probably did graduate from UA, but one of the top of his class and is like really known

And he’s in line to being the youngest top pro hero

As for quirk… he’d basically have the hypnosis mic quirk where he would be able to summon speakers, hypnotise people n destroy their minds with music

The downside is though that

Anyway, yeah the Buster Bros Hero Agency is really out there booming you know

Omg the buster bros would be related to Present Mic because he’s Hizashi Yamada but he’s more of a cringe uncle than anything but he did take care of the bros when they were younger… but Ichiro was basically still had the whole Ichiro Yamada arc n all

Im pretty sure he became like an official pro hero after he graduated, but a young hero long before that

(Ok you know the buster bros + hizashi Yamada need a post of their own)

Jiro

Ah well, like in my past post, he would have the same quirk as Ichiro (summoning speakers, hypnosis with his voice, using hypmics as an extra tool to control his quirk etc etc)

Wants to become like his big bro obviously, but kind of on the reckless side

Would be a year above Midorya and the gang (so I guess 2nd Year), but he would be friends probably with Jirou because no doubt both having music quirks makes things interesting

Also a delinquent holy fuck like, troublemaker tm hahah

Anyway, he helps out with present mic and with his brothers sometimes take over the radio show because why not

But he and present mic get into the biggest shouting matches because why not

Ichiro is the strongest out of the three n doesn’t really need a microphone to amplify his voice (but of he does use his mic goodbye)

Jiro prefers to use the mic because he aint that confident yet, but he’s more skilled in like arts and stuff so his costume designs are lit

Saburo

Wants to be like Ichiro obviously and the quirk runs in the family

Except though that Saburo as a first year in the hero course in UA, is gifted also in gadgets

So even if he has friends in the hero course, you can probably find him hanging out with support course people because inventing and tinkering is his jam

And hella smart, with like midorya levels of strategising and Momo level intelligence

Also bumps heads with Bakugo a lot but has a good healthy respect for him

Anyway, he’s the most quiet out of the Yamadas and is most of the reason why Ichiro decided that when he was old enough (like what, 17-18?) he would get an apartment somewhere else away from Mic’s place so that Saburo would be able to be quiet in peace and what not

Likes using the fucking mic because he feels like he has more control and his mic is totally decked out so it’s awesome

Samatoki

I don’t think he would be a teacher like, he would be a pro hero and he has a squad (he refuses to call it agency but it really is

I think he would be more vigilante vibes and tbh his quirk would be some sort of fire quirk, not like an endeavour kinda thing but more of like a fire bending thing where there literally has to be flames (even the smallest spark) so he could make it more n stuff

Which is why he always has a lighter and cigarettes

Literally, do not piss him off while he’s smoking

And of course he and Ichiro are fighting for like a slot on the top hero ranking thing, but mostly they have this petty rivalry

But he and Ichiro are actually friends its just… well maybe not a Kacchan-Deku kinda level but something that used to resemble that and now is a p solid brotherhood

He protects the weak and all that, but he has that of course Samatoki attitude that just happens to go uwu sometimes

Jyuto

Would probably still be in the police force except with like a quirk

Which tbh I think he’s an invisibility guy but not like hagakure, kind of like the invisibility he can control

Because looking n basing this a bit on my past superpowers post, he would be invisible

But the catch has to be like he has to hold his breath so he could sneak around

And he would prefer to work with the police, but his go to call guy is Samatoki (because tbh, with all the trouble Samatoki personally goes searching for, jyuto won’t run out of a job)

Anyway yeah, invisibility is pretty fucking amazing because h can search for info (as long as he doesn’t run out of breath) and sneak where he needs to sneak

So covert operations always work out for him and what nit

Riou

I think he would like teaching, but he’s more of a combat training and strategy more than anything

I personally think he wouldn’t have like a super powerful quirk, like he wouldn’t have the explosion quirk or a sound quirk, he would just be kind of like Captain America where he just has an enhanced overall physique which helped him with like the army and what not

But the thing is, he’s honed his body to near perfection, enhancing the strength and speed that was enhanced with him to begin with

And he uses tools and support items to his advantage, like metal knuckles or weapons or guns or whatever honestly, he knows what to use and how to use it, which is what makes him very, very dangerous

Gets along with Aizawa because he’s very cool under pressure

But lord god, them sparring together is such a thing to watch

Ramuda

Okay he wouldn’t be part of the top 10 because he’s like not that interested in that kind of thing

He would probably be content doing his own thing, having a fashion line that rivals best jeanist

But, he would be really famous, but for some reason never on the top 10 pro heroes thing because I think he would love to take over and be known in a different way

Like yeah he would save people when he encounters it, but not necessarily like go on patrol and whatever, he would have his own agenda

But anyway, yeah his fashion line would be really hawt and whatever

As for his quirk though, he would be a shape shifter like really, I can see Ramuda just kinda designing clothes while being a talking cat and whatever

He’s limited only  moving objects, so he can’t do still objects but he can do for example cutting scissors

But they can never be completely motionless that’s the catch

Gentaro

He wouldn’t really be a pro hero or a teacher, im sure he’s content with being a writer

Because okay, his quirk which would be like writing where his imagination never runs out and he can even control the pen so that he just has to say what he wants to be written

Or even think of what wants to be written

Like he could close his eyes and imagine scenarios and the whole story unfold before him and the pen would be able to articulate those thoughts

The downside is that it depends on his vocabulary and knowledge, so gentaro has to study too

If he were to teach though, he would teach literature in any school or just a freelance class in which he would allow his students to imagine and write properly

Dice

Ah his quirk would be luck, except it never works when there’s money involved

And he unfortunately has a gambling addiction

Like he could just persuade people to give him items, but the dumbass really just loves money and this is why he can’t afford nice things

Anyway, his luck quirk makes him extremely safe, so for some reason he’s good at stunts and running and parkour

And why his shit (except his money) never gets stolen

He has gentaro as a friend because the author just so happened to be writing on the bench in the park where dice stays

Well, he would be a hero, but kind of a small time kind of guy where he helps out… but sometimes with incentive because he’s broke af

Literally nothing can hit him (unless it’s money or coins or gold… just anything valuable really) so he’s pretty fine

Jakurai

Telepathy I mean, fuck hypmics and amplifiers, his amplifier is his mind

Im sure he can also mind control and plant images that seem so real

Like yeah, his way of attacking is using words and rap, but literally it’s a silent fucking attack where you think you’re being overwhelmed with sound but it’s really just Jakurai

And he’s powerful enough that he can create hallucinations

And the scary thing about the doctor is that he’s good at close range combat or hand to hand without his quirk

Like he was an assassin or a hitman or whatever, so he knows that you cannot always rely on your quirk

The catch with him is that he has to be completely silent or at least stay out of the hearing range of the people he’s attacking so that he could use it

But once he uses it, he can get as fucking close as possible and stab you from the back (but remember, he don’t need his quirk to kill)

But right now, he’s happily teaching at UA and helping out recovery girl

But seriously, Jakurai in battle is such a wonderful thing to watch and you’re gonna learn so much from him

Oh yeah, and one of the top pro heroes obvs

Doppo

I see him having telekinesis, but like it gets amplified the calmer he gets

Which is hard because he’s always anxious, so when he’s anxious he loses control, but it’s weak

Its stronger when he’s calm

I think he would be a teacher, but like for a regular subject like accounting or whatever

And he would be bullied a lot for his you know being Doppo, but if you mess with him when he’s in a calm angry spell, good luck to you

He can though save lives because that’s what people with powers do, have certain responsibilities to save people who are weaker

Gets along with Jakurai because the doctor sometimes plays music in Doppo’s head to calm him down which is always cute

He actually gets a calming thing made so he can focus his telekinesis, but his anxiety sometimes overrides it

Hifumi

he can make people hallucinate… however the downside to this quirk isa that he has to drink alcohol beforehand

Like he would always have a flask with him and he has to be high tolerance because the amount of alcohol consumed correlates to how strong his hallucinations/illusions would be

Like it wouldn’t matter how well the person he’s attacking can hold their alcohol, it’s all up to him

He would teach with his best friend boyfriend doppo and would constantly smell of alcohol

Aizawa gets from him a lot

Anyway, yeah that’s hifumi’s quirk, but his part time is also running a club because that’s what he loves doing

But yes, still afraid of girls so he wears his fucking suit to UA and… it’s really chaos if you put Present Mic, All Might and Hifumi in the same room

[ksjsflower]

16th of July - Jungkook X Reader

part 1

genre: humor, college!au, jungkook! fuckboy au, future smut and angst

words:idk dude

It was at times like this that you wondered whether the whole universe that we live in is just a tiny fraction of something way more powerful. Could it be destiny? If there even was such a thing, you were almost certain it had struck you when you had least expected it to. Thursday, 16th of July, 2016. The day you knew you would remember your whole life and all of your next lives.

The 16th of July 2016, Thursday. You were 19, just graduated from highschool, ready to start college. Oh, were you in for a ride. During your high school years, all you ever thought about was how fun college and moving in with your best friend, Nana, would be. Nana was actually more like a sister to you. You guys met way back when you were 5 at a playground. It was at the moment she stepped on your sand castle and started crying and apologizing you knew you two were gonna become friends.

However, moving in - not so fun actually. Both of you had a mess at home, and of course, your mothers were worried sick about you two 'becoming independent and growing up so fast'. The first day you two arrived at your dorm was chaotic. People were running aroung, bumping into each other like there's no tomorrow, everyone was all up in their business. Until.

'Dude, the guy with curly hair and a leather jacket by the lockers has been staring at you for about 2 minutes now.' Nana whispered to you while you were trying to balance your books for the classes you both got today.

'Uh, what? Where and who and why?' you crinkled your nose when a certainly heavy book pressed your pinky. 'I could use some help over here, stop looking around for boys, its the first day for fuck's sake..' you rolled your eyes.

'Alright, FIRST of all, - she was getting ready for another one of her rants - 'it's kinda hard not to notice when there's quiete a few people over here if you didnt already realize that, that his eyes out of all the people he can look at, only look at you. For t w o minutes. Even three now, cause' I just checked and he is still looking, only now he has a smirk on his face probably because your hair is a mess from holding 20 books and I am talking to you about him not so subtly cause now hes looking at me haha-''

You were so confused as to why she was rambling to you while looking behind you as if something was approaching. Nevertheless, you didnt think much of it. You just thought it was another one of Nana's silly actions, until you felt a hand on your shoulder the same moment Nana abruptly shut her mouth.

You slowly started turning around not expecting the smell that came from behind you to be strong cologne. You hated cologne, so it left you wondering for a second why you actually enjoyed inhaling this particular one.

But when you actually did turn around surprising yourself when you didnt drop any of the books you were holding, you were met with a face of a boy. A rather good looking boy. Man, probably the best looking boy you have seen in the last 10 years. When your pair of eyes met his doe like pair, you were left speechless. Thank God you werent the one who was going to start the talking because as soon as you opened your mouth you were cut off by his own voice.

'Are you guys new here? I saw you going around looking all confused and shit so if you need any help, you can ask me, I dont bite,' - he mused in a rather interesting tone,you couldnt decipher if he was being flirty or if his tone was usually sensual like that. - 'Yeah, I'm sure thats why you were looking,' Nana jumped in very awkwardly and as to prove her point, she added an unpleasant laugh at the end of her statement which made you want to face palm yourself right in front of his face.

'Yes, of course. Now why else would I be looking? I am a well mannered man.' He gave a smile so charming you were sure you would have flown to another dimension right then and there if it werent for all the books you were holding.

He must've noticed your lack of response which is why he took half of the books you were holding to himself. 'There you go.. saw you struggling for a little while. Also, I couldnt help but notice your little friend over her talking about me? Or am I possibly wrong?'

You finally spoke up and mentally congratuated yourself for not stuttering. 'Uh, yeaahh.. you're probably seeing things, we were just trying to find the right classes and stuff..'

'Seeing things? Damn, didnt have to word it like that, makes me feel undesirable,' he gave a breathy laugh while faking being hurt by putting his hands on his chest.

'Oh, I am sure that it does' you answered sarcastically. Cmon, this guy looked like sex on a stick. Feeling undesirable? Certainly not his case.

