#the vibe is tense but also he's just like that. and she's just like that. slightly incompatible.
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âlove me back?â â five
pairing â mark lee x reader
word count â 49.5k words⌠sorryÂ
genre â angst, smut, fluff, strangers to lovers, forbidden love
synopsis â a late-night visit from mark exposes the cracks in your fragile relationship, pushing you further apart with every unspoken word and lingering wound. distance grows, heartbreak deepens, yet amidst the chaos, your bond becomes raw and consuming. but just as it feels like you might find each other again, one devastating misunderstanding threatens to destroy everything, leaving you questioning if love can survive when the world around you refuses to let it thrive.
chapter contents/warnings â college au, small town vibes, 2000s teen show vibes, this fic is heavily based on one tree, explicit language, explicit sexual content, explicit themes, really angsty chapter (get tissues), rough sex, manhandling, fucking against the lockers, degradation, dom (male) and sub (female), oral sex (male receiving), throat fucking, deep throating, hair pulling, choking, spanking, impact play, overstimulation, possessive behavior, degradation, praise mixed with humiliation, rough handling, marking/bruising, choking, spitting, tense conversations and confrontations, so many emotions, so much guilt, fear, and longing, overthinking and overanalyzing girlies unite, moments of rawness and vulnerability, lots of internal conflicts, mark gets heated this chapter, frustrated mark, he eats her up i fear, karina and y/n bestie moments, wholesome girl moments đŤś, jeno and reader bestie moments too, jeno is such a flirt lmao, oh also his dad is a little bitch but we know! boy toy auction (oth viewers youâre welcome!), beautiful gala scene, ending ⌠:((
authors note â this is not the final part! iâve added another chapter. this is the penultimate chapter.Â
[fic ml]
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Karinaâs voice cuts through the quiet, distant and curt. âItâs for you,â she says without sparing you a glance.Â
Your brows pull together as you glance at the clockâjust past midnight. Confusion lingers until you open the door, and the sight before you instantly shifts your mood. Mark stands there with a familiar, easy smile tugging at his lips, a warmth that never fails to pull you in. His backpack rests over one shoulder, a clear sign he plans to stay the night, and in his hand, heâs holding his guitar case, always an extension of him, always something that feels so uniquely his.
The apartment felt heavy with unspoken tension, the kind that lingered in the air and wrapped itself around every glance. Karina had barely said a word since letting Mark in, her movements sharp and deliberate as she shut the door behind him. She didnât look at you, didnât offer her usual teasing remarks or warm goodnights. Instead, her body language did all the talkingâthe stiff set of her shoulders, the tight grip on her phone, the way she turned away almost immediately after ushering him inside.
You tried not to notice, but it was impossible not to. The silence between you wasnât loud, but it was deafening. A growing chasm that neither of you had dared to bridge, and tonight was no exception. Karina muttered a curt, âItâs for you,â before retreating to her room without another glance. The faint sound of her door closing echoed down the hallway, leaving you and Mark standing in the dim light of the living room.
The second you see him standing there, your chest tightens with an anxiety youâve been carrying all week. Itâs not just the guilt from avoiding him or the exhaustion from endless deadlinesâitâs the weight of what you overheard. Markâs voice in your mind, the conversation with Jeno replaying like a broken record. Youâve tried to shake it, rationalize it, but the words cling to you, making your stomach twist. Now, standing in front of him, you feel it all at once: the unease curling in your stomach, the tension in your shoulders, the way your hands fidget almost unconsciously. Your breaths feel shallow, your heart racing like itâs trying to escape the uncertainty building inside you.
But then he looks at youâsoft and unassumingâand shoots you a boyish smile, the one you love so much, the one that never fails to undo you. Itâs a simple curve of his lips, but itâs everything. Itâs the smile that pulls you into him when youâre hesitant, that tells you youâre safe even when your thoughts are screaming otherwise. His teeth catch on his bottom lip briefly, a fleeting nervous habit youâve always found endearing, and the warmth in his eyes crinkles the corners just slightly. Itâs not a practised grinâitâs him, open and vulnerable in a way only he can be. And just like that, the tension in your chest loosens. It doesnât disappear entirely, but it dulls enough for you to step closer, to let him in.
Your eyes lingered on him, a mix of warmth and unease unfurling in your chest. It had been a long week, both of you buried under deadlines and responsibilities, and seeing him nowâat midnight, no lessâsent your heart into an uneven rhythm, caught between relief and guilt. âYouâre here,â you murmured, a small smile tugging at your lips as you took a step closer. âHi.â
Mark set his guitar down by the couch, his backpack sliding off his shoulder before his arms wrapped around you, pulling you into his chest. âHi, baby girl,â he murmured, his voice low and familiar as he pressed a kiss to your temple. âMissed you.â
You melted into him, your arms looping around his neck as his warmth seeped into you. For a moment, the world outside this embrace didnât existâthe deadlines, the doubts, the noise in your head. It was just Mark.
âI missed you too,â you whispered, burying your face in his hoodie. But even as the words left your lips, the shadows of last week crept back in, whispering doubts and questions you werenât ready to voice. His hand slid up to cradle the back of your head, grounding you in the present, and you sighed softly against him.
When he pulled back, his eyes met yours, warm and steady. âI know you love me, but why are you here at midnight?â you teased, tilting your head slightly.
He blinked at you, deadpan. âWe agreed to hang out, dummy. You really forgot?â
A guilty laugh bubbled out of you. âOh⌠I donât remember that.â You glanced down, feeling a pang of guilt as his words sank in.
âI told you on the phone earlier.â He leaned in, brushing his lips against yours in a soft, reassuring kiss. âItâs fine. Youâve been swamped. But Iâm here now.â
You nodded, your smile returning faintly. âLetâs go to my room,â you murmured, tugging gently at his hand.
As soon as the door closes behind you, the quiet intimacy of your room wraps around you both. The soft glow of your bedside lamp casts a warm, amber light over the space, and the faint scent of cinnamon lingers in the air from the candle you forgot to blow out earlier. It feels cozy, almost too intimate for the distance youâve been feeling lately, but Mark doesnât hesitate. He sets his backpack down by the desk and carefully leans his guitar against the wall before turning his attention back to you.
You sit on the edge of your bed, legs crossed, watching him with a mix of guilt and affection. He shrugs off his hoodie, revealing his bare torso beneath, the lean muscle and smooth skin catching the low light of the room. The way his chest rises and falls with each breath makes your stomach flip, the sight both comforting and electrifying. His hair is slightly messy, falling into his eyes as he looks at you with that same unreadable softness he always seems to carry.
You see how his mouth opens as if heâs about to say something, but then it closes just as quickly. He watches you closely, his gaze flickering over your face, your body language, your unusual silence. The weight of his attention is almost too much, his eyes catching every detail you wish you could hide. His hands tighten slightly at his sides, and you can see the gears turning in his head as he pieces together the things youâre too afraid to say. Heâs about to ask somethingâyou can feel itâbut you speak first, your voice soft and edged with distraction.
âTake this off too,â you whisper, your fingers ghosting over the waistband of his sweats, your attempt to shift the focus. The words are meant to sound teasing, playful, but thereâs a hollowness in your tone that even you can hear. You tug lightly at the fabric, your lips tilting into a faint, forced smile as you look up at him. He hesitates, his brows furrowing just slightly before he lets out a quiet sigh, his hands reaching down to brush yours away gently.
âY/NâŚâ His voice trails off, unsure, the usual warmth in it replaced by something heavierâconcern, confusion. His fingers linger over yours, trying to read you without pushing too hard. But when you donât meet his eyes, when your hand slips away from him too quickly, he knows somethingâs wrong. He kneels slightly, coming to your eye level, his voice low and soft. âBaby, talk to me. Whatâs going on?â
âCome here,â you murmur, extending a hand toward him, trying to redirect the moment, to distract him. But even as he steps closer, even as he leans into your touch, his focus doesnât waver. He notices how you avoid his gaze, how the softness heâs used to isnât there.
He steps closer, letting you pull him to stand between your knees. His hands instinctively settle on your waist, his thumbs brushing against the soft fabric of your shorts. You look up at him, your fingers slipping under his shirt to rest against the warm, firm skin of his stomach. Itâs such a simple touch, yet it feels grounding, as if youâre trying to tether yourself to him. But your mind drifts, clouded by the remnants of overheard words and the storm of doubts you havenât been able to shake all week.
âYou okay?â he asks softly, his voice low and careful, the tenderness in it making your chest ache. You donât register it at first, your thoughts wandering to the weight of everything unsaid between you. He gives your waist a small squeeze, his thumbs pausing their soothing movements. âBaby,â he tries again, leaning down slightly to catch your gaze. âAre you okay?â
You blink, his words finally piercing through your haze. âHmm?â you mumble, your voice distant, the weak âyesâ that follows sounding unconvincing even to your own ears.
Mark tilts his head, his brows knitting together as he studies you, his hands still steady on your waist. âYou sure?â he presses gently, the warmth in his tone steady, but his eyes flicker with concern. You donât meet his gaze fully, your fingers idly brushing against his skin, your body present but your mind far away.
His silence stretches as he watches you, trying to piece together the shift in your demeanor. âWhatâs going on?â he finally asks, his voice softer now, but laced with worry. The question lingers, the weight of it pressing against the air between you, and you feel his unwavering gaze as he waits for an answer.
You shake your head to assure him itâs nothing, wanting to lie and tell him everythingâs okay, but the words catch in your throat, heavy and unconvincing. Instead of speaking, you tug him closer, your lips finding his in a kiss thatâs slow and tentative at first. He responds immediately, his grip on your waist tightening as he leans into you. The kiss deepens, his tongue brushing against yours in a way that leaves you breathless. You can feel the tension in his body, the restraint as he tries to let you set the pace.
You pull back just enough to catch your breath, your hands trailing up his chest and over his shoulders. âIâm sorry Iâve been⌠distant,â you say quietly, your voice barely above a whisper. âIâve just been swamped with assignments, andââ
âBaby, itâs okay,â he cuts you off gently, his fingers brushing a strand of hair behind your ear. âI get it. Weâve both been busy.â His lips curl into a small smile, but thereâs a flicker of something else in his eyesâconcern, maybe even doubt.
He knows itâs not just that. Thereâs something else lingering, something youâre not saying, but he doesnât want to push youânot yet. He hopes youâll tell him when youâre ready, that youâll let him in on whateverâs weighing so heavily on your mind. Still, the way your eyes flicker away from his, the faint tension in your shoulders, doesnât go unnoticed.
âBut itâs not just that,â you admit, your hands gripping his shoulders a little tighter. âIâve been in my head a lot. I didnât mean to shut you out.â Your voice wavers, but you force yourself to keep going, the weight of the week catching up to you. âI missed you, Mark. I really missed you.â
His expression softens instantly, and he cups your face with both hands, his thumbs stroking your cheeks. âI missed you too,â he murmurs, leaning down to press a kiss to your forehead. âYou donât have to explain everything right now, okay? Just let me be here for you.â
His patience disarms you, and for a moment, the walls youâve built around yourself feel like theyâre crumbling. You nod softly, your fingers trailing over his wrist before pulling him down onto the bed with you. He moves easily, settling over you, his weight pressing you into the mattress. Your hands instinctively go to the waistband of his sweatpants, your legs beginning to wrap around his waistâbut you stop. The look in his eyes freezes you. Itâs not lust, not entirely. Itâs something deeper, something raw. His gaze is steady, filled with an emotion you canât quite name but feel all the way to your core.
He leans closer, his face hovering just inches from yours. You expect him to kiss you, to close the gap, but instead, he just smilesâa soft, almost awe-struck curve of his lips that catches you off guard. You lean up slightly, chasing his mouth, but he pulls back just enough to keep you from reaching him.
Your brows scrunch in confusion. âWhat?â you whisper, the question more annoyed than breathy.
He shakes his head lightly, the corners of his lips quirking upward even more. âJust canât believe how fucking beautiful my girl is,â he murmurs, his voice low and dripping with sincerity. His words make your stomach flip, warmth flooding through you, and you feel yourself falter under the intensity of his gaze.
You hum softly, the sound low and teasing, and he moves with a deliberate ease, shifting to sit back against the headboard. Without hesitation, you follow, you straddle his lap, your knees sinking into the mattress on either side of his hips. Your fingers thread through his hair, tugging lightly, earning a quiet groan from him that sends a shiver down your spine. His eyes lock onto yours, dark and full of heat, but thereâs a softness in them tooâa contradiction youâve come to crave.
His hands settle on your thighs, the warmth of his touch seeping through the thin fabric of your shorts. âYouâre so fucking beautiful,â he murmurs, not being able to help himself as he repeats it. His eyes trace every inch of your face. The sincerity in his voice makes your breath hitch, and you lean in to kiss him again, your lips moving against his with a quiet urgency.
Your hands trail down his neck, over his shoulders to his chest. Your fingers trace the lean muscles, feeling them flex subtly under your touch, his breathing deepening with every movement. His skin is smooth and inviting, a contrast to the sharp ridges of his collarbone and the firmness of his torso. You let your hands roam, memorizing every dip and peak of his chest,Â
Your hips start moving with deliberate intensity, every roll of your hips pressing your body tighter against his. You can feel the hard length of him beneath you, and the sensation sparks a shameless hunger in you. His hands grip your waist with a possessive force, his fingers digging into your skin as though heâs trying to steady himself.Â
His head falls back, exposing the taut line of his neck, and then he lets out a low, guttural moan that sends heat pooling between your thighs. The sound is raw, primal, and utterly addictive, pushing you to move faster, grinding down with more purpose. Each shift of your hips makes his breath hitch, his muscles tightening under your touch, and the sight of him unravelling beneath you only drives you further, making your own arousal almost unbearable.
âY/N,â he groans softly, his grip on your thighs tightening. His eyes flutter shut for a moment before he looks at you again, his gaze dark and full of heat. âWhat are you doing to me?â
You donât answer. Instead, you lean in, your lips brushing along the line of his jaw before trailing down his neck. You feel the faint scrape of stubble against your lips as you suck lightly at his pulse point, and the low, guttural sound he makes sends a shiver down your spine.
His hands slide down your back with a gentle firmness, pulling you even closer to him. His eyes soften as he looks up at you. Thereâs a warmth in his gaze, one that makes your stomach flip and your breath catchâa quiet intensity, as though youâre the only thing in the world that matters to him. The way heâs holding you, the pads of his thumbs brushing against your skin, is grounding yet tender, a contrast to the heat coursing through you just moments before.
You tilt your head up so your eyes meet his. âI love you,â he says softly, the words wrapping around you like a warm embrace. His voice is tinged with emotion, steady but with an edge of vulnerability that makes your chest tighten. You remember the first time he said itâhow it completely took your breath away, leaving you stunned, unsure of how to respond. That night, heâd promised to keep saying it, to keep reminding you, until you were ready to say it back. And true to his word, heâs never let a moment pass without making sure you know how he feels.
But every time he says it, it stirs something inside you, a mix of longing and fear. The way he looks at youâso full of conviction and certaintyâmakes you feel both cherished and cornered. You want to say it back, you want to be ready, but a part of you feels like youâre standing on the edge of a cliff, afraid of the fall. The words lodge in your throat, heavy and unyielding, and you canât quite understand why. Instead, you lean into the physical sensations: the heat of his hands on your skin, the way his thumb brushes against your cheek.Â
Your rapid movements slow, the deliberate rhythm youâd set now faltering as the weight of his words settles over you. His hands remain on your hips, steady and warm, but your body seems to pause on instinct, absorbing the quiet vulnerability in his tone. Your heart races, your stomach flips, but thereâs an ache deep inside you that wonât go away. Itâs as though your body reacts in ways your mind refuses to let you.
Mark takes in your silence, his eyes scanning your face for a hint of a reaction. He doesnât seem hurtâhe knows youâre not ready, knows your hesitation isnât because of him. But tonight, something about you feels different. Your lack of response isnât just about being unready. Thereâs a tension in your shoulders, a fleeting look in your eyes, and he knows youâre not entirely here with him. His thumb lingers on your back, his gaze soft but steady. âBaby,â he says quietly, âcome closer.â
You shift on his lap again, trying to distract yourself and him. You lean in, to press your hips down, grinding against him slowly. A soft groan escapes his lips, and for a moment, you think heâs going to give in. You move to take off your top, wanting more, needing the physicality to distract you from your swirling thoughts, but his hand catches yours mid-motion.
His thumbs trace slow, soothing circles against your hand. His gaze is steady, almost too steady that it makes you freeze. He studies you, his eyes flickering over your expression with an unreadable softness. âY/N,â he murmurs, a calm firmness in his tone. âGet up for a second.â
You blink at him, startled. âWhat?â you pout, your voice laced with confusion and mild frustration. You werenât expecting him to stop youânormally, heâs the one who initiates, who pulls you closer and makes your body forget everything else. âWhy?â you ask, the sulk in your tone more pronounced now.
His lips twitch into a small smile, but his eyes remain steady, searching yours. âJust for a second,â he repeats. âTrust me.â
You hesitate, your body stiff and unmoving as you sit on top of him, still unhappy about this. Markâs patience begins to wear thin, his jaw tightening ever so slightly as he watches your reluctance. Without another word or argument, his hands settle firmly on your waist, guiding you with a quiet authority that leaves no room for resistance. He maneuvers you effortlessly, shifting your body until youâre sitting between his legs, your back pressed snugly against his chest.
After a few seconds of feigned compliance, you shift abruptly, pulling away from his touch and moving to sit beside him on the bed. Crossing your arms and legs with a pout, you glare half-heartedly at the strings, refusing to meet his amused gaze. His smirk grows as he watches your little rebellion, his eyes flicking over you with a mix of amusement and challenge.
You scoff, turning your head sharply to avoid his gaze, your arms tightening across your chest. His smirk only deepens at your defiance. Without a word, Mark reaches over, his hands finding your waist again, firm but playful as he attempts to pull you back toward him.
âCome here, stubborn,â he says, his voice dipping into something softer, more coaxing. You resist at first, leaning further away as if to emphasize your stance, but his grip doesnât falter. Heâs stronger than you give him credit for, and the slight tug sends you stumbling closer, your shoulder bumping against his chest.
âMark!â you protest, a reluctant laugh bubbling up despite yourself. His arms circle you fully this time, holding you against him in a loose, teasing embrace.
âSee?â he murmurs, his lips brushing against the shell of your ear, sending a shiver down your spine. âThis is where you belongâright here. Stop fighting it.â His tone is warm, almost smug, and the proximity of his body to yours is enough to make your pulse quicken.
Your lips curve into a smirk as your fingers trail lightly over his forearm. âMaybe I like fighting it,â you add, your voice lower now, deliberately taunting. You can feel his grip tighten just slightly, and you know youâre getting to him, but you donât stop. âMaybe I just like seeing if you can handle me.â
Markâs hands linger on your waist, his grip firm but playful as he tries to pull you back against him. âStop being difficult, baby,â he mutters, his voice low and tinged with amusement, but thereâs a flicker of something darkerâsomething chargedâbeneath it.
You twist out of his hold again, your body brushing against his in deliberate defiance. His jaw clenches, his patience fraying, and you know exactly what youâre doing. âMake me,â you say, your tone dripping with challenge as you step just out of reach, a coy smile teasing at your lips.
You take a step off the bed, moving slowly, a teasing sway in your hips as you glance back at him over your shoulder. The intention is clearâyouâre planning to take control, to slide onto his lap and finally drive him to the point where he canât resist you. You know exactly what youâre doing and exactly how he reacts when youâre on top of him.
But before you can make your move, his sharp gaze locks onto you, narrowing with purpose. In an instant, Mark lunges forward, grabbing you with swift precision. His hands find your waist again, but this time, he doesnât hesitate. He pulls you down onto the bed, your back hitting the mattress as he hovers over you, his weight pressing you into the softness. The heat between your bodies is palpable, and the air around you feels electric.
âYouâre such a brat,â he murmurs, his lips brushing against yours, a teasing whisper that makes your breath hitch. You arch up into him, your fingers tangling in his hair, and pull him closer. The kiss is hungry, his mouth moving against yours with a need that makes your head spin. His hips press against yours, and you can feel him, hard and unrelenting, through his sweats. You grind up, earning a deep groan from him that vibrates against your lips.
Breaking the kiss, you let your hand wander down his chest, trailing lower until your fingers press over the thick outline of his cock. He stiffens above you, his breath catching, and you smirk up at him, your thumb rubbing deliberately slow circles over him. âI could so beat you in a fight,â you tease, your voice breathy but laced with mischief.
Mark shakes his head, his eyes dark and hooded as he looks down at you. âYeah?â he rasps, his lips curving into a crooked grin. âIâd let you get a few punches in.â
Your laugh is cut off by a sharp inhale as his hips roll into your hand, the friction sending a jolt of heat through your body. âMmm, need you,â you moan, your lips parting as your back arches into him. The sound of your voice, needy and raw, makes him falter for a moment, his control slipping.
You take advantage of his hesitation, shifting to push him onto his back, your hands already sliding down his torso. But just as you start to lower yourself, your intentions clear, Markâs hands shoot out to grab your arms, stopping you in your tracks. âStop distracting me⌠fuck,â he groans, his voice rough and strained, his eyes squeezing shut for a moment as he struggles to compose himself. âI need to teach you how to play my guitar.â
You pout up at him, your lips swollen and your cheeks flushed, but his grip doesnât loosen. Heâs determined, but the heat in his gaze tells you itâs taking every ounce of his self-control not to give in. The tension between you crackles, a tantalizing promise of whatâs to come, but for now, heâs not letting you win.
âMarkâŚâ you start, but the words die in your throat when he reaches for his guitar, his movements unhurried. His lips twitch into a small, knowing smile as he adjusts the strap over his shoulder, plucking a few strings to test the tune.
You groan dramatically, flopping back onto the bed. âYouâve got to be kidding me.â
He chuckles, the sound low and warm, filling the room. âYouâre not in the right headspace, baby,â he says simply, his eyes flicking to yours with a gentle challenge. âAnd I donât just mean for sex.â
You narrow your eyes at him, propping yourself up on your elbows. âSo youâre punishing me by playing guitar instead?â
âNot a punishment,â he corrects, plucking out a soft, familiar melody that makes your heart skip a beat. âA distraction. For both of us.â
Your lips part to protest, but the sound of his fingers against the strings stops you. The notes are soft, almost tender, and the way he glances at you while playingâitâs impossible not to feel your walls start to falter, even if just a little.
Mark nods toward you. âCome on,â he says, his voice laced with that quiet confidence that always disarms you. âIâll teach you something new.â
You huff but comply, sliding even closer until your back brushes against his. He leans forward, carefully placing the guitar in your lap, his arms brushing against yours as he adjusts your fingers on the strings. The closeness makes your breath hitch, and despite your frustration, you canât deny the way his touch grounds you.
âRelax your body,â he murmurs, his voice low and patient as his fingers guide yours over the fretboard. âLet me lead, let me take care of you.â
The double meaning in his words isnât lost on you, and you feel a pang of guilt twist in your chest. You glance to him, finding his gaze already on you, and the tenderness in his eyes nearly undoes you. He doesnât press for answers, doesnât push you to explain the storm in your head. He just stays there, steady and unyielding, giving you the space to find your footing.
As he walks you through the chords, his hands linger over yours, his warmth seeping into your skin. But you canât shake the heaviness in your chest, the quiet battle waging in your mind. You force a smile, laugh at his jokes, but it all feels hollowâforced. And you can tell he notices.
âYouâre distracted,â he says after a while, his voice soft but pointed. He sets the guitar aside, turning his full attention to you.Â
Your gaze drops to your lap, your throat tightening under the weight of his question. âNothing,â you mumble, but the crack in your voice betrays you.
Mark leans closer, his hand finding yours and squeezing gently. âBaby,â he says, his tone a careful blend of concern and patience. âTalk to me. Please.â
The sincerity in his voice breaks something in you, and for a moment, you consider telling him everythingâabout the conversation you overheard, the insecurities eating away at you. But the words donât come. Instead, you shake your head, forcing a smile that doesnât reach your eyes.
âJust tired,â you lie, leaning forward to press a kiss to his lips, hoping to distract him. âIâm okay.â
But the way his eyes linger on you, the unspoken understanding in his expression, makes it clear he knows better. He doesnât push, though. He just nods, his thumb brushing over the back of your hand as he pulls you into his arms, holding you close.
Markâs embrace is warm, grounding, but it does nothing to silence the storm raging in your head. The memory of his conversation with Jeno echoes like a cruel loop, the words twisting and turning until theyâre almost unrecognizable. He didnât deny anythingâhe just let Jenoâs accusations hang in the air like they were true. You try to tell yourself you misheard, that youâre overthinking, but the doubt wonât leave. And now, in his arms, you feel the weight of it all pressing down, threatening to crush you.
The comfort you once found in his presence is replaced by a hollow ache, your mind torn between the man who has been your constant and the voice in your head telling you he might not be who you thought. Mark notices your silence almost immediately. His fingers brush against your cheek, his voice soft but tinged with concern. âYou okay, baby?â
You nod without looking at him, a forced smile on your lips. But the cracks in your facade are showing, and Mark isnât someone you can fool. His thumb lingers on your jaw, tilting your face toward him. âYou donât need to hide anything from me, you know.â He says again gently.
Something snaps inside you. Maybe itâs his patience, his persistence, or the way he looks at you like he knows youâre falling apart. âStop asking me if Iâm okay,â you snap, harsher than you intend. His hand drops from your face, the warmth replaced by a sudden chill.
Markâs brows furrow. âYou donât need to be so pushy and suffocating,â you blurt out, the words spilling from your lips before you can stop them. The second theyâre out, you want to take them back, but the damage is done. His expression hardens, his confusion bleeding into frustration.
âWhat the hell is going on with you?â he demands, his voice edged with something youâve never heard from him before. âOne minute youâre fine and wanna fuck me, and the next youâre shutting me out, like you donât want to be here with me.â
You cross your arms, your tone dripping with sarcasm. âOh, like youâve found any time for me this week.âÂ
Mark blinks, visibly taken aback. The hurt flashes across his face before he can mask it. âThatâs not fair,â he says quietly, the tension in his shoulders betraying his calm tone. âIâve been here, Y/N. Iâve been here for you through everything, even when youâve been pushing me away.â He pauses, his voice softening but carrying an edge of frustration. âYouâve been on and off since I came over and youâve been blunt with your calls and texts, shutting me out, but Iâve still tried. Iâve still been here, trying to make this work because I love you, even when you make it so hard to get through to you.â
His words hit you harder than you expect, cutting through the wall youâve been trying so desperately to keep up. You feel the tears welling up, hot and insistent, threatening to spill over despite your effort to hold them back. Your chest tightens painfully, and your voice cracks as you mutter, âI donât know what you want from me.â The words barely make it out, trembling under the weight of your guilt and confusion, and you hate how exposed they make you feel. Your fingers curl into fists at your sides, your body tense as you try to suppress the emotions threatening to drown you, but itâs futile. The look on Markâs faceâdisappointed, hurt, yet still achingly gentleâonly makes it worse, the lump in your throat growing thicker with every second of silence that stretches between you.
âYouâre my girlfriend,â he says, his voice firm but not unkind. âAnd youâve been distant and cold these last few days. I canât just leave you aloneânot until you tell me whatâs going on.â
His words hang heavy between you, but your mind races, fixating on something else entirely. âBut it isnât like you to rush into a relationship so fast,â you say, barely above a whisper, the memory of his best friendâs words hitting you like a dart. Your throat tightens as you speak, and you gulp, regretting it the second the words leave your mouth.
Markâs laugh cuts through the silence, dry and sharp, a tone youâve never heard from him before. âOh, so now you know the choices I make?â he says, the sarcasm dripping from his voice. His eyes meet yours, and for the first time, they donât feel like a warm embraceâthey feel like a mirror, reflecting every insecurity youâve been burying.
You bite down on your bottom lip, desperate to hold back the tears threatening to spill, but itâs useless. Hot streaks trail down your cheeks, making you feel more exposed, more vulnerable. Mark exhales slowly, the weight of his frustration and sadness cutting deeper than his words ever could. His expression softens, but it doesnât soothe you. If anything, it makes you feel worse, like youâve disappointed him in a way you canât take back.
Then his eyes flash with realization, and you see itâthe way his brows knit together, the subtle clench of his jaw. Heâs piecing something together, trying to make sense of your unraveling. âDid something happen?â he asks, his tone gentler now, but the concern laced within it only adds to the lump in your throat. When you donât respond, his voice drops even lower, more insistent. âWhat did my best friend say to you after I left both of you in the music room?â
âMark, Iâm too tired for this,â you groan, falling back onto the bed, your movements sluggish and deliberate as you reach for the other pillow and toss it onto the floor, a habit ingrained in your time together. The two of you have never needed more than one pillowâalways sharing it, always curling into the same space like it was the most natural thing in the world.Â
Itâs an invitationâa silent one. You shift the bed sheets to make room for him but he doesnât move. He just stands there, staring at you, his body tense and his gaze unwavering. You swallow hard, already bracing yourself for his next move, for his words, for the inevitable. His body languageârigid shoulders, the clench of his fists at his sidesâspeaks volumes.
âIâm gonna go,â he says finally, his voice quieter now, though it carries the weight of a decision he doesnât want to make. He steps back, and the space between you feels cavernous, even though the room is so small. âI think weâre both in over our heads,â he continues, his tone careful, almost measured. âWe need to talk about this later, when youâre ready. Because right now, this isnât going anywhere.â
He leans down, his face hovering close to yours where your head rests against the pillow. He presses a kiss to your forehead, his lips lingering for just a moment longer than they need to, and then he pulls the covers up over youâa gesture so soft it makes your heart ache. And then heâs gone. The sound of the door closing behind him echoes in your ears, louder than it has any right to be.Â
Youâll replay this moment over and over, dissecting the tilt of his head, the way his lips pressed into a thin line as he turned away. The soft click of the door closing behind him will echo louder each time you think about it, drowning out every whispered promise he made, every lingering touch you thought you understood. Youâll remember the way the warmth of him seemed to vanish the second he stepped out, leaving the room colder, emptier. In this moment, though, you donât know any of that. All you feel is the heaviness in your chest, the pull of exhaustion, and the quiet denial that this could mean anything more. But deep down, in the part of you youâve been trying to ignore, you already knowâthis isnât just a goodbye. This is a fracture, the kind that only widens with time, until all thatâs left are the jagged edges of something you once held close.
You donât know how long youâve been lying here, wide awake, staring at the ceiling. The minutes bleed into each other, your thoughts swirling so violently that time itself seems to dissolve. It could have been only a few minutesâor maybe hours. Youâve lost track. Your chest tightens as your eyes widen in the darkness, tears streaming silently down your face, hot and relentless. They burn with the weight of everythingâthe argument, Markâs retreat, and the finality in his tone when he said, âThis isnât going anywhere.â
You try to even out your breathing, inhaling deeply and exhaling slowly, but your lungs feel like theyâre working against you. The storm inside your chest refuses to settle, and the hollow ache of regret begins to gnaw at you. Your mind replays every detail of Markâs conversation with Jeno, every word exchanged cutting deeper with each repetition. The sharpness in Markâs laughâso foreign, so sharpârings in your ears, each echo twisting the knife further. âWhy would I deny it?â The words loop endlessly, merging with Jenoâs accusations, each cycle adding to the unbearable weight pressing against your chest. It feels like youâre trapped, drowning in a sea of doubts and insecurities, unable to break free.
Then, thereâs a knock at the door.
You gasp softly, the sound barely audible in the quiet. For a fleeting moment, hope flares in your chest. Could it be him? you wonder, the thought almost enough to propel you out of bed. But you donât move. Deep down, you know itâs not him. Mark wouldnât come back after that. He wouldnât.
The knock comes again, followed by the creak of the door opening. Light spills into the room, harsh and unforgiving, making your eyes burn, but you barely react. You feel numb. A silhouette stands in the doorway, and then a soft, hesitant voice follows.
âY/N?â Karinaâs voice carries a tinge of worry, the kind that she rarely shows, and it cuts through the haze of your thoughts.
You hum faintly in response, not having the energy to form words.
She steps inside, the light framing her figure as she hesitates, scanning the room before approaching your bed. You feel the mattress dip as she sits beside you, her presence cautious but steady. Her hand reaches out to smooth the hair from your face, a gesture so familiar it almost breaks you. Without a word, she hands you a box of tissues, her movements gentle, measured.
Karina doesnât say anything at first, and you donât push her to. You donât have it in you. Instead, you let her fuss over youâwiping your face, smoothing out your blanket. The tension between you from the past week lingers, but neither of you acknowledge it. For the first time in days, you donât want her to leave. A part of you knows you need her, even if it stings to admit.
âWhat happened?â she finally asks, her voice soft and careful, like she knows youâll shatter if she presses too hard.
âIââ Your voice cracks, and you shake your head, unable to finish. You feel her hand rest on your shoulder, grounding you in a way you didnât realize you needed.
âIâll be right back,â she murmurs before leaving the room. You donât move, donât bother to ask where sheâs going. When she returns moments later, itâs with a small bag of your favourite cookies and more tissues, youâd need it. She places them on the bed beside you and sits down again, looking at you with a quiet patience that feels unfamiliar but comforting.
You sit up slowly, the covers falling from your shoulders as you reach for the cookies. A small, thankful smile breaks through your otherwise sullen expression, and Karina responds with the faintest of nods. For now, it seems, the distance between you is forgotten.
After a few hesitant bites, the words begin to tumble outâslow and fragmented at first, as if testing their weight, and then all at once, spilling over like a dam breaking. You tell her everything, laying bare the tangled mess of insecurities and doubts that have been suffocating you for days. You talk about Mark, about how perfect everything felt the night you made it official, how it seemed like nothing in the world could touch the happiness you shared. The way he held you, the way he made you feel safe, cherished. The best sex, the deepest connection, the overwhelming sense that this was itâthe thing youâd been waiting for. But then, you say, it all started to unravel.
The bubble youâd been living in popped, and the world came rushing in. The whispers at cheer practice, the glances that felt too pointed, the comments that cut deeper than youâd like to admit. It was as if your happiness had become a target, something to be scrutinized and torn apart. And then Markâs best friendâher words sink like stones in your memory, heavy and unrelenting: âItâs not like him to rush into something like this.â You can still hear her voice, the way it lingered like an unspoken warning, shaking the foundation of everything youâd started to believe in.
You tell Karina how those words stuck to you, embedding themselves in your mind like a thorn you couldnât pull out. They made you question everythingâMarkâs intentions, your own worth, the foundation of what you had together. You explain how you overheard Markâs conversation with Jeno, every word feeling like a dagger and how Markâs response wasnât what you expectedâit wasnât defensive or angry, and it wasnât the outright denial youâd been hoping for. âWhy would I deny it?â Those words, you tell her, have been playing on a loop in your head ever since. Youâve tried to rationalise them, to tell yourself you misunderstood, but the doubt lingers, twisting every soft moment between you and Mark into something uncertain.
The weight of it all has been suffocatingâpressing against your chest like a vice that refuses to let go. Youâve been trying so hard to put distance between yourself and Mark, using deadlines and exhaustion as your shield. Youâd promised yourself not to reach for him, not to give in to the pull that made your chest ache and your head spin. Every time you told yourself, Donât be so touchy, donât let him in so easily, it felt like a small victory in protecting yourself from something you couldnât name. But the second he touches you, the second that boyish smile crosses his lips, it all unravels. Every promise youâve made to yourself falls apart, and you hate how easily it happensâhow little control you seem to have over the way your body and heart react to him.
The pull to him is magnetic, overwhelming in a way that hurts. You feel it in the way your resolve crumbles when his fingers graze your skin, in the way your chest tightens when he looks at you like youâre the only thing that matters. You donât know how to resist itâdonât even know if you want to. Itâs a need so visceral, so consuming, that it terrifies you. And yet, you canât stop yourself from leaning into it, from seeking him out when your mind tells you not to.
You tell her everything, the words tumbling out before you can stop them. You try to explain how it feels every time Mark gets too close, how the feeling in your chest becomes so intense it almost scares youâthe way your heart swells and aches at the same time, like itâs too small to hold the depth of what he makes you feel. Itâs foreign, this overwhelming warmth thatâs equal parts terrifying and beautiful, and your body reacts before your mind can catch up. Instead of leaning into it, your instinct is to pull away, to create distance as if that will somehow protect both of you. You donât say it outright, but you know itâs more about protecting him from youâyour flaws, your insecurities, the parts of you youâre convinced heâll eventually tire of.
âItâs like Iâm trying to stop something that hasnât even happened yet,â you whisper, your voice trembling, tears spilling over despite your best efforts to hold them back. âLike if I push him far enough away now, itâll hurt less when he finally lets go.â But even as you say it, you feel the contradiction tightening around you. Because how could someone like Mark let go? The way he looks at you, so full of trust and love, makes your chest ache even more. It should be enough to quiet the doubts, but it only intensifies the guilt. The looming thought that maybe you donât deserve this happiness, that maybe it was never meant to last, lingers in your mind like a shadow you canât escape. And the harder he tries to love you, the heavier that shadow becomes.
Karina listens intently, her face uncharacteristically solemn. She doesnât interrupt, doesnât rush to respond, just lets you speak until the words finally run out. Her hand squeezes yours, grounding you in a way you didnât know you needed. When she finally speaks, her voice is steady but laced with a quiet angerânot at you, but at the situation. âY/N, this isnât on you,â she says firmly. âThis whole mess⌠itâs bigger than you. Jeno, Markâs best friend, everyone elseâtheyâve all brought their own shit into this. Youâre just stuck in the middle of it, and thatâs not fair.â
Her words catch you off guard, but they donât stop there. âI get it,â she continues, her tone softening slightly. âI get why youâre questioning everything, why youâre scared. But if thereâs one thing I know, itâs that Mark loves you. And whatever anyone else says or thinks doesnât change that.â She pauses, brushing a strand of hair out of your face. âYou need to stop carrying the weight of everyone elseâs opinions, Y/N. Itâs killing you, and itâs not yours to bear.â
Her words catch you like a gust of wind, unexpected yet grounding. They settle heavily in your chest, stirring up emotions youâve been trying to suppress. You donât respond right away, the weight of her sincerity holding you still. âI hear you,â you finally murmur, your voice shaky. âBut itâs not that easy.â
Karina doesnât let up, her hand still resting gently on your knee. âI know itâs not,â she says, her tone patient but firm. âBut youâre making yourself miserable trying to live up to what everyone else thinks or expects. The only person who needs to believe in this relationship is youâand Mark. Heâs chosen you, Y/N. Every single day, he chooses you. Doesnât that mean something?â
Her words dig deep, unravelling the knot of doubt and fear tangled inside you. âWhat if Iâm not enough?â you whisper, the confession slipping out before you can stop it. âWhat if Iâm the one who ruins it?â
Karina listens quietly, her brows furrowed as she takes in every word, her hand resting lightly on your knee as if to ground you. When you finish, her voice is soft but steady. âYou know,â she starts, âthe way youâre reacting⌠itâs not unnatural. When something feels this real, this overwhelming, itâs instinct to want to push it away. Youâre scared because it matters so much.â Her words hit you like a gentle nudge, a reminder that your feelings arenât abnormal, but they still donât make you feel any less guilty.
âBut, Y/N,â she continues, leaning forward, âMark makes you happy. I can see it. Everyone can see it. Heâs good for you in a way no one else has been. He brings out something better in youâmakes you lighter, freer, even when you donât realise it. And I think you do the same for him. Thatâs rare, and you deserve that. You deserve someone who makes you feel this way, even if itâs scary.â
Her words make your chest tighten, a strange mix of comfort and discomfort. âBut why does it feel like Iâm ruining it?â you whisper, barely able to meet her gaze.
