#theres so much more to this than just this scenerio

[old-fandom]

HELLO! I HAVE AN ESTABLISHED TEEN STANCEST IDEA!

Idk what I would call this but basically, it's "Ford is part of a DD&MD group with a bunch of other asshole losers who basically use Ford for his basement and Stan is the stupid but hot twin brother that the guys all talk made shit about both sexually and bullying wise. Ford is pissed about it."

Basically, Ford is invited into a group at high school with a bunch of other outcast losers who decide to let Ford join because he has a basement they can use to play. They used the play at another guys house but their mom kicked them out after they broke one of her coffee tables wrestling over a dice roll. Ford, for the first time, finally has a group of guys that he could call his friends. These "friends" are assholes. They're comic book snobs and misogynistic white knights and anti-deodorant wearing teenager boys. Think incel but less "I want to kill women" and more "I am smarter than everyone here due to my impressive and ultra rare card binder and everyone else is a poser if you don't know this trivia fact!" But none the less, Ford is accepted into the fold. He's able to actually play the game, or at least, be DM, which he doesn't mind! In fact, he likes being in charge. He's still a little shy but he's slowly cracking out of his shell, being less cagey and more open with jabbing back at the others taunts and even being able to continue the flow of conversation effortlessly. He's able to be nerdly aggressive where his threats, his taunts, his nerdy accomplishments that aren't academic are recognized and envied over. It kind of works for the group and Ford is happy.

Except for one thing.

They all have a thing for Stanley.

And Ford hates that they have a thing for Stanley.

Stanley is perfectly happy with Ford having a friend group, especially one that lets him nerd out to the max. He usually doesn't bother them when they're over, either because he doesn't want to be around that much nerdiness or because the smell shuns him away. But this doesn't mean he hasn't gone down there before.

The first time he went down there, it was to tell Ford that Ma wanted him to take a look at the telephone before he went to bed. She thinks one of the wires is loose again and he might need to fix it. Ford says he will and Stan leaves. That's when the comments start up.

They start jaunting about his wit, asking Ford what it's like to have a dumb jock for a brother. Ford defends Stan, saying he's more than just a dumb jock. In fact, he's not really a jock at all, he just likes boxing. But it doesn't stop the conversation. They start sharing stories about Stans exploits around school, whether it be one of his infamous fights with the Cramplter gang or him being so atrociously stupid in class that the teacher walked out. It finally breaks off once someone rolls a Nat 20 and the campaign continues.

But it doesn't stop completely.

Every time Stanly comes down for something, either to tell Ford something, bring the group snacks that their Ma made for them (swiping one for himself), grabbing something for his Pa to sell, or really anything, the group always starts talking about Stanley. And it makes Ford blood boil. He'll defend him alright, and he'll make their campaign a fucking nightmare for everything they've said, but he's scared to really do something. This is the first friend group he's ever had and he doesn't wanna lose it, even though something in him tells him that he'd be better off without them talking shit about Stanley every time he comes down.

Then the faithful day happens when Stan comes down after a shower, no shirt on, hair wet, wearing a part of dolphin shorts as it's the middle of summer. He's down there grabbing a drink from Ford's DD&MD group snack tray. They took the last of the Pit Cola and he'd be damned if he didn't get one. So he does and leaves without really saying anything, unaware of the eyes staring at him all the way.

Ford braces himself for the onslaught of his brother but nothing. The group continues the game like nothing happened. And Ford is excited because maybe they've finally gotten it together, seen that Stan really isn't just those things, he is so much more. He's kind hearted and compassionate, he's artistic and business smart, he's hands on and crafty, he's strong and hunky and good looking and so so sexy and - Ford has to shake his head. Now is not the time to get a boner.

Ford's Ma calls him in the middle of the game for something and he has to leave them for a second. When he comes back and over hears the group talking about Stan but it's not about how stupid he looks - it's about how slutty he is. He stops on the stairs and listens in.

He hears them make incredibly inappropriate remarks about his brother, about what he must look like on his knees, wishing that they put the drinks on the ground so he would have to bend all the way over in those shorts to get it, that if it weren't for his body, he'd be a waste of air. They joke about having sex with them, calling him slurs, doing things to him that Ford knows first hand Stan does not like to do. They talk about his chub, how they mock him for being fat, but hey, at least he has nice tits. They go on and on about it, unaware of the simmering Ford up the stairs. After hearing enough, Ford finally comes down, making them all unaware that he had been listening in on them for 10 minutes.

That session becomes the hardest, most brutal session, where Ford successfully kills all of their characters off. The guys get pissed at Ford, saying he did that shit on purpose, and Ford answers back that they're lucky it was only their characters he killed off and not the real people behind them, especially after those comments. They get into a fight, the guys saying that Ford shouldn't be wasting his time defending a stupid whore like Stanley, he'd only leave and hold back Ford. Ford finally snaps when one the guys mentions how easy it would be to get with Stanley, no matter what.

Ford ends up fist fighting the guys, beating the shit out of each other, breaking and ruining their game, destroying their papers and character sheets and models. His Pa ends up coming down stairs after hearing the commotion and kicks the guys out, telling them they aren't welcome back until they can pay for the broken table. They scramble and Ford is given a talking to about picking better people to hangout with and to clean up the mess.

Ford goes down stairs to find Stan already down there, going over the mess, still in his shorts and no shirt. Ford, still high on adrenaline, runs smack dab into Stanley, pushing him up against the wall and making out with him. Stan has no idea what spurred him on though he does have an inkling. He pushes Ford back just enough to ask him about the fight, seeing how Ford does have bruises on his knuckles.

Ford tells him it wasn't important, that they weren't all that much fun anyway, he'd rather spend his time with Stanley anyway. Stanley doesn't protest too much, and they end up having sex in the basement before cleaning up the mess.

Later that night, Ford does properly take Stan to bed, making love to him and showering him in praise and acceptance. Stan lets him.

He knew going down their in those shorts would cause a stir, he just didn't know it would go so far into his favor.

[dykedvonte]

Ty for answering my asks! Recently, I saw some fanart of the gender bendered crew and it got me curios, how much would the plot change if Jimmy was a woman. I mean, she would still be emotionally abusive (esp to Fem!Curly), but at lest, I guess, the crash would've never happened (?)

Also, her relationship w/ Anya: if she was assulted still, it prolly would've been dissmissed, since it's between 2 women. Or, if Anya is male in this scenario, he couldn't really be able to talk abt it, since society decided that "women can't r*pe men", so it's not serious and he should suck it up. Man, it's just sucks to be Anya in any scenario my poor girl 😭

What do you think? If you have an opinion on that at all, that is

-💀

I think the scenario's where the gender was flipped or any level of gender based intersectionality is expanded makes it so much more complex.

If this is the scenario with fem!Jimmy, it comes with the territory of questionable internalized homophobia. Does Jimmy brush it off in this scenario because she doesn't think lesbian encounters are real ones? Is she struggling with her identity and taking it out on Anya who may be openly queer compared a fem!Curly who is either straight or just not interested in Jimmy? Perhaps it's a sort of weird entitled that can occur in female dominated spaces "We're both girls, I know what you have, it won't matter." It's still is something I don't see Jimmy denying in this scenario, he never really denies it in canon just talks around it with Curly. Here I can see it's less about the pregnancy and more so about the internalized homophobia. Not seeing Anya as anything but an unwanted aspect of her femineity and the allure of it, there's a lot more objectification of both Curly and Anya in this alteration as I would believe feels better thinking of them in that light if they are just fodder in her mind. Guilty pleasures that no longer bring her such. It's a careful situation because I don't want this to fall into predatory lesbian stereotyping, Jimmy is just a person who does not respect other people or their choice, if it conflict with what he wants or perceived is owed.

The idea of Curly having to report it and outing her not only as a rapist but queer and the denial, especially in the case Anya and Curly are both out as she feels a sort of resentment she can't be secure with herself that way. If it is masc!Curly, there could be the jealousy of him being able to actively pursue relationships he wants while she feels she can't, Anya and Curly playfully flirt, its casual but it's something she longs for in the same way she doesn't. She obsesses over Curly because she wishes she could be Curly in a social sense in both aspect male or female Curly.

If it's fem!Jimmy and masc!Anya? It's a much more delicate situation. In this scenario Jimmy gets pregnant. Maybe Anya does a blood test after the incident and finds out Jimmy is pregnant. It's a very sensitive matter because if it's fem!Curly her first assumption is Anya may have done something. That is just the immediate assumptions in cases like this. I think the fact that Anya is telling her would make Curly think it's not that simple, especially since Jimmy isn't brining it up or really caring but everyone reacts differently. Jimmy is pregnant however, and that's a big deal, she'll figure that out eventually on her own but how will she react? Curly knows it won't be good, Anya knows too.

I think the crash is instigated in this scenerio by fem!Curly actually doing more, refusing to sweep it under the rug because she can conceptualize that fear, likely she and Jimmy are the only girls on board. She trusts everyone, well did trust everyone, but it's just something you live with. She can't just live with that double standard but I feel like she really doesn't know how to address it. How does she bring it up to superiors without implicating Anya? What does she do with Jimmy, it still feels like she's catering to Jimmy but now the concern is primarily focused on the life this baby will be born into. If it is born at all. I don't think Jimmy would try to kill Anya in this concept but try to spin the narrative it was mutual up until she got pregnant. Curly doesn't really buy it but it's a lot of processing, a lot more he said she said but what Jimmy is saying just doesn't make sense. It gives Jimmy too much time to really settle with the fact she's pregnant and likely can't support a kid nor wants to give birth out in space. Jimmy feeling like she's being othered from the only other woman could also be a factor, maybe even starting into her thinking Curly is behaving like a "pick-me" for siding with a guy over her. The crash is more spiteful in terms of having to protect herself alone, due to Curly not outright supporting her delusions.

It really adds a certain horror to Jimmy's pregnancy hallucinations because after the crash they are about her, her symptoms the sign of showing. She doesn't want the child either and considering what being pregnant can do to your mental/physical state, especially some of the more negative symptoms, I doubt she is handling it well. A lot of Anya's struggles are with the stigmas around male victims. His body reacted so did he want it? He's gonna be a father and courts likely will make him pay or care for the baby even if they take Anya's side, their world is just like that. Would the other's blame him for not doing more, he is a man after all? Should he be considered lucky a woman was that into him? It's eating away at him because not only does he not feel safe, he actively blames himself.

In the case Curly is still a cis guy, its that weird feeling guys often get when talking about male victims of assault. I don't think he'd victim blame but he likely asks or thinks about how it could've happened, why wouldn't Anya just overpower Jimmy? Maybe he couldn't? Maybe Anya didn't have it in him to strike a woman. He wouldn't. Now he thinks of what he would have done if Jimmy did something like that to him. SImilary to my trans!Curly post, he's wondering if it could've been him. It's likely one of the first times in his life he has to think of that type of vulnerability in terms of himself and other men and against likely his girl best friend. I think that arm pat right before Jimmy crashes the ship would really make him feel weird, not like he'd have the time to really dig into those feeling but y'know WERE GONNA CRASH!!!.

