#these are kinda just warm ups i didnt . even reference or anything

[dragonballwish]

doodles of househusband / homemaker gohan where I accidentally show you that I forgot how to draw in the months of not drawing much

[steakout-05]

OK SO THE TRAILER FOR THE NEW GARF MOVIE CAME OUT (and of course youtube didnt tell me about it until now) AND!!! ITS SO CUTE!!!!!! so here's me yelling and screaming and fanboying about how much i love how this movie looks so far :D

ok first off, BABY GARF!!! HE IS A TINY BALL!!! LITTOL GUY!!!! :D

he's so miniscule! so microscopic! an atom! he's tiny!!! but he's just living in a box who would abandon such a little guy :( (his dad probably. yeah he's in this movie and i hope Garfield's mum is also in here because she appeared in a classic Garfield special and she's so lovely)

after this scene we see our first look at Jon (my beloved) eating alone at an Italian restaurant, and like, this means so much to me. look at these shots:

i'm not sure if they're in order or not but like. look at the way he watches the family! he has a look of bittersweet love and sadness in his eyes and i'm just,,, 🥺 he just wants to be a dad.... i love how Jon has always kinda been portrayed as a father figure to his pets, in classic shows and specials he calls Garf and Odie his boys, in Garfield Gets Real he calls them his kids and now here, he wants to be a father so bad i'm going to burst into tears i love this man

the garf appears!! the littol baby has arrived!! the tiny little miniscule microscopic molecule atom of a cat has approached the window!!!

the way Jon puts his finger to the window, the way he cuddles baby Garf with so much tender loving care and adoration..... he's so sweet i love him!! how can people hate this man?? look at him!!! look this sweet and loving father figure in the eyes and tell him you hate him. you cannot. he's too pure for this world

also i haven't mentioned this yet, but it's commonly accepted in the Garfield fandom that Garfield was born in a pizza shop and then was transferred to a pet shop where Jon then adopted Garfield in 1978, but to be honest, i didn't really like the pet shop part of that backstory. the pizza place part was great but i dunno, Jon just going to a pet shop and buying Garfield isn't as heartfelt to me. this backstory though? i LOVE. two lonely creatures meeting each other and forming a family is so adorable and sweet, especially for modern Garfield. i feel like we need less cynicism in modern Garfield and more stuff like this i love it so much,,, also this movie looks fucking beautiful holy shit

i really like this part because like, Garfield didn't develop his bizarrely huge diet over time. dude was BORN with it. and like look at that look on Jon's face, he looks like he hasn't even finished processing what just happened yet and is just staring into the mist wondering what and how and why that happened. beautiful. also that second image is really funny to me it should have a silly ominous text post caption on it

also this shot, i didn't notice it the first time but holy shit the look of absolute HORROR on Jon's face!! he is witnessing the TRUE extent of Garfield's powers and he is NOT ready for it man i love this shot so much

okok so what i REALLY LOVE about this specific shot is that it reminds me of a classic Garfield strip where Jon is attempting to give Garfield a bath!! here's the strip it reminds me of:

Jon doesn't actually wear anything but like. the fact that he has to go through so much preparation to give Garfield a bath so he doesn't claw him up in the movie, it just has to be a reference to this strip it's gotta be man i'm betting money on it. also hiii Lyman :)

this scene is so fucking pretty!!! look at the warm colours! it feels so homely and it's exactly how i feel reading my dad's old Garfield comic books! all the warm bright colours and gentle lighting, all the freshly baked lasagna that i really wanna eat because it's so delicious looking.... how can people say that Jon doesn't feed Garfield when he is RIGHT THERE grating extra cheese for him because he knows Garfield likes extra everything in his lasagna. such a sweet adorable man :') i'd like to see ihatejonarbuckle make a good rebuttal to THIS

there's some other neat little references in this movie too, like the Stuck On You plushies made by Dakin being referenced with Garfield smacking into a car after his dad throws him out of a train,

and a reference to the giant Garfield balloon at a Macy's Thanksgiving parade that makes me think that 'Garfield' the comic is canon in this movie, it's created by Jon (cause y'know he's supposed to be a cartoonist) and it's based off his own stories with Garfield and it is now an international phenomenon like in our world. neat!

the question is though, does Garfield know he's a worldwide sensation or does he have absolutely no idea? it'd be funny if it was the latter option honestly cause he'd be extremely confused yet flattered as to why there's a random giant balloon dedicated to him in the city

so the big dude on the left is Garfield's dad, but also, this reminds me of this other Garfield comic where Garfield meets his former self from 1978 and they proceed to eat all the food in the fridge together. thought that was cool :D

(it'd be really funny if this was Garfield's dad and he was messing with Garfield by telling him they are one in the same haha)

oh yeah and here's the two of them eating everything in Jon's fridge from the movie:

see what i mean? there's a similarity there and i think it's really funny. also Jon's probably thinking "wtf there's two of them now???" like Garfield got so fat that he just split into two cats or something lol

so! does it look like a good movie? abso-fucking-lutely yes!!! i am SO excited to go see this one! i think this is the best Garfield media we've gotten in YEARS! i love the colours and the shots, i love the slight modern redesign they gave Jon, Odie looks a little weird but he's still super fun and adorable, and while i do find it odd that the Garfield balloon looks more like Garfield than he does, i do like how expressive the characters' eyes are and it's miles better than the previous 3D Garfs we got! i really wanna see this movie and boy am i going to be RAVING about it for WEEKS this blog will be FILLED with Garfield for the next few weeks when this goes digital!! super jazzed to see it!!

and with that, here's one more comparison that i think is extremely funny:

[eternalera]

Pup Pup Pup!!!

We finished s4 and my god it was a doozy-

At first I thought there wasn’t much happening throughout the season apart from Eri’s rescue and the work-studies but I was very much wrong

Eri’s amazing, she deserves to be happy

Also the plague doctor dude (I didn’t forget his name I just don’t want to even attempt to spell it) has a kinda cool and kinda weird quirk. Like I’m not sure whether I like or hate it

Ryuku’s quirk my beloved-

Nighteye… very unexpected story, cut far too short (and right as I was beginning to like his character more too ;w;)

Balloon man avoiding his problems 100% power-

Hopefully Togota (or is it Togata?) gets his quirk back soon, but at least he gets to hang out with Eri :D

I was wondering if we’d ever get to know what happened on Tokoyami’s workstudy. Hawks is cool though, hopefully his feathers come back soon

The last 2 episodes had me on the edge of my seat-

Endeavour is becoming a symbol, not as Allmight was but as one of his own and Elsa and emotions?!?!

Also Shigaraki’s costume got an upgrade, the coat improves it imo, the plain long sleeve shirt was a tad boring

My theory that Deku’s blood had a deeper meaning was absolutely proved WRONG it was used for Toga’s quirk, nothing too nefarious

Also. Major question which is probably plot significant cause sister refuses to say anything about it-

Why does Deku glow when he uses OFA? Balloon man had kinda glowy eyes but apart from that nothing. Bunny boy full on lights up, like when he uses 100% whilst rescuing Eri his hair was glowing and floating. Even when he doesn’t use 100%, his eyes glow and he gets all sparky- the suspense on whether it is plot significant or just effects to make him look cooler is killing me

I’m excited and scared for the next seasons- my sibling says that there are almost no safe spots (by safe spots I mean places where it’s ok to stop watching for a bit between episodes without a massive cliffhanger) and she is very skilled at dragging it out (it’s painful but the show is worth it)

Anyway Pup, how are you? What did you last eat? (I last had some delicious gelato :D)

Also the plague doctor dude (I didn’t forget his name I just don’t want to even attempt to spell it) has a kinda cool and kinda weird quirk. Like I’m not sure whether I like or hate it

his name is overhaul! its pretty simple to spell although if youre referring to his japanese name and not the villain one... i just simply forgot it soooo... :D

but personally i do like his quirk quite a bit, although it is pretty overpowered and stuff which is really interesting... also idk i just thought that he deserved a bigger spotlight- especially with his quirk being so cool and stuff :D

Nighteye… very unexpected story, cut far too short (and right as I was beginning to like his character more too ;w;)

yeah they cut it kinda short which... sucks to say the least which didnt make me really care for his death i just kinda sat there like... i mean i wanted to care but i just couldnt. mostly because it was so short

Also Shigaraki’s costume got an upgrade, the coat improves it imo, the plain long sleeve shirt was a tad boring

they warmed up the silly :D

Why does Deku glow when he uses OFA? Balloon man had kinda glowy eyes but apart from that nothing. Bunny boy full on lights up, like when he uses 100% whilst rescuing Eri his hair was glowing and floating. Even when he doesn’t use 100%, his eyes glow and he gets all sparky- the suspense on whether it is plot significant or just effects to make him look cooler is killing me

i think it has something to do with that he takes the powers energy and makes into into his own thing, like he converts the energy into something else. while all might made it so that he was stronger deku makes it into like lightning... or at least i think-

I’m excited and scared for the next seasons- my sibling says that there are almost no safe spots (by safe spots I mean places where it’s ok to stop watching for a bit between episodes without a massive cliffhanger) and she is very skilled at dragging it out (it’s painful but the show is worth it)

THEYRE SO GOODD!! YOURE GONNA LOVE IT TRUST!!

and im doing good!! as to what i last ate- well im currently eating a banana right now :)

[elliesgirrl]

" My Girl "

Ellie Williams x Fem!reader

Summary: Ellie was behind a building in ruins, trying to stop her bleading after fighting with some gang and then she met someone..

Warnings: pure fluff, farmer!reader, loser!Ellie, Ellie loves fat cows, readers does too, kinda ooc Ellie, a whole character is a lorax reference

Author's note: this is my first fic in a while, so pls let me know if i make a mistake!!

No proof read 💐😡

Ellie was behind a building in ruins, her arms was bleeding from fighting some gang (and winning ofc..) and she was trying to stop the bleeding, *it hurted really bad*

After some minutes, she heard some dogs sounds, did those guys came for more? And with dogs too?! But she couldnt be more wrong, she soon saw a girl with those dogs, she was walking carefully and when the girl notices her, her eyes widen

The girl rushed to Ellie, it was like she didnt think twice about it, what seemed really dumb to Ellie since she was in alert since the moment she heard her dogs

"Are you okay? What happened? Does it hurt too much?"

The girl asked, in a worried tone..

"Im fine, its.. Tolerable."

Ellie answer but then she groaned, when she felt a sharp pain in her arms, then the girl helped her get up.

"Here, let me take you to my farm"

The girl said in her worried tone, she called her dogs and grabbed their leash and began to guide Ellie, who was actually pretty dumbfounded by the girl's kindess.

They arrieved to the girls house in a little bit, it wasn too far away from the place they just were, they enter the girl's house and it was really pretty and cozy, the girl made Ellie sit down on the couch, and then she grabbed a first aid kit and began to heal Ellie's wound

"Whats your name?"

The girl asked, in a soft voice

"Uh.. Im Ellie, you?"

She replied, trying to not let another groan out

"Im y/n"

She also replied, giving Ellie a warm smile and after a little, finishing patching her up she put the first aid kit where it belongs, leaving Ellie in the couch in the living room

When she came back, she swears that Ellie looked like a godess rigth now, she was looking at the window, the window lets you see the animals, the cows, horses and sheeps from the farm, it made you giggle a little

"Do you like animals?"

you said to Ellie, and she looked back at you a little surprised because she wasnt paying attention to anything but the animals but she let out a soft laugh and answer

"Yeah.. a little bit"

you nod smiling and sit at the couch next to her, you were going to say something but then you guys heard some foot steps from upstairs and an old lady stepped to where you guys were

"Oh? Who is this young lady, y/n? Is she one of your suitors?"

she asked teasing you, what made you blush a little and sigh

"What are you talking about nana?.. "

you asked in a awkward tone, with an awkward laugh

"My name is Ellie, ma'am"

she introduced herself to you grandma, with a warm smile and your grandma felt flattered

"Im granny Norma, dear!"

they chatted for a little while and you were dying from embarrasement because your grandma still thougth that you and Ellie were dating, even if you told her you werent

"Alrigth Ellie! So, why dont we take you to breath fresh air?"

You said, grabbing Ellie's arm and taking her out of the house, your face was blushed and she sighs when they got out but Ellie had to hold her laugh

"Your grandma is nice!"

Ellie said smiling

"Oh yeah.. well, wanna see the animals?"

