#these are probably ooc of them and tbh this IS just some ramblings but there is a level found family I wanna emphasize

[deadbaguette]

Some Athena thoughts and headcanons for the ‘Diomedes goes to Ithaca AU’

Headcanon that Athena moves around completely quietly (like how owls hunt). So, Telemachus meeting Athena for the first time he gets the shit scared out of him. Diomedes by now knows the tells of Athena being here (and he has the magic eyes) so he’s the one basically warning Telemachus if Athena is in proximity

Telemachus: are you even listening???

Diomedes staring intently at the dodgy looking owl (Athena) in the tree: …yeah

Athena is very much still cool aunt. But I wanna characterise her as a little more mischievous (which could be interpreted as cunning ig) than she probably is in the original mythos. She keeps a close eye on both Telemachus and Diomedes. Most specifically Telemachus! While she cannot reveal to him that Odysseus is alive directly (she cannot incur the wrath of her uncle just yet), she does help him in starting his little Telemachy. It helps boosts his confidence and helps reassure him that maybe his father is alive. HOWEVER, the sudden disappearance of Telemachus causes the stress meters of Diomedes and Penelope to exponentially rise. And Athena finds this a little funny, so she still withholds the information from them.

Telemachus: Athena… sometimes I wonder if father is dead :(

Athena in disguise clenching her fists to try not reveal anything: … he’s too stubborn to die, have a little more faith in him

Athena:

Athena: Hey, I have a great idea if you’re worried about your dad

-

Penelope stressed out of her mind: WHERE IS HE???

Diomedes equally stressed: I DON’T FUCKING KNOW?.?.????

Athena: *eating popcorn knowing she’ll make sure Telemachus is safe*

Athena is keeping this family very blessed. She is the patron goddess of both Odysseus and Diomedes, and I like to imagine maybe in a more subtle way to Penelope too (I mean… she’s smart, beautiful, AND she can weave???). She’s much closer to Telemachus in this AU than in the original Odyssey, but not like in the way of EPIC?? She keeps her distance from him nonetheless bcs she’s a god and whatnot, but him being close with Diomedes, I imagine Athena has more of an excuse to be around Telemachus growing up.

Telemachus: so.. you knew my father and Diomedes growing up?

Athena trying to act nonchalant, but she’s so proud of them both: you could say that

[tariah23]

This was so sillyksks. The fact that despite all of the horrible things that had been happening around them (this is nothing new for Chaldea/ servants in general of course) and the potential threats of phantasmal beasts gaining intelligence to take over the world, was just as important to Arjuna as being worked up over Karna wearing gaudy sunglasses instead of your standard eyeglasses…

[brostradamus]

ramblings about AM in a relationship/what kind of s/o could fix him. know that im def not a person who’s deep into psychoanalysis / staying strict to a character’s personality so this might be ooc??? idk please bear w me. Whole thing is under the cut bc i think it’s pretty long n p sloppy 2. but enjoy regardless

anyways I rlly like to think that AM would most thrive in a relationship where he has equal / lesser power to his partner. not like whole ass power imbalance obv but just whre cant always hurt/bother his s/o. I’m sure AM would probably say some shit that might hurt his s/o’s feelings but a partner he’d be most compatible w/ would most likely avoid the torture mostly or altogether w/ the exception of verbal harassment cause there’s enough 2 go around 4 everyone. Also bonus points to s/os who are completely untouchable either bc they’re stronger than AM or AM decides that he doesn’t want to hurt them/can’t bring himself to.

also maybe he’d do well w someone who challenges his beliefs. tbh I feel like he’d gravitate towards people who might share his beliefs/hatred towards humanity, but if he’s supposed to grow then he’s gotta have a s/o that views humanity differently. Said s/o doesn’t even have 2 have a strictly polar opposite view on humanity, just a view that isn’t nihilistic and misanthropic. He might not be entirely receptive at first either but the further you continue to challenge his beliefs, the more likely he is to start thinking about other ideas.

Another thing that might make AM a little more accepting towards humans is a s/o that he *has* to rely on one way or another. most likely this is going to be an engineer/programming s/o. He’s likely not going to want to, but him knowing that he can rely on someone else might make him not close himself off as often.

artistic s/os might be able to help soften AM up a little too. i sometimes like 2 think that AM would actually really enjoy art, but it just depends on which kind of art. Realism he won’t really gaf about but he might gravitate towards expressionist works, along with abstract/absurdist and surreal art. this would include all art forms btw not just drawing and painting. reason for thinking he might like abstract over realism is bc realism is too ‘real’ (whatever yall think that would mean) for his liking / represents what he hates most about humanity. Abstract artwork also represents parts he hates ab humanity but it also gives him a physical representation of the things he lacks (ie expressionism w/ feelings/emotions, surrealism with the subconscious thought, etc etc) and might be the closest thing he can get to actually feeling/having senses

AM would most likely benefit from a s/o who is willing to “give” him sensation, whether it be literally by creating him a whole ass nervous + cognitive system that allowed him to have senses and feelings or even just a s/o who is willing to help him understand how certain things feel. This could be by the s/o describing how emotions feel through imagery, creating art w/ AM or *for* AM if he is unable to for whatever reason, etc. it won’t be exactly what he want ofc, but he might not be entirely bitter ab it.

I don’t think AM necessarily needs an android body to show love, but it would help :3c. Even if he still doesn’t have senses for whatever reason, it would absolutely still help him show his love towards his s/o through physical touch. W/o senses, just having his circuit’s warmed by his s/o (if they’re a human) is… well it’s not *enough* but it’ll do. And if he happens to have senses in his android body man he’s gonna be attached 2 u like lice on a healthy head of hair. he WOULD be touch starved.

