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plugnuts · 23 days ago

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I have to give up some of my cats I don't want to give up some of my cats I'm being faced with the fact that I have to give up some of my cats

#bits of banter #and yes i am crying #i'm getting evicted from my home of thirteen years come friday next week and i have not yet found a home for myself or my pets or my siblin #we have fosters for some of our cats and pleading with others to foster some others #but i am going to be fucking homeless and will have to surrender our other beloved cats #and i cannot h andle this #i just fucking can't #i hate my life so fucking much why must this happen to me #i don't wantt o leave my home please #please don't make me sign a form to surrender my beloved boy shade please as much as i make fun of him i fucking love him so much i nursed #him as a kitten please #i;ve had him for over eight years maybe less maybe more #same with our other cat ash #fuck #i can't do this #these cats are what's keeping my alive #i'm staying alive for them #i'm nothing without my cats

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distressed-bird · 8 months ago

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Kalina is the most interesting character to me because of all she has going on…

she is Cassandra’s familiar, she is simultaneously a pet and a friend and a servant and a family to a goddexx that is simultaneously her owner and friend and creator and parent and her god and reason to be—Kalina’s relationship to Cassandra is hard to put a name or label on (since what does being a familiar even mean?) but the bottomline is that this cat loves her deity enough to put everything and everyone on the line for her…

And adding in that she is a child of divorce. So to speak. I am extremely normal and haven’t been driven mad by the detail that baby itty bitty kitty Kalina was at Cassandra’s wedding to Ankarna and is remembered to have been toddling after her as she walked down the aisle…

Kalina will be the death of me /lh

#fhjy spoilers #fantasy high junior year #kalina #oh my god and the fact Kalina was there at that wedding—there at the period of time where Ankarna was alive and still a known god and not #presumed dead… this makes the Sylvairean Heresy even WORSE of a life event for Kalina and Cassandra…#the existence of baby kalina implies that Cassandra *raised* Kalina… and the fact they were married means that Kalina wouldn’t have been #raised by only Cassandra but *also* Ankarna.#you are Kalina and one of your parents just was killed by your uncle—their domains were too alike—and you can never talk about them again.#you can never speak their name—share in their memory—the only place they exist is quietly in your memories that must go unspoken due to #Oblivata Mori. And there’s nothing you can do about it…#And then the followers and clerics of your remaining parent start trying to kill her—being mislead by the followers of your goddexx’ sister #Cassandra is the only family Kalina has left—and Kalina’s sentience leds me to think she agreed to become a Curse #kalina let herself be unmade and changed to keep Cassandra alive… and even as the shell of herself—a familiar once but now a living plague—#is so deeply loyal and only interested in what is to the benefit of her *everything*… even if they are currently a Walking Corpse.#Kalina dislike Kristen so much because Kristen is just not being a good cleric and is in the precarious spot of being Cassandra’s only #follower… but ultimately won’t harm or attack Kristen—killing herself first—because Kristen is the only one keeping Cassandra uncorrupted.#yeah im crazy about the relationship and history between a cat familiar and her witch goddess and the layers of their relationship

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naamahdarling · 2 months ago

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Augh

#fancy is really struggling #and the babies are lovely and just FASCINATING in how they developed around but not shaped by humans and i so very deeply enjoy them #but they are also a little ungovernable due to their age and general lack of caring about rules and they are bothersome and rowdy #and it is obviously so so hard on her and my heart is breaking because im afraid we wont be able to get her through this #and i will have to give the babies up #and...not have another cat #just one #i would be crushed #and added to all of that is that the babies are taking their time learning to be pets and that is fine and wonderful actually #but...i need surgery on at least one ankle and i won't be able to keep up with them if things haven't sorted themselves out by then #and they haven't become more manageable and fancy hasn't adjusted #so we are asking about meds for poor fancy and hoping that works #but she's really having a hard time guys and i am fighting so hard to cope in a household where i spend most of my time alone #with two animals who don't love me yet or interact with me like pets (i'm a source of three things: food and snuggles on demand and NO STOP #and one who is sad and not herself #and frankly it's terrible that i can't fix this #and i am trying not to lose my shit but this wasn't supposed to be so hard #and im afraid i may lose five cats and not three #and im already barely holding on #i don't know what to do and neither does my boyfriend #i don't want to turn around and have to tell you guys we can't keep the babies #i feel like i am failing at something i am supposed to be GOOD AT #i don't want to be in a house so empty #i can't live like that #having the babies is lovely #they're so alive and the boys were so sick by the end and the stress of the constant anxiety and grief as they faded away was crushing #even before they died #it's been so good to have them running about #i don't want to LOSE that #im so tired of LOSING things

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nowandthane · 10 months ago

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I used to have to ask him if I could spend £5 on a cup of coffee. And now my money is all mine and no one can tell me what to do with it.

