#therapist sans lore

[tehrogueva]

oh sooo if Doc has met many sanses which ones is he most worried about?

also hi I love you're voice acting so cool.🤩

thanks :D

id say. Killer, Dust and Horror for sure. Also Classic (since he is based off a classic, he know almost exactly what he went through).

He's still new to the multiverse, so he hasn't meet everyone yet.

[apoloadonisandnarcissus]

@rey-jake-therapist asked me about my thoughts on the “Elrond will replace Celeborn on “Rings of Power” as Galadriel’s husband” theory. And I’m actually taking the role of Celeborn’s defense attorney on this one.

This is not a simple case of replacing one character with another. And this happening would not only cause a meltdown in the entire Tolkien fandom, but would completely wreck Tolkien lore beyond repair.

Firsts things first, no character can replace Celeborn as Galadriel’s “Elven husband” on Tolkien legendarium. And the show itself has already introduced Celeborn’s existence, and that he’s married to Galadriel. Elves marry for live and death (because Elves can’t truly die, their souls go the Halls of Mandos for a while, and are then reembodied and stay in Valinor), and divorce is forbidden, and only the Valar can decide otherwise. This is literally one of the main arguments against Sauron x Galadriel (every Saurondriel shipper knows this is doomship).

The "Rings of Power" fandom can’t really compare Sauron and Elrond. Elrond is one of the Eldar, and he follows the Valar laws; meaning, he knows Galadriel is married to Celeborn at the eyes of the Eldar and the Valar, and she can't divorce him (yes, even if he's “dead”). Sauron is a fallen Maia, a servant of Morgoth, who rebelled against the Valar and hates the Gods. Meaning: he couldn’t care less about their laws, and Galadriel is as good as single in his book (because he doesn’t recognize the Valar authority).

The moment “Celeborn as Galadriel’s husband” has been acknowledged by “Rings of Power”, any idea of replacement is out of the table, according to Tolkien legendarium. Besides, the show producers, in San Diego Comic-Con 2024, have already confirmed Celeborn will be in “Rings of Power”, we just don’t know when. 

For the sake of the argument, allow me to elaborate further problems with this hypothetical replacement. Rivendell and Lothlórien are two key Elven kingdoms in the story. Elrond is Lord of Rivendell, and Galadriel is Lady of Lothlórien; both kingdoms are protected and sustained by the power of their rings; Vilya and Nenya. This couldn’t possibly work, because they have to be in their kingdoms (only leaving on very specific occasions).

Celeborn and Galadriel, indeed, spent a lot of time apart in Tolkien lore, but this is usually in connection with Celeborn’s role as a warrior and as Lord of Lothlórien. Elrond couldn’t possibly be Lord of two major Elven kingdoms at the same time. And for the show to erase Lothlórien entirely would also create several issues: this is not only where Galadriel has her Mirror, and several other magical artifacts, but it’s a key location on itself and a huge part of Galadriel character, and of her “repentant sinner” arc in Tolkien lore: she needs to become a wise and powerful leader, and to wield her power with compassion and humility, in order to gain the Valar’s pardon and be able to return to Valinor.

In some versions of the lore, Galadriel established Lothlórien and Celeborn joined her later (because he was fighting elsewhere); in others they did it together. I don’t know with which version the show will go, but Lothlórien has to exist in it.

[sleeping-archivist]

my reactions to ep 12 (with spoilers):

pre-statement:

• first of all, this came out like an hour early for me and so i listened to it while walking TO latin. more bonzo lore is not the way i wanted to start my morning :(

• the title… uhhhh what

• secret tunnel?????? do you perhaps have a goofy librarian in your secret tunnel?????

• this may just be me reaching but it seems like the TMAGP crew has been more coffee-based… and celia went with tea… which was very TMA of her 👀

• sam ilysm

• …what’s complicated celia 🤨 what do you need to sort out first celia?????

