#these pics are from yesterday when i got it done btw

[kellerybird]

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[lostinvasileios]

Hiii!

I think some god tried to give me a sign but I am so lost rn. I thought you could help me identify who might be. Sorry for the long message btw

So I had my window open for some time to cool my room a bit and when I was closing it, I heard a buzzing sound, I looked and it was a 4/5cm bug (after some research I concluded it was an Asian wasp), I closed the window near my room and left the other open (I have double). I took some pictures (so I could identify later) and just when I was finished, the wasp left. I think this is a sign because it could have entered my room, attack me... And didn't, it just stayed between windows; also as I said, when I was done taking pics it left. I could be making all of this up though hahah but I have the intuition that it is a sing idk

I searched for gods associated with wasps/bees and I found out it could be a sign from Demeter (because bees help spreading pollen), Aphrodite (I read she's associated with wasps) or Apollo (his son is associated with bees). It could also be from Artemis but I don't work with her so I think it's one of those three.

The thing is I think Demeter is sending me other signs (I got a deity identification and it was her, I asked her to make my plant bloom if she wanted to work with me and she did...), I've also been dedicating a lot of time to Aphrodite lately (my skincare and makeup...) and yesterday I made my first physical offering for her, so I thing she may have sent it too. Lastly, it may be from Apollo, when I heard it I was thinking of him and also I noticed the sun got brighter (but this could be bc of clouds or something else), when I was searching which gods were associated with bees/bugs his son was the first one I found (I don't know if this could mean something), I also talked to him and thanked him for his help lately today.

This confuses me so much because I have no clue who is sending this because everyone has their reasons. Sorry for the ramble and I hope you have a clearer image than me. Have a good day! 💓😊

Hi there, sweet one! 🐞💗

This question is really interesting. And, over the course of years I've worked with deities, when it comes to signs it can be collectively sent.

If you feel you've been given a sign of some sort, and you cannot exactly identify which of your deities it is because it feels connected to each/multiple of them in one way or another, it's probable that they've all sort of... Hm. Pitched in on the sign. Does that make sense, darling?

In my case, I've experienced bugs as signs before, and for quite a while I had pushed myself into the "only one god will send one sign at a time, and when that happens, it will only feel like them and nobody else" type of mindset, which - in itself set me up for... Hardship. I associate bugs with all of my deities in one way or another, so when a bug comes around that feels like a batter mix of all of them for more or less, I drove myself into the ground trying to figure out which one was trying to speak to me with the sign. When, turns out, it was a little "I love you" message from all of them through their little bug signs.

Since your deities have their reasons to send you a sign, I'd say to simply - trust that it came from all of them. Sure, certain deities' energy can somewhat overshadow another deities energy that's embedded in whatever sign they've sent you, but I wouldn't recommend to stress over trying to find out whose energy is strongest here. More so, feeling the energy they tried to send you with it.

The thing with deities is that their tongues are very fluid and infinite, the language they speak with us may change from ancient spoken, to the language of essences, and then the languages us humans have never known. With signs, they primarily tend to speak in the language of essence, and essence in itself can be a tricky thing for any human to really begin to understand.

(For a fun fact, the language of essence can also be spoken through things of offerings, devotional acts, ect. When I say "for any human to really begin to understand" is how it will be spoken back to us, because the gods don't perform the way we do by leaving teas at their altars or by writing down prayers for them. So, understanding takes a bit more to get used to on our end at times.)

One way to help us understand this language is by sometimes showing us exactly what we need to see/hear when we search for it. Like when you found out Apollon's son was related with bugs, in my book, that is a confirmation from him. Just as, Aphrodite and her warrior side coming in with the fact that this particular bug could've been violent yet remained calm is also a confirmation from her as well. & so on.

I'm fairly certain you wanted more to find out the exact deity who sent this sign, however, another thing about the language of essence is that it is a sacred language. Only really understood by the speaker and the hearer. An evolving one to grow and be accustomed to the two partaking in the conversation. You know? So, overall my dear, I suggest you simply - ask. Meditate, divination, a fluttery internal feeling, however you get your responses, ask and listen. They'll tell you more than I can. I hope I could clear something up for you, honey! Cheers and good luck to you! 🩷💐

[imnotgoinghome]

The Pictures on Your Phone

Btw, in the beginning, I set it up like you were in a place like Main Event or a place like that.

Summary: After finding pictures taken by you on his phone, Peter realizes that his feelings aren’t what he thought they were

Warning: stealing someone’s phone (kinda), fluff, confused peter

“Should I do it? I kinda want to but I don’t know, should I?” You asked Mj, who was still laughing at the fact that you had just taken Peter’s phone out of the bag the boys entrusted you with and were now holding his phone in your hand. She nodded, partly because she wanted to see if you would actually take pictures on his phone, and partly because she thought it would be funny for him to find later.

“Ok, let’s see, how to do— oh there we go!” You said as you finally found the camera button on his Lock Screen. His android phone didn’t help the camera quality, because why would it.

“What should I even take pictures of?” You asked your best friend, who quickly responded with “do one of that guy with the ponytail over there”. She was still laughing, like she always did. You quickly took a few pictures of the people around you, some of your friends, and then a few of yourself, which ended up being deleted.

Once you saw people start to flood out of laser tag, one of them being Peter, you quickly stuffed his phone back into the sack and tided it back like it was so it would look untouched. You weren’t gonna tell Peter about the pictures, that was for him to find out later, but you were gonna ask him about the crack on his screen.

When Ned came over to the table you were sitting at, you noticed Peter was behind him. So naturally you took it as an opportunity to ask him about his phone screen. Thank you Mj for daring you to do that.

“Hey Peter, has your phone always been cracked in the bottom right corner?” You asked, tilting your head slightly to the right as you handed Ned the bag.

“Yeah, why?” He asked skeptically. He was a little taken aback by your question, not knowing you would ask him something like that. Because, let’s be honest, when did you really ever ask him stuff that wasn’t related to school or the boys being stupid.

“Oh, no reason” you answered sweetly, turning around and going back to the table where your best friend was seated.

Not another word was spoken between you and Peter after that. He was weirded out for sure by your somewhat odd behavior (in his mind, he didn’t know how weird you could be yet). He had never been asked a such out of the blue question by you, so he wanted the reason behind your question.

Once Peter got home from school, he went into investigation mode. He searched through his phone, until he opened up his photos. There it was. The thing you had done to his phone was non other then flood it with pictures of you, your friends, and random people you thought looked ‘cool’. He looked through all of them, because why not, deleting the ones he didn’t like and recovering the deleted photos he wanted to keep. But for some odd reason he couldn’t explain, he keep ever picture of you, even if it was bad.

He had never had someone do this on his phone before, so he was confused as to why you would do this. After countless hours of scrolling through YouTube, trying to figure out what it meant if someone took pictures on your phone (and you liked the pics), the only conclusion he could come to was one he didn’t want to believe. He didn’t know if it was true or not, but after looking into the things people do if they like you, he started to believe it was true.

The next day at school was interesting for Peter. He asked you what happened to his phone yesterday, and all you said was you took harmless pictures of people on it (which were truly harmless). He tried to ask you why you did it, but all you said was “because why not, it was fun”, which was not the answer he was looking for.

But things only got weirder for him when he saw you in the hallway, sitting in a corner talking to Mj and Betty during your finals break. You were laughing, making jokes, and just talking, and Peter was walking around with Ned.

That’s when it hit him. When he heard you talking about him, telling Betty about what happened yesterday, and joking about it with Mj, all he could do was think about the pictures of yourself you had taken. All of them, which were still on his phone, were somehow different then the other pictures to him. Something about them made him look at you in a different way, a way that made him unsure about his feelings for you. But when he heard you talk about him, that was it. He was sure of it know. Peter liked you.

Friday was the last day of finals, which meant that Christmas break was only a day away. Now that Peter knew he liked you, he was almost sad that there was a break in school, because that meant he wouldn’t see you. But that feeling was put on hold when you came up to him in the hallway after the science final.

“Peter, when’s your birthday?” You asked him, making his heart warm at the sound of your voice (which was a weird thing for him).

“Why do you need to know? Your not trying to break into my phone are you?” He asked questioningly, trying to cover up the fact that he had butterflies in his stomach.

“No reason” you responded. Right after you stopped talking, all that could be heard was Betty’s annoying voice (or at least to Peter) .

“Don’t tell her! She’s gonna try to break into your phone! I repeat, don’t tell her! It’s gonna be your phone or your iPad” she said as she walked up behind you, interrupting your perfectly normal conversation with Peter, like she always did.

“Come on! I’m not gonna break into your stuff Peter, I promise. Can I not just ask for someone’s birthday? Do I always have to have a reason behind my actions!” The last part you said more to Betty, because you were mad at her, but she was unfazed and quickly responded with “Yes, yes you do”.

Peter was, for the most part, quiet and didn’t talk. He mainly just watched you angrily yell at Betty and her tell you your feelings and actions like she knew you like the back of her hand (she didn’t, Mj knew more about you and your actions then Betty did).

You stormed off angrily, mad that Betty wouldn’t let you have a conversation, while Betty stayed behind and told Peter to never tell you his birthday. He agreed, not really paying attention to Betty as he was more focused on you.

Of course Peter was weirded out, but amused. He couldn’t stop thinking about how mad you were, and how cute you looked when you were mad. In Peter’s mind, you were adorable, which was still new to him. He had never had a crush before, which made you his first, also leaving him with the realization that he had no idea what to do about it.

Christmas break was interesting to say the least. I mean, other then Christmas Day, most of his Christmas break was spent thinking about you. And whatever the heck he was going to do about his, massive, crush on you. But he came up with a plan. A plan he did know would even work, but he was going to try, after making sure May liked it of course.

May had always been good with this kinda stuff, so she must have a solution, right?

After explaining his, very poor, plan to May, who scrunched her nose at it, Peter decided he might as well give up. Until May told him a very valuable piece of advice.

“You said Y/n‘s never done this to anyone else right?” She asked, wanting to make sure her information was correct before she told her nephew the thing that would change his relationship with you forever.

“Yeah, she’s only done it to me, which I still don’t get”

“Have you ever noticed how people tend to do weird things when they’re in love?” May asked, trying not to sound like a therapist (mission failed).

“I mean, some people act weird yeah…” he said questionably, confused as to what his aunt was talking about.

“Peter, are you really that blind?” She asked getting a little frustrated, knowing Peter had no idea where she was going with this. May could have said it out loud and Peter not known. He was that clueless.

“What do you mean?”

May sighed, could she be any more obvious?

“What I mean is, you know how you get nervous around Y/n?”

“Yeah…”

“Well, that’s never happened before. People tend to do things that aren’t normal for them, especially when they love someone, like for you getting nervous around Y/n.” She said, hoping Peter would connect the dots.

“Omg” he mumbled under his breath. There it is. The light bulb had just gone off, and man it was bright, even May saw it.

“What do I do?” He asked. Peter had never been in love before, let only have someone love him back.

“Do what you think feels right in the moment, trust me.” She said, smiling at her nephew, who nodded his head and turned to leave the room when he heard his aunts voice again.

“Oh and Peter?” He turned back around to face his aunt.

“She really does love you”

“Thanks for all your help May, I’ll be home soon, I promise” he told her as he headed to the door.

“Good luck!” She yelled as she heard the front door close.

Peter texted you, asking if it was ok for him to come over. He didn’t want to just barge in, especially without you knowing.

Once he got your apartment, your mom let him in, making him aware that you were in your room.

As Peter opened the door to your room, he caught sight of you. You hair slightly blowing in wind, the hoodie you had on (that was definitely Peter’s), and how you shivered in the cold as you sat on your fire escape. He wasted no time going over to the fire escape, sitting down next to you.

“Hey, I didn’t hear you come in” you told him, your eyes never leaving his.

Peter chuckles at your obliviousness.

“It’s fine, I just got here anyway” at that, you smiled. Dang was he cute in his Midtown High sweatshirt.

“Hey so I wanted to talk to you about something,” he started, the nerves in his stomach becoming more evident by the second. Peter came here for one reason, and if he was going to accomplish it, he had to do it (even if he was petrified).

“What’s up?” You asked as you shifted so you could face him.

“Ok—” he took a deep breath. “I don’t really know how to say this, and for the record I’m really nervous—” you cut him off.

