#the way i still haven't recovered

[beedeux]

8 years of longing.... it was ME. I was the one longing for this for 8 years!!!!!

[charbroiledchicken]

what was more culturally significant - the renaissance or 'he never did fall in love again."

[lynzishell]

The Present 🧡 Chestnut Ridge

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Danny: Papa? Joseph: Hm? Danny: Do I have a grandma or grandpa?

Joseph: Uh, well, you do, that would be my parents, but they died before you were born. Danny: Oh. What were their names? Joseph: My dad was Luis, and my mom was Adriana. Danny: Did my mom have parents? Joseph: Of course. Unfortunately, I never met ‘em, so I don’t know anything about ‘em.

Joseph: What’s with all the questions today, anyway? Danny: We were supposed to do a family tree in class, but I couldn’t finish mine. Joseph: Your teacher won’t give you a low score for it, will she? Danny: No, she said it was okay, but that I should ask you.

Danny: So, is anyone in our family alive? Joseph: I have a brother, so he would be your uncle. He’s alive, he just lives far away. Danny: What’s his name? Joseph: Julian.

Danny: Does Julian have any kids? Joseph: No, no kids. Danny: Hm. I wish I had a brother. Joseph: …

Danny: Then I’d have someone to play with and we could— Joseph: Hey, Danny, how ‘bout you go feed Daisy and get washed up for supper while I finish up out here, okay? Danny: Okay.

[lucalicatteart]

A new sculpture! Finally... I feel like I never sculpt anymore since I'm always sick or have some 500 other things going on or projects to finish, but I'm trying to schedule time to do it more often this year hopefully..! Just a generic fantasy creature as usual, but did try making the eyes a little more sparkly this time.. hrmm..

[dorianbrightmusic]

Having depression is inherently depressing.

That is – when every tiny task is utterly exhausting, it's pretty frustrating. When you once weren't exhausted by these tasks – when you know you used to be someone else – that's downright devastating. When you're wondering whether you're going to get that energy back and not knowing, that's also exhausting.

When you are feeling inherently more stupid because depression has cognitively ruined you, that's embarrassing and confusing and so upsetting. When you are unsure whether you will ever get your old cognition back, that's terrifying. When you do not, in fact, ever return to pre-depression baseline, that's just exhausting.

When you are numb, trying to go through the motions of happiness; sadness; fear; frustration; and phatic interest is so, so tiring. When you cannot effectively perform these emotion states, it is embarrassing and isolating.

When you are too tired and too numb to be social, you are alone.

'What do you have to be depressed about?' Well, this disease is inherently giving me something to be depressed about. And it's very easy to want to cling to that, because at least it's an answer.

And frankly, I think folks who haven't gone through depression may not understand that oftentimes, recovery from a bad episode is kinda piecemeal. My cognition, my disposition, and my capacity for optimism are all substantially altered from where they were pre–depression. I cannot take the person I used to be for granted, and I cannot take the beliefs I used to hold as gospel. Even when I'm not depressed, depression has altered most parts of my life and thoroughly warped my sense of self. I cannot safely believe in baseline happiness at this point.

I'm not saying this to complain, but to make a point. Depression alters your life in ways that, even outside of a depressive episode, give you things to be depressed about. It can completely ruin your sense of who you are, what your world is, and what your future holds. It makes it that much more tempting to believe in the depression narrative of loneliness and helplessness, and it makes those narratives subjectively very real. All of this makes the depression (should it return) and its consequences (however monumentally they've carved into your life) so much harder to deal with.

[shannonsketches]

lays on the floor do you guys ever think about how in ResF Bulma falls for Vegeta's fake-out with Freeza and both she and Yamcha are worried about Vegeta's villain fake-out strategy in Champa and Beerus' mini tournament and how it's only been a couple of years since the Buu saga and how Vegeta straight up stopped using that strategy after that tournament

[magentagalaxies]

always found this little parallel between how scott speaks about buddy cole vs danny husk fascinating:

(top quote is from this 2017 vulture interview, bottom quote is from paul myers' 2018 book "one dumb guy")

'he's smarter than me. braver than me. he's better than me'' vs ''danny may not be the smartest or the bravest but he's a very decent man''

[multifandotakugirl]

Fall of The House of Usher

Yellowjackets

House of the Dragon

The top 3 shows my Tumblr TL has prompted me to watch and break my heart over

and now a third show i've never seen before just appeared on my TL.

Stop.

Please go away.

Please!!!

My heart can't take another.

[clarissaweasley-10]

As much as l love Sophie a part of my heart will never forgive her for being so annoyingly oblivious and deprive us poor sokeefers from "actual"sokeefe fluff right from the start

[wowbright]

Ugh why lately do I keep remembering traumatic events from my childhood that explain so much?

[taffingspy]

he's a healer...........................

