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valkerymillenia · 2 years ago

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I'm this 👌 close to doing something stupid.

#I'm at my limit #there's so much going wrong in my life #and now someone i love is breaking my heart #on top of the money problems #dad needing a new hearing aid #us needing to fix things in the house #the house being a depression mess #dad going into major surgery soon #work is driving me crazy #my health is a mess #I'm probably going to spend my birthday all alone because my dad will be in the hospital #and the people i miss are too far away #and all the other problems just haunting me #i just know I'm going to relapse #and nobody in my life actually cares #i spent my whole work shift today dissociating and trying not to cry

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ghosted-jazz · 5 months ago

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I hope they got that microwave in the break room

Bonus version with different outfit colours:

#wild life smp #inthelittlewood #skizzleman #mumbo jumbo #Mumbo's mug says 1 GOON and Skizz's says 2 GOON (Mumbo has the higher kill count) and Martyn's says IT No.3 (in ref to the end of his video #they all got lightning streaks in their hair cause bride of frankenstein getting resurrected with lightning and bc it looks cool #Mumbo and Skizz are so greyscale then theres Martyn whose just g r e e n #so i tried them all in greyscale but then invert it cause they came back wrong- but I think it looks better with the og colours. I'll find #way to draw the inverted monochrome designs to work just you wait #I love ghost ghoul goons so much. Skizz and Martyn both go 'YOU GOT IT BOSS' in silly voices while Mumbo silently starts stabbing #tw blood #my art

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coddda · 10 months ago

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I wish we could have met in some other way.

Lawlight Week Day 2: Soulmates

If you saw me repost and re-edit this several times uh No you didn't </3

Still frames/Individual gifs:

If you know what every frame is from you get a free cookie. by the way

#death note #dn #light yagami #l lawliet #lawlight #oh god here we go #death note jdrama #death note 2015 #death note 2006 #death note musical #lctw #l change the world #dntm #lawlightweek2024 #my art #collapses i am NEVER putting this much effort in one piece ever again /hj this was the Only one i had mostly prepared in advance #ironically the most painstaking part about making this entire thing was converting the images into an animated file #that wasn't either horrifically compressed or just. wouldn't loop. why do gifs have to look so BAD it's so inconvenient #and THEN i realized I had to forcibly Stitch the two animations together so they would actually be synced and it wouldn't look dumb #and the end result is STILL so compressed. because Tumblr. uhhh just don't click on it it'll look so scuffed LOL. anyways #this is what i get for watching Every Adaptation of Death Note. i am a death note multiverse truther #usually i'd have something clever to say in the tags but. this drained the life out of me just uh.#yeah. they're doomed in every universe. this is the only way they could've met. they are doomed by their own natures and the #circumstances that surround them. there is no universe where light tries to prevent L's death. and even in the cases where L Doesn't die #there is no universe where L can save light. there is no universe where he can truly “catch” Kira and make him see where he went wrong #(<- if you read LCTW you know. :) )#in every universe and adaptation L will call Light his first friend. in some universes they'll take that notion more seriously than others #no matter what one of them will die due to the other. its the only constant. it's the only way it can ever be. they are the others downfall

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licorishh · 4 months ago

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no way she's alive ?? yea those mental health breaks because social media makes people suck are wild huh

#star wars #clone wars #star wars fanart #ahsoka tano #captain rex #anyway i bring you this a) because i'm going back to my tcw roots of late and b) because i miss them terribly #as you can see because i can't handle reality i put her in the novel design #cause wdym they split up after order 66 haha what no that didn't happen you're crazy #read it however you want idc ^^)b any interpretation of their dynamic is the best one i think #yea anyway in this amount of time i've gotten a lot better at anatomy and i don't really care about social media anymore #but i have like nowhere to put my art now so *shrug*#star wars the clone wars #artists on tumblr #i've wanted to do one of those post-type drawings and i am .-+ too lazy +-. to color it sooo #signature got cropped sigh. whatever #if you see a mistake no you don't. you know the drill #also i finally watched bad batch season 3 around christmastime and hewiutgeh.#singlehandedly took the show from a 4 to a 10 for me so thx dave filoni we love u as always >>>#lowk kinda missed it here *gazes fondly at the bot spam and screaming and cursing in my feed*#btw i have never used instagram in my life so if this is formatted wrong it's your fault. bye #someone tell me whether or not i should tag this as rxsk because i am very much debating #does tumblr even like them anymore ?? i know ao3 does they're still going crazy over there (>1k works God bless)#“bro's first post back and she's yapping her head off” cmon you know me by now anyway can we talk about season 7 ahsoka #i find no fault in her. she is perfect. she is the greatest version of any star wars character ever at all #no i will not be thinking about whether or not anyone told her about fives. no i will not be thinking about whether or not anyone told echo #ok that's enough bye i'll wait for this to get four notes at most and three of them being comments screaming at me #one more thing uhh suspend your disbelief since anakin liked the post. rots didn't happen and everything is fine !!#my art