• alice dyer my light my love. “a cup of liquid” sent me

• “you know it’s rude to have absolutely no game?” i am somehow both alice AND sam rn

• please i wanna read the “magnus institute re: samama khalid - massive conspiracy” case 👀

statement:

• carlisle street??? …like flesh guy toby carlisle? like other flesh guy benjamin carlisle?

• respectfully i know they have to conform to the format but also hearing “submitted. submitted. submitted” over and over drove me a lil bit insane

• yellow and purple lunch box… it’s not getting better from here is it

• the real horror of this ep was the comic sans on the cd 💀

• this is probably not an actual connection but the ongoing murder music made me think of grifter’s bone…

• RIP joey the doorman :(

• did not enjoy listening to the following section at 9:30 in the morning 🤢

• “…unfolding the groom’s head with another flowering explosion of blood” alexander j newall you will be hearing from my therapist <3

• rotten foam??????

• …coquettishly???? 🤡 🎀

• “bonzo? bonzo bonzo?” …ok i know i’ve been complaining about mr bonzo this whole time but this was the funniest bit of the whole ep

• why weren’t the cameras working 👁️ 👁️

• please pay her… let her go to therapy…

post-statement:

• aight so this was definitely the result of the letter that she delivered… poor gwen :(

• “jesus christ…” “i go by alice now, actually” alice dyer the woman you are. i would die for u

• “are you, like, actually okay?” i’m WAITING for this enemies to lovers arc. pleaseeeeeee please please

• “there’s something wrong here” well shoutout to gwen, she got there quicker than jon did

• “i don’t wonder. i know” ALICE. WHAT DO YOU KNOW. SHARE WITH THE CLASS

• “it’s all part of a grand plan to satisfy one of the most unspeakable evils known to mankind…” ok but like. is it??? is it really???? is that not what it is?????

• “the UK government” alice rlly said the real horror = the british and i love her for it <3

• aaaaaaaaaa i can’t believe i have to wait another week until the next ep. devastating news

[absurdumsid]

Hi

(this is just an ask for more underangel's content.)

oh dear. ive been stalling writing for this specific au for such a long time,,,,

UnderAngel Lore

or. um. options for it, you get to decide whats canon ? i hope u know i could be lying. or not

i wont be able to make a long lore post (like keepertale's) because. um. although this AU is older than underpills, it's gone (+ going) through SO MANY changes even i cant list them all down

the core plot of underangel is "what if there was never a war between humans and monsters?" its somewhat like ?? a complete opposite of underfell

Long ago, two races ruled over Earth: HUMANS and MONSTERS. One day, the humans threatened the monsters, who did not want to fight, much less a war. Surrendering themselves, the monsters were sealed underground with a magic spell.

this au is focused on sans and his identity as a human turned monster kinda deal, he and papyrus are "undead" and were resurrected by toriel (to see if resurrection is possible) and gaster (to find the limits of healing magic)

they were taken in by gaster after the resurrection thing (since he was the one who proposed the experiment in the first place) but after gaster "dies" they dont really remember ANYTHING about themselves because all their knowledge came from him. they just have this sorta nagging feeling that theyre Not Really Monsters yknow

sans has always been the centre of the au (even back when it was still called underheaven, and there was even a heavenfell,,,,) heres doodles of what i remember them lookin like

but ACTUALLY

this au focuses on chara and their internal conflict as the main reason monsters almost went to war.

see, the story goes somewhat like this:

When the "heart-of-gold trophy child" Chara started "misbehaving" after a game of hide and seek with Asriel, the Monster King's son, humans decided to stop the charade of acceptance. It started with a simple threat toward Asgore and his kingdom. His advisor seemed very... very favourable of war, but he only wanted peace between his people and the humans. So in order to avoid war, he decided to surrender before the humans could so much as scratch his family. Despite the sacrifice separating Asriel and Chara made for peace, Chara decides to run and find a way to go to Mt. Ebott and reunite with their family.

they (and asriel !!) serve as frisk's guide throughout the underground and they get to understand the history of it through exploring, but also chara's insights on certain things (you can tell i like the narrator chara theory) they even have a sit down where they talk about their feelings about being stuck underground

chara is actually in their late thirties now (baby face :/ im envious)

