#theeeee fucking party

[sapropel]

Guuuuuys I have a gay crush on a guy who likes me uwaaaaaaaaaaaaa

[judasofsuburbia]

🔀 ask game with ronance or stonathan 🩷

this is THEEEEE RONANCE SONG!!!

New crush, high school love again The rush of slumber party kissing Don't touch, I'll never cross the line

okay so what i'm thinking is nancy is visiting robin in college in nyc. nancy's been harboring this crush for robin for quite some time now. she wants to go for it because robin and her are finally single at the same time but she's so scared!! what if she ruins their friendship!!

they're planning on going out to robin's favorite spots in the city but a huge thunderstorm ruins their plans. they were in the midst of pregaming with the first lightning bolt struck. already feeling tipsy and warm. nancy puts her lipgloss down that she was applying in the bathroom mirror when she hears robin calling her friends, asking if they're still on for tonight. they're not.

robin appears in the doorway, something between a pout and a frown on her face. "sorry nance. looks like it's just us tonight."

"that's okay," nancy rushes to say. i only came here for you, she wants to say.

"what if we did a classic sleepover? like we used to?" robin suggests.

nancy's smile widens across her lips. "i'd love that."

so they change into their pjs. pop some popcorn. put a romance movie on the tv. lounging on the couch with a bottle of pink moscato passed between them. they're giggling and being stupid. it's just like old times. only nancy is hopelessly in love with her friend now.

"your lip gloss is all over the rim," robin says as she inspects the bottle.

"sorry."

robin shrugs and takes a swig anyway. she licks her lips afterward and nancy's eyes go wide.

"flavored?" robin asks.

nancy's brain short circuits. "vanilla," she barely mumbles.

robin hums and takes another swig. "i wanna wear it," robin says. nancy's heart starts to race. that had to be hint, right?

this is her moment.

nancy scooches closer and gets her face in robin's. robin blinks owlishly at her and sets the wine down on the coffee table, not bothering to turn her head to do so.

nancy's hand is slow and cautious as she holds robin's jaw. they're both glancing at each other's lips. they've both stopped breathing.

nancy takes the plunge and kisses robin fiercely. pouring years of crushing and pining into robin's mouth. spreading her lip gloss all over her lips. robin kisses back with equal enthusiasm. nancy moans, something she wouldn't do if she was sober, or maybe she would because robin is a god damn good kisser. nancy slowly crawls into robin's lap, running her hands through robin's hair. robin's hand is going up the back of her sleep shirt, her fingers dancing on nancy's spine, causing her to gasp. their kiss to finally part.

robin licks her lips again. "i thought you were gonna just go get the lip gloss," robin confesses.

nancy backs away. "oh fuck. is that what you wanted?"

"fuck no. this is way better," robin says as she kisses her again.

send me a 🔀 and a pairing, and i’ll shuffle my playlist and make an au based on the first song that comes up

[here2bbtstrash]

✨ jihope month: valentine's build-a-fic! ✨

y'all thought i was done surprising you, huh????? 🤭

that's right besties! the fun has just begun 😈 while i'm gonna keep on keepin' on with filling your drabble requests, and writing and reading alllllll the delicious jihope content for the rest of february - i ALSO thought it would be exciting to try one more thing!!! (courtesy of me actually finding where the fucking polls button is lmaoooo)

WE'RE DOING A BUILD-A-FIC!

aka y'all are gonna tell me exactly what kind of one-shot you want, and then i shall bring it into the world 🥰 the only prompt i'll give you upfront is that, since it's seasonally appropriate rn, this fic will be valentine's themed 💋🌹💌 - but the rest is up to you!!!

basically, throughout this week i will be posting polls in which i will ask you to tell me what you want this ~valentine's fic~ to look like! pairing, genre, tropes, etc. - y'all will vote and then i will deliver!! 🍰

i'll use this post as the "masterlist" so to speak, so you can easily find all the polls and watch the concept for this fic take shape! i really have no idea how many polls i'll do - i'm kinda winging this lmao - but once i'm satisfied, i shall return to my cave to whip it all together, and i'll do my best to get it posted before jihope month is complete! 🌹

hope y'all are excited - i know i am!!! i really can't overstate how much i appreciate all the love you've shown jihope month already 😘 now let's get this party started!! 🎈 (and again, one million billion thank yous to THEEEEE legend @kithtaehyung for working her insane banner magic, we have no choice but to stan - LIKE LOOK AT THIS SHIT IT'S SO FREAKING CUTE OMG 😭)

poll #1: pick a pairing! - you voted: jihope x reader!

poll #2: choose a context! - you voted: enemies to lovers!

poll #3: select a scenario! - you voted: reader is casually seeing two guys-- who happen to hate each other!

poll #4: set your spice level! - you voted: HOT!

poll #5: finish with some flavor!