âBecause itâs real,â she says simply. âAnd when things feel this real, itâs easier to sabotage it than to face it. But pushing him away isnât going to protect either of you, Y/N. Itâs just going to hurt more in the end.â
She hesitates for a moment before asking, âHave you talked to Mark about what you overheard with Jeno?â Her question catches you off guard, and your immediate reaction is to shake your head. Karina sighs, her disappointment subtle but clear. âY/N,â she says firmly, âyou should talk to him.â
The thought makes your stomach twist, and she seems to notice your hesitation. âListen to me,â she says, her tone more insistent now. âIt could all be a misunderstanding, something youâve interpreted wrong. Markâs not the kind of guy to leave you in the dark. But if you donât talk to him, youâll never know. You canât keep carrying this weight by yourself. Communication fixes everything.â
Her words linger in the air, heavy and undeniable. âPromise me,â she presses gently, her eyes searching yours. âPromise me youâll talk to him.â
You gulp, your throat dry as you force yourself to nod. âIâll try to,â you say, the words shaky and uncertain. But the truth is, even as you say them, the thought of facing him terrifies you. The silence lingers for a moment, heavy with unspoken worries, before you force yourself to break it with a light-hearted laugh.
âSince when did you start sounding so mature?â you tease, the corner of your lips lifting into a faint smile, trying to shift the mood.
Karina shrugs, leaning back slightly. âIâve always thought like this,â she replies simply, her voice calm but self-assured.
You nod, the smile on your face softening. âI know. You shouldnât ever hide that, you know.â You pause, your tone a little more serious now. âSometimes I think you get too caught up in this whole mean girl, cheerleader persona, and people donât get to see how big your heart isâor how smart you are. Like, really smart. You have such a unique perspective.â
Karina looks at you for a moment, her gaze unreadable, before she sighs and changes the subject, youâre unsure if sheâs even registered what you just said. âIâm sorry, Y/N,â she says quietly. âAbout what I told Jeno at the party.â
You glance at her, surprised by her sudden vulnerability, and shake your head. âItâs okay. Iâve already forgiven you. And⌠Iâm sorry too. For making you feel like I didnât treasure you or our friendship. Everything youâve done for usâit means a lot. I know it wasnât easy keeping us a secret.â
She winces slightly but gives you a small smile. âStill, I was stupid. I shouldnât have told Jeno. Itâs all my fault this is happening,â she says, her voice tinged with regret.
âIt was all gonna come out eventually,â you reply, your voice tinged with a bittersweet humor. âThe universe never wants me to be happy anyway.â Your words draw a laugh from both of you, the tension in the room easing as you share a moment of levity.
You both fall into an easy rhythm after that, giggling and catching up on everything youâd missed during your weeks of distance. It feels natural, effortless, like slipping into a comfortable routine you didnât realize youâd missed so much. Hours pass without you even noticing, and before long, the conversation grows softer, your voices laced with exhaustion. Eventually, you both drift off to sleep on your bed, the unspoken forgiveness settling between you like a quiet truce.
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The crisp autumn air bites at your cheeks as you walk across campus with Karina by your side. The two of you are laughing softly, your breath visible in the cold as it mingles with the faint hum of chatter and the rustling of leaves swirling across the pavement. You do your best to ignore the familiar scenery, focusing instead on Karinaâs quip about your professorâs lecture. Itâs easier to do with her next to you, her steady presence distracting you from the weight thatâs been pressing on your chest for days.
Your laughter falters mid-sentence, the sound dying in your throat as your eyes land on himâMark. Heâs standing just ahead near the library steps, his broad shoulders and familiar stance instantly recognizable, even in the crowded campus. Itâs the first time youâve seen him since that night, since he walked out, a moment thatâs been replaying in your mind ever since.
Heâs facing your direction, his head tilted slightly, listening as Donghyuck speaks. The light breeze tousles his hair, and for a second, it feels like the entire world slows down. Your chest tightens, and an ache youâve been trying to suppress rushes to the surface, sharp and unforgiving.
And then, as though some invisible string pulls his attention, his gaze shiftsâand locks onto yours.
You freeze. The air feels heavier, your feet rooted to the ground. His eyes, warm and familiar, widen slightly as they meet yours, the surprise on his face quickly melting into something more unreadable. Thereâs no anger there, no bitterness. Just⌠Mark. Steady and calm, even in this moment. Itâs almost enough to undo you.
Karinaâs voice breaks through the haze, calling your name, but it feels distant, muffled. You donât respond, your gaze fixed on Mark, your chest tightening with every passing second.
He doesnât moveâat first. His expression shifts subtly, his brows knitting together as though heâs debating whether to come over. You can feel it, the pull, the silent gravity thatâs always existed between you two. Itâs magnetic, undeniable, and so overwhelming that you snap.
Without thinking, you grab Karinaâs hand and tug her sharply to the left, pulling her down a different pathway and out of sight. Your pace quickens as your heart pounds in your chest, and you donât dare look back.
âY/N,â Karina tuts, her voice low but scolding as she follows your hurried steps. âDo you know how embarrassed I am right now?â she hisses, her voice low but heated. âFor you and for both of us?â She glares at you, crossing her arms tightly over her chest. âHe just saw you run away from him. Like, physically run away. Do you have any idea how bad that looked?â
You donât respond immediately, the blood rushing in your ears making it hard to think. Only when youâre certain youâre out of Markâs line of sight do you finally slow down, releasing Karinaâs hand and letting out a shaky breath. âI didnât want to see him,â you mumble, brushing a hand through your hair in an attempt to steady yourself.
Karina crosses her arms, her sharp gaze pinning you in place. âYou canât keep doing this,â she says firmly, the disapproval clear in her tone. âAvoiding him doesnât make this any better.â
You avert your eyes, the sting of her words cutting deeper than youâd like to admit. âIâm not avoiding him,â you mutter, you can even hear the weakness in your voice.
Karina arches a brow, clearly unimpressed. âRight, because dragging me the other way the second you saw him is totally normal behaviour.â
You sigh heavily, shoving your hands into the pockets of your coat. âItâs just easier this way,â you admit, your voice barely above a whisper. âI donât know what to say to him, okay? I donât know how to⌠face him.â
Karina shakes her head, her expression softening slightly. âEasier for who, Y/N? Because it sure as hell doesnât seem easier for you.â She pauses, her voice taking on a gentler edge. âHeâs not the type to just give up on you, you know that, right? You owe it to him to talk, to stop running.â
You swallow hard, the lump in your throat making it difficult to respond. âI just⌠I need more time,â you manage, though even as you say it, youâre not sure if itâs true.
Karina doesnât push further, but the look in her eyes tells you sheâs not letting this go entirely. âYouâre going to have to face him eventually,â she says simply, her voice softer now. âAnd the longer you wait, the harder itâs going to be.â
What you donât know is that Mark noticed you the moment you stepped onto campus. It wasimpossible not to. Your familiar frame is unmistakable even amidst the bustling crowd of students. He knows your walk, the way your shoulders hunch slightly when youâre distracted, the way you pull your coat tighter around yourself when the wind picks up. Itâs second nature to notice you, to let his gaze linger, even if heâs told himself to stop.
Youâre walking with Karina, laughing softly, though he canât make out what youâre saying. From the outside, it would seem normalâlike nothingâs wrong. But Mark knows better. He can see it in the way your movements are just a little too brisk, your smile not quite reaching your eyes. Heâs been watching you for the past week, piecing together the growing distance youâve carefully carved between the two of you.
Itâs been a week since he last had the chance to really talk to you. Seven days of missed calls, curt texts, and excuses that donât sit right with him. But today, seeing you here, something shifts in his chestâa mix of relief and frustration thatâs hard to untangle. He debates walking up to you, cutting through the crowd, saying somethingâanythingâto bridge the growing distance. But then, he notices what you do next.
You stop mid-step, your eyes locking onto him for the briefest second, wide with something that looks an awful lot like panic. He doesnât move, waiting, hoping youâll walk toward him. But instead, you grab Karinaâs hand and pull her in the opposite direction, your pace quickening until you disappear down a side path. Markâs jaw tightens, his chest deflating as the realization sinks in. Youâre avoiding himâagain.
He huffs, the sound low and sharp as he clenches his fists at his sides. Frustration rises in him, bubbling hot and fast, but itâs not just anger. Itâs confusion, hurt, and something heavier that he doesnât have the words for yet. Markâs patience has always been one of his greatest strengths, but even he has limits. And youâre pushing them.
It started small, a subtle shift he could almost ignore. The first missed call he figured was just bad timing. The second he chalked up to your busy scheduleâassignments, cheer practice, life. But then the replies came later and later, turning from thoughtful paragraphs to vague one-liners that made his chest tighten with unease.
At first, he tried to give you space. Everyone gets overwhelmed sometimes, and he didnât want to make you feel suffocated. But as the days went on, the excuses piled up, and the sinking feeling in his chest grew harder to ignore. The moments you did answer felt distant, like you were speaking to him from behind a wall he couldnât see over. And when he asked you about itâgently, trying not to pushâyou brushed him off with the same tired excuse. He knows he shouldnât, but his hand moves on instinct, reaching for his phone.
He finds himself scrolling through your old messages, rereading the ones that made him smile, that reminded him of how easy things used to be between you. The sweet messages youâd send him late at night, how youâd open up, the jokes that would make him laugh even when he was exhausted. Every word felt like a relic of something slipping further away, and the contrast to the coldness of your recent replies made his chest ache.
mark â hey, havenât heard from you lately. everything okay?
you â sorry, been busy. talk soon
That âsorryâ stung more than he expected. It felt hollow, like an afterthought, and the absence of anything more left a bitter taste in his mouth. He stared at your response, his thumb hovering over the keyboard. He typed out a reply, deleted it, then typed something else. Finally, he settled on something simple.
mark â miss you. just wanted you to know that
The âseenâ notification popped up almost immediately, but no response followed. Instead, Mark turned to Donghyuck, who had been standing beside him the entire time, watching silently.
âSheâs ignoring me,â Mark said finally, his voice low and strained. His thumb lingered over his phone screen, like he was willing a reply to appear.
Donghyuck didnât look up from his phone immediately, his fingers casually scrolling. âThen maybe give her some space. Let her come to you,â he said, his tone even, but it carried a subtle weight.
Mark frowned, his hand running through his hair in frustration. âWhat if she doesnât?â
Donghyuck paused, finally looking at him, his usual teasing demeanor absent. âThen you go to her. Youâre Mark Lee, dude. Sheâs not gonna ignore you forever.â His voice was firm, but there was a flicker of doubt in his eyes, like he wasnât entirely convinced of his own words.
Mark let out a quiet scoff, his gaze fixed on the ground as his foot tapped restlessly against the floor. âThatâs exactly what sheâs doing,â he muttered, more to himself than Donghyuck. âSheâs scared, and now sheâs shutting me out.â
There was no question in his tone, just a quiet certainty that settled heavy in his chest. It didnât take him long to piece it togetherâthatâs how well he knew you. Every missed call, every vague text, every carefully orchestrated avoidanceâit all made sense now. Mark could see it clearly, as if he were watching a story unfold that heâd already read the ending to. This wasnât just distance. It was you retreating into yourself, building walls he didnât know how to break down. And the realization didnât comfort him. If anything, it made his chest tighten further, because knowing why didnât make it hurt any less.
Donghyuck tilted his head, his expression a mix of curiosity and exasperation. âBut why is she scared?â he asked, narrowing his eyes as he studied Mark. âI mean, wasnât it just, what, a week ago? You guys were all over each other after the river court, right? When she asked you to be her boyfriend?â He paused, letting the implication sink in before adding with a smirk, âTrust me, Mark, the walls are thin. I heard everything. Like, everything, all night long.â
Normally, a comment like that would draw at least a half-hearted laugh or a moan from Mark at the memory, but this time, he didnât even flinch. His shoulders sagged, and he rubbed the back of his neck with a frustrated sigh. âThatâs the thing,â he murmured, his voice low and laced with exhaustion. âI donât know why sheâs scared. Sheâs not telling me. I donât know if itâs something I did, or if someoneâs said something to her.â
He paused, his jaw tightening as he struggled to keep his voice steady. âIf sheâd just talk to me, I could fix it. I could try. But I canât do anything if she wonât let me in.â His thumb hovered over his phone again, as if it might somehow give him the answers he was searching for. âSheâs slipping away, Hyuck. And I donât know how to stop it.â
Donghyuck leaned forward, resting his elbows on his knees. âListen, man, I know it feels like shit right now. But people donât just forget about someone whoâs been good to them. Youâve been good to her, Mark. Sheâll come around.â
Mark shook his head, his jaw tightening. âI donât know, Hyuck. Sheâs been so⌠distant. Itâs like sheâs already checked out, and Iâm the only one holding on.â
Donghyuck hesitated, his usual quick wit replaced by something quieter. âMaybe sheâs scared. Maybe sheâs dealing with something she doesnât know how to talk about yet. But if itâs meant to work, it will. Youâve just gotta⌠hold on a little longer.â
Markâs shoulders slumped, the weight of Donghyuckâs words pressing against the unease in his chest. âAnd if it doesnât work?â he asked quietly, the question hanging in the air between them like a fragile thread.
Donghyuck offered a faint smile, but it didnât quite reach his eyes. âThen youâll know you tried. And thatâs all you can do, man.â
Mark nodded slowly, though the knot in his chest didnât ease. Donghyuckâs hope was palpable, but it felt misplacedâlike trying to hold water in his hands. He wanted to believe it, wanted to cling to the idea that this space, this distance, was just temporary. But deep down, a small voice whispered that it wasnât.
As Donghyuck turned back to his phone, Markâs gaze lingered on the screen of his own, your name still at the top of his messages. He locked it with a sigh, shoving it into his pocket as he stared off into the distance. He had hope too, but it felt fragile, like it might shatter the next time you left him on read.
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The gym feels suffocating today, even with the high ceilings and the crisp autumn air wafting in through the cracked windows. The sound of sneakers screeching against the polished court echoes harshly, blending with the relentless thud of basketballs hitting the ground. Mark wipes sweat off his brow with the back of his hand, forcing himself to focus on the drill in front of him, but itâs no use. His mind is miles away, stuck on you.
Patience has always been Markâs virtue. Itâs what makes him a leader on the court, the friend everyone can rely on, and the boyfriend who knows how to wait for you to come around during your phases. But this time, patience feels like punishment. The silence between you has been deafening. He keeps waiting for the moment when youâll come around, when youâll slip your hand into his, flash him that smile that makes his chest feel lighter, and come right back to him, where he knows you belong. But that moment never comes. And the longer he waits, the heavier the weight on his chest becomes.
Mark throws himself into basketball, his one constant. Itâs where heâs always found solace, where his mind goes quiet, the only sound being the steady rhythm of basketballs bouncing and the occasional sharp whistles from the assistant coach. But even that feels hollow now. His movements are sharper, more aggressiveâevery pass, every shot laced with a frustration he canât seem to shake. His teammates notice. Jeno, especially, throws him cautious glances every now and then, as if debating whether to say something. But Mark doesnât stop. If he keeps moving, keeps playing, maybe he can outrun the ache in his chest.
Basketball has always been his escape but today, it feels different. Mark throws himself into every drill with relentless intensity, pushing harder and faster than anyone else on the court. The fluidity that usually defines his game is gone, replaced by sharp, almost aggressive movements. Every pass is thrown with more force than necessary, every drive to the hoop charged with an edge of frustration that lingers in his chest like a dull ache. His breathing quickens, his chest tightens, but he doesnât stop. He canât. The weight pressing down on himâthe unrelenting ache that seems to grow heavier with every passing dayâleaves him with no choice but to keep moving, keep running, keep playing. Anything to dull the storm inside.
Mark catches the ball off a pass, his grip tightening around the leather until his knuckles turn white. His breath comes quicker than it should, his heart pounding against his ribs with a force that feels disproportionate to the effort heâs putting in. He shakes it off, driving to the basket with sharp precision, but the ball bounces off the rim.
âDamn it,â he mutters under his breath, frustration bubbling to the surface.
âMark, slow down!â Jaemin shouts, his voice cutting through the squeak of sneakers and the relentless pounding of the ball against the floor. Another failed pass ricochets off the wall, the sound sharp and jarring. âYouâre gonna wear yourself outâor worse, kill us all trying to keep up!â His words are laced with frustration, but thereâs something else there too, something cautious. His gaze lingers on Mark a moment too long, a flicker of concern flashing in his eyes, like he knows thereâs more to Markâs relentless pace than just a bad day.
Mark barely glances in Jaeminâs direction, his jaw tightening as he moves back into position. The others exchange wary glances, but no one pushes him further. They know better. Theyâve seen Mark like this beforeâfocused to the point of obsession, determined to outrun whateverâs gnawing at him. But this time, itâs different.
His chest tightens again, a subtle pull that he dismisses as fatigue. He grabs his knees, bending forward as he tries to catch his breath. Itâs just practice, he tells himself. Heâs pushed through worse. The weight in his chest feels heavier than usual, but he doesnât stop. He canât.
The piercing sound of Kunâs whistle sliced through the air, cutting through the rhythmic pounding of basketballs and the shuffling of feet on polished wood. Mark exhaled deeply, his breath coming in short, uneven bursts as he dragged a forearm across his damp brow. The other boys, equally drained, slowed their movements and began to shuffle reluctantly toward the center of the court, their groans and muttered complaints barely audible over the lingering echo of the whistle.
Kun stood there, clipboard in hand, his usual calm demeanor slightly strained. He waited for the team to gather, his sharp eyes scanning the circle as if measuring their endurance. âAlright, listen up,â Kun started, his voice firm but not unkind. âFirst of all, good work this morning. Youâve been pushing hard, and I can see the effort.â
The boys exchanged exhausted glances, but no one spoke. They were used to Kunâs praise, usually tempered with a challenge to do better.
âBut,â Kun continued, adjusting his clipboard, âI know some of you are wondering where Coach Suh is.â
At that, murmurs rippled through the group. Chenle whispered something to Jaemin, who nodded, both of their faces etched with confusion.
âAs you guys know,â Kun said, raising his voice slightly to regain their attention, âCoach Suh will be absent for the time being due to him recovering from surgery.â
A few gasps and surprised exclamations broke out. Jenoâs brows furrowed, and Jaeminâs mouth dropped open. Mark frowned, his jaw tightening at the unexpected news. None of them had heard anything about this.
âRest assured, heâs okay,â Kun added quickly, his tone reassuring. âItâs nothing life-threatening, but heâll need some time to recover.â Mark felt the tension ease slightly at Kunâs words, though the uncertainty of what came next still loomed over the group.
Kun glanced at his clipboard, hesitating for just a moment before speaking again. âThat said, weâve got the state championships coming up, and Iâm not qualified to lead you guys solely through that.â
The boys exchanged worried looks. Jeno muttered, âThis canât be good,â under his breath.
Kun took a deep breath, bracing himself. âSo, weâve had to make the difficult decision of finding a temporary placement.â
Jeno tilted his head, his expression wary. âTemporary placement?â
Kunâs lips twitched into a faint, almost apologetic smile. âGuys⌠please donât kill me.â
Before anyone could respond, the double doors at the far end of the gym creaked open. The sound echoed, and the boys instinctively turned to look. Taeyong strides in with the kind of energy that makes the entire room shift. Heâs dressed sharply, his black track pants and a fitted zip-up jacket seeming more intimidating than practical. His clipboard is tucked firmly under one arm, and his eyes scan the court with a piercing sharpness, like heâs already sizing everyone up. His expression is cold, brows drawn into a subtle frown that gives nothing away except impatience. His strides are purposeful, almost militant, and the click of his shoes against the polished floor reverberates through the gym. The team immediately stiffens.
Taeyong doesnât waste a second. âAlright, listen up,â he barks, his tone clipped and stern, cutting through the murmurs like a knife. His voice carries an authority that dares anyone to challenge him. âCoach Suh is out for the next few weeks. Surgery recovery. Iâll be stepping in as your coach until heâs back.â
The silence that follows is thick and palpable. No one expected thisânot Taeyong, of all people. The boys exchange wide-eyed glances, their shock barely concealed. Even assistant coach Kun looks uneasy, shifting on his feet as he observes the teamâs reactions, his whistle still dangling from his hand.
âWait, what?â Chenle blurts out, his voice laced with disbelief. âSince when?â
Taeyongâs head snaps in Chenleâs direction, and his eyes narrow into a glare so sharp it could cut through steel. âSince now,â he replies curtly, his tone leaving no room for argument. âAny other questions?â
Jaemin hesitantly raises a hand, his usual carefree demeanor visibly muted under Taeyongâs gaze. âYeah, uh, why you?â
The slight lift of Taeyongâs eyebrow is more intimidating than any verbal response. He takes a deliberate step forward, his eyes locking on Jaemin like a hawk. âBecause I was asked. Problem?â
Jaemin swallows hard and shakes his head quickly. âNope. No problem.â
The team collectively exhales, but the tension remains suffocating. Kun clears his throat, clearly attempting to break the awkward silence. âRight, uh, letâs stay focused,â he says, but even his tone wavers slightly under Taeyongâs presence. He blows his whistle, the shrill sound bouncing off the walls, signaling for the team to gather around.
Taeyong flips open his clipboard, his movements methodical and precise. âState championships are around the corner, and as much as Iâd love to sit here and hold your hands, we donât have time for that.â His eyes scan the group, landing on each player as if daring them to even blink out of turn. âYouâre not here to have fun. Youâre here to win. If anyone has a problem with that, thereâs the door.â
Jeno shifts uncomfortably, glancing at Mark, who stands stoically, his jaw tight. Jaemin fidgets, his hand running nervously through his hair, while Chenle mutters something under his breath that earns him a glare from Taeyong.
Kunâs lips press into a thin line, his arms crossed over his chest. âTaeyong,â he starts, his tone measured but cautious, âletâs not forget that this team is used to a different coaching style. Maybe ease intoââ
âEasing into it is exactly why we havenât taken the championship in years,â Taeyong interrupts, his voice slicing through Kunâs words without hesitation. He turns back to the team, his posture rigid, his expression unyielding. âIâm not here to make friends. Iâm here to get results.â
Kunâs jaw tightens, but he doesnât push further. Instead, he steps back slightly, his disapproval evident in the way his brows knit together.
Taeyong doesnât miss a beat. âNow, get into your positions. Weâre running drills. And donât even think about slackingâIâll notice, and Iâll make sure you regret it.â
The boys shuffle reluctantly into their places, the weight of Taeyongâs authority heavy on their shoulders. As the first drill starts, Taeyongâs voice booms across the court, barking orders with the precision of a drill sergeant. âJaemin, move your feet! Jeno, is that your idea of defense? Pathetic! Mark, fasterâyouâre dragging the pace down.â
Mark grits his teeth, his chest heaving with exertion as he pushes himself harder. His frustration simmers just beneath the surface, but he channels it into his movements, every pass sharper, every shot more aggressive. Jaemin mutters something under his breath, earning him another sharp reprimand from Taeyong.
âDid you say something, Jaemin?â Taeyong snaps, his tone icy.
Jaemin shakes his head quickly. âNo, sir.â
âGood. Then run it again. All of you.â
The team exchanges weary glances, and even Kunâs whistle sounds less enthusiastic when he calls them back to the court. The practice continues under Taeyongâs unrelenting scrutiny, the weight of his expectations pressing down on everyone like a vice.
Later, after what felt like hours of relentless drills, Taeyong called the team to center court. His expression was as stern as ever, his posture straight and commanding as he looked over the exhausted group.
âYouâre here because you want to win,â he started, his tone firm but deliberate. âAnd winning doesnât come from half-assed effort or lazy attitudes. You donât walk onto that court expecting a trophyâyou earn it.â
His eyes swept over the team, his gaze lingering on each of them for a moment. âI expect focus. Discipline. Every single one of you needs to give 110% every time you step on this court. If you donât, youâre not just letting yourselves downâyouâre letting the entire team down.â
The boys stood in silence, their exhaustion evident, but Taeyong wasnât finished.
âMark,â he said, locking eyes with him. âYouâre fast, but speed means nothing if youâre not thinking three steps ahead. Start using your brain.â
âJeno,â he continued, his tone sharp. âYouâre the captain. That means leading by example, not coasting through just because youâve got skills. I need you to push harder.â
âJaemin,â Taeyongâs eyes narrowed slightly. âStop waiting for someone else to make a play. Step up, or step aside.â
Kunâs jaw tightened, but he didnât interject, even as the tension in the room grew thicker. Taeyongâs words werenât just critiquesâthey were challenges, demands for more than the boys had ever given before.
âIf you want to walk into that championship as winners,â Taeyong said, his voice rising, âthen youâd better start acting like it now. No excuses, no shortcuts, no mercyâfor yourselves or your opponents. Understood?â
The boys nodded, some reluctantly, others with quiet determination. Taeyongâs words hung heavy in the air, a weight they couldnât ignore.
âGood,â he said, his tone softening just slightly. âNow, hit the showers. Practice starts at 6 a.m. sharp tomorrow. Donât be late.â
As the team dispersed, murmurs of exhaustion and disbelief filled the air. Kun watched them go, his expression unreadable, before turning to Taeyong.
âYou know theyâre not soldiers, right?â Kun said, his voice low.
Taeyong raised an eyebrow, his clipboard tucked under his arm. âTheyâll thank me when theyâre holding that trophy.â
Kun sighed, shaking his head. âLetâs hope they donât collapse before then.â
As the players started practice again, it turned into absolute chaosâplayers running suicides at a punishing pace, the sound of dribbling basketballs echoing against the gym walls, and the strained grunts of exhaustion cutting through it all. Taeyong, barking orders like a drill sergeant, paced the sidelines with clipboard in hand, seemingly unfazed by the sweat-drenched and visibly struggling team.Â
Kunâs eyes flicked over the players, his concern growing with each faltering step. Finally, he let out a sharp whistle, the sound cutting through the noise. âAlright, letâs take a breather,â he ordered, his tone firm but laced with compassion. âFive minutes. Get some water.â The players slumped in relief, dragging themselves toward the benches, their breaths coming in ragged gasps.
Taeyong looks at Kun like heâs just committed a cardinal sin. âFive minutes? Theyâve barely broken a sweat.â
Kun meets Taeyongâs gaze evenly, his voice calm but resolute. âThey need to recover if you want results. Let them breathe.â
Taeyong doesnât respond immediately, but the tension between the two is palpable. Finally, he gives a curt nod, his jaw tight. âFive minutes,â he concedes, his tone making it clear he thinks itâs unnecessary.
The boys slump onto the benches or stretch out on the court, their exhaustion palpable. The gym is filled with the sound of labored breathing and the sharp sting of sweat-soaked air. Jeno leans toward Mark, sitting beside him, his elbow resting on his knee as he stares ahead, his jaw working like heâs searching for the right words.
Mark blinks, caught off guard by the proximity. Jeno hadnât been this close to him, let alone spoken to him with any warmth, in what felt like ages. Ever since the night of the party, heâd been distantâcold, clipped, and virtually nonexistent. The divide between them had loomed large, an unspoken chasm filled with bitterness and resentment. For weeks, Mark had resigned himself to the silence, letting the gap grow wider with each passing day.
Jeno shifts closer, his presence lingering in Markâs peripheral vision as he finally breaks the silence. âSo, howâs it going with Y/N?â he asks nonchalantly, his tone too casual to be genuine, like heâs testing the waters.
Markâs eyes narrow slightly as he turns to look at Jeno, his expression deadpan. Without a word, he scowls, his annoyance clear as he screws him off with a shake of his head. The silence between them stretches for a moment before Jeno finally leans back, undeterred, a knowing smirk playing on his lips.
And then, as if sensing the shift in the air, Jeno glances toward Taeyong, who stands near the edge of the court, clipboard in hand, his posture rigid. âThis guyâs gonna kill us,â Jeno says, his voice low but tinged with a rare, conspiratorial edge. His laugh is dry as he gestures subtly toward their father, who looks every bit the control freak he is, hunched over his notes with an intensity that borders on manic.
Markâs eyebrows furrow slightly, but he doesnât dwell on it. He plays along, responding like nothing had ever gone wrong. âYeah,â he mutters, wiping the sweat from his forehead and glancing toward Taeyong, who is hunched over his clipboard, scribbling with an intensity that feels borderline obsessive. âBut weâre not gonna let him.â
Jeno turns to him, a smirk tugging at the corners of his lips. âYou thinking what Iâm thinking?â
Mark mirrors the expression, his own smirk creeping up. âI may be thinking worse,â he replies, a quiet defiance in his voice. âYou know how much I hate that man.â
The shared admission hangs in the air for a moment, thick with unspoken solidarity.
Jenoâs smirk widens. âAlright, letâs do this.â
And with that, they begin planningâa silent rebellion disguised as teamwork. Their fatherâs stern commands and rigid rules? Ignored. Every play Taeyong demands? Subverted. Instead, they rely on what Coach Suh had always taught them, his strategies embedded in their muscle memory. The more they work together, the more their movements alignâfluid, synchronised, and completely at odds with everything Taeyong has demanded of them.
It feels good. Not just the act of defiance, but the ease of working alongside Jeno again. Mark glances at his brother and finds him already looking back, a rare glint of mischief in his eyes.
âYou ready?â Jeno asks, his voice barely audible over the chaos of the court.
Mark nods, the corner of his mouth twitching upward. âAlways.â
The plan unfolds with precisionâperfectly timed passes, unexpected plays, and a seamless understanding of each otherâs movements. Itâs everything Taeyong doesnât want, and itâs everything Coach Suh wouldâve praised. By the time the whistle blows, Mark and Jeno are laughing, nudging each other like nothing had ever been wrong between them. Itâs as if all the tension and resentment from before have dissolved into the sweat-soaked air.
Under the sharp glare of the gym lights, Taeyongâs expression darkened like a brewing storm. His clipboard was gripped tightly in one hand, the edge of the plastic digging into his palm, while the other rested firmly on his hip in a posture that radiated control and growing irritation. His jaw clenched, the muscle ticking visibly as his piercing eyes shifted between Mark and Jeno. The two of them, oblivious or simply uncaring, leaned into each other with quiet laughter, nudging shoulders like troublemakers whoâd just pulled off a perfect prank.
For a brief moment, Taeyong said nothing, his silence more cutting than any outburst. It hung heavily in the air, dragging everyoneâs attention toward him. Even those who hadnât witnessed the duoâs subtle rebellion could feel the intensity rolling off him in waves. When his voice finally broke the stillness, it was sharp and cold, slicing through the quiet like a blade.
âYou think this is funny?â he said, his tone low but deadly, each word deliberate and measured. His eyes narrowed, locking onto Mark and Jeno with the weight of unspoken authority, daring them to keep smiling. The warmth usually carried by Coach Suhâs presence was absent, replaced by something unyielding and unrelenting.
The rest of the team exchanged nervous glances, unsure whether to stay silent or step in, but the tension was too thick to cut through. Even Kun, who stood off to the side with a restrained sigh, seemed reluctant to intervene, his own disapproval clear in the subtle furrow of his brow.
When neither Mark nor Jeno offered a response, Taeyong clicked the pen on his clipboard with exaggerated finality and exhaled slowly through his nose. His displeasure wasnât just palpableâit was suffocating. Seeing Jeno laugh alongside Mark, his estranged brotherâafter everything Taeyong had drilled into him, every lesson about keeping distance, about loyalty to the family lineâwas a direct challenge to his authority.
Jeno had always been the obedient one, the son who followed orders, who understood the boundaries Taeyong had set. But now? Now, he was openly defying the very foundation Taeyong had laid, and it stung his ego like a raw wound. It wasnât just irritatingâit was a blow to his pride. He had spent years ensuring that Jeno understood his place, ensuring that the divide between him and Mark remained intact. Yet here they were, laughing and nudging each other like brothers who had never been torn apart by family politics and carefully planted resentment.
It was infuriating.
âJeno,â Taeyongâs voice cut through the gym like a whip, sharp and controlled. The laughter between Mark and Jeno faltered, the air shifting as they turned toward him, their expressions neutral but their postures guarded. âWhat exactly do you think youâre doing?â
Jenoâs jaw tightened slightly, but he didnât falter. âPlaying basketball,â he said sarcastically, his tone cool and unaffected.
The answer was like gasoline to a fire. Taeyongâs lips pressed into a thin line, his jaw ticking again as his gaze bore into Jeno. âPlaying basketball,â he repeated, his tone dripping with sarcasm. âIs that what you call deliberately ignoring every instruction Iâve given you?â
Jeno shrugged, the motion slow and deliberate, as if he were daring Taeyong to push further. âIt worked, didnât it? We scored.â
The audacity in Jenoâs response made Taeyongâs chest tighten, his breath catching as his ego took another hit. He shifted his attention to Mark, his expression colder now. âAnd you,â he snapped. âYou think this is some kind of joke? Youâre not here to improvise or show off. Youâre here to follow my system.â
Markâs defiance didnât waver. Instead, his lips curled into a sharp, humorless laugh that echoed through the gym. âWhat system?â he asked, his tone dripping with disdain. âYou think barking orders and running us into the ground is a system? Thatâs not a system. Thatâs just your ego talking.â
Taeyongâs eyes narrowed, his fingers tightening around the clipboard as if it was the only thing stopping him from snapping entirely. The room felt colder, the weight of his authority clashing against Markâs outright rebellion. âYou want to keep laughing?â Taeyong said, his voice dangerously low. âYou think youâre above this team? Above me?â
Mark didnât flinch. If anything, he squared his shoulders, refusing to let Taeyongâs presence intimidate him. His jaw tightened, the muscles in his neck tensing as he held his ground. When he spoke, his voice was low but deliberate, every word a dagger. âItâs not difficult to be above you.â
The room seemed to still, as if even the air itself had recoiled from Markâs words. A few teammates exchanged wide-eyed glances, some shifting uncomfortably on their feet. Even Jeno, who had been watching quietly, looked taken aback by the venom in Markâs tone.
Taeyong stepped in close, shoving a hand against Markâs chest, his palm colliding with a sharp, deliberate force. It wasnât just a gestureâit was a challenge. Markâs body tensed instantly, his instincts flaring as he shoved him back with both hands, his palms hitting Taeyongâs chest hard enough to send him stumbling a step. The sound of the contact echoed sharply through the gym, cutting through the silence like a slap. It was pure adrenalineâMark wasnât thinking, just reacting, his jaw clenched as he squared up.Â
Taeyong steadied himself, his grip tightening on his clipboard, but Mark stood firm, his shoulders rigid, his chest heaving. It was a move meant to assert, to say without words that he wouldnât be pushed around.Â
âYou donât scare me,â Mark said, his voice dangerously steady. His hand dropped back to his side as he took a deliberate step forward, forcing Taeyong to retreat slightly. âMarkâs voice was low but sharp, each word laced with years of pent-up frustration. âYouâve been throwing your weight around since I was a kid, acting like everything you say is gospel, like you can control every part of my life without being in it. But guess what? Iâm not that scared kid anymore.â
He took a step forward, his eyes locked on Taeyongâs with unflinching defiance. âThis team isnât about you and your bullshit need to prove something. Itâs bigger than your ego, and itâs sure as hell bigger than you.â His chest heaved, his anger palpable, but his voice remained steady, cutting through the tension like a blade. âIâve put up with this for long enough, and Iâm done standing for it.â
Taeyongâs face flushed with anger, his clipboard now gripped so tightly it looked like it might snap in half. He looked ready to respond, his lips parting, but before he could speak, the gym doors creaked open, the loud sound slicing through the tension like a blade.
Everyoneâs heads turned toward the door, the spell of confrontation broken. The interruption seemed to drain some of the heat from the moment, but Taeyongâs glare didnât waver as he stared Mark down one last time. Mark finally took a step back, his expression unreadable as he glanced toward the entrance. But the way his shoulders remained squared, his chin lifted, made one thing clear: he wasnât backing down, not now, not ever.
The gym doors swing open, and the cheerleaders spill in, their bright chatter slicing through the thick tension like a breath of fresh air. Mark barely notices them at firstâuntil he sees you. His breath falters, his heart stumbling in his chest. Youâre walking beside Karina, your heads close as you whisper and laugh about something heâll never be privy to. Itâs the sound of your laughter that pulls him in first, soft and melodic, but itâs the sight of you that leaves him rooted in place.
The gymâs fluorescent lights seem to bend to you, catching the subtle sheen of your legs, bare and endless beneath the short pleats of your cheer skirt. Each step you take is unhurried, confident, your hips swaying just enough to draw his gaze and hold it there. The fitted fabric of your top clings to your body, framing every curve in a way that makes it impossible for him to look away.
Your hair falls perfectly, brushing against your shoulders, catching the light as if itâs been kissed by it. The faint shimmer of your skinâwhether from the coolness of the autumn air or the rush of the walkâhas his chest tightening painfully. Thereâs something magnetic in the way you carry yourself, something so effortlessly sensual yet completely unintentional, and it drives him crazy.
And then thereâs your faceâsoft and radiant, your lips curved in an easy smile, your eyes sparkling with something private and untouchable as Karina leans in to say something that makes you laugh again. The sound twists something deep in his gut, equal parts longing and frustration.
You look carefree, so light and untethered, like nothing in the world could weigh you down. And yet, for Mark, the sight of you feels heavy, like every inch of space between you is a cruel reminder of just how far away you areâhow far youâve pulled yourself.
Mark bites his bottom lip, his gaze glued to you as he leans forward slightly, elbows resting on his knees. He groans softly under his breath, the sound low enough that only Jeno catches it. Jeno smirks, following Markâs gaze until it lands on you.
But you donât look back at Markânot even once. Despite how obvious it is that heâs checking you out, his gaze is steady and unrelenting, tracking you with an intensity that makes the air feel heavier. Every other cheerleaderâs eyes flick toward himâsome bold, others coyâbut itâs only you he sees. His focus never wavers, not for a single moment, and yet, you donât give him so much as a glance. Your indifference is sharp, deliberate, and it cuts deeper than heâd like to admit.
You walk past where he and Jeno sit on the bleachers, your chin held high, your stride deliberate. Your eyes are fixed ahead, your expression serene, your focus clearly somewhere else. Itâs as if heâs not even there. Like heâs invisible to you.
The indifference cuts deeper than Mark wants to admit. He swallows hard, his chest tightening as you pass, your scentâa soft, familiar blend of vanilla laced with a faint hint of jasmineâlingering in the air. His fingers curl against his thighs, a faint frustration simmering beneath his skin. He wants to call out to you, to break through the wall youâve built, but the way you carry yourself, so composed, so distant, makes him hesitate.
And when youâre gone, slipping into the crowd of cheerleaders like a dream he canât quite reach, the weight of your dismissal lingers, heavy and undeniable.
Jeno shifts uncomfortably, his voice quieter and more hesitant than usual. âWhat was that about? I thought you two wereâŚâ He trails off, his tone not quite neutralâthereâs an awkward edge to it, like heâs unsure if he should even be asking.
Mark exhales, rubbing the back of his neck. âYeah, we are,â he says, though the words feel more like an attempt to convince himself than Jeno. âSheâs just⌠confusing. Itâs fine, though. Weâll figure it out.â His voice falters slightly, the forced casualness betraying the tension heâs trying to hide.
Jeno doesnât push further, and neither does Mark. Instead, they turn their focus back to the game, the tension between them dissipating like it was never there. The conversation shifts seamlessly, their banter flowing like it used to. They joke, they laugh, and for a moment, it feels like the rift between them never existed.
Mark mutters something under his breath, a sly grin on his lips, and Jeno shakes his head, laughing softly. âYouâre so full of shit,â Jeno says, but thereâs no bite in his toneâonly familiarity. Mark grins wider, passing the ball back to him with an ease that feels effortless, natural.
And with that, Mark turns to Jeno and the two of them start talking as if everything was okay. Because maybe it was. Maybe a reconciliation didnât have to be a massive thing, full of apologies and explanations. Maybe it was enough that they could stand shoulder to shoulder, passing a ball back and forth, falling into their usual rhythm without a second thought. They were brothers, after all. Arguing and falling apart came just as naturally as making up like nothing had happened.
Their jokes and laughter carried across the gym, and for the first time in what felt like ages, the air between them wasnât heavy. It was light. Easy. And it was all the more meaningful because of who was watching.