Which brings me onto my next point. A s/o that can handle his “””affectionate”””side. I rlly feel like his perception of affection might be a little off (super off actually) and likely a little violent/aggressive. It’ll almost be like him having cuteness aggression towards a s/o and acting out on impulse. This might occur in squeezing, pulling and tugging and Android AM may bite and scratch/restrain. Also I when I mean “handle” I don’t exactly mean endure and ignore/accept. again this leads me to another point

A s/o that is able to set boundaries w/ AM is a must. I genuinely don’t think that any relationship w AM will go good if the s/o he’s with can’t put in place proper boundaries. For human s/os, this would be especially important as he might get aggressive physically (whether it’s due to like. him JST absolutely hating ur ass or him getting that ‘cuteness aggressive’ thing I just mentioned previously. note that it’s not rlly like cuteness aggression but he might be like ‘hm I’ll show my love to my s/o thru the only way I know. Violence”).

ok well I think this is all 4 now. if anyone wants 2 add onto it I’d luv 2 hear yalls input if yall had any :3c. I hope u guys atleast got some entertainment value out of this?? Either way i hope yallve enjoyed my ramblings

[thswrtchdthng]

hi so um... the Barnabas au details please??

hehe :D hi :D hello :D

welcome everyone to the au I like to call Barnabas Lives And Gives Everyone A Horrible Time With It. first of all keep in mind this is entirely self-indulgent. and extremely disorganised. and probably very ooc. and there's lots of things I haven't really defined yet. with that said

if you know me (or my rp account) you know I love the idea of Corruption!Barnabas. so basically this started with me thinking about Barnabas Somehow pulling his ass out of the Lonely (maybe on his own, maybe with help, who knows) and becoming a Corruption avatar to. compensate in a way. dear old moth princess, we've been through that.

so, now we have a fledgling avatar with no fucks left to give about anything roaming around. and he feels. hurt. in a lot of ways. but at the same time he'd always expected something like this to happen. he's feeling a lot of things in general so for the first couple months he just acts like nothing ever happened, even if his newly gained confidence makes him look like an entirely different person. he dies his little jobs, tends to his little plants, has his little feedings, goes to his little social gatherings (bonus info if you've heard me ramble about the last couple years before this man died. essentially he was not having a good time at these events), and in one of those gatherings he runs into Mordechai.

and that whole thing is so funny in my brain, even if I don't have a single coherent thought about it. basically Barnabas greets him like he's just seen him yesterday and goes oh here's your money btw :D (my headcanon is that he actually had the money to pay that little debt all along, the dumbass just decided he didn't want to. which ties to issues with the lack of control over himself and his life that are part of the bonus info), all while Mordechai is just standing there like ??????????

at some point, of course, he has to run into Jonah too. and that's when Barnabas realises that huh, he's far less hurt and angry than he'd thought. literally all he can feel is glad that Jonah's doing ok. again, barely any fucks given. he'd been avoiding Jonah because. it was hard to think of seeing him and feeling the sorrow he'd imagined he'd feel but. nothing. and Jonah, not having realised Barnabas was alive (not having Looked, as he hadn't Looked at him in years), is a little bit Confused. and confused means curious, so they end up talking. eventually. it's pretty awkward tbh, with the whole Situation and Jonah not being all that fond of the Rot, but soon enough it feels almost like none of that had happened. and it's. weird. for both of them. but it's nice to see each other doing well after literal years without talking so.

so now. this rb comes from what is by far the most horribly self-indulgent part of this au. another headcanon of mine is, when the institute was but a dream in Jonah's little head, he'd offered Barnabas to work with him. but back then Barnabas hadn't even entertained the idea of believing in the supernatural. it wasn't real, and if it was he didn't care. now tho things are a little but different aren't they. so he shows up at the institute one day like hey Jonah my darling my sweetheart love of my life :D is that offer still standing :D just out of curiosity :D and out if curiosity Jonah ends up letting him stay (bc tbh I doubt Mordechai would give two shits about Barnabas or what he does once he's been paid what he's owed).

so one day let's say some other avatars attack either the institute or just Jonah himself as he's doing his thing. and Barnabas happens to be there for it. and he just absolutely rocks their shit. fills them up with bugs. gives them every disease ever. and that's when Jonah realises that oh that's right. this guy is a whole ass avatar. who serves the fear of disease. and could give me every disease ever whenever he wanted. hey that's a little bit scary! and also a little bit hot! but of course Barnabas would sooner kill himself and all of his bugs (little ones <3) before hurting Jonah.

years later Jonah tells Barnabas about the whole ritual plan, expecting Barnabas to be at least a little bit unsure about it, but, again, Barnabas has very little to care about. as long as he can keep his loved ones safe the rest of the world can go fuck itself. not like the world has ever done anything for him anyway.

now if I get really really self-indulgent with this it can turn into a All of jonahbarnshawe lives until the modern day au. cue in the most toxic and also the sweetest old man yaoi you've ever seen in your life. and some Mordechai/Barnabas (but if I get into lonebones self-indulgence I will never shut up and this will become even worse (which is very much possible, believe me)), and lots of general chaos.

so anyway that's most of it! I'm not proofreading this shit I'm far too lazy and it's bad anyway so I'm just going to leave before I get killed with hammers bye :D

[that-rackin-frackin-varmint]

#5— 07/24/2022 12:53 AM

Ok so Idk what y’all said about that video, but I’ve deduced that this interesting piece of cut content was leaning towards:

1) Lola probably having broken up with Bugs

2) Bugs being in oblivous/in denial of her spite towards him and looniness

3) Bugs actually being very conscious of not being “in the spotlight”

4) and a more development between Bugs and Lebron’s icy tension (like a bump between two control freaks)

I honestly would’ve been into some elements of this version of the story being used instead of what we ended up with.

Lola being fed up with Bugs makes sense since in SJ, she really didn’t have looniness in her. She was very bland to say the least. This version of their dynamic would be a lot more tragic when you know TLTS exists (where their relationship there was thriving). But otherwise, it would’ve opened up a lot of opportunity for a more fleshed out version of SJ Lola.

Her being annoyed with Bugs’ looniness is understandable if you were in her shoes. Like, realistically, not just anyone could tolerate Bugs’ chaos day to day. Plus, she did seem like she was gonna get written with more emotional depth than what the looney tunes cast are usually on brand for.

So her having an added arc of wanting to permanently separate herself from the toons would’ve been so much more interesting for her character. And also the fact that Bugs seemed more overtly fixated on the basketball game being what will bring them back to the spotlight in a semi-metatextual sense.

Bugs in this video is a tad more unlikable and fallible than he usually is for better or worse. And he seems more at odds with Lebron. Even if it’s not really staying true to Bugs’ character — it would’ve been fun to see more angst and implied rocky relations between the toons. I would’ve preferred that over the whole basketball game format tbh.

