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Drama queen
Warning ⚠️; Blood, cursing, French
Pairing; Bottom!Lestat/Top!Male!Reader
Summary; Another night, another fight and Lestat decided to be a drama queen
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You stepped aside, allowing the cup to hit the wall behind you instead of your face. You rolled your eyes when Lestar grabbed another one and it quickly joined the other on the ground in pieces. As usual, your lover was being a drama queen and acted like it was the end of the world when this was quite a simple dispute.
Well, one that Lestat had started.
Because you didn't kill a woman who flirted with you… in masquerade. A very public and busy masquerade. And now the theatrical queen was accusing you of not loving him anymore or wanting to cheat on him. The usual when anyone looked your way and not his, you were used to it.
- “Lestat, are you over it or are you going to keep throwing things at me like a petulant child?” You asked with a sigh.
- “Va te faire foutre, connard!” He cursed in French, making you roll your eyes.
You walked up to Lestat as he was searching for something else to throw at you and wrapped your arms around his waist. He fought you, hitting your chest and trying to push you away, but you didn't budge, simply looking down at him with a smile.
He was such a jealous man, a hypocrite and a fool, but he was yours and you also knew just how deeply Lestat loved. God knew just how much you meant to him and Lestat latching out was more out of fear of losing you than anger.
You kissed Lestat on the forehead and your lover finally calmed down in your embrace. His fists clenched your shirt and you chuckled when you felt Lestat pulling you closer, his fangs brushing over your jaw.
- “You are such a drama queen my love.” You sighed, pressing your head against his and smiled. “And a fool. How could I look at another person when I have an Adonis in my arms? There is no one out there, not a human or a vampire, that more gorgeous than you. I should be the one worried you'll find someone else.”
Lestat snorted but said nothing. You could feel his breath against your neck as he nuzzled his face there. You closed your eyes and just savoured the moment, appreciating the end of the fight. You hated it each time. It made you feel like shit even tho it wasn't your fault. It was just how Lestat was and there was no changing him.
You didn't want him to change either. Maybe just be a bit less jealous would be great.
You laughed feeling his fangs against your skin again.
- “Is my drama queen hungry?” You asked, lips brushing against Lestat’s
- “Yes.” He replied with a smirk.
You passed your arms under his ass and lifted him up. Lestat laughed, making you feel better and you carried him to the bedroom. You sat him down on your coffin and undressed to change in better clothes.
You felt Lestat hands on you the second your clothes were off. His fingers traced every muscle, every curb of your body and it made you shiver. You turned around and were met with his lips on yours. You chuckled and rested your hands on his hips.
- “I thought you said you were hungry.” You teased, passing your hands under his shirt. Lestat laughed and tilted his head as you kissed his neck, fangs brushing his thin skin.
- “Never said what I was hungry for.”
You laughed as Lestat took your hand, pulling you toward the coffin. His lips found yours and you didn't resist when he pushed you down in the coffin. Your hands found his waist and you watched as Lestat took off his shirt. You couldn't resist and caressed his chest, fingers tracing his muscles.
You grunted when Lestat bit down on your neck, fangs piercing the skin easily. You felt your blood rushing out and growled your own fangs out as you dug your fingers into his hips.
- “Fuck, Lestat!” You gasped, feeling his tongue clean the wound.
You shivered as Lestat stared at you, his eyes filled with hunger. You smiled and cupped his face in your hands before kissing him, devouring his lips.
You woke up first the next night, Lestat’s naked body against yours. Your hands gently brushed his hair off his face before caressing his angelic face. Asleep, Lestat looked almost innocent and harmless, which was the opposite of the truth.
He was like Lucifer. The most beautiful among you, and the most twisted one. You never met someone who could go from one extreme to the other and who could show such cruelty while killing.
And yet you loved only him more.
- “I can feel you staring at me, mon coeur. Tu sais que c’est mal élevé de regarder les gens dormir?” Lestat said, yawning.
- “Maybe, but who cares? I can't look away from such beauty.” You replied, stealing a kiss.
Lestat snorted and freed you from his grip, allowing you to get out of the coffin. You felt his eyes on you as you walked up to the dryer and picked a few clothes. Behind you he grunted once you dressed up, but he soon followed your example.