HAHA SIKE !

its ACTUALLY about the mystery of the former royal scientist and the six (dead) fallen children

frisk finds the mysterious grey door in room 268 and is met with a deformed phantom of gaster, he does not speak nor does he move, and when frisk reaches out to try and touch his hand, he flashes a big smile and disappears.

frisk then goes around the underground asking if they know someone who looks like that, and pieces together that it was the royal scientist after speaking to gaster's followers in hotland (this guy rlly met all of them. in one run. damn)

(side note angel!gaster is like. a multiverse therapist now. i call that "au" or his little corner of the multiverse outcode counseling)

ANYWAY

u can choose which of these are canon or like. which of these arent. or maybe NONE of them are canon and this whole post is a lie

oh but underangel always ends in a genocide run

[tehrogueva]

forgot to reblog this here

eeeeeeeeee

your art is so fucking good!!!

Well. I want to draw something new. And background. Well yeah. It's @tehrogueva Doc sans

[thelunarsystemwrites]

LusterrorTale

A horrortale x underlust AU!

(Lore below cut! TW for talk of: suicide, death, sex, sexual violence, starvation, depression, addiction!)

So the idea of LusterrorTale, is after a neutral run from Frisk—Toriel and Asgire are dead, as they killed both. So Undyne immediately became queen.

So... things play out, magic in the underground starts dying. They're trying to fix to core, food starts running low as magic does-

Dead. Alphys, who was keeping the core alive... killed herself. So the core kinda just.. breaks, with only Sans knowing how to fix it.

This sent Undyne into a deep depression with her lover dead. In a fit of rage, she blamed Sans for it and you know.. shattered his skull. (She blamed him because he was helping Alphys with the core, so she believes Sans should've seen the signs.)

Now, with the core dead and magic at an all time low—In this au, there's one natural way of making magic with two monsters—Which is uh, doing the deed. It causes magic to build up.

Sooooo basically all the monsters, since they're starving for magic, all kinda go sex crazy. They become addicted to it, since they're desperate for the magic that becomes like a high.

In this AU, it focuses more on sexual violence, depression, starvation—It's a blend of Horrortale and Underlust in the fact that it combines starvation with desire. The design for Sans here was originally intended for an AU I was making with a friend, but we changed it. So I decided to give this guy his own AU!

So yeah, SA is unfortunately, very common in the underground. So is Monsters offing themselves, it's INCREDIBLY depressing. The idea is the underground has reached its lowest, where everyone is scrapping for a bit more.

...Oh yeah, the human who falls is a therapist-

HorrorTale by sour-apple studios!

Underlust by NSFWshamecave!

LusterrorTale by me!

[tehrogueva]

I'm sure you've been asked this before, but maybe not?

Therapist Sans' scars, are they self inflicted? Or did he get them via like, past injury or mentally unstable patients?

Doc's Scars are self-inflicted, yes.

It's part of his backstory. He self harmed in order to cope with his trauma.

He doesn't self harm anymore but sometimes when he gets stressed he traces scars, this is also why he wears gloves to hide them.

More will be brought up about them when i get around to working on his audio series.

[smol-bean-boi13]

...

So I've been brain rotting a little hard

(??? Some guy?)

Andd then I end with a little self indulgent doddle of my sona.

So yeah. I've been hyperfixating on undertale for a bit.

So I originally just wanted to draw some cute npcs in snowdin, but then my brain saw lore.

Main masterpost

-- Info dump below --

So the first few pictures was just me doodlin a little bit, but then I really liked the Red Demon's design and lore. So I just dissected the f*ck out of this guy's dialogue, design, and understanding of the economy in the underground.

Eventually my brain led me to this conclusion.

*ahem* I have taken it up on myself to name the "Red Demon" (also called "Red Jester") as Vernillion (eh? eh?), and assign him an adopted sister, Loxie (the loox up top).

Before the war, he lived with his parents who adopted a lone loox after her parents had died fighting in the war. Eventually, Vern had lost his parents too, and soon only had Loxie to rely on and care for.