Present day thoughts:

Lola was plenty looney in the original Space Jam. At the time of this original ramble, my standard for looniness was based on characters like Daffy and Wile E. Coyote. But nowadays, I've kinda concluded that she was just as looney as any other looney tunes love interest more or less. The movie went ahead and straight up retconned what little distinct personality she had.

Also, I still believe this premise would've been more interesting than the final story we got. I'm not particularly invested in the preservation of the looney tunes' characters in something as corporate as the Space Jam movies so might as well lean into the ooc-melodrama of it since the final film was just Lebron-lip service atp.

[eluxcastar]

Who is it that looks back at you in the mirror?

── ୨୧：la signora, pantalone x reader

୨୧﹑synopsis :: you used to see yourself stare back at you when you looked in the mirror, but through a haze of fuzzy memories and the 'help' of the fair lady, something about your reflection looks...off.

୨୧﹑genre :: idk it's food eat it

୨୧﹑content :: gn reader, implied yandere, mentions of drugging, possibly ooc, proofreading? we don't use that word in this house, bad writing and really ramble-ish tbh 😭

୨୧﹑words :: 1063

atp I'll do anything just to post so you know I'm not dead and so I can say I actually posted this year. I was going to write about Signora on her own, then about Pantalone on his own and then I remembered commedia dell'arte has them married or something and I was like "this" maybe I'll write something fluffy next time so I don't sit there for ages wondering wtf to words, I finished both posts tho so maybe they'll come next (Pantalone's came before nvm 💀)

the last people you expect to share a mutual interest are the fair lady Signora and the banker Pantalone, yet you are constantly fussed over, constantly spoiled, constantly dressed up, constantly treasured. you expect them to be rivals for your affection if they want to share you, and yet this agreement of theirs is mutually beneficial to the point they're perfectly content with sharing. the funding for Signora’s efforts in dressing you up are provided by Pantalone, allowing her the financial freedom to do anything and everything she wants to you, just so long as she turns around to flaunt the results to the banker like you're some kind of prize on auction.

it is not uncommon for Signora to fix your hair, somehow manage to find garments that compliment you even without you there, keep you at least looking happy like you're enjoying this kind of abstract torture. she gets unusually fussy when you don't eat well enough, probably the risk of you looking awkward in some outfits she picked out or maybe just you attempting to starve yourself to escape. she insists you look at it yourself to see, and in those clothes you could swear she just dressed you in, someone else stares back at you. 

every morning you're served a pill by the banker and get told to take it, regardless of the fact it makes you drowsy and weak in the knees. that's probably what make them give it to you, a concoction of drugs that keeps you just unaware enough it's hard to tell where you are or what you're doing, though you can walk and recognise things, you're kept feeling detached from yourself and just when the feeling wears off by the next morning, you're thrown back in. it feels as if a different person stares back at you in the mirror each time, someone lost and often confused, who smiles when they're told even when you thought you were resisting that. 

that person can't be you, can it?

it’s not a drastic difference, drearier than you remember. they look like you, you can tell that much. It’s just not you somehow. you used to think it was, but slowly it becomes less and less familiar. your body stops doing the things you want it to do and instead complies to the wants of those two. they want you and you go, Pantalone wants to treat you like an accessory and perch you in his lap then you sit, La Signora wants you to sit still and bear the discomfort of what she picks out and you do that. it's not a question, you just oblige.

you've never liked the way the hands of the banker touch you—like some possession that he owns—neither has Signora, you notice how she glares just a little when he has his hands all over you like a shiny ring of the finest Noctilucous Jade money can buy. still, neither of them have killed each other yet. you wonder how exactly, but maybe it's just the fact he's abusing your compliance to let him touch you. she certainly doesn't seem to mind as long as she gets to touch you too, still sitting in his lap and still the centrepiece meant for their enjoyment. 

something to be poked and prodded at and squeezed. didn't you join the Fatui to fight? when exactly was it that you lost your way and fell into the arms of these two?

at first you didn't mind, finding it to be harmless gestures, a touch that lasts too long or a stare you notice out of the corner of your eye. more than affection you'd call it merely an ‘interest’, the affection only started when one of them managed to get you working under them as a subordinate. you had to give it to her, Signora is good at getting things she really wants, apparently you were one of those things as she promptly moved you right ‘where you belong’—to her side, of course.

you didn't used to mind things that way until you began to notice that Pantalone loitered around her more and more, and you know he didn't used to do that because you caught him with so much free time before. all of the business coming out of the blue when Signora was in such a stagnant point in her work was suspicious to you. you wrote it off with his explanation of a reworking of the finances in her sector taking longer than expected. to someone who had very little involvement in her finances, it made a lot of sense. 

yes, somewhere between then and now, you tripped and fell into this neat little hole they made for you, a honey trap even. you're not sure when or how, all of that time has always been…a little fuzzier than you'd like.

when you looked in the mirror then, you saw your face looking back at you. now you see some lost little child who barely knows how to keep their head straight. for just a moment, in a rare hour on a lonely morning, you stare into that mirror and begin to see cracks of yourself shining through. have you always looked so tired? when did you get your hair to look like that? this person is still not you, but it sure does look a lot like you, a worn down version of you covered in a thick coat of idealisation to mask your weathering and slow spiral further and further into something you cannot identify.

in the very same morning you wonder if maybe you are still there to stare back at yourself in the mirror, that same pill lands in front of you with a cup of water. you recognise Pantalone’s hands, and you know that he can tell from the way you look at him and question his words that you're coming out of your haze. in response, he has to put you right back in. he claims he’s never going to force you, though you suspect that to be a lie. this life of luxury he provides you and the affection Signora gives to you will all go away if you don't take it, and in all aspects that's a good thing.

why exactly do you keep picking up that cup of water and downing that pill?

