#these are the ones I was talking about yeaterday

[harellan]

𝓒𝓱𝓻𝓲𝓼𝓽𝓶𝓪𝓼 𝓔𝓿𝓮 𝓝𝓲𝓰𝓱𝓽 🎄✨

[lbulldesigns]

UPDATE: AITAH For accusing my former best friend of trying to break up my relationship, and promptly ending our thirteen-year-long friendship?

Posted 19th of May, 2021

Thank you everyone for setting me straight, I accept the YTA verdict.

My Godfather always says to me "If one guy calls you a horse, then he's being a dick. If everyone's calling you a horse, then it's time to buy a saddle" well if everyone's calling me an AH then I need to swallow my pride and take it on the chin.

I'm the AH is more ways than one, and will spend a long, long, long time making up for this.

However, I don't have a happy update. I got up early this morning, with only three hours of sleep the night before, with the sole purpose of meeting up with Pow before school. I planned on stopping by our favourite diner and picking her up her favourite pancake dish and going over everything that happened yesterday over breakfast.

I had practised what I was going to say after I told my Uncle Benny everything that happened. He was disappointed in me and said that we needed to have a long chat on picking up actual red flags but that he was going to help me figure out the correct words to say to Pow and what I needed to expect from this talk.

So I'm about to head out and get the breakfast, with Benny also suggesting flowers (Pow loves flowers, but only if she can keep them alive in a pot) when the doorbell rings. I go and answer and Van is standing there with the pancakes I planned on getting, and a bag clothes.

Benny invited him in and Van apologised for rocking up so early but he wanted to bring Pow a fresh change of clothes before school, and her favourite breakfast.

To say we were confused would be an understatement. Benny asked what Van was talking about and Van then looked confused and asked if she wasn't here.

Long story short. Pow is now missing.

After she got home yesterday, she was in tears and Lo was the first to greet her. and in true Lo fashion decided to give her grief over this, Van doesn't know entirely what went down or what exactly was said but all he heard was a loud banshee-like scream, thudding, and Lo screaming in terror and pain. He had run into the entryway and saw Pow on top of Lo beating the shit out of him. (Something I would have paid to see).

Van had pulled Pow off of Lo but she was struggling to get out of his hold to continue her attack on Lo, so Van was reduced to shaking her by the shoulders and using his "snap out of it voice" which can come across pretty demanding. It worked and Pow instantly went from, in Van's words, a rabid Honey Badger to a lost and scared kitten. He demanded what was going on but Lo was groaning in pain, and by Van's words laying it on a little thick, and Pow was struck mute.

Van recognized her flight or fight response kicking in and started to tell her to get out and take a walk for a bit but he only got out "Get Out" before Pow bolted from the house, Van shouted out after her to go to Benny's and he'll see her tomorrow but he wasn't sure she heard but was certain she would come here anyway because she usually does when overwhelmed.

At this point I was starting to really feel sick, I explained everything that happened yeaterday at school. Van got really quiet and just just sighed heavily, and just looked at me with so much disappointment.

I thought I felt ashamed when all of you called me an AH but seeing this man's disappointment plain as day just crushed me. I mumbled out a pathetic sorry, but Van said that all of that didn't matter right now and what was important was finding his daughter.

He lectured me on my behavior and wanted the full story and I told him how everyone was saying the same things about Pow being toxic and that I spoke with Daisy, and she and her GF told me about how possessive she had been acting with them and that she was most likely doing the same thing.

Van asked for some examples, and I admitted I didn't see anything myself but my friends and my GF's friends often told me about her comments towards them and how one time she claimed that I belonged to her and she was certain I would always chose her over any skank that would try and muscle in. (I never added this info in my original post, because my mind was all over the place and there's a character limit)

I admitted that I didn't believe it at first, but the more and more people were telling me about her antics the more and more concerned I got, and when Daisy all but confirmed Pow's possessiveness I stupidly fell into the notion that everything was true.

I felt so stupid saying it all out loud.

Van asked me what Pow said in her defense, and I couldn't answer him because I never asked. Something he picked up on by my silence.

