#there's specifically a lyric “But you're just seventeen so much like me” that gets me everytime

[jonathanbyersphd]

nancy & mike or el & joyce?

Em, I invite you to my home for a nice sleepover and this is how you repay me??? (It's Nancy & Mike full stop. So sorry to mother-daughter of all time)

[rinsuniverse]

Can I request woozi with a reader who loves loves loves music? I’m autistic and music is just one of those things that make me so so so happy! And I really vibe with svt songs it’s crazy…

woozi with a s/o who loves music ✧˖°.

i feel like it's necessary for woozi's s/o to LOVE music

i think he said in an interview one time that his ideal type is someone who loves music as much as he does!

but anyway, if he knows you love music, he'd be so overjoyed!

he'd feel even more motivated to keep producing music

he'd send you lots of song recommendations and playlists

and he'd sing your favorite songs to you on very lucky days

one day, when you were attending one of seventeen's concerts when you guys just started dating

he memorized where you were supposed to be seated

and whenever he'd look over at you and saw you bopping your head to the music and listening happily as you get lost in the wonderful sounds he put together

he can't help but smile at you and fall in love with you

the way you can get so lost in music just like he does

it just makes his heart so happy

he wishes he could've taken a photo or video of that moment, but he treasures that memory and makes sure to remember it vividly

during the time he has to go on tour and leave you home alone for a long weekend, he compiles a playlist of music he loves, music he thinks you would love, and music he KNOWS you love for you to play on a speaker for when the house feels too quiet

when you're in the car together, he insists he always has the aux, but of course, he'd play specific songs especially for you

since this drabble is kind of short...

here's an imagine for you!

imagine it's been a terribly long day, and you're feeling so exhausted on your way home

when you get home, you aren't surprised jihoon's not there

i mean, he stays up pretty late working

but you decide you're gonna beg for him to come home at a reasonable time so he can come chill with you at home

so you shoot him a text like

you: ji

you: pls come home

and he responds

jihoon: right now?

you: just earlier than usual

jihoon: why? what's wrong?

you: i've had such a long day

jihoon: you can't come to the studio and hang out with me here?

you: ...

jihoon: fine i'll come home in a bit

and you lay there on the couch with your work clothes still on

you don't even have the energy to clean yourself up or make yourself something to eat

when he comes home, he tsks at you

"wow. have you just been laying here since you called me?"

"mhm."

he chuckles, plopping himself on top of you

"want to call it an early night tonight?" he mumbles into your shoulder

"yes, please."

he gets up and helps you up, leading both of you to your room

he takes off your jacket for you before laying it over your desk chair

you go to the bathroom to actually change into some pjs

and he changes into some shorts that he left over at your house

and then you both lay next to each other in bed

"i'm so tired," you say, sighing

you lay your head on his chest and listen to the rhythm of his heart

"why? did you not have a good day?"

"it was an okay day, just felt like it was too long."

"oh, makes sense," he says.

he doesn't ask if you want to talk about it

because, to be honest, he doesn't know how to comfort you with words

and if you really wanted to talk about it, you would go on ahead and do it

you lay there in silence until he starts singing "hug" to you

you listen to his voice and the meaningful lyrics

and it feels so wholesome and so pure

you want moments like these to last forever because you love music and you love him

so if he's singing to you, it's just everything you love at once

you quickly fall asleep in his loose grasp

his arm wrapped around your shoulders with his fingers drumming a soft beat on your chest

and when he finishes singing, he quickly notices your soft snores, and he feels so accomplished and happy

he feels so warm in these music sharing moments with you

he plays some of your favorite songs on his phone at a low volume

and you both sleep well together 🫶

thank you so much for the request! i hope you enjoyed it <3 feel free to request many, many more things ✧( ु•⌄• )◞◟( •⌄• ू )✧

(p.s. requests are still open! i specialize in woozi stuff, but i don't mind writing about other svt members! i can also do some nsfw if you want! so request whatever and as much as you want! ς(>‿<.))

[multifandomconfusion]

The Family Jewels Songs as The Crows

Kaz - Numb

Kaz Brekker is practically the embodiment of this song because he has tried to numb himself entirely.

Lyrics That Remind Me Of Kaz:

Oh, I get dark / Oh, and I'm in Hell / I need a friend / Ooh, but I can't yell / Yeah, I'm no good / No good to anyone / ‘Cause all I care about / Is being number one

Far gone families, far gone friends, / That's how it started, and how it ends / I can't open up and cry / ‘Cause I've been silent all my life

I feel numb most of the time, / The more I get the higher / I'll climb, and I will wonder why / I got dark only / To shine / And I'll light up the sky / Stars that burn the brightest / Fall so fast and pass you by / Spark like empty lighters.

Inej - Rootless

Inej has been separated from her home and family for much of her life. I would guess that she feels homeless and like she doesn't belong anywhere which is discussed in this song.

Lyrics That Remind Me Of Inej:

I'm a Cloud drifting by / Dripping Tears from the Sky / I'm a Snail without a Shell / A Leper with a golden Bell / I've got nowhere to go / I'm a stray cat on the roam / Choking on a chicken bone / For a home sweet, no sweet home

Running with my roots pulled up / So they could cut me free of love

Dragging my roots through the snow / No home-sweet and no sweet home / I've got nowhere to go / I'm rootless, I'm rootless

Wylan - The Family Jewels

Wylan obviously has a very rocky and difficult relationship with his family, specifically his father. This song fits him amazingly.

Lyrics That Remind Me Of Wylan:

I can't break the cycle, am I just a fool? / Falling down like dominoes, hit by family jewels / Pass it down from kid to kid, the chain will never end / 'Less I decide to go to it, will I see the end?

Ooh, don't you find it strange? / Only thing we share is one last name / Did I beat you at your own game? / Typical of me to put us all to shame

Oh, you think I'm unfit / Little did you know that I was cut for it / No glass slipper will ever fit

And literally the entire song.

Jesper - Shampain

This song combines the words shame and pain to represent the word champange. What could be more Jesper?

Lyrics That Remind Me Of Jesper:

Drinking champagne to forget yesterday / Coz I remember, the way, the way, the way / It ended the day, the day, the day, the day / That I walked away, away, away, away

Drinking champagne, meant for a wedding / Toast to the bride, a fairytale ending / Drinking champagne, a bottle to myself / Savor the taste of fabricated wealth

Matthias - Guilty

This song is about guilt and Matthias clearly struggles with guilt over all the terrible things he's done to Grisha, and in contrast how he betrayed his country. It also involves the imagery of a dog, which makes me think of Trassel. And it talks about dead family.

Lyrics That Remind Me of Matthias:

I was dreaming something dark / Hiding body parts / A broken dog, a broken leg / I left it cold, I left it dead

I was just a kid / That you could not forgive / Because it's harder / I was just a kid / And all I really wanted / Was my father

Guilty on the run / And I know what I have done / Guilty on the run / And I'm never forgiven

Nina - Seventeen

Nina is highly outspoken and opinionated just like the narrator of this song. Also she's seventeen lol.

Lyrics That Remind Me Of Nina:

You're a rich little boy / Who's had to work for his toys / You've got all the sensibilities / Of an upper class guy / No I'm not your little slave / No I don't twist and turn that way / Only got bad things to say / You're always asking what is up with me

Oh, you are embarrassed of me / ‘Cos I use my tongue freely / Bet you wish I couldn't speak / ‘Cos when I do, you know / I tell you why you're being weak

You teach me how to behave / I felt you question the way / I was brought up as a baby / Well you don't know fuck about my family

[toasterhasabucket]

I don't agree with your playlist solely because I'm a certified classic Indie hater and modern rock enjoyer but I so agree with the lyrics found in the songs you picked that I cannot burn you at the stake for it 🫵......... since your post tickled my wrinkly brain, I want to make a bold suggestion:

Sam Fender - Seventeen Going Under (it's violently English but listen the melancholy, THE MELANCHOLY!!! and the underlying anger + hardship processing his troubled youth) - I honestly think it fits many, many characters but i personally believe that it strongly resonates with Toby. You can disagree ofc but you have to agree that the raw emotion in "I was far too scared to hit him/ but I would hit him in a heartbeat now/" fits like a glove, I take no criticism in this specific instance. Love to hear your thoughts in general though

Your brain power >>>>

Amazing. Also love that you're invested in your favourite character. Toby's not mine but I genuinely love seeing the enthusiasm hooray so don't ever get discouraged

...you can ignore this lol

I will NOT ignore this

i love love love this yes yes I agree that's absolutely perfect! ARUGGA

and that's totally okay that you don't like the music and you can like whatever you like dude 💪💪 but thank you for not burning me at the stake that's so thoughtful!

