#there is this person who has a canon taylor url and all they do is talk about her in such an awful misogynistic way

[lovesickallovermybed]

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[thatbuddie]

you are soooo correct about bugs buddie. you are so wise.

and i've also seen people do "tommy could be the first to be such and such for buck" kind of posts that are things previous female love interest canonically did, especially taylor. my favorite being wouldn't it be great if we had scenes of tommy being at the loft for buck after a hard shift and i'm like besties did you watch season 5 because that actually happened multiple times with taylor lol. got me wanting to defend taylor fucking kelly when i couldn't stand that relationship lmao

no no anon you don’t get it i too have had to defend taylor kelly-is-actually-my-middle-name nolastname through all of this and i am a hardcore taylor hater 😭😭😭 i had a btbones url after they broke up in s5!!! but yeah it’s the way that there are many things that can be argued about buck’s past relationships and yet some of the “the first time that buck X Y and Z” posts are so canonically incorrect.

like for example, i don’t think buck has ever gotten to tell someone he is deeply and madly in love with that he is in love with them. he was so in love with abby, i believe, but he never got to tell her. and when he and taylor said “i love you” to each other i do believe he loved her but i don’t know how in love with her he truly was, you know? so that’s a first that buck has to look forward to, one that i think is pretty significant for buck.

but things like “t*mmy is the first of buck’s partners to understand what the 118 means to him” or “t*mmy is the first of buck’s partners who wouldn’t have a problem with buck’s job” are canonically incorrect. taylor understood what the 118 meant to buck, even when she went behind his back to further her career. taylor never, ever, ever expressed having a problem with buck’s job or his hours or anything. she always seemed “supportive” of that side of him.

i think as much as it pains EVERY side of the fandom (me included lmao) taylor is still, to this day, buck’s most significant relationship. because yeah abby was the first person who taught buck he could have something more intimate and helped him find himself, and tommy has helped show him a part of his identity buck was oblivious to. but taylor has been the only partner of buck that he has had to actually grow alongside with. they had to learn how to communicate, they had to work through fights, they lived together, they were trying to build a whole life with each other. and ultimately they were terrible for each other and they didn’t work. but that was still buck’s most significant relationship, in my opinion.

[greekgrad07]

favorite things about your mutuals? its positivity hour, go!

it would be a fucking honor 😭 i tried to get all my mutuals this time but i’m sure i forgot people. i’m sorry if i did pls don’t hate me 🥺

this is in no particular order btw

marisa (@skaterbeth): my fellow short asthmatic <3 i love you bruh 😭 i remember being nervous to message you at first bc i thought you would find me annoying. now look at us 😌 i can message you without fear bc i know you find me annoying 🤍you’re so talented and beautiful and incredible. i love your enthusiasm and you’re so funny. every time i get a notification that you’ve sent me a meme on instagram i get excited (and idk how but there’s one almost every morning when i wake up. i’m not complaining though)

erica (@skateryue): MY TWIN ILY 🤍🤍🤍 i forgot to tell you this but i took a which female atla character are you quiz and i got yue and thought of you <3 you’re so sweet and supportive and deserve all the love! i’m glad our mutual love of the parent trap, our mbti types, and how we’re both jeff goldblum brought us together lol. the vibes are immaculate 😌

adi (@bitcheusjackson): adi you are so smart. THE TAGS I LEAVE FOR YOU ARE WELL DESERVED! you’re such a good writer and your love of musicals is so cute! i also love getting to be an annabeth simp with you (as we all should). you’re also a talented artist! i know you don’t post a lot of your art but when you do i’m always blown away <3<3<3

fátima (@deepestempathllamalawyer): my adopted child 😌 i love you sm 🥺 you’re so sweet- like seriously, i appreciate every self help posted you tag me in and every cute animals post as well. i absolutely love seeing you in my notifications! you’re also the reason i became a malconnor shipper to thank you 😭🤍 (also i still have no idea wtf your url means but at this point i’m too afraid to ask)

ashna (@silenabeth): fun fact, you were the first “big” pjo blog that followed me and i absolutely lost my shit so there’s that <3 you’re such a talented writer and editor bruh i don’t tell you that enough. also, the queen who brought us connabeth i will forever stan 🤩 you’re so funny and one of the most supportive people ever <3<3<3 (also love all of your call out posts about marisa 😌)

sarah (@perseusjackkson): i told you that you were too cool to be following me and i stand by that. you’re so chill and funny, i vibe with you sm. really, your blog is full of so many different fandom and i vibe with almost all of it. you really made your blog for the people <3 i love reading your tags on the things you repost bc they are usually hilarious. also, i couldn’t be more supportive of your engagement to my twin 🤍

regina (@bisexualzia): regina you’re so sweet and genuine and funny and the fact that you associate me with cookies still makes me 🥰 and idk why. your tag has 🔥 by it and i told you it’s bc of ouat. idk if you get that but it’s my favorite show and one of my favorite characters is named regina so <3 also i’m glad there is someone else that can agree suki is superior 😌

zitz (@four-names): another reason why i ship malconnor <3 lol you send the most random asks and they always make my day! and your tags are everything btw stop hiding them 😂 you’re not afraid to speak your mind and you’re a very genuine person :)

drew (@cubanpercyj): you are so caring and passionate! i love your replies and tags to my posts and i’m glad we agree that percy can’t swim lol. you’re super chill and i vibe with you very much. and i’m sure you’ve heard this a lot but i love your aesthetic. the water header is so pretty <3

kayra (@awkwardteenwriter): you are so sweet! and YES ofc you have a tag bruh. i remember when i first tagged you in a post and you said that it made you happy aljdkhagf i tag you in like everything now i’m sure it gets annoying. you’re one of the most caring people ever though! one of our first interactions was you sending me a virtual hug during a hard time for me and i’ll always be thankful for that 🥺🤍

jaina (@jainadurron): you are so nice. every interaction we’ve had has been nothing but absolutely lovely and i’m glad that you joined the pjo fandom! you like almost all of my posts and i love seeing you in my notifications. also! i forgot to tell you your new avatar is so cute 🥺

haania (@padfootno): i love you and i’m sorry the fic isn’t out yet pls don’t hate me 😭 you’re literally the sweetest and most helpful person ever! i’m so thankful for your help on writing hijabi silena and ever since you’ve been so nice! i also love when you tag me in posts :)

@perca-beths: you give me such good vibes idek how to describe it. also, you’re insanely talented! i found your fic on a03 and when i realized it was you who wrote it i was blown away. anyways you’re awesome and i can’t wait for your next update :)