And it’s all being spent on my cats and commissioning art 😌

#life kinda still really sucks but honestly.#honestly. what an improvement. it’s been six months.#and I really do just need to remind myself that whatever I’m going through rn #as horrible as it is to be stuck with these thoughts and memories #it is better. and it’s going to keep getting better #he didn’t take anything away from me and he didn’t break me and he didn’t ruin me #I’m alive and that’s beautiful #ok I’m gonna cry into my cat’s fur bye #zi talks

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graveyarrdshift · 10 months ago

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Sometimes I think about how disgusting my mom is and then realize that I, in fact, am just like her.

#it is so annoying when i tell people about how my disgusting family is in reality and then they just think I'm exaggerating #like bitch c'mon #no one in my family is normal. they're all a bunch of idiots drunken fuckers and even abusers #including my father of course (whom i haven't seen in almost five years)#the only things keeping my alive is my cat and my show in august #idk what I'm gonna do with my life lmao #but first i need an actually good job #then I'll probably just run away from my family as far as possible lol #rambles #actually bpd #actually mentally ill #bpd shit

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cloud-ya · 9 months ago

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Fuck it, I will name my dinos in homage to Dinosaur King, so I will have two trex, one named Rexy and needs to be female to reference Jurassic Park and the other- I need to search cuz has been a while since I watched Dinosaur King and I only remembef Chompy that in portuguese is named Gabu

there's no genders for dinos in paleo pines, neither there are for player to choose actually; they all go by they/them. who's to stop you from assigning them ones tho

#only dinos of npc and player's parasaurolophus have particular genders i think #names for my dinos are completely random #theres stacy the styracosaurus. archie the archaeopteryx. gal the gallimimus #ankle the ankylosaurus. also one styraco named styrta sie pali for polish reference #other ankylo is named raspberry due to the color. Spikey the kentrosaurus. valentine the pink utahraptor #the other one of my two archaeopteryxes is called Tiniest man alive. and coelophysis named Long boi #peach psittacosaurus named Princess #also another psittaco named Psikus (prank in polish) as one of dinos whose name is inspired by the first part of their species name #so yeah lol #cloud has been asked #me googling black cat names for melanistic euoplocephalus because i want to keep the title of Toothless for melanistic ankylo #btw that's what i also like highlighting. no gender choice thus no clothing sets limited to one gender so players can do whatever they want #Paleo Pines rambling

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egglygreg · 11 months ago

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#Furby died and I'm devistated #what was wrong was even worse than her dying from spider bite or snake #we figured out it was my young cousin and my friend's 7 year old playing outside and running around like mad #and he accidentally swung the door and it slammed her #I went back to bed that morning despite feeling the nudge to get up and join everyone #and it feels like if I'd been up I would have been out with them and could have prevented it #I miss her so much and she was so into everything and underfoot I keep seeing her everywhere #I spent most of the day at the vet #she was still alive this morning so I started having hope that she could make it #I've lost 5 pets in the last year and a bit to all different things and I'm so tired #I try so hard to take good care of them and it just keeps happening #why do my pets keep dying?#I didn't want Furby when she first came and I thought I was just taming her for a week to go to a new home #I'd only really just started thinking of her as specifically my cat and imagining having her for 15 more years #and now she's dead at 5 months #I'm so full of grief and so tired

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tjerra14 · 2 months ago

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textbook case of emotional blackmail: just what you need on a Monday