Once everyone moved underground, Vern and Loxie bounced from family to family; Vern wasn't old enough to be an adult monster yet. A couple (20) years later, Vern was assigned a plot of land and built a house to live with Loxie, and soon applied for college.

He met Sans in one of his classes, and have been good friends ever since. They often joked a lot and helped each other study.

Then sans applied to be on the royal science team, about a couple years in, sans quit. And didn't really talk much about his old job after that.

Meanwhile, Vern had been hard at work studying psychology, and eventually realized that nothing in life mattered. He realized that the economy was only going to get worse as time progressed, and that all the monsters would probably never be able to see the sun again, and that he would probably spend the rest of his life living underground.

This... caused Vern to develop depression. He didn't go to school, or interact with anyone outside of Loxie, who made him food and took care of him. And sometimes her friends who worked for the newspaper would come over to work on their comics and crosswords.

Eventually Loxie smacked some sense into her brother, and got him to go get help from a psychiatrist/therapist. He gradually worked to get back on track to get his PhD in psychology again, with the help of some medication and his sister's support.

Then, a human comes to town, and his reaction to them differs based on the route the player is taking. But in both, he's scared sh*tless to go outside the day rumors of a human falling into the underground reached his ears.

Loxie kicks him out of the house and tells him to be cool (ba dum tiss), while she meets up with her friends at the librarby.

Pacifist/neutral: greeted warmly, and says that even though there are problems in the underground, that doesn't mean that you should be morose about it.

Genocide: *smile falters a little* and says the same thing. (Knowing you've gained LOV/XP)

At the end of the pacifist/neutral route, he mentions that he's glad he doesn't have to keep pretending to be happy and smile.

...

And that's about it I think.

There's more little bits of information I don't think is important so I'll wait and draw it out later.

Thanks for listening ☺��🙏

[tehrogueva]

Ehehehehe

Funny enough there lore for this

So Doc don’t like to fight after the Geno runs and the incident with frisk in public it swears off fighting.

Any conflict he try’s to solve with words or his claiming magic.

However

If somone he cares about is threatened or hurt. He will not hesitate.

He’s actually pretty powerful.

The cleaning magic is basically emotional manipulation magic and while he uses it to help people not hurt, he can definitely use it in reverse.

Ad to that his words are his biggest weapon. (Think vicious mockery from Dnd)

Man will destroy you with emotional damage!

He does have a bad reaction after everything is calmed down so there is a big draw back to him going all out like this. But the he won’t let the ones he cares about be hurt. Not again.

BLOOD WARNING⚠️

Request on Twitter

Practice some shading, looks edible 😗

Looooove crazy skeletons 🥰

Doc belongs to @tehrogueva

[munsonshire]

Hello! Can I please get a matchup for supernatural?

I'm a straight female and my pronouns are she/her

I'm 5'9 and I have long and curly dark brown hair and brown eyes. I have a fair skin tone, I'm slim and I've got full lips and fairly large eyes. I also have these dimples that I really like!

I love reading, my favorite genres are poetry, Russian lit, and mysteries! I love learning about new things and knowing a little bit of everything. I adore adventures, witty and playful banter, joking around and having indepth discussions on anything and everything! I adore all forms of art and I have quite a few creative hobbies! I listen to a lot of modern/indie rock and I love watching films very much! It takes me a while to feel comfortable around new people but once I do, I become really talkative and outgoing. I love helping out and I'm the therapist friend, people come to me to vent or for advice and comfort. I'm smart and ambitious; I love being the best at everything I do. I'm quite the hopeless romantic and I love being in love! I adore big and small romantic gestures and I love domesticity sm!! My love languages are acts of service and quality time. I'm a ravenclaw, my mbti is infp and my enneagram is 4w3!

Thank you very much!

Anonymous x Supernatural Matchup

Hello there!! Here is your request, I hope you like it!!

Disclaimer: its been a long LONG time since I last saw supernatural, so keep this in mind hehe.

I believe you would match pretty well with Castiel.