He sighed again and said that none of that helps locate his daughter right now, and asked if she had any other friends she would go to if I wasn't available.

So I called Zer, who miraculously answered my call, and asked if Pow was with her. But she hasn't seen or heard from her, she had tried called and texting Pow herself yesterday but got nothing back.

I took the day off the school, to help look for her.

It's now 6PM and we're currently at the Enforcers station, hoping to see if they picked up any wayward teenage girls.

I'll update with more later.

[superrainbow06]

I BEAT IN STARS AND TIME YEATERDAY IT WAS SO GOOD!!

I didn't post about it cause I was overwhelmed. Very emotionally heavy story. Also I forgor. But it's very good, I think that anyone who wouldn't have a panic attack and or die because of the content should play it (PLEASE check content warnings on games before you play them, especially this one, so you don't have a panic attack and or die. Or if it just makes you uncomfortable its also cool to want to avoid it but I like being dramatic sometimes)

This is genuinely the best take on a time loop I have ever seen in any media ever. And the writing is incredibly good also, everything in it is so carefully constructed that it all feels very real and realistic, the characters actually feel like real people who are having conversations, the dialogue flows super smoothly and is very coherent, the overarching story is very good, and the worldbuilding, though not incredibly present in the actual game, the hints you get throughout the game of how the world works is soo good, really puts you in the place of the character.

Also, for any depression havers out there, this game is very much centered on how a time loop would affect a person's mental health if it were to happen, and it DOES NOT HOLD BACK. It gets into all of the stuff normally presented in a game with depression as a theme (celeste, chicory, etc) but also goes in depth about the stuff people don't like to talk about with depression (so, again, check the warnings on the game before playing if you are interested) which I really appreciated. This game really manages to make you feel absolutely terrible in the best way possible. I am going to force everyone I know and love to play this game

Also please go check out @insertdisc5 they made this whole masterpiece of a game (excluding the music and sfx, but it's still extremely impressive) and I think it should be more popular.

[campoverlook-if]

Progress Update #4// 4/3/24

Hey everyone, just wanted to update you all on the story.

I've started a new process for the past few days where I write for two hours and then take fifteen-thirty minute breaks in between. I'm still blanking on what to write for a section sometimes, but I'm really trying not to have grayed out choices again. That was NOT fun.

Still, the writing process shouldn't be forced, but sometimes you just really need to kick your own ass and grab that text file by the ears. Plus, this is the most productive I've felt since getting my wisdom teeth removed.

In celebration of this new bout of inspiration, here's a sneak peek of an upcoming scene you may encounter in the update.

Alright, that's it. This girl can't just bully you away because she doesn't like you. You hadn't even done anything when she first started acting nasty towards you. Yes, you may have walked away in the middle of a conversation, but she had been so…aggressive. You weren't just going to stand there and take it, and you definitely weren't going to start now. So, you take a step closer to Claire, giving her a leveled glare of your own. "Last time I checked, this table doesn't belong to you." Tension quickly fills the air around the two of you. Claire doesn't respond to your retort, but she doesn't need to. Her body language gives you all the information you need to know.

Ooooh boi, what the hell did you do to make Claire this mad at you. And on the first day? Tragic.

Along with that we'll be getting into a few things before finally ending episode 1:

Reworked the gender system of the counselors. Now you can choose from the beginning how you want them to be.

Added the choice to be non-binary (a new batch of campers, hooyay!). Also need to add onto scenes with Asher, Claire, and Lucas.

Meeting the final two counselors (Ruby and Silas).

An added scene with E for returning MCs during your walk to the mess hall.

Going through orientation, including a fun scavenger hunt (Uncle Robert said it would be fun, don't believe him).

A small scene with your new roommates in your cabins.

I'm so excited just thinking about it, and I'm the one writing the dang story.

If you hadn't seen it yet, I answered an ask a little bit ago about doing visuals for the blog. I'm not the best at visual media (that's more my mother's thing) but I can use a character maker like a mf if I have too.

It was kinda nice, a little limiting, but it was surprisingly helpful for me to have it. I've thought about how these characters look for so long it's strange to suddenly see them brought to life in any type of way except text. The character bios have been updated with these pictures now.