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chrisbangz · 7 months ago

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Happy Bang Chan Day (2024) ♡ insp / template

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isolophilian · 1 year ago

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i think we need to understand the gravity of how quickly Percy blames himself and his disabilities for the way his world is. how he's been made to believe over years and years that he's weird, that there's something wrong with him. Percy saying he should've been paying attention. Percy saying there's something wrong with his brain. Percy calling himself broken.. he's just a kid man

#this is so unbelievably important #goes to show how the treatment of disabled kids can harm their self esteem so much #he's literally twelve??#this kid has been told his entire life that there's something wrong with him #and he believes it #you can see how upset Sally is that he thinks that #like that's her little boy #i would riot so badly if my child ever had any reason to say that about themselves #also brunner calling him “special” earlier in the episode probably aggravated his reaction to getting the same statement from sally #god he's just a baby #he doesn't deserve this #this show is going to jumpstart such important conversations about a wide variety of things and I am so here for it #renew it already #percy jackson #sally jackson #walker scobell #virginia kull #percy jackon and the olympians #pjo tv show #pjo tv spoilers #isoceratops

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zolanort · 10 months ago

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This Will Be My Monument by @sister-dear is one of my #1 go to fics when I am sad. It’s a little more popular so y’all’ve probably read this one already but I think after contributing 25% of the page views I owed a lil piece of art.

#like seriously though #this fic is like a hug except it’s made out of words #thank you so much for writing this #I’m so glad to have found it #it’s like a little life jacket #it helps me to start floating again #<3 <3 <3 #can’t really go wrong with any of sister dears fics tbh #linkeduniverse #linked universe #fan joy july #FanJoyJuly #fic rec #my art

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meanderingstream · 12 days ago

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Eliot at peace with being Damned

One of the things that makes Eliot hard to write for in-character (but also such an interesting character to explore) is that he believes he is damned to Hell and he is at peace with that. He has a lot of guilt, oceans of guilt, but it's not so much the tortured, anguished catholic guilt à la Nate or like, Daredevil.

He has done monstrous, unforgivable things. But, on his own, he came to a realization of what he had done, and pulled away from that world. On his own, he left the worst person he ever worked for, and stopped using guns, and stopped killing. On his own, he switched from wetwork to retrievals. This all occurs before we ever meet him, so while there are many hints and inferences, the specifics of how that happened, how he came to those decisions, are left up to the audience’s imagination.

Eliot wants to make the world a better place, and he works everyday with the team to help people, and he genuinely enjoys helping people and the work he does on the job. But he does not believe that he can be redeemed. (Not my own personal belief about him, but it is what he thinks). When he dies, he will go to Hell for his sins, and there is nothing that can possibly be done to change that. He doesn't need to angst over it, because it’s just a fact. It is what it is. There is no point agonizing over whether his soul can be saved, because he knows it cannot. This is both a keystone of his character, and also something he doesn't spend a lot of time thinking about day-to-day, because it’s a settled matter.

And as much as we love Eliot the character, he has a point that lives are not tradable for equivalent exchange. If he killed a specific family 25 years ago, that was snuffing out the light and potential and future of those particular parents and children. The surviving extended family lost those particular relatives. Saving a family now does not balance that ledger, because each person is a unique life and not interchangeable for another. While I may have different beliefs about Hell and redemption than Eliot, I still want to acknowledge that he has a point. That changing now doesn't necessarily help the people he hurt in the past, and unlike Harry, he can’t work down a list of making amends, because almost all of his victims are dead. There is no atonement to the dead.