I agree with you so much it's insane it fits him perfectly and it's making me sOOO happy! Thank you thank thank you THE BEAT ANS THE VOICE MAKES ME ANGRY BC IM NOT USED TO IT BUT THE LYRICS YES I AGREE

I've seen so many playlists claiming to be realistic and get aren't and it frustrating beyond no end but YOUUUUU GET ITTTT (ALSO people can interpret him differently it's just I think of his I'm a specific way and if anyone does it wrong I very upset, on the inside of course! I know other people can think whatever they want!)

Favorite certified classic indie hater

THANKS! 🫀🫀🫀🫀

[theuniversitychallengereview]

I wrote a blog called No Spoiler last year, about how easy it had been for me to avoid spoilers for the previous day's episode of The Challenge, and how that was an oddity in our information-dense, social-media flooded lives. Well, on Tuesday I innocently logged onto Twitter, having missed this week's episode due to my Book Club, and had the result spoiled for me. It was my own fault - as I said in the other post, when you log on to a Twitter account which is specifically for University Challenge then that is the kind of fire you are playing with. 

For the past few weeks, I've been watching the Netflix Tour de France documentary with my girlfriend. With no prior interest in the sport of cycling she really got into it (and really loved Wout van Aert, which did make me a bit jealous, but who doesn't?). Despite the fact that it was about last year's Tour, the result of which has been known for nearly a full twelve months, and despite the fact that we watched several stages of this year's race together, she made it to the final episode with no knowledge (besides her correct inclination that there was no way redacted would be coming back from such a large deficit going into the final few days) of the overall victor. 

What's the moral of this story? Nothing particularly profound, just that its interesting how siloed our consumption of things is. If I had to estimate, I'd say that I read/heard the fact that cyclist A beat cyclist B in the 2022 Tour de France more than a hundred times in the past month, but if you're not looking out for something, or if your personal Internet isn't pre-programmed to show you it then this sort of thing is far easier to avoid. 

It would be pretty funny, I think, if I did go ahead and not review this week's episode, but I've already spent a while looking up cool stats and I don't want to waste them, so with that in mind; here's your first Starter for Ten.

You can watch the episode here before reading my review...

Birkbeck were regulars in the early years of the Paxman era, appearing six times in the first nine series, culminating with victory in 2003, after which they weren't seen for seventeen years. Oxford Brookes, meanwhile, have only been on five times in total, making the quarter-finals twice.

Brookes skipper Manton buzzes early on the first starter, but he's wrong, and McMillan swoops in for Birkbeck to steal the points. An easy bonus set on films nets them a full house, before Manton makes up for his earlier mistake with epiphany. They grab a hat-trick on the Biafran war, but remain behind thanks to the incorrect interruption.

Another from McMillan stretched the Londoner's lead, but Gardner hit back for Brookes to keep things tight. McMillan is then able to give one of the coldest possible UC answers of all time when asked to complete the phrase written on Woody Guthrie's guitar, 'This machine... kills fascists". Rajan shows off his cricket credentials, scolding Birkbeck for mistaking a doosra for a googly, and demonstrating the bowling action at his desk. 

The first picture starter continues the ping-pong nature of the game so far, with Broadbent, eyebrows plastered in a kindly frown, quickest to recognise the Togo flag. He blitzes the bonuses too to tie the game. Two more consecutive starters for Brookes open up the biggest lead of the game, but Birkbeck fought back through Huntley and McMillan. 

It looks like no one knows the musical on the music starter, but Chadha guesses Funny Girl after hearing the lyric 'good for a laugh', which is excellent quizzing. After the bonuses we're back level, at 110 each. 

The scoring has been going at quite the clip and doesn't let up in the second half. Brookes get a couple to go ahead again, but three in a row from Birkbeck nudge them back in front. No one is allowed to build up too much momentum though, and Broadbent buzzes rapidly with games console to regain the advantage for Brookes. Its an absolute basketball match of a quiz, but who is going to be the one to score the dagger?

McMillan puts Birkbeck five points clear, and skipper Chadha gives Taylor Swift (an answer for the second time this series) to put the game beyond Brookes.

Birkbeck 220 - 205 Oxford Brookes

Phew! You can definitely see the effect of Rajan's quicker questioning here. 

This was the first match with a combined score of 400 or more since Durham thrashed Strathclyde 360-55 in 2018. You've got to go back to 2014 for the last match where both teams scored more than 200, when Trinity beat Manchester 285-205 in the quarters.

So despite the fact I think the average score is going to be a bit higher this series than in recent history, Oxford Brookes can count themselves supremely unlucky, and will definitely be returning as high-scoring losers. 

See you tomorrow for Southampton vs Christchurch

[gabenvrhappened]

PlaylistsOr... Ruthlessly Crying Out Loud Like a Seventeen Babe

The idea was in my head for months now: what if I created a playlist to post on my Tumblr? I wanted to have a space where I could write about songs I love but that I don't feel like have much of a story to have a whole essay written about them — or because sitting down to write always takes time, and sometimes, it's time I don't have. So it only seemed right to share these songs as if they were a playlist of my recent obsessions. Want to join me?

Favorite Lyric: I don't believe in violence ⬩ But you know I won't be silent ⬩ I'm a lover, not a fighter ⬩ But if anyone tried to hurt you ⬩ I would be ruthless for you ⬩ Do something crazy, you know I would, baby ⬩ I swear I've got your heart and if it came down to it ⬩ I would be ruthless;

Ruthless by Kacey Musgraves came to me when I decided that I wanted to get to know more songs, starting from artists I already know because that would be less overwhelming. While playing her newest album, Ruthless stood out the most. In the past, her album Star-Crossed, and specifically the song Justified, helped me through a hard time in my life that I already spoke about here a lot. I don't consider myself a fan of hers, mostly because I like one or another song.

This one got me in this new moment in my life where I'm feeling more confident and posting more of myself on social media. And, just like most of the songs with this love theme, it makes me hopeful in finding someone that would make me feel ruthless. In fact, I just had a date this week, and it was so sweet. Who knows if I'd be ruthless for this guy? And kind of random, but somehow this song reminds me of Speechless from the Aladdin movie, sung by Naomi Scott, that I love so much and that Im still resentful that it didn't win an Oscar.

Favorite Lyric: I had a dream that we danced at a crosswalk, down the block ⬩ Didn't even care that we made the traffic stop ⬩ You put your hand on top of my hand;

Moving on, 17 by Julia Michaels also came to me while going back to artists I like, but in her case, it was more of a comeback to an album that I hadn't paid much attention to back in the day. Her Inner Monologue project brought "Into You" to my playlists when it was released, but nothing stood out much for me. Just like Kacey, Julia is an on-and-off type of artist. Her song, for example, All Your Exes was and still is the biggest anthem for me that will always crave a new excitingly discoverable type of love.

Funny enough, all along, she had a song called 17 and I never bothered to press play? Songs with this age in their title are certain to make me obsessed (for all that feeling of youth and flashbacks of a good time), like the one from Avril Lavigne (that, just like this one, brings us back down the memory road, on a universal feeling of, if sixteens are sweet, seventeens are wild). In fact, this Michaels's song almost made its way through a separate post because I thought it would be a good #TheOldGabe post together with Avril's song and Ellie Goulding's song... until I figured out her song was called Sixteen instead... well. It's here now, and it even gave me a new idea for my list of adventures: dance on a crosswalk. She doesn't sing it, but if there's rain involved, then it's checkmate for me.

Favorite Lyrics: I don't know what to tell you ⬩ Maybe I never knew ⬩ Not tryna make you jealous but it looks so good on you ⬩ Been stuck on elevators, in airports and empty rooms ⬩ Been stuck here, waiting for you ⬩⬩ You're sweating off your makeup ⬩ You're running every light ⬩ What's gonna help you wake up ⬩ Won't help you sleep at night ⬩ Sometimes I see the future ⬩ Sometimes I'm not so bright ⬩ Sometimes you're looking for a fight;

Now we can continue with songs that were released recently. The first of them was For Crying Out Loud by FINNEAS. I didn't know he was releasing something, so I pressed play at first without pretension, but from the very second that that first listen had ended, I became hooked on the song. I feel like, just like Charlie Puth, he has so much potential as a producer — a potential that he's living up to, especially with all his work with Billie Eilish.

I've been addicted to his tunes before, like the masterpiece Hurt Locker and the enticing Let's Fall In Love For The Night, so I knew he had it in him, but I didn't know that it was this much. This is such an infectious song, and I can't stop catching myself saying to myself how good of a job he did here. I could pick every single part of the song to be my favorite lyric or part, which is rare to happen.

Naturally, the second I understood how this song had its effect on me, I sent it to my friend, and then I searched if he was planning to come to Toronto for a concert. Nothing yet, but fingers crossed.