In terms of Jimmy and Curly's specific relationship, it just gets messier if they aren't both guys or girls. There's a lot of misogny on Jimmy's side with fem!Curly. He often points out she's a woman captain or makes a point of her being one of the few independent woman in her field and how certain men hate that. It's insidious but Curly doesn't think about or like to cause she likes to believe Jimmy isn't one of those guys. He can be a bit antiquated, maybe a bit of a pig but no ones perfect! Here a lot of his resentment is more gear toward a woman having that power over him as Captain/filling the typical male roles he fails at. He can't stand that she's above him in almost aspect and he likely takes it out on other women. Similarly, fem!Jimmy and cis Curly is just as bad. It's a fact of not knowing if she wants to be him, wants him or wants to destroy him. It's obsession without anything positive. She feels entitled to his space and life and time and he has a hard time setting up boundaries cause, well, Jimmy's a girl, his bestfriend and it comes with all the stigmas around boygirl best friends. To him it's a sort of oppressive doting, he feels wrong telling her not to pick and like he's being controlling. That's how she'd spin it whenever he'd try to make boundaries with her.

They are still just friends but most people can't tell even if they can tell it's not healthy, in both cases. Either way I feel like if they were opposite genders to each other there would a specific infatuation Jimmy would have with Curly that would be less hidden but sort of unaddressed because the idea of Curly rejecting them would make them lash out in a way Curly may just leave for their safety. It's also Jimmy wouldn't want to be with Curly specifically but just want what would consistently provide/available.

If they are both girls, its envy. It's that sort of hate that someone fits the standards you don't, wanting them to be picked second or crack. She likes to get into Curly's head, point out flaws and act like it's just her being helpful. She wants Curly to be a girls girl but only for her. There's a sort of possessiveness like purposely jeopardizing relationships because why would a man come first? That girl hates me and is a pick me, why are you friends with her still, Curly? Like this is silly but think about how Regina George treats Gretchen Wieners and that's effectively how fem!Curly and fem!Jimmy would work but technically Curly has the sway of Regina.

I believe the crash would always happen. Jimmy would try to escape responsibility or really thinking about what they did in any world, any gender. It's about facing the consequences, losing things he refuses to let go of or having to deal with responsibilities he's not ready for. The switching of sex or gender really doesn't change those core aspects.

[orphiclovers]

okay here is the theory/headcanon i mentioned in this post

both han sooyoung and kim dokja decide that the best way to get yoo joonghyuk's trust is by saying they're prophets, even knowing his anna croft history. they both refer to the 46th scenerio in their 'make me your companion' speeches (implied to be what 41!shin yoosung told him to make him trust her during the 2nd round) so clearly this is a tried and true method, and they expect it to work.

and yeah, anna croft betrayed him in the 2nd round, but this doesn't seem to make him distrust all people with future knowledge, just her? He also still tries to seek out The Disaster of Floods help in his next round (and when that fails he turns to kim dokja). He very much still wants a prophet to tell him what to do, anna croft just wasn't the one

i don't know if he has no faith in his own decision making skills but the second someone other than him proves capable of making a plan, he follows that one instead. (and the only thing yjh sees as making you capable is knowing the future - so usually its only him unless he meets another prophet)

he doesnt even need to know what the plan is! he will follow it even when it actively makes things worse for him and against his better judgement, just because a prophet says so. (even 1863, who has literally more knowledge than any other round, still decides to follow hsy's plan over his own)

and im not kidding about the 'against his better judgment'. he lets hsy let his sister die. he doesnt kill anna croft because kim dokja said so. WHYYYYY SUCH TRUST YJH DIDNT WE LEARN FROM ANNA??? i kind of get kim dokja, but there is no love lost between him and 1863!hsy. yet he still follows her plan to a T.

my theory is that yoo joonghyuk's blind faith in prophets makes sense if theres some remnants of the 0th round in his subconsoious memory.

the round where he got carried through the scenerios and reached the end bc dkos was giving him future knowledge. and he doesnt remember this, but what if subconsciously, he knows that he reached the end with future knowledge once? so it should be possible once more?

do you think yoo joonghyuk looks at prophets in hopes one of them might be the the one he doesnt even know hes searching for?

[vhsdruid]

my most beloved joop and mason... i am taking the opportunity to info dump about my ocs (BEWARE OF CRINGE)

for those who dont know, goop and mason are my favorite original characters that i dedicate all of my daydreaming to. they originate from a fateful sims 4 session of 2019 wherein the name generator suggested "goopy" and i made him go do gay freak stuff with some npc named mason. now i think about them everyday and i cant turn it off!

they have relatively set personalities, certain themes and ideas, but i kinda just play Touys with them and insert them in a variety of stories/universes/scenerios/whatever because im unwell. they have to kiss in all of them

THE WORLD(S)

outside from various self indulgent one-offs ("one of us is a vampire" or "theres only one bed and we have to share...!!!" kind of shit), there are TWO primary worlds:

set in a modern (2000s?) colorado. a small town bartender, mason, meets goop, who is just a dragon and the only anthro animal guy thing. no one questions this, its not that important.

an original fantasy world. mason is a knight (in universe, these are more akin to an independent private eye or muscle for hire, rather than serving a ruler or anything like that). when sent to capture the sought and elusive beast of the woods, the dragon, they end up developing a relationship instead. this one is usually better for imagining AMVS to edgy music with blood and stuff

GOOP

a flamboyant stoner dragon man. reads confident, but actually extremely anxious and always masking. manages his anxiety with weed, probably to an unhealthy degree. impulsive and scatter brained. few if any friends. all he wants is to belong somewhere.

his hobbies include ecology, photography, daydreaming, collecting

i became really attached to joop over the years and sort of stumbled into drawing him to depict myself... so he just ended up becoming my fursona too. i consider his Fursona Edition and Original Character Editions to be separate entities with some overlap. i shant be elaborating further because i dont really understand either.

i have also spent significant time developing goops species and it's evolutionary development (re: im unwell) b ut i think that is a little outside of the purview of this ask...

MASON

a rather sociable man in his early to mid 30s. partially raised by his neglectful father and partially raised working on a ranch. well liked in his local community, but struggles with actual intimate relationships and understanding his own emotions. so deep in the closet he doesnt even realize hes gay. usually acts as a straight man to goops dragon nonsense. feels nice and warm to be around...

his hobbies include journaling, hiking, athletics, video games (he likes animal crossing), trying different beer and spirits

canonically he's a human, but occasionally i will depict him as a dog furry bc humans are hard to draw

there are other characters that exist in these universes (lawrence, avery, holly, eden, etc.) but they are not as well developed currently.

MUCH MORE THAT COULD BE SAID BUT i am already supremely embarassed so imjust gonna stop here. tldr gay people in my head i like them a lot :)

[fluffallamaful]

I am ALWAYS here for tummy tickles. Elaborate?

ok ok ok ok ok thank you thank you thank you!! so there’s multiple scenerios that come to mind, but here’s one from Soups Demolition AU

went a bit ham :D (below)

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concept (Demolition AU):

i’m imaging squeaky floor boards and flickering shadows as a few of the guards enter dream’s wooden shack one night. dream is asleep on the couch, a woollen blanket covering most of his body, with one of his legs out and resting up on the arm rest. one of his arms is draped over his body, the other is over his face. his body is dimly lit by the warm glow of a burning candle.

the guards have entered to check on him, as well as deliver him his dinner. they haven’t seen any movements in the shack all day, and they almost feel bad about interrupting such a soft atmosphere. it’s the most relaxed they’ve seen dream in weeks.

immediately, one of them points out that he hasn’t eaten his dinner or breakfast from last night or this morning. it’s still sitting on the kitchen table from when it was delivered. they have no choice but to wake him.

he stirs a little when one of them brushes through his hair, eyes fluttering open and arm slipping down from his face. he flinches when he sees them all staring down at him, and then groans when they tell him that they’re just checking in on him. can’t they just leave him alone??

they gently pry away his blanket and remind him of his food. he seems disinterested. he tells them he’s not hungry. his stomach rumbles. they tell him that part of him disagrees. he flinches when they poke at his tummy

they try convince him to sit up and at least have some of the meal that they had brought for him today. it’s a steak and carrot stew. it smells delicious. he stubbornly declines and tries to pull back his blanket, hiding himself under his pillow when he fails. his stomach rumbles again.

one of the guards wiggles a finger over his tummy and playfully tells him that he should listen to his belly. dream’s skin twitches and jumps but it doesn’t get a reaction more than that, not until the guard adds in a couple more wiggly fingers.

theres a gasp beneath the pillow, followed by silence as dream’s stomach sucks in to hold his breath. his skin flutters and twitches as the guard slowly scratches at the skin. there’s a few soft coos from the others watching. a swipe to the belly button results in another gasp, and then a few wiggles on his lower stomach breaks dream enough for tiny muffled giggles to escape from under the pillow

the guards ask if dream’s tummy might be trying to tell him something else. they start squeezing at the sensitive skin. dream hugs his pillow tight to his face and squirms. his foot thumps against the armrest. they point out that dream really should listen to his tummy more, it clearly wants attention. one of them tries to pull the pillow away and dream’s knuckles go white with how much he fights it. he can feel how warm the pillow is from his cheeks.

they start playfully sympathising with his tummy, referring to it as though it has the ability to listen (hehe). they pout and ask if dream has been ignoring it. they pull up his shirt and place kisses into the skin to make up for his neglect. they point out how red it is, how it really wants dream to listen to it. dream squirms and kicks but never brings his hands away from his pillow to stop it. they ask it if it’s hungry. they ask if it wants some raspberries. they take dream’s hiccups of anticipation as a yes,, as excitement. they raspberry all over his tummy and then claim that they’re feeling a bit hungry too. they give him nibbles.

at one point dream does actually bring a hand down from his pillow. he pushes weakly at the guards’ hands and they immediately take the hint. they pull down his shirt and rub at his tummy. he allows them to take away his pillow and they all coo gently at how flushed he is. they suggest that they all eat dinner together tonight and he shyly nods in agreement. dream’s tummy is the happiest it’s been in weeks :)

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[thehoundwrites]

Hihi!! Is it okay if I request sevika smut where she has a breeding kink and uses a strapon with her fem!s/o? (Both adults) It's more than okay if you want to ignore this request seeing as most people can be uncomfortable with this topic!! ❤️

Dont worry, it's my absolute pleasure to write this.

It's a scenerio/headcanon mix btw

NSFW WARNING; breeding kink, daddy kink, s$m, dirty talk, rough sex, choking, humiliation/degrading.

Sevika

Sevika knows how to make her partners feel good, you certainly weren't an exception. In fact she was more likely to give you more than the others since you're her girlfriend. She uses an excessively bigger strap-on than needed, she loves filling you up completely, watching you get flustered just by how big it is.