[mischas]

Marissa’s my number one girl forever and I also feel like Zach’s character, which I enjoyed up until 2x16, got shafted for the sake of comedy, so I’m totally delighted by the concept of Marissa/Zach. Elaborate on them if you can?

He absolutely did, and it's a shame. He's not the most fleshed out guy (are any on this show...) but Michael works so well off of Adam and the way Zach has the potential to pick at Seth's very specific wounds hits me in a way that few Seth-related things do past early s1. They don't do much with it, but I like what we get to see of it. Like Neil taking to Zach immediately at the club. That is so gutting!

I will probably never write it, but I like imagining Marissa falling into Zach post-Johnny or sometime during a college break. Obviously I detest the notion that Marissa is only attracted to chaos or who will piss off her mother. Like theeeee most reductive character writing ever it makes me want to scream. Sure she's attracted to chaos (she is not the only one!!!!) but she's mostly attracted to fishes out of water because that's how she herself feels. However, she also dated Luke for many years, and Luke was that cookie cutter Newport archetype. I like imagining Marissa seeking companionship post-Johnny (she's actually seeking companionship during the Johnny fiasco which says more about her boyfriend/friends than it does her imo but I digress). And I wish s2 would've told us how Zach navigates Newport. He plays water polo AND he's pretty open about his nerdier interests. He's pretty open with his heart to a girl that's only half interested. I think so much could've been said about the status of the Newpsies through him if they'd just put in the effort since they chucked Luke out of town.

I've always wanted to see Marissa paired with a normal bloke. Just good intentions and vibes and nothing for the narrative to tell us she loves chaos and misery or whatever the fuck. Even Alex, though I love Malex, is postured as Marissa pursuing a party lifestyle to directly piss off her mother. It's ridiculous. They are always trying to tell some sort of rubbish story about Marissa's character through her romantic choices and it's maddening. Just let the girl date!

So with Zach I think she'd love his emotional honesty and be charmed at the concerted efforts he puts in to understand her and help her navigate the complexities life always throws her. We don't know a ton about him, but he's the opposite of the intensity she has with Ryan that always bowls her over. Obviously I love RM and I think they end up together in every universe but I do think it would take years and effort on both sides to unravel the shit that happened to them individually and together as teens. So much of the show is them slowly working toward that finish line imo. The whole point is they're supposed to wade through shit to get to the other side of it. And to me, Marissa dating someone like Zach for however long, maybe years, would help get her there. Not to say I want Zach as another cog in the Core Four MachineTM but like... oh well. I also envision Zach having a fun but tense working relationship with Seth over the years. And separately from that I love the idea of Seth being good friends with one of Marissa's boyfriends. It's so warmie. It's why I wrote that into my last fic. Because at the end of the day I also see Seth/Marissa as platonic soulmates, lol.

[sodrippy]

the greens need to implement a college psa program to inform young cunts that australia actually in fact is not america and that we employ a preferential voting system so theres no fucking way to "waste your vote"

[redzephyr]

SOBS. ok i did not fully get the samot/hadrian thing until now but w the last moments in adularia it fucks SEVERELY

[loumauve]

@aimofdestiny tagged me

long ass, rambly response under the cut:

1. Are there any tropes you’d like to see more of in pro fic (aka… traditionally published books)? If so, which ones?

tbh, I haven’t really picked up any books lately. whenever I feel like reading I feel like a v specific set of characters and setup, and fanfic is perfect for that while traditionally published fiction is not.. but ??tropes?? idk. are they all tropes? who ever cares. STUFFS I love include: 

