#these might end
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5 years ago, I was in Rehab.
10 years ago, I was watching my Potential and Opportunities dissolve and evaporate in an ocean of cheap gin and expensive whiskey.
But 5 years ago, I was in Rehab.
One of the exercises they had us perform was to imagine ourselves happy, 5 years in the future.
Many of us in that room had forgotten how to imagine nice things happening to them. A few snorted (well, I snorted), finding the notion that we’d even still be around in 5 years grimly humorous.
For about half of us, it was the last stop on the way down.
But I indulged the therapist. I was there, after all, because I did not want to die. So, I imagined myself, 5 years hence.
Happy.
It came to me all at once; an artistic remix on Norman Rockwell’s Freedom From Want, reframed with myself placing food at the table.
Sunday Dinner At My Place, I answered, when it came my turn to share my fantasy. I was asked what food I imagined eating.
It’s not the meal itself, I said, it’s the implications framed around it. Sunday Dinner At My Place means that I have a Place. It means that I have Family that will actually speak to me and friends who actually want to see me. It means money enough not just to feed myself but others too. It means having the time to spare to take the time preparing the meal.
A lot of nodding heads all around me. A struck chord. Many people with no Place, in that place. Nowhere that would lament their leaving.
5 years hence, as I lay down to sleep in my Home, with my Wife and my Son, surrounded by my Art and my Flowers, I reflect.
It was a long road. It was hard. We lost people. So many people. There were long days and long nights and hospital stays. Angry arguments with ghosts. I changed, in ways I never hoped for, or expected. Good ways, finally, for once. Slowly, against the backdrop of a world in chaos, I found my mind.
Sometimes, My Wife wondered aloud, what she did to deserve me. After some stumbling with my feelings, I eventually settled on an answer.
I’m a Rescue.
She gave me a Home.
And, so, I gave her a Family.
It seemed fair
This Sunday, my folks, which whom I have not had a shouting match in years, will come over for dinner. We will cook and eat together. My Friend became My Wife, and she took a piece of me and with it she made Our Son. There will be many hugs, and no violence. Good Things Happened.
I don’t know who needs to hear this, but you don’t know what the future holds.
don’t give up yet, ok?
It could get good, even.
#troglodyte thoughts#tales from Real Life#cw addiction#cw alcohol#sometimes the light at the end of the tunnel is the headlamp of an approaching train#run#fight#hide#SURVIVE#do not go into the light#there are unpet dogs#and unhugged children#and unseen sunsets#and maybe even love#even for a wretch like me#the best part of your life might be old age#you don’t know
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maybe never forgive. but things are different now. so we'll use maybe.
#my version of a happy ending au#mouthwashing#captain curly#mouthwashing anya#anya#curly#my art#considering this game takes place in a hellscape#i imagine one of the other horrifying angles for anya was that she might not even have the rights to abort the wound#so i like to think. curly. thinking he's going to die anyway. just takes all of the medical bills from his crew#because if he lives then he'll spend his life paying it all off#and if he dies. then he takes the burden with him#but him and anya are horrible horrible parallels now. and they cant NOT care about each other#he'll turn himself into the horse. he'll be the beast of burden. anything he said. anything#and for once he actually means it.
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Thought some bug nerds might appreciate this:
Aren't they beautiful? Is this not one of the prettiest cicadas you've ever seen. Specifically it is a swamp cicada (Neotibicen tibicen).
