#theo vent

[nullominous-q]

Vampire in the Garden... (spoilers ahead)

It was a tragedy. And while the show was beautiful, I can't stand tragedies. 🥲

Like, I know it was unlikely and impossible but the entire time I watched for hope of happiness for the two main characters. They were the definition of found family ffs and any pain is bearable with happiness at the end of a tunnel.

But all I felt at the end was cold pain and bitter anger.

I remember finishing the show and just angrily venting to the air for an hour before breaking down into tears. Some might see that as a positive when looking at how a story impacts a person. But I don't. I can't handle tragedy and wish I'd never watched it. That is how my brain works, esp with my depression.

I'm aware tragedies happen in real life and aren't as easily avoidable, that's why I don't pursue them in fiction. The fiction I consume, I want to help me escape from the harsh realities of the world. And I wanted more than anything for Momo and Fine to emerge from their struggles victorious.

And it crushed me when they didn't.

[autisticdreamdrop]

we are so tired of this shit. saying delusional and delulu like it's funny and quirky

oh me?? yes i'm delulu!! i was once so dudulu i stopped taking my meds cause i thought i was being slowly poisoned by the government

i was hospitalized for a suicide attempt eating food and drinking water cause i thought they were poisoned aswell. i almost had to be tube fed.. BUT IM SO DELULU ISN'T THAT FUN??

seriously as a schizophrenic system using those terms shouldn't be trendy or cool

[anxious-shapeshifter]

"I'm a renegade, it's in my blood"

Renegade - noun : someone who abandons religion; an apostate. Origins in the medieval latin word renegātus, to actively renounce or abandon (literally: "I deny").

An art piece dealing with some heavier feelings than the last; I worked on it a couple weeks back, so I'm doing better mentally since then! I like to think this helped me process those emotions a bit better as well...vent art is good for the soul, don't let anyone tell you it's cringe or bad to do!

Getting away from the mormon church sometimes feels like escaping a snare or some other gruesome trap to me - it hurts the whole time, and while sitting still might minimize the pain, I can only have the chance to fully heal by escaping, a process that will hurt a lot more for a short time.

Even if I get away, though, the scars are permanent, and there'll always be more traps to dodge. Much of my family remains in the church, and it was practically my whole world up until I left, so it'll always be in the background of my life and y'know, that honestly sucks. It's never a benign presence...it'll always try to lure me back in, always try to sell me on the stability and sense of belonging I desperately crave.

(The lyrics in the art are from Renegade by Paramore and Run, Rabbit, Run by the Hoosiers ;0)

[pulim-v]

About to go do a test. Hopefully I'll do well, but I'm just trying to get a higher grade than the last one

[doodlesdreaming]

Doodling out some thoughts, while drinking tea, to help me sleep.

(Im sooooooo gonna buy that Nahobino plush someday)

[dreamerpetarchive]

sad nonhuman pup vent

[dreamdropsystem]

reminders to self - Locket/Shane/Angel/Theo/Bug

[the0retically]

lol my family came to the show last night but i didn’t work that closely with that camp and my opening is today and there are shows tomorrow but my family said it’s just too much to come again to see a kids show and they don’t want to leave the house that much, but now they’re going out today to shop and going out to brunch tomorrow and the show is only 70 minutes and it’s my first time assistant directing and they aren’t even seeing the kids I worked with

[dreamdropsystemarchive]

shane want to give up. shane no good at host. shane don't want to be host. shane just want to be dormant forever. shane wasn't meant to be here. life is so scary. we have to keep fighting but life so painful..

[thiamblogger]

i got into yet another argument with a theo anti and he said that theo could've "just said no"... put that into ANY other situation and listen to how stupid that sounds.

[nullominous-q]

I have never hated the tumblr live "feature" more than today.

Inflict the sight of an ahegao face on me? Ultimate squick thanks. Like it's so bad that it causes me body dismorphia so idk if I should even call it a squick. A trigger? Yeah, that feels more apt.