Still, Mark couldnât fully shake the other layer to all of thisâthe revelation that had simmered beneath his anger since the party. It wasnât just about how Jeno had spoken to you, though that had been enough to make Mark snap. It was the unspoken truth that Jeno had been fucking his best friend behind his back. The secrecy of it all had gnawed at Mark, not just because of Jenoâs actions but because it was something deeply personal between Mark and herâa situation he hadnât even begun to address yet.
He found the whole thing strange, almost surreal, but there was a part of him that knew he needed to let it go. For now, at least. The wounds between him and his best friend were still raw, her texts unanswered and her attempts to reach out met with silence. That was a bridge he wasnât ready to cross yet. But Jeno? Mark could find it in himself to put that aside, even if the situation still felt unresolved. Because their bond, flawed and complicated as it was, mattered too much to hold onto grudges.
Taeyong stood off to the side, his knuckles whitening as he watched the two of them reconnect right in front of him. The disdain and anger in his eyes burned with an intensity he didnât bother to mask. This wasnât how it was supposed to be. Jeno, his prodigal son, had no business finding common ground with Mark.
But Mark and Jeno didnât notice. Or maybe they just didnât care. They were too absorbed in their own brotherly bond, the way they nudged each other and smirked like nothing else in the world mattered. For once, the weight of Taeyongâs presence wasnât enough to fracture them. And as their laughter filled the gym, Taeyongâs bitterness only deepened, the cracks in his control spreading wider with every easy grin they exchanged.
What Mark doesnât notice is the way your eyes find him, no matter how hard you try to keep them elsewhere. You tell yourself not to look, to focus on anything elseâthe cheer routine, Karinaâs chatter, the gymâs polished floorâbut the pull is magnetic, impossible to resist. Itâs unfair, really, how effortlessly he draws your attention, even when you know you shouldnât give it. Even now, as he laughs with Jeno, his shoulders shaking lightly, thereâs a weight in his expression that you recognize all too well, one that feels like a reflection of your own.
Your gaze lingers longer than it should, tracing the curve of his smile, the way his hand casually shoves Jenoâs shoulder. Theyâre nudging each other like brothers again, their bond seemingly as strong as ever. Your chest tightens painfully at the sight, your throat constricting around the thought that wonât leave you alone: Of course they made up after you pulled away. The bitterness of it is sharp, cutting into the ache already rooted in your chest. Was you the thorn all along?
The confusion twists through you as much as the ache. What? The last time you saw them together, they werenât like this. You remember the tension so vividlyâthe clenched fists, the sharp glares, the words spat between them. Theyâd barely been able to look at each other, let alone work together on the court. The memory of their fightâthe way they came to blowsâsits heavily in your chest. How had they gone from that to this? Itâs not jealousy, you tell yourself, not exactly. But the suddenness of their reconciliation only adds to the feeling that you were the problem, the piece that didnât fit in their puzzle. They donât need you. They never did.
Thereâs a bittersweet comfort in seeing them like this. Youâve always known they deserved this closeness, this bond, free of the tension your presence seemed to create. But even as that relief blooms faintly, itâs crushed by the suffocating thought that you were the reason they drifted apart in the first place, that their happiness was stifled by your existence in the space between them.
And yet, somewhere in the depth of that ache, thereâs a flicker of something elseâhope, faint and fragile, like the embers of a fire you know you shouldnât stoke. Itâs selfish, you know that. To cling to the possibility of repair when you were the one who broke it in the first place. The hope feels undeserved, almost cruel, because youâre the reason the distance exists. You pulled away, you created the gap, and now here you are, daring to wish it wasnât there.
You tell yourself itâs ridiculous, but itâs impossible to ignore the small moments that feed it. The way Markâs eyes scan the room, like heâs searching for someone he doesnât realize is already watching him. The fleeting pause in his laughter, the way his smile falters for just a second when his gaze brushes past you. Itâs selfish to think it means anything. Selfish to believe that after all the pushing, all the walls youâve built, heâs still holding on.
You stay frozen, rooted to the spot, unable to move toward him, but also unable to look away. The hope is a contradiction, a double-edged swordâit soothes and stings in equal measure. Because deep down, you know the truth: you brought this on yourself. You created the distance, and now, watching him laugh with Jeno, seeing the bond you convinced yourself youâd fractured somehow repair itself, you realise just how heavy that truth is. But even as guilt presses down on you, the flicker of hope remains, fragile but stubborn. Maybe itâs not too late. Maybe you havenât ruined everything. But the thought only twists the knife further, because youâre not sure if you deserve the chance to find out.
Karina nudges you lightly, her voice pulling you out of your spiraling thoughts. âYou okay?â she asks softly, her tone unusually gentle.
You nod quickly, forcing a smile that doesnât quite reach your eyes. âYeah,â you mutter, your voice barely audible over the noise of the gym.
But Karina doesnât buy it. Her gaze follows yours, narrowing slightly when she sees whereâor rather, whoâyouâre looking at. âYouâre staring at him like heâs a ghost.â
Your chest tightens at her words, and you shake your head, trying to dismiss it. âIâm not,â you insist, though the crack in your voice betrays you. âItâs just⌠it makes me happy knowing he and Jeno have somehow made up. It just hurts that it had to happen when I removed myself from the equation.â You sigh, glancing down at your shoes as the words settle in. âI wish Jeno would let me talk to him.â
Karina doesnât hesitate. âIâm sure Mark wouldâve made up with Jeno if you hadnât kept the distance too,â she says, her tone sharp but not unkind.
You glance back at Mark, unable to stop yourself. Heâs leaning against the bleachers now, his head tilted back slightly as he laughs at something Jeno said. He looks so at ease, so untouched by the chaos thatâs been consuming you. And for a moment, you wonder if you made the right choice. Maybe he really is better off without you, without the mess you bring into his life.
But then, as if sensing your gaze, Mark glances in your direction. The moment your eyes meet, your heart skips a beat. His laughter falters, his expression shifting into something softer, something unreadable. Itâs like heâs waiting for you to say something, to do somethingâanything. But you canât. You break eye contact almost immediately, turning away as if the connection never happened.
Markâs stomach sinks as he watches you turn back to Karina, your body language closed off, your attention focused elsewhere. The pain in his chest is sharp, but he masks it with a sigh, running a hand through his damp hair.
âShe looked at you,â Jeno says quietly, his tone more neutral than accusatory but still laced with curiosity. âWhy didnât you go talk to her?â
Mark shakes his head, his jaw tightening. âShe doesnât want to talk to me,â he mutters, frustration edging into his voice. âEvery time I try, she pulls away.â
Jeno studies him for a moment, his brows furrowing in thought. âYou sure? Because from where Iâm standing, it looks like sheâs hurting just as much as you are.â
Mark doesnât respond immediately. His eyes flicker back to you, his chest tightening as he watches you laugh at something Karina said. The sound of your laughter should bring him relief, but all it does is remind him of how far away you feel. âDoesnât matter,â he says finally, his voice barely above a whisper. âSheâs not letting me in.â
Jeno leans back against the bleachers, sighing. âShe can be an idiot sometimes,â he says, his tone softening. âSheâs just trying to push you away because itâs too real and sheâs scared, you know that, right?â
Mark huffs a quiet laugh, though thereâs no humor in it. âYeah,â he mutters, his gaze still fixed on you. âI know.â Mark furrowed his eyebrows, his lips curling into a sarcastic smirk. âI guess you know best,â he said dryly, his tone laced with playful scepticism. âYou were the guy who was with her during our teenage years up to now, after all.â
Jeno cringed visibly, scrunching his nose at the reminder. The relationship he once shared with you was a distant memory, one both of you had mutually chosen to forget. âEugh, donât remind me,â he muttered, shaking his head like he was trying to physically erase the thought.
âWe were together for so long, but I still feel like I barely know her,â he admitted, his voice tinged with something between amusement and resignation. âI donât know her as well as you do, thatâs for sure. I donât even know her favourite colour or her favourite food.â
âBlack and sushi,â Mark answered without hesitation, his tone calm and confident, as if he couldnât imagine a world where he didnât know.
Jeno raised an eyebrow, leaning back with a smirk. âAll I ever knew was how she liked to be fucked and her favorite position.â
Mark winced visibly, his jaw tightening, but before he could respond, Jeno continued, unable to resist pushing further. âDoggy,â he said confidently.
âMissionary,â Mark shot back at the exact same time, his voice firm.
The room went still for a beat, the words hanging awkwardly in the air before Jeno blinked in surprise. âWait, seriously? Missionary?â
Mark crossed his arms, his lips pressing into a tight line. âYeah,â he said, his tone clipped. âBut she likes every way I fuck her.â His voice carried a hint of defiance, but the statement sent an unbidden wave of heat through him. Images flashed in his mindâyour hands gripping his shoulders, the way youâd gasp his name, the softness of your skin under his touch. His throat tightened, and he had to shift in place to shake off the restless ache building in his chest.
He really fucking missed you. The thought was a punch to his gut, raw and unrelenting, making it harder to mask the tension that had settled into his entire frame. Mark clenched his jaw, refusing to let Jenoâor anyoneâsee just how much he was unravelling without you.
Jenoâs smirk faltered for a moment before he let out a low laugh, his tone light but deliberately provoking. âTouchĂŠ,â he said, leaning back like he was letting Mark win that round. But the glint in his eyes gave him awayâhe wasnât done.
Seeing the way Mark shifted uncomfortably, Jeno leaned forward with a teasing grin, his voice dripping with mock curiosity. âBit weird though, isnât it? Being so obsessed with my ex-girlfriend?â It was a jab meant to wind Mark up, not something Jeno actually believed anymore. His smirk widened as he watched Markâs jaw tighten, clearly reveling in how much he could push his buttons. It wasnât seriousâJeno didnât care anymore, not reallyâbut he couldnât resist stirring the pot. Old habits died hard.
Mark didnât flinch, his expression steady as his eyes met Jenoâs. âSheâs my girlfriend now,â he said firmly, his voice unwavering, a quiet but unmistakable declaration of where he stood.
Jeno raised an eyebrow, leaning back slightly as his smirk widened. âDoes she know that?â he asked, his tone laced with mock curiosity, clearly trying to provoke a reaction.
Markâs lips twitched into a faint, knowing smile as he replied, âTouchĂŠ.â But there was no humour in his voice, just a simmering frustration beneath the surface.
Jeno scoffed, leaning back against the bleachers with a faint chuckle, his words testing the waters more than anything. âI bet I already know the answer, but if I were to tell you I didnât want you to get with her, what would you do?â
Markâs response was immediate, his tone casual but firm. âI wouldnât listen to you.â
Jeno tilted his head, his smirk faint but deliberate. âYeah, figured as much. Youâve never cared what I think when it comes to her, have you?â
Mark didnât rise to the bait, his lips pressing into a thin line as his gaze dropped for a moment. âNo,â he admitted honestly. âI havenât.â
Jeno laughed dryly, crossing his arms as he let out a small sigh. âThatâs what I thought. Not that it matters or changes anything, but you have my full blessing to make her yours. Donât feel guilty anymore. And Iâll talk to her too,â he added, his tone softening slightly. âI think she feels guilty. I donât know why though. Sheâs very confusing and difficult to understand.â
Markâs lips curved into a faint smile, and he nodded. âThanks, man. That means a lot.â But they both knew, deep down, that Mark would have tried with or without Jenoâs so-called blessing. His voice dropped a little lower, his tone calm but confident. âSheâs already mine though.â Â
âBut yeah,â Mark continued after a pause, his voice quieter but sure, âI think you have to talk to her. Sheâs the one who needs your blessing, not me.â
Jenoâs voice was quieter now, more introspective as he said, âAlso, Iâm sorry about all the stuff Iâve said beforeâabout you wanting my life. I know that was never your intention. It just⌠stung. When it came out that youâd been sneaking around with her, it hurt my ego. I guess I kept accusing you of wanting my life because it made me feel like the victim. It made it easier to stay angry. Made it simpler to push the blame somewhere else.â
Markâs nod was measured, his gaze steady on Jeno as he let the words settle between them. âItâs okay, man,â he said quietly, his voice calm but resolute. âI donât want your life. I never have.â He paused, the weight of the moment pressing down on him as he chose his next words carefully. âAnd for what itâs worth, the only reason she wanted to keep things quiet was to give herself time to figure it all out. It wasnât ever malicious or about wanting to hurt you.â
Jeno exhaled sharply, the sound falling somewhere between a laugh and a sigh as he shook his head. âYeah, I get that now,â he admitted, his voice quieter, almost contemplative. He glanced at Mark, his expression softening. âBut you know I still care about Y/N, right? I thought we were on good terms nowâbetter than weâve ever been, actually.â
Mark tilted his head slightly, listening as Jeno continued, his voice more vulnerable than before. âI see her as someone whoâs seen me at my worst, someone Iâve made it a point to be honest with. Thatâs why it hurts. Not because she chose you or whatever, but because she wasnât honest with me about it. Thatâs what stung the most. It felt⌠disrespectful.â
Markâs jaw tightened, but his voice remained steady, deliberate. âIt wasnât about disrespecting you. She feels like everything is on herâkeeping the peace, making sure no one gets hurt. She carries that weight constantly. She was scared of how youâd react, and honestly, I didnât want to push her into anything she wasnât ready for.â
Jeno tilted his head slightly, frowning as he processed Markâs words. âI get that,â he said finally, his tone thoughtful. âBut for the record, my anger was never about jealousy. It wasnât about thinking Y/N was âmine,â because I know sheâs notâand she never was. Not when we were together, and definitely not now. I just⌠I guess I felt blindsided, and I hated how it made me look.â
Markâs expression didnât falter. His response was calm, steady, but there was an unmistakable edge of possessiveness in his tone. âYeah, well, sheâs mine.â His words were simple, but they carried a weight that left no room for argument.
Jenoâs smirk faltered slightly, his expression shifting to something softerâmore thoughtful. After a moment, he shook his head again, this time with a hint of resignation. âYouâre a stubborn bastard, you know that?â
Markâs lips twitched into the faintest smile. âYeah. And I love her. Thatâs not changing.â
Jeno didnât say anything for a moment, his gaze flickering toward the court. âWell,â he said finally, his tone quieter but still tinged with teasing, âgood luck fixing things, lover boy. Youâll need it.â
Mark nodded, his gaze drifting toward the gym doors where you had disappeared moments ago. âI know,â he said softly, more to himself than to Jeno.
âWhy donât you talk to her now?â Jeno asks, his gaze shifting across the gym to where you and Karina stand on the other side, your heads close as you talk.
Mark exhales heavily, running a hand through his damp hair. âI canât,â he mutters, his tone laced with frustration. âLook, sheâs already leaving. She notices Iâm in the same place or room as her, and then sheâll just⌠go the other way, avoid me completely.â
Jeno doesnât respond immediately, watching as Karina turns her head, trying to be subtle as she glances toward him and Mark. Her brows knit together in confusion before she leans toward you, whispering something. Whatever she says, it makes your expression tighten, your movements slightly more rushed as you gather your things to leave.
Karinaâs voice is low but full of intrigue as she murmurs to you, âTheyâre actually getting along. Laughing and smiling. What the fuck happened?â Her tone makes it clear she canât quite believe the sight of Mark and Jeno talking like old friends.
You hum softly, your lips pulling into a small, strained smile. âIâm glad they are,â you reply, though the tightness in your voice betrays your words.
Karinaâs sharp eyes flick back to you, and a mischievous glint sparks to life. She leans closer, her voice dropping into a teasing, sultry mimic. âTheyâre talking about you,â she whispers dramatically, fluttering her lashes for effect. Her voice dips lower, full of exaggerated lust as she mimics what she believes Mark was saying. âOh, I want to put my hands under Y/Nâs skirt, I want her to bounce on my cock, God, I want to be inside her.â
âShut up,â you hiss, your cheeks burning as you bite down on your bottom lip, trying and failing to suppress the laugh bubbling up. You give her a playful shove, your eyes darting to see if anyone heard. The way she grins at your flustered reaction only makes the heat crawl higher up your neck.
âYouâre going to have to face him eventually, you know,â Karina says as she glances at you out of the corner of her eye, her voice matter-of-fact but not unkind.
âI know,â you murmur, the words barely audible over the thrum of your own heartbeat.
But knowing doesnât make it easier. The gym doors swing shut behind you, and the crisp autumn air hits your face, biting at your skin and pulling you back into reality. The chill settles into your bones, but itâs nothing compared to the cold thatâs rooted itself in your chest. As much as you try to ignore it, you canât stop wondering if youâve already lost him. If the space youâve created between you and Mark isnât something that can ever be bridged again.
The thought twists in your stomach, leaving a bitter taste in your mouth. Part of you wants to turn around, to go back into the gym and tell him everything. Every fear, every insecurity, every truth youâve been too afraid to say aloud. But your feet keep moving forward, carrying you further and further away.
Away from him.
Away from the only person whoâs ever made you feel truly whole.
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The energy in the gymnasium was electric, a sea of cheers and jubilant screams filling the space as the final whistle blew. The Seoul Ravens had won, securing their place in the state championship finals. The players were elated, their smiles wide and their bodies slack with relief as they exchanged high-fives and celebratory embraces. The cheerleaders mirrored the excitement, jumping and clapping in unison. Even the crowd buzzed with energy, their voices loud enough to rattle the rafters.
Despite the atmosphere of celebration, Taeyong stood on the sidelines, his expression hard and unsmiling. His clipboard was tucked tightly under his arm as he surveyed the scene with thinly veiled irritation. It was no surprise when his sharp whistle cut through the revelry, silencing the cheers like a guillotine. The players hesitated, their smiles faltering as he barked, âEveryone, circle up. Now.â
The team reluctantly shuffled into a huddle, their happiness evaporating under Taeyongâs stern glare. Even Assistant Coach Kun looked uneasy, his hand instinctively clutching the whistle around his neck as if debating whether to intervene. Taeyong wasted no time launching into a tirade, his voice sharp and unforgiving.
âThat was not the game I wanted from you,â he snapped, pacing around the group like a predator circling its prey. âSure, you won. But how many of you actually followed the plays I called? Huh? Jeno, what was that sloppy rebound in the second quarter? And Markââhis eyes darted toward his sonââhow many times do I have to tell you to stop improvising out there? You think youâre some kind of hero?â
Markâs jaw tightened, his gaze fixed on the floor, while Jenoâs lips pressed into a thin line. The rest of the team exchanged uncomfortable glances, their earlier joy now replaced with tension. Even the cheerleaders, still lingering near the court, watched with unease, their whispers hushed as Taeyong continued.
Before the mood could sour further, a voice from the crowd cut through the tension like a blade. âAlright, Taeyong, thatâs enough.â
All eyes turned to see Doyoung making his way down from the bleachers, his expression calm but firm. His presence alone seemed to shift the energy in the room. âLet them celebrate. They earned this win.â
Taeyongâs eyes narrowed, his jaw tightening. âStay out of this, Doyoung,â he hissed. âYouâre not the one coaching this team.â
âNo, but I am the one who knows how to recognize a victory when I see one,â Doyoung shot back, his tone steady but unyielding. âYouâre killing their morale, and for what? Because you didnât get your way? Let them enjoy this.â
The tension between the brothers was palpable, a heavy weight that seemed to fill the space between them. From your place near the sidelines, you narrowed your eyes, watching the way they squared off like two sides of the same coinâone cold and rigid, the other warm but firm. Your gaze shifted, almost instinctively, to Mark and Jeno. The sight of them laughing quietly to themselves, seemingly unfazed by the drama, made your chest tighten.
Two generations of brothers, you thought, so different and yet so eerily similar. But unlike Taeyong and Doyoung, Mark and Jeno were trying. Whatever rift had existed between them seemed to be healing, their laughter a stark contrast to the animosity their father and uncle displayed.
Kun stepped out from the shadows, his face etched with exhaustion as he unclipped the lanyard from his neck. The whistle swung lightly at the end as he approached Doyoung, holding it out along with the clipboard. His movements were deliberate, his shoulders heavy with the weight of the decision he was making.
âYou take my place and temporarily become the assistant coach,â Kun said, his voice a mix of pleading and quiet authority. He paused, glancing toward Taeyong, who stood rigid in the background, his presence casting a long shadow over the team. âI canât be here without Coach Suh⌠Taeyong is too much.â
Doyoung chuckled softly, the sound light but tinged with understanding as he accepted the clipboard. âI donât have any experience,â he said, his brow furrowing slightly as he looked down at the notes scrawled across the board.
Kun shook his head firmly, his expression softening but his tone resolute. âYouâll be great,â he said, his eyes filled with a quiet hope that Doyoung would agree.
Doyoung hesitated only a moment before nodding. His fingers tightened around the board, his gaze flickering briefly to Taeyong, whose stern eyes bore into him from across the court. But he didnât flinch. You could tell heâd already made his decisionânot because he wanted the role, but because he knew it was necessary.
He wasnât here for glory or recognition. He was here because he was the only one who could stand up to his younger brotherâs cruelty and unchecked authority. He could safeguard the team, make sure they werenât trampled under Taeyongâs oppressive rule. Doyoung would be their protector, their buffer, ensuring they could win the state championships without sacrificing their spiritsâor their well-beingâin the process.
It didnât take long for Doyoung to step into the role. âAlright, guys,â he called out, addressing the team with a tone that was both authoritative and encouraging. âGo celebrate. Party tonight. Have funâbut be safe. You deserve it after how hard you worked out there.â
The gym erupted in cheers, clapping, and laughter as everyone celebrated the hard-fought win. You stood on the sidelines, your arms crossed tightly over your chest, wondering when youâd finally get to go home. The energy in the room was contagious, but you felt like a spectator in your own life, caught between the celebration and your own swirling thoughts.
Chenle moved through the crowd of cheerleaders, hugging them one by one. When he reached you, his arms wrapped around you in a brief, polite gesture. But his eyes⌠they didnât quite meet yours. They were disconnected, distant, as though he were going through the motions rather than acknowledging you. It earned a sad gulp from you, your throat tightening as the reality of it sank in. Of course. It made senseâChenle was one of Markâs closest friends. His loyalty wasnât with you. Not anymore.
And then you saw Jeno.
Your body froze instinctively, your heart pounding in your chest as he strode toward you, his grin wide and his energy infectious. For a moment, you thought heâd walk past you entirely, but instead, he stopped in front of you, his expression still bright from the win. Before you could react, he wrapped an arm around you, pulling you into a tight, warm hug.
It was quickâtoo quick for you to even process it. Almost thoughtless, like he hadnât even realized who he was hugging. Just a gesture born out of the adrenaline and joy of the moment. And just as suddenly as it started, it ended. Jeno moved on, his focus shifting as he hugged the rest of his teammates and cheerleaders with the same enthusiasm.
But you couldnât move.
You swallowed hard, your chest tightening as you tried to remind yourself it meant nothing. He was happy, caught up in the win, and you were just another person in the room. But the ghost of his touch lingered, curling around you like a bittersweet reminder of what used to be. It gave you a false sense of hope you couldnât quite shake, no matter how much you told yourself otherwise.
As the celebration continued, your gaze drifted back to Mark. He was standing near the centre of the court, his grin wide as he laughed at something one of his teammates said. He looked so at ease, so alive in a way that made your heart ache. Basketball had always been his sanctuary, the place where he found belonging and joy. Seeing him like this, so genuinely happy, reminded you why youâd fallen for him in the first place.
But as your eyes lingered, you noticed the exhaustion etched into his features. Youâd seen it during the gameâthe way he pushed himself harder than anyone else, the way his breaths came too fast, too shallow. He was panting, struggling to keep up even as he gave everything he had. A pang of worry settled in your chest, the weight of it almost unbearable.
As if on cue, Taeyong appeared at your side, his hand gripping your wrist before you could step away. His smile was sharp, his eyes glinting with a mix of malice and triumph. âIâm sure youâre as worried about your boyfriend as I am about my son,â he said smoothly, his tone sending a shiver down your spine.
Your brow furrowed, unease prickling at the back of your neck. âWhat are you talking about?â you asked warily.
Taeyongâs smirk widened. âYou noticed it, didnât you? How out of breath he was, how heâs been struggling to keep up. Thatâs not just exhaustion. Thatâs something else entirely.â
âWhat?â The word slipped out before you could stop it, a mix of disbelief and fear lacing your tone. You didnât trust himâhe was manipulative, always twisting the truth to suit his narrative. But there was something in his voice, something almost too genuine, that made your stomach drop.
âMy poor son,â Taeyong drawled, his voice dripping with mock sympathy. âDidnât inherit my good looks, my brains, or my fortune. No, he had to inherit my heart condition. What a shame thatâs the only thing he got from me.â
Your mouth went dry, your pulse quickening as you stared at him. âYouâre lying,â you said, though your voice lacked conviction.
Taeyong chuckled darkly, his grip on your wrist tightening. âOh, honey, trust me. I know the signs. Iâve lived with hypertrophic cardiomyopathy since I was a teenager. I know what it looks like, and I know how it feels. Markâs reckless, overly ambitious, pushing himself too far. Sound familiar?â
HCM. Your mind raced, fragments of memories piecing togetherâhis panting breaths during the game, the way he seemed to push himself to the brink without hesitation. A cold wave of fear washed over you as Taeyong leaned in closer.
âHeâs not taking his medication,â he said, his voice dropping to a conspiratorial whisper. âHe wouldnât be allowed to play the full game if he was. But he doesnât care, does he? Heâs willing to risk his life just to stay on that court. What a waste.â
The words hit you like a blow to the chest, your knees threatening to give out as the weight of his revelation settled over you. You didnât want to believe him, didnât want to give him the satisfaction. But the doubt had already taken root, and Taeyongâs smirk told you he knew it.
You tried to steady your breathing, but the panic was overwhelming. The thought of Markâyour Markâpushing himself to the edge without a care for his own safety was too much to bear. Taeyongâs victory was evident in the way his eyes gleamed, his goal achieved: planting seeds of doubt and division where there was already a fragile foundation.
And as you stood there, shaking and guilt-ridden, you couldnât help but feel like youâd already failed him.
You stood frozen, your eyes locked onto Markâs across the gym. Your breath hitched, your nails digging into your palms hard enough to leave crescents in your skin. The overwhelming weight of anger and fear tangled together inside you, rendering you immobile. Was it justified? How angry yet terrified you felt? You werenât so sure.Â
Karinaâs worried voice snapped you back into reality. âHey! Hey!â She clapped her hands sharply in front of your face, her tone teasing, though her eyes searched yours with genuine concern. âWhatâs up with you? You look like youâre about to explode or something.â
You gritted your teeth, a shaky breath escaping as you muttered, âGive me one good reason not to go over to Mark right now, Karina. It has to be good, or Iâm going to drag him out of here andâfuck.â You cut yourself off, realizing how ridiculous you sounded. You couldnât explain the real reason, not to Karina. Mark clearly didnât want anyone to know about his HCM.
Karina raised an eyebrow, clearly intrigued. âUm⌠I mean, look at all those girls surrounding him, batting their eyelashes and practically throwing themselves at him. Aisha, Mia, Yejiâhonestly, I wouldnât blame you ifââ
âShut up.â You grabbed her hand and pulled her out of the gym as fast as you could, your heart pounding. You didnât dare look back. Her words rang true; the girls were all over him, their touches lingering, their voices sickly sweet. Mark didnât seem fazed by the attention, but that almost made it worse.
The image of Aisha running her fingers through her hair while leaning into his space made your blood boil. Yejiâs loud laugh at something heâd said echoed in your mind, and Miaâs hand brushing his arm lingered in your periphery like a thorn. You hated how possessive you felt, hated how your emotions clawed at you. You couldnât tell Karina the other reason for your spiralling thoughtsâthe worry about Markâs healthâbut the jealousy alone was enough to leave you shaking.
âYouâre being really weird,â Karina muttered as you dragged her to the car, her tone carrying a mix of amusement and exasperation. It felt like the tenth time sheâd told you that this week, and her steps quickened to match your frantic pace.
You exhaled sharply, gripping your keys. âDistract me,â you muttered, trying to push the images of Mark surrounded by all those girls out of your head. âYou need to distract me, Rina.â
Karinaâs eyes lit up, a mischievous grin spreading across her face. âYou remember whatâs tomorrow, right?â She wiggled her eyebrows as though her enthusiasm might be infectious.
You groaned. âNo,â you muttered, dreading the answer. Knowing Karina, it was bound to be some exhausting social event. You were exhausted.Â
âThe Boy Toy Auction!â she exclaimed, clapping her hands in delight. Her excitement was palpable, and before you could even protest, she was already pulling up the location on her phone. âCome on, we need to hit the mall. The gala is soon too, we canât show up looking basicâwe need dresses. Expensive ones.â Her grin was practically ear-to-ear, clearly relishing the idea of dragging you along for the ride.
âWhatâs that again? The Boy Toy auction?â you asked, the name ringing a faint bell, though it sounded ridiculous.
Karina gasped, feigning offense. âYou donât remember? Weâve been to, like, ten of them! Itâs the event where the boys on the basketball team get auctioned off to raise money. This year, itâs for Coach Suhâs surgery. Plus, thereâs a bonus this timeâwhoever wins the bid gets to be their date for the gala.â
The car was barely parked when Karina unbuckled her seatbelt with the energy of someone on a mission. âCome on,â she urged, practically dragging you out. Her enthusiasm was relentless, and before you knew it, the two of you were stepping into the grand expanse of the mall.
Your groan deepened as the sleek glass doors slid open, revealing the bright, bustling interior. High ceilings adorned with chandeliers stretched above rows of luxurious boutiques, the scent of freshly brewed coffee from a nearby cafĂŠ mingling with the faint hint of expensive perfume. The sheer extravagance of it all only made you more aware of how much Karina was about to make you spend.
âThis is ridiculous,â you muttered, but Karinaâs infectious excitement was already pulling you in as she looped her arm through yours, her eyes scanning the stores like a hawk ready to strike.
The shopping mall was a cathedral of excess. Glass-fronted boutiques stretched along gleaming marble floors, their displays adorned with mannequins draped in sequins, satin, and velvet. The hum of soft jazz music played overhead, mingling with the low chatter of shoppers and the faint click of heels on tile. Chandeliers hung from high ceilings, casting a golden glow over everything.
Karina wasted no time dragging you into the first boutique. âWe need to find the perfect gown,â she declared, her eyes scanning racks of shimmering fabrics.
âPerfect for what?â you muttered, though you couldnât deny the small thrill of anticipation that stirred in your chest.
âFor making every guy at the gala regret not bidding on us,â Karina teased, shooting you a wink.
You rolled your eyes but followed her deeper into the store, your fingers brushing over silks and tulles. You tried on dress after dress, each one more extravagant than the last. A mermaid gown in deep red hugged your curves but felt too bold. A black off-the-shoulder number made you feel like a movie star but was too heavy for dancing.
âTry this one,â Karina said, holding up a floor-length gown in emerald green with a daring thigh-high slit. The fabric sparkled subtly under the lights, catching the gold of the chandelier above.
You stepped into the changing room, the soft carpet underfoot muffling your movements as you slipped into the gown. The cool fabric slid over your skin like water, and when you looked in the mirror, you barely recognized yourself.
Karina gasped when you stepped out. âThatâs it,â she said, clasping her hands together. âYouâre buying it.â
After what felt like hours, you both emerged from the final boutique, each of you clutching garment bags that contained your chosen gowns. Karina had settled on a deep midnight blue dress with a plunging neckline, while yours was the emerald green masterpiece.
âAnd these,â Karina said, holding up a pair of lacy lingerie sets sheâd bought for both of you.
You raised an eyebrow, your lips quivering into a small smile. âI have no one to show this to.â
Karina shrugged, unfazed, her lips curling into a playful smirk. âNeither do I. But if we donât end up moaning like bitches in heat at the end of gala night, Iâll invite you over, and we can show each other our lingerie. We deserve the attention anywayâlook at us, weâre hot.â
You raised an eyebrow, a teasing smile tugging at your lips. âWhat makes you think I can wait until gala night to see you in it?â
Karina gasped, placing a hand dramatically over her chest. âY/N, are you trying to seduce me?â
You laughed, shoving her lightly. âMaybe I am. Can you blame me?â
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The hall was alive with anticipation, the dim, golden lights wrapping the space in a warm, luxurious glow. Grand chandeliers hung from the ceiling, their crystals shimmering like stars above the polished floors that gleamed with every step. Crimson curtains framed the stage at the front, their velvety folds brushing against the polished wood, and the faint outline of figures moving behind them only added to the buzz of excitement. Long tables draped in white cloth were scattered with bidding paddles and flutes of champagne, the delicate clinking sound adding an elegant backdrop to the chaos.
Bursts of laughter and animated voices filled the air, a symphony of energy that seemed to amplify the thrill in the room. Groups of students crowded together, some perched on chairs for a better view, others leaning casually against the walls. The cheerleaders occupied a prominent corner near the stage, their polished appearances catching the light as they whispered and giggled. The crowdâs collective focus shifted with every sound of the microphone, each small noise a prelude to the next act. The tension was palpable, a blend of excitement and competition that charged the air.
The faint hum of music played softly in the background, an almost teasing addition to the grandeur of the event. The room itself seemed alive, every detailâfrom the ornate golden trim along the walls to the opulent floral arrangements at the entranceâspeaking to the prestige of the evening. It wasnât just an auction; it was a celebration of excess and spectacle, and everyone there felt like they were part of something bigger than just the bidding wars ahead.
You stood near the back, you were supposed to be mingling with the other cheerleaders, but you couldnât bring yourself to tolerate those fake bitches right now. Your arms were crossed tightly, a defensive posture as Karina chattered excitedly beside you, her energy a sharp contrast to your own reluctance. You didnât want to be hereânot for the auction, not for the glitzy events that would follow, and definitely not for the incessant hum of curiosity surrounding you. But Karina had insisted. As a cheerleader, attendance at these events was non-negotiable. Appearances were everything, after all, even when you felt like fading into the background entirely.
âThis is gonna be a couple of draining weeks,â you muttered under your breath.
Karina laughed, nudging you playfully as if trying to lighten your mood. You were part of a college that thrived on being over the top, you thought bitterly. Boy Toy Auction, gala, state championships⌠Whatâs next? A surprise masquerade ball? A fireworks display in someoneâs honour? The endless string of events felt particularly draining, each one tugging at your already dwindling energy and making you question why you bothered keeping up appearances at all.
You sighed, your gaze sweeping across the crowd. The Boy Toy Auction was infamousâa ridiculous tradition where the basketball teamâs players were âauctionedâ off to the highest bidders. Winning meant you could take the guy home for the night and that he had to be your date for the gala. It was ridiculous, borderline cringeworthy, but it raised a lot of money for the school and its causes. This year, the proceeds were going toward Coach Suhâs recovery fund after his surgery.
As if on cue, Coach Suhâs familiar voice boomed through the microphone. âGood evening, everyone!â he greeted, his energy cutting through the noise. The crowd erupted into cheers, some standing and clapping as he waved from the stage. âNo, Iâm not fully back yet,â he continued, grinning at the applause. âStill on the mend, but I couldnât miss this night. You all know how much I love the Boy Toy Auction!â
The hall laughed, the mood lightening even further. Karina clapped beside you, her smile wide as Coach Suh went on.
âNow,â he said, glancing down at his clipboard, âyou all know the drill. Each of these fine gentlemen will come up here, and youâll have the chance to bid on them. Remember, the winner not only gets to take them home but also gets to take them to the gala. Letâs make this a night to remember, and letâs raise some serious money!â
The crowd erupted into cheers again as the first boy was called up.
Chenle was first, bounding onto the stage with his signature boyish charm. Dressed in a jersey and basketball shorts, he incorporated his love for basketball into his routine, dribbling expertly before tossing a perfect shot into the small hoop set up at the back of the stage. The crowd went wild, cheers and screams echoing as the bids began flying.
âAisha! fifty!â Coach Suh announced, his eyes wide as he scanned the crowd. âMia raises it to seventy-five! Heejin, ninety!â
The numbers climbed quickly, but it was Ningning who won with an impressive bid of one hundred and fifty. Chenle stepped off the stage, walking straight to Ningning and planting a kiss on her cheek. The room erupted into whistles and applause, and you couldnât help but smile.
âCute,â Karina whispered, grinning. âTheyâre definitely dating.â
Next was Donghyuck, and he brought the house down. Instead of the typical basketball-centric routine, he danced, his moves sharp and fluid, perfectly in sync with the music. The crowd roared their approval, the energy in the room shifting as girls screamed and shouted bids.
Even Coach Suh couldnât help but comment. âClearly, this auction isnât limited to basketball players anymore. Everyone loves Donghyuck!â
Karina stayed by your side, the two of you giggling together as the auction progressed. Her sharp commentary only added to your amusement. âLook at them,â she whispered, pointing discreetly to a group of girls at the front. âScreaming like banshees and throwing their money around like itâs Monopoly cash. Desperate doesnât even begin to cover it.â
You bit back a laugh, trying to focus on the stage as Donghyuck made his entrance. His performance was undeniably captivatingâa smooth, well-choreographed dance routine that left the crowd roaring. Coach Suh couldnât help but chime in, his voice cutting through the cheers. âClearly, this isnât just limited to the Seoul Ravens,â he announced, gesturing to Donghyuck with a wry smile. âThe whole school loves him.â
The applause swelled, and Karina, who had just been mocking the other girls, suddenly shifted. Her eyes widened, and she leaned forward, clutching her paddle like a lifeline. âThatâs my man,â she muttered under her breath, her voice tinged with something that almost sounded serious. You gasped, turning to look at her in shock. Her tone hinted at something deeper, but you reminded yourself how she liked to be unserious. Surely, if something was actually going on, sheâd tell you⌠right?
You watched, half-amused and half-horrified, as Karina repeatedly raised her paddle, her voice cutting through the noise with a desperation that mirrored the girls she had mocked earlier. âOne hundred! One-fifty!â she screamed, practically jumping with excitement.
When she finally won, Donghyuck flashed her a dazzling grin as he stepped off the stage. Karina turned to you, her cheeks flushed and her grin triumphant. âTold you Iâd get him,â she said smugly, her earlier mockery of the other girls conveniently forgotten.
You couldnât help but laugh, shaking your head at her antics. âBy screaming like a banshee, huh?â you teased, and her only response was a shameless shrug.
The auction continued in full swing. San was next to take the stage, and he wasted no time raising the stakes. With a sly grin, he peeled off his shirt and tossed it into the crowd, revealing his sculpted torso. The hall erupted into cheers, screams echoing off the walls as girls raised their paddles in a frenzy. Even some of the guys in the back were laughing and whistling. San soaked it all in, flexing playfully and winking at the audience. It wasnât just confidenceâit was chaos, and the bids reflected it.
Wooyoung followed, his entrance dramatic as ever. He strutted onto the stage with exaggerated flair, striking poses and pointing to random sections of the audience like he was some kind of rockstar. When the bids started rolling in, he played along, hyping up the crowd with over-the-top gestures. âCome on! I know Iâm worth more than that!â he shouted, earning a wave of laughter and higher bids. Earlier, he even raised his own paddle to bid on San and he ended up winning, which sent the room into hysterics. Coach Suh shook his head, muttering something about how heâd âlost control of the team,â but his amused smirk said otherwise.
Then came Soobin, who shuffled onto the stage with a sheepish expression. âI donât want to be bid on,â he muttered into the microphone, his voice low but clear enough to be heard. The crowd immediately pounced on his reluctance, turning it into a game. Paddles shot up faster than ever, girls screaming out numbers as Soobin stood there, looking like he wanted the floor to swallow him whole. Somehow, his awkward charm only fueled the chaos, and by the end, he had the highest bid of the nightâan astronomical number that left everyone stunned. Even Soobinâs eyes widened in disbelief as he was led off the stage by his victorious bidder, who looked like sheâd just won the lottery.
The atmosphere was wild, the noise level almost unbearable, but the energy was infectious. It didnât matter if you were cheering, bidding, or just watching from the sidelinesâthere was something magnetic about the entire event. You couldnât help but laugh at the absurdity of it all, though a part of you couldnât shake the growing tension as the night crept closer to Mark and Jenoâs turns on the stage.