@percabethica: again, YES you have a tag 😂 you’re so nice! i remember i asked to be on your taglist for your fic and you were so kind. speaking of your fic, i loved it i loved it i loved it! you’re incredibly talented. i always end up seeing your reblogs from me on my dash before seeing it in my notifications and there’s always a second after i notice it where i’m like “omg that’s me. i posted/reblogged something she liked.” also your aesthetic is so pretty, i love it

gray (@bbyannabeth): idk why you’re following me. what do i have to offer? when i tell you i binged your masterlist after you posted it i’m not kidding. you’re so talented and seem so chill. also i just saw that you posted a new fic and bruh, i’m about to create a reblog that has so many tags

@ohmydamgods: i’m not above admitting that i’ve stalked your instagram. your posts are so fucking funny and so are you! i also see people posting your textposts on instagram and i’m always like “*gasp* does she know?” and then i see you’ve commented and it’s all good 😂 also you’re so nice :)

@mydramaticflare: YOU ARE SO TALENTED! when you comment on my fic there’s no time to unpack all of that i lost my shit bc your fic Quiet Moments inspired me to write a percabeth sleepover fic in the first place. also you seem so sweet and you show up in my notifications a lot :)

brin (@skatersuki): first of all, suki supremacy <3, secondly, you’re so smart like wtf. every time you go off about photokinesis and all that i’m like 😐😣😐 also every time i see the book circe by madeline miller i think of you bc you’re the first person who i have seen recommend it

teriza (@wasithard): we haven’t really interacted but we have a lot of the same mutuals so i know you’re cool. lol fr though you do seem very nice and fun and chaotic in the very best way, plus you’re blog is awesome

kayla (@eggplant-avenger): hi kayla :) we met through the connabeth agenda and you are super chill. also i hope that you know whenever i read your tag i hear chris mccarrell’s voice singing ‘being a half-blood, it’s scary, it mostly gets you killed in very nasty ways’

charlotte (@sonofsallyjackson): you are the most supportive person ever. every time i read one of your comments on my fics, my heart swells. you’re too kind for this world <3

taylor (@saltyypercy): another one of my connabeth friends 🤩 speaking of connabeth, your memes are everything! you’re hilarious and your content is awesome

@getwokescullyy: you are such a talented writer!! and you’re so nice and supportive! :) we also have a lot of the same hc’s for post canon percabeth 😌 super excited for your next update btw!

olivia (@thegraystreaks): you are so talented idk why you’re following me. it had to of been a mistake. if, so pls don’t leave 🥺 you’re such a supportive person and seeing you and liz interact is so funny. fr i love your writing sm and i’m obsessed with your url 🤩

aya (@percasbeths): again, WHY ARE YOU FOLLOWING ME? seriously i have some of the most talented writers following me and idk why but i’m not complaining. all of your au’s are beautiful and i’m always blown away <3

@judoflipped: you introduced me to Apartment 305 so i’m pretty sure i owe you a kidney or something now lol. fr though you were so nice to me during our first interaction <3 you’re so sweet and you seem super chill

emma (@jasongrape): first a foremost, a superior url. you’re posts are hilarious, especially the ones of you and ash going back and forth lol.

@clr-stan: we haven’t interacted much but your posts are so good!! and you seem super sweet :) also, you’re right. if the pjo movies weren’t based on the books i would have been invested

@writinglettersaddressedtothefire: i’m pretty sure you’re also a mutual of fátima’s which makes you awesome. plus your writing is so good! also i see that you’re having a great time with taylor’s new album coming out so i’m glad you seem to be doing good 😂

lexi (@multifandom-420): one of the other three malconnor shippers on this cite 😭 you seem so sweet and your posts are top tier

@esistkeinponyhof: you are literally always in my notifications and it’s so fun lol. we’ve never really interacted but i’m glad that you like my blog :) also you’re a fellow directioner which is amazing 😌

@himbolin420: how does it feel to have a canon url? apart of the bolin defense squad and connabeth nation? we have no choice but to stan <3 i remember you kept a count for all of your mutuals when i first followed you and i thought that was absolutely precious lol

@twilight-hours: you’re in my notifications a lot and i'm not complaining. lol you always reblog the funniest stuff and i love seeing it on my dash. i know we haven't really interacted but i know we would vibe 

[junhaoshua]

my ode to fandom

2020, the start of a new decade, is ending. 2021, the start of my adulthood, is beginning. I’ve always wanted to do a post about my fandom journey, and I’ve also decided to change my url starting next year: from the old faithful @moonlightmasquerade to a url for my new fandom, @junhaoshua. So before taking such a huge step, this felt like a perfect time to thank all the media that has shaped me as a person throughout my journey of youth.

This is half-chronological, half-remembered. This isn't comprehensive, because it doesn't have to be to be meaningful. It can't list every single fandom that has made its mark on me, because there are too many to count. 

This is about many people’s stories, including my own. This is about love and power and growing up and changing. This is about how transformative work can transform lives. 

To fandom: this is my ode to you.

To Frozen, the fandom that was my first love: thank you for being the place I discovered fanfic. Thank you for teaching me that it was okay to be myself. For teaching me that my parents could make mistakes when raising me even though they love me. For showing me that villains can be redeemed. 

To MLP, the fandom of my early teens and beyond: thank you for being such a big part of my life. Fallout Equestria, making me realise the impact of war and giving me hope that people can heal from the worst, that we can make a difference in the darkness. The Immortal Game, telling me that trauma can be overcome and my fate is in my hands. Hard Reset, teaching me to persevere despite the odds. Turnabout Storm, introducing me to the franchise that would inspire my future career. Freeport Venture, guiding me as I grew into my own person. These are lessons that kept me going throughout the rough years. Thank you for teaching me to write magic systems and epic fight scenes. Thank you for giving me hope that one day, even a shy bookworm like me would find my friends. 

To Wicked, the fandom of my tumultuous years: thank you for teaching me that I could be beautiful and loved no matter how I look. For opening my eyes to the cowardice of people. For helping me to understand why injustice can thrive. For telling me that sometimes you lose your best friend but you don't stop loving them. Thank you for preparing me to face all this in real life. 

To Star Wars, the fandom I was “born” into: thank you for creating a world that inspires writers. For the trilogies and the beautiful fics that were born from them. For the flaws in canon that made fans want to fix them, and write wonderful stories. Double Agent Vader and the questions of agency and power and justice and the need for righteous indignation. Reylo fics and redemption and atonement and forgiveness. The sequel trilogy stories, too many to count, about finding your family and being your own person and healing from trauma.

To Marvel, the fandom that has brought me comfort for years: thank you for starting a franchise that lasted me throughout my childhood. For the stories of X-Men and being ostracised for being born different. For the ideas of Avengers Tower and the Defenders and Spider-verses and other teams, which may not have been well handled in canon, but which inspired so many stories about dangerous people coming together and being accepted for who they are. For Daredevil and making me decide that yes I’m going to be a lawyer and no my disability will not stop me. 