“Hey, you can tell me anything, there’s no reason to be scared. You know I’m always hear for you. Just breath.” You told him as you gently grabbed his hands, taking them in your own as you gave them a reassuring squeeze.

You knew Peter pretty well, which meant that you could tell when he was really nervous about something. Therefore, you were able to tell right away that whatever this was, even though you had a pretty good idea of what it was, it was really important to him.

Peter took one last deep breath before going with his gut and kissing you, and he was glad he did. All of Peter‘s nerves washed away when your lips touched, almost like magic.

You froze when Peter’s lips touched yours, but once over the initial shock, you kissed him back.

When you pulled away from each other, an silence fell over the two of you. But it wasn’t awkward, it was comfortable. You had a smile on your face, and so did Peter.

“That was, um, not what I was expecting” you explained, breaking the silence. You had a huge smile on your face, letting Peter know it was a good unexpected moment.

“I love you” he finally said, only making your smile grow bigger. Your heart was beating out of your chest, but it was so worth it.

“I love you too”

[chevvy-yates]

Have you done other cosplay other than CP77?

Ive always been interested in cosplaying but never found a way to explain to my parents about it... they think it's weird and I never got into it. As an adult in my mid/late 20s now, I feel like it's too late for me to start

Sure. I started to cosplay around 2005. I haven't done that many, tho because sewing/crafting process took me longer and longer the newer the costumes got with me having less and less time (first still in school, then lots of time during my studies and almost none when I started working). Btw my mum found it weird as well but in the end she was proud of what I did. She's still showing people my last/newest ones and just asked me yesterday when I do sth again. Also it is never too late to cosplay. I'm in my 30s now and I really want to pick it up again. I still have a small list of what I wanna do. So feel free to start any time! :) Also it doesn't matter if you buy the costume or you sew it yourself (the latter is more win for you when you finally finish it and can be proud of it that you did all that).

Well where to start?

I've started with J-Rock/Visual Kei cosplay. The scene was pretty big back then in my country (Germany) until 2012 when it got nearly extinct bc people started talking mean behind backs (also K-Pop taking over …) and it got lots of drama (kindergarten behavior). I continued on but then I got back into playing video games and thought, alright I'm gonna do some games cosplay, too!

I've done only three and they cost me over 600 bucks to make each: Arno Dorian from Assassin's Creed Unity, My oc Inqusitor Lavellan from Dragon Age Inquisition and Triss Merigold from The Witcher III. I've got no good photo from the last tho, and I felt somewhat awkard bc it was my first female cosplay ever — done only male characters before, felt weird, idk. Still want to wear it one day again to get some good shots that all the hard work was worth it.

My Visual Kei cosplays were mostly Kuina from Royz and Kyotaro from √eight and I did one of my beloved Hizumi (not my cp77 oc) from D'espairsRay. I did a few others but they are not worth mentioning.

chronologically order: left is me, right the original, I'll link videos if a music video is available for the jrock stuff.

KYOTRARO (Vocalist of √eight) (every) Taro cosplay (I'll only show this one bc the others are not worth it) was mirrored from the hair (and contacts), tho. I loved this one, I was very very close to the original I think. Kyotaro-san still has a special place in my heart. <3

YOSHIATSU (Vocalist of CrazyShampo (later DADAROMA)) when I wanted to be a cute anime boy or sth like that.

KUINA (Guitarist of Royz) — Haru no Yoru no Yume FYI: V-Kei bands often had an outfit for a single they did a video for and during that time they changed their hairstyles like once a week, therefore there's always a slight difference in the hair colors/styles/contacts/makeup. Also back then it was super annoying to get high res photos. V-Kei cosplayers mostly made their costumes from scartch using tiny pixel pics the band members uploaded to their ameba blogs back then.

Version 1

Version 2

KUINA (Guitarist of Royz) — AREA Still one of my favorites, ahhh.

KUINA (Guitarist of Royz) — Starry Heaven was a whole pain to find fitting patterns and to sew as well.

Arno Dorian – Assassins Creed Unity (Elise Reveal Trailer Version) Arno is my baby. Idk how many times I watched the trailer trying to analize the friggin' seams on his coat. the coat alone has over 40 single pieces to sew together.

Hizumi (ex-Vocalist of D'espairsRay, now in NUL.) – FINAL CALL There's two versions, the official from shoots and the live version – I did the last where Hizu had this fluffy hair <3 (klick the link). Didn't look like it was much of work, but I ordered fabric to be printed for this … expensive stuff, ugh. everything except the pants and bracelets is selfmade (yes even the belt).

Inquisitor Lavellan – Dragon Age Inquisition I just realized I have no real screenshot of my cutie elf wearing this outfit how I sewed mine together. It's kind of a mix of the outfit my human oc had along with my elf oc lol – I'm sorry.

Triss Merigold – The WItcher III Sadly only a selfie, ugh. Definitely doesn't do the costume justice – blood, swaet and tears were put into this costumes thrice as much as I already did with Arno and Lavellan. I punched the pattern into leather myself what you can see on the vest. everything leather was also dyed all by myself.

I mean:

Triss' outfit is my true maserpiece, so far. proud af

Wow compared to all my former cosplays my CP77 cosplay is nothing against that bc I didn't sew a thing for it, I just combined stuff together. But it is so satisfying when you don't have to prepare half of a year with a deadline to go to a convention being totally exhausted from a sewing marathon that lasted 3 months straight, each evening after work and all day on the weekends (therefore I stopped some day).

Okay done :,D

[dragonshoard]

Shdhf here’s most of the other drawins! M gonna be workin on sm digital ones tmrw probably but these are the traditional ones i did in my free times :>

(Btw these were all done yesterday morning/afternoon, so more visible/harsh scarring than i’d now draw with the new info u gave me)

Honestly, since u havent posted a ref/in depth description i jus went with whatever i thought might be likely(shoeless because grew out of them+couldnt get any in the pits, tho im guessing she likely has shoes in the au shfg- also scarring on the chin cause i thought ‘damn what if she smacked her face into the floor while trying to get away’) tho obv i’d draw it differently with any new info. The ‘Jinx’ carving into the collar was also jus me being like ‘damn dont they smtms do that to dogs in fighting rings?? Thatd be fucked up lol’ so like,, feel free to ignore it shdhf

Anyway! Away from the doodles! I am jus,, fuckin burstin with questions mate- ur au’s so cool!! U dont have to answer any of em tho dw sjdjf

So does vi show up well post!pits or do her n cait investigate the pits n see jinx? Im assuming its post based on ur comment of them takin a while to show up since things happen differently, but i felt like askin anyway :p

Does fighter!jinx still tinker/build stuff?? Ik u said she would never touch bombs n such(which, understandable. That sounds like jus askin to be triggered tbh)- but if/when she meets up with ekko does she maybe help with buildin them stuff? Makin/repairin hoverboards, makin guns- or maybe knives n such? Idk what skills u’re givin her dhdgdb

Oh, and with ur first post on this au, im assuming jinx escapes at 15? Can i ask how old she was when silco first gets her? Does she spend a lot of time after escaping just hiding out and ekko happens upon her by accident? Does she gain any injuries while escaping? Does she stay with the firelights when she meets them or does she only visit so as to not draw silco towards them too much? Does silco have specific people hunting jinx down(say, her handlers from the pits, or sevika?) or is it jus like,, everyone in his empire is on high alert for her n everyones to go after her if they see her?

And speaking of sevika- whats her opinion of all this? I mean, obv im guessing shes in favor of whatever silco wants, but do u think she ever felt guilt/regret over tossing vander n his kids to the wolves(literally, in powders case) or does she jus,, not care??

And a final thought(im so sorry i jus realized how many questions this is dhdhdhv)- with jinx’s seeming penchant/willingness to bite anyone n everyone(jus based off the mention of biting the animal-turned-shimmer!monster she fought + her desire to bite silcos hand) does she ever get muzzled?? Or nah??

kjnkdjfnkj i love the pics!! Nah any creative liberties you took are cool to see! I’m still having a hard time drawing Jinx so I was practicing before I could actually post any art refs. 

“Jinx” would be inscribed in the collar if Silco was a pure asshole, but as cruel as he seems in this AU, he doesn’t actually see her as a dog or a pet despite what everyone thinks. He wants her by his side eventually and sees everything that he’s done (towards the last year or two) as a means of “freeing” her. Oh and she does have shoes. They’re falling apart, but they exist xD Not the best idea to fight barefoot on metal. 

And I can totally see the logic behind the scarring. It doesn’t help that she is malnourished, especially in those first few years, so her healing wasn’t very efficient. But, surprisingly, her face is not as marked up as you think it would be after 5-6 years. It’s the rest of her body that’s got an impressive collection. 

(He visits her pretty often towards the end, talking to her and braiding her hair, and it sucks because Jinx naturally wants to not be alone, but also hates the bastard with everything in her. She’d have Stockholm syndrome in this au if it wasn’t for the voices)

Vi is gonna have a straight up heart attack the minute she’s close enough to see the scarring. It’s pretty extensive on her upper body, despite how most of it is pretty faint (barring a few bigger scars) and it’s enough to tell Vi that Jinx has had a rough couple of years. 

I’ll be honest, when I first posted about this AU I thought Powder was 10 in Act 1 and 16 in Act 2-3. Apparently she was 11-12 and 17-18, respectively, so that ruins things a bit xD 

So for sake of keeping it mostly canon, she is roughly 11 when she’s captured by Silco and 17 when she gets free. It won’t be Vi and/or Cait who comes to save her though (I’m actually writing her escape right now so I think I’ll keep quiet on the ‘how’. It’s gonna be appropriately tragic xD). But she does get about a year of freedom before Vi and Cait go into to the undercity. And they show up because she’s messing with Silco’s stuff and leaving a very noticeable trail of destruction behind her. The firelights may or may not be getting caught in the crossfires of her crusade. Ekko is desperately trying to find her (take her in), but for a long while she is absolutely convinced that he’s working with Silco so avoids him like the plague (but doesn’t seriously hurt him or his out of respect for who he used to be to her). 

Speaking of Silco, he absolutely is having multiple people hunting her down. Everyone in his circle has a “report if found, do not engage” order while a select few lead capture attempts. He’s very aware that, as her target, she will eventually come at him so he fortifies himself the best he can. He’s ALSO very aware that she is much stronger than most of his lackies, so knows not to attempt a “capture on sight” order.

As for Sevika... I’ll be honest, I don’t think she gives a damn what happens to the girls. She was perfectly fine with a bunch of kids dying for the undercity, so I don’t see why she would care about Powder being put into the Pits.  Personally, I think Sevika is in favor of getting rid of her and makes her opinion to Silco very known. Jinx was a danger to them if she ever escaped and Sevika was well aware. She also knew that Silco was soft enough for the kid that he would give her leniencies that might lead to said escape (she’s not wrong). 

On another note, Jinx does eventually learn to love building things again. She’ll start building at first out of necessity (her guns aren’t gonna come from thin air, ya know), then because she remembers her passion for it. She is going to be very scared for a while, but eventually learns to get that part of her back. No explosives, but there are plenty of other things to make. In the future, she does spend a lot of time with Heimerdinger once he comes to the undercity/Zaun and he sort of takes both her and Ekko under his wing. He understands she’s been hurt for a very long time and there used to be a part of her that loved to invent, so he does his best to support her interest and catch her up on what she’s missed over the years. 

Personally, I think he’ll encourage her to go back to the basics and start her off on small things like those butterflies/animals before moving onto bigger things, but Jinx would probably try to jump right into the deep end (she would be building guns at this point, it couldn’t be that difficult - said Jinx). Not sure if that works out for her yet. This post is a bit long, so I’ll talk about her skill a bit later (but it does change over time). 

Ekko... I’m on the fence with him. There’s going to be so much guilt and anger there for a long time. Once she realizes he’s not with Silco, Jinx just wants him to forget about everything that’s happened and go back to the way they used to be (desperate to re-claim the very few good things she has left in this world), but that just can’t happen. 

I’m a timebomb shipper. I want them to be together if Jinx is shipped with anyone in this AU, but I don’t know if I’ll actually put her with anyone. She’s got a lot to work on personally (not even looking at her mental health issues) and I’m not sure if pairing her with Ekko is what’s best for the both of them. 