(UPDATE: LITERALLY MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT DECISION: SLEEP DEPRIVED AF BEHAVIOR)

So, I wrote this update yeaterday and was planning for it to just post through queue like I normally do, but the situation has changed. The demo will be updated again, however the stopping point is literally the same. The only major changes are the gender system, adding being non-binary, and having everything on one file (pray for me). The stopping point is still the same.

All in all the word count is now at this point: 57k (W/O Code), 14K (average). Not a huge jump average wise, but I'm happy anyway.

Link to demo here.

(END OF EMERGENCY UPDATE)

That's all I wanted to talk about for now, if you run into any bugs just let me know and I'll fix it lickity split.

See you all on the next update!

P.S. - I love it when new people follow and only like the posts of certain counselors. I know who you're into now ;).

[crimsonsrecordshislife]

Well well well.

I’m actually somewhat keeping up! This is a nifty surprise, lol. So, to start off, I wanna state that, while I doubt people are actually going to see this for a while, I’m actually having a fairly nice time writing!

Now, as of writing this segment it’s 9:03pm and my battery is at 93%. Nothing significant there, just thought it was a little silly and ironic that battery and time are matching eachother. I saw a friend/classmate at the park today, that was pretty cool. I’m not really used to people interacting with me at the park, not that I mind. I use that time to kinda destress and take a moment away from people. I usually end up singing, too! I’ve been getting ready good at sing “Outliars and Hyppocrates: A Fun Fact About Apple” by Will Wood, “Labyrinth” by Miracle Musical and “The Mind Electric” also by Miracle Musical. A song that I’ve been definitely vibing with is “Wet” by Dazey and the Scouts. I dunno why, it’s kinda sad and very sexual, but it’s actually a vibe. It took me a couple listens through before I was like. “Hold up, lemme look at the lyrics,” then I was mortified.

I’m not looking forward to tomorrow at school at ALL. I cannot wait to be done with school for some reason. I, unironically, love school. Home life is pretty chaotic, and school is verily structured, so it kinda helps with my Autistic Brain. But, tomorrow, we’re gonna be reading a short story that is apparently way worse than the one we read yesterday. And yeaterday’s made me want to throw up. So, I’m am, to say the least, scared. But, I know, when I’m done with school, I’ll have my amazing partner to talk to! So, that’s something to look forward to!

I know that these seemingly keep getting longer, but I’m wanting to get better at journaling. Eventually, I plan on keeping an actual journal. However, until then, I’ll have to settle for this! Which, isn’t actually really bad, but I’ve always wNted to keep a proper journal. Something I can write in or draw in or scribble or whatever! Something that I could pour any thought into, because not all my thoughts are sane. I’ve had friends look at me and go “HOLY FUCK DUDE, ARE YOU MENTALLY OKAY?” And, like, obviously the andwer is no, but then I feel shitty cause, like. My bad I’m stating something that I personally don’t see an issue with. Which, isn’t entirely my fault, sometimes I have a difficult time understanding what’s socially acceptable to talk about because of my Autism lmao. Social Skills actually do not exist. But, I just think if I have a proper journal, I could pour thoughts into it, no matter how obscene, vulgar, sexual, insane or the like they may be!

Anyways, with that being said! I think I’ve rambled and exposed myself long enough, I must bid uou all adieu! As of now, it is 9:19pm and I have the absolute munchiest of munchies

[chaosmenu]

paca and i were talking about this yeaterday but the best ults in league are definitely the ones where you just fire a giant laser

[sick-as-a-dog]

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[randalgraves]

i am once again online

[the-breloominati]

[pixelchills]

Chili-Flake.

Ya know those Filters with the line moving across the screen that warps the image/video?

Pretty popular for Yawning Cats.

Take that, and use it on Solar. It would be worth it- and I can't stop laughing.

I laughed myself to my 18th Casket already.

Him yawning or...? I've been joking about his possible sneeze with my partner yeaterday after it was mentioned by suji.