'See, you get me. I was not mistaken when I thought I felt a connection to you the moment I saw you across the hall,' he gave you a cheeky grin which left you rolling your eyes at the back of your head so hard you were sure they were gonna stay there.

'A connection? Please. And here I was thinking that this was a fuckboy free college.' You sighed dramatically which left Nana bringing her fist to her lips to stiffle her laughs.

He did look a bit taken aback by your response, but nevertheless managed to cover it up with a smirk in a span of 0.02 seconds. 'Arent you a fiery one, huh?' He smiled yet again in his seemingly natural flirty self.

'You havent seen anything yet.'

'Oh, so you're implying that we are going to have more talks in the future?' He smiled at you but his eyes were rather daring.

'You wish. Keep dreaming boy. Theres only one first impression and youve ruined it, so we aint talking any time soon.' - Nana once again let out a wheeze, only this time it was loud and you shut your eyes tightly wanting the ground to open and swallow you.

'Its alright, it doesnt have to be anytime soon, I can wait if its you who Im gonna talk to.' His comment left your cheeks tainted a light shade of pink, but you couldnt let your resolve crumble infront of him. Who did he think he was all confident trying to seduce you without even knowing your name?

'Nah, Im good. You didnt really understand what I meant. We aint talking anytime soon is supposed to mean that we are never talking after this again, kapeesh?' you were stating to get tired but you wanted to continue bickering with the unknown boy for some reason.

'Baby, dont underestimate me. Never is a strong word. - plus.. if we aint gonna talk thats okay we dont have to talk, we can always do other things.' he winked at you after throwing the innuendo right at your face. You scrunched your nose at the pet name but chose to ignore it.

'That was extremely pervy of you saying that to someone you have quiete literally just met. - you paused to flick your hair behind your shoulder. 'you should congratuate yourself, ive never started hating someone as soon as I did with you, you are the first one to accomplish that , you should feel proud, man.'

'I can be a lot of firsts to you, you know. I feel honored to be honest.' he announced proudly for some reason.

'Bold of you to assume you would be my first. Dont underestimate me, baby.' you threw back repeating his exact same words.

Nana was getting ready for the good part when suddenly you cut her fun short. 'Nana, lets go.' you grabbed your books from his hands harshly with one hand and pulled your best friend with the other free hand.

As you two were walking away you ignored Nana's whispers of protest when suddenly a voice was heard from behind you two.

'I'm Jungkook, by the way!' he yelled over a few people passing by.

You stayed quiet and opted for giving him the finger while he was still facing your back. Jungkook did not know why that action pulled the biggest toothy smile on his face, but was certainly glad you didnt get to see it.

'Well... at least he was cute?' Nana added while you two already walked away.

'Yeah. Cute.' you answered emphasizing both words as to let her know you thought he was everything except cute.

Well, college was going to be a lot of fun.

[iamsonyeondone]

red string of fate // lee taeyong

college and soulmate au! taeyong

there’s no angst in this just fluff ^^

everyone had their own red string of fate

one end tied to your pinky while the other end belonged to your soulmate

everything had been decided by that famous red string, each individual being presented with it when they reached of legal age

but no one knows where all this originated from or whoever made it up

all they knew was that the red string tied securely on their pinky will never untie, break or disappear 

unless either partners went through certain circumstances

of course everyone fawned over this magical occurrence, it being the first topic that any human would speak of

it was always ‘red string’ this or ‘fate’ that

and it made you grow tired of it by the time you graduated from high school

and that annoyance that lingered whenever someone would mention it slowly turned into anger, fueled by the incessant questions that flood your thoughts and ears every day

‘you havent had a red string yet?” or the ‘arent you scared of being alone?’

the first time you heard those questions made you fidget with worry in the beginning

and you subconsciously comforted yourself with the idea that your fate would come to you when the time was right

no one can rush something such as being destined-to-be-soulmates

but the questions doubled over and you learnt how to selectively mute their words

but that was all in the pass

the moment you saw the red string appear on your pinky you went speechless for the entire day

you had no idea how to feel or how to react because after all these years, the pesky red string finally appeared before your eyes

you even tried cutting it with a pair of kitchen scissors

let’s just say you almost lost your life from flying kitchen equipment and that the red string remained unscathed

Once you got over the phenomenon, you called up your best friend to break the news to

but you were only met with the sound of the familiar beeping

yep he hung up the moment you told him the news

because in the next five minutes, you find yuta and johnny huffing and puffing on your doormat, sweat trickling down their skin

“its,,,time,,t,to,,celebrate” yuta managed a little smile before crawling into your apartment, welcoming the cool air of the ac

for the next few hours, the three of you ramble on about the new found miracle while they explained their own experience when they found out about their own path to their destined lover

“i really thought you would end up as a cat or dog lady,” johnny said in between bites, all of you deciding to have a pizza party as a celebration

“hEY, being a crazy cat lady aint that bad,,,wait now that you said about being a dog lady,,,”

“istg y/n you take care of yourself first before actually getting one. i mean look at you, you’re still wearing the same outfit from yesterday”

“SHUT IT NAKAMOTO SAVE WATER SAVE THE EARTH”

the next few weeks, you struggle trying to focus in your lectures, your gaze always focusing the vibrant red on your smallest finger

and you cant help but try to see if you could find ‘the one’ by looking for the owner of the other end of the string

you were intensely watching the crowd from inside the campus’s cafe, sipping on your drink while you looked for someone

but it was funny; you had no idea how this person looked or how they acted but somehow your heart is pounding in your ears just by the thought

but you were brought back to the present by the waiter, he looked pretty familiar

was he in one of your lectures?

maybe you bumped into each other at a party

“you’re y/n right? that guy in the corner bought you a muffin,” he smiled sweetly

you glanced back up at his name tag. ‘kun’? oH you saw him at the bar performing magic tricks when his group of friends joined yours

“oh y-yeah,, thanks kun,” you reciprocated his smile before turning your attention back on the man in question

you’ve never seen him before but you were sure to steer clear from the guy

he had this smug smirk plastered on his face, shooting a wink your way as you awkwardly glanced away

even after an hour or so, you could feel his eyes staring right through your skull

that was until johnny slides down on the seat opposite yours, breaking his stares 

“that test nearly annihilated all my braincells,” he sighed and just as he was about to rant about the way the test was squeezing out all his brain juices, he takes a glimpse of you and his big brother ways rise up

“what’s up? something happened?” he asked in a reassuring but soft tone and the pressure on your shoulders lessen

“its nothing,,,” you trailed off, but his eyes nudged you to go on “there’s this sleazy creep trying to hit on me but you better not beat his ass. can we just,, can we just leave? i know a better spot anyway,” you mumbled everything in one breath

and johnny respected your decision albeit the strong urge to use his new found knowledge of muay thai on someone else

the both of you hurry out, johnny watching your back for you while the doorbell rang 

“damn i didnt know sleazy douchebags go to cafes too,” johnny joked to lighten the mood while the both of you walked through campus, students littering the school with tired and panicked expressions

somehow the heavy feeling in your chest seemed to find comfort in the bottom of your heart

and the thumping of your loud heart blocked out whatever johnny was talking about

maybe something about his muay thai class with haechan? he did mention how much he enjoyed it. or was it about his project for the photography club?

you were so stuck in your thoughts that johnny had already stopped in his tracks while you continued walking through the groups of students

and suddenly the loud beating of your heart escalated to your fidgety fingers and your almost sure your cheeks are softly stained red

that is until you bump your head onto something

or someone

and when you try to profusely apologize for being unaware of the person’s presence

your jaw drops at the sight of someone so beautiful you thought he was fiction

did you get a concussion and now you were hallucinating things???

noPE because the next thing that happens is the slight tugging sensation on your finger and you look down to it in confusion

you wonder when the string became so short or how it no longer dragged on concrete pavements,,

or how you could see someone else being connected on the other end

and you traced the other finger to see the gorgeous man right in front of you

you were definitely dreaming because is it even possible to be paired with someone who’s so out of your league?

apparently your soulmate agrees

because he’s flabbergasted himself, mouth gaping and struggling to come up with words to greet himself

because the both of you were too preoccupied with each other, johnny had to intercept

wingman johnathan to the rescue

“hey whats up taeyong? havent seen you around school lately,” he chuckled, breaking you out of your thoughts

“wait,,, you know him? u-h i mean-”

“yeah he came to the photography club from time to time to help ten annnnd speaking of ten, he called me like a minute ago asking for some help. maybe you can replace me for today’s study date, taeyong,”

you managed to get a glance of johnny’s sly smile before he jogged off to one of the school buildings

which was definitely not the direction of the photography club

but you were stopped from staring into his soul by the sound of taeyong clearing his throat

“you dont mind if i uhm tag along right?” and you swoon at the sound of his voice

somehow your blush had already reached the tips of your ears and you nervously nodded your head in reply

“theres this place where me and my friends go to to study and its not that far. you dont mind the outdoors right?” you mumbled the question

taeyong managed a small smile which elicits a smile from yourself as well

the next few hours of studying in the school’s garden goes by in a flash

the both of you get immersed in each other’s thoughts and opinions and even though your personalities and your likes or dislikes clash with each other

it just seemed so perfect

maybe this string of fate was making you wear a pair of rose-tinted glasses

because you barely know this guy 

and yet it felt like you’ve known him for years

days past and one study session turned into four and somehow your friend group extended as well

doyoung would drop by every once in a while and if it werent for taeyong’s presence, you would have definitely only see him as someone cold and overwhelming

or the fact that taeyong drops by the neighboring high school to see his ‘younger brothers’ because he had extra leftover from his cooking class 

cue heart pounding, happy crying, loud screaming moment because he’s so husband material

sometimes they like to tease him because what??? we have 2 parents now??

and you can see him get so flustered over the statement because getting married to you sounds like a dream

and when taeyong officially asks you out and you very calmly say yes, it becomes the most talked about relationship on campus

he had already been the top three talked about topic in school but when someone spots him with you, holding hands through the hallway, the news spread like wildfire

and for a whole week, you get bombarded with questions from random strangers about how its like to date taeyong

and you cant really give an answer because you start blushing furiously at the question and you start stammering 

and by the time you get a few words out, five minutes already passed the person who had asked you about it had already disappeared somewhere else

because what is it like to date lee taeyong?

aside from the fact that your boyfriend was sculpted carefully by the gods,,

he is one of the softest person you know

he feeds the cats and dogs on the street when you go out on dates because he has actual kibble for them in his bagpack because human food arent good for them he says

and the way he cuddles up to you when he sleeps over because the two of you cant seem to say farewell after a whole day out

taeyong is really sensitive to the cold so when autumn starts creeping up, he gets as close to you as possible which meant cuddling hours all day round

except in front of people because he’s too shy for pda

because one time he planted a soft kiss on your cheek at your apartment door and the old lady that lived a few doors down had seen the both of you and she talked about how she missed those days of being young in love

and he started malfunctioning because he became so embarrassed by it even though the old lady meant no harm at all

can we also talk about how much he spoils you? even the boys agree that he spoils you the most

chenle aka his biggest fan is jealous that you get to hear him hum you to sleep

“i know we adopted you as our parental figure but please stop stealing him from us, we’re starting to starve,” haechan complained 

“oh really?? what about,, this” and you present the lunchboxes you and taeyong made because you decided to join him 

like you’re really motivated to cook for him because he’s done so much for you??

now the boys just love you even more

because they know you’re not just after his looks especially since taeyong is really too kind for his own good

and what’s taeyong’s feelings for you?

he cant describe how much his feelings for you have escalated 

because one moment he feels so comfortable with you, sleeping with his head on your lap while you attempt to read through your notes

and another moment his heart is beating so fast from being so close to you because the lift is crowded with people and he tries to shield you away from the others

and most of the time when you’re in full focused mode, he chuckles and his heart feels like there’s flowers blooming in his chest from the way your antics naturally show up

or the way he tries to wake up a few minutes earlier so he can bask in the moment with you in his arms while he brushes the stray strands of hair on your face

and its just,,, the purest form of love

“you dont look so good, have you been overworking yourself again?” you huff worriedly, pressing the back of your hand gently on his face while yours was just inches away from his

and he takes a moment to stare back into your eyes, a small smile growing on his lips

“am i sick? maybe that’s because all i think about is you,”

a/n: oh what im updating??? okay im just gonna say this first that this will not be happening regularly due to my schedule and i only try to write when im really inspired and motivated which is like every 6 months im so sorry but i hope you guys like this one and i’ll try my best in the future ❤

[brightdcys-blog]

we’re back !! with my sunshiny healer girl !!! but do not be fooled.....the sun gives life nd warmth but can also burn u to death much like sunhi.

you’ll find her bio, headcanons, and wanted connections under the cut !!

