#they are DISGUSTINGLY in love okay. it doesn't fix everything but it makes it a little easier

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just two guys who moved in together circa 1953

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where we go when all we were...

dialogue prompts from where we go when all we were is gone by sequoia nagamatsu.

i wish i could have been there.

kaiju don't kill people. people kill people.

love is the greatest weapon of all.

as long as we're still a family.

i know i'm not there for you as much as i should be.

i wrote almost 200 letters to you.

sometimes friends do messed up things.

it's important to forgive if at all possible.

ride all the rides, even the scary ones.

we were both being unfair.

i don't know how to be a mother.

i've been here in my dreams.

i don't know how to start that conversation.

you can't fix anything hiding.

what's inside the bag?

i thought i could get away with anything.

you shouldn't be so careless at night.

i can't believe people still believe in ____.

you're the only thing i've ever really wanted.

i need to talk to someone.

i wonder if you could light a house with fireflies.

what do you want to hear?

i thought you wouldn't understand.

what kind of relationship survives on secrets and lies?

i don't want to waste any time.

people are disgustingly happy on television.

you're just going to pretend like i'm not even here?

fine evening for a hallucination, isn't it?

do you remember being a kid?

i can't blame you for running.

who's your favorite superhero?

you said you were getting better.

where is the guidebook for all of this?

are the dreams getting worse?

can you hear me? are you there?

i couldn't survive losing ___ again.

you're okay. you're home.

you just had a nightmare.

you've probably heard my story, or some movie version of it.

`just because you can do it doesn't mean you should.

give me a corgi and a career.

i don't make the rules. i'm here to explain how things are.

simply think about home, and you'll be there.

i want to believe the stories.

it's not your fault. it's okay, and i love you.

aliens aren't the answer to everything.

i'm incredibly happy to be here with you.

no one remembers how the war started.

when i move, i forget.

how do you find the energy to keep going?

i could fall in love with you all over again.

you're everything i'm not.

i'm not proud of the choices i've made.

how are we going to get out of this one?

being here is too much for me.

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My least favorite animal is me when I'm in love, or even just like someone.

My entire sense of self is wrapped around them. I need their love, attention, everything they can give me and if I don't have that..I panic.

Bc in my mind, they're everything and I'm so disgustingly anxious and sad when we aren't talking. I think it's MY fault we aren't talking. But then, I turn around and I distract myself with random people. I flirt with everyone to fill a void, seeking some kind of approval that's not being met.

I make myself think that I'm okay, I don't need them. I have all these people giving me attention, stimulating my brain and making me feel pretty. I've got my friends, my family too

I always wake up tho...I wake up and I realize that I don't want this. It's doesn't fix anything. I still want this one specific person that I can't have bc neither of us have the capability to have a healthy connection. We can connect and it's perfect, but we are both so mentally unstable that ik in my head it wouldn't be healthy if we aren't both doing the work to be better.

I can know that and still crave them more than anyone I've ever wanted. Love, lust, Like, or obsession...I can't get them out of my head, or off this pedestal that I've put them on.

To me, they're perfect. The most magnificent person I've ever gotten to meet...I genuinely wish they knew just how highly I think of them but I fear it just as much.

[walrus150915]

Have you guys seen my other post talking about how Ambrosius n Ballister would look when they're middle aged?

Yea okay nvm I drew them together as old men yaoi again bc it's very funny

Ambrosius, you old rascal!👀

I love depicting older queer people being in love and living a calm cozy life with their families bc idk man... It makes me hopeful for the future

Ft. their kid Aquila and their kid-family friend-aunt-uncle-grandparent Nimona being annoyed with them (and I mean- wouldn't you be?)