Before long you two walked the streets of London, the rain falling lightly, almost like a mist, around you. There wasn't a lot of people outside and it was perfect; no witnesses for when you'll be feeding.
Lestat was the first to find a meal. He bounced on a man in a dark alley the second you set foot there. You smiled, watching your lover feed, blood rolling down his chin. You shivered hearing the man’s spine snap when Lestat turned his head a bit too hard.
Of course, everything was wanted. Lestat was too much in controlll of his strength for it to be an accident.
After letting go of the body, Lestat turned his head toward you, licking his bloody lips and fingers with a smirk. You chuckled and walked up to him, stepping over the corpse before kissing Lestat, tasting the blood on his lips.
- “Am I supposed to see it as a thread?” You asked as Lestat wrapped his arms around your neck.
- “Maybe more like a promise.” He replied, tilting his head. “The promise that what I’ll do to the next person flirting with you.”
- “Really?” You asked, snorting. “Does it mean I can do the same? There is a last lover of yours I might have in mind.”
This time, Lestat lost his smile and looked away. He knew you were talking about Louis. You weren't one to be easily jealous, but his relationship with Louis was the exception. Louis who had tried to murder Lestat, Louis who had chosen someone else over him... Yes, you had every reason to hate the man and be jealous of how much Lestat still loved him.
Louis didn't deserve him.
- “Because if you can kill whoever flirt with me, than I can do the same.” You said, taking Lestat’s chin between your fingers.
- “It’s not the same.” Lestat whispered and you tilted your head. “You already want him dead, you hate Louis.”
- “How can I not when I see how much pain you still carry because of him?”
Only silence answered you and you sighed, resting your forehead against Lestat’s. He closed his eyes, hands gripping your shirt and in the darkness of the night, you still saw tears of blood in his eyes. With your thumb, you chassed them away and felt guilty. This time you were the one hurting him.
- “I am sorry, mon amour, I took it too far. C’mon, let me make it up to you.” You whispered against his lips. “I know a place where they sing and dance, I’m sure you'll like it. We might even find our next meal there.”
Lestat smiled, but it didn't reach his eyes. Yet he still kissed you and nodded. He was the one who took your hand in his and you squeezed it before leading him to the pub. Lestat was a drama queen, but he was also such a sensible soul, something you often forgot.
At the pub, you saw light going back into Lestat’s eyes as you danced and sang with the mortals. After a few hours you could tell all was forgotten and pardoned. You allowed Lestat to choose your next meal and when your future victim left, so did the two of you.
You let Lestat hunt her down and take the first bite, another way for you to ask for forgiveness. But as you fed next, you felt Lestat’s fingers on your neck and face as he traced your muscles. Staring into his eyes you only saw love.
Yes. Lestat might be a Drama Queen, but he when he loved, he loved with all his soul. You were the one he loved now. Not Louis or Armand, but you. You knew right there and then that no matter his caprices and tantrum, Lestat would stay by your side just like you would stay by his.
#male reader#x male reader#x reader#fanfic#reader#lestat de lioncourt x male reader#lestat de lioncourt#interview with the vampire#iwtv#amc iwtv#writers#writeblr#writers on tumblr#the worse warning ever#french#bottom lestat#top male reader
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No sign of Rain.
Not easy living with the fact that you hurt someone you just wanted to protect, isnt it.
More context under the cut!
Tldr: 3 realizes that forcing 4 away from the Platoon after Sploon2 the way they did wasnt the best choice. That forcing her to ignore what had happened had most likely contributed to her unable to cope with life beyond war.
(The comic above is from after Sploon3/SO! Situation described below is post Sploon2/OE.)
3 and 4 have been doing missions together awhile. 4s been able to handle herself well, but theres a moment where she trips up and gets hurt a lil more than usual. Like, its to the point where she needs to be taken off the field awhile.
3...
"|Im sorry.|"
"Heh? Three, if it wasnt for you, Id be dead. What are you saying sorry for?"
"|...if it werent for me going away when Octavio stole the Zapfish again...youd never have been dragged into this mess.|"
"Thats not your fault, Three. Cap'n called you away."