☾*✧･ﾟ:*「 kang seulgi. cisfem. she/her. 」did you know that there’s a witch in haneul known as ryu sunhi? they have been living here for six years and is a healer in training. they are currently twenty two and was a student at crocus institute of higher magic in the house hyacinth. i heard that they are known to be erratic, but worry not ! i heard they are also very passionate too. remember to stay out of trouble, the ju jak are lurking around every corner !

BIO:

sunhi was raised in the countryside outside of busan !!

her family wasn’t poor but they weren’t the most well off either. her parents ran a small potions shop that catered to both humans and magi. the divide between the two groups seemed to have not touched her small town as much as it did bigger cities.

from the age of seven her parents sent her to a magic prep school in busan to give her a leg up when she finally went to crocus. it was expensive, and they spent a large chunk of their income on it, but they truly believed it was what was best for their little girl.

from september to may she attended school in the city, living in the dormitories. during summers she would go home to the countryside.

she was a terrific student in school. since her parents were working so hard to get her an education she worked really hard to be top of her class and not step a toe out of line, for fear of ruining her chances at getting into crocus and letting her family down.

despite being a good student, sunhi’s time at the prep school wasn’t all that pleasant. she was often the target of bullying from other girls from richer families who deemed her unworthy of being there.

summers home were always her favourite because she got to spend time with her family, as well as her best friend --- a neighbourhood boy named jaejun who she had befriended in her early childhood.

the two would spend practically every day together while she was at home ( that she wasn’t working ), swimming in the lake or going on adventures in the woods. when she was away at school they kept in constant contact via handwritten letters that they would send one another every few days.

she was defs highkey in love w/ him but never said anything because she didn’t think it would be fair of her to expect a relationship when she was away in busan most of the year.

had a summer job at a tea house in her town. she saved every cent she earned so that she could move to seoul when she graduated.

at sixteen she graduated from the prep school and, as planned, moved to seoul all on her own !! she got a tiny, crappy loft apartment that was basically just a room with a kitchen on one side and empty space on the other, but it was hers and she loved it.

for two years she worked three jobs to save up enough money to continue paying her rent and living expenses while she attended school. she didn’t want to have to move into the dorms, the thought making her anxious due to how horrible her experience was in busan. she preferred the comfort of living in her own space where she could have everything her way.

a year after she moved to seoul, jaejun reached out to her after a year of very little contact asking if he could stay with her until he got himself on his feet. of course she said yes, and he moved in right away.

having him living with her was simultaneously the best and worst year of her life. the best because it was jj, the worst because of who he had become. she spent most nights waiting up for hours until he got home, constantly in a state of worry that ate away at her.

lucky for her ( i guess ) she doesn’t remember !! any of it !! because right before the two of them started attending crocus, jj wiped her memory of him and dipped.

because of that she has a lot of blank spots from her childhood. situations that don’t add up or make sense when she thinks back on them. found a shirt of his he forgot in the laundry and had no idea where it came from or why there was a guys clothing in her house. still wears the sunflower necklace he got her when they were thirteen but couldn’t tell you where she got it. 

when she started at crocus she was sorted into hyacinth. despite the house’s reputation for spitting out herbologists and seers, sunhi decided she wanted to be a field healer.

almost all of her professors tried to talk her out of it, saying that she was too softhearted for a job that draining, but that only made her want to do it more so she could prove to them ( and herself ) that she was strong and capable.

had a boyfriend for a little over a year. he sucked so she ended things to focus on school. she doesn’t really like to talk about him much because it’s still a touchy subject.

was somehow very involved but also very uninvolved with social activities at crocus. a bit of a floater, she never really settled into any particular groups of friends, instead casually befriending random people here or there. nothing really stuck though, because despite her extraverted and friendly nature she’s horrible at keeping up friendships.

graduated in the top of her class at the age of twenty one, and was quickly taken on for practical training at a magi hospital in seoul !! she’s currently employed there and mostly works with children ( even though she isn’t the biggest fan of them ) but is hoping to start field training once she’s done the basics.

just moved into a new, much nicer apartment !! thanks healer salary, u a real one !!

HEADCANONS & RANDOM FACTS:

literally probably the most social person on the planet. she will strike up a conversation with anybody anywhere because she’s just so curious about everything.

very organized and particular about her things and her space. her apartment looks like something out of home and garden and even her purse has a specially tailored organization system.

avid hockey fan !! will stay up into the wee hours of the morning to watch the live broadcast of nhl games. her favorite team is the montreal canadiens.

has a tendency to get very stressed very easily. one little thing can ruin her mojo for an entire day and she’ll be very snappy until something calms her down again.

claims to have a horrible memory because of how little of her childhood she can recall. little doES SHE KNOW !! IT AINT HER FAULT !!

is a vegetarian.

she’s so competitive it’s like an issue. she will compete with the person walking beside her down the street to see who can reach the crosswalk faster ( without even mentioning it to them ). she will even compete with herself as a way of “ self improvement. ”

pinky promises are a binding contract in her mind. will mumble a charm to herself upon making a pinky promise that will cause minor inconveniences for the other person if they should ever break their promise and not come clean about it. 

seems like the type of person who would like kids but she...really actually doesn’t. she finds them messy and annoying and she doesn’t ever plan on having kids of her own.

has a very impressive collection of scented candles.

when she’s at home she does not wear pants. she hates pants with a passion.

cannot leave the house without putting on mascara and lip tint, even if she’s just running to the mail box.

dresses like a grandpa.

cannot cook to save her life. she’s truly horrible at it, her mother is very disappointed.

keeps a very detailed planner, it’s always in her purse.

knows standard korean and when she’s working she speaks very professionally. when she’s anywhere else that busan satoori be poppin.

so loud. someone pls tell her to shut up.

if music is playing, she is dancing. she cannot be stopped. she’s just gotta groove.

WANTED CONNECTIONS:

former classmates:

sunhi was a social butterfly in school and probably knew most of the people in her year !! tbh she probably knew most of the people not in her year as well. chances are if she attended school at the same time as your muse she would know them at least a little !

competitors:

was defs that bitch who always wanted to be top of her class, and if she knew someone else was trying to encroach on that she would get very riled up and very competitive.

friends:

pls. she loves basically everyone. 10/10 will always go to lunch or just to run errands with you if you asked because she just loves being around people.

coworkers:

other healers who maybe work at the same hospital as her ? pls.

That Ex From Crocus:

big oof. don’t wanna give too much detail for this connection cause i wanna leave it open ended !! only criteria is that the relationship did not work out. gimme this one for the angst !!

someone to teach her how to cook:

i’m begging. she can’t eat takeout forever. someone save this poor woman.

i’ll add more to this as time goes on, and i’m not limited to just these connections either !! i’m honestly down for pretty much anything, just say the word and i’ll probs do it cause i’m a hoe for plots uwu

[cavitycandy]

1, 2, 8, 12, 14, 24, 30, 34 ,35 ,36 ,40 ,54,, 92 for sweetheart asks uwu

OH SHIT! BITCH!

1. First love

OISDJG OSIDJGSdg OH BOY ugh ok so disclaimer she ended up being straight so :/ but uh

Ok so she was in my pe in 8th grade and GOD she was so pretty!!!!! and TAll too! I just,,, i really liked her and yknow,,,i felt kinda crushed! when she was like “oh i’d never date a girl!” and i mean like! I still loved being her friend and sometimes i wonder what would happen if she was,,yknow, bi or gay or some shit,,AH

2. Most Beautiful Songs

Uhhh hhh. So Gus Dapperton songs in general are really nice. also Mother Mother is pretty nice. Uh also Of Monsters and Men

Songs are like “Of Lacking Spectacle” by Gus,,uhh “Get Up” by Mother Mother and “king and lionheart” by OmAm are really pretty

Also “Soul In My Body” by Pinc Louds is nice! “Lavender Blood” by Fox Academy is also pretty! And “Paradise Valley” by Honey and the Sting. Also “Don’t Graduate Senpai!” oh and uh “1950″ by King Princess

8. Best Trip

So when i was 13, my family went on a weekend trip to San Diego (it was like a 2 hour drive, not too long). We stayed in this little hotel, and the place was really nice! It had separate rooms and bedrooms n shit. It was a super,,,calming experience and I’d really just wanna go there with my really close friends on day! Fuck eyah!

12. Who do you look up to?

Hayley Kiyoko lsakdgjlkasdg. I love how open she is and how bright she always is like,,,i strive to be like that when i’m older. And i want to sort of,,,,BE that role model for young lesbians like how she is yknow alskjglkasg

14. Songs that make you feel good/Happy

Oh boy! uhh “Too Much Time Together” by San Cisco,, “Dont Stop/Color on the Walls” by Foster the People,, this is gonna sound weird but uh “Changing My Major” from Fun Home (just cus like,,this is a lesbian being proud of herself!!! wow!!!) “Born this Way” by Lady Gaga,, “Back in your Head” by The Regrettes,, “Buttercup” by Jack Stauber, “Hit and Run” by Hayley Kiyoko,, yeah!

24. Ya got a crush, dumb fuck??

Uhh yeah, kinda! However, my dumb bitch brain has come BACK and convinced me that they hate me but also they invited me to do this thing with them so!! haha! But like,,yeah so uh,,,,they’re in my asl class and they sit near me and like!!! i really like them!! They make me laugh and feel pretty comfortable and like!!! Gotdamb!!! i cant really put it in words yknow!! Like!! Fuck mate i wanna,,fuckin love you!!! damb!

30. The most beautiful thing in life?

JUst like!! THose times where idk, you like,,come back from school or some shit and just,,,lay in bed for a little while??? I just like looking at the clouds and just,,,laying down! Ideally would lay down on a blanket in a field of flowers with gf however! on bed is next best thing!

34. Who makes you happy?

Oh damb ok so uh,,,my friends, like! Gotdamb yall are like,,,closer to me than my family????? i fucking love yall so much!! GOt damb!!!

35. What Makes you happy?

When my palms arent fukcing SWEATy?? like, the fuck bithc/???? i need to draw???

But also jsut like,,,drawing in general,,especially when i’ve got an idea!! THats the shit!!!!

36. Ideal Life??

OOOOH BABEY

Ok so,,i’ve cut off ties with my mom (shes homophobic and overall a really shitty person) and i got to pursue my dream job as an animator! and got damb! Im successful! And like,,,i create a show about this superhero i made,,and she’s indian and gay, like me,cus fuck mate i wanna see a girl like that in a TV show! And i’ve married a pretty gal and we got! a home! and adopted kids and some fucking CATs cus YEAH babee!!!

40. Who’s you’re closest friend? What do you love about them?

MAte i shall not choose! I am too close!! damb

so uh

Nick - honestly hes just,,really fun to talk to and like! i always feel so happy when i talk with him? Like when he moved away i was sad as fuck! But like! Yeah i love that funky comrade!

May - slkdjg lskdgaH S hE,,,shes really rational and she cares so much about us,,shes so great i love her lkasdgjalksjgd

Liv - My babby girl!!!! I swear to god the moment i found out she was a year younger i instantly became her mother. She such a sweetheart alksdjglksag i love her so muchs ssagks

Lillly - Ok so we met after i criticized her art in 7th grade without knowing,,and im so greatful for her??? Like i love how much our relationships grown n shit! yeah! love that hoe!