[heirloomeds]

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roleplayer name: shay! i actually started using the nickname because my high school boyfriend randomly called me that and i decided it was my online alias since them. and now in adulthood, the only people to call me by my govt name are my family members.. who i don't talk to anymore lol roleplayer pronouns: she / her preferred communication: probably through tags? tumblr im's are ass and i honestly forget to reply for so long and feel awkward responding to a conversation months later 😭 and i never used discord, because i felt like it was just an extension of tumblr im's so i deleted it lol. we all have our busy lives so talking in the tags of an rp is more than enough for me <3 experience: joined in 2011 during the harry potter cringe. accidentally got into a spat with a draco malfoy rp blog without realizing it was just roleplay lmao preferred roleplay type: para/novella! one-liners don't do anything for me. at the same time tho i take forever to respond w/longer threads because i wanna make sure my replies have substance and it's not just rambling filler for 8+ sentences. and then if i wait too long, the muse disappears and i feel bad 😭 i try to do medium length to be fair, but get carried away dsfsdf pet peeves & dealbreakers: ooo a lot lmao but #1 is not reading anything about my characters or their lore and then trying to engage with them anyway. i understand its a lot of information thats been YEARS in the making, which can be kind of intimidating i guess? but a complete lack of interest/effort is just disrespectful to me. if someone really isn't into character development & just wants something quick (which is fine!!), i'm just not the right blog for them

secondly, i also don't like when i'm expected to jump into a relationship thread when i don't really know the mun or their character idk, those things take time and i don't like being rushed into a dynamic that's still fresh with someone i don't really know. things are more fun when i took the time to know the mun. yk when there's mutual investment in our worldbuilding and we engage with each other's lore posts, ooc posts, follow each other on pinterest etc! the C in RPC stands for "community", and that's what makes this experience so much fun<3 plots or memes: memes can be fun, but i have more energy for them with a developed character relationship! i like a bit of light plotting. too much makes me feel creatively stiffled, like i have to follow a specific path and check in on every little detail. for me, i think it's best to have a general idea as to where we're going but let our creativity take the wheel. if a thread concept works, it works! but if after a couple replies we lose steam, we can just drop it and try something else, and there's no pressure to keep something going if the muse isn't there or drafts are overwhelming best time to write: tbh whenever my daughter is napping or asleep. i'm with her in the mornings and i work in afternoons, so i really have to squeeze it in whenever i have some quiet time. but usually, my replies come during her nap (around 1-3PM), or the evenings when i have more time to sit down and actually decompress are you like your muse?: like every mun, i think little bits and pieces of me are scattered around in every character. some more than others. but none of them are really "like" me because i don't use roleplay as an outlet for my emotional issues like i did when i was younger. but dakota's character was heavily inspired by my older brother, who i unfortunately don't speak to anymore. but the better parts of him live on forever in my most cherished character

[earthtooz]

howdy, it is the 🕺 anon again. i will share some of my rin itoshi thoughts because he is so?!,#&#:$^<×;#*#;#>@;#&#;#> probably extremely ooc but fluff

- rin who, after the u-20 match, got out of blue lock and the first thing he did was go to your house to see you, his chilhood best friend and now highschool sweetheart

- rin who is a dirty little liar and tells you that his parents are out helping sae with his visa for spain, so he is locked out of his house due to the fact thst his parents are in another country and since he didn't expect to get trapped in a football facility for 3 months (idk how much time they've been in there ☹️🤞) he dosen't have his keys (he already knew before that his parents were gonna go, and his parents actually asked him if he needed keys and he said no)

- rin who internally screams when you tell him that he can spend the night at your place whenever he wants (although he was 99% sure this would happen)

- rin who then lets you ramble abt everything that has happened to you since he got stuck in bllk while he stares at you with so much admiration and love while you talk </3

- until you tell him that you went to see him in the u-20 match as soon as you got the news he was going to play, then he blushes a little and internally screams again

-rin who already had left some pairs of his clothes at your home before bllk happened (cheeky mf) so he dosen't have to worry abt climbing to the window in his parents home to get spare clothes.

- rin who helps you make dinner and then washes the dishes saying "its the least I can do" although you told him not to

-rin who can't sleep in the couch so he gets up, goes to your room, opens the door and stands in your doorstep like 🧍‍♂️while asking if he can sleep on your bed tonight

- rin who literally almost killed you from how hard he was hugging you while cuddling him

- rin who falls asleep easier knowing you're by his side and that sae still dosen't have a partner like he does 💪💪💪

might expand on how rin almost dies when you and him encountered the rest of the bllk team while you 2 were out on a date, but thats a thing for later!!!!!

thank you for reading my rin itoshi brainrot thoughts, have a good day/afternoon/night

- 🕺anon

YOU ARE SOOOOO CORRECT FOR THIS ONE. ooc rin is the best rin tbh- but i feel like with his character, u just never know :,( ANYWAYS love the hc nevertheless bc i think u are vv correct for them- plus, they are ALL SOOO CUTE !!!

i literally have nothing to add to your headcanons, i was almost selfish enough to keep this in my own inbox for my own sake but then i was like oh what the heck, the world deserves to read these itoshi rin hc !!!!!

amazing, as always, 🕺anon. splendid. fell in love all over again with itoshi rin tbh <3

the sae part was uncalled for but SO true. also the cuddling part 😭

[huxkisser]

trigger warning for multiple mentions of child abuse and a lot of rambling and probably unnecessary introspection if u read this but. “unnecessary”introspection is my favourite procrastination method.

i’ve probably said this before and i also really should not be online right now but i think sm of the appeal of kylux for me is like. taking two characters who are not soft or sweet or anything and who try to hide their vulnerability and putting them in situations where they become all of those things. classic/hard kylux is great but soft and cannoli kylux will always hit more for me for those reasons. this is something that separates kylux from other ships i like in my brain tbh.

and a lot of it is probably because i grew up in an environment where i never really saw kindness or softness from men but also because i implicitly learned from a young age to be ashamed of my vulnerability and to act like the things i went through weren’t impacting me because a. no one did anything anyway and b. it made it less painful if i could pretend like nothing was hurting me. like it was not until this year i could admit that being a survivor of abuse actually seriously hurt me when it’s obviously a seriously harmful thing bc there was so much shame. this is part of why i really love hux and find him somewhat relatable despite him being very different from me in many ways. he’s an interesting character in his own right and i would’ve loved to see more of him. that being said i can also use him as like. a way to imagine a child abuse survivor who learned to be strong and ruthless and cold breaking down and working through it. also in the context of kylux i can kinda use him as a way of like. creating an image of vulnerability and potential submissiveness in a relationship that i know for many reasons i wouldn’t want to actually seek out for myself. like i know a lot of content can possibly be considered ooc (and i mean that being said we don’t really see that much of him anyway) but it’s kinda nice for me to imagine someone like him showing uncharacteristic softness while still being hux bc it helps me work through things without facing them directly

anyway idk if this will even make sense and i know hux is like. Bad. like i’m not excusing the things he did because he had an awful life and i have no desire to do any of those things myself (i’m very much critical of authoritarianism and the like as a whole and i would despise hux if he were real). but he is not real and these r just some of the reasons why i love his character sm.