3 sighs... "|Still...you couldve been living a life where you never have to worry about your life being put in this much danger.
Or anyone else's life, for that matter.|"
4s the one whos quiet now, as she glances away. 3 does have a point... "...I guess so, yeah. But that wouldve meant that Id never have met you."
Silence sits between them awhile, until 3 grunts softly, to get 4 to look at them again. "|I want you to promise me something.|"
"What is it?"
"|When things settle down again, I want you to leave.|"
"....What?"
"|Live your life away from this. This danger, this war, this...everything.|"
"And leave YOU? Three, you cant do things alone anymore, you KNOW it!"
A clack of their beak. "|Im more capable than you think, Four. Dont think less of me.|"
"Im not- Im not thinking less of you!! Im just stating the facts!"
3s making a low gurgling noise. Its a similar sound an inkfish makes before spitting ink. A sound that says "dont test me."
"Three, Im not leaving. Its already happened... everything -- Octaria, the zapfish, the metro -- its all happened, and I cant just...go back after all of that."
"|Yes, you can. You still can. Youve a life outside this. Why else are you late enough that Marie has given up reprimanding you?|"
4 backs down...3s right. Again.
"...and what about you? Why dont you leave, too? Once...everything is stable."
3s ears droop. "|...theres nothing left for me. Ive thrown my lot with the NSS for as long as I remember. My team barely even recognizes me these days.|"
A silent beat goes by between them again.
"|So promise me. Promise me.| Rain." They rasp her name, making sure she gets the point. "|Promise me you'll live. Promise me you'll go back up there. You said you wanted to go to college -- go. Dont look back. Dont become like me.
I dont want you to become like...this.|"
They gesture to their scar. Their tentacles, forever stained marbled cyan.
4 can see in the gesture the pain they hid in their hearts. The regret. The guilt.
"...Tanara..."
"Live." they rasp, So quietly."Live. Promise me."
"I dont want to leave you alone."
"|Ive been in this war since Ive hatched, and Ive done things on my own before you were dragged into this. You deserve none of this bullshit.|"
"You dont deserve it either!"
3 grips her shoulders. pleading with her. "Promise me. Please promise me. That youll leave."
4 shakes her head. Resolute.
"Im sorry...I cant promise that to you. Youre my friend, Tanara. Im not letting you do this alone."
3... leans against her, defeated. Burying their face into her shoulder. Theyre shaking their head, clutching on her tight.
"...I-Im sorry, I...Ill be more careful next time. Okay? I can...I can promise you that much."
3 remains silent. Thats not what they want. They want her to be safe forever.
"...this really means a lot to you, huh?
Okay.
Ill...Ill think about it."
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She does eventually decide to leave. Things were looking up for awhile, and missions are much lighter. She can dare to dream bigger now. That and...she cant stand seeing 3 looking so guilty whenever she says something abt her life on the surface.
None of it is their fault. Any of this. But they still feel that theyre taking her away from her "real life".
When she said that shes leaving the platoon, 3s look of jubilation both relieved and pained her. Then a thought hit her, right there.
"...Wait...all this time- did you just want to get rid of me? D-did you not want to be friends anymore?"
3 shakes their head. "|Rain, I asked you to live your dreams as a friend.
Your safety would be guaranteed. Youd be able to happily live your dreams without worry.|"
"...Will I ever see you again?"
3 sighs. "|...hopefully not.|"
4 gasps.
"|No- no-! Not because I dont want to see you-|"
"Tanara, youre making it hard for me to believe that youre doing this for me. What kind of life would I have if youre not there? Not a happy one, Im telling you!!!"
3s shaking as they sign. Trying so hard to keep their breaking mask tight.
"|Im a soldier, Rain. And Ill likely be one til the day I die.
I dont want to drag you back into this mess. I dont want you to get hurt, because of me.|"
Why is it that they always have a point? 4 despairs at the fact.
"So this means goodbye..?"
"|Weve got some days left. Lets make them count.|"
A smile. A bittersweet one.
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These teenagers goddamn. 3 doesnt understand fully that shit still happened and one cant just leave and pretend nothing had transpired. Or maybe they felt they didnt deserve to have someone as good as 4.