54. Most romantic thing someone’s done for you?

LKSJDGOIJSDOGI JSDGISDGS?????/?/????? WHOMT??????LSDG KSJDGLk

ook so either thats yet to happen or someone HAS done it and im a clueless dumbass

92. Last Time you felt calm, with no worries?

Uhhh LKSJDLKGJSLKDG

probably during like

the weekends n shit cus like,,i really aint got shit to do, so i’ll just fucking! sleep!

big thank uwu

[averymessyxmas]

Chapter 7

adding songs to each character based on the plot or present song) (I have not proof read SORRY FOR TYPOS)

MJ: “Last Time” -Trey Songz:

After 5 cups of Exclusive Liquor Gia and I was making out on the couch, I was trying to get her bra off, while she was trying to get my belt off. I wasn’t thinking about Danielle, my kids nothing, the liquor and emotions was taking over. My iPhone kept going off. Gia got up and sighed, she passed me my phone. “You still married” She said with an attitude. I palmed my face sitting up on the couch. She passed me my keys. “I’m not doing this with you Malcom, I told you I’m not your #2, stop hitting me up and seeing me when I’m second on your mind or your wife and you have issues” Gia said. I shook my head. “It ain’t like that G” I said. She laughed. “Then what is it then, you always do this, and I fall for that stupid shit, I been with you since I was 16, I had your back when you was selling that shit, I bet your perfect wife knows nothing about your past, I was there, I helped your grandma bail you out and you sidelined me fuck you!” She yelled at me. I shook my head and picked up a picture frame she had of us together. “Why you still waiting for then G?” I asked her. She shrugged her shoulders. “I’m not anymore, I got somebody that I been putting to side because I’m scared another Nigga will come up in my life in make me a side chick when I was the main bitch, I deserved the ring, but all I got was Dick and trust issues”. She walked over to the linen closet. She threw a blanket at me. “You can crash on my couch tonight, but you got to be gone by morning” She simply said to me. “Gia, you act like you wasn’t out here having me look over my shoulders, you fucked my homeboy, you also had a whole nigga while I was jail, man fuck out here with that “Wifey” Shit, that’s why you just get the dick and she got my kids, and my ring”. I told her turning around. She started hitting my on my back. “Fuck you! I never fucked anybody you believed all the lies Mack told you about me, that’s on you stupid ass, be honest with yourself you just never loved me” She said. I shrugged my shoulders. “You held me down yeah, you helped me get out of jail, you helped me sell, you helped me but you didn’t better me G, you loved that hood life, I wanted out man, you kept wanting me to be down, I had to go to college and get my education, what are you doing with your life? Still waiting on a Nigga that’s married, you used to have dreams of doing hair and makeup, how’s that going?” I asked. She looked at me with her eyes watering. “I work at Mac now, I been doing what the fuck I got to do, but your right yeah I loved that life but I was young just like you, you still left me hanging, you just wanted somebody who didn’t remind you of who you used to be, now look at you, she’s out of your league and your crashing on my couch”. She walked away snatching the picture of Us off the table near the couch and tossed it in the trash before turning off the light and leaving me in the dark. “Man, what the fuck” I stressed.

Narkim:  (ASAP- T.I.) :

I was racing through 285 to get back to the West Side to give Mack this $50,000 for this drop I just had to do. “A nigga try to play me Ima blow him off the map ASAP” I sang zipping through cars in my range. When I pulled up at Macks spot. “Listen Nigga, I don’t know what you do for your respect, but Ima die for mine”. I milly rocked a little before getting out the car. “Finally, my best man done came through for me, how much they give you College Boy?” He asked. I dropped the bag infront of him. “50 thou” I told him. He smiled and opened the bag, “Take your cut nigga” he gave me 10 bands. I nodded. He motioned me to meet him in the back room. “Sit down youngin” He said. He sat on the desk while I sat in the chair. I was nervous around him ever since he pulled that glock on me. “Be easy man, chill, relax motherfucker” He said laughing. I tried my best. “Now, I noticed that, that little bitch Nisha has been having your head all fucking twisted kind of remind me of how MJ, had this little broad named Gia, fucking with his head and shit back when we was both big balling for King Ace, now MJ left the game got that white picked fence life, but I can tell you really made for this shit, you could one day take over my west side wing for me young blood, I mean you book smart, fye with the shit” He told me. I didn’t know If I wanted this as a career, can’t be a dope boy all your life, I could save maybe then get out the game but right now this shit excited me. He went in his drawer and passed me a strap. “Yoo Mack, I don’t know” I said to him. I put it back on the table. “Nigga, motherfuckers what to take yo spot, you riding round with my money, and your money it’s either kill or be killed” He told me. I nodded. He patted my back before leaving me to stare at the gun. I thought about what he said and grabbed the gun, my cut and bounced to my girl crib. “You off today?”  I asked her. She nodded. “I needed a break” She said. She climbed on me and kissed on me. “What’s up with you, where your head at baby?” She asked. I sighed and laid my head on her chest. “Nori, Mack, my family” I said to her. “What’s up with Nor Nor?” She asked. I sighed and looked at her, she lightly got up and sat near me. “Man, Andre’ in prison cause of me, I put the brick in his car, that shit been laying heavy on me ever since I found out my sister carrying his baby man, shit stressful, she could do this by herself cause of me, then Mack want me to take over the West Side turf, he gave me a strap, my parents divorcing, my brother fucking his teacher, MJ found out I’m selling he going to kill me before the streets do man”. I confessed to her. She just stared into space. “You got to tell Nori, you got to do something better with your life then just be a “West Side Turf” nigga”. She said. I shook my head. “Nah, if I tell my twin what I did she going be hurt forreal Nish, I can’t” I said to her. She palmed my face. “It will hurt you more to see her struggle with that baby more than it will to just tell her the truth, at least try to come up with the money to get Dre out, ASAP and maybe she will forgive you”. She told me. I kissed her. “Man, when I take over baby you wont have to strip no more, shit you don’t have to strip now I pay your rent, I bought you that Lexus you pushing we all good, you can be my Queen” I told her. She smiled. “Aww your trap queen? Worrying about both of our lives, our future kids lives, Prison, Nah nigga I’m cool” She said. I tickled her and kissed on her. She giggled. “Stop nigga, you going to keep playing or come to the room”. She said looking at me seductively. I smirked at her and undid my pants. “We can do it anywhere” I sang.

Nori: (Next morning) (9 days till Christmas) (“To Zion”- Lauryn Hill)

I woke up to a text from Narkim. “At Nish, I’m good, how’s nephew?” He asked. I texted back. “He’s fine, moving around”. I replied. I got up and took a shower and got ready to meet the fam downstairs for breakfast. I went into Narkims room and grabbed his Adidas track suit. I wanted to be cute through my pregnancy but for now I’m just hide it. I did my make up a little and straightened my hair. I felt pretty for once. I walked into the dining room where D, Vi, and Michael, Nylah and Nessa were. Mommy came down in her robe with her scarf still on. “No breakfast?” She asked. “Vi made Cinnamon rolls that’s it” D said. Nylah was going in on them rolls. “Dang La, can mama and I eat?” I said laughing. I poured some cereal and fixed 3 cinnamon rolls and dipped them in the cereal as I ate. I looked up to D and Mama looking at me. The others were having a debate on if Cinnamon rolls were better then French toast sticks. “You hungry?” My mama asked. I slowly nodded. “I didn’t eat much last night” I lied to her. She nodded. “Well guys, I had a dream about a fish again last night” She said. Everybody looked at me but D and La. I’m assuming Vi told Mike. “Mama you know that fish aint accurate, last time you assumed it was Nori, and she was still a virgin, who you think it is now me? I have been feeling crazy” D joked. She waved him off. “I was right about Dani both times, that last time, I assumed it was Vada”. She said looking at Vada. “Nah mama we good over here” She said. My mom nodded. “I see that” She laughed. “I assumed it was Nessa last time, but she was just about to graduate so I knew it wasn’t her, it wasn’t Dani, it wasn’t Nori, I even asked the boys if they got somebody pregnant” She giggled. “Now I could be wrong this time too, she looked at all of us suspiciously. “Mama I wrap it up, aint no babies this way” D said. She cut her eyes at him. “Better not be no hoes coming up in here claiming you got them pregnant, I will whoop yo ass “She said. He smirked at her, while Nylah was laughing but looking down. “Nori?” She asked. “You been weird lately, I know you better not be knocked up coming up in here after me and your daddy worked hard to get our baby girl in the best HBCU” She said. I tried my best to not make eye contact with her cause she could tell when I was lying. “Mama, I been busy with Majorette classes that’s the last thing on my mind” I lied. “Could be me!” Nessa blurted out. She looked at me then back at mom. She shook her head. “No man, no ring, you better not be before me and your father have met them” She said. Nessa laughed out a fake laugh. “Gotcha!” She said. My mom rolled her eyes laughing. “Yall are some funny kids, I could be wrong again, maybe Dani is pregnant again” She said. We all nodded. “Seems accurate or it could be Grandma Rudy” Vada said smirking. My mom threw a dry piece of cereal at her. “Shut up!” She laughed. “Where is that mother of mine anyways?” She asked. “Charles, I think” D said. My mama rolled her eyes. “Damn Charles”. La and I cleaned the kitchen while everyone chilled out for a little while, we were going to have Italian night with the family, catered from Olive Garden, it was going to be the 2nd family dinner since the last blow up we had. We wanted to be drama free for a moment. I went upstairs to take a nap. While I was dozing off, my mom walked in. Damn no privacy I thought. “Norielle, I know I’m hard on you and Narkim, but I want the best for all my kids, but you guys were my miracle babies, I expect nothing but greatness from yall” She said to me. I nodded. My baby had kicked me hard as shit. “Shhhhh” I said out loud. My mom looked at me crazy. “Cramps” I told her. She nodded. “I have pills if you need some, I’m sorry for excusing you, I know you not stupid” She said smiling before closing the door. I rolled my eyes. Shit happens, I’m not stupid. I pressed play on my phone for my music to play. I put the phone on my tummy, so the baby could hear music, so it could calm him down. “You trying to get me caught Baby” I said.

Vada: (“Sorry Not Sorry” -Demi Lovato)

It was 3pm and Omari had decided to meet me at this Milo mar a fancy lunch spot before Dinner. “Baby you like nice” Michael said kissing me. “Yeah meeting my old friends” I lied. He left to go in the living room of the guest house. “Hey Mike” I heard. I walked in the living room to see Nori. “Hey Nor, Nor, what’s up baby mama?” I said to her smiling rubbing on her tummy. “Nothing bored” She said. She laid on my bed while I closed the room door to finish getting ready. “Going out with Omari?” She asked. I shushed her. She shrugged. “Why open up a door you already closed for what?” She asked. I rolled my eyes.  “Nori it’s not like that”. I said. I looked at myself one more time before I grabbed my keys. I kissed Michael and walked out with Nori. “Don’t tell Nessa shit!” I told her. She nodded. I got in my car and drove to see Omari. I pulled up 15minutes later, I got out and gave my key to Valet. I walked in and he was sitting at the table smiling. “Hey Beautiful” He said to me. I felt like I was back in high school. I smiled. “Hey” He got up to hug me and pulled out the chair for me. “Thanks” I said nervously. “You have blossomed into a beautiful young woman” He told me. I blushed looking down. We talked for a little bit. He let me know he was a HR director for Home Depot. He was married once but got a divorce a year ago. He has a daughter who is 4 named Violet. He showed me a picture. “Wow, she is beautiful” I said to him. He nodded and smiled. “All my relationships failed because I missed you, you were like my best friend and my homie, man we were dope together, you were going to be my trophy wife and I was going to be a football star” He said. I nodded slowly. “Yeah, young and dumb, I am now a top stylist for Essence Magazine, I live in New York and I have a bomb ass Mercedes Benz, my life is amazing” I gloated smiling. He looked down and nodded. “I know, I fucked up” He said. “I’m sure it’s behind you but I really need you to know man, I was fucked up man, we both were, that night fucked up our lives more than you know, I mean I’m sure you do. When you left Ness found out she was pregnant, I wanted her to keep it because I felt I made my bed, so I should lay in it. She ended up getting an abortion, she felt bad she said She didn’t want a constant reminder that we fucked you know. She went into depression that so she got hooked on pain killers, I went to Georgia State playing for the bulldogs, but my grades fell behind and I got kicked off the team, We was there for each other at the time, but we ended up ending the relationship cause I loved her yeah, but I felt like we should have been together and I didn’t know what to say if you had seen us together, so we just cut all ties with each other, her senior year” He confessed to me. My blood was fucking boiling. “You fucked my sister more than once? You formed a relationship with her? You got my sister pregnant?” I said to him. He looked at me concerned. “Ness aint tell you?” He asked. I shook my head and grabbed my purse as I got up. “Stop calling her Ness, It’s Janessa to you, I thought I was over this bullshit, but this shit fucking hurt more than it did before, I wish you the best Omari, but I’m engaged to a doctor, were on two different levels honey” I told him. I was almost out the door when he chased me down. He turned me around and kissed me. I thought about him chasing me down and telling me he’s sorry many nights when I was young, and this kiss felt nice, but it felt wrong. I pushed him back. “Omari please let this go, let us go I would never be with you even if I was single you betrayed me” I told him before leaving. I couldn’t wait to get home and let that fucking lying bitch Janessa have it.