-- oh no you’re giving me ideas with the muzzle ahh. But really, I could see it happening the first year or two before she’s permanently fitted with a shock collar. By that point, I think she’s learned when to bite and when to punch or kick. 

[familyagrestefanblog]

Miraculous Shanghai theories and analysis

All those leaks and informations we got for the Shanghai special caught my interest BIG TIME and I wanted to post my theories and thoughts before it airs.

Just as a warning, I wrote all of this yesterday before the new promo poster got released this morning but fortunately it's doesn't disprove anything I'm about to say.

So let's go!

Let's start with my tamest theory of this post to clear the track for the batshit craziness that gonna follow: The Peacock miraculous will be involved in the Shanghai special as well.

This doesn't necessarily mean that we will see Mayura but at the very least the Peacock miraculous will be brought up.

I'm certain of this because of two things:

1. The specials logo

It's nothing wild. The yin-yang is obviously Ladybug and Chat Noir and when we cross out the other rainbow colors of the Renling promo pic we are left with two colors: Hawkmoths purple and Mayuras blue.

And 2. In a trailer we saw Gabriel in an old ruin which definitely could be the Guardian temple before Ladybug restores it in "Feast" (the special takes place somewhere in between s2 and s3 so that checks out).

Maybe he goes back to where they found their two miraculous and the Grimoire and then checks out the ruins (cuz honestly why not?) or maybe he is on his way to the creepy underground place. We will see.

Okay but now, let's start with the good stuff! :D

I'm putting it under "continue reading" because it's quite alot and it gets... specific lol

Let's continue with the Renlings and the fact that this time around we are not going to get a new Miracle Box but they are all combined into ONE Miraculous.

That may sounds incredibly overpowered and out of nowhere without context but I think I might now what we are looking at.

The Renlings were called the Kwamis "cousins" so we have to go back to the Chinese Zodiac our Miracle box is based on, because it isn't only made of 12 animals. Cause our 12 animals are also segmented under 8 guardians of the zodiac. And how many Renlings to we get? 8.

Four of these Zodiac guardians are assigned to 2 animals and the other four guard one.

They are segmented as the following:

Thousand Hands Guan Yin - Rat

Akasagarbha Bodhisattva - Ox & Tiger

Manjusri Bodhisattva- Rabbit

Samantabhadra Bodhisattva- Dragon & Snake

Mahasthamaprapta Bodhisattva- Horse

Vairochana Buddha - Goat & Monkey

Acalanatha - Rooster

Amitabha Buddha - Dog & pig

But let me get back to this later.

Unfortunately I legitimately can not explain why these particular animals were chosen to represent the guardians. All I can say is that my initial thought still holds up and the monkey, bear, tiger, dragon, mantis, snake, horse and hawk (look im calling it a hawk in this post idk) are all martial art styles. But they neither belong to one group nor is one of the groups complete.

Maybe I just missed something here (which is definitely possible) but I just can't find the reason for these animals for the guardians. Beside the Dragon as most important one of course, but that's a given.

Anyway, let's continue. A detail that can support my zodiac guardian theory is that while we can only see two animal circles in the promo pic entirely, one of the two has ONE DOT in its picture and the other one has TWO.

Signifying for how many Kwamis the one guardian is assigned to? Possibly.

The dragon in the middle is shown with 8 dots all together, that means is it fair to say that the dragon functions as the main guardian that combines them all. That explains why our new girl for the special has a 8-in-1 Miraculous, why her eyes change for each Renling and why she is trained so professionally.

We don't know yet why the Renlings are all put into one Miraculous, since they work differently from the Kwamis, but I have this thought that the Renlings (in their ONE necklace) were created because of what happened to the guardian temple almost 200 years ago.

Countless Miracle Boxes were lost that day and Fu's Box with the Ladybug and Cat were thought so as well. Possibly the Renlings were an attempt to recreate the powers of at the very least the lost zodiac Kwamis. The Dragon was made into the main guardian and is supposed to step in place for the LB and Cat as we can see on its different color coding echoing the yin-yang, but It obviously didn't work and the Renlings neither possess the same powers or can they be put in separate Miraculous nor is the Dragon a healthy replacement for the yin-yang.

But is was a desperate attempt in a situation that was believed to be lost and I find that thought exciting!

(Btw i have a similar theory for the Superheros from the New York special but that's a theory for another day)

Where to continue, where to continue?

Alright let's stay with the 8 Dragon dots because THOSE caught my interest in more than one way.

As I already said, I think the 4 white dots and 4 block ones stand for the 2 types of zodiac guardians, but now let's take a look at the animal circles surrounding the dragon.

We can see the Bear, the Hawk and a bit of another one between the Bear and Chat Noir in addition to the Dragon. These four circles have animal pictures that are completely colored in (just like the dragon brighter dots)

And now look closely at the animal circles around Chats head. Those are not colored in! Just like the other four Dragon dots. So isn't in interesting that they had our two leads basically hide those four particular animal circles? Almost as if there is a reason for this, huh?

And you know, I looked further and maybe I found something here. And for this let's take another look at the Renlings, shall we?

Four of these Renlings have something in common with our two main characters, can you guess what?

I'll give a hint: The eyes.

I compared all the promo picks we got from the Renlings and noticed that:

1. The snake and the horse have blue eyes like Marinette

2. The monkey has green eyes like Adrien

And 3. The Mantis is the only Renling with special eyes like Chat

The other 4 Renlings have brown eyes in different shades.

But this on it own isn't too exciting. So what if some Renlings share the same eyes as our leads? Well, would you believe it? When I filled in the placements of the other animals circles, through a shot we got in the leaks, I noticed that those 4 Renlings that shear their eyes with Marinette and Adrien are ALSO the 4 animal circles our leads just so happen to hide from us.

How interesting

But that not all I got. Not even CLOSE, I'm just getting started here!

Because not only do Marinettes Snake & Horse and Adriens Monkey & Mantis stand out here, oh no, it gets BETTER!

Now let's take the two promo pics from the Renlings we got where they are finished and colorized.

Did you know that both times they are put in the same formation, just with slightly swapped placement among the Renlings?

And once again here one could say "So what? They were lazy while designing the pics, that's it" but NAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH hear me out!

Not only are the Renlings put both times into the same formation, the way they switched their placements isn't random at all:

1. Marinettes Snake and Horse stay both times on exactly the same spot.

2. The tiger and the bear switch places

3. So do the dragon and monkey

4. And the mantis and hawk.

The way the Renlings are shown to us on the promo pics is anything BUT random and that is something that will always get me interested! :D

But you know what? I'm still not done yet. Let's continue with this creepy ass stone door we see Gabriel at

Because as I mentioned, while Marinettes Snake and Horse stay unchanged in their formations, Adriens Monkey and Mantis not only do change places but they aren't paired with another either. So does that mean that Adriens guardian Renlings are just inconsistent? No, not at all. They just have a different meaning and place then Marinettes.

First of all: the Renlings special hair is bright green, just like the color of the tiger (a CAT) on the rainbow scale we got and Adriens/Chats + Monkey & Mantis eyes. And second: in the other promo pic the Renlings have a pink background, just like the rainbow scale color or the Mantis!

Coincidence? I don't care anymore, next point! :D

Because not only THAT but when we take a closer look at the creepy stone door we can make out the placement of every guardian animal as well. And MY, is this fascinating:

As the colors make it clear when you compare these guardian animal door placements to the rainbow scale from the promo pic, here Adriens Monkey & Mantis are in the right places but Marinettes animals are a bit off.

In fact. Everything about the placements of the animals (besides Adriens) are just a bit off.

- Marinettes animals and the bear are almost in the right place just mirror-reversed.

- The Tiger and the Hawk are one place too left.

- And the Dragon shouldn't be in the middle, it should take the place between Adriens animals but it was forced out of position to replace the yin-yang.

But taking the dragon out broke the balance of the animal circle. Everything here is slightly off by one point and that is much more significant than you would initially think. Because when you now turn the whole circle one quarter to the left (there is a reason for it, trust me) and put the dragon back in place then you will get a good part of the picture I've been looking for a long while.

What I'm showing you here are the 4 Chinese creatures of the cardinal directions and they are basically what I would expect to be on the upper layer of a Chinese Miracle box (I'll get to this on another day). And as you can see here, we are basically almost there aren't we?

The tiger of the West and Dragon of the east are in place and while the creature of the North is normally the turtle it is always accompanied by a snake, which is now on the upper place.

"but what about the bear? And a snake is NOT a turtle!" I'm getting to it, my goodness :/

Regarding the bear one thing needs to be said: it is definitely true, the bear is in the wrong place. I don't even know why there is a bear in this formation in the first place and it stuck out to me since day one. The creature of the south is a bird, the HAWK should be here.

But there is a difference between "this thing is in the wrong place and completely random wtf??" and "This thing is in the wrong place but I can see a pattern continuing from other formations that are off as well".

The bear is not only here, it's also:

- alongside the tiger (who is btw suspicious af as well) covering the center points from the Renlings formation that should belong to Adriens animals.

- is with Marinettes animals the only other one that is basically on it right place on the creepy stone door, just mirror-reversed.

-is the new "peak" of the zodiac guardian animal circles because moving the dragon out to the middle left the other ones off-balance and now its kinda tilted to the left. But when we look at the creepy door with not corrected animal placements we see that this was indeed the hawks place. And remember as well, the bear and the hawk are the only two animal circles we see in the promo pic besides the dragon

Meaning in short: That damn bear stole the hawks place and I need it to stop.

Which brings me to the turtle and a whole new can of worms (miraculous should pay me for this omfg...).

Because what if I tell you that the snake, who is normally just accompanying the turtle, being the creature of the north here instead of the turtle is not only "okay enough" it is actually the needed puzzle piece to connect this zodiac Renlings circle with the Chinese Miracle box in the design master Fu had it?

Let me explain

Do you remember when I started talking about the Renlings I said I would come back to the way the rl zodiac guardians are paired with the zodiac animals "later"? Well, later is NOW, because there is one more way those 8 dots from that damn dragon caught my interest and it also explains why I just turned the guardian stone circle one quarter to the left.

Because believe and behold, this is not the only place where things are "slightly off".

A while I started taking closer looks and research on the original miracle box design and the Kwami spirit circle we saw in "Sandboy".

I will try to not go into unnecessary details with this now because all of that needs its own post. I'm already going off the hooks with this one. But just like here I noticed with these two things rather quickly that "things are slightly off, but in a suspiciously systematic way".

Going straight ahead to the example I'm talking about, the order the 12 zodiac animals follow on the side of the box is straight up upside-down. The first zodiac animal is the rat (or mouse) and the last one the pig and YET in the box the rat is right at the bottom and the pig on the top.

This upside down arrangement of the animals results in the wrong animals being the 4 who have a guardian assigned for themselves

The four single miraculous in between the 4 directions are obviously the ones I'm talking about. Here they are Tiger, Snake, Pig, Monkey (I hope you are making a connection here) but that's wrong, as are the other 4x2 ones.

BUT

When we now flip it upside down again, having the rat start on the pigs place and the pig end on the rats, then things suddenly are correct.

Here the rl guardian pairings again:

Thousand Hands Guan Yin - Rat

Akasagarbha Bodhisattva - Ox & Tiger

Manjusri Bodhisattva- Rabbit

Samantabhadra Bodhisattva- Dragon & Snake

Mahasthamaprapta Bodhisattva- Horse

Vairochana Buddha - Goat & Monkey

Acalanatha - Rooster

Amitabha Buddha - Dog & pig

As you can see, now it's correct.

You may wonder what this has to do with the Dragon dots, so lets look at the Kwami spirit circle next.

I've been analyzing and taking this thing apart now for MONTHS now. And while I'm certainly having a blast, the fact that I now officially have an entire FOLDER at home dedicated to this thing alone is quite...

Bruh...

But thankfully we will really only need the basics for this theory here.

Through zooming in and watching the "Sandboy" Kwami spirit World scenes over and over again I was able to figure out the placement of each Kwami.

When you now follow the moons in the middle towards the Kwamis you will notice that only the moon at the top alignes with one and that's DUUSU. The other 4 miss the Kwamis just by a bit.

But remember what I said the entire time. Everything is just slightly off by ONE little factor but when we "fixed" that factor for the stone wall there was still something left that didn't fit. That's because not only are the Shanghai zodiac guardians structures off, it was built on top of a structure that is ALREADY slightly off by another factor!