Favorite Lyric: "Is there anything you wanna talk about?" ⬩ You said, "Like what?", I said, "Don't play around" ⬩ You said "Just leave it alone, babe" ⬩ What if I can't, babe ⬩ Is there anything you wanna say to me ⬩ Like "baby, if we don't stop, we'll ruin everything" ⬩ You said, "You'd better go home, babe" ⬩ If that's what you want, babe;

Lastly, but not least, we have Babe by Amy Shark. She just released her new album, and I was sort of ashamed of myself for not knowing it since I love her. But I don't blame myself. If her first album, Love Monster, was fantastic (incredible songs like Leave Us Alone, Never Coming Back, and Middle of the Night — just to name a few), as she was releasing her later albums, I felt like the quality was declining. Until we came to this one, where she was releasing songs that weren't (sometimes barely) two minutes long. For me, that's the worst way an artist can sell their soul for streams.

When Two Friends was released, my hope was alight a little bit, and now, with the record out, it's no surprise that my favorite song comes from the same subject that inspired the song I first mentioned. It's been a long road since I've discovered her through the Love, Simon soundtrack. Unlike FINNEAS, though, I feel like the chances of her coming to Toronto aren't that high. Which is a bummer (even with her not singing the incredibly perfect Sink In in her shows).

What caught my attention in this song was the line about the goodbye kiss on the cheek. I did that on the date I mentioned earlier. Let's just hope it's not this type of goodbye, because this song portrays a playful and secretive relationship ending. Through the very clever chorus, made almost entirely of dialogues, we can feel the pain these two former friends, now lovers, are feeling. I just hope they're happy, because I want every couple to be happy — seriously, one of the things that hurts me the most is seeing a couple fighting on the street; it always makes me want to come to them to help remind them of the love they once shared — but considering her album it's called Sunday Sadness, I'm not sure about that.

[melodyplucked]

[ 🎵 ] is there a specific song or songs you associate with your muse? why is that?

honestly, there are a lot... in their own ways... but i'll give you three rn because... why not... i am ALWAYS happy to talk about songs i relate to ricky bowen haha.

smoke slow by joshua bassett-

in the whole like- "she holds my guitar as i pluck out a melody" aka the basis for my url... and the like- musician ricky and the Closeness he craves and the way music plays such a big role in his emotions... but akso like- just- "take your time while you're mine..." and his abandonment issues tm and how he's scared of anyone he loves leaving... and that feeling of like- holding on tight but- knowing this could be all he ever really gets... and being willing to take what he can get even when he knows deep down it's gonna hurt...

sk8er boi by avril lavigne...

in a few ways tbh- even beyond just- obviously he's a skater boy... and i tbh should get into that aspect of things more bc idk if i've written out that headcanon on this blog before about his competitive days or not... because that Was a thing for my ricky... and not one i talk about too much bc- musician!ricky is a big part of my thing... but like "he was a skater boy..." and then "but now he's a superstar, slamming on his guitar, does your pretty face see what he's worth" and just ... the whole aspect with ricky of how he's CONSTANTLY put down and either devalued or underestimated... like "no profitable skills" and like- "you can't zefron your way into this one" and how they all act like he's shit and doesn't deserve anything he gets... but- he grows up to BE SOMEONE and that whole aspect of my ricky's character just !!! means a lot. ricky's not particularly ambitious but- he wants to be loved gosh darnit.

brutal by olivia rodrigo

this song gives me ricky vibes- which is kinda funny because it's a liv song... but- ricky would love it... and relate to it v much so... and like- while i'm not necessarily going to point out certain lyrics exactly rn... just- the generalized... lack of faith from others... and ricky's anxiety and depression... and just- everyone's disappointed in him but they also expect him to do the things but he's never gonna get praised because he didn't deserve it anyway... and just- what's there to enjoy? when his mom left and no one who's supposedly his friend actually supports him. i'm so sick of seventeen and where's this whole "the best years of my life" aspect gonna actually kick in. because high school is kinda sucking... he's doing his best out here your honor. even if it's not good enough for anyone else... where is the youth he's supposed to be enjoying?

[transskywardsword]

i remember your complete adoration for character playlists and love encouraging ur hf so QUICK THINK FAST DAMIAN PLAYLIST

JOKES ON YOU I ALREADY HAVE ONE MADE. it's much longer than this but these are some of the ones on there

the main character -- will wood

So, God forbid I'm seen just as an average human being I mean, imagine if antagonists lacked any evil scheme I'm the gap between a tragedy and comedy Don't come at me I'm the main character, and you have to like me

i see this as recently coming to gotham damian, who is facing a lot of mistrust or downright hatred that, after being raised the way he was, is deeply different than what he thought meeting his father would look like. he's used to being treated a very specific way and had a LOT of very specific misunderstandings about bruce's character, and finding himself alone while feeling these things is,,, rough

brutal -- olivia rodriga

I'm so insecure, I think That I'll die before I drink And I'm so caught up in the news Of who likes me and who hates you And I'm so tired that I might Quit my job, start a new life And they'd all be so disappointed 'Cause, who am I, if not exploited?

and also

All I did was try my best This the kind of thanks I get? Unrelentlessly upset (ah, ah, ah) They say these are the golden years But I wish I could disappear Ego crush is so severe God, it's brutal out here

this is a more adjusted but still new to gotham damian-- he knows how he's viewed, what he is, who he is, and while he's been raised to accept it, now that he's on his own, without any ally, well. it's starting to get under his skin

teenagers -- my chemical romance

do i need to explain this one. do I. do I really need to

rat -- penelope scott

i wont post the whole song but like. every lyric in it works. so you get a lot of em.

I come from scientists and atheists and white men who kill God They make technology high quality complex physiological Experiments and sacrilege in the name of public good They taught me everything, just like a daddy should

I studied code because I wanted to do something great like you And the real tragedy is half of it was true

'Cause we're so fucking mean, we're so elitist, we're as fucked as any church And this bullshit west coast dogma has a higher fucking net worth I bit the apple 'cause I loved you, and why would you lie? And then I realized, you're just as naive as I am Oh, you're so traumatized, it makes me wanna cry

Well, I don't wanna eat the rich, I'd have to eat my heroes first And my tuition's paid by blood, I might deserve your fate or worse

i can see this song applying to any of the robins and their relationship with bruce, but damian def fits the most out of all of them

oh no! - MARINA

I know exactly what I want and who I want to be I know exactly why I walk and talk like a machine I'm now becoming my own self-fulfilled prophecy One track mind, one track heart If I fail, I'll fall apart Maybe it is all a test 'Cause, I feel like I'm the worst So I always act like I'm the best

just because damian is self aware of his trauma-- which I very much believe he is-- and how it affects him down to his very blood and breath, he can't undo what has been done to him.

seventeen - MARINA

Oh, you were embarrassed of me 'Cause I used my tongue freely Bet you wish I couldn't speak 'Cause when I do, you know I tell you why you appear weak

and

You teach me how to behave I felt you question the way I was brought up as a baby Well, you don't know fuck about my family

damian is very aware of how his family-- both talia and bruce-- are viewed, and how it reflects on him, and on his own behaviors. well, in his view, tough shit. he is who he is

little big boy -- madds buckley

Brimstone fire and eyes aglow Little big boy's making the whole world know his name Raised on pillars and shining lights, Breathing smoke for the right to keep his place Never satisfied 'till they all see How big this little boy can be Well the water's rising Tide's comin' in Does little big boy know how to swim? In a pond filled with fish bigger than him Oh little big boy's gonna see how little he really is

it's all fun and games until you're robin-- can league training really prepare you for the horrors of gotham?

interlude: i'm not angry anymore -- paramore

'm not angry anymore Well, sometimes I am I don't think badly of you Well, sometimes I do It depends on the day The extent of all my worthless rage I'm not angry anymore

damian is adjusting to his new family and new city and hey, even some new friends! but trauma doesn't go away overnight

lullaby - shayer james & kate douglas

Mother, all my life you taught me People can't be trusted And we have to fight to stay alive We'll always be the enemy Oh, eye for eye and limb for limb The blood that I've been swimming in Oh, mother, I've grown tired of this Mother, I've grown tired of this There's beauty and there's empathy Some people might've cared for me I hid my heart and stayed inside Instead of moving with the tide Oh, mother, I've grown tired of this

how do you rationalize loving your mother while also being aware of how she's hurt you, how she's forged you into a weapon? how do you live with that?

this is home -- cavetown

Get a load of this monster He doesn't know how to communicate His mind is in a different place Will everybody please give him a little bit of space? Get a load of this trainwreck His hair's a mess and he doesn't know who he is yet But little do we know the stars Welcome him with open arms Oh time is slowly tracing his face But strangely he feels at home in this place

damian is viewed as a monster and a danger, sometimes even by his own fellow heroes, but at the end of the day, he'll have people who love him for who he is, not despite who he is

[kwaggysshardmindemporium]

Hey guess who just remembered they haven't done a blog about albums in like two weeks hint it's me. See, I normally do them during downtime at work, was home from work for a week because reasons, and thus snapped myself out of the habit. So here's some rapid fire albums.