Janessa: (Bag Lady- Erykah Badu)

It was almost time for Dinner, we were all getting ready. Moms new man was coming over and so was Dads girlfriend Kristen. I was nervous because Dylan and Chase were finally going to meet my family. I went down stairs to help the caterers bring the food to the table. “There’s my lovely daughters” I heard my mother say. Nori had just come down stairs to help me. We both looked at her, she was arm in arm with a Handsome Older Man. He smiled at us and kissed our hands. “Lovely to meet Rice’s beautiful daughters I’m Stephan Morris, I thought you had 3 girls?” He asked. He looked at her. “Oh, um Vada is out with friends she will be here soon”. Nori said. They sat down at the table and was giggling at each other all night. “This is weird” Nori said. I nodded. Narkim came in a minutes later. “Whats up fambam!” He yelled. Damien dapped him up. “Yo where’s MJ?” I asked. MJ came downstairs. “Yo you snuck in?” Damien asked. He shrugged “yall was napping and shit”. He went to sit down. Narkim and Nori of course sat down next to each other. MJ was mugging Mom’s new man Stephan. “Hello Family” My father said. Behind him trolling in awkwardly was Kristen. “Hi” She said. Damien and Nylah were chatting with each other sitting down. Dad and Kristen sat at the opposite end of the table. “Vi!” Damien yelled. Michael and Vada walked in. I smiled at them. “Hey yall” Vada ignored me, Michael hugged me before sitting down. Everyone was at the table. I was nervous as I sat down at the table. “Hey babies” Grandma Rudy said walking high as hell.  She sat down near me. “We all here?” My dad asked. The doorbell rang and Narkim who was already up went to get it. In walked my husband looking sexy in his Denim Coat with the fur collar, with Chase matching coat. “Umm I remember you…Um Dylan” Damien said. He then looked at me. “Ohhhhh shit Dylan from past thanksgiving” He said. My father looked over at me. “Janessa what is this?” He asked. I grabbed Chase from Dylan and brought them over to sit down near me. “You got his portable highchair?” I asked him. “Nah, I left it at my mom’s crib” He said to me. “Janessa your father is talking to you?” My mother said. “Mom, Dad this is my family. My son Chase Matthew Scott, and my husband you remember Dylan?” I said. “Hoooeee my goodness” Nylah said. “Yooooooooo .“Damien replied. Nori smiled at me. Narkim was looking between us. “You knew damn Nor, could’ve told me” He said. She shrugged. “Janessa, I told you, I didn’t want you to bring another white man in this house”. My dad said sternly. “Well Dad, he is my husband now, you want him to go then we will go, but this is your grandson’s father” I told him. Vada started laughing. “You are the queen of secrets” She said. My mom palmed her face, Stephan was rubbing her back. She stood up and walked over to me. She held out her arms for Chase. I put him in her arms. “Hey little man, I’m your grandma” She said smiling at him through tears kissing his cheeks. “Come here Dylan, it’s rude not to hug the lady of the house your mother in law” She told him. He smiled and hugged her. I felt a knot in my throat I was so overwhelmed. “Sharice” My dad stressed. “Malcom it’s not that deep, it already kept your daughter away, plus this ain’t your house no more” My mom said rolling her eyes. “But he helped pay for it” Kristen said. “Man shut yo…but up” Damien said. My father looked at Damien. “Boy you better watch it” He said. Damien sucked his teeth in. “Control your hoes Malcom” My Grandma said. My dad grabbed Kristen and got up. “I will see yall Christmas” He said mugging me. My father walked out with Kristen. “Anyways” Damien said. We passed around the food joking, everyone was playing with Chase except Vada. It was bothering the shit out of me. “Vi what’s up?” I asked her. She shrugged her shoulders. “Im happy you have your own little family, I wonder does your husband know you fucked my boyfriend and got pregnant and had an abortion? Or you got hooked on pain pills and dated him for 2 years”. She blurted out. I glared at her. My grandma motioned for Nylah and Damien to take Chase. “Man, this is getting good” Damien said. “D get your ass up!” Grandma Rudy said. He got up fast and took my son with him. “You had no right Vada!” I yelled. She glared at me back. My mom chugged her wine glass. “Janessa, you know what yall are grown, I’m tired of this bickering between yall it’s old and tired” My mother said before leaving from the table with Stephan. “Vi not cool man let that shit go” MJ said. Vada groaned. “I’m tired of yall being on her side, she betrayed me” She said. “Abortion pills you never told me this” Dylan said looking at me. I shook my head. “That girl been through some shit we all have but it ain’t the right to be throwing shit out in public Vada you wrong” Grandma Rudy said. “Omari told you this?” I said pissed. She nodded. “Yes, today at lunch, and I forgave you but you still lying and keeping secrets Janessa, were done were not sisters” She said. Michael punched the table. “I’m tired of this shit with you Sky!, I’m done man fuck that nigga! We didn’t come here for this, you are lying and seeing him now man fuck this” He said before he got up and walked out. “Michael!” She cried out. She looked at me. I got and nodded. “Yeah we are done” I said to her.

Character Alert: 

Gianina “Gia” Angel Monetz 33: Francia Raisa 

Gia is MJ’s ex girlfriend. They were together 10 years before he left her. and moved to D.C.

[ofjcsie]

werd. it meme, kayla, with yet another muse. this is my bad bitch josie, lets get to know her shall we

「 ISKRA LAWRENCE, CISFEMALE, TWENTY-FOUR, JESY NELSON. 」┈did you read that latest viral gossip issue on JOSIE PRYOR? she is the VOCALIST in ETHEREAL, one of my favorite POP groups. they’ve been releasing music for ONE YEAR now, but viral gossip has only been talking about them for the last YEAR. get this, i think i heard SHE MARRIED A STRANGER IN LAS VEGAS. they’re known as the THE CATACLYSMIC of the music industry, since they have a rep for being BENEVOLENT but TENACIOUS, but who knows. maybe that will change once they become #1.

firstly im gonna apologize if this is all over the place. im gonna try to organize it but i cant make any promises.

BASICS

full name is josephine iridessa pryor, but goes by josie for the most part

named after her maternal grandfather, joseph.

originally from tallahassee, florida. ur basic suburban middle class white family. one older sister. her mom owned her own bakery and her dad was a paralegal.

ex high school cheerleader

one tough cookie

AESTHETIC

leather jackets, skin tight jeans, fishnets, roses with the thorns still on the stem, red nail polish, fangs, messy hair, scars covered by tattoos, the moon at midnight, high heeled boots, dancing like nobody’s watching, and structured handbags.

HEADCANONS (?)

literally ppl are always like “josie can’t sing. she’s inconsistent.” or “she’s the ugly one” or rlly mean Ugly comments about her body and just general ugly body shaming. like she Knows she’s not the same size as her bandmates but like ???? she loves herself??? it took her a long time to get to this self love level and she loves her girls so she’s always telling people to fuck off

literally gets in trouble with management for telling body shamers in her comments or ppl that are generally rude to her and/or ethereal to fuck off. probably has blocked some accounts (even stan ones sdscdcs) like jesy has

cute but will 1000000000000% fight u if u make her mad, say bad things about ppl she cares about, or start body shaming

body posi, self love, and self care activist and supporter of the #metoo movement as it relates to her past

since her mom had a bakery, she worked there in hs and knows her way with cupcakes

hates wine & has never done hard drugs

i rlly cant stress enough how she will fight anyone and everyone for being an asshole

Straight (shes like my only straight character it’s Wild)

never had a serious relationship because she’s always been guarded but she has been in love, or at least thought it was love

curvy > plus sized bc she is by no means “plus” and knows this. by measurement/fashion standards she is between straight size and plus, so just go with curve/curvy

DETAILS (?)

TRIGGER WARNING FOR BODY/FAT SHAMING & SEXUAL ASSAULT:  josie’s curves developed faster than other girls her age, so even in like 6th grade ppl were calling her rlly ugly names because her hips had grown and saying things about her, even going as far as slut shaming and oversexualizing her developing body like gross. around this time someone she thought was a friend would repeatedly touch her without her permission (also she was like 13 and knew absolutely no better than ‘uh he’s my pal so i guess it’s alright if he touches between my legs when i dont want him to). it rlly tore her down and she felt like she was nothing. that low self esteem rlly followed her into high school. the bullying kinda morphed more into unwanted glares from boys, girls calling her a sl*t, and ppl just being generally mean because of her body shape. her sophomore year she tried out for the jv cheerleading squad bc she really just wanted to be involved and have school spirit, plus she had a friend who was doing it. things were rad, she made the team, all was good, she rlly liked it and even wanted to go out for varsity the next year. junior year came around and she was on jv again, but their coach ended up quitting so the trainer stepped in. he was nice to all the girls bc he’d known them and was working with them but rlly this was just grooming tbh, like he kinda made it seem like he was hte only one in their corner if they were having problems. she got a weird feeling from him but folks were just kinda like “eh you’re over-reacting, it was just a hug” but when they went away to cheer camp it was like damn what a change. he got a little bit violent and ut was just generally a Not Fun experience, like yelling at the girls and embarrassing them to the point where other coaches and such were like “uh he needs to chill tf out”. to make everything worse one of the nights he knocked on the door of the room josie was staying in, saying he wanted to talk to her, she let him in and long story short he got handsy. when she told school authorities what happened, it was her word against his, but after testimony from teammates about his behavior at camp and everything, the school gave him an ultimatum: resign or be fired and go to court.. lmao guess which he took. so basically he got away with molesting her and being an abusive bag of dicks. END OF TRIGGER

for a long time she blamed herself bc she thought she was too naive or maybe if she hadn’t opened the door, or it was all her fault and she let it happen. sometimes she still has self doubt moments where she thinks about “but what if....” or she says “at least it wasn’t as bad as...” she’s very passionate about the metoo movement tho, and abusers being held accountable for their actions (no matter their gender or sexuality)

she doesnt really talk about what happened in detail, but she has been vocal about the metoo movement and she stands with her #MeToo sisters because she’s been there

since cheer was like “aha nop never again” senior year she got involved in the drama club. she’d sang in church choir before, but nothing Super Serious. but the fall production of grease really caught her eye, so, she auditioned and voila, Sandy. 

after graduation, she started community college in musical theater, still working at the bakery but she fuckin wanted to leave florida (dont... we all??) so she used the money she saved from the bakery, bought a one way bus ticket, and ended up in austin texas... not exactly where she wanted to be, but it was out of florida.

she started singing at bars and trying to get involved with local small theater productions/companies, but that really just was not cutting it. so she asked her dad for some moolah and she moved to los angeles. for a long time she lived in a very very shitty apartment complex (if u rememerbr YEARS ago there was a show on the cw called the complex... it was about struggling young actors/musicians living in one place.. lowkey it was good but it got cancelled before season 2 wow shocker amirite) her agent was kinda bad, like joey’s from friends, but the one thing he got right was booking her an audition for a new girl group that a label was putting together. and boom, ethereal.

AS for the vegas thing lmAO.... i’ve been feeling like it was kind of recent. like, ethereal had already formed or was right at the beginning of the four girls coming together. (i still gotta work out those kinks) but essentially she went to vegas and on a Wild night, married a stranger. all she remembers from the memory clips are they met at the casino, there’s a chapel, back in her hotel room, a charge on her credit card for the honeymoon room service package, and the next morning she woke up alone in bed with a huge fuckin headache and a cheap ring on her finger. she was 22 and dumb. but aint we all?? she’s still technically married, but does NOT wear a ring or talk at all about having a husband because she doesnt know the dude. like literally can’t find him lmao, can’t find him to get that shit annulled or file for divorce. therefore, technically married.

