#they are very depressing lol. but they pretend they are just fine do u believe it

[toanp]

helloo 👋 i made this blog to share my project sekai oc band, GAISUM. here are its members and their SEKAI's versions of MEIKO and Miku :)

they are a v-kei inspired hard rock/electronic band made up of four utaite.

L-R, Isshiki Kaneta "lop" (leader and PV artist), Tetsukamiya Chidori "Akatori" (lyricist and bassist), Kuroba Gin "CLOW" (guitarist), Hondou Suika "Sue" (pianist)

[acescorazon]

I LOVE YOUR FIC CHANGES!!!!! I HOPE YOU UPDATE SOON!!!!!

THANK U BBYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY. ILY MUAH. I was updating like every day but then i got my period... i mean i fell into a pit of darkness and didn't have the energy to climb out. How bizarre. ANYWAYS, HERE'S YOUR FOOD.

Title: Changes Ch: 5/?

Rating: M (I'm just putting that as the rating in general for every ch lol)

Word count:2291

Warnings: Depressed clown :(

Chapter excerpt:

"Mihawk keeps asking about you," Mohji announces all of a sudden, "He keeps asking if you're okay and if your illness is something serious." Hawkeye keeps asking about him… Why? To know if he's died yet? What a joke! That man doesn't care about Buggy, why is he even wasting his breath asking about him? "I just keep telling him that you have the flu, and he's always like, 'Ah…is that so? Tell him I hope he feels better.' Isn't that…ridiculous?!" Yeah, that is rather ridiculous.  Buggy has a hard time believing that Mihawk is genuinely concerned about him, but at the same time, he can't imagine why he'd just pretend to care either. It's weird.

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The next several days are on an endless loop for Buggy. He stays in bed all day, unwilling to come face to face with Mihawk after his little drunken rant from days prior, afraid of what Mihawk will say to him now that he's completely sober. So, he stays in bed, either sleeping or lost in thought. He should be preparing men, supplies, and their new flagship for departure, but he can't bring himself to do it. At the very least he should be making sure everything on Emptee Bluffs Island is going smoothly, and yet… he doesn't care about that either. 

Being in Cross Guild is so…exhausting.

Crocodile has called for meetings every single day, and every day, Buggy has one of his men lie and say he's sick. He's missed about 10 meetings now, he thinks. He can't remember, everything is starting to blend in together. All he knows is that sooner or later Crocodile is going to get pissed and come looking for him, and then what? Beat him up? Threaten him? Actually, kill him this time? 

Man, who cares?

Cabaji, Mohji, and Richie, often come by and sit with him, usually overly worried about Buggy's well-being and not believing him when he says he's just sick or tired, but of course, Buggy always tells them that he's fine. 

Today, they're with him again, sitting by his bed and trying to get him to eat some of the sea king the other members of the crew somehow caught and killed today. "Captain…" Mohji sighs, "Come on, at least take a couple of bites." He asks, but he sounds more like he's begging than asking. "You've hardly eaten anything these last few days." While that is very true, it's because Buggy doesn't have much of an appetite these days, nothing tastes right or really interests him, and god knows he doesn't have the energy to make his own food…just… he just wants to sleep.

Buggy sits in his bed, slightly peeved that Cabaji and Mohji insist he sit up in general, and looks down at the sea king on his plate. He's not normally a picky eater, you can't be picky when you've spent most of your life at sea, but… this thing reminds him eerily of a poison dart frog with its vibrant color and spots, yet at the same time, it's got fins and a body like a snake... He doubts his men would actually cook up something poisonous, they aren't that naive…but still, Buggy has no interest in this fish..frog…snake thing. 

But if he did die from ingesting it…that'd just be his luck, wouldn't it? Death seems… inescapable at this point, and he often wonders just what or who will end up taking his life first. "I'm not hungry," Buggy repeats, but Mohji and Cabaji seem determined today.

 

"Just take a couple of bites, please, Captain?" Mohji practically begs, "Just a couple, it's actually really good!" Doubt it, Buggy thinks. 

Cabaji follows suit, "Yeah, just take a couple of bites and if you don't like it, you don't have to eat the whole thing! We'll just feed the rest to Richie, right, Mohji?" 

"Right!" 

Buggy really doesn't want to eat anything, but he hates to make the other two worry, so he ends up taking a couple of bites of his lunch, and yeah, it isn't bad…it's one of the better-tasting sea kings that he's had, this one actually tastes like chicken despite its weird appearance, but Buggy still only eats a couple of bites, just enough to get the other two off his back and then hands Mohji his plate to give to Richie. 

He wants to lie back down, but the others won't let him. "Um, Captain?" Cabaji calls out, seemingly a little nervous, "Uh, how about I run you a warm bath and…uh, How about I help you wash and brush your hair today?" Cabaji suggests with a small grin. Oh, yeah, basic needs are a thing. Man, Buggy really doesn't care about any of that stuff anymore, he's going to die anyways, so what's the point? He'll just ask one of his men to make him look nice for his funeral. 

"Okay?" Cabaji asks, still smiling.

Buggy understands what this really is about. This is a very polite and roundabout way of telling him he needs to bathe, but none of his men would ever outright tell him he stinks so they have to use words like, 'Oh, how about I run you a bath and help you wash your hair today?' Or, 'Wow, you look like you need to relax…how about a nice bath?' 

Whatever. 

Buggy lets Cabaji run him a bath, and he sits and waits in bed while he prepares everything for him. He watches Richie eat his leftover sea king, and can't help but think how nice it'd be to be a lion, well, actually a cat. If reincarnation exists, he thinks he'd like to live a carefree life as a cat, a spoiled one too. Being a pirate isn't something he thinks he'd want to do again unless he could live a life with his old crew again, this time a happy one that isn't cut short, maybe then he'd be a pirate again... Or he could be a star in the sky, that'd be nice. 

"Mihawk keeps asking about you," Mohji announces all of a sudden, "He keeps asking if you're okay and if your illness is something serious." Hawkeye keeps asking about him… Why? To know if he's died yet? What a joke! That man doesn't care about Buggy, why is he even wasting his breath asking about him? "I just keep telling him that you have the flu, and he's always like, 'Ah…is that so? Tell him I hope he feels better.' Isn't that…ridiculous?!" Yeah, that is rather ridiculous.  Buggy has a hard time believing that Mihawk is genuinely concerned about him, but at the same time, he can't imagine why he'd just pretend to care either. It's weird.

"Crocodile has asked about you too, but only once, and when I told him you had the flu, he rolled his eyes at me and went: 'Of course that dumb clown is sick.' And then walked away! I tell ya, I don't know what the others see in those two!" Mohji frowns, "They're so mean to you! I… I think if we all banned together then we could…you know…." He whispers the next part of his sentence, "Show them who's boss."

Honestly if Buggy thought he and or his crew had a chance against Mihawk and Crocodile, then he would have had both of them taken out a long time ago, but he knows even with an army of men, he couldn't take out one of his business partners, let alone both. It's a fun thought though, "Let's not waste our time," Buggy replies, exhaling a long, shaky sigh, "Besides, it's like I told you before, I can handle those two! Do you really think I'd let them beat and bully me?!" 

Mohji just stares at him from his seat, obviously not convinced but he doesn't push the subject any further, and thank God for that.

Cabaji reappears a few moments after that, telling Buggy his bathwater is ready, and in all honesty, Buggy rather not do this, but he doesn't feel like hearing the other two complain either. He follows Cabaji into the bathroom and tells him he can at least bathe himself, and somewhere at the back of Buggy's mind he feels like he should feel more ashamed by the situation, but he doesn't. His former captain always told him that good friends don't judge you when you're at your lowest times and that they instead help you when no one else will, and so maybe that's why he has no guilt about letting Cabaji wash his hair. He'd do the same for him and then some. He and Mohji are more than just subordinates, they're friends, no, they're family, and honestly Buggy doesn't deserve either one of them. 

As he washes Buggy's hair, Cabaji also tells Buggy that Mihawk keeps asking about him. Again, Buggy finds the idea of Mihawk asking all of Buggy’s crew about his well-being almost comical. Did the world’s strongest swordsman grow a heart? Ha, as if. Or maybe Buggy’s earlier suspicions are correct, maybe Mihawk’s waiting, hoping that Buggy’s ���flu’ will take him out and that he won’t have to deal with him anymore, which honestly seems like a more realistic explanation for everything. 

A hot bath and a nice relaxing hair wash later, and Buggy’s sitting on the small couch in his room, getting his hair brushed by Cabaji as he listens to both Mohji and Cabaji ramble on about this and that, and occasionally bicker over trivial things. It feels like his men are the only consistency in his life, but he wonders if there will be a day when even that changes. Maybe he’ll end up with so many men that their crew will seem more like an army than a family, then again maybe he won’t live to see the day when that’s actually a problem. And if that doesn’t happen, then maybe Mihawk will eventually end up replacing Buggy’s crew with a new, more efficient one that he hardly knows let alone can consider his family…who knows?

Now, as stated before, Buggy’s usual visitors consist of Mohji, Cabaji and Richie, but today Buggy finds himself getting an additional guest in his room. Sometime around late afternoon Alvida joins Buggy’s already boisterous company, and as soon as she realizes Buggy’s perfectly fine, she sighs at him,”I knew you weren’t sick.” she mutters as she has a seat on the couch next to him after Cabaji and Mohji fight over who’s spot she can take, “But oh well, you won’t believe what I just saw.” She says, grinning. 

Hopefully, she saw Crocodile and Mihawk board a ship and sail as far away from the island as possible, never to return again, but that’s just not realistic, is it? “What did you see?” Buggy asks though he’s not particularly curious about her gossip today.

“Mihawk and Crocodile were fighting.”

“Crocodile and Mihawk bicker every once in a while, so what?” 

“No, they were actually physically fighting earlier.”

“Why?”

“I don’t know but they were both heated,” Alvida claims, “I think they reached a draw, but they were fighting for a long time, half the island saw it.”

Despite claiming that he doesn’t care about either of the two, Buggy’s slightly curious about Mihawk and Crocodile’s altercation. Sure they’ve butt heads a couple of times in the past because Crocodile is so damn overbearing and of course, Mihawk doesn’t take being bossed around lightly, but they never get physical with things, it’s usually just threats of possible fights that don’t go anywhere. Maybe that was it, maybe Crocodile just got too controlling again, and Mihawk got tired of it. He did say he was tired of Crocodile’s shit the other day… Yeah, that’s got to be it…Because what else could it be???

…

A couple of more days go by after that, and Buggy’s still stuck in that same loop: Sleep. Overthink. Sleep. Overthink. Sleep. Overthink. Of course, there are brief things that break the cycle like Mohji and Cabaji checking on him and feeding him and making sure he’s being taken care of, but other than that, it’s just sleep, overthink, repeat. He just doesn’t see the point in getting out of bed every day when Mihawk and Crocodile are just going to make his life a living hell, or worse, end his miserable existence. 

Despite all his stress though, there are times when his bedroom is rather comforting, he knows that it offers him no real protection from the outside world, but in his room he feels safe and like he’s miles away from all his problems even though they’re literally just right outside. He thinks he’s missed, hm…12 meetings now, maybe 13 …14? Who knows, he’s surprised that Crocodile is even still calling for them, or that he hasn’t come barging into his room to yank him out of his bed and beat him to death for ruining his perfect schedule.

Buggy doesn’t care about Cross Guild though (or for much of anything right now) he never has and he doubts he ever will. He’s perfectly fine just keeping himself locked away in his bedroom for as long as possible. Mohji will take care of the others and if he doesn’t, then Alvida will, and if she doesn’t, then Buggy’s sure that Crocodile and Mihawk will boss his men around, but they’re strong, spirited, and oblivious, they can handle anything. 

Something breaks his seemingly endless depressive cycle by the time he’s missed 18 meetings…or was it 19?

One of his men comes into his room around midmorning, like always, and tells him that a meeting has been called… But today, Mihawk’s the one who’s called for the meeting apparently, and Buggy instantly tells his subordinate to tell Mihawk that he’s still under the weather and can’t go to the meeting, to which his subordinate replies, “He says it’s urgent, Chairman Buggy, and that if you can’t go to the meeting room, that he’ll bring the meeting here instead.”

That’s got to be the worst, no, actually, the second worst thing he’s been told in his entire life. Why? Why now? Why can’t Mihawk and Crocodile just hold their dumb meetings by themselves? It’s not like Buggy gets to make any decisions or his input matters, why does he have to leave his safe space and go see them?

((A/n: Hate how they didn't add ChouChou to the live-action or Richie. The idea that some of you might not know that Richie is a lion and you might think he's just some guy is funny though lol.))

