#therapy time :)

[someheartsaretrue]

i deserve love the way i am i deserve love the way i am i deserve love the way i am i deserve

[hollowmossart]

todays old art redraw… i dont know what the original concept was?? all i know is martin was falling and I drew it around the end of tma? anyway. i COOKED. i love harsh lighting. this new version looks more.. desperate? whereas the old one looks a bit more serene. this is probably about a 3 year difference.

[ritsuko-transvestigation-archive]

fuck it we are getting personal here

[retrokid616]

f.c.g coming in to therapy mode on imogen PLANING TO KILL HER MOM!!

oh i guess this is good a time as any to say that i'll be at this years 40th wrestlemania

[arandombiped]

therapy time lets go :]]]

[yyuuraii]

WHAT DOES THE WRITING MEAN I HAVEN'T BEEN ABLE TO KEEP UP WITH THE SERIES?? IT'S NOT REALLY FLIPPA??

the code flippa types like this... At first i fr thought it was her and the cracks were just there to show the consequences of her returning o(-( but she called him dad instead of papa thats when i realized shxhjscbsjdbs GOD

[geelizzzie]

Dazai went to therapy again, and this time there's horses

So I've been writing a little Dazai Does Therapy series where, you guessed it, Dazai gets therapy for his trauma. It's nice to write, especially now he's making progress. It's pretty self-indulgent too, he rants about horses in this one, and it was real fun to tie it together because boy does this guy know how to talk around something... thankfully Oda doesn't let up until he spits it out though. I adore their dynamic <3

Summary:

“It’s not like I hate horses,” Dazai started as he barged into the living room. “I love them, actually.”

“I’m aware,” Oda replied as he set down his book on the table. It was one of the few obvious truths about Dazai that could be gathered from looking at him most days.

“Yeah. But you’d wonder… why not?” He was still standing in the doorway.

Or: Dazai rants about horses after his therapy session, and somehow those two are connected

[asadgirlwithaprettymind]

if you need a drink recommendation try mine !!!

[amphiptere-art]

Therapy time. Different day but still going.

[someheartsaretrue]

I’m kind of just sick of being alone.

I went to the cinema by myself today and had a fine time, but the amount of couples just makes me yearn so bad. I don’t think I’m in any danger of just settling for something bad to quell the loneliness (unless I actually am I literally don’t know). Like, I’m fine by myself. But I do feel like I’m just waiting for my person to arrive.

And that feels… bad? Like, everyone says stuff along the lines of “do it alone/do things for yourself/fill your own cup” and sure, yes, I agree. But doing stuff alone feels awful to me. Everything I’ve done this month, the thought of “this would be nicer with someone to share it with” has constantly been there and frankly I don’t know if I can shake that.

I feel it everywhere, people doing things solo or with friends and having a much better time of life, and on the one hand, sure I have a bit of that. But on the other, stuff just feels a bit empty a lot of the time. I guess I’m just doing life wrong? Maybe the people I’m comparing myself to in this scenario just have the money to do more stuff than I do?

I dunno. It just feels like I’m being left behind by life and no matter how much I try to keep up, I just can’t. On both sides of the partner argument. People in couples are out there having a great time and I don’t have that. And there are people discovering their singledom and living their best lives and I don’t have that either. Feels like I’m doing something wrong.

I guess this is what I get for choosing the wrong people in the past and not having a huge social circle anymore.

[sexologii]

getting separation anxiety already from my feeds

[halfpricedpages]

i’m addicted to tumblr anyways time to overshare on the internet.

hey pages what r u doing while you wait for your train?

great question. i’m analyzing my coping mechanisms and why i do them to report back to my therapist because she said she has to get to know me before we unpack my trauma lol.

after coping mechanisms i’m gonna like talk about the people i trust to yap abt my mental health and then i’m gonna write down triggers (what causes physical reactions in the context of trauma and how i react to it) and stressors (what causes mental reactions in the context of trauma and what my brain looks like when that happens) and then i get to write about if i feel ready to work through my trauma and if i feel self aware enough. AND THEN i’m gonna like make a list of internal versus external trauma i’ve been through and which specific events i feel ready to work through.

idk i’m not like posting this to like be like oh hey look how mentally ill i am i just think it’s an interesting process and i’m starting therapy again after taking a break for a couple months and i just thought like if anyone else is and they don’t know how to start maybe you can talk to your therapist about like writing a bunch of stuff down because i’m not really good at like general questions so i prefer to be very specific and take notes and write stuff down and yeah.

[a-touchofvanilla]

That’s it thats the joke

[vandalizeme]

The urge to self sabotage is so overwhelming and I don’t understand why 🫠

[runihura-kek]

who needs friends/therapy when you have ChatGPT 😭

IT GOT BETTER

♡♡♡♡♡OH MY GOD♡♡♡♡♡

low-key I tried it in other aspects and now I'm crying, because an AI is giving me emotional support... I'm so validation starved that I will take ANYTHING!!!!

[oh-yes-i-did-not]

Okay so this makes it clear why my therapists have asked this. But also, it makes so clear that some are really not listening to me but just following a script, because when they ask me "WHY can't you?" and my only answers is "because I fucking can't I need money and I don't have it and nobody will allow me to just lie on my fucking back and not deal with shit!"

And because of that I've always felt like that question is just utter and total bullshit? And I absolutely dread hearing it. Because most of the time my answer is very practical because I get asked it about with VERY, VERY WRONG THINGS.

But yeah, it also explains why I've kinda gotten along with all of my therapists but not really opened up to most of them. They're like okay people but also, they're not for me. We don't sync, we don't jive, we don't make jazz together. We get along but we don't work.

Therapy is risky because sometimes they'll just ask you their standard "why can't you, though", and you think you're making some good point by saying something like "well if I don't do anything with my life then what's the point of being alive in the first place" and your therapist gets that look on their face and you immediately realise that your dumb ass just got caught, pinned to the ground with your stupid-ass neck between the spikes of a pitchfork, and you are not going to wiggle out of there before you two unpack what the fuck you just said.