#these are from 2020 or 2021 i dont remember rn

[floating-hasselblad]

Who wants some stars

[supermaks]

~personally~ of course as someone who is very interested in 3344 i would love to hear from lewis what his perspective is on max, who is compared more to senna, who is lewis' hero within his senna stannie fan card. like if senna wrote the fucking book max wrote the smash remake. like obviously humans are messy and complicated but like in ur pysche if the guy you "hate" is cut from the exact same cloth (and even sharper!) than the guy you love hmmmm. there's a lot of things to be talked about when drivers talk about who they idolize and why (or don't idolize). but i also love what u posted form that 1991 article bc f1 has never not been messy and human and solely about "wheel" or whatever and that makes it more interesting.

This is such supermaks bait anyway lets TALK about it 🌷

Literally thats the whole thing wid Canada that really stuck wid me after Max broke Sennas most wins oat, like Lewis' lil selfie wid him and his 'this is a pretty iconic podium' and that whole sloppy toppy moment wid fellow old Dawg Nando ((yall remember Nando podiums . damn 🕊️)) like theres a certain gravitas here. Max ended the most dominant streak by an f1 driver in the most controversial, soul crushing devastating fashion and followed that shit wid his own brand of dominance. That is fucking brutal lmfao. U said it like this is thee smash f1 remake this is textbook Senna, we've seen the script, we know what kind of driver it takes to enact the script. Its not gonna be a nice lil driver, its gonna be somebody who has a deep cynicism for the whole thing while simultaneously being unable to not execute it to perfection. That is Senna. It is Lewis. And it is Max. Max is, by all measures, in his current form, wid this red bull team, driving this car, untouchable. Bro is the final dawg. And the way that he still drives bro, that aggressiveness he has, that unwillingness to give up the line, thats every ((good)) drivers' dream to face a driver like that and come out on top because, ironically, thats as close to racing as it gets and it is old school. It does emulate a different time, a time that Lewis not only grew up watching but contributed to himself. It is about 'wheel' in the end but theres also a person in that car that can break you, which is like an extraordinarily human thing.

I've always found Lewis' bias for Senna very interesting because I think prolly until he was 25, and mind u I havent watched every Hamilton title winning season only 2008 and then obvi 2020 was my first so like obvi really influences how I c him, but he had that same restless nature. The shouts Max was getting even in 2021, Lewis got them too, including being a risk to his own peers, being rash, arrogant, etc. But then Lewis moved past Senna, imo, and became ‘Hamilton’, took over his own narrative, his team, made his own legend, wid his own dominant cars, and like he was settling back into that. Max came in at a point where u thought a Senna-like figure had no more space in f1. But Max created room, literally by force, and is also slowly outgrowing that to become ‘Verstappen’. I think thats the thread that wont snap between them, the knowledge that they are the last true protagonists of their respective eras. I have in faith in sharl, I think sharl wid a competent car, a good team, can achieve history too, but I dont have faith in Ferrari. Ferrari cannot perform to that level rn. So u have this monster at 25 whos like alone in his greatness and refuses to act the part. I get why people who dont fw Max's achievements might not like it, but that doesnt keep him from being the racing driver he is. That has no bearing on it, on him. Its a complete fabrication from fans. That is why Max feels so inevitable, and like, genuinely upsets people who dislike him by saying or doing anything because he will always own up on track and like theres an almost existential horror u cause haters wid that type of aura. Lewis is that same breed of driver, so he recognizes it, he knows what it takes be f1's villain. U cant cast a shadow on something u dont stand over.

After Silverstone he said: 'for a long, long time we’ve had periods of dominance. I’m lucky to have had one with my team. Michael Schumacher had it, Sebastian Vettel had it, and now Max’s period has arrived.' Just now in Hungary right after taking pole he said some shit like 'Max was doing 'Max things' in quali' which is a lil crazy to me. 😐 when the fuck did u ever hear Lewis Hamilton refer to a 'Max thing' except when Max has his ((much beloved)) category 5 Jeddah moments or bullies him during fp1 because he liked dared to breathe in his direction. Like since when is 'Max thing' a compliment. Like something shifted here and part of that is Max's inevitability in this car but also like how Lewis perceives that inevitability. Yk personally I cud only ever measure myself thru the people who beat me. In sports truly competition is all that is, u find somebody better and u chase after them. That's what Max did. He's rewriting those same records, because he can. And everybody who was ever somebody in motorsport did the exact same thing, including Lewis. And Senna right up until he died, because of the way it happened too, unfortunately, changed not only how u saw motorsport but also how u saw the person inside the car.

sharl was recently asked about lewis and max and had a very Leclerc type answer that I found very interesting:

Q: You were able to beat both Verstappen and Hamilton, who is more difficult to deal with?

Charles: "Both of them, they have completely different driving styles. Max always goes to the limit, I like his approach. He is aggressive and creates spectacular fights. Lewis on the other hand is very clever. In the way he positions the car after a corner, for example. He is less aggressive but thinks more. If he doesn't overtake you in one place, it's because he's thinking of an easier one in which to attack!"