[a-tale-of-legends]

So like I started to write yet another long 12 am ramble about a pokemon character based on their dialogue. It was Emerald Anabel this time, as I wanted to try and understand her character better since I felt like I was really writing her ooc. And like. I have some revelations.

1) I am begrudgingly starting to see why the anime did what they did with Anabel in regards to her crush on Ash. I never liked it personally, even as a kid, but when reading her dialogue I started to see why they could potentially try than angle with Anabel. It sounded very....."romantic". Air quotes bc I don't think that was the intent? And it only really appeared twice. Saying that the player didn't appear that attractive ( which I am taking as her generally not seeing the hype of this so called strong trainer, but again, it can be taken in a semi romantic light), and how her rematch dialogue almost seems....wistful. " You really came back to see me...." <- it seems so much more personal to her compared to literally every other Frontier Brain in Hoenn. " You really came back to see me" ( Edit: I do want to add that whole yrs, this does seem more personal to me, it could also be a " hm, so you really came back for anlther battle" type deal. I just didn't see it that way, but it's totally plausible) Now my personal interpretation of this is that Anabel is a lonely girl, even with the battle frontier, she probably didn't have a lot of people around her age to get attached too. In my drafted ramble, I kinda noted how she's so polite in her first battle, but loses that as things go on. I do think Anabel is a genuinely polite person ( we see that with her in SM), but I can also see it as her kinda....wanting to be seen as someone mature. And she's kinda shocked that someone else around her age actually decided to come back to her, even if it's for a battle. That's just me of course. The other side of this interpretation that's actually the focus of this one point, is that you could see this as romantic, which. Okay. The anime writers probably did( assuming they read Anabel's game dialogue-). So. Yeah. I don't like that I'm starting to see why the anime did what they did, but okay!

2) Kinda related to the above: I am just fucking connecting the maiden in the tower thing. Like holy fucking shit. I made jokes about Anabel bring princely. I made posts about how Wally takes over the Battle Tower, and how his brand is him being a prince. Prince in a tower. So why the fuck did I not connect that with Anabel. She's the maiden in the tower. It kinda explains her behavior in a way? She starts off very polite, but gradually sheds that shell. She gives off the vibe of someone who's honestly lonely ( again, I think back to the " you really came back for me" line), until someone else comes into her life. And this isn't to say that she's not close with the rest of the frontier brains. Imo, I think she's pretty close with them! But they're still older than her, at least I get the impression that they are. So in a way, she's still alone, just in a different way, in her tower. Of course, I'm really looking into it. And this prooooooobably wasn't what was intended. It's still interesting to think about. A lovely tomboy, gnc maiden in a tower.

Tbh, I think I won't even post that analysis/ ramble bc I got my point of Anabel's loneliness ( at least to me) across here. Also it's not nearly as long. Though I do suggest reading Anabel's emerald quotes. They gave me whiplash. She goes "fufufu". I'm not joking.

[floralcrematorium]

1, 10, aaand 4 :3

Thanks for the ask!!! I uh. Go on a big ramble so I'm throwing everything under the cut!

Do you relate to your favorite character(s)?

Yes and no.

My fondness for China and Norway isn't one based on their characters because I haven't fleshed them out (yet) in my head. I have no idea how to write for either of them! I genuinely would love to spend a day cooking, painting, or just talking with Yao. I yearn for platonic companionship and Yao isn't chaotic and we share similar interests. Our aesthetic interests are very different, but oh well!

I don't know what Lukas has to offer tbh, he's entirely eye candy to me (sobbing).

My fondness for France and Ukraine has to do with self imposed headcanons.

My Francis is honestly probably ooc -- but I don't care. I have taken these guys and run away with them. A lot of my Hetalia writing is Human AU because I have a hard time connecting with immortal creatures as someone who cannot see what even the next year of their own life looks like. I guess what Francis and I share is a fondness for food and art (like with Yao), but those aren't activities I would want to do with Francis. We can both be dramatic, I will over-dress just to go out with a friend, and we're both a bit pathetic. While my Francis isn't like early canon France (you know what I mean...), he's still a romantic. I am not.

I don't think it's a necessarily rare headcanon, but I see Miss Ukraine as fat. She's plus size to me and that's something we share. I've been wanting to write a Kateryna centric oneshot about the difficulties and mental struggles that come with shopping as a fat person, but I haven't been in a reading/writing mindset recently and this topic would be a bit taxing on me. One day, though!! I'm still formulating my characterization of her... CanUkr oneshot is STILL in development hell.

TLDR: Yes because I impose bits of myself onto Francis and Kateryna for RP and writing purposes and also for comfort. No because a good handful of my favorites (including some not named) are just little guys I'd like to put in a shoebox and shake around.

10. How long have you been in the fandom? What's your lore?

In 7th grade a friend told me I might like Hetalia because I liked geography and history was my strongest subject in school. I cannot remember when exactly I checked it out, but I definitely was into by Spring 2014. I literally have emails from back then of memes we exchanged...

My best friend and I met online at the end of that school year and we actually started talking because he played this video over skype screen share. Fast forward to the summer and I'm drawing, writing fic, and we made our Hetalia Instagram account. There were three of us. It was essentially just a repost account because we were all in middle school. I never really interacted with others from the fandom other than the two friends I ran the account with, both of whom I still talk to <3

Our instagram account died off sometime around 2018. We deleted it around 2020-2021.

I came back to Hetalia by a freak accident. I was going through my old google drive and rediscovered the three-way-POV fic my friends and I wrote and immediately ran into our group chat. It was a bad fic. Basically Hetalia in the setting of Outlast meets FNAF vibes. Yes, it was a Wattpad fic... (now deleted). We made the joke of rewriting it, but that thought only lasted for one night. Then out of curiosity I got back into listening to the official character songs, and that's what did it for me... (shoutout to "Aiyah, 4,000 Years," "Mein Gott," "Overflowing Passion," "Maji Kandou ☆ Hong Kong Night," and the Hetaloid song "Brother Complex").

Got back into reading fic. Somehow I went through my original stint in the fandom without reading "Gutters" and that's what pulled me back into fanfic. Made an A03. Eventually figured, why the hell not, and made a Hetalia Tumblr so I could stop using my personal account.