To DC, the fandom I grew up in: thank you for the DCAU that I spent hours watching as a child. Thank you for inspiring so many amazing, creative people to write. Batfamily fics and the stories of well-meaning Dad Bruce who screws up despite his best efforts. Babs Gordon and being a total badass from her wheelchair. bricklaying and its discussion of power and class issues and trauma and identity, a story that I go back to time and time again. 

To Hamilton, the fandom that inspired me: thank you for introducing me to the wonderful genre of rap and hip-hop. For helping me to realise that there are villains, there are people who make mistakes, and there are people who exploit others’ mistakes. For awakening a fire and ambition in me that I had long tried to douse to try to fit in and be more likable, and telling me it was okay to be young scrappy and hungry. And for reminding me that the people I love are important, too.

And now, to the grand prizes, to the fandoms that have been the biggest part of my life.

To Harry Potter, the fandom I first participated in: thank you for opening my mind and broadening my horizons. For helping me to move past my conservative upbringing and my prejudices (the thanks is all to the fandom, not to canon). For helping me to find my first fandom family, my best friends @reapersbarge and @a-symphony-in-vellichor. For being full of stories about healing just when I needed it. For Dramione, a ship that would lead to me publishing my very first fanfiction, inspired by the wonderful @colubrina. For Drarry and my second fic that gave me the chance to tell a story with my best friend and the other half of my brain. Without HP, without these friends, I would never have found the courage or inspiration to finally finish and publish my stories.

To Six of Crows, the fandom I grew in: thank you for being my first experience with representation in stories. For opening my eyes to the world of YA novels and so many wonderful, amazing stories. (SoC was literally one of the first YA novels I ever read and I wouldn’t have gotten into bookblr without it). For helping me learn how to work with an ensemble cast of characters that all got a chance to shine. For inspiring me to come back from my long writing hiatus and rediscover the joy of being an author. 

To Taylor Swift and Marina, my two favourite solo artists: thank you for music that perfectly fits whatever I’m going through. Thank you for reputation and Electra Heart when I was hurt and angry and trying to build a shield to hide my scars. Thank you for Lover and Froot when I was trying to learn to be happy again, to conceal my hurt with a smile. Thank you for folklore and evermore and Love + Fear when I was finally ready to unbandage my scars and confront everything that I had faced and declare that it did not break me.

To Seventeen, my biggest current fandom: thank you for bringing me joy during this tough year. For always giving me something to look forward to every Monday when the days passed in a blur. For the new friends I’ve met here who welcomed me to caratblr, especially @soonhoonsol, @thekidultlife, @haosvteen, @myunqho, @xuseokgyu and @haoranghae. For reminding me what it feels like to fall deeply into a new fandom for the first time. For the amazing fics and gifs that always bless my dash (there may be another, separate post on that). For awakening my desire to write fic again after a long drought where I couldn’t think of a single thing, and giving me more plot bunnies than I know what to do with. Thank you for being a safe space that helped me to grow and heal and smile again.

To conclude this story:

Throughout my journey, I’ve seen the same threads and themes over and over again. To be my own person and not the person that others moulded me into. To be ambitious and hungry and the hero of my own story. To find my own family, to choose the people I claim as my own. To see injustice and apathy and evil and hopelessness, and to be angry and stand up against it. To believe that people can change, can atone for what they’ve done, can be redeemed. To believe in the power of hope and light against the darkness. 

Fandom is a part of my life that I truly can’t imagine being without. It has been the lifebuoy when I was stuck in trauma and unable to escape. The bandage when I was broken and bleeding and despondent. The glue to put me back together when I shattered into a million sharp-edged pieces. The armor when all I wanted to do was rip out my feelings and put up stone walls around myself. The candle that guided me through the night until I was ready to step into the daylight. 

For the fandoms of my past: I may have become less active, less involved, but I still return to the songs and stories that have been an integral part of my youth. I see them now with older, wiser eyes, and recognise bits and pieces of my personality that I absorbed from them. I’ve never truly left a fandom; how can you leave something when it’s part of you?

For the fandoms of my present: I want to live in the moment and enjoy my experiences for as long as I can, even if I’ll outgrow them one day. I know that even if I move on from them one day, I’ll always treasure the lessons learnt and the memories made, and they’ll have a special place in my heart no matter what.

I believe in the power of stories, of movies, of music, of fandom. I would not be who I am today without it. Every fandom I’ve been in has left an impression on who I am, made its mark on me, a golden tattoo. I can look at them and trace the way each and every one has shaped me into the person I am today. 

And as I hover in the in-between of childhood and adulthood, as I stand now a kidult, I’ll embark on this new phase of life with all the lessons that fandom has taught me, and will continue to teach me for many years to come.

[taumoeba]

tag games compilation under the cut bc ive been meaning to do these and didnt get to them until now! thank you to everyone who tagged me:) i appreciate it greatly even if i am v lazy<3 anyways this was fun

1. this or that book edition

hardcover or paperback ∙ rent or buy • reads in silence or reads with music • standalone or series • annotations or pristine pages • ebook or physical copy • dog ears or bookmarks • mismatched series or complete set • cover matters or you don’t judge • lend books or keep them to yourself • enjoys lit classics or despises them • browses shops or orders online • reads reviews or goes in blind • unreturned books or clean library record • rereads or once was enough • fanfic enthusiast or a stickler for canon (eh i dont read that much anymore so i guess neither)• deep reader or easily distracted • must read the book before seeing the movie or order doesn’t matter • has neat bookshelves or messy bookshelves • skips ahead or resists temptation • reads aloud or in your head • guesses plot twists or never sees them coming

2. 🎶 put your playlist on shuffle and expose your first 10 songs! 🎵

i listen to the most random music so enjoy!

1: origin of love - orchestra version (mika) (i love mika!)

2: children (justin bieber) (LMAO I DONT EVEN LISTEN TO HIM ANYMORE I JUST HAD IT SAVED) 

3: my shot from the hamilton soundtrack remix version (LMAO)

4: true colors (zedd, kesha)

5: superman (taylor swift)

6: soft - acoustic (handsome ghost)

7: lucky strike (troye sivan)

8: movement (hozier)

9: security (stop light observations)

10: 10 bands (drake) (I DONT LISTEN TO DRAKE ANYMORE EITHER)

3. picrew!