Imagine him sneezing like a cat where they just keep going, like it's not just one sneeze but like 10 smaller ones in a row and it interrupts his monologue about something and then he just continues talking normally like nothing happened.

But if you did an actual video of him with that filter then please send it to me, I'd like to see XD

[sammyloomis]

i’m curious what your general thoughts on the characters were? i found the main cast pretty likable on average tbh

ohhhHOHOHO well then ill have to make a cheeky list n talk about em all then :] ill go in order of appearence i guess (and yeah i ended up liking most of them! with a few nit picks here and there)

laura: i fucking love her oh my god, i was kind of surprised when i got to the end and found myself as into her character as i was. shes super cool, queen of costume changes, queen of being a rly cool werewolf, queen of having an eyepatch, queen of my heart

max: ohh my god this lad fghj i love him too, hes so..... Dopey idk how else to describe him. hes so casually hilarious idk if hes ever aware of it. he was super nice in my playthrough because i was nice to Him and i think he and laura are a great couple :'] drinks his respects women juice every day

jacob: he was living his jessice riley fantasy spending half the night in his underwear covered in blood. king of being in touch with his emotions, i loved that he cried so much and wasnt as much of the douche bag jock type (like he still Was a dick a fair few times, but im baby girlifying him)

kaitlyn: SHE DESERVED MORE SCREEN TIME WTF MAN like considering shes supposed to be the final girl to ryans final guy she didnt have NEARLY as much gameplay as him :[ which is such a shame because shes GREAT again super super cool, i Loved her and dylans friendship, the whole scrapyard scene was amazing and one of the best in the game imo

ryan: ohh ryan..... ryan ryan ryan. a friend said this yeaterday but he suffers from the mike munroe treatment where the game Clearly wants you to like him by having a lot of segments with him and in doing so it just made me kind of..... Not like him :[ i also felt like he was resistant to laura and the truth of what was goin on for Too Long, like at the point he should have realised the stakes he just Kept Going which was frustrating

dylan: i actually started of really not liking dylan fghj i thought he was kinda annoying :'] but he Defo grew on me once shit started going south. like once the very obviously a front started dropping he was much less of a pest fghjk AND like i said with kaitlyn, the scrapyard scene with those 2 was INCREDIBLE. also love that he asked for his hand to be cut off and then was like WHY DID YOU DO THAT!? D':

nick: hrhhhhh okay. nick. man nick you really fuckin got my goat huh?? just snatched it up like el chupacabra. he was so fucking BORING dude, and when he wasnt being boring he was being kind of a dick >:[ even before the bite. the campfire scene im sure is gonna make a lot of people dislike emma but i would like to point out that HE KISSES HER BACK. QUITE HAPPILY TOO. so yeah, not a big nick fan, but i dont Hate him, i think once he gets bitten its actually a pretty interesting downward spiral

abigail: ohhhh abi you sweet baby. she was very cute and very sweet and UNFORTUNATELY that meant.... she was a lil one note. but again she was SO under used it was so annoying!! it felt like she was just there as a narrative device for nick and once he was out of the picture she was kinda pushed to the back. the parts shes in, all she rly does is.... be there fghj and from what ive seen quite a few of her deaths are being killed by her friends once they turn into werewolves

emma: controversial queen. my thoughts on emma are Complicated, especially after the campfire thing, and a lot of the time she felt kind of uninterested in what was going on which, considering her character and how she talks about putting up a front a lot of the time, i can understand. all that being said, i still love her, i think shes interesting, and i WILL defend her because i know how people like to immediately jump on female characters who arent totally """nice"""..... oh also shes in love with abi so

[bentenharuki]

I am back home after a tearing up night(mare). Dad took me here from the rehab center, and we didn’t speak a single sound. Car was silent. Only the levity of the running electric car sound from the foggy morning outside.

Neither of us slept well after yeaterday’s tragic news that Kobe Bryant passed away and I still can’t cope.

So as soon as I could, I am here to write something to pour it all off my heavy chest.

It won’t probably be coherent and it’s gonna be full of typos because when I emotionally write I am a river unbounded.

But I’ll like it this way.

I’ll pour out this way.