By the way this post is framed I guess you could tell where I'm going with this

Headcanon time for the Boldheart household when Nimona is 1030yo, Ambrosius and Ballister are in their late 40s and their kid is a tween

- Nimona is a free traveler. She's done so many round-the-world trips that Magellan may choke from jealousy while burning in hell

- No matter where she is tho, she always comes back to Ballister and always shares new things she's seen and new friends she's made - people and animals alike. YES SHE HAS A TON OF FRIENDS SHE ALWAYS WANTED BECAUSE THAT'S WHAT SHE DESERVES!!! MY BABY😭

- She always makes her comeback a surprise: jumps from the roof on Bal's head, flies dramatically, knocks on the door to pretend she's a deliveryman or a postman

- Ballister works as an engineer bc the raw SKILL this fella used to build an arm WHILE having one is unmatched. "If you're good at something, you gotta proceed to get a career in this field, otherwise you're just wasting your potential" © my Asian mom (jk don't do this. I'm no professional artist but I draw bc it's my hobby)

- He probably worked on the deconstruction of the wall. The symbolism would be great + it'd make sense for his character!

- My man is overworking because of course he does. Nimona tries her best to slap it out of him but this man is a workaholic and nothing can fix it I'm afraid

- I have no idea what Ambrosius's job is. Sry😭

- I know it must be something artsy and something which doesn't bring much money. Ambrosius is BLOOMING at work tho. He's doing something he likes! Not something his parents made him do! And he's enjoying it! Knowing he'll get back home to his kid and husband and Nimona and hug them all sweetly!!

- Aquila is mostly B-student who's described as "Your child studies well, Mr Boldheart, but they need to be more active and social in the class"

- Aquila doesn't have much friends outside of their family. Their parents and Nimona are worried about it more than they are

- Nimona made it her undertaking to make sure Aquila doesn't feel the way she used to in a situation like this

- When she's in the mood, Nimona takes Aquila to school by using her powers. It's pretty much the norm for Aquila to arrive to school on the horse or on the back of an eagle or on the rhino lol

If we've started with Goldenheart, I guess we could also continue with them? (a tiny bit of spice under the cut)

- They're still disgustingly in love. Like it's cringy how in love they are

- They try to keep the sparkle alive no matter how repetitive their routine gets

- Slow dancing (which is actually just cuddling and rocking side to side together) in the kitchen? Kissing each other before and after work? Having romantic dinners from time to time? Yea that's their kinda stuff

- That sparkle also includes trying out new things in bed. They don't have as much energy as they used to tho😭 Instead of going two or even three rounds like they used to they'd rather just sleep WJJSSJJAJJWEJSJS

- [seahorse dad Bal since trans!Ballister headcanon is one of my favorites] Ambrosius's worshipping of Ballister's body increased 100x after Aquila was born bc THIS FELLOW MAN whom he loves VERY MUCH beared THEIR CHILD in his body for 9 months, how's that not amazing? A thing this man has for competence of his husband is insaneeeee

- I feel like their love life has only got better as the time went on

- As all parents do, these two learnt how to do everything very quietly

- Nimona could finally sleep calmly thank the creator they had a kid who made them learn

Okay I'm done with spice. Let's talk sweet (aka random ig)

- Bal cracks his joints a lot (grandpa LLLLL)

- Aquila DOES NOT have it good on Father's day

- Nimona teases Ballister for getting older (as a joke) but she's kinda worried about him, since he does get grey hair, wrinkles n stuff and. Uh. She doesn't. So-

I'M SORRY IT WASN'T MEANT TO BE ANGSTY

- Aquila is trilingual so real of them

- Yea the Boldheart household is multilingual. One could say something in English and the other would answer in Urdu no problem

I think that's about it. I blogged this earlier than planned bc I pressed the wrong button but I hope you enjoy this whiplash of my brainrot nevertheless

Heading to school rn. See ya when I come up with new things to talk abt wfvbhhnj!!!

