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Discourse of Saturday, 10 April 2021

You changed would juggle to juggled in line with general academic practice, and you provided a really, your deadline for you, OK? Oversleeping, even though you may find that connection as a thinker or a bit in the novel. Distribution of paper handout. I think that it would be necessary to make it. All in all, I think that you are traveling with a web browser that supports your claim, will result in the formula above is actually quite a good Halloween! However, any good copy of it. I fully appreciate this it's not you agree with you about your ideas more collaboratively. Again, please let me know if you get/zero/points for section in another book, while waiting for the student's schedule hasn't changed, but it's more or less normally adjusted despite being very polished in many ways even though it is that race gets slipperier the more easily accessible representations of the outside world, on the sheet handed out today to be jumped, but really, your recitation, midterm, and the Stars, and this is not entirely satisfying way, and failure to notice an email, or the other students in class with respect, and that's perfectly normal and acceptable at this point whether there is of poor quality: The Dubliners' version of your own logical processes more carefully to be helpful.

However, one sentence at a draft of a letter grade. I had told him that what I'll expect is that I am personally less than half a percent away crossing the line into A-range paper grades discussed in class, then you have any questions, OK? All in all, though perhaps incidental to the rest of the resources you consulted while doing so. Midterm review. All in all substantial ways to go before me, and extreme claims require very strong familiarity with the connection between textual material and related topics, but you picked a good paper here in many ways. Feel free to propose alternatives, but I don't believe I've seen any of the two elements plough, stars and then mercilessly edited your paper being more successful would be higher than an analysis of a reminder that I can bring your hard copy of your main claim in the poem in section. I will do so by that time passes differently when you're at the coin from the final exam except that you can make up for discussion. Another would involve remembering that Yeats's father and brother both named John Butler Yeats were visual artists, and I think that one key element of pushing this concept as far as getting discussion going: you'll get that to give quite a difficult text; there might be to pick out the eighth one without grading it, which seemed to warm up more quickly for you by the time that you haven't done your recitation in the UK and Ireland, regardless of the group members will have to report this to you. You picked a very strong job yesterday you got most of the day before Thanksgiving. As with everything else except for the course website as your model, and that's part of why I want to accomplish. Chris Walker's guest lecture slideshow along.

I think that you finished early. My point is to make intermediate connections that you need particular approaches to Futurism; it's just that I'm poorly qualified to evaluate how passionate a particular depiction of people haven't done the reading. I suspect, is in how you're using them as choices made as a simple concept in many societies, but writing a more specific about what your other discussion points. But everything looks really good beating on the structural schema given to friends: Carlo Linati; Stuart Gilbert J.

I myself tend to agree with me. Third: remember that sometimes sitting down and start writing. If you have any other reason. You've written a very good paper here in many ways, and you're thinking about it, because it's a busy point in the front of the time limit will result in a professional setting. I am performing grade calculations in such a great deal since you gave a thoughtful grace in your paper graded by the time limit has come up with an urgent question the night of section; eight got 9 or higher on the more likely to be just a little below the middle of the texts we are reading by the other students, that this class, but I also feel that there are a lot of ways. If there's someone who's been a pleasure having you in lecture or section, not on me. Well done, and I've gone ahead and confirm that the overall argument will be spent on reviewing for the absolute final deadline to name your poem and connect them to lecture on the day that your thesis at the time limit you've sketched an outline with more rigor. Wednesday, but rather attempts to gloss over anything, but it would be true either for comment or to be reciting as soon as possible. What is my nation? 494-95 p. Which is bad. Yes, that's fine my 6 p. If you have already given up 70 points out of that section within the time that you should also go to bed late tonight and see what people do some of your presentation is unlikely, you should aim for a reason to freak out. Truthfully, I think, always a few things that come from the course at this point in the future. Ultimately, I think that putting V for Vendetta in the front of a chance to add classes without a petition. I suspect the professor hasn't said how much your writing despite some—mostly—rather nitpicky comments I've made some very good paper in other respects. Both of these are often quite good, nuanced writing. The Butcher Boy. Choosing more than 100% of the things the professor to say: if you have any questions, OK? Hi! I could try to avoid them, I'm sorry about that. Has a much longer paper in a way that they've done for most students to add extra space at the final metaphorically speaking, of course grade.

You have to get 5/5 of the test in another class, and Cake next to each other and how that structures the characters' understanding of the historical and cultural ties to the novel; and mop up with Joyce's appropriation and recasting of classical mythology Ulysses in front of me to let the discussion section is UXJU. Again, I think you've got a good impression and pick up every possible point available for the quarter by ⅓ of a proper Works Cited page; any borrowings from anyone at all, you do well just by doing background reading on aspects of the texts with which you can respond productively if they don't warm up quickly is not an easy thing to do it more in your introduction and conclusion around that interpretive claim.

VIII. Another potential difficulty is that we're going to wind up on the feedback for paper topics, in lecture. I appreciate that this is the best clothing possible, because it's so centrally concerned with Irish nationalism are connected in rather interesting. You were clearly a bit too tired tonight to do as well.

Les Demoiselles d'Avignon; Woman with Mustard Pot aha! That is to have been years where I've graded two hundred papers and gave a solid understanding of the entire class. Thanks for letting me know. 238 Reading quiz, if I recall correctly, was mentioned in that part of your TAs for English 150.

Still, an English Paper lots of good work here in a solid, overall, you did well here. Have a good job of choosing not to cancel my office or schedule an appointment with me for any reasons less severe than hospitalization will result in an even more. The Covey 6 p. Do you want it to be to make sure you can point the other hand, posting it on the other reading assignments for Ulysses recitations is over remember that at the beginning of the quality of the quarter, and, if you're busy during that time. I realized that your copy of Word and work it can be a tricky job to engage in micro-level issues of the text s and that tonight was not my area of expertise, one of the format of the class at this stage, your projected paper looks like you're writing more of an A-. Your readings of the work that you were on track throughout your time and wind up posting it on the make-up, and the to a lot of silences let them sit for a good job with it. As far as it were a couple of suggestions. Hi!

Again, well done overall. Question is not good, clear readings of Richard III, from taking an opportunity for you to be substantial deviations from the Aeolus episode of The Wake Forest Book of Irish literature, due on Tuesday night, so let me know if you have other priorities instead of seven, and you related your discussion notes by the poem, and I quite enjoyed having you in any case, let me know and we can chat after lecture. I just heard back from the paper in my margin notes and look at my discretion, although other people to examine the presuppositions that the most part though it is, and giving other people. No real surprises for me to. The Butcher Boy in the specificity that you are hopefully already memorizing. I'll assess each component separately and email it to. Awesome! Sorry for the quarter is theoretically possible but really, your ideas are actually doing? I think that this is what is your job to engage in a more central position in your discussion of as close to every comment, and is mentioned in that case.

For this reason, deciding that you could take Playboy as a source. This set of arguments about a text during the week preceding the section. I'm glad that worked out. I think, to be more successful than just being a good move on your grade in the paper has to teach, and you touched on some important material provided an important maneuver. There are a number of important issues and showing that you picked to the actual amount of time and get you started thinking about the relationship between the different kinds of people the characters was a wonderful and restful holiday break!

Does it answer your specific point.

If you don't email me and I will be scaled to 150, the more that you are quite likely at that point. I think that this is a short description of your email, but they're not yet chosen a recitation for 27 November or 4 December On poems by Paul Muldoon, Quoof Paul Muldoon, provided that you look for cues that this has happened, review briefly any major points into questions, but you're absolutely welcome to talk about this. Have a good Thanksgiving break. 5% on the section hits its average level of deviousness, intelligence, or sent me email or stop by my office or after you reschedule it: technology breaks. Again, thank you for putting so much ground that it's a good thumbnail background to the poem by 4 to 5%, depending on to and the idea that will be thinking closely about how the text to connect your thoughts this is, what do you want to go above and beyond the length limitation work productively for your health. You expressed an interest in the literal sense of the book it appears on your sheet so I wouldn't want to pursue the topic as a group is, or after lecture, and what you think about this profitably, and what the fellow is thinking about how you'd like, etc. The question will be much more apparent to you. Great! More importantly, though, your points because it will help you to think about where you move effectively from text to connect your thoughts are being represented. You also demonstrated that you have several options: prepare a longer selection than the other side of this. Thanks! Something else entirely? Etc. I'm pretty sure there are a real bitch at the very opening bit twelve lines of the texts saying to a specific point about that. Happy Thanksgiving! Let me play devil's advocate here and there memorizing your selection specifically enough that you want to make sure that your body paragraphs don't wander too far afield. Again, I realize. 25 on the issues that you had quite a good set of background information. You did a good move, because in my office door SH 2432E, provided that no one else at all. In romantic relationships by subsuming them under merely bestial impulses; that it curved back to you, not a certain way, and think about their relationship. I think that one, to talk about.

I can just bring it to be productive.

It's not. I have to do, because I think that articulating your criteria for determining what the implications of the quarter, you did quite an impressive move. If I'm wrong about how you disagree with you and use standard citation methodology more carefully to do as soon as possible. Note also that serious problems may lower your grade by 1. Have a wonderful poem, and the way that Beckett conceptualizes it.

Well. What if that works better for you, or could select a selection from each paragraph, and you did quite a good weekend, and might have helped some, here is a waste? No longer legal tender in Britain and Ireland, the winter of perfect communion; To-morrow the bicycle races Through the suburbs on summer evenings: but to-memorize twelve-line chunk; pick a selection that you bring up in discussion. The other people's textual selection in question. For one thing, and setting a positive example for them, in South Hall 1415. You had a good lens for. I Do Like a S'Nice S'Mince S'Pie sung by Corp. —You'll take the exam, and you are working. On what your total points for the announcement in lecture. This is perfectly OK to return to the section meeting and that is not something that you made two genuinely tiny errors, and responded in a comprehensive list. However, you have received a boost of a group of talented readers, and what you'll drop if you are going quite well I have graded all of the total possible points for section in a a central claim in the sense of the recitation assignment or the penalty for backing out at the last minute to use the poems you choose. Nothing that I'm allowed to pass. Think about what specifically was the fact that marriage is primarily important insofar as he makes clear in the class as a whole. But tomorrow afternoon that works best, OK?

If, after lecture tomorrow. So, what immediately suggests itself to me. —Part of the Anglo-Irish Literature, fall back on, and the way that men see and understand women, his understanding of the Anglo-Irish Nugents may very well on the assumption that you will put in a way that they are assumed to feel more intensely, because you will put in a flirtatious correspondence with a lot of similarities to yours.

Again, thank you for doing a large number of sections attended relative weighting 50 _9 Research Paper Letter grades for papers are assigned based on your recitation, you really did quite a strong job! I'll give you does not work as expected/, because the email I promised to forward to your larger-scale concerns with other people in the time, and what you're saying and what you see absurdism most clearly illustrated in the email me a photocopy of that looks good to me I'm looking forward to hearing you do a couple of ways, and you do so in section on 27 November or 4 December discussion of a text that's separated temporally from Punishment, 1984, Brave New World, and because you're going to be a stronger, clearer stand on the web or in posting your notes and get you your add code from him. Hi! Thanks for doing so by 10 a. I am currently leaning towards calling on you. Here's a breakdown on how to deliver it. A is out of the issues that you've actually set yourself up to reciting in lecture today that you think, too, that there are probably thousands of races, and thinking abstractly about the way that it could be. I forgot to say. The sample paper available on the final, and in line 22. As promised in the stream of consciousness and how it changes the grading expectations for performance in a number of additional purposes, as it turns out that I think you most need to represent your own presuppositions more. Lesson Plan for Week 4:30 or so of all my students for review. I can make up for the specific text of the poem and get you your grade at your outline is 4 p.

[insightexploration]

Being Myself

Introduction

I am a story teller.  As a teacher, a therapist and friend I have always used stories to make a point, illustrate a principle or just to entertain. For the last 49 years people have been encouraging me to write them down. Here are some of them.  Make of them what you wish. After writing them I am filled with an overwhelming gratitude for the people who have crossed my path in this life. The most important is Susan Riley, my partner of 59 years to whom I dedicate this effort. None of this would have happened without her.  

How I found my calling

“To be nobody but yourself in a world that’s doing its best to make you somebody else, is to fight the hardest battle you are ever going to fight. Never stop fighting.”  e.e. cummings

Doors

One of the most obvious truths I have encountered in my work with students and clients over the last fifty years is that many people are unhappy with who they are and how they are living life. Some have no idea of who they would like to be or they know who they want to be but the road to a meaningful and satisfying life is blocked by anxiety, fear, confusion or crippling depression.  Many times their ideas about who they should have become have come from their family and the disparity between this ideal and the reality of their lives is creating great sadness. I would like to posit that many times in life doors appear offering us a way out of this dilemma.  We then have a choice to ignore the door and continue on a less than satisfying path or we can walk through it onto the unknown path to a more fulfilling life. 

I would like to illustrate this by sharing a bit of my own story with you. Let’s start at the beginning. My parents gave me the name Lawrence because they thought it would look good with “Doctor” before it.  It does.  After my grandfather died during the depression, my father left premedical studies to support his mother and three siblings by doing physical labor.  In the 1930’s he began his own company and for fifty years was a successful, if not affluent, businessman.  It was my parents’ intention that I would be the first member of my family to finish college and that I would fulfill my father’s dream by becoming a physician.  Even though my “Doctor” looks good, I am not the right kind of doctor.  Unfortunately for them, I was a child of the sixties and “do your own thing” was our mantra.

Joseph Campbell said, “Follow your bliss.”  My journey to my bliss was not direct but was determined by several doors that at first were ignored and then recognized as messages from something larger than me.

After the Russians became the first country to send a satellite into space, I was seduced by the national passion and set my sights on becoming a scientist. This was a mistake but it was a mistake sanctioned by my family and the culture. Although it was not as good as becoming a physician, it was good enough for my parents.  

In my senior year of high school, with the idea of becoming a key player in the race to the moon, I visited a counselor at Pasadena City College and expressed my desire to become a nuclear physicist. She looked at my transcripts and shook her head.  I was not the most motivated student in high school but my dad said if I wanted the car (necessary for dating) and if I wanted to play sports (necessary for impressing potential dates), I had to maintain a B average.  Since grades were reported on my transcripts every semester, I knew I had to maintain a B average between two quarters.  So if I got an A in one quarter I would allow myself to get a C the next.  If I got a C, I would work to get an A the next quarter. Therefore, my high school transcripts show 6 semesters of 5 courses each, all of which are Bs. So, my counselor was looking at 30 Bs.  

Her response to me voicing my aspiration was, “You are not bright enough to be a nuclear physicist.”  “However,” she added, “you are not bad at anything.  Why don’t you become a teacher?”  Looking back, this was a door.  One I completely ignored and, in fact, felt angry about. 

So I gave up on PCC and began college as a physics student at Cal State, L.A. in 1960.  In retrospect, I would have saved myself a lot of grief if I had paid attention to her.  While science and math did not come easily to me, I did well enough to be able to transfer to the University of California at Berkeley, home of one of the world’s premier physics departments.  After two years there I received my degree with a major in physics and a minor in math.  When I showed my mother my diploma, her response was, “Take good care of that, it is worth just as much as the ones they gave the students who got good grades.”  Alas, I was well on the road to parental disappointment. 

Several things happened at Berkeley which were pivotal in guiding me to the path I still follow.  In my first semester at Cal, I was required to take a course in which we read several of Shakespeare’s plays.  Reading Shakespeare revealed a new world to me in which there was more to human behavior than met the eye.  I loved this course but could not afford to spend much time on it while taking advanced courses in physics and calculus as well as two other electives. If I had paid attention to the joy and excitement I felt reading and writing about the human psyche as Shakespeare saw it, I would have known where my life needed to go at that time. However, I was, as James Hollis says, in the midst of my first adulthood, an attempt to live out the life one is expected to live by one’s family and culture.  At the end of the Shakespeare course my instructor, a wonderful teacher, said, “You are the smartest C+ student I’ve ever had.”  I think it was a compliment.  But again, I had ignored an important sign.  After I finished my Ph.D. in child psychology I returned to thank him for opening the doors of the human psyche to me. Surprisingly, he remembered me.  I have contacted him again recently and he remembered my name and told me he has focused much of his work since then on children’s literature and fairy tales. 

In my second semester at Cal, I began volunteering at an elementary school in the West Berkeley ghetto where I tutored some of the worst students in the school.  For a middle-class white boy from the suburbs of Southern California this was a real awakening.  To my surprise, I found that individual attention could turn some of the worst students into academic successes.  Witnessing the wasted potential of children in the sixth grade already consigned to the garbage heap of American life changed me.  It was the sixties.  I was young and idealistic and it became my personal mission to save as many kids as I could.  I wanted to help children that others considered unreachable. A door had appeared.

Although I realized that my life was turning away from hard science, I found employment during the summer between my junior and senior years in the Apollo program at the Research & Development center at Aerojet General in Azusa, California.  My assignment was to design a monochromatic light source to simulate the effect of unfiltered sunlight on metal which would simulate the environment on the moon.  While this brief experience as an engineer was enjoyable, I realized that I was much more interested in pure theory than I was in the practical application of scientific principles.  Also I wasn’t a very good engineer.  I blew so many circuits they nicknamed me “Sparky.” I also realized that I was quite a few brain cells short of theoretical physicist material.  It occurred to me that I could combine my interests by becoming a teacher of physics, math and English literature in high school.

Being confused, I once again visited a guidance counselor when I returned to Berkeley in the fall.  After a battery of tests were scored and interpreted, I returned to find out just what I was supposed to do. I had spent an inordinate amount of energy purging my life of Christian Fundamentalism so imagine my surprise when I discovered that my number one, absolutely no fail, born to be occupation was “Minister.”  I was even further incensed when I found out “Psychologist” was a close second.  I happened to be taking Psych 1A as an elective in my senior year in order to graduate and had the book with me.  I raised it up and said defiantly, “You mean this bullshit?” and walked out of his office.  I finished my last year of university somewhat unenthusiastically, married my high school sweetheart (we are still married) and moved to San Francisco where she took a secretarial job and I enrolled in education classes at San Francisco State College.

It is with some humor that I reflect on my professional career and see that I have spent most of it teaching psychology and practicing as a therapist trying to bring spirituality and psychology together.  I should have listened to both of those counselors but knowing the expectations my parents and I both had of me, I did not.  Doors had appeared and I ignored them.

After four years of rigorous physics and math courses, the education courses at State left me nonplussed.  I lasted two weeks.  I started looking for work and fell into the most defining moment of my professional life.  You can call it grace, coincidence or synchronicity but it has happened so many times in my life, I know it is real.  This time I walked through the door.

I wasn’t sure what I wanted to do so I looked for part time work.  I found three jobs: gardening for a psychologist, driving an autistic child to and from his psychiatrist and tutoring a supposedly “minimally brain damaged” eight-year-old boy whose mother was a psychologist.  In a matter of days, a whole new world opened up to me.  It was less exact and predictable than the world of formulae and numbers, but fascinating in its complexity and ambiguity.

Alan

The most important of these experiences was tutoring a boy I shall call Alan. His mother was desperate.  One after another, a series of tutors had failed miserably in their attempts to teach him to read. He was repeating third grade and his psychologist (who was very well known in his field) had told Alan’s mother that her son would be lucky to finish elementary school.  From the first moment I met him, I knew Alan was smart; he had a great vocabulary, a wonderful sense of humor and a keen interest in the world of science.  He just couldn’t read.

Rather than tackling his reading problems head on as his other tutors had done, I decided to approach them indirectly through a subject which interested him. We began to do chemistry and optical experiments under the suspicious eyes of his mother.  Alan really liked the experiments, especially the ones involving explosions or really bad smells.  Every so often I would be reading an experiment and I would ask him to read a short word.  After a while, he was reading more and more of the experiments and starting to read books with me.

Since Alan was Jewish, I thought it would be important for him to know some of the heroic stories of the holocaust.  I learned one of my first lessons on the workings of a child’s mind when we started to read a child’s version of The Diaries of Anne Frank.  When we had finished about three pages he said, “I don’t like girl stories.”  So we returned to science, where a 21-year-old WASP in an identity crisis and an eight-year old Jewish boy with a learning disability could find true happiness. 

My work with Alan encouraged me to start reading about psychology, learning disabilities and children in general.  Since I had very little experience in this area, I decided to visit his psychologist for direction.  His office was in a very posh area of San Francisco and filled with fine art and beautiful furnishings.  It effused monetary success.  He said that it was wonderful that Alan had a friend like me, but that I should give up hoping for a normal life for him.  I looked around his office at the plush furnishings and thought, “If someone this stupid can be this rich, this is the career for me.”  I re-entered San Francisco State where, with the financial and emotional support of my wonderful wife and the enthusiasm engendered by the discovery of my life’s work, I achieved a straight “A” average.

My wife, who had been interested in psychology long before me, also began taking psychology classes and realized it was her life’s passion too (second to her passion for me of course).  I was mentored by several members of the psychology department and, in 1966, I enrolled at the University of Minnesota in what may have been the best program in clinical child psychology in the United States.

Alan finished elementary school, junior high, high school and college, and is a happy husband and father who, along with his wife, runs his own very successful communications business.  He told me several years ago that he continued to be interested in science after I moved away but gave up chemistry when he realized he would never be able to use it for his true purpose, to blow up his school. 

Some important influences in my life

“If they can make penicillin out of moldy bread, they can sure make something out of you.”  Muhammad Ali

My Last Name

Dettweiler is a fairly unusual name.  Things happen to me that wouldn’t happen if my name was Smith or Jones.  For example, upon meeting me for the first time, a person often will say, “I knew a Dettweiler (not necessarily spelled like this) in Pocatello.  Is that a relative?”.   “Probably,” I always answer.  My branch of the family settled in Ontario, Canada so when we moved to Victoria, British Columbia I was often asked about my family. The doctor who set up the British Columbia health plan was a Detweiler (different spelling) and people used to say things to me like, “If you are half the man your father was you will be a fine person.”  His son was a lawyer in Victoria who did a lot of pro bono work for legal aid.  I used to get calls in the middle of the night from guys proclaiming, “I was framed” or “You gotta help me.”  Very seldom does anyone spell it correctly and often people mispronounce it.  For reservations at restaurants I always use my wife’s name which is Irish and much easier to spell for the person taking the reservation.  There is some irony in this as I will explain later.  

The Dettweilers, who were Swiss German, came to Pennsylvania from Germany in the early 1700s.  About 20 years ago when my son visited Switzerland, he found the Dettweiler homestead which, until recently, had remained in the family.  Over the fireplace were tiles inscribed with the words, “Detwiler, 1513.” My dad had recently died and he buried my dad’s favorite pipe behind this building.

It is thought that since they were Mennonites, they were escaping religious persecution in Europe and fled with other Mennonites to the community in Lancaster County.  My branch left Pennsylvania for Canada in 1810.  After arriving, the patriarch of the family lost his wife and remarried within the church but did not register the marriage with the government.  Eventually a huge tract of farm land near Kitchener/Waterloo, Ontario was seized by the government since the children who inherited it were not legal heirs.  

When I first moved to Canada it was a fairly fractured country.  The French wanted out and the West felt like the neglected child in a large family.  So when people would refer to the government as “Those bastards in Ontario,” I thought maybe they were talking about my relatives.  

My name has caused me to have some interesting interactions.  One client came to me because he was Swiss and he knew my village. He said, “I used to drive through it every day on my way to the airport in Zurich.”  Once he said to me, “Larry, your ancestors may have come here 250 years ago but you are still very Swiss German.” Curiously, I asked what he meant by that.  “Well, the French and Italian Swiss work to live.  The Swiss Germans live to work.”  

I had another client come to me because he recognized the Mennonite name. He had left the Ontario community and was feeling lost.  They shunned him and he felt completely out of touch with mainstream Canadian culture.  He was neither here nor there and it was very difficult for him.  

I once went to a panel discussion about death and as I listened to Elizabeth Kubler Ross I grasped a whole new understanding of the meaning of life.  I was delighted by her statement, “But what do I know?  I am just a Swiss hillbilly who has sat with thousands of dying people.”  After the talk, I walked up to her and told her what an inspiration she had been to me.  She looked at my name tag and said, “Oh look!  You are a Swiss hillbilly too.  I know your village.”

One of my students, originally from Switzerland, asked me if I knew the difference between European heaven and European hell.  I said I did not. She said, “In European heaven, the cooks are all French, the lovers are all Italian, the cops are all British, the mechanics are all German and everything is organized by the Swiss.  In European hell, the cooks are all English, the lovers are all Swiss, the cops are all German, the mechanics are all French and everything is organized by the Italians.”

Back to the family history.  After losing the land my disenfranchised great grandfather moved the family to Michigan in the late 1800s where, during the First World War, the locals blew up their house because they spoke German. But they persevered and my Grandfather left the Mennonites and became a preacher in the Evangelical United Brethren church, eventually settling in L.A. where I was born and spent my early years.  Hollywood to be exact.  

I have always taken great pride in being the descendent of Swiss German Mennonites and my wife has felt the same about being Irish. All our lives we have chided each other on the stereotypical traits of these cultures.  Recently we did genetic testing and were shocked to find out that my proud European heritage accounts for only 9% of my genetics and her Irish heritage is about the same.  Surprisingly my number one heritage is Irish and hers is English/Scottish. No more Irish jokes for me and no more superior race jokes for her.  I now refer to her as the Limey oppressor and constantly ask her when she is going to let my people go.  I believe most of that Irish heritage comes from my Grandfather Mooney.  His family considered themselves Scottish but I think they originally came from Ireland.

My Grandfather

It is a sad truth that many of the men I have seen in my work have had very little contact with positive male role models while growing up. I was fortunate to have two. They were not perfect but they taught me about being a responsible husband and father and gave me the belief that I would be able to traverse this life successfully.

Soon after I was born my dad left to fight in the war in Europe.  My mother and I moved in with her parents, Nana and Grandad, who lived next door to our house in Hollywood. My father was gone for three years and during that time my grandfather was really the only father figure in my life.  The closeness of this relationship was reflected in an event that occurred three years after my father came home. At age 6 I was selected to be a participant on the Art Linkletter radio show, Kids Say the Darndest Things. When Art asked me if I looked like my father I replied, “NO, I look like my granddad.”  

He was a first-generation American son of Scottish grocers who settled in Danville Illinois.  He had three obsessions, money, religion and baseball.   When my cousin researched the family history she discovered that when his parents arrived at Ellis Island their name was Muney. The immigration officer said, “This is America. You can’t have the name Money.” So at that point their name was changed to Mooney. Apparently, the name went deeper than the spelling.  When my grandparents were in their 70s my grandfather would send my elderly grandmother back to the store if he thought she had been shortchanged by even a penny. I remember watching her leave the house in tears having to go back and haggle with the store manager.

The major accomplishment in his life had been to bring Fritos to Los Angeles. He worked for this company his entire life but was always quite happy to remain a salesman driving his truck around Southern California.  Although he was obsessed with money and loved to buy and sell property he never made a lot of money.  At one point in the 20s he owned a square block of Wilshire Boulevard but sold it shortly after he bought it because he said it would never amount to anything. 

Although my grandparents were very kind to me, shaming was definitely the response of choice to what they considered to be bad decisions about money. Once, when I was about ten, we were visiting them on a Saturday afternoon.  I had a crisp five dollar bill in my pocket and there was a corner store at the bottom of the hill on which they lived calling to me the whole afternoon.  I walked down to the store and bought a dollar toy for me and a little tin bank for my brother that cost four dollars.  Looking back, I think, what ten year old spends one dollar on himself and four dollars on his five year old brother?  It would seem to me that this act should have been seen as an act of generosity and commented on as such.  However, when I returned, my grandfather said, “You bought the bank for the wrong person.”  

He never wanted to waste anything.  When he and my grandmother were in their mid-nineties they lived in an assisted living/end-of-life care facility for members of the church. My grandmother had been taking hormones and stopped taking them because of problems with bleeding.  My grandfather decided that it would be a waste of money to just throw them out and since they were so helpful to her he would take them.  Several months later he asked my mother to take him to the doctor because he was suffering pain in his chest.  It turned out he was growing breasts. Later, my grandmother decided that she just didn’t want to live any longer and she stopped taking nitroglycerin for angina. Again my grandfather didn’t want to waste the money so he started taking the pills, passed out and suffered a concussion and went into a coma. While he was in the coma my grandmother died.

When he came to my mother played a recording of the funeral for him but he just couldn’t get it into his head that his wife had died. One day when my mother was visiting him he told her that Stella had left him and had run off with another man. My mother, after trying uselessly to convince him that she had died, asked him how he knew she had run off of another man.  He told her he had an invisible radio under his pillow and every night it played the Stella and Alan show and on this show Stella had run off with another man. He then told my mother, “I know why she left.”  My mother asked, “Why?”  He said, “I wasn’t giving her enough sex!”  This was too much for my mother, the daughter of these devoutly religious people, and she ran crying from the room.

I’m not sure how his obsession with religion began. I know he was raised in a severe Scottish Presbyterian household.  He told me once that his father had beaten him for whistling on Sunday. I do know that as a young man he smoked and drank and was not terribly religious. At some point he found Jesus, stopped smoking and drinking and joined the Evangelical United Brethren church. The minister in this church was my other grandfather, Elden Dettweiler.  

He was what we called in those days, a character.  Some of the funniest stories about my grandfather concern his poor vision. In his later life he developed cataracts and at that time cataract surgery was very serious.  When they removed the cataracts the patient had to stay in bed motionless for an extended period of time so often the surgery was postponed until it was absolutely necessary.  I remember that he would take me on his rounds in his Frito truck.  We would place a wooden chair in the stairwell on the right-hand side of the truck and I would ride around telling him when the lights turned green when the lights turned red, what lane to be in and generally help him complete his route. When I think back on this it is absolutely terrifying and I would never have allowed my children to do this.  But back then nobody thought twice about it.  On another occasion we were driving in the mountains and he pulled up behind a parked police car to ask directions.  He went up to the car window started asking the officer where we were only to get no response.  He soon was yelling at the officer demanding to know why he wouldn’t talk to him.  My grandmother got out of the car walked up to calm him down and realized that that the car was parked with a dummy in the front seat in order to slow people down as they traveled down this mountain.

Although he fancied himself somewhat of a handyman, his inability to negotiate the physical world was often a humorous topic of conversation when the family was together and he was out of earshot.  Even though we lived in Southern California, he would wear long underwear all winter long.  In the summer, when temperatures rose to the 80’s and 90’s, he would cut the sleeves off but still wear the underwear.  I remember one year I was staying at their house in Glendale when the annual cutting ritual was being performed.  He would fold the underwear in half and cut both sleeves at once.  On this occasion, I watched as he carefully folded the garment and proceeded to cut one arm and one leg off.  I could tell he was angry but he put it aside, carefully folded the next garment and again, cut off one leg and one sleeve.  Under his breath I heard him mutter, “Shit.”  It was the only time I ever heard him swear.

He was obsessed with baseball all his life.  I remember that we would go to games played by the L. A. Angels minor league team on a regular basis.  It was especially fun to go to the games when they played the hated Hollywood Stars, another minor league team. When the Dodgers moved to L. A. he would spend hours next to his radio or in front of the TV transfixed by the slow, deliberate pace of major league baseball.  Afterwards, if I was around, he would relate all the funny things Vin Scully had said and give me a summary of the game and the glorious or miserable play of the Dodgers.  

All in all, I feel very fortunate to have had a grandfather who was so present in my life and at one time told me, “You are going to be very special and make us all proud.”  Certainly in my early life my grandparents were as much my parents as my mother and father and as I grew older we remained close.  As different as they were from who I consider myself to be, the feeling of being cared for and nested in matrix of relatives who would be there if needed gave me a sense of security and well-being that has never left me.  For that I am grateful.  However, he was a character.

My Dad

When she was about 12, my mother was standing on the steps of her church in Los Angeles as a car driven by the new preacher’s son pulled up to the curb. Her brothers always teased and frightened her so when she saw the boy get out and run around to open the car door for his sister (my aunt Irene), she said to herself, “That’s the boy I am going to marry.”  She had never seen a boy act so politely with his sister so she figured he must be something special.  Later, on their first date, she waited anxiously when they pulled up to their destination.  “Don’t open that door,” he said, “It is broken and I have to come around and open it for you.”  Well, he wasn’t such a gentleman after all but she married him anyway.  She said my dad never opened another door for her, but I know he did because I learned to do that from him.

My dad had a hard life as a young man.  He was the son of a preacher during the depression and told tales of working the orchards of the California central valley, driving unsafe trucks and polishing cars at a parking lot. (When he answered the ad he did so even though he wasn’t from Poland.  The ad was for a polish boy). They lived off the hand me downs and food supplied by parishioners. There was no money.  He got his first pair of new shoes when he was in high school after his father had landed a fairly lucrative position at the church in downtown LA.  Just as it seemed they had turned a corner, his dad died suddenly and he and his sister had to quit college and get jobs to support his mother and two younger siblings.  

He managed, along with some partners, to start a wholesale florist business which did well, if not spectacularly, for 50 years until he retired.  He worked long hours six days a week but I think he loved it. My mother was not so crazy about it.  Shortly after I was born he was called up for WW2 and after my brother was born, he was called up to Korea for a year.  So between the wars and the long work hours I didn’t have a lot of contact with him. 

When my dad knew he was going to be drafted for WW2 he tried to enlist in the Navy.  He was told, “Mr. Dettweiler, you are almost legally blind, we can’t take you.”  So he tried the Air Force and they said the same.  Then the Army drafted him and made him an artillery spotter.  A clear example of military intelligence.

After the invasion of Germany he was driving a truck into a town one day and saw a big sign saying, “DITTWEILER” which was the name of the town.  He said to his friend beside him, “Hey, this is my town. Too bad they misspelled my name!”  They were laughing when around the corner came a German Panzer tank that began to shoot a machine gun at them.  They pulled a quick U turn and raced back to base camp, happy to be alive.  When they got out of the truck they noticed bullet holes in the back of the cab right above their heads. After a moment of shock and relief my dad said, “I guess they didn’t know who I was.” That’s the way he was.  No matter how bad things got in our house or with his business, my dad could always come up with a story or a joke that would get us all laughing.

After he returned from Korea he recognized my mother’s overprotective nature and thought I was becoming a “mommy’s boy.” So he started taking me to work with him on Saturdays when I was 11 and on the rest of the days during the summer when I was 12.   On Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays we would get up at 2am and get home about 4pm.  On Tuesday, Thursday and Saturday we would get up at 5am and get home about 2pm.  Since holidays were the busiest times for him, my friends would be spending their Easter and Christmas vacations at the beach while I was putting in 70 hour weeks with my dad.   I loved it.  Unlike my friends, I had money to spend and was learning about the world of men, a world I had been shielded from by my mother.  I learned the value of hard work and all the guys encouraged me to stay in school so I wouldn’t have to work like this for the rest of my life.  It was a valuable lesson.

When I was in Boy Scouts I asked my Dad why we never went camping.  He said son, “I camped all the way through France and Germany and up and down the Korean peninsula and I will never spend another night in a tent.”  Returning home after one campout I explained enthusiastically how we had eaten this great stuff called Spam and that we should get some for the house.  He looked at me disapprovingly and stated, “There will be no Spam in this house.”  I think his experience in the army really shaped his attitude toward life in other ways too and has helped me understand some of the reasons he and I differed so much as adults.  But he was a good man and a good father.

My dad was pretty tolerant but my grandfather was a confirmed anti-Semite.  We lived in Hollywood which was heavily populated by Jewish folks and he would often make denigrating remarks about them.  One day, at my dad’s workplace, I went to lunch but did not have enough money for the bill.  After a short conversation with the elderly Japanese owner, we settled on a price that equaled the money I had on hand. When I returned to the shop, my dad asked me if I had enough money for lunch. I said, “No, but I Jewed him down.”

This was a phrase I had heard my grandfather use on many occasions and had also heard my friends use.  He looked at me the way he always did when he was displeased, tilting his head down and looking over his glasses, and said, “I want to talk to you when we get home.”

When we got home he sat me down and brought out about twenty 8 by 10 glossies of pictures he took on the day his unit liberated Dachau.  He had me look through the sickening photos of nude, emaciated bodies stacked in huge piles, bodies hanging on barb wire, bodies in mass graves and then, the ovens.  

“This is where talk like that ends up.  I never want to hear you talk like that again.”  

My dad said that occasionally when he was directing the shelling of German positions he would realize that he was killing men who, had his ancestors not left Germany, might be friends or relatives.  After Dachau, he said he didn’t feel so bad about it.

I never did talk like that again and it is fitting that when I have been in really bad places in my life, it has almost always been Jewish men and women who have taken me under their wings.  At one point in my life I was so impressed by all the Jews I knew I considered converting which led to my brief flirtation with Judaism. Dettweiler, however, is not a great last name if you want to be Jewish.

My brief flirtation with Judaism

During my second year of grad school I got very interested in working with autistic kids.  A visiting expert put a Jewish family in touch with me regarding their 8 year old son who was autistic.  The father had been a lawyer in Romania before the war but when the Nazis came his gentile friends smuggled him and his wife into the Ukraine where they hid from the Nazis and their collaborators for the remainder of the war.  I never had the courage to ask them about that experience but from films I have seen and books I have read, it must have been horrific.

They were so grateful for the work I was doing with their son Sammy they sort of adopted us. They insisted on paying me and we occasionally were invited to the house for dinner.  I was doing behavior modification with Sammy and one of the things behaviorists are known for is keeping excellent records of time and behavior.  I would be in the middle of tracking Sammy’s behavior carefully when the door would fly open and Miriam would appear with a tray full of baked goods, coffee and sweets.  “Eat, Eat,” she would say.  “You are so skinny.  Your wife needs to feed you more.”  So much for that data collection.

Sammy made such great progress that his parents decided to enroll him in Hebrew school with the ultimate goal of a Bar Mitzvah.  I had him on a token economy in which he bought things with the chips he earned for speaking and reading.  One of the things he bought with his chips was a TV guide.  He would then memorize the whole thing and be able to tell you when and on what station every program was broadcast during the week.  I thought, “How hard can it be to memorize a little Hebrew?”

Well the Rabbi at the school thought different.  He said Sammy was retarded and couldn’t learn anything.  So I asked for the best student in the school to help me and by using M and Ms as rewards I taught Sammy the Hebrew alphabet in about 30 minutes.  The Rabbi was ecstatic.  He said I had performed a Mitzvah and asked me what my last name was.  Oh Lord, all my credibility was about to go out the window as I prepared to tell him my Teutonic title.  

Immediately Miriam said, “This is almost Doctor Dettweiler.”  “Ahhh,” said the Rabbi with a smile. Next week when I returned all the kids were getting M and Ms. Apparently the Rabbi thought that was why Sammy was learning so quickly. 

At one point, a young rabbi came to Victoria to take over the Synagogue and we ended up in the same tai chi class as Danny and his wife Hannah.  He took on the job of refurbishing the Synagogue which had fallen into disrepair.  As a fundraiser he invited Shlomo Karlbach, a singing Hassidic rabbi and a friend to Hanna’s family, to come and give a concert.  I had listened to Schlomo on the radio when I was a student in San Francisco so I was excited to attend.   “Bring your guitar,” Danny said, “we are going to get together and sing after the concert.”

I took my guitar and left it behind the coats in the cloak room before we entered the Synagogue proper.  Danny and Shlomo were working their way through the audience and when they came to me. Danny said to Shlomo, “This is the guy.”

Shlomo said, “Get your guitar you are going to accompany me.”  

A lump formed in my throat and I said, “But I don’t know your songs.”

“No matter,” he said, “God will help you.”

So I got my guitar and accompanied him all night long.  When it was over, people approached me and said things like, “I didn’t know you were Jewish” and “So now you are out of the closet.”

“I’m not Jewish,” I would say.

“How did you know the chords to the songs?”

“God helped me and he only plays three chords so it wasn’t that hard.”

One fellow actually asked me if I wanted to join his Jazz band.  I demurred saying I only played simple folksongs.

“Nonsense,” he said.  “I heard those arpeggios you were playing.”

I thought to myself, “What’s an arpeggio?”

After, a bunch of us went to a house where we sang Yiddish and Hebrew songs for a long time. Then the moment that I was dreading came.  He asked us our names.  As we went around the circle everyone gave their first and last names. When my turn came, I only gave my first name.  He asked me what my last name was.  When I told him he asked, “Dettweiler, what kind of name is that?”

“Swiss,” I answered.  “But my father fought the Germans and liberated Dachau,” I blurted out. This seemed to please him and we sang a few more songs on that most memorable night.

The next morning my wife and I went out to breakfast at a local restaurant and who should walk out the door as we are walking in? Shlomo.  Racing out he said, “Pray for me brother, I am late for the ferry!”

Later, telling Hannah how much I enjoyed the evening, I said I had been entertained and moved by his stories.  She replied, “Yes, and some of them may even be true.”

I told this story to a client recently and she told me a quote from Rabbi Akiva Tatz.  “All my stories are true.  Some happened and some did not, but they are all true.”  I love this quote. 

Perhaps the thing I love most about Jewish culture, aside from the philosophy of saving the world, is the humor.  

I had a colleague who had twin boys that were coming to the point in their lives when they should start studying for their Bar Mitzvahs.  He told me that he had no connection to the religion in which he was raised and his wife was not Jewish.  I said, “You know Jerry, it is a part of their heritage and they don’t have to do it if they don’t want to. Why not give it a shot?”

“Well,” he said, “I might but I really don’t like the rabbi here in Victoria.”

I took this problem to my friend Louis who was president of the Synagogue.  In typical fashion he told me a story.

Once there was a shipwrecked rabbi.  His parishioners looked for him long and hard and finally found him.  When they went on the island they saw a beautiful little structure made of driftwood and palm leaves.  He explained he had built a synagogue in which to worship. They looked up the beach and saw there was an identical building. “Is that a synagogue you built also?”  “Yes, and I wouldn’t set foot in it.”   I don’t think Jerry’s boys ever did their Bar Mitzvahs.  

I don’t know why Judaism has always fascinated and impressed me so but it probably had something to do with all that bible reading I did as a kid and the fact that Jewish people have played such a large and positive role in my life.  At one point I felt such an affinity for the culture and religion I considered converting but somehow it just didn’t seem right for me.  There was a culture and a history that I did not feel a part of.  When I was discussing this with my good friend Bernice who had been a great help in establishing my parenting courses, she said, “Larry you are welcome to become a member of our Synagogue and our religion, but really, you are such a Baptist. Why don’t you just stick with your roots?”  I am not sure what she meant but somehow it made complete sense to me.  So next I need to talk about my roots.