Learning and knowledge

Castiel shares your intellectual curiosity and thirst for knowledge. We is constantly learning about the human world, pretty much like you enjoy knowing about different genres and subjects.

Also, his vast knowledge of everything, having been an angel that has lived for thousands of years would be amazing, he'd talk to you about so many topics most would include angel themes such as celestial lore or even the intricacies of angel weapons and so on.

You two would always (playfully) challenge each other on knowledge of different things

You'd also tease Cas a lot because of how outdated some of his information about human history is.

You'd provide a grounding presence for Castiel as he tries to understand and learn human emotions and relationships. While he would introduce you to the Supernatural aspects of the world (lets be honest, you'd be a hunter and his tips would be useful)

Potential Banter

Castiel's literal interpretations and occasional social awkwardness could lead to some truly hilarious moments.

Imagine trying to explain sarcasm or a pop culture reference – the possibilities for amusement are endless!

Also his straightforward nature and close to no filter when he talks would bring so many funny moments between you two, especially due to your playful personality. Also, expect the most unhinged comments ever

Your playful personality could help him loosen up and discover the joy of wordplay.

Artistic connection

Being an angel, Castiel's appreciation for art may not rely on human traditional art forms, though he does marvel at the complexity of human creations

You say you're interested in poetry and I can imagine Castiel asking you to recite one of your favorite poems to him. Then him being awestruck by the emotional depth of the poem you just read to him.

I believe he would be very interested in painting and sculpture, especially the ones based on angels and god (cuz he's an angel), enter The Piety by Michaelangelo or Crucifixión de San Pedro. Caravaggio (1601). He'd also be amazed by modern ways of painting, such as digital art, he can't quite grasp how it works but he likes learning about it.

You two go to a lot of museums

His ability to transport everywhere is beneficial, he'd take you to all the different libraries, museums, and historical buildings that you might want to visit

Challenges to overcome, growth Together:

Castiel's angelic nature can be a double-edged sword.

His loyalty to Heaven could create conflict if it ever clashes with your values

However, open communication and a willingness to understand each other's perspectives could lead to a deeper bond and a stronger relationship.

Your nurturing personality could be a balm to Castiel's struggles with understanding human emotions

As he opens up (slowly, but surely), you'd be there to offer support and guidance

In turn, his unwavering loyalty and angelic perspective could provide a sense of security and stability in your life.

The hopeless romantic meets the loyal angel:

Castiel, despite his initial awkwardness, is a deeply devoted being.

His angelic expressions of love might not be what you see in human relationships, but his unwavering loyalty and willingness to protect you speak volumes

Together, you could create a unique and beautiful love story, filled with grand gestures and quiet moments of domestic bliss.

I really hope you liked it, if there's something you'd like me to add, anything you don't like of somewhere where you want me to in-deep more just tell me!!

[justsomelazyrandomstuff]

Hello hello!!

Ca here.

I just create a new ask blog!

Horray! :D

Mostly for my need for lore.

Anyways! This is the people availeble for ask!

There gonna be more characters, but these two will be the main.

The Papyrus name is Lian and the Sans is Azure.

And fun-fact!

Lian is a therapist!

[fleaishbitch]

What if the Undertale multiverse had a therapist?

scopophobia warning?

I just think that a lot of these aus need therapy and I know I'm not alone on this

I didn't make them a sans because it wouldn't be the best for his lore

[rainbowsans]

GOD, YOUR TAKE ON HORRORTALE PAP IS SO GOOD?? that last comic you posted with him made me tear up- just. god?? god. not sure if this counts as a lore question, but how's he doing now that he's visiting a therapist and hanging out with the other sans' and papyri? he feeling a little bit better? (obviously and understandably things seem kinda strained with him and his brother, but i mean?? pap has every right to feel hurt after that)

BJAKFJDBFJKDSBFDSJK THANK YOU!!! IM GLAD Y’ALL ARE ENJOYING MY HORROR PAPYRUS, he deserves so much better smh

as for how he’s doing right now, he’s doing better!! he’s still talking to some therapists, he’s got a good relationship with all the paps and sanses. and hes on a good road to recovery. he’s taking it step by step

as for horror sans, he’s aslo working on bettering himself, its a slow process but he’s working on it! at the moment the two are working on themselves, but slowly they’re trying to be more honest with one another.