Like is this not the most senna prost shit you've ever read in your entire life 😭😭. I think it comes down to how u approach a race and what u do wid the machinery ur given and faced wid certain track-specific challenges. Like look at this Spa weekend and you'd think it's the opposite of what sharl described, but it isnt. Max and Lewis can both be very aggressive, they just came up in the sport differently and established themselves wid different cars. Also neither of them about to let checo catch a break djdkdkd. In CONCLUSION ‼️ motorsport in general is a narrative driven competition wid a mechanical element that can make or break anybody no matter how good they are. Max himself becoming part of the mechanical element is unique to him, tho. Its above and beyond. Trust that the driver who became synonym for dominance in f1 is definitely paying attention lmfao

[the-mehlwurm]

POSTING SONE SKETCHES I MADE FROM LIKE 8TH TO 11TH GRADE BEACAHSE THIS YEAR I AM GOING TO FINISH SCHOOL YAYAY AND MAYBE SOMETIMES ADDI G A LITTLE CONTEXT BECAUSE ITS FUN IDK

HOW I DREW MYSELF IN 8TH(?) GRADE (LOVE THE DATH NOTE AHIRT TGAT LOOKS LIKE A BADLY DRAWN SONIC OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT) ALSO I GET WHY THE 5TH GRADERS CALLED ME EMO

OF VOURSE THE BNHA AND DANGANRONPA FANART LMAO

DYED STREAK OF HAIR LETSGOO (ALSO PROBABLY 8TH GRADE BECAISE I REMEMBER THE BACKGROUND BEING SUPPOSED THE COUCH CUSHION I GOT WHEN MY ROOM WAS RENOVATED WHICH WAS MIDDLE OF 7TH GRADE SO IDK)

FISH BOWL IG

CONPMETELY DYED BLONDE HAIR AND FLANEL SHIRT SLAY

NOT A SCHOOL SKETCH BUT IN THE SAME FOLDER. MUSTVE BEEN LIKE 2020? MAYBE 2021? PROBABLY LISTENED TO MCR WHILE SOLVING(?) THE SUDOKU

SHORTLY AFYER THAT I SHAVED MY HEAD FOR THE FIRST TIME YAYAY

EMO EMU THAT I GLUED ON A PRESENTATION POSTER (DONT KNOW WHAT THEYRE CALLED IN ENGLISH SORRY) ABOUT AUSTRALIA BECAUSE I AM LITERALLY THE FJNNIEST PERSON EVER

A GERARD WAY I DREW ON THE BACKSIDE OF THE NOTES FOR THE INTRO OF WTTBP THAT MY SISTER WROTE DOWN FOR ME TO LEARN LOLOL I REMEMBER BEING SO UNHAPPY WITH THIS ONE BUT I DONT THINK IT LOOKS THAT BAD RN (BUT I AM A LITTLE TIPSY AND TIRED SO WHI TF KNOWS)

MOUTHS I HAD TO DRAW FOR ART CLASS AND I REMEMBER BEING LITERALLY THE ONLY ONE WHO DID THIS TASK

FIRST DRAWING OF MYSELF WIRH SHAVED HAIR,.SO PROBABLY BEGINNING OF 2022

THOSE ARE THE DRAWINGS FROM MY FORAT FOLDER, GONNA POAT THE REST EITHER NOW OR TOMORROW LOL

Also sorry for any typing mistakes and shit but i can't be arsed to correct anything and only, like, 1 person will see this anyway and i don't even know if they'll read through all this, but if you are: HI:D SORRY AND THANKS IG LOVE YOU

[austinwehaveaproblem]

day 4!!

today I thought id talk about by hyperfixations in general like how I feel they work. btw I think I should clarify that I have adhd! anyway typing and telling you this makes me want to read up more on research about how people with adhd hyperfixations work. so this is basically a timeline of that ig? id say ive always been a taylor swift fan for a longgg time like since I was 4. but id say that the hardcore swiftie thing started in April 2021. and ive been this way since then. other than that in june 2022 the måneskin thing started intensely which is of course why I'm here now!! from then on it was and intense thing of MÅNESKIN MÅNESKIN AHHHH -> SABRINA CARPENTER OMFG in July 2022 (shoutout to eics turning one year omg) -> JOSHUA BASSETT OMFG NEW MUSIC OCTOBER WEDNESDAYS THE FANDOM WAS FLOURISHING!! -> and then someday in november, I dont remember the reason why but i was like "I should try checking out that band waterparks that austin mentioned again" so I DID and ohhh boy. I sat down and listened to fandom and entertainment I think? do you ever feel it coming on? like I'll get chills and goosebumps and it takes over my thoughts. so anyway that was one of those moments. like remember that post with awstens name censored? that was the start of this. and ive been this way for months. also theres my hobbie hyperfixations like making jewelery, doing my hair is the latest one (what im doing rn) also if I get into a book enough I can finish it in no time. anyway thats that!! just wanted to write this down!! sorry for typos

ooh! i have a kinda... i mean, decaydance is my spint obviously but i sorta cycle through bands i guess? like... cobra began in late 2020/early 2021, tai during that summer, cobra again, i don't keep that much track of what brainrot i have when but i've gone through gch, p! (be glad you didn't know me in 2018), trs, ths, millionaires, aaand yeah >o> i did realize i also had bandom (like,,,, not just the whole thing but specifically the fandom bits) as a spint during late spring last year and was both reading and writing a lot of fic and um yeah. my spint(s?) is like... it's all tied together but also they're three different interests to me (fob, dcd, bandom) and i can't always lump them together despite regular (and inherent) crossovers

[rainbowgothdisaster]

For the artist asks, 2, 11 & 18 :3

2. 5 favourites of your own work?

in no particular order:

pokesona, the stars are falling (not posted, will be posted with this years redraw), jewel's house, sleeping jewel, jewel's bedroom (also an extra bcuz i really like it but couldn't find the compressed file to put here: be back soon screen)

i have a lot of fun drawing my pokesona, it was drawn completely using vector lines which was unbelievably enlightening

the stars are falling was first drawn back in 2020 and has become a way for me to compare how my art has developed over the years. 2020 only featured Jason (he/him), 2021 only had Zero (ey/em), and 2022 includes the former two plus Cleo (she/her, but shes bigender and also goes by Liam he/him), 2023 will include Jason and Ambe (she/her). its a way for me to basically do a benchmark test on my composition and anatomy and colours and shading. i always have a lot of fun drawing it and sometimes making whole new brushes. important note: this one was actually submitted to an art contest, sadly i lost but it was actually my first time since elementary putting my art out with the intent to be judged.