COFFEE SHOP/BOOK STORE AUs (geonncannon has some p cool published fiction with similar content; also Ferry Tale... dudes and dudettes... pls read that. I know I say that every year but I really do mean it), CROSSOVERS of any kind, when I feel sentimental SOULMATE AUs (but mostly the less traditional ones. like.. friend soulmates are v cool too),  anything SUPERNATURAL like GHOSTS!! or vampires/werewolves (teenage me was v into those and sometimes still gets to run around and play), ANYTHING KINDA TWISTED AND MESSED UP tbh (don’t ask me to explain that pls omg.. imagine dub-con, ppl fucking themselves up bc they’re messed up and need years of therapy, all of that. I’m a terrible person, lol....but then also THE HEALING PROCESS!!!), if done right - PIRATE AUs, ANYTHING POST-APOCALYPTIC, PRETEND RELATIONSHIPS (wherein all parties harbour feelings for the other(s) but think they oughta keep it to themselves), HURT-COMFORT (of course! I mean.. you get it, right??!?), REINCARNATION (esp the kind where it takes them a looooong time to get it right, and they keep DYING and messing it up and killing each other time and again... I just love it all. make it hurt, lol), TIME TRAVEL (again, IF DONE RIGHT), ANDROIDS/ROBOTS with self-awareness and feelings,  anything to do with SPACE and travel therein, FOUND FAMILIES!!!

tldr: all of them, but mostly the above.

2. What art and/or craft would you like to pick up but haven’t for whatever reason?

anything I’m into and haven’t picked up is bc I tried it once, wasn’t good at it right away and promptly decided to give up on it, lol but if we’re talking as if I could do it, and do it well - hm.. I guess I’d love to be better at building things from scratch (think furniture, houses, the like) and also engineering abilities... I admire people who can do that shit and make sth cool, even if it’s shitty robots (SIMONE, YOU PERFECT JELLY BEAN - ILY)

3. What is your favourite cold/iced beverage?

there’s this one non-alcoholic cocktail... Mosquito I think? that’s p dope. but if we’re going all basic then it’s prob a tie between vanilla coke and cocoa idk

4. What is your preferred spice level? How hot is too hot for, idk, chili or curry or hot sauce or wasabi?

look, I so pale... I like spicy foods, but my body hates them. and they make my mouth burn and my eyes water and it’s nice when I’m sick, but otherwise I think I’m prob p bland in my choices of spice. the whole stereotype of white ppl and pepper+salt being their only spices doesn’t exist without reason, lol. I wish I could tolerate them more, bc I like chili and curry and loads of pepper, but it just hurts and I’m all about keeping my body (and asthma) on safe levels.

5. Rec me a youtube channel you like. Can be anything. Go on, I know you have a fave.

FUCK!! don’t make me pick, you jerk! I’ll give you a few options, cool? cool!

Kati Morton - for mental health stuff and just having a caring person talk about stuffs Peter Draws - bc he does what he says and he’s a p cool, p weird guy but he also cares about you and wants you to do you, and I dig that. (also his voice is super calming and sometimes I watch his stuff so I can doze off when I’m having a hard time falling asleep) Cooking with Sros // Rural Life (I think that’s where I first started watching her videos) - bc it’s calming to watch her cook super neat dishes that are traditional where she lives (also - sometimes she walks around in her garden and just PICKS STUFF UP bc IT GROWS THERE and I just think that’s the coolest bc you couldn’t even get some of those ingredients here, so like... that’s an entirely different thing I’ll prob never know enough about Simone Giertz - bc she’s awesome and so FUNNY!! and cute and awkward and hella smart, and... before the whole brain tumor thing I would have said I’d love to have a peek around in her brain, but now.. if all goes well she’ll have an actual picture of it to look at, and maybe it’s not cool to be excited for her..?? but yeah, she builds stuff WITH HER OWN TWO HANDS, and she has to know SO MUCH to do it, and just... DAMN CRUSH MATERIAL right there. like, I’m so weak. but also I just want her to have everything. I want her to be able to do to space. fuck

6. Do you keep mementos of old relationships? Why/why not?

HAH! FUCK. I do. have. will? sometimes I ask myself why I keep them and don’t just burn them or whatever (throwing them away wouldn’t be nearly cathartic enough an experience for me), and maybe this is still the grieving part of me that’s looking to haunt itself? idk

all I know is that so far I’ve kept letters. I’ve kept hoodies. and.. idk what I kept out of that one relationship.... can’t remember atm, but that one hurt far too much to keep a lot of reminders around.