[sunflower-smiles]

tw: the following story is about my self harm scars and peoples reactions. please do not read if you feel you will be triggered <3

i have been self harming for almost 3 years now and i have many scars. 

i have tried many methods and to this day will self harm in various ways but the only ones that are visually noticeable are my scars from cutting. 

i do not go to school now (i am in grade 11) but throughout grade 9/10 all day everyday i would wear long sleeves. at the time, i was only self harming on my left arm, and they were not bad (what medics would classify as “superficial”). they left very faint scars but since i was doing it so often there was never a time in those 2 years when i would let my arm heal (except summer when i would self harm on my stomach because bathing suits lol).  

when i first started in spring of grade 8 i was going through a lot at the time and i am not going to lie, it was for attention. no one knew what was going on at home and i wanted someone to be concerned for me. so i went to school with short sleeves after self harming that night and told people i just slipped and cut myself by accident. trust me i know how terrible that is now and i would never do that now. but that day one of my friends grabbed my arm out of no where in the middle of class and said very loudly “oh my god! do you cut yourself!” and i got very embarrassed and was like “no, i slipped”. throughout that day i probably got at least 5 more of that same reaction. and even though i wanted a reaction and some attention, it wasn't how i wanted it, i really just wanted someone to care. i did a lot of that type of stuff in grade 8, oh yea, i was THAT kid. so i definitely learned my lesson and never wore short sleeves at school again. 

grade 9 was actually pretty chill since i wore long sleeves the whole year. with a few exceptions like my friend grabbing my arm in gym and me wincing at the pain and her pulling  my sleeve up. with a “omg did u cut urself” and me going “no, im not insert friend who self harmed name” and i totally outed my friend in that moment which was so not cool and i felt rly bad about it.

grade 10 i switched to my legs since for basketball games you had to wear short sleeves, but when i stopped playing it was back to arms. basketball was rly hard for me scar wise, because one thing you need to know about my, is i am a ginger. so it takes 2 years for my scars to turn white and until then they are purple. and one of coaches favorite drills was defensive stances with your arms out wide, so pretty stressful. end half of grade 10 was online school, so best BELIEVE my mentally ill ass took advantage of that to dive into depressive low. plus i was with a new therapist at the time who was AWFUL. when i told her i struggled with cutting she asked “how bad” and i kind of explained and she said “oh that's nothing...” AND CONTINUES ON TO GRAPHICALLY DEPICT ONE OF HER PAST CLIENTS SELF HARM. when i said she was bad i meant bad. so of course now i feel like all those thoughts of baby cut syndrome and stuff and my self harm on my legs get rly bad. obviously i am not going to add triggering content but i will say that while seeing that therapist my self harm was the worst its ever been.

now grade 11, or work/homeschool year you could call it. fuck covid. i am with adults all day 4-5 days a week, the same 10 adults. so i work at a motorcycle store in the parts dept. and we have a uniform, its just a short sleeve polo with the logo on it and black pants. i also got like 3 hoodies, 2 zip ups and a pull over. so i wear my hoodie over my shirt and normally we are all good. but in the winter my boss like to crank up the heat really hot, also known as my worse nightmare. i spent many months sweating all day everyday. but a couple weeks ago i though to myself ‘hey, my cuts are healed, these are adults, i should be fine’. so i wore just my t-shirt one day (with my hoodie close by) and probably like 15 mins in my coworker (whos my work best friend ) pointed to his arm mirroring me and kind of looked at me funny. and i was like “what?” and he said “oh what's that scar from?” and i said “oh just my dog.” which is where the convo should have ended. but he persisted, ‘really let me see that's not what it looks like” and i was like “well that's what it is” and he said “let me see your arm” gesturing his hand, and i was like “no.” and he kept on me, like a dickhead for like 2 mins straight. until i just walked away. and as i was kinda panicking away he tried to save himself by saying “well it looked like a burn its in the spot where if would hit the oven”. which was bullshit cause why would i say an oven burn is a dog scrape. afterwords we both pretended like it didnt happen. which i was totally fine with. 

i am very cautious to how i wear my arms out now, currently i cant because of relapse. but at work i never wear them out around customers, just back at my desk. but still when my coworkers stop to talk to me i can see them starring and its very awkward. this summer will be interesting because my scars are much more noticeable then prior years. also for reference my parents do not know.

the point of this story was not to tell people to cover up their scars. i definitely think that people should not be ashamed of them. i just think that if you are, and they are noticeable; expect people to ask and stare. and be emotionally prepared and have a response ready because unless you have experienced it there is no way to describe the anxiety you feel when that encounter happens. 

i am not encouraging hiding your self harm from people in any way shape or form this is just my experience.

message me if you need support or just someone to talk to. or i have an anonymous question thing on my page.

self harm is never the answer. 

xo

[fivour]

ppl who call jotaro’s personality boring or bland make me

ugh

like you can have ur opinions. u likely dont mean any harm and thats fine idc im not attacking you for not vibing with jotaro kujo, that would be silly

but it’s really damn obvious that jotaro is severely depressed.

and it always makes me feel weird to see people call his personality boring (i dont mean character development, that’s a different thing entirely) bc as someone w depression it’s so nice to finally see a character that is......... like me. you’d think w how common depression is authors wouldn’t be such misinformed cowards but a lot are. so jotaro is very dear to me. ironically it took almost a year for me to realize i relate to him so hard bc there’s like a 99.99999% chance he’s depressed.

depression is more than just being sad & people can be very high functioning and successful despite depression so let’s get that out of the way while i explain in unnecessary length why i believe this whether it was intentional by araki or not.

1. it makes you angry & moody depression and anger go hand in hand. irritability is a symptom for a reason, baby! it can make you very aggressive and give you a very short fuse (or the opposite, make you repress it). god knows i am aware of this lol. even the smallest things can set off intense anger. and jotaro’s aggressive responses r a notable feature of his character. not to mention that sometimes when you get really angry, it feels better than feeling nothing; sometimes you end up seeking it out just to feel something.

2. it makes you feel like a problem jotaro worries excessively, albeit for a reason but it also fits depression’s MO, that people he loves will be hurt bc of him. and a lot of people, myself included, lash out in anger when deeply upset, whether they are truthfully angry.

he is the problem. he is always the problem, in his mind. is that self centered? maybe. but it is a common thought and it often comes from a place of deep self loathing, not exaggerated self importance. he keeps people away bc if he gets involved with them, they get hurt; and this is only proved time and time again & he’s allowed to internalize that. which eventually ruins his family (ahem jokes about bad dad jotaro are not funny, they never have been, thank you and moving on.) and sometimes i wish he had the chance to cope with his shit and [cries]

3. it makes you apathetic and empty people also think jotaro is emotionless which honestly? maybe that could be the case. depression is very consistent (otherwise it’s usually something else, like a form of bipolar). for some people, myself included, the feeling they feel consistently is apathy or emptiness. instead of ‘neutral’ you just feel... void of anything at all. i would describe it as a cloud hanging over your entire life. sometimes it rains, sometimes it pours. but the cloud is always there. his apathy seems to be the main reason people hate him and it’s one of those things that i just cannot imagine the other side on, you know? it’s such a part of my own life.... i never realized people thought that was ‘unrealistic’.

there are many moments when you can feel happy, joyful, or peaceful; they are just few and far between. even though i am depressed, i have things that make me very happy. sure it’s one thing, but it’s a thing! for jotaro, that seems to be marine biology and family. although araki has some weird obsession with family being super important we will pretend that family is important to jotaro, not araki. anyways. these arent reasons to say he isnt depressed, bc there are some of the few things he seems to love. there are also ups and downs to your mood, as is there is for someone without any mental health issues.

4. it can accompany trauma and psychological issues jotaro grew up with a dad who was, as far as we can guess, never home. a dad so absent that joseph hated him and you know what joke im about to make there. yes im aware it’s also bc he ‘took his daughter away’ bc joseph was born when women were property and racism was super cool hashtag vintage but it is likely deeper than that for reasons that this post isnt about.

but.

sadao was an absent father and put work first and i can tell you from experience that destroys your self esteem as a child. you feel unimportant. you feel like you don’t come first to your parent. it certainly does not make for a happy childhood and any psychologist will scream at u that childhood is absolutely key in developing ur brain. theres also the fact that jotaro 100% got bullied for ‘not having a dad’ bc it was the 1980s and actually nvm that still happens haha hashtag vintage.

besides being depressed, this is also the example of a father that jotaro had growing up (ppl like to act like joseph lived w them lol no joseph was also a distant father figure, if one at all), so him being away from his family all the time? he probably didnt give it a second thought. beyond the fact that the subconscious exists and we dont consciously decide everything we do (which jojo fans in particular are super bewildered by idk what it is with yall), jotaro is also the type of person to avoid pondering his own personal problems.

so anyways........

i am done raving.

daddy issues aren’t a fucking joke i will fist fight you Right Now.

i love jotaro kujo.

thank u mr araki for making him.

goodnight

[tommoholland2013]

Words || Peter Parker

Word Count: 4.3k Warning(s): Angst, Angst, Angst... Mentions of cutting Note: I have had experience with this so I understand if it's a sensitive topic, as it is for me as well, but I did base the reader off of me (a little). Pairing: Peter Parker x Female!Reader Request: Can u write a Pete Imagine for my bday? Where y/n and he were bff & one day they get into a BIG fight & Peter said smth REALLY BAD to her & made her cry & run away & she avoid him for weeks & then at homecoming(She has a long red or blue dress?u can pick the colour) Vulture kidnapped her & then took her to the building where the ceiling fell & she was trapped & Peter panicked because he couldn't hear her & then he saved her? I don't know if I make sense but thank u ❤️Love ur writing❤️ A/N: Enjoy, please. I worked so  hard to get this done lol Note II: I don't know about other schools, but at my school, we have homecoming about two months after the start of school, so that's the case here. Also, the reader already knows that Peter's spider-man, but she doesn't know that Peter's been pursuing Vulture (Adrien Toomes)

"Hey, May." Y/N greeted as she walked into the small apartment.

"Oh, Y/N! Peter's just in his room." May informed Y/N over her shoulder from her position in the kitchen.

"Figured as much. Thanks, May." Y/N smiled at May. Peter and Y/N had been best friends for as long as they could remember. Y/N visited their apartment almost daily, so much so that May ended up giving Y/N a key to the apartment, and Peter visited Y/N's home frequently enough for her mother to give him a key as well.

As much as Y/N wanted to believe that Peter was just a best friend to her, he was far more than that. Her heart always skipped a beat when he looked at her, and melted when he smiled. She loved his hugs, and his cuddles when she needed them. She knew her feelings would never be reciprocated, and yet she still hung into them. Clung to them like a source of air, a source of living. Y/N walked down the small hall and to Peter's door.

"Hey, loser. I'm coming in." Y/N called through the wooden door. She heard May's laughter before she flung the door open. She found Peter lying on his bed, staring at the ceiling. She dropped her bag by the door and flipped onto the bed, well, really onto him. Peter let out a small groan and Y/N smiled triumphantly.

"Whatcha thinkin' about?" Y/N asked as she rolled over onto the spot next to Peter and lulled her head to the side to look at him as he spoke.

"Nothing." Peter answered back quietly and monotonously as he refused to meet Y/N's eyes. Y/N had noticed his odd behavior of recent, and so had Michelle and Ned. But unlike the other two, Y/N had a hunch, because there was one secret that Peter never shared with anyone. Y/N only knew because she had been present and witnessed it all.

"You've been thinking a lot about 'nothing' lately. Is everything okay?" Y/N asked, concern furrowing her brows.

"I'm fine." Peter answered hastily and sharply again.

"Are you sure?" Y/N pushed a little more. She knew Peter didn't want to talk about it, but she also knew he tended to suppress his emotions until they built up and eventually caved in, taking him down with them.

"I said, I'm fine." Peter snapped.

Y/N furrowed her brows in confusion. She knew Peter got uncomfortable with the subject, but he had no need to lash out.

"I was just wondering. Peter I know what month is coming up..." Y/N trailed off.

"Jesus, Y/N. Can't I just think in silence? Does there absolutely have to be something wrong with me, for me to want to just... think? You always feel the need to bring it up, even when I don't ask you to. I said I'm fine. Why can't you just take that, and be okay with it?" Peter snapped as he sat up. Y/N followed suit.

"Because you're not fine." Y/N answered back quietly.

"What the hell do you know about being fine? You're never fine half the time, just look at your wrist. How in the hell would you ever know if someone else was or wasn't fine?" Y/N sat silent, her eyes stinging with unshed tears. Peter's  words hurt, pierced heavily through her heart like a knife. She knew she was sensitive, and she knew she had self-esteem matters to mend, and that that was what Peter was referring to, but she never thought he'd say something so hurtful.

"I know when you're not okay, because you're my best friend. And I can tell when my best friend is okay and when he isn't." Y/N bit back as she withheld her heavy tears.

