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optimistic-autistic · 11 months ago
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some days i'm fine but then i remember that orpheus did not keep a single one of his promises during the whole show. a liar and a player too huh
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margomadisons · 4 months ago
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uh oh just made the very big mistake of thinking about rook/emmrich while listening to "all I've ever known" from the hadestown london album
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asavt · 1 year ago
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Into the confessionary a little spider walked
Mind not quite there
Quite lost
Memories scrambled around, confused
Pain flaring up, things that shouldn't have been said out
Siblings falling apart
Guilt over forgotten acts
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dxxtruction · 8 months ago
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Louis' "You're boring!" Could mean so many things, but I think what's most apparent about that line is that Armand takes no initiative just for himself. He's not really anybody, because he never goes out and finds himself or gets attached to anyone but Louis. Without Louis as his guide he's literally just sitting on a couch picking lint! That's the thing.
He orbits constantly around what would make Louis happy, and never really fully going what would make me happy? Ultimately that drive to please Louis is what drives him to torturing Daniel, not so much that he'd care to just do it. Ultimately, not giving proper care to Louis is just a way to make sure Louis knows he has to orbit around him as well, with shoving Lestat onto him just that other nail on the coffin. So, even if he fails to figure out how to make Louis happy with him, he still knows what Armand is good for, and better than.
That dependency is what drives Armand's abuse. It really just comes down to that. Armand doesn't even realize how suffocated he is by his own dependency. This is just how life is to him. (It shouldn't be lost either that dependency is a theme considering this episode also deals with addiction).
Daniel's fascinating because he's just so driven to be somebody. He's largely independent, he seeks things because he wants them. It's his drug to poke and prod at all the things that he shouldn't. Daniel's exciting because he lets Louis in to something different, lets him in to all this potential in another person that he can also do the same with for himself. It's a real connection. A two way street. It's easy to tell how Armand can be smothering then because he's never introducing him to anything really new, and most the ways both of them connect are all painful and traumatic. It's never just fun because there's always that layer of that pain. Fun died with Claudia.
50 years on they've gotten to a lot better place, both of them, but it's still that same shit. No seriously, "How is this any different from last time, Louis?"
Well... Because Armand's going to be, at the very least, making one [1] decision only for himself - and that's to hold power over Daniel's life. Fucking sick foreshadowing.
They aren't driving each other to the brink anymore but "The vampire is bored" STILL. Maybe it's even worse, despite being in better places, because Louis' sort of just been defeated by it. (I mean, can he even really leave this either?). He's accepting the dependancy cause he kind of has to. He'd literally ended up letting all the enjoyment be up where he can't reach [The book shelves]. Armand so desperately wants Louis happiness but what really ends up happening is that Louis ends up having to give Armand all his own. He's got no one or anything else to get it from. But like an iPad and an over the top eating ritual. Two extremes of what's just more lint picking.
This whole relationship is one I find just tragic inside and out. You have to just pity it, really. There's ways in which you can find yourself feeling bad for both of them. But you can only really be mad at Armand for any of it. Armand, who isn't even 'free' in any sense, having so little concept of his own independence, but is at the same time so controlling over other's. It's a tragic cycle. It's an infuriating one.
Louis at least has the mind to know when enough is enough. If just needing that extra push to get there. Armand's too scared of it being over to even try.
#iwtv#iwtv character analysis#interview with the vampire#louis de pointe du lac#armand#loumand#amc iwtv#iwtv s2#iwtv season 2#don't be afraid just start the tape#Gotta feel bad for Louis for winding up falling in love again with someone ruled so much by their own undealt with shit#making him once again the victim of abuse for it#But at least I guess Lestat values his independence? And Louis to an extent.#Theres a lot less co-dependancy going on between them but it's still like ... there#I'm so serious tho when I say I really want IWTV to go in the direction of 'vampires all dealing with their shit and breaking generational#cycles of abuse' because THATS so IT too me. That's the juice tbh.#because a thing with immortality is that you can't partition away from dealing with shit through knowing you or someone is going to die#You have to confront it you're forced to or else its just FOREVER literally going to be there#Louis (or really Claudia) being the first to really confront that (chef kiss)#which is an interesting thing to depict because technically we all carry the burden of eternity w/in us. Our impact on the world lasts and#what violence we allow in the world without fighting or working against it will never change either.#We have to confront the truth and find reconciliation with all of it or it is just without end there is no bottom to it#theres a lot of discussion on it but I think Louis considers himself a survivor. He's lived to this point and will keep living.#He probably cares too much about the why he ends up a victim (the undealt with shit he can't blame them for) to admit otherwise that he is#Too an extent too he cares and loves the people he's been with to really view it that way. But also this survivor perspective is very#'immortality' accepting. Naming a victim sort of is like naming a kind of death that can't go on from there.#Might make these tags into their own post at some point
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sworn-in-blood · 21 days ago
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@constellationcursed to MATÍAS ALLEN .