jewel's house was my first time drawing and designing a house and finding different places to incorporate hearts was literally so much fun.

sleeping jewel is just super cute and jewel's bunny hoodie is my favourite thing ever. i have it on my phone and could stare at it for hours.

jewel's bedroom is ALSO a redraw. i enjoyed trying to fit so many things in it, i enjoyed sketching, i enjoyed lining, i enjoyed colouring. though this is actually my least fav of the 5 bcuz i fully believe the idea that your art is only as good as its weakest point. that's not to say its bad or that everyone will approach it as critically as possible. not even to say that everything needs to be perfect. but when i was rendering it, i didn't want to shade. so i took a funky brush and just rushed thru shading. in fact you can see that when watching the speedpaint, i just kinda scribbled the shading. HOWEVER that doesnt take away from the fact i think the rest of it is really well done. i think i did well on the bed in particular and the fact that i stylized a real bed that we own and my actual childhood bed that i would die to get back (we owned two, mine was lost when mum and dad had to abandon my childhood home bcuz of shitty roommates and a shitty landlord) i enjoyed drawing my actual stuffed animals and my actual lolita dress. it like actually has sentimental value bcuz of all of that i just wish i did it better.

11. favourite comment you've ever received on your work?

uhhhh so like i dont usually recieve comments on my work aside from my family's "wow i could never do that" soooo well go with the comment you left on my bunny hoodie design bcuz as far as i can remember iirc it was the first time id gotten a nice comment about my fashion designs and i was really happy someone liked it bcuz im like super nervous about my silly fashion doodles :)

18. do you have any larger projects you'd like to pursue? like comics, shortfilm, a series, etc?

yes! id like House Of Misfits to be a cartoon, tho the show would probably be lighter than the short stories bcuz i don't imagine i could explore Amber's backstory on screen. im making a proof-of-concept website which is technically online and more than 70% unfinished.

i also have a coming-of-age novel i need to do research for called Saftey Blanket about a hijabi girl named Aminah in her senior year of highschool (if i made it a series wed get to see her twin siblings realize they're trans which would be fun but rn they are but lil babbies), id like to make a children's cartoon and a visual novel but i don't currently have any ideas for either.

btw despite the fact that i am an animator, i don't want to animate a show. i want to run a show. i don't actually enjoy animations longer than maybe 10 seconds.

i have a side project based around the album A Constant State Of Ohio by Lincoln that would be a very personal project around self image while having multiple personality disorders (and other problems), but i cannot for the life of me make an animatic. there's lots of ideas like this jostling in my brain, like a stop-motion animation of Through The Roof n Underground by Gogol Bordello, where i just simply cannot which i am fine with.

then theres the fact i do actually want to sew my fashion designs, at least that bunny hoodie if nothing else, and i cannot get my hands on any fabric despite owning a sewing machine

[fraseris]

my perception of time is so messed up rn dude... like most of 2020 was okay. it kinda felt like it went right from 4 straight months of march to august. september, october, november, and december were a blur. but i. remember Nothing from january 2021-may 2021 except for the suez canal incident. did stuff happen?? i dont know. i ended up with a new laptop. what was even going on. i continuously still think its spring 2020. help

[an0nymousghost]

check in tag

tagged by @goldoradove​, ty!

why did you choose your url?

8th level of criminal oracle career in ts4! i feel like ive said this so many times

any side blogs?  if you have them, name them and why you have them.

yes, i have 5, but only 2 are public

@xoxo-celeschul - multifandom blog @celeschulcc - inactive cc finds

how long have you been on tumblr?

i made my old acc @stardze​ in 2017 (my url was like crunchy-potato or smth like that), but tumblr was too confusing for me. but august 2020 i when i learned how to use it!

do you have a queue tag?

queue tag? no, but i queue a lot of my posts, i dont tag them.

why did you start your blog in the first place?

i was already posting my screenshots on instagram, and i remember explicitly thinking that i needed to move to tumblr in order to be able to use the /chrono feature. i wasn’t actually a part of simstagram, it was like a private acc with my irl friends.  

idk if i regret it

why did you choose your icon/pfp?

it’s from this post! one of my sims, celeste. it matches my purple theme as well.

why did you choose your header?

i don’t have a header, so here is the sidebar on my theme. it’s a ts4 screenshot, because this is my ts4 blog. and then it kinda? matches the aesthetic. it used to be purple, but i like the soft vibe of this sidebar.

what’s your post with the most notes?

i ran the tumblrtop10 thing on my blog for 2021, and since i made this blog feb 2021, that’s my top stuff. i posted it on my sideblog here

anyways, my conversion of ravensim’s fluffy pony is my top post, it has 2211 as im writing this. 

i also did top 10 for my previous blog! i had to do it twice, but they’re here and here. my top post on that blog is my glitter conversion collab with cupidily, it has 2773.

how many mutuals do you have?

how do you check this 

how many followers do you have?

2407

how many people do you follow?