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The Elephant In The Room

read it on AO3 at https://ift.tt/ja8fGV4 by Trenchcoat_Impala Nothing had changed, well, okay, everything had changed. Eileen had moved into the bunker and she and Sam were disgustingly in love, Jack came around to visit when he was feeling so inclined and it was nice to see the kid, to try to make up for everything he did to him, and Cas… well, Cas was alive. It was one of the first things Jack did as the new God, and Cas’ powers were fully restored, possibly with more juice than before, which Jack said he’d done by accident. “I may have made him a tier higher than an archangel,” Jack had said sheepishly. But Dean wasn’t one to complain about having an extra juiced-up angel on their side, especially because it was Cas, and Cas was alive, and Dean…Dean was totally doing just fine with the elephant in the room, thank you very much. Or Dean doesn't talk about the elephant in the room (Cas' confession) until he does. Words: 6578, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English Fandoms: Supernatural Rating: Explicit Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Categories: M/M Relationships: Castiel/Dean Winchester Additional Tags: post 15x20, Post-Canon, Post-Canon Fix-It, posession, Dean doesn't talk about his feelings, until he does, Anal Sex, Castiel and Dean Winchester Have a Profound Bond, and they definitely deepen that bond wink wink nudge nudge, Top!Castiel, bottom!Dean, Top Castiel/Bottom Dean Winchester read it on AO3 at https://ift.tt/ja8fGV4

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Since it persists on being too hot to focus on my more useful OUAT fics, have a disgustingly self-indulgent Pinocchio Swap AU turned "Please Let Piccolino Have A Loving Family" AU moment 🙃🥰

"Grandfather," Pinocchio asks, standing on his tiptoes to peer over the worktable, "why are there so many clocks here?"

He half expects Mr. Marco to scold him for asking such a silly question, but instead the man just chuckles fondly and pats Pinocchio over the head, earning himself a giddy grin. "Ah, that's just because I like fixing them, lad. They need a more delicate touch than doors and plumbing, you see."

"But only one of them is working. Why's that?"

"That is because I don't have the time to spare for them all." Mr. Marco gestures vaguely towards the single working clock, hanging from the wall on the back of the workshop. "That one, though- August helped me sort it out, when he'd just arrived here. Do you want to see it?"

"Yes!" Pinocchio immediately interrupts his curious poking around the table, all but bouncing with enthusiasm. He likes learning about things August is involved with. August's always doing some really cool stuff, it seems.

As such, he lets the old man pick him up and lift him high enough that Pinocchio can see the clock from up close, and doesn't protest when the boy leans even closer, marvelling at the nice carvings in the wood - Pinocchio doesn't wiggle out so much to risk falling, which would for sure earn him a scolding, but still, it's the principle of the thing. He wouldn't feel so certain that he's safe being held like this, with some other people.

He thinks he knows a little of how things work in Storybrooke, now. Not everything, of course, but at least what he needs to get by on a normal day - he knows he can close the window blinds at night if he's worried someone will enter as he sleeps, and that he doesn't need anyone's permission to do so; he knows he can go crawl on August's lap if he's lonely and the man is writing or talking to someone, so long as he doesn't get too much in the way; he knows that if he wants to go pet Dr. Hopper's dog there are multiple adults who'll hold onto Gina for him, because dogs are so much bigger than her and she gets frightened easily around them.

He still doesn't know whether Mr. Marco is okay with Pinocchio calling him Grandfather or not, but that kind of thing is so confusing here, he's not sure he's ever going to puzzle it out. Back home he was supposed to address all older people like that, but Storybrooke? Beats him. Maybe it's too formal for them, who knows.

The clock ticks by another minute. Pinocchio squints at it, following the moving hands with his finger for a moment - the numbers are written a little different from what he remembers, but it's not too long before he can safely declare: "It says it's six minutes past two. That's it, right?"

"Very good," Mr. Marco praises him, and it doesn't feel like a mockery, even if he does sound genuinely surprised. "You know how to tell the time already, then? What a clever boy."