[derangedspacefreakk]

Ranking Godzilla Ships:

Hello People!

So I decided, "I should rank some Godzilla ships, why should I not?" My ass hasn't been on Tumblr for a while and I should do something. So I was first going to use tiermaker to rank the ships, but tiermaker requires to log in to make a new template and ain't nobody got time for that. So now we're here.

So, here are the rules:

1. The ships will be ranked based on my headcanons, character biases, and how much I care for the Characters. If I care little about a character in a ship, ill rank it lower.

2. Since it's MY headcanons, some canon things may not apply. Like for ghidzilla, I'm not gonna rank it low because "their enemies" because that's not my headcanon. One, because not everyone follows the canon lore like the Bible,some want to add to the lore in interesting ways like @ya-boi-perish and hopeater. So just hating on a ship and people who ship is just... Dumb. Two, I been subconsciously shipping enemies to lovers even I like friends to lovers better.

3. This is my opinion, and also just some dumb fun thing I decided to do. I'll be looking at the fandom perception and commenting on it using my opinion on it. You can disagree with my on certain ships, you can voice your own opinion in the comments or reblogging my work. But for fucks sake, don't fight or attack me for not liking or shipping a thing from you (I dont like generalising but especially you mothzilla shippers). You're on the internet, where thousands of people can get to voice their opinions, but also people are allowed to criticise, correct or simply disagree with you. If you're mad that people can disagree with you and it's not simply an echo chamber, you can either stop trying to make your opinions facts or get the fuck off.

Anyways, my rankings are: OTP (meaning I ship it), NOTP (meaning i dislike that ship), and FOTP (meaning I'm okay with it, but I don't ship it).

You don't have to agree with me or anything, just don't act like a bitch.

Mothzilla:FOTP. For some odd reason, the fandom seems to LOVE this ship. Probably because of KOTM, where someone asks if they have a thing going on. And also mothra was queen of the monsters. Which is fine, I don't ship it really. I only see Godzilla and mothra as close friends, because I see mothra as more focused on her job as guardian. The problem comes from the fact that to the fandom, that's the only thing that's acceptable, and people go CRAZY if you ship Godzilla or mothra with someone else (especially ghidzilla-) . Which is stupid, as said before this is the internet,and if you so butthurt over a ship that you have do harmful and toxic things like send death threats tell people to off themselves than you need a therapist and to grow the fuck up. But anyway, I don't ship them asides from two Characters based off of them.

Rodorah: also FOTP. The fandom also ships this as well. I don't see Rodan or ghidorah have any chemistry other than Rodan has yellow eyes ghidorah colour is yellow or ghidorah has red eyes and Rodan's color is red. But another thing is that the fandom has a weird tendency to infantilize San, and ONLY San (well I only see it happen to san). Where he's childish and clueless and dumber than the other 2. Especially in rodorah. And it gets... Weird? Especially in smut. And it turns me off. Like what the fu-

Ghidzilla or godorah: OTP. Just hands off OTP. I don't know how it happened, maybe I was influenced by perish or agitype01 but I decided "let's see if there's Godzilla hentai". Then agitype01 appeared with her ghidzilla (slight rodzilla and rodorah)hentai God X King and I decided let's ship it. It's not an exact origin story, but my theory. I feel like my headcanons are fine, my Godzilla and ghidorah would get together and godzilla will teach them about earth. And Godzilla will probably get along with ni the most.

But for some reason, people seem to HATE this ship. The main reason is that "they're enemies!" Which is the stupidest shit I've ever seen. Well geeze! You wanna know who else PVP against each other THRICE (I didn't read the comics bro)? And also were confirmed enemies?Mothra and Godzilla, but yet shipping them is absolutely fucking fine. Also, as I said, not everyone follows canon. They stopped being enemies in my AU, and I'm wondering if Im starting to like enemies to lovers. But anyways, fine.