Something is fundamentally WRONG with Kwami balance in the current ml universe and what I think happened to throw everything off is NOOROO.

Keeping this point short for everybodys sanity, in the french version of "Sandboy" we find out that Nooroo is having his 3500 cycle birthday and him being the Kwami which gets its birthday pointed out is no coincidence. (Guys please just go with me here, I really dont have the strenght to elaborate on this now as well)

So when Nooroo is the factor that brought imbalance to the Kwami system then how does the spirit circle look like WITHOUT Nooroo?

Now THIS is more like it!

Without Nooroo the size of the circle changes slightly all around and now the other 4 moons align with the Dragon, rat, chicken and horse.

And believe it or not, but take a guess what it looks like when we now highlight these 4 Kwamis in the arrangement of the 12 zodiac Kwamis both upside down and correct?

It's the 2 types of Dragon dots.

And let's take this further. When the 12 Zodiac Kwamis are upside down then so is obviously the entire upper layer of the Miracle box as well, which explains why, although the 5 Miraculous places around the yin-yang are based on the 5 chinese elements, the way they are arranged here is once again upside down.

Meaning the yin-yang is upside down as well, but not only that. I always found it weird that the yin-yang here is placed SIDEWAYS when this is not exactly the normal way of showing it.

So when we now turn the yin-yang a quarter to the left and take the 5 Miraculous surrounding it along, we might be closer to the puzzles solution. Because when we now take Nooroo out (as he wouldn't be there when things had gone right) then Fu's miracle box should have looked like this:

Notice 2 things here in particular:

1. Now the Turtle is at the top, which completes the connection between the Renlings Snake and the Kwamis Turtle to create the only creature of the 4 directions that is portrayed with one accompanied: the Turtle of the North.

And while I'm already at it, this is also the reason why Fu's/Ninos Miraculous is the only one that doesn't fit the hero color scheme when activated.

The Turtle of the North is colored BLACK and sometimes with additional white, just like the activated Miraculous.

And 2. Now after being mirror reversed and turned one quarter to the left the Ladybugs and Cats yin-yang isn't sideways anymore and looks EXACTLY like the yin-yang used in the Shanghai promo pictures. Almost like this is the way it is supposed to be or something.

Alright. Ive told you ALOT now but this is precisely the reason why I wanted to post this before the special airs. I'm definitely not entirely right with all of this, there is alot I haven't figured out about these things yet or simply haven't seen yet. What I just showed to you is not anywhere close to done so some questions are still left open.

I wanted to make another point about how the zodiac monkey, mantis and horse are the only 3 Renlings that do not have any symbol on their bodies and how this could connect to the object Hawkmoth has in that one leak

But even i think this is going to far now and I should wait until I watched the special xD

But my point in all of this (and everything I haven't even touched upon here but will in the future) is that everything in s1-s3 was influenced by this fundamental off-balance of the Kwami system that I think was caused with Nooroos creation. Which is very fitting for the Kwami of our main villain I may say. And the fact that these 4 miraculous are also somehow linked to the peacock out of all miraculous gives us an explanation for its villainous usage as well.

I think the Shanghai special will start the exploration of what happened by at least laying down and introducing the most important aspects of this particular topic.

To say that I am TRILLED for this special is quite the understatement and I'm gonna have a BLAST analysing the hell out of its lore!

So I guess there is only one thing left for me to say:

Yo

Miraculous crew

[insomniziam]

Okay I'm ready. I'm the anon from yesterday who lost a whole ass rant. I'm ready to do it again(I'm typing this is the notes app first!!)

So I follow quite few Larry blogs that I love and respect cause they never give any shit about the stunts and defend Harry and louis so fiercely. I really like them for that. But lately they've been getting anon asks about ziam and idk why would people do that?? Like we'd make it very clear if we are ziams. Super crystal clear cause there are few of us(compared to the whole of directioner fandom). Honestly these blogs replied quite civilly like "I don't have any opinion about ziam cause I don't follow them closely" and such which is mature and good. But sometimes after numerous asks things do get heated and they let slip a sentence or two that really hurts. Like someone said the name ziammies is a fucking joke and I know we don't like it either and we'd prefer ziams. But it is so much more different when someone who doesn't believe zayn and Liam say that. And someone else listed all the things that make people believe in Larry and told that for ziam they only know about Zayn posting a selfie with a filter and both of them going blonde after a breakup(?)

It hurts my heart cause there's so much more than that. The casual soft reverent touches. Sharing orange eye ring that Zayn recreated in his like I would mv. Wearing brands that are associated with each other. Zayn fucking tatooing Liam's single cover waaaay before it got announced. Zayn literally having Liam's name and face tatooed on him. The almost kisses. The definite kiss on that dark stage that louis had to transform into on-the-spot cuddle. Eyebrow slits even after all these years. Family's support of the other boys. How they almost let it slip that they got a dog together in 1D day. One missing feather in zayns wing that is conveniently tattooed in Liam's arm with the words I figured it out curling around it. Which are the words to the song you & i which is point blank ziam anthem. It was the only song confirmed by Liam to be played before he let other 1D songs to be chosen by fans to be played at his online gig.

I don't need anyone to validate the "realness" of ziam. They are screaming enough. I'm hearing enough. But I can't tell all these to those blogs cause that bridge is burned and any talk about ziam is soured.

And I can't help but notice this. This is not comparing. I'm a larrie and a ziam. More people recognise Louis' babygate cause it happened with a nobody and people were screaming about his closet. Zayn's happened with a well known model who has a fanbase of her own so she can get away with not showing the baby's face(she "accidentally" revealed it anyway). Jungle family has only he-looks-like-louis-card so they overuse it. Posting baby's pics with ads? Check on both sides. Family members using the baby to promote their life? Check on both sides. Supposed baby mamas posting pics of the baby which gets far more likes than their regular posts? Check on both sides. Zayn likes louis' father announcement post(he rarely likes the boys' pics) and 4 years later louis goes out of his way to like zayns father announcement pic when zouis has never interacted once in those 4 years and there's beef between them?? And that's normal? That's not louis hinting at something amiss with the baby?? That's not enough proof to know that this is babygate 3.0? Liam's is more of a backburner babygate but it's still there. Like he has a baby with reclusive Cheryl and conveniently has one shit Polaroid pic and then bam. She just posts the baby's voice and stuff and that's done?? The common thing btw Liam and Zayn is that they know shit about babies. Liam telling his son can talk good when he was one??? Zayn telling it's really easy to be with a newborn baby?? Sure Jan. This irks me really. Anyway this is my loong looooong rant and I hope this finds you safe :)

Again, I'm so sorry this took me so long to respond to!

I share all of your frustrations, but you can't help people that don't want it, unfortunately, but at least then it's no longer your problem!

Just know that you're not crazy for holding differing beliefs, and you have a legitimate reason to do so. You'll learn that there's no point in having these discussions with people who don't want to listen, and save your time for things you actually love to do!

Again, so sorry this took me so long, I hope you're safe as well! Feel free to come back at anytime 😘

[tuuliii]

The Lord of the Rings, Turku 2018 Part1

Watching the musical stream yesterday got me very sentimental about this play the Turku City Theatre did back in 2018. I saw it three times and it ran from February till December with a two month summer break. Opening night was February 15th on the big stage of the theatre.

The running time of the show was about four hours, with two 20 minute intermissions. It was LONG, but honestly, the time went by so fast you really couldn't tell it was that long.

I've consumed all the media I have been able to find about this thing so let me tell you a little about the production.

Director Mikko Kouki had had a dream about doing LOTR for years so when they decided to apply for the rights, they had no expectations of actually getting them. Then, Tolkien Estate answered "Yeah sure go ahead" and they started planning big time. Apparently they also got the rights for the Hobbit, but the upcoming production has been very secretive so far. They've only shared a couple of Easter eggs on their social media.

The set was huge. Like, the width of the stage is not that great, but it has a lot of depth, so they were able to make awesome things with it. The Black Gates and the Ents for example. I visited the back stage once, and the amount of stuff that was in storage there was mind-blowing. The cast also wasn't that large in number, so pretty much everyone but the main characters had multiple roles. Mainly playing orcs and minor characters.

Here's the cast:

(Frodo, Sam, Merry, Pippin, Gandalf, Aragorn, Gollum, Boromir/Mouth of Sauron, Gimli/Underhill1, Legolas/Tom Bombadil, Bilbo/Gorbat/Haldir/Gatekeeper, Arwen/Goldberry, Galadriel/Vhispering voice, Saruman, Éowyn/Rosie Cotton/Underhill2, Isildur/Shagrat/The voice of the Black Rider, Wormtongue/Barlyman Butterbur/Elrond, The Witch King, The Black Riders, The voice of Treebeard, The voice of Sauron, Elves/Ents/Orcs)

Let me just fangirl about Sam for a second. He was ultimately my favorite hobbit. Hannes Suominen did an amazing job and was perfectly suited for the role. The other hobbits were very good as well. Frodo was adorable and I really liked how they casted the hobbits according to their ages in the books.

Lets start from the beginning now.

The play began with a quick prologue about the history of the ring, how Bilbo found it and of the Last Alliance. The fishing scene with Smeagol and Deagol was also in the prologue. Then we move on to the Shire.

This is Bag End. Bilbo's party was mostly cut, but he leaves and gives the Ring to Frodo. Meanwhile Merry and Pippin spot a black rider and run to Bag End to tell their friends about it.

Gandalf arrives and snatches Sam through the window and sends Frodo on his way. This was very quick, but understandably so. It got the job done and Merry and Pippin were hilarious. (In the actual production, a picture of Tolkien was hanging on the wall of Bag End btw)

Next, they are being chased by a Black Rider and decide to take the shortcut through the Old Forest. The riders looked amazing. They were puppets with a rider standing in the middle on stilts.

This production had TOM BOMBADIL! I really loved that, cause he's usually the first one to get cut, or like in the musical he only got a name drop in the end.

Here he is saving the Hobbits from Old Man Willow. And yeah, there were A LOT of pyrotechnics involved.

I think this scene with Gandalf and Saruman was next. I really loved Saruman, and Gandalf got slammed onto the wall. It was cool. (sorry about the quality)

Then there's Bree and the Prancing Pony, which rose from the firkin floor. I got such bad chills every time. This was the only pic I could find, but this was an amazing scene with lively folk music and lots of drunken people, that kept harassing Frodo. Aragorn ominously smoked his pipe in the corner, till Frodo put the ring on.

Here, the Hobbits are trying to decide weather to trust the Strider or not. (From left to right: Merry, Pippin, Frodo, Sam)

Then, Frodo is stabbed at Weathertop and Strider sets a couple of Black Riders on fire. Like...he actually set their clothes on fire...

Anyway, they reach Bruinen with the help of Arwen, who conveniently replaces Glorfindel again. The black riders get swept away and Frodo is rescued. Also the elves of Rivendell had colorful hair and I'm all in for that:D

Then becomes this sus scene with Aragorn and Arwen. Aragorn is in love with her (obviously), but this Arwen is a little reluctant to give away her immortality and marry him. Aragorn proposes to her and she literally says "No❤️". Aragorn is heartbroken for a second but then we move on to the council of Elrond.

Here's the Fellowship. Arwen and Elrond on the back with Bilbo.

This is where act 1 ended.

Act 2 starts in the snow storm in the mountains and the Fellowship decides to go through Moria. Here are the gates. Very bad picture, but that was the only one I could find.

Moria goes pretty much according to book. Pippin does dumb shit and the orcs are woken. Their cave troll looked like a literal Michelin man, but the Balrog made up for that. Pity there aren't any pictures of it, but it was super cool. There was fire everywhere and the puppet looked really scary. I petted it, when I visited the back stage; from close up, it was very cute.

Apparently only 10 pics are allowed per post so part two and maybe three are needed. Part 2 starts with Lothlórien.

[medli20]

I saw Brendan and have rarely been so instantly infatuated with a character. Will you be dropping more lore about him? How did Curse of Strahd go?