4. describe yourself in 4 characters

lol. percy jackson. linh cinder? chidi anagonye! and i guess sokka

5. spell out your url using song titles

my url is so long sigh okay here we go

c - chai tea (audrey)

h - hard to love (the mowgli’s)

a - are you bored yet? (wallows feat clairo)

s - still feel (half alive)

e - electric love (borns)

r - run the world (beyonce)

p - prologue/the day i got expelled (the lightning thief musical)(lmaooooo)

e - emotional girls (sawyer)

r - rivers and roads (the head and the heart)

c - cemetery (coin) 

y - you are in love (tswift)

6. questions about reading!

do you have a certain place at home for reading? usually on my bed or on the couch

do you use bookmarks? if so, what kind? no lmaoo i am a terrible person i just close the book and whenever i come back i flip thru the pages until i find my spot

can you just stop reading or do you have to make it to the end of the chapter? i can stop whenever but i prefer ending on a chapter

do you eat or drink while reading? only water

music or tv while reading? music is okay if ive read it before, otherwise no im not a monster (i cant focus)

one book at a time or several at once? *stares at the 5 books im reading right now* i used to be one book at a time but since my attention span is short i like to switch between books :)

reading at home or out? at home. like i know its quarantine but even before that it’d be at home

reading silently or out loud? silently

do you read ahead, skip pages? yes its so bad. i spoil myself CONSTANTLY

breaking the spine? i dont like it but all my fave books have their spines broken:(

do you mark your books? im not against writing in books and ive definitely done it before but sometimes i just physically cant

[rebekahgaveup]

Cruel summer, The Man, London Boy, Soon You'll Get Better, ME!, Delicate, LWYMMD, New Year's Day,Welcome to New York, Shake it Off, Red, All too Well, 22, WANEGBT, Everything has Changed, Starlight, Sparks Fly, Enchanted, The Best Day, Superstar, Mary's Song, Our Song, I'd Lie

Answers below the cut because Chey asked me Taylor’s entire discography

cruel summer: describe the best summer you’ve had.

I don’t know that I’ve ever had one distinct summer that’s better than others? Like I’ve definitely had some that were worse but summer is just such a like...happy time for me. Like in my head summer is this place where time doesn’t exist and everything tastes like honey and sunshine and I’m always warm and nothing can hurt me. It’s very idyllic. So I think all the summers?

the man: name a woman who inspires you and why.

Amy Adams! Obviously there are a million women who inspire me, but Amy Adams came to mind because not only is she extremely talented but she’s never really let her fame stop her from being a normal person. I feel like she looks and acts how she wants to rather than trying to appeal to some impossible beauty standard, and I think that’s part of what makes her both a beautiful princess and an intrepid journalist and a thousand other roles. She is all of her roles because they are her and all of her roles are her because she is herself, if that makes any sense. She seems like someone who doesn’t let other people define her. I don’t know I just find her very impressive and I think she’s a powerhouse.

london boy: what is your favourite city and why?

I think Long Beach, California. I have a lot of family that lives there and like, my great-grandparents lived there and so my family has been living there for generations and I just think it’s a really beautiful place. There’s something very historical about Long Beach. It kind of feels like it’s trapped somewhere between the 50′s/60′s and now. I just think it’s a really neat place.

soon you’ll get better: name your top five saddest taylor songs.

1. Ronan

2. Soon You’ll Get Better

3. Last Kiss

4. The Moment I Knew

5. Clean

ME!: what’s your favourite thing about yourself?

Physically? My eyes or my legs. They’re the only two parts of my body that I consistently like, haha. Personality wise? I think my tendency to look for what’s good in the world. I come into things wanting and expecting to love them. I don’t think I’ve ever met a person and wanted to dislike them, or gone into a situation and genuinely disliked it from go (though I can’t say there haven’t been some situations I ended up disliking anyway). I don’t know. I just like to think that the world is a good place, sometimes even after it proves me wrong. I think everyone except for me is fundamentally good.

delicate: what was your favourite moment of the reputation era?

Specific to me, @gillettestadium followed me during the reputation era which was very exciting for me. More generally in regards to the fandom, when she showed up to the Billboard Music Awards kinda out of nowhere and took a picture with BTS that was probably my favorite reputation moment. There are a lot though bc that was the era that I got into fandom and so it holds a lot of good memories for me.

look what you made me do: what is your favourite taylor music video?

I think probably the I Knew You Were Trouble music video. I love the speech beforehand.

new year’s day: if taylor held secret sessions for all of her albums, which one would you want to go to the most?

Speak!!!!! Now!!!!!!!

welcome to new york: is there a place you dream of moving to one day?

Yes! New York, actually! I’d like to try living in either New York or London. I think I’ve kind of idealized both places a lot, but also I think I would probably still have fun living there if I had the funds to do so.

shake it off: which songs instantly put you in a good mood?

I actually have a whole playlist for this! You can find it here.

red: what colour do you associate with each of taylor’s albums?

Debut: Blue and green

Fearless: Yellow and beige

Speak Now: Purple, Eden green

Red: Red, beige, white, mustard yellow

1989: Lavendar, beige, baby blue, neon pink

reputation: black and white, orange, army green

Lover: pink, blue, orange, yellow

all too well: if you could only listen to five songs for the rest of your life, which would you chose?

There is no universe in which I could answer this

22: which is your favourite taylor friendship?

Taylor and Selena! I think they’re really cute and I love seeing how they support each other.

we are never ever getting back together: what is your favourite taylor single?

Love Story. I go feral every time it comes on.

everything has changed: which artist do you wish taylor would collab with?

BTS!!!!!! But also Niall Horan please and thank you.

starlight: if you could go back to any era in time, which would it be and why?

There’s several I would go back to and it would all be for fashion reasons so I’m going to pick the only one that isn’t for fashion reasons, which would be the turn of the 19th century because that’s when all of Jane Austen’s novels are set and she sure knows how to write dashingly polite men.

sparks fly: if you had to create an ep with ten of taylor’s songs, which would you chose?

1. Enchanted

2. The Moment I Knew

3. Last Kiss

4. Gorgeous

5. You’re Not Sorry

6. Holy Ground

7. State of Grace

8. The Last Time

9. Death by a Thousand Cuts

10. Paper Rings

Not necessarily in that order.

enchanted: who is your favourite disney princess?

Solid tie between Belle, Ariel and Rapunzel.

the best day: talk about a memorable day you’ve spent with somebody you’re close to.

Most recently I got to watch Frozen II with my aunt in her new apartment, slept over and then we went for breakfast and got macarons afterward. It was a very good day and I think about it a lot. 

superstar: which artists do you stan besides taylor?

A ton, but the only one I really stan as hard as I stan Taylor is BTS. 

mary’s song: if you could have written any taylor song yourself, which one would you chose?

Okay so as a songwriter this is a terribly hard question because the answer is, at some point, all of them. However if I had to pick just one I’d say probably Last Kiss. I think it’s her best written song. Again though, I’ve wished to have written every song in Taylor’s discography, so...

our song: country taylor or pop taylor?

Pop Taylor. I’m more of a pop fan myself.

i’d lie: which is your favourite unreleased taylor song?

Dark Blue Tennessee! I actually have a non-canon URL saved for this one, but I’m not using it currently because I’m too afraid to even temporarily put lovedyouthreesummers on ice.

Thanks for the longest, most detailed ask I’ve ever had to answer Chey!