Mothdan: OTP. Now I know I said i view mothra as single, but in some cases, I see them as a couple. Rodan is still mourning his mate (Quetz) and mothra is kind of emotional support. I just see them as wholesome. Not any you horny cougars (looking at you perish)

That's an idea for a series I'll probably won't do.

Battra X mothra: NOTP. Now here comes the question: why do I dislike this ship? That's because I dont think the Characters in this ship have any reason to be together, or any chemistry. Like mothra, I don't personally see Battra looking for romance. And I just think they see eachother as siblings or rivals (kind of). This is also not popular, I only seen two people ship them. Probably because most people see Battra as a brother.

That's it I'm afraid. I would do more but my hands are tired and I don't want to think of more ships

[skelemira]

Ooooh whats Rowan's lore? *grabs popcorn*

ALRIGHT BUCKLE UP BUTTERCUPS

Gonna leave it after the cut (if I remember how to do the cut right on mobile lol) so I don't clog up feeds

So Rowan started out as a human. Her family was okay financially, probably lower middle class. Not rich enough to be truly comfortable, but not in a whole lot of danger debt-wise. She had a mother, a father, an older sister named Magnolia (Nolia for short) and a little brother named Cedar (lol do you see a naming pattern here I'm so creative). Her parents were... Okay. They weren't abusive or anything, but they weren't exactly doting. They didn't really have the time to be doting, since they both worked all the time. The siblings all got along really well, though, the type of siblings that stuck together initially because they lacked that true family relationship but slowly morphed into ride or die siblings.

So one day, little 14-year-old Rowan (Nolia was 16, soon to be 17, and Cedar was 10) gets home from school, pretty average, normal day.

She's sitting at the table doing her hw when someone knocks at the door and her parents (it was kind of weird, they were never home at this hour) rush to open it. There stands a man in a lab coat, holding an envelope. Rowan hated him instantly. Something about him seemed wrong.

He talked to her parents for a bit, and her parents asked her to go get Nolia and Cedar with some urgency in their voices. And.... If she was right in placing that tone.... Guilty excitement...?

She got her siblings and they came downstairs.

Turns out her parents had been closer to debt than she realized. So to get some more money and.... Relieve some financial burdens, they sold their kids to a group of scientists needing victi----research participants.

Of course there was a struggle, Nolia stepping up to try and defend her siblings, screaming at her parents, Rowan holding Cedar close while silent tears poured down both their faces.

But the scientist was prepared, and before anyone could react, three men appeared with rags, holding them over the kids' mouths.

She woke up in an empty white room.

Well... If you could call it white. It was more of a dinghy, hardly cleaned beige. These men were not with the government, she could immediately tell that.

Gonna sum up this part bc it involves torture but basically the scientists were experimenting to see if they could turn a human into a monster. They found only Rowan's soul was compatible. They used her siblings to keep her under control..... Only they had dumped Nolia and Cedar on the streets weeks ago. They simply reused footage to "prove" to Rowan they were still there.

They almost succeeded in their experiment. They forced so much magic into her soul that it started to flip.... But it was too much and Rowan flatlined. They dumped her body in the woods, only disappointed that they came so close.

A couple months passed. Her body decayed until only her skeleton remained. The decaying process was helped along by all the magic, which seemed to have concentrated in her bones, morphing them slowly until they were all connected.

She woke up.

She spent several years on the streets. She begged, she stole, and... She drank. Or at least she tried to. (She was allowed into bars because people thought she was a monster, and she wasn't wearing stripes, so that must mean she was an adult.) She quickly discovered that her alcohol tolerance was *legendary*. She drank bars dry having drinking contests with people (that's how she paid for all her drinks) but felt no different than before. Eventually someone dared her to try Everclear, and though she grimaced at the taste, she drank the entire bottle.

The bar was silent.

The taste eventually grew on her, a kind of self-inflicted punishment that soon became a routine, almost a comfort.