Thanks anon, I’m so glad you like him! I’m always unsure about posting about my OCs since I’m worried about coming off too self-absorbed whoops. BUT SINCE YOU ASKED 👀👀👀👀

Curse of Strahd is still ongoing-- we’re fairly close to being done though. Our DM estimates that we have anywhere between 5-10 sessions left before the end of the campaign. I’ll go into more detail about the campaign (spoilers included), Brendan lore, and a lot of art/sketches under the cut. CW: blood/dismemberment, mentions of abuse:

(☝ the status icon we use in our campaign on Roll20 to keep track of who has Bardic Inspiration btw)

So before becoming an adventurer, Brendan was a violinist in the Neverwinter Philharmonic. He’d always lived a pretty sheltered life since he was born to two human parents, and his mother was ashamed of how “un-normal” he was. 

Joining the orchestra gave him the opportunity to actually socialize with other people, and-- surprise, surprise-- he was actually pretty good at it. Doing so helped him realize that the way his mother treated him was NOT in fact the norm, and that he should probably move out, like, yesterday. He also realized that despite his best efforts, the orchestra was not in fact giving him the recognition and individual attention that he was craving. After being assigned to the “boring” 2nd violin parts one too many times, he quit his job and hit the road to try and make it big elsewhere-- clearly Neverwinter’s music scene had too much competition to be able to stand out. He needed somewhere to grow.

So upon leaving the city border, he was almost immediately accosted by a starving owlbear that chased him up a tree. Trapped and unequipped to deal with the situation, he did the only thing he could think of in the heat of the moment: scream and hurl insults at it.

Well anyway, the owlbear died and Brendan immediately leveled up 3 times, at which point we actually started playing the campaign.

Anyway CoS stuff started happening, and Brendan immediately becomes attached to the grannies in the old mill, because we’re not playing exactly according to source material and they’re actually really sweet in our DM’s version of the game instead of being overwhelmingly obviously evil. Ireena is there, and while Brendan and the rest of the party was initially super excited about finding her a safe place to live, lately he’s starting to have some second thoughts. 

Anyway at some point or another the party arrives in Vallaki and nearly burn the orphanage down while dealing with the shadow-thing that was living in it. The police arrive and we all put on our best liar faces to try to talk our way out of the situation when we meet Izek.

Turns out our DM re-wrote him to be less of an asshole and more of a friendly supportive Chad of an older brother who has been having dreams of watching Brendan grow up. He’s absolutely thrilled to find out that this pink tiefling is actually real and not the product of an overly-active imagination.

Then more campaign stuff happens, Izek quickly becomes a party favorite, and Oh No! Strahd shows up and starts wrecking shit in Vallaki!! So obviously this is too much for a group of level 5 adventurers, and we run to the biggest, strongest NPC we know and ask Big Bro for help.

Well, tl;dr: Strahd took Izek’s cool demon arm off and Izek very nearly died. Brendan blames himself for this.

(yeah, we uh, might’ve immediately fucked with the suspicious caged cart near the coffinmaker’s house)

(we also did not side with the Wachters.)

So obviously we all feel bad about Izek losing his arm, but also I’m an asshole when it comes to fictional characters and drew our party dabbing while Izek looks mournfully on, completely dab-less:

Anyway all sorts of miscellaneous shit happens including way too many people mispronouncing the word “brazier” 

And Brendan (the kissless virgin) miscalculating with Dimension Door, leading to a painful, awkward moment with Ezmeralda.

Our Eldritch Knight, Korag, also came with a couple NPC retainers as part of his background feature, and one of them in particular has been falling into a deeper and deeper spiral of self-loathing because the entire party (except our Cleric, Diana) bullies him mercilessly. We’re awful people.

And then we went to the Amber Temple. Brendan’s fortune was there so he ended up getting pulled into a tentacle-sarcophagus where he had bad dreams about being at home in Neverwinter with his mother, who would physically beat him whenever he underperformed in her eyes. I’ve already posted this pic on Tumblr but it’s relevant so here it is again:

Reviewing your marks from yesterday’s lesson, an icy pit forms in your stomach as you hear a noise from the hallway.

It’s far too early for this. You haven’t even had the time to make yourself presentable.

It’s Her.

Cons: He got dream-stabbed by a bizarre corrupted version of his mother and now he has a weird necrotic hole in his chest.

Pros: He got a sick new cantrip out of it.

Oh also we met a lich who took all this info and was able to deduce that Brendan isn’t actually a tiefling and his mom isn’t actually human.

Anyway we’ve just recently made it out of the Amber Temple since then and now we’re off to wrap up a couple more things before we head off to Castle Ravenloft to kick Strahd’s ass and (hopefully) find Ireena someplace safe to live.

other tidbits:

He actually has hooved feet and is designed to walk on his hoof-toes, but he’s extremely self-conscious about it and is still hung up about looking “abnormal” so he just kinda crams his feet into human shoes and forces himself to walk around on his heels.

He’s gay but suuuuuuuuper in denial/closeted. He has a huge crush on an oboist in the Neverwinter Philharmonic, but he chalks it up to it being admiration for a fellow musician.

(IDK IF THIS WILL SHOW UP PROPERLY; IT’S ALL FUZZY AND PIXELLATED AAA)

if the above image doesn’t display correctly I’ve also got a link here

Anyway that is my pink boi and WOW this ended up being a long post

[ofallthingsnasty]

Omg yes PLEASE steal my ideas. I'm far better at making up crazy scenarios than I am at actually writing- please don't be embarrassed if you do read my fics. Also, my medical knowledge is mostly fantastical ideas so don't be ashamed 👉👈 LOL.

YES YES! He'd have polaroids of all his trials; just assorted pics of you with various ailments caused by him. He probably keeps an x-ray of your chest in his wallet- it's almost romantic. In a total freak way anyway. Omg waking up and he's had to cut off a limb or something and you're in pain and he's like "Dw I'll fix it...later." Literally endless possibilities.

Kai after you find out he's done yet another traumatizing experiment on you: ^_^

Yes 🥺🥺🥺 When you first meet he kicks apart your legs and sneers at you. You probably faint as he moves closer which makes it even easier for him to get Hari to scoop you up and take you to the base. You'd wake up with your arms strapped down and an ache between your legs- he's already put a catheter in seeing as you can't be trusted and you cleaaaarly have something wrong with you anyway. He'd have you set up with an IV and everything. It's kind of sweet you know? He could be killed you but here he is, taking the time out of his busy schedule to fix you.

My archiveofourown username is BabyDuck 👉👈 I'm really not a good writer but I have a bazillion more screwed up Overhaul thoughts if you wanna hear them- Like I think he'd have a certain affinity towards the high lithotomy position 👁️👁️

BabyDuck ao3 - everyone come and get your Overhaul darkfic!!!

ahjsha I kinda figured it was you omg!! After I answered that ask yesterday I went on ao3 to search up some Overhaul/Reader watersports works (you know, gotta read other people's takes dhsjadhsj) -- and you have the piss niche cornered on there!! I skimmed over His Doll (which, gorgeous btw!!) and I saw Kai thinking about leaving in the catheter and I just- I had a hunch because I've only seen it from your ask and that fic haha 💖💖💖 Now I feel like some weird Sherlock Holmes -- and I'll definitely need to sit down and read them all properly because they all sound so interesting. Like, really unique (and SO hot hehe) - also you're not a bad writer at all, omg!! I followed you just now haha tw. piss and malpractice

I'll definitely credit your ao3 when I post it, you're a fucking genius 😳 Thank you so much for letting me, I've already started re-reading the Overhaul arc this morning, I gotta pour myself into this asap 💖 Also- if you ever wanna do more in-depth reading into anything medical, look up textbooks on libgen.rs! My dental textbooks are waaay too expensive for me to buy, I download them 'legally' from there - it's free and safe and they even have my german dental school books!! Medical slang is pretty easy to learn, even if it feels overwhelming at first! You'll be talking in tongues in no time haha And omg yes of course the pictures! During surgery, afterward, during recovery and once you're all healed up again - he shoves that obnoxious giant thing into your private parts, into your face - everywhere. You'll never have privacy again - and now he even documents it, for the next generations to ogle at. He'll dutifully fill out his reports and sometimes even try to explain all the procedures to you - using dumbed-down language that makes you feel like a child. Also - just the teeniest bit that immediately got me thinking about him during my research yesterday - the insertion area of Foley catheters has to be cleaned twice a day, not to mention changing the bags etc - he'd make SUCH a fuss about it, just another excuse to put you down but he secretly loves it (and obviously completely ignores that you could it yourself hehe) - and of course he'd pick up your outfits for you, because you can't wear skinny jeans with a catheter, no? Sometimes the skirts are just a little too short or the bag is taped a little further down your thigh so that its edges peek out -basically parading your source of humiliation around. 😳 The kicking the legs apart is so perfect 💖 You're wet and scared and miserable and he's soooo angry and you think he's going to kill you just like the rest hmmm 🥴 Delicious! That very first awakening would be so terrifying, but he'd be all fake-sweet at first - until you get loud/ask the wrong questions 💖 Hhhhh I'm full of so much Overhaul thoughts now, goodness 🥴 Omfg he'd love that position 🤭 Perfect access to all of your most important parts hehe And yes please!! You can tell me everything you wish - I just know it'll be the best!!

[dolls-and-cats]

December photo challenge, day 12: magic!!!

Y'all, this is the day of the Dollidays I have most been looking forward to!!!

Using tutorials from @desertdollranch, I was able to change poor-condition Kirsten to thousands-of-hours-of-playtime-left Kirsten!!!! That is some magic I am super excited about.

More below the fold.

Content warning: picture of her head separated from her body while receiving medical care

So, several things needed to be done for Kirsten. She had dark gray marks on her nose and cheeks and all four of her limbs. My wife said she looked like an orphan chimney sweep. My guess is that they were hardcore black marker and that the previous owner had made attempts to get them off before selling...so they were gray but pretty dark.

Her hair was matted and I thought would require a hot water treatment.

Her limbs were loose and one leg popped all the way off soon after I got her.

The marks - A few paint-pen marks came off with rubbing alcohol, but the black marker spots have been harder. Kirsten has been out in the sun with acne cream for 5 days now, and the spots on her limbs and nose have come all the way off. The spots on her cheeks are still faintly visible, so I put her out in the sun again today (after taking pics with the reindeer).

I got really worried about some visible circles on her cheeks - worried that I had damaged the paint. But it was just residue from the acne cream! Whew! I had wiped it off with a wet washcloth instead of an alcohol wipe. I was very relieved when the residue shown below came off last night with alcohol.

Hair - I thought she was going to need a hot water dunk like my Kaya, but actually, when I patiently brushed her hair out with water and braid spray, it's totally fine. So no repair there.

Limbs- Her restringing kit arrived yesterday. I tightened three of her limbs using the rubber band method and restrung the one leg that had popped off. (Should I admit that I did all the work of clamping the elastic and the white plastic half-spheres on either side of her hip socket without actually attaching her leg?  :-/ Small but kind of important detail! I had to cut the elastic and start over.)

So we're down to details now. Besides trying to get out the remaining gray, I'm going to sew her some pantalettes, and I bought her a sunbonnet off of etsy. I'm looking forward to printing out the certificates of merit and paper dolls from desertdollranch's craft post. I might sew her a simple Santa Lucia dress too but I have not committed to that yet. Trying to keep this project in the realm of feasibility, amid other holiday projects.

But I'm really, really proud of myself for learning these cool new skills. One bridge I haven't crossed yet in doll repair is eyeball replacement....I had the bad experience with the Molly I was working on. For now I have put her aside for the Kirsten project, but at some point I'll buy more eyes and try again with Molly. (The eye isn't sitting in the head properly and I don't know if that is an eye problem or a head problem. Note to self not to become a surgeon).

I'm going to try to get Kirsten in the mail in a few days for a kiddo who has been reading lots of the AG books and is particularly enamored with Kirsten. I originally thought she wanted Molly, and then my wife clarified that the kiddo most wants Kirsten. Then my wife said "I really don't think it matters". I'm grateful for y'all, AG tumblr, since clearly I live with someone who is #notadollperson.

I remember loving the Kirsten books so much when I first read them (and I recently re-read two of them). I really wanted a Kirsten when I was a kid. I love having the skills to make this happen for someone else. I've been enjoying the doll repair for me and I hope the kiddo who receives her will really enjoy her.

Btw Kirsten can stand so much better now than the standing holiday decoration deer, who kept tipping over while I was trying to take this.......