She likes to tease you at first, rubbing the tip on your aching clit, watching your needy cunt grasp for her. Letting the head brush around your lips. "You want daddys cock so bad don't you princess?" Shell make you beg, waiting for you to sound desperate enough, practically tearing up with need for her.

When she's satisfied she'll shove as much as she can in all at once, she's not cruel though she got you ready, you're already wet and clinging to her. She had you ride her thigh, you ate her out and whatever else it was. She has her metal arm gripping your thigh spreading you with her iron hand and her own thigh.

She wants you on your back so she can see how good she makes you feel, watch your eyes squint shut, your hands desperately trying to grip at her. Her wrists, arm. Anything. Her good hands gripping your chin as she fucks you making you look at her.

"Fuck, you look so good with daddys cock inside you princess." She likes to stick her thumb in your mouth when she's grabbing you by your chin. She's rough, she lifted your hips up at an angle and hold the curve of your hips as she fucks you. Throwing in phrases like; "Just lay there and look pretty for me. You're daddys pretty little cumslut. You like when daddy fills you up like this? You're so fucking tight princess. You make daddy want to fill you up with cum." She is going to degrade you to no end throwing in little sprinkles of praise only to humiliate you right after.

The minute she realizes how into it you get she'll go over the top. "That's right milk daddys cock. My pretty little whore. You want daddys cum so bad" Shell probably mock you. If you say yes. She'll repeat in a condescending tone "yea~?" And chuckle at you. She'll make you beg to cum and wants you to scream her name as you do. And then again and again until she's done with you.

By the time the two of you are done there's a hand print on your thigh, you throat hurts and theres marks all over your neck. She'd kiss the tip of your nose and let you lay on her thighs as she smokes a cigar and drinks, offering you alcohol, and using her good hand to comb through your hair.

[alltoolewis]

30 with lando pls

"Ride me."- Lando Norris.

Summary- you and lando celebrate his highest placing poduim after you comfort his nerves before the Italian grand prix....

Words- 1808...

(Warnings- Alot of fluff & smut! 18+! You've been warned!)

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You couldn't believe how quickly it all flew by. It felt like just yesterday when you met him... you the new photographer for McLaren, who didn't have a clue about F1, moving away from everything you knew to travel round the world taking pictures of cars worth more than your credit card & him, the new rookie, who had so much confidence on the track but who had near to none when it came to speaking to women... until you came along & And now here you were... 3 years later, moved in together, traveling the world doing the thing both of you loved & what a better way than doing that together.

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Your hands trembled just looking at him pacing the room,you could tell he was nervous.. I mean who wouldn't be, starting P3 in one of the most anticipated races of the calendar....

"Baby your making me dizzy" you giggled,slowly making your way over to him as he reaches for your clammy hand.

"Im sorry" he sighed, leaning into your touch as you pulled him closer "just nervous... I mean with all the pressure of me and danny starting up the grid & McLaren not having the season they hoped for, its just getting to me.. and you-" stopping himself, he looked deep into your eyes and for the first time you could see the panic and fear glossing his eyes like smoke...

"Im what baby?" You whispered, gently tracing your fingers though his newly combed locks, an action that you knew relaxed him...

"Your here..."

Confusion washed over you gently let go of him, taking a step back to watch his new fear wash over him..

"I can stay back here lando... if I'm the one making you nervous... I'm sure they wont mind me sitting out on this one, they have so many talented photographers, they won't miss m-"

Put of nowhere lando pulled you closer, locking your lips with his, taking all the unnecessary words out of your mouth.

"I'll miss you" lando mumbled against your lips, before pulling away pushing your forehead against yours...

"Your not the issue baby.. its just I know how dangerous this track is & I just don't want you to see anything that you shouldn't.... I couldn't cope with mysel-"

This time is was you to interrupt him, lifting up his chin to meet your.

"Lando I know the drill.... its not my first rodeo baby, every race is a dangerous one... I knew what I signed up for the minute I started falling in love with you & guess what... I dont regret one bit & you know why...?"

"Why?" He whispered, voice full of uncertainty.

"Because you.." you sighed, locking your lips with him again "are the best driver on that grid and you I've never been more proud of anything or anyone in my life.... your gonna be okay... and im gonna be right there for here for you, together forever eh?" You say, smirking as you see his face light up at your words, reaching out for your outstretched hand, locking your fingers as he repeated your words..

"Together forever"...

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"How many more laps left??" You sighed, hands beginning to tremble as you looked at the monitor, lando dropping down to 6th after his pit.

"26" zac sighed as he sat next you, placing a hand on your knee "hes doing well you know.... he a supers-"

However zak never got to finish his praise as gasps fill the garage, looking up to see Max's car ontop of Lewis's. Heart skipping a beat as you realised just how close it was to being lando...

"I have to go- I... what if it was him.. he was so close to them he was only a second away... what if" you whispered all the possible scenerios as tear filled your eyes, causing zac to pull you closer...

"Listen... you can't live your life with what ifs (y/n).. it could of been him but guess what it wasn't andd look where he is know!" He smiles looking up at the monitor just as lando overtakes Charles, reaching p2.

"I mean you could leave... but Together forever I heard?" Zac smirks as he places a headset on your knee as he gets up to get back to his place... "just in case you want to pop in and check up on him... you stresshead"

As the lap count increased, so did your heart rate, as you seen lando still at p2 with 1 lap to go and a 2 second gap between him and perez. Hands hesitating to pick up the headset that remained on your knee like a safety blanket. Only picking it up as the mclaren garage erupts in applause, not only has lando picked up his highest ever poduim but Daniel won!

'Lets fucking go lads' lando screeches as you place the headset on, zac giving you a little nod, letting you know you can talk to him.

"Baby" you whisper through the mic, voice trembling with pride and emotion.

"(Y/n)!!! We did it! We fucking did it!!" Lando screams as he makes his way to the last corner..

"We lando?!? I didn't do anything but hid behind zac the whole time" causing lando to chuckle before the set goes dead and the garage yet again erupts... letting you know the mclarens have parked up.

Lando was the first one out, immediately running over to zac and the rest of the team, and although you could tell he was ecstatic, apart of you knew that he was gonna be disappointed about not getting p1... but he's a team player & at the end of the day thats all that matters.

After the hugs from the team, it was your turn to be pulled into your sweaty boyfriends arms, in the biggest bear hug you've ever been given.

"I'm sooo proud of you baby" you whisper, running your hand through is wet locks. Tears welling your eyes for what felt like the 50th time today.

"I love you so much" he screamed, picking your feet of the ground as he twirled you around, so fast you would of sworn he would of got the fastest lap!

"And by the way" he smirks, locking your lips with his "theres no me without you...."

However your sweet moment was inturpted as you get rudely pulled away from eachother by a certain ecstatic Australian....

"Alright love birds, plenty of that later" grabbing lando by the shoulders, pushing him towards the poduims "continue that later please, me and loverboy here have a shoey to do"

Your heart melts as you hear landos laugh, even from 10 meters away, but nothing made your race more than seeing him mouth the words anyone would dream about hearing.....

"Cant wait too rip them clothes off".....

And by lord did he keep his promise, not even being able to close the door before your 'mclaren 4' tshirt was pulled from your body.

"Ive been dying to do this from the moment I crossed that line" lando groaned as he pushed against the wall, using all his last energy, locking his lips with yours. Tounges fighting for dominance as he unhooks your bra, throwing it carelessly across the room.

Before you knew it you thrown on the bed, just as carelessly as your long forgotten bra.

"How the fuck did I get this lucky" lando moaned as he hovers over your already shaken body, eyes gazing over your bare body, filling with not only with lust but love....

Sitting up you, you lock your lips again....

"I should be saying that too you.." you mumble against his mouth, flipping your body ontop of his as your hands trace down his bare chest.

"Ahh taking in charge I see" he smirks, throwing his arms at the back of his head, as your unbutton his belt, seeing his hard cock push against the poorly made cotton.

"Only the best for my champion" you whisper, pulling down the last layer before getting to work. Lips locking over the tip, as you look straight in his eyes, making sure he can see the collection of pre-come of your tounge as it traces on his tip.

"Fuck doll..." lando wheezed as your hand goes up and down his shaft, his hands pulling your hair back as you take him deeper down your throat. His groans filling the room as your eyes welled up for a different reason this time as you feel his tip against the back of your throat, however you didnt have time to enjoy your meal for any longer as he pulls you away. Leaning down, he latches your lips to his, moaning as he tastes himself on your tounge.

"Dont want to finish in your mouth"

Laying back down, throwing one of your legs over his waist causing you to straddle him....

"Ride me." He demands, and like the good girl you were you took no time to fulfill his needs. Pulling out a condom from under the pillow he wa layed on..

"Dont judge me.. i knew this was gonna happen"

Lando chuckled as you slipped the condom on him, positioning yourself before sinking on him, Causing both of your breaths to hitch...

"Fuck (y/n)... how the fuck are you still this tight after 3 years of fucking you" lando moaned as your hips start to rock against his waist, finding your familiar rhythm as his hands find your waist. The sound of skin slapping could only be heard, as you allowed him to fill you up.

"Fuck lando" you yell throwing your hand back as he places his hand on your clit, matching the rhythm of your hips "dont stop" you scream as he picks up the pace.

Using his free hand to continue guiding your hips on his cock, pushing his hips up to meet yours.

Moans filled the air, both of you knowing full well that the rest of the mclaren could hear your 'private celebration' however neither you seemed to care as your screams filled up the room.

"Im so close" you sigh as lando continues to meet your hips half way, leaning down to meet his lips.

"Me too baby... fuck me too"

Without out any more warnings, lando let go, feeling his seed fill up the condom that was still thrusting inside you.

"Come on baby let go" lando yelled, hand moving faster against your clit as he, attaches onto your sensitive tits. Something that he knew could bring you to cum hust on its own...

"Fuck!!!" You scream as the pleasure washes over you, collapsing on his chest as you both tried to catch your breath.

"I love you so much" he whispered as he pulled your swollen lips into one last kiss..

"I love you too lando" you whispered back, leaning back into his chest as he begins to comb his fingers through your hair, a action that after 3 years of love he knew would instantly put you to sleep... and like everything that boy does, he never fails...

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Your hawks hcs was just whoa ❤🙌 can i request for nsfw hcs (or a scenerio, im cool with both) for having a friends with benefits type of relationship with kaminari and bakugou (seperate)

these are so bad and dry im so sorry anon T_T it’s also my first time writing for the Bakuhoe. 

Also pls keep in mind that these characters are in their third year, making them 18.

Warning(s): rough sex, over-stimulation, edging, electrostimulation

Friends with benefits (head canons) - Bakugo Katsuki, Denki Kaminari x (g/n)Reader

Bakugo Katsuki

You both hate each other, but that’s because you both are too stubborn to accept that you are sexually attracted to each other. Your first time hooking up was in the UA dorms kitchen at 3am when Bakugo was scolding you for making so much noise while trying to make some tea. You were pissed off already so it got a bit steamy when you started to fight back.