Theyre ruthless in a sense that they know what their goals are. Their goal was to keep the world safe for everyone else to live. And if it means sacrificing their friendship with 4, so be it. If shes safe, their goal is met. Doesnt matter what either of them feel about it. (I suppose 4 getting injured really pushed them to make that choice.)
And 4... yeah, leaving was the smart choice for her personal growth, but agreeing with 3 to sacrifice their friendship wasnt the best choice to agree to. She felt like she cant argue 3 out of that decision they made for the both of them...so she just followed it.
"|Look alive, Rain. Your brand new life awaits you.|"
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Thats why theyre so flabbergasted and upset that she came back. It felt like that time they spent alone, that sacrifice they made, was all in vain...
"Im sorry, Three. It sucked being away from you. It really did. I failed to live there...maybe my life is really meant to be lived here. On duty.
With you."
Are they disappointed that she failed her brand new life? No, never. They gave her the chance to run away from it all, but she came crawling back after doing so. If she felt that her life is here, after trying something else, so be it.
Thats what convinced them enough to allow 4 to return to duty. Theyll keep her safe another way. They also cant hide from themself the fact that theyre happy to see her again after so long.
#THAT IS A DOOZY OF A READ. ENJOY THE ANGST!#splatoon#splatoon fanart#agent 3#captain 3#agent 4#agent 12#ish. itll head there.#opal owl’s nest#its the most toxic ass agent 12 shit youll ever see fair warning. it gets better later but it gets WORSE first.
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I fear that Alfons's route will be just as emotionally taxing as Elbert's and I'll miss using my tickets in time just like I did in Elbert's route because my brain's had enough emotions and miss finishing the mission board again
#hoping the sylvatica specialist sees this and lets me know how much I should prepare emotionally#rambling and cw for mentioning the fictional SA in the tags#like... dark content rarely bugs me. I consume it all the time#But Elbert's route effected me a lot more than I thought it would and I don't think anything's ever made me feel like that#to the point I can't really put it into words#just because of the subject matter (the servants) and how very well it and his discomfort was portrayed#And I did see the content warnings for Elbert's route from fans. I had a strong idea of what his backstory was like and I was right#and it still hit me harder than any fictional media I've consumed#I just want to know if I should expect something worse or on the same level or not as bad#because some details I've noticed are making me worried#specifically in Between Two Villains when Elbert said Alfons was assisting the doctor and we already know what the doctor was willing to do#and I don't think Elbert is the type of person to come up with a cover story#ever since Elbert's route I tend to assume the worst possibility for a backstory/trauma#so yeah I really want to be able to finish the route panel mission this time#but I don't know how much to emotionally prepare or how to emotionally prepare#ikevil#ikemen villains#ikevil alfons#alfons sylvatica#elbert greetia#ikevil elbert
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an oblivion mod that redoes all the dialogue to replace certain words with the terrible tiktok censorship versions
"There you will meet a man named Rufio. Unalive him."
#1000% worse than skyrim brainrot. no one ever do this#sometimes we have to laugh at the stupidity#in all seriousness STOP FUCKING USING THESE#'but tik tok will-' STOP USING TIK TOK#if anything at least don't use them here people need you to use the REAL words for filtering and trigger warning reasons#tumblr will not divine smite you for saying kill we promise#tes oblivion#oblivion#the dark brotherhood#the elder scrolls#shitpost#tes shitpost
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Yuma Month: Day 25: Broken
Night terrors, burning body temperature, delirious hallucinations, and glassy faded vision…
Helpless and afraid, he calls out for his caretaker…but he’s not there…
He’s all alone now…with no one to help…
Completely broken.