[facepalming-since-chernobyl]

If you ever want to write a full account of your hospital stay, I'm so here for it. I want it all: the farts, the grannies, the fighting over windows, the other weirdos, why you want to murder the doctor and how your fam will help you get away with it, the works. Start writing while I grab the popcorn! 🍿

Ok, don’t remember what I have said here already, so I’ll give a full story plus some flashbacks from my childhood.

-I got 4 grannies in my room, the average age: 65+

-granny number one: ultra Catholic, made a cross on my forehead (I was so shocked, I didn’t say a shit, aside of screaming in my head – woman?! Covid restrictions?! Keep your distance?!), a farmer woman (one day she just said that when she wants a chicken soup, she goes outside, catches the chicken, chops the head and make a soup – the faces of the other grannies - PRICELESS), praying in weird moments, instead of sweat pants, wearing dress shirts and dress pants (and you know, we were doing physical exercises there???), loving dirty jokes and making them A LOT,

-granny number two – tiny old sweet lady (she was like 80 something years old?), usually sitting in the corner or on the balcony and praying silently, she was like Catholic kamikaze, she sometimes was sitting on the balcony and praying for FIVE HOURS, oh, and once shitted her pants

-granny number three – ex school director, Miss Ooooow, Ooooow, came with 2 suitcases and occupied ½ of the wardrobe (for example, I managed to put all my things in my night stand), was very surprised I came with so little clothes and was washing them, was crying when she had to wash her hair because she always goes to hairdresser…

-granny number four – on a wheelchair, my best pal, making her own cigarettes at evenings on the canteen (a place where the meals were served, close to the balcony), as much done with the other ladies as I was,

-our room were filled with weird Turkish soap operas (the first time they turned the television on some Mahmud wanted to kill some Bahar and the dialogues were so cringy I had to check if it was a real show and surprisingly it was). Every day after I was evacuating my ass to the canteen or to the balcony where I was reading (I’ve finished 19 books and my ass still hurts because of the fucking hard chairs).

-if it was not a Turkish soap opera, it was Polish News on the public channel (Imagine FOX news), so every fucking day when it was played, the traitors of Polishness and Polish tradition and the only good ruling party like me, were gathering in the canteen. We were like a few folks (me, the granny number 4 and some dude doing crosswords and having super high blood pressure, mostly because all dudes from his room were watching the news and agreeing with everything what was said there)

-food, examples

-so I was not eating too much, so granny number one made a cross on my forehead and blessed me, so I would eat more and have a strength to give birth to children – I shit you not

-when I said I don’t want children – they almost had a collective heart attack. I decided to not reveal my other social, religion and political opinions, because I would be strangled to death in my sleep by a rosary one night

-one day I was stupid too much and didn’t leave the room while they were watching Polish Fox News and while half listening to the bullshit I probably made a fuck-my-life-face. When they ask what I was thinking about, my, a fucking idiot, said that about the vanity of life. They almost got another collective heart attack and almost ran to the nurses, no idea why but whatever

-Granny number 3, was afraid of other people snoring, because she had problems with sleep. In the end she was the one who snored the loudest

-there was an opening/closing the windows war. Granny 1 had sick lungs and asthma and whatever so was always closing the window because she was getting pneumonia and oh my god, while Granny 3 had problems with breathing, was suffocating and oh my God, so she was always opening the window. Granny number 3 was always opening the window while other already left for the meals, while Granny number 1 was always returning first and complaining SOMEONE was trying to kill her with the cold air and closing the windows. HILAROUS stuff

-on the end of the first week I ACCIDENTALLY broke a small window that was situated on the top, a window that supposedly was not meant to be open, so for the next 2 weeks we had a window opened ALL the time. Don’t ask why no one called some dudes to fix it, I have no idea, but thanks to it I survived the nights full of symphonies of farts

-that one day they gave us beans for the dinner and boy, you can only imagine

-one day we got a meat chops with a crispy batter. If you added the batter on the bottom to the batter on the top of the meat, they were thicker than meat itself

-all soups tasted the same. One day they gave us a soup and I was SURE it was a pickled cucumber soup and I was AMAZED that they managed to make it without cucumbers. Then I have learnt it was a sorrel soup *sad music in the background*

-the grannies loved to motherhen me for some reason. For example, I was sitting politely in the canteen, reading another fucking book, when one of them came and said I should not read so much, it’s unhealthy and they are worried about me. I was blinking for 30 seconds, wondering if laughing like a mad hyena would make them having another collective heart attack. In the end I just mhm-ed and continued reading.

-later I have learnt they were behaving like that, because they thought I was in middle school…

-basically, I was the youngest person on the ward and some nurses and other patients felt sorry for me because I didn’t have anyone in my age to talk… and I was like… why the fuck I should have been feeling sad? I could read and NOT TALK??? Also, or reading or murdering the grannies with a plastic spoon in their sleep, so thank you very much, leave my ass alone.

-on one dinner I basically ate pasta with pepper, because the spinach, guys, the spinach was awful and I’m not going to traumatize you with the pic

-I had a deal with the crosswords dude during breakfasts and suppers – was giving him ham and cold meat, he was giving me jam

-the Granny number one was SLEEP SINGING one night

-two days per every week some farmer was coming and selling his vegetables and fruits. Guys, all patients were buying food there, for sure I was weeping while buying plums, apples and tomatoes.

-Granny number three was super annoying and acting like a bitch aka typical ex school director, because when she wanted to watch something in TV at night, she always did even if the others were upset, but when she wanted to go to sleep at 9 she owww owwww owwwwed and was turning the lights off. So, sometimes I was returning at 9 to the room and it was dark. And there were no night bedside lamps, so it meant you needed to go to sleep too. At fucking 9.

-the face of one dude who was eating with us on one table was always priceless every time when he was opening the boxes. It was a personification of a man who was done, crying inside and knowing he can’t escape

-the most traumatizing experience after my hip surgery was PEEING. The nurse brought me a bed pan and I needed to pee while laying on my back and it was weirdly difficult, maybe because the nurse was standing over me, talking to another patient. Also, I can’t imagine taking a shit while laying, but whatever. On one moment after like a minute me trying hard, she put a hand on my stomach and said, oh so hard. My face was probably a mix between: ==’ and O.O. But in the end I succeeded, yay…

-another traumatizing experience is measuring the temperature every morning around 6. You know, you are sleeping, but suddenly feel some movement, so you open your eyes and a nurse, wearing a mask is aiming a thermometer that looks like a gun at your forehead. Amazing feeling

-I talked with some dude who had the same surgery aka hip removal, but he was not sleeping so he herd everything, and said how blood was gushing all over the place and the surgeons and the nurse was bringing the artificial hips three times, because the surgeons were not sure if they are the good ones. FUN

-btw, the first time when I saw a dead body was in a hospital. There was a ward where one room was for children, the rest was for adults after accidents etc. Sometimes someone died and they were usually putting the dead body to the bathroom on the corridor (no toilets at the rooms, it was one of the two bathrooms for whole ward). They usually put an “out of service” paper on the door, but sometimes they forgot about it. So, one night, me, sleepy and yawning went to the toilet, opened the door and hellooooooooooo the end of my innocence.

-the most stressful experience from my childhood hospital stayings was “did you defecate yesterday”? Because if you didn’t for a few days an enema was waiting

[helly-watermelonsmellinfellon]

Is Ormond really that difficult? I get it a lot as both Killer and Survivor and I just don’t see why people hate it. Do I just face dumb people when I get that map?

Imagine telling someone they only Escaped because they got a good map. As if your ass did not Insidious camp the 2 ppl you hooked.

I wish more people mained Demogorgon. I like facing them. They’re adorable!

I swear the most common argument I see over Haddonfield being ‘unfairly Survivor-sided’ is because if someone uses Balanced Landing, then it’s just too easy to lose the Killer. Balanced Landing is one of the most unreliable Exhaustion Perks in the game because you have to fall from a height great enough for it to work. 90% of the players don’t even use it. Let’s not act like Haddonfield is a problem all because Survivors can use 1 Perk to make gameplay hard. Haddonfield is a problem because of those fucking fences and hedges. Hook spawns are fine, but you have to walk half a mile around all these fucking walls that the Survivor wiggles out before you get to the Hook in question half the time. No thanks, not interested. Fix that shit. THAT is the big issue here, not people potentially using 1 whole Perk.

A Michael tried to sneak up on me. I was in the shack. No Gen, no Totem. Just trying to see how well I could see through the slits in the walls after the shack design was updated on Autohaven. (btw, you can’t see very well through them.) I heard it. Like fucking Darth Vader breathing down my neck. Michael was at the window and I fucking booked it!

I got the shit scared out of me by a Nurse with 4 Blinks! I didn’t even know that was possible! She didn’t manage to Hook anyone so I understood why she wanted to have that many Blinks but that first time when she Blinked the 2nd time and I thought she was done! HO NO! I was like, ‘she’ll have to recover and I can break line of sight’ but then she Blinked a 3rd time in a row, to which I thought ‘oh now she’ll be fatigued’. Nope. When I finally lost her I specifically got to see her chain 4 Blinks together when trying to catch up to the Jeff. I just want to avoid Nurses even more. This kind of stress is not needed.

So yesterday I got a match against a Clown who deliberately put on a Red Forest map offering. I don't know anybody who willingly goes there but he decided to. Anyway he wasn't very good with this bottles so I was able to avoid all of this gas clouds and dude took it personal and tunneled me. After 4 Gens, finally downs me and decides to face-camp. The moment that I was saved he tunneled again. I got out because of Adrenaline and being able to run long enough to get to a door. Now, I have the memory of an elephant, unlike this Elephant Clown apparently, because I got that person in a match today, on Red Forest, but as a fellow survivor. Same name, same account description but they were Kate this time. I let their ass die on their first hook. I am spite personified.

I’ve been meaning to share this pic for a while. That fucking Totem spawn is the dumbest one in all of the realms. 9 times out of 10, it’s the Hex Totem and it’s gone within the first 30 seconds of the match. Like, come on.

This match was so confusing. All the boxes looked like that and I don’t know why.

IDK why this happens so much but I get a kick out of it. And my swf buddy is off to the side, all alone.

He face-camped everyone once he finally got someone downed. Meg managed to come and save me at the risk of herself. He hooked her, she died, and then he came after me. I didn’t bother searching for the Hatch and just ran to this far corner because all the nearest hooks were gone by Sacrifice. He had nowhere to go and watched me bleed out. Afterward he was really salty about it.

Literally I’m starting this thing where all the Perks I use have to start with the same letter. So here are the Ds.

This match was fun af. I lasted that long around shack with a Leatherface.

I was just trying my best but the last like 30 seconds were the best part of the match.

In my opinion, Midwich is the best map to do Impossible Skillchecks Doc on. In the courtyard you can hit the whole map with a Static Blast. Technically, ISD doesn’t require much skill which is why it’s the best way to point farm. Properly executed and you can get like 300K pts in 5 matches.

I was just trying to play more of the other Survivors. Go out of my comfort zone specifically.

[soyouareandrewdobson]

So, that has happened since yesterday...

Dobson decided to give up on his tumblr, mere hours after he more or less out of the blue decided that he was no longer fighting against his “harassers”. You know, the same people who he accused of being after him for years and doing utterly terrible things... by pointing out his hypocricies with completely independent tumblrs that have not personally engaged with him in talk, and which Dobson ignores or tries to anyway.

The “worst” aspect for me is that in regard of the second major message he wrote (the “well-wishes one”) it is pretty much clear that he hinted on the idea people should doxx the people he does not like (you know, the hint of he needs people to help him with “physical” actions). Which btw, is illegal according to tumblr guidelines. Heck, as far as I know, none of the people on tumblr who make fun of Dobson/criticize his work have decided to doxx him ever. Also it just shows how “meaningless” well intentions are in his eyes when he can’t get immediately results out of them. Which is hilarious as “well intentions” is all his works are based on majorily too.