Reign In Blood by Slayer. So, I do talk about this on Tumblr occasionally but I'm Jewish. The opening song of this album made me DEEPLY uncomfortable as it's a song about Mengele. I thought the band was mining my culture's suffering for content at best, glorifying Nazis at worst. I did some googling about it to see if this was the case, and found a quote that said essentially "I didn't put any lyrics condemning Mengele's cruel experiments because if I need to TELL you they're atrocities I can't help you." And like fuck man 11/10 attitude honestly. Doesn't make me like the song as it's still a rough listen, but I respect that. Anyway, rest of the album is good. 3/5.

Either Or by Elliott Smith. This album was boring and this far out from having listened to it I cannot remember a god damn thing about it. I apparently gave it a 3/5. Moving on.

The Only Ones by The Only Ones. Similarly, don't remember a god damn thing in hindsight about this album. Also 3/5.

Let It Be by The Replacements. Same story, same rating. 3/5. This is why I try to do the blogs same day when I remember, folks. Would like to quickly clarify that these ratings aren't a "default"score, but specifically the rating I gave it the following day when I generated the next album.

Urban Hymns by The Verve. This album wasn't my thing, but I was still impressed by what they were going for. The album starts with their famous song "Bittersweet Symphony," and climbs and climbs in energy, then drops the energy off a cliff for the last few songs. It is genuinely pretty effective, makes you pay attention, and really takes you places. It's genuinely cool. I didn't really LIKE the songs much, but I respect the creative choices. Also a 3/5, but with a recommendation you listen anyway because I could see someone being inspired to make something truly fucking amazing listening to this.

Seventeen Seconds by The Cure. This one hurts y'all. I like The Cure. They're a good band. This album sucks in a way that isn't even fun to unpack. 2/5.

Technique by New Order. Okay so I only know New Order from like "Blue Monday," while is a cool but very dreary song and very much not my thing. This album punched my expectations in the face, doused them in gasoline, then tossed a match at them while they tried to get back up. It's just plain fucking fun to listen to and you should listen to it. 4/5. If you're wondering based on that statement why it's not a 5, you gotta really understand how low my expectations were on this.

World Clique by Deee Lite. This album isn't very good and "Groove Is In The Heart" is an overrated song. This feels like an opinion that might be controversial maybe but whatever. 2/5.

Play by Moby. This album starts fun and then gets progressively less fun the further you go, to the point where I was begging the album to end about three songs before it actually did, so the rating here is kind of like the average of the first half of the album and the last half. "South Side" is still a fucking jam, but the rest of it ain't gonna change your life. 3/5

Lastly, Groovin' by The Young Rascals. This album has the unfortunate distinction of having a song that played on the work radio when I worked at Walgreens (the title track), and so I automatically hate that song. Listening to it in private on my morning drive didn't make it better. But I'm also not gonna give it an auto-1 because I have unresolved emotions about my former employers. "You Better Run" is a fun song. 3/5.

[fallinfl0wers]

i love your lyric prompts!! i got curious of the songs so i listened to them all and wow seventeen makes such nice songs :0 may i request iori from i7 and prompt 20? thank you and have a great day <3 !!

20. “You’ve always stayed by my side, didn’t you?” Hitorijanai - SEVENTEEN from the lyric prompt list! thank you for requesting! yes, seventeen makes very good music! >< i recommend all their songs to anyone interested! i'm so sorry it took so long, but here you go! hope you enjoy <3 iorinnn... so cute... warnings: gn reader, reader is training to debut at takanashi productions and childhood friend of iori and mitsuki wordcount:

Iori sat down on the floor of the practice room, breathing heavily and drying of his sweat with a towel with one hand and looking for his water bottle with the other.

As he took a sip from his water, he heard the door opening.

"Working hard as always, I see."

When he turned to see who it was, he found you standing there, closing the door behind you and holding a bag with two lunchboxes.

He blinked at you, but smiled nonetheless.

"Y/N, good work today as well."

You smiled and walked over to where he sat, sitting down yourself next to him and setting down the lunchboxes in between the two of you.

"I don't know if you're hungry at all, but I made this for you. One is for me too, though." Iori nodded, closing his water bottle and setting it aside.

"I am quite hungry at the moment, actually." You gave him some hand sanitizer, and then you handed him one of the lunchboxes.

Iori blushed a bit when he opened it up, finding that you had gone all out and made cute figures with the food.

More specifically, you made the food look like characters from usamimi friends.

He noticed your lunchbox was the same as his, though, so he refrained from commenting too much on it.

"...Cute... It- ahem, you surely worked hard on these, Y/N."

"Yeah, it served as a distraction from, well, everything, you know..." You shrugged. "Practice has been too hard lately, I just needed to get my mind off of it for a bit, so once I was free, I went home and made this."

Iori nodded.

"Indeed, practice can be very hard at times." He agreed, taking a bite of the food.

"Which reminds me, don't you guys have a concert coming up soon?" You inquired, mimicking his action and eating.

"We do, that's why I wanted to polish some minor details of the choreography on my own." He said. "We've been on a lucky streak lately, we have to work harder in order to get higher than where we are now."

You smiled as he recalled events in which his group, IDOLiSH7, has been getting a positive spotlight on recently.

Always so passionate about it all, you really like that about him.

"You're amazing, Iori." You said.

He stopped in the middle of his rambling, turning to look at you a little startled and, admittedly, embarrassed. He cleared his throat.

"...It's not a big deal, really." He said. "It's thanks to the members and our manager that we've gotten this far."

You hummed, as he averted his gaze for a moment.

"And, personally, for me..." Iori turned his face away from you, so that you wouldn't see his cheeks tinting pink. "It's also because... you've been there for me."

Your hand stops its motions when you were about to take another bite of your food, and you blinked as you set your chopsticks down and tilted your head at him.

"Me...?" You asked out loud, a little astonished.

Iori was silent for a second, before he let out a sigh and turned around to face you again. No tension was left in his shoulders, as a fond smile and gaze was set on his face when he glanced at you.

"You've always stayed by mi side, didn't you?"

You felt your heart skip a beat, and he continued.

"Supporting me and believing in me... you've always been there, ever since we were little. I... really appreciate that."

You could feel heat rising to your face and your ears as your heartbeat raced up at his words, and hoped he didn't notice how flustered you were.

You've been friends with Iori ever since you two were little kids, and you've shared countless experiences of all kinds together. Happy moments, painful moments, frustrating moments- you have memories of Iori for every emotion you can feel.

Even for love.

But, you think, it's too soon for him to know that last bit.

"...I'm the same." You said, smiling at him before looking away at your food. As you took another bite of your food, Iori didn't tear his gaze away from you for a long while, staring at your profile with fondness.

A lot has changed since you were kids, but a lot has also stayed the same.

He looked away.

A lot has changed, Iori knows, and a lot will keep on changing as the two of you keep on chasing after your dreams.

But, one day...

"...Let's keep getting along from now on, Y/N."

You nodded, smiling to yourself. "Yeah, let's."

One day, Iori hopes, he will be able to freely let his feelings for you fully bloom.

[that-crazy-five-foot-two-chick]

Stray Kids as ABBA songs

Because I heard the end of Chiquitita on a skz edit, and it brought me indescribable joy and reminded me how much I love ABBA

Disclaimer: some are perfect, some are based on vibes, some are specifically because of certain excerpts. If they come across weird, I'm sorry, and you can fight me if you want. I might win or I might lose, considering I'm 5'2 but also have biceps and a fierce sense of competition when need be, but it is what it is and now I'm rabbit trailing...ABBA TIME.

Bang Chan

Chiquitita

Does this even require commentary because I don't think it does. He's just ✨like that✨

Chiquitita, tell me the truth/I'm a shoulder you can cry on/Your best friend, I'm the one you must rely on

Lee Know

Does Your Mother Know

Okay this is purely based on vibes and definitely not what I actually think would happen. Also the inherent pun clinched it for me. The vibe is the following face/situation:

Well, I can dance with you, honey, if you think it's funny/Does your mother know that you're out?

Changbin

When All Is Said And Done

Mostly for these excerpts. 3racha never stops pushing limits, man.

We're still striving for the sky/No taste for humble pie

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It's so strange when you're down and lying on the floor/How you rise, shake your head, get up and ask for more/Clear-headed and open-eyed/With nothing left untried

Hyunjin

Mamma Mia

I considered other songs like Lay All Your Love On Me, but I think he would enjoy the happy vibes and drama and jam out to Mamma Mia 😊

Mamma mia, here I go again/My, my, how can I resist ya?/Mamma mia, does it show again/My, my, just how much I've missed ya?