7. What sort of music do you put on when you do chores, like dishes or laundry?

my go-to song used to be Eye of the Tiger, but these days it’s mostly podcasts or the music of the mood/day/week (those songs you listen to on repeat for hours after you’ve (re)found them.)

8. Is there any scent you particularly love? Which one?

it used to be musk, like.. those scented burning sticks..(that’s prob not the right English name for them, lol) but I guess... the good rain smell maybe? (not the bad smells-like-snails-and-slugs-and-dead-worms rain smell). also some roses and some paeonies.. I’m picky tho. and forever fave LAVENDER

9. Do you like to cook? What’s your signature dish?

I do, actually. when my kitchen doesn’t look like shit bc my emotional state and therefore life has derailed

and eh.. it’s like a paprika bellpepper tomato soup.. with salami and feta cheese and sometimes corn, sometimes rice, sometimes minced meat. always depends on the mood and what I have lying around. not so much a signature dish as it is what I make most often, mostly for myself. 

10. What’s your fave ice cream flavour that you can’t get in most places?

it’s gained in popularity, but - after-eight. for sure. anything minty with chocolate is amazing to me.

11. What’s your current favourite outfit?

uhm.. I don’t really have favourite outfits, I just have favourite articles of clothing (THEY’RE MY FAVOURITES. THEY’RE ALL MY FAVOURITES. ALL OF THEM) and I tend to mash them together without a care in the world... well, mostly I care about temperatures and sun exposure bc I burn like a crisp in the sun, it’s not pretty.

but lately I’ve been wearing the european tour shirt from the My Favorite Murder live show bc I WAS THERE AND IT WAS THEEEEE SINGULAR BEST THING OF THE YEAR (aside from getting through my final exams). also, I love my old pair of Chucks, the blue leather kind, and the soles are falling apart and it’s all kinds of battered and worn out, but I love them. they make me happy. also there’s some striped black and white socks and some white dotted black underwear and some super comfortable black shorts. but what really is just LOVE still. and prob always. until death do us part - I have this super soft, super floofy, sways around in the wind, lets all the wind through the knitted structures of it, blue-ish, button-able long swishy swooshy ...jacket? apparently it’s called a cardigan, AND YES I HAD TO GOOGLE THAT. I DON’T KNOW THINGS!! JEEZ LOUISE

[cid]

4, 50, 51, 52, 53 and my own question which is: what is your favorite sticker to use in the group chat

crying i love you so much!!!!!!!

4. Do you enjoy talking with your party?

Yeah man! they also have such good advice, i mean it’s only the 4 of us who talk but still!!

50. What khux world do you enjoy visiting/playing through? Why?

Daybreak town becasue that’s where all the good story shit happens!!

51. What khux world do you dislike visiting/playing through? Why?

fuck off agrabah, find abU!!! NOOO!!

52. Is there any scenery from khux you think your avatar likes exploring or hanging out in?

maybe by the waterfall in dwarf woodlands!! 

53. Which story bosses have given you a hard time?

theeeee woman with the cats i cannot remember her name but back in the day she was the worst!!

what is your favorite sticker to use in the group chat 

the meow wow with the hearts!!!!

THANK YOU LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!

[dejaherseyy-blog]