What I don’t get is what “recent” action supposedly had him now go into the defense like that. The fact that pics of Cabin’s Rest got leaked for people not paying him money? People calling him paranoid because his latest assumptions about the Hypocricy of Andrew Dobson indicated he thinks there exists a master troll who is after him for 15 years? The backlash resulting from admiting he wishes someone he doesn’t like dies of COVID-19 because it makes him happy to think people he doesn’t like are “suffocating” from a virus that costs thousands of lives globally, meaning he indirectly also pissed on the graves of those that died? All of them combined? If so I am baffled because Dobson reacts to such accusations and actions simply by blocking and trying to excuse them as justified. Anyway, Dobson has now “given up” on tumblr and if a first glance of online plattforms indicates anything, even patreon and facebook. And honestly, part of me feels bad for it. Look, I do not like Dobson based on his behavior (framing a shallow obsession with cartoons and lesbians as progressive support for the LGBT community and how insightful he is into storytelling, exploiting his talents as an artist primarily to accuse every group of nerds out there as being bad people because of their interests, focusing only on the worst of nerd culture instead of also celebrating good things without making it then about his hatred for white males,  twisting the truth about past actions and mistakes he made instead of admiting to them etc) but if I am being honest... I want him to get better.

I am one of those people who believes that at least in 90% of all stories created out there, the thing that makes a story fail or succeed is execution more so than the idea itself. and some of the stuff Dobson created or thought up over the years could work on the basics. Alex ze Pirate, So You’re a Cartoonist, even Patti. So I would love it if Dobson was capable of reviving some of that stuff in a positive way and make at least a decent story out of them. Stories that entertain and yes, also make him become popular to some based on the work alone while making a profit. The problem is (partly), Dobson barely is able to separate himself from the art. His work is oozing with his own often times negative opinions, he can’t take criticism even if it is justified based on the work alone (sometimes not even the message conveyed), he seems to go with the first idea for story progression that comes to his mind, even if it may be unhelpful for anything later etc. Plus again, he seems to focus mostly on the negative things than anything positive he is interested into. Like when Captian Marvel and Wonder Woman came out. Instead of focusing on anything positive those movies may mean for others, he just used them as an excuse to once again show how bad white males are for not liking them. Bottom line, Dobson could use being a bit more cheerful or at least find something to be cheerful about, without a need to directly or indirectly piss into the cornflakes of everyone who does not necessarily think the same way he does.

If he could do that, I think he would be happier as a person and even more succesful and I wish him that to be. But the way it is, he chose a direction that on the long run just assures his “haters” win and he loses either way.

finally, at least part of me believes this latest shocase of burning down the ground and be done with the internet is just show. Why? Because it is not the first time Dobson did that thing. Years ago Dobson already was on tumblr, but then gave up his account when negativity became too much. He even indicated he was done doing anything art related ever, except a comic he was commisioned to do at the time. Didn’t stop him however from continuing on deviantart, until he rage nuked that one on September 11 2017 or so (the most hilarious date in Dobson history, honestly)

It is also not the first time from being slightly overdramatic and deleting tons of stuff simultaneously, likely to get a sympathetic reactions out of some. And mind you, this is less than a week after he did the entire “Spread the Love” thing which was primarily just done so that people supported him and likely go after his critics.

So if anything, wait up what Dobson does in the next days. Cause it is likely he will either set up a new Patreon or return eventually once he got enough positive support. And if not... well, then I wish Dobson good luck with his regular life outside of the online circle, cause in the times we live in now, he can use it. Who knows, perhaps he will find the happiness interaction here did not give him, if not even the inspiration to do a comic that will earn him success. Stay safe, Andrew.

[the-awkward-outlaw]

Hii, I'm actually sad-sweet-cowboah and I've always wanted to request something from you! How about modern AU, Arthur surprises reader with a horse she's been really eyeing for a while? Maybe it doubles as a cute proposal? (and just for reference, a gorgeous golden Palomino Quarter Horse!)

Ah I’m so glad you sent this in to me! This was a lot of fun, and Arthur is fucking adorable! 16/10 best boyfriend/husband material, you cannot change my mind! (Will someone make that into a meme?) Anyways, have fun! 

Masterlist 

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(BTW, Arthur’s hot as hell in this pic.....) 

Arthur stands on the deck of his house, lost in thought. He really should be in the barn, finishing up the last of the day’s work, but he’s worried. You should’ve been home half an hour ago and yet he still hasn’t heard from you. He’s texted you, but nothing. Maybe you’re just stuck in traffic. 

You and Arthur have lived together for over a year, and been dating for over two years. He remembers how he convinced you to move in with him, as you’d been adamant. Hell, it’d been hard enough to get you to date him. 

When you both first met, it was like a spark between you. However, you were scared of taking the next step with him, as you were just a natural loner. Not only that, you’d been alone for so long you didn’t think there would be anyone who wanted to be with you. So when Arthur asked you to be his girlfriend, you almost ran off, sure he was pulling your leg. However, something told you that you needed to be brave, to take the leap, so you did. 

About 8 months later, Arthur really wanted you to move in with him on his little ranch, tucked in a canyon not too far from a small mountain town. But again, you were hesitant. It’s not that you didn’t love him, just the opposite in fact. You were so in love, you were constantly terrified that you’d mess up, that he’d end up hating you when you ended up living together. The last thing you wanted was to mess this up. 

Then, shortly after your first year anniversary, the Coronavirus pandemic hit and everyone was sent into quarantine. Luckily you were able to work remotely, so you didn’t lose much money. It was nice working from home, you could stay in your pj’s all day, not worry about makeup, none of that stuff. But you missed seeing your boyfriend and he missed you. The two of you did plenty of video chats, but it wasn’t the same. You couldn’t smell him, hug him, touch him, kiss him… nothing. You tried doing some video sex, but you got outrageously uncomfortable doing it over video chat (what if some hacker got in?), and Arthur wasn’t all that comfortable either. 

Those 60 days were some of the longest and loneliest of your life. You would’ve easily gone to his home and see you, but his little town wanted absolutely no outsiders to come in, so they blocked the roads, preventing you and Arthur from visiting. When quarantine was lifted, that was when you decided to move in with Arthur. After all, you didn’t know if there would be another one. You could work remotely, only having to go into the office a couple times a month for meetings, so the work situation with you was easy enough. 

That was over a year ago, and despite your fears that the two of you would end up breaking up after a few months, the opposite happened. Your relationship grew beyond what you thought and the two of you have never been more in love. Sure, there’s been a few arguments, but nothing bad enough to break things off. For the most part, you and Arthur get along famously. 

Arthur sighs again, still feeling worried. Today was one of the days you had to go into the office for meetings. They never run past five, and the office is nearly an hour away, but it’s nearly eight in the evening. You should definitely be home by now. You must be stuck in traffic, which is why you’ve not answered any of his texts. He pulls out his phone and dials your number. Why he didn’t do this earlier is beyond him. 

A few rings go by and you finally pick up. “Hey, babe,” you say. 

He smiles. “Hey, darlin’. Just worried about ya. Everything okay?” 

“Yeah. Just a big accident on the freeway. I stopped and got dinner too since it’s late. Should be home in like ten minutes.” 

“Good. Kiss ya when I see ya,” he says and hangs up. That’s always how he says good bye to you over the phone and you love it. 

Like clockwork, ten minutes go by and you pull into the driveway. He walks out of the house to greet you, pulling you into a tight hug and kissing you like he always does. He wants to tell you so badly what he’s got planned, but it’s gotta be a surprise. Under no circumstance can he spoil it. Not like this. 

After dinner, the two of you cuddle up on the couch and watch a show before going to bed. He can tell you’re exhausted. These meeting days are your least favorite and they always wipe you out. Arthur cradles your head to his chest as you lie in bed. Within seconds, he hears you snore softly, making him smile. He goes back to thinking about tomorrow. 

Arthur’s owned this ranch for most of his life. It wasn’t always his though. He grew up here with his adopted fathers, Hosea and Dutch. However, Hosea was killed very suddenly a few years ago in a car crash after he’d been hit by a drunk driver. His death had been so sudden that it hit Dutch extremely hard. Dutch ended up just vanishing one day, driven by grief and confusion. Arthur hasn’t seen him since. 

The ranch fell into his hands after Dutch disappeared. He secretly hopes that maybe Dutch will come back someday, if he’s still alive that is. He’d love you two to meet, as he’s sure Dutch would like you better than his last serious girlfriend Mary. 

His thoughts drift to her and he feels even more nervous. He’d been engaged to her for three months before she’d broken it off. She claimed it was because she hated his location, that she wanted to live in the city, not some small mountain town where everything was far away. Perhaps that was true, but he suspected there was more to it than that. After all, when Mary’s father discovered that Arthur had two fathers, he was extremely upset that Mary was dating someone raised by homosexuals. He’s always suspected that her father had a big reason behind why they broke up. Not only that, but he wonders if she was seeing a guy on the side. How could she go from being engaged to being in a new relationship only three weeks after they broke up? Good riddance, though, he thinks. He loves you a hundred times more than he ever loved her. 

You’ve never cared about his upbringing, stating that Hosea and Dutch were at least good parents to him. You’ve known far too many heterosexual parents who were awful, and how many gay couples are out there who’d love to have kids and be the best parents. You weren’t in contact with your parents anymore (he still didn’t even know what they look like), so they aren’t an issue. 

Arthur starts thinking about how sad and lonely your life has been. How you spent so many years alone and how you believed you’d die alone. He’s so grateful for having met you. You don’t deserve to die alone, you’re too good of a person. He kisses your head as you sleep, overwhelmed with his sense of love for you. A smile makes its way to his lips as he thinks about tomorrow. 

Over the past year, as you’ve grown more comfortable to ranch life, you’ve been thinking about maybe getting your own horse. Arthur has a few that you’re certainly welcome to, of course, but you’ve been wanting one to call your own for a while now. A few weeks ago, you’d both been in town to go to the one grocery store there. As the truck went down the highway and passed another ranch, you saw the signs “horses for sale”. In the pasture was a beautiful palomino quarter horse. It looked like it was made of gold as it grazed in the sun. You begged Arthur to stop the truck and just go see the horse. 

He pulled over, unable to resist your excitement, and you went to the fence. The palomino, along with most of its pasture mates, came over to investigate you and Arthur. You patted her nose and Arthur could tell you were already in love with her. However, he had no idea what her temperament was like, so he came up with a plan. 

On the days when you had to go to meetings, Arthur went to the horse’s owner to ask questions and get acquainted with the horse. She was young, only three, but the owner had raised her and trained her himself. He invited Arthur to go on a trail ride using her so he could see how good of a riding horse she was. After only twenty minutes on her, Arthur knew she was perfect for you. She responded to his lightest touch and command. After the trail ride, Arthur bought her, but he kept her at her former owners so you wouldn’t see her too soon. 

Yesterday, while you’d been gone, Arthur went and picked the horse up and brought her back. She didn’t have a name yet, but he wanted you to have that privilege. The man who raised her called her Sierra, but he knew that was your mother’s name and you were unlikely to keep it as you had no desire to see her for as long as he’s known you. He struggles to fall asleep, feeling like a kid on Christmas, excited to show you his gift. He’s also terrified as he’s going to use the horse as a segway for the biggest decision of his life. 

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The next morning, Arthur gets up much earlier than usual. He’s normally up a bit past sunrise so he can feed the animals and get an earlier start on cleaning before it gets hot. This morning, though, you wake up at the crack of dawn and find his side of the bed empty. After grabbing a cup of coffee, you go out and find him just finishing feeding the chickens. 

“Hey, sweetheart,” he says, a big grin on his face. 

You say good morning and he comes over, leaning across the fence so he can kiss you. 

“Hey, I got a couple more chores to do, but once they’re done, I got somethin’ to show ya.” 

“Okay, I’ll help. What needs to be done?” 

He smiles, loving how willing you always are to help him out. It makes his life a lot easier. He struggles though, as most of the remaining chores were in the stables with the horses, including yours. 

“Um… well, why don’t you go through the chicken coop, see about eggs.” 

You nod and go off to grab the collecting basket. Arthur asks you to finish feeding the chickens as well so he can go into the stable. After collecting nearly a dozen eggs and placing them in the egg storage so they can be sold this weekend, you brush off your hands and start heading into the stables. Arthur darts out, slightly sweaty from his work. 

“Woo, it’s hot. Hey baby, um, maybe you can go get us some drinks?” he says. His tone is weird, like he’s hiding something. 

“Um… okay. Everything okay?” 

“Everythin’s just fine.” He kisses you again real quick and then shoots back into the stables. 

After retrieving two beer bottles, you go out to find Arthur in the paddock, which is attached to the right side of the barn so the horses can go in and out of their stalls. He’s wringing his gloved hands a bit, but smiles when he sees you. What is going on with him? 