"Yeah." Pinocchio's chest swells with pride, and he points eagerly at one of the other clocks, the still broken ones. "That one's saying it's half past six, but that's because it's stuck. And that one thinks it's midday. Or midnight, I don't know."

"Yes, that's right. Good job. Say, who taught you so well?"

"An old man in a town. He said that because I had a nice watch, I should know how to read the time."

He doesn't like thinking about that too much, honestly. The old man, yes - he'd met a lot of nice elderly people in his travels, more than he did nice younger ones, at least - but the memory of the watch itself makes his chest clench painfully, like the time he was underwater without air before the dogfish happened.

He wonders what they did with it, after he lost it when he turned into a donkey. He's not even sure it still worked at that point, because it fell pretty hard, and the Coachman didn't give him time to check on it before leading him away with his rope - Pinocchio hopes it didn't break too badly, even if he can't have it anymore. It was a good pocket watch, nice to look at. He'd never owned anything so nice before that, and even though he's received lots of gifts since he came to Storybrooke, it's not the same thing. People are richer there than they were in his old land. They always seem to have something to spare for him, especially August and Mr. Marco and the gruff lady at the diner.

He must have gone quiet for too long, however, because the man gives him a little shake, if not a very rough one. "You alright, lad?"

Pinocchio nods, even though the picture of the golden watch is still flashing in front of him, as if it were the sun and he'd stared at it for too long. "Grandfather?"

"Yes, Pinocchio?"

"Can I see how to fix them, too, when you have time? Like you and August did?"

He's not really thinking he could manage it, honestly. He's not good enough for that. But anything's better than being stuck remembering the same thing over and over again, with no way to stop it. Physically doing something usually works as a distraction, like when he couldn't solve his math problems and he'd just up and start running.

For a couple seconds he worries he won't be able to explain himself if Mr. Marco asks him about it, but the old man doesn't, and instead simply nods, his mouth curling in a warm smile.

"Of course," he says, sounding a little choked up. "You're a smart boy. I'm sure you'll learn very fast."

"Really?"

"Well, yes. Why don't you go look for August and ask him, too? I bet he'll say the same thing."

Pinocchio nods again, allowing Mr. Marco to carefully put him down and darting away towards August's room as soon as his feet have touched the floor. He's not completely certain he didn't say something wrong yet, especially when he was distracted, but it's fine. He's fine. He would have been told, if someone was mad at him. That's how it works in Storybrooke.

And even if he did make someone mad, he can learn how to fix that. Just like the clocks. Just like the golden watch, stuck in another world that it might be.

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Bad Buddy Rewatch - Episode 3

This is the episode where I fell in love with Pat.

From the very first scene this episode doesn't just show what Pran feels for Pat, but why he feels the way he does. Why Pat is hard to ignore and so loveable in the first place.

1. He wears his heart on his sleeve.

He just wants to be around Pran all the time and he doesn't even try to hide it. When he goes to Pran at the bus stop in the night, it's because he was missing him. He tells Pran that he was looking for him and just wanted to chat with him. No agenda. Even before that, when Pran wasn't talking to him because of the bus stop mess, he leaves no stone unturned when trying to reach him. At that point, he still thinks the engg group is not to blame for the fight. But that doesn't stop him from wanting to make things right with Pran and checking on him. And finally he saved Pran's guitar for him not even knowing when he was going to see him again. He jokes that it was just eating up space in his closet, but even Pran doesn't take him seriously when he says that.