SOME WANTED CONNECTIONS

i dont have a Ton but some that i’d love to have established are a mentor (probably someone who is older or more accustomed to fame), a roommate or ex-roommate (could be multiple), a celebrity crush (again, probably more fmaous), someone she tells everything to (they’d probably know about the vegas thing and her history regarding sexual assualt)

other than that, hmu or like this if u wanna plot??? im down for anything????

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Haikyuu Fic Recs #2!

BACK WITH ANOTHER BATCH OF FIC RECS! Wow... I’m amazed with how many of these have E or M ratings... so just... make sure you read the tags and stuff... 

(Fics with a ♡ beside them are my 100% must-reads.)

Recs are under the cut, happy reading! ᕕ( ᐛ )ᕗ 

Lust and Lies – 36K - E - Tensemi

When Tendou hooks up with a stranger at a club, he expects their one-night stand to be only that: One night. By unexpected circumstance, he discovers Eita is an employee of Tendou's best friend, Ushijima.

You Make It Sound So Easy To Be Alive – 12K - E - Tensemi

Sometimes death just seems easier. Semi Eita has struggled for a long time, and one night he decides that living just isn't worth it. Before he can take the plunge, he's interrupted by a strange man who introduces himself as Tendou Satori.

♡  Chase This Light – 22K – E - DaiSuga

Daichi loves making music. But it will never be his life, not after he graduates from university and leaves behind the years he spent playing his guitar to pursue his accounting degree, his desk job, the dull acoustics of computer keys.

He Always Starts Something – 38K – M - KuroTsuk

In his third year of high school, Kei is recruited by Kuroo's university to play volleyball. A weekend on campus is plenty of time to check out the team, meet the coaches, see a game from the bench... and see if his two-year-old crush on Kuroo has any chance at all.

Petals of Pining – 42K – E - KuroTsuk

Tsukishima wouldn’t say he was pining. He didn’t know what he was feeling towards anyone anymore. Or what was right. Or what he should do. But he does know what feels good and what doesn’t.

Falling Aint The Half of It – 20K – M - Bokuaka

He remembered having power. Remembered being limitless, what it felt like to hold the world in the palm of his hand. He remembered his wings, wide and white, imbued with all the light of his being. And he remembered flying with all of his siblings. He remembered pain. He remembered the Fall.

The Jacket You Never Returned – 5K – G - Bokuaka

He leaned over, kissed Bokuto on the cheek, and smiled bitterly, eyes watery. He will never remember. Not now, not ever. What they were will now forever be forgotten. "You used to call me Keiji, Koutarou."

Namaste – 8K – E - Bokuaka

When Bokuto’s mood swings become a problem for his team, the coach orders Bokuto to attend yoga classes to try and relax. It’s difficult to relax, however, when Bokuto can’t stop staring at his impossibly attractive yoga teacher. Akaashi is a perfect, extremely flexible specimen of a man, Bokuto is smitten, and private lessons go much better than expected.

Il Mio Ragazzo Falso – 18K – T - BokuAka

With his grandparents’ fiftieth wedding anniversary looming fast and large, Akaashi finds himself urged to bring a date and not quite to the point where his family knows that said date will not be of the female variety. At some point, he has to decide which will be the least frightening prospect — braving coming out to his family or endure Operation: Find Keiji A Girlfriend 2k15. And why is the only person he can think of to drag along to this thing his overly-spirited volleyball captain?

♡  No Words – 12K – M - KinKage

Kageyama Tobio is surprised to receive a text message from Kindaichi Yuutarou, saying that they have landed in the same college. But Kindaichi isn't looking for space or to pick a fight, and what they find together changes both of them.

Monster Nut – 7K – M -  IwaTen (crack)

In which Iwaizumi works at Panera Bread and there's always this one annoying customer coming in asking for "that Monster Nut".

Summer Lovin’ – 6K - E - Oikuroo

He kisses like he’s just as starved for it, as if a year hadn’t passed between them without exchanging anything more than obligatory ‘happy birthday’ messages. It feels natural; the way their bodies melt together, Kuroo’s fingers fitting perfectly in the slots of Oikawa’s splayed hand.

A Game We Both Could Win – 7K – E - Kagehina

If he were a decent guy, he’d pretend this wasn’t happening, but apparently he's not really a decent guy. It's an accident, initially. But it spirals into something else, and it's incredibly easy to get lost in it.

Talk It Out – 4K – M - Iwaoi

There’s just something about him that rubs Iwaizumi the wrong way. He’s always way too close, leaning into Tooru’s space and leaning his elbow on his shoulder.

Film Reel Life – 8K – T - Iwaoi

The only person Iwaizumi is lying to is himself, when he insists: I am not in love with Oikawa Tooru.

♡  The Courtship Ritual of the Hercules Beetle – 66K – T - Iwaoi

Tooru is pretty sure he could manage the mating habits of a mosquito. It’s the mating habits of people he can’t seem to get right.

♡  Walking The Dog – 11K - E - Iwaoi

“Basset hound?” Oikawa asks, bending over to scratch behind Itchy’s ears. “Basset hound,” Iwaizumi confirms. He’s suddenly forgot where he usually puts his arms when he's talking.

No Touching Allowed – 10K – E - Iwaoi

“You’ve got one rule,” Iwaizumi winks at him.

Different Strokes (3 parts) – 19k total – Akakage

Broke-ass art school graduate Akaashi Keiji couldn’t turn down a paying job in the art world, even if it meant sitting naked in front of strangers. However, one of them wouldn’t stop staring, but meh . . . what the hell. He was kind of cute.

You Have 105 Saved Messages – 6K – G - Iwakin

In a panic about what to do with his newfound responsibility on the team, Kindaichi makes a desperate call to his old senpai. However, he doesn't realize that his daily updates about his life could change things for both of them. 

Our Birthday – 2K – E - KamaFuta

“What? I just wanted to ask if you wanted to get together for my birthday.”

“At least,” Kamasaki says, “say our birthday.”

“Oh, is yours coming up?”

Sincerely Yours – M - (WIP) – Bokuaka, Kuroken, Iwaoi

Saturday detention isn’t normally a place you go in order to find the answers to your problems. It’s where you go when you’ve fucked up bad enough you have to lose an entire Saturday to make up for what you’ve done. The Prince and The Criminal were caught cutting class. The Outsider cursed out his Shakespeare professor. The Jock and The Brain got into a fist fight. And the Birthday Boy, he’s not even supposed to be here...

Courtship of the Owl – M - (WIP) – Bokuaka

The Akaashi family estate hires a new stablehand to help with the newborn foal come spring;A man with a beaming smile, bright eyes, and owlish hair. Akaashi loves owls.

♡  Cotton Breathing – 13K – E - Iwaoi

It’s disgustingly hot by the middle of July. Tooru can feel his shirt sticking to his back the longer he sits. He loves it, though. The heat, the whoosh of air through the cracked window, and the fact that he’s taking an actual old-fashioned train should have lulled him into a hazy state of happiness but he’s already on the edge of his seat.

h(a)unting - 15K - T - Bokuaka

Bokuto and Akaashi are ghost hunters with more mystery between them than in the work they do. The new case they take on, however, may force them to change that - or they risk having everything unravel.

[musubiki]

Back when I played the games I liked Green/Lyra but seeing your art made me ship Green/Leaf so hard and now I'm deep in conflictshipping hell but there's hardly any fanfiction/fanart, they're all pokespe and it's not the same asdfghjkl I love your interpretations of their personalities and how badass your Leaf is and I'd love to see more of your conflictshipping headcanons! Oh just out of curiosity, what do you make of Red's character? Do you think of him as Leaf's sibling/twin/friend...?

i agree they totally arent the same!!!!!!!!!! for red i dont include him cuz the game doesnt mention one protag if you choose the other + i like the idea of leaf and green being the only kids in pallet town!!! if i ever did he would probably be leafs weird cousin or somethingjhfdk

ill put some headcanons (mostly for when theyre younger) under the cut!!! ➭

➭ leaf started crushing on green first when they were young!! he turned into a major jerk but she kind of held onto that “if he picks on you he likes you” hope and tried to be friends/close still!! yes she still has a crush on him throughout frlg. 

➭ man oh man let me tell you about my hcs for when theyre both in saffron ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

➭ he liked her. he did. he didnt know it. “dude why are you being overprotective of her i thought she was your rival” “I DONT SHE SUCKS”

➭ rivalry fired up when they graduated middle school and went onto to trainers (high) school. fokin competitive shits. literally fought over everything between grades and sports

➭ ended up becoming the top two of their class. green was actually above leaf but its only because she was working so hard that he worked harder

➭ despite their hardass rivalry they still like. hung out. reluctantly. like they took the train home together every day and he would like hold open doors for her and shit. they fight a lot

➭ also green sticks up for her a lot. hes mr popular so people dont pick on him but some guys pick on leaf. no one liked her cuz they thought the red eyes were weird. once some guys were physically bullying her and green actually got in a physical fight over it. ended up as a verbal fight between green and leaf. both got sent to the principals office. ended up ok

➭ they both get jealous. “some underclassman wants to be leafs rival too???? fuck that. im already her rival he can fuck off” he doesnt let her get a boyfriend ever 

➭ also “leaf look at all those girls hanging off greens arm. dont you care?” “no. [SLAMS LOCKER DOOR]” 

➭ also leaf is lowkey popular and lowkey hated cuz she gets to be around green so much. all the girls are jealous. [god i wish that were me picture]

➭ their schools top students got a semester of study abroad in kalos!!! yes that was them. it was a fun time. they stayed ith this old couple and i have feelings™ about this

➭ leaf actually skipped a lot of school dances and stuff to study. green teases her about being a loser but then just sits there and misses the dance too because ‘i aint gonna let this lil shit get a leg up on the competition for the test tomorrow’

➭ all lies he actually likes spending time and being around her but he doesnt realize it and convinces himself that shes irritating for “making” him stay there with her

➭ leaf,,,doesnt like bugs,,…sometimes green chases her with a caterpie…,,.,.,sometimes uses it as an excuse to “rescue” her,,..,….asshole,,..

➭ green is actually stronger/smarter/has more potential than leaf but leaf is more stubborn and thats it. thats why she wins. 

➭ he didnt realize that he actually had A LOT of feelings for her until like……a couple weeks before she leaf for 2 years post-frlg. tragic man.

➭ when leaf comes back she actually lives with him. its domestic and nice/ he doesnt want her to move out because he likes her cooking for him. he would never say this however,

[survivor-kuwait]

Episode 8 - “These bitches really do be getting on my nerves” - Chloe

rip stevie :( in the aftermath of that tribal that legit just felt like one massive personal attack i decided to go do some homework bc something felt off to me!! madison was out there whining about OMG BEING IN THE WARZONE THE WHOLE TIME BOOOOOOHOOOOOOOO and yet lmao she's either been "excused" or gotten a strike for deadass just not doing the challenges. the jig is uP! i think it's fairly obvious people are just using the warzone as a way to build relationships and i mean who can blame them, but her whole pity party at these tribals needs to stop. my mood towards her has definitely soured in the last hour lol i'm over it  fam. also i've been talking to ian since the tribal to get some tea since tommy is legitimately useless. i'll like ask him what happened at tribal and he literally just goes "oh i just heard his name from everyone" shrug emoi LIKE!! WOULD IT KILL YOU TO FIND SOME MORE TEA OUT... anyways i find out from ian that cullan apparently brought up that they should target timmy for challenge prowess, to which ian said he shot down due to that being a slippery slope which soon leads to him. if that's true i'm v glad that that got shot down bc that's, in my mind, a shot fired at me. GIRRRRRL, like just leave me alone i shouldn't be fucking persecuted bc half of you guys are throwing challenges and i've actually been doing them. that doesn't mean shit. 

I was able to get 217 seconds on the slide puzzle. Would I get any better? 🤷‍♂️ I dont think so. I have my graduation today so hopefully this score is enough.

not gonna lie I compleeeeetely COMPLETELY forgot about the chall until this morning when I was walking to class and my dumbass is at class and work and class again until 10 pm today so I don’t rlly have a MOUSE on me..... cut to me desperately and embarrassingly texting my classmates asking them to bring a mouse to class for me nnnn this is not gonna go well. maybe it’ll be good for me to go to war zone anyways I guess 

Hi sisters! Last vote was super easy. It was like “Stevie k?” “K.” But also even though I feel like I’m a big part of the decision making process for every vote, I never get less nervous that everyone is lying to me! Strategic playing, or crippling trust issues? You decide.