Now a good chunk of the next part has to do with my friend's sonas which I'm not going to talk about because they're not my characters, but suffice it to say they were amazing friends to her and helped her recover and get on her feet.

One such friend discovered her sleeping by Grillby's dumpster, and Grillby let her stay the night on his couch, setting up a job at Muffet's for her the next day. She and Muffet became really close friends and finally she started to have a more stable life. (She finds and dates Underlust Sans but that's another story lol which I would be happy to share in another ask~ but y'all these two are so cute plz)

So someone suggests she go see a therapist. Goodness knows she's got some trauma. So she agrees. The name of her therapist seems..... Eerily familiar but she decides to ignore her gut and go anyway. She walks into the therapist's office and---

And sees her mother sitting there, looking professional and well-rested and happy.

She runs.

Yeah so suffice it to say she isn't gonna trust therapy again for a bit lol, and it takes her even LONGER (and some good therapy sessions) to accept the fact that her mother was clearly better off without her and her siblings.

Yeah ya girl has a lot of issues, especially abandonment <3 she is very much a people pleaser and WILL put your needs high above her own. Anything to make you want to stay. Anything to make her feel needed or wanted.

So she's hanging out at Grillby's one day (he and his bartender like to try out different mixes on her, try to see if they can get her to make a face at a cocktail) when a huge party comes in. Rowan automatically shrinks a bit from discomfort because of the big crowd, and she continues her game with Grillby and the bartender (the bartender is my friend's sona that's why I'm not naming them lol). Then she hears something that makes her freeze mid-sip.

"Let's hear it for Magnolia!!!! The first of us to get tied down!" Followed by raucous laugh....ter...

She recognizes that laugh.

She flees the bar, with no explanation to anyone. She catches a glimpse of Nolia, with Cedar by her side, and both of their eyes squint slightly in confusion as she passes by them.

She makes it outside, looking around for where to go, unable to think in her panicked confusion when---

"R......Rowan?"

She goes ramrod straight and slowly turns, hands balled into fists to hide the violent shaking. Nolia bursts into tears, Cedar immediately clinging to her stiff form, his shoulders shaking as bad as her hands.

They.... Recognized her. They.........

Were *happy* to see her.

Slowly she hugged them back and they got to catching up. (So yeah if it wasn't clear Nolia was getting married, they both had survived on the streets together until Nolia was old enough to get a job).

Also something I forgot to mention lol is Rowan had found 2 kittens behind Muffet's, an older girl kitten fiercely protecting a little boy kitten. They immediately latched onto her after she made it clear she wasn't a threat, and she decided to name them after her siblings.

Also things worth noting, she smells like apples, she has magical red translucent hair, her soul wavers from more upside down like a monster's to more upright like a human's, she loves to bake, she is like the DEFINITION of cottagecore, she has magical tattoos on her face that change around to look like the Day of the Dead skulls (the colors get brighter or darker with her moods), and she drinks 2 bottle of everclear every time she goes to Grillby's. The paramedics in the area quickly become used to people calling the ambulance when she drinks (seriously look up everclear it's basically pure alcohol). She eventually stops drinking (not that it was *really* harming her since she had that alcohol tolerance and a body made primarily of magic at this point (plus alcohol isn't really gonna hurt her, she doesn't have kidneys lol) but she wanted to stop anyway. She loves to paint and teaches one of her friends to paint, tending to her friend's garden while her friend paints. She also loves to cook and bake, she eventually helps out with baking at Muffet's, though she refuses to bake the spiders into the pastries. Her scones are things of legend, they sell out as soon as she brings the tray out of the kitchen.

Yeah that was a lot lol and there's little things here and there that I missed so feel free to send in questions about her if you want to know anything! Or if you want to know how Rowan and UL Sans got together (spoiler: they eventually get married and it's so cute)

[tehrogueva]

Ahaha omg I can’t decide if I like the green or blue ecto more

Tbh I love em both and he can use which ever he wants when he wants

I sure hope drawing skeleton men in maid dresses doesn't become a weird hobby of mine.

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