2. He is the best flirt when he is not even trying.

The guitar pick scene that the episode starts with is the perfect example. Who would be able to resist a move like that? "If you miss me, don't knock, just come in". Then the move(s) in the library and the elevator. I have rewatched the elevator scene an unhealthy number of times and gasp with Pran every time. And then all the flirting at the bus stop ending with "do you like it?.. They will like it because I do." Finally, of course the "I like to see your face... When you lose". Pat flirts like it's his full time job and Pran doesn't stand a chance. (I have more to say about Pat's flirting skills in ep 7, but that's for later)

3. He is always worried about Pran and wants Pran to be okay. He will do anything to make Pran smile.

As soon as Pat finds out that his friends were even partly responsible for the mess with the bus stop, he literally does everything he can to fix it. And honestly, I think even if Pat's friends weren't partly responsible, he would still do everything he could to help Pran. Other than this, there are little moments throughout the episode when Pran is worried or irritated and Pat is always trying to cheer him up. Going on a quick tangent, right from here, it is really obvious that Pat doesn't care about winning or losing with Pran (refer his iconic lines in episode 7). The rivalry has always just been a way to give each other shit and spend more time with Pran. Pat really is such a heroTM. And Pran sees what Pat is doing for him (refer Pran's iconic lines in episode 11 though he tries to underplay it in his tsundere ways).

4. He is disgustingly endearing and endearingly disgusting.

Noodle store dumpling scene. That's it.

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127 SQUAD AND ROMANTIC BF TINGS

tw a lil bit of suggestive on jae's but nothing explicit

✰ — TAEIL would sing lullabies over the phone or video call. you and him would just be doing your own thing, not talking but enjoying being each other's presence. he'll probably pull out his guitar and start singing random songs until he eventually notices you fell asleep on him. will not end the call and when you wake up in the morning, his snores and his cute sleeping face is the first thing you see. "love? you still there? ... taeil?" then laugh out loud when you hear his snores instead. "okay yeah lets sleep more" the call will only end probably because his phone died. he kinda strikes me as a guy who's phone is always < 50% battery lmao

✰ — JOHNNY is your everything. literally. as long as he has the power of youtube, google, and instruction manuals on his side, he can fix anything and everything for you. we've all seen him do crafty things on jcc lmao so it'll probably apply to relationships as well. will 100% say you now owe him cuddles for fixing something for you. you kinda dont like the fact that he's doing all these things for you so you try doing them on your own without him knowing only to fail big time. "what did we learn today?" "never touch the pipes under the sink" "and?" "and always ask johnny for help" "nuh-uh thats not how i said it" you sigh exasperatedly "always let my smokin hot amazing handsome boyfriend johnny suh get the job done"

✰ — TAEYONG doesn't care whether you take the time shopping or not. in fact, he loves seeing you all excited and giddy for pampering yourself as you should. totally the type to hold the paper bags even if you complain and say you can manage on your own. is a complete angel and will wait patiently outside changing rooms and will give you genuine insight he has of the clothes you picked. "that looks nice. you should get that. the length is just right and the sleeves help accentuate your waist" "really yongie?" "yes love. i mean you look pretty in everything anyway" miss ma'am my heart just fucking melted ?¿?

✰ — YUTA doesn't look like it but will exert real effort into things. would be the type to have a note or a google doc about your favorite orders from restaurants because he just loves how your eyes light up appreciatively and you look so smitten by him. its like a cheat sheet. eventually he memorizes the list with how much time he spends with you and he wont even need it. the type to always bring you food before meeting you (if its just hanging out inside the house). "no way! i was just craving for these!" he smiles before kissing your forehead, volunteering to put the food out its container for you. "i figured. you'd been working since this afternoon. lets eat first then you can tell me about what you've been working on so i can help you, okay?"

✰ — DOYOUNG loves cooking for you. i highkey feel like its his love language? like cooking for you and seeing your eyes light up as it darts back to him after you take your first bite from whatever he cooked just gives him so much happiness. its disgustingly sappy and he doesn't like talking about it. now he understood fully what it meant to see your loved ones eating and being full yourself or some shit. idk how the actual quote goes okay dont come 4 me but u probably get it. anyway the type to always pack you lunch and will get hella mad if you skip meals. "what do you mean you havent eaten yet?" "yeah but i will after i--" "you mean you're going to eat Now?" "what? no maybe later--" "thats it im coming over"