#honestly just where we were heading with felv grandma for a while now #i was ready to tell her that wasn't a nice thing to say because i am NOT dealing with that shit #but her daughter already went off at her before i could say a word #the cat has a really fucked eye now but is otherwise in good condition #so we're doing our damndest to keep him alive #but grandma is afraid and overwhelmed because she just lost her other cat to leucose #so she keeps asking us to euthanise him.#and we refuse. a positive felv result alone is no reason. the eye is no reason. both of those things combined-no reason.#i'm a vet. not a killer for hire ffs.#i have explained the disease to her repeatedly. what it does. what happened with the other cat. what we can do now #everything. repeatedly. still she comes back to ask.#we offered to find a new home for the cat if she feels incapable of caring for him #“no. i'm only giving him away dead”#then threatened to kill herself and the cat.#we found a temporary solution now but i fear this isn't over yet #also worried about a coworker because she's taking it (and the other shit that's been happening in a similar vein recently) hard #and sure we talk about this stuff and how we feel about it but idk if that's enough in the end #pet death cw #suicide cw #hello yes work is insane atm #BUT! my last patient today was a cuddly old cat so i'll be focusing on that experience instead

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littleapocalypsekitten · 2 months ago

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Ooh! A quick Google search and I found him! I found the illegal alien that Donald Trump and J.D. Vance are afraid of! Poor Gordon Shumway! His spaceship crashed! He is a refugee! He has no choice but to be in the United States illegally, living with a foster family! His only other option is to be vivisected by U.S. Government scientists! No one wants that! He eats cats. His species eats cats! He's constantly looking for ways to cook the family cat, Lucky! He is also more orange than Donald, so there might be a jealously problem there. He certainly has more hair.

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poisonouspastels · 1 year ago

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@beegswaz genuinely i think my favorite tags on any of my work ever. i fucking love when people talk abt my characters like this

#its like blorbo from my show but with fucking minecraft and i love it deeply #for the record both Groda and White Eyes get socialized in the modern world like feral cats #both by the main players but it does happen at different times bc they all encountered Groda first when she held Rana hostage for bait #she'd kinda gone crazy after all those years of isolation lol #did that bc she thought Herobrine was the knight who betrayed her during the time period where people were wanting to overthrow her #(the knight worked for the royal family and was one of Groda's childhood friends. that did not last needless to say)#thankfully at the end of the day all 4 of the main players managed to get out alive though not unharmed with Groda in tow #when there's something trying to kill you every other day in this universe though they honestly cant be too mad about it #it doesnt help that Groda is just Really Stupid sometimes (all the time)#she's literally Peridot from SU in that she seems really intimidating but in hindsight is a massive dork #and also the fact that is the voice i imagine her having its so good #once her ability to use magic is taken away she's literally just like a scared feral street cat. does not know what the FUCK is going on #also rendering her communication with 3/4ths of the players useless since she only knows Galactic and no one alive knows that but Herobrine #(not helping the coincidental similarities to the knight but thats not him) she'll learn commonspeak later tho #ironically later down the line when Groda is spotted by the cult getting her magic back will be a key part in taking down White Eyes #she really does want to change for the better but she needed a LOT of shit kicked into her in order to start actually making the change #that being said when White Eyes eventually gets integrated it IS On Sight #she has had to been quite literally pried of Groda AT LEAST once by the others in order to keep from killing her #but other than that she'll be okay :) she picks up painting eventually #her open wounds are finally able to heal over once released from the influence of the Wither but she's still scarred unfortunately #mentally and physically!#but its only up from here... right?#actually since I talked abt the players first encounter with Groda im gonna reblog that aftermath comic again it still fucks #minecraft au mastertag

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asthevermincrawls · 2 years ago

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baby likes the heat mat

#great for degreasing bones AND keeping your cat warm. what a steal!#a.txt #vulture culture #my deads #<for the squirrel bones. not the cat. shes very much alive #cats

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socksandbuttons · 2 years ago

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anyway love to think about the fact we canonly get lunar a good eclipse brother like the just said ‘yknow what. canon now’ without actually having to remove the good ol villain asshole eclipse we have. love it

#our eclipse sitting there calling lunar a thing and enjoing scarying him like buddy ill fight u #still sad bloodmoon and lunar content was never developed further because the way those two interacted was fun #lunar just went 'im gonna pick him up call him a baby and now hes my other brother im actively hiding eclipse from'#like... then the whole time sun and moon worry about bloodmoon lunar .... doesnt do anything #MONTY AND LUNAR DID NOT ARRANGE ALL THAT BLOOD FOR NOTHING #also bloodmoon literally has nothing against lunar??? like at all???? they never mention lunar again #AND IM LIKE??? HELLO???? what was the purpose of teaching bloodmoon magic anyway #killcode what were trying to DO?#anyway i love seeing the au where sun just keeps bloodmoon under his bed and claims its a cat he Does Not Have #(hes right but also i think its so funny.)#bloodmoon fans holding onto the hope hes alive somehow #look at him. hes so gremlin of course itd make sense he would be #sun and moon show #i ranted in the tags again but its fine

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fair-dinkum-mechanic · 5 months ago

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I feel so lonely. I’m struggling so hard. I really wish I wasn’t alive.