Jisung

Super Trouper

Oof I considered so many sad boi hours songs, but I think this one fits him best because it's got equally as much happy as sad and I was very much thinking about SLUMP in my thought process. Oh and also one clip I saw where he got really excited when he saw his mom in the crowd after a show

I was sick and tired of everything/When I called you last night from Glasgow/All I do is eat and sleep and sing/Wishing every show was the last show/So imagine I was glad to hear you're coming/Suddenly I feel all right/And it's gonna be so different/When I'm on the stage tonight

Felix

I Have A Dream

I thought Sunshine Boi deserved one of my favorite ABBA songs

I Have a Dream, a song to sing/To help me cope with anything/If you see the wonder of a fairy tale/You can take the future, even if you fail/I believe in angels/Something good in everything I see

Seungmin

Angeleyes

Please don't hurt me, Seungmin stans 😅 I know he's not actually terrible like the guy in the song, but I thought it fit how he looks angelic but he'll actually kill you in your sleep with no evidence but actually he puts others above himself. But he's still in savageracha for a reason.

Look into his angel eyes/You'll think you're in paradise/And one day you'll find out he wears a disguise/Don't look too deep into those angel eyes

Jeongin

Dancing Queen

Okay yeah yeah I know it sounds like a cop out and originally it was, but hear me out. Look at all the lyrics (not just my excerpt) and tell me it doesn't fit our Maknae Heart Stealer™ other than the 17 part

You are the dancing queen/Young and sweet/Only seventeen

Bonus: OT8

Under Attack

...yes

I hardly dare to think of what could happen/Where I'd be if I fell/Under attack, I'm being taken/About to crack, defenses breaking/Won't somebody see and save a heart?/Come and rescue me now 'cause I'm falling apart

Okay I'm done but I couldn't not include my favorite ABBA song 😘

[hella1975]

ayo top five sam fender songs?? I wanna get into him cause you talk about him sm

omg i genuinely don't know if i can answer this i love SO MANY of his songs okay let's go this is going to get messy. so in no particular order my top 5 are

dead boys - i have talked about this song before but jesus christ the lyrics, the sound, the meaning EVERYTHING about it is so so intense it hits such a specific ache inside me. you know when you love a song SO MUCH that when you're asked about it you actually have nothing to say?? yeah that's me with this song. you're gonna have to just trust me and listen to it it's fucking incredible

leave fast - this is a MAJOR 'i hate this small town i feel trapped' song for me. i used to loop this song on the bus and just dream of finally moving away. the whole 'leave fast or stay forever' really got to me because i saw so so so many people who were just like me, they were so desperate to get out, they had so many plans, and then they'd get trapped for whatever reason and it almost felt like i was leaving them behind. idk this song is just so beautifully written and the VOCALS omg

hypersonic missiles - one of his more cheerful songs. this is a summer song, a driving-down-the-country-lanes-with-your-mates song, a blasting-at-full-volume song. it makes me smile whenever it plays. i have so many good memories to this song

the borders - this is very much in the same vein as dead boys for me, in what it symbolises and how it effects me. it really reminds me of teenage comradery and how that can sour as you get older. sam fender really gets me thinking about my schooldays and the people i grew up with and how we've all changed and this song is really bittersweet in that regard

seventeen going under - i absolutely adore this song and it's the only one on this list from his new album which is a shame because his new album is SOOOO GOOD (check out 'spit of you' as well, also 'last to make it home' OMG ALSO 'AYE' IS VERY GOOD OKAY I'LL STOP NOW-). the lyrics of this song are genuinely some of the best of any song i've ever heard, you'll probably also have heard it before because the whole 'i was far too scared to hit him, but i would hit him in a heartbeat now' got SNATCHED by tiktok. just. the way he describes anger and again the whole theme of youth is just *chefs kiss* 10/10 would cry again. ofc this is also a MASSIVE zuko song for me so alas that moody bastard kind of ruined it for me bc now he's all i think about when it comes on but STILL the thought is there

[shra-vasti]

Flower

Pairing : Yoon Jeonghan x reader

Type : ex-lovers to soulmate au, idol au

Genre : primarily angst, fluff

Warnings : cursing here and there and a makeout scene at the start

Soulmate au type : In which your soulmate's initial are craved into your wrist when you turn 20 and when you touch each other their initial turns into their full name.

Synopsis : You and Jeonghan dated before getting your soulmark but it ended in a rather most heartbreaking way for you but fate bought you two together and now it's upon Jeonghan to fix what he messed up.

Note : Italics = flashback/past

Word count : 6k

"Yah, Yoon Jeonghan take me home."

He look up from where he was seated with his drink in his hands as he took in your form. You were barely walking straight, your body far from being balanced.

"What did you say?"

Shock was clearly evident in his voice that you even thought of walking in his direction yet alone ask him to take you home. He heard Mingyu and Jun snicker beside him laughing at his confused and shocked state. Their Hyung was never this perplexed in front of anyone.

"You heard me." you let out a whine already regretting your decision to even ask him to drop you home.

"My friends are way too drunk and Joshua told me that you are aren't drinking tonight plus your apartment is near mine."

He put his drink on the counter as he made his way towards you.

"You're going to regret this once you sober up." he muttered more to himself as he took a hold of your hand and guided you out of the party with all of his and your friends cheering up and leaving teasing remarks.

He took you to your apartment as you fumbled with your purse to take out the card to swap across the monitor but it seemed like you weren't even in the condition to do that so Jeonghan took it upon himself to tuck you in bed and then leave.

"Yoon Jeonghan." you called out when he settled you on your couch, his eyebrows furrowed in concentration as he helped you take out your heels.

He look up at you when he heard you calling his name to see your face really close to his.

"Why are you frowning?" you asked as you gently swiped your thumb across his eyebrows to make him relax, a habit of yours whenever you found him frowning over something.

"I should go."

He was sure that you were mad drunk and if he will stay in your apartment unit longer, one of you will regret it in the end.

You held his hands as you saw him get up from where he was standing and stood up before him, your gaze still hazy.

Your hands craddled his face as you cup his jaw slowly closing the distance between the two of you. His hands found their way around your body and rested on your hips but as soon as he felt your breath on his face and the scent of wine hit his nose he came back to reality, no he can't take advantage of you when you were drunk.

You once again let out a whine, stomping your feet on the floor clearly frustrated.

"I don't want you to do anything with me, which I know you will regret, when you are drunk. I'm not drunk so I won't let that happen."

His voice was stern but it felt like instead of scolding you he was actually trying to warn himself about it.

"Lets have a drink then, why are you the only one not getting drunk." you said as you blackmailed him to stay put and went inside the kitchen to grab a bottle of wine.

A loud noise was heard as soon as you went inside the kitchen and Jeonghan didn't think twice before running towards you to see that you accidentally made the steel utensils fell onto the floor.

He sighed as he picked them up and moved towards where you were in front of your refrigerator. He crossed his arms across his chest eyeing you and silently asking you on how on earth you have so many bottles of wine in your house.

You just smiled at him not really caring about his stern gaze as you pulled his collar by one hand, a bottle on wine on another as you finally pulled him in for a kiss.

His body stiffened at the sudden proximity, he felt your one hand running through his hair and tucking on it making him groan. He pulled your body harshly against his as he devoured you unable to control himself as his hands roamed everywhere on your body, touching each surface of your exposed skin as much as possible.

He pulled away to catch his breath, his eyes darkening at the sight of your swollen lips, then his eyes landed on the bottle of wine loosely hanging on your hand and he snatched it from you, opening the bottle and chugging as much as drink possible in one go.

Your eyes widened as you look at him drinking the wine vigorously. You once again moved towards him taking the bottle from his hands and putting it somewhere on the kitchen counter.

You hop onto the counter and once again tugged him towards you kissing and sucking on his neck and drinking the remains of wine which spilled from his mouth onto his neck and chest. He let out a groan as his hands found your hair and he grabbed them harshly pulling you off him before once again claiming your lips.

You crossed your legs around his body and you felt his hands move down from your head towards you waist to hold you in place as he got away from the counter carrying you, lips still attached with each other sighing and moaning in each other's mouth as he lead you towards your room.

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You hadn't even check your phone and put it in silent mode just to avoid your group members potentially messaging or calling you to reach you and inform you about something you were purposly trying to ignore.

It was late at night, clearly an hour before the night ends and another day starts as you walked in the direction of your dorm room which was few blocks away from your company's building, where you had been practicing for a stage whole day which wasn't even that important and you had already mastered all of the steps and lyrics.

With that thought in your mind, you took out your phone and you watch as the screen lit up as your pressed your finger on the senser, the first thing to catch your attention among the numerous texts and calls of your members and few of Seventeen's was the date&time displayed.

10:50 PM, 4 October.

You made your way inside your dorm building's lobby still focused on your phone as you deligently cleared your notifications not paying much attention to the surroundings since your dorm's building was never that crowded at such times., at least that's what Jeonghan thought as he watched you made your way towards him or more specifically where the stairs of your dorm room lies, unknown of his presence.

He looked at his wrist where your initials were craved, they were just initials and there maybe hundreds of people with same initials for all he knew but his doubts vanished when he asked your members about the soulmark on your wrist and they informed him about his initials being craved on them. Despite all of this, he followed his gut feelings, he just needed to touch you to confirm everything.