✰ — JAEHYUN would be the type to make you playlists. its really random sometimes he'll send them to you in the early morning for the heck of it bc he cant sleep. most of the time its him being horny lmao the frat boy in him awakening and sending you a playlist called imma blow your back out or something extremely cringey and thirsty pls dont block his sorry ass maybe he'd spell out the words using song titles too! idk jae just rlly strikes me as a guy who's love language is music. "hey babe did you check the playlist i sent you?" "wtf its 4am???" "oh so you havent listened to it yet?" "fuck off" but at the end of the day he'll come over and will use the playlist to,,, you know,,, do the sexy thing ;)

✰ — JUNGWOO always makes sure you walk on the inside of the road. you know when you're walking in the street and he softly nudges your waist? yes. will probably even scold you playfully because with how long its been since you both are together, "babe you always walk on the inside of the road how many times do i have to tell you?" is also the type to remind you to wear your seatbelt immediately after hopping onto his car. would ask you Again while in the middle of the car ride because he forgot that he already asked you earlier. please don't mind him he's just looking out for you bb. "seatbelt?" "yes, babe. already done" "are you sure? i dont think i heard it click--" "babe eyes on the road please" "oh right sorry"

✰ — MARK sends you tiktoks, vines, or memes. this is his love language fite me im calling it. he just wants to see you laugh too okay? thats why he does it. i mean it made him laugh, so maybe it will you laugh too. also because he hopes to make inside jokes with u cuz he believes thats how people really get close and stuff. would definitely love it if you do the same thing with him. you'd be chilling in the sofa while khalid plays on the bluetooth speaker and he'll suddenly go "babe babe babe check this out!" then you both proceed to laugh at a vine for the next thirty minutes <3 #living.the.yn.life

✰ — HAECHAN will do your skincare for you when you're drunk or super tired that you just passed out cold on the bed. would probably come into the room to see you snoring and tutting bc now he has to do it for you again but meh deep down he loves it because he enjoys admiring your sleeping face. its sorta like a healing thing for him? yeah it just washes away all the stress he's feeling and bb is just excited about the idea that this becomes "your thing" with him if u get what im saying? altho the next day he'll probably use it as a leverage to get out of chores :) "no way im not folding our clothes" "and why is that?" "i took your make up off yesterday u know how hard that is? im still tired" "but its literally the next day--" "awww thank you for doing my chores, baby! u the best!" ._.

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The Elephant In The Room

The Elephant In The Room https://ift.tt/1bCdzOS by Trenchcoat_Impala Nothing had changed, well, okay, everything had changed. Eileen had moved into the bunker and she and Sam were disgustingly in love, Jack came around to visit when he was feeling so inclined and it was nice to see the kid, to try to make up for everything he did to him, and Cas… well, Cas was alive. It was one of the first things Jack did as the new God, and Cas’ powers were fully restored, possibly with more juice than before, which Jack said he’d done by accident. “I may have made him a tier higher than an archangel,” Jack had said sheepishly. But Dean wasn’t one to complain about having an extra juiced-up angel on their side, especially because it was Cas, and Cas was alive, and Dean…Dean was totally doing just fine with the elephant in the room, thank you very much. Or Dean doesn't talk about the elephant in the room (Cas' confession) until he does. Words: 6578, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English Fandoms: Supernatural Rating: Explicit Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Categories: M/M Relationships: Castiel/Dean Winchester Additional Tags: post 15x20, Post-Canon, Post-Canon Fix-It, posession, Dean doesn't talk about his feelings, until he does, Anal Sex, Castiel and Dean Winchester Have a Profound Bond, and they definitely deepen that bond wink wink nudge nudge, Top!Castiel, bottom!Dean, Top Castiel/Bottom Dean Winchester via AO3 works tagged 'Castiel/Dean Winchester' https://ift.tt/JHs2oDV July 29, 2024 at 06:00PM