The next day you both are ignoring each other, not even going off at each other like you both usually do. But you both did crave more of each other and you find yourself falling under the pressure first, forcing him to talk to you about it later during the day, which also ended up in a small quickie

Your friends with benefits relationship was only surviving upon the times that you both just needed to release some stress and relax. Whenever Bakugo got angry from his friends, his studies or training, you could find him barging into your room to let off a bit. Anytime you were stressed out by anything, you always found yourself knocking on his door. But each time, either of you were quick to leave the other’s room after you both were done, it was something that Bakugo was specific about

SO MUCH ANGRY SEX OH LOOORDDDD. Bakugo just fucking you raw against the wall, or you pinning his wrists down as you ride the fuck out of his cock. So much degradation and humiliation and just so much rough sex. You can’t not expect to be crying in pleasure by the end of the night

You both find it better to hide it from everyone, and it is easy at first, because you both try to keep up your normal behaviour with each other up in front of everyone else, but then it starts to get tiring so you both just start acting a bit friendlier with each other. Everyone notices this but they would rather not comment about it if it involves Bakugo. He becomes more teasing towards you and helps you train, and you help him with his health and become just as teasing

However, you both are busy and Bakugo is good with self-discipline, so he doesn’t allow the relationship to aspire into anything bigger

Your sex life with each other is full of quickies and kinks, but nothing too extreme. Sometimes the topics of your arguments with each other are that you both leave marks on each other and get questioned in the locker rooms by your friends. The farthest you both go with the kinks is public sex in the UA dorms. You should expect taking money from Bakugo to compensate for how many clothes he burns or tears up

Your relationship stops once you all graduate, but if you guys manage to live nearby, expect Bakugo to show up at your place after an exhausting fight, needing someone to treat him for the night (in more than one way). You both will be too busy to maintain a relationship and your friends with benefit lifestyle continues for a while until your feelings bite you in the ass :*

 Denki Kaminari

How you both first started this relationship was during a study session. You both were slightly delirious from the late night, maths equations and the caffeine, and you couldn’t help but wonder what his quirk would feel like in bed. So you asked him if he’d ever used it for such purposes. He said he hadn’t but wouldn’t mind trying ;). That resulted in a small and fun ‘study’ session where you got the answers to your maths questions and your other questions

Besides just stress, your relationship thrives off of whenever your hormones like to fuck with you both the most (basically when you get horny af). You’ve never texted someone ‘up still up’ or ‘u free rn?’ this much before, but you weren’t complaining

Denki can’t help but become friendlier towards you, even in front of everyone else and one day he slips up really bad, exposing you both. It was during a truth and dare game the class was playing, and one question led to the discussion of sex and kinks, and at one particular kink that you liked, Denki blurted out, “Oh yeah, that one’s amazing, y/n and I try it out all the time.”

You basically blue-balled him for the rest of the week after that

The kinks that you both explore range from electrostimulation to roleplaying and LOTS of femdom. The relationship helps you both explore a lot of new things. Denki becomes extremely teasing with you, and vice versa, and its led to some dangerous experiments that you both love to conduct during the school hours. After your sessions, you both do stay with each other, basking in the after care before returning to your rooms with a new shine to yourselves

THERES A WHOLE LOTTA EDGING, TEASING AND OVERSTIMULATION IN THIS LIFESTYLE. You both at least go for multiple rounds and you both enjoy the pleasurable pain that comes from your overstimulated bodies. You guys just love testing each others limits and taking it to the max

Unlike Bakugo, Denki is more prone to develop feelings during your relationship and that eventually leads to a lot of sessions where you both really just cuddle and talk about things. You both never really ask each other out, but it’s always seemed like you’ve dated from the very beginning

Whether you both continue this relationship depends on where you both end up after graduation

[numbaoneflaya]

Who would win in a fight, Iron Bull or Pisswolf? Throw Alistair in there too but i feel like hed be tossed aside like a wet noodle

Like in a fair, no weapons, human form one on one just knuckles? Id say Bull, maybe.

What bulls got going for him: 

- Physically larger ofc. Has a good foot and a half on Vince.

-More training in combat, survived Seheron, better at reading body language and what vince would do next.

-Vincents used to being the big guy on campus and being able to easily beat anyones ass so hed be unprepared for someone taller and also strong as shit

What Vinces got going for him:

- raw rage of a big dog off the leash whos pissed that theres a dog bigger than him at the dog park 

- Though hes smaller than Bull, Id say theyr about almost matched in plain strength 

In a full combat fight Also bull, as vince lacks discipline and training.

BUT if its Vince very close to the full moon, or when hes in Wolf form, hed be the winner in both scenerios as he lacks the ability to feel real pain and will keep going for the kill no matter how gravely injured. The full moon also makes him much stronger and faster and more aggressive, so id say Bull is fucked.

Alistair would indeed be tossed around like a wet noodle but atleast bull would be nice about it. Not throw him too hard or break anything. But pisswolf would be an asshole about it definitelly. The only way Ali would win would be if Thurwen was there on the sidelines glaring at the other two and scaring the shit out of them so theyr too afraid to hurt him gfdgsdg

[galebreath]

fuckit. i’m doing it. 

 What I really love bout sanemi is the fact that he has a lot of strengths as a fighter but of course this goes towards all pillars and demon slayers of the serious but theres a huge difference in sanemi. During the fight with UM1 he is constantly getting praised by koku and the first to make him start trying. 

Despite being alive for a long time koku says this was the first time he saw someone able to pull something like that off ----- I’m not saying sanemi is the only person who can pull it off but something that is really difficult to do. 

Sanemi is probably one of the pillars with most experience and due to that he is ranked through experience amoung the pillars. He honed his skills differently and is complimented again by UM1 saying that Hime and sanemi could have been the strongest among the pillars. yes he is my muse and I love him to be strong but through the fight against UM1 I think the other pillars wouldn't be able to stand up against UM1.

But also a swing @ sanemi. he was saved countless times by his comrades throughout the fight causing him to survive a lot longer but I will not mark that down crucially because mui and genya are pinned down almost effortlessly by UM1 and I will always say because of experience. If Mui had sanemi level of experience and him being a prodigy then it would be almost a no contest.

That is all I can actually muster at the moment. I love sanemi and his moves and his devotion to slaying just to keep his little brother safe, even though it was all for nothing. He has nothing to live for and that just makes him a bit more dangerous with his skills. 

COMPLETELY DIFF SIDENOTE WHICH IS JUST ME BRAINSTORMING IN THE MOMENT.

Another side note would be wind breathing compared to Moon breathing bc I just like the idea of them being trained together at the very start but bc of koku moon breath never went down in history bc of him becoming a demon was lost and the closest would be wind breathing.

it may be just the drawing but if I did not know about moon breathing in general I would think that the both of them were sending out the same techniques and just to add onto that koku did train with the first wind pillar. 

Koku did state that he had went through a similar scenerio before(?) he became a demon with the first wind pillar. 

if you actually read through all of this then thank you so much. I really love this muse and its been a long time since I’ve had fun with one. its not a flex about sanemi being strong but just acknowledging him more than just someone whos constantly angry. 

[ts-akhmim]

Episode 5 | “Wish me luck America” - Dan

I wanted a swap, i practically BEGGED for one because i was ready to cause chaos, so i swap happens .... but its NOT good for me whatsoever because all the people i wanted to flip on and get out somehow end up on the other tribe, and to make it even better, what sole beauty do i get stuck with? connor. yet ANOTHER person lying to my face STILL TELLING ME I WASNT A VOTE OPTION...... just another fool on the list of fools who think IM the fool so this is an interesting dynamic, 4 original brawn, 2 brain, 2 beauty. off the bat it looks like those 4 brawn could be solid, so ive already been working to talk to the brains tribe during the one world twist, so being with autumn and duncan could potentially be good for me, obviously i dont know how theyre feeling but in a perfect world i want to allign with the brains. As much as i would love to vote out connor right away just to send a big old middle finger to the alliance that included him over me in it, but im not sure that can happen. My only hope right now is that there's a crack within the brawn, if there is i can try and get in good with connor to maybe see about uniting with the brains and taking out a brawn, even if it meant 4-4 and going to rocks, im here to play so id absolutely do that. If the brawns arent that tight however, and i can just flip one to want to work with me, i can use that as an opportunity to start a new alliance maybe with the brains and a brawn to vote out connor/anyone else not in our numbers, not sure yet, theres so many scenerios game wise but i think especially in the last 24 hours ive talked a lot of game with people, so i need to calm down on that and get back to personal conversations to try and estabilish trust with anyone i might need down the line, if we even go to tribal which im hoping we just dont, because then not only am i safe, but i get to hopefully see someone on the other side go home, and i would love for it to be one of the frauds amir, augusto, or kendall. but its also terrifying since connor is such a wild card like what if he flipped to the brauns or the brains linked up with the brawn to pick me off? basically if im gonna survive this swap, i need a little bit of luck, a little bit more strategy, and some more connections to get me through, i thought thats what i was doing before though and it clearly didnt work too well so buckle the fuck up because i have no idea where we go from here 

lmao remember a few hours ago when i said i hated this swap because it didnt give me much opportunity? well little did i know was all i had to do was bat my eyes a little and opportunity appeared right before me! meaning that, ive been trying to talk to and connect with some of these new people, ive had decent talks with liam and ali mostly, and i was trying to keep game talk minimal up until LIAM out of no where says to me, "oh i just realized someone on this tribe voted me out in a past game and i voted him out" so BITCH the second he says this all sorts of bells and buzzers are going off in my head like spill the tea i need to know!! and what does he say?? it's CONNOR. BITCH cue the choir and let the angels descend from above because im in HEAVEN hearing this!!! there's 16 people left and while i really think we have a strong tribe to win challenges so we may never go to tribal, if we do ive already begun shoving connor so far under the bus there wont be any time for him to get up by the time he realizes what hit him. I'm giving you Miss Rosa in orange is the new black running over Vee REALNESS SWEETIE. VROOM VROOM WATCH OUT BECAUSE HERE I COME. My favorite quote of all time is: the enemy of my enemy is my friend, and that's absolutely what ive been playing up here whether i can actually trust these brawns or not is beside the point, because right now i know for a fact i cant trust connor, he's still lying to me telling me i was never a target, so i have no use or even want to play with someone who thinks im an idiot. On a tribe of 8 you only need 5, and i am absolutely not opposed to setting myself up to be in a position where im the swing vote, if i make sure the brawns feel like they need me, and same with the brains, then i should be essentially... ok? until a merge??? maybe unless everyone here is lying to me too, most likely because im not a good player so im probably being duped dfhkasj I've also been working hard to try and let people in on the narrative that the beautys have this majority alliance and are a threat, because i want to do as much as i can to put a target on their back and get them out, while also opening up to hopefully let people know they can trust me, and i want people to still think im weak so im also going for that pity card playing it up how no one over there would talk to me and saying how bad it was, i shouldve watched what i said though because i did foolishly let Ali know about the tomb and how to crack it, i didnt mean to and i wasnt thinking we were just having such a good convo and while i do like talking to him, i have no idea if i can trust him with that so great job at my dumbass for giving myself more competiion in the tomb .... i went back in tonight and ill be damned there's new questions so i SHOULDVE kept my lips shut and i couldve had it to myself, but whatever, at least if he finds it he remembers who led him there, i also dont want to rely on any idols or advantages, let's do this the old school way and get shit done, and get these people out of here, one false beauty at a time, until im the last one standing!! and aj... we still trust aj he can stay, but the rest they can go and then they can lemme know how that alliance works out for them.