598

have you ever made a shitpost?

i have a tag for it, here

how often do you use tumblr each day?

hmm idk, i used to use it a lot during school, but i got snapchat again so ive been spending some time on there. 

did you have a fight/argument with another blog once?  who won?

no, if i did then i can’t remember it

how do you feel about ‘you need to reblog this’ posts?

i don’t reblog them, i like my blog to be mainly sims related stuff. 

do you like tag games?

yes ofc! im doing one rn xD

do you like ask games?

hmm idk, i just end up wanting to do all of them anyways. 

which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous?

tumblr famous? who is tumblr famous, lol. im too afraid to say it, actually. it’s kinda hard to tell who’s considered famous because follow counts are not visible, and also, if we’re talking about like known outside of simblr, that’s pretty much only going to be cc creators.  

do you have a crush on a mutual?

it’s not a crush, but some of my mutuals happen to be my favorite blogs :3

[gracefulweather]

omg you did?? u have to tell me who u pull when it arrives !!

time does fly 😭 i really can't believe 2021 is almost over

tysm ! i hope you're doing well too !! ☺ yess i'm trying to find time to work on the new au haha and i keep changing the damn plot 😭 omg 😳🥺 the ateez smau, i haven't officially made a decision yet, but i think when the semester is over i'll upload the rest of what i have...and go from there ! also ty for reading 🥺

also ! i have seen 2 people fall off of their skateboards on campus and i think of ur sunwoo fic every single time i do haha

oh ! that site does work ! i'll definitely read it now when i get the chance ! that would probably be best, esp bc we dont get s2 until next december 🥲

arisa is so interesting, i love it ! like every single chapter is so amazing and mysterious akfhslfja

i wanna watch us now 👀

you stayed up?? :O i agree, they are releasing so much its so hard to keep up with, i wanna watch dnd and timeout ! esp w the new maverick series ! but i also hate how a lot of the content is only on universe :(

being a multi is so difficult 😭 i barely watch mvs in a timely matter anymore :")

halloween was fun and movies are always a good time !

exactly ! the details of their performances are insane ! yes yes yes to all ur favs ! all of the groups outdid themselves truly 😌 year end awards...im nervous 😳

ur right, the storybook ver is so cute 🥺 i loved all 3 songs too ! and i agree, the mv was good but i think they could've added more story or something

THE LITTLE BAD RAP SUPREMACY 😭😭 it is so addictive

omg yes 🥲 the stylists have been going tf off this era and i am living for it

yesss i'm so excited omg should be here sometime this week i think!! (i hope...) but did yours arrive yet?

oooh what is the plot about 👀 have only gathered that it'll be dark... and sad... with evil characters LOOL. and yes i love ur ateez smau 🥺 i sometimes find it hard to get into smaus in general but the mystery has me hooked for that one <3 oh yeah speaking of ateez, thoughts on the world tour? i'm still holding onto my 2020 tickets rn but likeeee the thought of being in such a large crowd still sounds risky to me 😭

FALLING OFF SKATEBOARDS ADKJDKJF omg every time i get random bruises i think of it :')

oooh yeah heard that they haven't even started filming borderland s2 yet 😭 oh did you watch hellbound? it's so popular rn but i didn't think it was thaaat good.... deffs a cool concept tho. but YEAHHH i wanna start arisa soon!!

was dnd the one on universe? the app actually sucks :(( i know some fanbases have been subbing/uploading it elsewhere but it seems like the vids keep getting taken down 😭 the new maverick series is so cool omg i love all the brain twisters and puzzles they do!! really hope IST decides to keep putting eng subs on their videos 😔

ahh the multi life :') how do you decide which group/member to write for?? it's hard enough choosing amongst even just one group LOL

omg i heard one of the members say that they're gonna do one of the rtk/kingdom performances at the fancon??? i'm still hoping for drink it at least once... somewhere :') and yeahh i thought the mv would be a whole storyline like golcha's mvs these days but it's nice that we got to see some acting!!

but yeahHH maverick era ended so fast </3 do you ever feel like the promo periods are too short though? i remember back in the day everyone would promote on music shows for at least a month, but i guess they're preparing end of year stuff already :')

[aiviloti]

my 2020 fic writer wrap-up!!

this is going to be incredibly long (a total of 1.1k lmao) so imma put a cut here, but basically thank you for being here all throughout my 2020! i appreciate you all very much <3

fav kind of fic to write:

i love writing about mutual pining slow burn process of getting together but i have NEVER WRITTEN ONE IN MY LIFE so i hope to change that in 2021

in 2020 i discovered??? humour??? so i enjoy writing about that and when people tell me i’ve succeeded in making them laugh it’s all 😳😳😳 for me

hardest fic to write but also most proud of:

to write you a song was a fic i struggled with from all of april to june which is very long?? to me??? considering i usually sit down and write things in one seating. fully fleshed ideas don’t usually take me thaaaaaat long to crunch out, but for some reason i struggled bad with this bc I really didn’t know where i was going w it lol

LA LA LAND gets an honorary mention of it’s own simply because it was 44k, and it took me all of july-september, but it’s something i still am proud of! to show how difficult it was to write/plot here’s the spreadsheet i had to use to keep track of the scenes and the chapters djkgfsjdfkjhgd

Shout out to kiroiimye , sweet , sirius and krypt for keeping my sanity intact

easiest fic to write:

this genshin impact fic: The Land Favoured by the Wind but its because ive been thinking about this idea for more than a month lol so the actual writing and editing took me less than 3 hours

there were several others too, bc ideas then to hook themselves to me then refuse to let go fjshlfgdfsg

fav fic to write:

Most definitely this sakuatsu monstrosity here by the name of Miya Atsumu's unwavering love for Sakusa Kiyoomi and an unholy amount of terrible food analogies that should not have the right to Exist lol, I only came up with the idea of Atsumu asking Osamu how to make friends bc I was friendship pining for someone at the time and then proceeded to write the entirety of it in a feverish daze! It’s as of rn my top hit / kudoed / bookmarked fic on ao3 and man, thanks for liking this as much as i did :’D

writing sequence:

i have to write from start to finish lmao i cant move on if the fic isnt chronological? the only exception was la la land bc it was too long and i had help from the spreadsheet so i alr knew where i was going i just had to write it down dfhdsfksfksdfhjg

deleting works:

the only fics i remember deleting are both first chapters of a multichap, bc i dont like having unfinished pieces on ao3, and far less if im not sure if ill finish them/if i dont know where im going w it!