“Thanks, darlin’,” he says when you go into the pen and hand him his beer. Instead of opening it, he places it onto a post of the fence. “I wanted to show you somethin’.” 

He looks to the barn and whistles. Odd, he’s looking at one of the stalls that’s been empty the entire time you’ve lived here. Something snorts and out walks the golden horse you’d been admiring for the past few weeks. You gasp and put your hands over your mouth. 

“Arthur, is that…?” 

“She’s yours, sweetheart. I took her for a ride a while ago, she’s a good horse.” 

The filly walks over to you and snorts in greeting, stretching her neck out to bump her nose to your hand. Tears leak out of your eyes as you start rubbing her neck, going down to her withers. 

“Arthur, she’s beautiful!” 

He chuckles softly and walks over to hug you, grinning as you bury your face into his chest. God, you couldn’t ask for a sweeter boyfriend. 

“Thank you so much, Arthur! I love her.” 

“Good. What’s her name?” 

“Did she not have one before?” 

He tells you what her name used to be, but as he predicted, you don’t like it. You think for a moment, studying her golden coat. She swishes her silver tail. 

“Maybe… Freyja? I know you like having names of gods and goddesses for your horses.” 

Arthur chuckles as he thinks about his two favorite horses, Boadicea and Artemis. “If that’s what you want, darlin’. She’s your horse though, you name her whatever feels right.” 

You look at her and smile. “Freyja feels right.” 

Freyja snorts, not giving a single damn about her name. Her eyes are soft as you pat her neck again. 

“Well, why don’t we groom miss Freyja? Maybe you can ride her around the pasture, see how you like her.” 

You nod and go into the stables to grab a brush and hoof pick. Freyja’s very patient as you groom her, standing still as you clean out her feet. Arthur hauls out the heavy saddle after you throw on her saddle blanket and grab her bridle. After cinching on the saddle and adjusting the stirrups, Arthur says, “Oh I forgot somethin’, hold on.” 

He goes into the stables as you pat the horse’s neck again, anxious to hop into the saddle. He comes back out, empty handed and looking frustrated. 

“I thought I left it in there,” he grunts, coming back over to you. 

“What you looking for?” 

“A thing,” he says, ignoring you and shoving his hand into the saddle bag. “I thought I left it… ah ha! Don’t know how it got in there.” 

He pulls his hand out and you see a small, velvety box. He brushes it off quickly and then holds it out to you. 

“Sweetheart, I uh… I been thinking about doin’ this for a while. It would… it would mean a lot to me.” 

You take the box, your stomach clenching. Is this a ring? Or is it something else and you’re just being hopeful? Your heart pounding in your ears, you open the box and see the ring. You gasp. It’s not a diamond, you always hated diamonds. Too common and overpriced. Instead, it’s a silver band, the metal engraved with fancy, swooping curls, a gem in your favorite color perched on top. 

“Arthur?” you say, your voice squeaking as you take out the ring. 

He clasps your hands in his, the ring nestled in your palm. “I wanna marry ya, sweetheart. You… well, you’re more than I could ever hope for in a companion. I never thought I’d wanna marry someone again after Mary…” he looks down and swallows. You know all about her of course. “But that was until I fell in love with you. There’s no doubt in my mind that I wanna spend the rest of my life with you.” 

Fresh tears are cascading down your cheeks. You look at the ring again and Arthur’s suddenly afraid you’ll say no, or that you’re not ready. He worries that he might have to try and talk you into this like he had when he wanted to date you and then have you move in. He doesn’t want to do that with this though. Just as his stomach begins to sink, you smile up at him. 

“Yes, Arthur. I will marry you, a thousand times.” 

He smiles, swallowing a wave of his own tears and cups your cheek. He takes the ring and slides it onto your finger, then he presses his forehead to yours. For several moments, you both stand there in this position, letting the world go by as you bask in one another’s presence. You slide a hand over his neck, wanting to be even closer to him, your future husband. 

Suddenly something shoves your shoulder hard and it’s followed by a loud snort. Arthur chuckles, pulling away from you. “Think Freyja wants your attention again.” 

You laugh and kiss him before facing your horse and climbing into the saddle (with his help of course). You adjust yourself in the saddle, sliding both feet into the stirrups. Arthur pats your thigh and tells you to just walk around the pen so that you and Freyja can get acquainted with the feel of one another. 

As Arthur watches you walk with your horse, he feels a sense of excitement and contentment. Excited for the future, of course, but he’s never been so sure about anything as he is about this. Marrying you is the only thing he could do, he’s never wanted anything more. 

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Goldie's Adventures on the Moon - Day 2

Chapter 2: First signs of happiness 

When I had returned to my suite last night, I thought it'd be the worst night ever and I wouldn't get any minute of sleep! Well... I guess I judged that hotel too fast? For some reason, I woke up rather peacefully. At first, I was mad at Dad and Rhett for deserting me, but actually, I was the one who kept complaining and begging for 'some time off' - and yesterday, I just had 'some time off', so why wasn't I happy? Anyway... I also received a text message from Dad, which was like: "Hey honey, I and Rhett will be at the Lunar Market around 1 pm. So, why don't you also come and join us? I'm sure you'd find something you like!" Normally, they'd always bore me and I would never want to spend some time with them, but STRANGELY, I was actually pleased to read this and I felt like a little girl who had lost her father for many years and was happy about the news of him returning? When I arrived at the Lunar Market, I couldn't find Dad or Rhett - neither of them!

I went in every store they had there; not really wanting to buy stuff at all! I never felt so lonely; it was like I was lost in outer space and nobody could rescue me ... although they had left me just yesterday? It felt like eternity! But when I entered in the souvenir shop, my heart suddenly started to pound - it was that cute boy! He did notice me when I entered the shop and then... he winked at me...

"Hey, I recognize you... weren't you at the aquarium just yesterday?" I didn't answer, nor did I nod... or did any other gestures! "You... OK? You look like you... What happened... if I may ask?" I suddenly burst into tears... in front of him... and for some strange reason, I didn't know why? (I do have pics of me crying in that moment... and also him consoling me, but this diary should be all about fun anecdotes to remember - and to be honest, that wasn't it!)

But apparently, they were all there, but I kept missing them when I was entering the shops whilst looking for them... that made me feel SO dump! What was I doing there AT ALL? How couldn't I notice? Was I so blind... or so stupid? Or probably both?

"Oh, I'm sorry if I made you feel uncomfortable, I didn't mean to.. it's just that..” "No, it's not you! I'm fine... actually, I enjoyed the conversations I had with you?" *blushes "Aww, how cute! Me too, although you never really spoke to me.... hey, maybe some fresh air at the garden makes you feel better... let's go there together, sweetie!"

That garden really made me feel better... or was it because I was talking to him? I don't know... but I really enjoyed the scenery over there! It was... beautiful! "Hey, let me show me how we greet here! ... just do it like me!" 

"Uhmmm... OK? I guess I tried to bow like you... ? Kinda..."

"I think you're good for now, it's cute of you to try! You're doing it great, really! "Thanks... I guess?" "I like you, you seem to be such a cool sim! What's your name? Btw, my name is Qiu Wan... yeah, I know, kinda hard to pronounce, but hey, you can call me whatever you like! My friends call me just Q." "Nice to meet you, Q! I've never heard such a name before, that's unique..." "You find me unique? ;)" *doing a flirty face "You're cute... I guess... anyway, I'm Goldie Hart! I'm just... a regular nobody!"

... I was so dazed and suddenly, I completely forgot about Dad and Rhett. I saw that my phone was ringing - it was Dad... and previously, there were five other missed phone calls from Dad.. and three from Rhett! For a minute or two, I felt happiness again! I knew it felt so good to be needed! Anyway, they asked me where I were and what I was up to - they said that they had already left the Lunar Market and had been waiting for me in the local bowling alley which also had a diner.

HOWEVER, when I arrived there... I wished I had never done that; they were just singing some weird karaoke songs and this time, I felt EMBARRASSMENT again for being with them! But luckily, Q wasn't around... which was GOOD!

We had lunch together again after such a long time! I think, that was the first time ever on the moon... when they ate, I wouldn't come.. or when I ate, they wouldn't come! But now, I started regretting it - they were talking about random stuff and I just didn't want to embarrass me any longer... so, I went outdoors!

"Hey, do you mind if I just join you? I love bowling!" "Yeah, sure! Bowling alone ain't fun.. so why not? Do you know any tricks? Show them off!"

I really loved bowling with her and got to talk to her a lot on that day; she was very talented and also very funny!

"Btw, we were talking about all kinds of stuff, but never really got to introduce ourselves, lmao! What's your name?" "We... kinda missed that indeed! It was nice to talk to you, though, I really enjoyed bowling with you! But yeah, I'm Goldie Hart! How about you?" "LOVE THAT! I'm Hua Ling - the girl with crazy anime hair and one earring. My mom owns that clothier/jewelry shop down the street, maybe you've seen me over there already." "Actually, I've never been there..." "Hey, let's meet there around 6 pm-ish? I'd like to show you some of the outfits which I've sewn myself! They'd look awesome on you, I swear!"

While I was chatting with this rather outgoing girl, Dad was kinda trying to copy some famous artists' dance moves - I can't tell whose... but the locals around there seemed to be amused, at least... they look amused in Rhett's snapshot?

He was in good mood, though! Dad would never go skating, but on that day, we REALLY went to a roller rink! It's funny since he'd never let me go roller skating back home, and here... he went roller skating himself! That was SOO fun! I screamed like a little girl! I was SO happy again after such a long time of grieving! 

I didn't want to upset Hua, though. So, I went to that little business which she runs with her mom... and to my surprise, Q as there as well? I... didn't see him when I first entered the little shop, and that made me feel so insecure again? I just... didn't understand whyy! Did I have bad kind of butterflies? Anyway... I randomly picked one of the qiapos they had (or kinomo? ... yeah, whether they called that stuff) and tried to disappear as fast as possible into one of the changing booths.

"Hahaha, why Goldie? You didn't even show me the clothing? What's wrong with you, lol? "*giggles Then... I also heard some other giggles beside hers! I... hoped Q didn't notice me and it's not his giggles? But I wasn't sure! I was afraid to even go out... but I had to. "Why were you hiding? Did you see someone? I was like: wait, whaat?!! What's going on? Did I miss something?" "I... just... no, not at all, lol!" "But hey, you look beautiful in that outfit!"

I looked around insecurely... but couldn't find Q anywhere, so he must have left, but still, it was bizarre him showing up... was he following me? Also, why did the cashier over there resemble Sadie Wilke from Widespot so much? I've seen her in another snapshot before... but this can't be her?! I mean, we'd have seen her when she travelled along... and it would absolutely make NO sense for her to travel to the moon every day, work here for some hours and then return to Widespot to run the General Store in my hometown! ... I just had to tell this Hua, she found it funny, though! Anyway, later on, I joined Dad and Rhett at the SkEye Observatory! I was very eager to try out these telescopes, since I had never used one before - I knew, that a fellow student back at home... well Woody had some of these in his home, but it'd be kinda weird to ask to use, so... I didn't bother to ask! Not to mention that his dad wouldn't have allowed me to use anyway.

I could tell, though, that Dad and Rhett weren't really into stargazing! I heard them yawning all the time... "Honey, do you mind if we leave you lonely for a minute or two? I think... i've seen a meteorite crashing downstairs!" "Fine Dad, I know you're bored and you just try to find an excuse to go to the bar downstairs!" "Yeah, that's exactly what I was about to say! But didn't want to... uhm... hurt your feelings..." "Just... leave me loney, I'll be alright!"

While I didn't know what they were up to downstairs, this snapshot didn't really surprise me! I just knew they'd be flirting... again! This time, I wasn't necessarily mad at them... not even at Dad for moving on too fast after Mom died? Anyway, my second day on the moon was a great success! It didn't start that well, but I made friends with some really good guys out there! Q's been so charming recently, but I never dared to... uhm ask whether he has a girlfriend... let alone boyfriend? I kinda felt ashamed to weep in front of him, what does he think of me now... after all of this? I was such a cry baby! But hold on, was it really him who was kinda... following me? Anyway, I've never been this shy before, I don't get this, I'm an OUTGOING girl! I've never struggled to talk to someone... so, what's wrong with Q? I think Hua's noticed that I had a crush on him? NOO, it's not a crush! It's just... well, I only find him cute, that's all!