"Just stop trying to pretend like you can fix everything, Y/N. I'm fine. I don't need your useless pity, or you using me and Aunt May as your personal sob story to cling to. I can handle myself." Peter spat venomously at Y/N. As she processed Peter's harsh words, a wave of unforgiving anger crashed upon her. Y/N's tongue twisted in her mouth, fighting with the words that tried to claw their way out. She lost the fight and eventually, words began to tumble out. Vexed syllables flowered into dozens more, and soon Y/N was saying things to Peter she never saw herself saying to him.

"How dare you? You asshole." Y/N stood up with force from the bed. "What, you think I don't know I'm not okay half of the time? You think I don't know that I have my own issues to work out? Do you think I am completely and utterly clueless about my own unstable emotional state? You think I don't fucking know?" Y/N paused, her words simmered in the angry, thick atmosphere of the small room. It wasn't long before she continued her angry speech. "You selfish, ungrateful prick. Of course I know I have shit to deal with, and clearly, so do you. Here I am, being the one friend who's been with you through it all, and has also been through her own things, may I remind you, still standing as tall as I can and trying my absolute best to be the one shoulder you can always lean on, no matter how weak I may be. Things at my own home have not gotten any better, and my emotional state deteriorates more and more with each passing day, but where am I? Here, with you, trying so hard to be the caring friend I know you need, no matter how much you deny it." Y/N paused, taking in another deep breath before continuing her anger spiral of words. "I get you're upset and that you hate talking about it, but you don't get to insult me. You don't get to get mad at me for caring about you. I'm sorry for caring, Peter. Obviously you don't need anyone other than Aunt May to care about you. And that's completely fine, because as you have so kindly reminded me today, I have my own shit to work out. Goodbye, Peter."

With one final harsh glare at the boy she once called her best friend, Y/N collected her backpack and exited the room. Furious brown eyes followed her as she exited the room. Peter flopped back onto his bed with a loud sigh. His hands moved to rub the exhaustion from his eyes. He had never seen Y/N so angry, and what the hell did he say to her? Why did he say those things to her?

"Y/N, will you be staying for dinner?" May asked as Y/N approached the door hastily.

"Uh no. I-I remembered I have a-a lot of homework to finish, and I have some tests to study for so, I'm actually just gonna head home, if that's all right." Y/N pulled the door open and pulled it shut too quickly to hear May's response. As she stormed further away from the apartment, her anger boiled more and more in her body, her temperature rising and her teeth grinding at an angered rhythm.

Peter was upset about the upcoming month, that was understandable by Y/N's standards as it held that day, which was considerably hard on both May and Peter. However, no matter how upset, Peter still  had no right by any standing to lash out at Y/N in the way he did. Although she wouldn't admit it then, Y/N's heart was broken. And to think, she had believed she was falling for him too. Y/N's heart ache converted to rage as she stormed down the street to her own place of living. The argument and harsh exchange of painful word replayed in an endless cycle in her mind. By the time she was pushing her key into the key hole of the door to her home, warm and irked tears begged to fall. With all her might, Y/N refused the tears, until she could no more.

Crying was something Y/N had grown all too familiar with, and it had its many causes. The blade, the empty feeling of depression, the overbearing concern brought about by anxiety, but never had it been the words said by Peter. Instead of taking a proper shower, under the steady stream of the water, Y/N's droplets fell just as naturally with those of the shower. His words hurt, and the fact that they came from him didn't better the situation.

No family to comfort, and her only truly close friend, Michelle, had been friends with Peter longer than she had been with Y/N, so naturally, Y/N feared that Michelle wouldn't side with her.

The black painted canvas of the sky was carefully decorated with the white dots of the stars so far. The moon hung proudly in the sea of stars in place of the sun, it's light casting a light shadow upon Y/N's face as she sat on her comfortable and designated spot on the fire escape. The loud sounds of the very alive nightlife of Queens echoed and reflected as Y/N looked out. The next day was going to be a particularly hard day.

Days melted to weeks, weeks sizzled to amount almost three weeks worth of no contact with Peter whatsoever. Peter and Y/N hadn't spoken since the day of their fight, and Y/N was doing worse than ever. Her grades had taken a nose dive, she didn't sleep and barely ate. Needless to say, Y/N was unhappy. After days of avoiding Ned, Michelle, and Peter in the hallways and classrooms, Michelle finally stopped Y/N while she attempted to dash out of her classroom to the library to hide herself in a book.

Michelle said Peter wasn't talking and wouldn't say anything about what happened. Michelle pestered Y/N until she finally spilled the twisted details of every word they had said to one another that day. Michelle, much to Y/N's surprise, sided with her and said that Peter had been overly quiet, and when he did speak, he only lashed out. After Michelle's declaration, Y/N went silent, and Michelle knew Y/N knew the reason for Peter's resent uncharacteristic behavior. Three days after they'd talked, Michelle and Y/N were seated at their usual lunch table. Michelle had said something funny, and Y/N couldn't help but laugh a hearty laugh, the beautiful sound echoing through the lunchroom and mixing with the buzzing chatter of other students in the lunch room. And though others disregarded the sound, Peter couldn't help but pick the sound out. The sound of Y/N's laughter always warmed his heart, this time though, it hardened it. With the day fast approaching, Peter talked less and less. He still went out in the dark of night to enjoy his night time adventures, but not with a certain weight on his shoulders. To add the glistening glitter to the pile of troubles weighing Peter down, May wasn't doing too good. She too had been down, and things had gotten particularly hard.

Too bad he didn't have the support of the only girl he loved, the only girl who understood him in a way no one else had. All that weaved through Peter's head; all as a result of the sound of Y/N's laughter.

Meanwhile, Y/N's laughter died down and she resumed her banter with Michelle, until out of the corner of her eye, Y/N saw a strange movement. Turning her attention to the movement, Y/N saw Liz Allen, a senior, on a ladder hanging up the largely decorated sign that read "Homecoming."

"You going?" Michelle asked, her eyes trained on the sign.

"Only if you'll go with me." Y/N joked as she nudged Michelle with a hint of a smile.

"Okay, then I'll go." Michelle nudged Y/N back with a ghostly smile playing on her lips.

The day has finally arrived. The day that everyone has been alive and abuzz about. Homecoming. She spent the night before at Michelle's place, and the pair had gotten ready together. Y/N had chosen a long, flowing red dress and paired them with a pair of not-too-high matching red heels. The moment she took a final glance at her prepared figure in the mirror, Y/N felt a weight removed from her self-esteem, almost like it had finally been allowed it's long overdue chance to finally rise from its ashes.

The ride to the event had been full of laughter and music. Michelle played songs by Nirvana, Rage Against The Machine and Queens to hype the two up. Y/N knew Michelle was trying to take Y/N's mind off of the fact that she'd have to see Peter at the dance, and with Liz Allen on top of that, but Y/N appreciated Michelle's efforts as they provided her with a much needed sense of confidence. The car pulled up in front of the building and Y/N and Michelle stepped out of the car. Y/N was a fit of laughter at Michelle's look of judgement towards her peers as they walked up the stairs towards the doors. They pulled the doors open and entered the overdecorated gym. The music pounded loudly through the tight space. The lights blinked colorfully and reflected onto the walls and floors of the gym. Y/N burst into laughter as she saw the look of disgust on her face.

"What's so funny?" Michelle asked.

"You just look so disgusted, it's really funny." Y/N explained. Michelle rolled her eyes with a light heart.

Later into the night, Y/N saw Liz walk in through the doors, soon following Peter. Peter's words from the day of their fight suddenly returned, and Y/N's heart dropped.

"Hey, I'm gonna head out for some air." Y/N told Michelle. Michelle nodded her head. With that, Y/N walked out of the gym and down the hall, the sound of her heels clacking on the shiny floor of the dimly lit hallways accompanied by the light thumping of the music. She walked out of the building towards the back where she knew no one would disturb her. As she pushed the door open, she nearly regretted it instantly as the frosty fall air bit harshly in a breeze on the skin of her arms.

Y/N didn't need to cry, but she did need a moment to think. Something about Peter in a suit, at a dance, with another girl, caused her heart to constrict in the same way it had when Peter had lashed out at her. Her thoughts however, were disrupted when a hand clamped over her mouth. The culprit, whoever it was, shushed her, their lips brushing harshly against the shell of her ear as they dragged her away from the doorway and towards a car. Y/N fought and screamed against the hand, and the person retaliated with an even louder shush.

"I have to go. I'm so sorry, you don't deserve this." Peter muttered as he looked into Liz's disappointed eyes. Not being able to bare the guilt of his abandonment of his date, Peter walked away as quickly as he could. Once in the hallway, Peter forced his tie off of him and threw it out. He grabbed his suit from its secret spot under the row of lockers and ran to get changed.

Peter ran out of the school towards the back of the building.

"Now, I'm not gonna hurtcha... unless he gives me a reason to. Hope and pray he chooses right, you just might live. Stay quiet, and don't go anywhere." The man joked drily as he walked away with the key to the cuffs. Y/N's eyes followed the man as he walked towards a desk oddly placed in the middle of the empty warehouse. Y/N hadn't spoken a word since she'd been abducted, instead she spent it memorizing a way out of the warehouse, and the license plate of the car she'd been brought in. Her next step had been to plan a way to escape the painfully tight hold of the cuffs, but she couldn't let go of what he had said.

'Unless he gives me a reason to.'

Who the hell could he be? Y/N's mind was racing, but forced to a screeching halt as one name only made sense. Peter. The sound of her abductor speaking pulled her out of her vicing concentration.

"Well sweetheart, looks like he didn't make an all too wise decision." The man stated as he glanced up at Y/N. Her cracked lips parted in a manner that indicated her intent on speaking, but her words were instantly rendered useless when an un-piloted wing-suit flew into the warehouse and began to fly around sporadically.

At first, it seemed as though the suit was flying around without pattern, aimlessly cutting and destroying anything in its path, but the more Y/N watched the wing-suit, the more she realized the suit's true goal was to break down the bars supporting the building, leaving Y/N to a certain death.

This sent Y/N into a frenzy of panic.

"Who are you talking about?" Y/N screamed as she struggled against the cuffs. She had a hunch, but a hunch wasn’t enough when her life was left in the hands of another person. "Who is he?" Her life depended solely on this unknown person, whoever he was, which only caused more panic to bubble within her and she could feel an anxiety attack coming on.

"I wanna tell ya, but, I got a flight to catch." The man fled the building with his suit moments before the walls of the warehouse fell upon Y/N's figure. Y/N's eyes squeezed shut in terror as she heard the building fall apart around her. It was useless for her to fight and struggle against the cuffs, ironically enough, they cut painfully into the skin of her wrist.

The weight of the structures walls fell upon Y/N's fragile figure. Soon enough, she couldn't see, and breathing became significantly more difficult. The night sky consumed her eventually, encasing her in a star sparkling velvety black, the spots of light singing falsely calming tunes and luring her into a dark peaceful abyss.

Peter's heart dropped in his chest the moment the debris collapsed around Y/N's figure.

"Y/N," Peter shouted loudly. The man Peter had spent weeks pursuing suddenly meant all of nothing to him. His feet moved faster than his mind did. It all happened far too quickly. Peter felt as though he was absent from his own body, like he watched the scene of events unfold before his eyes in the third person. The wing-suit, Toomes walking out of the building in a calm collected manner, a triumphant beat to his step. It was easy for Peter to choose between going after Toomes or risking his life to dig through piles of rubble to find a possibly alive Y/N.

In slow, untimely motion, Peter's feet moved and carried him quickly to the general area of where Y/N had been, his lips forming her name perfectly and allowing it to fall from his lips in frantic screams. Peter was no longer thinking rationally and began to uselessly dog through debris. Minutes passed, and Peter was still digging, his heart pounding loudly against his rib cage, his hands and arms aching from his relentless digging.

He sat down, his lungs clawing for sufficient air. In the silence, the sounds of distant sirens ripples through the sky, but Peter's ears perked up at the sound of a whimper. His shoulders, once hunched in sinking disappointment, lifted and Peter listened closely for another sound. His heart skipped a beat when the sound of another helpless whimper reached his ears. He tore the mask off his face to hear better.

"Y/N," Peter whispered scrambling towards the sound of her weak cries. Once he was sure he'd found her, he began to hectically push away large pieces of concrete. Peter did his best, but it felt hopeless. It felt like every time he would remove debris, more would move to take the place. The reality of not being able to reach Y/N burned him inside, consuming him from the inside out.

Peter's tears began to fall, the wet stream caught the attention of the dust and grime of the fallen structure. The guilt of the prior weeks, especially that day, began to weigh down his shoulders and began to be the cause of his delicate falling droplets. His arms with desperate exhaustion and begged eagerly for rest, but the pleas of his body were ignored as he continued to dig through the rubble. Minutes passed, and Peter did not give up, the choice wasn't there. The moment he saw her delicate skin was like sunshine breaking through rainy clouds. As if he hadn't been moving pieces away fast enough, Peter began to move with even more haste until he'd finally dug her up. The fragile glass fragments falling from his eyes had yet to cease as he picked Y/N's body up bridal style.