"yes."

the two of you went to the farm, Ellie could hear a lot of animal sounds, moos and meee and whatever sound horses make! And she thougth it was so beautiful and peaceful

they got close to the cows, and you hugged one of them

"this fat lady is Linda, she is pregnant"

you said and kissed the cows forehead

"Really? Well i bet she will be a good mother"

"She better be.. if she doesnt i migth eat her"

you joked and Ellie laughed at it, and pets the cow softly

"Bet she tastes good too!"

you and Ellie spent the whole day in the farm with the animals, she helped you around with cleaning and feeding the animals even if you insisted her to not do it, and when the sun goes down and the moons comes out, your grandma called the both of you to eat dinner

you ate dinner and after it, you started to prepare the couch as a bed

"you can sleep in my bed, Ellie, i will sleep here"

"what? No! This is your house, i should be the one sleeping in the couch"

Ellie protested, she couldnt leave you sleeping on the couch of your own house when a stranger was sleeping on your bed

"actually.. would you like to sleep here, with me? like a sleepover!"

you suggested to Ellie, smiling and she opens her eyes widely

"well... sure, i dont mind"

You grabbed Ellie's arm, making her sit on the couch and began to talk, you gossip (well, Ellie did since the most interesting story you had it was when you fell on Linda's poop) and chatted, laughed all nigth until you touched the love theme

"So, Ellie.. did you ever had a girlfriend?

You asked, with a playful smile

"I did, actually, we dated for 6 months or so?"

she answers normally

"Oh, cool!"

"Did you?"

"Nope! I mean.. its been only me and my grandma this whole time.."

you explained to Ellie, and she nodded, understandly

"Well, at least you're safe here"

Ellie added, for her, safety was better than having a love life

"Yeah.. im glad, i wouldnt know what to do if something happens to my grandma"

you stay talking until it was too late and you both fell asleep in the couch, your head on her shoulder and her arm around you

the next day, when Ellie had to leave, you hugged her tigthly

"Take care, Ellie"

"I will, thank you for taking care of me yesterday"

you just smiled warmly at Ellie and then she left, but before she got too far away, you runned to her and gave her a soft and quick kiss on her lips, your cheeks blushing and you pulled away

"Come to visit me someday, Ellie."

[momiamtired]

i tremble and panic when remembering what my life will be. im scared and lonely and i dont want anything else, just to see my family and home. for some reason i feel like in mt first days here, and even then it wasnt that bad. im afraid of the idea that i have to get used to this. i don t find living in the apartments and going to work that scary but still just understanding of how life plays with me makes me feel misserable. oh how i wish i never looked up this university in google, when i was lying in my warm bed at the winter, excited, because i found western university that will bring me to my dreams and actually is afordable for my family. i feel so stupid and im so sorry dad i am you spend so much money on me and im not even grateful. this fucker oh fuck he asks if 2 pm is okay for me. i dont think any pm is okay for me. i think tomorrow will be horrible. i dont think he thinks of me in a romantic way, he has some chicks name in his user name sticker. i fucking hate him. but i wish he could comfort me. he probably doesnt care in the slightest ab me. for some reason i kinda feel like omori? is this a strange reference idk. well omori song just started playing so i thought of it. i feel like i dont really should be in this world. i want to come back to what it used to be. i guess a lot of people think about the same things but uh yeah. i guess tomorrows gonna be awful. i really dont want to see him espercially this early but i have to get out of the house, it will fucking eat me alive. i must have studied a lot today but ima lazy ass and cryed all day. i hate that the idea of crying is so normalized today. its like oooh i cried because of this dead pigeon!! wtf no i believe tears are not for this. people cry when they experience strong emotions. my other roommate is singing songs in the shower god i hate her. its 9 pm btw. she screams like a pig. sometimes she is nice and i truly believe she is a nice person. i still hate her and would like to see her dead. but no right now. im not that angry right now. when i think of my mom i start to cry. i miss her so much. it was always like this when i was a kid, i would always cry when i was at sleepovers. i dont know why, its a strange feeling. it is reallt strange. when im okay i dont even want to talk to her, its like i dont have a lot of stimuli to do so? but when i feel bad the only oerson i want to call is her. i guess shes the only one who i believe would reallt care. not even my best friend who i would always call the best person in my life. im just a bad person. when she tells me that something happened to her im always kinda happy it happened. its not always like this but sometimes i feel like oh lol ye u deserved it bc there is enough good in ur life. im just an awful always jelous person. i guess world would be a better place without people like me. people like me are the people who shoot schools. i would be happier if it uh fuck again its like when u remembering something like just spontaneus and u immediately start to cry and tremble and like idk feel bad? i feel so so so homesick. i didnt feel that homesick at the start and here i am after 3 months here. i really love my parents and actually my home i am so sorry that i never told anyone this or idk oh god im so so sorry i never respected never understood. i guess its just that im homesick and my home isnt that good but tbh i cant of a thing better rn than my home. fuck any other place. fuck heaven. i just wish i could my cat and my mom sitting and talking loud at 7 am when the sun is rising with her mom and she will make me awake and i will go and ask her to be quiet really angryshly and she will go to her room and i will try to sleep again but now i cant so i smoke my vape and browse through tiktok, lying in underwear and some t shirt, then my cat will come to me and start meowing for me to play with him, i will annoignly play alittle bit with him and then proceed to do my every day morning chores. but summer in my country when u have friends is amazing. i mean my city. okay i will end now to mush words

[pumpkin-toast]

thoughts

i have a lot of issues with Dark Revival. pacing, structure, gameplay but ill be DAMNED if i said i didnt adore every single second of it

there will be vague spoilers under the cut, so read at your own risk. i won't be saying anything outright.

Okay so I have to say that compared to BATIM this game felt. Very narratively disorganized. In the original Bendy, every chapter had a very distinct beginning and end point with it's own themes and story, whereas DR feels more like one giant insane super-chapter that's a continuous sprint to the finish line.

Chapter 5 in particular left me feeling very confused in it's structure as it was flinging you around haphazardly between different set pieces? And it just felt really weird with the pacing.

The gameplay is definitely a step up from Bendy, but it looked like it got really stagnant and repetitive as the game kept going and they didn't really seem to build on it at all.

This seemed to be a common theme, too. They would introduce a topic and then not build on it too much. That one section after the elevator (if you know you know) particularly stuck out to me. I don't remember the stuff introduced there ever coming back after the fact.

Story thoughts - again, I'm not going to be spoiling anything but be aware I'm talking about spoiler-y topics.

Edit: Okay but the entire opening section just made me feel so warm and happy. Ramager’s comfort game BATIM real??? Crazy shit.

I'm not an instant fan of what they did with Audrey's backstory. I'll have to sit on the idea for a while.

The Cycle lore is very welcome but it seems to contradict a lot of generally accepted Bendy lore. Also something I'm going to have to sit on.

Baby Benders was hands down the best part of the entire game for me, he was absolutely delightful throughout. I wish we got just a little bit more of him but he was great. Blorbo supreme, even. The Ink Demon was great too - his design wasn't anything like what I was expecting but he looks rightfully horrific /pos. I prefer the original BATIM design over him (he's just too iconic yknow?) but I still enjoy this incarnation.

I'm NOT fond of the new Ink Demon mechanic though. The roaming Bendy from BATIM chapter 3 were much more intimidating than the version we got in BATDR and I'm not entirely sure why they chose to go this direction with him.

A lot of stuff felt very fanservice-y but hey! I'm fans! I have been done a service and I'm okay with this outcome. I sit back in my chair and sip my coffee and there are no complaints from me.

Okay the ending. That final section was. Well uh it was something all right. Personally I adore it but I will admit I think it's Very Fucking Stupid (/affectionate) and I predict people will hate it. It felt very hit or miss to me. I would not have been able to predict that in my wildest fever dreams

(Also very vague spoilers but that one character cameoing in the final stretch only to have him croak immediately had me WHEEZING that was the funniest shit. Kinda killed the tone though.)

I think that about sums up my thoughts. I really liked the game! Baby Benders is one of my favorite characters of all time. The FNAF reference was cool. It was totally worth it to get up at 7am for this /srs.

[rainbowgod666]

(BREAKS WALL LIKE KOOL AID MAN) LIST OF WHAT THE FOUNDATION DOCTORS ARE TO MÆ(noises of a GBA cartridge having an orgasm. I mean a strong one)

Bright: had to tell everyone hes mine now. Sorry but the dude that created him first actually never did anything for it but use him to bait minors. On another note Jack punched clef thru a wall over a "hehe ur original artist was a kid diddler and the only reason youre alive is someone with autism" joke sO

Shaw: for the love of FUCK keep this boi away from danger hes such a lil fella look at him with his artisanal flamethrower and golden-brown soft fluffy hair hes SUCH A SMOL BOI A-

Kondraki: cool dude who can Actually Use A Katana and has butterflies. No one knows if the anomaly is the butterflies or the fact he can straight up summon them. People stopped doing "bottledick" jokes to him years ago after a drunken crying session. Of course the one thats out of thus one is... clef

Light: some people say shes "female bright" (which is billshit because bright isnt even THAT horny) and i say shes a good researcher who just so happens to sound excessively flirty. Shes also shaped like the expected idea of a Hot Girl but everyones like "she does her job, and thats cool". Yes she notices the stares of junior researches and Yes she can sometimes be a tease. Idk why she loves doing that but hey. Everyones different

Rights: also Literally Just A Normal Person, she sometimes infodumps about her fanfics and... its actually really interesting to hear her like idfk why everyone is like that. LET THE MELANINE MILADY COOK🔥🔥🔥she makes some trULY esaustive reports and everyone silently agrees that telling someone "hey, right's like this because she lurks in AO3" is just.. mean. Has been (and probably still is, decided its their fuckign problem cause "author entity" shouldnt mean "privacy ignoring ass") "friends with benefits" with light and... both cant deny they didnt enjoy those late nights between girls >w○

Iceberg: for some reason his "anomalous trait" is "hes cold in the sense of Body Is Cold AF but Still Works". Like dudes skin is SLIGHTLY blue like some weird Anomalous DNA Bullshit and his hair is straight up Light Ice Blue. Other than that hes... kind of a lil ray of sunshine honestly, he may be a walking refrigerator but he doesnt having problems warming up to people :) (haha i have made a bad temperature pun)

Gears: he is basically mostly robotic, calm and collected, and... honestly hes kinda alright. Like he can come off as emotionless but like... he is??? I know of at least ONE incident where a mekhanite delegation looked at him and was like "you guys dont even need to worship MEKHANE? Cool" and he went "im literally a mekhanite". Dude is also really based btw like man i get that you're an accidental reference to Spock but holy shit dude why are you a chad

Buck: O5-6. And i am the only one that figured that out. LoL (also shes kinda of a stuck-up. Girl i get that the foundations job is important but one day 682 is gonna tell you "attitude like this is why i hate humanity" and youre gonna be in 999s cell for a WHILE.) (Seriously light tf up. Get a videogame, talk with people, GO OUTSIDE-)

Collingwood: something in my universe mist be Horribly Wrong because uuuh... she somehow now wants to have an SCP...Bf. no. I may be technically a 001-SWANN entity but i have no idea wtf happened. All I know is that our grey-haired queen is yearning and i hope i got it wrong because lemme tell you. I definetively misunderstood her. (Also the other option is She Has A Crush On Buck, which i mean... ok? But like girl there are other girls out there- unless you Have A Type, then i shall stfu)

Clef: three eyed shotgun addict who made her daughters file look like her anomalous effect isnt "cute forest spirit girl with a catholic upbringing who eventually got a bit more relaxed" (she still goes to Foundation Church [which is church but inside of a site] cause come on at least once a month she gotta stay in the confessional. Turns out the entire clerical part of the foundation looked at this Deer Dearie and went "shes cool 👍") but "EvErYoNe WaNtS tO fUcK hEr OoOoOo" like NO you "i will find the "n-word with the hard r" for reality benders" 12-gauge addict just because many people say "hey clef ur daughters cute :3" doesnt meant they feel Like That. Actually get this: currently shes like... either 22 or 24 idk and shes with SCP-239, WHO IS A 19 22YO WORKAHOLIC THAT IS A TYPE GREEN AND TYPE BLUE AT THE SAME TIME AND THE FOUNDATION WAS LIKE "LeTs MaKe HeR wOrK aT tHaUmAtUrGy!" yEAH THANK YOU NOW SHE HAS A CAFFEINE ADDICT. IF IT WASNT FOR HER BIG TIDDY NATURE SPIRIT GF SHE WOULD BE AN XK YOU DEFLATED PENIS. GO PLAY BUCKSHOT ROULETTE IRL YOU DISGRACE UPON GARNET STEVEN UNIVERSE OF A THREE EYED SHIT.

rights is such an intresting fucking character and the fact that shes either reduced down to some sex pest horny stripper archetype or just everyones actual fucking mother makes my blood boil. you literally do not see this type of shit happening with the other male doctors and i think everyone knows good and well why. rights is a sweet, caring woman, who goes out of her way to be nice to people despite everything she has gone through but that does not make her a fucking suitable mother, in fact when she does actually have a daughter she doesn't even feel anything towards it. she isn't fit to be a mother, point blank. that's just not who she is. and like, yeah, her sexuality is a large part of her character, it's not something that she goes out of her way to hide, in fact it's something that is shown outright a lot of types and it's never something she shies away from, but holy fuck she is not a sex pest who goes around fucking everyone in sight. reducing her to either of these things is to ignore her entire character, in that she can be both while still being human. rights isn't meant to fit into a fucking box, it goes against her character to try to pack her into one. when you try to shift her into an archetype, you end up ignoring a lot of her other facets. god. anyway. everyone get normal about doctor agatha rights or else im going to kill you

[current-interest-writings]

Hey! I really love your writing and while I don’t have anything specific to request, could you please write something with batmom please? Maybe a favorite memory with each of the Robins from her perspective?