Eliot’s redemption is in seeing the light at the end of the tunnel, and helping others get to it. Particularly the team, and particularly the pair he’s going to protect until his dying day. He will stay down there in the dark forever (he believes), but getting the others out is his redemption.

I do not believe that Eliot will actually go to Hell when he dies, but his belief that he is damned is fundamental to who he is as a character, and he is going to believe that for the rest of his life. It can be really challenging to balance that when writing his POV, particularly when delving into events that dredge this stuff up for him (which we writers love to do because it’s so delicious). Eliot doesn’t exactly have a low self-esteem. He knows he has many skills and is exceptional at them (cooking, fighting, grifting, guitar, sports, etc). He pretty much knows his teammates love him, and care about him, and want him to stay alive for them, and spend the rest of his life with them. He has professional pride, and he will argue when he wants something. He is certainly not a doormat. However, he also believes he is fundamentally and irrevocably a bad person. Balancing between him not being too self-deprecating in normal situations / about his usefulness to the team, with his inherent belief in his own moral depravity can be a thin blade to walk without falling to one side or another. But it is also one of the biggest aspects of his psyche that makes him such a fascinating and complex character to explore.

#leverage redemption #leverage #eliot spencer #leverage meta #a lot of this is based on interviews from #christian kane #and #john rogers #Like that one time a few years ago when CK said Eliot was basically a serial killer #and the fandom had a lot of discussion about how Eliot is not a serial killer for this-this-and-this reason #And I'm like yeah #I agree with your definition of that term and that I do not think Eliot fits it #but I also think it is absolutely a thought that Eliot might feasibly have about himself #so for his actor to say that just means he is really good at his job of understanding and portraying that character #I am trying to write my own leverage fics; however I am the slowest writer in the world #but I have so many ideas and i love the #leverage ot3 so much #and L:R S3 is giving me LIFE with those 3 #It's just hard to not woobify eliot with insecurity while also not erasing his self-worth issues #he is settled and at peace- but he is at peace with the fact that he evil -or maybe just unforgivable #which we see in the show and hear from the creator and the actor #And don't get me wrong- I absolutely love fics where Hardison and Parker help reassure Eliot #that he is good and he is loved and he is more than his worst actions #and ones where he dreads them finding things out about his past #because he is sure they will be disgusted and kick him out and never want anything else to do with him #but they love now-Eliot for who he has become no matter what he did in the past. And they tell him it doesn't matter #whether he deserves their love because love is not about deserving or doing enough to earn the privilege of it #They love him for the person he is now and they are never letting him go

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simcardiac-arrested · 27 days ago

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ATTENTION: HAVE YOU SEEN THIS TREE? IF YOU HAVE, YOU MIGHT HAVE FALLEN INTO SOME SORT OF RIP IN THE FABRIC OF TIME

alt version because i also liek it :)

#yes im fucking obsessed with this room whatever. Wall of tags upon ye #myart #eyestrain #rain world #rain world fanart #rain world watcher #rain world watcher spoilers #rain world the watcher spoilers #rw watcher spoilers #rw the watcher spoilers #watcher spoilers #watcher dlc spoilers #pls tell me if i missed a tag i will add it🙏#it’s not like life ruining spoilers but yk. Anyways i am now going to talk about fetid glen and this room in particular #wow the guy who likes drawing with barf colors liked the barf colored region ANYWAYS #the reason i like this room so much is because it offers us a new version of rot. this creepy dripping singing thing … surrounded by #mushrooms … fetid glen in general is very unique rot-wise! the colors; the Stank; the bugs (i think)#just the fact that it’s already rotted but not in the way you’re used to. and i personally am SUCH a fan of that #because look. i love the long legs and tentacles and shit as much as the next guy. i appreciate the classic rot #but i just don’t know if it had to be so … uniform. and so everywhere. truly daddyworld the rot consumes etc etc #which is why i appreciate fetid glen for breaking out of that mold and showing a different version of rot. the colors and the air are fucked #there’s mushrooms everywhere. there’s something wrong with the animals. there’s something wrong with this place in general #scary lobe tree. u know? i wish watcher gave us more variety like that. as much as i love classic rot i was way more excited about #Weird Goop and Bugs (or what i thought was bugs. apparently it was sentient rot spores. but it’s bugs in my heart)#rot and decay has so many symbols and forms i feel like you could really have fun with it :) it doesn’t all have to be tentacle yk?#especially with how many regions watcher has and how starkly different they all are #if fetid glen could do it everywhere else can too #this rant could go on forever because my feelings on the rot in watcher are Plentiful and i sort of wish it was different (doesnt elaborate)#TLDR this room left a pretty big impression on me because it actually was something fresh AND disturbing #(and also it was a classic watcher dlc dead-end that actually had something interesting) (BUT THATS ANOTHER RANT WHICH I WONT GET INTO)