Kobe Bryant was for me (and I think for practically the world, from what I am seeing these hours) THE EMBODIMENT OF SPORT EXCELLENCE.

That kind of sport peak excellence which transcends the limit of a field and transmigrates into every aspect of daily life’s conducts.

Kobe Bryant was a pinnacle. In his profession. But not only. He was a peak of a human. Not perfect. And just for that... even more perfect.

A vaste and undeniable talent matched with THE GREATEST PASSION and the GREATEST DEDICATION.

All that I think sport mentality has to be to define greatness... HE WAS THE ONE INSTILLING IT IN ME.

I am putting this personal pics on because I have ALWAYS been a total Kobe fan. I am putting Kobe’s quotes under the cards that I collected as a kid, the dvd of him I collected as a kid, and as I do this I keep crying.

It still doesn’t register with me that he’s gone.

Because he was GOAT (yeah, there’s Jordan I know... but I am too young for him and I didn’t grew with him and I couldn’t fully receive him... Jordan is monumental but he has not my heart. So for me... it’s always been Kobe. And now it will ALWAYS be Kobe), and he made me and my bro wake up as kids at 3 am to watch live the Lakers on ESPN. Mum and Dad never really able to banish us from that as long as we were performing excellently at school. Thing that we have always been able to do.

Kobe Bryant was an unique beast whose thirst and striving for perfection was brutally in your face.

More than his (enormous) talent and skill, you couldn’t avoid to realize his head and heart were even more enormous.

He had the maximum level of competitiveness, the highest reach of willpower, a kind of determination and dedication to his sport which cannot leave any soul bland. Which is why these hours there is no place in the world, no category of person, no fierce adversary or devoted fan who isn’t feeling torn out and left alone by his unfair passing away.

I can’t even begin to list why I loved him so.

Why I looked up so much to him.

The way he has inspired me in life are countless, and if you ever feel like your can’t do something, watch his stunning MUSE documentary.

This man was injured, and still so into it. So explicatively determined to come back. So aware of himself and yet so resolved he had to fight back to stand up again.

He could have given up but he knew that wasn’t the moment.

His brilliant brain KNEW.

His countless sporty achievements and the worldwide respect he acquired for the quality and quantity of his legacy are ALL underlined and enhanced by one of the greatest intellects ever.

Kobe Bryant was a sport philosopher as well as a warrior.

He has played with torn fingers, torn achille’s heels, with sprained limbs, and still he never put up excuses.

Was he difficult to deal with?

Only for the weaks.

The greats knew he was always standing right where he had to. Often the bravest of them all, always the most honest and the most standing out.

In Italy we are broadcasting tons of his interviews from here, the last one from this September an august; Kobe spoke Italian (and a lot of other languages) fluently because he lived here and his departure hits us maybe even harder for it.

I remember well how I got the shirt that I showed you yesterday.

I was a kid teen following her dad at work. Dad comes and say: “if you behave I can make you meet the great Kobe Bryant”.

Kobe was in Milanello and dad was having a session with one of the Milan AC players who was in rehab after dad himself had reconstructed his ankle and Kobe Bryant was visiting the complex (he was a Milan AC devoted fan).

I was shocked and immediately whined I didn’t want to disturb him (I never feel like famous people have to be bothered just because they are around... I content myself with their existence in general and I detest people thinking they own somehow those they admire just because they make them wealthy... I tend to think we shall be grateful to people who inspire us because they can make our lives better instead), but dad smiled and just said “you won’t. He’s a great guy”

I then said I couldn’t speak English well enough (a lie... I was very fluent in English at 10 already) but again dad said I shouldn’t have to worry.

Because Kobe Bryant spoke in Italian.

I just remember to be shocked because he was so... tall. So luminous when he approached us and his royal and often unapproachable face muted and l got blinded by his wonderful smile.

He’d looked so... “normal” in the sense you couldn’t feel there was any barrier but HE WAS KOBE BRYANT and I couldn’t realize he was in front of me asking me if I loved also basketball beside “calcio”.

All in Italian.