#Yuma Month 2024#I put a preview just as a warning of what you'll get into#whumpcode#rain code#master detective archives: rain code#yuma kokohead#illness whump#fever whump#pixeldoodles#my art#the only way I know how to truly break a character#this is post game yuma who has fallen ill on one of his cases#pushing himself too hard despite his failing health#now he’s worse and while his fever rises after a nightmare#he suffers from ragged breathing hallucinations and delirium#rendering him back to his amnesia personality#scared helpless and wanting support#he briefly remembers his caretaker from the NDA#he calls his name but there’s no answer#its dark and scary and he doesn't know where he is#he wants someone anyone to be with him#but he’s all alone now…and very ill with no one to aid him#this is what can happen when you fly solo yuma ;-;#this might be the worst I’ve ever done to him... ^^;#is there a good ending here? I'll leave that to your head.#I think I got carpel tunnel from drawing this... ORZ#karma ig 😅 anyway tomorrow's will be non whump#i just went a little crazy w this one... XD#art is a mess but at least it looks ragged & dark as I intended it to#definitley more detailed than the others tho lol
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new rt everyone shes a freak whos pretty sure shes been been given the role of rogue trader as an act of divine intervention to eventually replace the godemperor and bring new glory to the imperium which she thinks is dull and stagnant. dont worry about why she keeps marazhai caged in her trophy room like he's bait its not important and completely irrelevant to the fact ive joke nicknamed her simon thresh. has anyone noticed a lot of slaaneshi demons during warp jumps lately
#warhammer rogue trader#rogue trader#marazhai aezyrraesh#von valancius#if i ever mention about marazhai going insane on the voidship this is what i want you to think of#understimulated predator animal in a cage claws itself open#its worse with her but i do think he generally feels kinda insane anyway#yeah he's tricked into thinking she's tolerable and a fair alternative to the arena then hes taken to the voidship#yrliet [who was the fixation until now] tries to warn him about her before getting her head bashed in infront of him#spirit stone smashed into shards for ritual use body dragged off for vague poor medical knowledge dissection#he is now thinking the arena might not be so bad after all. except he's got no way to back out of this so hes screaming clawing at the wall#shes not giving him up willingly and the only person who could take him by force is calcazar whos not a great alternative tbh!#so he gets to go insane being bait for the chaos god he's already ocd fixated is stealing his soul [on top of normal drukhari fears]#and he's not able to maul anyone else while locked up so its just him dealing with this alone! yay#she doesnt give a shit about pasqal until he gets xenotech in him. then he goes to the trophy room too for study/more grafts#heinrix is most likely captive in the trophy room too with his death faked so he cant snitch#idira Almost got in trouble too for the implant she gets from tervantias but then it breaks and this lass is just angry at her#the Only reason she doesnt feed her to the wolves and kick her out is her door. and she is now trying to force it open with a crowbar#abelard has to deal with her shit and manage it socially. he never thought he'd want to retire but fucking hell when can he quit#she likes jae mostly for her connections. toxic yuri theyre both using eachother#she briefly idolises achilleas for bringing her to commorragh but then finds out he did it under torture and didnt want to. mad at him#he can make it up to her once hes a wrack though [he is going next to marazhai. this will only improve both their mental states]#can you tell this freak is a piece of work yet#shes got screams of the damned volume 3 playing across the ship and shes having a great time but is completely deadpan the whole time#unrelated! you can finally see my idea of marazhai next to a normal fucking human good god. yeah i think hes huge
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I'm sorry you have been what in the woods.

oh look who's interested in my getting shot lore now. Should have been there when it happened sorry
#[.asks]#anonymous#it wasn't anything major (not a real shooting bullet) I just like to say it like that because it makes it sound worse#my father and I were hiking in a place where some people were doing some sort of hunting training camp or whathave you#in hindsight we definitely should have not been there but my dad ignores warning sings constantly when in the woods#ironic that my father didn't get shot since he was the bigger target but maybe they mistook me for a fox or something#it's the only stiches I ever had to get! and the wound healed bad so I hate wearing canotte now. </3
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guys i’m thinking about never stop blowing up again
#and if ur saying hey reese did you ever stop#no. i did not. but it is getting worse again#consider this a warning. perhaps even an omen#reese’s pieces
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What did we all learn with this debacle kids? Never, never, scrap a song with Timbaland on the track never! Brit could’ve had her big break and could have spared us from Jojo Siwa dry humping someone in an island !