i get to say goodbye.
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Everything that could possibly have gone wrong went wrong.
Matías had rushed to her side the second he could — infected and injured, Cass was on a ticking timer , and the rest of them didn't have time to waste either.
Still, he propped her up a little, her head in the crook of his elbow as she lay gently in his arms. He would stay here as long as he could, get her some help, they'd make it out and they had to. His gun was scattered across the floor, he didn't care to pick it up — if Cass was to die here, he'd remain until he was torn away from her himself.
"No. We're getting out of here. You and me ."
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There's a small smile , an intake of breath . Rebecca had to be on her way soon — his hand stroked through her hair in a gesture he hoped would help. There was no goodbyes here , he couldn't just accept that and condemn her to fall . Matías had to remain optimistic, he couldn't allow that tear to fall — it wasn't over yet. There had to be a way to help her.
"Just . . just keep talking to me , yeah? Becca's . . she's on her way with something that'll help ."
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swordheld · 2 years ago
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how do you think in poems? i really enjoy the tags under your posts i've always wanted to write down my own thoughts that way bc in my head they feel so thorough and magical but whenever i put it in words i feel it just gets so much flatter and i no longer see a point and give up
oh oh oh, but lovely, can't you see that you've already started? it's a perspective that you hone, over time, something that is specific to you and you alone – that's the piece of it that makes it so special! you've already begun, and it only goes forward, up, sideways from here, wherever you wish to go!
think of it like a skill, for a moment, or a kind of muscle, if you'd prefer. you have to work at it, with it, over time and differing experiences, in order to progress.
(a quick important note: not progression as in the kind of quality-check of a grading scale, but progression as in evolution. shifting change. think of the leaves and their colors across the months of autumn, or temperatures rising with the sun and cooling with the evening dark. change isn't intrinsically a qualifying thing, it can just be, sometimes. this is difficult to remember, especially in the midst of frustration, but it is worth it. you are always doing better than you think you are – harshest critic, and all that.)
which is not to say that it's a simple thing to do! compare this to the vibe of me picking up crochet recently, with my shaking hands and too-quickly dwindling adhd focus – my first attempts at making a lil headphone sprout have not been going as well as i once hoped. my stitches are either too big and sloppy bc i'm not holding the yarn tightly enough to get clean ones, or i feel frustrated due to it not looking like how i'd like it to look in my mind when i started it, or even as i begin my umpteenth attempt.
but!! i know that it won't ever look the way i want it do if i set it down and never keep trying. it'll take awhile, like everything does, even the seasons take their time, the moon and its phases; but what i do know, is that, eventually, it'll resemble something i want it to. vaguely, maybe, but it is something. it doesn't have to look exactly like the guide i'm following, or the examples i'm inspired by, because it's mine – something made by my own hands, my own time and experience with every mistake and thrilling joy along the way to learn by.
take it from me: i want to be good at things i want to be good at so badly. and that excitement makes me want to be at the skill level i need to be at in order to do so right then and there, no learning curves or building blocks allowed. which is never how it happens, unfortunately, but –
i think, gently, that we tend to overlook what a pleasure it is to learn. to see the slow progression of things, to begin and change and continue and get better. and even if it's different as we go along, in a way it's our own little kind of magic, maybe, to create and never be done if we don't want to be.