Coach Suh stepped up to the microphone, his voice cutting through the chaotic hum of the crowd like a sharp blade. âAnd now, ladies and gentlemen, the moment many of you have been waiting for,â he announced, his tone laced with playful anticipation. The noise in the room dimmed slightly, replaced by murmurs and excited whispers. âSeoul Ravensâ very own, Mark Lee!â
The shift in the room was almost palpable. Gasps rippled through the crowd as Mark emerged from behind the curtains, the soft glow of the stage lights illuminating him like he belonged in the spotlight. He moved with an effortless confidence, his basketball jersey perfectly fitted, the bold number 23 across his chest catching every eye. The jersey hung just low enough to hint at his lean, toned physique, and his casual stanceâhands stuffed into his pockets, head tilted slightly as he scanned the crowdâonly added to his allure.
The whispers turned to hushed squeals, and then to outright cheers, as his trademark smirk spread across his face. He didnât need to dance or strip like the others; his presence alone was enough to command the room. The weight of his gaze as it swept across the hall was electrifying, each girl seemingly holding her breath, hoping heâd stop and look at her.
But you? You couldnât move. Your heart pounded in your chest, each beat heavy and insistent, as if it were trying to escape. Your breath hitched, your lips parting unconsciously as Markâs eyes lingered in your direction for the briefest second, and yet it felt like forever. There was something maddeningly intimate about his gaze, like he was daring you, calling you out, challenging you to do somethingâanything. The way the soft lights caught on the lines of his jaw, the way his shoulders stretched the fabric of his jersey just right, made your stomach clench with a desperate ache you couldnât quite name.
Your thighs squeezed together instinctively, a subtle shift you prayed no one would notice. Mark hadnât even done anythingâjust stood there, hands tucked into his pockets, his shamelessly flirtatious smile drawing the room into the palm of his hand. The jersey clung to him in a way that was both infuriatingly casual and deeply sensual, exposing just enough of his collarbone to make you wonder how soft his skin would feel under your fingertips. He exuded confidence, and it wasnât fair how easily he had every person in the room hanging onto his every moveâyourself included.
The chaos in the room swelled as the bidding started immediately, Coach Suh scrambling to keep up with the torrent of voices. âOkay! 50âno, 100! 150!â he shouted, trying to cut through the screams. âMia! 175! Oh, Yeji with 200! Wait, who just said 250?â
Your stomach churned at the sound of Aishaâs high-pitched voice cutting through the air. â300!â she yelled, her paddle raised high as she stood on her tiptoes, practically bouncing with excitement.
â350!â Mia countered, her eyes sharp as she stared Aisha down, the tension between them palpable.
You stayed frozen, clutching your arms tightly to your chest as the numbers climbed higher and higher, the voices around you becoming desperate. Every girl in the room seemed determined to have him, their paddles flying up as if their lives depended on it.
â400!â Heejin shouted, her cheeks flushed, and the crowd roared even louder.
Coach Suh wiped his brow dramatically. âLadies, please, one at a time! Iâm going to need a calculator at this rate!â The laughter in his voice did little to hide the exhaustion in his eyes as he tried to keep up with the chaos.
A sharp pang of jealousy clawed at your chest, relentless and overwhelming. You could feel it in every breath, every beat of your heart. Each scream, each outrageous bid, was like another twist of the knife. The thought of any one of them winning him, taking him home, being the one on his arm at the galaâit was too much to bear. Your chest heaved as you tried to steady your breathing, but every glance at him, at his easy smile and the way he stood unbothered by the madness, only made it worse.
Shrieks and cheers reverberated through the hall, a deafening wave of excitement that grew with each passing second. âOh my God, Mark!â Xiaotingâs voice cut through the chaos, high-pitched and desperate as she clutched her paddle with trembling hands. Around her, a group of girls erupted into a chorus of shouts, their voices blending into a cacophony of unrestrained glee.
â500!â
â750!â
â1000!â
âLook at them,â Karina whispered beside you, her tone a mix of amusement and disbelief. âTheyâre losing their minds. You okay over there?â She nudged your side lightly, but you didnât flinch.
You couldnât answer. You couldnât tear your eyes away from him long enough to even form a coherent thought. Around you, paddles shot up in rapid successionâAisha, then Mia, then Yejiâall of them screaming his name like it was their only hope for salvation. Your grip tightened against the fabric of your skirt, nails digging in deep enough to leave crescents on your palms.
Karina leaned closer, her voice soft and teasing. âYou look like youâre about to lose it. Should I raise my paddle for you?â
You almost did it. You almost gave in. The paddle in your hand felt heavier, your arm twitching with the effort of holding it down. A possessive urge bubbled dangerously close to the surface, threatening to break the fragile restraint youâd clung to all evening. You wanted to raise it, to scream louder than anyone else, to claim him as yours in front of everyone.
You were so close to bidding every last bit of your money, the paddle trembling in your grip, when a soft laugh broke through the haze clouding your thoughts.
âYouâre not seriously going to let them take him, are you?â The familiar voice startled you, and you turned to see Markâs best friend sliding up beside you. Her tone was light and teasing, but there was an unmistakable warmth in her expression. She looked completely at ease, like the past few weeks of tension between you had never happened. âDonât worry,â she added with a small smirk. âIf you wonât bid on Mark, I will. I need to talk to him anyway.â
You blinked, your focus shifting entirely to her. She didnât look angry, didnât have a trace of the resentment you feared might linger. Instead, she seemed relaxed, her smile genuine, as though everything had already been forgiven. Your mind flashed to yesterday, to seeing her with Mark after the match. Theyâd been laughing, talking like old times. It was clear nowâtheyâd made up.
Before you could say a word, she raised her paddle confidently, her bid loud and firm above the noise. The room stilled for a moment, a collective gasp rippling through the crowd. Girls glared daggers at her, their competitive energy now tinged with frustration, but none of them dared to go higher. The competition was over, and sheâd won.
âSold!â Coach Suh boomed through the microphone, his voice full of finality. âTo Markâs best friend.â
Relief washed over you, so potent it nearly made your knees weak. He was going home with her. Someone safe. Someone who wouldnât expect anything more from him than conversation and companionship. The ache in your chest loosened its grip, the possessive tension youâd been carrying finally beginning to ease. For the first time all evening, you felt like you could breathe again.
Karina smirked beside you, leaning in to whisper, âLook at Mia and Aisha sulking. They thought they had a chance.â
You couldnât help the small, satisfied smile that tugged at your lips. âServes them right.â
The energy in the room shifted dramatically as the final name was called.
Jeno.
The girls who had been sulking after losing Markâs bid perked up instantly, their disappointment morphing into fervent excitement. Jeno came onto the stage with all the confidence of someone who knew exactly what kind of chaos he could create. His shirt was already unbuttoned, exposing his toned chest, and the sharp smirk on his lips promised more than anyone could handle.
âLetâs give them a show,â Coach Suh muttered into the microphone with an amused chuckle, stepping back as Jeno took center stage.
Jeno made a slow turn, his gaze sweeping across the room, locking briefly on the girls already screaming his name. He let out a low laugh, the sound carrying through the microphone and sending the crowd into a frenzy. Then, with a teasing glance toward the audience, he peeled off his shirt and flung it into the air.
A cluster of girls shrieked as the fabric landed, clawing at each other in a desperate attempt to claim it. Jeno didnât seem to care who caught it. He was already kicking off his sneakers with a casual, almost lazy flair, dragging out every movement like he had all the time in the world.
When he reached for the waistband of his pants, the room collectively held its breath. His fingers lingered there, teasingly slow, before he popped the button and slid the zipper down inch by torturous inch. The fabric pooled at his ankles, and he stepped out of them with an easy grace, standing tall and unapologetic in nothing but his snug black boxers.
The eruption of screams was deafening. Girls jumped to their feet, paddles shooting into the air as they shouted over each other, their bids flying fast and loud.
â500!â
â750!â
â1,200!â
âJeno, take it all off!â one bold voice screamed, earning a wave of laughter and a raised eyebrow from Jeno, who tilted his head slightly as if considering the request.
âKeep dreaming,â he drawled into the mic, his tone dripping with amusement as he reached for his discarded pants and slung them over his shoulder. The devilish smirk returned, and he gave a playful wink toward the source of the shout. âBut Iâll let you imagine.â
Another girlâs voice rang out. âJeno, fuck me!â
Jeno let out a low, throaty laugh, adjusting his stance on stage. âPatience, sweetheart. Gotta win me first.â
You clamped a hand over your mouth, stifling a laugh as your cheeks burned with secondhand embarrassment. Beside you, Karina wasnât nearly as subtle. She doubled over, clutching her stomach as a snort escaped her.
The bids soared higher, the girls growing more frantic with each passing second. He leaned into the chaos, running a hand through his hair, the sharp line of his jaw catching the dim lights. He didnât say much after that, but he didnât have to. Every glance, every shift of his body spoke volumes, and the crowd hung on every second of his unapologetic display.
Karina nudged you, fanning herself dramatically. âOh my God. That man is too much.â
You hummed in agreement, your eyes flicking to Jeno as he posed on stage, clearly revelling in the attention. âMmm,â you teased, fanning yourself as well. âHe knows exactly what heâs doing.â
But before you could even process what was happening, Markâs best friend suddenly looped her arm through yours, her expression shifting to something more serious. âYou have to bid on him,â she said, her voice low and urgent.
You blinked, startled. âWhat? Why me?â
She sighed, her gaze darting toward the stage where Jeno was basking in the chaos heâd created. âBecause if you donât, one of these desperate whores is going to win, and I canât let that happen. Itâs⌠complicated between us,â she admitted, her tone softening. âBut I donât want anyone else to be his date.â
Her words hung in the air, and for a moment, you hesitated, unsure if you should get involved. But the raw honesty in her voice struck a chord. The thought of Jeno leaving with someone who only wanted him for his body and statusâor worse, someone who would treat it like a jokeâmade your chest tighten painfully.
With a deep breath, you raised your paddle, your voice cutting through the noise as you called out a bid so high it left the room in stunned silence. The other girls shot you venomous glares, their frustration palpable, but no one dared to challenge you.
âSold!â Coach Suh announced, his booming voice breaking the tension. âTo Y/N!â
Jeno stepped off the stage, his eyes locking onto yours. His expression was unreadable, but there was a flicker of amusement, annoyance, and something else you couldnât quite place. As the crowd erupted into a mix of cheers and murmurs, the weight of the night pressed heavier on your shoulders.
The gala was going to be⌠complicated.
Youâd tried to slip away quietly, eager to retreat home and bury yourself under a pile of blankets, but Karina had intercepted you, twirling your car keys with a sly grin. âNope. Youâre staying,â she said firmly, pressing the keys into her pocket. âItâll be good for you to socialise.â
Now, you regretted not fighting harder for your escape. You stood near one of the ornate pillars in the lavishly decorated hall, trying to melt into the shadows. The weight of the evening pressed heavily on your chest, amplified by the sight of Mark and his best friend talking quietly in the distance. You hadnât planned on eavesdropping, but where you stood, their voices carried too clearly to ignore.
They laughed softly, their tones warm and easy, as if theyâd patched up all the tension that once lingered between them. Markâs voice rang out, a soft but happy lilt to his words. âI missed this. It feels good to have you back.â
The laughter echoed, and something inside you twisted painfully. Tears pricked your eyes, but you stayed rooted in place. Leaving would mean admitting how much it hurt, while staying felt like punishmentâa way to drown yourself in the ache you couldnât shake. You were conflicted, trapped between wanting to run and wanting to absorb every bit of Mark you could, even if it tore you apart. The image of his flushed face on the court, breathless and pushing himself too hard, flashed in your mind, making the weight of the moment even harder to bear. His health lingered at the forefront of your thoughts, feeding the guilt that gnawed at you for pulling away.
You missed him. God, you missed him so much it physically hurt. Every laugh he shared with his best friend felt like another crack in your already fragile heart. The bond they had seemed effortless, and it reminded you of everything youâd lost.
The worst part was noticing how easily he seemed to mend things with everyone else when you werenât in the picture. His best friend, Jenoâtheyâd all found their way back to him, their connections seemingly stronger than ever. It was like your absence had been the missing piece, the thing that allowed everything to fall perfectly into place. And maybe it was true. Maybe you really had been the wedge all along, the one thing keeping him from the harmony he deserved. The thought lodged itself deep in your chest, sharp and unrelenting. As much as you wanted to be happy for him, to see him surrounded by people who cared, it only reminded you of how removed you were from that equation. You werenât part of his happiness anymore.
Mark turned his head, his gaze finding you through the crowd like it always did. For a moment, time froze. His expression softened, but it was unreadableâcaught somewhere between longing and restraint. You wanted to hold his gaze, but the weight of your emotions made you falter, your eyes dropping to the ground.
Beside you, Jeno stood close, his posture slightly tense as he glanced around the room, trying to appear at ease. The only reason he was here, standing beside you, was because in true Boy Toy Auction fashion, you were obligated to spend the night together. He was also your date to the upcoming gala, though it hardly felt like anything significant. Obviously, nothing would happen between you and Jenoânothing could come out of this anymore. Whatever history youâd shared was firmly in the past, buried under the weight of everything that had changed. This was nothing more than a favor done for Markâs best friend, a gesture born out of necessity rather than desire.
Jeno's eyes flicked to you every so often, clearly noticing the way your gaze lingered on Mark. Your expression must have given away more than you intendedâsadness etched into your features, your shoulders slightly hunched.
He sighed softly, the tension between you strange but not hostile. He shifted closer, his tone light and teasing as he finally spoke, breaking the heavy silence. âHey, Y/N, remember the last Boy Toy Auction? You bid on me, and I spent the entire night balls deep inside of youââ
Before you could even react, Markâs head turned sharply, his eyes narrowing into a deadpan glare. His jaw clenched, the tendons in his neck taut as his gaze bore into Jeno, warning himâno, daring himâ to say another word.
Jeno just chuckled, shaking his head with a mischievous grin. âWhat?â he drawled, his voice dripping with mock innocence. âItâs true. I think it was twice, actuallyâmaybe three times. We lost count after theââ
âStop it,â you hissed, cutting him off, your cheeks heating as you shoved him lightly. âSeriously, Jeno. Enough.â
His laughter bubbled out as he raised his hands in mock surrender. âAlright, alright. Just trying to lighten the mood.â But the glint in his eye said he was enjoying the way both you and Mark bristled far too much.
You shook your head, sighing heavily. âGuess Iâm stuck with you tonight,â you muttered, avoiding Markâs gaze as you turned back to Jeno. The thought of spending the evening with him wasnât unbearable, but it wasnât exactly your first choice either.
Markâs best friend looped her arm around his as they turned to leave together, her laugh ringing out like a chime. Watching them walk away, you felt a small, bitter pang of relief. At least it wasnât one of the other girls. At least it was her, someone you could trust not to cross any lines.
Still, as you glanced at Jeno and then back at the disappearing figure of Mark, the weight in your chest didnât lift. If anything, it settled deeper.
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The sun dipped lower into the horizon, painting the campus in warm hues of amber and crimson. Shadows stretched across the empty quad, long and languid, as the soft rustle of leaves filled the cool evening air. The building you were in was quiet, almost hauntingly so, save for the faint hum of fluorescent lights and the occasional creak of old wood floors. It was the kind of stillness that usually gave you comfort, a reprieve from the chaos of your thoughts. But tonight, it felt heavier, as though the silence itself was listening.
Jeno lingered near the doorway, leaning casually against the frame with his car keys in hand. He had been ready to leaveâready to take you homeâbut when you mentioned youâd be staying behind to work, he pocketed the keys without a word. Now he sat on a metal stool a few feet away, his arms folded loosely across his chest, watching you.
You turned your focus to the dim red glow of the darkroom, where youâd set up trays of chemicals and hung lines for drying prints. The faint smell of developer and fixer hung in the air as you carefully placed a piece of photographic paper into the first tray, watching the image begin to bloom like magic on the surface. You worked quietly, your hands steady, the process grounding you. Photography has always been your sanctuaryâa way to escape and dissolve into your own world. It was the one place where you could control the narrative, capture the beauty of fleeting moments, and make sense of chaos.
If Jeno werenât here, youâd have your headphones on by now, fully absorbed in the ritual. Music and the rhythmic motions of developing film would have drowned out everything else. But tonight, you were hyper-aware of his presence. There was something about the way he sat silently, his posture relaxed but his gaze unyielding, that filled the small darkroom with an almost palpable weight. It wasnât intrusive, but it was inescapable.Â
He was present in a way that demanded acknowledgment, his stillness commanding as if he were daring you to forget he was there. Every time you moved, you felt his eyes tracking your motions, not judging, but consuming the details of what you were doing. It was as though he occupied more space than his body physically took up, and that kind of focusâsteady, deliberateâwas both grounding and unnerving. It made you hyper-aware of yourself in a way that felt slightly unnerving, his intensity lingering in the air like a storm just before it breaks.
You glanced over your shoulder, catching him staring. âJeno, you can go if you want to,â you said, laughing softly to ease the tension. âYou donât need to stick around.â
âOuch,â he replied, pressing a hand to his chest in mock offense.
You shook your head, smiling despite yourself. âNo, itâs not like that. Itâs just⌠no oneâs gonna keep tabs on us to make sure we spend the night together after the Boy Toy Auction. Itâs not that deep.â
âBut what if I wanna spend the night with you?â Jenoâs voice dipped lower, his tone carrying that unmistakable flirtatious edge. You rolled your eyes, stifling a smile. He could never resist moments like thisâalways finding a way to slip in a sly comment. It was, after all, quintessentially Jeno.
âOkay, whatâs going on with you?â you asked, your tone sharp enough to cut through the tension. âBecause the last time we spoke, you called me a âslut.ââ You addressed the elephant in the room with finality, your gaze locking onto his.
âNot the first time thatâs happened,â Jeno replied smoothly, his voice dipping lower as he wiggled his eyebrows suggestively. His words immediately brought a rush of memories from your shared past, ones you didnât want to linger on right now.
âOkay, you really need to stop flirting,â you laughed, shaking your head at his shamelessness.
Jeno sobered slightly, his gaze softening. âLook, Iâm sorry for what I called you. I know it wasnât fair. I didnât mean it, and I shouldnât have said it.â
You studied him for a moment, surprised by the sincerity in his voice. âItâs okay,â you said quietly. The weight you hadnât realized youâd been carrying lifted slightly. âSo, youâre not angry anymore?â
He shook his head, his tone soft but firm. âNo, Iâm not angry anymore. I already told Mark this. My frustration wasnât about thinking I had some kind of claim over youâI know I donât, and I never have. It was more⌠I donât know⌠the way it happened. It caught me off guard.â He paused, his brows knitting together as if piecing his thoughts together. âIt hurt because I thought we were in a good place. Youâre someone Iâve always been real with, and when you kept it from me, it felt like you didnât trust me. Like I didnât matter enough to know.â
You swallowed hard, his words settling over you like a heavy weight. Slowly, you reached out, placing your hand on top of his. His palm was warm, steady, and it grounded you in the moment. You laced your fingers over his gently, an earnest gesture of connection, before meeting his gaze.
âIâm sorry,â you said softly, your voice trembling slightly but full of sincerity. âI never wanted to hurt you, Jeno. And it wasnât about not trusting youâI swear. It was⌠everything felt so complicated, so overwhelming. I thought keeping it quiet would make things easier, not just for me but for everyone.â You sighed, glancing down at where your hands met. âBut looking back, I see how that might have felt to you. Like I was shutting you out.â
You met his eyes again, your grip tightening on his hand. âYouâve always been important to me, Jeno. I never wanted you to feel like you didnât matter or that I didnât care. I was just trying to figure everything out without making it worse, but I see now that I didnât handle it right. Iâm really, truly sorry.â
Jeno nodded, his expression softening. âI get that now. And Iâm sorry for how I reacted. But I want you to knowâyou have my blessing to be with Mark. Not that you need it,â he added with a small smile. âBut if youâve been distant because of me, donât. I want you both to be happy. You deserve to be happy.â
The sincerity in his voice made your chest ache. âItâs more complicated than that,â you murmured, your gaze dropping to your hands.
âThen help me understand,â Jeno said gently. âWhatâs going on?â
For a moment, the words wouldnât come. But then, slowly, you began to unravel the knot inside you, letting everything spill out in a quiet, trembling stream. You told him about the guilt that gnawed at you, how you felt like your presence in Markâs life only complicated thingsâhow you feared you were hurting him more than you were helping. You admitted how hard it was to see him push himself to the brink, ignoring the signs that something was wrong, and how that fear clung to you, heavy and unrelenting, in every quiet moment. The ache of watching him, knowing you couldnât fix what was broken, kept you awake at night, the weight of it almost unbearable.
Jeno listened without interrupting, his expression unreadable but his presence steady, grounding. The way his gaze softened as you spoke, how his hand lingered close to yours on the table, made it easier to keep going. You admitted that youâd been pulling away from Markânot because you didnât care, but because of the nagging feeling that you werenât enough for him. The way he looked at youâwith all that patience, all that steadinessâonly made it harder. You couldnât shake the feeling that you didnât deserve it, that you couldnât match the unwavering way he held space for you in his life.
Mark deserved someone who could meet him halfway, someone who wouldnât let fear or insecurity cloud every interaction. But you? You felt like all you ever did was runârun from the emotions that overwhelmed you, run from the problems you didnât know how to solve, and, worst of all, run from him when things got too real. You werenât pushing him away because you didnât want him. You were pulling away because you wanted him more than anything. Because you couldnât shake the thought that maybe, just maybe, his life would be simpler without you in it. That maybe, in trying to hold onto him, you were holding him back.
And when you finally stopped, the silence between you wasnât uncomfortableâit was heavy, charged, but somehow comforting. It was as though, for the first time, someone truly saw the tangled mess you were trying to navigate, and you could breathe just a little easier because of it. Jeno reached out, resting a hand on your shoulder. âYouâre overthinking everything,â he said softly. âMarkâs a big boy. He knows what he wants, and trust meâwhat he wants is you. Let him prove that to you.â
You opened your mouth to protest, but Jeno raised a hand, stopping you before you could get the words out. âI mean it. Youâre sitting here tying yourself in knots about whether youâre enough for him, but did you ever stop to think that maybe he doesnât need you to be anything more than you already are?â His gaze held yours, steady and unrelenting, daring you to argue. âMark doesnât look at you like someone who complicates his life. He looks at you like someone who is his life. And yeah, I get it. Loving someone that much can be scary as hell. But running from it? Thatâs not protecting him. Thatâs just shutting him out.â
Jeno leaned back slightly, his hand dropping from your shoulder, but his eyes didnât leave yours. âYouâre not holding him back. Youâre the one heâs choosing, over and over again, even when itâs hard. Let him make that choice. Stop deciding for him.â He softened his tone, a hint of teasing slipping through as he added, âAnd honestly? If anyone deserves to be scared here, itâs Mark. Youâre way out of his league.â
The teasing brought the faintest smile to your lips, but his words sank deeper than he realized. For the first time, you considered what it might mean to stop runningâto let Mark see you, flaws and all, and trust that he wouldnât walk away. It was a terrifying thought, but maybe Jeno was right. Maybe it was time to stop deciding for him
âSince when did you speak with so much wisdom?â you asked, your faint smile doing little to hide the weight of your emotions.
Jenoâs lips quirked into a playful smirk, his tone casual. âIâm a man of many surprises.â
Your chest tightened, but for the first time in weeks, there was a glimmer of clarity. âThanks, Jeno,â you whispered, your voice barely audible.
âAnytime,â he replied, his smirk widening. âBut if you really want to thank me, letâs wrap this up. Iâm starving.â
You laughed, the sound light and unrestrained, and for a brief moment, the heaviness didnât feel so unbearable.
You return back to your work shortly after. You were putting the final touches on your pinboard, pinning a collection of photographs with meticulous care, lost in the rhythm of your own movements. The familiar process was soothing, the smell of chemicals and the tactile sensation of the glossy prints grounding you. You didnât even notice Jeno had wandered over until he was suddenly standing beside you, his presence undeniable as he loomed just close enough to see everything.
Jeno shifted on his feet, crossing his arms as he leaned against the frame. âAre you almost done?â he asked, his tone carrying a hint of impatience. âIâm starving.â
âYou donât have to stay,â you replied absently, not looking up as you adjusted the placement of a photo. âIâll catch up with you later.â
Jeno let out a dramatic sigh, stepping further into the room. âYeah, no, thatâs not happening. Iâm not leaving you here to drown in whatever artsy rabbit hole youâre about to fall into. Plus, if I wait any longer, Iâm gonna start eating the film chemicals.â
You rolled your eyes but couldnât hide your smile. âFive more minutes, Jeno. I promise.â
He muttered something under his breath about starving to death and moved closer, his curiosity getting the better of him as his eyes scanned the board. But then he froze, his gaze narrowing on a set of photos in the cornerâones that made his lips quirk into a knowing smirk. âOh,â he said, drawing out the word. âThese are⌠interesting.â
Without another word, he plucked the prints from the board.
âJeno, give those back!â you snapped, turning to snatch them from his hands. But he was already holding them high above his head, his teasing grin firmly in place.
âIâm just curious,â he said innocently, though the glint in his eye betrayed him. âWhatâs with all these Mark photos, huh?â
The shots of Mark at the river courtâthe ones youâd spent hours perfectingâstood out against the collage of other images. Mark mid-laugh, the sunlight catching the sharp lines of his jaw. Mark looking contemplative as he dribbled a ball, sweat glistening on his skin. Mark, raw and unfiltered, through the lens of someone who saw him for everything he was.
Jenoâs brows furrowed slightly, his lips quirking into a knowing smirk. âOh, these are interesting,â he teased, plucking the photos from the board before you could stop him.
âJeno, stop that!â you snapped, scrambling after him as he held the prints out of your reach.
âNo way,â he replied, holding them high above his head like a sibling tormenting their younger counterpart. âNot until I confirm something.â
You huffed, frustrated, and tried to grab them, but his teasing grin softened into something more serious as he glanced back at the pictures in his hand. âYou love him, donât you?â
The question hit you like a freight train. You froze, the air around you growing heavier as his words settled in your chest. Love. It was a simple word, yet it carried so much weight. Loving Mark wasnât just an emotionâit was a possibility, a dream, and a fear all rolled into one. The thought of it warmed you from the inside, a quiet, steady heat that promised something safe, something real. But it also terrified you. Love wasnât simple. It was messy and vulnerable, and it felt like opening yourself up to something that could shatter you completely.
âJust give me the photos, Jen,â you said quietly, your voice trembling just slightly.
âNot until you admit it,â he pressed, his eyes searching yours. But when he saw the raw emotion in your expression, his smirk faded. âYou do love him.â
You didnât respond, but the silence between you said everything.
âHe loves you so much, you know,â Jeno added, his voice softer now, more sincere. âSo you need to stop being an idiot.â
The bluntness of his words made you laugh faintly, but it was hollow. âIâm glad you both made up,â you said instead, deflecting.
Jeno rolled his eyes, clearly unimpressed with your subject change, but he let it slide. âYouâre impossible,â he muttered.
Before you could say anything else, you stepped forward and wrapped your arms around him, pulling him into a tight hug. It wasnât planned, but the weight of everything youâd been holding inâthe fear, the guilt, the overwhelming love you feltâfinally spilled over. Your chest heaved as the first sob broke free, and before you knew it, you were crying into Jenoâs shoulder.
He didnât say anything at first, just held you firmly, one hand gently stroking your back while the other rested protectively on your head. âHey, hey,â he murmured softly. âI got you. Everythingâs gonna be okay.â
You werenât sure how long you stayed like that, but when your sobs finally subsided, Jeno pressed a light kiss to your forehead, the gesture so tender it made your chest ache. âIâll make sure you donât get hurt, okay?â he said quietly. âYouâre not alone in this.â
You sniffled, pulling back slightly to look at him, your lips twitching into a faint smile. âYou never used to comfort me this well when we were together.â
He laughed, his usual teasing tone slipping back into place. âYeah, well, I had a lot to learn back then. Donât let it go to your head.â
Jeno slung his arm around your shoulders as the two of you finally left the darkroom, his warmth grounding you against the chill of the hallway. His presence, steady and reassuring, felt like an anchor after the emotional storm youâd just weathered. Still, a part of you couldnât help but wonderâwas his sudden change, his emotional depth and patience, because of someone heâd been seeing?
You rolled your eyes at yourself, but the thought lingered, tugging at your curiosity. Finally, you broke the silence, glancing up at him with a faint smirk. âSo,â you began, your tone light but laced with genuine interest, âwhatâs going on with you and Markâs best friend?â
Jeno chuckled softly, his grip on your shoulder tightening just slightly. âWhat, are you jealous?â he teased, though the faint flicker of something unreadable in his expression made you wonder if heâd answer seriously.
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The bedroom was a mix of soft lighting and laughter, the faint hum of music playing from Karinaâs phone as she sat across from you, her eyebrows furrowed in concentration. Her hands worked with precision, blending and dabbing with a level of effort that made you feel like you were her only priority. It was almost amusing how much effort she seemed to be putting into your lookâmore than sheâd probably spent on her own.
Karinaâs hands moved like an artist painting her masterpiece, each brushstroke precise, deliberate, and filled with care. Her brows furrowed in intense focus, the tip of her tongue peeking out slightly as she tilted your chin this way and that, ensuring every angle caught the light just right. It wasnât just makeupâit was a quiet ritual, a transformation unfolding under her deft touch.
The soft glam she created was understated yet mesmerizing, like the way sunlight filters through a lace curtainâdelicate, natural, but impossible to ignore. A soft shimmer adorned your eyelids, catching the light like the faintest sparkle of dew at dawn. The blush on your cheeks was barely there, just enough to mimic the warmth of laughter, while your lips gleamed with a subtle gloss, like a whisper of silk against your skin. Karinaâs artistry didnât mask you; it elevated you, amplifying what was already there. You looked at your reflection and felt something bloomâbeauty, confidence, and the quiet awe of seeing yourself through her eyes.
When she stepped back to admire her work, her lips curved into a mischievous smile. âYou know, I think today is the perfect opportunity to make up with Mark. Tell him how sorry you are, how hot he looks, and how badly you want to suck his cock.â
âKarina!â you tut, swatting her arm as your cheeks heat. âStop that.â You sighed, glancing at your reflection and biting your lip. âI wonât even see him today. Remember? Iâm going with Jeno, and heâs going with his best friend.â
âHmm,â she hummed, giving you a knowing look. You hesitated, trying to shove down the thought tugging at your mind: a tiny part of you did wish you were going with Mark. But it felt selfish, so you didnât say it out loud. Instead, you let yourself wonder for just a moment how the night might have gone if you were by his side, before sighing again. Itâs not meant to be.
âNow, change into your dress, sexy,â Karina said, snapping you out of your thoughts with a playful slap on your bum. You giggled, standing up as she ushered you toward the wardrobe.
âAnd donât forget the lingerie,â she called after you.
You groaned but knew better than to argue. The black two-piece set was impossibly revealing, the lace pattern delicate but bold against your skin. The thong sat high on your hips, elongating your legs, while the matching bra was all thin straps and intricate lace, teasing just enough without being overbearing. You adjusted it in front of the mirror, taking a deep breath before pulling on the gown.
The dress was elegance with an edge, an emerald green design that skimmed your curves with perfect precision. The silk fabric shimmered faintly under the light, subtle and luxurious, catching the movement of your body as though it was alive. Its plunging neckline framed your collarbones and offered a delicate hint of skin, daring yet refined, never crossing the line into excess.
The backless design swept low, exposing the curve of your spine, with slender crisscross straps resting lightly on your shoulders. The thigh-high slit added just enough intrigue, revealing glimpses of your leg as you moved, while the gentle train behind you added a touch of timeless sophistication. It was a dress that balanced boldness and class effortlessly, designed to draw attention without demanding it.
As you stood before the mirror, adjusting the soft, flowing fabric over your hips, you couldnât help but admire the way the gown seemed to transform you. The deep green brought out the warmth of your skin, while your choice of gold jewelryâdelicate earrings, a thin chain that kissed your collarbones, and a simple braceletâadded a touch of understated elegance.
Underneath, the black lace lingerie you wore felt like a quiet secret, something just for you, a small reminder of confidence tucked away beneath the fabric. You smoothed the dress one last time, feeling beautiful, poised, and ready. It wasnât just the dressâit was the way it made you feel, comfortable in your own skin, confident enough to face whatever the night had in store.
Karina stood beside you, crossing her arms as she gave you an approving once-over. âGod, Iâd do you,â she said, her tone half-joking but her gaze serious.
You wiggled your eyebrows, smirking as you turned toward her. âWe could just ditch the ball and stay home, we could just make out instead. What do you think?â
She burst into laughter, shaking her head. âTempting, but we canât waste these looks. Letâs go turn some heads.â
You grabbed your matching clutches, sharing one last amused look with her before heading downstairs.
The messages from Jeno sat unanswered on your phone, a trail of confusion and mild irritation tugging at your mood.
Youâd asked him when heâd pick you upâno response. Then if he was readyâagain, no response. Your final attempt, a half-joking âAre you alive?â was also met with silence. You stared at the empty notifications, wondering what was up with him.Â
A knock at the door jolted you from your thoughts, and you sighed in relief. Finally, he was probably here. Ready to open the door and scold him, you were halfway to turning the knob when your phone buzzed with a new message. Narrowing your eyes, you glanced down.
jeno â sorry
jeno â youâre gonna thank me one day!
Confusion prickled at your mind. If he was outside, why was he messaging you? Still frowning, you swung the door open, ready to ask what he meant.
And froze.
Standing in front of you wasnât Jeno. It was Mark.
His soft brown eyes held yours with a quiet intensity, grounding you in place as your pulse quickened. He looked effortlessly captivatingâhis tailored black suit accentuating the strong lines of his broad shoulders and lean frame, the sharp cut softened by the warmth in his gaze. Loose strands of hair fell just perfectly, framing his face in a way that made him look both polished and impossibly familiar, as though he belonged right here, at your doorstep, waiting for you.
The bouquet in his hands was a vibrant array of peonies, their soft, layered petals in shades of blush pink and ivory catching the dim light. They were nestled among delicate sprigs of babyâs breath, their tiny white blooms adding a gentle contrast, and a few stems of eucalyptus, their pale green leaves curling elegantly around the arrangement. The scent was subtle yet intoxicatingâa mix of fresh florals and earthy undertones that filled the air between you. The flowers were perfect, chosen with care, as though he had known exactly what would make your heart skip a beat.
Your breath hitched. âMark.â His name slipped from your lips in a quiet whisper, soft and instinctive, as if it had always been there, waiting to be spoken.
The corners of his mouth curved into a gentle smile, warm and knowing. âHi, beautiful.â
His greeting made your heart stutter, but you pushed the feeling aside. âYouâre not supposed to be here,â you said, your voice colder than you intended.
From the corner of your eye, you caught Donghyuck standing awkwardly by the side, clearly uncomfortable but too amused to leave just yet. Karinaâs wide eyes and poorly hidden smirk added to the chaos. For once, she stayed silent, taking in the unexpected scene with an air of approval.
Markâs voice wrapped around you, soft yet commanding, every word feeling like it was meant only for you. âI think Iâm exactly where Iâm supposed to be,â he murmured, his gaze unwavering, holding yours as if nothing else in the world mattered. âJeno and I agreed to swapâso I could be here, with you.â
âI needââ you stammered, your voice shaking as panic clawed at your chest. âI need some air. I need to get my phone from my room.â The words tumbled out, frantic and disjointed, as you tried to pull away, your pulse pounding in your ears.
But before you could take a step, his hand wrapped around your wrist, firm yet careful, his warmth searing into your skin. The contact sent a jolt through your entire body, leaving you frozen in place. Your breath hitched, and you couldnât help but glance at where his fingers pressed against you, firm and unwavering.Â
âYouâre holding your phone,â he said, his voice calm but edged with a knowing smirk that made your stomach flip. His thumb brushed against your wrist absentmindedly, and the sensation sent your thoughts spiraling further into chaos.
Your voice cracked as you tried again. âI need my headphones.â
Mark didnât budge. His grip stayed firm but never forceful, grounding you in a way that sent your heart racing. He didnât break eye contact for a second, his gaze steady and unwavering, pinning you in place as though he could see every chaotic thought racing through your mind. âKarina,â he called over his shoulder, his tone calm yet laced with authority, making Karinaâs eyes widen in surprise. âGet Y/Nâs headphones.â
You narrowed your eyes as Karina veered the opposite way, heading toward the front door instead of your roomX She exchanged a wide-eyed glance with Donghyuck, then gave you a playful shrug, mouthing âGood luck!â as she stepped outside with him. The door clicked shut behind them, and the weight of the silence that followed was suffocating. You stood there, your pulse racing, Markâs gaze never leaving you, the space between you shrinking with every shaky breath.
âMark,â you murmured, your voice trembling despite the sulk you tried to force into it. His name fell from your lips as if it belonged there, as natural and instinctive as breathing. You felt your resolve crumbling under the weight of his gaze, the intensity in his eyes leaving you vulnerable in ways you werenât prepared for.
He stepped closer, his presence filling every inch of space between you, and before you could stop yourself, your arms looped around his shoulders. His hands slid to your waist, pulling you flush against him, grounding you in his warmth. âIâm here because I want to be with you,â he said, his voice low, steady, but carrying an unmistakable depth. âI only wanted you to be my date at the gala. I wished youâd bid on me that night.â
âWhy?â you whispered, your throat tight, your heart pounding like it was trying to break free.
His hesitation was brief, his eyes searching yours as if to make sure you understood every word. âBecause I love you,â he said, his tone soft yet firm, wrapping around you like a promise. âYouâre mine, and you know that. No matter how much you try to push me away, it doesnât change the truth. Iâd fight for you, harder than anyone. You know that, donât you?â
His words shattered something fragile inside you, unravelling emotions youâd worked so hard to contain. Your chest tightened, your throat ached, and you could barely keep the tears at bay. âDonât make me cry with this makeup on,â you mumbled, biting your lip in a futile attempt to hold everything back.
Mark cupped your face gently, tilting your chin so you couldnât look away. âDonât cry,â he murmured, his tone firm but impossibly tender. His thumbs brushed against your cheekbones, careful not to smudge the makeup youâd so painstakingly applied.
You wanted to be angry at how he was holding you, at how he was effortlessly pulling you into his world when you were supposed to be distancing yourself. But the way he looked at youâsteady, warm, like you were the only thing that matteredâmade it impossible. The conflict raged inside you. How could you act like everything was fine? How could you let yourself fall into his arms after all the ways youâd hurt him, after all the ways you knew you didnât deserve this?
But Mark had always been the only thing that could ground you, and tonight was no exception. Against every logical thought, against every ounce of guilt that clawed at you, your body betrayed you. You stepped closer, your arms tightening around him, burying your face in his shoulder. Mark sighed, the sound deep and almost relieved, as if this moment meant as much to him as it did to you. His arms wrapped around you, strong and steady, pulling you closer, anchoring you.
The tension between you crackled like static, heavy and charged. Mark leaned in slowly, the movement deliberate, his forehead resting gently against yours. His breath was warm, shallow, mingling with your own as the space between you grew smaller, impossibly close. Your eyes flickered to his lipsâsoft, slightly parted, achingly tempting. Everything about this moment felt like a gravitational pull, and it took all the strength you had to resist closing the distance.
His hand brushed lightly along your arm, sending shivers racing down your spine. You wanted to give in, to feel his lips against yours, to let the moment consume you entirely. But as the seconds stretched, you pulled back just enough to break the spell, your heart pounding violently in your chest.
Mark didnât miss a beat. A soft smile curved his lips, as if he understood your hesitation but refused to let the moment fall away. âI missed you, baby,â he murmured, his breath warm against your ear as his hands found yours. In one smooth motion, he raised your hands above your head and spun you in a playful circle, his laughter low and intimate. When he stopped you to face him again, his eyes roamed over you, taking in every detail with a slow, deliberate sweep that made your cheeks flush. He let out a low whistle, his lips curving into a soft, boyish smile. âLook at my girl,â he whispered, his voice rich with affection and awe. âYouâre so fucking beautiful.â
His words were a quiet litany of praise, murmured softly into your ear as his fingers brushed along your arm, your waist, your back. Each compliment sank into you, warming your cheeks and making your pulse race. For the first time in what felt like forever, the smile that spread across your face wasnât forced or fleeting. It was real. It was yours. And it was because of him.