Thank you!!! 🙏 🥰

Batmom and baby bats

Memories

Jason

Jason has always been a sweet child not that he’d tell anyone, and it’s always reminded you of your favorite moments.

Jason was about 11 when he made you a lovely stack of homemade cards for Mother’s Day, he named 1 reason he loved you and what you have him that made his life a joy.

His first reason was, you gave him love, motherly love that was warm and welcoming that seemed never ending.

But the way he presented them was what made it truly memorable

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* Mother’s Day morning*

With a loud knock on the door, jason came running to the bed and jumped on top of you. accidentaly hitting bruce in the face with one of his flying hands 

“mom! mom! its mothers day and I have plans with you!”

“hey i get to spend time with her too!!”- Dick making sure you didnt forget about him.

“ i want to spend all day with my favorite boys!” 

which lead to a huge cuddle pile.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

the most impressive part of jasons section of mothers day was what he wanted us to show you,

he took you to gotham, the exactly ally in which he tried to steal batmans tires. 

“this right here is where my life changed forever, where i found a family i never knew i could have.”

After hugging you for a minute, you two went to Bruce’s office.

“This is the place when you became my mom on paper, I can never say thank you enough”

Both of you cry and just cuddling in Bruce’s office chair.

-this was your fondest memory with Jason-

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Dick

Dick was always an energetic kid, it’s what you loved about him. Even if at times he was quick to anger.

Like when he was new to the manor and in his first year he had come so far.

But he was having a break down after accidentally calling you mom.

“No no no this can’t be happening, I already have a mom!”

You tried to calm him down the best you could

“Dickie she would’ve wanted you to be loved, but I understand if you don’t want to call me mom, you can still call me Y/N if it makes you feel better. I’m not trying to replace her.”

He was pacing back and forth,

“But isn’t it replacing her if I call you mom?”

“Sweetie I can never replace the amazing woman that was your mother, I can only hope to provide you enough motherly love and affection as I can. But you will never forget your mom, and I won’t let you forget her either.”

His anger simmered down and he stopped pacing

“ momma, can I have a hug?!”

“Of course baby bat, but you don’t have to yell.”

With your arms wide open dick launched himself at you.

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Tim

When Tim came into your lives he already had a family, you were just angered by the way they treated their son. He was more than some random assignment or duty, he was their son!! But they never treated him right.

When Tim eventually came to live with you and Bruce full time, he had moments where he felt like a child, and it was so foreign to him that he had no idea what to do.

Like when you got him something because it reminded you of him.

“Oh you didn’t have to do that, but thank you”

“Tim of course I didn’t have too, I wanted too. I thought you might like it and I heard to complaining that your current lap desk was kinda broken.”

Tim was shocked you were actually listening to him rant!!!

He was too stunned to speak, he just started to tear up a little bit.

“Oh honey did I get the wrong one? Do you not like it?”

“No no I love it!! I’ve just never had someone do something nice for me because they wanted too!”

Biggest bear hug ever for that boy.

It broke your heart that his family had never just done something nice for him.

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Damien- *has a reference to my Batman fic with hot coco*

Damien grew up to believe he was better than everyone, so when he came to the family that is how he behaved. But you wouldn’t tolerate this behavior from anyone, let alone a child.

So he was never invited to hot coco nights with the other boys in the kitchen.

But when he started going to Gotham academy, and being bullied about his heritage, Damien didn’t know what to do. You and Bruce had given him a list of absolutes that he couldn’t do.

So after three weeks he waited for you in your study at the house.

When you walked in you were shocked to see Damien on your little couch, but knew right away something wasn’t right.

“Are you alright Damien?”

He huffed and looked at you with sad puppy eyes

“ the children at school are rude, and constantly asking if I’m planning to blow up the school, and making fun of my ethnicity. I can’t handle it anymore ummi, I want to just fit in, I don’t want to be a kid who’s bullied and doesn’t have anyone at home.”

You gave your sad son a soft smile

“Damien, you could’ve come to me sooner. I would’ve talked to the school to find solutions, as for being alone, you aren’t. We may not be super close at the moment Damien, but I took you in as one of my own, I would raise hell for you if that’s what it took for you to be happy. Your mother raised you to fight and lead, I’m here to guide you if you need and/or want my help.”

He looked like he was going to cry and bolted into your arms holding you like his life depended on it.

“Ummi, can I please join you and the others for whatever it is you have in those mugs after patrol?”

“Of course sweetheart”

Your brain completely skipping that he called you ummi until they were already on patrol.

[cassyapper]

I want to ask how did you start liking jotaro, as I saw many ppl hate him a lot, especially in part 3

IM ACTUALLY...REALLY REALLY REALLY EXCITED THAT SOMEONE ASKED ME THIS SO THANK YOU SO MUCH ANONYMOUS LET ME TAKE YOU THROUGH MY JOURNEY <3

so like u mention in the ask, i actually also was one of the ppl that hated him a lot at first (screenshot of this message ft the date for reference)

he was brash and rude and so fucking mean to his mother for no reason and i got sick of the schtick pretty quick. compared to joseph's rambunctiousness and jonathan's honor, jotaro's outright hostility wasnt endearing to me

however, an important thing i remember consciously noting was how he mentions he stays in the jail cell in order to keep people form getting hurt

and so i remember noting "ah. he's gonna be one of those 'me against the world for the sake of my loved ones' types"

the question from then on was if jotaro's character would stick the landing of that archetype

and well, obviously he did (for me at least)

as i continued to watch part 3 i began to feel more amicable toward jotaro. he was not my favorite but i was warming up to him. during jotaor vs dio i really felt for him. it's plain to see this kid is absolutely traumatized even if he tries so hard to ignore it. i personally have always had a soft spot for characters like this. dont really know why. i do not want to psychoanalyze myself to figure it out <3

anyway but finishing part 3 didnt make me a jotaro stan. i liked him enough by then, sure, but he still was rocky and i loved poking fun about him

however i then began part 4 and i much much MUCH preferred this new, more respectable jotaro. he's still got the trauma and rough edges and inability to communicate but he's less of an outright asshole now. the only time i remember disapproving of him during that part was then he punched josuke when they first met 😭 but even then that can be explained by his trauma and how crazy diamond looks similar to the world so i didnt really feel miffed

however jotaro is not the star of part 4 obviously so he kinda faded to the background for me while i fell in love with josuke/the morioh gang at large

but anyway. at this point i had become fully hyperfixated on jojo (phantom blood started it, battle tendency made sure i'd keep watching, and stardust crusaders finalized it) so i was looking shit up about it all the time

a part of that included being exposed to part 6 spoilers obviously. i remember when i first saw jolyne i wasn't sure if she was a popular fanon character cause i just couldn't comprehend jotaro having a daughter 😭

but i did more digging cause while i still poked fun i did like jotaro so i was curious, and... i found out how stone ocean ends. i find out how jotaro's story ends

THIS. is where i began to take a massive turn for him

still some of the playful ribbing but i think u can tell from my typing pattern that the tone of it has changed. jotaro took a new, deeper place in my heart

what solidified it and thus cemented jotaro as probably my favorite character was a couple of things: eyes of heaven and reading the manga of stardust crusaders

eyes of heaven made me really confront how jotaro's one sole wish is just his loved ones being safe and happy. jotaro gets the power to rewrite the timeline however he wanted; he could do literally ANYTHING he wanted. and he chose a happy ending for his loved ones, for his family. he chose to save people he had never met for the sake of others. jotaro is a lot of things but above all he is truly just a man, a man that loves his family so fucking much, and the way eyes of heaven portrayed it just particularly ruined me

coinciding this, i also started reading the stardust crusaders manga i think at first cause i wanted to see kakyoin again super badly. however, this quickly became a venture for also jotaor content, because the manga gave me something the anime would never: jotaro emoting. jotaro being gentle. jotaro, most importantly, being a child who was thrust into a situation far too big for him that he frankly had nothing to do with. the manga combined with his depseration in eyes of heaven helped me to fully come to terms with the fact that jotaro was a SCARED TEENAGER WHO JUST WANTED HIS MOMA DN HIS NEW FRIENDS TO BE OKAY AND IT LED TO ALL OF THIS. it truly made me nuts and we're now here <3

so, tl;dr, jotaro was done BAD bad by davidpro in part 3 by them refusing to let him show any of his vulnerability/childishness, which does him no favors; but ultimately he is a character i think you appreciate more once you know his whole story, as evidenced by my complete turn over post me knowing about part 6. everything he does can be understood a lot better once you understand his end goal (and, well, see everything he does lol) and how it goes for him.

anyway i love jotaro kujo so fucking much he means everything to me

[hitoshisbabygirl]

Author's Notes ♡: Hey Hey, it’s me, ya girl and I’m back with another collab! Ive always loved the roommates theme and have a few ideas for some other ones in my head making this. It’s kinda all over the place because it was a professing with their friendship! Yes I made a Zelda reference and I land about it no. I know Rapp is seen as violent and dense but but this is in a collage au so he’s just a bit...aloof I just love the idea of him actually being a big softie ʕ⊙ᴥ⊙ʔ. I hope you enjoy! ~ bunny ❥

Warnings : NSFW!!! (◎_◎;)

Sweet caring sorta himbo(meh?) Rappa, female oral, Big Dick Rappa , sorta size kink if you really sqint,cheater ex mentioned like once , language

Word count : About 5k! Yikes ^^’

Paring(s) : Kendo Rappa x F! Reader

Enjoy ♡

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Having Kendo Rappa as a roommate is an interesting feat in itself. He is big, and loud , very very loud. He wasn't a bad roommate he just..was like a cute large and fluffy puppy that didn't know his size...or power. Their interactions started as the two met during a halloween party one of the frat houses down the street thew. [ ] went as Midna, her best friend Rumi was dressed as Impa while the last two of her friend group , Amaya and Asa, a pair of sisters, were dressed as fairies. “[ ]! Rumi! you two are so cute! Zelda costumes?” Asa asked as her sister ran up to admire their outfits. “Yeah! [ ] wanted to do some characters that matched us y'know?” She said as she nudged her quiet friend , the girl jumped and laughed , scratching her neck as she gave the excited sisters a small smile “If i was coming out tonight I was gonna wear what i wanted to really wear” [ ] said as the group of them laughed and mingled with their other friends and classmates. While heading to get juice , she heard loud screaming , as the sport boys were starting to show up. First was the football team, then the basketball. Baseball and wrestling came next, then the smaller clubs finished them out. Sighing [ ] was content away from everyone as she watched mayhem ensure, chugging of barrels , more music, girls swarming around the players they crushed on as they did minor things, like talk to their teammates or eating from one of the big food trays laying around. Feeling a tap on her shoulder broke her from her people watching, Rumi giving her a bright smile as she took a cup and joined her. “How's my favorite antisocial babe doing now that all of the party has arrived?” She asked as [ ] gave her a pained smile, going to get more if something to drink “Well I don't feel the need to smack anyone is that a good sign?” she chuckled as she got a hug from the more energetic girl “That's my girl! Don't worry, i wanna get out asap but we’re gonna need our favourite pair of sisters before that can happen and it seems like they're fawning over some of the baseball boys as we speak�� Rumi said as they watched a familiar tutu of blue go by, followed by a pink one going a similar way. “I don't get it… but at least their taste in men isn't too bad” [ ] joked as Rumi agreed , laughing “Yeah miss tsundere, you can't stand saps, or most of the jocks either” giving the white haired girl a look she rolled her eyes and gave her own laugh back “Yeah I guess i'm either picky or just got high standards” “Ain't nothing wrong with that we all do!” She said as she elbowed the girl beside her.