which is all to say: it's already yours. why does it have to be anything else, anything more? why can't it just be good as it is now, where it might never be again? what is there to lose by enjoying the moment of where you are?
like everything, it will grow and shift and evolve with time, maybe into something you'd hoped for, or maybe into something you don't even have the words to describe right now at all. but that's the fun of it: how even now, even then, there, across time and distance and skill, there is a common thread of things; it will always come from your heart, your experience, where you are right then and there and now.
and if you think of that like magic, well, it becomes a little like magic, doesn't it?
also, something to consider: sometimes things you feel or think can't be put into words at that moment, or even at all! something else you could try (that i certainly do) is making something else with whatever it makes you feel - whether that's another form of art, or any other kind of media. if it makes you want to go outside and take a walk or get cozy and read or play a video game? that counts too! that's still an experience, you're still feeling.
i think that counts a little more than anything else, you know?
and as a little ending fun side-note, can i share something cool? i've never thought of it that way before, as thinking in poems. in my mind it's always been a kind of perspective of personal wonder, but you're right – it's poetry, in it's own way. you gave me that – so thank you, from the heart of me. i hope your journey finds you with every bright joy.
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sometimes I forget i just have a random ass picture of s.ugiura on my bedroom wall LMAAAOO I saw it in the dim lighting of my nightlight and got a little startled ajdbajsb
#i was having a whole ass concert in my room. as one does at midnight when they blast good music.#and then i saw him out of the corner of my eye and went “oh hi dude”#s.ugiura i apologize for how much ash singing you've witnessed ajdhsjdhs#i have posters of some idols up but I'm used to those watching me. a random picture of my boyfriend though? not so used to that-#it's pretty funny though akdjajs#ash rambles 💚#mask off 🎭#maybe one day I'll put up my d.ay6 stand.. I'll just rip the j.ae one off /hj#ive had it for years and theyve been my favorite group for like 8 years and yet i just have b.angtan posters from like 2017 up since i never#had the heart to take them down..#i did get a y.akuza poster though! that sits next to some prints i have ajdhajs sometimes i like to say good morning to i.chiban and k.iryu#but ahem enough rambling especially about idols#you wanna hear me talk about my favorite kpop group? thats what my main is for- i love d.ay6 but i keep that away my selfshipping#but ahem ahem. s.ugiura am i right? he's not really the clingiest sleeper but he likes it whenever ash snuggles him#he also whines if she moves too much but you didnt hear that from me#man it's pretty late.. I'll go to bed soon! a little too tired to y.akuza. oh but as an update! I'm on the finale of 8!#just scaling the final tower rn. i beat the hawaii section this morning. ALSO THE SCENE WHERE J.OONGI GOT BLOWN UP??? I WAS FREAKINF OUT#and he was all “oh dont panic I'm fine” I WAS PANICKING. YOU ARE MY BF. YOU TOOK SHRAPNEL TO THE SHOULDER. I'M PANICKING.#he's fine though <3 i imagine he's been through worse considering his uh...occupation. but still! you cant blame a girl for worrying!#we'll hopefully finish the game tomorrow after class <3 then I'll be all done with every y.akuza!#minus pirates because lol I'm not paying full price for that shit! I'm cutsceneing that!#shit I've also gotta finish k.aito files... and i think 8 has that dlc too yeah? I'll play that dw. But after y.akuza...#i was thinking my next game would be S.oul H.ackers 2? idk much abt it but i have it and it looks cool.#feel free to add any thoughts if anyone here is familiar with it! i dont think I'll get an f/o but hey whatever happens happens.#and yeah#thats the ash plan for the next few weeks! ... liable to change ofc considering my indecisive ass-#like a flowing wind 🔳
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candycryptids · 2 years ago
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The extraordinary talent to fall asleep while your love reads to you and have such strong priorities you don’t drop the book
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fuzzyunicorn · 22 days ago
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Me as fuckin’ (burnin’) Hell when I get my summons 2 b Visenya Targaryen 