[arcadialost]

Chrysalis, Consequence : Max’s Journey and Choices

Strange men walk around Isolated With a chip on their shoulders They are looking for a smile From you or from me But instead I find myself leaving

Preface: Some of the choices listed here are not in the game. They may not be canon, but they are in character for my interpretation of Max. This is only meant to reference the game’s story alone and give some insight into Max and her choices, some of which tie intimately into other characters’ reactions and fates. Please don’t take this as me pushing my interpretation onto your characters. If you have a muse who features in the game, you are more than welcome to come plot with me about how characters like Nathan, Chloe, Victoria, and Kate may handle things differently/took a different route than what I have described. Episode 1 - Chrysalis one.   Shaken from watching Chloe’s death and subsequent resurrection, Max confesses to Principal Wells that she saw Nathan with a gun. two.   In lieu of rigging the paint can, Max instead messes with the sprinkler system to soak Victoria’s cashmere. A guilt-ridden Max then does her best to comfort Victoria after ruining her afternoon. While searching for a way to prove to Juliet that Dana didn’t cheat, she refuses the opportunity to reorganize Victoria’s selfie wall. Dana’s pregnancy test remains untouched, with Max only aware that Dana and her ex-boyfriend Logan had falling out. three.   Max erases the crude insult on Kate’s slate. She intervenes on Kate’s behalf upon discovering security guard David M.adsen harassing her friend. four.   Ever the nosey one, Max snoops through David’s surveillance system and files. Her sleuthing skills aren’t quite up to par, though, as she leaves evidence behind. When Max’s impromptu reunion with Chloe is interrupted by David, she takes her friend’s advice to hide. But Max’s anxiety skyrockets as hostilities between parent and child escalate, leading her to come out of hiding and take the heat for Chloe. five.   Max saves the bluejay outside of the lighthouse, something that brings her comfort after learning that Chloe has stolen her step-father’s gun. Episode 2 - Out of Time one.   Another day, another instance of victim-blaming shenanigans; Max erases the URL to the V.ortex C.lub video in the girl’s bathroom. After a nerve-wracking confrontation with Victoria, Max returns a borrowed book back to Kate. With her friend clearly depressed over the bullying, the photographer gently questions her about what had happened the night of the video. Fearing that Kate has been assaulted, she urges her friend to report her experience to the police. Kate’s mention of Nathan’s involvement, coupled with Chloe’s previous experience with the Prescott heir leads Max to view him with increased suspicion.   two.   After using her powers to befriend Taylor, Max is faced with an even more daunting task---saying no to a man. Despite Warren’s insistence, she refuses his invitation, feeling sick from her previous discussion with Kate. three.   Max taking the blame for Chloe earns her an earful from Joyce at the diner. While waiting for breakfast, Max convinces her estranged friend that she has powers. Max takes a call from a distraught Kate before they leave, much to Chloe’s chagrin. Her attitude causes Max to reflect on the value of their friendship, questioning whether Chloe is still the same person she loved. four.   The presence of Chloe’s gun stirs up Max’s anxiety. During “target practice” Chloe is accidentally shot, prompting Max to rewind and ask to stop. After experiencing a combination anxiety attack and vision, Max and Chloe are confronted by Frank. As tensions rise and Chloe demands to know where Frank found Rachel’s necklace, Max pulls out the gun to defend her friend. Whatever bravado she has in the moment fades instantly; Frank rightfully calls her bluff and swipes the gun. Chloe’s resentment is keenly felt by Max long after she saves her friend’s life on the train tracks. five.   Freezing time allows Max to reach the rooftop before Kate jumps. She convinces Kate to live by appealing to the strength of their friendship, promising to bring the culprits behind the assault to justice, and asking Kate not to jump for the sake of her sisters. Pulling Kate into a tight embrace, Max and she cry together in the rain. six.   Going off Kate’s earlier testimony, Max chooses to blame Nathan for her friend’s s.uicide attempt. Having previously reported Nathan for having a gun, he is suspended, and Max leaves the office emotionally strung out but triumphant. Episode 3 - Chaos Theory one.   Max argues passionately against Chloe taking money from the school’s accessibility fund for disabled students. Having borne the brunt of society’s ableism as a young autistic woman, Max comes away convinced that Chloe does not appreciate the value of accessibility and inclusion. The disgreement drives a wedge in their relationship, with Max left depressed and alienated from her former childhood friend. two.   The morning after their great escape to Chloe’s house, Max kisses Chloe after she dares Max to do it. The decision comes out of Max questioning her sexuality, and a desperation to reconnect in some significant way with her childhood friend after their argument. Feeling discomfort after having kissed Chloe in Rachel’s clothes, Max trades in the flannel and torn jeans for her outfit from the previous night. three.   Unbeknownst to Joyce, Max deletes the message on her answering machine about the break-in. After yet again snooping in on David’s business, Max sides with Chloe during the M.adsen family’s argument. four.   While looking for a way to gain access to Frank’s RV at the diner, Max takes the time to warn a homeless woman about the storm and save Alyssa from minor disaster---again. Having lured P.ompidou out of the RV with a bone thrown in the parking lot, Max does what she does best: snoop. five.   Max leaves Chloe’s confiscated gun untouched, choosing to let Frank keep it after Chloe’s near-fatal stunt in the Junkyard. Episode 4 - D.ark R.oom one.   Max refuses to Chloe’s request to die, asserting that Chloe needs therapy to see that her life has value. After returning the timeline to its original state, Max resolves to stay by Chloe’s side until Rachel’s return. two.   Max frees the bluejay from the confines of the M.adsen family home. At the hospital, Max makes plans to go on a tea shop tour with Kate after she is discharged. three.   After snooping around Nathan’s room, Max and Chloe are confronted by the Prescott in question, and Max fears she may have to rewind...until Warren steps in. Feeling nauseated at the thought of more violence, Max stops Warren before the beatdown turns serious. four.   Having come to the meeting with Frank unarmed (albeit without the money) the girls leave the beach having peacefully gained Frank’s trust and his list of clients. five.   The discovery of the D.ark R.oom and Rachel’s body sends Max spiraling into a severe depression. Convinced that her powers mean little in the face of so much corruption and violence, Max prepares to get revenge on Nathan in the present. six.   At the party, Max saves Alyssa (for an exhausting fourth time) and warns Victoria to stay away from Nathan. Episode 5 - Polarized five.   Awakening in the Prescott’s bunker, Max discovers that Victoria had heeded her warning---and it led her directly to the D.ark R.oom. This revelation coupled with Victoria’s breakdown and Nathan’s death leads Max to seriously question why she was given powers at all. four.   Fun and wholesome things happen that aren’t upsetting. Victoria’s sobs echo in Max’s head. Puppies and kittens. Jefferson threatens to hurt Kate as many times as he needs to break her spirit. It’s fine! Max’s nightmares will have nightmares. This is fine! It’s fine! three.   Weary of the violence, Max chooses not to tell David about Chloe’s death, leading to Jefferson being captured alive (for the moment). two.   In Max’s initial rush to get to the diner, she saves everyone she encounters, including Alyssa for the final time. one.   Upon exiting the nightmare, Max is confronted with one final choice: sacrifice her hometown, or sacrifice Chloe. Max, predictably, takes a third option. Epilogue - The Golden Hour      On a rain-soaked clifftop overlooking the destruction of everything Max and Chloe hold dear, Max realizes that Warren was incorrect: the storm was about the life she hadn’t saved, the injustice that had started this entire chain of events---Rachel’s death. Max’s epiphany leads her to use her focus power on a certain photograph to go back to the Prescott barnyard. Upon discovering Jefferson’s portfolio of Rachel, Max slips the binder into her bag before running after Chloe to find Rachel’s body. Following a screaming match and a much-needed cry session, Chloe agrees to head back to the M.adsen household instead of rushing over to the V.ortex C.lub. Max gathers as much evidence as she can---including Frank’s list of clients---before using her focus power on a photo taken the summer before she moved away to S.eattle. Leaving William to his fate, Max befriends Victoria years before attending Blackwell, sticking by her side as they claw their way to the top of the “it crowd”. But being popular isn’t easy; Max is forced to mask her neurodivergence hard, navigating the capricious moods of her peers, and walking the thin line between try-hard and just ambitious enough.      There are casualties in every timeline, and this one is no exception. Max’s relationship with her parents worsens to the point where they can hardly stand to be in a room together. Her mother misses the shy daughter who took pride in their shared neurodivergence. Her father misses his kind baby girl, the one who knew her roots and wasn’t afraid to embrace them. Rejecting her identity and giving her parents lip aren’t the only problems. Booze and drugs are the bombshell no one wants to touch, both parents scared shitless that this will be what buries the last dregs of filial affection for good. Max’s mental health is another sacrifice in the rectified timeline. She just thanks the universe that overdosing and drinking to excess gives her much-needed pretext for her breakdowns.      But partying and pissing her family’s good faith away has a purpose; each connection gets her ever closer to finding Rachel.      And when Max gets that full-ride scholarship to Blackwell a year early, she knows her sacrifices will pay off. There is a pile of photos, notes, and evidence shoved underneath her bed, waiting for the right moment to surface. Rachel deserves to know the truth, and to live the life that was so cruelly stolen from her.      Max won’t fail in her task.