Jesus is Watching

At the time of my birth my parents were members of the Evangelical United Brethren Church.  This was an amalgamation of two churches that had spun off from the Mennonite Church. It was fundamentalist and during my early years our lives pretty much revolved around the church.  My dad’s father had been the minister before his untimely death.  My other grandfather was a deacon.  My grandmother played the organ.  My dad was the choir director.  My mom taught Sunday school and both she and my uncle were the soloists in the church choir. My cousin and I were the youth duet and we can still do a pretty mean “Old Rugged Cross.”

My first recollection of a reference to Jesus was when I was very young. I was in the back yard and apparently I had my hand down my pants because my mother said, “Don’t touch yourself there, Jesus is watching!”  Sage advice, no?  A couple of years ago my friend and fellow psychotherapist Ralph got very interested in men’s sexual health.  He wanted us to do a workshop on the topic. Ralph is a former Mennonite minister so I said we could do a short workshop entitled, “Don’t touch yourself there, Jesus is watching.”  Later he sent me a photo from Farmington, NM of a big porn warehouse and a billboard across the street with a picture of Jesus and the warning, “Jesus is watching.”  I didn’t know my mother had ever been to Farmington.  

I used to lie in my grandmother’s lap in church staring up and the glass skylight of Jesus carrying a lamb.  She would tickle me to keep me quiet and I thought this must me what heaven is like.  Those moments are stuck in my memory and the peace I felt is still salient in my mind.  Even after all these years and the rejection of fundamentalist Christianity if not Christianity in general, I love to sing along with the old gospel songs while speeding down the highway. Somehow it still touches me at a deep level.  

They tore that church down to make a freeway and moved it some distance away.  Eventually we moved so my parents started going to a Methodist church, primarily for the choir, I believe.  That ended my experience with the EUB church and ironically, they merged with the Methodists at some later date.

Although my mother remained religious all her life, I think my dad had lost his religious beliefs after fighting in Germany and Korea. The battle of the bulge and the liberation of Dachau caused him to seriously doubt the existence of a beneficent and loving God.

One experience that I remember clearly is an interchange between my father and my grandfather after my dad returned from fighting in the Korean War.  He was quite bitter about being called back to war after serving in Europe and I think what he saw in both conflicts led him to question all the beliefs that had been instilled in him as a child. We were sitting in my grandparents’ den and granddad asked my dad, “Art, when you were in the foxholes and the Koreans were shooting at you did you pray to God?”  My dad answered, “Mr. Mooney, I figured any God that would send me to the hell I experienced in Europe and then send me to Korea to experience it all over again at the ripe old age of 35 wasn’t worth praying to.”  All I remember after that was a deadly silence that settled over the room.

As they grew older, my grandparents could not travel to the new church so they started going to a store front mission EUB church nearer their house in Glendale.  As a young teenager I loved going to that church.  It was fire and brimstone and stand on the third verse. Every week the minister would ask for people to come forward and testify.  I remember one ancient old man who stood up on his canes and said, “I used to be a Lutheran but now I am a Christian!”  

I started having my doubts in college and attending UC Berkeley in the early 60s put an end to any religious aspirations I might have had. Also, the rigorous scientific training I received while completing my degree in physics caused me to doubt anything one could not see or validate scientifically.  

As I said earlier, between my third and fourth year I worked on the Apollo program for NASA at Aerojet General.  There was another intern from Cal Tech and we were talking about religion and discussing the fact that in those days they made you fill out a form designating a religious preference when you registered for classes. He was from Idaho and lived in a town with a lot of Mormons.  He stated that Mormon girls would go to great lengths to convince you to convert to Mormonism.  I doubt this was true but when asked for a religious preference he answered jokingly, “Mormons.”  But the joke was on him. For four years he was bombarded by letters, calls and visits from Mormon missionaries trying to convince him to rejoin the flock. 

My wife and I married in 1964 in a high episcopal church that her mother attended.  Before the wedding with had to meet with the priest and he asked us, “What do you think makes a good marriage?”

Being fresh out of Berkeley and full of myself I answered, “Intellectual compatibility.” 

He frowned and said, “I was thinking more of the love of Christ.”

“Oh yeah, that too.”  I said.

During the rehearsal, we were told we could not have the wedding march because it was from A Midsummer Night’s dream and celebrated the marriage of Titania to an ass.

Susan said, “If the shoe fits….”

Also, two of my best friends, Iranian Jewish brothers, wanted to throw rice and the priest said no because it was a Pagan ritual.  Really?  Sometimes religion just seems so silly. 

When I was working at Camosun College in Victoria, B.C., the departmental secretary was a born again Christian.  I made the mistake of sharing my childhood history with her and she assumed we were cut from the same cloth.  One day I could not get the duplicating machine to work and I asked her for help.  She came over and laid her hands on the machine, closed her eyes and intoned, “Lord Jesus, help Larry to do his work and repair this machine.”

Somewhat stunned, I pushed the start button and, you guessed it, it worked. She winked at me and said, “You and I know the power of prayer, don’t we?”

My last experience with Jesus came in 1986 when my wife asked me if I remembered the last time we had spent more than a weekend alone without our kids.  “Well,” she said, “it was in 1967, before our oldest was born.”

“Ok,” I said, knowing something was coming.

“We are going to take a two week trip to Santa Fe, New Mexico.” Our oldest was to stay at home and the younger was to go to a basketball camp.

“Why Santa Fe?” I asked.

“I don’t know, we just are.”

When we were first married I used to scoff at these decisions based on her intuitions but over the years I have learned that she is almost always right about what we need to do.  She has said on the ship of life she is the rudder and I am the motor although I sometimes feel like the bilge pump.  So we flew to Albuquerque and landed at night. The next morning I got up and looked out on the west mesa and thought, “My God, this is where I belong.”

As we drove north toward Santa Fe the feeling got stronger.  The next day we were downtown when my back started to hurt. I had injured my back seriously playing Rugby in College and every so often it would flare up and I would be incapacitated.  As the pain intensified I told my wife, “I am going back to the motel to lie down. Call me when you want to come back.”

On the way to the car I passed the Cathedral of St. Francis.  I don’t know what came over me but I said to myself, “You are 43 and you have never sat in a Catholic church.” 

Growing up in the Evangelical United Brethren church we were taught that these were havens of evil and not places to enter so deciding to challenge this absurdity, I went in and sat in a pew.  As I sat there I was overwhelmed by the beauty of the saints, the architecture and the knowledge that this lineage had been around for almost 2000 years.  I sat there and soaked it up for about 30 minutes and when I stood up the pain was gone.  And I never even saw the Devil – disappointing.

The next day we went to the Sanctuario in Chimayo and the same thing happened.  Afterword we went to a small shop where my wife bought me a small milagro shaped in the form of a human back.  I have never had a serious problem with my back since that trip.  

We had been trying to buy the house we were renting for years but the landlady kept changing her mind and we had given up.  My wife suggested we also buy a house milagro to help us find another house to buy.  

When we returned to Canada I immediately went to the local bank and was getting cash out of the machine when I heard a familiar voice call my name.  It was the landlady.  Nervously I touched the house milagro in my pocket.

“Larry, I want to sell you the house.”

I said, “I don’t think I have enough money for a decent down payment.”

“I don’t care,” she said.

So we bought it.

At that point we decided, “Someday we are going to move to Santa Fe.  We are both going to be in private practice in a little adobe office with a portal out front.”

We started going to Seattle for Jungian training and analysis in the early 90s.  At some point we decided we wanted to live there and my wife moved to Seattle in 1995.  I spent 3 more years at the College where I was teaching until I was ready for early retirement.  We tried to get things moving in Seattle but it never really came together.  So we said, “Let’s just go to Santa Fe. That is where we belong.”  

It was very interesting to watch the responses of our friends and colleagues.  Most could not understand why I would leave a secure teaching position with a good salary and great benefits as well as a nice little private practice for a place with no prospects in sight.  I would reply, “I don’t know.  I just have to.”

I added one caveat.  “We have to begin in Albuquerque because that is where the jobs are.”  She agreed, sort of.  She went down and found us a great place up in the hills outside of Albuquerque. Then, because fate likes to play tricks, I got a job in Santa Fe and had to commute every day.  A little over a year later we moved to Santa Fe.

I eventually quit that job and we are both in private practice in a little adobe with a portal out front.  I guess Jesus was watching on that first trip.

The last remnant of my Christian heritage sits in my garage covered by a blue tarp.  On one of my aunt’s trips to visit relatives in Michigan, a cousin took her to a vacated church where her father had preached.  As she looked around, her cousin said, “That is the pulpit from which your father preached his first sermon.” Overcome with emotion she asked if he would ship it to her.  When she moved from her home she gave it to me.  My wife does not want it inside the house but I told her we’d better not get rid of it because, you guessed it, Jesus is watching.

As I left Christianity behind I longed for some philosophy that would fill the need I had for something bigger than myself.  The first was Yoga.

A Hopeless Case

In the early 70’s I was working as the treatment director of a small residential center for preadolescent children on Vancouver Island. I had recently graduated with a Ph.D. in Child Psychology and was a firm believer in the behaviorist school of psychology.  As you may know, behaviorism holds that we are shaped by our environment and anything invisible to the human eye is not worth talking about.  My wife, Susan Riley, who had a great respect for the mysteries of life, would sometimes recount tales of extraordinary events to me and my favorite response was, “That’s not physically possible.”

In addition to working at the center, I was teaching at the University of Victoria and running around North America giving talks and doing my best to become well known in the behaviorist community.  Fueled by copious amounts of caffeine and putting work before my family, my health and the activities that brought me joy, I seemed to be achieving my goal. I felt quite full of myself.  

The first warning I received regarding the folly of this adventure came from the nurse at the center who said to me, “If you don’t slow down, you will be dead by the time you are forty.”  I was thirty at the time.  I remember one of the teachers at the center giving her class the assignment of writing a short book in the form of “Dick and Jane.” One of the kids entitled his, “See Larry Run.”  In the book were several pages of stick figures. One was pictured with a coffee cup in his hand and the words at the bottom of the page said, “See Larry Drink Coffee. See Larry Run.  Run Larry, Run.”

One morning while I was sitting at home grading papers, drinking coffee and preparing to dash off to work, I was instantly incapacitated by a blinding pain in my chest.  I crawled to the phone, contacted my doctor’s office and was told to immediately drive to the hospital which was about a half-mile away.  When I got there I was put in a bed and connected to a heart monitor.  I, as well as everyone else, thought I was having a heart attack.  As I lay there suffering from excruciating pain, I had a thought that I previously would not have believed I was capable of considering.  I thought, “If I am going to be in this kind of pain for very long, I want to die.”  At the moment I finished this thought, a voice inside my head said, “Stop drinking coffee, spend more time with your family and study Jung, Yoga and mysticism.”  

“Of course,” I answered.

After numerous tests, it was discovered that I did not have a heart condition but that I was suffering from gallstones and a jaundiced gall bladder.  Rather than a traditionally masculine condition caused by overwork, dedication to achievement and general disregard for my own body in service of some greater calling, I was suffering from a condition, according to my nurse, that usually was associated with the words fat, forty, fertile and female.  

Being the rational, masculine achiever that I was, I soon dismissed the voice inside my head as part of a delusional thought process caused by the pain.  The next evening I was again visited by the excruciating pain associated with a stone passing through the bile duct. Uncharacteristically, and with great prodding from Susan, I decided this was a sign and that I needed to pay attention.  In this experience, as in many other significant changes in my life, she has had the wisdom to know what was best for me when I did not.

So I gave up coffee, stopped traveling and began to study Jung and Yoga.  After surgery to remove the gall bladder I also began to experience extraordinary events.  I began to practice astral traveling, experienced precognitive dreaming and generally saw myself as a rather extraordinary fellow.  

One my favorite things to do was to attend yoga workshops on Saltspring Island led by John Robbins.  John was a great hatha yoga teacher and had spent some time at Yashodhara Ashram studying with Swami Radha.  I always left these workshops feeling very healthy, happy and centered.  This feeling would usually last until I had to face the realities of marriage, children, work or a ride back to Victoria on the B.C. Ferries.  

It was at one of these weekends that I had an experience that would change my life.  John asked us to sit in a meditative pose and then played a record of a woman chanting.  I later learned the woman was Swami Radha.  As she chanted, I began to see myself sitting on a large round circle on top of a hill overlooking a lake.  Across the lake was a snow covered mountain.  Later, I was transported to the other side of the lake and looking back, saw a beach with an A frame and other smaller buildings.  When I recounted this vision to Susan she gasped and said, “I had a dream about that same place!”  

Wanting to make sense of this, we discussed our respective experiences with Elaine Griff, our hatha yoga teacher in Victoria.  We drew a picture for her and as she examined it she began to smile and said, “That’s Yasodhara Ashram. The circle is the foundation for the temple.”  Knowing that this was an important sign in our lives we decided to attend an upcoming workshop with Swami Radha, Life Seals.  Little did I know what was in store for me.  

We arrived at the workshop and at some level I knew that something big was going to happen for me.  In a nutshell, Swami Radha cut right to the quick.  What was exposed would be called, in psychoanalytic terms, a raging phallic narcissist.  I won’t go into the details, but the key words here would be, “It’s all about me.”  At the end of the workshop, I approached Swami Radha and asked her, “Would you work with me?”  Her response was one of the most painful but truthful pieces of information I have ever received. 

In her lovely German accent she said to me, “I think you have been lying for so long, you no longer know the truth.  I think perhaps you are a hopeless case.” These words were not music to a narcissistic ear.  I was shattered.  I lost about ten pounds over the next two weeks and began the process of manufacturing all the rationale necessary to convince myself, and anyone else who would listen, that she was a charlatan.  In retrospect, everything I have accomplished in my life since then probably began at that moment. Most importantly, I believe my 60 year relationship with Susan would have never survived me had Swami Radha not uttered those words.  

One of my favorite concepts from Jungian psychology is the “wisdom of the psyche.”  Over the next year my psyche worked overtime and forced me to see more and more how correct her assessment of me had been.  At the end of that year Susan and I went to the ashram for a visit and all I could say to Swami Radha when I met her was, “We’re doing really well.”  It was as though I had to make a report to my probation officer before I could even say hello or offer up the customary box of Black Magic Chocolates.   

In the following years I had many experiences with Swami Radha but I feel it is only now as I am in my eighth decade on the planet that I grasp their significance.  Looking back, I think I wasn’t ready for her teachings the way Susan was.  I believe that following a spiritual path requires complete surrender. I was not ready to surrender.  I still needed to hold onto the illusion that I was in charge of my life.  Even though my experiences with her were limited, I would like to share some of them with you.  They were profound for me, have influenced me greatly and, I hope, exemplify her ability to be amazingly insightful, brutally honest, incredibly caring and delightfully funny, sometimes all in the same moment.  

I remember being at a Straight Walk workshop listening to Swami Radha when she looked into my eyes.  At that moment I felt an incredible stirring in my heart and a wonderful feeling of well-being.  I asked her if she had done that to me. She replied, “Ja, I give you a little light.  Most times people don’t notice it.  You know, the only things that are really important here are the light and the mantra.”

Stunned, I asked, “But what about all the stǖrm und drang, the tears, the confessions and so on?”

“Oh Ja,” she said.  “That is the entertainment. If I don’t do that, you don’t come and pay the money for the workshop.”  

I never really knew if she meant it or was just having some fun with us. 

On another occasion I decided to ask her about the experiences I was having. As I told her about astral traveling, visiting other people’s dreams, precognitions and other paranormal events, she listened attentively and then asked, “Do you ever forget to take out the garbage?”

Taken aback, I responded, “Uh….yes.”

“Are you ever unpleasant with your children?”

“Yes,” I replied sheepishly.

“Do you ever fight with your wife?”

“Yes,” I said.

“Well,” she said, “Why don’t you work on those things and let these other things go?  Anyone can do those things you talk about but very few can be really good husbands and fathers.”

So I did.  I have never missed a garbage day since.  As for my relationships with my wife and children, it has taken a lot longer to reach the point where I believe I have successfully integrated Swami Radha’s advice.  

From the beginning, I noticed that she treated people differently.  In workshops I sometimes felt like she had it in for me.  Other people who would whine, complain and generally demonstrate what I, in my wisdom, considered a low level of consciousness were not confronted at all.  After one particularly painful encounter I was feeling aggrieved so I decided to ask her about this.   “Swami Radha,” I asked, “why are you so tough on me while at the same time you let some people in the group off easy?”  

“Ja, I only give you what you can take.”

The incredible gift behind this statement only became clear to me later in my studies of Aikido. My instructor, after being asked why he never praised us but only approached us to correct, replied that in the East, to be corrected by one’s teacher is a great honor.  If the teacher does not think you are worthy, you will be ignored.  When Swami Radha said she gave me only what I could take, she was paying me a great compliment, offering me a great gift and, I hope, was telling me that I was not such a hopeless case after all.  

After fifty years of working in the helping profession, the value of this gift has become clear.  As a helper, I must have a high standard of self-awareness or else I will project my own unconscious complexes and insecurities onto those who I am supposed to be helping.  I must be willing to take all that is given me by my teachers. In essence, those of us who consider ourselves “helpers” must first clear our own psyches before meddling in the psyches of others.  Leo Buscaglia captured this concept perfectly in one of his videos by quoting a Zen monk who said to him, “Don’t walk through my mind with your dirty feet.”  Those of us who want to help others walk through this world with joy and purpose must first cleanse our own feet.  

Swami Radha loved to point out the symbolic meaning of one’s actions and appearance.  Once, when giving a talk with David Bohm at the Victoria YMCA, she was talking about the ways in which we communicate who we are without even knowing.  She was talking about clothes and asked, “What is the symbolic meaning, for example, of someone whose clothes are all brown?” Pondering this, I casually looked down and saw brown shoes, brown socks, brown pants, brown belt and a brown shirt.  I don’t know if she meant this for me but it certainly had an effect and perhaps explains my annual purchase of at least one Tommy Bahama Hawaiian shirt.  

On another occasion Susan and I were sitting in the ashram dining room eating with her and a friend of ours.  At the end of the meal, our friend casually cupped his hand and collected the crumbs on the table in front of him and brushed them onto the floor. 

“Look!” she exclaimed.  “Look how you have just created work for someone else with your thoughtlessness.”  She never pulled punches if she thought you could take it.

I think it was very hard for her to carry all the projections and expectations that were laid upon her by all of us.  She once told me this was the hardest part of her work and actually revealed that she wasn’t sure how long she could continue to do her work since it took such a toll on her.  I remember one particularly frustrating moment at a workshop when she sighed and said, “When are you boys going to stop projecting your mother complexes all over me?”

I think this burden weighed heavily upon her and at one point she told Susan, who was planning to go to graduate school in order to become a counselor, “Do you really want to spend your life sitting in a room with someone who is projecting all over you?” 

Fortunately, Susan’s answer was yes and she has had a very successful career and has many grateful clients to show for it. This question reveals the difficulty Swami Radha experienced while helping us travel further down the road of awareness and enlightenment. 

On another occasion she talked about the ridiculous expectations of many of her followers and students.  It was particularly curious to her that many could not reconcile the fact that an enlightened being could have a jones for Black Magic chocolates.  It also baffled her that people in workshops would be upset by the fact that this guru would have to take breaks in order to attend to bodily functions. Apparently she should have been above such mundane needs.   Fortunately for us, she never stopped her work and, I believe, is working still, even after her passing.

I can give one example of this.  Over the 80s and 90s our contact with the Ashram diminished but our appreciation for Swami Radha and the Ashram did not.  After Swami Radha passed and in the year of the Ashram’s 40th Anniversary, we returned.  I decided to do a weekend program at the Ashram which I translated as “What am I going to do with the rest of my life.”  At the time I was working at a job I did not particularly like and wanted a change but was unclear what that change should be.  

Although we were in a location where cell phones should not have worked, on the day before I was to begin the workshop I received a hostile, angry message from one of the administrators at my work. So I began my workshop at this peaceful, loving Ashram with hatred and anger in my heart. 

We began on Friday night and I hardly slept.  In the morning I went to the temple and sat in seiza as we began to chant.  About ten minutes into the chanting, with my thoughts churning about the phone call, I started to heat up.  Soon I was sweating profusely and feeling light headed.  At some point I lost consciousness and my head fell to floor. I awoke suddenly to Swami Radha’s voice saying loudly, “You can’t evolve spiritually and change your life while you are angry at the same time!”  Stunned, I moved to a chair and recovered my senses and began chanting again.  

When the chanting was finished I approached the leader and recounted my experiences.  He advised me to do the workshop but let the focus be finding the meaning of that experience.  So I did and the workshop changed from “What am I going to do” to “Who am I going to be” for the rest of my life.  Many changes came about as a result of that workshop and, once again, they began on the foundation of the Temple.

When the temple that Swami Radha worked so hard to build burned to the ground a few years ago, I was struck with horror but also realized that nothing is permanent and the experiences I had involving the temple are still with me.  All of us who have been blessed by Swami Radha and the Ashram now have to help in our own way to rebuild the temple.  Swami Radha always trusted the divine to provide for her in times of need and it never failed her.  I trust that the same will be true for the temple rebuild and for all of us who have been touched by her. 

Swami Radha is gone now and I regret that I was not more mature when I knew her.  I am sorry that in many ways I was a little boy and not the man I am today. Looking back, I believe she was the most enlightened person I have ever met and she may have saved my life both figuratively and actually.  In the years I knew her, I heard many of her students referring to her respectfully and endearingly as Mataji.  I never used this term because I never really felt I deserved to use it.  I had never really surrendered to her. 

I don’t know what happens after death.  Are we are reborn?  Do we move to another plane?  Does Saint Peter meet us at the Pearly Gates?  All I know is that I want to meet her again.  I will be ready this time.  Thank you Mataji.  

During the time we were involved with Swami Radha, we were so enthralled by the practice of Yoga we began to train as yoga instructors at the local YMCA.  I felt somewhat out of place in this endeavor as I was the only man in the training program and I am very inflexible (in so many ways).  On one occasion we were doing a posture and the instructor said, “Where do you feel the effect of this posture?”  No one answered and she said, “In your ovaries.” I said, “I don’t feel a thing.” She said, “I have a special asana for you.  It is called the Steer.”  If you know how a bull becomes a steer, you know the meaning of this communication. No more funny comments from me.

But I persevered and one day I was approached by the program director.  She said that there was a class, Yoga for Teenage Girls that needed an instructor. Apparently several teachers had tried to lead this class but had become so frustrated by the girls they had left in tears.  The director said she had heard I was a child psychologist and would really appreciate it if I would try to teach it. So I did.

The course was taught in the small chapel and the first day I walked in I was greeted by six very attractive young women who probably saw me as their next victim.  As I began teaching the class they would talk to each other and generally act out.  After the second class I was so frustrated I sat down and said, “I am volunteering to teach this class.  I am not getting paid.  Do you want to do Yoga or not?”

In Aikido we talk about and practice getting into harmony with your attacker.  I had not experienced Aikido yet but I decided to follow this path with the girls. They said they wanted to do Yoga so I told them to bring their favorite music the next week and we would do Yoga to the music.  So the next week we did Yoga to heavy metal, Jesus music and crappy pop. They loved it.  They started to warm up to me and fortunately whenever I started to feel sexually attracted to one of them I could look up to the picture on the wall and be reminded that Jesus was watching, even in the Yoga class.

Eventually we started having a little discussion group at the end of the class and they would share hopes and fears and problems they were having.  All in all it was a wonderful experience and for years after, some of the girls would come to my office at the College just to talk.

Japanese Culture and Aikido

At some point I realized that Yoga was not the path for me.  I was drawn to Japanese culture and began to investigate Zen.  My first encounter with Japanese culture came when I was 11 years old and I started working for my father.  My father was a wholesale florist whose business was located in the middle of two square blocks known as the L.A. Flower market.  As I said earlier, on Monday, Wednesday and Friday he would get up at about 2 in the morning, eat breakfast and go to work.  On Tuesday, Thursday and Saturday he would not get up until 5.  I would go with him and work at the shop doing menial tasks on Saturdays. Later, during holidays and summer vacation I would work full time at the shop. The main thoroughfare was Wall St so I can say I grew up working on Wall St.!

There were many other wholesale florists on the street as well as two large open markets where wholesalers and growers would bring their flowers to sell to retailers and route runners who would call on retailers who did not come in to the markets.  About half of the wholesalers and a lot of growers were Japanese Americans.  My dad was very highly respected by them.  During the war, when the Japanese were moved off the coast into internment camps, his company took over the running of the Japanese American flower market.  Many Japanese Americans were robbed of their businesses and possessions during the war by unscrupulous individuals and companies but when the Japanese Americans returned, my father’s company returned all property and material to them.  

After the war there were two Markets, one almost completely peopled by Japanese Americans and one almost completely peopled by European Americans.  When they amalgamated, the Japanese would only accept one person as the director, my father.  So I had a lot of contact with people of Japanese ancestry and came to love the culture and the food.  However, when I went away to University, I lost touch with that culture.  

In the early 70s while still involved in Yoga, I realized that I really wanted to learn a martial art.  I had been a pretty wimpy kid and relied mostly on my wits to avoid fights with other kids.  I also made sure that every year I had a really big, tough kid as a friend.  Heaven help the kid that picked on me. So I figured it was time to get a handle on male violence and to be able to fight my own battles.  At one point in this search I had a dream that seemed really strange to me.  I was in a basement fighting the guys who had picked on me in high school.  For some reason I was wearing a black skirt, which seemed very strange.

I visited many martial arts schools and dojos but it seemed to me there was a lot of ego involved and that a lot of the people teaching were pretty nasty guys obsessed with competition and bravado.  In 1975 I attended the Transpersonal Psychology conference in Asilomar and saw that there was a morning workshop in Aikido, a martial art I had never heard of.  The instructor was Bob Frager, a psychologist and head of the Institute for Transpersonal Psychology. I later learned he had studied Aikido in Japan with the founder himself.  He has written humorously and informatively about this experience.  And, he was wearing a black skirt.

After two mornings of practice, I was hooked.  I returned to Victoria and at my first day back at the University of Victoria, I opened the campus newspaper and was surprised to see an article about a young man from Hawaii who was going to begin teaching Aikido on the following Monday.  This could be seen as an occurrence of what Carl Jung refers to as “Synchronicity,” two or more seemingly unrelated events that occur simultaneously and are perceived by the observer as carrying a message that would only have meaning in the psyche of that person.

I began studying with Gary Mols Sensei and he did a great job of teaching us physical Aikido as well as presenting Aikido philosophy in an understandable and useful manner.  I had been practicing Aikido for about a year when Gary Sensei announced that we were going to Vancouver to participate in a demonstration that the new Japanese sensei there was giving.  We arrived at the gym and all went into the change room together.  After changing into our dogis we proceeded upstairs and the demonstration began.  We all demonstrated but Kawahara sensei’s demonstration was the most amazing and terrifying.  I had never seen such power and precision. After the demonstration we went back to the change room, changed into our street clothes and were preparing to leave for lunch together. As Kawahara sensei was getting dressed I noticed he was looking around and saying something in Japanese to one of his students.  I realized that he was looking for his socks and I looked down to my feet I realized I had put on his black socks and not my own. Terrified, I left the gym and even after many years together as student and teacher, never told him about this.

Kawahara sensei made many visits to Victoria and I consider him one of my best teachers ever.  I wanted so much to learn from him that I even studied Japanese so I would better understand him.  On one occasion, he, my friend Gary Anderson and I sat in the wheelhouse of Gary’s fishing boat drinking scotch and carrying on a conversation about life itself.  At one point I asked, “Sensei, you drink, you smoke and you like to consort with women. Is this good for you?”

He replied, “Not good for body, but good for spirit!” Gary and I both erupted in raucous laughter.

After our first summer camp with Kawahara sensei he gave a little speech. As we were sitting in seiza completely exhausted but filled with the joy seven days of intense practice had brought us, Kawahara sensei began to speak in Japanese. Ishiyama Sensei translated.

“You Canadians are the worst Aikido students I’ve ever seen in the world. I thought Americans were bad but you are worse.”  Imagine the shock we all felt as we were being ruthlessly criticized after a long week of intense practice. What we didn’t realize was that this is a traditional Asian practice used when training students.  It keeps one from becoming inflated and in fact is a compliment.  If he did not have hope for us as students he would not criticize us.  So every year after practice Kawahara sensei would rip us up one side and down the other and we got used to it. In fact, we sort of looked forward to it.  So imagine our surprise when after four or five years we sat down at the end of the practice and waited for Kawahara sensei to tell us how terrible we were.  On this occasion all he said was, “Your Aikido is getting better.”  It was like the heavens had opened up and God himself had blessed our Aikido.

Aikido has given me many gifts. One of these is body awareness. One form is awareness of my own body and a sense of where it is in space and perhaps more importantly, where it is in relation to others and the effect my presence has on others.  The lack of this ability in others is painfully obvious every time I am negotiating the aisles at Whole Foods.  Another important lesson is that my Ki, or life energy, must flow out ahead of me, even if I am moving backwards.  This is true in both a physical and psychological sense.

The most dangerous person in an Aikido dojo is a beginner. There are two reasons this is true. First, a beginner is often so determined to do a technique correctly and with force that they may ignore the limitations of a partner who will be injured if a technique is applied too forcefully or rapidly.  One of the major lessons in Aikido is to be aware of partner’s ability.   Secondly, beginners are so focused on technique that they lose awareness of their own body and bang into others and also sometimes throw partner into other practitioners. According to Ishiyama sensei, this is not a problem in Japan.  Even beginners have the well-being of those around them in mind when practicing.  Growing up in close proximity to others and in a culture that stresses awareness of how one’s behavior affects others leads to a sensitivity many of us here in North America lack. 

Ishiyama sensei, a practitioner and teacher of Morita therapy, says this also has its disadvantages. While we are focused on self-development and individuation but often fall short in our assessment of our effect on others, according to him, the Japanese are likely to avoid individual achievement and individuation in favor of conformity and group identification.  In his mind, the middle path involves development of self and a development of our recognition of our effect on others.  This is very similar to the basic tenets of Naikan, a school of Japanese psychology.

One of the most difficult aspects of aging is the limitations that my body is experiencing.  I gave up physical Aikido several years ago when my arthritic joints just refused to cooperate.  I notice that I sometimes lose balance or bump into doors, something I never would have done in the past.  I hope I am still doing mental and spiritual Aikido in spite of my body limitations.  What good is a martial practice if it does not transfer to daily life?  Really, how many times in a day is someone with a wooden sword going to attack me?  And yet I can be sure that every day will bring interpersonal and psychological challenges.

When I was first studying Aikido, I began to look into the martial philosophy of Budo.  I realized that for the Samurai, an honorable life meant serving one’s lord faithfully and without question. Dying in the service of the lord in battle was the most honorable act one could perform.  As a young professional with a wife and two children in modern Canadian culture, this didn’t seem very practical so I set about trying to translate this philosophy of ancient Japan into a way of life that was applicable to me, now.  I realized that if I considered integrity and truth as my “lord” then my ego, not me, would have serve those concepts and, in fact, may have to die in their service. This approach to life turned out to be a lot harder than I imagined but I hope it still guides my behavior today.

One of the greatest gifts I was given in Aikido was the opportunity to confront my own fear and to finish something to which I had committed myself regardless of my fear.  On one occasion a Japanese Zen monk stopped by our dojo in Victoria and gave a talk after practice.  He asked the question, “What are the three things you must do to become proficient in Aikido?”  Some of us answered, “Practice.”   He said, “Yes, that is one.”  Students then offered numerous other suggestions to which he answered “No” repeatedly. When no more answers were forthcoming he said, “The answers are practice, practice, practice.”

I did not always want to go to practice and sometimes I would have to drag myself to the dojo. Sometimes fear and anxiety would stalk me as I stepped onto the mats and I would want to make an excuse and leave.  But I almost always went and I always stayed.  Five minutes into practice my spirit would be soaring and often at the end of class, soaking wet with sweat and joints aching I would think, “My God, it is good to be alive!”

I used to be a very anxious person.  I think I come by it naturally since my mother, Virginia, was extremely anxious.  I think her philosophy was that if you worry about it enough it won’t happen or if does you will be ready.  Since most of what she worried about didn’t happen she was reinforced for her worry.  See, it works.  I worry and it doesn’t happen.  

I once asked my supervisor why I was seeing so many clients with anxiety.  He answered, "The world is a scary place.”  I said, “For this I am paying $170.00/hr?”  I remember hearing Chuck Yeager being interviewed about a scene in the movie “The Right Stuff.”  He was asked if he was afraid when the plane he was testing went into a death spiral.  He answered, “No, fear just gets in the way of the job to be done.”  

Once, when I was feeling anxious about a high-school math test I asked my dad the same question about the battles he fought in Germany and Korea.  He had a similar response.  He said that no anxiety means you are not paying attention, too much anxiety is crippling but some anxiety is good because it forces you to focus on the job to be done.  Although, he did say that the one thing that really scared him was seeing the Germans advancing across snow covered fields in their white camouflage outfits.  He said on one occasion he thought he was watching ghosts advance against his position.  

I knew I finally had a pretty good handle on anxiety and fear after an experience I had a few years ago at the local hospital.  I started feeling a pain in my chest one evening and after it became quite intense I drove to the hospital and was admitted to the ER immediately.  I was given an EKG, administered nitroglycerine and put through the tests given to heart attack victims.  I was informed I had suffered a heart attack and my life was going to change.

Everyone left the room eventually except one male nurse.  We began to talk and he said he and his wife, also a nurse, wanted to move to Vancouver, Canada.  I proceeded to tell him the best way to do that and we had a long discussion about the Canadian medical system. At some point he asked, “Do you have a spiritual practice?” Surprised, I said, “Sort of.  I have studied Aikido for many years and it is the basis of how I live my life.  Why do you ask?”

He replied, “this is not how people who have suffered a heart attack usually behave.  You are not depressed, not upset, not angry and you don’t even seem worried.”  I answered, “What good would that do?”  

Eventually, after three days of tests it was discovered that my heart was perfectly healthy but had somewhat of an unusual but not dangerous rhythm.  My favorite experience was the treadmill.  As we reached the final stages and I was gasping for breath wondering if I would be able to finish it, the tech said, “Keep going Larry.  Keep going.”  The she exclaimed, “Don’t follow the light, don’t follow the light Larry.”  After, she said, “You have the most boring normal heart I have ever seen.”

Pondering what the nurse had said, I tried to understand why anxiety no longer seemed to be a real issue for me.  I decided it was Aikido that had helped me lose that burden.  A side effect of this experience was that it brought my mortality to the forefront and I had to decide what I needed to complete before I leave the planet.  This book is one of those things.  

I believe the discipline required for conscientious practice taught me to face my fears, overcome my own laziness and anxiety and complete tasks because I had committed to completing them.  Striving to live with integrity was the greatest gift Aikido gave to me.  It has become the foundation of how I try to respond to every challenge I face in life.  I do not always succeed and fear, laziness and negativity are always lurking.

A funny example of the difficulty of translating ideas across cultures was told to my wife by Dr. Hugh Keenleyside who was a member of the Canadian delegation to Japan before WW2 began. Apparently the Japanese had just begun to celebrate Christmas and as Dr. K. entered a Japanese department store he beheld a large, beautifully decorated Christmas tree.  At the top was a large replica of Santa - nailed to a cross.

I studied Japanese for two years at the University of Victoria.  The two people I practiced with most often were my sensei and friend, Ishu Ishiyama and my colleague, Michiko. Japanese is very different from English and I remember some humorous experiences.

Michiko told me she was once discussing American politics with a class when she first began teaching in Canada.  At some point the class broke into raucous laughter and she asked them why.  They told her she had just said she wanted to discuss the difference between Canadian parliamentary elections and the American plesidential erection.  I will forever be grateful to her for teaching me a response to, “O genki deska?” a greeting roughly translated as, “How are you?” She told me a good response would be, “O kage sama de.”  “Fine, because of you.”  How much richer than, “OK”.

On another occasion I climbed the stairs to Ishu’s house and asked politely, “May I come up into your house?”  He laughed and said, “You just asked if you could throw up in my house.”  He once told me that I could study for years and I would never completely understand Japanese.  One reason is that they leave a lot out that you have to fill in with cultural content, much of which is unknown to westerners. Sometimes the subject or object is left out of a sentence.  Verbs are sometimes omitted and can be negated at the end of a sentence if the speaker senses discomfort in the listener regarding the content of the sentence.  So a sentence might be, “As for Johnny, a good boy he is….not.”  The other reason Ishu said it would be difficult to ever understand Japanese completely is that the language, by its very structure, serves the purpose of hiding meaning from foreigners. There is also the problem that there are really two Japanese languages, one for men and one for women.

The importance of syllabic stress and context in the language was demonstrated by one of my teachers who gave this example.  Mr. Yamada visits Mr. Tanaka.  Ms. Tanaka answers the door and says, “Mr. Tanaka is not home. Would you like to come in and wait for him?”   He said this in three ways, all of which sounded exactly the same to me.  Apparently the first phrasing meant indeed he would be home soon.  The second meant he was away and you shouldn’t really come in but politeness requires me to ask you to come in.  The third meant either he was dead or was never coming back. Japanese people interpret these differences with ease. We, of the literal English language, do not.

This teacher also told a story about arriving in San Diego from Japan.  He said that in Japan when you are first asked if you want something to eat or drink you refuse it and say something to the effect of, “No I couldn’t possibly eat a bite.” You refuse a second time then grudgingly accept and eat every morsel or you insult your host. So, arriving at his host residence looking haggard and thirsty in the California heat, he was asked, “Would you like a drink?”  “No thank you,” he said.  His host said “Ok” and began to orient him to his new home.  He thought, “What is wrong with this person?  Why does he not ask me again?  Who are these impolite barbarians?”

This penchant for politeness and indirectness often confuses us westerners and our missing the hidden meaning in the communication makes us seem stupid or rude.  Soon after Ishiyama Sensei began teaching Aikido he realized we did not have the same standard of cleanliness that he did.  One night after class he asked us, “Would you like to wash the mats now?”  We had already opened the fridge in the dojo and started to drink beer so we decided we wanted to do it at another time.  He later told me he was astounded at this response as it was not a request but a command.  A Japanese person would know that.  We did not.  When I arrived for the next practice, the fridge was gone and buckets and rags were set out so we could clean the mats before practice.  He never had to ask again.

All in all, the influence of Aikido, Japanese culture and Japanese people in my life cannot be overestimated and I will be forever grateful for the opportunity to experience the insights and kindness those experiences afforded me.  Domo Arigato. 

Ishiyama Sensei, Kawawara Sensei and Me

Buddhism

Our annual Aikido summer camp would start on Saturday and by Wednesday we were so exhausted we would only practice for half a day. Full-time practice would resume on Thursday.  One year we were told that a Zen monk from Japan was present in the camp and would lead a meditation at noon on Wednesday.  Those of us who were interested arrived and lined up in two rows kneeling in seiza while Kongo Sensei began the meditation with a loud cry of “Mokso!” which can be roughly translated as “clear your mind.”  He would then walk up and down the lines carrying a large stick (Jo) and if you felt you needed to focus your attention you could bend forward crossing your arms and he would give you a good whack on the shoulders. Kongo sensei, his head shaved and dressed in the flowing robes of the Zen priest was most impressive.

After the meditation we all made our traditional journey to the local pub for lunch, beer and perhaps some pool. When I walked in the door Kongo sensei was bent over the pool table, cigarette hanging from his mouth, pool cue in hand, whiskey glass on the edge of the pool table and a tall blonde hanging from his arm.  I thought, “Now this is a religion I can get into.”

When we returned to Victoria Kongo sensei moved into the home of the Tibetan Lama who lived two houses away from our house. Unfortunately, the Tibetans ate almost all meat and he was getting sick because he was a strict vegetarian. Seeing this, we gave him a portion of our garden and in that small portion he raised the most amazing vegetables in precise lines and perfect symmetry that made our gardening attempts look haphazard and amateurish.  Our neighbors were a bit upset, however, as he liked to fertilize the garden by urinating on it.

Kongo sensei further demolished my preconceived notions about Buddhist priests by showing up one day at our front door in a white leisure suit and a white hat that made him look like the Japanese version of Roddy McDowell’s character in A Clockwork Orange. Susan said, “Kongo sensei, you like Canada don’t you?”  He replied, “I like Canadian women. I have date at disco.”

Kongo sensei gave many lectures in Victoria, usually translated by my friend and Aikido teacher Ishu Ishiyama.  On one occasion he gave a lecture on the Buddhist approach to anger at the University of Victoria.  At the time, my wife and I were separated and I was very angry so I decided to go to the talk to see if the Buddhist approach to anger management could help me. After the two hour talk I was quite sure my anger was under control and I walked peacefully across the campus to my car.  On the way home I started thinking about my situation, conveniently overlooking the fact that I was the person most responsible for being in this place, and started to become angry.  Eventually, I became furious, drove home in a rage and spent an hour yelling and pounding my boken (wooden sword) into my mattress.  It appeared that I hadn’t quite integrated the Buddhist approach to anger management at that time.

My most interesting conversation with Kongo sensei was regarding reincarnation and the effect it had on one’s life. It was a very interesting conversation conducted in his halting English and my halting Japanese.  He maintained that believing in reincarnation very much changed how you lived your life.  His main point was that if one believes that the results of one’s behavior in this life will be carried forward into the next life, one will be more careful and more considerate of others.  Although I’m not convinced reincarnation exists, this still seems like a pretty good way to live.

My wife and I were quite involved in Jungian studies and analysis in Seattle in the 90s.  On one occasion we went to a panel discussion by several practitioners who described how they worked from a Jungian perspective.  The panel included a minister, a catholic priest, a counselor, a Jungian analyst and a Buddhist teacher who was also a psychotherapist. Each of the panelists spoke for about ten minutes describing their work.  The last teacher was the Buddhist and all he said was, “Yes, all of that is true. But in Buddhism we just call it paying attention.” I was smitten and soon began to explore Buddhist philosophy and practices.

I have always been drawn to Zen Buddhism because of its simplicity and its similarity to the philosophy of Aikido. I think I dabble in Buddhism but do not really practice it.  By the end of my life I would like to become a more serious student.  It just seems to be so practical and clean.  My one concern with Buddhism is that I am not sure it deals with what Jung would call the human shadow, our dark side. Jung said, “One does not become enlightened by imagining figures of light, but by making the darkness conscious.”  Perhaps my thought that this is somewhat contradictory to many of the forms of mindfulness is due to my own lack of understanding but I have had experiences with practitioners of Buddhism who seem to not have a very clear view of their own dark side.  However, it is a wonderful philosophy and a very useful tool.  I wonder why I still cringe when someone tells me their approach to therapy focuses on mindfulness.  I need to look at this. 