Peter's eyes roamed over her face, taking in her state. She had a cut across her cheek, and another one along her left jaw. Her shoulders were traced with already forming bruises, and her hair was an absolute tangle of pebbles of rubble.

Peter didn't check to see if Y/N was conscious, or that she could even hear her when he began to profusely apologize. The syllables freed themselves from his mouth in such a jumbled manner, his words were no longer coherent. Y/N coughed before her hands moved to fist the material of Peter's suit in the weak hold of her fist.

"Peter, Peter it's okay. I'm all right," she cut him off.

"I'm so sorry. I don't know w-what was wrong with me or-or-or why I said any of the things I did—"

"Peter, I'm okay, I'm fine." Y/N tried to convince him.

"But you're not— I don't mean it like that I mean— God, Y/N. I was so sure you were gone. I was sure I'd lost you for good, I was sure I'd never get to see you again, or hear your laugh again, or-or-or-or—" Y/N could see the panic in his eyes, the worry that ran rampant in his wide blown brown eyes. She listened as best as she could to everything he said and tried to respond, but he wouldn't give her the chance.

Y/N couldn't get Peter to shut up, so she cupped his jaw, and brought her lips up to Peter's. It was a spur of the moment action and the gravity of what she'd just done didn't quite sink in until Peter began to kiss her back.

"I've waited way too long for that," Peter sighed once they'd pulled apart, Y/N still in his arms.

"You have?," Y/N asked with hopeful wide eyes.

"I have." Peter stated before he leaned in for another kiss. For a moment, the troubles of before, and the troubles they'd both been entrapped in moments before no longer existed. They were nothing but a spec of dust in existence. For just a moment, the world and all it's dwellings were at peace.

A/N: Cheesy shitty ending, I know. Anyway, it’s been exactly a month since i last posted, but hopefully this makes up for it. I’m so sorry for all the delays, I’ve been trying really hard to write and edit more so I can post but it just seems like all forces are against me. Anyway, I’ll keep trying. I know it doesn’t seem like I’m trying, but I am, I promise I am trying to be more active and write more. I still have a lot to requests to write, and a lot to edit too so all I can do right now is request for your forgiveness, and patience. Also, this took me two weeks to write so, please get this to at least 150 notes? It would mean a lot to me <333

[rosetlntsmyworld]

rules:: answer these 85 questions and tag 20 people

Thanks to my good judy @veronicasanders for tagging me! <3

— what was your last…

1. drink:: water

2. phone call:: my boss bc i’m bad at mopping floors and she wanted to yell at me for it

3. text message:: ‘where tf are you xoxo’ to my mother (she forgot to pick me up from my train)

4. song you listened to:: “Papa Don’t Preach” by Madonna

5. time you cried:: like literally yesterday bc I was listening to cute music w my gf and im a bit hormonal and got all mushy about how much i love her

— have you ever…

6. dated someone twice:: nah

7. kissed someone and regretted it:: yes

8. been cheated on:: no

9. lost someone special:: yes

10. been depressed:: no

11. gotten drunk and thrown up:: first bit yes, second bit no. i was just drunk from 11pm to 4pm the next day and had to walk around a supermarket with my mum hung over to buggery and pretending everything was fine (supermarkets are the W O R S T places you could realise youre hung over bc screaming children and also very bright light)

— fave colours

12. black

13. grey

14. burgundy

— in the last year have you…

15. made new friends:: yes

16. fallen out of love:: no

17. laughed until you cried:: yes

18. found out someone was talking about you:: yes

19. met someone who changed you::  yes

20. found out who your friends are:: ya

21. kissed someone on your facebook friends list:: yes

— general

22. how many your facebook friends do you know irl:: legit all

23. do you have any pets:: yes, one dog

24. do you want to change your name:: yeah, i wanna get rid of my boy middle name (it was gonna be mary and my parents realised my initials would spell ‘emu’ and didn’t want me to get bullied. So they made my middle name duncan. D U N C A N. How is that an improvement??)

25. what did you do for your last birthday:: went to school during the day which sucked ass and then had the opening night of my first exhibit at a gallery which sucked a lot less ass. And then went and had dinner. And a hedgehog cake. Because im a mature grown up adult.

26. what time did you wake up today:: I went and delivered newspapers at like eight oclock and then went back to bed at like 10. Woke up again at midday, had a slice of toast and watched still game, and then had another nap. I am a garbage person.

27. what were you doing at midnight last night:: sleeping

28. what is something you can’t wait for:: finding out whether I got accepted to university (stole this answer from v but it’s true)

29. what is your favourite animal:: thats a horrendous question omfg i love tapirs a lot and also pigeons and seals and sharks

30. what are you listening to right now:: i’m watching gordon ramsay’s hotel hell

31. have you ever talked to a person named tom:: yeah i went to primary school with a guy called tom and he was a fucking asshole

32. something that’s getting on your nerves:: the fact that fullyi can’t . breathe through my left nostril rn

33. most visited website:: google

34. hair colour:: dirty blonde

35. long or short hair:: short-ish. Mine is like bob length w a dramatic undercut. Basically i stole dela’s boy hair

36. do you have a crush on someone:: ya

37. what do you like about yourself:: i have a nice bum

38. want any piercings:: ya

39. blood type:: oh fuck knows

40. nicknames:: edna, edina, gay puddle, mitzi, shortshank redemption, eddie, edie mcredie

41. relationship status:: dating a v cool gal

42. sign:: scorpio

43. pronouns:: she/her

44. fave tv show:: rpdr, brooklyn 99, orange is the new black, derry girls, still game, chewin the fat, the great british bake off, bobs burgers, tracey ullman show

45. tattoos:: nada as of yet but i want a good few

46. right or left handed:: right

47. ever had surgery:: nope

48. piercings:: ears x2

49. sport:: i play rugby and i wish i could dance or skate or some shit but alas i am a graceless bulldyke

50. vacation:: im going to australia for like six weeks in june aaaaaaaaa

51. trainers:: never wear em lmao im too goth for that shit

— more general

52. eating:: i went out for dinner earlier and had pizza and sweet potato fries and now im halfway to a food coma yay

53. drinking:: water or cherry coke. I also discovered lemon and mint sanpellegrino the other day and frankly id happily drown in that stuff its amazing

54. i’m about watch:: new ep of drag race

55. waiting for:: news from school

56. want:: to move out bc my room is a shittip and im done with it

57. get married:: i dont believe in marriage so probs no

58. career:: i work in a baby shop but i wanna be a tattoo artist or set designer/stage manager

— which is better

59. hugs or kisses:: hugs

60. lips or eyes:: lips

61. taller or shorter:: everyone is taller than me

62. older or younger:: older. Im a bit autistic so im kinda drawn more to people older than me bc i find them easier to talk to

63. nice arms or stomach:: stomach

64. hookups or relationships:: relationship

65. troublemaker or hesitant:: troublemaker

— have you ever

66. kissed a stranger:: no

67. drank hard liquor:: yes

68. turned someone down:: yes

69. sex on first date:: no

70. broken someone’s heart:: i dont fuckin know

71. had your heart broken:: not really

72. been arrested:: no, lol

73. cried when someone died:: yes

74. fallen for a friend:: nah im fuckin heartless lmao

— do you believe in

75. yourself:: yes

76. miracles:: no

77. love at first sight:: no

78. santa claus:: i’m not fucking five (lol, keeping Wednesday’s answer here) (lol im also keeping V’s answer which she stole from v)

79. angels:: not really

— misc

80. eye colour:: grey

81. best friend’s name:: charlie aka charles aka charlize theron aka streak of piss aka pizzle aka piz (they have a v long series of affectionate nicknames lmao)

82. favourite movie:: priscilla queen of the desert, rocky horror, evita, muriels wedding, silence of the lambs, zootopia, misery

83. favourite actor:: Terence stamp

84. favourite cartoon:: bobs burgers, family guy, star wars: clone wars

85. favourite teacher’s name:: she’s known usually as ms gallagher but ive been on first name terms w her since i was like 14 so i call her sheila lmao

legit everyone I know has already been tagged lmao

[gracehcreates-bct]

W4 Studio - Garmental Health Survey

Mental Health + Clothing Survey

https://forms.gle/SMu9aM5GoLLsNEqe8

Results

What does poor mental health look like to you?

- when someone is struggling to maintain their regular lifestyle because they are constantly too tired, anxious, or paranoid to do so, or they are suffering with hallucinations, etc - Colorless world with no energy whatsoever - Intense heart rate and still facial expressions - Someone who in too poor a state of mental health to seek help - Someone who may continually refuse help even though it is obvious that they may be in need of it. - To me it's someone like myself who is in a really bad state emotionally to the point where they think so much that they're not worth it anymore, where it's very difficult for someone else help them. - thinking that everyone in the room hates you - Someone who doesn't have the will to take care of themselves - I don’t think it physically looks like anything because people get good at hiding it - Not wanting help - Pretending you’re fine when you’re not - Less sociable, more introverted than usual - Closed off to the world - un-balanced

If yes, can you state what it was? Only share what you feel comfortable with.

Even though they were anonymous I wont share all of what was said but around half responded with anxiety and the other half or so responded with depression.

When having a particularly bad day, what are some mental and/or physical aspects you feel? Only share what you feel comfortable with.

- Heart palpitations, tight fists, I can be irritable, I can be sensitive, etc - Suicidal (not sure if I should have included this or not, but let me know if it makes you uncomfortable) - Exhaustion, Anxiety, A weight in your chest - Frustration. Inability to think perfectly clearly, probably resulting in a decision I wouldn't normally make. - I feel like a constant pounding of bad voices in my head that just are constantly saying negative things about myself, sometimes a twisting feeling in my stomach and I just want to hide away sometimes. - I would have an overwhelming feeling of nausea and have ended up throwing up at times due to it - Mentally drowning or numbness - Just find a way to distract myself, end up being unproductive - Worthlessness, numbness - Everything i say annoys people - drained

If you could give one word of advice to other people about your mental health, something to make them understand what you are going through, what would it be?

- It’s impossible to maintain perfect mental health all the time so don’t be too hard on yourself for struggling with some things more than others sometimes - Dont listen to your demons, keep your friends close and let them help you - Not everyone needs someone to solve their problems, sometimes they just want someone to listen and hear them out. That can help quite a lot. - My suggestion is to try and get help but someone you feel absolutely 100% comfortable talking too and are serious to help you with your problems too, whether that be a trained professional, a significant other, close friends, family, but only if you do seriously trust them with the information and believe they give you good advice. - meet new people and invite them to things - It's something that you always struggle against and for the most part it feels like a losing battle - Seek help - I’m mentally alone, not physically - I assume you think the worst of me - its not ganna be as hard as u think it is. relaxx. it will be fine

What is a piece of “advice” you’ve been given that didn’t help your feelings/situation?

- Don’t self diagnose - "Man up" "Get over it" "Grow up" "Just stop being sad" Omegalul - "Just Smile" or "cheer up", "stop being so sad". These ones particularly anger me, and make me feel a lot of resentment to whoever said it. - "How could you be so stupid" - Salt into the wound basically. - "just eat something" and as it's mainly nausea I feel eating is far from what I want to be doing - Just be happy LOL - “I’m here for you”, when they haven’t tried to help at all - Men don't show their emotions - no one cares lol

What is your favorite item of clothing and why?

- i have these like green cargo pants and they’re just really comfy and flattering in my opinion - Dark colors, less showy - Hoodies, because they're warm and always looks good - My leather jacket. It keeps me warm and dry in cold and wet weather. - My Hoodie/Jacket. It's styled to be the same as a character that I really like. - Long sleeve shirt, because it is very warm and comfortable, as well as having cool designs on them which prefer to have. - hoodies, keeps me warm and covers up my acne scars - These grey sweatpants I have, I mainly wear them at home and I think maybe I associate them with being home and safe - High-waisted jeans because they make me look skinnier - Jeans - Sweater or jacket, I enjoy wearing themHoodies because they are comfortable, warm and cozy, loose fittingHeadphones, because they help me relax - gold. its just skux lol

What is your least favorite item of clothing and why?

- I have a jumper that’s slightly small for me and it just isn’t really my style anymore - Bright/Light Colors. dont feel comfortable wearing them - hats, i have a big head - Don’t really have one?I'm not quite sure. I've never particularly disliked any of my clothes - Probably caps, because I rarely wear them - v necks, they look dumb on guys, shows too much chest - These jeans I own which have those pre torn holes in the front, one because whenever I put them on I pretty much always accidentally put my foot through that tear, and secondly because it makes the one leg a lot colder typically - Shorts because I don’t like my legs - Headwear - Singlet, I just don’t wear them - Jeans/Pants, harder to find ones that fit well, look nice and are comfortable - I don't have one - not sure

Those are all the questions (apologies for the terrible pic quality). Now we are going to use the responses we have gotten to inform our concept art design.