if it’s dark history of shit 15 year old me wrote imma keep it there! it is an archive after all. go on, judge my fics from 5 years ago ahahahaha

best writing advice:

not a general thing and might just apply tome, but i tend to write in very convoluted ways and squish a lot in my sentences, or add to many unnecessary commas, so i received advice recently about being more mindful of the pacing and it’s helped me a lot!

worst writing advice:

none at the top of my head djgfkdsjfh if it’s bs to me i just forget it entirelyyyy

collab:

@actuallyasweetpotato​ (also aforementioned sweet) and i did a thing for bokuaka week!!!! you can find it here:  under my breath and into your scarf

wips:

9 unfinished zine pieces, 3 commissions, 1 exchange piece, about 10 or so other things

fav story of another writer:

favourite things 

manly man falls for manliest man krbk fic!!!

gently, like a winter wind iwaoi birthday fic

sunchaser krbk fic

JUNO atsuhina fic

best review:

dude i cried

and shoutout to tien , sirius for fan art, fan comics, fan animatics of fics ive written, and shoutout to akemiiiii for this song they wrote i am eternaally grateful

worst review:

no negativity today!

prequel/sequel to other people’s fics:

none at the top of my head hm, but if anything probably any of kiro skk stuff 

do i reread my stuff:

yes, but only if they’re old enough for me to go “it’s okay even if i dont like it bc this is old”

published:

hopefully! even though i do take part in zines and i guess they already have been published in a broad sense

fav/least fav chara to write:

no one at the top of my head! it’s instinctive for me to go ahead and think about character motives whenever i come across them, so if i ever write about someone, i usually just put my spin/interpretation of a character in a way that i can comprehend. the pros of this is i can write about many people, and the downside is that these characterisations can come off as out of character to anyone who doesn’t agree w me hehe

deadlines or goals:

if it’s a oneshot that’s under 3k i usually aim to have it done within 24 hours of beginning the fic. even tho i rarely succeed, having that as a goal usually pushes me to get it done faster than i would have if i had no goal altogether! if it’s anything long i aim for 1k a day, tho rn all my deadlines are zine deadlines and on top of that there’s uni, so to say im not stressing about writing would be a lie LOL

fav writers: (am too shy to tag but i swear these people are literal gods)

chonideno (mag): tumblr | twitter | ao3

batman (teesta): twitter | ao3

maplefudge (raei): tumblr | twitter | ao3

trope never written, would like to try:

aforementioned SLOWBURN MUTUAL PINING ANGST W A HAPPY ENDING GETTING TOGETHER!!!

but also royalty au

trope you will never write:

haha loads

how long have you been a writer:

began writing around may of 2014!! it was a horrible piece but im glad i started somewhere

influences:

chonideno/mag is one! maggie stiefvater who wrote the raven boys is also one, among many others

hardest part of writing: 

writing action? writing things that are happening right now, describing people talking, eating

easiest part of writing:

descriptions of people, places, feelings. internal monologues, the like

best part of writing:

sharing how i perceive the world w other people, and discovering other people agree

wip sneak peek:

cw: hanahaki, falling out of love

this was written in a friend’s dms lmao this is why i sound like this

something unique i bring to all my stories

i had a revelation the other day after talking to all my friends and realised i have really pretentious titles

IF YOU’RE HERE

did you know the wc of this thing is 1k words? idk why you stuck through all of that but thank you. i’ll keep writing in 2021, and all the years after that, and i hope i’ll find you doing things you love too :)

[hottest-mf-that-has-ever-existed]

An artist, please check out my drawings and follow if you're interested in them not just reblog the random shit i rb, it hurts that people that regularly rb don't even "like" pieces I spend hours on,,,

Currently into drawing my ocs, danganronpa and occasionally my hero academia

I hope that it shows all of the tags, my art tag is #my art 2020 and #my art 2021 if i remember to tag correctly skxhkchdjgd, some shit isn't tagged bc i forget but then you can find it in fandom tags probably

Oc tag is #bearu ocs, feel free to check it out!

My IG is @/bearu_art, I now often try to interact w people on my stories or just complain daily as an entertainment both for me and you, feel free to talk to me there (or here), I cross post the good stuff or fandoms I'm not afraid to show and here you can see everything since the very end of 2019 (i had a tumblr in the past but thank god its gone now, it was cringe dump)

(Pls don't tell anyone on there I have tumblr, I don't want ppl from irl knowing bc then i can't vent at all, thanks, ily)

If i make any kind of mistakes, tell me, ill do my best to fix it

If u need a tw for something tell me, ill do my best to tag correctly dont want to hurt anyone

Thank u for reading this ramble, i hope your're having a great time rn!!!

[5sosbitchfest]

Reactions to Luke’s IG Story 6/14/2020

Anonymous said to 5sosbitchfest: I hate her as much as the next person but bi people in straight relationships are still bi

Anonymous said to 5sosbitchfest: I call bullshit on Messy being bi. Sorry, if she was bi, why didn't she come out earlier? Her 'haters'? Where? Also, Luke needs to learn the difference between supporting Pride and celebrating it while PR dating a fake ass 'bi' woman.