His voice was like a deep lullaby. He had a wonderful voice. I am crying like a fountain as I write this because right there and then I could only think that this enormous champion was asking a little girl in her language something so natural, like we could be friends.

I remember being all red; a flush of emotion uncontrollable showing from my pores.

And he WAS SO GRACIOUS he asked forgiveness for putting me in embarrassment but then i shook head and as my dad was beside me I could answer that I was a big fan of him. That even though my favorite sport was volley, he was an idol to me and that just because of him I was a devoted Laker fan and that alongside my brother I was often watching NBA games on cable or internet... just to follow him.

At that he nodded. He made a sort of giggle but not in any derogatory way... it was something sweet and precious and then he said he would have tried to win more so that I could be even happier the year after.

It was so wonderful to me.

Everything about him has always been wonderful to me.

I have learned all about life through his Mamba mentality.

There’s so much of that in me, but not because I had it into me: because I trusted him that I also could have developed that kind of life’s poignantly performing habit.

It destroys me that yesterday, as he realized he was going down, he had to endure the immense pain to not being able to protect his daughter Gianna from the same unfair fate.

Because “being unable” was so NOT Kobe Bryant.

He has always been the kind of champion who can DO ALL.

In sport.

And after sport.

He was just so excellent in everything.

My heart is broken and maybe all that I have written makes no sense to anyone but me but I couldn’t care less.

I was talking just the other day about what great speech of him we would have gotten to hear at Kone’s HOF induction... it was going to be maybe the greatest speech ever... and now we won’t hear a thing.

I just can’t stop crying.

This is a wound which is gonna stay with me forever.

ADDIO KOBE. COME TE NESSUNO MAI. GRAZIE DI TUTTO PER SEMPRE. PER SEMPRE CON NOI; A MOSTRARCI LA STRADA.

[pmadry]

Hey how is everybody doing. It's a fine Friday!😁. So guess what? I actually did a post yesterday and it was quite long but I got so busy with errands yesterday I went and close the site before I saved it.😱 Awww man. So sorry for the length in advance. Not only do I have to make up for yesterday's post. I have more news today😎. So buckle up and enjoy.😉

So as for yeaterday I dod my challenge and I was so pleased with my progress. I did 20 burpees among other things. Check out my Facebook story today and you'll see. I improved so so much. I'm doing rhem quicker now and more. And had energy to do other exercises. Now that's what I'm talking about progress. My weight continued in the right direction for the record was 157.2 yesterday. You'll awe why that important to know😊.

So nutrition wise I'm doing ok. Still having a few challenges with balancing between the zero point list and feeling satisfied keeping the cravings away. So this being week 4 I think my mindset is turning the table. Its finally becoming a habit to at least look and keep as close to on track as I can get. And its working. 😂😎💪🏽

So then this morning this glorious Friday morning I did 30 burpees Yes!!!. And it didn't feel like as much effort. And although still not perfect my form has improved. Persistence pays off. I did some front kicks and sidekicks for stress relief and boy I felt so good after.

But here is the kicker, my weight this morning 157.8 and increase of .6 pound what?! So I see the difference as I weighed myself after I exercised. So the heat of excerscing expanded my muscles and sweat added to my weight. So I'm not too mad.

I'm still waiting for that dreaded plateau when ypur weight becomes stagnet or wore increases slightly. I hope this little inceease is not the beginning of that. I'm not sure if my mindset is ready. We shall see. Definetly honna have to keep myself on track can't lose momentum now.

So next week I yhink I'll stick woth burpees and maybe add like this week. Its working and since I really need to perfect it. Its not a bad repeat choice for me. Throughout the weeks I sprinkle in a few outdoor runs from paloton. Love that app. Also my job is very physically active as a full time massage therapist. So I have some wiggle room in my nitrion and activity. But how do you record activity from your job. One day soon I'll have to figure that out.

I'll be reactivatong my fitness group onlone soon. I have a few thinhs to clear up still and I'll keep everyone posted and updayed on that. I've rin them before andI love it. Thanks for reading. Come back soon.