#what the fuck am I even worth?#why do I keep living?#beyond my cat and my mum what is the fucking point of me being alive #someone please help me please hug me show me I’m worth something #bc right now I feel like a bug compared to everyone else #please help me

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heaven-dope · 7 months ago

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if i had a nickel for every time that warrior cats and i had a medicine cat apprentice named frostpaw who received false, planted prophecies in an attempt for another's grab for power, id have 1 nickel. but hey erin hunter where are my royalties for my oc that i made in 2017

#jkjkjk but it is an extremely funny coincidence #the difference being frostpaw's medicine cat name is frostbite. and the cat in his story that was grabbing for power was his mentor -#as an exploration of a medicine cat w/ more sinister intentions. i was often wondering what was stopping one from manipulating their leader #when they have so much power!! they keep the clan alive physically. they are the clan's main tie to starclan. physical and spiritual power!#we've never had an evil medicine cat before. think about it. put me on the writing team.#anyway. sorry if this shows up in the wc tags because of keywords. thanks for reading about my oc :)#asc spoilers #I GUESS??? IN CASE???#talk tag

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flufflecat · 7 months ago

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Really not feelin it this week. Tag rant incoming

#it's just been a slew of horrible things this week and idk how to handle any of it #we had to take my childhood cat to the vet on Monday bc she's very sick and very skinny #and we thought we'd have to put her down #I'm so thankful bc she still has a bit of time and really all I want is for her to be comfortable again before she dies #but shes in such bad shape #and I hate seeing her like that. I found her when she was just a few weeks old #and now she's 15 and she just got old out of nowhere #and I'm not gonna be able to see her anymore soon #I'm going to a funeral Saturday for one of my aunts #I wasn't close to her since I was a kid but my family more or less abandoned her #and now she's dead and I never went to see her when she was alone #and today my other aunt died. and I was close to her.#I haven't seen her in years either though bc of more family drama.#and I never visited her either. idek if she was alone or if she had people.#I should have visited her when we found out she was sick but I just didn't #idk what to do. it's all just piling up #I feel worse rn than I have in years #and more bad things just keep happening #I was excited this week bc I got some work done on my college application #but now my motivation is just gone #I just wanna sleep and wake up and find out that my aunt is actually alive and someone just got it wrong somehow #but I can't fall asleep and that won't happen so waking up won't even be worth that #I would call off work tomorrow but I don't wanna be alone and my coworkers are the only people I know in town #at least they're all nice people #this all sucks so fucking bad #personal #negative

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orcelito · 8 months ago

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Got the idea of getting a tattoo for my dad, & my sister said she'd be willing to get a matching one with me

This, of all things, has made me cry again for the first time in days

#speculation nation #not a bad cry necessarily. certainly not the chest aching breath gasping kinds of cries i had when things were more fresh #just a few quiet tears. the ache of knowledge that hes gone #and the quiet wish to keep a permanent memento of him. to match how he's formed my very soul.#i had another dream about him last night. another moment of unconscious acceptance.#the first one. i think it was near the start of the week. i was exploring what was in-dream an old school he went to #looking for signs of his old life.#& in the end i jumped down the center of a tall stairwell. with no fear bc i had something to break my fall.#it felt like release. and acceptance.#last night's dream. i dont remember most of it. but i remember seeing him in-dream #then remembering he was actually dead with an ache of true wrongness.#it felt like a different kind of acceptance. one step at a time the truth sinking into my psyche #because he still doesnt feel dead. not really. but with each passing day it becomes a little more real.#i still wish this was a nightmare i could wake up from. or a bad route i could reload a save to avoid.#i sometimes do dream of the deaths of people i love. and i have certainly dreamt of my father's death.#but this time it's real. and i cant wake up from it.#at this point i can only hope to have dreams of him alive again. just like how my dead cats still live in my dreams.#i wish i didnt have to dream of it. i wish he was still here.

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