Anonymous said to 5sosbitchfest: I also don’t think it’s fair to say Sierra has never been in a same sex relationship we really don’t know who she’s dated. This is a big problem in the LGBT community, when a bi woman is in a relationship with a man her bi identity gets erased. Halsey has actually talked about this a lot. While I agree that Lierra is not a queer couple, that does not erase Sierra’s identity as a queer woman, and pride is absolutely still for her to celebrate too 🌈

Anonymous said to 5sosbitchfest: *i understand that it was Luke’s post but obviously she had input to post it.

Anonymous said to 5sosbitchfest: Does Messy’s journey of her sexuality excuse her transphobia? Bc I don’t think so. She sure is selective about who and what she celebrates then. She posted that picture for attention, like everything else she does. It sounds harsh and if she wants to share her journey then great but let’s recognize and call it out for what it is. She doesn’t need to have Luke in a post to talk about her sexuality. Happy Pride Month to that person she purposely misgendered and attempted to invalidate.

Anonymous said to 5sosbitchfest: It’s not about disliking Sierra anon. She has only officially came out in a reply on twitter that she later deleted. That’s the only time it’s been mentioned. People struggle to come out and she tweeted and deleted it as if she actually wasn’t saying it. And now her boyfriend is the one essentially coming out for her? That’s what the issue is anon she has never openly said she was bisexual and now that it’s pride month she is? This is just the first time it’s being brought up& it wasn’t even her

Anonymous said to 5sosbitchfest: I don’t care that Luke posted good on him but him posting something for pride halfway through the month makes the other boys look inconsiderate for not posting anything

Anonymous said to 5sosbitchfest: I'm the anon that said the thing about "lets not make this into a mikey situation" I agree that it was a complete distraction tactic, and I also can not stand Sierra I was just trying saying that even with those two things in mind the post isnt harming anyone and so we shouldn't get mad at luke for making it.

Anonymous said to 5sosbitchfest: I hate to admit it but I don't see Lierra ending anywhere near soon. Yes, couples don't last forever and still I don't think they will but let's be honest, he cares about her. Idk how things are in their life, and I hope he's happy, but I think she will stay around for this year and maybe a bit of 2021. 🙄

Anonymous said to 5sosbitchfest: Okey but was the "biracial" necessary? It made me cringe...

Anonymous said to 5sosbitchfest: I know luke can be cringy when it comes to Sierra but cmon haven’t we learn by now all the cringy stuff if from Sierra being on his account lol

Anonymous said to 5sosbitchfest: Sierra wrote that ... no caps, her grammar, fave chosen emojis etc totes her 10000000000% although glad acknowledging bisexual biracial but Angel? Angel by day and to stans but I thought she was the “late night devil”

Anonymous said to 5sosbitchfest: Something about Luke’s ig story doesn’t sit well with me... the fact that he felt the need to state that she’s biracial and bisexual just makes it look like he’s treating her like some kind of a trophy to show off, idk it just doesn’t feel right

Anonymous said to 5sosbitchfest: Why do L and S feel the need to make everything about S? This isn't about you, so shut up and actually get a job.

Anonymous said to 5sosbitchfest: “beautiful bisexual biracial angel” i’m gagging and laughing so hard yeah he 100% wrote and posted that himself /sarcasm

Anonymous said to 5sosbitchfest: I love luke and I'm happy if he's happy but the way Sierra clings to him in that photo is so gross. It really just feels like she's using him to do her dirty work. Like that post didnt feel genuine at all and it really seems like luke isnt even trying to convince us anymore he just does the bare minimum to make her happy. I dont blame him tho. Just feels icky.

Anonymous said to 5sosbitchfest: As a straight person, I hate straight couples and hope to never be cringe.

Anonymous said to 5sosbitchfest: I'm sorry but that Instagram story that luke posted talking about his "beautiful bisexual biracial angel🥰🥺" does NOT (capitalize, underline and bold) sound like how luke would type something. The first part where he talks about how far we have to go sounds like him but not that that part.. not even close. Want to bet either sierra typed it, gave him the idea to say that OR did both cause we know she monitors him like crazy

Anonymous said to 5sosbitchfest: "Bisexual biracial" is so unnecesarry. Luke, hon, shut up. People are out here fighting for their rights, and you feel the need and have the audacity to make it about your crazy ass girlfriend? Don't get me wrong, I love the boys, but making every fcking thing about your girlfriend-particularly luke- is not the point of these movements. So stfu Luke, stfu Sierra, stop making everything about S. That pisses me off, sorry I just needed to rant somewhere.

Anonymous said to 5sosbitchfest: is it just me or does the whole “beautiful bisexual biracial angel” not sound like him or something he’d say??? idk I’m kinda new to the fandom but it felt cringey reading that come from him

Anonymous said to 5sosbitchfest: Did you see what luke posted on his story? Seems him and Sierra are getting along great, smh. Also she's confirmed bi as well I guess. That's cool. Hope she doesnt use it as a weapon to defend criticism tho. Also did luke redo his hair cuz it seems very white again. Idk. Seems fishy. What are your thoughts? Do you think he was told to post that to distract from mike?

Anonymous said to 5sosbitchfest: just when I was starting to forgive luke for his “response” to messy’s MESS, he goes and posts this... I’m TIRED

Anonymous said to 5sosbitchfest: ok but as a lesbian it makes me sooo happy that Luke is celebrating pride and he's supportive of her sexuality 🥺 men never take bisexuality seriously and I love that he respects that. YET as someone who doesn't like s I'm like why....... like this week has been so frustrating and we were all like "they don't defend m bc they're in a sm break" and now he comes to post this and doesn't say anything? i just :(

allisonscarlett said to 5sosbitchfest: Honestly pride month came just in time cause I remember some stans saying that sierra is probably not bisexual and now there's luke insta story. I'm not trying to erase anyone's sexual orientation, I'm bisexual myself and I've found it weird that in the past years sierra didn't anything about her sexuality during pride month (and don't remember when she tweeted about being bi but I don't thing that it was in during pride month)

Anonymous said to 5sosbitchfest: is anyone else getting"i can't be racist/homophobic because my gf is biracial and bisexual" vibes from lukes ig story or is it just me??? does he know he's digging a hole???