#I will play her as all ages w the magick of prosthetics 😎 (I will not b sharing this role under any circumstance)#I will not be kissing my brother unless u obviously let it b my dearly beloved husband🖤 (pls put a scene where im abt 2 kiss my blonde#brother (🤮🤢 @ incest) & let him🖤 run in the frame real all quickie poo like n I kiss his🖤 gorgeous lips n every1 c’s it’s not the same#actor & he🖤 has beautiful dark hair 😍😍😍 hehe would b so funny but anyway I pledge 2 make Game Of Thrones (HOtD) violent again#ungodly violent specifically (don’t cry abt it REJOICE!) and I’m definitely taking Dark Sister EVERYWHERE w me & it won’t b a prop sword. &#it’s coming home w me each night (don’t fight me on this mortals on set) & Game of Thrones will b violent again :)#my magick scenes will b v real except special effects will have 2 be added bc when I do magick I look like I’m doing nothin’ (that was when#the formally but not-now-anymore Satanic US military lookin’ @ me thru my TV screens watching me genocide aliens & blow up their home#planets had them 👁️👄👁️ bc that’s when the aliens watching the shit go down told them yeah this is when u know u r fuckin’ w something#immeasurably powerful (they’ve never been able 2 gage the full extent of my power as their scale isn’t big enough to factor me in & i’ll#give u all a hint to how bad ur scales can’t gage me: my IQ on ur testing shows up as 410.16 when it’s actually 4 my current vessel 818.18#let’s not bother hiring samurai’s 2 fight me in fight scenes we’re just gonna have 2 straight up summon Angels and Gods for my fight scenes#I already detected w my spidey senses I will delay filming due 2 every1 having to re-sword train so there’s my solution#also every1 learn proper sword etiquette bc if i see one mf put their sword point in the ground to rest on it IM FREAKING TF OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!#RESPECT UR SWORD IN MY PRESENSE BY GOSH GOLLY UR SWORD IS UR WIFE N UR WIFE IS UR LIFE SO LOVE HER RESPECT HER HONOR HER !#a new form of method acting will be unlocked after I’m done here#George I cannot wait 2 break bread w u n bully HBO 4 u I have been waiting 2 bully them silly sense s5e1 I am meant 2 bully 4 change#& I will supply knowledge of dragon fights (I’ll give details on wat happened 2 T. Swift since every1 is curious and is strangely relevant:#I got wind of her dumbass claiming she’s a mighty Satanic dragon so me n my Tulpas gave her a lil visit & I kept asking her if she really#thinks of herself as a dragon and since yes then prove it 2 me. now. (she couldn’t) so I showed her what I in my dragon form do 2 other#dragons which I’ve been known to pin down strong ones n open their jaw so I may breathe my torrent of 🔥 down in their maw killing them & as#they die as a final fuck u I rip off their lower jaw. I have done this 2 dragons so large they could stack multiple Jupiter planets on 1#talon 2 wear as a stacked ring set. & I showed t swift is she was an actual dragon like she claimed how very small she’d clock in (the size#of a dust particle and that still doesn’t make her safe from me breathing down her tinny innsey sized maw. so fuck around & find out if u#do so wish 4 I will handle u ;) just like how I’m gonna manhandle the fuck out of HOtD n make it where it’s something BOOK ACCURATE AND#GRRM CAN BE PROUD OF. ur all gonna stop hijacking his shit or u’ll find urself held at sword point BY ME#I love u George & I will bully HBO 4 u (everyday I’ll b checking the script 2 make sure it actually happened in the book(s))#I’m going 4 a more book accurate approach ;) (y aren’t u doing that in the FIRST PLACE?)#if it is book accurate Godzilla (me) will calm down#Real Ye: would u b interested in doing a book series accurate anime of Akira? obvi violence is not a problamo w me :)
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wifeiy · 2 months ago
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all ive ever known is how to hold my own but now i wanna hold you too
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imflyingfish · 1 year ago
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#i have no idea how to respond to the whole qsmp situation right now#i mean. i dont watch it or interact with qsmp ITSELF#only the fans around it#I have made fanart for it but not really because i have any particular attachment to specific characters but just because#its a very good springboard for character design and inspiration#Im very involved with the fanbase though as the QSMPnews discord is one of my main discords#and I mainly use the fandom space as a way of practicing/getting into foreign languages#although i dont watch qsmp it still has impacted my life massively in the last year#this clusterfuck of project management is difficult to unravel and know what to do with#and its difficult to know exactly where to turn your attention#or who to blame#since theres so many levels of miscommunication that hasnt been helped by the sharing of it online#i think. even if QSMP doesn't survive#it would be ludicrous to state it as an inherently harmful server#since there has been an evident change in the minecraft gaming space because of it in multiculturalism.