#like the track was so much better#this is a warning if you ever work with Timbaland don’t scrap whatever the fuck he gave you#because the benefit shit it can be worse if anything in this the mess proved#brit smith#timbaland#karma is a bitch#jojo siwa
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just finished the first episode of season 5 of the walking dead when the group arrives at terminus and i never want to see that again i’m not even remotely kidding. they took it way too far for my own personal threshold i genuinely feel so sick i wanna cry. i’m extremely sensitive to gore and horror and i’ve been getting thru the show fine so far from covering my eyes and screen or just simply looking away but this was just….way too fucking much…i don’t give a shit if i sound like a crybaby here i’m so freaked out rn
#feel what u want abt it that’s y’all’s business but i literally can’t handle that#really really REALLY wish someone warned me before i decided to watch it at NIGHT before i have to go to SLEEP#probably the most sick disgusting and truly evil things i’ve ever seen in media#and i know there’s gonna be someone in my ear telling me that ‘’its not that bad and they’ve seen worse’’#don’t care not listening that episode was SICK idc#my soul feels so dirty i want to go back and unwatch it#listening to praise and worship music rn just to feel clean and safe again#rinnie watches twd#rinnie's rambles </3
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trying to figure out how to mix with an untuned .vsq file featuring lily the animove v3 from vocaloid
#vocaloid#lily vocaloid#vocaloid lily#volume warning btw it's loud all the way through#figured i could practice mixing a bit using just plug n play vocaloid renders#i've had worse attempts but hrnghhfgf#cant help but feel like i'm missing something fundamental that's keeping my covar mixes from sounding proper on the most basic level#will i ever find out what that is. who knows.#lily (vocaloid)#lily de l'animove#my art#<- for bloagh sorting purposes
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yall come on, if I was that troll blog the insults would actually be funny... and have some real receipts...
#ceci speaks#nonsims#text#delete later#negative#gif warning#that gave me such a chuckle#whoever that lil bitch is theyre scared of me#deleted what they said about me lickety split#anyway yall know i dont talk on anon i always talk my shit under my name#unlike some of yall... 😂#anyway i remain simblr's trendsetter and#im actually pretty satisfied i still live in somebodys mind rent free#but baby if i ever say anything its gonna be with all these screenshots in my inbox not calling ya sim ugly#theres worse things than what ur sims look like and its ya personality#simblr's trendsetter#simblr's boogeyman
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I fucking hate being traumatized because why am I bawling the hardest I've bawled in god-knows-how-long because someone I didn't even like that much berated Me. gasping wailing trembling and snotting over this for several minutes.
#personal#sanism#abuse mention#child abuse mention#I'm still not entirely done crying really. I'm just trying to stop and calm Myself. not doing well at the moment#because someone on the discord server mentioned trump's inauguration and I basically said 'I don't like trump either#but it's still important to keep pushing for change. who's in office doesn't change that' and he just. immediately escalated the situation#accused Me of not caring about oppression. I explained Myself further but he told Me to go fuck Myself and capped it off with#'you already admitted to being a fucking narcissist so why would i want to be around you' (exact quote BTW)#and I just can't stop sobbing. I don't know if I've cried this much since I was 13. I keep having to pause My typing because I start crying#I didn't hate him but I wasn't attached to him either. it's just that I have so much fucking trauma along these lines#so many instances of My mom putting words in My mouth. getting short-tempered with Me over benign remarks that I didn't understand#because I'm autistic. dismissing My opinions. making Me hide My feelings and issues from her#because she's made it clear that she doesn't trust people like Me#it's made Me have so much trouble handling even friendly social interaction. I've only just learned how to do that#I just can't handle having that same mistreatment forced onto Me by anyone else. especially with so little warning or build-up#and what makes Me break down even worse is the fact that I know I'll have to deal with him again#he wasn't even punished while this was happening. despite the server owner and other mod being online. the owner just said 'stressful day'#and the other mod started talking with a regular user about how it was uncalled for once he had already left the conversation#nobody even checked in on Me. even though I stayed online for a good half-an-hour afterwards. I only just logged off a few minutes ago#because the notifications from unrelated conversations started overstimulating Me#regardless. I don't even want to see him again. I don't want to be in the same server as him I don't want to talk to him I don't want to#but it's not a real formal server. it's a 'friend group.' and they've shown before that they prioritize keeping the peace#over actually punishing