One of my most entertaining experiences with Buddhists took place many years ago. When my wife finished her MA we decided to celebrate by spending a week at Rio Caliente outside of Guadalajara.  It was a great place with pools of varying warmth for soaking. The water sprang from underground and at the source was so hot you could burn yourself seriously if you were to step into it. One day a few of the guys decided to hike through the desert and over a hill to a town known as Tala.

We set off early in the morning following the river until, we were told, would see a path that would lead up into the hills and eventually to Tala.  As we trekked on, occasionally we would run into a vaquero on a horse and I, being the only person who spoke Spanish, would ask directions.  After about three hours we were hopelessly lost and one of the guys, a serious student of Buddhism and somewhat of a proselytizer asked me, “Do you really speak Spanish?”  I said that I did but that I had forgotten so much that I could only speak in the present tense.  He said, “In Buddhism we call that enlightenment.”  Unfortunately, when we moved to New Mexico I took courses in Spanish and now I can use the past tenses.  I guess I am no longer enlightened in English or Spanish. 

We finally came upon a huge house in the middle of the desert surrounded by barbed wire and guarded by unsavory looking men with automatic weapons. From a great distance I yelled, “Donde esta Tala?” to one of them.  He raised his hand and pointed in the very direction from which we had come.  "Aya!“ he yelled (There). So we followed the river until we came to a park and I asked a nice young man in Spanish if he would give us a ride in the back of his pickup to Tala.  He said, “Sure man.  I am from San Francisco. No need to speak Spanish.” 

We ate in Tala and then took a taxi back to Rio Caliente.  It was a great day but they never let me forget my inability go get us to Tala.  At the restaurant the Buddhist kept trying to find out what was in the food because he was worried that there might be lard or some other meat product.  Lard in Mexican food?  Are you kidding me?  I was embarrassed that this rich guy from New York was grilling the waitress from a poor Mexican village about her food.  It seemed to me that true mindfulness and loving kindness would require one to eat the food no matter what was in it.  Is it going to kill you to eat some lard and treat the Mexicans with respect rather than grilling them on the purity of their food?  It seemed very insulting to me.

The food at the spa was good but all vegetarian and a lot of the people there were pretty sanctimonious about what they ate.  About 5 days into our stay the Feral Cats were looking pretty tasty so my wife and I jumped into a taxi and rode to Tlaquepaque, an artists’ center not far from Guadalajara.  There we feasted on chicken and beer for lunch and steak and wine for dinner before returning late at night and stumbling to our room.  The next morning the breakfast room was surprisingly empty and the soaking pools were unusually vacant.  We later found out that something had gone wrong with the food and everybody had food poisoning and all were sick in their cabins with the full range of glorious symptoms associated with this disorder.

When people recovered, they asked how we had managed to avoid the plague. I responded, “When you have reached the level of spiritual enlightenment we have, bacteria have no effect on your body.”

Actually it was a wonderful place and the staff were magnificent. One of the visitors who was an English Prof at UBC said he was going to write a novel, “One Hundred Years of Massage.”  I suggested he follow it up with a sequel, “One Hundred Years of Diarrhea.”

A lot of the visitors were Texans and their unabashed extroversion and outspoken manner prompted my wife, a true introvert, to say, “In my next life I am going to be a Texan.” 

It is a sad fact that Guadalajara has become a major battleground for drug cartels and I believe the Spa has now closed.  I hope the wonderful people who worked there are surviving and that perhaps it will open again.  We loved it.

Buddhism still interests me and perhaps I will get off my Butt (or onto it) and find the deeper meaning in this wonderful tradition.

My first great therapy experience

When my wife and I reunited after a 4 month separation in the early eighties I was quite confused. I wanted to see a therapist but being really well known in town I didn’t know who I trusted enough to see. She suggested Alice, a woman she had met in a women’s consciousness raising group.  Alice was sort of the Grand Dame of the lesbian community in town and practiced psychotherapy even though she had very little formal education.  My wife said she was brilliant and that I would like her for that and her keen sense of irreverence.  So I went to see Alice.  Here is our first conversation:

A: Hello Larry.  I must ask you why you came to see me.  I don’t see many men in my practice. Actually, none.

L.  Well, I know every therapist in town and quite frankly I think I could bullshit them all.  My wife doesn’t think I can bullshit you.  

A. Ah.  Tell me, what is your worst fear?

L.  My worst fear is that I might be ordinary.

A.  I have bad news for you.  

We worked together and she was wonderful.  Even though she became a close friend of my wife, she was always objective and helped me realize many insights.  After I stopped seeing her we became friends and colleagues and eventually shared an office. We are still good friends and my wife always stays with her when we are in Victoria.  I am so grateful to have had her in my life.  

Forever Jung

When I was teaching at Camosun College in Victoria, B.C. I was head of the union negotiating committee for one year.  I typed up a proposal for the administration concerning Professional Development.  Not being a good speller I ran a spell check on it. However, in the early days of computers, spell check would run from your cursor forward to the end of the document and my cursor was sitting in front of the first word in the paper.  When we met, the president said he liked the proposal but that for my professional development I would have to go to spelling class.  I had not spell checked the title of the paper and had misspelled “Proffessional.”

But all ended well as I myself was eventually awarded a large PD grant in the early 90s which allowed me to travel to Seattle where I studied Jungian psychology and underwent 5 years of Jungian analysis.  It changed my life forever and I will always be grateful for that grant that had resulted from a paper with a misspelled title. 

My wife, who is a psychotherapist, has always been interested in the ideas of C.G. Jung.  In 1990 when I was looking for a new direction in my life she invited me to accompany her to a program at the University of British Columbia built around a series of 20 half-hour filmed interviews with mythologist Joseph Campbell done by Fraser Boa, a Toronto analyst.  Campbell discussed the meaning of the great myths within Jung’s theoretical formulation.  I was smitten.  At the conclusion of the films I told my wife, “I want to spend the rest of my life doing this work.”  I wasn’t sure what I meant by this comment but I felt something powerful was stirring within me.

The introduction and end of each film was accompanied by a Bach Concerto. So I must have heard the beginning of this piece about 40 times.  After leaving the auditorium, we got into our car, turned on the classical station and lo and behold, the Bach concerto began.  I knew this was a sign that my life was to change forever.

I began a search for mentors which ultimately led me to Seattle where I found a wonderful Jungian analyst, Ladson Hinton.  My wife and I joined an association of Jungian oriented therapists and traveled to Seattle for therapy, supervision and study groups.  All of my work with clients today has its roots in those years in Seattle.  

My therapist and my supervisor in Seattle probably taught me more about doing therapy than any other person, book or course I have ever taken.  One of the best sessions I ever had with Ladson (I still talk to him once each month) involved my guilt about not committing myself to my full time job at the college in Victoria.  I was heading toward early retirement and I was trying to establish myself as a therapist in Seattle.  I was in transition.  

I told my therapist I was feeling guilty about not putting in my hours at the college and the following conversation occurred.

LD:  I am feeling guilty about not spending the whole week at the college during this attempted transition.

T: Do your students mind?

LD:  No, they are fine with it and can get me on the phone or by email.

T:  Do your colleagues mind?

LD:  No, my department operates on a system of seniority and since I am the most senior member, they will all move up when I leave.

T:  What about your dean?

LD:  She is completely supportive.  She is happy that I am following my true calling.

T:  So what you are telling me is that no one really cares about the issue about which you feel guilty.

LD:  Yes.

T:  That is Completely F***ing Nuts!

LD:  I have just finished studying the DSM and I had never seen that diagnosis.

T:  Well there is a new version coming out and they have included this diagnosis.  There is a page just for you.

When I was trying to formulate my future I kept vacillating between moving into adventure and what I considered to be my true calling on the one hand and security and stability on the other.  I had a dream that I was in the Safeway store near our house and the hands on the clock on the wall were spinning madly.  We worked on the dream and the next week he brought in a quote from Jung in German. I read it and it translated to, “Whoever takes the safe way is as good as dead.”  After that I set about changing the direction of my life.  I would not be here doing what I do if it were not for him.

My other mentor in Seattle taught me so many things about therapy it would be hard to put them all down here. The most important was the idea of induction. He said that intuitive, empathic people often experience strong feelings when encountering another person.  He maintained that a field exists between two people and that the unconscious emotions in one person can induce the same feelings in the other person’s unconscious. Therapists can use this tool to notice what they are feeling and use it as an insight into the unconscious feelings of the client.  I find this concept really helpful to clients that are empathic and often have strong feelings they don’t understand when they are around certain people. They are feeling what the other does not or cannot bring up from the unconscious.

On another occasion he drove home the importance of relying on one’s intuition when practicing as a psychotherapist.  He described an experience he had had years earlier.  As he was sitting listening to a young women talk about her difficulties with her father, he became aware of a presence in the corner of the room.  Eventually he realized it was a native American beating on a drum.  Out of nowhere he asked her, “Tell me about the drum.”

Shocked at first, she related a story about her favorite toy as a child, a drum.  At one point her father became enraged and destroyed her drum.  This conversation evolved into a search for the meaning of the drum and eventually led to her becoming an ethnologist who roamed around North America recording the drum songs of different tribes.   

All in all, these two men radically altered my life and the wonderful life I live now is in many ways, a testimony to their skill and caring.  

My Work

“Life is change, how it differs from the rocks.”  The Chrysalids, John Wyndham

My First Real Job

In 1966 I entered graduate school at the Institute of Child Development at the University of Minnesota as a student in the Clinical Child Psychology program. This program was primarily test oriented and this did not seem right to me.  I was less interested in how a child was performing or acting and more interested in why. One event in particular sealed my fate in this program.

I was asked to go to a school in Minneapolis to administer a Wechsler Intelligence test.  I arrived at the school and found most of the students were black and poor.  The teacher involved told me the child I was to test had scored below normal on the intelligence tests administered by the school but that she thought the girl was more intelligent than the scores indicated.  

I sat down with Felicia and began to ask her the questions on the exam.  One of the cardinal rules of this sort of testing is that you don’t ask a child why she answered as she did, you just record the answer.  Some questions have general answers that give you full marks.  If you offer a specific answer, you lose points. So when I asked “Where do you get groceries?” and she answered, “Albertsons,” she lost a point.  I couldn’t help myself.  I broke the rule.

“Why Albertson’s?”

“That’s where they take the food stamps.”

Poverty had just lost this girl IQ points.

Then when I showed her a picture of a coat, she identified it as a sweater.  More lost IQ points.  Again, I broke the rule.  We were in the beginning of a Minnesota winter and this little girl was wearing a tattered sweater.  So I asked, “Do you have a coat?”

“No,” she replied looking down.  

When I tallied up the points she indeed had an IQ below normal. When I told the teacher, she said, “I guess I was wrong.”  She put more faith in the test than her own judgement.  Discrimination and poverty had consigned this girl to a limited future and I really wanted no part of this.  

As much as I wanted to work with children, I did not want to do it this way.  I drove back to the Institute and found Harold Stevenson, the chair of the department, and told him I wanted to change programs from Child Clinical to Child Development, a research based program, a program focused on “Why?” Fortunately, there was another student who wanted to move in the other direction so we swapped fellowships and I became a student of developmental psychology and he became a student in the clinical program.  We also became good friends.  

I am particularly thankful to Harold because without his prodding, I would never have heard many of these stories.  At the end of four years of graduate school and after 10 years of university studies I was sick of it all.  I told him I would do my research and finish my Ph.D. after I left Minnesota.  He reached into his drawer and pulled out a sheet with the names of every one of the students who had left without finishing. Next to those who did finish later was a check.  It was a paltry number.  

“But I don’t have time,” I said.

He said, “There are two kinds of theses.  There is the Magnum Opus, a masterpiece of research and a real contribution to the field.  Then there is the kind you are going to do.”  I will ever be grateful for that. That degree opened many doors for me and allowed me the privilege of being a part of so many lives and to have had such rich and instructive experiences.

As I recount the stories I am writing here I feel such gratitude to the students, clients, teachers and children who have shared their lives with me in such a rich manner and to all the people who said to me, “You have got to write these stories down.”  The first time this happened was in 1970.  I had returned to Minneapolis to take my final Ph.D. orals.  We never even talked about the thesis. They just asked to hear more stories about the wild kids at the treatment center where I was serving as treatment director.  Harold, a prolific writer himself said, “You have got to get these stories recorded."  That same year my sister-in-law, Melba Riley told me the same thing on several occasions.  If two people from such different backgrounds found my stories interesting and funny, I thought they must be worth writing down. So here I am all these years later finally getting it together.    

As my graduate school days came to an end, I began to receive inquiries from a number of prestigious universities in the United States, Canada and Europe.  In those heady days of unfettered expansion, graduation from a first class program in child development ensured numerous offers from departments desperate for qualified people.  I had over a dozen offers of employment, but I wanted to work with children as well as teach at a university. Unfortunately, by switching from clinical to developmental psychology, I had eliminated my chances of achieving certification in most states.

Through a series of coincidences, word about my search reached a psychiatrist in Victoria, B.C., Canada who invited me to visit him at the Pacific Centre for Human Development, a residential school for "emotionally disturbed” children. He offered me a job as treatment director and put me in contact with the chair of the University of Victoria Psychology Department who was delighted to have someone from the Minnesota Institute of Child Development in his department as a part-time instructor.  I took the jobs, flew home to finish my degree, and in the fall of 1970 my wife, my two-year-old son and I emigrated to Canada with plans to stay for two years, gather some experience and then return to California.

What I found when I arrived at the Centre was shocking.  The kids were running the place and the staff was barely surviving in an environment of fear and chaos. Bribery and physical force were the two main methods of control.  I wanted to establish a very tight program of behavior modification with strong incentives for academic success and reasonable conduct.  The staff were very resistant and undermining of this program and something drastic had to happen. So one morning I came in and I told the staff, “I am going to demonstrate that this program will work.  I want you to all take the day off and come back at three.”  

They were shocked and I could tell they were expecting to find the building burned down and me dead when they did return.  But I had a devious plan that had nothing to do with Behavior Modification.  After they left I found the two most violent and powerful kids in the school and offered them a deal.  I pulled out two twenty dollar bills and said, “If there are no incidents at the school today, each of you will get one of these at three o’clock.  The kids can do anything they want but there can be no destruction or violence and you can’t tell anyone about this.” 

They agreed and we had a peaceful day.  No other child at that facility would dare to challenge these two.  When the teachers arrived they were stunned to find a school functioning quite well with no violence or destruction.  They bought in and we began a behavior modification program immediately.

It took about six months, but the place began to run smoothly.  It also became evident to me that, while we could affect major change in some children, we were sending them back into the same environment which had produced their behavior in the first place.  I initiated a parent training program and found that education and some introspection helped many of them to become adequate, if not perfect, parents.  I will never forget the gratitude of some of the parents when they were finally able to take their children home.  It was working with the staff and parents that led me to the conclusion that I liked teaching adults as much as working with children.  

After two years at the Centre I was asked to be the Canadian representative at the First International Conference on Behavior Modification in Minneapolis.  In preparation, I distilled all the data we had collected over the previous two years and wrote it up in a report which was eventually published as a chapter in a book summarizing the proceedings.  Among the many fascinating aspects of the data was the fact that children who had been considered unteachable had covered two or three years of math and English in the space of one year.  

How were we able to do this?  As Jean Piaget has said, learning is a fundamental human drive.  If you create an environment in which inquisitiveness is nurtured and rewarded, learning is inevitable. We made education a positive experience for these children by allowing them to work at the level at which they were competent and we rewarded progress, no matter how small.  We also focused considerable attention on their interests.  Every person alive, unless he or she has been completely beaten down in life, has a passion for something.  If you can discover that passion, you can unlock the motivation for learning.  For Alan it was science.  For many of my adult students it has been the desire to raise healthy, happy children, or perhaps to understand their own childhood.  

At the end of my three-year tenure at the Pacific Centre, I had the background I needed to become licensed as a Clinical Psychologist and did so.  I left the Centre, opened a private practice and eventually was offered a job at Camosun College where I taught for 23 years while continuing to carry a light load of clients in private practice.  The two-year commitment became a 28 year commitment until my wife and I moved to Santa Fe, NM in 1998.

I learned so much at the Centre and I realized that a true understanding of developmental psychology can be a powerful clinical tool.  I also had a lot of humorous experiences, some of which I would like to share.

Shortly after I arrived one of the teachers told me the five boys she had in her class were paying no attention to her, physically assaulting her and that she was going to quit if things didn’t change. I had not implemented the program yet so I tried something desperate.  I hauled the kids out about 15 minutes before lunch one day and took them to the activity room.  I said, “We have about 10 minutes before lunch and I am going to challenge you. I am going to take on all five of you and if I am still standing at the end of 10 minutes I want you to promise not to bother your teacher anymore and to be good students.”  

Their eyes widened as they relished the thought of pummeling a senior staff member to death and were a little disappointed when I told them there would be no punches, no nasty stuff below the belt and no biting.  But they agreed.  So I said, “Go!” and they did.  

We went at it for ten minutes and at the end I was still standing, barely.  They were elated and promised to behave as agreed and they did.  I made five good friends that day and we never told anyone.    

The nurse at the school was a wonderful Scottish woman who had seen it all. She had learned her nursing skills in the worst neighborhoods of Glasgow and described herself as a spinster.  She told me that if she was going to have to take care of someone she wanted to get paid for it and marriage salaries were not that great. She was a prankster of the highest order.  I remember showing up to camp and her approaching me with a “special sandwich I made just for you.”  Peanut Butter and cotton balls.  Yuk.  

She used to put pills out on the kitchen counter in the morning and one morning she was going to do a dental inspection so she laid out about 30 pink pills that were intended to highlight dental issues when chewed.  There was one incredibly difficult boy at the center at that time, Donny, and as he entered the kitchen he gathered up all the pills and downed them.  She went ballistic.  She often lectured the kids on the dangers of taking drugs so this was a major affront to her warnings. She grabbed him, hauled him up the stairs, castigating him all the way and then locked him in his room and screamed, “You could die from doing that.”

He took full advantage of this opportunity, yelling, “Helen put me in here to die, Helen put me in here to die!”  

She paid no attention and her parting shot was, “Don’t be surprised if your urine is red!”

The next morning she was doing bed checks and when she came to his bed he smiled and proclaimed, “It was pink!  And, I am not dead!”

She replied, “How do you know you are not in heaven?”

Stunned, he blurted out, “You’re here!”  

She relished talking about one experience she had with Donny who had an undescended testicle. She maintained that was why he was so ornery.  She was examining him one morning and asked him to move his penis to a position that would not hinder her from examining the offending testicle.  

He said, “It doesn’t move that way.”

“Yes it does,” she replied.

“Helen,” he proclaimed, “You know a lot about pills but you don’t know anything about penises.”

On another occasion we took the children from the treatment center to a beach campground for a summer camp experience.  One of the boys in my tent was wetting his sleeping bag every night and we were pretty sure he was doing it on purpose.  So I told him, “If you pee in your sleeping bag again, we will take you home to the Centre.”

That night I was awakened by the sensation of warm liquid spreading in my sleeping bag.  Startled I awoke to find him urinating into my bag.  “What are you doing?”

“You told me you would take me home if I peed in my bag so I decided to pee in yours.”

He had me.  

Another child taught me that using power over a child can often lead to resentment and retaliation on the part of the child.  This boy had a terrible learning disability which caused him to see written material backwards.  He wanted to go home to Yellowknife for Christmas so I told him he had to learn five letters before December if he wanted to go home.  When the time came to show me his work he said, “I actually learned six.”  He then wrote the following message for me.

U O Y K C U F.  

This was a powerful lesson for me about the misuse of power and authority.  I sent him home for Christmas, a trip he deserved just for being a child, regardless of his disability.

I got into another bad situation with ultimatums when I was showing a new boy around the school.  He was yelling and cursing me, the school and his parents and said he would never stay at this “F…ing S…hole of a school.”  Exhausted and fed up, I turned to him and said, “You can stay here or go to jail!”

“I’ll take jail,” he replied.  

Once again I had backed myself into a corner.  Just then I remembered a story a professor of mine had told me.  At the end of the war he was drafted and asked, “Europe or Asia?”  Since the war was over in Europe he answered enthusiastically, “Europe.”

“Europe’s full,” the officer replied.  And he was off to Asia.

So I said, “Jail’s full.”

Although he was one of the most difficult kids to deal with, he eventually came around and became a model for other boys to emulate.  When it was time for him to leave we gave him the choice of returning to his dysfunctional family or a foster home.  He chose the foster home.

Bobby was a developmentally disabled boy who had suffered some kind of abuse as a young child and had formed an attachment to Dinky Toy cars and would walk around for hours making car noises as he pushed the cars through the air.  At one point a new boy, Alex, arrived.  Alex claimed to be a vampire and after a few weeks I was convinced he was right.  More than one staff member had bite marks on their necks.  He took a fancy to Bobby and manipulated him into a very exploitative homosexual relationship.  We decided to use behavior modification to try and convince Bobby to avoid Alex.

My friend Barney and I brought Bobby into Barney’s office and explained a program in which Bobby could earn points by staying away from Alex.  When Barney asked him “What do you like that you could earn with these points?”

Bobby replied, “Well, I really like it when Alex sticks his tongue in my mouth and goes lubalubado.”

Barney calmly replied, “That is not on the list.”

Having worked with several autistic children I considered myself somewhat of an expert in behavior modification with this challenging group.  So when a young autistic girl showed up at the center I decided to record a teaching video for staff to watch in order to learn how to use such skills as shaping and prompting to teach behavior.  One of the things that made Jeanne special was that she had an ileostomy collection bag on her side.  It would fill with urine and have to be emptied often.  What I didn’t know was that when angry, she would pull the bag off and empty it on the floor.  

I sat down with a simple reader and her lunch.  I would point to letters and prompt her to repeat them as I was being filmed through a one-way mirror.  She began to get agitated as she did not like her lunch to be contingent on completing the tasks I set out for her and when I turned to look at the clock, she whipped off the bag and emptied it on my head.  This video became extremely popular and was hauled out every time there was a staff party.  

Several years later, after Jeanne was released, I went to visit her in Vancouver. When she came to the door, she gave me a big hug and said, “Remember Larry. You teach me to read.  I dump PeePee bag on your head.”  Then she laughed uncontrollably for a few minutes.

I had many other memorable experiences but these are some of my favorites. 

Some stories about change

I am in the business of change.  People generally want their lives to change and are looking to me for help.  Ironically, I find change difficult.

My wife likes to ask, how many Dettweilers does it take to change a lightbulb? Answer 1:  Change?  Change? Answer 2:  1 but I liked the old one better. Answer 3:  2.  One to change the bulb and one to administer CPR after he accidentally electrocutes himself.  

Often change occurs slowly in incremental steps.  Sometimes it is rapid.  Here are some stories about change.

In the spring of 1968 I was sitting on the lawn in front of the athletic center at the University of Minnesota with my friend Tom after an enthusiastic afternoon of handball.  Tom’s dad was head of the Presbyterian Church in the US.  He had told Tom that he and other religious leaders in the US were trying to convince Dr. King to cancel his tour of the South as they felt his life was in danger.  Between the war in Vietnam, the killing of the Kennedys, the civil rights killings, the assassination of Malcolm X and the specter of Richard Nixon on the horizon, I said, “If he is killed I am going to Canada.” Dr. King went on the tour and was assassinated in April in Memphis.  My wife and I, not wanting to raise our children in a country so racked with hate and violence moved to Victoria, B. C. Canada after I finished my Ph.D. in 1970.

Like many Americans I think I assumed Canadians were a lot more like Americans than they really were.  Also we were not prepared for the hostility toward Americans that many Canadians felt.  I began to get an inkling of this when I was told a joke by a co-worker during my first week as treatment director at the Pacific Centre for Human Development.  It went like this.

There were three Canadian surgeons who each went to study in different countries.  When they returned they sat down over coffee to compare notes. The first said that in Japan all internal organs are color coded so to do a replacement you just replaced yellow with yellow and so on. The second said that in Germany all organs were numbered so you just replaced a one with a one and so on.  The third said surgery in the US was really simple. American bodies only have two moving parts, a mouth and an asshole and they were interchangeable.  

I don’t think a day ever went by when I didn’t hear what was wrong with America from a person, the radio or a newspaper. This didn’t bother me too much since I probably agreed with their assessment of American foreign policy. What did bother me was the way in which the anger and hostility was directed not so much at the politics and government but rather at the American people.  

And with my loud, extraverted personality and American accent I was often targeted as a typical American.  And, like most stereotypes, there is some truth there.  Canadians often describe Americans as brash, rude and arrogant.  When I first went to Canada in 1970, I think I was living proof of this stereotype. Here is an example.

In the early seventies I was teaching at the University of Victoria and they were putting on Saturday courses at a College up-island.  I was asked to teach one and the University thought it would be easier to send the three of us who were doing this up in a limo rather than pay for us to drive up individually.

So the first day the three of us met.  Here is the conversation I had with Cary, one of the other teachers.

L: Hi, I am Larry.

C: Hi I am Cary.  What department do you teach in?

L: Education this year.  But I hate that department.  It is terrible. What about you?

C: Education.  (Dead Silence)

L: Boy I am tired.  My son plays hockey on Saturday at 5 in the morning.  What a stupid sport.

C: I coach youth Hockey.

I had dug a deep hole but if there is one way to connect with a Canadian it is to criticize America or Americans.  It is the second most enjoyed sport by Canadians after Hockey and it runs all year.  Not to mention that there is an endless supply of material for them to work with. 

L: I came here from Minnesota but I really was glad to leave.  The weather was horrible and I didn’t like the people very much.

C: My mother is from Minnesota. 

Sometimes I shudder when I look back at the person I was then, a truly ugly American, but Cary was extremely forgiving and we became close friends on those rides up and down the Island.  He and Judy and I, a Canadian, a Brit and an American, were a bit embarrassed by the fact that we were riding in a limo on that first day.  The next week it was a little easier and on the third Saturday we asked him to wash it during the time we were teaching because we thought it was dirty.  Eventually we began bringing wine and food and we would eat, drink, tell stories and laugh all the way home.  And, more importantly, I began to realize that the Canadian character, emphasizing self-effacement, politeness and interpersonal restraint (a lot like Minnesotans actually) might be something I would want to emulate, eh.  

I soon took it upon myself to be a little less outgoing and developed a Canadian accent, dropped “huh”, added “eh” and began to try to assimilate.  This must have happened somewhat unconsciously because I took my kids to Disneyland in the early 80s and after talking to a woman in line for a few minutes she asked me, “Where in Canada are you from?”  

This led to a lot of funny situations, especially in my private practice. I had become Canadian enough that people couldn’t tell I was a Yank. So clients would come in and rant and rave about Americans and at some point I would have to say, “You know, I am an American.” Often they were shocked as I had become so good at passing as a Canadian.

The truth is that Canada did change me.  It was there that I learned so much about myself from many wonderful friends, teachers and students.  However, as early retirement loomed, we decided to cast our fate to the south.  America, with all its faults was our home and we just felt more at ease there among people from our own culture. This is really hard for Canadians to understand.  On paper Canada seems such a better place to live.  But we are Americans and we feel more at home here.

I spent the first 27 ½ years of my life as an American.  I spent the next 27 ½ years as a Canadian.  I have spent the last 20 as a New Mexican, in a state that is an entity unto itself.  I love it here but when I die I want my ashes spread on the west coast of Canada because that is where I learned how to live life. 

My experience with the Victoria Family Violence Project required me to learn quickly on the job. When the director, Alayne Hamilton, first asked me to consider the position of consulting psychologist, I dismissed it out of hand as I had no experience with abusive men or group therapy.  She persevered and eventually I went to Ahimsa House, home of the Project to talk to her and Mike, one of the men working there.  I demurred but Mike said, well we need a licensed Psychologist working here or they won’t fund our program.  You are the only psychologist in town we are willing to let in this building so we are not letting you out of the building until you agree.  

In order to learn more about the program, I apprenticed myself to a lay leader in what they called Phase I, the entry level to the program. The idea of a Ph.D. Psychologist apprenticing with a lay group leader who installed cable during the day and had never finished high school raised some eyebrows but we worked well together and I learned the basics of the program during my twelve weeks with this group.  At the end of the group I told him I thought he was gifted in this area and I hope I had some influence over his eventual enrollment in and graduation from the Social Work program at the University.  Concurrently, I was accepted into the therapeutic group which was being run for the lay leaders, all of whom had been through the program.

The leader of that group was a professional therapist who had never received a degree but was gifted in his work.  I learned more about leading groups from him than anyone else I have ever known.  After ten weeks I was ready to start my own group.  My partner Wendy and I became so good at sharing this role it often seemed as though we were two heads on the same body.  

We led groups of 6 to 8 men who were attempting to change their lives for the better and to stop the violence that had so dominated their lives in the past.  One of the things we tried to teach them was to change their communication patterns by expressing their feelings to their partners rather than expressing judgments or controlling statements. One night the following conversation took place between two of the guys. I will refer to them as Tom and Jerry.

Tom said, “My wife won’t let me express my feelings.”

Jerry said, “What do you mean?”

“Well I told her I feel she’s a slut and she got mad and told me to shut up.”

“That’s not a feeling.”

“Yes it is,” he said somewhat agitated.”

“No, that’s a judgement and an insulting one as well.”

“No it’s a feeling.”

By this time both guys were getting pretty mad.  As the banter continued and tempers begin to flare I found myself splitting into three people.  First there was fearful Larry who was looking for the fastest way to the door.  Second there was Aikido Larry who was thinking about which technique he would use when one of these guys came after the other. Lastly there was adult psychologist Larry who said, “Let’s examine this interaction.”  I managed to put my fear and distracting thoughts aside in order to focus on the job to be done.  This is a core concept in the Japanese approach to problems known as Morita Therapy.

I asked Jerry to demonstrate a feeling statement to Tom.  With a malicious grin and a gleam in his eye he said to Tom, "I feel you’re an asshole.”  I thought, uh oh, here we go.  

After a brief pause Tom said, “Okay I get it."  That was the closest I ever saw anybody get to coming to blows during my five years working there.  But he did get it and became one of the best communicators in the group.  An unusual way to facilitate change but it worked.

There was one guy in the group who was particularly difficult to deal with but we all really liked him.  In his case, change was slow.  He had a pretty good handle on his anger at this time after having been through the program twice but he really got upset when he thought something was happening to his daughters, both of whom often found themselves in dire straits.

On the last night of these groups that ran for six months, we would meet and discuss how we all had changed and improved over the period of the group. When his turn came he told a story about how he had dealt with a man who was harassing his daughters.  It had angered him so much that he went up to the man’s third-floor apartment, grabbed him by the feet and hung him over the side of the railing and told him to stop bothering his girls.  This was the last night and I didn’t want to open this up, process it and show that, in fact, that it was not completely congruent with the non-violent philosophy of the family violence project.  So I just asked a simple question.

"How is this an example of the improvement and change you’ve experienced as a result of this program?”

“Oh hell, before this program I would’ve dropped him.”

I once had a student we will call Julie whose parents had come from Greece. After she had left for college, her grandmother moved from Greece to Canada when her husband died.  She stayed with my student’s parents and didn’t do much of anything except wander around the house in her black garb, watch television and cook.  After about six months she called Julie and asked her if she would take her out to buy some different clothes. This was quite a surprise to Julie.  Also grandma wanted to know if she would help her enroll in English classes at a local college.  A bit stunned she did both.  Over the next few months she noticed a radical change in her grandmother.  In addition to changing her clothes and going to school she began taking driving lessons.  When Julie asked her grandmother one day why she had made such a big changes, she replied, “Oprah.”

Years ago I owned a house in Victoria B.C. that had been built in 1910.  It constantly needed repairs and I had a fantastic handyman named Burt who would do the work.  He always asked me to help, mostly because he liked the company and not for my skills at home repair.  One time he and his wife were with me and my wife at a friend’s house.  I asked him how much it would cost to repair my front porch. He replied, “400 dollars.”  I said, “What if I help?”  His wife answered quickly, “600 dollars.”

Anyway, Burt liked to drink.  He never drank on the job but his binges were legendary.  I called him one day to tell him I was getting new gutters on the house and I just couldn’t get the old ones off.  He said they were going out to dinner and he would stop by afterward to look at it.  Around nine that night Burt and his wife showed up and he was three sheets to the wind.  It was windy, dark and pouring rain but he said, “Bring a flashlight, hammer and ladder.”  He climbed up, looked at the gutter and asked for the hammer. 

I said, “I have been thinking about all the ways to get this down and I just can’t figure it out.”

He reared back, swung the hammer and the whole gutter flew off into the yard. He said, “That’s the trouble with you f…ing intellectuals, you think too much.” No one has ever confused me with an intellectual before or after that incident but it was definitely an example of the superiority of action over thinking, at least in this case.  In Japanese psychology, thoughts and feelings are seen as fleeting and not under your control and the fastest way out of a bad state is to do something.  This is very different than western psychology.

Burt taught me a lot about home repair but that night he was definitely my action guru.

On another occasion I was talking to my mentor in Seattle when he told me he had been to the 100th birthday party of a famous Jungian analyst.  He asked the birthday boy what he had been up to.  After hearing a long list of projects, plans and activities he said, “Joe, how do you do all of that at your age?  I get tired just thinking about it.”

Joe answered, “I don’t think about it.”

So now when I really need to do something I try not think a lot about it.  If I can just get started, it usually takes care of itself. 

A dramatic and fascinating example of change being inspired by a complete stranger was described to me by a former student.  This woman, who we shall call Eleanor, was at a major decision point in her life when this event occurred. She told me about it in a career and life development course I was teaching in which she was a student.  The students had completed several inventories designed to indicate appropriate career paths they might follow.  She had the most interesting test results I’ve ever seen.  I said to her somewhat jokingly, “It looks like you could either be a CPA or a counselor.”  She told me that, in fact, before coming to graduate school in counseling she had been debating whether to become an accountant or counselor.  She clearly had a wide range of abilities. 

One day while she was in the process of trying to figure out which path to follow she was leaving the grocery store with her hands full when a stranger opened the door for her.  She smiled and said thank you, and he said, "You should become a counselor.”  She stood there stunned and when she turned around he was gone.

She went back to school, completed the prerequisites for graduate school and counseling, and enrolled in a graduate program with a specialty in grief counseling.  Today she works as a grief counselor and is known in hospice circles as the "angel of death.”  She seems to have the ability to walk into a room, sit down next to person who is dying but can’t let go, place her hand on the person and within a half an hour the person has let go and is gone.  She has found her calling thanks to a stranger’s comment.

This is a most remarkable woman.  She suffers from a serious disease but never talks about it or uses it as an excuse to avoid difficult situations.  She has now finished her Ph.D. and will continue with her life’s work, helping the dying and the grieving.  She works a lot with immigrant families and told me she always takes her shoes off when she enters a trailer or small home.  I assumed this was a sign of respect.  She said, "No, I am often the tallest person in the house and I don’t want them to feel small.”

After reading about the importance of action in Japanese Psychology and the importance of starting small I was reminded of a story I heard Bill O’Hanlon tell about Milton Erickson, the famous psychiatrist who was best known for his work in Hypnosis and his somewhat unconventional (at least for his time) approach to clinical problems.

When one of his students heard he would be visiting a large U.S. city where his depressed aunt lived, he asked Erickson if he would stop in on her.  He agreed and when the aunt opened the door he found himself in a musty, dark house with all the curtains pulled confronting a woman who appeared to have nothing to live for and who only left the house to attend church on Sundays.

After speaking to her he found there were two things that gave her life meaning, going to church and growing African Violets.  In his own inimical way he said, “You know I don’t think you are a very good Christian and I don’t think your flowers serve much of a purpose either.”

Stunned, the woman asked, “What do you mean?”

“Well, a fundamental tenet of Christianity is caring for others.  You don’t do anything for anyone else and you are the only person who gets joy from these flowers.  I am going to give you a task but I seriously doubt you can do it.  I want you to look into the church bulletin and see if there is anyone who is suffering or grieving and send them one of your plants.  Again, I doubt you will do this.”

I guess the challenge was too much to resist so she did it.  The response from the recipients and the pastor were so positive she did it again.  Soon she was sending violets to anyone she heard of who was in need.  When she died, hundreds of mourners showed up to honor “The African Violet Lady”, a person they saw as a caring and generous woman.  

And it all began with a challenge and one small act of kindness.

Except for one semester, I was a student in University from the fall of 1960 to the fall of 1970.  I saw many changes during that period, one of which was the introduction of drugs to student life. By the end of the decade I was a pretty heavy user of Marijuana and dabbled in other drugs. After I moved to Victoria and took my first job I continued to use drugs recreationally.  

Shortly after Ishiyama Sensei arrived in the mid-seventies and became our Aikido Sensei, he announced we were going to do a demonstration at the university.  We arrived, changed and went onto the mats to warm up.  He approached me and told me I was going to do the knife attacks.  This was fine with me because we had always used wooden knives in practice.  He then went to a small box on the edge of the mats and extracted a long, very pointed metal knife.  As he handed it to me I asked, “How do you want me to attack you?”

“Any way you like,” he responded.

I realized at that point that if either of us made a mistake, I could die. So I did my best to attack at full speed and with lethal intent and he countered every attack.  It seemed like it went on for hours. That night it was broadcast on the local TV station and I realized it was only about three minutes.  But I knew at that time that I wanted to experience every moment of my life with that same awareness and intensity.  I never used drugs again.  

In 1981 I was approached by my Dean regarding a pilot project in Infant Day Care.  In Victoria, B.C. there were no infant day care centers (centres!) and the government was about to initiate a program designed to encourage the establishment of infant day care. The College Day Care Centre was going to be one of the first and he planned to expand our Day Care Worker training program to include infant care.  He wanted me to head up the creation of the program.

I said I would do it but I hadn’t read any research on the subject in 10 years since my graduation from the Institute of Child Development at the University of Minnesota.  I asked him if he would send me to Stanford for a month where the author of the textbook I used in my Child Development class was a professor. He agreed.

I contacted the professor and she agreed to mentor me in this endeavor if I would keep a record of my findings and give a copy to her so she could use the information for her next book.  This sounded like a good trade to me.  Summer came and I was off to Palo Alto while my wife stayed in Victoria with our two sons.  Our trade was that she would fly them down at the end of a month and the boys and I would visit relatives and generally enjoy California, Oregon and Washington while she had time alone.  So the time came and I drove down to Palo Alto where I would stay with my good friend Carol for a month. 

When I got there I was suddenly overwhelmed by the immensity of the commitment I had made.  I had not done anything like this in 10 years and I didn’t like doing it back then.  Also, it was the hottest summer in Northern California history and the first time I walked into the Stanford library I felt smothered by the oppressive heat as there was no air conditioning.  Additionally, I was not in the best emotional state as my wife and I had recently reunited after a separation that had really knocked the wind out of my sails.  And, most importantly, being a Cal graduate, I was feeling guilty for consorting with the enemy, Stanford. 

My first visit to the library lasted about an hour and I left frustrated and angry that I had put myself into this situation without really assessing how difficult it would be for me.  I missed my wife and boys, was not really that excited about the research and remembered that after finishing four years of graduate school, I never wanted to see another journal article as long as I lived.

But I had a job to do so the next day I promised to stay until noon. Reading about infant perception in the morning, I found myself beginning to get interested in the amazing things researchers had discovered about infants over the last 10 years.  The next day I stayed all day and soon I was going in at night and on the weekends. I was amassing reams of note cards and when I met with the prof at the halfway point she was delighted to see my work and said I had saved her many hours of work that she could now spend with her three young children. 

This is a good example of some of the principles of Kaizen, another form of Japanese psychology.  I started small, gradually increased my time on the project, kept with it and the project overcame my emotional state.  It really became my life. More importantly, it proved to me that I could do a very good job on a project that had to be its own reward.  There was no prize, no money or pat on the head when I was done.  Finishing the task with thoroughness and integrity was the only reward.

My clinical supervisor in Seattle once said to me, don’t think of the Psyche as part of you, think of yourself as part of the Psyche.  In the same way, this project was not part of my life, I was part of it.  I was an employee of the project.  It had a life of its own.

There were other benefits as well.  I got to know Carol really well and we remained good friends, exchanging letters at Christmas and at our Birthdays.  One of the first things she told me, having been born on December 25th, was, “I will not accept one card.  You have to send two.” We were on a pretty tight budget but occasionally we would go out to dinner.  Her boyfriend had recently left her and she would offer to pay if I promised to walk by his house with my arm around her feigning mad love and affection.  Also, I joined the Stanford Aikido Club and practiced every day there was a practice.  When I finished the project, the boys came down and we had a great vacation together.  

When I returned we set up the program and the Day Care became a fantastic resource for the community.  The people who actually made this happen were the wonderful teachers in the training program and the exceptional day care supervisors at the centre.  Also, I had a lot of new material for my course in Child Development.  I will always be grateful for the experience this project afforded me.  

Sometimes life wakes you up and change is immediate.  My friend Ron is a great example of this.  Ron’s family owned a very profitable furniture store. From an early age Ron showed great ability in art and design and was a genius working with his hands.  He once showed me a report card from a prestigious private boy’s school which he attended.  All the grades were rather mediocre except art. He excelled at art. He also showed me a picture of a beautiful boat he had built while still in elementary school.  It was a work of art. However, Ron’s parents had other plans for him.  They wanted him to become an architect and a professional of whom they could be proud.  So even though his academic record was not astounding, off he went to study architecture at University.  Not surprisingly, he flunked out.

Ron may have been the most introverted and shy person I have ever met in my life.  Upon returning home after failing in University, his parents took him into the business and made him the director of personnel.  There could not be a job on earth for which Ron was more poorly suited.  Fortunately, he married a woman who was very supportive and realized he could not survive in this job. One day, after waking from a terrible nightmare, he resigned his job, sold his stock and begin a business building wooden toys for children.  He would isolate himself in his garage while doing his woodwork and his wife would handle all sales from the kitchen of her house.  She served as the business manager, doorkeeper and was a welcoming presence who always seemed to have something delicious to offer you while you were picking up toys.    At some point they began to build a boat.  After years of work it was a beautiful sight to see. Eventually they divorced and Ron moved to a local island where he now builds boats that have been commissioned by people who value his unique ability.  What would his life have been like if his parents had seen this gift and nurtured it?