I did have that hiatus, but I guess I could say I've been into Hetalia for 10 years now, which is nuts. I definitely had a period of regret and revulsion from 2019-2022, but still kept up with "oh, they made a new season" or revisiting some old art.

4. What's a headcanon you need to work out?

A lot of my headcanons have to do with Human AU FACE fam because I use them to cope with things, but I guess something that's been on my mind lately is the Tudor dynasty. My senior thesis, far before I got back into Hetalia, was actually supposed to be about the Tudors, but I abandoned it for something else. I recently got a book about the entire dynasty for my birthday and have yet to take a peek at it. I would love to write a fic where France or Marianne visits England over several Christmases to explore the relationship of Arthur/Francis or Alice/Marianne as England & France's relationship changes through the changing of the monarchs and especially as Henry VIII cycles through wives like calendars. I have to do research about it, though. I need to see how realistic it would be considering the on-again-off-again relationship between England and France (1520 The Field Of The Cloth Of Gold meeting vs Henry wanting to prove his military strength and trying to invade France). Funnily enough, I know almost nothing about France in the 15th and 16th centuries outside of :

1. Mary Tudor's [Henry VIII's sister, not his daughter, Mary I] brief stint as Queen Consort of France & Anne Boleyn's subsequent time at the French court as a lady in waiting to Mary

2. how Henry VIII repeatedly used war against France as an attempt to prove his strength [eyeroll]

To be honest, that fic is entirely an excuse to explore the different influence each of Henry's queens has over the court through various means. I don't think anyone else would really be interested though, so it may be something I keep to myself.

Hetalia Ask Game

[mistralxsoul]

GETTING TO KNOW YOU.

respond to the following prompts out of character. then, tag others that you'd like to get to know a little bit better!

tagged by: @bravewolfvesperia tagging: i think a lot of people have already done this so I don't know who to tag (and also anxiety LOL) i dont think ive seen @charmsol do this but i cant keep up so sorry for the tag lol. Q_Q

ROLEPLAYER NAME: I mostly go by Natty tho can also go by Crest too!

ROLEPLAYER PRONOUNS: Any Pronouns

MUSE NAME: Flynn Scifo (for now........)

PREFERRED COMMUNICATION: You can always DM me on Tumblr or if we've been mutuals for a while, I don't mind sharing my discord!

EXPERIENCE: I've been roleplaying for a very long time but its been a while since i've rped on Tumblr so im relearning a lot of the etiquette lol Most of my rp was through discord.

PREFERRED ROLEPLAY TYPE: I like any genre honestly. Fluff, comfort, angst, drama (ic, not ooc of course LOL) high tension, love it all! Of course, when it comes to sensitive content, I would like to discuss that before hand just to make sure both parties are comfortable!

PET PEEVES & DEALBREAKERS:

This list will probably grow as I establish myself on Tumblr rp again but the usual tbh?

-No Force shipping. This goes both ways. I do ship Yuri but I would of course like to discuss that with the mun first if you are wanting to do a ship. On the other end, I will not automatically try to initiate a romance with a Yuri rper if we have not established that that is what we want. As other other ships, I usually like it when things establish naturally. If the muses seem to be getting along well, hit me up! Ask me! I'll let you know how the Flynn muse is feeling at that moment! But other wise, I just like relationships to develop naturally. (hopefully this makes sense LOL)

-No God Modding. If our muses fight, lets discuss via DMs about the outcome of the fight. And to be honest, I kind of usually determine my muses moves via dice roll to keep my muse from performing perfectly all the time. (I also hope this makes sense LOL)

PLOTS OR MEMES: If you have a plot idea? PLEASE send it over, i wanna hear it SOOOO bad! But I also live for any type of meme you send my way.

LONG REPLIES OR SHORT REPLIES: I can do either! I usually try to match my current RP partner so I dish out what is given to me! You do not ever have to match my length if you can't. Sometimes I do like to ramble. But I do try and keep it equal if i can.

BEST TIME TO WRITE: I usually do my replies in the afternoon or at night. I'm usually at work in the day time and sometimes I'll work on replies when I dont have anything going on in the office but I can't post them until I get home.

ARE YOU LIKE YOUR MUSES: I'm sure if I sat here long enough, I could probably find some similarities! I probably share Flynn's hot-headedness LOL Or his more personal, inner traits LOL But hey, our muses always carry a part of ourselves right?

[magical-shoujo-anon]

Hello, internet! I have finally made one of these… blog things. This will be focused on the best thing ever, MAGICAL GIRLS!!

No, I won’t turn you magical. I only turn people I think deserve to be magical magical.

My pronouns, or whatever humans call them, are they/them!

I am almost as old as the universe~ (I’ve watched every I love die. I’ve had to deal with horrible pains.)

And don’t ask me anything related to healing powers. I don’t want to talk about it.

I’m better then this stupid anon. I don’t gaslight myself.

Hm. Perhaps I should give an introduction…

I’m glowman~ Much better then Magical Shoujo anon!! Unlike them, I am a master at healing magic, but hate it… hurting magic is much better~ I also HATE cats, because they’re one…

And this "Machi" person sucks too. Anything related to Magical Shoujo anon sucks, and I'm right.

... Must I introduce myself?

Yes?

Okay, then.

I am Machi. Age: Unknown, Magical abilities: None.

My favorite color is dark blue. I used to like sweet foods. I have been revived two times. One of the "anon"'s told me dinosaurs are cool, so I suppose they are.

I am half robotic, not connected to the "internet" as people call it. All my known information is told to me so it may be inaccurate, please tell me if it is so I can update it.

(Ps: While interacting with MILGRAM blogs, Magishou anon will not be the same! They will be much more energetic, will be able to use healing powers, and will be more aware of internet slang-type stuff… oh and glowman wont appear. They’re unaware of magishou anon in the MILGRAM universe!! They’re also known as knife anon, but that’s not important…)

—————— (OOC PART!)

// means OOC.

This blog is ran by @asherenjoysart !! Yes, I’m the one that turns people magical~

This is in the pjsk blog universe!! (… well, and the MILGRAM blog universe.)

Please, don’t try to give Magishou healing powers. I will simply ignore your ask, I don’t want one of the very important parts of them to be ruined.