#heck IM direct proof of that as someone who does not reguarly engage with the server itself via streams#the fact that as a result of a 21 year old kid deciding to start a sever I can end up with a group of spanish speakers trying to explain#various concepts to me in my language while i respond in theirs is. insane#so do i think that the qsmp will survive?#um. look i dont see how it can.#I've never thought that it could#but i dont think that im going to demonise fans or avoid content relating to it#considering how integral the fanspaces around it are to me and my personal quest for language proficiency#however I will attempt to keep qsmp posts on my french/spanish blogs#well that was. long-winded#idk this is a very self-centred look into the qsmp and this whole situation#obviously I hope that the staff get paid but. I really have no idea where Quackity Studios might get that money from or how the#server should either end or continue
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is-this-tf · 1 year ago
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so out of curiosity. what ISNT tf
Unserious answer: Cisformation
Serious answer: Actually cisformation is kind of correct- the changing or rearranging of things or components of something or someone while the central core and identity of what it is or what it's for stays the same, is by definition not TF, or transformation.
Autistic answer: I've honestly been internally rationalizing so many little things as being TF in my everyday life that it took me a while to think of an answer for this question. I try to keep the more Out There rationalizations regarding this outside the blog when making judgments over what's TF, and keeping to things that can be more easily understood without reaching, but it's also just Fun for me to play with these ideas on my own time. Someone posting a weight loss or gain journey on instagram is TF, baking a cake from scratch is TF, even changing clothes being TF- there's arguments to be made and all, especially when factoring the psychological or emotional dimension to them, but thinking outside of that for a moment....
What really defines TF is the Change that occurs to someone or something, so even when accounting for the potential broader definitions regarding what kinds of change is or isn't TF, something that has no change to it in the First place would not be TF. So, static characters who stay the same and don't really change over the course of a given period of time, or tools that have a set function and are generally left alone until the next time they're used, and the like, are not TF.
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sworn-in-blood · 28 days ago
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@constellationcursed from here
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Matías had been concerned for Cass ever since she supposedly returned to life. Relieved was a very good word to describe it too, and she had clearly been exhausted for the better part of the last couple of days — he wished he could do something to help. Hurt had been felt when she came back all of a sudden, after all, she had told him nothing , but that had rapidly been overshadowed by relief instead .
"And now you're doing something else ."
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It was said with a small smile on his expression, holding her in his arms , carefully and not even daring to entertain the thought of letting her fall. He loved her , he really did , but she needed rest and not to stress herself about minute details until it caught up to them .
"Okay . Then we go stargazing ."
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empathbled · 2 years ago
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tag drop.
↳ ooc ⸻ ❛ i can make myself look٬ but the thinking is shutting down. ❜ ↳ promo ⸻ ❛ everyone has thought about killing someone٬ one way or another. ❜ ↳ memes ⸻ ❛ you won't like me when i'm psychoanalyzed. ❜ ↳ starter call ⸻ ❛ wind him up and watch him go. ❜ ↳ crack ⸻ ❛ i feel crazy. ❜ ↳ queue ⸻ ❛ do you feel alive? ❜
↳ about ⸻ ❛ i felt terrified٬ and then i felt powerful. ❜ ↳ meta ⸻ ❛ i feel like i am spilling. ❜
↳ images ⸻ ❛ i'm not even sure if i'm awake now. ❜ ↳ music ⸻ ❛ i could use a good scream٬ i can feel one perched under my chin. ❜ ↳ desires ⸻ ❛ but it wasn't real٬ it wasn't real. ❜
↳ answers ⸻ ❛ it's not any easier. shake it off٬ keep on looking. ❜ ↳ speech ⸻ ❛ i know what kind of crazy i am٬ but this isn't that kind of crazy. ❜
↳ hannibal ⸻ ❛ do you believe you could change me the way i've changed you? ٬ i already did. ❜ ↳ abigail ⸻ ❛ never again. only in my memories sleepless in the dark shall i still tread the old paths. ❜
↳ verse ⸻ ❛ special agent٬ this is my design. ❜ ↳ verse ⸻ ❛ after the fall٬ this is my legacy. ❜
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iniziare · 1 month ago
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This feels so good to do. Tag drop: Ezio Auditore. Verses for GI/HSR/DA are a WIP.