Woooo! I made it to the swap!!! My swapped tribe is actually pretty cute bc it’s a lot of the people I really talked with during the chaos round. I am concerned about the 4-2-2 split we have being an issue, but I have to trust my new former relationships will at least make me not the first person targeted. I’m so relieved to be swapped with Jakey because Jordan and Ali are definitely scary players and having them on the other side with the potential of being voted out (and not having to do it myself later) is honestly good. Jakey is more of a MOTR player and someone who I actually enjoy talking to about game and non game stuff so I’m excited to hopefully position him as my number 1 in this game. With all THAT being said.... Devon and I have played before and I literally blindsided him while working with him so I’m worried about that. My other concern is that me and Amir go way back... I love Amir, I’m just nervous about his ability as a game player. I’m just praying that we can win some comps in the swap so I don’t need to address any of these issues fksmjsjsjs. Wish me luck America. 

the way i'm going to be the last person in the challenge who determines the tiebreak... which could keep me safe but seal jakey's fate... god this is so upsettingggg

I meant to do this earlier, but quick recap on my thoughts on the tribe swap. First, I'm elated to see that I have a majority of the Brawn on this tribe. I have Jordan who I'm closely aligned with, and I have both Liam and Ali who I've been working with and have a good game relationship with. That's where my initial excitement ended. Because the Brains and Beauty who I talked to the most during the One World Day - Devon, Scott, Kendall, Augusto - all ended up on the other tribe rather with my closest ally in Jakey whereas I got two Beauty who I hadn't talked to and two Brain who, while I was optimistic about, were more concerning in terms of their thoughts about me. But I'm going back to that social game I've been working on and I truly think that this swap is going to work well for me. I think I've specifically been building some good relationships with Adam and Duncan that will help me not be the target if a Brain/Beauty coalition forms. But now I just need to see if I can get through this damn tomb and go from there.

Whew! It's been a few days since I made one of these and boy do I have a lot of tea to spill! So after voting out Devon, a twisto's twist comes into play where we all go to one world and vote someone back into the game. I lowkey had a feeling this would happen... Like I really spent all day getting the HIGHEST score in that immunity challenge only for Devon to get voted back in 15-0-0. Nothing really important happened here except that Austin did a shitty campaign job and Lovelis just.. disappeared. Like bruh, you really don't want to come back huh? And then we swap tribes and of course I'm stuck on Thoth AGAIN!! I've accepted that I'm cursed this time around because I... am tired of being here. But, Duncan and Autumn are on the other tribe so this gives me a good opportunity to not only rebuild my relationship with Devon, but to make new allies moving forward. Personally, I think I need to cut ties with Duncan and Autumn and find new life. I realize that they are much closer to each other than they are to me and I can't work with that long term. The way they approached Devon for his vote out really proved it too. When it comes to rebuilding my relationship with Devon, I'm not gonna lie it's much more difficult than I thought it would be. Like I basically told him that the reason why I voted him out was because he snitched on me to Duncan and told Duncan everything I said to him on our call. I basically said I was hurt by that because I trusted him and then he went behind my back like that and it wasn't cool. Especially since i was considering letting it go to a tiebreaker challenge too! So then he tried to phrase it as "I would never lie to you, I had your back all the way to the end" and I'm kinda just like... okay but your actions speaks louder than your words. And you taking the action to approach Duncan and tell him everything I said to you wasn't cool. However I made it very evident that Duncan/Autumn are much closer then we thought and i think he gets it. I've slowly come to realize that he's the perfect goat to take to the end because he really lacks at the relationship building portion of the game. However, I need to be able to trust my goats and right now I don't trust Devon. He told me about the idol as a sign of trust, however he hasn't found the blog yet. (backtrack, Duncan shared the blog with me so I've been idol hunting, and now I'm just telling people I had no idea when they ask me about it LOL). So I might tell Devon I found the combination, but at the same time do I want him to have the idol? Not at all! I'm happy that this swap brings me to a lot of people that I can potentially work with. I know that Duncan and Autumn originally wanted to work with beauty to take out brawn, so I'm really happy that I have 4 beauties on my tribe. Out of the beautes, I really like Augusto, Amir, and Kendall. AJ hasn't spoken to me at all tbh... like we barely talked. Kendall and I talk briefly but she told me straight up that her/Amir/Augusto were a trio and that definitely doesn't make me feel comfortable. I'm just like "okay, let's leave this thought in the back of my mind for later." But I've spent a lot of time talking to Amir and Augusto, and I can see myself working with them long term. Augusto and I called for like a whole hour and a half, which is beautiful that we got along well so quickly. I like how they both plan to keep their word and don't like to make fake promises. It shows that they're genuinely good people and I think they're my kind of crowd. So I definitely want to work with them through the merge. I also wouldn't mind going to the end with Augusto too (Amir already won so I don't want to make that promise to him LOL). When it comes to the brawn, I gel most with Jakey. I would go to consider him my new #1 right now. I don't think I ever had a #1 on old Thoth mainly because Duncan/Autumn were so close and Devon is just.... being Devon. Jakey told me about the idol stuff which is great! Personally, I already knew about the idol, but to pretend to be shocked by it and go forward with it was the best move for me. But Jakey and I seem to be the smartest and most focused people here, so I need that. He gets me and is on my level. I'm considering taking him to the end with me if it comes to that just because I want to be loyal this time around. That's why I'm happy than an alliance of Me/Jakey/Augusto/Amir/Kendall was made because I want to stick with this 5 all the way to the end. And I'm happy to already be in a majority alliance because it means I can potentially get to the merge. I just hope everyone knows that I'm with them and want to stay loyal to them going into the merge. Because I would love to be able to say that I'm 5/5 on making it to the merge. It'd be a shame to end my last tumblr season as a pre-merge boot. In terms of this vote since we lost the challenge AGAIN, I'm open to voting out either AJ, Devon, or Dan. I know people want to keep Devon around I'm happy with that. I'd hate to vote him out again after that last round, but also told people that I would do so if it meant that I would solidify trust with them in doing so. Which leaves us to Dan and AJ. I'm open to either of them going that round, mainly because I haven't spoken to either of them that much. I would perfer AJ just because he's a beauty and I'm skeptical about keeping all of the beauties around. At the same time, Dan can be a little aggressive so I also wouldn't mind getting rid of the negativity within the tribe. So many decision to make!! I just hope I make the right one. 

I take back everything I said about feeling good about the swap. No one is willing to talk about the vote with me so I guess that means it’s me??? I don’t know I’m just not feeling good and my gut is pretty good most of the time so we’ll have to see.... I just like don’t fuck with people who don’t wanna talk?? Like why play???

I am little fucked. Honestly if I was going to get voted out I would like it to be because of my #bigmoves or #smartbrain but nope it's cause of 2 minutes. And that's infuriating! Like I work my ass off in basically every other challenge! I drew the tribe flag, I took the lead on the word puzzle thingy, I got a reasonable number of scavenges!!!! And now I'm going to die. Like a lil bitch. I'm trying my best not to struggle cause voting is like quick sand, the more you panic the more you sink in. But logically I don't have much to worry about. Devon is willing to work with me, I already have two solid allies, and Jakey and Scott have both reached out. But the back of my mind is... bad. I'm so stressed out and Pissy. Fuck Dan. Fuck his stupid face. The only thing keeping me from throwing him out is I don't want people to have the perception that the beauty tribe is a unit. Oh yeah we are voting out AJ even though he probably has an idol which isn't great for me because he could probably get wind of that thing that's happening where people want to kill me and get on board and proceed to kill me. That was a mouthful but I don't have to be eloquent when I'm going to fucking dieeeeeeee. I'm barely holding it together. Help me Survivor Jesus. 

Augusto, 1:02 PM K so Dan said that he heard AJ would be a unanimous vote didn’t tell me who but he said that that person could just be projecting what they want Daniel Disbrow go fuck yourself. Projecting my lily white ass. 

Whew i love when things work out for me. This tribe swap went great for me. I feel very confident about my position on this tribe. I am good with Ali, Tj, and Liam all through seperate links to myself which im hoping can keep me as a centralized figure on this tribe. Ive formed a very good relationship with Adam so far who definitly feels on the outs of the beauty which is great. I thought i could be good with connor, but hes kind of been blowing me off so idk, he could be a target if we lose. As for the brains on my tribe Im talking more to duncan than autumn, but im gonna work on forming a stronger relationship with her on the chance were both at merge which i think is likely. I feel bad for Jakey and dan, two people I did want to work with, however I would be okay if they left as it would lesten the target on me at the merge with less brawn numbers and a larger beauty group to be scared of a group against. Sometimes you got to sacrafice pieces in chess and if they lose it sucks but ill move on. Im optimistic about moving forward through this next phase of the game.