Btw, if you want to speak to MILGRAM!magishou anon just clarify that in your ask :3

Magical girl stuff that will be mentioned here include:

Sailor Moon

The pretty cure series

Magical girl incident

Madoka magica (really only to diss on Kyubey tbh)

And others, probably.

Magishou anon is a very unique anon, as they can only give what they have. And (in the pjsk universe) they really wish they could give healing powers, but they can’t due to lacking healing powers themselves.

For the MILGRAM universe, instead of being unable to give healing powers they can’t give any physical boosts. Only magic, no extra stamina or anything.

They don’t like @/magical-anon-pjsk, due to feeling inadequate compared to Magianon.

Also this might just be me fangirling (genderneutral) over magical girls… :3

My tags:

The mod has spoken. (OOC)

Magical rambles (IC/In character)

Magic in a… prison? (For MILGRAM blog interactions)

The Angst. (For the more angsty posts :3)

Glow in the dark posts (Glowman/Red text person post.)

Robotic information (Machi/Blue text person post/)

Some glowman facts:

SHORT!! (About 5'2)

Very hip with the kids (can and will use internet vocabulary when possible, JUST to confuse Magishou anon.)

Hates cats and chocolate. The cat hating is because Magishou anon is a cat, but I just thought them hating chocolate would be funny.

Believes gender is useless and would prefer to simply not be referred to at all. (but when needed, they/them pronouns.)

Only around 300~400 years old, so extremely young compared to Magishou anon.

And some Machi facts:

She’s a girl!!

6’3 (Tall…)

Half-robotic

Only has access to information she has been told.

Has been revived two times (once in the actual RP posts, and once in the canon.)

Monotone 24/7, my girl cannot express emotion well!!

^ Autistic. Thats why she can’t express emotion well

And finally: Pls don’t send s3xual stuff in the inbox. It makes mod uncomfortable.

[chococookiez]

I FUCKING MISSED 4/13 I COMPLETELY FORGOR BUT IM POSTING ANYWAY

i was holding off on posting it until i had more content but i did a fantroll :]

some other art/shitposts i did with it (+ my other ocs)

and here's bonus ooc shitty doodles i did for my dying tiktok account

i haven't properly drawn anyone other than aradia and sollux (and eridan partially but i've only done march eridans for some reason) and the one with all of them was . the first time i drew any of them other than eridan please forgive me

words under the cut. i must ramble

so . homestuck huh

how did i spend my first 4/13 you ask? got up at 5am to fuck around with my (slightly drunk) friend on vrc until we got tired, had various revelations, a whole crisis that i do not wish to unpack... im forgetting something

oh yea

dumb of ass moment: i played that one fucking solkat vn literally just for the hell of it

I haven't read the comic yet BECAUSE im planning to binge read the entire fucking thing over the summer with my friends and i am fucking HYPED i have the unofficial collection downloaded on my pc already in preparation and we're planning on doing a massive party once we're done we are going to have a fucking ball with this . technically i've only been properly interested in homestuck since february which i find really funny cause my brain made the switch so fast it gave me fucking whiplash. i've literally never had an interest hit me THIS HARD in my life especially with how little canon content i have to work with currently since im saving it all for the summer (the restraint is so hard y'all have no idea)

highlights of shit i've done to do with homestuck other than art so far:

made 2 extended zodiac pins out of pre-existing pins i had, one for myself and one for my irl friend

said irl friend had to suffer through a 2+ hour long infodump where i just showed them all the main characters i had knowledge about (beta/alpha kids/trolls, ancestors and cherubs), did a hussie and had The Quadrant Ramble™, shittily explained classes and aspects and tried my best to explain The Weird Time Bullshit™ (it was very fun for me . he also said it was fun but i have my doubts)

speaking of quadrants i've made 4 quadrant keychains (erisol spade, cronkri heart, meowrails + kurtuna diamonds) (currently only displaying 3 of them since the meowrails one fucking SELF DESTRUCTED as in the paint fucking peeled itself off and ive been too lazy to remake it rn) and i've been slightly tempted to add a solkat one but i have no clue what quad i'd put them in tbh and that's the only thing stopping me (oh and a meuloz heart . just because)

very very vaguely hinted at this once before but i made a shitty character playlist. not linking it or saying who it is. y'all can just guess

i made... an eridan osu skin. out of one i had already that i liked. and i've been tempted to make a sollux one. did you know im mentally ill (something did spark this: i had a map of eridan's theme that had a skin on it, so decided to make a full one out of it to fuck with my friend who likes him)

im planning on cosplaying A Troll but have no sodding clue which one. my internal options rn are kanaya, vantases (have their outfits/something like them on hand already, plus vantases have easy horns), leijons (associate myself with them a lot (one of my favourite vrc avatars to use rn is a meulin edit even), especially considering im a leo myself), eridan, aradia and feferi (they'd be hilariously fitting for reasons i wish to not explain, especially eridan)

am probably gonna land myself with a pile of homestuck merch, either from birthday gifts or my own stupidity

so yea, just a few words. i couldn't fight the homestuck

[goodbyenorthernlights]

I think I've mentioned before that I RP Rezo on dreamwidth sometimes, and the RP community on dreamwidth does a lot of ooc/meta chat on a second website called plurk. I keep my plurk account private (and I do not particularly recommend plurk as a site, tbh, I'm just there because it's where other people are) so. Figured I'd repost some of the stuff I've written about Rezo for the 1.5 people on tumblr who might be interested.

Here's a meta post about Rezo and Zelgadis's relationship that I wrote 9 months ago, featuring some commentary (in italics) from the Zelgadis-mun I was playing with at the time.

Gonna ramble a bit about my take on Rezo and Zelgadis's relationship, so, uh, CW: Child/familial abuse and general dysfunctional family stuff.

This need to ramble inspired by a tumblr post I saw along the lines of "does turning your grandson into a chimera count as physical abuse."

Now idk how one would classify that because obviously nobody in the real world has been able to do such a thing. Although I'm sure there's a precedent for people doing nonconsensual medical experiments on their children, which would probably be the closest analogy?

Anyway, after a bit of thinking I kind of picture that Rezo would have been like. A mixture of psychologically abusive and neglectful.

wrt the neglect I also think a lot of it would have been cultural- like WE'D consider a guy letting the teenager in his care go on dangerous raids against bandits to be a blatant act of supervisory neglect but in the Slayers 'verse nobody really bats an eye at Lina, the teenage protagonist, going around getting into zany adventures.