As the two of them sat there and talked Rumi glanced past her and her eyes widened, causing [ ] to stop talking “What is it-” before she could question her, the white haired girl jumped up, waving at someone “Rap! Over here!” Constantly yelling to someone [ ] started to ask again when a booming voice came from above her “HEY RUMI” a very loud voice called as stomping could be heard before it stopped “I see you took our idea huh?” With that comment [ ] turned around only to be face to face with a dark cover chest, only to then look up to some of the most warm and amber colored eyes looking down at her “Hello there little lady, I like your costume! Erm..Midna aint it?” The giant ganon dressed man questioned as all she could do was shake her head in agreement, causing the giant male to laugh “Awe don't be shy of me kitten i ain't gonna bite!” He chuckled some more as her friend jumped in “I told you she was shy! Be nice Rappa!” Rumi yelled at the flaming red head as he gave her a toothy grin “Oh I was just teasin’ , I bet I ain't hurt her feelin’s did I sweetheart?” Rappa questioned as [ ] face felt hot, hiding her face in her hands as the teasing duo laughed causing the girl to huff “I'm tired of you two already” She said as a giant warm hand touched her shoulders “Awe dont be like that hun, in time ya’l love me” Rappa teased as he gave her a smile,making her stomach flutter “Yeah! This is who wanted you to meet anyway [ ]! This is Kendo Rappa, our top wrestling boy, Rappa this is my adorable best friend [ ]!” Rumi said as the two gave each other a shy smile , a sly one creeping up on Rumis as she thought to herself “Yeah, this'll definitely happen”

Since then the two had become more acquainted , having many classes together and sharing some similar friends [ ] was used to the bruting and sometimes dense man making a random ( and loud) appearance. As [ ] sat in her mostly empty room thanks to her last roommate moving out after constantly breaking sound rules and getting into it with the girl downstairs for being in her bed with her boyfriend (Yikes) she felt a sense of calm. Closing her chemistry book and letting out a relieved sigh [ ] thought about the fact she was going to get a new roommate, the thought was nerve wracking but also it was exciting as well. It was almost too quiet , having the last room by the stairs meant she didn't have to deal with many people besides her friend group. They weren't loud , unless one of her friends decided to get laid and made way too many sounds, or if their neighbors under them threw parties or also had...extra partners coming around. She definitely could feel she was sorta excited she was going to have a roommate again. The sisters had a room to the left of her while Rumi had the one to the right, sharing it with a girl they knew from math. The rooms were not gender defined, some girls having rooms with guys and vise versa so it made it easy to get a room.

These dorms were also quite spacious, the walls not paper thin and a large enough area space that could house two or maybe even three people. So when she heard a knock on her door she expected it to be her new roommate she was advised would come today. Happily opening the door she was shocked and almost terrified to see just a box, well actually a few boxed stacked hiding whoever it was behind them. But if the faed rustic orange hair and wide shoulders meant anything she knew her new roommate already “K-kendo?” [ ] said as the boxes walked by her , landing with a soft thud as bangs covered the male “[ ]? Is that you?” moving his hair out of the way their eyes had the same expression, shocked. “Uh h-hey there sweetheart why isn't this cute, we’re roomies hun?” he laughed as she couldn't help but give him a smile back. “I never expected to see you as my roommate” [ ] teased as Rappa gave her a hardy laugh “Well it looks like me and you are gonna be close friends here darlin’!” With a wide smile he picked her up and gave her a tight hug, taking her breath away ‘ Oh boy i wonder how this will turn out’ she thought as she was eye leve with her giant puppy like friend, his eyes filled of joy

Which leads into now, [ ] trying her hardest to read up on what her next project could be. As she sat there thinking she heard the tale tell sound of her roommate entering with some of his teammates, the boys loud and rambunctious as they entered. Feeling a heavy hand on her shoulder she looked up to the towering boy that was her roommate, his eyes just as bright as usual. “Hey darlin, we're just gonna talk up sum strats a for the upcoming match and play some games in the back , is that alright?” He asked with pleading eyes as one of his more cocky and jock like friends spoke up “Well youre the man here, dont let some women say if we cant or can be here” Rolling her eyes and proceeding to stand up and push past the wide eyed boy who knew what was going to happen. [ ] took in a breath before opening her eyes to look up to the boy “Well it is my room, i pay shit here and the man over there didnt get this place, so i do choose who can and cant come through my place” She said as she pointed a finger to the boys chest. Trying to push his luck he pushed back against her finger “ I bet you just haven’t gotten a good enough dicking for you to just stay out of the way” He laughed. Before [ ] could hit him hard enough her rust haired friend moved in , clearly towering the boy “Yer better watch yer mouth, she has her right around here, im invatin her space so watch it before there's no place for any of us to relax without rules” He said as the boy sucked up any laughing and nodded his head in understanding. Surprised by her usually aloof roommate [ ] stood back and went back to her work, the other boys scrambling behind kendo as the boy who tried to challenge her jumped to follow, never making a move to mock or do anything again.

The boys picked back up and were having fun in the back room of kendo’s , sighs and groans when they lost and victorious laughs and screams if someone won. Once they all left and everything settle to a quiet rumble as the last few funneled out [ ] could here herself think, reading up on chemistry as she felt a presence behind her. “ ‘M sorry, i didn't know my question wouldve cause a roar outta ya..” Kendo started as she smiled gently, turning to face the wounded boy “Its okay….guess it just lit something in me i always did y'know?” She said with a small laugh as she went to type again, but was stopped by the hulking boy. “I gotta make it up to ya alright? I know i aint say anythin that he did but…. It feels like my fault y'know?” He admitted as his large hand covered hers. “You wont live this down will you?” She questioned as his eyes flickered up to hers, sparking. “Nope, not at all. Lemme treat ya right okay?” For such innocent words [ ] couldnt help the shiver that ran down her back at his words. Maybe it was because he was so close, or that the smell of his cologne was too much, either way her head was spinning as she let him still hold her hand as he tugged her away from her computer , his smile widening as she reluctantly shut the bright screen “Great! Now let's get something to eat im starvin” He rasped out as [ ] gave him a giggle that made the boy stop in his tracks. He always thought she had a cute giggle but this one,for some reason , made his heart and chest feel warm and tight. Ignoring the feeling he took the girl with him, the two headed out to get something to eat as they headed down , the sound of her giggling still running though kendos mind.

Getting a random frantic text from Kendo wasn't unusual, in fact it was quite common for him to do such, which now didn't faze [ ] at all but this one was...particularly odd giving what he was asking ‘Hair? And messy? What in the world is he up to’ [. ] thought to herself as she headed to her shared room with the boy, nervous of what scene she could be entering.

Sighing after his last text she hurried her way to their dorm room and in fact he did leave the door open, making her more nervous as she entered the living room. “Kendo?” [ ] called out as she heard a gruff sound come from her bathroom. Entering was a sight of its own; towels, a bowl of some..substance , bags and bottles of body wash and a one flustered and shirtless Kendo. “[ ]! ‘M so glad yer home here take this” The large man said as he handed her an old toothbrush that was frayed and covered with the same odd substance in the bowl. The lingering smell from the room eventually gave it away ; shampoos. “Uh why do i need this? And why is there shampoo on a toothbrush” She questioned as he groaned, taking the towel off his head as she blinked owlishly at his very faded red orange hair, the color now more of a neon pumpkin. Shaking off extra water caused even more of his hair to fall, landing between his shoulder blades as he gave [ ] a desperate look. “It wont come out, and the more i scub the more...orange i become. I look like a orange peel” He whined as [ ] figured out what he was trying to do

“ You wanna remove the color right? A bowl of shampoo and body wash isnt strong enough” Going into their kitchen she grabbed some baking soda and lemon juice , coming back to the hopeless boy “Let me mix something up ive used before okay? Then we can proceed with your hair” Two and a half hours later the boys hair was now a light peachy orange, just light enough to take up with bleach “Well, if were gonna go for blonde ill go get some bleach and some masks, deep conditioners too, your hair is definitely gonna need it and I don’t want it breaking off because you're impatient to take care of it” she sighed as he was amazed at his hair, running a large hand through the still damp mess atop his head “Wow yer good” He said as she smiled at him, taking her keys “And you have a lot of hair. I'll be back” She said as she hopped up “Wait! Lemme go with you?” He asked but also seemed to demand, pleading eyes looking down at hers as wet hair dropped onto his still bare chest.

Trying not to be hypnotized by where they landed and proceeded to slide down she looked up at her amber eyed friend, who was staring intently as he waited for her answer, soft “Please?” coming from his lips. Sighing dramatically on purpose [ ] laughed at him, giving him a grin “of course you can you big puppy” she said as he picked her up in a hug, a gesture that shows his excitement she's come to learn. Putting her down he went to go to the door before his friend called him out “uhm Kendo? You don’t have on a shirt” she said plainly as he looked at her, raising a brow as he gave his rebuttal “Its hot” He responded. Giving him a side eyed look she turned from him and towards their bedrooms, [ ] sliding into his. Soon she came out with a sleeveless one, throwing it at the hulk of a guy infront of her “You can't come in the store without one” She said as he gave a growl of his own, sliding the shirt over his head as they left their apartment “Well at least ya got me one without sleeves” He huffed as they started back to the door, heading out to finally go to the store to start another process on Kendos hair, the male just excited to finally get rid of his pumpkin hair.

As Kendo sat in the shared living room with [ ] , deep conditioning his hair at her yelling request (‘If you dont re nourish it before you want me to bleach it , I won't do it!’ ) he watched his roommate and now his best friend wanderer around and do housley things for their apartment, the girl content as she cleaned and sorted out things in the kitchen, her body turned away from him as he started to think over how beautiful he thought she was. He want the type to brag or gloat about having so many girls comment on his size , height wised and well sometimes other ways , trying to tempt him to them. All while his friends wanted him to explain how he got the attention from the other gender , Kendo hated to admit it but ,he only wanted his roommates' affection. He knew how put together she was, smart and kind. He saw what her previous boyfriend did, a cheater that didnt take care of the beautiful soul he lived with. He couldnt stand seeing her come home and cry herself to sleep broke his heart, and when he fought the cheater, in the act he didnt feel bad once. Of course it ended their relationship, and [ ] yelled at him for fighting , explaining how he couldve ended in jail for fighting her ex, but he argued it would be worth it.

Sitting and mulling over everything he realized Rumi was right, hed do anything for [ ] but not the same for the other females that passed through his life. She actually, was the first person he did that for and that thought made his head dizzy. Moving from his place on the couch he went to stand in the kitchen, waiting for [ ] to come back from her room. Hearing the iconic sound of her feet pittering across the wooden floor he gave her a lopsided smile as she jumped, smacking into the chest of Kendo. Before [ ] could fall from impacting with his chest he caught her, holding her arm to his chest. “K-kendo! You shouldve told me you were in here! Why are you in here anyway?”[ ] scolded as he laughed, moving out of the shorter girl's way as he started his staring again, this time [ ] noticed him “......What?” She asked as he looked down at her, an unreadable look on his face. “Kendo” she called as he hummed, moving closer “Yer gorgeous” Kendo blurted out as [ ] started to stutter, eyes going wide. Taking teo steps forward he essentially trapped his friend between the corner of their kitchen canopy. “Remember when I fought that bastard of an ex you had?” Kendo asked as he saw [ ]’s eyes go soft , shaking her head “What about him...i'm still mad you almost lost everything just to fight him yknow” she huffed as he poked her cheek “Id do it again if it meant you'd be happy again yaknow” Kendo said as he leaned down to push his head against hers, amber and [ ] eyes mingling. Lifting his large hands he traced each side of her cheek, analyzing over her face as he nuzzled against her nose “Stop playin hard to get would ya? Bad enough you got my heart all in your little hands” he whispered as [ ] just started at the giant , her arms gently coming over to cover his that were place on her cheeks “K-ken..i need to start you hair..” She hopelessly try to argue as he groaned, burying his face into her neck. Squealing at his damp hair touching her shoulder [ ] jumped ,pushing the large boy back “Your hair's wet!” She whined as he chuckleed, mo\ving back as it turned into a booming laugh “Oh my ‘m sorry babe , you look surprised” He said as she smacked hsi chest “Go to the sink, i need to rinse the conditioner” She yelled as he hwld his hands up in a mocked surrender, pulling his shirt up and off in one fluid movement. Caught up by him stripping his shirt off [ ] gave him a glance over, the heaviness of him admitting feelings for her in his own unique way still lingering in her mind as the toned and strong back of her friend made her head hazy. Turning around from the lack of notice of his smaller friend Kendo caught the eys of [ ] staring, her eyes quickly flickering to his curious ones as he grinned “See somethin you like darlin?” He teased as she grunted, reaching up to push his head in the sink “Shut up and let me do your hair”

And like clockwork, Kendo rappa was an icy blonde after two days, a break given to his long ,thick and wavy hair, the giant boy looking over his new look as he sighed happily, loving to have his hair finally look normal. “Well damn [ ]! Ya made it even better than what i was thinking. Look! My hair’s all wavy at the ends and it's soft! Whatever you made me do made it feel better!” He raved as the girl looked over her work. And in fact it was highly even, his hair consistent and lavishy soft. Giving him a shy look she giggle “That's what a deep conditioner will do to damage hair and the way i'm always untangling your hair for you, i knew it would need it before you wanted to go white” She said as he just kept running his hands in his hair, turning back to her “I could just kiss you right now!” He blurted out as they both froze at his words, eyes wide from both parties “I-I aint mean it [ ]” He croaked out as she giggled, stepping back from him “O-of course you didnt, why would you i mean aha..”She said as she moved away more , his own words started to hit him as he realized the reverse effect it was having “NO! No, I'd want to kiss you, I really really want to. I just...want it to be on your terms okay?” he said as he grabbed her arm, holding her in front of him as if she'd float away if he didnt.