wow i cant believe i almost DIDNT make a confessional for this round but here we go: not much more has happened over here since the swap, we absolutely did perfect in the immunity, so we wont be going to tribal, which is cool because im guaranteed safety and now i can just spend my time trying to work on these relationships that i need out here if im gonna make it a couple steps further and plot my revenge against the false beautys and make the moves that are gonna benefit ADAM and no one else. The original night of the swap i found myself having longer convos with the brawns and letting them all in on the tea about how those false beautys have a majority alliance and how they were plotting against me for no reason, so last night i was talking more so with autumn/duncan individually and they also asked about tribe dynamics so guess what, i spilled the tea to them now too, and they seemed to believe what i was saying, which granted, life on old hathor wasnt HORRIBLE it's not like people were like LETS JUST POINT AND LAUGH AT HIM ...but this new tribe dont know all that, so im absolutely going to be hyperbolizing and over-exaggerating the situation completely still because that's what i do best, i have a strong personality and a way with words so if i can paint the narrative to look better in my light, i absolutely am, and i mightve got lucky with connor here because other people are telling me he's hard to talk to, which makes it 10x easier for them to believe me, because i am still telling the truth, he's one of them, and he's clearly a snake lying right to my face so im making sure they know he'll lie to theirs too. i dont want to get to confident with my postion though whatsoever, because these are all good players and im just a dumb bitch so odds are, someone is playing me and i probably look like a fool but whatever, i only know as much as people will tell me so either way i just have to go with the flow in a sense, whether im the one steering the ship or just the clown aboard, is TBD. i also found it QUITE pleasing to see how for the other tribe, kendall is the one who messed up and cost them the win, however i know she's got her little puppets with those other false beautys so im not sure if theyll take her out. Looking at that tribe, id be happy with almost anyone going but the biggest plot twist of them all is ..... i think i want jakey to stay? me and him had a good talk at one world actually, i began planting seeds with both him AND kendall about each other so i might have inadvertently pinned them even more against each other, unless they put 2 and 2 together and realize i was kinda just telling them both what they wanted to hear, i didnt think id want to work with jakey this game but now that i know i cant work with those false beautys, i might need him to stick around and do damage to them over there for me but really, i dont give a shit who goes home from them, aj is the only one of the false beautys im not 100% against yet because he is my friend, and maybe we can still somehow work together from opposing sides to keep each other safe but who knows, and jakey staying would be good for me because he's a threat and potentially could be on my side again (unless he was just lying and wants me out BAD then uh... he can go but hopefully not because i need that group broken up more than i do him gone even if he is after me) im also trying out a new strategy ive never used before........ i made my skype icon a selfie of myself, now let me make it clear, i absolutely DO NOT think im that attractive, years of low self esteem have made that nearly impossible for me to believe, but im starting to feel myself a little!! i think i would give myself at least a 5/10, so its definitely a reach but im really just hoping by seeing the real me maybe that helps people wanna talk and open up to me more? either that or it will do the opposite and scare them away oop. but ive had good responses so far? i got a "whew", a "whoa", and a "oh my..." from different people so um... i think that's good dfhuakj??? at this point in the game, i have to identify my own strengths and weaknesses and go from there, because clearly im not meant to find the idol every time i go to the tomb i flop, im just not meant to be an idol queen, but i wont give up!!! im gonna try again later tonight and hopefully find it, or at least see for sure if someone else has found it and that's what you missed on akhmim! (from my very singular and most likely delusional perspective) 

I love Amir and Augusto. Like not to sound like a sentimental little bitch but I would kill for them. I have been the worst these past couple of hours and here they are all supportive and shit. I talk a big game. Like I consistently declare my villainy and keep pushing for #bigmoves but I will literally cry like a baby if I had to ever do anything to them. So I've decided I won't. I still intend on winning, I'm just not going to do it with their blood on my hands.

Well...IT FEELS GOOD TO BE BACK! I was expecting to 'Slither' my way back in, but clearly didn't imagine myself coming back on a 15-0-0 vote. If you had asked me about who I felt GREAT about prior to the swap, I would have said Jake and Augusto, so it's nice to have them on Thoth with me. Going into the swap, here are the headlines: 1. Scott/I are back on the same tribe. He clearly doesn't trust me like he did before since I told Duncan about me knowing they were targeting me. Can we build that trust back? 2. OG Beauty vs the rest. For some reason, OG beauty is willing to vote out AJ and ease everyone's paranoia. We could have just as easily gotten rid of Dan, but whatever. 3. Alliance chats. I was told that Kendall/Amir/Augusto had an alliance chat, and it doesn't help that apparently Scott hosted Kendall early in her TS career. I need to make sure my connections stay strong enough moving forward  

I finally learned the system to find the idol and it’s been found in the new tribe. I really hope Scott takes the time to find the Thoth idol. Firstly May I say the daddies are reborn with Devon being able to re-enter the game which is amazing! Unfortunately we got split up and now they face 4 beauties and 2 brawns on Thoth and autumn and I got to come be on Hathor. Adam spilled the tea about the Hathor 5 and its looking like Conor will be the first out if we end up at a tribal. I’m so happy to be off of Thoth. It was like a sinking ship and that tribe is cursed. On the flip side, for the first time this game, I DONT HAVE TO GO TO TRIBAL COUNCIL!!! YEEEHAW!!! I feel so grateful but also know if they lose 3 challenges then we’re losing Scott or Devon which would be horrible. I don’t know how comfortable I am with my position as it stands but I’m just grateful not to lose and probably feel most bad for Scott. I hope the daddies can survive this swap and perhaps make it back together come merge 

I really haven’t said shit huh gfhjdksl WELL, tons happened last round like someone coming back into the game and me getting to meet everyone finally! Devon returning was the best case scenario as him and I created a really weird yet good bond which I’m thankful for! Autumn and I meshed so well, Duncan and I bonded quickly, I also bonded with Scott/Jakey/Dan, and then had good convos with TJ/Liam M/Jordan/Ali so that was cute. We ended up swapping into 2 tribes of 8 afterwards which wasn’t TOO bad especially considering who is on this tribe like I got crazy lucky. We have 4 Beauties, 2 Brain, and 2 Brawn on this tribe and the other tribe has 4 Brawn, 2 Brain, and 2 Beauties which is a thing. But yeah, I have really high hopes? My connections here are strong personally so I want to just build on that. 

following the austin #blinside, we were BEANBOOZLED again and told that austin, as well as lovelis and devon would be pining for our votes to stay. all the tribes ended up on one beach but the initiative for the beauties was clear: austin could NOT come back. love him and all but after boldface lying to him and voting him out.. it just doesn't add up, right? so, the vote was really a matter of lovelis and devon, but then it just became of matter of "okay devon's coming back point blank" since lovelis wasn't really active. this didn't stop austin, however, from going around and throwing us under the bus, telling kendall her name was going around, outing the original plan to austin, all the while assuring us he was "beauties strong!" i respect the hustle but it ain't me! i decided not to lie to to him and told him upfront he wasn't getting my vote, little did i know it was going to be 15-0-0 for devon to come back. the perks of the one world twist was the fact i got to mingle with everyone i'd been excited to see from jordan pines to autumn! it was also a clear front for the fact that we'd be swapping right after, which we did! thankfully, the swap worked out for me perfectly. augusto, amir and kendall are all here with me and i got along with devon and jakey great! i also talked to scott and we bonded as well, and dan and i tried to recover from amnesia over a game we played a few years ago. i don't think i was put in a poor position at all, and in a must of confidence, i don't see myself going home like.. at all unless things change for the worse. the challenge came and went, and apparently one mistake cost it all but it didn't really matter to me because i have kendall's back and i know she has mine, so there was no chance i was gonna let her go over some two minute slip up. however, that was enough for dan to target her after we lost the challenge so the sexy procrastinators (basically leaning tower of penis bar connor) are counteracting by voting dan! do i feel bad because dan also asked if we could work together? hell yeah. do i feel REALLY bad? not really! he's a very nice gentleman, however, i'm pretty much on good terms with everyone on the tribe (and have solid allegiances with half of them) so i'm put into a rock and a hard place! i will say though, besides that, things have been really quiet compared to how things were on original hathor. there was always conversation going, even if it wasn't game, so it feels WEIRD when you're not talking to anyone within the hour. does that make me nervous? absolutely. am i assuming that there's an ulterior plot against me? more than i should! i just need to get myself together though and stop freaking out, what happens happens and if the that plot is indeed true then they got me gals! 

i’m me having high hopes for our tribes and us losing badly… the delusion! That being said, I oddly feel safe? I have my trio with Amir and Kendall (where I have solid duos with both), a secret duo with Devon, Dan and I have this Seychelles thing going, AJ trusts me I think, and then I’ve connected well with Scott and Jakey on a personal level so that’s fun! I’ve been telling every non-Beauty that I do genuinely want to stray away from playing outside of tribal lines because alliances made out of convenience are not as strong as alliances made out of connection. I just want to pretend myself as a very fluid, easy-going player/person in hopes that these players want to scoop me up for literally anything they want to do. My ideal boot order for this tribe would be AJ, Dan, and Jakey. AJ leaving opens up the game for me as it means I stuck to my word as not wanting to play by tribal lines, Dan leaving is mostly to appease to others but also because Dan could be dangerous later on, and Jakey is who I REALLY want to see leave because he has been the main person who has gotten and spread info on this tribe and he strikes me as the most threatening person so removing that before a merge is KEY. But yeah, that’s where I am at! 

I definitely need to step my pussy up in this game… like I feel extremely well about how I’m playing socially (I’ve been in tons of alliances, have gotten to really KNOW everyone I think, have been calling people for hours on end, have gotten information from all directions, etc) but I need to be better at talking game with people. Kendall and Amir have been doing extremely well about getting information out of Scott and Jakey respectively because they initialize game talk with them to do so and I personally struggle with that? I will say, I’ve been really good at getting people on my side to tell me things in the first place but I want EVERYONE to give me the tea like… I got my cup ready for all the tea so spill it please (‘:

I know I’ve done a super bad job at narrating everything that has happened this round but that being said, I haven’t done a bad job this round in the slightest. A sis really 1) established a connection with every player on my tribe [as in, I have an alliance with every single person in some capacity] 2) I am a part of the majority alliance 3) the people on the “bottom” feel good about me and have told me things 4) I’ve gotten close to getting to the end of Thoth’s Tomb which is awesome 5) I feel safe amid some messes this round [like Kendall telling Scott about her, Amir, and I being a trio which nnn] 6) I’ve honestly tried to downplay my gameplay to people by narrating my past seasons to people on call and explaining how I’ve been betrayed by my closest allies so I want something genuine and different this time AND also continuously asking my allies for “help” on talking to others to build even more trust [Amir told me he’s glad I’m in this game because I’m the only level headed one, Devon told me he trusts my judgements on anything, etc]... so yeah, a bitch might be doing that? 

Sooooo I think AJ is going tonight? Which is fine because he’s throwing my name around even though I actually was interested in working with him lmao. I was hoping Kendall would go because she literally does not talk, but I’ll take what I can get. Jokes on me when I get blindsided 

jakey just told me he's voting for me.. so yes i'm freaking out and yes i'm convinced i'm going home you CANNOT tell me otherwise https://66.media.tumblr.com/376a5e921389df0e5d37a54da9734e04/ebea8f0b6df920b0-57/s640x960/e1f351d79a9ea08058418a032c97026926156df5.gif 

kendall and augusto sat me down on call and basically told me it was over https://66.media.tumblr.com/376a5e921389df0e5d37a54da9734e04/ebea8f0b6df920b0-57/s640x960/e1f351d79a9ea08058418a032c97026926156df5.gif

I hate everyone lmao. I initially started saying we should vote Ken Doll, or whatever her name is, before I knew AJ was throwing my name around. And of course someone threw a vote on Kendall, and now I have Ken Doll in my PMs being like “ballsy how you still voted for me” that’s funny sis, I don’t even know how to spell your name. 