[divine-identite]

First, im going to chop this whole bullshit down into some neat appetizers for everyone.

“You know, I would’ve gladly had an adult conversation with you. I would’ve gladly sat here and talked about this whole thing like adults with you, but instead you went the petty route. That’s cool, my dude. You’re entitled to however it is you react and respond to my account. But you aren’t going to stop me from writing/portraying my character as she was made over ten years ago. Dude, it’s not even remotely that serious. A fictional character can look however the hell they want. I mean, let’s be real lmao The only reason I have my RL!FC is because of the shape of her eyes, the hair color, and eye color. I’ve tried to look for a mixed face claim but because I want a certain look, I can’t really find it. Is that my fault for making my character how she’s made? Of course it is. But at the same time, I’m not sitting here saying others shouldn’t do this or that. I literally stay in my lane and mind my own fucking business.”

 If you wanted to have an adult conversation, don't talk about it be about first of all, instead of being a dumbass and admitting your fucking fault here and just admitted you fucked up. I vagued you and sent you a message on your blog  - non-anonymous, you vagued me, and I grew a pair three-time its size and came at you. Don't pussyfoot about this you didn't have any way of leading this issue to a better resolution.

You try to pull the maturity card here. It’s not remotely serious but it isn't serious to you, you are just perpetuating the same shit on this site. A fictional character could look whatever they fuck, true, but the moment you involved realistic standards, race, ethnicity and categories in that equation than you’ve opened yourself up a whole new channel of standards and things to follow accordingly.  You’ve used modern standards and staples to shape your character - this is completely your fault at work here. You clearly did not think this through. No one in fucking FFXV has said that they were Japanese or anything, true the influence is there but never is outright - even one is either Lucis, Nif, Tenebraian or etc. Minding your own fucking business would be optional if you fucking could, let's be here you are a territorial bitch here; you become zealous and acting like it is ours, partners and face claims like you are entitled to this shit. 

How the fuck can you have a Japanese dad and white American mom, note American isn't a fucking race its a nationality. please don't get me started on that shit man. 

“You wanted to know why I did with Tenshi what I did: because I can. Because in the realm of fiction, I can have my character whichever way I’d like. I mean, shit.. purple hair isn’t natural. But that’s a canon character, right. I forgot that an OC isn’t canon.. even though, technically it is. It’s my canon. So if you don’t like it, dude just block me. You blocked me after reblogging my vent post anyway, so clearly you know how to do it in the first place. “

Right because purple isn't a natural hair, but Caius isn't Japanese or white, so he doesn't abide by any realistic standard of being an ff character. Even if did block you, which I forgot I did have you blocked, your still would still appear on here. So that much of a win I will give you nonetheless. 

I like how you had  to state “ This is why we stopped talking in the first place; I can’t get on that level of thinking, honestly ” like it was groundbreaking, just to show you how bad it was with the entire convo, worst part this isnt the first of it and the skype convos too:

11/20/2015

thyellae :I'm sorry. I know this is really random, but I feel like I may know you? 

infiniitas : possibly, timeless-encounter, timeless-encounters, xoblivium were my recent URLS.

thyellae  Aah.. then I do know you. I was once salutificator, or perhaps you knew me by foudrv.

thyellae I was keenly aware from the handwriting style and face claim, I know you generally. Generally? Hm.. I must've mistaken you for someone else, then. The person I'm thinking of.. I had quite the falling out with. In which I was hoping to discuss. Aah, well. My apologies for the mix-up. 

thyellae It's quite fine. Well, either way. It's a pleasure to speak to you regardless of the mix-up. My name is Taylor.

thyellaeClo it is, then. I won't lie---I fancy your Caius.Wonderful portrayal.

infiniitasThank you Taylor. I appreciate the comment.

thyellaeDon't mention it. Just thought I'd share some kindness in the wake of upcoming holidays.

infiniitasI take it you have been rping Lightning for quite some time?

thyellaeEver since the first bit of media leakage for FFXIII back in late 06. I didn't start to really get out there until late 07. But, I have. How could you tell?

infiniitasJust a hunch

thyellaeAah.infiniitasthat and i have read some of your work in the past

thyellaeOh?

infiniitasMhm

thyellaeAnd I'm only now being given the pleasure of becoming acquainted with you. Huh.

infiniitasIt appears so, but this time its mutual

.thyellaeThat it is.infiniitastell me who were you looking for?

thyellaeAah.. I can't really remember his name. Which, honestly, is awful. But I had a massive falling out with him. He and I were romantically invested, you could say? But turns out he was doing the same with another girl all the while. I lashed out and lost my cool. I could've handled it better.