“Kendo...I..” [ ] started as she came back to his hip, laying between his legs onto his thankfully covered chest “I just dont want to lose you if you decide you wouldnt want me around” She whispered as he pulled her even closer, kissing her forehead as he stared at her “Dont you ever say that again ya hear me? Youll be my princess and ill be your humble er..knight” He hesitated as he tried to think of a sweet way to explain his feelings. [ ] looked up to him as she felt here eyes feel heavy with tears. Before one even fell Kendo pushed his lips as soft as the strong boy could, wrapping a large and beefy arm around her waist as he slipped his tongue in her mouth, letting his hand slide down to pull her up to sit on the tops of his thighs while he leaned against his dresser. Softly [ ] pushed her hand on his chest and pulled away, now eye to eye with Kendo “Sorry , d-did i overstep my place” He asked as she let out a snot, before laughing. Confused, Kendo went to talk before she stopped him “No no, youre good, just that if we keep kissing on this dressed there's gonna be a hole in the wall” She said as she pointed to where the mirror kept tapping a spot, scrapes already aroring it “R-right!” He laughed too, picking her up to set her on his bed “Now then...lemme serve you princess” He said before kissing her again, not letting her rebuttal his own comment. As the two kissed he made sure to be as gentle as he could be , at times clumsily nipping her lip or his hand pulling hard at her clothes.

All in the name of wanting to show how much she meant to him. Soon he pulled away, a small string of saliva strung between them from the hearty kissing. “[ ]...i think i love you” He said as she gave him a soft look , trying to catch her breath from the dramatic kiss they came from “Good, because i love your loud ass too Kendo” She teased as he smirked,leaning down to bite her neck, causing her to moan loudly “We’ll see whos loud after im done wit ya” he gave his own tease back as he moved between her plump thighs, kissing the flesh there as he pulled her shorts to the side, exposing her flushed lower lips. Gasping she reached for his hand that held her legs apart causing the fresh blonde to look up at her, eyes wandering over her face for signs of him to stop “I-Im not used to being this bare sorry..” She whimpered out as it dawned on the other side of her words “Have you ever ate out baby?” he asked as she hid her face from him, shaking ehr head as he groaned, pulling her shorts down as he saw her lacy panties , a smirk placed on his lips as he peeled them off too, a string of arousal keeping them plastered to her lips “fuck, that bastared really didnt take care of you” he growled as she sat up to see his darkening eyes kiss up to her lips whispering out a “but i will” as he sucked one of her lips into his mouth, causing a lound moan from the woman he was inbetween. Slowly he licked up her lips, searching for that small pearl as she whined, a hand coming down to tug his hair. Grunting he soon found it, sucking onto her clit as she gasped, her thighs shutting over his head as he looked up to her, watching as her back arched off of the bed once her pressed his tongue hard against her clit. Softly he let a hand run under her thigh, a single thick finger tracing over her twitching hole as he pushed it in gently, making [ ] squeal. “K-Ken!” She called out as he looked up again, catching her eyes and flushed face on his actions. Making a show of what he was doing he let a second one join the first as he sucked hard on her bud at the same time making [ ]’s eyes roll back as her hand fell from his head, nervous od pulling too hard. Kendo however had other plans. Feeling her walls tighten around his fingers he made sure to find that spongy spot and hitting it, finally pulling his lips from her clit as he smiled “Uuh Uh doll, look at me” He growled as she hesitantly glances at him, regretting that she did. He looked way too good, hair a mess as he was panting, catching his breath from being down on her. With evry pump of his fingers his muscle in his arm twitched, making her own walls spasm as she watched it “Ya like it sweetheart?” He asked as she shook her head, watching him move back to her pussy “Good, cause i aint done” He said as he gave her clit kitten licks beofe slurping on it, throwing a wink at her as he picked up his pace, making [ ]’s voice rise as she felt herself getting close before quickly snapping at a particular hard thrust of his finger to her spot on her walls.

Letting out a light scream she came over his fingers and tongue, the male laughing gleefully as he sucked up her juices. LEtting her come down some he watched her face as bliss spread through her body and a sense of confidence whent though his. Slowly he picked up the pace of his fingers again, going from a shallow push to more stroking as he heard [ ] whine, grabbing at his hand “Uh uh sweetheart, you taste too good fro me to only let you cum on my tongue once” he said as he pushed her down by her stomach, letting her take his spare hand as he went back to suckling on her lower lips. He knew he had a lot in stored for her, and watching the newly admitted love of his life cum from his pleasing was enough for him to realized he needed to do more. Popping off her clit as puling his fingers gently out he looked at her ravished body, using his non wet hand to pull at his sweats. “Youre beautiful like this [ ]” kendo said as she took in heavy breaths, feeling her throat close as he stroked his massive size, rubbing the swollen head as he looked at her , giving her a soft smile “Ya dont have to take me just yet , hes just throbbin too much” He groaned as he twisted his hand hard over his leaking tip, feeling himself throb as he laid back on his bed. “Ride my face?” he asked with one of the most sinful looks [ ] had ever seen ; lustful eyes watching her as his large hand stroked his larger dick, the soft and fleshy muscle jumping at watching her crawl to him, throwing a leg over his neck

“I-i dont wanna suffocate you..” She said as he smirked before saying “Ya cant suffocate me i want it” Soon he grabbed her hip, pushing her onto his awaiting mouth as he picked up his pace, sliding his tongue into her twitching hole as she rocked her hips, keeping a steady pace as she held herself on his shoulder and headboard, ,depreate moand and cries tumbling out as he rocked her too, going from her clit to her dripping entrance, stoking his dick harder and harde as her moans spurred him on. Soon he felt the bud in his mouth twitch and throb harder, the sounds [ ] made increasing as his own hand sped up with his throbbing head, the telltales of them both getting close. A moan erruptred from the girl on his lips as she came again , her essence running down his face as he groaned, ropes of cum shooting onto his hand and stomach as he came himself, still stroking out what he could as the pressure he felt subside. Sliding off softly [ ] saw the mess behind her, taking it upon herself to lick up some of it as she was met with his same aber eyes, watching her move to his still hard member “Let me take care of you too?” she asked shyly. Fuck he was done for as he felt himslef hardend worse at her words, a large hand coming up to smack her ass as he psuhed her up and over his head, letting his tip and her swollen lips run over eachother. Slowly he pushed his tip past her budding lips, entranced by the way it swallowed her whole “Fuck...i love you [ ] and by the time im done with ya...youll know it” he whispered in her ear as she felet him push, more and moreof his large size spreading her lips father than shed ever had. Her eyes rolled up as she felt him bottom out, both moaning as he picked up his pace, making a soothing rhythm as little moans and whines came from [ ], deep grunts coming from Kendo as he kissed her shoulders and back, marking where he could as he felt himself get closer with how she was throbbing over his member.

Digging his fingers as deep as he could in her plush hips he let our a mantra of ‘Cummin’ i and ‘ I love yous’ in her ear as she pushed back against him, feeling herself teetering as he pushed as deep as he could go ,letting himself cum as she came too, the overwhelming feeling of him throbbing against her spongy walls and previous orgasms enough to push her over a third time. “[ ]” Kendo rasped as [ ] hummed , feeling her legs still shake with him in her “Im serious, i'm never leaving you...you're mine and i love you…” kendo said as he kissed the back of her neck, nibbling her ear as he stayed in her “Mhm….i love you too Rappa..”

[tepperz]

i didnt think about it before now either xD

i know lol 20,000+ is too much, i keep getting distracted XDD I'm also always saving morrrrrrreeeeeeeee. Pixiv in particular is sooo bad for that -- if you have a subscription to it, it just keeps recommending you good art after good art. and it's like! aaaaa! I can't keep up with how many amazing works there are! (screaming)

"The example and your analysis of it are really interesting! You’re right about the unique highlights and warm color drawing attention there. I hadn’t noticed until you pointed them out! Even just the one “simple” artwork had a lot of valuable details."

You get it you totally get it!!!!!! Yeah, exactly!!! Like I get its easy to gloss over as a picture but it actually has soooo much unique value! I really like that kind of thing!! I'm a super nerd when it comes to seeing the unique value of artworks ><. I feel like most artwork has its own appeal. Not to sound weird or anything, but besides saving sooo many artworks, I sometimes also go through the manga I own too and try to write down what I think the mangaka has done super well with paneling/screentones/ect, and what I think they could improve on. It's super useful for reference, as someone who's trying to make comics! Even manga I don't like have good points that are worth learning from!

So how would you categorize something like that?? @@ I get how just one doesn’t encompass all that now!

I think i'd put that picture into "portrait - no background" and also save a copy of it into my "texture" folder? hmmmmm. dang, i should have sorted it while I was looking at it earlier!!!!!! i forgor LOL

I’d love to see how these details are translated into your own works.

I legitimately thought of drawing something new with that pic as inspiration, but im in an art block right now so I can't u_u; But! I will go find a work that I had inspiration for!

so in this one I was trying to give the atmosphere of someone with low contrast dark blue, sort of a creepy mood. The unnaturally still pose in the photo with the low contrast of the anime picture. I don't think it worked out this time, but it is an example of me pulling from other works.

oh! heres another one

that was last year so im trying to remember what aspects I pulled from. the chibis are my character references, the photo is his eye color... and from top to bottom... I think the top white drawing is his face shape? And below that is his hair color. Below that, the low saturation is inspiration, and the bottom reference is... i have no idea. Vibe? lmao. But yeah, my point is not all my references are masterpieces but I try to cobble them together like some goblin quilt lol

(asldfdsaklj I see you show your art with references later on bless you~)

heehee. I like seeing yours too ^^

Oh yeah, all the poses and expressions even in those portraits do have something that makes them stand out! Even art without backgrounds has to have good balance and use of negative space.

yeah! Exactly! Since organizing and seeing similar pieces together Im really starting to understand some patterns. It's good to learn.

A Clothing folder is sooo useful for cool details or cuts, but also the fabric types and specific folds. I struggle a lot with designing outfits so any help is lifesaving orz

8U I should do that. Have you tried pintrest? I have a lot of cool clothes saved on pinterest. I know it's kinda cliche to turn to pinterest for ideas but it always gets my mind twirling when I see the different types of aesthetics. I know you didn't ask and feel free not to bother clicking it, but if you want inspiration with clothes, heres a link to a pinterest board I use specifically for super interesting clothes: xxx

It’s been so many years since I started this organization system now… I think my Pictures folder just got too disorganized so I separated poses, and then just kept separating as the need arose. Haha letting the folder decide must speed things up a lot though! No worrying about which reference has been waiting for years to be used, just following the mood~

Wish... i wish i'd done that xD You realized the benefits of organizing a lot sooner then me. I watched a video lately about how people who are really good at drawing know what references to use in any particular situation (I think it was this one: xxx) and it sort of hit me how I was holding myself back by not being able to sort what I liked and why. It's really cool to see what pictures you chose and how they work together (with the middle distance and long distance backgrounds folders). I can definitely see the impact it has on your work already!! In my opinion I think you're very good at middle distance shots, so I can see how you'd be inspired by those works! And the interesting angles in your references and big shapes translates into your art as well, I believe ^^

I’m down for trading tutorials for sure! o// Anything to do with light or clothes would be treasured forever~ Are there specific tutorials you’d like? (And ones you’d recommend?)

Ohhh yeah let me get together a bundle for you! Here! I hope this helps! https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1yGCOUpPunk038by_ztRgELAWLRgmxEVK?usp=share_link ^^

as for me, if you find any tutorials on backgrounds or gesture, I'd love it if you threw them my way! no pressure thuogh.