The blue-ish teal green is just absolutely enchanting. And lookit how cute those beady little eyes are💕✨
#i think i might end up painting some swamp cicadas at some point here - theyre inspiring me#entomology#insects#bugs#cicada#swamp
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it’s our turn to make you smile
#It’s the way that all of these kids admire Deku the same way Izuku Katsuki and Shoto all looked up to all might sobs#this is my way of coping with the news that the manga is ending#but this is kind of a redraw of the first ever mha drawing I ever did you could probably find it here if you scroll far enough but dOnt#anyways Right after I finished binging the series back in 2020 I was so inspired to draw#MHA will always have a special place in my heart#it’s the series that not only got me back into art but also into digital art for the first time#so sad to see it go but excited to continue loving it even when it ends#bnha#boku no hero academia#my hero academia#my art#mha#midoriya izuku#deku#bnha fanart#deku fanart#eri fanart#Deku and eri#eri#Kota#katsuma shimano#mahoro shimano#Katsuma Mahoro#Deku and kids#Deku and Kota#mha fanart#boku no hero academia fanart#my hero academia fanart
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He has no mouth but he must scream in FNAF..
#myart#chloesimagination#comic#fnaf#five nights at freddy's#fnaf fanart#fnaf cassidy#william afton#springtrap#fnaf 3#happy halloween everyone!!#last day I can do a spooky comic#so thought I end it off with a bang#the springlock moment#just the idea William is on the floor#he can’t scream cause his lungs are punctured from the suit#and he watches as the backroom door closes on him#Cassidy laughing the whole time as she locks him away#this is based off the scene in the FNAF movie itself#just game version..#I might keep making spooky comics more often after the spooky season#I love horror arts
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caution: dog will bite
#wolf link#twilight princess#tp#loz#tp link#legend of zelda#i might end up reposting this in a set later on. i am just impatient god bless <3#he was fun though. i feeeeeel like i should make my main pencil a little thinner in future but otherwise Yay#my art#artists on tumblr
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HIMMMMMMMMM
#he’s always been the symbol of peace but now that he’s not a hero anymore he doesn’t know how to live as a human and not a symbol#and despite that he still lets himself be used until the end#see what I did with the pictures..😈🙏???#he’s so Peter you’re gonna die in that stupid costume from that sound on TikTok#am I reaching here#my hero academia#boku no hero academia#all might#yagi toshinori#toshinori yagi#njk mk#mha#anime#number one hero#all might fans
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Just say no
#jonathan sims#the magnus archives#tma podcast#meme redraw#the web#if Martin made Jon wear this we might have had a different ending#tma fanart#shitpost#fanart#no little Archivist don't take the obvious metaphor for addiction that signals something terrible is about to happen#annabelle cane#hemidemi art
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when people reblog donation posts and say "donate what you can", I really feel like people aren't actually internalising it. not all of us can afford to donate $50, $100, more than that. but i know for a fact that there are thousands of us that can spare $2 or $5, and that all adds up.
it hurts so much to sit here and feel the limits of our own ability. we're not millionaires. we can't instantly fund these escape attempts. but these are bids for life, by people who never asked for the hellfire being rained upon them by sadistic colonialists, greedy for oil and land. they committed no crime other than being born in palestine. and of course it's unfair, to have to shoulder the weight of people's lives when we're all struggling to get by as it is. but our governments relentlessly fail us, they fail to scrape at the bottom of their cold dead hearts for their last dregs of humanity. it is so, so unfair, but it is up to the common man to save each other.
please. look at this spreadsheet. find a fund that resonates with you. and DONATE WHAT YOU CAN.
#i dont know what else to say anymore#i just want all of them to survive#theres truly nothing that could justify this ongoing genocide#and it kills me. that global pushback is so pathetic. gutless and meandering#free palestine#palestine#fuck zionism#fuck israel#we will see an end to zionism and israel within our lifetimes#i might be suicidal but im not dying before i see netanyahu get what he fucking deserves#donation post
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elias in hades, perchance?