infiniitasAh i understand

thyellaeYeah. But I guess it's not that big of a deal.

infiniitasOkay

thyellaeSorry to have bothered you with it. I guess they aren't really around anymore for me to apologize in the first place.

infiniitasIts quite fine no need to apologize.

thyellaeAnyway..How are you?

infiniitasI'm good getting to some rps and reading some.

thyellaeAah. Well, good.

infiniitasAnd yourself?

thyellaeKeeping myself busy with icons, so I can't complain.

infiniitasI take it you have a good number of them?

thyellaeVery many, haha.

infiniitasyour quite productive it seems.

thyellaeWell, I recently changed to borders for my icons. So I'm trying to be as quick as I can with updating them.

infiniitasIronic, i did that last month

thyellaeOh yeah?

infiniitasMhm

[huntingpages]

“why do you want to leave tumblr kane?” Oh i don’t know maybe because every single follow i’ve gotten the last 29852509870[870[8950[rsedbv]dgv’]g jq FUCKING DAYS has been by sex bots that promote rape and shit maybe because even the people on here are terrible with the few exceptions of a handful of people. maybe because i get, and have gotten so much fucking hate on this site since SOPHMORE YEAR OF FUCKING HIGH SCHOOL WHEN I BROKE UP WITH TAYLOR FUCKING DANIEL YEAH CUNT I KNOW ITS YOU and maybe because that number of anons has doubled since SCARLETT FUCKING DOVOVOLSKI DECIDED THAT ME WORRYING ABOUT HER DROPPING OUT OF HIGH SCHOOL AND ISOLATING HERSELF BECAUSE OF JUST WANTING TO LAY AROUND ON HER ASS FOR HER WHOLE LIFE AND SHE HAS THE FUCKING AUDACITY TO SAY I DONT KNOW WHAT SHES GOING THROUGH YEAH YOU FUCKING CHILDISH CUNT I KNOW ITS YOU TOO And maybe because people on here are so proactive that they’ve circled around back into being conservative with different values, or because people are USING some of the shit going on in life right now as an EXCUSE to just GET VIOLENT or maybe because every fucking time i dare open up on here, i get told that my pain is wildly invalid know who else told me that?  MY ABUSIVE ASS MOM “oh you’re WHITE so what do YOU know of pain?” “oh you’re unsure of your sexuality, and therefore you deserve to be BEATEN and KILLED” “oh you’re tall therefore you CANT be struggling with your weight” “oh you’re really good with words while typing so you CANT be schizophrenic. OBVIOUSLY you can hold PERFECT conversations while speaking” and you know what else is going on? i DARED to open up my OCs and my writing to all of you cunts. these are a HUGE PART OF ME. this is HOW I COPE. haven’t slept in three nights? give a character crippling nightmares. want to kill yourself? make a character completely lose their shit. nothing going right and want to kill all your coworkers? just write out what their death would be like, but mask it as characters. guys you DO NOT understand how FUCKED UP i would be without this outlet, and what have you done? “YOU DONT KNOW ENOUGH ABOUT X FANDOM TO WRITE ANY CHARACTERS” “ALL YOUR CHARACTERS ARE FLAT AND SUCK” “ALL THIS TIME YOU HAVE SPENT YOUR WHOLE LIFE IS WASTED EFFORT” do you guys have any idea what that DOES to me?  the only reason i don’t dump specific urls in here to call them out is because i’ve fought my whole life to be BETTER than all of you and what have i gotten for it?  NOTHING. i hate all of you, and i hate myself. congrats, because i don’t know if i would actually hate myself like this if it weren’t for all of you.  shoutouts to @citrusattack @theblueeyedeagle @heartofalionturtle @nightmare-fantasia and all the mutuals i have that don’t give me shit. SERIOUSLY GUYS I HAVE 200 FOLLOWERS THAT IS NOT MUCH, SURE BUT THE FACT THAT OUT OF 200 PEOPLE I CAN ONLY SHOUT OUT THESE ONES FOR NOT MAKING ME FEEL LIKE TOTAL GARBAGE???  so yeah, thanks to those guys for putting off how much i want to kill myself and realizing i try damn hard. but if you have: -given me shit for not knowing a massive multiverse fandom in depth -called me terrible things because i refused to rp TWINCEST -told me to kill myself because i avoid rping with canon characters -told me that i shouldn’t self harm because i “mock people who actually do it as an outlet and OBVIOUSLY don’t have these same problems or anything along those lines, i hope that someday you get a TASTE of what i have been through.  TLDR: i’m cleaning out my following list because i hate pretty much all of you with only those above exceptions. congrats, you have looked at a person going through absolute hell and went out of your way to make it worse. GO TO HELL

[pr]

I was tagged by @twothirtyams

FINALLY got around to it HERE:

Nickname(s): Energizer Bonnie. Bon Bon. Bon. The Bonster. Babe (Jake literally has called me Bonnie less than 20 times akdjakanan).

Gender: Lady gal. Tbh I would be agender because I just don't care but along that same vein I just don't care enough to explain that all the time/insist on pronouns. So. Respect to y'all who do. ✌

Height: 5′6″ (I'm the tallest woman in me or Jake's families but also like. Why am I not 5'11"+ akdjakajaj Kaylor's impact….)

Time: 5:47p CST

Where I'm from: Dallas, Texas. (I would specify the suburb but nobody outside DFW seems to kno lol.) Living in Austin, Texas for 21 more days though...

Hogwarts house: SLYTHERIN. Through and through. When I took the quiz at like 15 and got put in the opposite of Gryffindor I cried. But like. Now, I cannot imagine ever not identifying with everything about Slytherin. The ~dark side~ has never ever been appealing to me - I didn't even have an "emo phase" (I thought MCR was scary even) lol but. Ambition and cunning? Hell. Yes. Also Merlin was a Slytherin so. Dab.

Favorite show: Parks and Recreation has taken the top spot for yeeeears - but now it is tied with Crazy Ex Girlfriend. (I base a lot of my identity on kinned TV characters akdjakaj but ANYway.) 30 Rock close 2nd. Breaking Bad/Better Call Saul are 3rd, shockingly. Bojack Horseman an unfortunate 4th but I kin Bojack in a negative way. Always, ALWAYS stan Avatar: The Last Airbender at #5. I have too many to list tbh lol so just check my TV tag.

Favorite animal: So preface: I only like female animals. Akdjakaja. JUDGE me as you WILL. BUT. Other than hyenas, female animals don't RAPE. SO! ANYWAY! Bunnies at a hard #1!!!! 🐰🐰🐰🐰🐰 Alligators, sharks, dolphins, elephants, horses/ponies, cows, pigs (lotta livestock akdjakajaba), cats, opossums, cheetahs, big cats in general, GIRAFFES (KK……) - I love animals a lot (from a sanitary distance akdjakajaj)

Favorite band/artist: I will not even count the obvious answer because that isn't fair. Other than her: Paramore/Hayley Williams, Ariana Grande, Lorde, Hayley Kiyoko, Halsey, Bastille, Troye Sivan, Harry Styles/One Direction, Rush (hate you Jake…), the cast of Hamilton and Crazy Ex Girlfriend.