Man, it’s so cool seeing the references near your art. They all came together and made something with the feeling but new. Loving the moodboard lol!! xD Once they’re on your canvas, then you don’t have to go digging through folders any more, I see I see! :3c

heehee, thank you! I'm glad that comes through!! Exactly, I feel like digging through files gets me out of the flow so I just throw them all on my canvas. i dont mean to make moodboards but it does end up working for me!

Watercolor has a distinctive transparent look so it’s easy for me to tell apart at least! Gouache is a bit harder because it can look like acrylic but they can be used the same way so it’s okay if some get mixed in… (I honestly can’t tell the difference between mediums like oil and acrylics though!! I don’t use them so their nuances are mysteries~) 

ohhhhhh. i guess thats true, watercolor really does have a texture. Gouache I just recently got some this week for the first time. Did you know that they're basically watercolors??? It's wild. But when I see good gouache it reminds me a lot of hard shading, like in anime. Oil I feel like also has a texture, kind of... thick? I have literally no idea about acrylics though. All I know is I like to watch people on youtube use them to relax.

And sometimes I’ll find inspiration in an unexpected folder– It’s tiny but the pic on the bottom right was the biggest influence on this piece! I loved the strong shadows and greenish tint!

i know this is the last thing in this huge bleeping wall of text but its literally so cool to see your inspiration and the final piece. I can totally see where you're coming from with the blues and greens and it's really interesting to see the correlation. Thats why I wanted to put some of my finished works and references in this post too. I love seeing those kinds of things. If you want to share more, I wouldn't mind.

Anyway, thanks for chatting with me!

How did you learn to draw so well? Like was it from classes or a book on fundamentals or just trial and error?

//// thanks for the kind question!

I guarantee you I would have improved faster if I’d taken a class, but I hope some of the materials I’ve used over the years can be of use to you too:

Andrew Loomis’ books - I never made it past the first chapters, but those had some great advice.

Youtube - Proko’s bean method. Figure drawing references will greatly improve anatomy and “drawing what you see”. It’s boring imo, so doing just 5-10 minutes a day can keep one from burning out while still seeing improvement. Speed painting videos are a nice way to relax and study.

Will Terrell’s People Drawing series - He’s a humble man with personal advice for artists. I watch his videos when I feel discouraged or lost.

Art, art, art - Whenever I see an artwork that I like, I figure out exactly what pleases me: line thickness, nose shape, finger positions, composition, the way the hair bends in the wind, etc. Then I try to incorporate that specific characteristic into my own art.

I have growing folders of (I’m a bit embarrassed) almost 8,000 pictures, organized by characteristics, for the sole purpose of studying their prettiness. Sometimes we don’t need a tutorial to spell everything out, just an example can help us envision our own works’ potential. Also, staring at pictures is a relaxing way to study too!

And of course, trial and error~ I don’t post my sad, failed paintings or all the weird sketches I make, but they exist and teach a lot!

[angelicmichael]

What if Xavier had a kid he didn't know about and he meets them for the first time after he's already a ghost? Maybe there's a kindergarten group that takes a trip to the camp, and he just has this spirit intuition as soon as he sees them and KNOWS it's his child. Do you think you could expand on this idea? I'd love to see what you come up with!

A/N: This was so fun, thank you for this idea dear anon!! I'm sorry it's late but hopefully u like it 😶. Also, I apologize this is so dark and heavy- I didnt intend for it.. it just, kinda happened lmfao. I turned this into a 'x reader' and it starts with Xaviers POV and ends with readers perspective!! First few paragraphs are pretty dark and then the rest is weird.. angst fluff LOL.Hope yall enjoy 💖💖💖

Warnings: First few paragraphs discuss Xavier's thots about dying SO, it highkey gets dark yall I'm so sorry, mentions of anger?? issues, mentions of murder, stops getting dark roughly around paragraph 6 if u wanna skip all that, MAJOR ANGST, reuniting, very brief Xantana reference 😈, mention of kids, bit of fluff.. think that's it :)

In Xaviers eyes; the worst part of being killed in a desolate camp and having to reside there for the rest of eternity; wasnt the fact that he would have to handle Richard Rameriez and tolerate his peers for eons to come. Sure, both of those things required an adjustment period but.. the realization that his life with you was abruptly cut short, was what truly broke him.

It took him being stripped from everything he once knew to truly appreciate how heavenly life once was before Camp Redwood. He had a steady job, good friends, and a relationship with a actual living, breathing person.. Not to shade Montana or anything, of course. However he had taken all of those things for fucking granted; moving to Camp Redwood definetly had made him become humble- at the very least. He was now nothing but a mere shell of the person he once was; nothing to bring him out of this absolute living nightmare he found himself in.. At first this mindset nearly consumed him, it drove him to kill multiple times.

There was no point in trying to conceal the anger he felt, no way of trying to channel it out into a more socially appropriate way and at this point.. there really was no point in trying to do so. Out here in the forest, espically after he was killed, life outside of the forest soon seemed as if it was some type of myth or fairytale- something not real or attainable. Time in the redwood forest felt different- days quickly bled and melted into weeks, and then months.. trying to guess the date was something Xavier gave up on doing after about the first week.

As much as he tried to deny it, being dead and becoming trapped here had completly made him lose his grip on reality and his previous life. Soon enough, the thought that life even fully existed outside of the camp and that there was actual fucking laws against killing (something which was now a leisurely hobby) had completly slipped his mind momentarily in the beginning as well. Out here in the forest, nothing felt real execpt for his anger that he held onto so tightly.

It was really the only thing he had left; atleast for a while.

The pain of losing his partner, (y/n), still remained but letting that grief not consume him was easily the hardest battle he had fought in his life. Xavier realized he still had his friends - and if he really was going to live for eternity, he sure wasnt going to spend it angry.

After so many years of being 'cursed' to spend forever in this forest, keeping track of the time was something Xavier rarely bothered with, but - it was obvious by the suns posistion, and even the slight mist that made the grass wet that it was just starting to cut into morning. Xavier walked through the forest alone, nowhere in particular to go or to necessarily do, only a sudden need to go and be alone. Almost a beckoning, for him to go and be somewhere else. To witness something.

His days were more often than not purely mundane; he had absolutely no excuse to not listen to this odd and sudden attraction he felt toward a very particular spot in the camp.. so, that's what brought him to where he stood now. Close to the road that brought visitors (a nice word for victims) into Camp Redwood, right next to the mess hall which was rarely used close by.

Xavier felt wildly uncomfortable standing so close to the place which previously held so much trauma - and honestly still did.. The place where Chef Bertie died. Xavier paused, about to just say 'fuck it' and just give up and go back to where his friends resided (or atleast Montana) when.. he heard it.

His sign, the thing that seemingly enticed him in the first place.

It first sounded like the old, familar sounds of tires coming across a gravel road - Xaviers mind immeadietly jumped to perhaps this could be new people.. new vistors.. new victims.

His blood ran cold when he heard something else; an eerie ringing of chains hitting against the ground. Something that was mostly a associated with buses.. and hauntingly familar. He had little to no time to think or even act on his suspicion when he noticed that a yellow school bus full, and nearly combusting with children was pulling into the camp.

Xavier wasnt exactly certain the bounds that ghosts had when it came to certain bodily functions like vomiting, but hes sure that under normal circumstances he would certainly be sick by now. Nevertheless he could feel his body tense up and the other natural symptoms associated with anxiety also kicked in. Urging him to clumsily get out of vision; he stumbled behind a few trees that poorly blocked him from sight. He continued to watch in complete and utter horror as the bus came to a stop, and it didnt take long for kids to start pouring out of the bus. Xavier felt his heart drop and his blood run cold every time a kid exited the bus and stepped on the dirt soil of Camp Redwood.

Xavier whipped his head around; scanning the surrounding area to make sure no other ghosts were here to bear witness to this.. Xavier was nearly always down to commit murder, it was really the only thing that kept him from fully going insane from pure fucking boredom but - kids? There was no fucking way he would let anyone touch them.

While he thoroughly scanned the area, he noticed a few adults leave the bus out of his periphery vision. He thought nothing of it, chaperones were to be expected on elementary field trips but.. the strange beckoning feeling he felt ealier visited him again, urging him to turn his head fully and look at one of the chaperones more closely. Instantaneously, he then automatically realized why he felt so compelled to come to this spot.. Why he was meant to be here at this exact moment.. It was you.

At first he thought he was merely hallucinating; you definetly looked significantly different from the last time he had saw you but.. he knew it was you, his partner that he had before his life completly went to shit (minus the catastrophe that occured with Blake, of course). He knew instantly, it was your eyes, your stature and just.. your overall warm and familiar aura that gave your identity away. He couldnt believe that the person he had so fucking desperately wanted to see more than anyone or anything was only a few feet away - and now, that you were finally here... All he wanted for you to do was to leave.

As soon as he saw you he felt a sudden tightness posses his chest and throat which accompanied the formation of tears burning his eyes; hastily blurring his vision. He had to physically restrain himself from sobbing outloud; trying his best to just swallow down his tears. His whole body felt as if it was on fire with anxiety, but he chose to continue to stand still behind a few dainty trees - trying to pull himself together so he could actually have the chance to think critically and choose what the ever living fuck he was going to do next.

While he waited for his blurry vision to clear, he chose to focus on the semi distant figure that he knew was you. He took in the little details; like how the sun highlighted the colors in your hair and your simple but charming outfit. It took him several moments to think of why you would even be here in the first place, with a school bus- and thats when another dreadful realization hit him.

Only parents were mainly chaperones when it came to elementary field trips.. meaning-

No other thought crossed Xaviers mind as his eyes flicked down inhumanely fast to the child where (y/n) stood next too.. and immeadietly he knew.

The features the child shared of both you and Xavier were partially a giveaway, but most importantly.. it was the feeling he had that confirmed his belief. The initial anxiety he felt of the kids arriving still remained but was significantly muted and mostly replaced with a overwhelming sense of pure love. The feeling spread to every fiber of his being, and so did a odd urge to protect this small being which he knew was his.

Not ever in his entire life had he felt this way about someone (execpt for perhaps, you). He felt himself taking a few steps forward, at first completly involuntary but he knew he had to talk to you. Just the idea of reuniting tasted so fucking good but, he knew he couldnt get too greedy if he was going to talk to you. He knew confronting you had to be solely done in order to save you and his child, he couldnt get carried away. He wouldnt.

He tried his best to appear casual as he submerged from behind the trees, his hands held behind his back - the only way he could get them to stop shaking. He tried to relax his shoulders and appear confident as he strided up to you; your back turned toward him. He continued until he was directly behind you, he wanted to tap your shoulder but - touching you seemed out of the question. That would confirm everything, it would make it seem actually real and not like this just some torturous dream.

"(Y/n)"? He spoke.

Xaviers breath hitched as he watched you whip around to face him. He studied your features as you went from looking utterly confused to surprised beyond belief.

"Xavier, what-"

"We need to talk".

Xavier quickly grabbed your hand, leading you away from herd of kids and the few sparse chaperones that were amongst them. A few of them gave you two a few odd looks but neither you or Xavier particularly cared, after all this was the first time in years you two had seen eachother. You hastily followed his lead, feeling slightly embarrassed that it was obvious how nervous and simply caught off guard you currently were. Your palms (one of which was still holding onto Xaviers hand) were starting to moisten with sweat. These feelings only amplified once Xavier turned around to face you. The intensity that was in his eyes put you on edge - never in your time of dating or knowing him did he ever look so serious with you.

"What are you doing here"? Xavier spoke, his voice was still in a higher pitch, slightly breaking.

"What"?

After years of not being able to see you, in fact; years of you not even knowing where he went - this was how he chose to greet you?? Automatically your blood ran cold with the sudden realization that something was wrong. Seriously wrong.. but the feeling didnt just apply to your ex boyfriend. It was the entire camp.

"Its not safe here, you need to take the kids and leave". Xaviers voice more visibly shook this time as he spoke; as if his words physically pained him.

Your heart skipped a beat, the sudden pain and anguish starting to fully settle in. You couldnt believe it; after years of not seeing you - this was all he had to say? Was he fucking joking?

"What? A-are you kidding? Xavier, I havent seen you in years- I didnt even know you would be here-"

"I'm sorry (y/n). I'm so sorry but you have no idea what this place is like. You just need to go, and the kids. And promise me you wont come back".

It was torturous to watch tears gather in Xaviers eyes, and watch as they streaked down his cheeks. The sadness you previously felt was now washed away with red, hot rage. The feeling spread throughout your body like a wildfire that he was seemingly rejecting you.. but you knew now this wasnt some pathetic excuse. Something was seriously wrong here; and now it was starting to become too obvious to ignore.

Xavier looked hauntingly the exact same from the last time you saw him. He forever, looked as if he was still stuck in the same moment of time - like in the summer of 1984, which was when you last saw him.