Not me almost putting Thoth on the tribe option lmaaaaooo old habits die hard. I would just like to take this time to thank the Academy, the hosts for swapping me well and allowing me to succeed in a way I never could in Thoth, and my new tribe for being both wise enough to listen to me when I come up with a plan and solid enough to deliver. Being immune? It's a lifestyle and I really missed it Ok so things are going well on Hathor (knock on wood)? I've talked to everyone, we're in a good spot, and I'm not worried about anyone.... but I am nervous but we'll come back to that. I feel fantastic about Ali- this is our third time playing together and every time we see each other we just pick up right where we left off, both as friends and allies. But it's really special this time around since we've both won a main? So we're in a unique boat that no one else in the cast is except Amir. Basically now we have each other's backs more than ever because our stakes look different as well as our threat levels compared to everyone else. I also discovered that TJ and I went to the same fucking COLLEGE??? When I say I'm gagged ugh. So yeah I think there's a new level of trust and kinship there since we share something so major that's not game related. And I think both of us are kind of alone? So that helps bridge the gap even more Ok now for all the other menses.... I have always been nervous about Jordan Pines simply because he's Jordan Pines. I know how I am and I know how he is so him being so tame and quiet the entire game is spooky to me and I don't buy it. I'm trying not to start shit obviously but I think it would be risky to wait until Jordan goes full Jordan before making a move but we'll leave it for now. Iiiiiii am no longer sure what to make of Adam and Connor. I actually really liked both of them the past couple days and was considering working with them but it has come to my attention that Adam has been telling everyone the same story about him being on the bottom of the original Hathor and that everyone needs to get rid of Connor since he's apart of that block. When I thought I was the only person with the tea, I was like YEAH ABSOLUTELY but then hours later Duncan tells me the same thing and then today Ali not only tells me that's what Adam said but apparently he said it to Liam as well. So I'm like SIR- tea is only special when it's private. You trying to get the entire tribe to rally to kill one specific person based on something that none of us can fact check is messssyyyy. I know there's some truth to it because Austin also was very adamant that Hathor couldn't be trusted but the whole thing is convenient to me, that Adam is hellbent on getting Connor out and really playing up the victim angle. And the gag is, if Connor ever goes, where does that leave Adam? Cause if you're willing to campaign this early over something that specific, what will you do to target the rest of us? Like ok we're all comparing notes now but that's cause it's pre-merge. Iiiiiii don't know if Adam needs to make it to merge if he's so generous with his spiked tea. And then that leaves Duncan, who is my dad yes and who I've been with the whole game but I'm really trying to diversify and look elsewhere. I don't wanna hurt Duncan but I do get this impression that he sees this as "our" game and that's why he's very keen to know who I'm talking to, who I trust, am I looking for the idol, do I need any help, etc. To the point where I feel like it's gonna become a liability situation, like because we're friends I'm SUPPOSED to both protect him every single round but also approve everything by him and take him to the end. And just so we're clear my game is mine and mine alone. I didn't come into this game to play for or with anyone and y'all know I have too much Sagittarius in my chart to let a man control my game. And no I'm not reaching because Duncan was tripping about me having a good relationship with Devon, to the point where he and Scott made a side group with Devon before tribal to convince Devon to vote me- mind you all of this came to my attention AFTER tribal and from Devon, even though it was Scott and Duncan's idea to vote Devon in the first place. Soooo explain to me why Duncan is questioning my loyalty when I'm voting out another ally over him and then you wanna go do side shit even though the vote was locked and already unanimous?? No ma'am I'll fuck you up. I really killed my bb to protect my dad and he over here trying to micromanage and teach me lessons. Sir there's plenty of game left don't try it. ALSO DEVON BB I MISS YOU YOU WERE RIGHT ABOUT SCUNCAN SO PLEASE DON'T DIE ON THOTH

Okay I literally don’t even know where to start with this entire round, so ughhhh lets just make lil blurbs and word vomit all the thoughts in my head. Okay first, alliances. Me kendall Augusto. I trust these 2 more than anyone else in the game, but Kendall is a mess and a half and has accidentally leaked so much shit or purposely idek I know it’s not malicious, she’s super loyal she’s just silly. She told Scott that me her and Augusto were a trio, which like why tf would u do that ??? anyway, Scott told jakey who told me. Next is me aj kendall Augusto which is a cover up to tell aj to vote dan because the actual vote is aj, but no one wants aj to use his idol. Everyone on our tribe is like sure aj has the idol now, and I’m trying push that too, because I have it lmfao and I don’t want people to know I have it. Next is the new main alliance, me kendall Augusto Scott and jakey. I DONT KNOW ABOUT THIS AT ALLLLLLLLLL, everyone wants to vote aj out, and I’m telling Augusto and Kendall, like y’all realize we are giving them the opportunity to 4-3 us next round? And kill the beauties ?? Like how is that smart ?? But at the same time, getting rid aj could cement Scottie and jakey. It just depends if they try and make a move against me Augusto and Kendall next round if they think we are a trio. However, me and Augusto have planned beyond such and in that case, I have ammo. Let’s check the armoury: - Augusto is insanely tight with Devon now, we can use him as a weapon - jakey ratted on dan to Kendall and ratted on the majority alliance, we can turn dan against jakey. So if Scott and jakey think of pulling a fast one on us, I’ll tank their games so fast and make sure they go down with us . Lastly , I’m fucking terrified. Because with this vote, if jakey Scott Devon and dan team up and vote me just to do it, I’m going to go home 4-3-1. I’m putting my faith in this alliance and my gut is telling me to trust jakey and trust Kendall and trust Augusto. Basically, there’s huge pros and cons to what we are doing right now. However, assessing the situation, if I put my foot down hard and force all 4 beauties to stick together, it’s a bad move for my game . Jakey will be mad, Scottie won’t trust us, and I’d be forcing Kendall and Augusto to do what they don’t want to do, and aj is an ally who is almost never online. It’s simply not worth it. The better move is let aj go, create these bonds and take these risks, and secure that I won’t get caught about the idol And then merge is a whole other fucking story, Ali and autumn and Duncan and Jordan must be dealt with. 

Nothing is chaotic. This is weird. I don't feel in danger anymore and could clearly get away with making the merge. Connor has left me on seen once already and I've voted him out before. Target numero uno, come on down!

[nihil-a-nusquam]

Reminiscent

We do it all the time, each day someone is doing this... you compare a human function to a mechanical function. And we think nothing about the relation. For instance, your heart is like a pump. Or if you ever said oil is the blood of your motor. But this trait is actually a secret tool for deeper understanding. If we compare human to machine, what is above us comparing themselves to humans. Is not the rotation of the solar system just a fuction just alike how an electronic motor runs? Energy. Is all as is anything in the universe, at its most basic explaination. But there are layers of this. To the point of comparing human made things to the power of a god. Like, how a microprocessor is worth the work of x amount of brains working together. I think theres something to this. But as with the rest of the world, i feel confused. I am afraid that if these answers i seek out might be a trigger awaiting if i step out of my place to obtain actual truth, not just accepted truths. Towards these ends i relate a few stations of power, of prevention. A distorted sense of fear resonates from these stations. Money, society, religion, war From positiions which mostly benefit from my fear, i deposit my money in banks, i don't speak my unadulterated mind around people i dont know, i still refuse to succumb to religion, but i keep my face out of war, literal, and figurative. And the absolute truth? Well, i fear true transparency will never be on one of those stations priority lists or agendas. Because truth can destroy them. If we knew what was truly happening with money. If we knew what others truely felt about us, others, themselves.. if we found out with absolute truth what religion is truth with no flexability for the politically correct. If we knew 100% WHY we fight. Truth is the enemy to everything. And we are growing a divide. Those that accept truth without knowing. And those that cannot live not knowing if the truth is true. The separation created a scenerio where truth was accepted as for having flexability. Just like constructs like justice and freedom. If the truth is that there is no justice without freedom. And no freedom without justice. It stands to reason that neither can exist without truth. And we let the truth not matter. It benefits us to ignore efforts to find truth. If you live a lie, your world is destroyed. If you live in truth, and everyone else hops on board, you will never know trust. This world is complicated. And i think the confusion is that none of us believe that all of us need to know. We justify with "well im happy" or "well im having fun" but we all already know, even if we suppress it, that all of us deserve truth. We get exhausted when we have to dig for it. When we have to beg for it. When knowing it destroys countless others lives, we decide to accept sacrifice in truth. But... What if truth really does set us free? What if the truth is, we can all choose to forgive. To, within reason, come clean and be forgiven for hiding truths? And accepted, and loved regardleds. What happens if there is no consequence if you told the truth? Within reason, clearly, if the truth for you is that you touched a child inappropriately than my truth for you would be that im happy casting my vote for your beheading. But just being able to know truth at all times, forward thinking. We could annhiliate corruption, we could work towards mankinds benefit without red tapes or uncertainty. But truth will take all your money. Because if this becomes a war and truth previals over its stations of power. Everything we know will change. Many of what we know and understand will be forsaken. And truth is worthwhile, but, not everyone is willing to make that sacrifice. So we are stuck, hoping, holding, but growing impatient. And not doing much to grow in power awaiting for the day truth is valued above all, for real this time. Just. Waiting. Watching. In end, relax. No matter what side you are on. Because although there is truth, there is also mercy. And no matter what god or belief structure you have or dont have, we can all agree things work better without an imbalance. So, im not blaming anyone for the lies, or the deception. Things i know nd dont know. No blame. I will exhibit mercy on the things i learn forward, onward. But i think we should all reflect and grow to become more truthful. With mercy. And open ourselves up to acceptance in turn for eachothers truths. But war no more amongst ourselved lest we pick a side. Do you believe in truth? Do you benefit from deception? Or are you balance?

[eb-the-gamer]

A Purpose @piranhartist @dreamwithintheheart @pan-pizza (note: long and sad, i put a ton of emotion and effort into this. I hope you enjoy part 1) —-

A strange creature sits at a desk, mumbling to itself as it makes a picture in the light of a single lamp , using what could be considered hands covered in ink to draw. Each it unceremoniously pushes some of its drawings to the floor, then slams its hands against the table in frustration.

“That blasted creature was perfect…something like that Little one would have put my name on the map!”

It had seen something for sure. While out in space the monster had seen…something, flying through. He could only describe the being as a living star, and any creature with energy like that would have been a power supply even thr most elite could bid for.

His magics allowed him to bring his creations on paper to flesh, and of course, trying to recreate that star had been nothing but a chore. The multiple variations he made never held a candle to that being he saw. This last one was no different.

“Time to move on from this. Hurrushe!”

Slowly, the various drawings peeled themselves away from the paper, leaving it blank for their creator to draw something else. Nearly all of them were barely formed scribbles that managed to scuttle about, bumping into each other and their surroundings. The creature rolled its eyes as one scribble managed to get both crushed and flung into a garbage bin.

The last of these drawings raised up as the monster re-gathered its paper and set it back on the table. The girlish creature’s colors began filling in its monochrome appearance, vibrant yellows there, an obsidian blue here. The creature stared as the drawing came to life…maybe this time it would work… —- I came to the world groggy…but warm. So cool! I already know so much too! I think i can speak…but i want to take this all in. There are gears hanging, turning in the air, along with tubes full of black and steaming pipes connecting from one wall to another. Theres a soothing rhythmic clanking, mechanical hums and an occasional hiss, unintentionally creating something of a tune to follow! The smell…well that’s gross, the oil smells so bitter i can nearly taste it…the floor is also distressingly cold and hard. Well, The guy staring at me is floating, so i guess it wouldn’t matter much to him.