Anonymous said to 5sosbitchfest: should we assume luke posted that in response to the insiders muke information? interesting timing on his part

Anonymous said to 5sosbitchfest: I honestly can't stand Luke rn. Angel? Angel???? ANGELLL????????????

Anonymous said to 5sosbitchfest: Okay but I don't think that counts as a "a straight couple thinking pride is theirs to celebrate". Just cause Sierra is in a straight relationship doesn't take away from the fact that she's bi, or mean she can't celebrate pride. And I think Luke wishing her and everyone a happy pride is actually a really supportive thing for him and again doesn't really count as a straight person thinking pride is theirs to celebrate, because he's focusing on her, not himself.

Anonymous said to 5sosbitchfest: “my beautiful biracial angel” i hate it here

Anonymous said to 5sosbitchfest: Gonna say something to MAYBE make some people happy. That picture was taken at a PROTEST. So they probably aren't together 😂😂 they were just together for the protest

Anonymous said to 5sosbitchfest: The biracial part of his story post is feeding into him being a king for dating a mixed person

Anonymous said to 5sosbitchfest: ok luke did look very cute tho

Anonymous said to 5sosbitchfest: Every single time there’s any drama in the fandom, a new “cute” picture pops up and some people really think that’s goals? Like in what world is now the time for that kind of post, if it isn’t a direct pr response to the twitter mess of the past few days? Smh they’re not even trying to be subtle anymore

Anonymous said to 5sosbitchfest: i think it’s fine for straight couples to go to and celebrate pride when one of them or both of them aren’t straight.

Anonymous said to 5sosbitchfest: I was reading this blog a few hours ago and I read a post where someone said that everyone basically assumed sierra was bi bc of a comment and now Luke comes out calling her "bisexual" as if he was confirming it...Idk felt weird lol

Anonymous said to 5sosbitchfest:  Bisexual biracial angel😭😭 who made him write that and thought people will take it seriously

Anonymous said to 5sosbitchfest: have you seen luke’s story? “especially to my bisexual biracial girlfriend” i fucking CACKLED like is it how she’s supposed to be known for?

Anonymous said to 5sosbitchfest: thank you luke for that ig post for it will keep messy ass kissers away from m mentions for a while

Anonymous said to 5sosbitchfest: Funny how you just brought up everyone saying that Sierra was bi just cause she said she loved men and woman and woopty do guess what luke put on his insta story. “My beautiful bisexual biracial gf” Luke I love you but 🤢

[myfucking-illusion]

pt III of that venting text SKIP PLEASE, im sorry about this i promise its the last one

i wont lie, though, im afraid of letting her go bc i dont want to be alone, i literally dont have any other friends besides her, i didnt have the chance to make friends on the new city bc in 2019 i was getting used to a whole different place, bc i lived on my birth town my whole life and it was a country town, today i live in the capitol of my state, it was a huge change, also i was so insecure of not being with my best friend that i shutted myself completely for other friends (thats something i thank my boyfriend for, he respected my "friend issues" and took me with him), 2020 i spent at home bc of the pandemic and 2021 feels like its going to be equal as 2020.

i dont know the day of tomorrow, god forbid but what if something happens between me and my boyfriend? i have no one to cry to, no one to listen to me. and not only that, sometimes i want to talk about girl stuff and my boyfriend is a guy, he might try but it isnt the same as talking to a girlfriend, i feel like i need her, i feel like i dont know how to live without her... is it true? i dont know and im afraid of finding out.

my mom and my boyfriend always say that there aren't true friends, people are like that, you cant blindly trust someone, we are alone and will remain alone, bc none of the ppl so called friends are going to be there when you truly need, this best friend stuff only exists when you are 15 bc (most of the times) we dont have real problems.

my mom always had my dad and i aspire to be like that, to have my boyfriend by my side and have ppl i'm acquainted with, but he is the only one who i know will be there when i need, but i dont know tomorrow. today we are good, today we love each other and plan on getting married, but i cant say it will be like that tomorrow even though i want so much to be with him till the death tear us apart.

2 days ago was the last time we spoke, she said some heavy stuff to me, stuff that a friend shouldn't say, let alone the best one. she is mad at me bc i dont talk to her everyday, bc i dont tell her everything about my life, bc i dont like the same stuff she does and bc im not the same girl i was 5 years ago, she didnt leave room for conversation, she was mean, i'm not going to beg for her friendship or whatever, i'm not going to answer her and i feel like neither will she, she's too proud, unfornately i'll have to be proud too, i'm not going to beg for someone else's love, not anymore.

im really afraid of what life holds for me, it is a big change in my life, she is with me since 2014 and suddenly letting her go feels so weird and wrong, even though she gave me reason to do so, i feel like my life is going to fall apart and honestly i dont know what to expect, i hope things get better, i really do, i need it, i cant lose everything, i cant simply lose someone who's so important for me and be fucked by life, i wont be able to live like that.

i wish i could have a teaser of the future bc rn im feeling so sad, so stupid and i KNOW im right, she was a bitch with me, she wasnt concerned at all about our friendship she was mean to me, it felt like we werent even friends, she didnt care about us at all, it's been a while and she blames me, i must have guilt on this too, ofc, but i know i'm not 100% wrong, i know it isnt all on me and she believes it is, she refuses to see that she has hurt me too and so much, i didnt heal, im not feeling ok with her, even though i want to (or wanted to).

i dont know if there is any salvation, i dont know what life is holding for me, i'm nervous and sad, i hope i will be fine, from the bottom of my heart i will take care of myself the best i can so i dont fall apart, i will give my best to my other relationships so this wont happen again, i will try very hard to make friends, to be more open and to forgive her and forget about this situation so i can remember our friendship as something good, even though i dont want to say goodbye i wish we could reconcile i really did.

i dont like letting people in.. i wish she could stay, but apparently it´s time to let go.