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saaltskies · 1 month ago

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The way Volo does care about people despite how he might pretend he hates them and people only ever use and manipulate each other

If he hates the world so much and just wants his suffering to end he could just kill himself or something why are you trying to restart the world so no one ever suffers again, hmm?

Man. I think about what if he won. Would he even have the guts to go through with his plan? He has to. He's come this far. He's done this much. He has to... right?

He likes people too much

Him being all friendly wasn't completely an act he really is like that even if he really hated the player and was using them. He likes people. He likes to yap. He likes to gossip. He likes getting all nerdy about ruins. But he's so convinced the world is doomed and beyond saving. So much so he's willing to rip open the sky, manipulate and betray someone who thought of him as a good friend, and take his fight to the heavens and the creator itself.

#go to therapy king #what is wrong with himmmmmm #he just needs a friend #but as long as he's in this mindset he'd never be able to recognize them #also thinking about “i will stand before arceus at last- no i will conquer it”#and how his original plan was to ask arceus why he had to suffer so much and it changed into wanting to take it down and recreate the world #he's so set on this path but perhaps deep down his true desire is to meet it and to understand his life #and if that is the case would he falter when face to face with arceus itself?#also thinking about “in the end i was alone” you didnt have to be! you have your pokemon! you could have had friends if you let them!#you had one right there! and boy you fumbled that friendship soooooo baddddddd #ough.......#pokemon #pla #volo #i just think he's neat #ive never thought about him a day in my life #sky yaps

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crabussy · 2 months ago

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dude. my life fucking rules. feathered velociraptor shleich figurine for $2 at the op shop. captain of one of my favourite ferries complimented my shirt TWICE (and we are now introduced!). new friend waved me over to sit next to her in a lecture. found a way to make my pony collection even more enjoyable. sky was so beautiful it was a crazy pale blue and there were cirrus clouds catching the sun. the ocean looked like molten green glass. I'm going swimming in the sea and having lunch with a few friends in a weeks time. I've earned 500 dollars this week just from my art which is a milestone I didn't expect to hit without joining a company. I'm not feeling as fatigued as usual. it rained in the morning which was really lovely. I thought I was going to be super late for uni but I made it right on time. I'm kind of in love with the world today

#listen to my gibberish boy #all of these are small things. some of them you have to consciously notice e.g. the sky. the sea. the rain #one of them is just 'not being late'. but my god. everything together amounts for so much #maybe silly but noting down all the good things that happen to me during the day has been absolutely incredible for my mental health #I'm so serious. its a big reason I went from crying every day to crying maybe once a month. you NEED to look for the tiny good.#the tiny good is always there. even if your life is miserable. maybe the water you drank was refreshing. maybe you talked to a friend #maybe you had a nice dream. or watched a funny video.#everything good that happens to you. notice it. think about it when it happens. it's crazy how big of a difference it can make sometimes #so much of misery or happiness is perception. if you tell yourself 'today was a horrible day so much went wrong' then in your mind #it will become a horrible day forever. not to say you can't have bad days #I have bad days fairly often! it's just that I try not to give the shit things too much attention #like ALSO today. my fever kept going. I had a stomach ache. I had to catch up on 3 hours of lectures. I tripped on my way through uni.#but if I dwell on those things they'll become a permanent part of my memory of today. you sometimes have the choice to remember or forget #certain things. try it for a few weeks [: it might make a difference

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divineandmajesticinone · 1 year ago

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