Back into lockdown we go.

[kosmicdream]

Temp. FFAK Official Timeline

This is a very rough, temp timeline for FFAK. It mostly covers events that have already happened or at least have been mentioned. I dont really cover anything that is happening in the present day timeline lol. I might make edits to this in case i fucked up in places or maybe ill just do a totally new one at some point! you dont even know how messy my actual one is like my god its an ever worse horrible clusterfuck of text. (Also remember, the ffak story has no time travel so dont be worried about that sort of mindfuckery!) enjoy

Years before 1414: Whenever was 600 million years ago i dont want to do the exact math: Evil Mother is born but shes not called that at all cuz she adopts that name later in life but just know she is here and readt to party Lots of stuff happens. like idk. evolution and life. 600 mil years is a long time ok -LALALA -HUMANS AT SOME POINT COME TO BEING.and form civilization and.. all that -modern human society exist! ppl have tvs and such. -Mandragora Worms have gone ‘extinct’!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ooooo -??????????? a ton of other stuff. isnt history cool?? kicks legs, yells -mysterious worm break outs all over dmtia. bombs fall. wars. despair!  -Grant Lumberman gets a doggy at some point and loves it but then it dies and so does his family and friends and his whole city he is relocated to the Auseklis moon colony (on Dmtia’s moon!) along w/ other Vena Cavian kiddos !!!! (in yr 1414)

YEAR 1415 [Scene From Ch. 11: Pages 3161-3196, 3400-3401] Characters: Randall Aiguille - Age 20 Mr. Rotten (Which was named “Aeschylus” at the time, created by Randall) Crosshatch Unit (sort of) Rembrandt Aiguille - Age 22 Grant Lumberman (Aka, ‘Good Leadman’) - Age 14 Octavian “Otto" Silverberg - Age 15 (I was gonna type up every referenced scene like this then i was like fuck it thats too hard! lol)

Years 1416-1425 ?????????????? (most events likely will be mostly covered in a prequel series.) YEAR 1420: Crosshatch Unit first programmed/built by Randall/Rembrandt Aiguille leadman and evil mother fall in lurv at some point

YEAR 1426 Miracle Baby Crimson is Born (From Good Leadman/Evil Mother worm fuck action yeehaw)

YEAR 1427 -Crimson’s 2 eyes are removed + Evil Mother Believes they are dead and leaves Leadman to work with Tricend -Canary is Born (From Evil Mother, and a King Worm) -Hekatons are made (From The King worm that made Canary, concept of Hekatons is from Evil Mother) -July 8th: Perkons Hatches and will not let anyone near the other 4 eggs!! stay away

YEAR 1428 - Good Leadman (Age 27) and Perkons (6 months old) Meet (Happens in Jan) (Multiple scenes in ch10, continued in Ch11) Perkons turns 1 in July. -Perkons gets a hold of 1 of Crimson’s eyes at some point, turns it into a Knife.

YEAR 1429 - Perkons turns 2 in july and is a fully matured adult. Rest of the 4 hekatons eggs hatch sometime after in that year. -Dievas assumes protective guardian role for his siblings.  -Dievas meets Aeschylus. (ch11) YEAR 1430 Perkons turns 3. The rest of the first hekatons are one. During this year they mature to an adult. YEAR 1431 Lauma meets Velns, who is imprisoned. Then shortly after, Perkons confronts Lauma, she is 2, he is 4. So It took place after July 1431. He transforms the 2nd crimson eye into a Spoon in front of her.

Years 1431-1448 (specific dates not all disclosed sry): -Velns/Lauma, Dievas/Laima begin making children. baby baby baby! YEAR 1438 - Crimson (Age 11) is eaten by a Hydragora Queen worm - loosing her human body in the process but gaining a worm one instead. -Crimson runs around in a destroyed city, holding a corpse. Meets Velns who taunts them. -Lauma and Dievas make up, and have their first nest together- a Batch of A/B hybrid eggs. -Lauma is killed by Perkons -Velns is killed by Perkons (Which was also on Dmtia’s Moon, so the moon is destroyed.) -Laima is “killed” by Perkons. (Actually survived, as part of Dievas’ plan.) -Perkons confronts Dievas with the Crosshatch Unit and mention they fight for Peace and under the “Thumb” alliance. Perkons kills Dievas. (scene in ch11) -Laima escapes with A/B Eggs, as well as other hekaton eggs. (and will later form the Ghost Kingdom, which she rules as queen.) ????? many other things happen????? these were some busy years folks

YEAR 1449 -Crimson meets a Helper, Galore the Hekaton, and a Bunny worm (who will later grow up to be agent Paper) in the forests of DMTIA (Ch9) -Galore “meets" her first parents, Lauma and Velns, in some mysterious coma dream thing from listening to crims sexy magical heartbeat (also Ch9) ??????????more events happen??????????? -Galore “Dies” by exploding. Crimson witnesses it. -Bunny wormed named Cirrus “Dies” and is buried in a grave. However, she was only injured she later climbs out only to witness Crimson and Celadon leave in Crimson’s truck and it was the saddest thing ive had to draw ok. i am crying even remembering it ??????????more secret events this was yet another busy and traumatizing year for crimson????????????? -Months later, Crimson (age 23) has a conversation with her third mandragora heart, and ends up having a period sex masterbate-y fantasy that made many readers scream in terror when they read it.(Ch11)

Years 1450-1904 god so much stuff happens during this time, lays on the ground. i mean just fucking look at how much time that is. thats over 450 years lol nbd right

YEAR 1905 -Agent Knife is sent on a remote mission (back to Planet Dmtia) to hunt down one of thumbs most wanted criminals, a man named “SIMON MCGOLD” -After months of searching/failed attempts at locating him, Knife confronts and is stung by Simon’s close personal bodyguard, a queen worm named Nail who is famous for killing over 50,000 Hekatons. (Gaining him the nickname “Hekaton Hunter.” (CH12) -?????????? more stuff happens like you dont even know????????

Years 1906-1924 ??????????? lots of stuff??????? lets laugh at some spoon stuff together tho -Spoon thinks Knife is stupid but weirdly interesting i guess -Spoon tries to pretend hes not in love w/ knife cuz thats like??? g...ay??? -Spoon realizes he’s totally hot for Knife and decides hes gonna totally seduce him -Spoon realizes flirting isnt going well with knife and is actually rly deeply hurt by rejection and so he tries to sleep around w/ other ppl  to pretend hes fine cuz w/e!! who cares -Spoon realizes hes totally in love w/ Knife and is devastated by Deeply Gay emotions -Spoon moves in w/ Knife and spoon tries to pretend he is fine w/ just being Knife’s obsessively devotedly loyal but not romantic/sexual partner. just ttly... platonic.. best dude pals..!!! who murder together -Spoon realizes he cannot handle just being friends and attempts to move out cuz he just is having a meltdown -Knifes like chill we’re already dating and Spoon is like “wtf we are?” and knife’s like “why else would i let you move in w/ me” and spoon just stares at a wall for like 12 hrs in shock -They start to officially for real date™ after spoon regains contact with reality -???????stuff??????? -Spoon dresses up as AGENT BEE!!!!!!!!!!!! THE MOST IMPORTANT EVENT IN ALL OF HISTORY HANDS DOWN MARK UR CALENDARS 

YEAR 1925 July 8th - Simon (now Agent Spoon) has been in a relationship with Knife for 20 years. He meets Celadon #1. Location is the forests on the moon THUMB HQ. who is rightfully pissed as fuck at him. kick his ass, girl (she does btw) (ch11)

YEAR 1926 -Knife Adopts a tiny perfect adorable fluffball c-type and names him Kurt. -Spoon hates it like more than anything ever -Spoon and Knife end up having to live separately, causing a huge strain in their relationship.

Years 1927-1936 -feeling neglected, Spoon starts to sleep around, including the Crosshatch unit and becomes p close friends w/ them! its actually a positive thing for once. wtf (ch11) -Kurt becomes Agent Fork and works alongside Agent Knife on missions and its adorable and great but knife’s depression is also growing bc he misses spoon

YEAR 1937 Cash Leadman is born! :D

YEAR 1938 Rome Aiguille is born! he doesnt even hate worms at this point! Years 1939-1955 more stuff. ect. 

YEAR 1956 -Locket confronts Knife. Knife is so traumatized from meeting a surprise biological child that he has a meltdown and vanishes. he is then believed to have died. -Spoon Explodes from sadness of the news, but does not die. Half of him leaves to Cash Leadman’s house, who convinces him to keep living. He becomes “Scissor”, using her former crosshatch robot body. (ch11) -The other half meets Locket and has his Spoon stolen from him. very sads. Also cant wear thongs anymore (ch11)

YEAR 1957 -At some point during this year, Spoon kills Agent Rock’s dad and also prevents Fork from being able to enter Wibbleworld (his dream). (Scene in ch8) -Fork goes back to prison (guess what, it wasnt his first time goin’ there!) 

YEAR 1958-present -the death of rock’s hot dad springs a chain reaction of all his sons trying to kill spoon and getting revenge. Spoon successfully kills them all though lmfao. dont fuck with the leg.  -fork breaks up with dollop and she starts stalking him

YEAR 1961 -Dylan and Agent Knife meet in Wibbleworld moon, on July 8th (his birthday) He reveals secrets to her. (ch11) -Dylan/Celadon and Antony believe they are successful at killing Agent Knife on this same day.

YEAR 1962 -Feb 2 - Aeschylus wakes up in LEVEL K of the Crosshatch Colony (The Aiguille Moon) and is escorted by Antony Aiguille (Age 21) and Celadon #1, #2 and #3. Dylan and Barfy show up. (Ch 11) -Dylan tries to convince Antony not to get eaten (and fails) (ch12) -March - A mysterious earthquake and worm outbreak kills 20,000 residents in the Crosshatch Colony. O_O  -July 7th - Fork meets Dylan for the first time. :3 (Another serving episode one!) -July 8th: This is where the present timeline begins! Canary wakes up on a platform. Hooray! we made it. i dont feel like typing out the events u can just read the comic i guess lol. farts! 

YEAR 1963: Hasnt actually happened yet, but the final feast is said to occur this year!!!!!!! O_O ooo  EDIT: one of the events were out of order, but this has been fixed (8/19/2017) 

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every number with a 1 or 7 in it.

is this the same anon from last time? ; u; ty ty ty

1: How tall or short do you wish you were?Uhhh I like the height I’m at right now. c: I’m 5′4~Not too short and not too tall!

7: What is your opinion on [insert person/thing here]????????????????????????????????????

10: Are you allergic to anything?I can’t ingest Lobster or Cantelope o:And I’m actually really allergic to cats and dogs and most animals with fur but WHO CARES I LOVE THEM ALL. (plus it’s a really mild allergy it’s not like I puff up at the thought of them THANK GOD)

11: What’s your sexuality?Pansexual!

12: Do you prefer tea, coffee, or cocoa?I like all three a lot ~ Teas are preferred but I usually will choose coffee if I need caffeine.AND COCOA IS JUST A DELICIOUS TREAT OKAY? ; u;

13: Are you a cat or dog person?Honestly? It depends. I love all cats, I really really REALLY do, but I get more excited over certain breeds of dogs. ; u; Like there will never be a cat I don’t like, but I will ALWAYS be insanely excited when there’s a nice dog somewhere in the same vicinity of me.

14: Would you rather be a vampire, elf, or merperson?Can I be a vampiric mermaid? If so, then yes.

15: Do you have a favorite Youtuber?I have several! I enjoy Lindy of BubzbeautyMykie of Glam&GoreiDubbbzand ofcourse Markimoo

16: How tall are you?[See Question 1]

17: If you had to change your name, what would you change it to?Uhhhh well I mean officially change it to Linh but if I had to change my name altogether I used to really like the name Emma but that wouldn’t fit me really well. Sarah is a name I really like, but I don’t wanna have a common name, I know like a trillion Sarahs lmao. Idk. I like too many names.

Skipping 18.

19: Do you believe in ghosts/spirits?I do!

21: Are you religious?Nope.

27: Any phobias or fears?I’m kinda claustrophobic, pretty arachnophobic, and I have a fear of being alone.which is weird because I’m on the introverted side.

31: Do you get scared easily?Very

37: What is your eye color?Unfortunately, dark brown. :c

41: Who is someone you would like to see/visit right now?@fafnir-aegis​ :c i love Nicholas, he will always be my best friend and I wish he lived closer.And there is not a moment in time where I wouldn’t wanna see David. I love him too much.

47: What is a sound you really hate?Loud ones, or really repetitive sounds. (and the voices of my enemies B( jk)

51: Favorite actor and/or actress? I HAVE TOO MANY

57: Have any mental disorders?Severe Depression and Anxiety.

58: What does your URL mean?I’m answering this one in place of #18 c:My url is the japanese name for magikarp!!