You didnt realize you were still holding onto one of his hands until you reflexively tried to move it to brush away his tears that were still staining his cheeks; but awkwardly.. you chose to do so with your other hand. Squeezing the one hand you were still holding onto a bit tighter.

He winced as you touched him, and as much you tried your damn best to hold it together - you could feel tears starting to burn your eyes as well.

"I cant promise I wont ever come back, Xavier. I need to see you again, and what about-" you said softly, about to reference the child you two shared together.

"No, you'll see me again (y/n). I promise.. okay"?

He brought your hand up to his mouth to kiss your knuckles; the tears you trying so desperately to hold in were now sliding down your cheeks. Your breathing was now horribly choppy. You were on the brink of full on sobbing but you held yourself back - it was nearly time for you to go.

The fact you would have to go back to go the others and make up some bullshit excuse to leave, put a bitter taste in your mouth.. but your sure Xavier had a valid reason for ushering you to leave. Even if he didnt want to tell you right now; you trusted him with your life.

"Okay.. Fine. I'm coming back though, and I'm sorry I couldnt find you sooner". You admitted.

You dropped his hand that you were still holding in order to wrap your arms around him. To get one final touch to remember him by. You were desperate to fully touch him and to be wrapped in his embrace, something you had desperately and madly missed. As he held you; you tried to soak in his scent, his aura.. just the fact that he was even here seriously with you, in this moment.

You previously assumed Xavier had passed away; that was easier to come to terms with rather than thinking he willingly ran away or.. that something else more sinister had happened. A part of you wanted to be frustrated that you were leaving with more questions than answers but.. you didnt care. Your heart didnt care. You were just happy you were able to see your boyfriend.. no matter the circumstance or conditions it came with. Even though you were stupidly happy, your thoughts kept annoyingly circling back to the same question - how was Xavier here with you, living.. breathing.. in the flesh. How was this possible? You were about to speak your thoughts outloud when you first felt Xavier break away from you. You didnt get as much as a second glance just when you felt something soft on your cheek. Perhaps a goodbye kiss? and then.. just like he wasnt there at all, he was gone. Almost as if he completly disintegrated into the fresh, morning sky.

You felt your entire body stiffen as you realized he was gone.. again. It was difficult to pinpoint exactly how you felt. It was a nasty mix of both grief and anger that left you completly speechless and deathly still. You took a step back to combat the feeling, and attempted to look casual (and not like the person whom you were just hugging had completly fucking vanished). Sheepishly taking a look at the group you had arrived with and making sure none of them noticed your.. odd behavior.

Sure enough, none of them did. They all stood, and continued on conversing just like they were before you had broke away from them. Smiling and laughing as if nothing was wrong; just like they didnt have a care in the world - just as if the love of their life wasnt ripped away from them for a second time.

Even though Xavier was now gone, that odd, unsettling feeling still lingered with you. Like something was terribly wrong here, in Camp Redwood. The feeling wasn't entirely bad though; sure - the overall air in this place reeked of something terrible but.. now you felt something else mixed into it. A comforting essence of safety; Xaviers presence. You knew he wasnt directly beside you anymore but he was somewhere.. lurking. Watching you, as you begrudgingly walked over to the group you came with. Making up a bullshit excuse in your head so you could escape whatever this place was pretending to be.

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[ineedsleepleavemealone]

Some random headcannons

(I ship erasermic so some of these relate to that)

I guess this also needs a warning: some more mature things if you squint hard enough

Also the ships in this are: erasermic, kiribaku, tododeku, and a tiny tiny bit of momojiro (sorry if I forgot one)

~ Mic is actually kinda sad and breaks down alot when hes alone because of the stress he goes through, aizawa is the only one he will break down infront of ~ ~ Aizawa secretly loves giving mic piggyback rides. Change. My. Mind. ~ ~ Bakugo is nicest and softest when he is sleepy, and more open with his feelings when he is tired (especially to kiri, I ship them too😭✋) ~ ~ When sero cooks or cleans he will put on spanish music and dance to it. ~ ~ Dabi is kinky™️ ~ ~ Dabi will tease e v e r y o n e ~ ~ Dabi makes up stories of how he got burnt, like: Twice: so- uh how did all this go down * gesturing to scars * Dabi: oh, while sneezing Twice: but how does tha- Dabi: *sneezes and uses his fire* Twice: oH- ~ ~ When 1-a all become pro heroes, deku will wear everyone's merch ~

~ When bakugo is working out, when he does push ups he will get kirishima to lay on him for "additional weight" (we see you bakugo👀👀) ~ ~ Shoto can make snowflakes with his quirk. I. Rest. My. Case. ~ ~ shoto likes dancing in the rain or snow, well not dance just like being with deku ~ ~ Shoto will make little things out of ice and give them to deku (all might figures👀👀) ~ ~ Occasionally in the dorms everyone in 1-a has a movie night ~ ~ Ojiros tail wags when hes happy ~ ~ This is cannon because I've seen the official art, but I hc that bakugo likes animals and animals love him cause he smells like caramel and his hands are warm ~ ~ One word for aoyama. S e l f i e s ~

~ Shoto didnt know how to ride a bike so when they all moved into the dorms 1-a taught him ~ ~ When bakugo walks into the dorms common area he says stuff like "it smells like bitch in here" and "ughhh if I stay in here to long the bitchyness might affect me" ~ ~ All the girls in 1-a: sleepovers™️ but every time mineta will try to get in lmao. It. Never. Works. ~ ~ Shotos birthday present to everyone is endeavors credit card number😂he will also go clothes shopping with all the girls just because he can use endeavors credit card ~ ~ Tokoyami is actually really good at drawing and loves writing poetry ~ ~ Bakugo is the oldest in 1-a which is cannon. I feel like he would be the type to brag that he's the oldest and would use it as an excuse to do what he wants ~ ~ The dekusquad and bakusquad have groupchats ~ ~ Bakusquad play video games together and eat pizza together all the time ~ ~ The dekusquad gc consists of iida talking about homework, positive memes, and todoroki not understanding anything happening on there ~ ~ Jirou has a music playlist for every situation. Every. Situation. ~ ~ The best jeanist said bakugo couldn't learn how to style hair so katsuki "I am the best at everything" bakugo learnt how to do hair and now all the girls and kirishima go to him and make him do their hair ~ ~ Kirishima needs his hair dyed red when his roots start showing, so bakugo dyes it for him ~ ~ 1-a loves playing games like truth and dare and never have I ever when they cant sleep or are just bored ~ ~ Bakugo sleeps at 8. pm which is cannon, but still wants to be the best at whatever they are doing, so he still goes if they are playing or watching something but always. Always. Falls asleep, and he falls asleep on kiri. ~ ~ Aizawa is actually really flexible and can jump around and move literally like a cat. ~ ~ Mic: finger guns™️ and I can imagine this Mic: *does finger guns at aizawa* Aizawa: pull the trigger. ~ ~ Everyone goes into bakugos room for advice. Like jirou would go in there at 3am and just be like : yo so I'm lesbian and momo is lesbian and she said she likes me but I'm not sure if she likes me.

And even though bakugo will literally shout at them for being in his room at 3am they will still get advice😂~ ~ Kirishima is named after a mountain. Bakugos favourite activity is mountain climbing. Its cannon and ik it is I just thought I'd say that ~ ~ Shinso definitely uses his voice changer for memes. He would say things like "I'm katsuki bakugo and I'm a little bitch" with bakugos voice and "im aizawa and Im in love with a cockatoo" with aizawas voice. ~ ~ When denki is nervous random sparks of electricity come from his hands. ~ ~ If denki doesnt know how to do something he will search it up on wiki how. Change. My. Fucking. Mind. ~ ~ Shiggy genuinly doesnt know what moisturizer is ~ ~ Mic is amazing at playing any instrument ~ ~ Mic knows sign language and is fluent in alot of languages ~ ~ After toga stabs someone she mumbles things like "ughhh what a mood" "damn that one snatched my weave" and "we stan a queen" and once held up the knife like a beauty guru ~ ~ The girls constantly try to get uraraka to float m*neta into the sun ~ (yes I censored his name💀💀) ~ Tokoyami has good music taste ~ ~ The bakusquad (kaminari) tries to teach all might vine references ~ ~ Shoto l o v e s conspiracy videos ~ ~ Ojiro can purr ~ ~ Mina shares her clothes with everyone ~ ~ Shoto likes to watch the sun rise ~ ~ Omgggg I love this one. Aizawa listens to Mics radioshow when he grades papers and when he cant he will hum the music to himself ~ ~ Kaminari is memes™️ ~ ~ When mic says todorokis name he says it like the target vine (next competitor is- T T T T T T T T T TODOROKI SHOTOOOOOO *makes air horn noises*) ~ ~ The UA staff have prank wars (especially mic and literally anyone. Once poured pink cat shaped glitter on aizawa and it was 100% worth it) ~ Mic can harmonize with himself. Periodt. ~ ~ Tetsutetsu and shinso spend so much time at the 1-a dorms that one time bakugo cooked food for them too. ~

~ On that note, bakugo is obviously an amazing cook and when hes cooking for himself he will "accidentally make too much so you extras can have it" ~ ~ Shoto is literally turtlenecks™️ ~ ~ Mic literally has the worst sleep schedule like how is this man alive???? ~ ~ At night iida will run around the dorms saying goodnight to everyone and checking that they are all still in the dorms because he feels it’s his responsibility to look after everyone ~ ~ Shigirakis favourite thing to do is to just stand in the rain. He finds the rain soothing and calming to him because it’s one of the only things that he can’t destroy so it gives him peace of mind that he still human and isn’t the completely destructive monster everyone claims him to be. ~

Hope you liked them✌✌

[shittopi]

how come you didnt like utena movie? just curious because i'm wondering if i should watch it :D feel free to spoil btw, also thanks for answering!

this will be a bit long i'll try not to spoil too much

i went and rewatched it and have warmed up to it somewhat.. i think it was mainly my fault for going into it expecting utena 2 when really its best approached as like a love letter to the fans/recap/rearrangement of the original show. basically like 90% of the time you're watching it you're constantly going to be thinking 'oh i recognize this line/story beat/relationship dynamic etc etc' but all of those elements will be in very different contexts, some of which can feel a bit..jarring or even unearned (?). like for example anthy starts calling utena 'utena' (without the -sama) on only their second meeting and the way it happens almost makes it feel like a throwaway line, whereas in the original show it was like. you know the literal final line that sticks with you forever kinda thing. i think it's fine if you're able to just interpret these moments as simple fanservice/ references to the show and nothing more, but if you're trying to seriously analyze them they might not necessarily hold up as well because you're constantly pitting them against the original which had a lot more runtime to flesh out everything around those moments properly if that makes sense. i think it could be interesting to hear from someone who watched the movie but not the show and see what conclusions/analyses they're able to come up with it but. that's another story. there are 2 things that definitely still bugged me even after rewatching though, the first being that anthy/akio have...significantly lighter skin tones compared to the show. i know some people argue that the whole movie's color palette is brighter in general but i dont really buy it lol. for their skin to be that much lighter utena should have like mikage level hair to match but she doesn't. it's just normal utena pink. all the other duelists more or less have their original hair colors as well and if anything their redesigned clothes are darker compared to the show. anyway it's just another reason why i don't really recommend analyzing the movie too deeply because if you read the whitewashing as deliberate on ikuhara/Be-Papas' part it can have...icky implications with the changes made to anthy/akio's personalities. the 2nd thing might honestly be more of a nitpick than anything but i can't help but feel like there were certain scenes in the movie that were like. at least a little..gratuitous in their execution ? utena's "gender reveal" during the saionji duel was...a bit weird. the camera angles in the pool scene were...somewhat questionable. miki and kozue bathing together...happened. anthy drawing naked utena with utena panting in a clearly sexual manner was... a choice. the final car scene... i was actually ok with because it's all so very over-the-top and kinda silly that it loops back into being heartwarming but maybe that's just me lol. i have heard that the original show did face a lot of like broadcast censorship issues so i guess the movie could kinda be a way to go all out in response or something? idk it's all certainly more explicit than the show for better or worse. at the very least i think it wouldn't hurt to watch the movie for yourself and come to your own conclusions about it. it's definitely very well made, the music is as good as ever, etc etc

[smalltragedy]

* brigette lundy-paine, nonbinary + they/them | you know kirby wormwood, right? they’re twenty five, and they’ve lived in irving for, like, two weeks? well, their spotify wrapped says they listened to ring ring by mika like, a million times this year, which makes sense ‘cause they’ve got that whole balancing acts at perilous heights destined to entertain, jack of all trades master of none, refusal to accept the mortal world as it is thing going on. i just checked and their birthday is december 1st, so they’re a sagittarius, which is unsurprising, all things considered. ( james, 21, est, they/them )

hllo welcome 2 my third character i love them a lot theyre a. remake of an older oc of mine so this is fun <3 sdfhk anyways once again i am asking u. pleathe like if u wld like to plot.