if tma were a hades-style roguelike I think it'd be entertaining to have elias just show up like a little bitch and give you tasks that eventually give you rewards. I don't think he'd show up as the final boss until much later on in the story (equivalent to the hades epilogue) where he'll become the eye's pupil and the player (presumably jon) has to kill him to stop the eyepocalypse or smth (don't question my thought process too much I haven't actually rationalised it all in my head yet lol)
#magnus archives#the magnus archives#the magnus pod#tma#tma fanart#art#tma spoilers#elias bouchard#elias tma#jonah magnus#hades game#hades supergiant#supergiant hades#hades fanart#hades game fanart#hades art#i might do more of these but i also might not#i'm tempted to draw elias throughout the show in the style#like when he brutally pipe murders jurgen leitner#or ends up in jail#or becomes the pupil of the Eye#i also might draw the other magnus characters#but that takes dedication and time that i don't have#so i might just not
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I LOVE THEMMMMMMM theyre so goofy
#kiwidoodles#spiderverse#hobie brown#pavitr prabhakar#across the spiderverse#spiderman across the spiderverse#skjhgs i have. many spot doodles so like. idk those might end up in spoiler territory but i'll tag em as such
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early morning sunlight at Bag End
#at this point i think y'all might be tired of seeing my drawings of bag end#since i admittedly am not very creative at thinking of new ways to draw/portray it lol#but this IS like. the one thing that always breaks me out of a long dry season of Not Drawing#clarisse doodles#sorry if the quality is not very good i think tumblr compresses the file#tolkien#lotr#bag end#frodo baggins#illustration#procreate
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i love when raiden answers the codec and reports his situation is "wet and miserable" LOL hes so real to me...
#he is like a wet cat always#raiden#mgs2#meruzart#metal gear#i might have more drawings to stick at the end of this post idk i need to look thru sketch docs#metal gear solid
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should've just let Vil be the one to fly, it would've gone SO much easier. 😔
also HEY how are everyone else's pulls going, because I have had the most RIDICULOUS luck, seriously, halloween magic is 100% real
#art#twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland spoilers#lost in the book with nightmare before christmas#hajimari no halloween#kicking around some ideas for scully's UM poster so i'll talk about all that when we get to it#in the meantime i just have to show this off because...seriously look at it#is the halloween pickup count cumulative?! because i only did two ten-pulls for jamil...#i've only done three ten-pulls total in this event and yet somehow ended up with leona and two consecutive jamils#now it would be extremely funny if i didn't get sebek when he's the one i want the most...but let me hope#(i choose to believe this is an apology from the universe for my lack of both fairy gala ortho and masquerade malleus)#(thank you universe)#anyway i realize there is some irony in bragging about my jamil pulls and yet drawing vil instead#but...i just really wanted to draw nightmare vil okay#i thought i had posted art of good ol' pumpkin-stroker jamil already but i think i might actually have just dreamt that#brb gotta get onto fixing this problem
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Just another day in ucn
Edit: to prevent confusion, no this isn't Cassidy
#I dont know how long ill take to finish the full thing but I might get lazy at the end#Also ignore the tiny errors ibis kept crashing when fixing them so I gave up#fnaf#five nights at freddys#fnaf fanart#william afton#springtrap#animation
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Michael learns of Jeff’s pizza from FNAF Into the pit
#myart#chloesimagination#comic#fnaf#five nights at freddy's#fnaf fanart#michael afton#oswald fnaf#Jeff fnaf#Jeff’s pizza#into the pit#fnaf itp#Jeff from Jeff’s pizza my beloved…#I did finish into the pit btw#(which I might replay soon to get the best ending)#CAN I JUST SAY I love Jeff#He’s just so chill#I like how he doesn’t really stop Oswald at all#he’s actually really nice to the lil guy despite how exhausted he is#so needed any excuse I could have to draw him out#Michael curious what happened to Freddy’s after it shut down etc#SHOCKED that the Jeff in Jeff’s pizza is a real dude named Jeff#Jeff is once again unphased by Michael just think he’s sick#it’s funny cause Jeff is called ‘zombie pizza guy’ ny Oswald in the books#so truly Jeff and Michael might just match in vibes pff#also may draw Jeff again.. I think he’s neat#might update his design too here and there but I think I more or less got him down
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