He had been sitting on the stairs for nearly an hour now, his eyes narrowed to get a better look and not miss anything as he focused on the building's gate, hand clasped together tightly, legs tapping the ground beneath, he anxiously waited there to at least see you once before his birthday ends, as if he knew that the only person who was going to cross it anytime soon was you.

It was a terrible idea, he knew but if you weren't going to show any signs of acknowledgement of his presence in your life once again he might as well be shameless for the sake of his feelings cause he was aware that he fucked everything up.

He straightened his back and got up taking a few steps down the stairs to meet you halfway when he noticed you putting your phone back inside your pocket, you were going to notice him now that you weren't focused on anything else.

"Yoon Jeonghan?"

Your voice was a low whisper but he felt his heart skipping a beat as his name rolled off your lips. He was never a fan of his name thinking his parents could have chosen some cooler sounding name but he loved the way you said his name and he suddenly was in love with his formerly not so cool name.

He watched as you sighed softly before siding him but not today he wasn't going to let you off today easily, he was confused if he was being this daring because he couldn't take it anymore or that it was all because today was his birthday and he knew that for you at some point of your life his birthday was one of the most important day.

He blocked your path, his body a little bit more closer than it has ever being in years.

"You didn't attend my birthday party."

"I had other important things to do."

"I just needed few hours of your day if not two, you know."

"I apologize, now if you would excuse me."

His breath hitched, this wasn't going to be easy but he had to do something. He had watched you from afar for a year already and his guilt and conscience was eating him up every time he looked at you or hear about you.

He just needed to talk, to let you know about his feelings, to tell you how he didn't mean any of the thing which had happened in the past in between you both which broke you apart, he needed to tell you how he deserved your hatred rather than the obvious nonchalant attitude you put before him.

He just needed to hear your voice directly talking to him, he needed you to look at him to show any signs that there's still hope cause God knows he wouldn't survive being without you.

"You are free now, I asked your members and they said you don't have any schedule till tomorrow evening so I guess you can spend the last hour of my birthday with me without sacrificing your sleep or anything else."

He knew that if he didn't knew any better, the glare which you sent in his direction would have made anyone else surrender in defeat in seconds, but he kept his cool facade on as he threw you a shit eating grin as if to prove you that you couldn't back off.

You rolled your eyes, hands crossed across your chest clearly feeling frustrated cause you knew that once he made up his mind for anything, he'll do anything to get it done and you spending his birthday's last hour with him was one of it.

You groaned, indirectly telling him that you aren't a big fan of the idea as you turned around towards the building gate once again. You frowned when you look behind after walking a good distance noticing that he was still glued on the same place with a confused expression. You huff in annoyance.

"Are you going to spend the rest one hour standing there or you wanna go outside? I don't mind intentionally wasting this one hour just so you know." with that you turned around once again as you started making your way out of the building.

Jeonghan blinked a few times clearly surprised at your sudden change in behavior. You never let him speak more than two sentence before ignoring him completely but here you were ready to spend an hour with him, just him.

He closed his eyes as he silently thanked his members as well as yours to help him mend his relationship with you at least till this point.

When he first faced you after years of not being in contact, you didn't even behave like you knew him, like he never made your day better, like he never really sing you to sleep, like he never was your high, like he never really existed in your life and he was shattered.

He made a big mistake but he loved you way too much to lose you like that, you didn't deserve it and he was ready to do anything to fix that. A smile plastered on his lips as he started running to catch up with you.

He brought you towards where his car was parked and started driving, no words were exchanged. He took a look at you leaning on the passenger seat lazily, your head on the closed tinted window. He reached towards the button and slightly pulled the window glass down enough for the outside air to enter in.

You frown feeling the glass move as you pushed yourself off to properly sit and shot a glare towards him before looking after what he did. You can't breathe properly due to suffocation when the cars windows are all closed so he pull down the windows enough to let some air in.

You looked at him as he casually continued his driving like doing such things for you was his second nature, well it used to be his second nature and all of the things he was doing was just in his instincts.

It was in his instincts to take care of you, to know what you like, to know what you don't, to know how you like your drink, which things pisses you off. To him you were an open book and never in your life anyone had ever read you the way he did. No one could ever.

"Namsan tower? I thought you would take me to one of those cheesy fancy restaurants or something." you mumbled as you took out your seat belt and head out of the car immediately sighing in relief as the suffocating air of car was now replaced by the fresh air.

Jeonghan got out of the car moments after you did as he observed you.

"This place is more important than those cheesy fancy restaurants for me."

He could sense the awkward aura that surrounded you as both of you made your way towards the tower. It held so many memories, so many moments which both of you still cherish from the bottom of your heart. Maybe taking you here would help him rekindle your relationship.

The familiar road which you had abandoned from years, now that you were walking on it again with the same person who was with you the last time you went there you could tell your emotions were running wild and it was going to be one hell of an hour.

Jeonghan stopped when he reached at the far end of the namsan tower locks as he turn around towards you.

You lift up your eyes from the ground to come directly in contact with his eyes, oh how he managed to still make your heat skip a beat with just one look. You broke the eye contact first as your focus slowly was stolen away by the place you were now standing.

There were hardly any people here, since everyone's major attention seeker was the locks of the tower where the lovers wish for their happy ending and lock it. It was only yours and his place, the end of the namsan's lock. You slowly made your way towards where he was standing few feet away from you and you internally prayed to heavens to make the time flow fast.

"It's still beautiful as it was when we used to come here." you looked at him to see him smiling nostalgically at the memory, the sight of him like that was enough for your breath to get caught, he was still breathtaking you concluded.

He turned towards you when he felt your eyes on him which made you look ahead at the beautiful scenery. Your hands felt cold due to the sudden chilly wind and also because of the rush of emotions inside you, you rubbed your sweaty palms on your jeans before putting them back on the railings.

Jeonghan looked at you like he knew that today will mayhaps be the day where either he'll make everything up or fuck everything up all over again and for the first time in years he was so nervous he could feel his heart on his throat.

The last time he felt like that was the time when he sent you a long breakup message on how he fell out of love and was seeing some fellow idol for a quite while behind your back and he couldn't do it anymore. He explained how he got distracted since he spent more time with them as compared to you. He apologized for causing you pain and meeting someone behind your back, he just didn't want to hurt you he said and you just replied with a plain, 'Take care.'

That was it, nothing else. He didn't hear anything from you after that until he saw you in pledis building, this time around as the member of their upcoming girl group.

You didn't yell at him like he expected you to, you didn't hurt him in return, you just completely erased yourself from his life like he never existed. You changed your apartment, he found his things were still there, you didn't take anything with you. Not a single thing. And then it hit him that maybe, maybe he lost something which was very dear to him.

Thinking about the past made him rethink about his boldness that he put up today. He had zero idea how you took the breakup. He was sure you were hurt, devastated, broken up but he didn't know if you hated him for what he did, resented him, still loved him, forget him, cried over him for days, were just angry at him and wished he died instead, cursed him or anything else.

Your feelings regarding the breakup remained an enigma to him till this date, he wasn't sure what was in your mind when you saw him, when you first heard him.

He suddenly felt self conscious about himself, he didn't even properly breakup with you, just a text and you didn't deserve such nonchalant behavior of his, at least he should have told you all of this in person.

But how could he, both of you were not in contact with each other for months since he had recently debuted with Seventeen and was busy with promotions and going out with some other idol to even care about if he contacted you or not cause you were too understanding and too good for him.

He took a deep breath, shivering as he pulled out one of his hands from his hoodie's pocket and gently taking your hand in his and intertwining it, if it was the regular Jeonghan today he was sure he would have run away from the mess he created rather than facing it, but today was different today he actually had something to gain or lose.

Your head snapped towards him in an instant, disbelief portrayed on your face as you look in between your intertwined hands and his face. He put your intertwined hands back inside his hoodie's pocket, ignoring the loud beating of his heart and the obviously frustrated glare you were throwing towards him. He closed his eyes as he tried to calm his nerves down, God this was just him holding your hand like he did countless of time yet he was so nervous.

"We always used to do this back then, your hands get cold easily so I used to hold your hand and put it inside the pocket to make you feel more warm."

He let out a breath he didn't even know he held slowly looking towards you as you were now looking straight ahead and not him. Your facial expressions stiff and a distant look in your eyes.

"What are your intentions Yoon Jeonghan?"

You voice was sharp, to the point and he knew it was meant for him to hurt and for the love of God it did. It broke him. You tried to pull away your hand but he held it tight not letting go. You opened your mouth to say something but he beat you to it.

"It's my birthday today, take it as my wish. I want to relive the time I spent with you just like we used to. Just for tonight, I want my girl back."

He looked at you, his eyes pleading you to consider it. You always fulfilled his wishes which he wished on his birthday be it anything, it was like your own little tradition and you promised him that you would fulfill his every birthday wish till your last breath, he just hoped that you still remembered it and that it still applied, it was his only desperate attempt left.

To beg you for your love.