[the-crow-binary]

Hi! In scenarios where Dracula gets together with Isaac and/or Hector, what would Death's reaction be? This is just my Deathula self wanting to see that (つω⊂* )

Oh Death <3 Dracula's first, eternal simp <3 His forever husband <3 I bet seeing him get with Lisa was already hard enough, but then with his general(s)?? When he's right here?? :< Rude. :< It's not Hector nor Isaac who betrayed their old Lord to give him his soul :< It's not them who've been by his side for 400 years and protected him and nourrished him and guided him and helped him become who he is today :< What the hell? :<

He wouldn't say anything, of course, but Dracula starts to know him after living together for 400 years. It's obvious he is unhappy, even though all he wants is his master's satisfaction and happiness... and mouth and body and soul and love and

But even though, and he's the first surprised by that, he'd be a bit jealous... he also knows that Isaac and Hector are humans, and so, momentary :) They'll never develop the bond he already shares with Dracula, one that only immortal beings can understand. Dracula can have all the affairs he wants with mortal people, in the end, it doesn't matter, because he's always going to be The One. His only companion in eternity. Dracula always comes back to him no matter what, and Death is patient... a few decades are nothing in the face of eternity. <3

[yuzokasu]

can i gush over the new 1st gen cards for a second. spoilers for the backstages under cut

when i tell you they know what the fans want THEY KNOW WHAT THE FANS WANT. they know the kind of people 1st gen fans are and it scares me cause why'd we get reni ponytail fanservice. do it more

like hell yeah give me more slice of life moments like that!!! and the fact that the godza kids complimented reni on his hairstyle??? shift calling him cute and reni being confused like cmon aegyo for us reni dont be shy

and listen i've been DYINGGG for crumbs of syu and tsumugi's dynamic because compared to the other three leader duos we don't have a good idea of what they are??? they hardly have as much interactions together is what i mean!!! they seem to be in this safe distance which is fine but yknow i hoped we could see them interact more. and then syu's ssr drops and his backstage throws syu and tsumugi straight onto stage together in ONNAGATA ROLES my jaw dropped when i saw the sprites it was legit a motherquake. currently praying for my fuyu leader mutuals rn

and don't get me started on hiro's backstage oh my god. firstly hiro's son TAKUMA HYUGA!!!! he's such a baby he's so cute he loves tenma so much!!! he's so lucky to have an entire group of big brothers one of which is The Sumeragi Tenma he's been a fan of for so long!!! him asking for a tenma standee in front of hiro was funny as hell too KSHJFKSFGSDKFG and hiro's so cute his disguise is the exact same as tenma with those glasses the writing team really loves to add parallels each chance they get??? keep it coming though. also did you know hiro got good at crane games just so he can get stuff for his son he fathered so hard.

and the way when hiro was telling the other 1st gen that he understands why takuma loves tenma so much and once again starts spilling compliments about tenma and kasumi was like Lol you stan him and hiro's like SHHH I DO NOT!!! KJHGKSJFDGSFDG i'm sorry i love them so much i love how 1st gen interacts with newborn mankai it's so feel good. i waited so long for more content of them and the fact that it's here and there's more coming makes me so happy. please read the backstages they're just so sweet

[sakurarisen]

As tired of being on semi-hiatus as I am, I need to reinforce it again a little harder, at least for a few more days. TW: Pet loss under cut.

Two and a half months ago, I had to say goodbye to my dog. Shortly after that, i got sick for over a month with a head virus that hit me exceptionally hard, had horrible net issues... And now today, we've had to say goodbye to our other dog, whose health dropped hard since losing Gus - She was the hardest hit of all of us and ultimately, her health tanked into issues we genuinely had no idea she had until her broken heart just... Amplified them. Though she was my aunt's dog, she's been living with us since Nicky was around a year or two old, and for the most part, she's been my dog in everything but name for the last ten or so years.

This is the first time in my life I've been without a dog in the house, and it being so close to Gus's passing, this is hitting me severely hard, doubly so because due to my own health, I had to say goodbye the night before instead of being there when she left the house for the last time today. I'm not handling this super well at all, and while I wanted to take this semi-hiatus off and get back into the swing of things now that I'm feeling better, that's... Gonna have to wait, at minimum for a few more days.

If I get anything done, it's either gonna be background blogwork, or a small thread on @thundertide at best, and more than likely the former. I've been working to rehaul multiple of my blogs while sick and I just... I need tedious blogwork to keep me from breaking down right now.

I'm always lingering around even if I'm not posting anything if anyone needs me, and my queue is set to continue through this with a day's Sera post. I'm sorry for another extension of this, y'all - Hoping the universe stops kicking me soon, because this is way too much.

~Pom

[tea-earl-grey]

the boy and the heron is an incredibly good movie please go and see it especially if you're a fan of ghibli/miyazaki

my only complaint is that it's not out of theaters yet so i can't go back to dissect it because bruh i need to internalize that movie and study all the animation because JESUS CHRIST THAT WAS HAND DRAWN. i need to lay down.

[ineed-to-sleep]

hope your surgery went well!

It did, thanks!! The first couple of days were rough, I could barely open my eyes fjfkkfkckf but I'm fine now, vision is still a little bit blurry but I can look at my phone and read and everything!!