You gulped, feeling the weight of everything between youâthe unspoken words, the fragile tension, the undeniable pull that had always existed. âOkay,â you whispered, your voice barely steady. âWe can be like⌠this. But just for tonight.â
Mark tilted his head, his gaze locking onto yours with an intensity that made your knees feel weak. His eyes darkened, not with frustration but with something deeperâtenderness, longing, and a quiet determination that seemed to anchor the air between you. âJust tonight?â he repeated softly, his voice low and deliberate, as if testing the words on his tongue. His tone made it clear he didnât believe you, not for a second.
He stepped closer, his hand brushing your cheek, the touch featherlight yet grounding. His thumb traced the curve of your jaw, his expression unreadable but warm. âYou donât mean that,â he murmured, his breath brushing your skin. âBecause you know I donât do halfway. Not with you.â
The way he said it, the certainty in his voice, made your chest tighten. It wasnât a question or a pleaâit was a promise, one you werenât sure you deserved but couldnât bring yourself to deny. His eyes searched yours as if he could see every fear, every hesitation, and was ready to hold them all for you.
âIâm scared,â you mumbled, your voice breaking as the vulnerability spilled out. Your gaze dropped to where his hand rested at his side, but before you could pull away, he closed the distance between you.Â
Markâs hand slid up your arm, tracing a slow path to your shoulder, then to your jaw, tilting your face up to meet his eyes. His thumb brushed across your cheek, a tender, grounding touch that made you feel like you might fall apart and hold steady all at once. âI know,â he whispered, his breath warm as it ghosted over your lips.
He brought your hand to his mouth, his lips pressing gently to your knuckles, the kiss lingering as if to reassure you in ways words couldnât. His forehead rested against yours for a moment, the closeness making you feel drawn into him, in his steady, unwavering presence.
He leaned in, the warmth radiating from him enveloping you like a quiet promise, his tone softer this timeâa reassurance wrapped in tenderness. âBut I got you,â he murmured, his voice a soft promise that wrapped around you. His other hand found its way to the small of your back, pulling you closer, the warmth of his palm seeping through the fabric of your gown.
âYou got me,â you hummed, the words spilling out instinctively as if theyâd been waiting to be said. Your arms slide around his neck, pulling him closer. For the first time in a long while, the fear in your chest began to ebb, replaced by the steady, unshakable rhythm of his presence.
Mark pulls you closer, his hands steadying you as they hold your waist, thumbs brushing over the exposed skin of your back. He pulled back just enough to rest his lips against your temple, murmuring softly, âYouâre safe with me. Always.â
And in that moment, with his arms holding you firmly yet gently, the world seemed to still. Every touch, every whispered word, anchored you, replacing your fear with the quiet comfort of his love.
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The grand double doors creaked open, revealing you at the top of the staircase, and in an instant, the entire room shifted. Conversations hushed, glasses paused mid-air, and all eyes turned toward you, drawn as if by an invisible force. The entrance was nothing short of cinematic, a moment that felt suspended in time.
The stairs stretched wide beneath your feet, their polished marble gleaming under the soft golden glow of the chandeliers. Each step was bordered by intricate railings adorned with garlands of greenery and delicate blossoms, a testament to the care and precision poured into every detail of the evening. The music swelled at just the right momentâa stringed harmony that seemed to follow your every move, adding an almost otherworldly quality to your entrance.
As you reached the first step of the grand staircase, you instinctively turned to look for him. But instead of being by your side, as youâd expected, Mark was a few steps behind, standing near the entrance to the hall. The realization hit you immediately. He was giving you your moment, stepping back so you could have the spotlight entirely to yourself. His expression held no trace of impatience, only quiet pride, as if he wanted the world to see you exactly as he didâradiant, breathtaking, and completely deserving of all the attention. His smile was devastatingly handsome, the kind that felt like it could melt away every ounce of your anxiety.Â
His gaze never wavered, fixed on you with an intensity that made the rest of the room blur into nothing. He didnât need to say a word; the look in his eyes told you everything. He was proud of you, enamored by you, and willing to fade into the background so you could have your moment in the spotlight. And in that instant, it didnât matter that the hall was filled with whispers, envious stares, and admiring gaspsâbecause all you could see was him.
As you reached the bottom of the staircase, Markâs eyes softened the moment they met yours, and a warm smile spread across his face as he stepped closer. Without hesitation, he leaned in and kissed your foreheadâa gentle, grounding touch that sent a wave of warmth through you.
âI have to do some crap with the basketball team since this is a sports gala,â he murmured, his voice low and meant only for you. His lips brushed against your temple as he pulled back slightly, his gaze lingering. âBut Iâll find you later, yeah? I wonât be too long.â
You nodded, your lips curving into a small smile. âYeah, Iâll be here,â you replied softly, your voice steady even though your heart felt a twinge of disappointment at his brief departure.
Mark gave you one last look, his hand squeezing yours before he stepped away, his broad frame moving effortlessly through the crowd. You watched him for a moment, the way his presence commanded attention even when he wasnât trying, before turning to make your way toward the far side of the hall where your friends were waiting.
As you approached, all eyes were on youânot just the envious stares from around the room, but the wide-eyed gazes of your cheer squad. Karina was the first to react, her expression breaking into one of delight as she practically rushed toward you, her heels clicking against the polished floor.
âLook at you!â Karina exclaimed, her hands clasping yours tightly as her eyes swept over your gown, her expression a mix of pride and awe. âY/N, you look absolutely stunningâlike, I knew you would, but this? Youâre completely stealing the show!â Her voice was brimming with excitement, so enthusiastic and full of admiration that it was easy to forget she had been the one helping you get ready just hours ago. You couldnât help but smile, warmth blooming in your chest as you took in how genuine she was, acting as though she were seeing you for the first time. That was what you loved most about herâhow her energy made even the simplest moments feel special, as if this wasnât just your night but hers to celebrate, too.
Winter wasnât far behind, circling you with an exaggerated gasp. âOh my god, is this custom?â she teased, her eyes narrowing as she inspected every detail of your gown. For a moment, you thought she was joking, but then her expression softened, her tone surprisingly genuine. âI mean it, Y/N. This dress? Itâs stunningâyouâre stunning. Honestly, if anyone doesnât say it, theyâre just jealous.â Her words caught you off guard, and you blinked at her, momentarily speechless. Winter rarely compliments anyoneâleast of all youâand the unexpected sincerity in her voice made the moment even more surreal. It was so unlike her that you couldnât help but feel a strange mix of gratitude and disbelief, her admiration settling over you like an unfamiliar but welcome warmth.
Even Aisha and Mia, who usually kept their compliments begrudging at best, exchanged a quick glance, their expressions shifting from mild disinterest to reluctant acknowledgment. They both nodded, a quiet, mutual agreement passing between them. For once, they couldnât deny itâyou had outshone everyone tonight, and even they werenât stubborn enough to ignore it.
You couldnât help but laugh, the tension youâd been carrying earlier melting away under their praise. âThanks, guys,â you said, your voice light but full of gratitude.
The girls huddled closer, each of them gushing over the intricate details of your gownâthe subtle shimmer, the perfect fit, the way the slit revealed just enough to make a statement without being overdone. It felt like a moment straight out of a movie, their chatter blending with the soft hum of the music and the occasional clink of glasses in the background.
The grandeur of the hall became more apparent the longer you stood there, its opulence creating the perfect backdrop for the evening. Soft, golden lighting spilled from grand chandeliers overhead, their crystals sparkling like tiny fireflies against the high ceilings. Rich drapes lined the walls, the fabric so luxurious it seemed to glow in the warm light. The polished floors reflected the grandeur above, their surface so pristine it looked almost like glass.
A live orchestra played in the corner, their music smooth and timeless, weaving a melody that felt like it belonged to another era. The sound wrapped around the room, adding a sense of intimacy to the elegance. Students moved gracefully across the space, their gowns and sharp suits adding splashes of color to the muted golds and whites of the venue. Laughter floated through the air, mingling with the soft clinking of glasses and the occasional burst of applause from a corner of the room.
This wasnât just another eventâit was the event. The end-of-year gala was a cornerstone of the campus social calendar, a tradition rooted in celebration and anticipation. It wasnât just about dressing up and mingling; it was about honoring the basketball teamâs journey and rallying the entire school behind them as they prepared for the upcoming state championships. The gala served as both a fundraiser and a morale booster, bringing together students, faculty, and sponsors to show their support. For the players, it was a night of recognition, a moment to celebrate their hard work before stepping into the high-stakes games ahead.
For Mark, tonight wasnât about being in the spotlight but about supporting Jeno, the teamâs captain. While the responsibilities of leading the team werenât Markâs to shoulder, he stood by Jeno, helping him navigate the attention and endless conversations with faculty, donors, and supporters. Mark had always been quietly dependable, offering his steady presence and easy charm to smooth over the tensions that came with such a high-profile night. But even with his focus on helping Jeno, it was clear where his attention truly lay. Because for all the glamour and importance of the gala, none of it really mattered to him.
What mattered was you.
When Mark finally found you again, it was as if the entire room faded away. His gaze locked onto yours instantly, and the magnetic pull of his eyes was undeniable. They burned with a quiet intensity, soft yet unwavering, as though they could see straight through to your soul. The connection between you was immediate, unshakable, and in that moment, it felt like the rest of the world simply didnât exist.
As he made his way across the hall, his focus never wavered. His steps were confident, deliberate, and the closer he got, the more the butterflies in your stomach stirred. Around you, the chatter of your friends faded, their gazes darting between the two of you as they exchanged knowing glances.
Aisha and Miaâs eyes widened slightly, a mix of surprise and begrudging acknowledgment flashing across their faces. Karina, on the other hand, beamed like a proud mother, her smile practically glowing as she nudged Winter with her elbow. âLook at that,â she whispered, loud enough for you to hear but without drawing too much attention. âHe only has eyes for her.â
And he did.
When he finally reached you, Markâs smile widened, soft but undeniably real. He stopped just close enough that you could feel the warmth radiating from him, his presence commanding and grounding all at once.
After a brief exchange of teasing from the girls, he leaned in slightly, his voice low and meant only for you. âDance with me?â
You nodded, the words catching in your throat, and he took your hand. His touch was warm, grounding, as he led you to the center of the room. The grandeur of the hall, the shimmer of lights and muted conversations, all faded into the background the moment his hand slid into yours. The other rested lightly on your waist, his fingers pressing just enough to guide you.
The music swelled, soft and sweeping, as you moved together effortlessly, each step in perfect harmony. His touch was firm but delicate, and the gentle pressure of his thumb brushing against the bare skin of your back through the slit of your dress sent warmth blooming across your cheeks. You tilted your head slightly to look at him, the closeness between you making it impossible to focus on anything else.
The jealous stares from cheerleaders, the murmured whispersânone of it registered. You could notice it if you wanted to, the way their gazes lingered, the quiet judgment hidden behind their half-smiles. But for the first time, you realized you didnât care. It didnât affect you anymore, because this momentâbeing with himâwas more important than any of their opinions. They didnât know the history between you, the nights spent laughing until sunrise, the quiet moments when he held you together without needing to say a word. And here, now, in his arms, you felt the steady beat of his heart against yours. His gaze never left your face, as if memorizing every detail, and you felt your resolve to keep him at armâs length unraveling, piece by piece. Nothing outside this moment mattered, not when his presence was enough to drown out the rest of the world.
He shifted his hand slightly, his fingers brushing a little higher along your back, drawing you closer as he guided you through another step. The rhythm of the music matched the quiet intensity between you, and the feel of his breath, warm against your temple, sent a shiver down your spine.
âI missed you so much,â he whispered, his voice breaking through the haze of the moment.
âI missed you more,â you murmured back, the words trembling with honesty.
His grip on you tightened slightly, his hand brushing along your back, grounding you even further. âI love you,â he said, his voice earnest and steady, like a vow. âAnd I just want you to knowâwhatever happened, whoever hurt you, Iâll always be on your side. Okay? When youâre ready to tell me, Iâll be here. Always.â
You nodded, the lump in your throat threatening to spill over. His words held a warmth that wrapped around you, but they also chipped away at the walls youâd spent weeks building. âOkay,â you managed to whisper, your voice barely audible.
Markâs lips twitched into a small smile, his eyes scanning your face like he was trying to commit every inch of it to memory. âAnd if you want to push me away for good,â he added, his voice dipping lower, âyouâre going to have to try harder.â
Something about the way he said itâhis voice, his unwavering gaze, the way his touch lingeredâundid you. His eyes burned into yours, brimming with love, longing, and something so steadfast it made you ache. It was as though he was silently pulling you closer, daring you to cross the invisible line youâd been holding yourself back from. He wasnât just standing there; he was holding you in every possible wayâgrounding you with his presence, consuming you with his touch, and filling the air between you with the kind of tension that begged to be resolved. Tonight, he looked so effortlessly captivating, so familiar and yet more devastatingly handsome than ever. He wasnât just the man youâd fallen for; he was everything.
You wanted to kiss him. You wanted to pull him closer and claim him as yours again. The need was undeniable, rushing through you like a flood you couldnât stop. Instinctively, your eyes darted around the room, taking in the happiness blooming in every corner. Chenle was twirling Ningning around in an exaggerated dance, her laughter spilling out like music. Jeno was leaned over, cracking some joke with Markâs best friend, their grins wide and unrestrained. Jaemin and Winter stood by the refreshment table, sharing whispered jokes and sly glances that made her cheeks flush. Even Karina and Donghyuck, who usually bickered over everything, were smiling and giggling together, their heads close as if sharing a secret. It felt like the entire room was alive with warmth and joy, and for the first time in what felt like forever, you wanted to let yourself have some of it.
You wanted to give yourself thisâto let the happiness you saw around you settle in your chest, even if just for a moment. For so long, you had let other peopleâs opinions and expectations dictate your choices, weighing their judgment heavier than your own feelings. But as you stood there, surrounded by the unfiltered joy radiating from every corner of the room, you realized something monumental: it wasnât your priority to make them happy.
Their whispers, their raised brows, their assumptionsâthey didnât matter. They werenât the ones living with your choices, carrying your heartbreak, or holding your love. You were tired of sacrificing your happiness for the approval of people who would never truly understand the depths of what you felt. This moment wasnât about them; it was about you. And for once, you decided to let go of the need to please anyone but yourself.
You gulped, your heart racing as you felt your body betray every ounce of hesitation still clinging to you. Before you could stop the pull, before your second thoughts could win, you broke. Your hands found their way to his shoulders, your fingers curling into the fabric of his suit as you leaned in. Your forehead brushed against his, the soft touch making your breath hitch before you tilted your face upward.
And then, you kissed him.
It wasnât soft or tentativeâit was hard, desperate, and full of everything youâd been holding back. Your lips crashed into his like theyâd been starving, and Mark didnât hesitate. His arms moved instantly, encircling you tightly, holding you close as if he feared you might slip away. His lips moved against yours with a slow, deliberate rhythm that somehow contradicted the sheer intensity of the moment. Every kiss felt like a confession, every brush of his lips a vow, as he poured all the words he hadnât said into the kiss.
His fingers found the bare skin of your back through the slit of your dress, the warmth of his touch searing through the thin fabric and sending a shiver down your spine. You could feel him smile against your lips, that quiet, confident grin that had always undone you. You couldnât help but smile back, the connection between you so real, so electric, that it almost hurt. But the ache in your chest wasnât enough to stop youâit only drove you closer, needing to feel him, to know that this wasnât a dream. His hands trailed up to your face, his thumbs brushing over your cheekbones as if you were something fragile, something precious. Every touch was soft yet deliberate, and the way he held you made you feel seen, safe, and whole.
When you finally pulled back, breathless and overwhelmed, Markâs gaze was waiting for you, warm and steady. He looked at you like you were his whole world, and it was almost too much to bear.
But then it hit youâall at once, like a tidal wave crashing over the calm youâd just found. The weight of everything between you came rushing back with brutal force. The guiltâsharp and unrelentingâoverwhelmed the brief happiness that had blossomed in his arms. The fearâthe kind that clung to your chest and made it hard to breatheâreminded you of everything you hadnât said, hadnât faced. And then there was the truth, raw and unforgiving: Markâs heart condition, the secret heâd been carrying alone, something he had hidden from you not out of malice but to shield you from worry. It made your chest ache in ways you couldnât put into words, the thought of his quiet suffering twisting the knife of guilt even deeper.
You felt the sting of realization claw at you, tearing through the moment you had just shared. How could you let yourself have thisâthis happiness, this closenessâwhen there were so many unresolved pieces between you? The thought of how much he had endured alone, of the strength he always seemed to carry for you and everyone else, only made the weight heavier. And beneath it all, the whisper of self-doubt grew louder: Youâre not enough for him. Not yet. Not when you were still struggling to piece yourself back together. Not when you couldnât protect him the way he always seemed to protect you.
The whiplash of emotions was dizzyingâjoy to guilt, hope to fearâall spinning so fast that you felt like you couldnât catch your breath. The kiss had been everything you wanted, but reality came crashing in, reminding you why youâd held back in the first place. The walls you thought youâd let crumble began rebuilding themselves, your mind scrambling to retreat into safety. You couldnât do this, not now. Not like this.
Your lips parted, but no sound came out. Instead, your body betrayed you. With a trembling gasp, you wrenched yourself out of his hold, stepping back as though the distance could somehow quiet the storm raging inside you. His hands fell to his sides, the loss of his touch like a jolt of cold air against your skin.
âY/N,â he said, his voice breaking with something between shock and desperation.
âI need to go,â you whispered, your voice barely audible over the pounding of your heart. You didnât dare look at him, didnât dare face the hurt you knew would be etched into his features. Instead, you turned, your legs shaky as you bolted toward the exit, each step tearing at the fragile bond that tethered you to him.
You bolted through the grand hall, past the murmurs of onlookers and the faint strains of music, your chest heaving as the weight of everything crashed down on you. The guilt, the fear, and the raw vulnerability of Markâs presenceâit was too much. The cool night air hit your face like a slap when you pushed through the doors, your breath hitching as tears spilled over your lashes. You didnât stop running, didnât look back.
Behind you, you heard him call your name, the anguish in his voice almost making you stop. Almost. But you didnât. You couldnât. Because staying meant facing everything you werenât ready to confront, and right now, running felt like the only thing keeping you from breaking completely.
Your heels clicked against the pavement as you darted across campus, weaving through familiar paths without a destination in mind. You just needed to get away, to put distance between you and the emotions that felt too big to handle.
âY/N!â His voice rang out, closer this time, rough and full of urgency. You didnât slow down, forcing your legs to carry you further even as they burned. You could hear his footsteps pounding behind you, relentless, closing in like he wouldnât let you go.
Finally, your path led you to the back of the sports complex, where the basketball locker rooms loomed, dimly lit and eerily quiet in the late hour. You shoved the door open, stepping into the stark fluorescent light, the scent of sweat and disinfectant overwhelming you. It was a place youâd been before, but tonight it felt foreign, almost suffocating.
Mark caught up with you just as the door swung shut behind him. âWhat the hell, Y/N?â he demanded, his voice harsh and breathless. He was angryâangrier than youâd ever seen him. His broad shoulders were tense, his chest rising and falling as he tried to catch his breath.
âJust tell me whatâs going on.â Markâs tone was low, firm, but it carried an edge you werenât used to. When you didnât stop, his footsteps quickened, closing the gap between you. âY/N, stop,â he demanded, his hand grabbing your arm gently but insistently, turning you to face him. âIâm done waiting.â
You turned away from him, your hands gripping one of the metal lockers for support as you fought to calm the storm raging inside you. âLeave me alone!â you snapped, pulling your arm away. âJust⌠forget it, okay?â you said, your voice trembling, but it didnât have the conviction you wanted.
Mark froze, his jaw tightening. The flicker of hurt in his eyes was replaced by something you hadnât seen beforeâanger. Not frustration, not disappointment, but a raw, simmering fury that made your chest tighten. âYou know what? Iâm so fucking done with you,â he said, his voice louder, harsher.
You gasped, your heart skipping a beat at the sheer force of his tone. Mark had always been patient, gentle even when things got difficult. But this? This was a side of him you hadnât seen before, a side that made you realize how much heâd been holding back. His anger was more intense than Jenoâs, which said everything about how deeply youâd pushed him.
âIâve been so patient,â he continued, stepping closer, his eyes blazing. âSo understanding. And what have you given back? Absolutely fucking nothing.â
âMark,â you started, but he cut you off, his voice sharp and unwavering.
âYou pushed me away. You shut me out. And then you made decisions for both of us without even giving me a choice. Do you even realise how unfair that is? You donât get to decide whatâs best for me and then run.â
âWhy do you love me so much?â you screamed, the words bursting out of you before you could stop them. âWhy canât you just let me go?â
âBecause I do!â he shouted back, his voice raw with emotion. âYou donât get to tell me who I can love or not. Thatâs for me to decide. Thatâs mine. No one can tell meânot my friends, not my family, not even you. I love you because I do. I donât need to fucking justify it.â
The tension between you was suffocating, his words breaking through every barrier youâd tried to put up. âYouâre scared, I get it,â he continued, his tone softening but still intense. âBut you bury it so deep that it ends up hurting us both.â
âScared?â you shot back, your voice sharper now, almost defensive. âYou keep throwing that word at me like it explains everything. But maybe youâre the one whoâs scared. Scared to see that Iâm not who you think I am. Scared to admit that thisâusâmight not be as perfect as you want it to be.â
âStop deflecting,â he snapped, his voice cutting through your defenses like a blade. âYouâre scared of being vulnerable. Youâre scared of me seeing the worst of you. And instead of letting me in, you use me as an excuse to keep running. This isnât about meâitâs about you.â
His words hit you like a punch to the gut, but he didnât stop. âItâs like youâre waiting for me to give up on you, just so you can say you were right. Well, I wonât. Iâm not giving up on us, but you have to stop running. You have to stop hiding.â
âI donât know how!â you admitted, your voice breaking as tears welled in your eyes. âI donât know how to be what you need.â
âYou think I need perfect?â he asked, his voice quieter now but still filled with intensity. âI donât. I need you. All of you. The messy, broken, scared parts, too. But you wonât even let me fight for you. You think I wouldnât give everything for us? That I wouldnât fight through all the shit just to be with you?â
You couldnât respond, the lump in your throat choking you as his words sank in.
âDo you know how fucking hard it is to feel like youâre the only one trying?â he continued, his voice trembling now, betraying the pain heâd been holding back. âTo feel like Iâm standing here, giving you everything, and youâre just⌠gone?â
Tears spilled down your cheeks, and you covered your face with your hands, unable to meet his gaze. âI didnât mean to hurt you,â you whispered, your voice cracking. âI just⌠I didnât know how to deal with any of this.â
Your chest tightened, the weight of his words pressing down on you. âIâm sorry,â you choked out, tears slipping down your cheeks. âIâm so sorry.â
But the sympathy you expected didnât come. His jaw clenched, his gaze sharp and unwavering. âSorry?â he snapped, his voice rising. âYouâve been shutting me out, pushing me away for weeks, and Iâve done absolutely nothing wrong. I donât deserve this. This is absolute crap. What happened to us promising each other that weâd be open, that weâd communicate?â
The dam inside you finally broke. âYou think Iâm the only one whoâs not fucking communicating and being open?â you yelled, your voice trembling with anger. âYou have a heart condition, Mark! And youâve been playing like nothingâs wrong! Youâre a fucking idiot.â
His expression froze, his eyes widening in shock. âHow do you know?â he demanded, his voice low but sharp.
You swallowed hard, your voice quieter but no less biting. âYour dad told me,â you admitted, the weight of the secret youâd been holding finally slipping out.
Mark took a step back, his jaw tightening. âMy dad told you?â he repeated, his voice rising again, anger lacing every word. âSo youâve been holding this over me, knowing, and you didnât say anything? You just let it fester instead of coming to me?â
âYouâre mad at me?â you shot back, your voice shaking with frustration. âYouâve been hiding this, playing with your life like it doesnât matter, and Iâm the one youâre angry with?â
âYes, Iâm mad!â he snapped. âI didnât tell you because I didnât want you to worry. And instead of trusting me, you go and act like itâs some weapon to use when youâre ready to blow up.â
Your fists clenched, your nails digging into your palms. âI didnât use it as a weapon! I didnât even know how to process it. Do you know how it feels to see you out there, pushing yourself, knowing you couldââ Your voice broke, the words catching in your throat. âKnowing you could collapse and it would be your fault for not telling anyone? For not doing anything about it?âÂ
He raked a hand through his hair, his own frustration spilling over. âYou think I donât know what Iâm doing? You think I donât know my limits?â
âClearly, you donât!â you fired back, your voice cracking. âBecause if you did, you wouldnât be out there risking everything. You wouldnât be hiding it.â
âAnd what would telling you have done?â he countered, his voice quieter but no less heated. âYouâd have worried yourself sick, and then what? Youâd have tried to fix something you canât fix, like you always do.â
The words hit you hard, the truth in them stinging more than you wanted to admit. âThatâs not fair,â you whispered, tears streaming down your face. âYou donât get to decide what I can handle, Mark. You donât get to decide that for me.â
His gaze softened for a fleeting second before his frustration returned. âAnd you donât get to decide that hiding things, shutting me out, is somehow okay. We promised each other, didnât we? Or does that only matter when itâs convenient for you?â
Your mind raced, the weight of everything between you pressing down like an unbearable force. You didnât know what was going to happen nextâwhether the silence would shatter with another heated argument or if youâd both just turn away, leaving everything unresolved.
Your eyes betrayed you, roaming over him despite the chaos in your head. The way his broad shoulders rose and fell with each breath, the faint sheen of sweat glistening on his skin under the dim light. The way his chest heaved with every ragged breath. His shirt stuck to his body in places, damp with sweat from both the argument and his barely-contained anger.
Markâs jaw clenches so tightly you could see the muscles flex beneath his skin. His hair was messy, strands falling across his forehead, and his lips were pressed into a hard line. You could feel the frustration radiating off him in waves, filling the room with an electric tension that sent shivers down your spine.
His frustration only made him look hotter, his expression stormy, his eyes sharp and burning into yours. It was infuriatingâhow someone could look so good when you were this furious. And yet, beneath your anger, something primal stirred.
You hated how much he affected you.
You shifted uncomfortably, your thighs pressing together as heat pooled low in your stomach, the ache demanding attention. You hated how much you wanted him, how the argument and his frustration only made you ache for him more. It wasnât logical, it wasnât fair, but it was undeniable. This wasnât how you wanted to feelânot now, not after everything but the ache was undeniable. Memories flood your mind, how he fits, how he feelsâhow perfectly he fills you, how he takes control and leaves you gasping.Â
And before you could second-guess yourself, you gasped and grabbed his shirt, fisting the fabric and yanking him toward you roughly. Your lips collided with his in a kiss that wasnât soft or forgivingâit was feral, raw, and dripping with need. You pushed at his chest, your nails digging into the hard planes of his body through the fabric as if desperate to tear it off. He didnât hesitate for even a second. His hands found their way into your hair, tangling roughly as he yanked your head back, the sharp sting making you whimper against his lips. His kiss was brutal, his mouth claiming yours with a force that made your knees buckle.
Mark didnât care about being gentle. He kissed you like he was trying to mark his territory, his teeth scraping against your bottom lip before he pulled it between his, biting down just hard enough to make you gasp. His grip was firm, almost punishing, as if he didnât care how much it might hurt, as if all he cares about is keeping you exactly where he wanted you. His other hand slides down to your waist, gripping you so hard youâd swear thereâd be bruises. Each press of his lips was punishing, every movement unrelenting, leaving you breathless and trembling in his hold.
âYouâre so fucking childish,â he growled against your lips, his voice rough and unforgiving. âYou donât know how to talk, so you do this instead?â
His words stung, but they only made you want him more. âIââ you gasped, trying to speak between frantic kisses, your hands fumbling with the buttons of his pants. âIâmissâthis. I miss you. Please, Mark.â
He laughed darkly, low and mocking, his teeth grazing your bottom lip before pulling away just enough to look at you. âMissed me?â His hands gripped your jaw, forcing you to meet his gaze. âYou think I didnât notice? Youâre fucking pathetic. You canât even admit youâre wrong, and now youâre begging for my cock?â
You whimpered, the heat in his voice sending shockwaves through your body. âPlease, Mark,â you repeated, your voice trembling. âI need you. I needââ
Markâs grip on your hair tightened as he tilted your head back, forcing your eyes to meet his. His jaw was clenched, his expression a mix of anger and barely restrained desire. He leaned down, his voice dropping to a low, dangerous growl. âYou want me inside you?â he asked, his tone sharp and commanding. âThen get on your knees and suck my cock. Show me just how badly you need me.â
Your legs buckled beneath you, and you sank to the floor, your hands trembling as you reached for his belt. He didnât need to tell you what to do; the fire in his eyes said it all. The leather slid free from the loops with a sharp snap, and you glanced up at him, your breath hitching at the intensity in his gaze. His fingers tapped against your cheek, demanding your attention. âOpen,â he commanded.
You obeyed without hesitation, your gaze fixed on him as heat pulsed through your body. The sound of his zipper being dragged down felt deafening in the charged silence, every movement deliberate and commanding. When he freed himself, your breath hitched, and a moan escaped your lips before you could stop it. He was big, impossibly thick, his cock standing proudly against the taut muscles of his stomach, the tip flushed a deep, needy red and glistening with arousal.
The veins running along his length added to the raw, masculine appeal, and the weight of him as he stroked himself briefly made your mouth water. He was perfect, every inch of him overwhelming and enticing, the kind of sight that made your thighs clench involuntarily. You licked your lips instinctively, unable to tear your eyes away, leaning forward like you were drawn to him, your hands trembling as they reached out to touch him.
Mark smirked down at you, the sheer dominance in his stance making your stomach knotâbroad shoulders squared, jaw rigid, and those dark, unforgiving eyes searing into you. He tapped the thick, swollen head of his cock against your lips, smearing the bead of precum across them with deliberate, mocking slowness. âLook at you,â he spat, his tone rough and dripping with contempt. âFucking desperate, arenât you? Canât even think straight without this in your mouth. Go on,â he growled, gripping your chin harshly, forcing you to meet his gaze. âShow me how much youâve missed choking on it.â
Mark didnât give you a second to think, let alone hesitate. His hand fisted harshly in your hair, tugging your head back as he shoved himself past your lips without mercy. The stretch was immediate and brutal, your throat tightening as you gagged around him, tears pricking at your eyes. Your hands scrambled for purchase on his thighs, nails digging into his skin as you tried to steady yourself against the overwhelming intrusion.
âTake it,â he growled, his voice rough and unforgiving, the sound vibrating through the air like a command. His hips snapped forward with deliberate, punishing force, pushing deeper until you choked. âThatâs it. Gag on it. You can handle it, canât you?â His groan was low and guttural, a primal noise that only spurred his movements as he fucked into your mouth with no hint of restraint.
You nodded frantically, the motion clumsy and desperate as tears streamed down your flushed cheeks. Drool spilled freely from the corners of your mouth, dripping down your chin in messy streaks. Markâs rough thumb wiped at it, but instead of cleaning you up, he smeared it across your swollen lips, his smirk cruel. Without a word, he pushed back in, the thick length of him stretching your throat until you gagged again, your hands trembling against his thighs.
His grip on your hair tightened painfully, yanking your head into place as he buried himself to the hilt. âPathetic,â he growled, holding you there, his cock pulsing against the back of your throat as you fought for breath. âYouâre going to sit there and cry about it? I thought you said you missed me.â He pulled back just enough for you to gasp for air, only to thrust back in, harder this time, forcing another choked whimper from you.
âYou can do better than that,â he snarled, his voice a dark, taunting drawl. âCome on, baby. Prove it. Show me how fucking desperate you are to please me.â
You moaned around him, the sound raw and desperate, sending vibrations along his cock that had him groaning deep in his chest. Your trembling hands gripped his hips tightly, nails biting into his skin as you fought to steady yourself against the relentless pace. The guttural noise he let out was pure need, his head tipping back as a string of curses fell from his lips. âFuck, youâre filthy for this,â he muttered, his voice rough and laced with satisfaction. His grip on your hair loosened just enough to let you move, but his hips still rolled forward with a brutal rhythm. âSo eager to be used, arenât you? So desperate for my cock.â
His words sent a thrill shooting through your entire body, making you hollow your cheeks and suck harder, your tongue swirling around him with deliberate precision. He cursed again, his hand sliding from your hair to cradle your jaw, his thumb pressing against your cheek as he looked down at you. âLook at this fucking mess,â he said, his tone sharp but tinged with something darker, more possessive. âYouâre perfect for meâjust like this. On your knees, drooling, choking, fucking begging for it.â
Your teary eyes lifted to meet his, and the sheer adoration mixed with desperation in your gaze made him falter for a split second. His thumb brushed against the tear-streaked skin of your cheek, smearing the wetness as his expression softened just slightly, though the hunger in his eyes burned just as fiercely. âYou love this, donât you?â he asked, his voice low and taunting, his lips curling into a smirk. âYou love being my pretty little toy. Just here to make me feel good, arenât you?â
You nodded frantically, the movement shaky but certain, and he chuckled darkly, his hand tightening on your jaw. Your lips slid over him with renewed effort, taking him deeper, the stretch burning in the best way. When he hit the back of your throat, you gagged again, a muffled moan spilling from your lips. He groaned at the sound, his free hand tangling back in your hair as he forced you to take him even deeper.
âThatâs it,â he growled, his tone rough and unforgiving. âTake every fucking inch. Show me how much you need thisâhow much you fucking missed this.â
âFuck,â Mark hissed, his hand yanking your hair so hard it made your scalp sting, forcing your head to stay exactly where he wanted. His hips snapped forward, unrelenting as he drove into your throat with brutal, punishing thrusts. You gagged around him, tears streaming down your face, but he didnât slowânot for a second. Each movement was rough, raw, and filled with his pent-up frustration.
âGonna make me come like this,â he growled, his voice thick and ragged as his cock plunged deeper with every thrust. âYou feel that? How fucking good youâre taking it?â His tone was mocking, but the desperation in his words betrayed how close he was, his breaths uneven and sharp.
The heat coursing through you only grew, spurred on by his harsh words and the way he fucked your mouth like he couldnât get enough. You hollowed your cheeks as best as you could, the stretch overwhelming, your hands reaching up to cup his balls, adding to the intensity. His groan was guttural, his head tipping forward, sweat dripping from his hairline as he stared down at you with a feral hunger.
âYouâre so fucking perfect for this,â he muttered, the words spilling from his lips in a cracked, breathless tone. His hips jerked harder, deeper, as he used your mouth without restraint. âTake it all, baby. Every inch. Donât you dare stopâdonât you fucking stop.â
His breathing turned erratic, his grip on your hair tightening painfully, his body trembling as he teetered on the edge. âSo good,â he growled, his voice raw, nearly breaking. âSo fucking good to me. Youâre gonna swallow every fucking drop, arenât you? Show me what a good little slut you are.â
His hips slammed into your face without rhythm, each thrust rough and desperate, his breaths turning into sharp, ragged gasps. âFuckâfuck, just like that,â he growled, his voice low and feral, vibrating with raw need. His head tipped back, a moan tearing from his throat that echoed through the room, louder than anything youâd ever heard from him before. His entire body tensed, muscles flexing as he buried himself in your mouth one last time before pulling out abruptly, his cock throbbing and slick with your spit.
âLook at you,â he groaned, fisting himself roughly as he angled his cock towards your face, the tip swollen and dripping. âOpen wide, baby. Youâre taking all of it.â
You barely had a second to react before he threw his head back, his hips jerking forward as thick ropes of his release painted your face in hot, sticky streaks. His cock pulsed in his hand as he pumped himself through it, each spurt landing on your lips, your cheeks, and down to your chin. His moans were unrestrained, loud and filthy, mingling with the sound of his hand working over himself.
Your tongue darted out instinctively, catching the remnants of his release on your lips as you leaned forward, desperate to take him back in. His cock twitched in your hand as you wrapped your swollen lips around the sensitive tip, sucking gently but firmly. The taste of him coated your tongue, salty and thick, and you moaned softly as you sucked in your cheeks, determined to take every last drop. Your hands gripped his thighs for balance as you worked your mouth over him, slurping up the mess that lingered along his shaft. Even as his body shuddered from the overstimulation, you didnât stop, your tongue swirling and teasing every vein until you felt him twitch again against your tongue.
âFuck, you look so good like this,â he rasped, his voice shaking from the force of his climax. His hand moved to smear the mess across your skin, his thumb pressing his cum into your lips. âCovered in me. This is where you belongâfucking dripping for me.â
You blinked up at him, your chest heaving, tears and cum mixing on your cheeks. He stared down at you, his eyes dark and still burning with satisfaction, a crooked smirk tugging at his lips. âSuch a good little slut,â he muttered, his voice husky as he let his cock fall against his thigh, still half-hard. âLook at the fucking mess you made.â
His hand tugged at your hair again, tilting your head back so he could admire his work. âYouâre not cleaning this up,â he said, his tone sharp, commanding. âYouâre wearing it. I want you to remember who you fucking belong to.â
When he finally pulled back, you inhaled sharply, your chest rising and falling as you fought to catch your breath. Your lips were swollen and slick, and his thumb pressed against them, smearing the mess further as he tilted your chin up to meet his gaze. His dark eyes burned with a mix of satisfaction and unrelenting hunger, his smirk wicked and deliberate. âLook at you,â he murmured, his voice low and dangerous, dripping with possessive heat. âYou think Iâm done? Not even close.â
He stepped back, his hand tugging you up by your arm with just enough force to make your legs stumble. âGet up,â he commanded, his tone sharp and leaving no room for hesitation. His eyes roamed over you slowly, possessively, as his smirk deepened. âI want to see every inch of you,â he growled, his voice heavy with the promise of everything he wasnât finished with yet.
Markâs grip on your hips was bruising, his fingers digging into your flesh as he slammed you against the lockers, the loud metallic clang echoing through the room. His mouth claimed yours immediately, the kiss harsh and all-consuming, teeth scraping against your lip as his tongue plunged inside with a dominance that left you breathless. The zipper of your dress gave way under his rough, impatient hands, the fabric slipping down your body as he tore it open.
With a grunt, he spun you around abruptly, pressing your front against the cold, unforgiving metal. His body crowded yours, his chest pressed flush against your back as his hands roamed over your exposed skin, rough and claiming. His lips didnât leave yours for long, breaking only to trail hot, open-mouthed kisses down your neck before returning to your mouth.Â
âIs this what youâve been running from?â he growled, his voice rough and dripping with raw lust as he thrust his hips into you, grinding against you through the thin fabric of your dress. His tone was mocking, cruel, his words punctuated by another sharp roll of his hips. âThis? Me?â
You couldnât answer, your breath catching in your throat as a loud, desperate moan escaped instead. Your fingers clawed at the lockers, your body arching back into him, seeking more, needing more. His dark chuckle against your ear sent a shiver down your spine as one of his hands slipped lower, his palm spreading over your stomach before sliding between your thighs.
âThatâs what I fucking thought,â he muttered, his voice low and guttural. His teeth grazed your ear as his fingers pressed harder, his movements deliberate and teasing. âYou canât even deny it, can you? Youâve been craving thisâcraving me.â
Markâs fingers fumbled with the zippers on your gown, his frustration mounting with every failed attempt. His brows knitted together, a low growl rumbling from his chest as he yanked at the fabric, his movements rough and impatient. âYou look so fucking beautiful,â he spat through gritted teeth, his voice rough and strained with desire, âbut why the hell are you wearing a dress with a million zips? What are you trying to do, fucking torture me?â He tugged harder, the force jerking your body slightly as he finally managed to loosen the stubborn fabric, piece by piece.