People/Friendships

Okay so I'm going to start with a pretty general topic, people. There are so many different types of people in the world but in reality it seems like you have the real and the fake.... but that leads you to what's the definition of those two words when it comes to people? To me, real is someone that is just down for you no matter what. Someone that might piss you off, but you know they have your best interest at heart. They don't go around talking shit just because someone else is doing it. Fake people are the ones that are around you when it's beneficial to them, and it seems like this is the most common type of person (sadly). These kind of people will smile in your face and then turn around and talk about you just because that's what everyone else is doing around them. I'm sure some of you are thinking.. hm, which one am I? Now don't get me wrong, I'm sure everyone has been a little bit of the two, but which one do you think someone would classify you as if a random person were to ask them? As you get older you start to realize friends honesty don't mean shit, because you really can't trust many people. I always say expect the expected, don't let anyone play you. You know what kind of person someone is just by having one conversation, so when you tell someone your business don't be mad at them when they tell everybody else. Listen to the conversation you have w/ people, pay attention to what they talk about. Honestly, if all they did was talk about other people do you not think they'll do the same thing to you? I've had an issue before with being around people just because I was desperate to have friends. Were they good friends to me? It seemed like it.. but then it starts becoming a one way street. When they do things they don't invite you, you basically invite yourself. And what kind of friendship is that? But I had to be the one to tell myself that they aren't really my friends because if they were I would be included. The same people I also thought were my friends are probably talking shit about this blog right now (mind you no one is forcing them to read it), but it is what it is. You can't force someone to like you or be your friend, and sadly I learned that the hard way. Some days it sucks, but I have to remember that they weren't really my friend anyway. Don't get it twisted though, this isn't a pity party lol I don't need people messaging me about hanging out or becoming friends. I'm good where I'm at. I guess you just have to live and learn, it makes me question now when I see people talking about having a "best friend" is that just someone you hang out with a lot? Because to me, this generation is so fucked up most of us don't even know how to be decent people. People will honestly be with someone allllll theeeee timeeee, but as soon as they aren't around they have something to say about them (I've seen it firsthand). As soon as they are back in their face, they will act like they didn't just tell you all their business and everything they dislike about them. TBH, that's not something I want to be apart of. Sometimes it's better/easier to just stay off the radar and do your own thing let people come to you. Idk, I feel like this blog is just all over the place but I honestly just have so much that I think about. Hopefully I get better w/ staying on topic. But for now this'll do, and I'm happy with it. Thank you for taking the time to read this, I really do appreciate it. Comments/suggestions welcome (whether they be positive or negative). Follow me on: Instagram: deja.herseyy Snapchat: ayyo_hershey For updates and new blogs. *I later realized I started talking about friendship so I added that as a topic as well. DH

[b-nesche]

[pixiechangeling]

yea it's weird when u meet elderly who treat life like a big stage or idk. like how can u have lived so long and still understand so little of other humans? i actually just had some time off but i spent it at my cousins coming-of-age party (idk the term&the eplanation is lil longish). it was v lovely but also draining cause it's a long drive w v lil time for urself. but yea idk. i'm just stressing abt finding a new place in dublin. guardian today said average rent in dublin is almost 200€

(2) any fucking way sry it seems i only come here to whine! how are you? how has work been? how about your boyfriend?

Yeah, it’s a complete lack of emotional intelligence! How do you get to be in your 70s and not have any awareness of other people’s internal existence? My grandma talks a LOT about how she’s a kind person, but without being able to relate to other people I don’t think you can have any kind of true empathy? If people are just characters in a play, those twinges of emotions you feel for them are just related back to the idea of the character you have in YOUR mind. Idk

Yeah, I feel ya! Family gatherings are like bombardments of social expenditure, which can be lovely and enveloping, but v little down time so pretty overwhelming and draining. 

Ugh yeah rent is ridiculous. More than half of my pay goes on rent :( Will you be finding new housemates? I live alone bc living with strangers would be really hard on my mental health, but being alone is hard on it too sometimes (not to mention expensive) have you got any leads? Moving is theeeee most stressful thing ever :( 

Haha, no need to apologise! I enjoy talking w you either way, so pls feel free to vent to me. Work has been a lil bit busy bc one of the other people is doing a uni thing for 6 weeks and can’t work, so we’ve all picked up more shifts. BUT she was the only other one who worked hard/efficiently so I’m really feeling her not being there. I’ve made a few mistakes lately and instead of making a big deal about it ppl have been really chill and like “haha, that’s not like you, guess you’re human after all” so that’s been nice and makes me feel like I can relax a bit

Things with my bf are not good. He doesn’t understand me or the things I need/want bc he operates so differently to me, and I don’t know how to make him understand. I feel completely unable to communicate anything with him bc my words with their meaning going into his head with his perspective and understanding change into something different to him and I don’t know how to make him see things from my pov?? Tbh I don’t think I can. Feels completely helpless and I’ve run out of energy to try. He doesn’t have time for me atm, which I understand bc he’s got a lot going on, but then he doesn’t make time to even like reply to my messages & then I see him pursuing other ppl to date so I realise I’m a v v low priority to him. I suggested we have a break so he can focus on the things that ARE a priority to him at the moment and I can have some time to work through things in my mind and try and process my mess of emotions, but he didn’t like that idea EITHER. Kinda feels like there’s not even a relationship to even take a break from to me, like I don’t see him, he doesn’t talk to me..... so??? I’m on standby for when he decides I’m important enough to throw a tiny bit of attention anyway lol

Oops, sorry, that was a very big rant! :/