These bitches really do be getting on my nerves

Its almost graduation time and im sooo nervous and excited. It would be nice to not be in warzone tonight. Please survivor gods help me.

Well this is a crucial immunity. After being out of the war zone for 2 in a row I feel at this point I am a little outside the people who have been there so many times. I think I have some strong bonds with some players but I do not that a couple have it out for me. Namely Madison and Jacob, which at this point I fed they should be over the whole Renee vote but that’s their prerogative. 

Sooooo Final 15 baby! Honestly Im so proud of this time around on my TS journey cause Im actually liking the individual competition portion of this game. Its like the merge part of any Survivor game but with a "tribal competition" aspect. Meaning that I only have to worry about me, myself, and I and I love that. I just need to show that Im the bad bitch that is in control and take this game by the fucking reins and show it who's boss. Aint no way Im gonna get 15th, 14th or 12th again madam. No way. 

Reinke

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I survived, yeet. Kait survived, yeet. Ian went in, f*ck. Maynor went in, f*ck. Chloe went in, f*ck. Adrian went in...yeet.

Hello! I am safe again, 2nd time in a row? Idk. I do like Kait but I don't entirely trust her. I think I can use her for a bit as she'll believe she's using me. If I have the chance to get her out before or early merge, I will. Thomas is the most boring person in this game. I have yet to meet Timmy but I doubt anyone can beat Thomas in this feat. Talking to him is like talking to a wall. A white wall too. Also, he has no manners, demands favours and doesn't say please or thank you... The second I have the chance, he's gone. Nehe should've stayed, not him. Otherwise, Ian and I are working on some kind of power together for battleship. I really do like Ian. I hope we can make it far together, he's my number 2 after Owen. Together, we have the Topaz Idol and a potential save vote and a potential new power. Maynor and I have been socializing and friendly, I want him gone sooner than later but he's not a priority. He isn't great in comps generally. Still love Trace and I do trust him to an extent. I dislike Stephen, would like to see him leave relatively soon. I don't trust him at all. On the other side, Matt is going to tribal and him and I have built quite a bit of trust previously, I hope he makes it. I'm happy Cullan and Owen and Adrian are safe as I trust all 3 to certain extents. I would like Timmy to go due to his comp prowess and due to the fact we have yet to interact, but he's immune, again. I hope Chloe makes it out okay. I also hope Devon makes it out alive. I love that guy. I think Devon, Chloe, Trace and Ian can work together though! Matt could join with them as him and Devon were big parts of the Renee vote. Madison and Maynor, who were both left out of that vote, could see their way out which is A-okay by me. Jacob was also left out of this vote but I think Ian won't target him, just my two cents. I see Jacob as a better ally for me down the road compared to Madison or Maynor. That being said, I like many people in this game. I think my social game is strong. I do need to be careful with my words as some may catch on. And I may find myself at tribal with 7 ppl I like. I have my hierarchy of allies in my mind and I know who's at the bottom of my totem poll, I just hope I can get those who aren't even on it out first. I'm also a comp threat. Usually, I can lurk in the shadows more easily but with the dynamic and my low level of comfort with risk, competition prowess combined with my social game, though flashy, is what I'm betting on to keep myself safe. Owen and Kait and Timmy's competition prowess outshines mine and people peg Madison as the socialite who throws/does not complete comps to be in warzone. As long as there are some who play flashier than me, I'll be okay. Until next time!

I found a Rock Saver with the help of Corey, chill but I'm more than happy to send that over to him the second I'm back from warzone.  That is such a situational power and there aren't really alliances yet to risk rocks for, but when there are it will be within Corey and I's power to use.  Again, I'll play the idol to survive if I need to, but I'll do everything I can to prevent having to play it at f16, the jury doesn't care about what happens in the premerge portion of the game.

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It's going to be Jacob or Madison this round. Idol or bust, Cancer will take a hit, because fuck cancer.  I'm done with the waiting for someone to take out players who have been just chilling in the Warzone, I'm done with the throwing challenges, I'm done with the deceit.  The Warzone is not redemption island, you can't feed me a fish and send me on my way to build your jury presence.  Madison is sans her warzone buddies, she's vulnerable besides Jacob.  Let's go!

I may be in the war zone rn but Ian is here and I have fuckin missed that boi so yanno pros and cons 

I so so so do not want to be here at Warzone again. This vote is probably the most complicated thus far because at this point I need a lot of things to go a very specific way in order for people to not realize I’m in the middle. Devon trusts me and wants to go with Ian’s plan to vote our Madison or Jacob and Madison and Maynor want to vote Ian which I would also like. However at this point I need to make everyone happy and the odds of doing that are so slim. I just have to convince Maynor wnd Madison to vote Jacob or Devon to vote Ian and neither one is the path of least resistance. I’m on the path of MOST resistance and by path I mean 1 inch wide tightrope suspended over hungry sharks.

I was not that surprised when I got voted out. I did not expect it because voting out Stephen did in fact seem like a plausible option and i felt that between him and myself it was kinda similar. It was believable that he would be voted off, but I totally understand why I was voted off. The interesting part about it to me is I think I was the least connected person in the game and I can see how that can get dangerous in merge because those people can flip a lot, but right now I thought it might've been a good opportunity to gain me as a number. I think this tribal was my first interaction with Trace and Ian. I did like them and I liked talking to them and I think I had potential to work with them if the plan of voting me out wasn't already in place. There were a few people I did not talk to that round because i didn't think I should've had to reach out to EVERYONE in order to talk to them. I just think there are alliances that have formed that i am not a part of because the decision-making for these votes is kinda weird and I don't always understand the motives. So to me an alliance i am not a part of makes the most sense. I was very excited about the lagoon though. I am hoping I get a chance to come back because that would be lit. I just need to stick it out through these votes and I am hoping Renee is connected to at least one of the other three so we can stay. Kinda glad Nehe is gone. I think he was bad for my game

Devon has been a godsend so far today, I talked to him last night about wanting Jacob or Madison out and he has up and ran with it.  Devon being the face on this vote? Yes please, I don't want to blow back on me if it flips.

I actually have people working with me and talking to me this round? 😮😮😮 crazy that maybe these people have finally stopped trying to get me fucking out 

Trying to talk to cullan rn and I can’t decide if it’s more or less difficult than talking to Thomas. He’s sent like three one word answers now.... Me: you doing anything exciting this weekend!? Cullan: Graduating. Ummmm ok hoe sounds real exciting hskshdjd like elaborate? Oh well I’m not answering. I tried to reach out bc my social game is ass rn but I’m not putting myself thru that today!!!! I miss Kait :( and I want to talk to corey :(((( grrrr they the real ones. And matt. Have yet to have a stimulating conversation with literally anyone else in this game. Wait ok actually I do like Timmy and madison SJSU’s je but madison busy too and Timmy sends LONG messages. Why can’t I have an in BETWEEN!!

I'm definitely going to see at least one vote tonight, I'm nervous about it because if people flip on me instead of voting Jacob I'll be dead to rights because I will not play my idol unless another idol is played. My thought process is that if I need my idol to save myself from a majority vote tonight then I wasn't bound to go far in this game anyway. I'll take my ball(advantages) and go home. 5 people told me they are voting Jacob, Matt told me Jacob is voting for me, if I'm being fed bullshit by everyone then that's just how the cookie crumbles.

Today has been quiet but people have brought up that Jacob and Madison are a strong duo. Matt was able to put the target on Jacob. It could be a 4-4 tie but Matt Madison n I might just go with majority and vote Jacob.

As per usual, I have no idea if I made a confessional about this or not. I can’t believe I won immunity, like I didn’t even have computer access. And i got 3rd so i had some margin to be safe (granted Adrian got 4th with one second more than me but still). That was the first time I did the puzzle because my other times were worse. If I was doing it on a computer my time would’ve been so much better so idk what happened with everyone else. And today Owen messaged me saying he feels kind of fucked because he hasn’t been to tribal in ages, which might be true but also he can probably win a lot of immunities come merge and people like him. I’m happy to work with him right now because we both have a lot of challenge wins but honestly I want him to go earlier on in merge because he is good at getting quick social connections.

oof mama, what a round this is panning out to be. First of all, I felt personally victimized by that challenge. The Ard tribe is full of some SERIOUS competitors, and that's the reason that I will most likely continue to show up at these stupid war zones until we merge. Fucking Kait has made it this far without going to the war zone at all, which is putting SUCH A LARGE target on her back. bUt whatever, it's just frustrating being on a tribe of people that probably do online puzzles for fun. So this round is interesting. After last round's unanimous vote, I feel a lot more comfortable working with certain people in the game. Ian has kind of solidified his spot as my number one in this game (more to come about that too). He came to me and was like we NEED to make a move against Madison/Jacob. He said he knows that Madison is a challenge threat, but is purposely trying to lose the challenges so that she can make connections with people in the war zone. Though he had made some points, I really don't think Madison is that smart to figure out how to do that. I really just think she is busy/not prioritizing and keeps showing up here. She seems pretty innocuous. That being said, she has become a bit of a social threat, slipping by all of these rounds without having to really do much. BUT, I do trust her and don't want her to be sent packing quite yet. Jacob, her star sign partner, on the other hand, can go. He doesn't talk at all, and when he doesn't they're boring one word answers. So I had pretty much set my heart on Jacob even though he is on our tribe, making my chances higher of showing up here if we keep doing the war zone format. To make matters more interesting, I talked a bit more to Matt this round and he told me that Madison and Jacob were gunning for Ian this round. Madison claims she is good with voting for Jacob, but everyone else says they seem to be a strong pair. I went straight to Ian with this and then he TOLD ME HE HAD AN IDOL. Honestly I am so happy to know he has it and not someone against me, because that's going to be some great information to have later on down the road. I think he is really paranoid, but at this point I just really cannot tell who is lying and telling the truth. I am hoping that people are being truthful and going to actually vote for Jacob, but I am trying to figure out who exactly has been saying Ian's name. It's ultimately going to be up to him whether he wants to play the idol this round but oof, if I were him, I'd be sweating. SO we shall see, but lord knows I'm shaking in my loafers!

[ask-brilliant-verve]

Mod thing.

I dont know what the fuck I am doing. I cant deal with this fucking shit I am in college, I’m not even a week in with five fucking classes and I can’t keep up. I’m drowning in a fucking workload that supposed to be a trickle of whats coming. I’ve been up till two/three am multiple nights in a row trying to get this stuff done and I keep falling further and further behind. Theres going to be massive fucking essays I have to do for some of these classes in the future and I can barely get the couple paragraph one done. since I’ve started my depression seems to be getting exponentially worse, to the point that between this and shit I have to deal with at home* is leaving me with pretty much constant suicidal thoughts. I cant drop any classes because they are required for me to attend, not to mention that with how things are set up if I want to actually graduate without a fuckton of debt I have to take classes in winter spring summer and fall with no breaks. I cant drop out an wait for the same reason (not to mention that I am fairly certain I will be kicked out of my residence if I drop out). * I have to deal with a fuckton of verbal abuse which is sadly nothing new (theres a fucking reason that I have cripling anxiety and next to no self worth!), but its always nice being constantly told that I dont have a memory problem when I can barely remember what happened this morning, let alone last week or a month ago. An yeah its fucked up because there are something I can fairly clearly remember from ages ago, I can recall the topic of conversation I had with someone at bronycon or the details from an rp at trotcon, but as for what I had for breakfast this morning? or what the last book I read was? I aint got a fucking clue (well I know what breakfast was but thats only because I eat the exact same thing for breakfast everyday until my body physically rejects it). Do you know how fucking terrifying when I can recall fictional events that I read about a month ago better than what I fucking did for lunch? Its fucking aweful, and I dont think that it helps that I cant help but feel I would be happier if I forgot the rest of what actually happened and was left with only the fiction. Bit side tracked there but I dont care enough to trim it down right now, but the point I was getting to is two fold, “mom” has gotten physically abusive and I fear each time she gets drunk thats she going to decide to cut me out of her life quite litterally. dad stops her when shes drunk normally but the point still stands nothings done to change things and a busted lip from a few weeks back is evidence enough that its just going to keep getting worse. the second point is me getting stuck on a specific lyric form a song. “This place no longer feels like home” I don’t know where home is now, but I cant help but feel if I stay here than I will never find it. Anything you all want to say?