When the dress finally hit the floor, Mark froze. His breath caught, and a loud, groan ripped from his throat, his eyes darkening as they roamed over your body. You stood there in a black lace set that barely covered you, every inch of the delicate material designed to tease him. The thong clung to your hips, the lace framing your ass and leaving your cheeks fully exposed, while the sheer bra did nothing to hide the hard peaks of your nipples pressing against the fabric.
âFuck,â he hissed, his voice thick with raw hunger as his hands gripped your waist, his touch rough and claiming. His thumbs dug into your skin, his fingers spreading over your hips as if he couldnât get enough of feeling you beneath him. âYouâre driving me fucking insane,â he growled, his teeth grazing the curve of your neck before sinking into your skin. He bit down hard, his lips sucking and pulling until he left angry red marks behind, his growls vibrating against your throat.
Markâs hands slid down to your ass, grabbing it roughly, his fingers kneading the soft flesh before delivering a sharp slap that made you yelp. âYouâre perfect,â he muttered, his voice rough and uneven as his lips moved to your collarbone, trailing heated, open-mouthed kisses. âThis bodyâfuck, itâs mine. These tits, this ass, this pussyâitâs all fucking mine. Made for me. You hear me?â His cock pressed hard against your stomach through his trousers, the friction making you gasp.
You whimpered, your hips instinctively grinding against him, your hands gripping his as your desperation mounted. âMark, please,â you breathed, your voice shaky, your need for him unbearable.
He groaned at your words, his head dropping forward as his hands roamed your body feverishly. His movements were rough, erratic, his need for you written in the way he gripped, grabbed, and claimed every inch of your skin. âIâm fucking obsessed with you,â he growled, his hands sliding up to cup your breasts through the lace. His thumbs teased over your nipples before he leaned down, his tongue flicking over the hardened peaks through the sheer fabric. His teeth grazed the sensitive skin, and then he bit down just enough to make you gasp, his chuckle dark and satisfied.
âLook at you,â he muttered, pulling back to take in the sight of your flushed face, your swollen lips parted as you panted for him. âSo fucking needy. Do you even realize how desperate you are for me right now?â His voice was filled with awe and disbelief, as though your desire for him was something he couldnât fully comprehend.
âOf course Iâm desperate,â you shot back, your voice trembling but bold. Your hands tangled in his hair, pulling him closer. âI need you. Stop teasing, Mark.â
His laugh was low and wicked, vibrating against your ear like a growl as he slammed you harder against the lockers. His hips pinned you in place, the pressure bruising and unrelenting. âYou think Iâm teasing?â he snarled, his voice sharp and dripping with dominance, his breath hot against the shell of your ear. âBaby, you havenât seen anything yet.â
Before you could respond, his hand shot up to your neck, his grip rough and possessive, fingers pressing into your skin just enough to make your breath hitch. He yanked your head to the side, forcing your face toward his, his eyes dark and burning with lust as his lips crashed onto yours. The kiss was raw, consuming, and impossibly rough. His teeth scraped against your bottom lip before biting down hard enough to sting, his tongue forcing its way into your mouth with a dominance that made your knees weak.
The kiss was a battle for control you knew you couldnât win, his mouth devouring yours with a hunger that bordered on savage. His free hand gripped your hip tightly, pulling you impossibly closer, while his lips moved over yours with bruising force. The heat of him overwhelmed you, his breath mingling with yours as the two of you kissed with feverish desperation, your touches frantic, your breaths ragged, as though trying to erase any distance that had ever existed between you.
You whimpered against his mouth, your fingers clawing at his shoulders, desperate for somethingâanythingâto ground yourself. But there was nothing, no surface to brace against, no escape, only him. His body was the only thing keeping you upright, the solid wall of his chest pressing into yours, pinning you against the lockers. His hips locked you in place, trapping you with a bruising force that left no room for movement, no room to even catch your breath.
Markâs hand slid down your body with an unforgiving roughness, his fingers trailing heat as they gripped and claimed every inch of your skin. When he reached the delicate lace of your thong, he didnât hesitate, yanking them to the side with a sharp tug that left the elastic biting into your hip. The cool air against your soaked heat made you gasp, a sharp inhale that turned into a shaky whimper when his fingers brushed against you. His touch was teasing at first, deliberate and maddening as he dragged his fingertips slowly through your slick folds, spreading your arousal. He hovered just where you needed him most, his thumb brushing lightly against your clit before pulling back, his dark chuckle vibrating against your ear.
âYouâre so fucking wet,â he muttered, his tone a mix of pride and raw desperation. His fingers dipped lower, gathering your wetness before sliding one finger inside you, slow at first but with enough pressure to make you moan. He didnât stop there, adding a second finger almost immediately, thrusting them deep and curling them against your walls with deliberate precision. Your breath hitched, your knees trembling as the stretch made your core clench around him. He pumped his fingers in and out at a punishing rhythm, his thumb pressing against your clit in tight, teasing circles that left you gasping. âLook at how you take me,â he growled, his voice dripping with possession. âSo fucking tight, so ready for me. This is all for me, isnât it? Youâre fucking dripping, baby. God, Iâve missed this.â
Mark didnât let up, his pace growing rougher as he thrust his fingers into you with relentless force. His free hand grabbed your hip, holding you in place as your legs began to shake under his touch. âFuck, youâre so perfect,â he muttered, his tone dropping into a dark, almost feral growl. His fingers curled inside you again, hitting that spot that made your whole body jerk forward, your forehead pressing against the cold metal of the lockers as you let out a broken moan. âThatâs it,â he rasped, his thumb flicking your clit in quick, brutal strokes. âLet me hear you. Donât hold back, baby. I want to hear every fucking sound you make.â
You whimpered, your hips bucking against his hand as the pressure in your core built rapidly, your walls fluttering around his fingers. He groaned low in his throat, the sound raw and guttural as he leaned in closer, his lips brushing against your ear. âYou feel that?â he taunted, his voice thick with lust. âYouâre fucking dripping all over my hand. This pussy was made for me. No one else gets to have you like this. No one else gets to hear you fall apart.â
His fingers drove into you faster now, the wet, obscene sound of your arousal filling the hallway as his thumb applied just the right amount of pressure to your clit. Your knees buckled, your hands clawing at the lockers for support as the intensity became too much, but Mark wasnât done. He slowed for just a second, dragging his fingers out almost completely before slamming them back in, his knuckles brushing your folds as he fucked you with a brutal rhythm. âYouâre mine,â he growled, his voice rough and commanding. âSay it. Say youâre mine, or I swear Iâll stop right now.â
You bit your lip hard, struggling to suppress the moan that threatened to spill out, the sound barely muffled as it echoed faintly in the empty hallway. âMark⌠someone might hearââ
âLet them,â he cut you off, his voice dripping with authority, a low, feral growl that made your knees weak. Before you could respond, his fingers disappeared, leaving you clenching around nothing, the sudden emptiness drawing a desperate whimper from your lips. He didnât give you a moment to protest. With one hand gripping your hip and the other guiding himself to your entrance, he lined himself up, and then, with a single brutal thrust, buried himself inside you to the hilt.
The force of it sent you crashing forward, your chest slamming into the lockers with a metallic clang, the cold metal biting into your skin as your mouth opened in a silent scream. His cock stretched you completely, the overwhelming fullness stealing the air from your lungs. Mark groaned loudly, his head tipping back as his fingers dug into your hips, holding you in place as your walls fluttered and clenched around him.
âYou feel that?â Mark growled, his voice dark and feral, barely audible over the sharp, relentless rhythm of his thrusts. âYou were fucking made for me. No one else could ever handle thisâhandle me. This tight little pussy is mine.â His words were brutal, his tone dripping with dominance, each syllable punctuated by the punishing snap of his hips.
His hand slid up your back with purpose, rough fingers tangling in your hair before yanking it back hard enough to make your scalp sting. The movement forced you to arch for him, your body bending to his will as he fucked into you even deeper, the angle pulling a loud, broken cry from your lips. âTell me itâs mine,â he demanded, his voice sharp and unforgiving, his lips brushing the shell of your ear.
âItâs yours, Mark!â you sobbed, your voice trembling and breaking as your walls clenched around him, the force of his thrusts driving you to the edge. Your hands clawed at the lockers, desperate for something to ground you, your body trembling uncontrollably as he pushed you closer and closer to oblivion.
You turned your head to the side, gasping for air, your cheek brushing against the cold metal as you locked eyes with him. His dark gaze was scorching, his lips curling into a wicked smirk as he leaned down, his face inches from yours. His lips crushed against yours for a moment, the kiss rough and messy, his teeth catching your lower lip before he pulled back.
âOpen,â he growled, his voice low and commanding, dripping with raw authority that sent a shiver down your spine.
You obeyed instantly, parting your lips without hesitation, your chest heaving as you panted for breath. His dark, piercing gaze locked onto yours, radiating dominance as he leaned closer. The deliberate, filthy motion of him spitting into your open mouth sent your core tightening with heat. âSwallow,â he ordered, his tone razor-sharp and leaving no room for refusal.
You gulped immediately, the heat in his eyes burning into you as you felt the liquid slide down your throat. The act was degrading, raw, and yet it ignited something primal within you. His groan was primal, the sound reverberating through the air as he watched you with unrestrained satisfaction. âGood fucking girl,â he rasped, his voice rough and dripping with lust. His hand slid from your hair to your cheek, his thumb brushing over your lips for a fleeting moment before his palm cracked sharply against your face.
You gasped, the sting of his slap sending a jolt of white-hot arousal straight through you. Your cheeks burned, both from the impact and the way it made your entire body thrum with need. Before you could fully process it, his other hand came down hard on your ass, the force making you yelp as your chest slammed against the lockers. He didnât let up, his palm colliding with your skin again and again, alternating between spanking your cheek and ass with relentless intensity.
âYou love this, donât you?â he sneered, his voice dark and full of mockery, his hands gripping you tightly between each punishing slap. âYou love being my little toy. Taking every fucking thing I give you, letting me use you however I want.â
âYes,â you whimpered, your voice shaky as your hands scrambled against the lockers, your body trembling under his control.
âYes, what?â he growled, his hand gripping your jaw roughly, tilting your head back to force your gaze to meet his. âSay it. Say you fucking love it.â
âI love it,â you gasped, the confession tumbling from your lips without hesitation, your entire body thrumming with the overwhelming mix of pain and pleasure. âI love being yours.âÂ
âGood girl,â he spat, his hand releasing your hair only to slide down to your throat, gripping it tightly. âYou take me so well, baby. So fucking good for me.â His words were rough, his tone dripping with possession as his hips snapped forward with brutal precision, each thrust pulling broken moans from your lips.
The relentless pace he set was unforgiving, his hips snapping forward with brutal precision, each thrust rougher than the last. The sound of skin slapping against skin echoed in the hallway, obscene and loud, as he drove into you mercilessly. âYou take me so well,â he grunted, his voice low and guttural in your ear. âEvery inch of me. Fuck, youâre perfect.â
Your hands clawed helplessly at the lockers, desperate for anything to hold on to, but all you had was him. His cock filled you relentlessly, stretching you so perfectly it bordered on overwhelming, every brutal thrust slamming into that devastatingly deep spot that made your vision blur. Each thrust sent shockwaves through your body, your moans spilling freely into the air, mingling with the raw, guttural sounds he made with every movement. The sharp, filthy slap of skin on skin only heightened the unbearable tension building low in your stomach, threatening to snap at any second.
âMark, IâfuckâI canâtââ you stammered, the words tumbling out in a broken cry, barely coherent under the force of him pounding into you.
âYes, you can,â he snarled, his voice thick with command and feral hunger, his lips grazing your ear before his teeth sank into the sensitive skin of your neck, making you cry out. âYou can take it. Youâre going to take every fucking inch of me,â he growled, his tone dripping with possession. His pace quickened, hips snapping into yours with brutal force, each thrust driving you harder against the lockers, your body trembling uncontrollably under his control.
Then, without warning, his hands shifted, gripping your hips with bruising strength as he pulled you back. You gasped sharply, a scream ripping from your throat at the intensity as his body pinned yours away from the lockers, his cock never faltering inside you. His hands were everywhereâholding, gripping, controllingâand it was only him keeping you upright, his strength overwhelming as he drove into you with punishing precision.
âFuck,â he growled, his voice rough and dripping with satisfaction. âDo you feel that? Itâs just meâmy hands, my body, my cock. Youâre fucking helpless, baby. Youâre mine. Completely fucking mine.â
Then one of his hands slid upward, wrapping firmly around your throat. The pressure was immediate, his fingers circling your neck and squeezing just enough to make you choke out a broken moan. The contrast of his cock slamming into you from behind and his hand controlling your breath sent a rush of arousal crashing through you, your nails clawing at his hand instinctively. You gripped his wrist tightly, not to pull him away, but to press him harder, needing more of the dizzying pressure as you panted and gasped for air.
âThis pussy was made for me,â he snarled, his voice sharp and cutting, his words a brutal growl against your ear as he buried himself even deeper. The thick stretch made your breath hitch, your body trembling with each relentless thrust. âSo tight, so fucking wet for me. Look at you, babyâfalling apart on my cock.â
Your nails bit into the flesh of his wrist, your fingers gripping him desperately, both to balance yourself and to encourage him to tighten his hold. The feeling of his hand squeezing your neck, combined with the bruising rhythm of his hips, sent you spiraling. Your vision blurred, pleasure and pain blending together in a way that left you trembling.
âYou fucking love this, donât you?â he growled, his voice dripping with dominance as his hips snapped harder, each punishing thrust pulling cries from your lips. The combination of his cock stretching you perfectly, his hand controlling your breath, and the force of his body against yours left you utterly undone. âSay it,â he demanded, his tone harsh. âSay how much you love being mine, taking everything I give you.â
âYes, MarkâfuckâI love it,â you cried, your voice trembling as the tension inside you coiled impossibly tight. Your body shook with every punishing thrust, his cock dragging against every sensitive spot as your pleasure built to a breaking point.
âThatâs right,â he growled, his lips crashing against yours in a brutal, consuming kiss. His tongue claimed your mouth, his teeth biting at your swollen lips before pulling back just enough to watch your expression. âYouâre going to come for me, arenât you? I can feel it. Youâre closeâso fucking close. Come for me, baby. Show me who you belong to.â
Before you could even respond, he moved with a sudden, punishing force, slamming you back against the lockers with a metallic clang. His body pressed into yours tightly, his grip on your neck tightening briefly before both his hands seized your hips, holding you so firmly it felt like you might break under the pressure. His cock drove into you relentlessly, the sharp, filthy slap of skin against skin filling the hallway as he fucked you harder, his strength keeping you pinned. His chest crushed against your back, every thrust so deep and brutal that it pushed you higher, closer to the edge, his ragged grunts and growls in your ear spurring you on. âCome now,â he snarled, his voice vibrating through you. âCome while Iâm fucking you, and donât you dare hold back.â
His words pushed you over the edge, your orgasm slamming into you with a force that made your entire body tremble. You screamed his name, your walls clenching around him so tightly it dragged a guttural groan from his chest. His thrusts turned erratic, his grip tightening as he chased his own release, his hips snapping forward with bruising force.
âFuck, youâre perfect,â he growled, his voice ragged and guttural as he slammed into you one last time, his cock pulsing as he spilled into you. His groan was primal, vibrating against your skin as he buried himself as deep as he could, his body tensing before finally relaxing. His hands lingered on your hips, rough fingers brushing over your skin, possessive even in the aftermath, as the sound of both your heavy breaths filled the space around you.
The contrast of the cold lockers against your chest and the heat of his body against your back only heightened the overwhelming sensation. âYouâre fucking dripping for me,â he rasped, his hand sliding between your thighs to find your clit. His fingers circled it roughly, in time with the punishing thrusts of his hips, sending sparks of pleasure shooting through your body. âYou love this, donât you? Being fucked like this, being mine.â
âYes,â you gasped, the word tumbling out of your mouth before you could stop it. âMarkâfuck, yes. Iâm yours.â
âDamn right, you are,â he growled, his thrusts growing erratic as he chased his release. âSay it again. Louder.â
âIâm yours,â you cried, your voice breaking as the intensity reached its peak, your body trembling under his relentless assault.
âThatâs my girl,â he muttered, his voice dark and full of satisfaction, his pace never faltering as he drove you closer to the edge. âCome for me. Come all over my cock.â
Your body shattered at his command, the coil of heat in your stomach snapping violently as your orgasm ripped through you. You cried out, your walls clenching around him, gripping him so tightly it dragged a guttural groan from deep in his chest. The sound was raw and primal, his hips snapping harder as he chased his own release, his thrusts erratic and bruising.
âFuck, thatâs it,â Mark growled, his voice thick with desperation as his fingers dug into your hips so hard it bordered on pain. His pace grew frantic, his cock driving into you with unrelenting force. âYouâre fucking perfect. So tight, so goodâmine. All fucking mine.â His voice cracked on the last word, and with one final, brutal thrust, he buried himself as deep as he could, his entire body tensing as he came hard, his cock pulsing inside you. His moan was low and guttural, the sound vibrating against your skin as his release spilled into you, hot and overwhelming.
He stayed there for a moment, his forehead pressing against your shoulder, both of you panting heavily. The sound of your mingled breaths filled the air, your bodies still trembling from the intensity. His hands remained firm on your hips, holding you in place as he rode out the aftershocks, his cock still twitching inside you.
Slowly, Mark pulled out, the sensation making you gasp softly as the emptiness left a dull ache. His hands slid up your sides, rough and possessive, brushing over your sweat-damp skin as he leaned in close. His lips ghosted over the back of your neck before he spoke, his voice low and dripping with satisfaction. âYouâre fucking incredible,â he murmured, the dominance still thick in his tone, even as his breath fanned across your skin.
He straightened, his fingers trailing down to your ass, giving it a sharp slap that made you jolt forward against the lockers. His chuckle was dark and teasing, his hands gripping you again as if he wasnât done. âAnd donât think for a second that weâre done yet,â he added, his tone carrying a dangerous promise. âIâm nowhere near finished with you.â
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Mark didnât waste a second taking you to his apartment. You barely registered the ride there, too blissfully fucked out and hazy to argue or care. His arms stayed wrapped around you the entire time, carrying you through the door and into his bathroom as though you weighed nothing. The soreness in your limbs made you wince, but Mark noticed every little flinch, whispering soft apologies under his breath as he held you close.
âThank you,â you murmured, leaning into him as his strong hands massaged the ache from your thighs and hips, the tenderness of his touch a stark contrast to the way heâd just handled you. He kissed the top of your head as he muttered another quiet âsorry,â lowering you gently into the warm bath heâd prepared, bubbles and the familiar scent of your favorite soap wrapping around you like a comforting embrace.
You sank into the water with a soft sigh, your body easing into his as he slid in behind you, his chest firm and warm against your back. He didnât say much, his fingers working gently to massage your shoulders and arms as his stormy eyes stayed fixed on you, a mix of guilt, tenderness, and love swirling in his gaze.
When the bathwater cooled, he wrapped you in a towel, lifting you effortlessly and sitting you on the bathroom countertop. You sat there, completely bare, the steam from the bath still clinging to your skin as you waited for him to return. He came back moments later with one of his shirts, freshly laundered and soft, helping you slip it over your head. He brushed a hand through your damp hair as he leaned in to kiss your forehead.
The tension between you softened further as he carried you effortlessly to his bed, his strong arms cradling you like you were something fragile, something he couldnât risk breaking. He laid you down gently, sliding under the covers with you, his warmth enveloping you before you could even think to protest. Instinctively, you moved closer to him, your body betraying every wall your mind tried to rebuild. He mirrored you, pulling you against him with a quiet desperation, his arms wrapping around you so tightly it felt as though he feared you might disappear.
Your legs tangled naturally with his, his strong thigh slotting between yours as you pressed yourself into the solid heat of his chest. You rested your head over his heart, the steady rhythm beneath your cheek grounding you, each beat a silent reminder that he was here, alive, and holding you. His hand moved slowly, soothingly, smoothing up and down your back in soft, deliberate strokes, his touch warm and tender. The simple act melted away the last of your resistance, leaving nothing but the raw, unspoken connection between you, a bond that neither of you could deny, no matter how hard you tried.
âIâm still fucking mad at you,â he whispered into the quiet, a small smirk tugging at the corners of his lips.
âAnd Iâm fucking mad at you too,â you shot back, your voice trembling with emotion as you jabbed his chest. âI canât believe how careless you are. You have a fucking heart condition, Mark, and youâre out here playing like everything is fine?â
âY/Nââ
âNo,â you interrupted, your voice breaking as tears welled in your eyes. âWhat if something happens? What if you collapse during a game, andâandâMark, I canât live without you. I canât. Youâre my entire life, I swear to fucking God, if you donâtââ
âHey, hey,â he whispered gently, his voice low and filled with a tenderness that made your chest ache. His hands came up to cradle your face, his thumbs brushing away the tears that spilled freely down your cheeks. His touch was so soft, so deliberate, as if he was trying to erase your pain with each tender stroke. âNothingâs going to happen to me, okay?â he murmured, his eyes locked on yours, his gaze steady and full of reassurance.
âItâs not as bad as you think,â he added, his tone quiet but firm, laced with a calmness meant to ground you. âItâs only dangerous because of the sports, and I know what Iâm doing. I promise, itâs not as serious as it feels right now.â His words were meant to comfort, but it was the way his voice wavered ever so slightly, betraying the concern he tried to mask, that made you feel like he truly meant it. He leaned in, pressing a soft kiss to your forehead, his lips lingering for a moment as though to seal his promise there, anchoring you to him in that moment.
You rolled your eyes through your tears. âThat makes me feel so much better,â you snapped, but your voice wavered with the depth of your fear.
âYou donât need to be worried for me,â he said, his gaze soft but serious. âI know my limits. Iâm not dumb enough to risk my lifeââ
âBut I am worried!â you cried, jabbing his chest again for emphasis. âAnd you are dumb enough. Youâve been playing with it like itâs nothing, Mark. I donât want you to die. Actually, it doesnât matter if you do, because Iâm literally just going to kill you first before your heart condition does.â
He chuckled softly, brushing a stray hair from your face. âYouâre cute when youâre such a worried girlfriend⌠borderline crazy though.â
âThis isnât funny,â you snapped, your tears spilling over again.
His expression softened, the weight of your fear reflected in his eyes as his hand moved to gently tilt your face upward, his fingers cradling your jaw with a tenderness that made your heart twist. âLook at me,â he said, his voice firm but not harsh, the kind of tone that demanded your attention without pushing you away. His gaze locked onto yours, steady and unwavering, as if he needed you to believe every word he was about to say.
âNothing is going to happen to me, okay?â he continued, his thumb brushing gently along your cheekbone, grounding you in his touch. âWhen have I ever broken a promise to you?â His voice softened, a flicker of vulnerability seeping through. âIâm not ever going to leave you. I love you too much for that to happen.â The sincerity in his words, the raw emotion in his tone, made your chest ache, and you couldnât stop the tears that spilled again, overwhelmed by the depth of his reassurance and love.
His words hit you like a wave, the emotion crashing over you and tightening your chest until it was almost hard to breathe. Unable to hold back, you pulled him closer, your arms wrapping around him as your fingers tangled gently in his hair, grounding yourself in the familiar softness. Your voice trembled as you whispered, barely audible, âHow long have you known?â You whispered, your voice soft and trembling.
âA few months,â he admitted, his tone quiet.
âSo⌠before we got together?â you asked, and he nodded.
âMark,â you huffed, your voice sharp with a mix of frustration and exasperation, âI seriously donât understand how you can keep fucking me so hard when you know you have a heart problem! Do you have any idea how scared I am? I donât want you keeling over mid-thrust and having a damn heart attack!â
Mark paused for a moment, his lips twitching into that infuriatingly boyish smirk, clearly amused despite the seriousness in your voice. âBaby,â he said, his tone low and teasing, âif I go out like that, at least Iâll die knowing I had the best pussy wrapped around me.â
You stared at him, utterly dumbfounded, your jaw dropping at his audacity. âMark Lee, that is not funny!â
He chuckled, the sound deep and rich, and reached out to pull you closer, his hands settling on your hips. âIâm just saying,â he murmured, his voice dropping to a whisper against your ear, âif itâs gonna happen, thereâs no better way to go, is there?â
Without a word, you smacked his chest, narrowing your eyes as you shifted to straddle him, your movements slow and deliberate. His grin faltered slightly, replaced by a flicker of something softer, more serious, as your hands cupped his face, your thumbs brushing over his cheekbones. âYou need to promise me,â you whispered, your voice trembling with equal parts fear and determination. âPromise me youâll tell your coach, go to the doctors, and get your medication. I donât care if you hate it. I donât care if youâre scared. I donât care if you hate that your dad has the same condition.â You paused, your voice breaking slightly as your fingers tightened against his skin. âNone of that matters, Mark. The only thing that matters is you. I need you alive. I need you happy and healthy. Youâre everything to me.â
His breath hitched at your words, his Adamâs apple bobbing as he swallowed hard. The cocky bravado melted away, leaving something raw and vulnerable in its place. He stared at you for a long moment, his dark eyes glassy as a single tear slipped down his cheek. âOkay,â he murmured finally, his voice cracking under the weight of your words.
âOkay?â you repeated, blinking at him, surprised by the lack of resistance.
A faint smile returned to his face as he extended his pinky to you, sealing the promise in the simplest, most intimate way. You hooked your pinky with his, leaning down to press a soft, lingering kiss to his lips, your touch filled with the weight of the moment. His hands slid to your waist, holding you close as though you were his anchor, and for a while, the two of you just stayed like that, holding each other, letting the silence speak for everything you couldnât put into words.
âI think now would be a good time to tell you everything thatâs been going on,â you whispered, your voice barely audible in the stillness.
He shifted slightly, pressing a soft kiss to the top of your head. âIâm listening,â he murmured, his tone steady and patient, his hands rubbing slow circles on your back. He waited, his gaze fixed on you with a quiet understanding that made your chest ache.
You inhaled shakily, your fingers trembling as they curled into his shirt, clutching it like it was the only thing keeping you grounded. âIâm scared, Mark,â you whispered, your voice barely audible, cracking under the weight of your confession. âIâm scared all the time. Itâs like this storm in my head that never stops.â Your chest tightened painfully, your breathing shallow as tears filled your eyes. âIâm terrified of losing you, of something going wrong between us and not being able to stop it, not being able to fix it.â
The words tumbled out of you in a rush, raw and uneven, as though theyâd been clawing at your throat for too long. âItâs always there,â you continued, your voice trembling. âThis weight crushing me, like no matter how hard I try, I canât shake it. I canât make it go away.â Your hands tightened their grip on his shirt as your tears began to fall, your fear spilling over, leaving you vulnerable and exposed in a way that felt both terrifying and inevitable.
Your voice broke as the tears finally fell, your throat tight as you forced yourself to continue. âAnd itâs not just the big things, Mark. Itâs everything. Every argument, every time we feel even a little off, itâs like my brain jumps straight to the worst-case scenario. Like maybe⌠maybe itâs the beginning of the end, and I canât stop it.â A sob slipped out, and you buried your face in his chest, unable to meet his eyes, too afraid of what youâd see there.
Markâs arms wrapped around you tightly, his grip tight, pulling you closer until you were pressed against him completely. He kissed your temple softly, the warmth of his lips lingering as though he could will the fear out of you with his touch. âI didnât know it was this bad,â he murmured, his voice heavy with guilt and pain. His tone was so tender, so full of quiet understanding, that it only made you cry harder. âIâm so sorry, baby. I didnât know.â His hold on you tightened, his chest rising and falling unevenly as if your pain was his own.
You shook your head, wiping at your eyes. âItâs not your fault. Itâs just my mind jumping to the worst-case scenarios, twisting everything until I canât tell whatâs real and whatâs just in my head.â
He hummed again, nodding for you to continue, his patience unwavering as his thumb traced soothing circles on your skin.
âThe last few weeks have been⌠a lot,â you said after a moment. âThere were two things that finally broke me. The first was when you left me with your best friend to talk. She told me itâs unlike you to rush into a relationship so fast. That she doesnât buy our connection and doesnât believe you love me.â
Markâs jaw clenched, his expression darkening instantly. âShe said what?â he asked, his voice low and laced with anger.
âShe said it out of anger,â you said quickly, placing a calming hand on his chest. âShe was upset about everything going on with you and Jeno, and I was there, so she took it out on me. We made up, and she hasnât apologised, but sheâs been acting like my friend again. At the boy toy auction, she was supportive and kind. I just need you to promise me something.â
Markâs brow furrowed deeply, his confusion mingling with frustration as he nodded. âWhat?â he asked, his voice sharp but low, laced with the beginnings of anger.
âDonât let her know you know,â you said firmly, holding his gaze, willing him to understand. âSheâs your best friend, Mark. I know how much she means to you, and I know how much you mean to her too. She said what she said out of anger, not because she really believes it. And as much as it hurt me in the moment, I know it wasnât about meâit was about everything else thatâs been happening, everything with you and Jeno, all the pressure sheâs been feeling. She just⌠took it out on me because I was there.â You paused, your voice softening as your fingers brushed against his. âAnd I forgave her, because I get it. Iâve done the same thing before. I just⌠Iâm tired, Mark. I donât want to keep adding fuel to the fire. I just want things to be okay between all of us. I donât want to come between you two.â
His jaw tightened, his teeth grinding audibly as he exhaled slowly, his shoulders tense with barely-contained frustration. âFine,â he muttered after a long pause, his voice heavy with reluctance. His eyes flickered with anger he couldnât quite hide, but there was something softer there tooâa resignation born of love. He didnât like it but heâd bite his tongue for you, even when it was the hardest fucking thing to do. For you, heâd set aside his pride and anger, because keeping the peace mattered more to him than holding onto his frustration.
Your chest ached at the weight of his words, knowing how much he was holding back for your sake. âThank you,â you whispered, your voice thick with emotion as you leaned into him, resting your head against his chest. His arms came around you, holding you close, and you could feel the steady rhythm of his heartbeat beneath your cheek. For a moment, the world felt a little quieter, a little softer, as he silently promised to carry the weight of this for you, no matter how much it hurt.
You hesitated before continuing, your breath hitching as you fought to find the right words. Your voice was quieter now, almost shaky. âThe second thing⌠was when you and Jeno were still mad at each other. I overheard your conversation.â You paused, your throat tightening as anxiety clawed its way up your chest. âHe said you only wanted me to get back at him, that it was part of some stupid bet from your first river court showdown. And⌠and you didnât deny it, Mark. You just let him say it. It felt like you just⌠took it.â
Markâs arms stiffened around you immediately, his body going rigid against yours as his confusion broke through his usual calm. He pulled back slightly, his hands resting on your shoulders as he studied your face. âY/N?â he said, his tone equal parts disbelief and concern.
You swallowed hard, your heart pounding as you forced yourself to meet his gaze. His brows were furrowed, his jaw tight, but there was no anger in his expressionâjust a quiet intensity that made your chest ache.
âI donât know what you heard,â he began carefully, his voice steady but edged with frustration. âBut I remember that conversation. I told Jeno to shut the fuck up and nearly punched him.â
Your eyes widened at his words, your heart stumbling in your chest. âWhat?â
âAt first, I ignored him,â Mark explained, his voice sharper now, more defensive. âIâd had enough of Jenoâs shit, so I just shook it off. Told him he could think whatever he wanted because I didnât have the energy to argue. But when he kept pushing, saying that shit about you and us, I lost it. I wasnât going to entertain his bullshit, but I wasnât going to let him drag you into it either. I defended you. I defended us, Y/N. I wasnât quiet about it.â
âOh,â you said softly, the single word carrying the weight of your realization. Guilt hit you hard, crashing over you in waves as you replayed the moment in your mind.
Mark raised a brow, his lips twitching despite his frustration. âOh?â he echoed, his voice laced with a faint chuckle, though the irritation still lingered beneath it.
You gulped, the shame settling in as your cheeks flushed. The truth of it was clear nowâyour anxiety had twisted the situation into something it wasnât, feeding into your fears and doubts until they felt like reality. Maybe you hadnât heard him defend you, or maybe youâd disassociated during the argument, too overwhelmed to register what was happening. Either way, youâd let your own fears convince you of something that wasnât true.
âI believe you,â you said finally, your voice small and wavering but sincere. âIâm sorry, Mark. I didnât⌠I didnât know.â
Markâs expression softened instantly, his tension easing as he pulled you closer. His arms wrapped around you, holding you tightly as he pressed a gentle kiss to your forehead. âDonât apologize,â he murmured, his voice low and comforting. âI get it. I know how your mind works sometimes, and itâs okay. But for the record,â he added, his tone firm but tender, âIâll defend you and us every single time. Donât ever doubt that, okay?â
You nodded, a lump forming in your throat as you buried your face in his chest. His warmth surrounded you, his embrace grounding you in a way that made it easier to breathe. The fears that had been gnawing at you began to fade, replaced by the steady rhythm of his heartbeat and the quiet reassurance of his presence. For the first time in what felt like forever, you let yourself believe that everything was going to be okay.
Mark sat close enough that you could feel the warmth radiating from him, but there was a gap between youâa physical manifestation of the emotional distance neither of you knew how to bridge. Your hands fidgeted in your lap, fingers twisting together nervously as your eyes darted between him and the floor. He didnât look away, his gaze fixed on you, unwavering but heavy.
Finally, he broke the silence. His voice was steady, but there was a vulnerability in it that made your chest tighten. âDo you wanna give âusâ another try?â he asked, the words quiet but loaded with hope, as though heâd been holding them in for too long. His eyes softened as he searched yours, silently pleading for the answer he so desperately wanted.
Your breath hitched, and for a moment, you froze. The question hung in the air, echoing in your mind as a whirlwind of emotions tore through you. A flicker of something stirred in your chestâhope, longing, affectionâbut it was quickly overshadowed by the weight of your fears. Anxiety clawed at you, the what-ifs and worst-case scenarios screaming in your head. Your fingers tightened in your lap, your throat dry as you struggled to find the words.
You wanted to say yes. Every part of you yearned to take his hand, to close the distance between you and fall back into him completely. But deep down, you knew you werenât ready. Not yet. The fear of letting him down, of rushing into something you werenât emotionally prepared for, was too strong.
You swallowed hard, the lump in your throat making it difficult to speak. âI donât think Iâm ready yet,â you whispered, your voice trembling. You forced yourself to continue, though each word felt like it was being ripped out of you. âTo be your girlfriend, I mean. I think⌠I think I rushed into everything, thinking it would all be fine.â
You couldnât look at him. Your eyes stayed fixed on your lap, too afraid to see the hurt you knew would be in his expression. âItâs not that I donât want this,â you added, your voice barely audible now. âI do. But Iâm scared. Scared of ruining it again. Scared Iâm not enough. I just⌠I need time, Mark. I need to figure myself out before I can give you what you deserve.â
The silence that followed was deafening, stretching out like an unspoken void between you. It pressed down heavily, wrapping around your chest and making it hard to breathe. You could feel the weight of your words settling into the space, solid and immovable, creating a chasm where moments ago there had been fragile, tentative hope. Every second that passed seemed to magnify the distance, the air thick with tension and unspoken emotions.
Your heart pounded in your ears, drowning out the faint noises of the world around you. It wasnât just the quiet that unnerved youâit was the way Markâs expression shifted, his features hardening ever so slightly as he processed what youâd said. His gaze dropped briefly, his shoulders stiffening, and the heaviness in the air grew almost unbearable. It felt like you had broken something fragile, something that couldnât be put back together, and the realization sent a wave of guilt and anxiety crashing over you. You braced yourself, heart pounding, afraid he might lash out, might walk away.
But he didnât.
Instead, he exhaled slowly, his head tilting back as he let out a deep, controlled breath. When he looked at you again, he gave you a tight-lipped smile, one that didnât reach his eyes. âI get it,â he said softly, though his voice carried a weight that betrayed him. âIf this is what you need, Iâll try to understand.â
The forced calmness in his tone broke something inside you. You hated the sadness and disappointment he was trying so hard to hide. Desperate to ease the tension, to fill the unbearable void between you, the words slipped out before you could stop them. âJust friends?â you blurted, your voice hesitant, almost shaky. It felt wrong, hollow, even as you said it, but you hoped it might soften the heaviness in the air. You werenât offering it because itâs what you wantedâyou were offering it because you thought it might make things less painful for him, might somehow bridge the gap that felt wider with each passing second.
Mark froze for a moment, his gaze dropping to the floor. You saw the way his throat bobbed as he swallowed hard, the struggle to compose himself evident in the tension in his jaw. âFriends,â he repeated quietly, the word cutting deeper than he wanted to admit.
The silence stretched again, and your heart raced, terrified he might say no, that youâd lose him entirely. But then, he nodded. Slowly, reluctantly, but he nodded.
âFriends,â he said again, the word thick in his throat.
You could see it in his eyesâhow much it hurt him to agree, how much more he wanted. But you could also see the love behind his restraint, the way he forced himself to accept it because he knew itâs what you needed.
âSlow steps though?â you whispered, lifting your pinky toward him. Your heart hammered in your chest as you waited, hoping, praying he wouldnât turn away.
Markâs eyes softened, even through the hurt. He hesitated for a moment before reaching out, his hand trembling slightly as he hooked his pinky with yours. The gesture was small, but it felt monumental, like an unspoken promise hanging between you.
âYeah,â he said, his voice barely above a whisper. âSlow steps.â
His words were forced, but there was a flicker of something vulnerable in his eyesâa glimmer of hope he couldnât completely hide. His hand lingered, his pinky curled tightly around yours as though letting go would mean losing everything.
âThank you,â you murmured, your voice thick with emotion. The guilt clawed at you, heavy and suffocating as you watched him struggle to keep himself together. You knew he wanted moreâso much moreâand it broke your heart to hold back, but you also knew this was the only way. âI just⌠I need to heal, Mark. I donât want to mess this up again.â
He nodded, but his silence spoke louder than anything he could have said. His jaw tensed, and his lips pressed into a thin line as he worked to contain the wave of emotions threatening to break free.
You shifted closer, unable to ignore the ache in your chest. Slowly, hesitantly, you reached out and brushed your fingers against his, letting them linger. âYou mean so much to me,â you whispered. âI donât want you to think this changes that.â
Markâs gaze finally met yours, and the sadness in his eyes was almost unbearable. âI know,â he said quietly, his voice strained but steady. âI get it. You need time. I justâŚâ He paused, inhaling deeply as he tried to steady himself. âIâll wait as long as you need.â
His words hit you hard, the sheer depth of his love and patience shining through even in the midst of his heartbreak. Tears welled in your eyes, and you blinked them away quickly, not wanting to break down now.
âFriends, then,â you said again, trying to sound lighter, trying to ease the tension.
Mark gave you a small, pained smile, his fingers brushing yours in a gesture that felt both comforting and bittersweet. âFriends,â he repeated, though the word still sounded foreign coming from him.
But even as the word lingered between you, his actions betrayed him. His hand didnât leave yours, and when you shifted just a little closer, his knee pressed against yours, grounding you both in the connection that still remained.
As the silence stretched, it didnât feel as suffocating anymore. Instead, there was a quiet intimacy in the way you sat together, in the way his gaze softened when it met yours, in the way your pinky promise lingered a moment longer than necessary.
And though the heartbreak was palpable, so was the hope. Hope that this wasnât the end, that this was just a pause, a moment to regroup and rebuild.
When you leaned your head against his shoulder, Markâs breath hitched softly, but he didnât pull away. His arm came up to rest lightly across your back, a subtle but reassuring touch. Neither of you said anything, but the unspoken promise hung in the air: slow steps, time to heal, and a chance to find your way back to each other.
Markâs voice broke the quiet, barely above a whisper. âIâll wait,â he said again, and this time, the words carried a quiet strength that steadied you.