[constellationofhope]

may 13, 2019

so it’s definitely been a weird couple days for me.. Yeaterday something major happened with Cedric & I. Unfortunately, it wasn’t good. He got really drunk & made several pretty bad decisions. It’s honestly changed the way I think about him and that scares me. He kind of scares me. But, he says he’s going to get help. He says he’s going to drink much less, and talk to a counselor. I just want him to get help. I want him to be his happy self that I know he is, I want to go back to the perfect relationship I know we had.. I just really hope he’s serious about changing his behaviors but I’m just one shot of alcohol away from leaving him right now. And that’s honestly heartbreaking as fuck to say.. I’m in love with this man, I’ve given him my all, my absolute everything. I’m committed to him, I’ve made plans with him. If I have to break up with him, I don’t even know what I would do... I don’t have any where to go, let alone the money I need to finiancially support myself & all my animals.. But i’d have to figure it out, and I know my parents would help me.. It’s just scary. I never thought I’d be on my own again, I never wanted to go a single day without this man.. But, things change. Time reveals a persons true character.. I hope he is serious about getting help for his alcoholism. I need him to be serious about it.

I just feel so heartbroken. I feel empty. There’s just really no other way to describe it. I’m empty. My heart is numb. I really don’t remember a time I was more depressed than I am right now.. It’s not like a, i want to kill myself depression like I usually get. It’s just like...a pathetic version. I feel like a pathetic version of myself. I just don’t want to do anything besides lay in bed with my dogs & my cat. It’s like they calm me.. My puppy knows somethings wrong with me.. She’s not the cuddly type but i swear since it’s happened she has been the most cuddly, her demeanor has changed from this crazy shepherd puppy to a calm sweetheart who just wants to make her momma okay again.. It does help me though. My animals truly make me feel as if everything’s okay. Everything couldn’t be any farther from okay right now..

I guess there’s a plus side to this whole depression tho lol. I haven’t eaten since the incident... So ya know, maybe i’ll lose some more weight?? lmao Usually I’m so depressed I want to eat everything but that’s not the case right now. I’m approaching 31 hours without food and yet whenever I think about eating, it makes me feel sick. It actually repulses me to think about eating something right now, i’m not sure why. I’ve never experienced feeling this...worthless before. I feel like I don’t deserve food, I don’t deserve the energy, or the nutrients. I deserve to just lay here & slowly die..

Idk. I just want my life back. This isn’t it.. I’m just so fucking heartbroken..

[hazbinextgeneration]