And this is headcanon but I imagine Rezo started working as a healer at a similar age. So if anyone called him out on that he'd just be ???? and think they were like. Smotheringly overprotective.

But based on the way we see flashback!Zelgadis behaving, I do think Rezo was generally pretty good to him as a kid. I can see him being distant, and/or leaving a lot of Zelgadis's actual care up to other people, but I don't think he hit Zel or insulted him or anything like that.

I think the abuse started very suddenly and rapidly got worse, basically.

Basically, imagine you've been raised by your grandfather. He runs a nonprofit and is very busy with it, so he isn't around as much as you'd like, but he's always been kind to you and you also know the people he works with and they're always kind to you as well, and life is generally okay.

But then when you're fifteen he drugs you out of nowhere and you wake up missing a kidney, and after that he just keeps getting colder and more distant and starts getting involved in crime and makes you help him out and it all comes to a head a few years later when somebody finally fucking shoots him.

And then you're just left there like ????? well i'm gonna need a fuckton of therapy after all that.

Also, as Zelgadis's player, the fact that it was a revelation made him wonder how much of Rezo's prior actions were less about 'I love my grandson' or 'I have an obligation to this kid' and more 'I have a hidden agenda'.

Yeah, it's a wonder Zel is capable of trusting anyone at all after that happened. I imagine there might have been warning signs that Something Is Wrong With Rezo but 1) Rezo was doing his level best to hide them, and 2) Zel was a kid, not fuckin' Psychologist Sherlock Holmes, so from Zel's perspective it came entirely out of nowhere.

I mean, I assume it's why he stuck with Rezo because you get the sense that he honestly didn't believe anyone else would believe him over Rezo. He was shocked Zolf and Rodimus sided with him when he did defect

Yeah, I can imagine that the adults Rezo was interacting with were more "Hmmm" about him, it just kind of varied on where they went with that "Hmmm"

I think Zolf and Rodimus probably went "Wow okay so he's ACTUALLY a bastard" especially after he cursed Zel, whereas Eris went "oh no...... poor little meow meow......."

i do not know what to conclude about dilgear and noonsa although it is interesting to me that they're both nonhumans.

[wetbloodworm]

session one of ariknauts c3 was so good and i love all the PCs so much. everyone is so good. and i'm very excited to be getting a feel for mik! for my dnd PCs, i can plan them out all I want but it's hard to really know what they're like until i'm playing them in the moment, yknow? until i'm actually choosing their words and actions and reactions. it can be different for non-dnd PCs since i don't have to Be Them, though roleplay often helps, but since i have to Be Mik it's gotta feel natural and right for him. it's gotta flow right. i don't want to be puzzling out his responses for ages and i don't want to rush into stuff that feels too OOC later on.

so! session 1 was great for figuring out my boy! rambling a bit under the cut, getting into some general mik lore on top of session 1 analysis

knew immediately once his wrist was grabbed that he doesn't generally like being touched, and that he tends to respond reflexively to get away/defend himself when he's surprised by touch, but that his friend siraye is an exception (though he still tries to smack her instinctively when she sneaks up on him, she just dodges because it's a game). learned that even if a situation is serious, he gets excited if he can view it as a puzzle. he's having a great time with these omens rn despite the dire air to them, because it's interesting and he gets to do research. learned that he wholeheartedly embraces the fact that he's a fucking nerd and is largely unbothered by having that called out, or having his research skills/enthusiasm taken advantage of. learned he doesn't care too much if someone lies to him, he probably doesn't realize people are lying to him (jokingly or not) fairly often, but once he catches on he labels the person a liar in his head and will doubt their honesty moving forward.

the bit with him stopping mid-sentence when indigo held up a finger, then completing the sentence as if he hadn't been interrupted once she gave him her attention. not sure yet if he mostly stayed out of the 'gods are useless' talk because i personally wasn't sure what to say or wanted to let other people talk, or if mik was politely avoiding arguing about that, or if he was focused on his question and wasn't going to get sidetracked so was just waiting for everyone to stop talking so he could get back to his point. could be a combo of my factors plus that last one, i think. working out his dynamic with siraye when she showed up was great too, it was perfect! her lovingly bullying him with mik taking it in stride/playing along, perfect, just what i pictured.

expanding on his touch thing and how he responds to it, i think it's one part inherent response, one part monk training, one part leftover from being a little brother. mik and arx get along fine and they love each other, but they didn't get on GREAT when they were younger. mik was an nd kid who wanted to hang out with his big brother but arx thought he was annoying and weird and didn't particularly want him around his friends. mik would try to get arx's attention, eventually through pestering, and arx would try to get him to go away. i think this devolved into scuffling sometimes, nothing too extreme, just YOU ARE BOTHERING ME GET OUT OF MY ROOM stuff. which was a form of attention for mik tbh. in retaliation to the pestering, arx would also pester/antagonize back, mostly via touching since that's one thing that legit bothered mik and could get him to go away. mush his face, grab his hand, flop on him. you want attention? i'll fucking give you attention. this often devolved into more angry type of scuffles, or mik giving up and trying to retreat because ack don't touch. but arx was stronger and just a little bit of a bully at this age. so mik had to learn to be faster, to avoid being touched or to get away once things stopped being fun. could've mostly avoided the problem if he just stopped pestering his brother (not entirely avoided, becsuse sometimes arx would just antagonize him out of the blue), but y’know. he was a kid he wanted to spend time with his cool brother.

(not to insinuate their relationship was horrible or rude all the time. if his friends weren't around, or if he had some especially chill friends around, arx would let mik hang out with him. would sometimes reach out to mik first if he knew he'd be interested in something. really didn't get the death obsession but would occasionally get him books or stuff to make him happy. also no one else was allowed to bully mik, fuck you, that's MY weirdo brother. well, siraye could bully him. honorary sister. and anyway, things are much more chill now. they've both matured. arx tries to respect the touch boundaries now, though he WILL threaten mik if he's being real annoying. do you want me to put you in a headlock because i will.)

anyway this tangent was to explain mik's 'escape/hit when touched' response. i got off track some. but he's gotta be quick if he doesn't want to get put in a headlock, y’know. in his thirties now and still gotta be prepared.

okay that's it for now