And for the first time in a long while, you let yourself believe that everything would be okay.
authors note â hi loves! if youâve made it this far, thank you so much for reading! it truly means the world to me. i poured so much effort into this, so if you could take just a moment to send an ask or leave a message sharing your thoughts, it would mean everything. your interactionsâwhether itâs sending an ask, your feedback, a comment, or just saying hiâgive me so much motivation to keep writing. iâm always so happy to respond to messages, asks and comments so donât be shy! thank you from the bottom of my heart! <3
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like thinking of my ocs existing in the same sphere and I think in a scenario where yves/thalia/wren/shriâiia/xaphan are in the same team, both thalia and xaphan are the reason why this group is still surviving, wren tries to boost morale but mostly he sticks with xaphan bc thalia and shriâiia intimidates him and when yves admits she gets the durges shriâiia is like donât we all
#and theyâre like ? no wtf#but that scenario is so interesting for the doomed trio bc yves doesnât have her memories đ¤đ¤đ¤ and wren wouldâve already left them behind#so now theyâre stuck together again the drama is JUICY. and he would pretend he doesnât know them I think xaphan would keep up that#pretense tooâŚ. bc xaphan has washed his hands off him. he left him behind!#Thaliaâs like getting weird tense vibes from u guys but thatâs not important rn đ#meanwhile shriâiia is like đ§ââď¸ I wanna go home#ooooh now Iâm wondering who sheâll latch on to. I think sheâd try thalia but the moment she finds how unpredictable#Thaliaâs magic is sheâll consider it a liability then try xaphan đ¤đ¤ xaphan just has two leeches hanging on him#but the moment she finds out abt yves serial killer urges sheâs like. hrm. interestingâŚ! WOULD try her. I also think before the durge#reveal and if yves killed someone randomly shriâiia would try kill her one night bc she got too paranoid and sheâs like. ur a liability we#gotta rid of u. but yves is like đ§ââď¸itâs not me omg. then sheâs forced to explain. and then shriâiia is like oh ok understandable have a ni#day 𫡠like sheâs a reasonable woman what else can I say
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Okay sorry I'm jsut so fixated on my art rn LMFAOO BUT. ONE. CONTEXT/SNEAK PEAK. With horrible lighting as a treat đĽ°
LIKE??????? ARE YOU SEEING THIS SHIT????????? WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT
#HSKSHSKSHKSJSJSK#you know my greatest fear is those 'diverse body type' tutorials and the comparison is. the same.#bc like. if i'm honest i could probably push it waaay more but i always wanted to portay dif body types in my art#also like trying to avoid same face syndrome (can get rough when you draw siblings/family though#who often have the same/similar features đ)#REGARDLESS SOMEWHAT STRAYING FROM THE POINT. look at this fucking shit man#the poses are so stiff. how did i ever draw henriette like that and honestly think 'yeah that's a curvy fat woman' đŤĽ#THEY HAVE BARELY ANY EXPRESSIVENESS. LIKE. AT ALL. in the face in body language#and yeah initially i think i was just rushing it to get the whole page done but like. come on man.#and like????? THIS is what i considered squeezing in for space??? amateur . the micro organisms i draw now put these guys to shame.#also that's just. a regular sized panel to me now. actually it's quite spacious#anyways it's really fun drawing sharena squished against alfonse and alfonse is just đ§#the vibe is tense but also he's just like that. and she's just like that. slightly incompatible.#fe alfonse#sharena#fe henriette#my art#wip
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Showerhead | mattheo riddle
summary: you thought you were alone in the bathroom when your wild thoughts took over you but you suddenly hear a second voice.. and its not inside your head.
warnings: masturbating for a sec, cursing, filthy DIRTY TALK, fingering, mattheo eating out reader, unprotected p in v, enemyxlover vibe, gryffindor!reader
notes: DAMN I'M BACK! I'm sorry but I had a HUGE writing block. Also: english is not my first language so pls let me know If there'S something I can correct :)
My day was unbelievable fucked. I woke up too late, got detention because i talked to my friends while Snape was teaching us something, i spilled my food over my clothes.. twice.. after that I fell from my broomstick at the quidditch training and now i sat with Hermione, Ron and Harry in the Great Hall eating.
âYo y/n can I copy your homework later? I got -" Ron startet but i interrupted him "Yeah yeah whatever.. guys Iâm gonna go to bed okay? See you after this." Hermione and me shared a room so I would see her later.
I rushed to our dorm, getting rid of my dirty clothes. God I needed a shower, now. I took my clothes, shower stuff and towels and started to walk towards one of the big bathrooms.
Because I wanted more privacy, I did go to one that not many students know about. Hermione once told me about it as she talked about Hogwarts in first grade.
As I walked inside, I checked If someoneâs here but I was alone. I took off my clothes and stood under one of the showers more in the corner and let the water run down my body. I sighed as I felt it on my skin, finally feeling more relaxed.
My thoughts started drifting after a while as my hands glided over my body. Damn my muscles are really sore. When was even the last time I had sex? I think it was like 3 months ago with a guy from Ravenclaw. He looked promising but merlin was I feeling disappointed after.
I couldnât even touch myself cause I was always around people, sharing rooms together and shit.
I bit my lip as I looked at that shower head above me. Nah I couldnât.. could I? Did I even have time? I mean I was in here already for like 20 minutes so I had to be in my room before curfew but god damn I was so desperate.
Oh fuck it â what is one more detention, right? I took the shower head, letting my other hand slowling wandering over my nipples. I whimpered slightly at the feeling, realising now how desperate I really was.
I took the shower head and put it where I needed it the most. My thoughts drifted again and I tried to think about someone but no face appeared until - fuck no, I canât think about him.. but before I could debate more with myself, his name left my lips.
"Fuck Mattheo.." my lips parted and my breathing got heavier. Merlin was I already about to cum? How pathetic, I didnât even touch myself properly but that kind of didnât matter as the next words left my mouth. "Shit.. please" i begged into the foggy air around me.
"Damn Princess.." My blood got cold and my body tensed to a point where I couldnât move. I swallowed as I opened my eyes and saw Mattheo Riddle standing right in front of me. The one whoâs name I just moaned.
I tried to hide my body behind my hands, a little too late. "Fuck Riddle what the hell are you doing here?!" I asked him angry. Once because I stood there completley naked and he didnât even tried not to look and second for my again â non existing orgasm.
He looked shamelessly over my body, scanning every inch of my skin. He had a towel hanging low on his hips, which didnt really helped the state i was in right now.
" I could ask you the same but I think I just heard what you did.." he smirked arrogant and looked at my face. "You know you could have just asked If you wanted my help."
I rolled my eyes at him as I took one of my towels from the side to hide my body but as I did I had to let go which leaded him to look at my breasts. I saw him licking his lips, looking up at my face again as I wrapped the towel around myself.
"Just because your name is Mattheo, doesnât mean I was thinking about you."
He grinned again, coming closer to me slowly. "Oh yeah? Then who did you mean?" I tried to think about an different Mattheo but there was no one in this school I knew with that name â besides him.
He just stood one inch away from me now, backing me into the shower again until my back hit the wall.
"Princess.. i know you did think about me, thereâs no shame in telling." I started nibbling on my bottom lip as a signal to being nervous. God he smelled so good and his face looked even more handsome now that the single drops of water fell onto his face from his still wet hair.
"And what If I was? Are you going to tell all your stupid little friends?" He chuckled "No.." his face came even closer now "just let me help you out with that." I swallowed down a clump in my troath as he said that. My pride was way too big for him to just come here and fuck me like that..right?
"Hell no I -" "Why not huh? I saw how desperate your little body looked as you just begged for more.. let me help you with that, Iâm gonna make you cum within the first minutes." Now his arrogant smile was back, his breath hitting my lips now.
"Yeah all of you boys say that, leaving me unsatisfied after." I huffed, looking away from his piercing eyes.
"Letâs make a deal little one.. Iâm gonna eat you out and If I donât make you cum within the, lets say: five minutes? Iâll leave and never bother you again.."
I looked at his lips while he was talking. They looked so soft and kissable â fuck was I really considering what he said? I mean heâs a Riddle and a stupid little fucker but maybe thatâs just what I needed right now. Stupid little Fucker named Mattheo Riddle.
"And what If you make me cum?" i looked up at his eyes again. He towered his head over mine grinning, coming down to my ear and whispered "..then youâre mine for the night." He smiled almost devilish and I know I shouldâve said no but damn 3 months were starting to get the best of me.
"Deal." It felt like as If I just signed up for the devil. His smile grew at my words and he pushed me against the wall this time, unwrapping the towel i just put on.
"Damn your body looks so good, just perfect for me to eat." Shivers went down my spine at his words right towards my - " I hope you know what you just got yourself into." Suddenly he took me by my hips, lifting me up against the wall again as I wrapped my legs around his hips.
"Itâs kind of unfair that you still have your towel on, donât you think?â "Oh donât worry princess, itâs coming off very soon."
He took one hand away from supporting my ass, to my cheek. He looked deep into my eyes, almost staring into my soul. He closed the gap between us, kissing me like no boy ever did before in my whole life. The kiss was passionate, heated and longing. Almost as If we would seperate, we couldnât breathe.
I felt the tip of his tounge slide over my bottom lip which made me moan slightly. He smiled against my lips and pressed himself harder against me.
I opened my mouth slowly, which he took as a opportunity to explore my mouth with his tounge fighting over control with mine.
He let go of my lips what almost costed me a whimper but I pressed my lips together. He took me by my hips again, lifting me higher until I sat on his shoulders, my eyes going wide. Damn I donât think I need 5 minutes.
"You ready?" he mumbled against my inner tight he started kissing softly with his wet lips. I just let out a deep breathe and nodded, putting my hands on his hair.
He started kissing higher up until his mouth was just an inch away from my pussy. "5 Minutes are alredy starting" I chocked out, but in reality I just wanted him so start.
I could feel him grinning like an little ass but these thoughts were thrown out of the window as his tounge touched my clit.
I held in my breathe for a second as he started to kitten lick my clit and massaging my tights with his hands. I buckled against his face but he was faster and backed away. I let out a desperate whine at the loss of contact.
"Beg me.." he told me looking up at me with his chocolate brown eyes. Shit who was I even to deny that? Now wasnât really the moment for too much pride. "Please.." He raised his eyebrows " Please what?" "Please eat me out Mattheo, I need it - please.."
Satisfied with my answer he licked flat over my pussy, focusing on my clit again as he started to suck it. "Oh my-" my lips parted and my hands flew into his hair again, pressing his face deeper between my legs.
"Fuck that feels good" i moaned and arched my back off the wall as I felt something deep down in my stomach. Shit he didnât even do much but give my clit some attention - really good attention - and I was already close again.
I felt his hand going under my tight and his thumb being places on my clit. He moved his finger in circular motions, sliding his tounge to by entrance, fucking me with it.
"M-mattheo please!â shamelessly i bucked my hips and cried out his name.
"You close baby?" he asked, mumbling against my wet skin. I just nodded breathless until I felt a sharp and powerful feeling in my abdomen.
It completely crushed me. Everything around me went black for a few seconds and I couldnt hear anything. I just came so hard on Mattheoâs tounge that I didnât even realise where I was for a short moment.
I looked down on me, looking in Mattheoâs eyes, already looking at me. "You taste so good baby."
He slowly lets me down again but holds me as we both notice how weak my knees are. "Damn I didnt expect that.." i breathe out and look at his lips, still glistening from my juices.
"I think you lost our deal.." he grinned and startet slowly kissing my neck. I chuckle, nodding just slowly, thinking about how much I actually want him and not caring about the fact that I lost.
"..but you donât really seem to care huh." he grins and slowly rubs my back before turning me around so I faced the wall. "Hands on the wall baby." No matter what he said, I always heard him smiling. Smug little ass. "Spread your legs princess, that's it.. wider." My stomach twisted at his vulgar words, never ever did a boy talk to me like that.
I did as he said, spread my legs even wider while my hands touched the cold wall. "Hmm now arch your back for me."
I felt his hands slither around my waist down to my lover stomach. Every touch of his send shivers down my spine. Suddenly, I felt his breath against my ear, his lips kissing the shell of it as he murmurs with a deep voice. "I'm going to fuck every last thought out of this pretty little head." "Stop teasing me and do it!"
He chuckles darkly and I feel the tips of his fingers wandering slowly over my pussy. "Do you really think you're in a position to give orders?" Goosebumps.
As I didn't answer him he lightly brushed his finger over my clit, making me shiver again, while brushing soft kisses across my back.
"Please." I let out a whimper, arching my back just a little more and pushing my hips into his body. Then, I felt him at my entrance, pressing the tip of his cock against my clit, just where his fingers had been a second ago.
"Beg. Fucking let me hear how much you want this cock." he whispers into my ear, his hot breath hitting my ear. My whole body shudders and I can't help it but do as he tells me to.
"Mattheo please I need you. I need to feel you, I'll do anything." I feel myself almost crying from the frustration and arousal. "Good Girl." he groans before he slowly enters me. Fuck.
"Oh Shit baby, you feel so tight." Mattheo grunted shamelessly as my walls clenched around him. My breathing got heavy and I bite my bottom lip to hide my moans.
"Don't hold back." he commands and just so, I let my lip go and whimper out his name.
"Hmm just like that princess." He pushes further inside of me, groaning at the feeling. I feel so full of him, I can't think straight besides of him and how good he feels.
Abruptly he started moving his hips fast an hard against my ass, leaving my mouth hanging wide open. " Oh fuck, Mattheo!" I cried out at the sensation. His hand started to wander up and down my body, over my back, my stomach, my tits - playing with my nipples.
"What, you want gentle? Wrong fucking address." God where has he been all these months? It feels like he just fills that hole inside of me - literally.
I hear him panting behind me, not slowing down with the movement of his hips. "Shit I would've fucked you way sooner If knew you had such a tight little pussy, just waiting for me to come and fuck it sore."
I hiss as he takes my hair into his fist and yanks my head backwards so It would lay against his shoulder while my back is still arched and he presses me against him. My hands roam over his arm that holds me in the middle of my body and I close my eyes. I'm definitely gonna be sore tomorrow.
I felt him changing the angle of his hips a little and my eyes almost bulged out of my head. "Oh my god!" I almost scream, forgetting that someone could hear us, even tho not many know about this bathroom. "Fuck yes, I feel you clenching around me princess. Does that feel good hm?" he teases and bites my neck gently.
Words coiled inside my throat, coming out as broken sobs, telling him I'm wanting more. "You're still holding back, just let go."
So I screamed his name again, over and over again, until I felt a sharp pang in my stomach. His hand let go of my body, his second hand still in my hair. He grabbed the shower head and turned the pressure higher before he holded it right against my clit.
I was a whimpering and sobbing mess at this point, begging him to let me come. "Look at me. I wanna see you coming around my cock." He tugs at my hair and my eyes roll back to look into his, which gave me the rest I just needed to come.
Looking into his eyes made my walls clench around him again, leaving his mouth hanging wide open. "Shit.." he grunted and closed his eyes as his rhythm became more erratic. Just as I slowly came down from my high, I felt him pulling out of me and coming all over my back, spreading his hot cum.
"Fucking hell.." he breathed out and slowly let go of my hair and hanging the shower head back onto the wall after washing his cum off of my back. I turned around and looked up at him, smiling slightly.
"What? Did I fuck out all your negative energy?" he chuckled, pressing me against him again with one of his arms. I roll my eyes at his comment but still I couldn't hide my smile. "I have something for you.." he said, now he's smiling like a little devil.
I look at him confused which he answers me with his fingers in front of my mouth. I look down at them and gasp as I see his cum on them. "Come on, open up baby.." I didn't knew why but again I did as he said and parted my lips. He pushed his fingers inside my mouth and grins. "Suck them."
I started sucking on his fingers and swirling my tongue around them, tasting his salty cum. His eyes rolled back a little and I saw him shuddering for a moment. "Damn, you wanna suck my cock maybe?"
I did let go of them and chuckled as I pressed myself pass his body to wrap my towel around my wet body. " Maybe next time.."
"Oh so you wanna do this more often, huh?"
Oh and how we both didn't knew at that moment how often actually.
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Summary: No matter how hard you try, you can't seem to escape your new husband, not that your father makes it any easier for you.
Warnings: DUB-CON (Forced/Arranged marriage) SMUT, grinding, unprotected pinv (wrap it before you tap it), Implied age gap, Scars, Voyeurism, Spitting, both give switch vibes, the reader has a little angsty past, biting, misogyny, almost drowning
A/n: I've never been so grateful for the amount of love this has received. I hope I do it justice with this part two. Lots of love and joy. ALSO, WE GET A MARCUS POV AT ONE POINT hehe
It had been three days since your "marriage" to Marcus, and the silence between you two had been a welcome respite. The tension in the air was thick, each of you occupying your own space, minding your own business. You hoped it would stay that way. Mornings were spent in relative peace, with Marcus at one end of the breakfast table and you at the other.
Taking a bite of a grape, you glared across the table where your father sat with his mistress, Aurelia. The sight of her playing with your father's hair made your stomach churn. The woman who had tormented you for so long was now lounging comfortably in your home, smugly flaunting her relationship with your father. They exchanged whispered words and glances filled with a shared history that excluded you. Aurelia's laughter echoed off the walls, a sound that grated against your nerves.
You noticed Marcus watching them too, his expression unreadable as he observed the easy familiarity between your father and his lover. As if sensing your gaze, Aurelia's eyes flicked towards you, a knowing smirk playing on her lips. She raised an eyebrow, a silent challenge in her gaze as if daring you to disrupt their blissful morning routine. It was a calculated move, a reminder that despite your marriage to Marcus, some things remained unchanged.
"My love, we should go to the villa," Aurelia cooed, her eyes darting towards you with a malicious glint. She was clearly enjoying your discomfort. You could practically taste the bile rising in your throat at the sight and sound of her.
Your father chuckled, his voice warm and affectionate. "Ah, my dear Aurelia, always full of wonderful ideas," he replied, his hand finding hers across the table. His gaze met yours briefly, a hint of apology in his eyes before returning his attention to Aurelia. "Perhaps we should make a day of it. Just the two of us."
Aurelia leaned in closer to him, her voice dropping to a conspiratorial whisper. "Or we could make it a family affair," she suggested with a sly smile, her gaze flickering towards Marcus and then back to you, her implication clear.
Marcus tensed beside you, his jaw clenching subtly as he watched the exchange. His eyes briefly met yours, a silent question lingering between you. You shrugged imperceptibly, unsure of what to make of Aurelia's suggestion.
"We'll see," Marcus finally interjected, his tone neutral but his gaze fixed on Aurelia. "It might be a good idea to get some fresh air."
Aurelia chuckled softly, her gaze lingering on Marcus for a moment longer than necessary before turning back to your father. "Yes, fresh air could do us all some good," she agreed, her smile widening as if she had won some small victory.
The comment landed heavily, striking you with a mix of embarrassment and anger. "Father, that is notâ" you began to protest, but Marcus cut you off.
"Parents don't come on a honeymoon," Marcus interjected firmly. "We'll go alone. It's tradition."
Your father looked to protest, but Marcus continued, a subtle urgency in his tone. "Itâs important for us to have time alone to... solidify our bond," he explained, casting a meaningful glance at your father. "Besides, it would give her a break from the current... dynamics here."
Your father's brows furrowed as he considered Marcus's words, his gaze shifting between you and Aurelia. It was clear he was torn, wanting to spend time with his lover but also recognizing the benefit of giving you some space away from Aurelia's influence.
"Very well," your father conceded, though his expression remained stern. "But remember, you must be back by fall. And I expect you to return with news of an heir."
The ultimatum hung heavily in the air, weighing down your heart. Visiting your mother was a rare privilege, one you couldn't afford to pass up. But the thought of being with Marcus, of possibly bearing his child, filled you with dread.
"You can't be serious," you whispered, turning to face your father. "You can't make me do this."
His expression was unwavering, a stern reminder of the power he held over you. "It's for your own good," he said simply. "And for the good of our family."
Marcus's gaze remained locked onto yours, a blend of authority and challenge. "It's settled, then," he declared firmly. "We'll leave in the morning."
You bristled, your skin tingling with a mixture of anger and an unwelcome flicker of desire. "This isn't over," you warned, your voice quivering with emotion. "I won't be your pawn."
A dark chuckle escaped Marcus, his eyes glinting with amusement. "I never thought you were," he replied coolly. "But we are bound together now. Whether you like it or not."
The next morning, you found yourself in a lavish carriage, the countryside rolling by in a blur of green and gold. Marcus sat opposite you, his gaze unwavering as he watched you. The silence between you was heavy, fraught with unspoken words and simmering tension.
"I hate you," you said suddenly, the words spilling out before you could stop them. "I hate everything about this."
He raised an eyebrow, a small smile playing at the corners of his mouth. "Do you?" he asked, his tone almost mocking. "Or do you hate that you can't control it?"
You glared at him, your fists clenching in your lap. "You think you're so clever," you muttered. "But you don't know me. You don't know anything about me."
"Maybe not," he conceded. "But I intend to find out."
You turned your gaze away from him, looking out the window as the scenery shifted. The villa was near the ocean, a place you knew well. It was where you had grown up, where you had spent countless days playing in the sand and swimming in the waves. The familiarity of the landscape brought a rush of memories, both comforting and bittersweet.
Despite the beauty of the place, the reality of your situation weighed heavily on you. The promise of seeing your mother again was the only thing that had convinced you to agree to this honeymoon, but the thought of returning pregnant filled you with dread. You knew your fatherâs ultimatum was a trap, a way to ensure your compliance and submission.
"I won't return pregnant," you said firmly, breaking the silence. "I'm only doing this to see my mother."
Marcus leaned forward, his eyes narrowing slightly. "You think you can control that?" he asked, his voice low and dangerous. "You think you can decide what happens between us?"
"I can try," you retorted, meeting his gaze with defiance. "I won't let you dictate my life."
He chuckled darkly, shaking his head. "Youâre stubborn, I'll give you that. But you underestimate the power of our bond. We are married now, and that means something."
"Not to me," you said, your voice trembling with anger. "This marriage is just a prison, a way to control me."
"It doesn't have to be," he said, his tone softening slightly. "We could make it something more, something real."
You scoffed, turning back to the window. "I doubt that," you muttered, your heart heavy with resentment and fear.
As the carriage continued its journey, you lost yourself in thoughts of the past and the uncertain future. The villa by the ocean, once a place of joy and freedom, now seemed like a gilded cage. The waves crashing against the shore were a stark reminder of the turbulent emotions within you, a mix of anger, sadness, and a glimmer of hope that you couldn't quite extinguish.
When the carriage finally arrived at the villa, you were both relieved and apprehensive. The grand entrance and the familiar scent of the sea filled you with a sense of nostalgia, but the presence of Marcus at your side was an ever-present reminder of the new reality you were forced to accept.
As you stepped out of the carriage, Marcus placed a hand on your back, guiding you forward. The touch was both possessive and surprisingly gentle, a contradiction that left you feeling even more conflicted.
"We'll make a fresh start here," he declared, his voice tinged with sincerity. "No more fighting. Let's give this a real chance."
He reached out, brushing a stray lock of hair from your face. "Then we keep trying," he said simply. "Until we do."
You studied him intently, trying to gauge the truth in his words. The weight of his gaze held yours, earnest and unwavering. After a moment of contemplation, you spoke, your voice tinged with skepticism. "What makes you so sure we can make this work?"
Marcus sighed softly, his hand falling to his side. "Because I'm not here to control you," he explained gently. "All I want is communication. That's all we need to make this workâopen and honest communication."
His words resonated with a truth you hadn't expected. Despite your reservations, a flicker of hope stirred within you. "Communication," you echoed, testing the word on your tongue. It sounded simple, yet laden with potential.
You'd been at the villa for two days, and despite everything, you had managed to avoid Marcus and even sleep in separate bedrooms. Meal times were awkward, the silence between you both louder than any words could have been. You had resolved to stay like that for the entire three weeks your father had given you to "get pregnant." But your alcohol tolerance had other plans.
Each morning, you found yourself waking early to escape to the farthest corners of the villa, the sprawling gardens and the serene lake providing a much-needed sanctuary. You spent your days wandering through the lush greenery, finding solace in the chirping of birds and the rustling of leaves. Marcus, it seemed, had taken a similar approach, retreating to his own activities and leaving you undisturbed. The villa was vast enough to make this evasion possible, yet each evening you couldn't help but feel the walls closing in, the loneliness amplifying your homesickness.
The memories of your mother haunted you. The villa, though beautiful, reminded you painfully of the home you'd left behind and the loving presence of your mother. You missed her gentle voice, her comforting embrace, and her wisdom. The separation weighed heavily on your heart, each passing hour a reminder of the emotional distance that now lay between you.
It was late afternoon when you asked one of the maids to bring you a drink. A mistake, you realized too late, not specifying how strong it should be. Without your father's supervision, you had indulged far too much. The room spun around you, and your vision blurred as you stumbled your way toward the dining room.
You pushed open the heavy door, the sudden light from the chandelier making you squint. Marcus was already there, a book in his hands, but his eyes snapped to you the moment you entered. You could feel his gaze like a weight on your skin, making the room feel even hotter than it already was.
"Well, if it isn't my estranged bride," he said, his tone laced with sarcasm. He put down his book, his posture straightening as he watched you struggle to find your footing.
You squinted at him, the light from the chandelier making your head throb. "Don't start," you warned, though your voice came out more slurred than stern.
Marcus raised an eyebrow, amusement flickering in his eyes. "Start what? Observing the obvious? You're drunk."
You staggered forward, trying to maintain some semblance of dignity. "I'm fine," you insisted, though you nearly tripped over your own feet.
"Fine?" he echoed, his voice dripping with skepticism. "You're a mess."
You shot him a glare, your temper flaring. "Like you care," you spat. "You're just loving this, aren't you? Seeing me like this."
He stepped closer, his expression darkening. "No, actually, I'm not. You're making a fool of yourself."
"Better a fool than a tyrant," you retorted, your fists clenching at your sides. "You think you can control me, just like my father."
Marcus's jaw tightened, his eyes narrowing. "I don't need to control you," he replied, his hands gripping your arms. "I just need you to stop acting like a child."
You tried to pull away, but his grip was unyielding. "Don't touch me," you hissed, your anger boiling over. "You don't get to tell me what to do."
His eyes flashed with irritation. "Someone has to since you clearly can't handle yourself."
"You're such a pompous ass," you shot back, your voice rising. "Do you really think I wanted any of this? To be stuck with you?"
His grip tightened, but his voice remained dangerously calm. "You think I wanted this either? To be saddled with a spoiled, reckless girl who can't even hold her liquor?"
Your heart pounded in your chest, the alcohol fueling your reckless words. "I hate you," you said, your voice trembling with emotion. "I hate everything about this, and I hate you."
Marcus's eyes darkened, his grip on your arms firm but not painful. "Good," he said, his voice low and intense. "Use that hate. Let it drive you. But don't you dare make a fool of yourself in front of everyone."
Tears of frustration welled up in your eyes, but you refused to let them fall. "You don't get to tell me how to feel," you choked out. "Or what to do."
He sighed, his expression softening slightly. "I'm not trying to control you," he said quietly. "I'm trying to keep you from hurting yourself."
You glared at him, your vision blurring. "I don't need your help," you insisted, though even you knew how weak it sounded.
"Too bad," he said simply, lifting you into his arms with ease. "You're getting it anyway."
You struggled weakly, your head spinning. "Put me down," you demanded, though your voice lacked conviction.
"Not a chance," he replied, carrying you toward his room. "You're staying where I can keep an eye on you."
You hated the feeling of being so helpless, so dependent on him. "You're insufferable," you muttered, your voice barely more than a whisper.
"And you're stubborn," he retorted, his grip on you firm but gentle. "But I'm not leaving you like this."
He pushed open the door to his room and set you down on the large, plush bed, his hands lingering on your arms for a moment longer than necessary. You tried to sit up, but your body refused to cooperate.
"I'm sleeping in my room," you said, trying to push yourself up, but failing miserably.
"Not tonight," Marcus said, his tone leaving no room for argument. He knelt in front of you, removing your shoes with careful precision. "You're staying here where I can keep an eye on you."
You glared at him, though it lacked any real heat. "You're enjoying this, aren't you?"
He looked up, meeting your gaze with a small, knowing smile. "Maybe a little," he admitted. "But only because I finally get to take care of you, whether you like it or not."
Your heart fluttered at his words, a confusing mix of emotions swirling inside you. "I don't need your help," you repeated weakly.
He stood, his eyes never leaving yours. "Maybe not," he said softly. "But I'm here anyway."
You tried to maintain your defiance, but your vision was blurry and your body was betraying you. The alcohol had dulled your senses, leaving you vulnerable and exposed. You attempted to sit up straighter, to keep the conversation going, to keep your mind sharp. But the effort was in vain. Your head felt heavy, and your eyelids were drooping despite your best efforts.
"Don't fall asleep," you murmured to yourself, the words slurring together.
Marcus's expression softened, and he crouched down beside the bed, his face level with yours. "You need to rest," he said, his voice gentle.
"I can... stay awake," you insisted, but your body had other plans. Your limbs felt like lead, and the comfort of the bed was becoming impossible to resist.
Marcus reached out, his hand brushing a lock of hair from your face. "Just sleep," he urged. "I'll be right here."
You tried to fight it, tried to keep your eyes open, but the pull of sleep was too strong. As you stared into his eyes, the intensity of his gaze was the last thing you saw before everything went dark. His eyes held a depth that made your heart ache, a mixture of frustration, determination, and something else you couldn't quite name.
Your breathing slowed, and you felt yourself slipping away, the warmth of the bed enveloping you. Marcus's presence beside you was a strange comfort, a reminder that despite everything, you weren't alone. His hand lingered on your face for a moment longer, his touch surprisingly tender.
The last thing you saw before sleep claimed you was his face, the worry and care etched into his features. Your final thought was a confused jumble of emotions, a mixture of anger, defiance, and a reluctant sense of safety.
I watched her struggle to stay awake, her eyelids fluttering as the effects of the alcohol took hold. Her earlier defiance had melted into a fragile vulnerability that tightened my chest. Despite everything, there was something about her that stirred a protective instinct in me.
She hated me, and I couldn't blame her. This marriage wasn't her choice, just as it wasn't truly mine. But here we were, bound together by circumstances beyond our control. I had accepted the arrangement with a single, desperate hope â to escape the life of a gladiator. To live a life where survival wasn't measured by the swing of a sword.
I sighed, running a hand through my hair as I watched her sleep. She looked so peaceful now, a stark contrast to the fiery woman who had spat venom at me earlier. Her reputation had preceded her â wild, unladylike, with a rebellious streak that made her father's blood boil. Any other man would have turned her away, seen her as too much trouble. But not me.
I was no stranger to trouble. Hell, I lived in it every day in the arena. So when this opportunity arose, I took it. Perhaps, deep down, I saw a bit of myself in her â trapped, fighting against the current, desperate for a way out.
I leaned back in my chair, the wood creaking softly under my weight. The villa was quiet, save for the soft sounds of the ocean outside. It was beautiful here, far removed from the chaos of our everyday lives. Maybe, just maybe, it could be a place for new beginnings.
But that was wishful thinking, and I knew it. We were too different, too stubborn, and too caught up in our own struggles to see eye to eye. Still, I couldn't help but feel a glimmer of hope. Maybe over time, we could find common ground. Maybe I could help her see that not all men were out to control her, to use her.
As she slept, I couldn't help but reflect on our wedding night. I had been a little drunk, my senses dulled by the wine and the weight of what lay ahead. I hadnât known what to expect, and the confusion of hate and passion made me feel odd, out of place in my own skin. She had initiated sex that night, surprising me with her boldness. Yet now she pretended I was nothing more than a rodent, something to be tolerated.
But I wasnât blind. I saw the way she looked at me, the physical attraction she tried to mask with disdain. It was confusing, this mix of desire and loathing. I wanted her, but I wouldnât force it. I refused to become the monster she seemed to believe I was.
My eyes wandered over her sleeping form, taking in the gentle rise and fall of her chest, the way her hair splayed out over the pillow. She looked peaceful, and for a moment, I allowed myself to imagine a future where she looked at me with that same peace when awake.
I remembered the way she had clung to me on our wedding night, her body warm and pliant against mine. The way she had moaned my name, her defenses lowered, just for a moment. It felt like a betrayal that she could feel so passionately in bed yet treat me with such coldness during the day.
Watching her now, I felt a strange sense of accomplishment. She had fallen asleep in my presence, a small step forward in this tangled mess we found ourselves in. It wasnât much, but it was something. A sign that maybe, just maybe, there was a way for us to find common ground.
The exhaustion from the day's events washed over me, and I settled into the chair, unable to tear my gaze away from her. She shifted slightly, a soft murmur escaping her lips. The urge to go to her, to hold her and comfort her, was strong, but I stayed put. Pushing her now would only drive her further away.
As my eyelids grew heavy, I thought about the road ahead. The days would be long and difficult, filled with arguments and misunderstandings. But for the first time, I felt a flicker of hope. Maybe we could make this work. Maybe we could find a way to understand each other, to build something real from the ashes of our forced union.
With that thought, I let myself drift off, the rhythmic sound of her breathing a strange, comforting lullaby. Tomorrow would bring new challenges, but for now, we had this moment of fragile peace. And in the quiet of the night, it was enough.
You woke up with a slight headache, the overwhelming scent of a man filling your senses. It was a heady mix of sweat, leather, and something distinctly masculine. You sat up, and the room spun a little. A groan escaped your lips as you checked to make sure your clothes were still on. You didn't remember him taking off anything other than your shoes, but he was still a man, after all. Your eyes landed on Marcus, uncomfortably slouched in a chair facing the bed, his chest rising and falling in a steady rhythm. The sight of him asleep, vulnerable, stirred something unfamiliar in you, but you quickly pushed it aside.
Swinging your legs over the edge of the bed, you stood up slowly, testing your balance. The headache pounded behind your eyes, a painful reminder of your overindulgence. You made your way to the washbasin, splashing cold water on your face, hoping it would help clear the fog in your head. After a moment, you straightened, took a deep breath, and left the room, eager to put some distance between yourself and Marcus.
The villa was quiet as you made your way to the dining room, the only sounds the distant call of seabirds and the gentle lap of waves against the shore. The familiarity of it all made you ache with a longing for simpler times. You remembered your childhood here, playing on the beach, carefree and happy before the world became so complicated.
As you entered the dining room, a maid appeared, carrying a tray with a bowl and a single, raw egg. She approached you with a polite smile, her eyes downcast.
"Good morning, my lady. I've brought you something to help with... pregnancy," she said, her voice hesitant.
Your eyes narrowed, and you snapped, "I'm not pregnant. The only remedy from an old wife I want is a hangover remedy."
The maid's eyes widened in surprise and fear. "I'm sorry, my lady. It's just that raw eggs are believed to help with getting pregnant. I meant no offense."
You sighed, rubbing your temples. "Just bring me something for this headache, please."
She nodded quickly and scurried away, leaving you with the bowl and the raw egg. You stared at it with a mixture of disdain and curiosity. The idea of swallowing a raw egg made your stomach churn, but you knew that in the world you lived in, old wives' tales often carried weight.
Moments later, the maid returned with a cup of herbal tea and a damp cloth. "Here, my lady. This should help."
You took the tea gratefully, sipping it slowly. The warm liquid soothed your throat, and the bitter herbs began to work their magic on your pounding head. You sat down at the table, placing the cloth over your eyes and leaning back in the chair.
The quiet was interrupted by the sound of footsteps. You peeked from under the cloth to see Marcus standing in the doorway, his expression unreadable. He had changed into fresh clothes, but the scent of him from the night before still lingered in your nostrils.
"Feeling better?" he asked, his voice gruff.
"Not really," you replied, your tone sharp. "What do you want?"
He walked over, sitting across from you. "I just wanted to make sure you were alright."
You glared at him, the words from the previous night echoing in your mind. "I don't need your concern."
He leaned back, crossing his arms. "You were quite the handful last night."
"Well, if you hadn't dragged me off to bed like some helpless damsel, maybe I wouldn't have been," you shot back, the anger flaring up again.
"You're right," he said, surprising you. "But I didn't want you hurting yourself. Despite what you think, I don't want to control you."
You scoffed, lowering the cloth and meeting his gaze. "You keep saying that, but your actions say otherwise."
He sighed, rubbing his temples as if he, too, had a headache. "Look, I know you didn't want this marriage any more than I did. But we're in this together now. Fighting each other isn't going to make it any easier."
You stared at him, the sincerity in his eyes catching you off guard. You wanted to lash out, to keep up the walls you had built, but something in his demeanor made you pause.
"Why did you accept this marriage?" you asked quietly, the question that had been nagging at you since the wedding.
He looked away, his jaw tightening. "I hoped it would be a way out," he admitted. "A way to escape the life of a gladiator. And yes, I knew of your reputation. But I also knew that any other man wouldn't have accepted you, not with the rumors."
His honesty disarmed you, the anger slowly seeping out of you. You wanted to understand his motives further, but another question gnawed at you.
"So, you did this for your freedom?" you asked, trying to grasp his intentions.
"And maybe for yours too," he said softly, his eyes meeting yours again. "I know what it's like to be trapped in a life you didn't choose."
The room fell silent, the weight of his words hanging between you. For the first time, you saw a glimpse of the man behind the mask, and it left you feeling more conflicted than ever. You didn't know if you could trust him, but you couldn't deny the small spark of hope his words ignited.
The sound of the waves outside grew louder in the silence, as if echoing the turmoil within you. You took another sip of the tea, letting the warmth spread through you, grounding you in the moment.
Marcus shifted in his seat, breaking the silence. "Do you want to visit the pier?" he asked, his voice tentative.
You blinked, caught off guard by the sudden change in topic. "The pier?" you echoed, memories flooding back. You remembered visiting the pier with your mother, the laughter, the carefree days. Since returning to the villa, you hadn't gone to see it. The thought of revisiting that place brought a mix of nostalgia and longing, but also a sense of trepidation.
"Yes, the pier," Marcus repeated, watching you closely. "I thought you might like to see it."
You felt a surge of conflicting emotions. Part of you wanted to reject his offer out of sheer stubbornness, to prove you didn't need anything from him. But another part of you, the part that missed the simpler times, yearned to go.
"Why do you care?" you snapped, crossing your arms defensively.
Marcus sighed, running a hand through his hair. "It's not about caring. I just thought it might be nice for you to see it again."
You glared at him, trying to keep your walls up. "You think taking me to the pier will make everything better? That I'll suddenly forget everything and be grateful?"
"No," he said firmly, his eyes locking onto yours. "I don't expect anything. I'm just offering."
The sincerity in his voice made you falter. You hated the way he could make you feel so uncertain, so conflicted. But the thought of the pier, of the memories it held, was too tempting to ignore.
"Fine," you said, your tone laced with defiance. "I'll go."
Marcus nodded, standing up. "Meet me at the front door when you're ready."
You finished your tea and stood up, taking a deep breath. You made your way to your room to change into something more suitable for the walk. As you dressed, your mind wandered back to the days with your mother, the laughter and the joy of simpler times. You hadn't realized how much you missed it until now.
When you stepped outside, Marcus was waiting by the villa's front door. He gave you a brief nod, his expression unreadable. You walked down the steps and joined him, the air thick with tension.
"Let's get this over with," you muttered, starting down the path that led to the pier.
The walk down the small hill was silent at first, the only sounds the distant calls of seabirds and the gentle rustling of the trees. You kept your eyes forward, determined not to let Marcus see the turmoil within you.
"Did you ever come here often?" Marcus asked, breaking the silence.
"Yes," you replied curtly. "With my mother."
He nodded, glancing around. "It's a beautiful place."
"It was," you said sharply, quickening your pace.
Marcus matched your stride easily. "You know, you don't have to be so hostile."
You shot him a glare. "I wouldn't have to be if you didn't keep treating me like some delicate flower."
He chuckled, shaking his head. "Trust me, there's nothing delicate about you."
You scoffed, rolling your eyes. "And what exactly do you know about me, Marcus?"
"Enough to know you're stubborn as a mule," he retorted, a smirk playing at his lips.
You bristled, your temper flaring. "Well, at least I'm not a brute who thinks he can solve everything with his fists."
Marcus raised an eyebrow. "Is that what you think of me?"
You turned to face him, your eyes blazing. "That's exactly what I think of you."