Kitty Protection

-Please take note that Gem-Stone is just a pup here while Wild-Card is in his toddler years- "..............Really?" "Oh, come on, Husk. It's only for a little bit." The female demon held the two children. One looked between them while his younger sister cooed. "Why can't you take care of him?........And why ain't Crymini taking care of Gemmy?" "Because right now we have a lot of guests at the moment and everyone's busy. I just need you to watch them for a little bit." ".........Do I have too?" "Do you want to be a good father?" "........" "..........." -10 Minutes Later- "In other news....There has been no trace of the missing child since last seen yeaterday morning at 10:37 p.m.. Athorites are urging others to remain calm and keep an eye out for any suspicious figures. Back to you, Mary." "*tch* Typical. Back in my day, we took better care of our kids,' he scoffed at the TV. He flipped through the channels, trying to find something to watch. With his other hand, he carefully kept the children from rolling off him, as they both napped on his chest. ".....Is there really nothing on today? Jeez. Not even a football game? Documentry? Something?" "Maybe you get bored too easily, my friend." His head snapped up and saw none other than the BIGGEST smarta$$ ever born since Angel. His many eyes stared down at him and his stupid grin showed off his yellow fangs. "......The h-ll do you want, Pentious? How long have you been standing there?" He shrugged. "Not long. Maybe ten...fifteen minutes at most." ''........I didn't know you were back at the hotel." "Well, when I first heard the news, I just HAD to see for myself if the rumors were true." "What rumors?" He cocked an eyebrow. "You know perfectly well 'what rumors' I'm talking about." ".......I don't." He scoffed. "Are you as stupid as you are lazy?" He didn't give him a chance to respond as he suddenly pointed at the sleeping children. "I've heard rumors that your scientist made you all......children.' He glanced between them and Pentious before slapping his hand away and using his wing to keep them from his sight. "keep your nose out of my business, Snake." "Now, now. I was merely curious. It's not everyday a demon has the opportunity to have offspring. A lot of demons would gladly pay for something like that." He opened his mouth to respond but- "Husk! Come 'ere for a minute! I can't get the roulette wheel ta work!!" He looked back at the still smiling snake. He narrowed his eyes at him before getting up and carefully carrying the children in his arms. Wild-Card had woken up just a couple seconds later. Husk set him down first on an arm chair before carefully placing his baby sister in his arms. "Daddy has to help Uncle Angel with somethin'. I'll be right back. Watch Gemmy and STAY right here. Ok?" "Kay." "Good." -5 Minutes Later- "NOW do you understand what to do?" The spider demon nodded. "Yep, but I don't get why Charlie is having me do your job." "She's having me watch my kids." "Where are they?" "Wild-Card's watching Gemmy at the moment." "......Ain't he a little young to do that?" "He listens when I tell him to stay. Their both fi-" "AAAAHHHH!! Dad!! Daddy!!" "......Hold that thought." He scrambled away. He stopped in the doorway. "WTF?!?!" Pentious was holding Gem-Stone by her tail in one hand while his other held Wild-Card back. The toddler kept jumping up and shouting as his sister wailed. "NOOOO!! My sissy!! My sissy!! Give back!!" His arms reached up for her and his wings flapped uselessly. "All in good time. Now....Did he use black magic or gene splicing to make you?" He reached up to poke her, but stopped when something whisked past his head. it ended up in the wall with a metallic clink. "Give my son his sister,' the cat demon growled holding more card knives. "Or what?" "Or I'm gonna slice you up and feed Alastor snake salad for dinner!" The snake's smile vanished. They stared at each other a moment longer before slowly lowering Gem-Stone down. The toddler wrapped his arms arouns her and pulled her away. he scampered over to his father while sticking his tongue out at him. ".....Don't you EVER come near our kids again!!" "Or what? Your little fleabags are easy targets. I wouldn't be surprised if one of them 'accidentally' ended up dead on the street." A high pitched screech sounded out as Husk crouched down and his wings flared out, trembling slightly. he let out another screech as he lunged at him. ................................................................................................................................................................................ Gem-Stone cooed as husk held her closer. Wild-Card fell asleep against his side again. "......I hope you're happy. Now I have to clean up the mess you made of the lobby." He glanced at the female. "......" He smiled. "Yes. I am pretty happy actually." 

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[tiny-lesbeann]

Yeaterday when I saw the news that Jessica and Sarah were leaving Grey's (not by choice) I was soooo pissed!!

I started watching the show last year and binged the entire thing with my mom lol so I kinda knew that Izzie and George and Derek and Christina and all the rest were leaving in advance.. it still was sad to see their characters go of course but it was easier cause I already knew it was gonna happened (doesnt mean i didnt cry)

but now... Arizona is my favorite character.. she's the one that i look forward to.. that when she comes on screen I smile.. I love to see her smile (dimples!!), love to see her talking about Sofia, love to see her being her complete self and saving children and mothers and being an amazing human being in general.. and I love the fact that she's gay and that isn't the most interesting thing about her (quoting ob here cause why not)

and april!! man I love april (and japril) she has had such a journey. she went to hell and back shes also a mother and amazing doctor. shes a veteran she has saved so many lives.. she has endured so much shit for believing so strongly.

I am christian but im not very religious (was forced to go to church as a kid) and always thought most christians are full of shit and huge hypocrites and then april showed up. she's -also- her complete self, not ashamed and proud to be a christian who actually understands what that means (because let me tell you... there are A TON of "christians" who have no idea what that means) and I absolutely love that part of her.

it makes absolutely no sense to me that Jessica and Sarah are leaving. I have no idea how tf they're gonna pull this off, I mean Arizona and April have no reason to leave Grey Sloan and I swear to God if they die i will riot

Thats it for my ranting this morning im pissed and have to go to class bye