"Please..."

He sounded so delicate, so fragile, so desperate, he knew he had long thrown his reputation and image in the trash can.

"You promised me you would complete all of my birthday wishes whatever they were if I said them to you before the clock hit 12 till your last breath. Are you going to turn your back on your own words?"

He saw you contemplating to say something and then deciding not to then you took a deep breath and stop struggling to pull away your hand from his grasp.

"Okay....just till midnight." he heard you say as you tightly clasped his hand in yours.

His members and yours had been nothing but a blessing in his and yours shattered relationship. They knew what Jeonghan did was wrong and that he deserved what he was going through but his love for you wasn't something which would go unnoticed by anyone.

So they helped him in every way possible to crack your cold heart into the previous warm one and they didn't hesitate to even blackmail you to consider giving him a second chance and that's the soul reason why you were here with him without creating any scene and argument.

He knew you hated being here and you would've left him there alone if it wasn't for your egoistic self taking a toll on your logical self and compile to whatever attacks your members were making towards you when you said you would never consider being with him again. It's like your members knew you like the back of their hands and knew what exactly they had to do for him to have a chance and he mentally made a note to thanks them personally for this.

You felt him leave your hand and move as you stood still on your spot. He moved behind you carefully snaking his one arm around your torso and other around your shoulder as he pulled you in him. The suddenness of moments leaving your mind blank as he buried his head at the crook of your neck. Your body became stiff as you clutch your fist to control yourself.

This was too much for you, you weren't prepared but he had to, scratch that he needed to be close to you. He was going insane, his body and mind getting euphoric just by your mere scent which he was inhaling. He kept on mumbling sorry again and again as if it would change something, anything, he was desperate.

You looked ahead, not uttering even a single word as he poured his heart out as he cried, his face still buried at the crook of your neck. You could feel his tears slipping down from your neck and sipping inside your clothes fabric or your chest. His grip on you tightened almost as if he was scared you would disappear anytime soon and you let him do what he wanted, till midnight.

"I'm sorry babe, I fucked up. I wish we could get back together like we used to and rebuilt our relationship. I love you so fucking much it's actually crazy how I didn't realize I need you this much when I was with you. Guess I took you for granted but please please please I'll do anything to gain you back please don't slip away from me."

And he cried all of the pain and guilt away which built up in him since the time he broke up. He didn't care if your roles in the relationship changed, he didn't care if you treat him nonchalantly, he just wanted you to love him and be with him.

His cries subsidized as the time passed and you could hear him sniffling and rubbing his nose on your clothed shoulder like he always did and you stayed there silently feeling the warmth he radiated.

He removed his hand which was on your torso and held your hand and brought it in front of you both so that your hands were visible to both of you. He pulled down the sleeves of your top revealing your wrist and he could feel his and yours heart beating loudly against his chest at the sight.

Yoon Jeonghan was craved beautifully on your wrist and when he pulled the sleeves of his own hoodie up you could feel your eyes well up by noticing your name craved on his wrist right beside where your hand was with both of your names side by side.

"I love you." he simply said as he hit his head lightly on your shoulder too tried to utter another word or explain anything else. He did everything he could do and all that was left now was those three words.

"I love you too." you replied as he turn you around to face him, the shock clearly evident on his face like he wasn't expecting this. He didn't even expect you to say its okay yet alone those three words back. But before he could say something, you did.

"I loved you too damn much and I know I'll keep on doing it. Cause all you ever taught me was how to love and I'm filled with you."

He wiped the tears which slipped from your eyes as he mumbled how sorry he was that you had to go through so much pain alone.

"I love you, Yoon Jeonghan...but you betrayed your love and your times up."

With that you pushed yourself away from him, the distant and cold look coming back on your face as you left him there, alone. You stopped a cab and got in never turning back and once he came back to his senses he realized what you did. You gave him a taste of his own medicine. You let him make a fool of himself in front of you and ditched him in the end, just like he did.

He turned around to look for you but all he could see was moving cars and empty surrounding he called for you thinking that you were playing some sort of prank but little did he know that he was wrong.

Jeonghan opened his eyes, his hands clutching on the sheets as he propped himself up. He rubbed his face grabbing his head due to the unbearable headache he felt. He dreamed about his birthday again, it was slowly becoming like a nightmare to him, a nightmare which he knew had already happened.

"You're up."

He ignored his thoughts when he felt like he heard your voice, confusion laced on his face as he slowly lift his head up to see your figure leaning on the doorframe of the bed. You pulled yourself off the leaning position as you threw him a small smile before going out of the room and coming back with a tray in your hands.

You sat in front of him, the blanket was splayed across his lower half as your legs came in contact with his, confirming that it was all real.

"Is your head hurting? The hangover must have hit hard considering you drank everything in one go. Drink this and you'll feel at ease."

You handed him the drink which you made and put aside the tray. His head lingered around the words you just muttered hangover? Drank everything in one go?

"Aren't you going to drink it?" you voice brought him back, his focus once again on you. You hand made contact with his forehead and then back and his arms as you tried to feel his body temperature.

"You didn't caught fever did you?" you asked concernly. He shook his head, he was fine but he wasn't sure about anything other than that.

His eyes landed on your shirt, the one which was somewhat too big for you, half of it was tucked neatly inside your shorts. He realized it was his shirt and after that everything started to fall into places as memories of last night started flooding inside his head.

"Where were you? I didn't see you here when I woke up." he said after he drank the drink you made.

"Hyungjae came to ask me about my schedule so that we could work together on writing the song for his upcoming song."

"You went outside the apartment to meet him, like this?" he questioned as he eyed you form. You were wearing his shirt, the purple marks from last night still visible on your neck even though your hair were kept loose and shorts.

"What's the problem in this? He was just outside the door I could've even gone in my pajamas and he wouldn't have care less."

You shrugged as if it didn't bother you at all about the fact that Hyungjae was also present at the party yesterday and surely knew what Jeonghan wore and then he came to meet you and you were wearing his shirt.

It was as if you had indirectly told Hyungjae that you belonged to him and that boy never shut up but Jeonghan didn't mind about it what he minded was if you were okay with that.

"Come on I'm in the kitchen freshen up and have some breakfast with me."

He watched as you got up and headed outside the door was this actually reality? Didn't you say that he betrayed you and that you have nothing to do with him? He thought whatever you did last night was something done under the influence of alcohol in your system but he guessed you just drank purposely to avoid backing off.

He quickly made his way towards your bathroom and did his morning routine. He looked at himself in the mirror, he was shirtless since you were wearing his and he had his pants on, some of the marks of last night still visible on his upper body reminding him that you are waiting for him at the kitchen so he made his way towards it.

He saw you seated on the kitchen counter eating up ice-cream when he saw you looking at him.

"I was going to make breakfast but then it dawned me how tired I'm from last night and I lost all of my will to do anything. Will you make breakfast?"

His could feel his ears turning red after hearing you say that, a laughed escaped your lips watching him get so flustered as you motioned him to come closer to you and he did. He came towards you and you put the container of ice cream aside, your hands cradling his face to kiss his forehead, nose and then his lips.

He looked at you for a second before wrapping his hands around your body lazily, you leaned in again and he let his body relax against you and let you take the lead. You wrapped your legs around his torso bringing him more close and he sighed into the kiss. The kiss was lazy and slow like you were just trying to remember the way he felt close to you.

You pull away breathing softly as your eyes were still closed, the feeling of his lips still lingering on your own, he put his forehead on yours sighing contently.

"Are you fine?" his voice was a bit hoarse due to kissing, you opened your eyes taking look at him. You smiled pecking his lips again before removing some of the strands of hair fallen on his face.

"You still look so ethereal when the afterglow hits you." you said making him even more flustered if he wasn't already.

"I always asked you to never say it to me, it makes me flustered." he whined as he hide his face at the crook of your neck in embarrassment. Although he was embarrassed he couldn't help but feel at ease listening you talking about the things you did together in the past.

"Why did you suddenly decided to change?" he coughed as he asked you trying to remove the hoarseness in his voice.

"If you don't remember, you said you wish for us to get back together and rebuilt our relationship and I promised you I would grant all of your birthday wishes."

You smiled recalling the memories you made with him, his birthday few months prior and his confession was something you couldn't take off your head for weeks and then you decided to talk it out with Joshua since he already found his soulmate.

After talking with Joshua, you started figuring out your own feelings towards Jeonghan cause all you had even done was push aside anything related to him to not get hurt but when you actually started thinking about it you realize that if Jeonghan was ready to risk it all for you, the least you could do was give me a chance to do so and although you knew it would take sometime to trust him and love him like you did at some point you were determined to test the bond which fate had given a chance to.

"Although it took me sometime to actually consider all of this, I wasn't sure, I never have been but I guess in the end when it comes to you, there's no going back and also there must be a reason the fate tied us together right?"