61: What makes you unfollow a blog?honestly not much because I would like, just scroll past posts I think aren’t interesting

67: Favorite meme:my life????????? jk i’m dumbuh there are too many good ones right now but the tag urself ones are p good.idk

70: Can your dog roll over on command, if you have a dog?Pintsize cannot, lmao I wish.

71: What outfit out of all your clothes do you like to wear the most?Uhhh I don’t have many outfits, but I like my dresses, or my asian kungfu generation shirt with my generic black ripped jeans I always wear. lmao.

72: Post a selfie or two?Maybe later ~

73: Do you have platform shoes?Nope :c I want some tho.

74: What is one random but interesting fact about yourself?One of my ears is more towards my face than the other one. o:75: Can you do a front flip?in a moon house, prob.

76: Do you like birds?No.

77: Do you like to swim?I LOVE TO SWIM

78: Is swimming or ice skating more fun to you?SWIMMING

79: Something you wish didn’t exist:xxxxxx and xxxxxx

81: Piercings you have?None at the moment.My earlobes closed up a really long time ago.I took my nipple piercings out last yearMy 16th birthday I got two ear cartilage piercings and since I was naive I had them done at Piercing Pagoda where they used a piercing gun and it shattered my cartilage and didn’t heal for an entire year so I took them out and when they healed, it healed weird and now there’s a weird bump on my ear where the piercings used to be.But I want my septum pierced and my ears pierced again both the lobes and cartilage ;A;

87: Do your socks always match?Uhhhh kinda. I usually only wear black socks, but sometimes the brand of sock doesn’t match but. they’re still matching?????

91: If a flower could aesthetically represent you, what kind would it be?Hibiscus

97: How long can you hold your breath for?Not long, my lungs are weak. ;A;

OH GOD THIS IS A LOT LONGER THAN I THOUGHT. ANON WHY.

100: A store you love?TOO MANY STORES TO COUNT OKAY?

101: Favorite type of shoesSlip on ANYTHING jk not anything.but I like slip on vans a lot.I also really want a pair of doc martensi also like flats and moccasins a lot

102: Where do you live?AZ

103: Are you a vegetarian or vegan? If so, why?Nope

104: What is your favorite mineral or gem?I like amethysts and emeralds a lot!!

105: Do you drink milk?Yes! I love milk. c:

106: Do you like bugs?;A; not really…

107: Do you like spiders?NO.

108: Something you get paranoid about?Being dirty ;A; or thinking everyone h8s me

109: Can you draw:Kinda

110: Nosiest question you have ever been asked?“Nosiest Question you have ever been asked?“

111: A question you hate being asked?uhhh I know theres some, but I can’t think of any right now.

112: Ever been bitten by a spider?Like every day of my life. :C

113: Do you like the sound of waves at the beach?I love them!

114: Do you prefer cloudy or sunny days?Cloudy but no rain pls!!

115: Someone you’d like to kiss or cuddle right now:DAVID!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

116: Favorite cloud type: Cumulonimbus!!

117: What color do you wish the sky was?In Arizona, our sunsets are REALLY pretty and the sky turns a nice shade of blue that transitions into a pretty orange colour and the clouds turn purple!! so that, like ALL the time.

118: Do you have freckles?Kinda

119: Favorite thing about a person:MY FAVOURITE THING ABOUT DAVID IS DAVID.I LOVE HIM.

120: Fruits or vegetables?Fruits pls!

121: Something you want to do right now:Not work lmao.

122: Is the ocean or sky prettier?the Sky! but I do like the Ocean a lot!

123: Sweet or sour foods?BOTH

124: Bright or dim lights?Uhhh depends.

125: Do you believe in a certain magical creature?Uhhh???

126: Something you hate about Tumblr:Tumblr

127: Something you love about Tumblr:Tumblr

128: What do you think about the least?uhhhhh idk??

129: What would you want written on your tombstone?¯\_(ツ)_/¯ 

130: Who would you like to punch in the face right now?xxxxxx and xxxxxx

131: What is something you love but also hate about yourself?ME???

132: Do you smile with your teeth showing for pictures?both

133: Computer or TV?konpyuuta-kun

134: Do you like roller coasters?YES!

135: Do you get motion sickness or seasickness?Motion sickness pretty bad

136: Are your ears lobed or attached?Attached

137: Do you believe in karma?Yup

138: On a scale of 1-10, how attractive would you say you are?-12?

139: What nicknames do you have/have had?Too many to count

140: Did you have any pretend or imaginary friends?Yeah lol

141: Have you ever seen a therapist/shrink?Yeah, I kinda have to

142: Would you say you are a good or bad influence to others?I try to be a good influence

143: Do you prefer giving or receiving gifts/help?BOTH

144: What makes you angry?Uhhh I try not to be an angry person, but my emotions get the best of me a lot of the time, so like.. a lot of things make me angry. :C

145: How many languages do you speak fluently?2! I’m working on 3~I’m fluent in English and Tagalog (filipino) and I’m studying Japanese~

146: Do you prefer boys, girls, and/or non-binaries?I’m pansexual, but I prefer boys

147: Are you androgynous?no.

148: Favorite physical thing about yourself:My eyeglasses lmao

149: Favorite thing about your personality:I care A LOT

150: Name three people you would like to talk to right now in person.David, Nicholas, and Andres.

151: If you could go back into time and live in one era, which would you choose?nah, I wanna go into the future pls152: Do you like BuzzFeed?Sometimes.

153: How did you meet your spouse/girlfriend/boyfriend/partner? Tinder, actually xD

154: Do you like to kiss others’ foreheads or hands for platonic reasons?YES

155: Do you like to play with others’ hair?Yes~

156: What embarrasses you?A lot apparently. :c I don’t wanna go in depth.

157: Something that makes you nervous/anxious:Being alone.

158: Biggest lie you have ever told:I’m fine.

159: How many people are you following?1023

160: How many posts do you have on your blog(s)?3403

161: How many drafts do you have on your blog(s)?16

162: How many likes do you have on your blog(s)?2721

163: Last time you cried and why:a few hours ago, because I was watching a sad video

164: Do you have long or short hair?Longish hair, it’s down to my boobies c:

165: Longest your hair has ever been:Down to my butt!

166: Why do you like, dislike, or have neutral feelings about religon?I mean, I don’t have an opinion on religion yet.

167: Do you really care how the universe and world was created?I don’t. c:

168: Do you like to wear makeup?I do! but I’m a lazy potato and never want to spend time putting it on. xD

169: Can you stand on your hands or head for more than thirty seconds?Nope :c

170: Did you answer the questions you were asked truthfully?Yep! o uoJFC ANON. I underestimated how many questions this was. ;A;

[21yroldmeesh]

back again 7/20/17

iit’s been a year since i have written in this blog and dang it’s kind of heartbreaking to read the “ty” post. i mean ima just be open cause i’m sure as hell people don’t even know about this blog anymore L O L i have 0 followers L O L 

things on the agenda: dan, guy who drove me to va, my first and last hookup

me and dan actually broke up over a month ago (6/16/17... i have a particular thing for dates) and it’s been a weird experience.  i literally thought we were going to get married. you can talk to someone for 5 yrs almost everyday and it only takes a day to become strangers. actually you can get close to a stranger. we’re worse than strangers. with us, it’s best to spend some time apart because if we start talking, we don’t even know what we want from each other. like, we actually have such good chemistry but too much has happened too much pain too many lies. it’s one big clusterfuck. i don’t normally curse but i’m going to curse a lot in this post future michelle. i was willing to live in the boring ass town of ann arbor, michigan and i would have been perfectly happy for simply just being with you and being loved by you. i had so much love for you. your fungus feet, your crackly white tongue, you never brush your teeth, everything weird dumb annoying about you just stopped being that and it was “normal” anyways,

i decided to write again because for the past week, my mind has been all over the place and i think my friends are getting annoyed of hearing me out so here i am.

that night, i tried convincing him that id be able to forget about all that he has done. i was crying. i thought it was so fucking unfair man. whenever he lied to me and i’d try to break up with him, he always held on to me and i am a push over... i gave in every time. that day, we fought and yes, i said let’s break up but i told him i didn’t mean it. and then he just brought up how even though i didn’t mean it, everything i said was right and that we arent good for each other. he kept saying this was for us. we didn’t make each other happy. bull shit. i made u so happy. u were only “not happy” when i wanted u to be mature. i mean this is a memory i want to erase from my head so im not going to go into it. but i just felt so hopeless like you just tied up my arms and i couldnt do anything. i asked you to let me hold on to you ONE time because i let you do that with me. and you just wouldn’t budge. do u know how that made me feel? i felt like everything was my fault. if i didnt bring up anything, we would have still been together. we were doing amazing. you opened up to me for the first time literally the day before we broke up and damn everything just happened so fast. you made me feel like i was the type of person who didn’t let myself be happy.

well, the first night i was completely miserable and suicidal. i don’t even know how i survived but i did. for the first two weeks i cried my damn heart out. i let myself feel pain. i didn’t touch alcohol at all until i knew i was ready to not emotional vomit while drunk. i went in my car, blasted music as loud as i can, sobbed for thirty minutes until i was exhausted and came back home. once you hit rock bottom, you got to come up right? i couldnt be alone. i was always with friends. what the fuck was the MCAT right (ugh) i did this multiple times and i think by the third week, i was feeling pretty good and realized you and i weren’t good for each other. actually, correction, we weren’t good for each other because you weren’t willing to be. i guess i just wasn’t worth it to you anymore. well, correction, i didn’t give necessarily my all either. breakups are never on one person. you just lied to me way too much and i just couldn’t trust you 100%. i said i forgave u but i never really did, did i ? what is relationship without trust. it’s surprising how we even lasted this long. well, its because of our chemistry. whyd you have to go fuck it up dan. you and i had such a good connection LOL maybe u can have that connection with others but im just picky af LOL

actually, i haven’t thought about you dan for a very long time. i sound pretty hung up on you still up there but i’m not. something just happened recently which i will go into later 

but actually i have not thought about you at all. its funny because ive been telling haram “who the fuck is daniel am i rite” hahaha its been fine for me. ill be sad but now i can be alone and just deal with it. im doing really well. when i was dating you, for some crazy reason, i thought i couldn’t be without you. why the hell did i think that? like i went through my darkest times without you and survived every single bit of it. why did i ever think i ever NEEDED u in my life? i havent felt depressed since we broke up. isn’t that the craziest? i never have suicidal urges like i did while dating you. im never sad for too long. im just doing me. being with friends. being with awesome people. meeting new people. and yeah i miss you, but damn i think the emotional roller coaster and the clusterfuck of lies (like you telling susan in MAY THAT U LOVE HER?!!?!?!) just made me like dumb and made me believe i just couldn’t let u go. love is insane. and i am insane. michelle in love. there is no logic in it whatsoever. i’m just the type of person to just give it all she got u know? fucking cheat on me, i’ll be here. fucking take my money, i’ll be here. i think id peace the fuck out for animal abuse doe. but anything else is pretty much game.

but yeah i am no longer that person. i am so special and cool to deal with that LOL im actually not a bad catch. i realized i am going to run far far away from someone who lies to me. it’s just not worth it. i love you. i loved you but damn i just kind of miss u as a best friend. nothing romantic anymore. i just miss talking to u and talking shit with u but you can beg for me back, and it is a huge no from me. also i really respect u stepping up with coco while im not in ann arbor. ur just a bad boyfriend. i always knew that tho and i still went in for it. none of that anymore LOL fck that for real. like i wanna be friends with u just so we can hang out. im not the same person anymore LOL and i just think we would really get along now LOL 

when u said you couldn’t give me a ride i was upset but not really? i just understood. it wouldn’t have been good for us and last week, i don’t think i was ready to be in a car ride with u for that long even when i thought i was. looking back, i think it would have set me back a lot. thanks for making the best decision for us. you were always able to do that, i cant hahaha

but yeah anyways, this guy who i talked to for three days kind of offered to give me a ride. correction, we talked for two and then like he just decided to do that for me. very impulsive but i mean i get it, so am i

as we were talking, i realized we were way too similar to even have any romantic attraction. like, i know he did because i think he saw that as a good thing. but everyone else and me later on, realized, similarity for michelle kim is not the best. she needs excitement, passion, and just someone different for her fire. we were similar so we could have been good friends but i think i realized we couldn’t be more than that when he just started coming off too strong. idk, five days in of talking, he was just telling me don’t fool around with other guys and just like telling me to enjoy my single time while i can and it was very overwhelming. not to mention he dated a girl who actually became pretty closely to me recently and i actually really dig her so that was just a final like nope cause it wasnt worth it at that point. 

so i get to ny and im having all these realizations about the guy who drove me to va while im out with my friends. as im getting all these “boyfriendy” texts im like nope nope nope nd telling my friends i think i have 0 feelings for this guy now. 