#[ ezio auditore. ] do not seek retribution or revenge in my memory. but fight to continue the search for truth. so that all may benefit.#[ ezio auditore: ic. ] my story is one of many thousands. and the world would not suffer if it ends too soon.#[ ezio auditore: inquiries. ] clarity is why i have come so far. so i may better understand the purpose of our fight and my place in it.#[ ezio auditore: countenance. ] here i discover a strange truth. that i am only a conduit for a message that eludes my understanding.#[ ezio auditore: introspection. ] it is our ability to choose whatever you think is true that makes us human.#[ ezio auditore: meta. ] the moral of any story matches the temper of the man telling it.#[ ezio auditore: etc. ] we are the architects of our actions and we must live with their consequences. whether glorious or tragic.#[ ezio auditore: brotherhood. ] love of people. of cultures. of the world binds our order together. fight to preserve what inspires hope.#[ ezio auditore: templars. ] they recognize there is no such thing as absolute truth. or if there is. we are hopelessly underequipped to se#[ ezio auditore: minerva. ] all of her kind died many years ago. i wish I could show you the magic she performed.#[ ezio auditore: of eden. ] better in the hands of the earth than in the hands of man.#[ ezio auditore: giovanni auditore. ] family. justice. honor. these are my values now father. as they were once yours.#[ ezio auditore: maria auditore. ] go my son. destroy them. but remember for whom we assassins fight.#[ ezio auditore: federico auditore. ] it is a good life we lead brother. may it never change. and may it never change us.#[ ezio auditore: claudia auditore. ] she bears the bravery of a true auditore.#[ ezio auditore: petruccio auditore. ] she will remember you as i will. fratellino.#[ ezio auditore: mario auditore. ] i prefer to fight like a man to filling out balance sheets.#[ ezio auditore: cristina vespucci. ] i wasn't ready! i was planning on being really charming and funny. can i just have a second chance?#[ ezio auditore: caterina sforza. ] that woman is as powerful and dangerous as she is young and beautiful.#[ ezio auditore: sofia sartor. ] forgive me. it is a joy to see someone with a passion so personal and noble. it is inspiring.#[ ezio auditore: cullen. ] gloat all you like. i have this one. / are you sassing me commander? i didn't know you had it in you.#[ ezio auditore: altair. ] the assassins were his life. from beginning to end. he had no other.#[ ezio auditore: desmond. ] your name lingers in my mind. like an image from an old dream.#[ ezio auditore: leonardo da vinci. ] i am a man of peace. yes. but ideas take precedence.#[ ezio auditore: yusuf tazim. ] who is there mentor here ezio? i'm beginning to wonder.#[ ezio auditore: suleiman. ] the world is a tapestry of colours and patterns. a just leader would celebrate this. not seek to unravel it.#[ ezio auditore: v. main. ] auditore. remember that you are not a nobleman. you are not one of the deceivers. you are one of the people.#[ ezio auditore: v. acii. ] i do not know who started this conspiracy. but i know who will end it.#[ ezio auditore: v. acb. ] the greed a the corruption will burn to the ground. and from the ashes of vengeance. a new rome will rise.#[ ezio auditore: v. acr. ] who will greet me: a host of templars as i fear most strongly? or nothing but the whistling of a lonely wind?
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sasquach-scratches · 1 month ago
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Anyways always glad to see that I'm not the only one burnt out on trying to work my characters into ESO's stories because they really want to stick to the whole "it's always 2e 582 do it in any order" thing and are allergic to changing the status quo
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