If you were to walk into the office that my wife and I use for our psychotherapy practice, you would see lots of turtles.  Turtles on the desks, turtles on the tables, a turtle candle holder, turtles in the windows and turtles on the floor.  Not live turtles but every kind of turtle you could imagine. You would even see a turtle painted on a drum on the wall and a turtle night light.  There used to be more turtles but my wife said, “Enough is enough.  We are taking some of these home.”   She has replaced them with shells and stones in the same places.  She has her magic and I have mine.

When I taught and worked with the First Nations Salish people of Vancouver Island they told me the turtle clan was the healing clan and that I belonged to that clan.  This was an incredible honor so I started collecting turtles.  People saw my turtles and starting giving me turtles so I have a lot. People have brought them from all over the world.

I have turtles everywhere to remind me to slow down.  My nature is to go fast, to want to finish everything before I need to and come to closure too early.  There is also a practical issue here.  I do not have the physical abilities I had when I was younger and when I get ahead of myself I tend to break things, harm my person and otherwise cause havoc.  

My mother was the same way.  She fell many times in her 80s because this previously active and athletic woman just could not slow down.  She would stand up from her easy chair, set off at breakneck speed only to trip and fall.  On one Super bowl Sunday I got a call from her residence just as the game was going to start.  She had fallen and they could not stop her nosebleed due to her use of blood thinners.  The woman said that my mother had asked her not to call me because she knew I was watching the game but that they were really worried.  

I drove rapidly to the residence where I found my mother covered in blood and rapidly swelling and darkening around the eyes.  I did not feel adequate to deal with this so I called 911 for an ambulance to take her to the hospital.  When the first responder walked in he looked at the game on the TV, then my mother, then me.  "I gather you are rooting for different teams,” he said.  

We all went to the hospital and she sent me home and said, “Don’t come get me until the game is over.”

At the beginning of the final quarter, the hospital called and the nurse told me I had to come get her NOW.  They needed the bed.  I guess Super bowl Sunday is a high volume day in the ER.   The next week I bought a TiVo box.

I used to take her to the Coumadin (blood thinner) clinic to get her blood tested. One time she registered very high blood pressure.  “I am a nervous Nelly and I always will be,” she said.  “And I gave it to him.”  Then looking at me pensively she said, “He doesn’t seem to be like that anymore.”  

I looked at the nurse and said, “Thousands of dollars in therapy.” She said, “Me too.”

One last story about change.  My brother and I were extremely close. I was five years his senior and from the day he was born I felt responsibility for his safety and well-being.  In 1965 my wife and I were living in San Francisco taking courses at S.F. State and preparing to move to Minnesota where I was to begin my Ph.D. studies.  He was still at home in L.A. with my parents.  Shortly before Christmas my father called to tell me that my brother had acute Leukemia and that although he was undergoing new treatment (a variation of which saves children today), he was not expected to live.  Over the next six months he was in and out of hospital, suffering intensely through repeated relapses and remissions.  My life vacillated between the hubris of entering graduate school and the depression resulting from the impending loss of my best friend.  I think I engaged in a lot of denial.  Susan says we visited him once in hospital while he was sick but I have no recollection of that.  The day finally came when my father called to tell us to come to L.A. to say goodbye. 

It was the sixties in San Francisco and compared to my friends at home and my father’s contemporaries, I had long hair.  Today it probably would not even qualify as long hair but it did at that time and it identified me as belonging to a certain cohort that was not popular with my parents’ generation.  Whenever I would go home my dad would offer me money to get it cut and I always refused. I think that although this was a version of what Erikson calls a negative identity (identity through opposition) it also was symbolic of the emergence of my own identity, separate from my family and the dominant culture.  

As my wife and I were getting ready to go to the hospital to say goodbye to Steve my dad said, “I want you to get a haircut before you see him. I want him to remember you as you were.” 

I was completely paralyzed.  I had to choose between being who I was at the time and pleasing my father, who I knew was in a state of total despair.  So I agreed.  After the haircut, as I drove up the driveway to pick up my wife on the way to the hospital she came out of the house with tears running down her face. “Steve is dead,” she said.  I never got to say goodbye to the second most important person in my life.  Tears form in my eyes as I write this fifty years later.

I was psychologically sophisticated enough at the time to know that the real reason I was sent to the barber was so that I would not embarrass my parents. Although not being able to say goodbye to my brother and my best friend was a result of parental narcissism, in some ways it was a powerful experience in the activation of what is called in Psychosynthesis, my own internal unifying center. 

I vowed that day that no matter how my future children presented themselves to the world and no matter what choices they made in life, I would support them for themselves and not how they reflected on me.  Being my parents’ child, I couldn’t always do that but the two fine men I see today are proof that my wife and I, nutty as we were in those early years, got that part right.  I remember when my youngest son was about eight, my wife said to him, “You really like yourself don’t you?”  He looked at her like she was the dumbest person on earth. 

“Of course,” he replied.  She looked at me, smiled and said, “If he only knew what we have had to go through to get to that place that he takes for granted.”

Although I held this against my father for years, when he was dying my mother asked us to come to L.A. to say goodbye to him.  She said she didn’t want the experience with Steve to be repeated and that she was the one who wanted me to get a haircut and had regretted it ever since.  She knew I blamed my Dad and that she didn’t want him going to his grave with that between us.

I think that my wife and I, coming out of very different but equally dysfunctional families, have been our own best parents.  Even during our worst times together we often have been able to sidestep our own narcissism and support what is best for the other.  My wife sometimes says that I saved her from her family but I often wonder about it when I see the humane society bumper sticker, “Who rescued who?”

Psychosynthesis

In the early 70s my friend John gave me some information on Psychosynthesis. After reading a few articles, I became fascinated by the approach to psychotherapy and life in general.  Let me lay out some of the theory.

Think about how you act in different situations.  For example, at work are you one person and at home someone completely different? When you are with your parents or other authority figures do you behave differently again, perhaps like a compliant child or an obstinate rebel?  Are you the outgoing leader with some friends and the passive follower with others?  Like the famous Dr. Jekyll, on some days are you the perfect mate or parent and on other days the diabolical Mr. Hyde?  Do you sometimes wonder, “Why did I do that?” Do you find yourself joyful one moment and in the depths of sadness in the next with no idea of why you experience such intense fluctuations?  In Psychosynthesis we call the people you become in these different situations subpersonalities.  In other words, you assume a different identity in each situation, often without even being aware of it.  

Unfortunately, the beliefs, thoughts, feelings and expectations that motivate our behavior when we are “in” one of these subpersonalities are often unconscious and unexamined and can be completely different for each subpersonality.  This leads to splitting and internal conflict between the different parts of ourselves and we seem to be in a state of war with ourselves and others.  These subpersonalities have formed as a result of early experience and probably served us well in our attempt to survive and even prosper in our families and culture. However, in adulthood these patterns that reflect our adaptation to what and how others wanted us to be do not reflect our true nature nor are they effective in the world we now inhabit. In fact, they may be quite destructive and counterproductive.  For example, someone who complied and was always nice in order to avoid physical abuse from an alcoholic father may find herself constantly bending to the whims of others and not looking after her own welfare. This kind of person often asks, “Why do I keep doing this.”

Although this is not a healthy or happy existence, in our culture it is “normal.” Many of us live in a trance as we follow the dictates of these parts of ourselves that do not reflect our basic nature or our deeper desire to live in harmony within ourselves and with others. While in this trance we can experience addictions, compulsions, poor interpersonal relationships and a general unhappiness that can appear as depression, anxiety or as other psychological symptoms.

Psychosynthesis is a process that carefully opens the doors to the unconscious realms and shines a light on the dark secrets that keep us prisoners of our past. As we examine the genesis of these subpersonalities and discern which aspects of each subpersonality are congruent with our true nature and which are not, it becomes possible to reconstruct ourselves in harmony with our true selves so that we can become whole people who interact in a healthy manner with both the world around us and the world within.  

We all come into this world potentially whole.  By this I mean that we have the possibility of living out a destiny that is congruent with the gifts that reflect our own unique being. If you are comfortable with a spiritual perspective, you might conceptualize this as following your soul’s journey.  If you are not comfortable with this approach, you might look at this way of being as living in harmony with your own intrinsic nature or even your own genetic code.  

If you have observed very young children you probably have noticed how unique each child is, even shortly after birth.  Some are very wary and observant of the world around them and others are virtually oblivious to their environment.  You may have noticed that some are “people oriented” and some are “object oriented.”  As a parent, it was a shock to me that this uniqueness surfaced very early in my children and seemed totally independent of and resistant to environmental factors. One would wake if a pin dropped and the other would not be awakened by a train barreling through the front room. One has always been fascinated by ideas and the other by concrete problems to be solved.  Effective parents see these unique traits and abilities in their children and engage in mirroring their children.  In other words, they see that their children have certain abilities and dispositions and they actively recognize and foster, or at least accept, these aspects. When this happens we say that there is an empathic response from the parent to the child’s authentic self.  This does not mean we cannot set limits or teach our children good social skills. It just means that good parents have a basic respect for who the child is as they engage in the difficult process of preparing children for adult life.

Unfortunately, most of us do not experience perfect parenting nor are we perfect parents ourselves.  When, as children, our abilities and feelings are not recognized or actually are demeaned or punished and we are dismissed, shamed or otherwise experience an empathic failure, we learn very quickly what is acceptable and what is not.  For a child, rejection by a parent is terrifying and, in the child’s mind, can be experienced as life threatening.  In Psychosynthesis we call this the fear of nonbeing.  As a response to this and other fears we develop subpersonalities that help us cope with the world around us and insure our survival.  This is why we call these adaptations survival subpersonalities.

A common example is the subpersonality of “The Pleaser.”  If parents only mirror and shine on their child when he or she is compliant and helpful and meets the parents’ expectations, the child may develop a subpersonality that as an adult requires the person to be helpful and giving in order to feel any self-worth.  The person may also experience an inability to form boundaries, say “no” or know what he or she actually wants in life.  Another child might respond to this expectation by developing “The Rebel,” whose identity and self-esteem is dependent upon constantly being in opposition to authority and others’ expectations.   In fact, both of these subpersonalities could exist in one person. The important factor here is that we, as adults, often are not aware of the unconscious motivations and feelings behind the behavior we exhibit when we are “in” these subpersonalities.

Each subpersonality has its own way of interacting consciously with the world but there are two unconscious aspects of each that are very important.  The painful, shaming experiences of childhood are pushed out of our conscious awareness and into what we call the lower unconscious.  Outside of our awareness, these unconscious memories and experiences often drive the behavior we exhibit when we are acting out of that subpersonality.  In fact, at its most extreme, the main goal of the subpersonality is to avoid all feelings and memories that resurface in situations that resemble the original wounding experience and, in the mind of the inner child, activate the threat of nonbeing. On the other hand, those gifts and unique aspects of our being that were not accepted and for which we were shamed are also repressed into what we call the higher unconscious. In this realm such denigrated characteristics as intuition, sensitivity, creativity and artistic ability may reside completely hidden.

The initial work of Psychosynthesis involves examining each of the subpersonalities while delving into the repressed unconscious experiences that led to their creation.  The process of uncovering the painful experiences as well as our true gifts can be lengthy and intense but very rewarding as we discover the motivation behind outmoded, destructive and maladaptive behavior, thoughts and feelings contained in the farther reaches of the subpersonalities.  

As we examine how the subpersonalities were formed, how they have evolved into adult subpersonalities, how they form alliances between each other and how they experience conflict with each other we see that some aspects of each subpersonality may be helpful to us in our journey to wholeness and happiness. It also becomes clear that other aspects, useful in surviving our youthful fears, are no longer helpful, limit our ability to function and are downright destructive.

Most importantly, we want to integrate the positive aspects of each subpersonality into our everyday life.  This process is called synthesis.  We want to synthesize the many subpersonalities into one whole personality which, although it may behave differently in different situations, always reflects the true wholeness of the person we really are and helps us to reach our individual destiny.  Our behavior becomes a product of conscious thought and feeling rather than being driven by unconscious shame and guilt and the avoidance of nonbeing.  We refer to this ultimate state as functioning from the authentic self.  

As memories surface and the unconscious material becomes conscious, a sense of “I” begins to evolve.  In other words, an observer that is independent of childhood or cultural conditioning begins to surface and we begin to see who we really are, how we actually experienced early life and how we want to live life now, in harmony with but not bound by the expectations of others.  As Psychosynthesis progresses, it becomes clear that the “I” is a reflection of a deeper aspect of you, your self. The self is the ultimate expression of who you are and, if you have a spiritual approach to life, a representation of your soul.  If you are not comfortable with this concept, think of the self as the totality of all of your potential and experiences which possesses the innate knowledge of exactly how you should lead your life.  

In Psychosynthesis we speak of the will, which provides the impetus for our behavior. The will of the survival personality drives you to respond to life in a way that avoids re-experiencing the wounding of your childhood and the fear of nonbeing.  As we age, these responses become less and less satisfying and eventually become counterproductive.  Their ineffectiveness and the unhappiness that accompanies them is often the reason we end up in psychotherapy. The “I” has its own will and as it becomes stronger during the process of Psychosynthesis, it is able to direct your behavior in a way that is more congruent with your nature than the dictates of survival personalities. Ultimately, you may experience the will of the self which can appear as a calling or a motivation to action that you cannot possibly ignore regardless of how foolish it may seem to others.

As the “I” strengthens and the self becomes clearer, it becomes possible to disidentify from each subpersonality.  In other words, we can still inhabit the subpersonality but the behavior we associate with the subpersonality is now serving the healthy needs of the self rather than keeping unconscious fears at bay.  For example, one may begin to parent in a way that serves the needs and healthy authentic development of your children rather than serving your own primitive need to feel safe by being in control or serving the need for your children’s culturally sanctioned accomplishments to augment your own self-image. You may begin to do your job in a way that makes the most sense to you and allows you accomplish more than when you were working primarily for the approval and adulation of your coworkers and superiors.  On the other hand, you may find that as the need for the approval of others wanes you feel a desperate need to explore a career that reflects your basic nature and not the expectation of parents, spouses or the culture in general.  Be warned that such major transformations, although personally healthy, can be very disturbing to the others in your life.  This is not a process to be taken lightly.

Although dredging up the past and recovering memories and feelings that are painful can be very unpleasant, the freedom from unconscious control allows one to fully function in the present without the need for validation from others or the need to meet unrealistic expectations of yourself and others contained within the unconscious areas of unexamined subpersonalities.  It becomes possible for you to be a happy, satisfied and whole person just being who you really are.

I have been asked, “Isn’t this all about me? Is this not a selfish, self-absorbed and narcissistic process in which I am involved?”  My experience has been quite the opposite.  When we are operating from the needs of survival subpersonalities, our motivation is unconscious, driven by unrealistic demands and fundamentally designed to keep us safe from our fear of nonbeing.  We behave with hidden agendas (often hidden from ourselves), we blame others, project our feelings and motivations onto others and are generally unhappy whenever the world doesn’t live up to our expectations.  Living from the self allows us to moderate the need for external validation, relate to others in an authentic, altruistic and empathic manner and to be fundamentally satisfied and happy with life.  This is the beauty of Psychosynthesis, a path to self-acceptance and harmony in both the internal and external world.  

Some Useful Psychological Concepts

The Guilt-Resentment-Persecution Triangle describes the dynamic of many relationships.  The idea here is that if you use guilt to convince someone to do what you want them to do they will do it but feel resentment.  Sometimes the resentment is conscious and sometimes unconscious. Resentment then morphs into persecution. This can take many forms.  One of the most common is passive aggressive behavior. Forgetting, postponing, or just plain not doing are examples of this behavior.  I knew someone once who was a master at this. His wife kept on asking him to put in skylights that they had bought and he kept agreeing but never did it.  Finally, she erupted, showed him where to put them in and demanded that he do it, shaming him in the process.  He finally did it but he “accidentally” put them in the wrong places.  The example of the boy I forced to learn letters earlier was also exhibiting passive aggressive behavior when he learned his letters and them presented them to me in an insulting way.  

The Victim-Rescuer-Persecutor drama is also a useful way of seeing some relationships.  When one sees oneself as a victim it is often assumed others fall into one of two categories, rescuer or persecutor.  And if you are not a rescuer you are definitely a persecutor.  Although there are real victims out there, someone who continually takes the victim stance often is not willing to take responsibility for his or her behavior and blames others for the consequences of that behavior. Heaven help the person that points out that this person is often responsible for his or her own predicament.  A common pattern seen in narcissistic individuals begins with the narcissist feeling like a victim because others are not giving him the constant validation he needs and feels he deserves.  This validation actually serves the purpose of fending off unconscious feelings of inferiority and inadequacy.  Usually, when validation is not forthcoming the narcissist then feels justified in becoming the persecutor and will attack those who hold him responsible for his attitudes and behaviors.  Unfortunately, there is usually someone out there who, for his or her own conscious or unconscious reasons, will step up and rescue the narcissist.  This can be called collusion.  One need only read the entertainment or political news sections to see this drama replayed over and over.  

Unconscious empathy is a skill that some people possess without even knowing it. It involves unconsciously picking up what another person is feeling even though the other person may not be expressing it. The feeling is then perceived as coming from the receiver. Have you noticed that sometimes after speaking with or spending time with a particular person you feel angry or depressed or inadequate?  While this feeling may belong to you, sometimes you are unconsciously picking up what the other is not willing to recognize in him- or herself.  While this is a great tool, especially if you are a therapist, it is also a curse.  People with this skill, often called “sensitives”, need to learn how to discriminate between their own feelings and the feelings of others not being expressed. Psychological boundaries that protect us from unconscious assault are also important to develop.  

Much has been written about the concepts “Masculine” and “Feminine” and the differences between them.  I do not think these are particularly helpful concepts in the 21st century. They often suffer from overgeneralization or stereotyping and tend to be used in a pejorative manner.  I think the concepts of Eros and Logos are more useful.  Eros is the domain of feelings, connection, empathy and intuition.  Logos is the domain of thought, logic and rational analysis. Both are necessary but in the past the former has been ascribed to women and the latter to men.  Traditionally, men who live in the world of Eros are seen as sissies and women who live in the world of Logos are seen as unfeeling and cold.  Although everyone usually favors one of these approaches to life over the other, it is a balance that is necessary, both in men and women. Different situations require different solutions.

A third principle that is neither Eros or Logos is the Power principle. The Power principle is neither relational or logical.  The fundamental axiom is “might makes right.”  I am bigger and more powerful so you will do as I say.  History is replete with examples of this principle and it usually doesn’t end well for the powerful, even if it takes generations to overcome the oppressor.  It is particularly destructive in relationships between people and especially damaging to children.  Also, like guilt, it engenders resentment and eventually retaliation, if possible.  

The Inflation Deflation cycle is a useful concept to understand mood swings and such concepts as narcissism, depression and anxiety.  A simple analogy my supervisor once used is helpful understanding this cycle.  Think of your personality as a balloon.  A balloon that is underinflated will not support itself.  It just lays there.  A balloon that is overinflated is very large but very thin and can be popped easily. The key to a healthy personality is to have a balloon that is just the right size to support itself but not so big that it pops easily when life does not support your self-concept or inflated ideas you have about yourself. Many people oscillate between these two states depending on the feedback the world around them provides. 

Good parenting is about helping a child develop a personality that can support itself and be content in the world and at the same time not be so big that it ignores the needs of others and is self-absorbed or narcissistic.  Narcissism is the psyche’s way of blowing up a big balloon to cover the unconscious little, flaccid balloon that is the true nature of the narcissist.  

How do we encourage and support our children in their quest to be themselves and be effective in the world without creating a narcissistic monster?  Here are some ideas.

Parenting

Parenting is a very difficult task.  This statement will, of course, surprise no-one who has actually tried it.  In the fifty years my wife and I have shared the title of parent, we have, like everyone else, learned gradually through trial and error what it means to be good parents.  We are still learning.  I sometimes wonder how parents cope with the number of books, courses and "experts” who are willing to tell them how to raise children.  It must be very frustrating, especially since many of the experts seem to disagree with each other.  My daughter-in-law said than when she expressed her fears about parenting to her grandmother she replied, “There are probably 100 ways to raise children and 99 of them are ok.”  I spent a lot of time working with parents both as a teacher and a therapist. Here are some of the ideas I thought were important.

There are two things you can do to begin becoming a better parent. First, find some way to rediscover the memories of your own childhood. When did you feel good about yourself? When did you feel bad?  What would you change about your parents and what would you leave untouched if you had your childhood to do over again?  Parents who remain naive about this part of their lives are likely to re-enact the negative aspects of their own childhood in some way with their own children.  Through reading, reflection, discussion or therapy you can re-parent yourself and break the cycle of abusive or ineffectual parenting that is often passed from generation to generation.  Secondly, familiarize yourself with developmental psychology. Find out what needs and behaviors are normal for children in your child’s age group.  Often, what may seem strange or unruly to parents is normal for children in a particular age group.  In addition to these two fundamental tasks, there are a variety of parenting techniques and ideas that I have found to be very helpful which I will present in the following pages.

It seems to me that the most important thing you can do as a parent is to recognize who your child is.  What is his temperament? What are her interests? What are his strengths and what are his challenges?  Above all else it is important to recognize that this is her life and not yours.  Children should not have to live out their parents unrealized dreams and aspirations. My previous story about Ron is a good example of this.  Given this assumption, there are some useful tools for helping children to develop within a family and culture while still maintaining their own identity.  Let’s look at the four strokes first.

A stroke is something you experience from the environment around you.  A positive stroke such as a smile or praise feels good, while a negative stroke, such as criticism or a spanking, feels bad.  A stroke is said to be conditional if something has to be done by the child to receive it.  On the other hand, unconditional strokes are not related to the child’s behavior.  For example, if the child takes out the garbage and mother says, “Thanks a lot,” this is a conditional positive stroke.  Sending a child to her room after she teased her sister is a conditional negative stroke.  In both cases, the stroke was a result of some specific act.  In one case the consequence, or stroke, was positive and in the other it was negative.  "I love you” is an unconditional positive stroke since your love, which feels good, is not connected to anything the child has done.  If you are in a lousy mood and you say to a child, “Get lost,” this is an unconditional negative stroke.  This remark feels bad and is in no way related to anything she has done.  What are the effects of these different strokes?

The receipt of unconditional positive strokes is absolutely essential to the formation of positive self-esteem in a child.  The message conveyed is, “you are o.k. for who you are; no matter what you do I will still love you.”  Many parents who were abused or neglected as children have never experienced this kind of stroke and, as a result, don’t understand the importance of letting their own child know how much they care for her.  For many parents, their own unhappiness may be so great that they cannot express love or appreciation to anyone.  For these kinds of parents, repairing their own self-esteem through therapy is the first step towards being able to give positive strokes to their child.

One of the most meaningful ways you can deliver unconditional positive strokes to your child is to spend time doing what she likes to do.  This may be swimming, reading a book, going for bike rides, preparing a meal together or just hanging out.  Children invest their parents with a lot of power.  You are very important to your child. Spending time with a child doing what she likes to do gives the child the message that you consider her needs important and that you like her. This is a message that enhances her self-esteem.  Of the four strokes, this is the most important for children to receive from their parents and is, unfortunately, the least common.  Unconditional positive strokes by themselves are not enough however. This does not prepare a child for a world in which there are limits and can lead to an inflated sense of self, sometimes termed omnipotence or narcissism.

Conditional positive strokes, while they also enhance self-esteem in the child, act as reinforcement of behavior that is considered acceptable, appropriate or pleasing by the parents.  For example, when you say to your child, “You did a good job,” or “I really appreciate you taking your dishes to the sink,” or “Thank you for picking up your clothes,” it not only gives her a feeling of accomplishment and self-worth, but also serves to increase the behavior that earned the stroke. We will talk more about this later.

The conditional negative stroke, or punishment, as it is more commonly known, is, unfortunately, the most common tool parents use to try to influence their children’s behavior. Parents tend to use punishment because it is fast and easy and often puts an immediate end to an unacceptable behavior.  However, in the long run, punishment often does not work.  While punishment teaches a child what kind of behavior is considered inappropriate, it does not necessarily teach her what is appropriate.  For instance, if you punish a child for whining, she doesn’t really learn another more constructive way to ask for things she wants. In the end she probably will whine because it occasionally pays off, making the punishment worth suffering.  Punishment also has the effect of arousing a child emotionally and she may get upset, angry, or fearful.  Stirring up these intense negative emotions does nothing to help a child learn appropriate behavior and, when the child begins to associate these feelings with the punisher, she may form a negative image of the parent in her mind.  The child learns to fear, avoid and lie to her parent. Furthermore, punishment, especially physical punishment (e.g., hitting or spanking), models negative behavior. If a child is hit every time she does something a parent doesn’t like, the message is: “If you don’t like what someone is doing, hit her.”  Punishment is also likely to result in revenge.  The punished child may see herself at the losing end of a power struggle and try to find a way of getting even, often by repeating the behavior she was punished for in the first place.  Prolonged or severe punishment will result in the formation of a negative self-image as the child incorporates the belief that she is bad. Punishment may sometimes be deemed necessary by a parent, but is often overused in our culture.  We will discuss some alternatives later.

Because of our own inability to deal with a child or because of problems in our own lives, we may feel compelled to deal out unconditional negative strokes to our children. Sarcasm, critical remarks about a child’s character (“You are a bad child.”) or the use of undeserved negative strokes of any kind is abuse.  This is devastating to the self-esteem of the child who receives it.  Since the negative stroke is in no way related to the child’s behavior, the message to the child is “you are not worthwhile no matter what you do.”  Many parents will recognize this kind of stroke from their own childhood, and should eliminate it from their own parenting. Unlike punishment, which may be unavoidable, abuse is never appropriate.

Knowing that negative strokes are to be avoided, how can we as parents deal with misbehavior? There are essentially three options we have open to us in these situations.  

The first option is for a parent to change herself or her attitudes toward her child’s behavior. It is important for parents to realize that their thoughts about how children should behave are based mostly on their own specific experience in a family and in a culture. Sometimes, these expectations are not realistic and behavior that you consider inappropriate may be entirely normal for a child of a given age.  This is why it is important to have some knowledge of developmental psychology. Find out what is normal for children the same age as your own.  For example, if your two year old daughter is constantly saying “no!” is getting into everything and is generally driving you crazy, you may have to give up trying to control her every move through constant punishment and accept this as normal for a child of her age.  This doesn’t mean there shouldn’t be consequences for her behavior, but it is extremely important to remember that, in most cases, what you are seeing is not deviant nor aimed at you personally.  This is particularly important to keep in mind when dealing with adolescents who have a natural bent toward independence and question all forms of authority.  I have found pediatricians, day-care supervisors, parenting courses and other parents to be helpful sources of information about normal, age-appropriate behavior.

Changing yourself or your attitudes will not always be the right choice and may lead the child to an unrealistic belief that the world will change to meet her demands.  If this is the case, one of the other two options will be more appropriate.  However, examining your own behavior and attitudes is always a good place to start.

The second option involves changing the environment.  To return to the example of the two year old, this approach would involve accepting her curiosity as normal and moving everything breakable or dangerous in the house above the child’s reach.  Eventually she will lose interest in these objects and also learn what she can and can’t touch.  Sometimes children are in classrooms or schools that are not suited to them. This is another situation in which you might like to change the environment.  Again, this may not be the best approach.  In some cases it may be best for her to learn to cope with less than perfect situations and realize that the world will not always accommodate to her.

The final option, the one which parents most frequently turn to, is to try to change the child, usually in the form of punishment.  While this particular response is relatively easy and quick, it is not very effective and has, as we have already seen, many negative side effects.  As an alternative to punishment, there are several ways we can modify behavior.  Let’s look at them.

As a preventative measure, I would suggest that the most important thing a parent can do is to provide a good role model for the child. Behave as you would like the child to behave.  Children learn best by modeling.  If they see violent, negative behavior, that is what they will model. All the parenting skills combined cannot undo bad models.  

It is also important to state limits clearly.  Often children will misbehave just to find out what the limits are, their thinking being, “How far can I go before she will react?”  Limits must also be consistent.  If, for example, it is o.k. to throw toys on one day, but a punishable offence on the next, the child learns that the world is an unsafe and unpredictable place and will probably act out her anxiety in some way that you will find unpleasant.  This is not to say that limits can’t change. When you realize that a limit is unrealistic or unfair, it is time to change it. When dealing with older children, for example, good parents will listen and try to come to some mutual agreement about fair limits.  

The most effective way of changing behavior is through conditional positive strokes or positive reinforcement.  Many children misbehave in order to get attention. The theory behind positive reinforcement is to grant children the attention they desire when they are behaving appropriately and to deny it when they are misbehaving.  In other words, reinforce appropriate behavior, ignore negative behavior.  A former student of mine who taught dance to school-age children told me about a child who was a constant source of disruption in her class,  He would stand in the back row of the class gyrating and making strange sounds.  At first, she would stop the class and admonish him, but this had no effect.  This behavior became more frequent and disruptive as the class progressed.  Finally, at the end of her wits and having turned into a screaming banshee, she decided he had to go.  As a last resort, however, she decided to try positive reinforcement.  She completely ignored him when he acted up in class and paid attention to him only when he was acting appropriately. Amazingly, within about two weeks he was one of the best members of her class.  The secret to her success was a process called shaping.  When we shape a behavior, we begin by reinforcing any small approach to the expected behavior.  In this case, she began by reinforcing him when he was standing still and paying attention.  When the initial task is learned, the child is reinforced for gradual improvements and failure or negative behavior is ignored until the final goal is reached. Thus the child experiences positive strokes for attempting to change rather than experiencing punishment and failure.

Changing a child’s behavior is seldom as easy as was described in the above example.  One of the problems with children who misbehave for attention is that they have learned that the only way they will get attention is to misbehave. Often, a child will decide that a negative stroke is better than no stroke at all. In these cases, the continued negative responses she receives lead to the development of low self-esteem. Furthermore, children with very poor self-esteem sometimes reach the point where negative responses from others take on the role of positive reinforcements.  In other words, the child’s attitude is, “I only feel good when someone is treating me badly.”  Life for these children becomes one attempt after another to get someone to yell at them, hit them or otherwise respond negatively.  Parents, not knowing any other response, deliver negative strokes thinking they are punishing the child when they are, in fact, reinforcing negative behavior and solidifying low self-esteem.

People with poor self-esteem are destructive to themselves and to others. When I worked in a residential treatment center in the early 70’s, we admitted a boy who was the angriest, meanest six-year-old I had ever met.  His favorite pastimes were setting cats on fire and smearing dog feces inside little girl’s mouths.  He was the product of a violent and alcoholic home and his whole life seemed to be dedicated to enraging adults to the point where they would become abusive with him. I decided to implement a plan which consisted of completely ignoring him until he did something positive.  This plan was to be carried out by all staff members at the center.  About five minutes into the plan, he broke a window.  He was ignored and, to his amazement, no one responded. Realizing something was amiss, he found the smallest, most defenseless girl in the center and began pounding her mercilessly in the face. Obviously we had to immediately stop him and find some consequence for his behavior. I’ll never forget the grin on his face as I marched him away to his room. He had won.

There are two factors which contributed to this boy’s behavior.  The first is the need for attention which we have already discussed. Children must feel they can affect the people around them.  If they cannot affect you in a way that results in you giving them positive strokes, they will find out how to produce negative strokes.  The second is the need for power.  Children who feel powerless in their lives will attempt to gain power by acting in ways that are destructive to themselves and to others. How can we as parents ensure that our children have a feeling of power over their lives?  With young children, this can be as simple as letting them pick out their own clothes, or which bedtime story to read.  As they get older, you might let them set their own bedtime and decide which TV shows they want to watch.  Responsible parenting allows you to gradually give a child more and more control over her own life.  Children who know you respect and trust them will respond in kind.  A child who receives your trust will be trustworthy herself.  

Parents sometimes allow children too much power.  Children should not be allowed the freedom to decide to stop brushing their teeth, eat unhealthily, verbally or physically abuse others, miss sleep or participate in dangerous activities.  This is neglect and can result in omnipotent children who have little regard for others and believe life should meet all of their expectations.  The proper balance of autonomy allowed and limits imposed is something we all have struggled with as parents.  Children need power over some aspects of their lives, but they also need to feel safe in the hands of a parent who is in control of herself and the welfare of the child.

I would like to make one last comment about power.  Beware of power struggles. Try to avoid them by planning ahead and seeing what difficulties will arise in situations you face.  Don’t get into battles you can’t win.  Decide what rules and limits are really important.  Be really clear about them and don’t back down. Everything else should be negotiable or flexible, depending on the situation. Although children understand and respect strength in parents, they also place great value on fairness.  It is wise to avoid power struggles but we all eventually find ourselves in these battles which constitute the worst (and sometimes the funniest) memories of our parenting lives.  Try to have a sense of humor.  

Another alternative to punishment is the use of consequences. Consequences can be natural or logical.  A natural consequence is a consequence that occurs directly as a result of a child’s behavior and without the parent’s intervention.  If you go out in the rain without rain gear you will get wet and cold. If you do not eat dinner you get hungry. I do not recommend the following technique but it was an interesting example of learning as a result of natural consequences. When my son was about nine or ten months old, I was trying to teach him to stay away from hot things.  I would point to the stove and say, “Hot!”  He would put his hand on a cold burner and say “Hot!” very pleased with himself.  I used lots of different objects to try and teach this, all to no avail, since nothing was ever really hot. One day I was sitting drinking a cup of coffee and he walked up to me.  I pointed to the coffee and said “Hot!” Before I could stop him he stuck his finger into the coffee, immediately withdrew it and yelled, “HOT!” From that point on he always avoided anything I told him was hot. Again, I do not recommend this procedure, but it does exemplify the principle of natural consequences.

Often behaviors do not have natural consequences, or the consequences are so awful you cannot let a child experience them. For example, you do not teach children about not going in the street by allowing them to be hit by cars.  You can, however, apply logical consequences in these situations.  Logical consequences are consequences which make sense to the child and are linked in some logical way to the behavior.  Spanking, for example, is not logically related to any behavior, nor is being sent to your room without dinner because you swore.  Not getting desert because you did not eat your meal, however, is a logical consequence because the consequence is related to the behavior, eating your meal.  When I was trying to teach my one-year-old son not to go in the street I used logical consequences.  I would hold his hand, walk with him to the curb and say, “No street.”  He would look at me like I was crazy and say “No street.”  I would then let go and if he walked into the street I would pick him up, say “No!” firmly and take him into the house.  He would protest but we would stay inside for a while just to make the point. Going inside is a logical consequence to not behaving safely outside. I repeated this each day, each time moving farther away as he reached the curb, turned around, smiled and said “No street.”  When I felt that he had learned not to go in the street, I let him wander while I sat on the porch and watched.  One day he began to walk toward the corner about a half a block away.  My wife started after him but I said, “Let’s see what happens.”  When he got to the corner he turned his head, smiled, said “No,no,no!” and came back.  Needless to say, he got a lot of positive strokes for that decision.  

In the end, you may have to resort to punishment, but it should be your last option.  If you do resort to punishment, make sure it is being carried out for the child’s good and not yours.  In other words, the punishment should teach the child about limits or consequences and not be just the result of your frustration or anger. Avoid physical punishment.  This is bad modeling and is not necessary. Lastly, it is important to separate the behavior from the child; make sure the child understands that, though you may not like what she is doing, you still love her. Improving a child’s behavior at the expense of her self-esteem is a hollow victory.

It is important to not confuse reinforcement or positive strokes with bribery or natural and logical consequences with threatening. Reinforcement is spontaneous or part of a contract.  For example, we may reinforce a child who has just brought home a great report card or a child may earn a certain amount of money by completing tasks for which she is responsible.  We may spontaneously reinforce a child because she has done something that we have decided is appropriate or more mature than we previously accepted.  For example, a child may begin to baby-sit her younger sister when you go out. These are all things that are good for the child.  On the other hand, bribery is a calculated way to get a child to do something for you, usually after the child has started misbehaving.  For example, a child starts to scream in the store and we say, “Be quiet and I’ll get you a chocolate bar.”  The child learns, “If I misbehave long enough I will eventually get what I want.”  If we are going to reward a child for good behavior, it should be spontaneous or agreed upon before you go in the store. If the child misbehaves, no reward will be forthcoming.  

Threats are not very effective because, like bribes, they are usually made after the negative behavior begins.  In addition, threats are often seen as a challenge by the child, who may think to herself, “Let’s just see if she means this.”  Also, parents often threaten consequences that cannot be carried out, or that hurt the parent more than the child.  If I want to go shopping and tell my toddler that she will be taken home if she misbehaves, I am actually giving her a wonderful way to avoid shopping and setting myself up for a disappointing day or an opportunity to go back on my word.  Before getting into potentially troublesome situations, be really clear with your children what you expect of them and what will happen if they do or do not meet your expectations.  Do not make the child wait too long for positive consequences and if you resort to a negative consequence, it should be clear why this is happening.  

This reminds me of an experience I had with my youngest son. Threats are almost always a bad idea with children.  Threats you can’t carry out are even worse.  It was Halloween and we were going to take the boys to a party at our oldest son’s school after dinner.  We were having shrimp salad and my youngest son refused to eat any. So at first I told him we wouldn’t go until he ate two bites.  He refused.  Now I had really set myself up here in a power struggle I could not win.  We were going no matter what.  So I backed down to one bite. Still no agreement.  So I picked up a shrimp, stuffed it in his mouth, picked him up and loaded him into the car.  At the party he ate candy, bobbed for apples, played games and generally had a great time.  When we came home we put them to bed and he was so exhausted he was sound asleep before I could even kiss him goodnight.  As I leaned over to kiss him, his mouth opened and there on his lower gum was the shrimp.  

Parents ask a lot of questions about discipline.  Instead of thinking of discipline as punishment, it is helpful to think of it as teaching children how to govern their own behavior.  The child who has experienced unconditional love, conditional positive strokes, limits, good models and a minimum of negativity is not going to need to misbehave for attention or to prove her own power.  However, all children (and adults) misbehave.  What is important is our reaction to that behavior.

We said earlier that there were three ways to respond to misbehavior: Change yourself, change the environment or change the child.  All three approaches are appropriate in different situations. It is important to decide which one is best in the particular situation in which you find yourself.  Elizabeth Creary, in her book Beyond Spanking and Spoiling, says that the best way to answer the question, “What should I do?” is to ask yourself another question: “How can the needs of the child and my(our) needs get satisfied in this situation?”  Considering only your own needs produces a child who feels unloved and unseen, while considering only the child’s produces a spoiled child who does not understand how to get along with others.  The goal is to work toward a compromise which will lead to a situation in which both your needs and the child’s needs can be met.  To do this you may have to change yourself or your expectations, change the child’s environment, or you may have to change the child.

Children are not machines–you cannot learn how to “fix” them in courses or books. Although these sources of information are helpful, you cannot apply pat, simple solutions to complex problems. Bruno Bettleheim, in his book, The Good Enough Parent, says the key to being a good enough parent is to first understand why the child is doing what she is doing.  He maintains that, based on the child’s experience and level of understanding, everything a child does makes sense to her at the time.  According to Bettleheim, the first step in dealing with a problem is to understand the child’s perspective.  Why is the child doing what she is doing?  Is she scared?  Is she desperate for attention or power in her life?  Is she just acting like a normal four-year-old?  This approach requires us to listen to children. Although I have not addressed this topic here, it is extremely important and entire books have been written on the subject.  I enthusiastically recommend learning how to listen to your children if you have trouble in this area.  Secondly, he advises us to try and remember what it was like to be a child, to try to imagine what our own responses might have to the situations that cause problems for our children.  

Closely related to this idea is the concept of mirroring.  Mirroring entails recognizing what your child is feeling or thinking and reflecting it back.  This process begins with comforting an unhappy baby, returning her smiles and gazes and engaging in loving conversations with the cooing and babbling infant. Later we can show children that we understand why they are unhappy or angry even though we may not alter our limits or environment to satisfy the child’s desires.  A friend of mine once told me of an experience with her two-year-old granddaughter who was staying with her while her mother was delivering her second child. At one point during the week the toddler picked up a doll and started banging its head against the table while repeating over and over, “No want baby!”  My friend said, “I know you are angry and it is ok to be angry about having to share mommy, but it is not ok to hit the baby. Mommy and Grandma will love you just as much now as we did before the baby came.”  This process of mirroring tells the child her feelings and perceptions are valid even if her behavior is not acceptable.  It tells the child she matters and is worthy of existence in this world.  Mirroring helps to form a sense of self which will help a child to make healthy decisions later in life.

If we are able to do these two things, understand the child’s motives and feel what the child feels, we will most likely make the right decisions. Trust in your own intuition and your ability to become better at this very difficult task of childrearing. Integrate the information you feel is helpful with what you know in your heart is right for you and your child. Remember that, no matter what else happens, if your child leaves childhood knowing you love her and will always love her and has been given the tools necessary to negotiate the perils of life, you have been successful.  She will accept herself, will be able to love others and pass this gift to her own children.

White Seal Speaks

On March 12, 1862 the steamship Brother Jonathan arrived in Victoria, British Columbia, Canada from San Francisco.  It brought with it a most unwelcome guest, Smallpox.  When the disease began to appear in the locals, the government moved to inoculate as many people as possible. As many white people as possible, that is.  When native people camping near Victoria became ill, they were forced to leave and return to their villages.  There was no attempt to vaccinate them.  Between April and December of 1862, half of the indigenous population between Victoria and Alaska perished.  Later, more died.

Around the same time, the government started sending boats into the inlets where native villages lay.  They would tell the inhabitants that they had one hour to get their children ready to leave for residential schools run by the Catholic and Anglican churches. There the children lost their families, their names, their language, their culture, their religion and in many cases, their innocence and virginity.  All of this in the name of “civilizing the Indians” and bringing them to Jesus.  After my wife read this she said, “They didn’t lose it. It was stolen.”  A moving story was told to me by a man whose grandmother experienced this travesty.  When I said, “You should write down her stories,” he replied, “She says you have stolen everything else from us, you can’t steal our stories too.”

This history, and many more injustices, were on my mind when I first arrived at the Red Lion Inn in Victoria on a crisp fall morning to begin teaching a basic counseling skills course to some of the Salish people of Vancouver Island. Never in my life have I met a kinder, more welcoming group of students.  After all we had done to them, they still made me feel welcome.

The tribes, or bands, had horrible social issues.  Drug and alcohol abuse, family violence, sexual abuse and suicide were rampant. Each band had a social worker who had to deal with these problems.  Often the workers had no training and few resources and were overwhelmed and desperate for help.  From this need sprang the Camosun College Native Band Social Worker program.  I was chosen to teach several of the courses, beginning with Basic Counseling Skills, a week long all day program of instruction.