Something that's automatically turned on that you continuously have to opt out of every seven days (which is the most asinine thing I've ever heard of on any social media platform btw) and it has officially triggered me.

Has anyone actually watched the tumblr lives? What are the numbers on that? Are the lives actually run by the people featured in the profile pics advertising the live or are they completely different people?

I hate this shit. And I don't care if you guys keep the "feature" but what would be great is if a permanent opt-out was an option. You can do it @staff it's not like it'd be hard and instead of taxing the site by continously have opt-out requests have to go into effect (what are the numbers on those btw?) you can have everyone just say once and for all, fuck tumblr live and go about their business. People who want to keep it can do so.

I'm not watching lives. I'm never going to click on them unless by pure accident. And that's how I feel about it.

Btw. Another porn blog followed me today with legit porn on it (shame that porn blog ban seems to have made that worse isn’t it?) if you care about that at all.

[autisticdreamdrop]

we moan/groan constantly. i communicate this way through noises. even more vocal alters do it. we even try to mask these noises but for the most part but no work. people do not understand this. it makes our mom upset when we don't "act normal" thats why don't front around her much anymore just cocon. people stare at us. the tapping. the noises. the stimming. this is us. we use to be able to mask and go through burnout constantly. but we went through bad regression. most of us lost most ability to mask. we didn't choose to unmask. we were forced to cause our brain decided we couldn't anymore. it wasn't a slow process. it's not fair.

[human-souls-buy-dopamine]

Does anyone else suddenly become a fucking master of your craft when you're mid panic attack 😭 LIKE. explain to me how THIS

Can come from the SAME BRAIN that wrote THIS?????

WHY CANT ALL OUR WRIT8JG SOUND GOOD BRO. MUST I TRIGGER MYSELF TO WRITE FUNKY WORDS /J

[littlewolfdunbar101]

Theo Raeken Rant.

I know people have their own opinion's, but I hate it when people hate on Theo. Theo's actions were not entirely his own doing. You cannot discuss Theo's actions without acknowledging the role played by the Dread Doctors. They manipulated Theo, using his desire for power and acceptance to further their own sinister agenda. They preyed upon Theo's insecurities and exploited them for their own gain. Theo's upbringing was far from ideal. He faced abandonment and neglect, causing him to yearn for a sense of belonging. When the Dread Doctors offered him acceptance and a chance to become powerful, Theo was seduced by the idea. In his quest for belonging, he made questionable decisions that ultimately led to his downfall. His actions are seen as villainous, but it is crucial to consider the broader context. Like come on! The Dread Doctors treated him as a mere pawn in their game, manipulating him to do their bidding! He became a tool to unleash chaos upon Beacon Hills, a means to an end for the malevolent forces at play. But despite the manipulation he endured, Theo showed glimpses of redemption and growth. He realized the error of his ways and sought to make amends for his past actions. His journey towards redemption showcased his capacity for change and highlighted the complexity of his character. His experiences taught him valuable lessons about the consequences of his actions. He learned the importance of trust, friendship, and loyalty (and love if you ship Thiam). Despite the hardships he faced, he demonstrated a willingness to change and grow, proving that even those who have made mistakes can find redemption. His character defies traditional notions of good and evil. He exists in the gray area, where morality is not always black and white. The complexity adds depth to his character, making him more relatable and human-like. Just like real people, Theo had flaws and made mistakes, but his journey showcases the potential for redemption and growth. And that's it. That's all I wanted to say.

[doodlesdreaming]

At the start of the new year, I wanted to practice more in comic and monochromatic style, while also getting back to a point of liking to ink my doodles again.

......and the first thing that cane to mind is some 'what if' angst. ^^;;;

King (Conrard) Headcanon-@yore-donatsu

[dreamerpetarchive]

do NOT give up lil one.. that's what i need someone to say..