[surveyhoursss]

115

You know someone bisexual

You know someone who’s Muslim

You know someone who because of their beliefs, don’t celebrate Halloween

You know sign language

You have been to Chicago

You have been to Las Vegas

You have been to Miami

You live in Arkansas

You live in Texas

You live in North Dakota

You have been called a redneck

You have ridden in a small vehicle with 10+ people crammed into it

You have been somewhere and had your ride leave without you

You have accepted a ride home from someone you barely knew

You were in a relationship at this time 1 year ago

You were in a relationship 6 months ago

You were in a relationship 1 month ago

You have bought helium balloons just to make funny voices with them

You have gotten a speeding ticket

You own a t-shirt that supports your favorite band

You have won free tickets to a concert

You have won money from scratch-off cards

You have bought cigarettes when you were underage

You use hairspray on a daily basis

You have argued with someone today

You believe in love at first sight

You are a vegan

You are Wiccan

You have played with a Ouija board

You have visited somewhere said to be ‘haunted’

You drive a vehicle newer than a 2006

You own a digital camera

You have taken photographs of yourself simply because you were bored

If you could, you would spend a week in the 1920’s

You would rather vacation at a ski resort over a beach house

You have been on a cruise in the Caribbean

You are lactose intolerant

You sunburn easily

You have freckles

You have a birthmark

You have questioned your beliefs

You have questioned your sexuality

You are emancipated from your parents

You live on your own

You live with a boyfriend/girlfriend

You live with at least 3 roommates

Your mom was a teen when she had you

You are adopted

You have considered adoption in your future

You want more than four kids

You don’t want kids

You have children already

You model your life after someone you look up to

You have had a crush on a celebrity

You watch a certain tv show religiously

You know the Lord’s Prayer by heart (aint even christian anymore ;w;)

You believe in purgatory

You have been to a Bar Mitzvah

You didn’t pass the first time you took your driving test

You remember exactly where you were and what you were doing on Sept. 11th

You got detention

You know how to knit

You can drive a stick shift

You have broke curfew

You have graffiti-ed something

You own an umbrella

You are dating the last person you kissed

You have kissed someone in the last 24 hours

You have kissed more than 3 people in the last year

Your last missed call was from a relative

You have driven somewhere today

You know someone who works at McDonald’s

You are diabetic

You are hypoglycemic

You wear glasses/contacts

You have braces

You are pregnant

You are wearing shorts

You are wearing at least 3 pieces of jewelry at the moment

You have let someone use you, when you knew they were

You have done something you really regret

You have told someone something you really wish you could take back

You have done something that ruined a friendship

You are on non-speaking terms with a relative

You have taken back an ex

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You had your heart broken

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You know someone with the same first & last name as you

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You have been told you looked like a certain celebrity

You are taller than your mom

You are taller than your dad

You are a legal adult

You are currently attending a four-year university

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You are an education major

You are a business major

You are a criminal justice major

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You have had a Mrs. Brown as a teacher

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You work with a ‘Heather’

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You have hugged a ‘Megan’

You have went out to eat with a ‘Wyatt’

You have been to the movies with a ‘Stephanie’

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Your favorite color is Green

Your lucky number is 7

Your favorite animal is a Panda Bear

You saw your favorite movie in theaters

You have been to a concert of your favorite band

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You live north of Phoenix, AZ

You live south of Detroit, MI

You live west of St. Louis, MO

You live east of Denver, CO

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You have visited all 48 contiguous states

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You have been stuck on a Ferris wheel when it started storming

You have seen a tornado

You have been in a hurricane

You have thrown up in a restaurant

You have passed out in a public place

You couldn’t live without your caffeine

You have been to the emergency room more than 5 times

You have slept more than 24 hours in one sleep session

You have received a compliment today

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You have introduced yourself with a name other than your own

You have given out someone else’s phone number than your own

You have convinced someone you had a twin

You have convinced someone you had a sibling that didn’t really exist

You have taken someone’s virginity

You have gotten in the car and drove off with no destination in mind

You have taken the long way home just so you could jam out to some tunes

You have thought of taking up a hippie-care-free lifestyle

You have seriously considered legally changing your name

You have walked around in your underwear when no one was home

You have gambled online

You have fallen for someone you told yourself you wouldn’t fall for

You have smoked a whole pack of cigarettes in a matter of hours

You have drank so much you blacked out

You have been bit by a snake

You have been bit by a dog

You wish at 11:11

You have found a four leaf clover

You pick up pennies for good luck

You don’t really believe in luck

You have remained good friends with an ex

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You have been a best man/ maid of honor in a wedding

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You have been to a baby shower this year

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You have been to a 21st birthday party this year

You have been to a graduation party this year

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You have been to an anniversary party this year

You love the smell of fresh-cut grass

You have seen a sunset and then stayed awake to see the following sunrise

You have borrowed someone’s coat/sweatshirt and never gave it back

You have used an excuse (cold, scared, etc.) to get to cuddle with someone

You have died in a dream

You have gotten a call from someone and wondered how they got your number

You have laughed out loud at something you were thinking of

You have gotten lost and ended up in at a completely different destination

You have run out of gas before

You have done something just because you knew you weren’t supposed to

You have been grounded for longer than a month

You have babysat more than one child under 10 at a time

You have called in sick to work because you were hungover

You have stared at the dots on your ceiling and saw pictures in them

You have stayed more than 3 days in the hospital

You have pretended to be something you weren’t for someone else

You have danced in front of the mirror in private

You have dialed a wrong number and it turned out to be someone you knew

You have been to the Atlantic ocean

You have told someone you were fine when you really weren’t

You have copied someone else’s homework

You have read an entire book in one sitting

You have spent more than $100 on a pair of jeans

You have taken gymnastics

You have taken a karate class

You have taken a yoga class

You have written something on a dollar bill

You have eaten peanut butter right out of the jar

You have drank milk straight from the carton

You have tried roasting marshmallows using a candle flame

You feel like you have no life because you completed this

[theresawelchy]

Random Thoughts on the admissions scandal

In light of the recent academic scandal I am going to list ways I've heard to help get your kid into college and thoughts on how ethical they are (hint: bribing a coach to claim your kid is on the rowing team is not ethical). 1) Your kid likes (1) helping the homeless and (2)  Ramsey Theory and (3)  helping the homeless learn Ramsey Theory. Or perhaps they like  rowing or Latin or fencing or Pig Latin or....  Great! encourage them, get them books and tutors,  and whatever they need. You have an eye towards how this will look on for college admissions; however, it is your kids choice as to what they like. Also note that these activities are in addition to doing well in school, SATs, etc, not instead of it.  Perfectly ethical, though I note that this avenue is not open to poor families and in some cases even middle class families. 2) Item 1 is the extreme on a spectrum in terms of how much are the extra things the kid does there idea OR planned by you to GET INTO A GOOD COLLEGE. This item will be the other extreme, but realize there is a continuum (actually I doubt there are a continuum number of options here, but there are many in between. Maybe its omega + omega*.) You have heard that being on the chess boxing teams is good on a college application so you TELL YOUR KID that they  likes both Chess AND Boxing and should be on the team. You also hear this about being on the fencing team and knowing pig latin, so your kid can taunt their opponents like this: youah, aint-kay ence-fay orth-way eans-bay This might not be as bad as it sounds if the kid learns to like Chess-Boxing.  But it may be worse than it sounds if the kid rebels against all of this and becomes a crack whore. Is this ethical? It may be bad for the kid, but it may push him into things he ends up liking. One drawback: you've HEARD that being on the chess boxing team is good for college admissions, but is it true? And again, not open to some families. 3) Item 2 (or even 1) but with an addition: Hire a college adviser to help you. Someone who knows (or claims to know) what colleges look for- Trombone, Latin, Chess-boxing, whatever. Still ethical but I again worry about the kids future rehab bills. 4) Here is where it gets murky. The college adviser helps: a) Polish the kids essay (my parents, who are both in English, helped polish my essay to get into graduate school (I don't recall if there was one for ugrad). They told me to use lots of `ing' words so it sounds like I am actively doing things. They also helped me figure out when recursion-theoretic is hyphenated. I got into Harvard but not MIT, so make of that what you will.) Polishing, proofreading, that could be okay. But it can slip into b or c below. b) The adviser (or the parents) talk to the kids to find out what to write, but then writes it. Maybe the kid proofreads and polishes. Maybe not even. The adviser is  a ghostwriter. Clearly unethical but the line between helping-to-polish and adviser-wrote-it is again a continuum. c) Adviser writes it and it is completely fictional. I once heard a rumor that a particular sample of an essay to get into med school was used  by several  med school applicant. Gee,they can't all have gotten inspired by watching their grandfather in his pajamas die of cancer. This is awful of course, but I wonder- what if the student writes a fictional essay all by themselves! Some combination of how much the essay is true and how much help you got on it is unethical. But some might be okay. Is it bad to polish stories that are basically true to make them flow more easily?  Prob not. But there is a 2-dim continuum based on both accuracy and how much help the student got. As a side note- how much does the personal statement matter for admissions? I suspect that if an elite school gets LOTS of REALLY QUALIFIED applicants, the essay may be all that distinguishes them.So it can be important. I also wonder if people on admissions can tell if an essay is not written by the applicant. Or maybe if there is an interview that can help detect it. 5) Parents give X amount of money to the college and the kid gets in. This is talked about a lot though I don't know how common it is for someone NOT qualified to GET IN based on money. College admissions has many factors so its not quite so clear cut what NOT qualified means. Even so, if seems odd that this is not in any way shape or form illegal. It IS transparent, so I guess thats a plus. The argument I've heard is that the money is used for scholarships to fund students who get in but can't afford to go. I do not know if this is true. And this one  is only available to the top Z %, not sure what Z is, but there are people who can do 1,2,3,4 who can't do 5. I would call this unethical though colleges don't seem to think so. Or they do but they do it anyway. 6) Before I list the current scandal I want to list another issue: having a psychologist (or whoever it is who judges these things) say your kid is Learning Disabled so they get more time on the SATs. Perhaps bribing them, or perhaps its understood what you want.  Again, I do not know how common this is.  An alternative if you can't afford some of the above options, or done in conjunction with a lot of the above options. 7) The current scandal. Obviously unethical. A few things I wonder about: a) One story was that they bribed someone to say their daughter was Learning Disabled and had to take the SAT (or whatever it was) in a separate room, making it easier to change the answers to the correct ones.  So twice unethical. b) Some of the students  were clearly NOT qualified. c) A parent does unethical things to get the kid into college. The kid later lies to the parents about their grades or their plans The parents are SHOCKED that their kids lie and wonder where the learned such behaviour! 8) Actually Item 2 --Parent has kid do things to plan to get into college-- is interesting for another reason. Are you your resume? Imagine that Alice helps the homeless her Sophmore year in High School NOT because she cares about the homeless but because its good for college admissions. Alice goes on to do other things that look good for college, NOT because she likes them or cares, but just to get into a good college. She gets into an elite college Did they take her in the hope she would KEEP doing these things or because she is the KIND OF PERSON who does these things? And it gets weirder- she DOES keep doing these things since she's heard its good for Business School (disclaimer- I do not know if its good for B-school) More generally, she keeps doing things she doesn't care about to advance. So her outward self really is doing good deeds and such, but her heart is not in it. So if her college or B-school or Job hired her because she DOES these things, that is NOT a lie. If they hired her because they want this KIND OF PERSON then... its a lie but I'm not sure what to make of that. 9) Is there ANY reason to have legacy matter for admissions? This seems like the dumbest and most easily fixed aspect of the whole process.  I have never heard a good argument for it. Ever. 10) College Sports--- that's an entire blog post or book all by itself, so I won't go there. 11) One can argue whether helping the homeless, or being on the rowing team, or teaching the homeless how to row, should matter for college anyway. But lets assume that its legit to want people at your college who have lead interesting lives. So charity work or sports might be a MEASURE of that. But beware Goodwin's law:                           When a measure becomes a target is ceases to be a measure. The recent scandal is Goodwin's law on steroids. 12) Does getting into an Elite College really increase your income or happiness (these are two very different questions) over the course of your life? I do not know-- if you do, please comment. Computational Complexity published first on Computational Complexity