hostility. just a week or so ago I told them I wasn't comfortable with them using the R-slur#and someone freaked out over My complaint being 'politically correct' and left. he was brought back just a few days later. and before that#he had already derailed a previous discussion I tried to have about the word by sending gifs featuring it and redirecting the conversation#that sucked but at least it wasn't outright triggering. but I just can't stand the thought of having to be around someone#who treated Me so much like how My abuser has. that's the most I've ever had to relive My trauma because of someone else#that's the most anyone has ever mirrored it to Me. I just can't stand it but I know I'll have to be around him#I don't even know if he's gonna apologize. he's made it clear how little he thinks of Me as a human being. PLUS
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I will never be the same again
#the amazing digital circus#just watched the first 3 episodes and uhhhh#guys why did nobody warn me of the brainrot#like holy CRAP#this. this show is SO good??#reminds me of all the reasons I liked tawog but now its about video games??? like this show is the only thing I will ever think about again#I might have to deep dive for trivia about it. I will have to go frame-by-frame for everything until I have the entire show memorized#Im getting autismed over this. like. I want to know and understand this show the way I know undertale#and I'm like. professional level obsessed with undertale#also holy crap what the fuck is wrong with jax and can I put him in Situations until he gets better/worse over it
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crk LET ME IN LET ME IN LET ME IN LEY M
#snobrambles#rattling at the holy cracker kingdom gates#dolma is delicious#chat if u ever get thr chance est dolma its rly good#my mind is rotting over my oc qgain WAIT QUICK BLOOD AND GORE(?) WARNING#GUYS...I LOVEBHER SO MUCH#GGRGRGRGRGR#shes like#the voracitys biggest hater#she comes from a planet thats the voracity equivalent of the doctors of chaos#but instead of trying to pull an 'i can fix them' with the voracity they jst straight up hate them#like#they kinda cursed their planet#bc the voracity created a giant baby serphant using the flesh of an emanator of abundance#and when the serphant baby refused to eat when they tried to feed them they cursed it so that every time the baby got hungry#they become a ravenous and feral. destructive even. trying to eat everything in sight#so they started chewing apart their own body to prevent themself from huting others#resulting in creating rivers mountains and landspaces with its own body and blood#the serphant then created people and animals with its own flesh#with its heart being the core of the now planet#and the people and animals on its land bear the curse of ravenous hunger#there was a time when the serphant talked to its people and told them the tales of their creator#and the people had to consistantly find ways to feed them so hey wouldnt eat any more of its own flesh#or worse. the living beings on its land#eventually the people put the serphant in a state of static/eternal sleep. like a coma. this was following its own request#it ordered them to find a cure to the curse of ravenous hunger. then they will awaken and they will purify the land of said curse#the people are massive haters of the voracity for putting their dear serphant through such a curse#and they became obsessed with not just finding the cure but also defying the path of voracity itself#so yeah thats her home#I LOVW HWR SM BUT IM NERVOUS ABT TALKING ABT HER
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i think the decision of who gets to medically transition probably should not be given to people who find trans bodies inherently disgusting and undesirable, personally
#crazy idea i know#suddenly remnered that fuckhead psychologist i went to for hrt approval#and one of the many many stupid ignorant and wildly presumptuous things he said to me#he was warning me of the ooo so scary effects of hrt (which last time i checked is not the expertise of a psychologist but ok)#and i was like yeah im well aware but also if it really does cause unmanageae health issues somehow#i can just stop. takimg the hrt#and he launched into a whole soiel about how that will leave me a half transitioned freak who is neither true man nor woman#seemingly the idea that i might actually prefer some effects of hrt over none and not find that fate worse than eternal full force dysphoria#having not even for a second occured to him#anyway the entire report i got back was so full of horseshit made up on the spot and so poorly communicated to me i nearly [redacted] myself#lolllll#luckily my mistrust paid off as i had a backup appointment still scheduled#its not paranoia if its right! wahoo!#and surprise surprise literally none of the super scary life ruining dangers that guy was going on ablut happened#not even a little bit#whst a crock of shit. i want that man to be held responsible for how totally dogshit he handled my case#but he never will be#i just gotta live with how this rando nearly indirectly killed me for the rest of my life#while he doesnt have to ever think of me again and if he does he'd probably think he handled it so well#having a lovely time with my brain today
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