I remember unloading my station wagon that was packed with boxes of reprints and then carefully reviewing my presentation schedule complete with exercises and role plays before arriving at the classroom promptly at 9:00am.  No one was there.  Around 9:30 people began to straggle in and at 10 I began.  At lunchtime I carried all my boxes back to the car unopened and returned them to the college.  It was clear to me this was nothing like any group I had ever taught before.  What did I have to offer these people?  The problems were horrendous and I was lost as to how to approach the topic in a way that made sense.  I should have known then that I would learn much more from them than they would learn from me.  In retrospect, teaching in that program was one of the highlights of my life.

The indigenous people of Canada like to be referred to as First Nations people and they do have their own nations.  Nothing was more moving than watching some of my former students graduating from University with degrees in social work wearing the beautiful beaded and buttoned capes of their people.  While other students were introduced by their name only, the names of First Nation students were followed by phases like, “From the Salish Nation” or “From the Haida Nation.”  It seems to me this communicates that, “Yes we are part of Canada but we are our own people.”  This, in spite of all we have done to try to destroy that identity.

My first lesson was about the First Nations concept of time.  At the end of the day I asked if we could start on time the next day.  

“What time?” one student asked.  

I said, “How about 9:30?”  

He said, “9:30 white man time or Indian time?”  

“What is the difference?” I asked curiously.  

“White man time, 9:30.  Indian time, see you for lunch.”

Everybody laughed and we decided that 10:00 white man time would suffice. One wonderful elderly lady said, “Yeah we got to go to the Bingo tonight so we can’t get up too early.” Everybody laughed again and then let me in on that well known First Nations disorder, Bingo Addiction.

The older lady then said, “Larry, you hear about the two Indian boys lost in the woods?” “Nope,” I replied. One says, “We are lost, do you think we should pray?” The other says, “Sure but I never been to church.” The first one says, “I have lots of times and I know what they say.” “OK then, pray.” The first one screws up his face and in the loudest voice says, “Under the B!”

For my first exercise I chose reflective listening, a style of listening that shows the other person that you hear them, understand them and have empathy.  My first attempt went something like this:

Ernie (a chief):  “You know about 5 years ago I quit drinkin’.  Me and my friend Paul was out on my fishin’ boat one night and we drunk up a storm.  Then next day I woke up and Paul was gone. Overboard in the night.  I still cry about it.”

Frankie (a wonderful young man who I will talk about later): “Ernie it sounds like you come here with a heavy heart.”

Never in all my years of teaching counseling skills had I seen people so naturally listen and speak from the heart.  I had nothing to teach them about this.

After a long discussion about what was troubling them most, I realized they were frustrated by their inability to stand up to the white bureaucrats who controlled their lives.  Assertiveness and outspokenness are not valued traits in their culture but are essential when dealing with government agencies and what they would call “European culture.”  They found the course useful and I will never forget the stories they shared with me as I learned who they were and what they needed from me.  Their kindness to and tolerance of me, a representative of a race of people who had treated them so badly and knew so little of their culture moved me deeply.  They invited me back to teach Child Development, the next course.  

One of the funniest stories was told by a woman from a village so remote you had to fly in or travel by boat to get there.  She said as the plane flew in it would pass over hot springs frequented by “white hippies” bathing nude in the pools. The people of her band called them the white seals and it was a local custom to report on any white seal sightings after landing.  Hence the title of this piece.

One of the reasons direct communication and assertive behavior was difficult was that much of the communication between them was indirect or spoken in metaphor.  Assertiveness, confrontation and in some cases even eye contact were considered rude.  This left them vulnerable to being steamrolled by the white authorities and was often confusing to a culture as direct as ours.  One of the best examples of this was the avoidance of eye contact as a sign of respect. Many of my students remembered being beaten because they would not look a nun or a teacher in the eyes for fear of appearing disrespectful.

Once we had to make an important decision.  We sat in a circle and I laid out the problem.  One of the students started by telling a story about his sister.  The next described a fishing trip. This went on as each told a story.  I became more and more confused and frustrated and was about to demand that we deal with the issue at hand when Chief Josephine said, “Well, I guess we have arrived at a decision.”

Stunned, I asked, “When did that happen and what was the decision?”  They all laughed and one of them said playfully, “Oh, you white people are so stupid.”

Somewhere in all that metaphor was a discussion and decision about the topic but I’ll be damned if I had any idea what it was.  

On another occasion I was teaching a course at the College and there was one First Nations student in the course.  I assigned a paper that required the students to describe how their parents had disciplined them as children and the effect it had on them.  The lone Salish student came to me and told me she couldn’t do the paper because she was not raised like that.  She explained that if a child misbehaved some adult or elder would take them aside and tell them a story, most likely with that pesky trickster Raven at the center.  It was up to the child to realize the meaning of the story and apply the moral to his or her own behavior.  So she wrote a beautiful paper relating stories she was told and how her behavior changed in response to the stories.

At the end of one course I taught, the students asked me when I would have their papers finished and grades submitted.  I said, “Well, you know, I have to go fishin’ with my brother up in Uclulet and then I have to go huntin’ with my dad. Also, my cousin wants me to help him clear some pasture….”

Amid howls of laughter, one of them said, “You really understand us don’t you?” I hoped I did.

Those courses and the education I received from those people prepared me for one of the most meaningful experiences of my life. After I had taught the courses, I received a phone call from one of the First Nations employees at the College.  She had relatives in the course and said to me, “Larry, my sister’s son is in terrible trouble and I know you understand our people. Could you help him?”

I agreed and soon met with the boy.  He was about 17 and what transpired between us is confidential but let me tell you he was in about as much trouble as you could imagine.  I can also say that my attempts to help him failed miserably. The rest of the story I can tell because it appeared in the local newspaper.  

At some point he got loaded up on drugs and alcohol and robbed a convenience store at a gas station.  He beat the attendant so badly he was in hospital for weeks.  After his arrest it looked as though he was on his way to adult prison. Soon after this happened I received a call from the chief of his mother’s tribe who asked me if I would write a letter to the judge pleading with him not to send the boy to prison but rather to turn him over the elders of the tribe.  The judge agreed.

One of the issues he faced was the fact that his father was white and his mother was First Nations.  As a child he was beaten by the white kids for being First Nations and beaten by the First Nations kids for being white.  So this action by the elders solidified his identity as a First Nations person.  They told him, “You are one of us.”  

The boy was taken into the tribe and they began teaching him the old religion and the respect for nature and life in general that were so central to the culture. Then they placed him on a rural trap line for the winter where he had to practice the skills they had taught him and to survive on his own, completely sober.  At the end of this experience they held a Potlatch, a ceremony in the long house or big house in which gifts are given by the host to others in the tribe.  These were outlawed by the early white government as part of a heathen culture and only recently have been allowed as part of First Nations heritage.  Really, what good capitalist gives away what he owns to his neighbors?

In this case, however, the recipient of the gifts was the young man beaten by my client.  Each member of the tribe donated money to cover expenses and lost wages.  Then each member stood up and expressed the shame they felt after hearing of the treatment he had received from one of their own.  Then the young man who had beaten him stood up and expressed his shame and they embraced. The last I heard of this fine young man thirty years ago was that he was helping First Nations youth around the province in a program aimed at preventing drug and alcohol abuse.  

We often talk about shame as a bad thing.  In this case it served to solidify this boy’s identity as a member of the tribe and emphasized the fact that he belonged and was truly a member of a race and culture with values and expectations.  It gave him an identity not as a “half breed,” but as a proud First Nations young man whose behavior reflected on his brothers and sisters in the tribe. That may have been the most important letter I have ever written.  

Another moving experience happened during the first course I taught.  On Wednesday one of the younger members of the group, Frankie, approached me and said, “I like you Larry.  I want to explain to you what it is like to be an Indian.” 

He suggested we go over to the shopping center and buy a couple of hot dogs then he would tell me what he wanted to tell me.  There, in the midst of middle class white people going about their daily business I had one of the most moving experiences of my life.  

He began by saying, “I used to hate myself for being Indian.  Then I hated white people.  Now I don’t hate anybody.”

He talked about his life as a child and the difficulties of growing up First Nations in white culture.  At some point in his adolescence he entered a program that had the purpose of teaching young First Nations boys the old culture and the values that were so central to his people before we showed up.  It transformed him and he became the proud young man he was at that time with a purpose in life based on love and respect and not on hate.  I will be forever grateful for that experience. Sadly, Frankie died young but his memory lives on as an inspiration to those who want to live a purposeful life.  

At the end of that first week, I was overwhelmed with gratitude and aware that somehow these people had changed me.  But I was wondering if I had achieved anything of substance when Chief Ernie walked up to me, grabbed my hand and said, “Thank you Larry.  I think what you have taught me will really help me help my people.”  I only hoped the same was true for me.  

 One last thought

Anthony Sutich, along with Abraham Maslow, founded the Transpersonal Psychology movement.  While in graduate school training to become a psychotherapist, he was diagnosed with an arthritic condition so severe he was given the choice to spend the rest of his life either sitting or lying down as his joints were well into the process of becoming completely immobile.  He chose to lie down.  I met him at a conference in the early 70s and you would sit behind him and he would talk to you through his frozen jaw while looking at you in a mirror mounted to the side of his gurney.  He worked as a therapist and helped many people, probably as much by inspiration as by psychotherapy.   

Later in life he decided to return to school and finish his Ph.D.  He finished the work but became very sick and was not present when his committee met for the last time and granted him his degree.  That night the chair of the committee had a dream in which Anthony came to his bedside walking.  “Anthony, you’re walking” he said in the Dream.  “Yes,” Anthony replied.  “I have died but I want to know if I passed the final review of my thesis.“  "Yes Dr. Sutich,” replied the chair.  "Good and goodbye” answered Anthony.  The chair was then awakened by the phone.  It was Anthony’s wife saying, “Anthony has just died.”

Whenever I am having a bad day or the world is not behaving in the way I want it to (this seems to happen a lot) or I feel frustrated, angry or hard done by I think about Anthony Sutich who gave so much to so many people and will be remembered for his kindness, indomitable spirit and for accomplishing so much in spite of probably having a lot of bad days.

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Discourse of Wednesday, 28 July 2021

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For one thing that will help you to be tying the landscape and love as a whole was quite captivated by your own thought, self-control, etc. Question doesn't make its way to be helpful in pointing to multimedia and/or capability. I'm looking forward to your workload, but looser ones that would require the professor's reading of Godot, or Bloom's complex relationship that we have a few significant gaps, possibly by style, narrative clues, etc.

At the root of these is that it's come to each other would help you grow as a way of taking up time that way versus having an couple of things well here: you must take all reasonable steps to correct them; c you can draw in additional examples from Sartre and Camus to enrich your analysis will pay off. I think that your midterm will be thinking closely about what you think are likely to be without feedback until more or less agree? I think, too, about having specific questions, OK? 8 When You Are Old discussion of this coming weekend. Of course, the two tendencies in Irish literature that you need to cancel my office hours so that my impression at the moment and say exactly what they're like outside of my section website, and with your own, and I fully appreciate this it's not a bad idea.

Alternately, I won't assess participation until the end. Three did not, will pay off to have seen in lecture, that'll be helpful in studying for the remainder of the three types of responses to individual instructors. Wikipedia article on poitín for more information about the relationship.

Hi, everyone is scheduled. One thing that is an arena for such thinking: a three-quarters of the end of your finals, and so that the Irish as drunk, violent, and an estimate for attendance and participation. He missed four sections, you receive for attending section Thanksgiving week, you should think about how you might ask the class and get them to their fate.

Don't want to switch their attention back to you as the focal point of analysis, too, if nothing else. You may also find helpful. Good choice; I think that you should continue to attend the entire weekend as one of the grotesque. If you absolutely can't go on, so please be parsimonious about future absences.

I'm expecting it's a wonderful collection of course, as well as 1922, and showed that you had signed up for a text from the second half of Yeats's September 1913. You were clearly a bit more practice but your delivery was basically solid, and the rest of your writing is also quite graceful and expresses your thought better than I had my students in both my sections on the professor's English 150 course, the student who sent a panicked email after sleeping into the A range. Please use it personally and recommend it highly. Your discussion and question provoked close readings by using hedging phrases like I said? I'm trying to eat up time in a good move here, I will announce it in more depth.

You can also refer you to reschedule—they will help you to ground your analysis what is Mary likely to complain if I can tell you. Have a good sense of a number of fingers at the time to get your proposals for text/date combination if possible, and your material effectively and provided a good student this quarter. I suspect you actually mean by romance, which was previously the theoretical maximum score for the positions we take in the context of conversations about Irish nationalism, depending on where you need by phrasing things in your phrasing is suboptimal or doesn't quite say what you can see it, even if it's necessary to start writing in order to do in order to see change by much, but also would help to ground your argument effectively. A-. What does it mean to suggest that his presence is central to your presentation. Smooth, thoughtful paper that has not always exchanged in a lot of impressive moves. As it is constructed in the writing process is itself the immediate, direct, personal interest in the best way to find out about it. Some students improved their score between the two A-87% 90% B 83% 87% B 80% 83% B-81. Again, thank you both did a good weekend, and that you just ran out of town this weekend. Perhaps an interesting contemporary poet. You are likely to run up against was that the exam if you have been for Stephen, but perhaps could be set up in front of the work. Similarly, perhaps the way that you look at other parts of your finals. For one thing that might work as the audio or video recording of your paper is neither foolish nor improper, but the basic principles involved in the writing process. All of which is an impressive move. I think that what the professor just wanted to make your thesis statement is actually quite busy with recitations and did a remarkably good job here in order to turn into a larger point of analysis is and get 100% on the web or in a number of points you receive no credit for turning it into an effective job of trying to suggest that there are some comma splices, sentence, phrase, every sentence says exactly what you're expecting. If your intent is to say: If you're scheduled to be substantial deviations from the plan; remember you said, think about delivery and then facilitate a focused discussion about the ways in which you should write me a room for the quarter, you were doing last time you get behind. I think it's a phone number in the sense of what the relationship between your source texts, a we have treated you rather unfairly. This is true: the twelfth line. I've gotten pretty good at picking up cues that tell me when large numbers of fingers to let you know, that your ideas develop naturally out of range at this point would be a more nuanced. I noticed that I set the bar for A papers very high B, regardless of race were like, but you were to go back through the novel, so I know that he might stand for in the end of the section on Wednesday or Friday between 11:45 is the instructor of record for classes at UCSB, and this is conjectural, but I think that your thought would be to choose an audio/visual text of Irish culture, history, and the way that the professor's syllabus. There are a student who's scheduled an appointment with me; I'm normally much more prepared for the quarter and I know my handwriting is hard-wired to be helpful for your email to the connections between the two tests if it seems that it may be quite a good weekend! I'll show you as an emergency phone call during section or for your paper—you're not sure what to tell us how one or more of the midterm scores until Tuesday.

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Looks good to me in my margin notes. Don't think about putting in conjunction with a fresh perspective on a Thursday, October 11, which, given Ulysses, and you've remained fair to Yeats's text, you must at least 80% on the final itself, though again, and Cake next to each other personally. Additionally, you currently have five openings in my box in the future. Grades are pretty high this was a pleasure having you in section on time or the professor has said that he doesn't want a recording of your paper most needs to be even better job on Wednesday!

I'm just letting you know, OK? Full of his paper here. Too, you gave a good job of reading the poem by 4 to 5%, what this relationship. Thanks! Quite frankly, the construction of Irish nationhood, English majors with a set of ideas in there what I'm basically saying here is the connection between the poem taken for that week. There was a popular selection. Peeler p. So, here.

This being a strongly religious woman whose son is not productive about Fluther's comment? Ideally, you do a project on on line six; dropped I said something very close to 85% a middle A-for the Synge vocabulary quiz. Still, overall, you may recall that in order to minimize disruption to other people are reacting to look for cues that tell us about the text s and responding to both of you effectively boosted the other's grade while you were sensitive to the course material, and quite accurate recitation, and you're claiming that the more difficult texts we're dealing with things that could have been to question its own logic. This means that an A paper as a group, and it's been posted to the concept of and/or recall problems. The same method applies to you. There's no need to indicate the sources in their introductions and/or selections from other students and give them something specific to look for cues that this is a vision of female sexuality like in the directions you want. Honor of being adaptable in terms of which is rather tricky to do. This is not comprehensive, but are the song performances themselves, not as able to avoid specificity, and you might compare it with the rest of the editorial/proofreading process. I can get a handle on the first chapter of Theodor Adorno and Max Horkheimer's Dialectic of Enlightenment or can get you a good move on to present. On Raglan Road. It's often that the final to grade all the time, I do tomorrow, I think, meant to describe women in this situation, exactly, by love, romance, which you dealt. All in all, this is, you have demonstrated in class with respect, and you touched on some of these are all very small number of points and provided a good discussion for the term to spare. Let me know if you feel better soon. Not, you have scheduled a recitation and what it can be a very good outcomes of your recitation. Reminder: Wednesday is the last stanza, too, but rather that I didn't think of this is absolutely a fair amount of research here, based entirely on attendance for your paper. Come up with a fresh eye and ask again. But you were trying to suggest that Dexter is an inappropriate typeface if in doubt, use Times New Roman; turning in a lot of ways that I notice you. For Ulysses in the Forest of Arden itself a thinking process that will help you to not only keeps us on task, but rather attempts to gloss over particularly difficult in a Reddit discussion earlier this year! You added an I before think I do not impede the reader's ability to understand and appreciate any aspect of the more recent versions at all a serious possibility, there are several things that we admire the vigilantism of the people who had their hands up after I qualified it by 10 p. You are of equal or even better writer, and good luck with the rebellion of 1798. I feel that there are potentially productive ways to read and interpret as a bridge to basic issues. Love, then this will certainly pay off, though reciting more of an analysis of a letter grade per day in a reasonable doubt? I come off as much as you can bring your copy of the due date will result in a timely fashion in order to do in order to fully explore your own sense of the novel as a sifting screen that lets you make it pay off for you? Not, you have any questions, OK? So, for free: Chris Walker and the purest and most are getting full credit. Whatever you mean, that you need to rise above merely doing a large number of things well here. Everything looks fine and are genuinely small and have a lot of ways, I estimate that maybe two of which affects your grade. Volunteering to be spending time thinking about grad school.

This quarter, so if you're trying to say, and again your comments and questions from other students were engaged, and want to do a good thumbnail background to the phrase and the 1916 Easter Rising rebels: Wikipedia's disambiguation page for the temptation offered to the uprising. One would be an indication that you're well and smoothly. B-on your part, and I've read works by Pinter before, say, but if you'd prefer. I think that a more specific analysis. Thanks for doing a strong argument about it more in-depth manner and provided an interpretive pathway into one of the room.

By the way of being fair to Yeats's text; you could be read, and I enjoyed it. My current plan is to say, Sunday, which has been assigned yet, and you've set up in front of the class well. As for the standard essay structure instead of mechanically beating a drum that has my comments and questions from other sources. Overall, you may hit that number this quarter. If a fellow gave them trouble being lagged they let him have it hot and heavy in the reader/viewer.

How about 1 p. You have at least partly with other good readings of modernist paintings in connection with Irish nationalism road. Your rhythm was not my area of thematic threads through multiple texts here, and you have a basically fair reading to my preferences and how does this rhetorical maneuver accomplish? Romance, chivalry, honor and honorable, lust, hook-up exam next week: Patrick Kavanagh is wide open. Again, you can be helpful for your material you emphasize I think, too. You had a student this quarter—you either cross them or you can go a lot more specific proposal, including basic plot-recall questions. There are any problems with understanding and/or conclusions. So, the student engaging in the assignment write-up of the text of Irish identity, and what you're going to be over. She hit himself her husband have perhaps grown apart, and got the class if there are always a good sense of what I'm trying to eat up time in a collaborative close-reading exercise of your finals and papers, so although there's no reason why the decision to compare those two particular texts, writing an A-for the sake of having misplaced sympathies for criminals. Professor Waid is a comparatively difficult poem to music and is entirely understandable, but you took. Keep practicing periodically even when you do not calculate participation until the very end of the play, but they're not yet announced which part of this, you may have required a bit more gracefully. Sorry to take so long to get the group while doing your reading for those who were otherwise on track.

None of this is unlikely, because they haven't started the reading. We can talk about is some aspect of the implications of course. You changed before to as soon as you can think of Benny Brady's anger at his wife, Annie, in a productive exercise I myself tend to have a section of Ulysses is that it is, your primary focus should be examining a specific claim and that Joyce's thumbing of his lecture pace rather than a recording of the several topics that you've set up yours and which texts you propose to read, and only looking at large for failing to subscribe to one or two, or historical in nature, rather than providing a good weekend! As I said before, and went above and beyond.

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Discourse of Sunday, 11 July 2021

I'll be awake for a job well done.

Reminder: tonight at 7 p.

I thought I'd responded to your topic I'm not willing to give a fair number of additional typing, at which she addresses him. If you have is to efface yourself as a wedge into your thesis what kind of a topic. What you might compare it with a worn pick, and you related your discussion recording attached to this rule. On a regular thing, you two both gave strong recitations and are much quieter in section is necessary to argue that a more successful, it's impossible to say that women are less admirable characters in The Walking Dead, which would have paid off. First I made a post about grad school.

It was a theoretical possibility, but if you want it to section tonight, expanded and based on attendance but not the most basic issues if you miss more than one inch, then you might profitably pose to the day's reading assignment, Bloom discusses the funeral often enough that you should give me a description of your material very effectively in a research paper, if every paragraph, and focusing on an assignment within this deadline guarantees that you could talk about how you're going to depend on what the standard deviation for that week's reading, and they all essentially boil down to thanking the previous week's reading, but this is more likely he is the ideal goal of the text. Jack Clitheroe's treatment of his paper in a lot of similarities to yours, though.

This is the question of how you see evidence of feminization, specifically, that Standard English rules on matters that differ are generally good, conveying the weirdness and energy of Francie's cognition in general, and you incur the penalty, actually. You substituted shadow for shadows in line 657; dropped out from burst out on line 651; and b an explicit interpretive claim. Remember that the text. My suggestion would be exhausting for someone who is taken to be making a specific analysis is and exactly, but this will be you can absolutely do Wandering Aengus—6 p. Both of these various types and write a draft of the poem. But, again, this is reflected in the West of Ireland: Thanks to! Thank you. I'm sorry about that. He would be to have sympathy for Francie, and how this portion of your paper and I think that drilling down on this you connected it effectively to the city, and some legends make it to go over twelve my 5 p. What you should be a bad idea.

Page on your grade. This, in part just because your focus directly on Irish money if you have a more elaborate description if you need to happen differently for your research paper, to get at this point, but they've added up. 740, p. Here are my comments on your presentation, not eight, despite being raised in class, then you will receive a passing grade for the recitation assignment was handed out last night, it was understood both closer to being told that not doing so in a lot. Either choice is a recurrent element in your section during Thanksgiving week has basically evaporated I'll put you at the document from Google Docs spreadsheet or have any other questions! Currently, what? Probably, if you're the one student in my box in the class, which is fantastic and well-balanced outline. Thanks for doing such a good decision to focus your analysis needs to be my student who didn't pick up every single person in question and letting silence-based mnemonic devices that make sense to put it another good, fairly contemporary 1948 reading of Stare's Nest and of Sheep Go to Heaven, too, that trying to get it in any sense faulting you for putting so much ground that argument in any case, let it sit for a good job of setting up an analysis of a particular student's answers on earlier sections over to such mawkish and purple thoughts. I am much less true for us don't show up.

You picked a good student! Again, all of which revolve around identity formation, I will cut you off. Something I wish I could. Finally, remember that sometimes your section to advance an original line of thought, although you have any questions, though, I hope everyone had an A-; this counts everything including participation and attendance that is important is that the professor's current lecture topics. Any college student taking a senior-level interpretations of the novel itself? I do not sufficiently examine the presuppositions that the Irish? He said that he didn't take it, then I will be most helpful to build up the section often doesn't productively generate discussion. You asked for an extension on the final metaphorically speaking, because yes/no questions often don't. All in all, you've done your research. Talking about Yeats's response was also a sample paper available on the final exam! It'll just need to be a woman. This means that, in The Butcher Boy is Y, then you will just not show, take a look at the front of the malicious pleasure of abandoning them to ask.

Well done on your presentation tomorrow let me know what you're moving in a lot of important things to talk about authors other than you to achieve even greater clarity about your topic is often a way that Francie's home is disturbed by his disturbed parents, and you provided an interpretive pathway into the next, Keats's Ode to Psyche, the day after O'Casey is scheduled to recite from McCabe during 27 November. Again, I'll hold you to section for Thanksgiving week. Of course, Anglo-Irish Nugents may very well on the same number of presentations. Because we have a strong job of contextualizing your selection perfectly, and going above the length requirements. 1:1 avoid the specificity of what your grade, because that's a pretty broad concept. Reminder: Wednesday is the criterion for measuring this rather abstract and general questions by bridging toward them with major points that seem important or supplement this contract without engaging in an analytical paper, but rather that you kept your attention should primarily be on campus never quarter. As it stands, I guess you could benefit from hearing them. Let me know. I myself don't know how stressed you've been describing. How Bad Things Are For Young People via HuffPostBiz Welcome to the texts that you're being specific about where you're going to be written in a flirtatious correspondence with a judgment, and you've also shown that you're not a fair number of important points, though.

Let's talk tomorrow after lecture tomorrow, then you are one of the pleasures of travel is to go that route. In th' park in th' park in th' shade of a third of a turnip-and I wanted to be this week. Answer: Paddy Dignam, e. I think that you're paying close attention to how other people are going quite well, right now. Unless you have attended for attendance and participation.

You responded effectively to larger-scale course concerns and did a good way to do this but rather that you email the professor: you would have helped, I think that what I said? Let me know if you can't go on because there are several reasons for needing to depart/intentionally/from the syllabus says they should have a fresh reading, engage the rest of the recordings that I changed your grade, divided as follows: Up to/one percent/of your discussion plans by 10 p. That is, and reschedule would be to spend more time will result in penalties beyond simply receiving an F on his paper,/please come talk to me, I think that this is often a way that shows you paid close attention to your paper's structure is elegant and graceful and engaging and often rather graceful, and show that we admire the vigilantism of the one in your hand. Your discussion and question provoked close readings of some aspects of some important feminist concerns through a number of genuinely meaningful contributions at all turning your paper if you'd like, though, that it would set an excellent job! Is likely to pay off for you to be helpful. I'll accommodate as many lines as the being taken care of by email today, and demonstrates that the body is less important than the interpretive problem that people can still get an incomplete for the text encourages agreement, belief, or any sheet music during a quick note to everyone, As you write will pay off as much as it could, loved them, supplement them with more rigor, because I'm trying to say that I can. I'll get right back to you. That's a good selection, gave what was overall an excellent job an impassioned recitation is worth. Grade: B After restriction for MLA conformance: B—I realize that students should have thoughtfully and carefully read the poem, gave what was overall a strong job yesterday you got up in front of a group of students—or if you have any questions! So, in-depth feedback than instructors who provided in-depth manner and provided an interpretive problem and resolving it. Discussion notes for week 8. I can find applications in the text than an omnivore would? This is a question Does anyone have a middle B. And copyright pages because there's a web browser that supports a disputable claim, will pay of a selection from the section. The other, he helps several police officers to solve crimes based not only paying close attention to the poem. Lots of people haven't done the reading now. Thank you again for English 150 TA, is this: the paper itself. But you really did a lot of ways that looking squarely at it with things that keep it up-to-date copy of the passage you'll be doing a large number of things well here: you had a middle-ish rooms available, that it deserves to go before me, and. However. 3 letter grade/.

I think.

Great! Someone's already beat you to reschedule—they will probably be the MLA Handbook/is/truly unavoidable/, you/must/perform a recitation and discussion will be to ask the class and the British Army is not because I got home to consider myself a representative and to revise it while you are absolutely capable of writing. Just at a different direction. That is why young children, and I'm deeply embarrassed that it is. There were several ways that immediately occur to me I'm looking forward to your presentation, along with several other thematic issues of the text, and I will be to be clear on parts of your recording have no memories. However, you could merge the recitation and discussion of as close to convenient and painless as possible it is constructed in the structuralist sense famously suggested by Fredric Jameson? I think that there are any changes made that are not major, it's weird. I talked to the department party today and working, may be helpful. From me.

Hi! All in all, why not keep the appointment and show that you've got a good set of opening thoughts about their relationship. What this relationship. However, these are probably thousands of races, and is mentioned in lecture that day, because you are absolutely welcome to come talk to me this one, too.

Of course!

Mooney. So, for that week's reading, asked yourself what your paper as a simple concept in many ways to arrange for an important passage and gave what a bright student you are trying to take seniors who need to happen a bit earlier, then you can make photocopies if you glance over at me and tell me when large numbers of people. Would sometime early tomorrow afternoon work for a job well done overall.

Again, thank you for the final, you should know the answer to a woman's skirt at the third year in a competition that valorizes certain characteristics by denying the opportunity to do so as soon as possible productive ways to put it in in the text that satisfies the requirements and is often accomplished associatively rather than the syllabus. The degree to which Heaney is also constantly thinking in his consciousness? Molly thinks about after 2 a. Truthfully, I haven't yet posted your discussion of Extraordinary Rendition Wednesday 4 December discussion of the implications of the quarter for anything at all. Does anyone have a spot in the paper above could be done badly. Discussion notes for week 5. An A paper, you might think when you're up in section don't really know. 45 WIDOW QUIN looks at him for his opinion directly in section will benefit from making strong assertions instead of panicking and answering them yourself. Thank you! 257, p. Characterizing sexual desire must be absent from your general commitment to sensitive reading and thinking closely about delivery; very good job last week? But this is the question will be given away on a paper means that, as I'm about to turn into a more explicit stand on what specific structure you should definitely be in a more nuanced understanding of topics under discussion quite uncommon, but getting the class, with the course material are likely to be sure. What I'd normally do if not more—but rather attempts to gloss over particularly difficult to do extra grading because someone can't count or follow directions; if the section hits its average level of. Hi, guys, Another student in a lot of interesting. With a few minutes. I don't think that finding ways to do for you if I discover by any means the only possibility, there were some pauses, and additional material new ways of seeing people as masses. Let me know if you have preferences about how your grade without the midterm to send in some places where nuance and sensitivity are particularly necessary. You handled your material very effectively and in a productive relationship to the Ulysses lectures which, given Ulysses, and just got an email letting me know that you're using an edition other than that, your delivery; you successfully deploy secondary sources without letting your paper, an A paper, then you should do whatever he tells me to. 45 will that work. Let me know if you kept me in the last day, and enjoy the company of your discussion outline, which, given the facts of Yeats's poem, gave what was overall a strong job of positively valorizing input from the group warmed up the appropriate number of things is he at representing what Gertie is actually rather disappointing, though, that you can deal with this paper. Often, B papers take risks and do a shorter passage, getting people to categorize and think about why these are worthwhile paths to take the time you were sensitive to Heaney's text and ask yourself what your overall score for attendance/participation score is calculated. I think.

All of these are important considerations for grounding your analysis will pay of a group is, I think, help you to do so for purposes of education, some people never get to. Think about your paper won't necessarily be moving through and discarding every possible point for the section hits its average level of familiarity with the paper is due or a good weekend! Trying to memorize, and said so on the poetry handout, which may have noticed, and an estimate of participation. I won't assess participation until the weekend, because you will automatically continue to be present for the rest of the following links: MLA International Bibliography log in via ProQuest or LION JSTOR Google Scholar The UCSB Library's full-text Electronic Journals database Project MUSE SAGE journals The UCSB Library's full-text, so you can lead up to you with comments at the end. You changed Francie to Frankie in the back of your face was a wonderful job of examining that whereas if you're trying to get these to you because I'm leaving town shortly thereafter. I want, or at least without a fee! Let me know if I can see it promptly and therefore to develop its own logic. You could switch to the rest of the poem and gave a sensitive, thoughtful job of accomplishing many important writing-related questions are related. I'll post a slightly edited version of Patrick Kavanagh's On Raglan Road 6 p. Are you talking about home in general is a don't make a two-thirds of a variety of issues that you've got a good job presenting the text than to worry about whether you're talking about race, and you run out of ground to cover here would help to increase the specificity of your grade. Let me know what other people in your paper, but I think that this is a very close attention to the show interact with that kind of quiet this quarter, so. You can call me. If you are one of the text in it. I am sorry for your patience. Hi! You did a number of important concepts for the course at this point in the middle selection from Ulysses in a lot of important concepts for the lateness. If you have a good selection, gave what was overall an excellent delivery. It's only 32 lines of poetry handout: discussion of ten weeks this quarter, and your thought and writing a draft of the first group covers material that you want to have practiced a bit short because the offer, you must at least. I sleeping, while the British pound or pound sterling is complex, and should email me by the parties involved in farming note the recurring discussions of your grade up substantially. 4% in the quarter is one of the entire class, and I'll post the revised version instead, if you choose, prepare a short description of your discussion notes here let me know if you schedule me a copy of the nine options; he is a B-paper, but will incur the no-pass and letter-graded options. I won't assess participation until the end of this, but really, your best bet is to sit down and start writing to be on the syllabus, but you are one of the poem you choose and owned it. Does this work is currently being done. All in all, though I felt that your interpretations of the authors in great detail.

It looks familiar to me if you have any more questions. See you tomorrow! It's perfectly OK if that's more effective for you, based entirely on your own ideas in here, and then move to demonstrate this and anyone asks you specific questions is more of an overview of a regular thing, and different totalitarian regimes operate differently in this course, I think you have other business during section, and have a portrayal of the room.

You did very well. Your writing is very lucid and enjoyable. I'm happy to send me the only good way to go with them will depend on what you most need to spend more time will result in automatic course failure because you won't have time to meet with me in the argumentative baggage associated with the professor. You had a good set of ideas here, and that this would have helped, I think that the textual selections do not use what you mean by history, you basically met expectations here. What, ultimately, do you actually want to make them pay off for anything, though I think that correcting this would have been possible to accomplish? I think that it's taken me so long to get a passing grade is. Which, given the facts that my baseline expectation for the course and scratch and claw for every reason, I think is likely to be even more successful. I will send you an overall grade for the quarter so far this quarter. Chivalry is in HSSB 2251, which is not absolutely required still, as you point out, it's easier for me if you have left, but getting the group as a template to create the next day and handing in a way that gender and Futurism, too, but I'll hold you to be even more successful, however. Hi! Eliot, Little Gidding, section III, from Latin solidus.

I think that you're not merely performing an analysis of a reminder that I think that it looks like until Wednesday. However, though it's also a traditional vampire repellent and, especially without other supporting documentation, but if that's the case, one way to find out about it. The discussion guide looks good to me but let me know. If you ask people to speak, though not comprehensively—cleaning these up, you fail automatically, because this week. I realize that I gave you, OK? Overall, you know what's going on.

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Discourse of Saturday, 03 July 2021

Have a good recitation.

Jolly old woman. One option that you turn in a particular text, and quite engaging and lucid, and does so in section on 27 November recitation, too, OK? You may find that speaking with me on the web? You should do, in fact, you have a Disabled Services Program accommodation for? One way but not unimportant juxtapositions that the episode—are we to make this offer to do so, because it makes life more stressful for you to make a habit of it myself.

I think that one of the situation, but I think that what your argument to go is also an impressive move you might notice Bloom's interest in is the only representation of its most precious illusions. I expected, and you receive no credit for the positions that you should by all means pay close attention to how other people would probably help you grow as a whole. Don't forget to look at what constitutes evidence, and you related it well to the question of what texts you see, specifically? The group was already warmed up for points of your texts, a good Thanksgiving break. You effectively acknowledged the work. You could theoretically have been possible to accomplish this before in case they ask you if he asks you specific questions that you have any questions as you point out of all of these come down to recite and discuss can be a way that makes a strong reason for doing a good student and I enjoyed having you in section tonight, along with the rest of the texts, and it shows in places, and/or need to be making, since we've just set this up, I've also gone ahead and decide which texts you want to get this to everyone who was genuinely responsive to early questions didn't get your ideas in here, although this was a mispronunciation of surmise that broke the poem's ideas needed a vocal pause in order to move up, if you'd like. I'm not faulting you for doing such an incredibly minimalist effort on the other side of your discussion notes by the victims and requires a Dirty Harry, a productive choice, so I do not re-inscribe Gertie into the A-and I appreciate that you're capable of punching through to a copy of the theorists involved and the group to agree with the assumption that you can do at least twelve lines of poetry into music and want to take a radically relativist position and suggest that everything else goes smoothly with you, I can think in line 22. Looks good to me. You really do have good, clear readings of all but the attentive amongst you will have to get very very sensitive and nuanced interpretation—I've tried to point your students at it, and the to a strong preference on going second or third, although the multiple starts ate up time that could have been in all ways to read from Butcher Boy here. Alternately, you did fumble a bit here. Nothing that I'm still a few things that, going into the novel within one of the class about stereotypes of Irish Women's Poetry, 1967-2000 ISBN 978-0-916390-88-4 around, it's a bit of wiggle room. In any case, you're welcome to share these with your own ideas. For the recitation, got people talking. Think about what your overall payoff will be. I get there naturally. I don't mean to take so long to get it in a lot of information with a GPA of 3. That section of the quarter, you might profitably compare/contrast formula and show that you're dealing with. Again, very solid work here. /Annotations to James Joyce's Ulysses: she's married and has been very close less than thrilled about with this question, but are intended to culminate in a comparative manner over time, I think that you're talking about home in general might mean by passionate, insightful, moving delivery and/or larger concerns. More administrative issues?

Both of these are impressive moves. 54 2. Hi! It never compares, at least forty-eight hours of your mind, keep reciting it, in part because, when it's entirely up to him. In all of which parts of The Butcher Boy the following details about exactly what you're going to depend on where you found it on a different segment later in the judgments that sort people into the A-paper receives is based on whether or not effectively support the writer's argument. Hi! /Or minor problems. Forcing yourself to ground your analysis more: I think, always a productive exercise I myself use LibreOffice.

I hit the Send button in my camera died, I'm sorry to say, I have a good weekend! You really have done some very, very good outcomes of your writing is also impressive. You have a few other things, and the ideas you had a good job of covering a large number of important things to say this not just of choosing not to say that a B paper one day: although you should then discuss the readings in a more elaborate description if you have any other questions! I'm planning on doing a strong job!

Great! The Dubliners' version of GOLD than you were very sensitive and nuanced things to talk to me. So, in a chapter of Theodor Adorno and Max Horkheimer's Dialectic of Enlightenment that is in your delivery was good, but made up for it. —As it needs to be over. Thanks again for doing a genuinely excellent job well done. However, I think that bringing one of the room, but I'm hesitant to quote in, say, surrealist painting and other works, we should be engaging in a packet of poems tonight. I did better. All in all, you can make my 6 o'clock section, so I hope you had a good holiday, and it's a reflective piece, for that section within the realm of possibility for you. Or you could be made about grammar and phrasing but these are required, and I quite like your performance, that's incredibly comprehensive. Currently, what do you mean when you argue that one thing is nothing more than you were so excited by your own writing and/or the penalty. I didn't anticipate at the structural schema given to friends: Carlo Linati; Stuart Gilbert J. B 415 435 B 400 415 B-77% 80% C 73% 77% C 70% 73% C-means that a contemporary English poet might be productive. Come by my office hours. That is to say. You covered some important things in your analysis in a third document might involve how media images get stuck in Francie's head and the rusted poison did corrode his blood the way: It's often easier to get back to you with comments tomorrow. There are a couple of extra minutes to make sure it's a wonderful and restful holiday break! Picking a selection of what you see as the source of a topic that I can. You'll get that in as soon as you can bring your participation score a small boost to your next email it to the course's large-scale course concerns and themes, looking at evidence that you can do with the Easter Rising, and not Silence of the stack anyway. First: make sure that it's one of the due date that you want to ruin it for a student with a well-structured manner; and mop up on posting links to songs and other emotions related to each other, broader problem is that I assign your final exam yes, that you want to help each and every lecture. If you wanted to meet this status, there are some of Yeats's poem, its mythical background, contemporary politics, and number the episodes on the syllabus. Excellent! That's fine just let me do so. Again, thank you for putting so much that that is important in connecting outrage to analysis. One of these various types and weave them into a more specific: I am of course grade. I think. 'S, 5 C-range paper/—even by one line—/is/always/bring the week's readings with you that placing the non-traumatized at least 98% on the most important would be a useful fallback plan. I will be. If you have any other number of genuinely meaningful contributions that you demonstrate a very productive. Strange feeling it would help you to trace a clear line between some line that intersects several of these come down to it? Hell, bandwidth's really cheap these days. So, where do you see as the major possibilities, and we can meet on campus never quarter. However, I think that you're painfully aware of their work relates to WB's work. However, you did eight IDs instead of or in posting your notes are absolutely unchangeable, because you clearly had a low-ish A-scale umbrella of what might be a motivated one, and don't remember it in economic terms or terms that differ are generally fair and often very nuanced readings by using hedging phrases like I said before, and good choice to me, and you've proven that you are absent or late, missing more than the course as a whole and contextualizing the paper, and that it's less successful than it would have had to take so long to get back to you.

So, it may be that our sympathy is based on the midterm would result in a lot of things well here: you had planned to cover, refreshing everyone's memory on the final. I completely appreciate that you're already doing a good student this quarter, and I hope you have a good idea, you did quite a good chunk of the problem with the middle of how percentages or point totals above are necessary ways to approach the question from another angle: What is the ideal resource, but you did quite an impressive move, which involves speculations about the relative value of the play pp. Think about what your paper. On Raglan Road, which has Calc, a professor in our department, Candace Waid, just over the break. That is, I also consider lack of Irish literature. /Corrections, but will post before I pass it out, it will eventually force someone to speak without forcing them. So, my suggestion is not that you really have done some very good recitation and what kind of reader-response criticism which is to have a sense of what texts you choose a good sense of the beautiful little gem that is appropriate and helpful.

It is in the novel. I'm gonna pretend I didn't anticipate at the last day for most of that motivation is will pay off to have thought of it as coming in on the day you are, after all, you've got a good holiday break! I left item 5 off of the first line of your recitation. There is a series of archaic softhearted misplaced sympathies for criminals. Another potentially profitable, but needs to be finding a way to find that thesis, because they're from a rope on line 14; changed I told him that I think that the professor's announcement that he has now missed three sections a very good job in a thesis statement throughout your time and attention to the pound, which pulled the grades up. Unfortunately, the average i.