Senses are AMAZING! This life i feel is great! Ok, ok…the guy looking at me seems board, i want to ask him some stuff, I dont want to screw this up, I’m so nervous… —- The monster’s hopes slowly died as it observed the complete creature that had come to life. It was like all the others, no energy like what it had witnessed in what inspired the drawing. It simply looked around silently like a bird would. It didn’t glow, or spark, or even rev up or anything to show any meaningful excess energy at all.

“Uhm..hi, sir?”

Same questions, as per usual…The monster huffed this time.

“I am Plaijur the Djinn. I created you. You are just a copy i tried to make of something else. You did not work out.”

The drawing’s smile fell slow. Plaijur had been through this same scenerio multiple times, and though it had made him sad at first, he learned to be callous against it.

“Your name,” Plaijur continued, thinking “is, Stelluna.” For all his work copying things, he found it easy to make puns and word hybrids, especially names, he’d even renamed himself. Stelluna’s smile returned, apparently she liked the name too.

“So does that mean that you’re-”

“He heh heh heh heh-No. Dont call me dad, master, father, or creator. As far as I’m concerned, you are a failure on me.”

“But D-Plaijur. What am i supposed to do then?!”

Plaijur got up, turned around, and began to speak more terribly bluntly than ever.

“I don’t care. You can go anywhere you want, but don’t stay here. You can do whatever you like, but don’t do it here. You can be whomever you please, but be it somewhere else.” —- This is…awful… What had I done? Why am I a failure? There’s a rising unpleasant feeling in my stomach, and it continues to grow the more i look at that one eye of his…

the stupid eye of this dummy! I want to run, he needs to care about me enough to chase me. He doesnt mean all of this, right? Its a test! Its got to be!

…right?

The rising feeling it up to my chest now, behind my lungs…The more i look at Plaijur’s face the more i believe what he says is completely honest. It, hurts. It hurts, so much.

“Please! What can i do about it Mister Plaijur?!” —- Plaijur was not used to this…usually by now the drawings would run out the door, typically crying. Stelluna was asking for a way to prove herself.

He stayed silent for several moments, thinking. He turned to his desk and pulled out a card, red on either side, from a drawer under the table. Then he drew what appeared to be a wand on one of the sheets of paper.

“Herroi”

Plaijur took the wand from the table, handing both it and the card to Stelluna. “Come along.” He said leading the copy to a long moving sidewalk. —-

This is uncomfortable now. Plaijur handed me a stick with a star on it. Looks pretty rough…even considering the fact he literally slapped it together. Stranger still was the completely red card.

“My point still stands that i ultimately don’t care what you do now that you haven’t worked.” The no-legged cyclops jerk says. “But…if you can make me proud of you somehow, I’ll grant you your deepest desires.”

“How do i do that, Mister Plaijur?”

“Well, if you find someone interesting, use this card, particularly if they look like you. Try looking for something flying through space maybe.”

Why do I want to make Plaijur happy? Its not like he has done much for me…except create me, and bring me to life…he could have disposed of me if he wanted to, like that scribble trying to get out of the garbage next to his desk.

Also…Deepest desire? All i want is him to care about me….let me have a place to belong….Yeah!

“I’LL DO IT!”

We reach a door labeled “exit ”. Plaijur looks down at me with a faint, condescending interest. I feel the cold metal beneath my feet.

“That little wand will let you travel through space. Now get the f— out.” He says as he pushes me out the door.

I regain balance on a single platform as the door locks behind me. The massive metal wall of Plaijur’s home is behind me. But in front of me is an endless expanse dotted everywhere with stars and planets.

Space…

I sit down , putting my wand and card in my pockets, and hang my feet over the bottomless expanse. And then everything hits me.

I am now alone, disowned, left with no place to stay in front of the unknown.

The rising feeling bubbled up to my eyes and ran down my cheeks. I wail and gasp for air, despite there being none.

I briefly consider staying on this platform, hoping Plaijur might change his mind after time had passed and take pity.

I know he won’t, and It hurts…

I wipe my eyes after a while, sniffling. I calm myself down.

What should i do? Just go? How long will it take before i find some place…or if something finds me? Its terrifying to think about. But, then something catches my eye:

Something, I can’t tell what, is flying through space in the very far distance.

I scramble up to stand and make sure my eyes aren’t playing tricks on me. Something is definitely moving over there.

I cry again, but i feel light a weight is lifted. I take my shoddy-looking wand and point it forward, and just like that Im flying through space!

IT’S SO COOL! It feels like every awful feeling is being outpaced as i go. I feel like i have a chance now as i get closer and closer to the thing i saw flying through space.

-to be continued -

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SELFIE SATURDAY - IT'S ALL ABOUT YOU!

Launch it challenge

HOW TO LAUNCH YOUR ONLINE BUSINESS!  -

Week 4.

Hey beautiful people! I hope you have had a wonderful week! I have to say my week has been pretty lovely. Had a nice catch up with a lovely friend down at our gorgeous local cafe. I fitted in some yoges and a few beautiful walks/run around my neck of the woods ( like literally, I was running in the forest, lol :) I then spent most of the week behind my desk looking out my window at the gorgeous birds who visit my little bird bath. Sometimes I wonder if I get too excited over birds, like a crazy bird lady lol. Honestly I just love watching them splash and go crazy, it's a nice distraction and break from the computer screen. Anyway enough tree hugging ( for now that is, there will be lots more, cause that's how I roll!  ;)  let's get into week 4!

Today I wanted to start getting you thinking about how to come up with your business name. I was going to go into websites/ domains but after chatting  about this with my friend the other day I decided to slot this one in first. So we where talking about business names and how many of us naturally all start to think about business names in the same way. It's funny how we can think we might be coming up with something very unique only to find that name is taken. "What I thought it was so perfect but it's gone!" is a really common situation to find yourself in at the begining. 

When thinking of your business name  the first question that will crop up is do I use my name or  create a business name + identity? So I thought I would list a few of the pro's + cons for using your own name versus a business name;

USING YOUR OWN NAME-

PROS

Creating yourself into a brand is a great way to keep consistancy and bring your identity and personality into your products + services.

You won't have to worry about getting sick of your name beacuse theres a good chance you kind of like yourself  (hopefully) :)

Using your own name rather than a business name makes you seem more affordable and approachable to potential clients.

Depending on your name, it can make you easier to remember. If your name is Dick Assman :) :)  then you might want to get that crazy memorable business name up on a billboard stat! :) If your name is really complex to pronounce, hard to remember then this one may not apply to you.

CONS

Using your own name can actually make you appear less experienced and so if your aiming to get those big clients or sales it might be a little turn off to those more high end clients/purchasers.

It can be a little restrictive if your wanting to add future business partners or staff as other collegues may be putt off by your name being all over the place.

It's a missed opportunity to quickly let others know what your business is about. If I just use Mel Sherwell, people will only think who is she, what does she do and what does she stand for? Most will not care and before you know it they will have clicked off onto some other page and forgotten all about me.  When people surf the net they can be lazy and just will not bother to go and click onto your bio to find out, "oh shes actually an interior designer" It's not likely people will make that extra effort to find out.

USING A WELL THOUGHT OUT BUSINESS NAME-

PROS

In a very short second you can communicate so much to your potential clients about what you actually do. Make the most of every second of exposure you get with a clever business name.

A clever business name can also be very memorable, especially if you think of something that communicates your services + perspective. Remember to get into the mind of your potential clients. How do they think? What name would excite your potential customers or target audience?

A good business name can communicate who you are + what your about.

This is an ooprtunity to demonstrate your creative/intelectual ability. This is of course if you come up with a name that is creative and intelligent ;).

You may include words or imply a point of view that communicates what your business represents, your goals, beliefs + ethos 

A business name can communicate that you really do mean business + are one to be taken seriously.

With the additional information that a business name communicates, your also building trust and rapport much more quickly than a personal name.

Your communicating that your business is hoping to grow with no restrictions and you have high expectations of where you are heading. This communicates to potential clients that they are dealing with someone who is ambitious, dedicated and aims to achieve great things, including your services/products.

You can leverage your self to really stand out with a clever business name. With so many interior designers + stylists out their, I just couldn't handle 'Mel Sherwell Designs', ummm boring not too mention no one would blink an eye lid at a name like that. I needed something to communicate who I am as a designer and why I'm worth remembering.

CONS

Everyone always says this one, it's a long term committment to use a business name! Well yea, so is having a business :) But I guess their is a small amount of truth in this statement. Lets just say you decide after a few years you want to go in a new direction and your business name no longer suits you. Well then perhaps a business name could be a con in that circumstance. My answer to this one is, just start a new business. As long as you have been consistantly marketing your personal name alongside your business name, you will still be building your reputation which you can take with you always.

A business name can sound a little more formal which can be off putting to smaller clients, wanting a more personal service. People do like to know who they are dealing with and not just be speaking to a brand name. However I think it only takes one or two emails with a your personal name/signature to start personalising the service. Also who wants to only target small clients. I mean yes I love personalised jobs of any size, but I would'nt brand my whole business to only target smaller jobs. I want serious clients, who want a professional service.

I really can't think of any more cons to having a super cool, well thought out business name. As I mentioned earlier, I like to use a little of both in my business name. In all of my social media accounts I include both my personal name and my business name. I'm always, 'Mel Sherwell - Soul Shapes' . I love having both and I think it represents me  Mel Sherwell the designer + then my creation, my perspective + my work 'Soul Shapes'.

Workshop it

So just to finish up, let me throw a few more considerations you can ponder to help get you on track with this business name thing.

So lets go back to your passion footprint in the earlier weeks. What did you discover was your passion footprint + your unique view point in your industry? Write it down again on a piece of paper.

An example scenerio might be,  if your a florist, are you a florist who works with wild flowers, or the more lux varieties of roses etc? Be honest, what do you love? Then choose that! You have to love your passion foot print (if you dont know what I'm talking about, go back to weeks 1 + 2) Forget about the clients for a second and just think about what gets you exctited! Ok, got it! Great, keep your niche in the front of your mind at all times! This is always the focus of your business, so stay on track and now write down some key words to describe your niche -  Wild Rose, Natural Bloom, Peaceful Posies...... you get it. Keep writing down key words to describe your niche, + your view point. Then throw in some key words about your ethos, your believes or your goals.

This is how to workshop in a direct, purposeful way and I promise you in amongst all those words is your business name. Now you just need to bridge the correct pair together. I like the idea of a pair as it gives you more power in communicating what your about rather than just one word. At times one word may do it, but generally not.

Now good luck, have fun, relax with it! I remember when I came up with Soul Shapes, I knew I instanlty loved it, but it did take me another week or two of playing around with other ideas to realise it was the winner. So be patient and the key to creating is to keep your mind open and positive!!

Enjoy your weekend everyone.  I promise next week we will get into websites + purchasing domain names.

Peace out 

Melanie Sherwell - Interior Designer

Soul Shapes- Lifestyle Interiors