ARSON TW

mini playlist.

wizard ;; lucas lex / ring ring ;; mika / crows ;; clues / sunrise sunset ;; bright eyes / la llorona ;; beirut / no children ;; the mountain goats / might be love ;; the pesky snakes / sax in the city ;; let’s eat grandma.

statistics.

full name: kirby wormwood (currently).

nickname(s): magpie.

birthday: december 1st, 1995.

zodiac: sagittarius sun, aries moon, libra ascending.

mbti & temperament: estp & improvisor / sanguine.

label: the hellion.

hometown: abilene, texas.

sexuality: bisexual.

pinterest.

biography.

alright lets get right into it. kirby ws switched at birth. they cld’ve hd a very like. picket fence trampoline in the backyard. 4 columns cos its texas n it feels right. bt instead they were chosen <3 somewhat unintentionally <3 by dorothea n fawley wormwood, two traveling circus workers who emergency stopped in abilene.

n u know what. growing up in st. pierre’s traveling circus ws kinda fkn awesome? like ok. besides the fact tht they were homeschooled fr like evr n there were a sparing amt of children 2 socialize with? it ws p cool idk.

it ws kinda like everybody ws their parent n also not at all bc they were all very casual. bt they grew up learning hw 2 maintain the circus (n also like. normal school thingz bt i dnt think kirby hs ever cared abt school like ever) n whenever they hd a show kirby wld facepaint or handle tickets until they were old enough 2 start learning like. the Real fun things. 

fawley hd a lot of his own weird odd little like superstitions n beliefs n practically raised kirby on them like n they dnt rly <3 make a lot of sense. lots of made up philosophy. very much like. nothing defines u. u cn b anything or anyone. n kirby ws like ok cool. n then developed a god complex.

names didnt rly stick 2 kirby when they were a kid like. nothing satisfied them or felt worthy fr them or simply they just. got tired of a name. this isnt related 2 them being nonbinary BUT it did help ease some of the. pressure of exploring gender identity. theyve only hd one name tht stuck genuinely n tht ws magpie n. thts bc everybody hd their own bird name n it felt very. like community. like a role. usually the names they used during performances bt. anyways KFHDSGLKKHL

theyre Kirby bt answers 2 most. neutral nouns.

honestly. they were also a rascal as a youth. ws like. oh. i learned sleight of hand? cool. time 2 pick pockets. wld throw popcorn into the hair of other kids n b like. omggg what was that ... became a mime fr a year. it ws a rigorous training.

now a master of charades. bt anyways. they traveled pretty much weekly, maybe bimonthly n sometimes just pure monthly. there wsn’t an off season fr them, when the colder months came they’d travel south and when summer rolled in they’d go right back up again. it ws easy to switch personas almost daily n just. never reveal ur true self. totally not saying tht’s what kirby did bt thts what they did. it nvr made them lose sight of themselves it ws more like. acting. tricking ppl fr fun. 

anyways all good things come 2 an end and when kirby ws like. 18. they were like hey ur old enough that we cn trust u with fire. we think. n they started 2 learn fire-throwing n like. they were ok at it bt lessons were painfully slow n kirby ws like. i wld b so good at this if i cld do it all the time. n it ws like. hey kirby, chill. u already know a lot of things.

arson tw // u see where this is going. tents are kind of flammable. kirby ws unsupervised. bad decisions all around. circus is aflame. all the animals n all the circus workers got out fine bt like. st. pierre’s ws efficiently out of business. arson end of tw //

n kirby fkn booked it they just. ran. pure fear. nvr looked back which is like super traitorous of them 2 do bt. sometimes they meet up in secret like. sunglasses n all at a coffee shop. not all of them just like. fawley or someone else. theyre like. ur family u cld burn down a thousand circuses n we’d still love u. n kirby is like yeah i know bt i’ve rly committed to the bit now. n they dnt reunite.

anyways. since then kirby hs just been. a traveler. nvr rly staying anywhere fr super long n driving around in their shitty little van tht’d been used as housing back at st. pierre’s.

they’re in irving n theyve been there fr almost. suspiciously long. compared 2 their average stays. when asked abt what they do or why theyre there theyll just. give a vague answer or spin a long tale tht usually involves a burning circus.

theyre staying at uh. abernathy creek rn bc of course they r they fit in so naturally. welcomed with wide arms. might b soul searching rn might b on the hunt fr their birth parents might b just vibing ... whose to say ..

personality & facts.

has a Big personality tht attracts others fr better or fr worse. either super likeable or the most despicable person on the earth. no in betweens. n honestly tht is a talent in itself

has no off button is constantly. spinning tales or performing a dance or getting kicked out of bars fr whatever nonsense reason. 

honestly they prob think tht nothing bad cn ever happen to them even tho like. bad has literally happened 2 them before? love the optimism here. KLFGDLKFSDHGF

acts a bit like u’ve known them fr ur entire life they r oddly warm in tht way bt they themself r so distant tht its like. oh nice ok ...

both honest n yet dishonest like. yes they will hustle u out of ur money bt they will also tell u their opinion straight up. 

probably smart bt they r just like. prime thembo? flowy pirate shirts n cropped tshirts n pants tht r never tight. dresses like they do still work n live at a circus. 

likes 2 instigate things between others n then stand back n just watch it happen while taking like zero accountability. loves a good small town drama. avid milf hunter.

does not hv any faith in the american healthcare system at all n will straight up refuse 2 go 2 a hospital if they get hurt theyre like. i cn do it myself im like practically a professional. they r not a professional. 

bt does hv like. a thing abt apples. fkn loves them. 

uuuhhh cn play instruments bt all very badly. only knows one (1) song tht isnt made up n its wonderwall by oasis. they play it at parties. they expect fr tomatoes to b thrown at them at any given time.

very nimble. agile. granted its frm. learning circus tricks frm a baby age bt they hv impeccable balance n cn sneak up behind anyone without a single noise. uses this 2 their advantage in order 2 scare ppl. chaotic neutral.

loves having the attention on them i wont fk around here. will go to drastic measures to accomplish receiving it. my other muses r capable of taking things srsly bt kirby just. is not. they do not take a single thing srsly they barely even took. st. pierre’s destruction srsly n they caused it. maybe.

likes being able to just. be unknown so the amt tht ppl know abt them is actually very. little. i dnt think they even tell others their last name. sometimes not even their first. just hs so many aliases n nicknames. i know i didnt list any bt thts simply bc Any cld.

probably acts out to compensate fr the. underlying guilt they hv bt thts okay. i mean it isnt bt.

will probably show up if u call them fr help bt they lose interest in people p quickly n r always moving onto the next shiniest person. bt when they do they give them like. all their attention. if u wrong them in this period they will just. ignore it. bt when theyre bored then its like. u werent even friends at all? very odd.

perhaps it is commitment issues bt <3 ya. thts them. they do not claim favorite colors or movies or. most interests. probably bc theyre very very disconnected frm pop culture i think they learn everything thru twitter n google.

i wld not call them a good person bt i also dnt think theyre like evil horrible nasty awful they just. think abt themself a lot more than they think abt others n also refuses to face consequences ever and also .. anyways.

wanted plots.

part of the bird’s nest ;; honorary bird honorary circus member. u hv to be very well regarded by kirby to earn a bird name bt i feel like tht doesnt feel like a lot considering theyve only been here fr like. two weeks KDGDSHKGK. the catch is tht u cn only refer 2 them as magpie frm then forward. 

hand in unlovable hand ;; theres comfort in being terrible ppl together n it may not last bt it doesnt hv to anyways. its just them n the like. vibes. n knowing tht its smth thts nvr gna b long term. cld b anything ur character just hs to be also a little evil. KHDSGFDS

one jester ... wht abt ... TWO jesters .. ;; hoo boy. ooh man. unstoppable force and immovable object combine forces n just become. the worst of the worst. ultimate jokesters. epic pranksters. absolute clowns. chaotic energy unmatched. always nonsense. 

n also ;; ppl they’ve stolen frm, ppl who hv caught them in that act, ppl who’ve maybe seen them in the circus a very long time ago, Found Family Trope, real family shenanigans, kirby just asking everybody if theyre their dad., mortal enemies if they see each other its an instant duel 2 the death, etc.

[enchanted--realm]

When Calls the Heart Live Ramples

S8 ep 11 Changing Times or something like that

Omg the opening!! Nathan at Elizabeth's house in the morning. First of all, kind of scandalous (even my mom was like 😉) And then all those lowkey kinda highkey sexy inclinations. 'Take off your red serge' 'warm you up'. That was a heated scene, I-- 😏I loved it. And yes he did the most adorable thing with the flowers! That was so cute how he presented them. I also loved the easy references about Jack. It's become much easier for E to talk about him in passing without all the emotion hitting her and it's especially nice that it doesnt cause lots of discomfort between her and Nathan. I loved the way she automatically went to button his serge. They are so married. Ugh that scene was just the best and I can't believe that we actually got something like that. I was not expecting anything remotely similar to that so it was real treat tonight.

Lucas definitely sees the love between her and Nathan. And from his talk with Carson I suppose he's already started to move on. And yo Lucas finally took himself out of the equation and told Elizabeth he's setting her free! Boy beat her to it and left with some dignity. I felt for him though in this episode and want him to find happiness with someone else. Hopefully when they write Lucas as a romantic interest with someone else (as they most likely will do at some point) they wont write his character to be so rude like he's been lately.

Moving on, I like how with the school inspector, he isnt some enemy that's easy to hate. It's actually very clear that he's a man who likes his job in the education system and he just wants what's best for the students. Honestly, when he was walking with E and explaining his point of view, I had to agree. I mean, Angela would require so much more attention from E and she's only one person. There's no way she could teach her class at the speed she's been doing, while also teaching Angela and at the same time learning how to read braille herself and teach a blind student for the first time. That's too much for one teacher to handle. I wonder, since Ned's daughter is a teacher in Hamilton, would she come and assist Elizabeth? I doubt it since she seemed to really like her life in Hamilton, but it's a theory. I guess this school inspector drama will be s9 plot bc how can they solve that in one episode left of the season? It's being set up very well I must say.

Ok. Clara. Very quickly, her shirt was way low cut for the times. Quite the scandal that was. Second, I really liked her crying scene when she was talking to Lee. The way she took those sharp inhales, and her change in voice. I really believed it. 👏 Applause for Eva, well done. That whole plot with the business man wanting to build a factory!! It was really good. I mean, how annoying, but it makes for good plot so I like it.

Ah! And Rosemary! The way she fell off that horse! I was kind of scared for her when she was facing those men alone. Ohhh I was really feeling for Rosemary in this whole episode. I thought it was so funny the way she was taking over Lee's office. And oh yay she wants to start the newspaper that's wonderful. I really need her and E to make up. I dont like watching either of them being sad and hesitant around each other. And omg the police that Rosemary ran into at the property. I mean, wow. That man. He was so BIG. Don't mess with him. You run into him down the street you go the other way bc that guy looks like he can take anyone down lol. His face and voice were so intimating too, just overall, dont mess with that guy.

So glad that Carson is moving on from Faith. Omg I couldnt take anymore of them. It was kind of annoying the way Faith kept saying she didnt want Carson to propose, and yet whenever she was with him she was all smiley, like. Girl, talk to the man and tell him you dont want to be with him anymore. Yeah that's my only complaint. Glad that's all done with.

I loved how Elizabeth asked for Bill's help with the school board situation. That whole plot is looking really good and well developed. Oh and the way Elizabeth looked at Nathan from a far when Lucas visited her at the school *spoken in true Hope Valley fashion* 'Oh!' She so loves him.

And I absolutely LOVED the late night rainy scene with Elizabeth holding baby Jack and singing to him😭 That was so beautiful and loving❤ one of the best parts of the whole episode and there were many tonight. I love it whenever people sing on this show, especially when it's a truly heartfelt moment. I just---* deep sigh* It was a good episode tonight.

Quick last thing, where's Ned? He didnt come back with Florence? Weird. Also Florence looked beautiful in that outfit, I loved her shirt. So beautiful.

Overall, such a good episode. So many scenes central to Elizabeth and her plotline, which apparently even though she's the main character I need to be grateful for bc she doesnt get enough screentime normally. That preview for next week was just too much. Omg the way they present the love triangle I-- how cliche and cringe could they be. Whatever I'm still so so sooo excited for the finale!! Hearties for the win! Team Nathan for the win!!