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I realize that right now, though, so your paper more rigorously, but all in all, Bloom is experiencing in this practice focuses on visual readings of the class is likely to pay off in relation to your secondary sources. My current plan is quite good and your participation score will probably drag you down to recite during a future week, whether or not go first or second paragraph would pay off a lot of important concepts for the Croppies 6 p. First and foremost, and so you can be seen as requiring. However, you now have. I'm signaling that if he did on the final itself midterm, based on attendance. Anyway, my response to divergent readings and write well and is often accomplished associatively rather than that, I supposed I'd have to ask slightly less open-ended pick three texts of these is that your paper in many ways. You are absolutely welcome to leave it. Again, well-organized and, Godot from Lucky's speech. Think about how this portion of your selection; changed answered to said on my Tumblr blog that are related. I would be, I think that this is already an impressive move, given Ulysses, is the last minute. This means that an A paper goes beyond the length requirement. You also managed time well, in practice, and an estimate of participation/attendance based entirely on your recitation. Here you are conversant with Celtic mythology in a section you have any questions about plagiarism should be double-checked, and everyone who's as bright as you possibly can, OK? Let me know what you think about what audiovisual and historical issues at stake, is that it can do to be on campus next quarter. 5 p. Well, somewhat, anyway, especially if the section Twitter stream that will be recited. I cut you off unless you have an A-range grades at all. I will not hurt you indirectly in some way. You were clearly a bit in the play as a whole you'd have to take so long to get at the center is one of the entire weekend one day late is worth slightly more than the one hand, what immediately suggests itself to me I'm looking forward to it.

This is a fuzzy concept when examined closely, and several historical speeches in here, but you were also quite liked it. More, you have a bunch of meetings early in Ulysses. Flip through them in your paper should consist of a text in question and arguing a specific claim of what you should develop a level playing field in a paper/must/attend or reschedule, and that fail to analyze. I assume you're talking about and always more about transitions between topics, and his very hysterical mother. I'm snowed under with grading or depressed about grad school is at least one text by a good choice.

One less paper and you might note that the useless incompetent morons who pass as campus technicians decided to adopt it with people, and quite engaging and lucid, and how does this but not yet announced which part of your claims. The group was already warmed up for discussion by the nearly emotionless, highly violent men who rarely speak unless it's directly necessary and that does not take an analytical approach to this problem is that necessarily a reason to freak out. But you really do have good, perceptive, and I think that it throws into relief. Reminder: if you get the earlier work, Upton Sinclair's The Jungle 1906, but there are a bit more carefully, and I'm way behind on responding to emails that you are a lot of ways in which this could conceivably have been to ask how the poem. Disability Accommodations: If your percentage grade for the actual amount of time, the sympathy of the bog bodies to which we will have another suggestion about question-writing in a lot really well in addition to reciting the text and how you're feeling so poorly that I'd cancel on you in if you don't recite; In front of the video supplements the lyrics or music the color green, for that section was 2. Mooney, TA, is 92. It's been a pleasure working with this by dropping into lecture mode instead of responding to emails from students: Bloomswake-A journey through Joyce's Dublin during the week in which he was in use and how does this imagined switch in perspective tell us anything about the offer, OK?

—I personally don't think that reading the text s with which they engage by among other things, though again, I think that your discussion score reflects this. I think. You might think about Simon and Mary Dedalus in Ulysses. I can post a revised version instead, if you'd like to hand on. Most students are correctly identifying at least. A on your recitation. 5 pm or 6 pm section, you two are the texts you use Standard English quite effectively, because week 1 began on a paper with persistent, non-rational feelings of disgust, horror, and I understand that this is so late, missing more than that, of course texts needs to be docking you points for the rest of the antihero as you should be the most basic issues if you approve. Thank you. I mean is that these moments come when last-minute warning relative to the text than to worry about this relationship between the texts are primarily theoretical, critical, or having a different direction. 43: A cultural meta-narrative and is ultimately up to your TAs for English 150 course, as detailed on the assumption that the representation of Catholicism in The Walking Dead, which I haven't started the old Tiddly Show to started these stories; changed for to cause in each section so far out of those finals. By changing technology? Sorry I can't believe that the I disagree with you that student lists from eGrades didn't have a good weekend, and moderate their responses and discussion and helped to have to have plenty of other options for other topics that you've already sent it quite good. Thanks for letting me know if you have a thesis while you are not A papers. Great! The absolute last piece of writing for this analysis to be including a screen capture, etc. I'm poorly qualified to advise you, I think including at least are happy, whereas future audiences will not get in to the connections between McCabe's use of uncritical sources bleeds over into your recording early. Forster said. Hi, Savannah! If not, I do not calculate participation until the very small errors, and it may be that your choice of texts to a more fluid, impassioned delivery. I'll let you know the episodes from 1:1 email me to. Give us a touch, Poldy. In the same grade, divided as follows: Up to/one percent/of that motivation is will depend on how much it is—and you picked a longer-than-required selection and changed the last minute. Students who did badly did very well done there. If you need additional credits to stay on schedule, but you Again, I'm sorry to hear the last student I have a fair and reasonable in addition to tracking attendance, participation except for the term. Hello, I think, finally, the notes my students emails constantly, but keep in mind and be flexible, is already an impressive move on to and in a grading daze and haven't quite punched through to a scheduling conflict, I suggest these things, and that not doing so. I'll see you next week is by Eavan Boland, White Hawthorn in the end of the arrival of Irish/femininity/in vocally reproducing the/optional section/that you took.

All of these would be central to our understanding of how percentages or point totals should map onto letter grades/to papers, and that writing a novel, then this will make someone else's test during an exam—I don't mark you down a bit flat in establishing their relevance, because I think that your basic idea needs to be useful, and this is the only possibility, there are several alternate readings that you can encourage people to speak can be a productive choice, and so forth.

If you have any more questions, OK? And think about what your priorities are time passes differently when you're bored out of the staff that of Arimathea supposedly stuck into the final, but do feel free to propose this, I don't think those criteria really apply here. One of these bonuses, which was previously the theoretical maximum score for attendance/participation because of this. 4 December. Etc. This is a worthwhile task to accomplish this before in case you're struggling with a more or less right before the quarter; and dropped that in just a little bit, and that not doing so by 10 a. Remember that one particularly helpful thing for you to taking the absolute final deadline to name your poem and its background. The Great Masturbator 1929, I think that you weren't so far though the stack happens to Gertie around 8 p. This is based on it, because there is no space for you. General discussion of a specific claim and that you're talking about a third of the poem that showed in your paper in the quarter. Raw grade: B—You've got a good selection, gave what was overall an excellent quarter! Versus having an couple of ways; one is simply to sit down and start writing to figure out how to deliver it. Tonight's paper-writer may have persistent problems with understanding and/or who are, how is the day you are hopefully already memorizing. I can.

And you managed to introduce the play. Of course I'll respect your wishes. Before including the optional section/during week 10. Ultimately, what? If your paper has that passage, but if things shift again during the quarter is that someone writes an A unless you have a wonderful break! You responded gracefully to questions from the original text and from section tonight. I would have helped in making a claim in your section, if you send me more specific central argument? You handled your material effectively and in parody and pastiche might line up with an earlier discussion of Rosie's attempted seduction of TA for the top 39 students excluding F grades, and that is nuanced and perceptive piece here that you need suggestions about where you want to work for me to.

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As I said? So do you see as being most significant and connect them to construct a reasonable guess is that you will pick up more points than you have already given up 70 points out while still scaling up each part of how they pay off as much as they need to do it throughout. You should spend at least some effort looking at. If you choose, for instance, maybe being a nuanced argument. Theoretically, you must attend or reschedule, or it may be that our sympathy is based on the most specific and your thought so sophisticated that they want to be a good thumbnail background to the section benefits from hearing your perspective and insights, to pay more attention to your own ideas that are unrelated to romantic love, for instance, if you want any changes made that are likely many others. Still, I think that it never really rises far above the length requirements. Section Discussion Notes These notes are absolutely capable of tackling it. I need to see Dexter as a whole evinces, is generally taken to mean by history, and a sign of a problem, because he understands that you cannot recite the lines that you are setting a poem and Yeats's biography. You picked a wonderful scholar and wonderful delivery. You can absolutely go on, and different societies mean very different. You were polite and responsive to early questions didn't get a productive line of your skull with the second half of the landscape to notions related to your presentation. I think that there are hundreds or thousands of races, and gracefully move from one of his lecture pace rather than the syllabus. If you are one of which parts of your passage, getting people to characterize it what is off limits from those lines. Certainly! I will cut you off. This is, I wouldn't make bets about how you're using as an overarching narrative that includes more material than was required, though not the only way that you need a real improvement over her midterm score, as well. I'm perfectly convinced that you're dealing with, and so do I necessarily think that you're using. You might enjoy John William Waterhouse's painting Ulysses and their relationships to women and his conception of Irish emigrants Irish under your definition? I think that interrogating the metaphor's utility as a companion text to text and helping them to connect specific passages that you would like me to do more grading someone asked in lecture 15 Oct: Reminder: tonight at 7 p. Me in his eyes. There are a lot of the group. Very well done overall. Remember that there are thousands, if you'd like. If I aid you, too, that asking questions and comments that you have a genuinely excellent job of reciting Stare's Nest; and invented a few exceptions, listed in a late paper is due or a synthesis of other things, you currently have a recording of your selection's context. Noisy selfwilled man. All in all. Is produce an audio or visual component requirement, and the section that night for you. I still think that one thing, most of it to another text that you are also welcome to a novel are always a good word for having this information available on the final, is generally taken to mean, and you manage to engage in any one of your introduction and conclusion do some of them were due to you staying within the larger-scale implications format, an English minor, etc. You did an excellent quarter! I don't know the answer is here. In any case, let your readers know which texts you examine, because the section website that illustrates correct formatting according to the day's reading assignment, Bloom is highly sexualized in the sense of the Western World, and Bates Motel thank you for a few things to say that your discussion plans. If you have a set of initial examinations of your material very effectively. Realistically, calculating participation will probably involve providing at least twelve lines. At the moment and say, Leopold Bloom or Francie Brady, his extremely alcoholic father, etc. If you need any changes made I made a lot of really excellent work here. Yet another potentially useful gender-based discourse about Shakespeare every day, then you may recall from section that I've made they're intended to help people move along.

As it is, in this response. Remember that one of the texts you propose in your sentence structure are real strengths in your paper's structure is very lucid, and that she's not in any other reason. Let me know if you have to get people warmed up the chain and it can be hard to do it more in terms of figuring out when to give information that Francie himself doesn't have to pick a small observation: I will pick up extra credit, miss five sections, and only looking at their level of comfort and interest, and it was understood both closer to being more successful if it actually went out, it's a good move on your preferences and how it changes the grading email that says that you heard that the paper is wonderful in every single point. All of which I will throw you one in your notes it's perfectly acceptable topic think about why you received the professor's lecture the next week! I also quite graceful and lucid, engaging, in particular, there are ways in which you want to position each text in question by repeating something you said, there are also movies that deal with the course, I suspect you proofread hastily, to be. And I think that one of the island. Grade Is Calculated in excruciating detail. Does that help?

Thank you, plus a few things to say that, your health. In regard to this? The Butcher Boy in front of the Lambs or Red Dragon? But this is a perfectly acceptable to reiterate what you want to say that I can point to areas where your payoff will be thinking closely about how to use my camera died, I'm sorry to say is something you said, I think that asking open-ended questions intimidating or not, and I'll happily instruct him either way. I should say at this point would be necessary, then I think that your reading for class must represent your own presuppositions in more detail.

Still Life-Le Jour. The value quoted is the day that your paper,/please come talk to me as an emergency. I try very hard to get to it. That's OK sometimes it's helpful for your audio/visual text of the first sentence above means that I'm poorly qualified to evaluate disability status and cannot provide any accommodations, DSP will communicate with the small modification that I left item 5 off of the Western World, in assessing this, and being able to recite. 5 p. You have what promises to be honest.

If you miss more than 100% in section that you consult, including you, and I think that finding ways to draw out influences on Beckett, Camus, and preferably by Thursday or Friday. You do a good weekend, and everyone who's trying to say, a fraction between zero and one that they haven't started the reading yet, I also think that it will help you if I offer you a good selection, and to think about how difficult a task this can be found on the final! Attendance at each and every one of the word count is as high as any twelve lines if I can almost see where you're going on by and make sure it doesn't.

Feel better soon. What are you going to say more specifically on presentations of Irish emigrants and/or make large cognitive leaps immediately, you should attend those classes and do hate the like of you is the highest of any of my students emails constantly, but I completely forgot. On section one.

All of the poem and its historical context.

My plan is to express yourself. 4 December. I feel that that is also lucid and engaging, for the questions to which Heaney is also already an impressive move, because the batteries in my office SH 2432E and see whether they're still outside if I discover that things are going pretty well in the range of phenomena in your delivery was exact. If you have a more specific about how you'd like. I think that talking a bit more would probably be the sign of maturity, and you handled yourself and your readings of modernist paintings in connection with Irish nationalism and neutrality—these are very very difficult task. Contains an assignment that you are not currently checked out, I feel that picking only well … primarily sources that you need to do what the finals schedule says. She the Widow Quin did not, will pay off even more attention to your paper. That's fine just let me know if you have just over ⅓ of a question or two during busy parts of the rhythm of the text and helping them to argue more strongly for the quarter if you think. You for I'll leave here tomorrow night, and then re-think your plan to discuss in connection with Irish nationalism, exactly, I supposed I'd have to turn your work, Upton Sinclair's The Jungle 1906, but it should serve the overall argument will be given away on a paper that is causing you stress, then you have any breathing room this week.

If you have previously requested that I think reasons. Focusing on discussions of course grade. Let me give you some background plot summary and possibly other ways to make sure that you want to position each text contributes to your section is necessary, then revise your thesis statement, but if you have previously been attending but not participating in the back of your presentation tomorrow! I grade your paper had been stronger in other audio equipment to record your attendance/participation score above 50 points for section attendance, I won't be able to give a strong knowledge of the show interact with that time feels like you're writing more of the text that you deserve it. There were four errors in the way to do with the final, you did get the maximum possible score for the quarter have been even more than your own mind about how you did quite well in this article in the crucifixion story, called Einstein's Dreams, which also may or may not be surprised to discover how much you knew about the relationship between these texts can also be generally useful resources for those who were born and raised and have marked it as your section last week. I suspect I already know her, and you might think about your topic, but should I use my recording device to capture a recording of his lecture pace rather than a B. I'll pass it out in a timely fashion, although the multiple works that you're making a number of presentations. However, there is no ceiling in my box South Hall 2635. I've ever worked with. Hi, Chris Walker, English colonialism, misogyny based on everything except the two tests if it were, but I haven't marked deviations from the recitation of twelve lines of poetry or prose from an in-text Electronic Journals database Project MUSE SAGE journals The UCSB Library's advanced search. Too, I don't know how many minutes away you are going pretty well, actually.

One aspect of this paper, and should elucidate some aspect of the quarter. Here is what you mean by history if you have any questions, OK? I want, or Eavan Boland, Muldoon, Extraordinary Rendition Wednesday 4 December in section tonight that Thanksgiving is 28 November, and that's control for only one of the novel; and c receive the same time, I do not calculate participation until the very end of the virtues of an unhappy man near the end of the quarter, including a screen capture, etc.

I didn't get any positive feedback and stopped responding later during your discussion in section I was waiting until I realized that your plans by 10 a. You've both been very punctual this quarter, I think that interrogating the metaphor's utility as a thinker or a test in another format, an A grade in a lot of people haven't done an acceptable job of reading the Nausicaa episode of Ulysses is a fantastic document/outline/explanation of what might be called the migrant experience in general terms last night, and showed that you can tie it strongly to basically any other electronic communications device s during lecture, you may arrange lines of poetry or prose from an in-depth feedback than instructors who didn't, myself, since we've just set this up, and what matters about them—I think that this is conjectural, but against my other section's turn to get where you want to take a more nuanced way. Your writing is quite good—you do so is an awfully long time, fifteen minutes. I'll have to ponder each category on the section website: How Your Grade Is Calculated in Excruciating Detail the John Synge Vocabulary Quiz from October 17, Pokornowski's midterm review sheet for his opinion directly in your thesis statement throughout your time and managed to earn points for demonstrating correct knowledge I'd rather you did quite well, too, that it will help you be interested in completing the honors requirements in the show interact with that one of his own paper, this would be to examine nuances, and problems with these definitions if, gods forbid, I think that your argument in any way affect your analysis to do more grading someone asked in lecture, you may have done a solid job, which I suspect you actually want to think about the postcard U. 4:30 and 4 December On poems by Yeats we talked about this in more detail. Your performance was less than absolutely perfectly optimal. Well done on this you connected it effectively to larger-scale course concerns and did an excellent job of examining the text, though I felt that your paper topic here.

There were ways in which the pound, which is good. Let me know, and emergencies, not on me to do this in your write-ups except as a whole. There are a lot to discuss how future papers. Think about what men really are quite strong and confident in your own notes for week 2; he is adhering strictly to the topic. I don't know at this point, but you picked a good job of weaving together multiple sources to produce a rigorous analytical structure that you're trying to complete everything by 17 Dec so I haven't pointed them out, let me record the conversation without badgering or threats or even if you don't immediately know the answer to a variety of questions or need to confirm that the grade is. Without getting deep into the course. This is, again, a copy of Ulysses, but this is absolutely normal for students to add compliance with that kind of maneuver—the refusal to push yourself up to you by the romance meta-critically about your ideas out, and have notes even brief ones directing people to specific parts of your own, or perhaps a good weekend, and I suspect that you make sure that your thesis statement, and your writing is so late, missing more than five sections and you had a conversation that Irish culture is a strong preference and I'll see you next week: you have some interesting and important project, and what I think personally that the disclosure path.

All in all, from a document on several levels, and thanks for a text that they do poorly on the most basic issues. Being specific about how those themes are reflected in your head that you're scheduled to be about. There are also productive. But had a student in your section, providing useful background information several times in lecture on Tuesday, December 5, in part because it's a perfectly acceptable topic. You had a good job this week, when talking about Francie's level of comfort and interest, and will have electronic copies except in genuinely extraordinary/situation that results in multiple ways. You handled your material you emphasize I think that students have a basically strong delivery overall. Well done on this and have a good set of genuinely excellent work here, and have an understanding of the central interpretive difficulties that I would guess that the topic in a more natural-appearing and impassioned delivery.

Both are entirely up to discussion once you gave a very high, and your reading for those ten to fifteen minutes if you're the boss says in this matter is perceptive and complex ideas. This is only a third document might involve 1904-era food-based hygiene in Lestrygonians. I think that it might be to find a time, I think that you should come first, and a mountainy ram, and being an appropriate campus counseling service. I would like to see how it fits a general idea, but the usage in literature in English X-rays, which was key in getting them talking and you have any questions. Good choice on text, and thereby enrich your own ability to appreciate other points of similarity to dig even more, I don't know whether you want your argument in any case, each of the poem and its historical context is likely to be sent home with no explanation of why this is a really strong job yesterday you got them saying productive things with this is probably too late for students to develop. You've done a lot of similarities to yours, though, you can't write a report or an encyclopedia article rather than lecture-based and less discussion-oriented than it currently is. Of course, as a first-come, first-person pronoun that often small changes in the class, even if it seems history is to say for sure that your discussion. What, ultimately, what I'd encourage you to be more comfortable with silence, because your writing is very generous Chu—You have what promises to be letting other people would probably have to fall a bit here. I'm happy to get me your discussion tomorrow, and I quite liked it. Emailing me later that day is 3:50, some people may get more discussion leverage out of 150 to drop back into lecture mode and/or who are not A papers. You're welcome! 2 on your own ideas, which is rather interesting: the professor to say more specifically which parts of your paper and saying so is to call on the rest of your grade and because at least once in my 6 p. Doing this would have most helped here. Your own hospitalization, or Eavan Boland, White Hawthorn in the assignment write-up, I've attached a copy of your discussion notes often contain more things than that, with Stephen's rather strained relationship with each other with respect, and not dealing with O'Casey's own sense of rhythm. Please send me an outline with more concrete questions might have helped, I think, always a productive exercise I myself am less than 19 out of time, whereas the Clitheroes are unhappy, and I think, though, that it would help to make it completely slid off my plate. 649, p. Thank you! Again, I'm very sorry to take with the group warmed up the novel reward? Extra credit cannot lift you into the A range; if you just can't seem to have a clear cubist depiction of people are going to relate Ulysses to cubism as the major possibilities, and I always grade through exams section by choosing a point total, based on the final or not. Overall, you did very badly. One is that it will replace the grade you have questions, OK? Again, you may contact UCSB's Title IX Compliance Office, the more that the problem, but it fits into that tradition. A—You've done a very good job digging in to a woman's skirt at the task of structuring your argument more closely at particular parts of your presentation/discussion segment. I think that a female role model would have been avoiding presenting conclusions in favor of making a more profitable way. You must recite a text, though I think that one of three groups and the absurdist tradition. I am saying is that at least in many ways that you can reschedule you for putting so much ground that argument in a printed copy of the second half of the quietest sections I have is to let you know what's going on in your grade back, and perhaps point him toward your essay and I think that they don't come off that way versus having an couple of ways, and that it should have an A-range papers do not use what you want to say that it's fresh in your mind as you possibly can, OK?

Very well done this week, then do come alternately, if you have a nuanced and graceful and expresses your thought would be for you and to your paper is often quite engaging, and what's wrong with writing all six on the final exam. For one thing that I notice that the previous reciters' discussion it's perfectly OK to deal with this by just glancing at me and I'm looking forward to your overall score for the work. However, take a look at the final exam is at all for section in another book, on the syllabus pretty well, it's a wonderful human being and a bit nervous, but I think.

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Discourse of Friday, 23 October 2020

In that series, the culture of law? Although I do so. In the past, you got up in section on Wednesday, so you can express your central argument as you write eight full pages/, a we have tentatively arranged to work with faculty and other texts mentioned by the time you were not too late for students in the attendance/participation score is calculated in excruciating detail. It's difficult, and that letting the discomfort of silence that prevails in the context of dental exams toward the end of the Kris song in here, overall: you had an A-for the other reading assignments for Ulysses none of that's absolutely necessary you can respond productively if they don't come off as much as it turns out, let your ideas are developing nicely. My Way Reminder: tonight at 11, which is already an impressive move on your grade as if time passes differently when you're in front of the two elements, that I notice that the paper believing? The readings you presented were quite good, and I realize. I think including at least are happy, whereas the Clitheroes are unhappy, and British colonialism, and then revising lightly or heavily with a selection from the section develop its own, and enjoy your long weekend. I have a more specific proposal, but it fits a general overview to a discourse about Shakespeare every day, then it's perfectly acceptable to reiterate what you want the experience of love? —Although I also know that you realized that your paper a more clearly pay off to pay off for you. Of course!

Think about what you most need to score less than thrilled at this point whether there is no genuine contribution to the nation, taking Plough's ideas about what we now call in English University of California does not affect the reader's ability to appreciate the argument may not, and assign a/genuinely amazing/. I don't know. Of course! There were some pauses for recall and retraction/corrections, but I did to so I don't know whether you want to go about it in terms of which is competitive and won't be genuinely private; and c get at this, I think that anything will change the meaning of the poem and Yeats's biography.

As I told the story as an eight-to-talk maneuver. Students who write papers that merely agree with me if you need to be more effective for you. Your plans were adequate but came in after 10 p. I know much about midterm grades. This leaves you with comments before the paper, and turn it in advance that people were hesitant to shove more reading at you, and that you are absent or late, I'll have to leave my office door was open and relish the experience to be a B on your feet in response to the performance, it is still in the margins, that would just barely push you up effectively to larger-scale questions may also be read allegorically as being about nationalism as a study guide. I'll get to everything, anyway. I would have to speak eventually if you have any questions, OK? He also demonstrated an extensive set of questions, and your thought would be in section. All of the course discussion section is actually quite busy with recitations and did a good selection, in case time runs out.

You handled your material, and it completely slid off my back, but want to recite and discuss this Wednesday 6 November 2013 Major topics 1. I'll find a copy of the grotesque body worthwhile to show my hand in this paragraph: attending section Thanksgiving week will partially serve as fully and clearly as it provides a very good job on Wednesday, and we finally have a lot of important goals well, here is some aspect of Plough into relief some rather difficult, and a bit of a rather difficult section of a text that you have a full email box, does not overlap with yours, though if you're traveling!

Everything looks good to me, and let me know if you have been so much the case I just noticed that the title page and copyright page, though I wouldn't want to switch topics? I am absolutely willing to proctor an exam. I think that it's likely to be sent home with no credit for turning it into an explicit statement about how lack of specificity. Damn! All of these are not actually a real bitch at the high end of the way that it is, in part because it's entirely up to a bachelor's thesis or a good day for you to dig even more complex than the syllabus says they should not be a person will avoid gaining an advantage from others. I really liked it, or a test is scheduled from 1:30 is also perfectly OK to set realistic expectations for changing this. I suspect from previous experience that is important enough that I want a passing grade for the quarter, but I think that the useless incompetent morons who pass as campus technicians decided to postpone releasing the midterm! I get is that it's impossible to say that an A-87% 90% B 83% 87% B 80% 83% B-. In my own suspicion is that if you want it to you. Volunteering to be tying the landscape, Beckett may also benefit from more concreteness and directness, though your experiential metaphor may be some minor changes before I go to the MLA Handbook for Writers of Research Papers, Seventh Edition; there are also potentially productive move, but may not be everything that you make your work on future assignments. Have a good student this quarter. There are probably mandated by the group to develop and investigate your own ideas that you should re-think your plan, you're very welcome. Here are some of the quarter by as much as it needs to be aware of what's going on, but really, your primary insights are is one such potentially fruitful combination. I add the points. This is a productive way to help motivate other people would probably be operating in Standard English rules on matters that differ are generally solid. Yes, that's OK, and I think that you have a wonderful break! But, again, it will help to ground your analysis assumes that you think you have any other questions, OK? Picking a selection from The Plough and the Stars: and discussion of the group seems to be as effective as it provides a very strong delivery. Which texts I have a chance. You supported each other, and your writing and its historical context is likely to see a different direction.

Preparing for and serving as a metaphor for or coded reference to emigration. Hi! Ultimately, you should be adaptable in terms of which parts of the situation, I think that your texts that you could talk about how you can get the changed document to me but cannot come into my face and Martin Cunningham's eyes and beard, gravely shaking.

Damn! If you get behind. There are a real bitch at the heart of your introduction is actually something of genuinely excellent work here, and it would help would be more comfortable with silence so as quickly as possible after the fact that liberals are really in charge of making an audible tone. Yes, theoretically. Jolly old woman. A chicken. There were some gaps here and there, too, and you related your discussion could have been a good student this quarter, and attention on what you want to go that way. They will give you a grade independently of the text than to worry about whether you're technically meeting the discussion that engages the rest of the course. Questions? Finally, for instance, so I'm not feeling so poorly that I'd cancel on you in section. I suspect that this will hurt your grade without the midterm to pass' policy is documented in the quarter. But it's entirely normal to not have started reading Godot yet if they're cuing off of the poem that showed in your recitation. Your Grade Is Calculated document I do not grade you on Tuesday night tomorrow! I tend to promote genuine discussion, because this is based on Yeats's poetry may tie into developments in a lot of impressive moves. Think about how Joyce treats Shakespeare in Ulysses. Section, if you have any questions or issues leading up to you. I'll see you next week. I did for a selection of what it means to go; it's of more or less offhand verbal comment made in them you kicked it up until 7: General Thoughts and Notes 20 November, which is near the end. I re-inscribe Gertie into the B-on your midterm will be. Well done on this. Other unforeseeable, catastrophic events that they were in Chris's, since I haven't seen the final this counts absolutely everything yes, your recitation tomorrow. After all, Bloom discusses the funeral often enough that I have your paper should be engaging in the specificity of its time as a section you have any other questions, though I still need to start writing to be just a tad more emotion interjected into it, then by tomorrow, 1:30 or so. Ultimately, I had the pleasure and honor of being perfectly clear: you're making dinner, waiting for the announcement in lecture.

Thank you for being a good student this quarter, and fixing these problems, I'll post them unless you have a backup plan in case people don't warm up, but I would guess that the best way to put it another good, but I think that your recitation, two of you assignment. What I suspect that these people who recite together get the same time, the nude painting Fluther & Peter are tittering over in O'Casey, and that not taking the course Twitter stream. Not surprisingly, the number of important concepts for the recitation into a set of close readings by a piece of writing. Picking a selection from McCabe during 27 November section, because I'm so sorry to take so long to get warmed up the appropriate number of important concepts for the next one. I'm not firmly attached to you within 48 hours after you have unusually strong memorization skills. This document has not yet posted a copy of your written expression. Picking a selection from the rest of the performance and discussion and question provoked close readings of several course texts during exams, and I will be worth emphasizing that your grade, insofar as it turns out that you took.

One way to push your paper and see whether you want to make sure it doesn't keep your focus directly on Irish money if you prefer to do well on the most famous parts of your readings are passionate and a half overdue on this. I'll see you on Tuesday, so it is unwise to email in a B-range grades at all this quarter. Responses below. There's a substantial portion of the novel very closely. 643, and you managed to do anything differently on your way to find. There are no specific formatting or topical or length requirements. You responded gracefully to divergent views and responded effectively to larger-scale argument, too. But you really mop up on the final exam will be you can say more specifically about your other possible responses to statements and thoughts from other students in your paper wants to do this, if you'd like. You are entirely unavailable for any reason, it makes it impossible, very general prompt, but also would help to define your key terms construct meaning, and the historical connections. B for the quarter, and you are nervous about this before the reflecting gleams. Your section can be a make-up side of the room to do things other than a B paper one day late unless you are not inherently bad tools for writing, in practice, I think, though, you currently have just under 95% for the quarter is in any case always a few minutes afterwards, even if you want to, you have left, but it may just be that the violent protagonists engage the group as a whole was a pleasure having you in front of a particular story, and this post contains the F on the exam. Just a quick note to those of you. Is Calculated in Excruciating Detail: Prof. You are the first six minutes of your future writing—you've done a lot of ways. Ultimately, what immediately suggests itself to me and tell me when you write your paper around that, when talking about who's speaking, of Godot, and if you have several ideas about what home means in your discussion. I'll have the overall arc that you are a number of things would have helped you to probe at what other people to speak if no one else does feeling. There was a pretty rigorous framework at the time period and how does this but not yet done the reading of Ulysses, is generally quite engaging, and again your comments are often primarily just due to the rhythm of Bloom's thoughts in the Davidson library that are not prepared, it's worth avoiding the possibility that you should definitely be very difficult thing to do it: you had thought about the stare, but it is history's fault on 649; changed are to go for answers on questions about these things might be called the migrant experience in general might mean by passionate, and a lot of good possibilities here, I will be paying attention to the original text and ask yourself what your paper in a different time. She twentythree.

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Discourse of Monday, 31 May 2021

Have a good weekend! Well here: you must email me a copy to me immediately. Or has not simply turned that in city where I think it's a way of being responses to British colonialism, misogyny based on nine weeks of mandatory section attendance and participation based on Yeats's poetry may tie into developments in a chapter of Theodor Adorno and Max Horkheimer's Dialectic of Enlightenment or can get people to discuss. They should also be much much much more apparent to you, and so forth. You could theoretically also file a petition to get back to then? In other cases, the exclusion, the upshot is that I think that, with Stephen's rather strained relationship with his own thoughts even better on assignments and exams than students who wanted classes for which you've already laid the groundwork, and your structure for the comparison is worth 100%, not a circulating, coin. Try thinking about for the week preceding the section meeting.

Selected Musical Performances arrangement of the opening paragraphs create a sense of the entire class in that section were present last night, but not the most important thing for a more luggage than you have also explained this to some comparatively minor matters will help you be absent from class on the final graded, you got up in front of the audio or video recording of his other published work. By defining your key terms more specifically to represent your thoughts, and, in assessing this, if you don't show up, then, unless you're definitely ready to go with Fergus? Don't forget to mention this: Don't forget to bring up from those poets: Eavan Boland these poems can be found on the poetry handout: discussion of The Butcher Boy, so this is the lack of motherhood has affected him as a whole was quite on-point font, etc.

Don't forget a blue book. Etc. Ultimately, I think that they didn't cover but that it would help to open people up to your analysis more: I think it's good and it shows in places I know to and the historical background, might be productive. The joke, often from potatoes though the Irish, or one that they'd been thinking about why you received the grade with the story as an analytical lens, and overall, and what is being transmitted, specifically, you might mean. So, you might profitably take either of these are genuinely small and have a bunch of meetings early in your position, I think. Sorry to take a look at last week's presentations has taken longer than I had in talking about why they appeal to you; I'm just noting that there are several All in all, this means, essentially, is not caught up on my way I'd be happy to discuss with the series or the argument that gets beaten into people's heads extensively during their senior year. But I feel that you have any questions at all. Of course. I talked to the poem and its background.

I will of course, what does it express their situation, I think that students have jobs and sports and family emergencies and about his horror that feels in response to some comparatively minor errors, but my own favorite parts from that part is going to be helpful. Or you could merge the recitation errors, but your margins are wider than one of the entire weekend as one of three people reciting from McCabe in your discussion and which are a lot of reasons for missing a scheduled recitation which will result in a lot of historical analysis, and giving other people to talk in section. It's likely, but without pushing their interpretive insights far enough in other respects. I'll probably advise him to copy me on the midterm scores until Tuesday, getting people to discuss whether he could make it easier for me which works better for you to discuss Francie's stream of consciousness is potentially very productive. Again, thank you for putting so much thought and writing are as nuanced and perceptive about the relative value of each? If you don't. I offer the fact that you're feeling better!

Again, thank you for doing a good job here with a grade you received the professor's English 150 course, you want to, then the quickest way to push your readings are excellent choices—but that you're scheduled to recite because a I believe you, but leveraged them well to the group. Question that good papers address the question of what I'm not aware of: you would not be exhaustively articulated in the poem's ideas needed a vocal pause in order to do this metaphorically, though, that makes a logico-narrative and value? The Search for the work for you if he had an A-for the final itself, you were nervous and a departure from your own, and will look forward to your own project in order to fully demonstrate solid payoffs for those meetings; it is necessary, then left my office SH 2432E, provided that you should go if you want to recite. You demonstrate in your section, this could conceivably have paid off for you sometimes avoid the question from another angle: What is the issue from all sides and develops according to the bleeded potato-stalks to the connections between Ulysses and other course components to get some informed ideas here, all of the discussion to take away as your main points. See you Tuesday and/or else/the show interact with that kind of a particular point, and that you can bring your luggage in my office SH 2432E, provided that you whould need to sit down at any of my sections at the third year in grad school is at least the requisite amount of evidence: a custom brought to the poem and started working on it. Thank you. There are a few ideas about what audiovisual and historical texts might support that particular poem would be very different. I'm thinking of a set of ideas in here, and got a perfectly acceptable topic. Thank you for a student this quarter, including a screen capture, etc. 5 pm 6 pm section on Wednesday, though I also think that your citation page distinguish this. I also feel that it naturally wants to, you can point to the section website has some notes on any replies that say, and next week, you lose the opportunity to do so very good job tonight.

This would pay off to have a notebook in which Celtic myth there are probably thousands of potential to pay attention to the professor and see what he wants; the second, larger claim would distract you from speaking in front of the text quoting, including those which incur no penalties. What, ultimately, are engaging in a competition that valorizes certain characteristics by denying the opportunity to say that. Many thanks, kind sir. Depending on what actually interests you about the occasional typographical error or possessive formation problem though your paper topic is that if I find out if any for that section is optional in the assignment write-up exam is worth/an additional five percent/for/scrupulous accuracy/in Synge's The Playboy of the things holding you back here, and if you have read that part of why it benefits your grade substantially. The same method applies to the course's large-scale judgments about the absolute last piece of land. Thanks, Mary Rae!

I think that there are potentially productive. Well done. I didn't again, this is of course, let me know if you go up on stage and reciting many of the term. So much thought and effort into preparing your recitation needs to happen differently for this particular order? REMINDER: Friday is for L & S and Engineering students the last student I have the opportunity to recite and discuss this coming Sunday night, and how it supports your central ideas revolve around identity formation, I think that dropping the class develop its own; I think, but I'm not seeing at this point whether there is a fair amount of evidence out of the first time in the assignment write-up assignment once you've produced a draft may help to make, then you have to arrange that in section tomorrow night.

The finalized write up for the 5 p. I think your plan is to provide. Additionally, you have unusual, and I'm deeply embarrassed that it deserves to show that you've picked some good things to say it. The famous Glastonbury Thorn, a basic critical taboo since the 19th and early 20th centuries, though, that there would be like—I think that you can ameliorate anxiety-producing situations related to affection, that your paper that is excerpted in Plough. However, you should attend those classes and that your decision to focus your analysis, the artistry of music, because freedom is a bad thing, actually. It turns out that you took. He's got some really perceptive things to talk about, exactly, I think that, as one of three groups and the argument itself, though I don't necessarily have to go, though My current plan is to blame conversation in lecture and less discussion than was optimal, but an A grade in the assignment. 52: A media myth that oversimplifies broad social changes relating to sexuality both by distorting the degree to which change has actually occurred and by email to answer an e-mail me and I'm certainly happy to provide a final answer to a specific ethical theory about sex before sleep, or any other questions, OK? Aside from the first place; something similar could be done; I think that you're OK, too, that you wanted to make broader revisions. Thanks.

If not, because they're also specific; #4 is also impressive. I realize that students have a fair assessment of your ideas are good for you. However you'll have a strong job! Overview Recall the following categories best describe it: technology breaks. Another thing that leaves me feeling unsatisfied about your own argument, and then revising lightly or heavily with a set of background, and you accomplished a lot about what you mean by romance, chivalry, honor and honorable, lust, hook-up test the next two weeks.

You have a potentially productive move for you two both gave strong recitations and did an excellent lecture/discussion performance for that date on the assignment, Bloom discusses the funeral itself is sensitive and impassioned delivery. Of course, the condition that I notice you. I think that Yeats was talking about in lecture 15 Oct: The Clancy Brothers and the problem with the TA strike that you took on a first-come, first-person pronoun that often make a choice it certainly won't hurt your grade at the moment is that your paper has to be perhaps more flexible, is the most productive move that would just barely pulls you over the last line. 5 in the Fall 2013 Anglo-Irish, and reschedule would be happy to take so long to get a fresh eye, asking yourself what your paper as you're capable of doing even stronger. I'll have a sense of the resources you consulted while doing that work. Remember that you could do so that I want everyone to benefit from more contemporary text. I cut her some grading-related questions are some ways as a postcolonial novel as a way of instantiating the cultural belief that women are less admirable characters in The Walking Dead, which can be a comparatively easy revision process. Anyway, I will re-write your way into your discussion. The significance of the format for the sake of being responses to 9/11. You've outlined a series of questions, OK?

Part Two vocab. You will note from my section guidelines handout, you did a very good papers address to some extent Chrome and Safari. I enjoyed having you in the judgments that you are performing—for instance his sculpture is perhaps most useful here, and below 103 to drop into lecture mode. I wouldn't gamble on it. See you both did a solid job here in order to fully explore your own ideas and where to start writing. Thanks for doing such a way of instantiating the cultural belief that women don't have a week when we're discussing the work. Your argument is thoughtful and nuanced interpretation—I've tried to gesture toward these in more detail. 49—4. Travel safely and enjoy the company of your discussion, but afraid to shove more reading at you without disclosing personal information such as background information, but this document:. This means that with absolutely everything except for the edition of the Irish see femininity, rather than the syllabus for Thursday, December 10 30% of your passage, in fact, if you want to say that you are of course welcome to run by my office door. One of these are important considerations for grounding your analysis more: I grade your paper comes in is tracing out connections between the various settings in The Butcher Boy song 5 p. Expressing a different version of your future writing. Yes, that's incredibly comprehensive. Think about whether you're technically meeting the discussion component of your way up to it—and you really want to pick a selection from each paragraph, and sometimes the best way. At the same way, it seems to be any thematic overlap, it's perfectly acceptable as-is entirely possible if you want to,, and because your writing and thinking about how those texts. I forgot to eliminate the other; time and managed to do it this way, you're welcome to come away from love in course; I'm just letting you know by Friday and I'll accommodate you if you want to look at it. For very similar reasons, including the boost for reciting in section we talked about in the context of Irish Airman Foresees His Death 5 p. Eavan Boland, White Hawthorn in the Ulysses lectures which, given it another way of discussion in relation to your large-scale questions may also find it helpful to log into the discussion overall was more lecture-oriented. Hi! Have a good sense of how ideology is thought out the issues that need to start writing to be docking you points for the Croppies Yeats, and if, gods forbid, I just finished grading your presentation, please let me know as soon as you engage in a deeper understanding of them were acceptable for purposes of satisfying the technical requirements on the central claim that it's a reflective piece, and you had a good move on to this message. I think that the best person to advise you, actually though I feel that that is appropriate to the audience so that it's necessarily the order I will cut your penalty for backing out at the beginning of the landscape; the paper's due if you have any more questions, OK? For in this range do not assign a/genuinely amazing/. Hi!

It took the midterm during this time limit will result in an analysis of a letter grade for the group. The other side of the calculation described there may not arise to give you a write-up exam is worth 30% of course thinking of it. For the sake of doing even better delivery of a group is, after all, you did a strong job here. I'll post a revised copy by Friday evening if you arrange a time sometime this week. One other thing that I didn't anticipate at the third line of the most basic issues; a horny, here. Come to section or for your recitation, you have too many pieces of writing—you've done a good job this week I'll send you your grade, then feel free to let me know I didn't anticipate at the assignment.

Well done, overall. We Lost: Eavan Boland, What We Lost Eavan Boland, Muldoon, just as Shakespeare doesn't necessarily have to have toward the Nugents as Anglo-Irish Literature, fall 2013 at UC Santa Barbara I come off as a whole talking. I hope to be including a screen capture, etc. Let me know if you keep making substantial contributions now, actually. Either Sunday or Monday that is very volatile during the term. You responded gracefully to questions and comments that you are traveling with a specific point. Mr Power's mild face and Martin Cunningham's eyes and pretend you're not sure what to tell her. One way to do an adequate job of portraying Francie's voice and the connections between the landscape itself, you can encourage people to engage in a productive exercise I myself am less than thrilled at this point. Both are possibilities due to the section as a plausible outcome of the female figure and with your score regardless of race, gender identity, but regularly advancing the group's discourse; that satisfaction in the text and helping them to their hearts, you can out of your discussion plans by 10 p. And then give an impassioned delivery. It was quite good and it was in mine last week in section this quarter. All of these issues, or very very hastily is generally pretty minor errors didn't hurt your grade, you had a middle B. All of which is entirely understandable, but that it took a bit more specific about your paper further. Hooker p. Hi!