…

...you can't judge me.

Song stuck in my head: Well I'm currently listening to Kung Fu Fighting akdjakaj but other than that Love Kernels has been stuck in my head for OVER A WEEK!!!!

Last movie I saw: Uhhh….tbh I really do not watch enough movies??? Honestly, it might have been Endgame?? God I am sad akdjakakja. Watched Crazy Ex Girlfriend 3× since June tho akdjakana

Last thing I Googled: murphy texas fourth of july concert

Other blogs: I've got a SHIT ton of saved URLs, but other than my temp hiatus blog @kaylor and its side blog @marvelousmidgesusie nah. Too much effort.

Do I get asks:Absolutely not. Never have never will akdjakajaj I'm good with it now.

Why this URL: Not to be like. Dramatic. But. After getting a canon URL previously and receiving 0 validation from it, I started this blog under the guise of like. Having just...a fun URL I can change whenever just to enjoy. So, when the lyrics were leaked, I jumped on this bitch because it was fun! And I'll probably change it again once Lover releases.

Number of blankets: Oh my God. Over 10. Too many.

Followers: Little over 125 I think.

Following: Idk. Maybe 200?

Average amount of sleep: I have been working pretty hard to make it at LEAST 8 - but that never fucking happens aidhakan 7-6 usually and it makes me MISERABLE.

Lucky number: 187, and any combination thereof. I know. Weird. But. On birthday turning from 7 to 8, July 18th (7/18), I decided that was the best day of my life, and that was my number. Do I remember anything about that birthday? Absolutely not. But. The number stuck. It shows up in my life a lot. From random (187 on a bus or on a utilities panel driving by), to mildly interesting (my license plate just has 718 or reblogging/liking things that equal combos of the numbers a lot), to really freakin' weird (the number my mom has had for almost 30 years ends with 0718, my Jake's birthday just happens to be August 17th 8/17). So. Idk. I just wike it.

What am I wearing: Tee from a coffee shop, A&M workout shorts, sports bra, crap underwear, and my heart on my sleeve.

Dream job: For my entire life, it was working in film, most recently being an editor. But within the last few months, in a dramatic turn of events, my ideal job would be doing what @tree-paine does: being the publicist of clientele in media, music, film, sports, maybe even politics. Idk.

Dream trips: Jake and I have an elaborate dream of traveling down the Alps from Frankford to Austria to Switzerland to Mulan and ending in Verona. Additionally, I am desperate to take Jake to NYC, LA, Boston, and San Fran. Would love to visit almost every hotspot in the US (Chicago, Atlanta, NOLA, Southwest, Pacific Northwest, Disneyworld, Colorado, Alaska, etc). Also VANCOUVER, lots of East Asia, lots of Europe, Giza, Jerusalem, South Africa - but I have literally never been out of the country and am TERRIFIED of flying let alone over the OCEAN. UM. I just want to be well traveled man lmao.

Favorite food: LOTTA shit I am NOT picky, but tops for sure: cinnamon rolls, cheeseburgers, pizza, mac n cheese, blueberries, pasta in general, sushi, and Jake's aglio e olio/veggie nachos.

Instruments I play: Lol. As if. I spent almost $300 on a keyboard but have been too depressed to try. Maybe someday. Have also been dying to sing for 23 years…

Eye color: Very, VERY light blue. Whenever I am in public, people lose their SHIT on the daily when they see my eyes. But for me like. Blue eyes be creepy. Lmao. I really want green/hazel eyes but like. W/e. So it goes.

Hair color: Naturally this dark, awful shade of ash blonde. But I've been coloring my hair since middle school, and for the past 5 or so years it has been a natural ginger copper. I dye my brows too, people think it's really because I am such a cracker ass white gal akdjakanakan

Aesthetic: Check my "aesthetic" tag lol. Idk. Peach/salmon tones. Farm animals. Florals. Dresses with sneakers. Women. Taylor Swift lyrics over pastel backgrounds akdjakaj. BUNNIES. Shots with a lot of negative space. Mornings and coffee and eggs and pancakes. Waking up next to Jake. Texas hill country. Cowboy boots worn right. Snow. Christmas. Idk. Just like. Look at the "moodboards" tag too akdjakaj.

Languages I speak: English, do you see my lily white ass akdjakajaj. I can speak Spanglish well enough to get through a transaction or vaguely pick up words but that is IT. Would love to know Cherokee, Korean, German, and whatever the hell Australians are saying tho.

Most iconic song: One time, I had a dream that I wrote my senior thesis on why the song "Red" was on the level of modern icon/classic as songs "Don't Stop Believin'", "Livin' On A Prayer", "Smoke On The Water", etc. I was insistent the opening notes were on the same level as "Immigrant Song" aodaajakaja. And I was SO passionate about it I WOKE UP CRYING AKDHALAJAKKAAJ.

Anyway.

OTHER than that, this is 100% subjective and to me personally but: Tim McGraw because those opening notes are just nostalgic as hell; Out of the Woods because when that leaked I was just starting to get back into TS and I put on my headphones and covered myself in a blanket and closed my eyes to be fully into it and oh my God...it was immersive, I will never forget that feeling; IV Sweatpants by Childish Gambino, because it was the MOST PLAYED SONG OF 2018 on our Spotify akdjakajaj; My Shot/Wait For It from Hamilton because they have both inspired and driven me to feel like I can take on the fucking world; and A Diagnosis from Crazy Ex Girlfriend because it changed my life and I have listened to it more times than I can count.

When I created this account: A few months ago. I am changing my person this year, and starting fresh with how I present my online persona was an important part of that process for me. But I have been on Tumblr on various accounts since 2010/11 lmao.

Best memory: Getting moved to the front row at my first TS concert, the 1989 Tour; so, so many things with Jake, years of memories; getting my bun; reconnecting with Sarah; a lot of SXSW 2018; my 20th birthday.

Best pun: The first thing that comes to mind is a post I reblogged earlier about how Lyra from The Golden Compass does not have a moral compass in the metaphorical sense and I said, "I mean. She has a compass. She quite literally very much has a moral compass." I thought I was funny lol.

Random fact: I finally got diagnosed with BPD! And I've lost 20+lbs this year (getting healthy, it's a good thing)! My closet is color organized by item!

I tag:

@kayspiracy @jake-from-state-farm-school @toastedcoconutchips @vagabonds-and-troubadours @grizzlybairparty @thefuckingstory @pictureofsoph1sticatedgrace @his-dark-memerials @taylorswift