next thing you know, my first and last hookup walks over to my friend asks her to smoke and he tells her he thinks im cute. i mean i didnt even know until like round 3 or even until he told me the next day. but yeah we just made quick eye contact and that was it. he joins us for round 2 and dang he is hot as fuck LOOL ok well maybe its cause i literally haven’t seen a guy that hot in a while. L O L like i always liked skinny tall guys. but he was like tall and fit?? like wtf?? LOL it just took me off guard and he was showing interest and i was just suuuuuupppppper drunk so we just went home to my airbnb. FOR THE FIRST TIME, I MADE OUT it was so crazy. like i dont think he believes me because he knew i wasnt a virgin but then i told him i never made out before so he was like so confused but didnt ask me questions cause i guess he just thought i was lying?? idk man. but ya we didn’t do anything except make out and when it got hot and heavy i was just like yo u want pjs and then told him lets just go to bed

l o l 

and hes like a super big gentleman 

he kind of didnt want to leave cause hed say stuff like ill leave when u go out. ill leave when u tell me to leave and i was like “ok u should leave now” and idk how but he just kind of stayed

and then he ordered food and idk we talked about his mom and my mom and we played this dumbass creepy game that we literally made up called black mirror black mirror idk man it was super fun and he even pretended like gdragon, hes a complete clown and i love clowns LOL but yeah he left and i went with my day, saw jane and joohee, came home and he texts me. hes like aksing to hang out and im like yeah if we dont get white girl wasted. 

we meet at one of my fave places beauty and essex. it was awk at first because i did not expect it to be like a bar bar since i came during dinner time last time. but we ended up having a lot of fun and it was good. we tried going to fat buddha but line was too long and one thing led to another, he came over my house and we just kind of made out and i d k what happened but i was suppppppppppper drunk LOL like more drunk than last night that i was dropping my phone in the uber and i was a mess but we ended up having “sex” it was just super fast and weird man. he just felt so diff from dan so i felt really out of it but the other guy finished and i think alc was also hindering his performance and it was just a clusterfuck. we just ended up going to bed. next morning, i know he got into super big trouble with his mom and i felt really bad about that. and then he left. i went to va. he texted me saying have a safe trip and that it was a super fun weekend and yeah that was that. 

im starting to realize i fucking like this guy LOL i mean i prob dont but i thought and think i do u know. im just not the type to do this and i feel like he got the worst image of me LOOL yeah my friends were like michelle ur not the type of person to just have one night stands cause one ima fall in love with them and two ur just not the type

idk i just lost myself from being in nyc

nyc is like the root of all probs 

love that place but still crazy

and ya i think hes kind of cute but i also know hes not really down since im in mich and all so ya ohwellz we’re only 21

[skymade]

Willow Gone

   A drabble from Willow’s best friend, Eryk’s, point of view. It’s long, I’m sorry. These are the texts pertaining to this. 

   “Errie, how about today?”

   Eryk is lain across their bed, staring at the prune colored ceiling for the five-millionth morning in a row -- or so it feels. Little appears to be able to rouse them from their state.

   Their mother, aquamarine with cavernous holes littering her face -- a Meldonian -- stands at the doorway. Her tight, bright green hair curls with the consistency of seaweed fall from the crown of her head. They are the same curls that pull at Eryk’s own blue head. Her mouth is nothing but a large slit in the center of her face, but Eryk can understand both her question and the implications deep beyond it.

   They do not answer. Normally, Eryk’s love for their mother overrides all else, but now their love for someone else holds them, like chains, in their bed.

   “We love you, Errie,” she says, for the five-millionth morning in a row, circular fins with holes reaching towards them. Her voice always sounds as if it comes from deep underwater. “Whenever you're ready, you know. Seconds will wait for you.” She touches them, once, on the leg, then retreats. The door clicks behind her gently.

   Eryk closes their eyes and sees her. Not the mother they love -- their best friend. Dark curls, murky eyes, bright purple skin -- one of many things she was mocked for. Willow sky. She was their best friend, from the moment they met to the moment their mother told them she was gone.

   In a flash, Eryk can see their entire friendship. The moment she, in a flurry of curls and laughs, sat down next to them during lunch, introducing herself though uninvited. Trekking the mountains of Amyr, them wheezing and her laughing. Her splashing purple water at them and sticking out her tongue when they protested. Her hanging upside down in their hiding place, the storage unit, singing out of tune and changing the lyrics to fit her mood. The last time they saw her -- late at night, under the velvet sky, with stars sprinkling above them, her winking playfully at their gaze.

   Their eyes shut tightly at the images. Each memory is another chain that drags them down to their bed, leading with the terrifying crash of the moment Eryk woke up and saw their mother there. Their mother had never been allowed for extended stay upon planet -- Amyr rules -- and instantly, Eryk had felt sick.

   Dad’s dead, was Eryk’s first thought. I did something wrong. I failed my tests for Seconds. Mother is dying.

   But they had never expected the words that had come from their mother’s mouth, starting simply and gently.

   “Errie… when was the last time you saw Willow?”

   She was gone.

   Eryk presses their hands against their eyelids. Why hadn’t they told anyone when they saw the bruises on Willow’s skin? Why hadn’t they reported their fear for her life? Why didn’t they try harder? What if she were dead, as dead as her mother must be? And the most terrifying thought of all: What if she went off to Travel?

   She wouldn’t be able to survive. Not for a minute. Willow would have no idea what she’s doing. Though all evidence leads to her being upon another planet -- the loss of her mother’s tokens -- Eryk has been stubbornly refusing to believe it.

   Even with the possibility of her escaping with Tallow -- what her father currently believes -- Tallow can not care for Willow. What if he abandons her? What if he hurts her? What if she feels trapped?

   These thoughts have been circling in Eryk’s head for the eons it feels she’s been gone, but they haven’t abated, yet. Every day, Eryk wakes up to hear them repeat in perfect clarity.

   They’re sure they’re going insane.

   Eryk’s communicator chirps next to them. They never get messages. Curiosity wins over depression for the moment. They reach up, grabbing it off of the ivory table, and flip out the keyboard, making the screen light up.

   the will of the sky. (in range) 1 NEW MESSAGE.

   Eryk cannot stop the tears that immediately pour through their eyes as they select the message, quickly, shakily. They have always had what Willow called bleeding eyes, but they were sure the Terran expression was bleeding heart. And now, they are choking on it.

   It is a message from Willow.

   trvling mkes me ocean sick T_T ;-; ;(

   The words are so uniquely Willow -- down to the very last mark (or lack thereof) that Eryk begins sobbing harder.

   In a perfect world, they’d take time to control themselves. They’d wait until the feelings abated and let them breathe to reply. But they have not seen the words “in range” next to Willow’s name for a long time, so long they are afraid if they don’t reply immediately, she will disappear.

   Fuck you

   It’s all they can think to say.

   The response is so fast. 

   aw!! ;( dont b meeeeeeeean!!!

   Eryk is attempting to type a response, when another of Willow’s comes.

   i knw. i knw.

   Willow never left spell check on. Most Amyra didn’t. It came with switching languages -- it was easier to just type without having to change languages each time they wished to.

   Eryk closes their eyes, pushes their head towards the screen. Willow hardly types as… seriously… as her last message was.

   Eryk stares at the small, purple picture of Willow next to each message -- heart-shaped sunglasses, smiling at someone off-camera. Eryk took that picture for her. Eryk can still taste the air from that day, can still feel the grass beneath them. Of course, she’d taken the picture of the smoke that Eryk had always used as their picture. How many times had Eryk seen a message from Willow? Thousands. Millions. Almost constantly. Willow almost never stopped texting. But this message... these words... had such a new weight to them. 

   They hardly think as they reply.

   Where are you

   Because, of course, Eryk has to come get them. They’re already thinking to ask if they can borrow their mother’s ship when Willow replies, lightning fast as ever.

   u knw y i cnt tell u that ;C

   Just like you didnt tell me you were leaving, Eryk’s hands answer for them. They almost put a question mark -- they normally don’t because they feel it leaves the statement too hard -- but they choose not to in the last instance.

   u knw y i had 2 do that 2.

   Maybe I dont Willow, they reply. After hitting send, they add on in a new message, If you wanted to run away with someone you were dating, thats fine but you still could have told me first.

   Eryk locks the screen, sits up in finality after the period. They brush their hands at their face when another message lights up.

   ?????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!??????????? the fck r u tlkin about???!?!?! Im not d8in ny1!!!!!!!!!!! >:(

   Yeah. Like Id know that. Because you keep me so updated with whats going on in your life right

   It feels right, now, to be angry. Eryk hasn’t been angry this entire time. Only scared -- only sad. This feels right.

   At least there is some relief. Willow is not dating Tallow. Hopefully, he is not treating her the way others have treated her here.

   skies i mssgd u cuz i missed u!!!!! >:( >;c wht is ur problm????!!

   My problem is that my best friend left planet without saying anything and is now trying to pretend it isnt a big deal

   i ddnt have to mssg u u knw!!! i culdve stayed quiet!!!!!!!!!!! D:<

   Moments later, she’s back.

   lol… yes i did. ;c of course i hd to mssg u. ur my best friend eryk. still.

   And, in true Willow fashion, she launches into a tirade. They can just see her in their mind -- tongue out, concentration coursing through her body, bent over the screen as her fingers fly.

   mr. doom && gloom is gttin on my fckin nerves. im so done with him. D:<

   Officials think you ran off with Tallow, they reply.

   off. r rite. but only bcuz he hs a staff. eryk the nly reason i ddnt tell u ws bcuz i knw ud rate me out

   She means ‘rat me out’. Eryk feels more tears coming at just reading the words. They are trying to hold on to the good things: she’s alive. Tallow hasn’t abandoned her. She might be okay. They are trying not to think how far away she could still be -- trying not to wonder how close she may be to them for the first time in forever. 

   Holy skies Willow. I missed you

   i miss u 2. ;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;((((((((((((((((((( emoticons arnt strong enuf :(

   I know what you mean, they type through their tears. They have to move their communicator far away enough to escape the downfall of water.

   When are you coming home, they add.

   There’s a pause.

   ……………………. eryk i cnt come bck 2 amyr. id be put to death for leavin

   Please, they try. Eryk has never been overly selfish before, but they cannot stop it. How can they live without their best friend?

   But when minutes pass and they get no response, they let out a breath of air and say, Are you happy

   its better than being on amyr if thats what you mean lol

   Her grammar improved. That means she had to think deeply about that reply. Eryk hesitates. Maybe she truly needs their help?

   I guess that is what I mean, they try. They don’t know what to say -- she said it was better than on Amyr. Better than when she was with Eryk. Better than when they were close.

   A long pause. Eryk doesn’t know what to say, but, as always, is saved by Willow.

   i hv a confession 2 make

   Okay

   i ddnt mssg u bcuz i missed u. tho i do!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! dnt get me wrong!!!!!!!!! fckin FCK i miss u!!!!!!!! but i mssgd u… 2 say srry. ;C ;C  4 not saying gdbye. :c :c

   Eryk sighs and closes their eyes. Willow has never been very good at saying sorry.

   I dont know if I fully forgive you yet

   i knw. dnt blame u t_t

   They release a soft breath at the emotion -- runs their fingers over the image. If they had more Amyra in them, maybe they’d be blinking in and out from the intense feelings. They close their eyes and pray -- though praying was never something they did before Willow disappeared. Now, however, it seems to highlight their life. Almost every moment is spent in it. Willow believes so avidly in the sky -- it has to save her, doesn’t it? 

   Their phone chirps, calling them back. 

   mr. doom && gloom wnts 2 leave here soon.

   Eryk knows what that means before Willow types it, and immediately responds, Please

   im srry eryk

   Please dont go. Not yet

   pls dnt tell any1 i mssged u

   I wont, they type back, oh skies I wont just promise you wont go

   They will promise anything, now. Tears rolling down their face -- choking on them -- the volume of their sobs rising so much they hear their mother swaying up the stairs, coming to check on them.

   im so srry. i cnt do nythin. gates up. i love you eryk.

   She never types out ‘I love you’. Never. Never. Never.

   I love you too Willow. Please dont leave me

   bye

   “Willow!” They’re screaming at their phone, shaking it. “Willow!”

   Willow come back

   Willow please!

   Their fingers shake as the letters light up on the screen.

   Please please please. I cant do this without you

   WILLOW!

   And then the dreaded three words light up next to Willow’s name -- out of range -- and Eryk collapses as their mother throws open the door and wraps her arms around them.