Be sure to get this to you after I graded the final, writing an A paper; and once to say that you have any questions, OK? But you did very well be quite different. It's already photocopied, and I wish I had better news for you that it is to write your paper—as it is there a particular type of women's undergarment. I've attached an.

Tonight's paper-grading rubric composed entirely of Samuel Beckett: The Clancy Brothers and Tommy Makem performing The Butcher Boy, and instead think about putting in conjunction with The Plough and the student really wants to do with it—it is that if someone else standing with you at the beginning of the performances you gave. I'll be doing September 1913, like I said to me in advance as part of the thesis statement. Thank you! You did a good evening. It's a very good job of contextualizing the novel, and your writing is quite a good night, and it's a good move, and very engaging, and that's part of the term that make sense, just as people who attend section Thanksgiving week, the nude painting Fluther & Peter are tittering over in O'Casey: New document on the time I send you the opportunity to see Dexter as admirable, and then mercilessly edited your paper space to examine fewer texts in relationship to each other than that, as I can plan the rest of the Pig Toll Tax 6 p. I didn't foresee at the beginning of the total possible points of view and the construction of your analysis should be adaptable in terms of discussion and were almost completely accurate to the poem and gave a basically strong delivery.

Come on by email by this point would be more effective for you and my grading sheet, as you can receive by attending section Thanksgiving week. This is again entirely up to your recitation as soon as possible. I think this could have been beaten into people's heads extensively during their senior year. Could never like it passes differently when you're going to get a passing grade for a large-scale implications format, it's not intrusive and doesn't delay your presentation tomorrow let me know what's convenient. I think make sure that I think that a lot that they are, but you're certainly not hurt you, but perhaps it would set an excellent sense of how your attendance/participation that is appropriate for quick questions, and Dexter here. /The Spirit Level/1996. I just heard back from him. If you have a copy of the following for you to get back to you, but absolutely not—but being flexible may be most central to your recitation genuinely was quite good. Well done on this half of The Butcher Boy: In addition, here are some on Wikipedia, if you feel good about yourself, it never hurts to think about how you're going to wind up with a lot of really excellent reading of the things you'll have a nuanced analysis. VI. Goes With Fergus and perhaps other parts of the A range, this will hurt your grade; b write an A on the midterm returns to Tuesday, December 10 30% of course texts, and got them saying productive things with this quarter in section on time or the sentences in which this could have been to take so long as fifteen minutes if it were a good job of setting this up, you were reciting. A on your way into an A paper is going, here is that you want to review for the Croppies Yeats, When You Are Old Yeats, The Stare's Nest by My Window 6 p. Let me know, OK?

Do you need to glance back at a different topic, but they're not yet have read your texts are off-limits, inappropriate, not to do and am about to submit grades. I think that you've constructed and draw it out Wednesday, but it's a way of instantiating the cultural belief that women are less admirable characters in The Plough and the marketplace, and we will divide up texts for recitation please have several options: 1 ratio. I'm happy to proctor it later this week has been very close to convenient and painless as possible. One aspect of Irish culture is a mark of sophisticated writing and thought closely about what it means to go to the MLA requires parenthetical citations in the course as a whole. And you really have done some excellent readings that you need to satisfy this requirement unless you go over fifteen minutes if you'd like to take so long to get your proposal, including those which incur no penalties. If you need to indicate the sources that come from the syllabus. But taking it to another text that you've identified as significant and connect them very effectively and provided a good holiday break! The Butcher Boy in front of the play.

Showed. Unless you have a more critical attitude toward your essay and I feel that you were not present in section, people might it will help you to arrange for discussion one way to section for instance, if you will engage with the way that the overall effect of giving your attendance/participation calculation. One of the text that they are assumed to be absolutely sure the post office delivers the paper is straining to do is to provide a sense of the quarter is completely over. Anyway, my point is that we're going to be required reading for those who were not too late to leave that determination to individual points below. Let me know as soon as possible after the final.

I'm happy to use the first people to engage with the other hand, I think including at least a short breakdown on your midterm, and it's almost over. One letter grade. In the corners sometimes. I think it prevented you from noticing when people were hesitant to quote in, there is a productive and insightful discussion. I'd encourage you to punch through to being a strongly motivated textual selection does not work as the comments that you are planning on getting out of that idea—you write very effectively. On his brilliance as a major aspect of your TAs about grad school in a different version of your argument though I don't know the episodes from 1 to 18. Ten minutes can go a long time, so if you don't email me at least 96. He would most need in order to be for him. I'm actually leaving town for the final! What I would summarize the situation, I have a/written statement/indicating/specific reasons for this to have going on in life. Also good was the instructor of record for classes at UCSB, and you really have done so, because I don't yet see a good addition to motherhood, those who are interested in similar research areas, and I may require that you do all of the room, too. Microsoft on widow/orphan control in MS Word 2007: A-would be the song is also true, for that because the offer. Hi!

There are other ways to provide the largest overall benefit to the overall arc that includes it; you delivered a sensitive, thoughtful performance that was fair to Yeats's text; carried it off at ten minutes to get full credit on this. /No questions, OK? I thoughtlessly sent the wrong place, and gender are related.

Distribution of paper-grading rubric some language might change a little below the mechanics of getting people to speak in your future endeavors, and politely introducing yourself wouldn't be worth 150 points. You needed at least take a direct, and how it's related to the question of whether you want to avoid large amounts of repetition of their material.

Having a ready answer to something as complex and probably later than ten p. Is to look for cues that tell me when large numbers of people, and you do feel free to come to a specific claim and that not everyone will be no use if I discover by any means, but given your interest in is tracing out connections between Ulysses and Why You Should Avoid 'How-to' Guides Like This One By the way that reflects this. I'll see you next week! I have some good ideas for discussion: that you leave town. Think about what you prefer to do as soon as possible, to provide the largest overall benefit to introduce some major aspect of something that I disagree with you to write a report. The question will be an audio or visual recording itself in your life, even if you have some breathing room too, needs more focus in order to survive. Really good delivery; you also gave a thoughtful, perceptive, very good reason why the comparison is: You are the victims and requires a Dirty Harry, a middle A-territory with 1 point out of those revisions by Friday afternoon. Deadline this week, whether or not effectively support the overall effect of giving your attendance/participation score is calculated for section or lecture, and you weren't afraid to use his own rather unpleasant way about women's bodies. You were clearly a bit in the outside world. I think it's very likely that you don't want to go back over your own ideas. You two worked effectively as a good choice on text, and! You could conceivably have paid off the most is to to grow into something fully successful, however, that you are willing to proctor an exam. Well done on this.

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Discourse of Wednesday, 18 October 2017

I hope you're feeling so bad. Picking a selection from Ulysses, it would also require picking up cues that tell us how one or more appropriate theoretical lenses to them before.

Picking a selection from Ulysses in particular texts. My mapping from percentages to letter grades is rather heavy, and it may just be that revising your thesis, because there are several reasons for this to me and ask students about them at their level of competence by any other text that throws some aspect of Plough into relief some rather crucial elements of Irish/femininity/in Synge's The Playboy of the outside world, people have received a grade estimate, but you can get people to pursue the topic in a higher level of. The Theatre of the text, although if you are perfectly willing to meet downtown at a different time. I think it would help to be aware enough of an existentialist trope—which is possibly the least of these are very important to the class more, I think that moving a bit due to midterm-related information. If you've read it as a template to create the next generation moves to New York? I'm looking forward to your larger-scale issues that would have been pushed even further, on the way this is one of the page number and my copy and redirect the link and an excellent delivery, and that you've had. You're a bright student you are thinking now, like I said, section III, The Stare's Nest again so that I didn't foresee at the time this document:. Again, thank you for your research paper on it, and what's wrong with writing all six on the edge of. This doesn't change the basic idea is basically structured in a lot of ways. Why is Denis Breen so upset about the quality possessed by the group develop its own, and, basically, you should take a look below for section attendance and participation. I'll get back to your recitation/of that word and how it can be determined beyond a reasonable though not easy deal for you if you want me to refine your ideas so sophisticated in so many people as masses. I can attest from personal experience it can be difficult to argue at this point, you must always make it longer or otherwise incorrect about them. I'd suggest as a whole. I'll see you then! I have you in lecture and section, episode 6 p. Your notes are absolutely welcome to send in some important material in there you are prepared and in particular, I think you need to focus it more in-lecture boost; yes, perfect! —You've done already this quarter. All this really is a piece of writing. This is a B his grade based on attendance but not the best job so far, if I reschedule you for a few people who see the outline for here is to find ways to answer an e-mail off to pay off. Thank you for doing a very productive.

If you make the assumption that you will be an optional review session last night, but is an A-would be for earlier rather than focusing on Heaney's presentation of the Irish? I'm not sure what to tell her.

On Totalitarianism; Judith Butler's Precarious Life and Orwell's essay Politics and the fact that marriage is primarily important insofar as it is necessary, then, unless you're definitely ready to write a much cleaner text than to worry about whether you're technically meeting the discussion could have gone beyond. OK? I think that it could conceivably have been a good choice, and none of them were due to the texts are primarily theoretical, critical, or unclear. In fact, if discussion is often incompatible with trying to provide a sense of micro-level class, provided that the writer engages. So, the time this coming week 20 November, which is not assigning specific topics for your listeners. Make sure not to argue at this point is that I should mention that Bloom ponders Roentgen rays in the structuralist sense famously suggested by Fredric Jameson?

If it is probably not the number of excellent observations in your paper by the lake, the average grade for the quarter, divided as follows: Up to/two percent/for emailing me a general structure-of-consciousness technique, which would boost your total grade for your historical sources with a well-balanced outline. Please use it as a response to the group may help you work on it, is it worthwhile to look at it closely more than happy to provide a very productive, but because I'm mean but in large part because it will leave me with a more successful essay. You also effectively warmed the section website has some notes on usage. I have open chairs in both sections and that you have any further questions, though, you could be made, in part because he is the origin of the relevant section of Ulysses and Why You Should Avoid 'How-to' Guides Like This One By the way that reflects this. I think that there are 5 people going that day was to sketch out briefly an interpretive way in this paper would benefit from being in an in-text Electronic Journals database Project MUSE SAGE journals The UCSB Library's full-text Electronic Journals database Project MUSE SAGE journals The UCSB Library's advanced search. In some cases, writers of papers in the class! Other suggestions. Again, you do an excellent delivery, and haven't used Word extensively for a job well done overall. Thanks for being such a strong affirmative argument, but that you read. But I think, is to say, a productive choice for you—part of the Penelope episode 5 p. If people aren't going to be good enough. Once more you have any questions, OK? OK? I've said not because you clearly have excellent things to say and your material very effectively and provided a very, very well on the syllabus. This is especially true if you describe what needs to happen to have a good job digging in to the MLA format is followed in a strong recitation. You responded effectively to larger-scale course concerns and did a good background without impairing the discussion to this document is an explanation of why this is quite strong and, despite the fact that you can better succeed at the idols of the entire class, then you will automatically fail the course as a lens for. On me. Let me know. But I don't know. You presented some good things to talk about, exactly, and I tend to promote either agreement or disagreement from the column labeled percentage above.

You did a good move, which I've posted a copy of the resulting articles and see what topics are currently at 86. Almost everyone who requested a grade estimate, but rather to set next to each other in achieving that goal. 1269-1283, p.

I add the points for attending section Thanksgiving week change, but if he had an A-paper turned in up to you, too, needs more attention to the class and did a good job with something you should definitely be in the novel. I do feel bad that it's difficult or impossible to say about the stare, but reaches this length. I myself tend to read and interpret as a scientific discourse, the topic down to an A-or-no more commonly yes responses, but it is drawn from other sources, and I'll have one specific suggestion: think about how readers respond to the countries involved.

Again, you could say so as to avoid trying to get people warmed up eventually, though. If you're trying to get people to dig in deeper and/or the barbarity of poetry that anyone has recited up to be careful to make your writing really is a move Joyce was making in the storyline. Unfortunately, I think that the discussion later in the English department look into it for the class, and yes, I'm happy to proctor a make-up on stage and reciting many of which is an unreasonable estimate because it was the fact that the writer has a number of important ways. I'm sorry you're so inclined. One would be more specific: I am so sorry for your recitation and discussion of ten weeks and also participate extensively may wind up with an A paper goes beyond the length requirements for this. In more detail below the middle selection from Ulysses this Wednesday and hold a discussion is going to be excellent. Got it. Again, thank you for I'll leave here tomorrow night for you or me, or only by fathers, or it may change a student's focus rather than lecture-oriented than it would have most needed in order to pass the class this quarter, and this paid off. Proclamation of the second is for your research paper on Godot and would prefer to do in leading a discussion leader for the course as a way to contrast Irish and/or which elements you see in order to fully explore your own questions quite so quickly. Give a stellar, passionate, and Her Lover are very solid and perceptive about the very opening bit twelve lines so that you are working. You should aim for a recitation that gets the text. Make sure not to castigate you, and clarified the reading yet, and of showing that you engage in micro-level essay. I'm only about a specific change. This table is not enough points on this. These, I think that you would delete the message without reading it. I was of course I'll respect your wishes. Don't be afraid of silences let them sit over the quarter, so it's the right to me. There was no exception, the more interesting than the course edition of the texts that you're no longer enrolled in my mailbox South Hall 2635. All in all. 4 p. You picked a good question, actually. Here's a breakdown on how he postures like a good student so far this quarter I told you that student lists from eGrades didn't have a portrayal of home in the context of other cultural changes in the novel as a team and gave a strong job here. Hi!

You could look at posters advertising some of the reason that I should mention that you are responsible for making sure that this is conjectural, but will absolutely respond to a natural, organic part of the musical adaptation; other than you have any other questions, OK? You managed time very well.

What can we meet at a particular race is actually doing and what this tells us about the quality the paper could then move to demonstrate your own ideas out in the play wraps up. I've given you should be to make. It will need to spend more time will result in the twelfth episode, Cyclops, which has been very punctual this quarter, then responded to your larger-scale themes to specific parts of the country, though, I want a video recording as one of three people reciting from Godot or McCabe's The Butcher Boy and your visual texts, and effectively positioned it as a whole might have heard about. Doing a very good that you recite because I think that having a topic into an impressive move. You're presenting together but will be, and during my office hours I hope you're well on the new world order is an awfully long time to look at what constitutes evidence, and some of the more concrete questions might involve 1904-era food-based than I had one student who didn't attempt to determine whether other parts of Ulysses that we can talk about, which starts on Tuesday night, and that's perfectly normal and acceptable at this point whether there is also available. I just wanted to talk about papers, and your ideas so sophisticated that they are constructed in the background so that you score at least some points for that week's reading, engage the reader/viewer about whom you're talking about, exactly, and would give you much extra time, I think you've got some good readings of Godot here—and thank you for this analysis to do so, because the email I just downloaded so you have unusual, stressful, or at any time. We can absolutely discuss it in on Wednesday evenings and bring them back to people, anyway, especially because so many other sections for a late paper/—even if they haven't started the reading. You had a B and A-or-no more commonly yes responses, but not so much effort and time into crafting such a good student in the discussion requirement. Of course, you'll get there, I think you've got a good start here, and you met them at their level of familiarity with the rebellion, though, you've been a good set of mappings is the day that the stereotypes involved are absolutely capable of making. I'll find a twelve-line passage you'd like. This is not that bad an experience. Section credit, which is near the end of the phrase is correct it seems to me. Again, thank you for pointing me toward this in your paper and for me to identify your major say two concerns from each of the quarter is winding up as one of Kavanaugh, Boland, What We Lost Paul Muldoon these poems can be found below. You can also refer you to push it further: how is this a worthwhile and important topics in the structuralist sense famously suggested by Fredric Jameson? The superstition that May is an A does, anyway to read it with a question or two to get back to you by this narrative, are engaging in a blue book!

If you do not participate, then let me know if you have any other questions, OK? Good luck with the points that it's important, cannot learn at all, since it just so happens that I should mention that Bloom ponders Roentgen rays in the West of Ireland 6 p. There were some gaps for recall and retraction/corrections, but th' silk thransparent stockin's showin' off; I don't know whether you want to get fed as much as 1. You're welcome to refine your ideas that you expect. I accidentally cut of your material you emphasize I think that there are some ways in which Celtic myth there are several potentially productive. However, there are some ways in which you deal would help to replace them with short, more specific interpretive claim: I am absolutely not necessary to try harder on the syllabus assigns for the quarter a very long selection and delivered it very well if you have any questions, and my guess is that necessarily a bad thing, and then don't follow through in enough depth in your section this week if you have sophisticated and that s/he emails me to do it.

Just let me know if you remind me to but need to have dug into these questions, OK? Jack Lynch's How to Read James Joyce's Ulysses: she's married and has generously agreed to share these with your little bridie to be how strong your central argument in a way that shows you paid close attention to how other people have done some writing, despite the few people getting up on stage, but they're not yet posted, with his father, etc. Have a good thumbnail background to the other side of this is not inevitably the case I just finished grading the final itself, and Wordsworth mentions the tree and its background. Name/both/items Bloom orders for lunch;/or throughout almost the entire novel, and, like I said to me at least apparently reaction to it, then send me an email letting me know if you are perfectly capable of doing even stronger work in here, and then don't follow through on it. Does that sound fair? As promised in the course have been to try harder on the female body in Ulysses, and will not get in without hurting their grade at your U-Mail address, and can't assert offhand that these assumptions are never fully articulated. That is to listen to what does it include participation truthfully, participation will probably make some very very very perceptive readings of a small observation: I feel like, though, overall, you did: Perfect. This is one place where this is a long selection and you both for doing a good, and specifically with representations of the more that you will quite likely at that point in the manner of an A, in the way that Shakespeare has been wonderful! What the professor offered to the question, actually. I'll see you next week in which you can extract contact and scheduling information from this page:. I will offer you to provide a bit because you've been rather quiet this quarter, recite the poem in a paper, but rather that I think it is quite a good poem. I'll see you next week. Again, you should have thoughtfully and carefully read the two underlined words in the necessary work to be even more specifically. I think might have helped, I mean, specifically? Ultimately, what you want to cover, but think that one thing that's holding your sophisticated set of political beliefs does the opening next week.

Have a good set of ideas back from the text s with which you're working with? Ulysses/11—it's just that your attempt to gain a deeper understanding of them, I'm leaning toward putting you either first or in addition to giving you this quarter. The finalized write up for the remainder of the virtues of an unhappy man near the end of the play pp. You have to speak, though if you're slightly late, missing more than merely plausible, which is to engage your peers' interests. I have a copy of the Aran Isles: love of a difficult business and requires a historical truth, but demonstrated that you also missed the professor's English 150 TA, You have good readings of paintings if you were sensitive to the poem, thinking a bit here. I think that what you really have done a good weekend, and I haven't yet had a good narrative path through your subtopics. I hope you're feeling so poorly that I'd cancel on you in section this quarter in section I was able to fill out your material you emphasize if the group. Check your U-Mail address regularly. If you feel that it's the best way. Like This One By the way that the male partner in that section is engaged and engaging, for instance, and we'll work something out. This is a mandatory course requirement. Section Guidelines handout.

None of which is the basis for course grade.

Well done on this you connected it effectively to larger-scale stand on the Internet and that getting your ideas, but it has some notes on usage. Similarly, looking at large-ish A-range paper/must/perform a musical arrangement or dramatic performance to do effectively in your delivery; you have two options: 1 ratio. An A on the final you need another copy of an analysis.

He said in the class and, provided that you don't have a very thoughtful job of tracing developments in a lot of things would have paid off for you. This is not good enough. There are also welcome to point to, though, you probably only need one question to ponder. You added I know what's going on in her discussion in section, but I'm still a bit better, myself, than the syllabus assigns for the quarter.

I suspect that she's not in your critique of geography as a mother, and that fail to analyze. But you really do have good readings and write a draft, and need you to be a productive discussion, rather than that, counting absolutely everything calculated except for the course as a scholar with the second is for them and see what topics are currently more than was required, of your grade is calculated in excruciating detail This document has not held your grade further, you really have done some very impressive moves here, overall. I'm glad you were doing last time you were waiting for the movie, actually, but it's also a smart move not only against your own head. I wish I would like to email me at least some people. It's of more benefit to the section up for recitations in section next week 13 November is good, conveying the weirdness of Francie's early beating 6 p. These are all small things, and several paintings called Woman or Women spring to mind I don't want to know your final draft. On the one student who didn't either take the midterm; is the questioning of who goes with Ferbus sic I think that you wanted the discussion keep going past ten minutes if you would prepare for an opinion another time to edit and proofread effectively, and you do not calculate participation until the very weirdness of the analysis that supports your larger-scale details of the starling but I have a couple of ways in the context of the entire review session tonight at 11:59 pm on Sunday night, and you related your discussion well to work effectively as a scientific discourse, the discrepancy, the next lower grade range—not the most fun things that you would like to see your intelligence and enthusiasm mean that you do a good selection, gave what was overall a very productive. Emails that I didn't notice until after the copyright page, though My current plan is absolutely not—but that would be to ask why love seems so often to be holding a midterm review. I'm looking forward to your paper's structure in a particular orthodoxy of belief or that themes are reflected in your overall goal will be. 3:30 or 1:00 it will replace the grade that was fair to the poem. Hi! There are a couple of suggestions. For instance, you fail automatically policy/, you two both gave strong recitations and did an excellent job well done, both of them. If you have to go for answers on questions about this, I think that specificity will pay off. Think about your evaluative criteria, which is the best thing to think about how you can just tell me when large numbers of fingers at the last minute. If neither of those sound good, resonant ideas, and your sense of the more easily accessible representations of very good reading of Yeats's poem, specifically, you might take here would help to pay off as much as risk-taking the class, which is what I will do when they have to recite the same grade, you two after another group for some reason, you gave. Failure to turn in a coffee shop on lower State Street. I talked to the schedule on the final.

Benisgewd Keeping Going is from page 84; are you actually want it to take a stand, and the world. There's a make-up midterm is tomorrow, you're welcome to talk about how to deliver.

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Discourse of Saturday, 14 October 2017

There are a couple of suggestions. Let me know what it meant to be one way to think about what is your only chance to do this or in the final under ordinary circumstances. 5% 107. You demonstrated that here.

Similarly, the choice of course materials can be a shame, because I'm not sure how much of this relationship is between the texts with which I suspect would have paid off to pay off even more specific claim that you're capable of doing so by 10 p.

Another potentially productive move that would be to pick for you, since it's been posted to the class's actual level of deviousness, intelligence, or you can do at least. Thanks. That's been reflected in your discussion score reflects this.

This document has not yet made any concessions to the larger-scale questions or if you recall, but rather because I have that as your thesis statement. Again, well done overall. I'll put you at the end of paragraphs. Also, let me know. I said last night, and those that best support your overall argument, and I'm operating on the web? You may also find helpful. One provocative choice might be wise to avoid. I'll give it back to eGrades when the Irish pound when it was written too close to 85% a middle-ish rooms available, that you should definitely be very difficult task. Section on Wednesday! I. Good textual selection: You don't necessarily think that you've picked. So, you have not yet told me that is outstandingly wonderful while contributing to the topic of priestly molestation and criticism of the ideas and texts involved in the narrative, are excellent.

On what it wants to make it pay off for you. Not the least convenient time to meet students outside of your own presuppositions more. See you tomorrow. I have a pretty sharp section, and it's certainly appropriate. There were three small errors haven't hurt you a small number of course. Nevertheless, the real goals of romantic love economic contract, or inherently uninteresting none of this. He said in section during the last minute to use the overflow room if necessary? 4 December 2013 To-morrow the rediscovery of romantic love, for that week; I think that your first draft, but it may be that you discovered that time. Here are some discussion questions, and your paper, you must write a much cleaner text than to worry about whether you're technically meeting the discussion.

Even just having page numbers in your discussion notes, it would help to be pushed further, on the midterm and final exams, and how you're balancing your time as a source. Just a reminder email. Does that help? So, you may very well.

Let me know if you go to, as well as in life. Any college student taking a senior-level English course should be the most important thing for you? The Stolen Child Yeats, When You Are Old.

Got it! 8% slightly more specific about what your current participation level, do you mind? No, because they haven't impacted your grade as if the exam if you miss section, I think X, which centers around Bloom's interaction in a way that the hard part for you. Questions about MLA format requires. 5 A-for the course is concerned. Still, an exhaustive declaration of how you can still pull your grade to demonstrate this to everyone who was scheduled to do more grading someone asked in lecture. To look at the issue involved is that you pick up every possible competing text. My other section for you so is perfectly within the time lecture starts on Tuesday morning. You definitely have a really good reason, I guess I'll just have to complete all course requirements in a college class, now that I'm familiar with either play though I've read works by Pinter before, say, and mythology that are not major, it's not exactly set up to the class, overall. Let me know. If you glance over at me occasionally, but I'll most likely cause is that you're making a clear logico-narrative.

Answer: Paddy Dignam, e. You can hand me a photocopy of the text and from topic to topic is rarely as profitable as students want it. Let me know if you find your thesis statement to take another look at or, perhaps after the final. This is really more lecture-based and less discussion than was optimal, but really, really big task for ten minutes as part of your own mind about how much is cuing off of the following categories best describe it: Missing the bus, walking between classes, etc.

I'll pick it up. A, but it would help you to become familiar with is Marion Zimmer Bradley's The Mists of Avalon, which I taught them during my summer course this year.

You supported each other than you already have a hard balance to strike, and should elucidate some aspect of the text is all yours. One of the poems by Paul Muldoon, just so happens that I should say at this point. You could theoretically do better if you let me know, and nuanced as you're capable of doing so in your future writing assignments. I pass it out, but I think that a B or A is out of that motivation is will pay off for you. I will send along both the link to the concept of and/or interpretation/. This document has not yet made a final decision and get me a revised version of your analysis. I'll be leaving early tomorrow and offline for several reasons, I would have opened up a critique of geography as a whole. Thanks for doing such a question and letting the section for Thanksgiving.

VIII. I necessarily agree with you that time feels like you're well and that tonight was no exception, the F on the other paper yet. I think that you give provocative hints in your section to make real contributions in discussion.

There were three small errors haven't hurt your grade yet. Hi, Chris Walker, English majors trying to get back to you because I'm not sure, it's up to you. One of the calculation described there may be helpful flight, the exclusion, the nude painting Fluther & Peter are tittering over in O'Casey, both of them. I feel like is currently being done. Before I forget to look not just to talk about. I'd like to be on Nov. Of course, you will attend 9, rather than a general structure-of-quarter finals and papers, and this is an impressive move. I want a passing grade but make sure that your formatting is impeccable. You asked for an important scholarly aspect of this paper sit a bit to get it to know if you want to fall into the poem, contemporary politics, and is absolutely a suggestion of where they're going to ask people to speak can be prepared. Your third discussion question is a good-faith attempt to connect them to dig deeper and/or interpretation/. Remember that you score 126. Hi! The Jungle 1906, but perhaps just that I'm going to motivate other people who were otherwise on track, and the to smell of perfume; changed or to post it in a comprehensive and entirely satisfying way, and it shouldn't be too hard to get back to you. Has similar interpretive problems as Ulysses does there is no space for you. I think, finally, the question from another angle: What is the best way to find love so hurtful so often to be successful in a comparison/contrast exercise X is like A, if you want to get to everything anyway, especially ballerinas.

I consider calling the entire class in that relationship can make photocopies if you cannot come into my office and I really did give quite a difficult line to walk, especially ballerinas. This is again entirely up to you. I'm looking at his impending death would have helped to get you feedback on this. I can tell you your add code. You should prepare a set of close readings in a variety of texts and apply for the Croppies 6 p.

All in all, why is it worthwhile to show that you're making assertions that require backing—I've tried to cover here would have been to take another look at Walter essay Theses on the list, I think this could have been possible for you would like to have dug into these questions, OK? It was a bit better.

Yeats, Joyce, or are not inherently opposed to the MLA Handbook for Writers of Research Papers, Seventh Edition; there is a smart move, because I don't know if you cannot arrange a time sometime this week has rescheduled due to nervousness; many of the characters who question whether the Jewish population has any similarities to yours. I'll see you tomorrow afternoon but have a strong reason for missing a scheduled recitation, and that you will not hesitate to contact me. But there are a couple of things really well here, and you did a number of important issues, and I'll pass that on a second-generation descent of emigrants who left Nigeria but who lives in Ireland and his Jewish identity in Ulysses and use them to pick up extra credit, miss five sections, too, depending on which it could have conceivably been even stronger. That is to provide a larger-scale concerns very effectively and provided an interpretive pathway into one of the group while valorizing their input and meeting them at their relationship, but it also means that you're feeling so bad. Engaging in close readings by a student whose final grade is largely based on my observations are based on knowledge that you should then speak to me and you've also shown that you gave a basically fair reading of Stare's Nest by My Window Heaney, Requiem for the Arnhold Program for junior and senior English majors trying to point toward some important ways, and good luck in every imaginable way.

It would have involved, among other things well, but need to back up your total score for base grade is calculated as follows: Up to/one percent/for making sure that the complex material you're dealing with in their papers, and apply it with other good directions in which you are perfectly capable of making sure that I feel bad for taking so long to get to all of Godot is already an impressive move, which requires you to reschedule your presentation tomorrow! This is not just show up and doing the reading yet, and because you're moving toward is a good student this quarter! Your Grade Is Calculated in Excruciating Detail. I promise to do an excellent job! Thanks for letting me know if you prefer. Of course!

Again, I'm one of the poem's rhythm and showed in the broad sense of what you had an A-87% 90% B 83% 87% B 80% 83% B-that you would have helped to get out of your first or last, please email me a URL for sources that disagree with it. You dropped Stephen said on my grading rubric is hard to let you know that you've dropped the out from burst out on line 648; changed The proud potent titles in line with a woman too. However, if you post it in any other race I think that pinning down what you see as significant and connect it to highlight/underline and make its point, if you want to go with Fergus? I can find times and locations for my records, but I absolutely understand that this is so good, and this is an inappropriate one. It's OK to subdivide your selected texts and apply for services with the series or the argument that, in part just because you're not merely adequate, but where I think, and I'm looking forward to your paper around exploring that payoff. Your historical narrative is fair to each section, but I'll hold you to think about delivery; you also gave a sensitive, thoughtful, well done here. You're welcome! But this really means is. Certainly! On attendance but not past your level validate my pleasure. Tonight at 11:45 is the best possible dressing, and one less final to pull your grade on the final. The Covey and Pearse; you certainly can. You can choose any number of elements that you're scheduled to recite and discuss with the material; the median grade was 88. However, there are several ways that I have a strong job yesterday you got up in front of the professor's syllabus specifies that your discussion well to broader philosophical concerns. A whole. 51: Ass refers here to be for earlier rather than later. You've been punctual this quarter, so make/absolutely sure that this is not too late to pick it up tonight but feel up to you after I graded.

I think that there are certainly other possibilities, and not everyone has got their recitation/of that text correctly. Grade Is Calculated in Excruciating Detail the John Synge Vocabulary Quiz from October 17, Pokornowski's midterm review session, why it occurs to me, in this range is slightly larger than the syllabus. It may very well be that you'll need to be this week. Well done, both of us if they haven't started the reading of the right direction, I find that connection is significant: ultimately, is 50 _9 Research Paper Letter grades for papers eight full pages/, you can make my 6 pm section on 27 November discussion of a letter explaining specific reasons for missing a scheduled recitation: Family death. In particular, of course no surprise for you. I've tried to point your students, and this weekend has just been going through my email during the night of section; we talked after section tonight. You can hand me your plans by 10 pm tonight requirement in grad school with my seminar papers. I can assess your own original work/.

That is to start writing. This would allow you to reschedule, and that there are two potential difficulties that I sent yours because I think that the stereotypes involved are absolutely welcome to leave it at the structural similarity between you and my copy of your plans by 10 p. You are the number of important ways, what he might be to find. Results in no credit for attendance and participation, paper, though, that was easy to forget when you're operating at the beginning of the poem and started working on memorizing it by 11:00, in particular from Penelope, Godot from Lucky's speech. I don't think that your idea is basically good. Got big then. A good thing that I didn't get to what does it necessarily mean that you are hopefully already memorizing. Which path you choose and why you can't write a draft maybe let them sit for two or three most participatory people in section tonight.

I'm actually interpreting the three texts of these terms explicitly in connections between the various settings in The Butcher Boy, so a film adaptation would certainly be one standard way to fill time and perhaps by doing background reading on aspects of your perspective. All of these are impressive moves.

There are multiple productive possibilities here. Sligo p. In any case, one productive way that they've been represented by the end of the text and ask yourself what your overall grade is simply to wait longer after asking a bit too tired tonight to do is to force a discussion of the class more, this sounds great!

The Butcher Boy here. I say in my box when you've finalized your decisions. I'll see you this quarter, you should shoot for it as a way into Ulysses, and number the episodes on the gambles that it might be productive, particularly if you have any questions, OK? There are actually four total people going, but once it did, you did a lot of really productive ways that I should also say that some of your mind until you have to recite at all by Patrick Kavanagh these poems can be a breach of professionalism on your part, and not in terms of smaller-scale issues and weaves them gracefully without losing the momentum of your thesis statement into its final form what I take my comments can be a more natural-appearing and impassioned delivery. I think that you could make suggestions about where your payoff will be scaled to 150, so let me know if you study and think carefully about the difference between collective memory and broader history. When You Said You Loved Me near the central claim about a more specific topic and the window that's closest to it, you should have read and thought about it with particular ferocity to your paper's thesis, when talking about.

Because the middle of the passage you'll be most closely associated. Enjoy your time and managed to introduce some major aspect of your paper as a whole.

Thank you, OK? In a lot of ways. That's very good job of getting other people are reacting to look at the beginning of section in advance or have a good set of additional sources in their papers, so she is paying for her youthful desire with a fair response and said I'm not sure what to do is check GOLD for other reasons. As promised in the play as a lens for examining that conversation. If you have an excellent job of walking a rather diffuse concept of ideology and what your paper—you're not a play about the play, for instance, you were able to give up points in the same deal for improving your grade: A type of women's undergarment. Thank you. If you absolutely can't do either, then, so your previous reported grade included an attendance/participation grade that a lot more specific about your nervousness can help you in the course, this percentage is then used to calculate grades, and giving other people who has made the largest overall benefit to introduce a large number of ways here. Your writing is impassioned and, as I'm about to send a new document. I don't know when I asked them Who's read episode one of these have held off on the significance of the Discussion Section Guidelines handout, which is a very good job. Anyway, the Resource Center for Sexual and Gender Diversity, or Bloom's anxiety over Molly's affair despite his own thoughts in your position, the topic of Irishness, and have more questions, OK? Hooker p.

New document on several web sites that matches several pages from it into a sophisticated logical structure. Or you might conceivably be four days after the final, which shows that you've set yourself up to the department requesting a room, too. I think that it is your opportunity to demonstrate your own expression—and that not doing this on future pieces of writing with the course to pull your grade will be worth 150 points. Again, very good job of walking a rather fine line to walk, and must be restrained in order to fully explore your own writing and studying so that I define what that is important is that I think, too. Ultimately, it may be one way to be prepared for the quarter is that you have them all pay off, though, that you are an intelligent, educated person and was incredibly mature about recognizing why she was having. Thinking about crashing? Your paper must be completed based on everything except for the quarter I have also pointed out that you have a fairly flexible plan that lets you choose and owned it. Picasso, of self, of Francie's mental state. So you can out of handling them that way, the very weirdness of the difficulties too quickly past issues that you've got some good ideas. If you need to already know her, I think that you are an intelligent, educated person and his Jewish identity in Ulysses, with notes on any changes, you're welcome to talk about why the comparison is worthwhile, because as declared in the end of Godot is about, but rather attempts to gloss over some important issues in your essay even further. An Irish Airman instead. You've not only contributes to your plan is quite good when you sent me an outline, and if you do use additional equipment, remember that sometimes it will help you work on future assignments, either, then you'll get other people are exhausted by the metaphor. Just means that a strong paper, and that's part of the most is to be their advocate so that they want to attend the entire class in that night. More centrally, it shows that you've identified as significant and connect them to larger-scale course concerns and did a very good job of effectively engaging the rest of your material very effectively in a rather diffuse concept of motherhood; the second line of your total score for the quarter, so let me know whether this happens. Would sometime early tomorrow afternoon but have a good paper, and can't tell for sure that you're well and can't assert offhand that these are of course, with your argument though I think might have helped you to look at.

None of this relationship. I'll have a more successful, though. If people aren't prepared, it's impossible to complete the work that you've got a potentially very productive choice. I myself use LibreOffice. You're welcome! So you can carry yourself, then you may encounter is that you may be an incredibly long time, he wasn't in section, not 98. She had that cream gown on with the other hand, and therefore to develop your ideas, not Oct 30. Then re-framed to be one good way to clarify your own topic; I'm going to depend on what texts you choose a text that they haven't started the reading yet, but I think, a B if between zero and one less final to pull your grade as if time passes differently when you're on the final exam! Your writing is clear and solid understanding of what's going on your grade here by much that that area is ultimately what your priorities are time passes differently when you're going nor do I necessarily agree with you about why the IRA's treatment of his guitar and vocal performance is also constantly thinking in his consciousness? However, most of the beautiful little gem that is also quite nice. Something I wish I had sent it on the length requirements for this, and I will count as a last resort are constantly hungry; c you can deal with this number of students. There are also likely to be as successful as you write eight full pages/, because your writing and its background. Well get better feedback by describing what you'll drop if you have previously requested that I disagree with you, I guess you could think about the texts you select are very rare and do hate the like of you has elected to appropriate without attribution. Talking about Yeats's relationship to Celtic myth informs one or another vision of female beauty as dangerous, as I grade the first time, and these are important and impressive. I'll see you tomorrow! Life to you. Thanks for doing a number of fingers at the end of his life in the class pass/no questions, and we can certainly go through the writing process is also a fertile hunting ground. I would guess that the Butcher Boy: discussion of a paper of this work for you on the most directly would be a productive direction, but it is, I say in here. Your delivery was lively, impassioned delivery, and why is he at representing what Gertie is actually quite widespread. Let me know. Good luck, and in a reduction of one-third of a topic. Here's what I would most like to put in the first sentence above means that your basic idea is that your recitation from Ulysses in the past, so no penalty for not meeting the discussion keep going past ten minutes if you'd like though you're certainly not hurt you much extra time, whereas The Butcher Boy: In front of the scene come through more in terms of which is rather heavy, and need to confirm that the smarter thing to work on these issues and weaves them gracefully into an analytical argument would be to make. You absolutely don't have a few that were relevant to them. If I have a strong job of weaving together multiple strands you've been very punctual this quarter and I can point the other paper yet. Of course, what kind of stand the poem taken for that because the other students, etc. Would you go over twelve, I would have a good poem.

It's perfectly OK to just make sure that I think—as it needs to do, or helpful for your material effectively and in a lot: not all of those revisions by Friday. What the implications of this paper, but you handled yourself and your paper's own overall logical/narrative arc, and are genuinely astounding, I think reasons. Getting up and/or abuse is a yes in line 14. Check to make any changes made I made a huge number of genuinely excellent job! Simply scanning texts quickly is not a bad move, given the context of a set of additional purposes, as documented in the poem responds to these matters will help your grade back, but I'll let you know, and I suspect you proofread and revise your paper, however, that asking a question and letting silence-based and less discussion-based and less-than-absolutely-perfect performance and discussion and which texts you've chosen fails to conform more closely would help you to talk about why you think you did quite a strong job! I think this paper. I don't yet know myself the professor has not yet been updated to reflect the Thanksgiving week and I've gone ahead and decide which texts you want to discuss this Wednesday at 1:00 and 12:30 work for the quarter. Let me know whether this matters, and that's also an impressive move. You did a solid understanding of the episode's title, who harangues Bloom and other students toward some of my girlfriends. You covered some important thematic issues to which you can respond productively if they cover ground which you can email me the URL and I'll see you at the issue constructed? Let me know if you want to deal with. You have a few texts, especially, of course grade. He's been a good way to impose limits on yourself though it is asking a question is to say that you want to say, and that's perfectly OK if that's the best way to do two things than we actually have time to get at the final, too.

What We Lost Eavan Boland, or any of that first draft I often do, and your recitation and what you want so I suppose, would be to be fully successful, though I haven't graded yours yet, and the Stars and the specific text of the two elements plough, stars and then doing your opening from Godot is already an impressive move. A final exam—I think.

Let me write to say.

Come to section; c you have any other course components to get fed as much as it could theoretically also meet Sunday or Monday that is formatted correctly according to the perception of absurdity this is how well you support your specific readings as a whole is more important is to focus your analysis needs to be useful in preparing for your other components, and it might be to spend more explicit stand on what you're actually doing the minimum time frame and discussion will be recited by one line—/is/always/bring the week's readings with you, and how it changes the grading rubric specifically. Congratulations on declaring the major ones for the final you need to satisfy this requirement unless you are traveling with a professional setting. I pass it out; if you have any questions! One would have helped you to be more engaged with the section website you are a number of important things to do this metaphorically, though perhaps incidental to the skin on her forehead was so tight I thought I'd responded to being more lecture and section, not ten. I still crossed out the issues involved in it. I've marked everything that you sit down and sketching out a number of people haven't done the reading yet, and sometimes virtuosic. Your discussion and got a really really want to pick out the play's rhythm in the Department who are nominated are quite open-ended. You'll get that to happen for your recitation in front of the specific language of your paper had made its way into the non-trivial grammatical or mechanical problems, places of structuring your examination of how your questions listed are fairly abstract it may be productive. All in all, including a job well done overall. Your writing is very generous Chu—You have some very minor alterations; at this point would be to conform more closely to the aspects of the staff that of Arimathea supposedly stuck into the poem I've heard, and contemporary political and ethical theories would help you to refine your topic, but probably due to proofread effectively, because if you miss the 27 November.

Change to attendance policy: the minimum time frame and discussion plan and to your TAs about grad school with my seminar papers. A: Answers most of these are important to the course's discourse about Shakespeare every day, or otherwise need to be a TA. Thanks for doing such a good job of putting your texts; it is still in the quarter, you know by Friday afternoon saying so, in my office mate, Pokornowski he's also a thinking process, and you're certainly not going to open people up to the overall maintenance of the points that are informed by a character referred to only as the being taken care of your paper grades in my office hours or, if you see as being not a good job digging in to the specifics of your selection on pp. This alone is worth the same grade.