You felt him smile against your lips, the weight on his shoulder was lifted finally letting him have the peace. He hugged you tight, too afraid that this moment was nothing more than a dream and he didn't want to wake up.

Having you say those words, he felt he could finally sleep at night without feeling the burden and he realized that when you love someone your ego and reputation should be thrown out of your body cause in the end you were the only thing that mattered to him, his lover, his life, his soulmate who had touch him in million ways possible.

"I love you, han." you whispered as you heard him chuckle making you frown.

"I was so used to hear to call me Yoon Jeonghan that Han felt like a distant memory to me but now it had unlocked many different kinds of emotions I kept buried inside the deepest corners of my heart. I think being with you once again there are going to be so many nostalgic rides down the memory's lane and I'm ready to risk it all for you."

With that he rubbed his nose against you as he turn around towards the gas stove to start preparing for the breakfast. He felt you hug him from behind mumbling how you were hungry and that he should hurry up, he was actually looking forward for his days now.

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"The one who let me know and see myself, you are my only flower. If you bloom forever in my heart then it's okay for me to get hurt."

[zeeph-yr]

rules: answer 30 things about yourself and tag people you’d like to get to know better!!

I was tagged by: @attackongangtan (wowowow I'm honored ‼️‼️thanks love)

I tag: @misterlukas @luckykoya @flaurhals @roygbiv96 @kayshapeshifter @mezzelfa-tolkieniana (obvs do it only if you want, I know you've got a lot on your plate. love you so much bubs💕)

nickname: The Great Powerful Meme Overlord, but just Al or Ali will do, peasants

pronouns: she/her

zodiac: cancer♋

height: 160 cm / 5'3" (we don't talk about it)

age: 22 (tho if you're asking about the mental age I'd say about 5)

time: like, what time is it right now?? why is this a question,, anygays, 14:55

favorite artist: (singer? painter? dancer?? what do y'all want) singer, BTS (duh), Seventeen, P!nk, Troye Sivan, Ed Sheeran, Queen- I've got quite a wide range of musical taste, the only genre I dislike is screamo. I wouldn't say I like a specific artist, but rather a specific song. As for illustrators, I'm in love with Xiao Tong Kong (https://velsmells.artstation.com/) and @/LordIzxy (on twt) painting styles and @/heygentlyplease (on twt) cartoonish style and bright colors! AND I'LL PUT MY FAVE DANCER BECAUSE I CAN AND I LOVE HER YES I'M TALKING ABOUT HALEY FITZGERALD like do y'all remember BlackPink's cover of Yonce?? Well she did the original and while BP did an amazing job Haley just blows my mind everytime!! Sorry for the ran, I just love her a lot😔✊

song stuck in my head: Youth, by Troye Sivan

last movie I saw: The Addams Family 2 (we goin✈️ nostalgia)

other blogs: I have one other blog only for BTS related stuff, it's @bts-is-ohana

do I get asks: NOPE which is Sad™ so don't be shy and throw whatever you got at me (send me memes and I'll love you forever *wink wink*)

why I chose my url: well, the one for this blog is just the id I use almost everywhere lol, while the other is self-explanatory I think. It's not my fault seven overgrown children made me fall in love with them and their bond uwu

following: 997 tumblrs uuhhh maybe I should clean up my dash,,

what am I wearing: jeans shorts and a red tee with the Dragonball logo- I had to get dressed to go outside this is so sad Alexa play Anpanman by bts

dream job: idk, I don't really have a dream job, but I'd like to be able to get in touch with many different cultures

dream trip: I'd love to visit Japan! Also China and Cratia, since I have some friends there I'd like to visit

favorite food: listen you can't just ask an italian this, they're gonna have a meltdown or smth. But I love fruits and vegetables, apart from pears🍐 and bell peppers

play any instruments: not really, I'm trying to learn how to play a lil bit of piano though

favourite song: depends on my mood, right now I'd say it's Tomorrow by bts. I just fell in love with the lyrics, I cried so hard the first time I read them dkjsjs

play(ed) any sports: what sports did I not play? I haven't tried skiing, athletics and boxing, but I did almost everything. Shame I never committed to any of them. I wish I'd continued dancing

hair color: light brown / reddish

language: my first language is Italian, but my English is not half bad

random fact: I have an obsession for notebooks and stationery in general, I buy them even if I don't need them pLEASE SAVE ME AND MY WALLET

describe yourself with an aesthetic: running through an empty street at night, messy hair, fluffy clouds, lazy morning with a warm cup of tea, rustling leaves, stained hands, blasting music when you're home alone at midnight, the sound of the night sky

[meanderfall]

Klavier: "Ah, I like your expression. So full of confidence." Do you now, Mr. Gavin. I can't help but feel like this is code for something along the lines of 'You're cute when you're all fired up and about to give someone a verbal beat down.' And then he goes, "Easy there, little attorney" and I just adkajdjk. It's hard to tell if he's being mocking or not, but he really doesn't seem like the type, so with all the pet names and compliments it really does sound more like soft flirting doesn't it.

AND THEN THERE WAS ANOTHER TIME WHEN HE WAS LIKE “oh, i like your swagger. Hit it.” Klavier is so supportive during trials and im just like klav!!!!! now is not the time to flirt!!!!! (but actually do it bc it makes me happy.)

Oh shit, Klavier is kind of freaking out. He really does not like the fact that she forged a page for evidence. Didn't Phoenix say earlier that Klavier was the prosecutor in the case where he was disbarred for "forging evidence"? (Which I still do not believe a word of, for the record. Even if I'm proved wrong though I'll still love him, he'd only do it for a very good reason.) I guess the case has bad memories for him? And "soiled, sullied mentor"? Dang, he really does not like Phoenix does he?

NNNNNNN I WANT TO EXPLAIN AND SAY THINGS BUT I CANT BC I DONT KNOW IF YOU FINISHED THE CASE YET BUT SUFFICE TO SAY THIS CASE IS!!! REALLY TOUGH ON HIM!!!!!

he is so mean to phoenix but i headcanon that he has to believe that phoenix is a bad guy because otherwise....

(as u know, i spend like waaayy too much time on tvtropes and apparently, we’re supposed to be super confused about what happened during that trial 7 years ago. bc klavier keeps looking for the truth and we trust him more and more, an seven years makes less and less sense bc klavier stripped phoenix of his badge and there’s no way phoenix would use forged evidence so what happened??? but none of that went through my head while playing lmao, i was so enamored of klav like straight away that i never really thought about it and i was just like ‘there has to be reason that makes phoenix and klavier to be good people bc theres no way they’re bad.’ i have a problem)

HA! I was right! It wasn't Phoenix, no one could possibly say he was the devil, especially during that time period. She was looking at Klavier though, so I'm gonna go out on limb and say it was his brother? Kristoph tried to frame Phoenix in the first case, so it'd make sense that he'd have tried to do it before. And Klavier does look a lot like his brother, what with the hair. No one would say Klavier's the devil either, but Kristoph? He absolutely has a certain menace to him so I could see it.

there is actually a specific reason that vera uses “devil” when describing the client but i cant say why!!!! You’ll see!!!!

i mean. apollo ended up staring at klavier too when they first met bc he looked so much like kristoph. so, y’know.

Oh my god, look at baby Klavier with the short hair!! What a fuckin punk, I love him. And a cute, itty bitty baby Trucy! And Phoenix's snark is back! Oh how I've missed thee; I love Apollo dearly but it's just not the same lol. This is still back when Phoenix's face said everything he was thinking too, because Klavier totally just called him the fuck out for thinking he was out of his league lmao. And hello Gumshoe! This is all really great for me despite the fact that I know it will go to ruin.

THIS SECTION IS SO HARD BC YOU KNOW WHAT’S GOING TO HAPPEN, AND YOU’RE HAPPY TO SEE THESE PEOPLE BUT YOU KNOW IT CAN ONLY END IN TRAGEDY ESP IF YOU’RE PLAYING AND YOU WANT TO AVOID IT BUT YOU CANT, U HAVE TO GO THROUGH WITH IT AND EVERYTHING IS TERRIBLE

but yes, being in phoenix’s head again is so great!!!!!!! and punk klav, he’s only seventeen what a baby protect him. AND TEENY TINY TRUCY WITH THE BIG EYES AND OVERSIZED HAT AND CAPE IT’S JUST THE CUTEST

phoenix had no poker face back then lmao 

Klavier pulling out all these song lyric references has me living. I am a very music oriented person so I was pretty much destined to love this music boy from the get go, but this is a whole other level. It's one thing to be musician, it's another to be a Total Music Nerd like we see here. Although... something just occurred to me. His bangs later on are about the same length as they here but he grew the back out... did he give himself a mullet?? I mean it looks fine, but still.

IT IS THE BEST, YOU CAN JUST TELL HE LIVES AND BREATHES MUSIC, I LOVE HIM LET ME PROTECT ME

FKLDJHFGH ANON P L E A S E I DONT WANT THAT MENTAL IMAGE THANK YOU