[yourstatuslove]

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  I'M Good Person With Bad Attitude.   Your Attitude + Your Choices = Your Life.   An Ugly Personality Destroys A Pretty Face.   Pink Isn'T Just A Color, It'S An Attitude !   Try not to Take My Kindness As A Sign Of Weakness.   The Only Disability In Life Is A Bad Attitude.   Try not to Like My Attitude ? Great, F*Ck Off Then !   Unless You Are Oxygen, Yes I Can Live With You.   I Know I'M Awesome. So I Don'T Care About Your Opinion.   State of mind Is Like A Price Tag, It Shows How Valuable You Are.   I'M The Master Of My Own Thoughts, My Mind Will Obey Only Me.   Of Course, I Talked To Myself..Sometimes I Need Expert Advice!   80% Of The Boy Have Girl Friends..Rest 20% Are Having Brain 😉   I'D Rather Be Hated For Who I Am, Than Loved For Who I Am Not.   Life Gets So Much Better When You Cut The Negative Bullshit Out.   Looser..Is The One Who Creates A Winner So..I Don'T Mind Loosing.   Reason Me. I Found Something Under My Shoes Oh It'S Your Attitude.   Be A Girl With A Mind. A Woman With Attitude And A Lady With Class.   Folks Have No Idea How Long Something They Said Can Stay In A Girl'S Mind.   Discover The Guy That Will Take You Home To Meet His Parents, Not His Bedroom.   At times I Pretend To Be Normal, But It Gets Boring So I Go Back Being Me.   Young ladies Express Their Feelings Via Tears. Young men Express Their Feelings Via Beers.   Try not to Judge My Past, Look At My Present, I Am Sure My Future Is Really Rocking.   My Parents Should Be Proud Of Me Because I'M Addicted To Facebook Not To Drugs!   Your Attitude Belongs To You And It'S Your Choice If You Want To Have A Good One.   I Am Not A Spider Man Nor A Superman, However I Am Superhero For My Girl Friend !   I Am Not Made Or Unmade By The Things Which Happen To Me But My Reaction To Them.   In the event that You Don'T Like Something, Change It. On the off chance that You Can'T Change It, Change Your Attitude.   I Have A New Theory In Life..What Other People Think Of Me Is Truly None Of My Business!   I'M Not The Kind Of Person Who Tries To Be Cool Or Trendy, I'M Definitely An Individual.   My Attitude Is A Result Of Your Actions ! So If You Don'T Like My Attitude Blame Yourself !   I Can Only Please One Person A Day. Today Isn'T Your Day. Tomorrow Doesn'T Look Good Either.   Life Hits You Hard. Be that as it may, It Takes You Three Seconds To Decide If You Are A Superhero Or Not. I Am .   I Enjoy When People Show Attitude To Me Because It Shows That They Need An Attitude To Impress Me!   Coins Always Make Sound But The Currency Notes Are Always Silent! That'S Why I'M Always Calm and Silent.   Individuals Like Me Great. Individuals Don'T Like Me Great. For whatever length of time that I Like Myself That All That Matters Source.   Try not to Confuse My Personality And My Attitude Because My Personality Is Me And My Attitude Depends On You.   Treat Me Like A Queen And I'Ll Treat You Like My King. Treat Me Like A Game. What's more, I'Ll Show You How It'S Played.   I Have Reached A Point In Life Where I Feel It Is No Longer Necessary To Try and Impress Anyone. On the off chance that They Like Me The Way I Am, Good and If They Don'T, It'S Their Loss.   Check Also => New Year Images Love Whatsapp Status

  1) Lol, Today You Said Hi To Me And I Died.   2) He Is My Secret. My Beautiful Little Secret.   3) I Don't Care How We Met, I'M Just Happy We Did.   4) I'M Addicted To The Way I Feel When I Think Of You.   5) I Missing Someone Right Now And That Someone Is You.   6) You're The Smile To My Face And The Beat To My Heart.   7) The Best Feelings When You Look At Her and She Is Already Staring.   8) You're The Kind Of Person I Wanna Be With When I Want To Be Alone.   9) The More You Hide Your Feeling For Someone. The More You Fall For Them.   10) When You Love Someone, You Just Do. There Are No But's, No Maybe's And No Why's.   11) Even If We Can't Be Together In The End, I'M Glad That You Were A Part Of My Life.   12) One Day, I Caught My Self Smiling Without No Reason, Then I Realized I Was Thinking Of You.   13) I Hate Waiting. Be that as it may, If Waiting Means Being Able To Be With You, I'll For As Long As Forever To Be With You.   14) And When I Love You, I Realized, I Have Never Truly Loved Anyone. I Realized, I Never Will Truly Love Anyone The Way I Love You.   Sad Whatsapp Status

  1) I Don't Want To Get Attached Anyone Anymore.   2) It Only Hurts When You Start Pretending It Doesn't.   3) It's Easier To Say You're Mad Than To Admit You're harmed.   4) You Broke My Heart But I Still Love You With All Pieces.   5) The Burden Of Sadness Is Much Heavier When You Are Alone.   6) Truth Is You're The Reason I Don't Believe In Love Anymore.   7) People Change. Psyches Change. Spots Change. Recollections Don't.   8) Being Ignored By Someone Is Okay But Still Texting Them Is A Sin.   9) It's Never The Tars That Measure The Pain, Sometimes The Smile We Fake.   10) There Is No Worse Sorrow Than Remembering Happiness In The Day Of Sorrow.   11) There's Nothing More Depressing Than Having It All And Still Feeling Sad.   12) You Will Never Think Of Me The Way I Think Of You and That Kills Me Everyday.   13) It Is Hard To Tell Your Mind To Stop Loving Someone If Your Heart Still Does.   14) The Only Thing Worse Than A Broken Heart Is Knowing You Would Given Them Another Chance.   15) Some Days I Can't Stop Thinking About You, And Other Days I Wonder Why I'M Wasting My Time.   Read Also => New Year SMS   Romantic Whatsapp Status

You're really great Thing I Never Knew Needed.   You'Re Just Too Cute, If Only You Were Mine.   You Do Most Adorable Things Without Realizing.   Your Voice For Me Is Better Than All My Favorite Songs.   Love Is Knowing That Someone Is Always Be There For You.   When I See You, I Just Smile and Say " My Day Is Perfect ".   The Best Way To Get A Woman'S Heart Is To Give Her Yours.   Since You'Ve Been Around I Smile A Lot More Than I Use To.   The Way To Love Anything Is To Realize That It May Be Lost.   A Hundred Hearts Would Be Too Few To Carry All My Love For You.   Disregard The Butterflies, I Feel The Whole Zoo When I Am With You.   Science Is You Touching My Mind And It Setting My Body On Fire.   Somebody Asked Me, How'S Life? I Just Smiled and Replied, She'S Fine.   I'M In My Bed, You'Re In Your Bed. One Of Us Is In The Wrong Place.   It Is Better To Have Loved And Lost Than Never To Have Loved At All.   Some of the time I Look At You And Wonder How You Can Be So Cute All The Time.   My Love Doesn'T Sleep, It Keeps On Looking For You With It'S Eyes Open.   In the event that A Hug Tell How Much I Love You, I Would Hold You In My Arms Forever.   Love Is When You Look Into Someones Eye And See Everything You Ever Need.   Wanna Hug Yuh Soo Tight… That Even Air Couldn'T Fill The Space Between Us.   Give Me A chance to love You If Not For The Rest Of Your Life Then For The Rest Of Mine.   Everybody Says U Fall In Love Only Ones, But I Fall Daily With The Same Person.   Being Someone'S First Love May Be Great But To Be Their Last Is Beyond Perfect.   You Can Push Them Away, But People Who Really Love You Will Always Choose To Stay.   Roses Are Red, Violets Are Blue, Love Never Crossed My Mind Until The Day I Met You.   It Takes Millions People To Make The World, But Mine Is Completed With 1 And Its You.   Bliss Is Falling Asleep Next To You And Waking Up Thinking I'M Still In My Dreams.   Becoming hopelessly enamored with You Is The Second Best Thing In The World. Discovering You Is The First.   I Don'T Want To Lose This Feeling. In the event that I Could Choose A Place To Die, It Would Be In Your Arms.   When I Dream, I Dream Of You. Possibly One Day, Dreams Will Come True. Since, I Really Love You.   Love Is Like A Rubber Band Held At Both Ends By Two People, When One Leaves It Hurts The Other.   Experiencing passionate feelings for Is Only Half Of I Want, Staying In Love With You For Till Forever Is The Other.   I Wanna Be The One Your "Ex" Will Hate, Your Mom Dad Will Love, And The One You'Ll Never Forget.   Genuine Romance Isn'T Romeo And Juliet Who Died Together But Grandma And Grandpa Who Grew Old Together.   Love Is Of All Passions The Strongest, For It Attacks Simultaneously The Head, The Heart And The Senses.   Meeting You Was Fate, Becoming Your Friend Was A Choice, But Falling In Love With You Was Beyond My Control.   It Takes Two Special People, To Make A Loving Pair. There'S A Joy Just Being Around You, A Feeling I Love To Share.   Everybody Says You Only Fall In Love Once, But That'S Not True. Each Time I Hear You Voice I Fall In Love All Over Again.   The Best Feeling Is When You Look At The Falling In Love Is Only Half Of I Want, Staying In Love With You For Till Forever Is The Other.   I Smile Like An Idiot When I'M Talking To You. Doesn'T Make a difference If It'S A Person Or Through Text Or Anything Else. I Just Smile Because It'S You. Alone Whatsapp status

  1) When Everything Is Lonely I Can Be My Best Friend.   2) The Soul That Sees Beauty May Sometimes Walk Alone.   3) It'S Far Better To Be Alone Than To Be In Bad Company.   4) Id Rather Be Happy And Alone Than With You And Miserable.   5) I'M So Lonely That I Don'T Want To Be With Myself Anymore.   6) Hello Darkness ! My Old Friend. I Have To Talk With You Again.   7) Always Stand For What Is Right, Even If You Are Standing Alone.   8) I'M Honestly Probably Going To Be Alone For The Rest Of My Life.   9) They Judge Me Before That Even Know Me. That'S Why I'M Better Off Alone.   10) Don'T Afraid Of Being Outnumbered. Hawks Fly Alone. Pigeons Flock Together.   11) Never Depends On Others Too Much Because Someday You Will Have To Walk Alone.   12) I Forgive But Don'T Forget, Because I Never Want To Be Hurt The Same Way Twice.   13) When You Feel Like You'Re Fighting Alone In Life That'S When You Should Be Fighting The Hardest !   14) All Relationships Have One Law. Never Make The One You cherish Feel Alone, Especially When You'Re There.   15) Sometimes I Feel Like I Just Want To Be Alone ! Be that as it may, What I Actually Want, Is Someone To Just Hold Me And Tell Me Everything Will Be Ok ! Friendship Whatsapp Status

The Best Mirror Is An Old Friend.   What Is A Best Friend? A Single Soul In Two Bodies.   Kinship Doubles Your Joy And Divides Your Sorrow.   A Single Rose Can Be My Garden… A Single Friend, My World.   Never Let Your Friends Feel Lonely… Disturb Them All The Time.   A Friend Is Someone Who Knows All About You And Still Loves You.   Just A True Best Friend Can Protect You From Your Immortal Enemies.   A Good Friend Is Hard To Find, Hard To Lose, And Impossible To Forget   Closest Friend Is Someone Who Loves You When You Forget To Love Yourself.   I Would Rather Walk With A Friend In The Dark, Than Alone In The Light.   A True Friend Is That One Which Takes Your Hand But Touches Your Heart.   Great Friends Are Hard To Find, Difficult To Leave, Impossible To Forget.   Companions Are Like Stars, They Come And Go, But The Ones That Stay Are The Ones That Glow   Great Friends Will Share The Umbrella. Closest Friends Will Steal It And Yell: Run Loser Run!   The Best Way To Stay Close To Someone Is By Being Just Friend. Nothing More And Nothing Less   A Friend Is Someone Who Can See The Truth And Pain In You Even When You Are Fooling Everyone Else   Decent Friendship Is Like The Breathing Air, You Will Never See It But You Will Always Feel Its Presence.   Try not to Walk Behind Me; I May Not Lead. Try not to Walk In Front Of Me; I May Not Follow. Simply Walk Beside Me And Be My Friend.   Closest Friends Are There For You Even If You Refuse To Talk To Them. Since They Know, Deep Down, The Silence Is Killing You.   Fellowship Is So Weird… You Just Pick A Human You'Ve Met And You'Re Like "Yes I Like This One" And You Just Do Stuff With Them.   To Be A Best Friend Doesn'T Take Much, A Shoulder, An Ear, Some Understanding, And Not Even Have To Say A Word To Make You Laugh Or Smile   In the event that You Feel Hollow, Let Me Be The One, Who Fills You Up With Love. Give Me A chance to free The Butterflies Within. Simply Open Your Heart, And Let Me In.   Companionship… Is Not Something You Learn In School. In any case, If You Haven'T Learned The Meaning Of Friendship, You Really Haven'T Learned Anything.   You Can Always Tell Who Your True Friends Are. They Are The Ones Who Will Be There Without You Asking Them To Be. All The Others Are Part-Time Friends. Read the full article