[mindinpastel]

Time for another Tag i found cause im bored <3

Name / Nickname : Uyen .. Uyeni/ Yeni by myself 

Height : smol and pudgy

Zodiac sign : Aries but i aint about that life

Hobbies : Netflix when im lazy .. which i am always but if i feel the inspiration and motivation i would say piano, drawing newest hobby is guitar

Favourite colours : look at my blog lol

Favourite books : its been so long since i read books.. :( i guess Harry Potter still speaks to me,, Reckless series? Gut gegen Nordwind LORD i should really read more.. 

Last song listened to : some Lo-Fi stuff

Inspiration for muse : uhm none

Dream job : honestly youtuber lol.. where i can just be creative and film it without pressure from above i guess

Meaning behind your URL : i like pastel and im always daydreaming or in my own world?

Cats or dogs? CAAATS but i also love dogs but i vibe with the nature of cats more

YouTube celebrities or normal celebrities? hm youtubers feel more .. touchable thats not the right word lmao 

If you could live anywhere where would that be? oh gee im feeling australia / new zealand hardcore but somehow also japan and ofc korea and uh idk some fantasy world lol

Disney or DreamWorks? Disney. (Ghibli)

Favorite childhood TV show? HIMYM, Scrubs Wizards of Waverly Place, AVATAR

The movie you’re looking forward to most in 2021? Lmao no clue what will come out and we prob wont be able to see it in the movie theater anyways #pandemoniabread

Favorite book you read in 2020? i dont read pls dont judge me

Marvel or DC? Marvel yoooooooo

If you choose Marvel favorite member of the X-Men? If you choose DC favorite Justice League member? i think hmmm Thor ?Spiderman is also cute Ironman and Blackwidow honorary

Night or Day? Night i suppose

Favorite Pokémon? Eeeveeeee and like every evolutions

Top bands: Got7 uwu.. sad uwu, SNSD Radwimps lol 

Top movies:  uhhhhhhhhhh Howls Moving Castle? more a series kinda gal love the marvel movies tho

America or Europe? Europe. fuck america

Tumblr or Twitter? Twitter

Pro-choice or Pro-life? Pro-Choice!

Favorite YouTuber: was nigahiga but he doesnt do yt anymore uh Megan Batoon! Stephanie Soo is high up OMG Li Zi Qi queen!! Discovered Clickfortaz recently? Babish is also cool staying with food -> Juns kitchen ok probs a lot more but cant think of them rn

Favorite author? i do not remember any author i read except the big names like Cornelia Funke or JKR but fuck her.. so i dont have any

Tea or coffee? Tea always.. although quarantine made me like Dalgona Coffee ? Vietnamese Coffee is nice too but yea tea all the way

OTP? Barney and Robin lmao but yea i dont have one specific couple in mind

Do you play an instrument/sing? Yea.. solid singer if i practice lol but i usually only sing loudly if i am alone at home? and piano and guitar recently .. played violin and if it counts flute

THATS IT BYEEEEEE future uyen lol

[plasticpixiez]

2011-14: VOCALOID nothing BUT vocaloid and utauloid and sprinkle in some touhou

2014-15: i discovered pandora and started listening to nothing but imagine dragons but then i discovered mainstream emo music: panic!, mcr, bmth, fob, ya kno the usual i also discovered halsey, marina, and melanie martinez😭

2016-17: nothing but twenty one pilots. i even went to a concert and got a shirt.

2017-18: i moved schools like around the end of 2017 and a lot of peers listened to rap like tyler the creator and blackbear so i started listening to that..... then i discovered lil peep, ghostmane, and $uicideboy$🤢🤢 i legit cant listen to this music anymore cus i no longer talk to ANY of these ppl but i still listen to tyler sometimes i still like his stuff

2018-19: i watched mamma mia again cus not only did i have no friends but i was in an abusive relationship and i started listening to nothing but abba all the time. i also discovered the group that made the music on this site i used to go on a LOT as a kid called winxclub.us (it doesnt exist anymore ;_;) and theyre called the slumber party girls i also started listening to old pop music i used to like as a kid like p!nk, katy perry, all that stuff. basically everything i used to listen to as a kid but with some abba sprinkled in the mix.

2020: i started listening to my emo music again like around june i believe cus i was doing summer college classes online and it stressed me out. im rly into get scared rn tho idk if they’re considered emo but i used to listen to them a LOT during my emo phase freshman year. and when me and my fiance would hang out wed listen to his music which was nothing but metal music: metallica, slayer, iron maiden, judas priest, black sabbath, etc u name it

now (2021): i still listen to pop music and emo music, but now im starting to get into ozzy osbourne and black sabbath. im also considering icp too cus almost everyone in my area that listens to them are racist af and it confuses the fuck out of me??? but i cant call them out cus theyll be like “uh u dont even listen to icp😐😐” and im just sitting their like but how come ik more abt the group and their messages more than u do😐😐😐

end of the timeline for rn.,,,,, the 2011-14 one is VERY vague cus i actually cant remember ANYTHING from when i was thay young cus everything under 14 is like wiped from my memory excpet 11 cus a lot of shit happened when i was 11