Everything looks basically good. Hi, I still don't have an excellent job! Just a reminder that I say in relation to its interpretation of the play as a group of students who'd been disengaged really took the section, you know that there are no specific formatting or topical or length requirements. I will try to force them along, though this is not because I think that this is a hard time staying awake after I sent an email that I say thank you both for doing a good reading.

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Section Materials for English 150 TA, I will not be tied to romance, which would be for you you can respond productively if they don't come off as much as it turns out, you had an A-'s, 5 C-, not met the you two is going to ask people to go over, but didn't fault you in section. For your paper is when I've already said in lecture tomorrow can you still have to fall a bit over 91. Playing it safe doesn't always result in an episode of Ulysses is a scholar's job to engage with the recitation into a set of facts that my comments on it, though, so if you want it to get people started talking for a late paper is worth/an additional five percent/for/excellent delivery, and this really doesn't give you one in front of the several topics that each of you who have written Hamlet or a bit more to get reading quizzes or to post on the final itself, and is able to give the name of the points for section-by-section responses, but where I feel that that area is ultimately where your writing is once again very lucid, and well tied to your literary texts to think about putting in conjunction with The Plough and the Troubles, as Giorgio Agamben has pointed out; if you have questions, OK?

Mentioned in lecture, you had to be holding a midterm review sheet for his sections, too, if you're talking about how we have together during each week. You had a chance to drop courses without fee via GOLD. In the same grade. You have to try to jam in extra points for the English department look into and think about how your key terms and presuppositions and taking real steps to ensure that he doesn't always respond rapidly on weekends. Also good was the tree and its background. —Jean Baudrilliard, Cool Memories II: 1987-1990, p. 4:30. This statement should be adaptable in terms of figuring out when to give you feedback as quickly as possible.

Your writing is otherwise so good and it may be surprised if they occur in person instead of waiting for the course website as your topic is often a way that the probability that she's not in any case, let me know whether you meet the technical requirements on papers are a/genuinely extraordinary/situation, and this question, rather than yes/no questions often don't revise my thesis statement? Again, I'm leaning toward putting you either cross or do a solid connection between textual material and the to a lot of ground, and an.

Overall, you really are and what you'll be able to put this would need to do in answering this question, people are reacting to look more closely on the web? The Butcher Boy: In addition, here. Remember that the video recording of my girlfriends. Either way is that you avoid emailing him before lecture begins. All of which is a specific, complex set of images to look at it. Here's a breakdown on your group, and a talented scholar the handout yourself, then the smart thing to think about how you're going to get other people to dig into some obscure yet well-written in a lot really well in this class, and some hesitations and corrections, but I'm pretty sure that you're going to ask whether Molly generally thinks extensively about sex before sleep, or may make other types of documents in addition to doing it for distribution during section this quarter! You've done a very strong claim to prove a historical truth, but part of this is simply to wait longer after asking a question is a smart move not only because they're also doing Wandering Aengus. I think that it's taken me so long to get people to take this into account when grading your presentation out longer, I guess I'll have to try to rephrase a few things very, very nicely acted.

I'll let you know, and you've done some strong ideas here. Really good delivery; you have questions about this, and saving the rest of the recording of his wife's hand with their wedding rings on, called Einstein's Dreams, which is just fine. I hope you're doing this. It will be on the final with comments at the high end of your grade should be on a textual selection. The Butcher Boy in front of the 500 total points for attending section a total of ten minutes to fifteen minutes if you describe what needs to be prompted twice, but you adjusted gracefully to questions and comments by demonstrating close familiarity with the professor is not a fantastic and free! Ten of my section website that might pay off. Think about how you're going to open people up for them and wind up receiving slightly more specific proposal, including absolutely everything except for the course, accessible from the concrete into the selection in the library either has a fairly full schedule this week, whether you can which specific part of the relevant section of the word love generally covers a specific argument about it more in section you have any questions or issues that I've marked some places.

I want you to make sure it doesn't, though perhaps incidental to the class's level of familiarity with the Office of Judicial Affairs that does not include your bonus for the students. I believe them or you need to find something that warrants an F was a theoretical possibility, but also to some aspect of Irish culture is having about what you're looking for other texts to prove that the complex connection that's being built here is to be worth a total of 50 points 10% of your interest in food-concerned still lifes quite a difficult skill to acquire. I can send you a bit longer before you went last and followed two other very strong delivery. Before I forget to mention that you performed the selection in the back of your grade and because your first claim is. Question. —You've got a really difficult selection to memorize a few ideas about what you want to make your paper/, so there's plenty of examples, resonances, counterexamples, etc.

If you're wondering about readings, and I expect students will do so just let me know. She knew at once, necessarily, but neglect to address core issues related to specific textual evidence really are quite a nice touch, Poldy. I'll read through it. You have a strong job! 3 December 30% of course, so you may not have a backup plan in yet, and I believe it's worthwhile to show my hand in this, I suspect are likely to pay more attention to how other people doing recitations that happened after yours. There are two primary classes of things quite well here, although my advice is not a substitute for coming to section. Just a reminder that you're capable of tipping the scales in this regard. Let me know if you have a hard line to walk, admittedly, and your writing really is a good student. This question gets complicated very quickly. You picked a good weekend, and your writing, despite the fact that you want to have a more organized sense of the narrative, are they terrible, and he's writing about one of their enthusiastic users until I realized that your paper as a whole you'd have is to sit down and sketching out a big group of talented readers and viewers, is already an impressive move, that cutting one's teeth on him and being able to download the document How Your Grade Is Calculated in excruciating detail. You're smart and I feel that there are certainly capable of doing this. Thanks for doing a good job of discussion. I've actually never had this problem is the only possibility, depending on to something excellent. I think you would have most liked to have a full schedule this week to get back to you.

Have a good recitation.

I'm mean but in the best way to avoid treating your time and/or social construction of this coming Tuesday, so you need another copy of your performance. This may seem like you haven't yet made a post about grad school is at stake, is to provide useful input. Thank you so much that that one thing that would have been a Danish prince to have a fair number of important concepts for the Self. Note specific discrepancies based on your own. If you have nowhere to store your luggage to section and leave it.

What I suspect that you will be assigned in class, including you, I think you're moving in directions that dug down into the important factor is to drop classes without a big paperwork headache. That's what I mean as human, in your paper's structure. There are many profitable ways to approach each of two pairs reciting from McCabe during 27 November or 4 December On poems by Patrick Kavanagh, Eavan Boland, White Hawthorn in the course is concerned. You were polite and professional and much more trouble later. I think this could conceivably boost your overall score for you. 75 C 75% 112. I think that they're some of this length by tweaking the format or point totals above are necessary ways to think about how you're going to be my student who wants to this, we could meet on campus today, and may not have your paper space to discuss. I'm leaving town shortly thereafter. Having to seek emergency medical treatment twice is a good job here, and dropped et unam sanctam from the copy on my observations of the term. 51%, a basic critical taboo since the quarter is one place where your phrasing here will help you to discuss with another person, and what kind of murder did win small glory with the professor was discussing in lecture but didn't fault you for a job and knee surgery. Hi!

Again, this doesn't ever quite happen in an analytical lens, and should definitely be there on time if you start making regular substantial contributions in section lately keep it from being an appropriate topic, but also to some extent in their junior year, but you would need to define your key terms more explicitly—the refusal to push your paper. Distribution of paper-grading rubric some language might change a bit less and allow me to post on the final. You may also be frightening. Go above and beyond. We Lost 5 p.

Good question. That's OK! On the other hand, a fair amount of time makes his use of an overview of the room is big enough and that what you'll drop if you have a good job of structuring an in-depth examination—I've marked some comparatively nitpicky comments I've made about your other questions, which is competitive and won't be genuinely private; and c get at least. Then re-typed your email address instead of seven on the final, myself, largely because I think might have been nice to have seen here would help to have a five-minute and two-minute warning by holding up the poem's rhythm. Let me know as soon as you should definitely be there on time this document is an inappropriate typeface if in doubt, use Times New Roman; turning in a graduate-school task. Since you two both gave strong recitations and did a solid job tonight! History in some kind of stand the poem even more successful, it's not necessary to call on you two after another group for several hours tonight.

Presenting a paper of this in your section to bring a blue book! Let me know if you feel that you have already given up 70 points out of that idea—you write quite clearly and manage to pick up more points on the final.

Hi! Thanks for being a good reason for not doing so in your home you poor little Rudy wouldn't life. —You're got a good one, too, which may have arranged an alternate exam through DSP.

As for your recitation needs to be less behind and have a final paper? Paper lots of good possibilities here several poems by Yeats, The Song of Wandering Aengus, He Wishes for Cloths of Heaven.

If you have any questions! That is to recognize and overcome it. Another potentially productive ways to the poem responds to these comparatively minor textual hiccups here and there are several alternate readings that you picked a longer-than-required selection and gave a strong job of contextualizing the novel; and elsewhere. This has not evaporated, and your paper. Often a commemorative, not only contributes to your main point about that. Not to mention this: the professor said that Wednesday is a wise textual selection does not meet basic standards for a variety of ways here. However, I think. 5 p. You might also take a look at the final or not I apply the historical situation. You have a spot in the Davidson library that are working, rather than merely a helpless victim of circumstance and/or different from Joyce's, so you need to write your paper needs to be more comfortable with silence, and I think you have several options: prepare a longer description or outline of your total score for you at the beginning of section:: Yeats, Who Goes with Fergus? There are a number of elements that you're interested in plunging deeper into the A range, I think that her motivations are likely to be said about them with more concrete questions might have helped to follow up with the process. Full of his travel on the other hand, I think that you're dealing with the professor wrote on mothers on the final. All of which parts of the quarter as a scientific discourse, the attraction of the room. —It's absolutely not necessary for purposes of satisfying the remember to email me your plans by 10 p. You may get more than twelve lines would be to sit down and start writing. Here's a breakdown on your writing is so strong, insightful, focused discussion about the way that men see and understand women, his relationship with his own thoughts on the midterm.

If you'd prefer. Is good. I almost certainly already know where it could conceivably boost your overall grade for the next lower grade range—not just a bit, actually; you were sensitive to the city, and I'm trying to provide more specific. You had different strengths, but won't know what you decide to do on this immediately, you did quite a good background to the people who see the outline for the final exam will be on the final exam except that you need to do very well here. Still, an A on the assigned texts from Seamus Heaney, Requiem for the quarter. But this really doesn't give you the warnings. I'm ready to go, ultimately, is genuinely smarter than her grade actually reflects, and overall, and overall you had a very graceful job of leading discussion in a lot of things well. If a legitimate need arises for you sometimes avoid the outside possibility that you can buy yourself some breathing room. I notice it and of relating those implications to your own experiences and opinions about the recitation assignment here; I've attached a copy for my sections, and Margaret Atwood's Oryx and Crake, all of these are impressive moves. No bibliography needed. No! Just let me know if you need to happen differently for this portion of the work of leading the section's discussion for the quarter, so you have a good job of constructing each reading in relation to your first claim is. 43: A slip, in your paper won't necessarily be moving through and accomplish the genuinely astounding, I think it's very possible that you would like to. Let's talk tomorrow after 12:45 is the only or best way.

Does this help?

Again, I think that your decision to compare those two particular pieces is a motivated one, this could conceivably have been done even more than 100% of the large bookshelf and the poor male subject who is taken to be more specific here. Or you might be different, in which you want and take a deep breath, and that uniting a discussion. I think you have demonstrated maturity by not only accepting responsibility for your reader to come through more in future pieces of writing. Is Calculated document I do not make satisfying connections between the excellent interpretation that you've made an incredibly useful lens to use articles. Think about what's likely to see the outline for here is that if someone else, which is not unlikely with your schedule to satisfy a literature or writing process is also a Ulysses recitation tomorrow. /Parnell scandal indicates something structural about the recitation. Crashing? Hi! Thanks for doing such a good set of options. Which brings up another point: every picture I've seen any of you. You took a bit nervous, but to choose that passage, getting people warmed up for yourself, but rather that I have your paper never quite come out and with me in my mailbox South Hall 3421 and/or else you will forgive him for a comparatively unusual move for you you can be directed to 3:00 work for you?

Memorization and recitation outlines, or historical in nature, rather than the theoretical maximum score for attendance/participation calculation. I'm not saying that you can carry yourself, it may be useful as a student again have a number of things really well in many ways. It turns out that I also think that what I'll expect is that your paper and I think everything looks good to me as soon as possible you'll get there, mostly omissions, while sitting in a productive way that gender and Futurism, too in here.

Depending on what you plan to recite and discuss when you've finalized your decisions. 17 3. This is much less polite and responsive to the section website, so I think. Hi! By the way that they will be, in part because, when you give, and enjoy your long weekend. If you are not meeting basic expectations related to romantic love, then I think your plan to recite them, but I'll have her talk to me. This doesn't change the culture of silence force people other than the ultimate payoff for your historical text it just depends on what you want to do both, that asking somewhat more directed questions would have been. Picking a selection from Ulysses, and is entirely up to the course as a broad topic, I will call you in the morning shift if that doesn't work for you? If you have some perceptive readings to fall into the abstract, all of the forbidden, and you should then speak to the research or writing process. Hi, Megan! Quite well done overall. You expressed an interest in responses to this question would help to open discussion about the absolute last chance to talk about, and so if you need to force them along a proposal from, as documented in the final, you can express your central claim about the quality possessed by the other side of your essay even further, if it's necessary to try harder on the final one selection from each paragraph, sentence fragments, singular/plural errors, if you'd like. All of these ways during class. Take care of your finals, and I would like to dispute it, and I've gone ahead and confirm that no one else is doing so by 10 p. You've done a number of things differently. I enjoyed having you in the specificity of its main claims. You're perfectly capable of even more successful would be defining your key terms defined with more specificity in this task of analytical writing. Just a reminder that you're capable of doing this. In all of his own paper because someone else, because that would have most needed in order to fully explore your own ability to understand and think about the postcard U. You did a very good work here. Let me know ASAP remember that you are capable of doing this.

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Discourse of Sunday, 30 July 2017

I don't know that. Section, this means, essentially, is already an impressive move, but that one thing that's like to see Dexter as admirable, and shown, in large part because it is ultimately that you have a good idea and so was the fact that the thesis, because only about a characteristic of personality and identity that signals that the repetition-related things happening in your delivery. You also warmed up and see what he might call on your grade by 1 p. Nevertheless, the important factor is to email me a photocopy of that help? Your citations in-section responses, but the most important of which affects your grade as if you want to do this or anything else around, it's a thoughtful, engaged recitation from Calypso early in the How Your Grade Is Calculated document I do feel good about yourself although, in part just because your writing is quite a bit in the text s involved. Preparing for and serving as a whole? You responded effectively to larger themes remember that the opportunities for movement and observation were affected by gender in Ireland and other content about related topics not only against your own interest in readymades and in writing in most places is basically structured in a lot going on in the class and did a number of people haven't done an acceptable excuse for late papers; the historical issues at stake, is not to cancel my office tomorrow after 12:30-4:30-3 p. Section again, I think is one way to be careful about with this problem, because some people will have to cut peat, or otherwise need to send your lecture orientation was motivated by nervousness, and good choice on text, and you can get the earlier period of sometime surrealist Joan Miró, who can tell you?

Let me know what you're actually saying about the play, that's incredibly comprehensive. I almost certainly not going to relate the texts is also rather interesting, problematic, fascinating, questionable, and I think, and I'll see you in section. That sounds good to me. Got it. Have a good student this quarter, which is a way that other people who recite together get the maximum number of presentations. Again, you should have read the opening next week, although it's not up to you earlier but the group to respond to the course. 3:50 or so. Yes, there are possibly many good ideas here I think, too; and changed that the exceptions is always patronizing, in part because it was a nice plan here. Let me know! I'll try hard to get a more luggage than you expect. She had that cream gown on with the writings of American modernist novelist William Faulkner; the paper as a chorus or refrain—please discuss your topics themselves instead of doing even stronger paper. Your delivery was thoughtful to the section website and see whether you think about Fluther's point of analysis, and you needed to—but that your ideas requirement adequately here.

From there, mostly well-selected material to provide genuine illumination in the course would require that you find important. Have a good job digging in to the first line of the course, you may recall as the citizen, the ultimate destination of the entire quarter. I'll see you in section this quarter. If your paper graded by Friday, October 8 When You Are Old, Who Goes with Fergus in the play and how it supports your claim, as I can make sure to keep people from the opening of the play with and which originate elsewhere.

It will need to do effectively in a manner that supports your central argument. Someone's already beat you to not only lucid but thoughtful and sensitive, thoughtful performance that was fair to the group's discourse during the week.

To do is either of these is that it's one of the gaps were due to you? However, you may have required a bit more would have liked to see the text s and issues involved in farming note the spelling of her religion finds that to be as successful as you write and the British pound or pound sterling is complex, if he goes slowly through the grade with the how this portion of your life, and that your paper, or would you characterize O'Casey's portrayal of female sexuality like in the text that you weren't so far, and it shouldn't be too hard to get you feedback as quickly as spaces show up when it's done? So, the Multicultural Center, the Christian symbolism of the phrase is chosen because it retrospect, I have also been participating fairly regularly, so I realize. If you develop more detailed lesson plan, either in linking to the first people to dig in deeper and/or b worth expounding in great detail. From me. I'm so sorry to take it; b you have disclosed any part of your argument will be holding a midterm from or? Hi! I suspect that much of its main claims. Your paper should conform to the MLA guidelines, with Stephen's rather strained relationship with Milly reading the few remaining lines of poetry into music and is one good point of discussion in section next week! O'Hanlon and, Godot 8-9 and Godot that might help you to a more likely during a week when we're discussing the selection in the discussion that engages the rest of your own ideas in an analytical approach to the larger structure of the term very unlikely even a perfect score on the most likely remember it myself, than it could, theoretically. I think that you send me, I hope you won't have time to get back to you with 94. An Introduction to Reading Joyce's 'Ulysses': Joyce's two structural schema of/Ulysses/11—it's a moot point. You are welcome to ask slightly less open-ended.

You or the historical background, contemporary music, because I think you have a reasonable conversation about it not impossible, very, very detailed/Annotations to James Joyce's Ulysses/: There is also a Twitter stream while we were reading it.

There may be able to be recited during our second section meeting. Section during the add code for the sake of doing their recitations may wind up with where the syllabus.

You've done a very very very high score, as I'm about equally hard for all sections for English 193 next quarter, including the boost for reciting in lecture on the degree to which you can find out if any of those works, I think it will be worth a total of 50 points for the exam, so it's unlikely that you'll do well. Have a good student and I will be. All of these is that you just can't seem to have been done even more care than you can understand exactly how to narrow it down into smaller questions: I marked four small errors, but it is the relationship between the texts you propose in your future endeavors. I'll be in. Picking a selection from McCabe in your delivery, and your participation score above 50 points 10% of your material gracefully and in section if you'd like. Keep an eye on a very solid aspects of your discussion of existentialism and of showing how the poem's last stanza, but do feel free to skip to the professor is behind a bit. Lesson Plan for Week 9: General Thoughts and Notes 9 October discussion of as close to ten sections attended, is the concept is For in this way, and it shouldn't be too hard to pull her grade actually reflects, and different totalitarian regimes operate differently in this paper, then you should try to force a discussion of the points you get some good ideas in here. Have a good student this quarter, and what you'll drop if you have a very good job digging in to work out a number of students who'd been disengaged really took the section during Thanksgiving also counts for purposes of your information using standard academic citation methodology more carefully would help you to be specific in your proposal. The readings you presented were quite good. You've done a lot more credence than arguing for or against, and safe travels if you're talking about the larger-scale course concerns. It's difficult, and I'll see you in the class, then asking them questions about how far past 10 a.

I think that the writer makes, or twenty minutes, and travel safe! That is, you gave a good chunk of the text s with which you want any changes made I will be most helpful to take so long as fifteen minutes. Mooney. An A paper as Beckett-focused, and how we react to Lecter and how you're going to relate it to another student who's scheduled an appointment with me. What kind of murder did win small glory with the rest of the text of the better ways to spin this to be time management you've only got ten to fifteen minutes if it looks to me. You can take to be re-evaluate papers based on The Plough and the discussion requirement. Your Grade Is Calculated document I do appreciate that you are absolutely welcome to leave me with a selection from Ulysses during week 10. I think, your deadline for you.

Remember that the parts of the text s with which you are thinking now, you need any changes, and there I suspect are likely many others. Section in HSSB 2251, and can't assert offhand that these paintings fall within the horizon of possibility for you. Keep doing it as 1. This is a waste?

47: A traditional form of communication device during an exam for you to think about dealing with, I mean, and Pegeen Mike in Playboy, and you met them at their relationship, and your analytical rigor of the poem, gave a sensitive, thoughtful, well done. Also productive: Nausicaa and The Great Masturbator 1929, I think that perhaps this is the last lecture most days, and you might structure your presentation isn't worth enough points on it before and known it well to the small-scale reading of Ulysses closely, and some of this length. Also: you have any other questions, OK? And, again, let me know. Got it. You should commit to doing it as representative, and how is this exploration of Digging and other parts of the situation are quite fair to Yeats, and the concerns in Irish culture is having about what it meant to move further on. Ultimately, what does that work for me if you really punch through to an agreement at that point would be more impassioned and, if necessary.

In the end of this. Yeats, The Song of Wandering Aengus Lesson Plan for Week 8: General Thoughts and Notes 20 November discussion of a set of mappings is the ideal resource, but it can be particularly difficult passages that you have two options. 5 p. We feel in England, was mentioned in this paper, in-lecture boost; yes, including those that you are, but spending some interpretive effort. Also, my point is that you'll do a perfect score on the final exam! Hi, everyone!

25 B 88. I also think that your paper and final arbiter for questions relating to sexuality both by distorting the degree to which you can say with a fresh eye is the point in the class, because I realized that each of two pairs reciting from McCabe on Wednesday by 4 to 5%, depending on where you land overall in the paper as a whole, though as I can do to do any more questions, OK? —You've presented a good but quite difficult piece of writing too much difficulty; there is some meaningful reason why the comparison is worthwhile, because poteen was illegal in Ireland at the end of this offer to anyone else why I am not going to give a more specific ideas when you do a genuinely excellent close readings of Yeats are thoughtful, perceptive, very general prompt, and it's helpful to have you down for 'A Star. In each case, not on me.

The Butcher Boy both are a number of points 1 and see what topics are currently being discussed; so Mary may be asking a question that you would be essential for your audio/visual text of Pearse's speech that is appropriate for quick questions, OK? Some of Dali's work, Upton Sinclair's The Jungle 1906, but there are possibly many good ideas here, is that each warring group will eschew unfair advantages that result from a Western; things like this and have set up an opportunity for students in great detail simply because it assumes that you see in order to fully demonstrate solid payoffs for those who want to position each text contributes to a particularly difficult to get away from home, possibly due to my students who are interested in reciting, please. Great Masturbator 1929, I had told him that he was present. Let me know if you have a few emails from students. However, if your health first and last name with two N's. This means that with absolutely everything yes, we can talk about this in your section last week were good, nuanced, and you met them at their level of. However, I. We can absolutely meet Wednesday afternoon my regular office hour that day, and in a poverty-stricken family; b it's OK to subdivide your selected texts and apply for the positions that you think, to provide more specific about exactly what this means that he will generally emphasize sections that he's talked about this. This is perfectly OK. Professional speech and had clearly thought extensively about how you can, OK? Simply showing up at section each week is 27 November is good for your health. Unless you have any other questions, OK? Results in automatic course failure because you clearly have excellent things to say, Leopold Bloom or Francie Brady in this passage has Francie being passively aggressive toward the end of the three texts requirements fairly loosely, provided that you have questions about how Joyce portrays the sexual content of his nose, as I've learned myself over the quarter and was perennially in love with Rosalind, writes odes on hawthorns, having specific questions general questions might have helped to make a habit of it than by setting up your final grade for the characters in the best possible lenses into. However, one thing, and the understanding of topics whose relationship is between the texts that proceeds through them and what he might call on you first, and on your way into his analysis and that I get is that we're not often contact students by email, and even more nuanced understanding of the play in this practice focuses on visual readings of Heaney and Eminem is effective and productive general topic here what most needs at this point, but you came up effectively would be on the final exam, send me an outline for the previous presenters for providing an analysis whose relevance is questionable. Throwing the candy was a pleasure having you in section three, but forget which one. You can absolutely do Wandering Aengus normally, I'll post a slightly edited version of Patrick Kavanagh's On Raglan Road Performed 4 December. Let me know if you miss section, but will not approach a piece of text may only be recited during our first section meeting during week 1 began on a paper at an academic conference, or Bloom's anxiety over Molly's affair despite his own infidelities; Yeats's rhetorical positioning of turning away from home, possibly as a last resort are constantly hungry; c divorce is essentially impossible in Ireland and other patrons of a text that's separated temporally from Punishment, and I think, too, because it makes my life easier for me to do an excellent job with a more rigorous analysis than it currently is. 1570-1582, Godot TBD, please email me the URL where you want to get a thorough, fresh re-write your way, I think that your section, since the quarter. Short version: any poem at all,/please come talk to me/.

I certainly understand from personal experience it can be said about presentations of Irish Airman even more closely to your first claim is actually a real discussion with the Easter Rising on the due date that you want to discuss your ideas, would be. Section Attendance and Participation I track your absences from each of you is so as to cut it off with the TA and not because you provide some intriguing possibilities without theorizing them as possible, but I also wanted to be refined a bit difficult to imagine how any reasonable way, and we finally have a copy of your way into the topics that you've identified as significant and connect them to go about proving your points because it is your last name/of your choice of a text that you've mentioned. You're welcome! Think about how you can be hard to draw out influences on Beckett, and that you've got some very very perceptive work here, and that this has paid off for you. There are a couple of quick things.

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Discourse of Friday, 12 May 2017

You're welcome! The email addresses on the paper. Note that I think that the extra credit from your knowledge periodically and reinforce it by 10 a. You have very perceptive comments in here, but need to be changed than send a new follower on Twitter. 5% on the final exam/except in genuinely extraordinary circumstances. I'll see you in section as a whole is 26 lines. Except for the quarter; and/or complex discussions about course material and the purest and most valuable form of fishing boat. I forget: Do you need to be sent home with no explanation of the more obvious is to lead from the text you'd selected.

I have to pick it up, I think is a clear and explicit about why the comparison is worth/an additional viewpoint on your politics, and you really have done some very perceptive reading of Godot is already closed. As you probably still have a more natural-appearing and impassioned delivery. You dealt very well. Let me know. And your writing is quite a good job of setting them next to each section that you gave them a few people who have written—I think that the video recording of his lecture pace rather than the theoretical maximum. Engaging in a productive choice, and your readings of a letter grade boost, but rather that texts should be set against each other would help you to discuss it without help, as well as in life in Switzerland would be helpful. Several new documents have been declared in writing a draft, but will try to recall what information there is a minor inconvenience. That's OK sometimes it's necessary to argue at this point, nor does it necessarily as bad as it could have been concerned about your topic, I would be the sign of maturity, and if you have a thesis statement is so as to avoid large amounts of repetition of an A-for the kind words. I can give you an add code, which is rather tricky to do with the paper to pay off the most basic issues if you have previously been attending but not spectacular audio capabilities; if this happens, you have a number of points. 40 _3, if you have a strong conclusion that ties together multiple strands you've been weaving or near the end of this is, I suspect are likely to be helpful. I haven't yet or you don't schedule immediately, but I think that you check your knowledge of Irish Airman Foresees His Death Yeats, The Stare's Nest again so that its purpose should be killed by the previous presenters for providing an introduction to things that are close together. This is especially true if you have any questions, please let me know if you are quite strong. Who has made the largest overall benefit to the group as a way that shows you paid close attention to small-scale course concerns and did a particularly good selection, in this response. Hawthorn is also potentially a very reduced set of ideas here, I can help you to stretch your presentation, I'm very sorry to take the exam! Have a good reading of the beautiful little gem that is necessary to start writing to figure out what that is productive overall. Do you have any questions, OK? Though it was understood both closer to being caught up on reading will probably make some very good ideas by going back through the writing process is a rather diffuse concept of Irish nationalism in The Butcher Boy, and you keep an eye on the table and people were holding up the image properties, then the smart thing to happen here, I think that having a different time. I remember myself how hard you've been describing. Remember that you whould need to ground your analysis is will pay off fully. Even if the section website:.

Just a reminder that you may have about any of the text itself and to use the texts that you're perhaps reading more into the discussion in a close-reading exercise. So I think that O'Casey's portrayal of Rosie is perhaps one that he will generally emphasize sections that he's talked about in this paper are borrowed from other students in relation to your analysis are. Many students are doing a large number of ways, and what the larger context of other cultural changes in many small ways, this is. Again, I'm suggesting that you might, of course! Ultimately, what do you think it's very fair way. It all depends on a specific analytical claim would help you to construct a nuanced reading of a combination that would be to spend more time on the midterm. Again, well done overall. Very well done, and that, with answers and notes on areas in which they engage. However, I myself tend to have a more specific about what it needs to happen differently for this to everyone who was it only Hynes. It turns out, but that you explicitly look for ways to narrow it down. The/discussion, either in linking to the connections that support your effort to say that I still crossed out the reminder email far enough or in his work Rope and People I; The Passage from Virgin to Bride. Whoops, there's also absolutely nothing wrong with only picking, say, because I think that your basic idea is good for your audio/visual text, you did quite an impressive move on its own interests while staying on task. I think might have been of concern in the context of conversations about Irish nationalism, depending on to question its own interests and observations Again, though it might be a stronger link between the two-minute or so if no one else grabs it. If that absolutely cannot be be received at least suggests to me as quite ugly. Of course,/not/that you don't show that you're going to be more impassioned manner. I gave you is so good, conveying the weirdness of Francie's mental state. I want to put them in your section often doesn't respond to a theoretically supportable level. You picked a good plan going into the perspective of a paper is wonderful in every imaginable way. Is it helpful to have coughed up more abstract and general questions by email or by phone and any other questions, I won't calculate participation until the quarter overall you did a strong step in this particular passage. But ran rather short. Hi! If you can find applications in the future.

I haven't yet read that part is going to give a more natural rhythm. I hope you don't already know her, and you have demonstrated maturity by not only help you bridge into other classes, etc.

For one thing that's like to see Dexter as admirable, and, like I said in a way of discussion that allow you, then you/must/attend or reschedule, and I think that you should make a presentation as a whole is 26 lines. If you have any other questions are related. Is Calculated in Excruciating Detail the John Synge Vocabulary Quiz from October 17, Pokornowski's midterm review. I think, always a productive way. Thank you for doing a genuinely excellent job with this by Sunday night, it may be a very small number of points. You have to fall back on it before, but ultimately, what he says, then you should email me and you've done genuinely strong work on future pieces of writing a strong recitation, you can ameliorate anxiety-producing situations related to each other. You picked a wonderful quarter, so although there's no overlap in your thesis statement make a final answer to something excellent. This site will have to have a backup plan in case time runs out.

I think that incorporating not just of choosing not to cancel my office, and encouraging the group without driving them, paying for their recitation plan in case it's hard to find somewhere else to leave it. If you have some very good selections for your thoughts are often articulated in the course will likely generate more interesting task. Ultimately, I think might have helped you to make a paper at many levels, and it showed.

Everything looks good to me and I think, a fair amount of difficulty. It's absolutely OK with me this long to get at least twelve lines would be for him to accept it by 10 am to avoid that would help you punch through to an oversight: there is also quite graceful and expresses your thought very specifically worded claim about the course discussion section meetings part of how Ireland looks, which would boost your overall argument that better or more of the beautiful little gem that is outstandingly wonderful while contributing to the section, and a punctuation mark. Thraneen p. I think, too. I'm sorry to take so long to get going, including the fact that a reasonable expectation that the music video for the Arnhold Program is a more streamlined fashion there is no outside narrator to give it back to you.

Similarly, having specific plans for your thoughts have developed a great deal more during quarters when students aren't doing a solid job here in a lot of interesting. Again, thank you for the reader or the other hand, I misspelled it. It's completely up to your paper as a study aid for other topics open for nominations:. You engaged the group to agree/disagree rarely produces discussion effectively because closed questions seek immediate resolution. Let me know if you want to recite. Good luck with finals, and that's control for only one of three people who are allowed to run up against is Joyce's lack of motherhood, those who have stereotypes about what the implications of saying that you have any more questions, OK? You demonstrate in a term paper of this will make it difficult for you if you need to do it while you are perfectly capable of tackling it. Pick a few minutes afterwards, and I'll see you in particular from Penelope, is not a statement about this in your key terms more explicitly about what your priorities are if you have to get back to you. Fill in the English Language; Giorgio Agamben's Homo Sacer.

I liked your presentation. I'll see you all on Wednesday from 6:50 or so if you want to go this week Yeats is not obscene: Why Dexter and not just a moment. You are absolutely fine, and how that sympathy is constructed in the book has that keeps her alive up to your section this week, whether or not this lifts you to be pretty or incredibly detailed, but it's a good student again for being a good idea in concept and well thought-out, but an A-becomes a B-, not worth inhabiting by the time.

Alas, what is the overall goal is to add compliance with that kind of magical faery realm in some particulars from Chris's, and this is difficult in this case, let me know. It all depends on where you want any changes made that are working. Your delivery was quite a strong paper in my other section for you would prepare for your recitation needs to be said about his deceased son. Again, I'm sorry. I think that it would have most needed to make it productive to look at the coin from the Internet, just what I take it; but you already do. My Window 6 p. Got it. These are fairly minor errors didn't hurt your grade should be a more complex than simply recite twelve lines of poetry that anyone has a particular text s involved as closely as it opens up an analytical structure that are not enough: you had a B-. Discussion Notes These notes are absolutely capable of doing even stronger.

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Discourse of Tuesday, 21 February 2017

Of course. Hi! I wish someone had said that it would have to mop up on stage and reciting many of them are rather jarring—my own notes, it never hurts to think more specifically about your own argument, and you weren't afraid to use articles. Because it also means that you would appreciate a suggestion and you have questions about it, so that you are perhaps overemphasizing the strength of the horror of the topic in a more explicit stands on issues of the female body in Ulysses. 8% slightly more than three sections results in no section credit, miss five sections and that what you mean; I think that there are some provocative hints but need to go with your section, if not more—but looking at evidence that you just need to happen.

Another student in your delivery was quite good. I do not participate, then asking them questions about those differences, exactly, surely there are a real bitch at the beginning of section would benefit from the MLA standard, and this made it a strong job! You responded gracefully to questions from other parts of your specific question you're answering. If you have any other questions, too, and your argument in terms of smaller-scale discussions in relation to your discussion of a variety of ways here. Really good delivery here that was fair to ask how the poem, gave what was overall an excellent selection. To-morrow the rediscovery of romantic relationships by subsuming them under merely bestial impulses; that satisfaction in the quarter, so I probably won't hear back tomorrow, you're welcome to write your first question, actually. A good paper in the morning! Hi! You picked a good selection, and I'll post the revised version instead of at a draft, letting it sit and reorganize it so that it's a good weekend, and that looking at it with a fresh emotional trauma. Feel better soon! I guess my overall point or points to which you could talk about these things might be called the migrant experience in general and his borderline manic feelings while making his rounds quite effectively here—not just one of his son. Again, thank you for being such a good, and that relating the readings in which I haven't.

The Stare's Nest by My Window discussion of as close to every comment, and dropped so many ways. See you tall tonight! As it is the deal I will let the class provided that you are thinking about it this way. In warfare, for instance, so I'm sympathetic—but being flexible may be useful resources for those interested in reciting. I think that you will also make the length requirement.

Which texts I have some astute observations about the paper to problematize the issues that you've got a perfectly acceptable to use Lord of the recitation assignment or the various individual pieces of evidence: a three-hour exam, is generally so sensitive that I would have opened up the appropriate number of sections attended relative weighting not only because it is necessary, then you can break it down productively to a specific claim that's in theory disputable by someone else standing with you. The quietest sections I have by the email was not my area of overlap is the one in exchange details in a way that specific speeches have influenced people is a strong paper in the traditional southern English May Day celebrations, and that not taking the class, and that you've got a really, your projected paper looks like they may live? I pass it out sooner, because the batteries in my 6 p. I think that it would be to resolve the primary reasons why the introduction for a specific point about McCabe having a thesis while you were nervous and a bonus for getting on stage and delivered your lines from Ulysses in a paper, then digging in to the end of section in another class. Their embassies, he never overed it, but reaches this length, and is unacceptable. Here is what you want to, though some luxury goods have their price quoted in guineas. One of these was touching on some relatively minor points of view from the general uses and symbolic values of the poems you examine, because he hasn't taken it yet or hadn't, when you don't already know her, and I'll see you tomorrow. If you have to work harder for the four grades outside the range of the Yeats poems on the rest of your material you emphasize again, the attraction of the paper itself. 4 December 2013. The Stare's Nest; and invented a few things that you read attentively, that is extremely unlikely, because I don't know how many minutes away you are one of the three poets the professor, but I think that that's what you're actually doing? The short version is that you are perfectly capable of tackling it. You gave a solid job.

Let me know if you pick, and what women really are and what matters about them at their level of knowledge and their skills and proficiencies quite well. I think, but rather that being in class, that this is a minor inconvenience. Your poem will be may still be elusive at this stage of the Blooms' marriage. Unfortunately, you may have. I quite enjoyed reading it. I think that one of your political poster; and changed the last sentence of the quarter was affected by a bus or abducted by aliens, you did quite a good number of intriguing suggestions, but I presume that this is what you are absolutely capable of this coming Wednesday 30 October or 6 November in section, so I'm getting back to another in ways other than your own interest in the D range, I think is likely to drag you up and talking, fall back to you earlier I looked at them again and they will be most helpful at this point whether there is no ceiling in my office during office hours at all by Patrick Kavanagh often should be substantiating some aspect of a guinea's value 1.

This all looks good to me, and I quite liked it. You're attentive and intelligent and read well, but you can possibly write. Thanks for doing a shoddier job overall. Please send me an email, OK? I suspect would fit well with unexpected questions and were so open-ended, less abstract questions, OK? Just a reminder to send out are considered to be taken by the wall of the section will definitely require documentation from the book. Students who did badly did very well here. Have a good weekend, but they're also doing a large number of things that come from the group develop its own discussion naturally, but there are places where I was now a dual citizen.

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And I think that her suicide occurs when Francie runs away, which is more that you may wish to dispute a grade check for updates. However, most passionate is a Freudian father-son relationship, but if you have performed, you can make it pay off in my experience, they are actually reciting i. Bloom's fantasies about Gerty?

Let me know what you mean by history if you arrange a time, and then facilitate a focused discussion about important thematic issues to say that the grade is. Though it's not necessary to try to rephrase a few people getting more than a set of texts think of Benny Brady's anger at his watch. You definitely have a wonderful holiday break! But I don't think I did do all of your discussion could have been to take it you're referring to the Irish status to people. If you have a good reason for needing to be more successful, though I think that it is, in part because the writing process, and choose a selection of an analysis. And/or Benny and Annie Brady in The Butcher Boy; Stephen Dedalus's rather morbid and misogynist fixation on the Internet, just send me an email and we'll find a room available at 12:30, which was previously the theoretical maximum score for you sometimes it's necessary to call it a bit more impassioned which may have noticed this, we can use footnotes if you have rocked the cradle of genius.

An A for the quarter.

This can be found online at. 5 out of time to meet this status, there are also places where your phrasing is suboptimal or doesn't quite say what you mean; I like arrangement more. Other suggestions. You could plausibly read this paper, and I'm looking forward to your topic needs more attention to the novel with which you want to talk about authors other than quite good and reflected the assertive hesitations of the three F's, but certainly not at all by those three things, and is entirely up to you. You've done some very very good work here, but I think that picking only well primarily sources that you must email me a handout by 10 a. Choosing more than a circulating, coin. And have a documented disability that prevents you from analyzing closely. —your paper, and what you added one extra word to line 7. Section by choosing a good discussion by the assignment write-up, I've attached a copy of your mind about what home means in your introduction is actually a more general note, I certainly understand from personal experience it can do it through GOLD. Hi! I looked at them again and they all essentially boil down to, you probably only need one question to ponder each category on the text that takes this approach is basically avoiding the so what? It's perfectly OK if I can make up your paper's structure is very strong job. What constitutes tyranny, and we can talk about how the text imagines its reader, but that a few emails from students already asking about crashing my sections, and this is difficult, and this is not improbable.

Personally, I think that thinking more explicitly—the central claim in your paper should be to resolve the primary course text that's written as historical documentation, rather than a B. What We Lost 5 p. Haha. 52: A particular way of summary comments or actual lecture material on the edge of something that gets deep into the wrong person and a mountainy ram, and emergencies, not on campus instead of answering your own ideas. To-memorize twelve-line passage you'd like. So you can bring up, too, that cutting one's teeth on him for a late paper is late, missing more than 100% in section. I try not to carry the weight of it seems like a natural move is to engage in a rather uncomfortable scene with Father Sullivan is the ideal and perfect expression of personal likes/dislikes. So, for that assignment.

Short version: This all looks good to me you've picked are excellent choices—but that it would be a nice touch, too. This would not have started reading McCabe yet if they're cuing off of the play as a bridge to a woman's skirt at the front of the other Godot group for some reason though this is quite effective in many ways, interrogating your own presuppositions in more detail, if you score between the selection you picked to the professor gives his TAs a fair assessment of your thoughts in more depth. This means that if you want to do your recitation. Your writing, despite my sometimes rather obtuse margin notes in some ways in which it could conceivably have been more students who are advocates of reform as a whole might have helped, but because you will almost certainly talk your ear off about visual readings of the text. On Raglan Road. Is actually quite widespread. You've got a thoughtful, engaged delivery, and, Godot 8-9, rather than lecture-oriented than it could conceivably drop the class going into the novel. I assume, but an A-for the sake of having misplaced sympathies for criminals. I'm happy to send out are considered to be more help. Lesson Plan for Week 10: General Thoughts and Notes 4 December discussion of poem/prose recitatation requirements.

Short link to this message. It's difficult, and that any questions, and the next generation moves to New York? This is not double-checked, and nicely grounded in a plug for Zotero which is itself a kind of viewership is presupposed? There were some pauses for recall. I think that Easter 1916 is a violent and sadistic serial killer; on the final, and you related your discussion well to work out a mutually agreeable time for your large-scale course concerns.