He opened his mouth to retort, but you cut him off, quickening your pace down the path to the pier. The sand and salt air grew stronger as you neared the shoreline, the familiar sights and sounds stirring a bittersweet nostalgia.
When you arrived at the pier, you paused, taking in the scene before you. The wooden structure stretched out over the water, the waves gently lapping against the posts. You could almost hear your mother's laughter, feel her hand in yours as you walked together.
Marcus stood beside you, his presence a steadying force despite your irritation. "Shall we?" he said, gesturing towards the pier.
With a sigh, you stepped onto the weathered planks, the wood creaking slightly underfoot. You walked in silence, the only sound the distant call of seabirds and the gentle lapping of the waves.
As you reached the end of the pier, you leaned against the railing, gazing out at the horizon. The sea stretched endlessly before you, a vast expanse of blue that seemed to hold all the secrets of the world.
Marcus joined you, his gaze also fixed on the horizon. "It's peaceful here," he said quietly.
You nodded, feeling a strange sense of calm. "It is."
For a moment, the tension between you seemed to fade, replaced by a shared appreciation for the beauty around you. But the peace was short-lived.
You turned to leave, but your foot caught on a loose board. The world tilted as you stumbled, losing your balance. With a yelp, you plunged into the water below. The icy shock of the sea stole your breath, and you struggled to stay afloat, panic surging through you. The water was a merciless force, dragging you under. Your limbs flailed wildly, but you couldn't seem to break the surface. The salty liquid filled your mouth, choking any attempt at calling for help. Your heart pounded, every beat a frantic plea for air as you fought against the pull of the sea.
In the midst of your panic, a shadow loomed above you. Through the haze of water and fear, you saw Marcus diving in. His strong arms encircled you, pulling you upwards with a force that felt both powerful and reassuring. "I can't swim!" you wanted to shout, but the words were swallowed by the water. Instead, you could only gasp, your chest burning as you fought to breathe. Marcus's grip was unyielding, his strength a lifeline. He hauled you to the surface, your head breaking through to the sweet relief of air. You coughed violently, expelling the seawater that had threatened to drown you. Your vision blurred, but you felt Marcus's steady hands guiding you to the shore.
The sand was a rough but welcome texture beneath you as Marcus laid you down, his grip loosening now that you were safe. You continued to cough, your lungs heaving as you expelled the last of the water. You were soaked to the bone, the chill of the sea clinging to your skin. Marcus stood over you, an amused glint in his eyes despite the concern etched into his features.
"I thought you said you grew up here," he remarked his tone light but edged with teasing.
You glared at him through your exhaustion, still catching your breath. "Just...shut up," you managed to rasp, feeling a fresh wave of embarrassment as you realized how helpless you'd been.
He crouched beside you, his expression softening slightly. "You should have told me you couldn't swim," he said, a hint of genuine concern breaking through his teasing demeanor.
You sat up slowly, brushing sand from your wet hair. "I didn't think it would matter," you muttered, annoyed more at yourself than at him. "And I didn't expect to fall in."
Marcus chuckled, shaking his head. "Well, it's a good thing I was here to save you."
You shot him a withering look. "Don't let it go to your head."
He grinned, clearly enjoying your irritation. "Too late."
You pushed yourself to your feet, shivering as the cool breeze hit your wet skin. "I need to get cleaned up," you said, more to yourself than to him.
"Do you need help with that too?" Marcus asked, his tone mischievous.
You glared at him again, but there was a reluctant smile tugging at the corners of your mouth. "Not a chance."
As you made your way back to the villa, you couldn't shake the conflicting feelings that Marcus stirred in you. His arrogance was infuriating, but there was something about his confidence and the way he had jumped in to save you without hesitation that you couldn't ignore.
"Your father said you grew up here, and you can't swim?" he mocked, shaking his head. "What kind of life have you led?"
You glared at him, anger and humiliation warring within you. "Not that it's any of your business, but my mother didn't want me learning. She was afraid of the sea."
He raised an eyebrow, his expression softening slightly. "And you? Are you afraid of the sea?"
You looked away, the memories of your mother's fear mingling with your own. "Maybe," you admitted quietly.
Marcus sighed, helping you to your feet. "You could have told me."
"And you could stop assuming you know everything about me," you shot back, refusing to meet his gaze.
He paused briefly, then chuckled softly. "Fair enough."
Standing there, dripping wet and shivering, the earlier bickering had faded, leaving behind a tentative peace. The walk back to the villa had taken an unexpected turn, yet as you gazed out over the water, a curious sense of calm settled within you.
He remained quiet, and you welcomed the respite of silence as you reached the villa. You marched inside, heading straight for your room. The maids hurried over, their eyes wide with concern.
"Prepare a bath," you ordered, stripping off your wet clothes. "And make it quick."
The maids hurried to obey, filling the tub with steaming water and adding fragrant oils. You stepped in, sinking into the warmth with a sigh of relief. The water soothed your aching muscles and washed away the sand and salt.
As you soaked, the events of the day replayed in your mind. The bickering with Marcus, the fall into the water, his unexpected rescue. You couldn't deny the conflicting emotions he stirred in you, the blend of anger, frustration, and something else you couldn't quite identify. The bathwater's warmth wrapped around you like a comforting embrace, and you let out a long, slow breath, trying to relax.
Just as you were beginning to feel at ease, the door to your room creaked open. Your eyes snapped open, and you saw Marcus standing in the doorway, his eyes widening as he realized you were still in the bath.
"Gods above, Marcus!" you shrieked, sinking deeper into the water and grabbing a towel to cover yourself.
He quickly turned his back, holding up his hands in a gesture of surrender. "I didn't know you were still in here!"
"What part of the closed door didn't you understand?" you snapped, fumbling to wrap the towel around yourself.
"I just wanted to talk to you," he said, his voice slightly muffled as he faced away from you. "About what happened today."
"Can it wait until I'm dressed?" you asked, your voice dripping with sarcasm.
He sighed. "I suppose it could, but I thought we should clear the air sooner rather than later."
You finished securing the towel and stood up carefully, stepping out of the tub. "Fine, just... turn around and give me a moment."
Marcus nodded and stepped outside, closing the door behind him. You quickly dried off and pulled on a simple, comfortable dress. The fabric felt soft against your skin, and you let out a small sigh of relief.
"Okay, you can come back in," you called, tying your hair back with a ribbon.
The door opened again, and Marcus entered, looking slightly sheepish. "Sorry about that," he said, scratching the back of his neck.
You waved a hand dismissively. "Just don't make a habit of it."
He chuckled, then grew serious. "I wanted to talk to you about learning to swim."
You raised an eyebrow. "Learning to swim? Now?"
He nodded. "Yes. After what happened today, I think it's important. You grew up by the sea, but you can't swim. It's something you should know, for your own safety."
You crossed your arms, narrowing your eyes. "And you think you're the one to teach me?"
"Who else?" he replied with a shrug. "Besides, it might be a way for us to... not bicker so much."
You let out a huff of laughter, shaking your head. "You really think swimming lessons will solve our problems?"
Marcus gave you a small smile. "It couldn't hurt to try."
You thought about it for a moment, the memory of the cold water and the panic still fresh in your mind. As much as you hated to admit it, he had a point. Learning to swim would be useful, and maybe it would help ease the tension between you.
"Fine," you said at last. "I'll let you teach me. But if you mock me, even once, I'll throw you into the sea."
Marcus laughed, a genuine, warm sound that surprised you. "Deal."
You nodded, feeling a mix of apprehension and determination. "When do we start?"
"Tomorrow morning," he said. "We'll go down to the beach and start there."
You gave a reluctant nod. "Alright. Tomorrow morning."
As Marcus turned to leave, you couldn't help but feel a small glimmer of hope. Maybe this would be a step towards something better. Or at the very least, it would give you a chance to prove you weren't as helpless as he seemed to think.
You were dreaming so sweetly, the air from the balcony streaming into the room, bringing with it the scent of the sea. The gentle rustling of leaves and the distant call of seabirds blended into a lullaby that cradled you in its arms. In your dream, you were walking along the beach with your mother, her laughter mingling with the sound of the waves.
Suddenly, a hand on your shoulder jolted you awake. "Get up!" Marcus's voice was a harsh whisper in the pre-dawn darkness.
You blinked, disoriented, your mind still clinging to the remnants of your dream. "What...?" you mumbled, sitting up and rubbing your eyes.
"It's time to start your training," he said, pulling the curtains open. The sky was still a deep indigo, with the faintest hint of light on the horizon.
With a groan, you swung your legs over the side of the bed and stood up, still half-asleep. "Alright, alright. I'm up."
"Good," he said, a hint of satisfaction in his voice. "Get dressed and meet me outside."
You quickly changed into a simple tunic and tied your hair back, the cool morning air nipping at your skin. As you stepped out onto the balcony, the first rays of dawn painted the sky in shades of pink and orange. You made your way to the front of the villa, where Marcus was waiting, looking annoyingly alert.
"Could you be any more enthusiastic?" you muttered, stifling another yawn.
He smirked. "I'm just trying to make the most of the day. Unlike some people who would rather sleep through it."
"Some people prefer not to be woken up at the crack of dawn," you retorted, crossing your arms.
"Maybe if some people had learned to swim earlier, we wouldn't be here now," he shot back, starting down the path towards the beach.
You followed him, the cool sand squishing between your toes. "Or maybe if some people weren't so insistent on dragging others out of bed, they could have a more peaceful morning."
He chuckled. "You know, you could just admit that you need the lessons."
"I don't need them," you grumbled, "I just don't want to drown."
"Same thing," he said, shrugging.
The beach stretched out before you, the waves gently lapping at the shore. As you walked, the sound of the sea grew louder, filling the air with its soothing rhythm. The familiar scent of saltwater brought back memories of playing on the sand as a child, carefree and happy.
"Alright," Marcus said, stopping at the edge of the water. "We'll start with the basics. Just try to relax and trust me."
"Trust you," you repeated, raising an eyebrow. "That's a lot to ask."
He gave you a patient look. "I know. But if you can't trust me, trust that I don't want to have to save you every time you fall into the water."
You rolled your eyes. "Fine. But if you mock me, even once, I swear I'll throw you in."
Marcus laughed, a genuine, warm sound that surprised you. "Deal."
As you waded into the water, you could feel your tunic growing heavier, clinging to your skin. You paused, looking down at the soaked fabric. "This tunic is going to get ruined," you muttered, more to yourself than to Marcus.
With a huff, you turned your back to him and carefully pulled your tunic over your head, tossing it onto the shore. The cool air brushed against your skin, sending a shiver down your spine as you stood bare before him. You waded back into the water, feeling exposed but determined not to let it show.
Marcus watched you with an appraising gaze, his eyes tracing the curve of your shoulders and the lines of your back. There was a moment of silence between you, the only sound the gentle lapping of waves against the shore. Then, without a word, Marcus reached for the hem of his own tunic and pulled it over his head.
The sight of his bare chest took you by surprise. His skin was bronzed from days under the sun, muscles defined and powerful. Droplets of water clung to his torso, catching the sunlight in a way that made you momentarily forget your irritation. His presence was commanding yet strangely comforting, like a force of nature you couldn't resist.
You tore your gaze away, feeling a rush of heat to your cheeks. "Alright, enough staring," you muttered, more to yourself than to him.
Marcus chuckled softly, stepping into the water beside you. "Just making sure you're not the only one feeling exposed," he remarked his tone light but tinged with something deeper.
You scowled at him, but there was a hint of a smile playing at your lips. "Don't get too comfortable," you warned, trying to regain your composure.
He raised an eyebrow, his grin widening. "Who says I'm not comfortable already?"
You rolled your eyes, but there was no venom in the gesture. "Enough of your smugness. Let's just get this over with."
He raised an eyebrow, his grin widening. "Who says I'm not comfortable already?"
You rolled your eyes, trying to hide the flutter in your chest. "Just focus on the lesson, Marcus."
He nodded, the teasing glint in his eyes softening. "Alright, let's get started then."
Marcus led you into the shallows, the cool water lapping at your ankles, then your knees. He moved with an easy confidence, his presence reassuring despite the lingering tension between you.
"First, we need to get you comfortable with the water," he said, his tone more serious now. "Can you float on your back?"
You hesitated, the memory of your earlier panic still fresh. "I can try."
"Good," he said. "I'll support you. Just relax and let the water hold you."
You lay back, feeling his hands under your shoulders and lower back. The sensation of the water buoying you up was strange, but Marcus's steady grip kept you grounded. You focused on the sky above, the blue expanse calming your racing heart.
"See?" he murmured. "You're doing fine."
You glanced at him, a small smile tugging at your lips despite yourself. "For now."
Marcus chuckled, his hands firm and reassuring. "Now, try to kick your legs gently."
You did as he instructed, the water resisting your movements. It felt awkward, but you persisted, trying to find a rhythm.
"That's it," Marcus encouraged. "Just like that. You're doing great."
You let out a breath you hadn't realized you were holding, feeling a small sense of accomplishment. "Maybe this isn't so bad."
Marcus grinned. "I told you. Now, let's move a bit deeper."
He guided you further into the water, his grip never faltering. As the water reached your waist, you felt a flicker of unease but pushed it aside. You were determined to prove you could do this.
"Alright," he said, stopping when the water was up to your chest. "Let's try some basic strokes. I'll show you, then you copy me."
You watched as he demonstrated a simple stroke, his movements smooth and confident. His muscles rippled under the water, every action purposeful and efficient. You tried to mimic him, feeling clumsy in comparison.
"Good," he said, nodding. "But keep your elbows higher. Like this."
He corrected your form, his touch gentle yet precise. You adjusted, trying to follow his guidance.
"Better," he praised. "Now, let's keep practicing."
You continued the lesson, each new skill building your confidence. As you practiced, you couldn't help but feel a growing respect for Marcus. Despite his arrogance, he was a patient and effective teacher.
After a while, Marcus called for a break. You waded to shallower water, grateful for the reprieve. As you stood catching your breath, Marcus studied you thoughtfully.
"You're not afraid of the water, are you?" he asked suddenly.
You shook your head, surprised by the question. "No. I just... never learned to swim."
"Why not?" he pressed, curiosity lighting up his eyes.
You hesitated, the memories tugging at your heart. "My mother... she despised the sea," you began softly. "She preferred the safety and serenity of the countryside. My father, on the other hand, adored it. Most of our family's wealth came from his sea trade ventures. He built his entire empire on the waves."
Marcus's eyes narrowed slightly, clearly intrigued. "So your mother didn't share his love for the sea?"
You let out a bitter laugh. "No, quite the opposite. She was terrified of it. She hated the constant worry every time he left on a voyage, the endless nights spent alone. She never understood his obsession with the sea. Their marriage was arranged, just like ours. But unlike us, they never found common ground."
"And your father?" Marcus asked, his tone gentler now.
"My father loved the sea more than anything," you said, your voice tinged with sadness. "He saw it as a source of freedom and wealth. He would spend months at a time on his ships, overseeing his trade routes, and ensuring our fortune grew. The sea was his true mistress."
Marcus seemed to consider this, his expression thoughtful. "So your mother lives in the countryside now?"
You nodded. "Yes. She moved away a few years ago. Couldn't stand the sight of the sea anymore, or the memories it held. She wanted peace, a life without the constant fear and loneliness."
"Do you see her often?" he asked, his curiosity genuine.
"Not as much as I'd like," you admitted. "She visits sometimes, but my father keeps her at a distance. He's still bitter, even after all these years. He sees her as weak, unable to embrace the life he chose."
Marcus sighed, running a hand through his hair. "Sounds like we're both products of difficult marriages."
"Indeed," you replied, meeting his intense gaze with equal fervor. "But I don't want to be trapped like my parents."
Marcus's eyes softened as he stepped closer, his hands finding your waist with a gentle certainty that sent a thrilling shiver through you. Without hesitation, you wrapped your legs around his torso, feeling the strength of his body supporting you effortlessly.
"We won't be trapped," Marcus assured you, his voice low and steady, filled with promise. "Not like them. We'll find our own way, together."
His words, spoken with such conviction, resonated deep within you. The vulnerability in his eyes mirrored your own, forging an unspoken bond between you.
As the first light of dawn painted the sky with hues of gold and pink, casting a serene glow over the water, Marcus leaned in closer. His warm breath mingled with yours, creating an intimate cocoon amidst the tranquil sounds of the sea.
With a tenderness that belied his usual stern demeanor, Marcus brushed his lips against yours in a feather-light kiss. It was a moment suspended in time, charged with unspoken desire and the promise of something more.
You responded eagerly, your heart racing as you deepened the kiss, surrendering to the intoxicating connection between you. The barriers that had once stood firm melted away with each tender caress of his lips, leaving only the raw, undeniable truth of your shared desire.
 As the kiss grew more fervent, Marcus's hands roamed your body, their touch both possessive and tender. He guided you out of the water, each step a testament to his strength and control. The cool breeze hit your wet skin, but the heat between you and Marcus was undeniable, a fire that neither the sea nor the morning chill could extinguish.
 He laid you down gently on the sand, the grains rough yet grounding beneath you. His eyes bore into yours with an intensity that made your breath hitch. "Would it really be so bad to at least try for a baby?" he asked, his voice a mix of longing and challenge.
 You bristled at his words, your defenses rising again. "I'm a child myself," you retorted, your voice trembling with both defiance and uncertainty. "How can I bring another life into this world when I'm still figuring out my own?â
Marcus's gaze softened, his hand brushing a strand of hair from your face. "No one said it had to work," he whispered, his lips grazing your ear. "But we can try. Together. We can make our own Path.
 His words were a balm to your fears, a promise of partnership rather than domination. As he leaned in, capturing your lips in another searing kiss, you felt the last vestiges of resistance crumble. The passion between you was a living thing, a force that demanded to be acknowledged.
 Marcus's hands moved with purpose, exploring every inch of you with a reverence that made you shiver. You arched into his touch, your body responding to his in ways that felt both foreign and achingly familiar. His lips trailed down your neck leaving a path of fire in their wake.
 "Marcus," you breathed your voice a mix of need and wonder. He paused, his eyes locking onto yours with an intensity that took your breath away.
 "We don`t have to do this if you're not ready," he said, his voice strained with the effort of holding back. "But know that I want you. I want us to have a chance."
 You searched his eyes, finding a sincerity that both scared and exhilarated you. "I want you too," you admitted the words a leap of faith. "But this... it changes everything.â
"Then let it change us," he murmured, his lips finding yours once more. The kiss deepened, a blend of urgency and tenderness that left you both breathless.
You felt the rough sand beneath you as Marcus pulled you closer, his hand gripping your cheek firmly as he kissed you passionately. His touch was both possessive and reverent as if he were handling a precious porcelain doll. His hand traveled down your body, caressing every curve with a tenderness that sent shivers down your spine.
He pulled away from the kiss, the sun reflecting off his body, making him glow with an almost ethereal light. His eyes locked onto yours with an intensity that made your breath catch. His hand traveled lower, caressing your upper thigh before spreading them, giving him a place to stabilize himself. You felt his length prod at your thigh, the heat of his desire palpable.
Unable to resist, you pulled him in for another kiss, feeling his hips move into your body, his erection grinding against your thigh. "God, you're hard," you murmured, pulling away from the kiss to take in his disheveled appearance.
"I've been hard as a rock since we started the lesson," he teased, his voice thick with lust. He captured your lips again, his hand wandering down to your clit, circling it in slow, teasing motions.
"Marcus," you gasped your voice a mix of need and frustration.
He smirked against your skin, his lips trailing down to your neck, where he bit softly, making you wince. "You dick," you muttered, but your protest was cut short by a moan as he rubbed his length up and down your slick wetness.
Leaning over you, Marcus positioned himself at your entrance, his eyes dark with desire. "I know you want my dick," he said with a smirk, pushing into you with a slow, deliberate thrust.
Your body arched at the sensation, your legs instinctively wrapping around his waist as he began to move. He lifted your legs slightly, pushing your knees to your chest, the new angle allowing him to thrust deeper. The stretch was intense, the feeling of him filling you completely almost overwhelming.
You bit your lip, trying to stifle your whimpers, but they quickly turned into borderline screams as he brutally fucked into you. Each thrust sent shockwaves of pleasure through your body, making you arch your back and frantically grab at the sand for some stability. You could swear he was rearranging your insides, his cock hitting your G-spot with relentless precision.
Your vision blurred, and all you could feel was the intense pleasure he was giving you. You didn't think getting fucked like this was physically possible, didn't think you were capable of feeling such intense pleasure at the hands of a man.
Marcus's smirk widened as he leaned down, his eyes following the bulge on your lower belly. "Yeah, feel it," he mocked, resting his forehead against yours as he bottomed out again. "Got you stuffed all the way in, huh?"
You couldn't even argue, your eyes brimming with tears as he pressed his palm harder against the bulge. Your eyes clenched shut, but his relentless thrusts only edged you further. He gripped your jaw, forcing you to keep looking at him. "No, you keep looking. Taking me so good, gonnaâfuck, gonna have to ruin you."
Tears welled at the corners of your eyes as the pressure within you built to an almost unbearable peak. You were so close, so desperately close to the edge. Sensing your state, Marcus's gaze flicked to your face, taking in your flushed cheeks and the tears that threatened to spill over.
"Ask nicely, goddessâ he grunted, picking up the punishing pace once more. "Use your manners and I'll give you whatever you want." His hands moved to your thighs, forcing them against your stomach, letting him push into you deeper. The sensation made your head spin, the knot in your stomach tightening immediately.
"Please... for fuck's sake, let me cum or I'm gonna rip your stupid perfect cock off the second we're done," you managed to grunt through gritted teeth.
He chuckled breathlessly, his hand returning to your clit, pressing rough and rapid circles against it. "We'll work on that," he laughed softly, feeling you rapidly slipping towards the edge. He didn't let up on his ruthless motions, finally pushing you over the brink.
You were loud. Probably too loud. Your scream of release echoed along the shore, your body convulsing with the force of your orgasm. Marcus followed you over the edge, his thrusts becoming erratic as he spilled into you, the warmth of his release sending one last wave of pleasure through your already trembling body.
As the intensity of the moment faded, you both lay there, tangled together in the sand, breathing heavily. Marcus's forehead rested against yours, his eyes filled with a mix of satisfaction and something deeper.
"Maybe it wouldn't be so bad to try," you whispered, the vulnerability in your voice surprising even you.
"Maybe it wouldn't be so bad to try," you whispered, the vulnerability in your voice surprising even you.
Marcus's smile widened a glint of mischief in his eyes. "If it feels that good every time," you added with a playful smirk, "I might not mind at all."
He chuckled, the sound rich and warm, and leaned in to brush his lips against yours once more. Just as you were beginning to lose yourself in the kiss again, a voice suddenly called out from behind you.
"Hey! What are you two doing here?" The voice was stern, and authoritative.
You and Marcus scrambled to cover yourselves, a mix of embarrassment and amusement bubbling up as you fumbled with your discarded clothes.
Realization dawned on the guard's face as he took in the sight of Marcus's distinctive, regal features and your own disheveled state. His expression quickly turned from stern to horrified as he realized who he was interrupting.
"I-I'm so sorry, my lord, my lady," he stammered, turning an alarming shade of red. "I didn't realizeâ"
Marcus, still half-naked and laughing, held up a hand to stop him. "It's alright," he said, amusement dancing in his eyes. "Just a little... misunderstanding."
The guard's eyes darted around, clearly trying to avoid looking directly at either of you. "I'll just... I'll just be going now," he mumbled, backing away quickly before turning and sprinting down the beach.
You couldn't help but burst into laughter, the absurdity of the situation breaking the tension that had been lingering. Marcus joined in, his laughter a deep, infectious rumble that made you forget all your worries, if only for a moment.
Once the laughter had subsided, Marcus turned to you, a mischievous look in his eyes. "You know," he said, his voice dropping to a flirtatious whisper, "there's always the sea. No guards to interrupt us there."
You raised an eyebrow, your own smile widening. "Is that so?" you asked, the idea sending a thrill through you.
"Absolutely," he replied, standing up and offering you his hand. "Shall we?"
You took his hand, the warmth of his touch sending a shiver of anticipation through you. Together, you made your way to the edge of the water, the cool waves lapping at your feet. Marcus's presence beside you felt grounding, his touch a comforting anchor in the midst of the playful breeze and the gentle rush of the sea.
As you reached the water's edge, Marcus pulled you into his arms. The sea welcomed you both with its refreshing embrace, its coolness a stark contrast to the heat that had built between you. You chuckled softly at Marcus's promise, spoken against your lips.
Marcus pulled you into his arms, the sea providing a refreshing contrast to the heat between you. "I promise," he murmured against your lips, "no interruptions this time."
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Fast Car Chapter One (of four)
Masterpost
Danny hit the brakes hard and veered into a bicycle lane with a very Fenton sort of style and disregard for physics. He dodged the gunman in the carpool lane. He stuck his tongue out as he passed and then steered back into the right lane once heâd cleared the pedestrian.Â
It turned out that Gotham rewarded the sort of drivers forged in the crucible of the Fenton tactical GAV, which was great. Jazz had gotten a job as a barista for her third year at Gotham U, so he had inherited the car that she had used as a delivery driver. Sheâd even somehow managed to pay the taxes on it despite the restraining orders that most government offices had on the Fenton family.
Jazz had been a pizza girl, but Danny wasnât willing to work the late nights. He worked for three different rideshare companies. It was.. Well. It was a terrible way to make a living, if he was honest. It was wretched. But it worked! Until the car crapped out on him, this was a viable option to feed himself while he was enrolled full time at the university. He was available to drive early in the mornings and for a few peak hours on the weekends.
Danny brought an order of 17 coffees to a warehouse with serious âmurders will happen here todayâ vibes and whistled as he left. People in murder warehouses actually tipped pretty well. Worker solidarity or something. He left the early birds to enjoy their 3 am drinks and then idly checked the app to see if there was anyone else waiting for a ride or delivery.Â
âVictor,â he read, and took a glance at the address. It was close! He snagged the request and turned on some bubblegum pop to enhance the ride over.Â
He saw a man standing outside, haunting a storefront with metal shutters pulled down. Must be the guy! Danny pulled over, checked the app, and then furrowed his eyebrows. Huh. Seemed wrong. He fixed his face before he looked back over.Â
In the app, Victor didnât look especially young or fit. In person, he was easily over 6 feet tall and lugged a huge bulky bag like it weighed nothing.Â
He also had a giant ugly motorcycle helmet with the vague impression of a caveman brow ridge built into it. Danny hid his judgmental thoughts and rolled down the window to chirp, âHi! Victor?â
âThatâs me.â Victor sounded like he was auditioning for the Deft Punks, electronics grinding out his voice to a silly robot autotune. Danny hid the way his lips wanted to tremble. You canât laugh at clients. âCan I put this in the trunk?â
Danny hated that. âGo for it.â He opened the trunk with the button and hid his real thoughts. He didnât like people using the trunk. Why not just put it in the backseat like a normal person? There was enough room for a person and a bag there.
âIs there enough room for this guy, actually?â Danny wondered, looking Victor up and down subtly. Were his shoulders padded or was he actually built like that? Bizarre.Â
He had the sense that Victor was tense.
âAh., fuck. He caught me checking out his shoulders.â
Danny cleared his throat and whipped his face forwards again. âNormally I say to sit in the backseat, but I'm not sure that's enough room for your legs. Either is fine.âÂ
Victor took him up on the front seat option and readjusted the passenger seat back with a casual ease.Â
Danny waited a moment.
Victor cocked his head at him.
âSeatbelt,â Danny prompted.
There was a long moment. Victor silently buckled his seatbelt.Â
âAwesome.â Danny put on his turn signals and pulled out. He went slower than he preferred. Heâd learned the hard way that most passengers didnât like his driving. It was great for cutting time off when he was delivering food, but no good for nervous cargo like poor Victor here. The poor guy was so anxious that he kept his emotional support helmet on when a passenger in a car.Â
Danny thoughtfully drove the speed limit and let Victor change music.
They didnât have much to talk about. Danny didnât mind much either way. He liked quiet rides and he liked chatting alright.
âStop the car two blocks early,â Victor said. He pointed. âThereâs fine.â
Obligingly Danny guided the car to a stop and shifted to park. He jumped out of the car. âIâll grab your bag!â He called over his shoulder. He popped open the trunk and lifted Victorâs bag with a winning smile that said âI deserve a good tip.â
Victor had moved to the back of the car faster than Danny expected. He paused. He looked weirdly stiff. âThanks.â He took the bag. â...Hereâs your tip.â
âHave a wonderful day!â Danny said, pretending not to be interested in how much money it was. He waved Victor goodbye and pulled out. As soon as he was a block away he counted the bills. âFuck yeah,â he hissed. Victor tipped like a crime boss. He stuffed them into his wallet and made a mental note of the account. Heâd definitely try to accept requests from him in future.
He gave two more rides before he could go back to his shitty apartment and get ready for classes. Danny parked in the little underground garage near his place where he paid a monthly fee and jogged to his place. He got his bag and left on foot.
He had a pretty normal day. The only hiccup was that it was kind of hard to focus on his lectures when he could faintly hear what had to be every TV on campus playing the same news bulletin. Danny did his best to block it out, grimacing. Having advanced senses really sucked sometimes. If he heard the breaking news jingle one more time, he might cry.Â
By the time he was free he felt pushed to his limit. He went back to his place and turned off all his electronics for some peace of mind.Â
The next morning felt better. He turned on the tab that said he was available for work at 3 am and ended up bringing a huge delivery of breakfast materials to the same police station that heâd left Victor at yesterday. Danny hummed as he jogged up the concrete steps with three bulging bags of baked goods and coffee grounds. He handed them to a weary-eyed receptionist and accepted his tip without looking at it. He considered cracking a joke about them being busy and decided it was better not to.
He was still an illegal entity, after all. His parents were covering for him, but scrutiny was not his friend. He didnât want any interaction with the police or the rogue band of detective freakazoids that ran this crime town.
Back in the car, he checked his tip. Danny clicked his tongue and made a disgusted sound. He hated cops. Cheap! There was nothing worse than being cheap.
His next customer tried to rob him at gunpoint as soon as he got in the car. Danny wrestled the gun away from him and ate it while the guy watched. âJust try and report me to the app,â Danny sneered between crunches of metal. It tasted like shit and the guy probably hadnât washed his hands, so like, yuck. But it was a choice he was making for the intimidation factor, not because it was yummy.
âBet my iron intake is good now.â Danny held out his hand. âMy tip,â he said, and did not unlock the car door until the shaking wannabe carjacker had given him three dollars American money. Hell yeah. âHave a good morning.â
He went into the app and canceled the ride. There was another request waiting, so he drove to it. It wasnât the name that the appâs request had shown, but- âGood morning, Victor!â Danny waved. âCall from a friendâs app this time?â
Victor stared at him dumbly. At least, that was Dannyâs best guess of what was going on inside the helmet. âYes.â He eventually said.
Cool, cool. Very weird. But he was an ok guy and he tipped well. âHop in,â Danny said, and unlocked the car.
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-What theyâre like as your bf/gf (Hcs) 18+
Arthur Morgan, John Marston, Dutch Van Der Linde, Sadie Adler, Molly OâShea
Request- Hi if itâs okay could I ask for some hcs of some of the gang and what theyâre like dating with you? NSFW ones toooođđ could you include Arthur, John, Dutch, Sadie, Javier and maybe any of the other girls Mary-Beth or Molly or Karen? Thank you đđť
A/N- I didnât include Javier cause I like barely speak with him in camp or anything idk I donât vibe with Javier tbh. And I saw my chance to word vomit my Molly brain rot and ran with it so sheâs the girl I picked. Hope this is okay! Enjoy :)
Masterlist - requests are open :)
Arthur Morgan
- Weâve all seen how he was with Mary. Heâd be besotted with you
- His journal would be filled with sketches of you, entries talking about how much he adores you, little notes about how you looked that day or musings about his plans for your future together.
- Definitely doodles a little heart with your initials too <3
- Heâs touch starved. So he loves physical contact. A hand to your knee, your back, arm around your shoulders or your waist. He likes keeping you close.
- Brings you stuff from his little travels. Picks flowers for you, finds little trinkets for you.
- Keeps a picture of you by his bed.
- Forehead kisses!!!!!
- Kisses your hand. And kisses to your wrist. He loves when you reach up to cup his face and he can turn to press his lips against your wrist.
- Heâs so much more than a tough, burly cowboy. Heâs quiet, caring, considerate. And he adores you
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- takes his time. Likes to work at you until not a single tense muscle is left in your body. Worships you.
- Loves any positions where he can see your face, needs to be close enough to constantly kiss you and tell you how good you are for him
- â thereâs my girl, doin so good for me darlin â â jusâ like that darlin, let me take good care of ya â
- Not incredibly vocal, but the noises he does make he ensures are right by your ear.
- Refuses to finish before you ever.
- Loves to finish inside tho. He knows itâs risky, but he loves the closeness. And if heâs feeling particularly risky heâll definitely push his come back into you with his fingers â donât waste it now â
- Grips The headboard.
John Marston
- heâs stupid. He really is. Heâll be head over heels for you, with you clearly reciprocating those feelings and heâd still think you didnât like him like that.
- Like. You could kiss him and heâd still be like â what are we? â
- When he does finally put two and two together heâll have no shame or cautions in showing you off.
- Heâs handsy. Likes coming up behind you when youâre washing dishes for Pearson to rub at your shoulders.
- Or pull you down to sit on his lap before you can even think about taking the empty spot on the log next to him by the fire.
- Overprotective. One tiny snide comment from anyone and heâs ready to start swinging.
- Definitely knows how to push your buttons and wind you up, and will do it just for fun and to get a rise outta you.
- And then spend the rest of day grovelling and apologising.
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- Loves going down on you. Like. Loves it. The man could spend hours there if youâd let him and Lord has he tried.
- Not very serious most of the time.
- Pretty vocal. And doesnât really care if anyoneâs listening either.
- Like i said, heâs handsy. His hands are restless and will grab at whatever part of you they can.
- Loves when you ride him and has absolutely made a cowgirl joke more than once.
- Will grab at your hips and guide your movements as you do. Told you heâs handsy.
- But also isnât opposed to you on your back, legs over his shoulders. Presses kisses to your ankles and makes jokes about how good the view is.
Dutch Van Der Linde
- heâs not the most attentive of people at times. Heâs constantly in his head and constantly thinking about things that arenât you.
- But when he does allow himself time alone with you he is disgustingly charming.
- He always knows what to say, always knows the right words to have you melting into a puddle at his feet. You could be in the worst mood with him but a few whispers in your ear and itâs all forgotten.
- Has a million terms of endearment for you. My angel, my dear , my darling. He rarely ever uses your actual name, only when heâs mad.
- Loves to give you gifts, the more expensive the better. And he likes you to show them off too. He likes to show you off.
- Reads to you a lot.
- PDA is afraid of him. He doesnât care where he is or whoâs watching him, heâll loop an arm around your waist to kiss your neck, pull you onto his lap when heâs reading beside his tent and kiss you. No shame.
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- will take his time with you but in a far different way to, say, Arthur
- Heâll edge you and overstimulate you for hours, because be gets off on the fact that you simply let him. That you obey his every command.
- Degrading and humiliating đ¤đť Dutch Van Der Linde
- Heâs never too mean. And his degrading comments are more often than not laced with something sweet.
- Dacryphilic. 100000%. He loves watching you cry because heâs worked you into such an overstimulated mess.
- Heâll swipe your tears away or kiss them from your cheeks â well isnât that just a pretty sight? â â those tears for me, my angel? â
- Definitely has some kind of authority kink. Likes you calling him sir for sure.
- Loves you giving him head. Just loves you on your knees. Itâs a power thing. And heâs a cocky son of a bitch.
- Sat back in his chair and wonât lift a damn finger to help you out, wonât even unbuckle his belt. And donât tell me he doesnât smoke whilst he watches you.
Sadie Adler
- She is absolutely not shy about her feelings when she finally accepts she has them.
- Shes just so sweet to you.
- Around camp sheâs stuck to you like glue. Her arm is permanently around your waist or your shoulders, or her hand laced with yours and is ready to snap at any intrusive questions from anyone else about it at the drop of a hat
- Love language is gift giving. Just taken in a bounty but found a shiny lil necklace in his pocket? Well. Itâs hers now. Or should I say, yours.
- If your hairs long enough sheâll braid it like hers, any excuse to be able to sit close to you and whisper sweet things in your ear.
- Would teach you how to shoot better, she wants to make sure you know how to defend yourself. but also wants the excuse to stand behind you and show you how to hold her rifle properly.
- Big spoon.
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- Sadieâs gained control over literally everything else in life, and it doesnât change in the bedroom
- She trusts you whole heartedly but sheâs not about to give up any sort of control to you for a While
- Makes sure she can see your face at all times, loves watching your face contort and relax in pleasure that sheâs giving you
- Full of praise â ainât you just the prettiest thing? â â oh look at you! Dâya know how pretty you look from here? â â always such a good girl for me â
- Has a thing for putting her fingers in your mouth. Especially after sheâs just fucked you with them.
- Having you on your knees eating her out drives her crazy. Will pull at your hair a little too hard but will soothe the sting with a thousand words of praise about how good you make her feel.
- And now hear me out. Loves to watch you. Will book you a hotel room together just so she can sit across the room and watch you touch yourself for her, encouraging you the entire time
- Itâs never long before she absolutely has to have her hands on you though in the end.
Molly OâShea
- sheeeee has some trust issues. And abandonment issues. Sheâs just⌠sheâs a lot at times.
- But she is fiercely loyal and will love you with every fibre of her being
- And she wants to be loved as fiercely in return. Sheâll spiral without constant reassurance â dâyou even love me anymore? â âdid I do somethin wrong? Havenât told me you love me today â
- She knows deep down you do love her. Sheâs just afraid.
- She is such a romantic. She loves holding your hand, sitting close to you, doing your makeup like hers and stealing kisses in between painting your lips red
- Sheâll write you sappy romantic poetry and leave you lil notes
- Youâll often overhear her gushing to other people about how in love she is too. She just loves to talk about you and how deeply she adores you.
- Likes when you give her forehead kisses.
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- Pillow princess. End of story.
- Sheâs not completely submissive though. Sheâll tell you what she wants and what she likes
- She just wants to be taken care of okay. She needs to be taken care of.
- Makes the softest, sweetest sounds and will tell you she loves you a million times over.
- Enjoys when things just⌠naturally happen. Cuddling with you at night, but pushing her hips lightly back against you. Which usually ends with your hand slipping past her waistband and making her come on your fingers.
- Likes to be on top of you sometimes, simply so she can show off whilst she strips. Not to really do anything. Shes really not that much of a giver. She likes being watched. She likes to know sheâs desired. And usually it ends up with you dragging her to sit on your face.
- You have to shower her with praise. She wants to know she looks beautiful, that sheâs doing well, worship her. Which is incredibly easy for you cause like fucking look at her sheâs gorgeous.
- Wraps herself around you when you cuddle after, legs intertwined and arms around you, head buried in your chest or neck. Pls my sweet baby needs to be held.
#disclaimer as always with hcs#these are my thoughts and not to be taken too seriously#donât get salty if you donât agree.#my hcs for any character seem to draw at least one salty person out#itâs fic! enjoy it!#arthur morgan x reader#Dutch van der Linde x reader#molly OâShea x reader#John Marston x reader#Arthur Morgan#molly o'shea#sadie adler#john marston#dutch van der linde#red dead redemption 2#rdr2#rdr2 fanfic#x you#fluff#smut#sadie adler x reader
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imagine the sexual tension between you and college au!jason and yâall finally take care of it during a one-night stand at some random ass party and the TENSION ONLY GETS WORSE âď¸ like first yâall were ignoring how bad yâall wanted to fuck each other and NOW you have to act like he wasnât just devouring your pussy a few nights ago
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tutor!jason who your teacher sets you up to study with twice a week since he's acing the class. the first time you meet, it's in the library, and you almost sit down next to a different guy because jason doesn't look at all like the type to know the ins and outs of gothic lit. if he wasn't nose-deep in mary shelley's frankenstein you would've assumed he was a jock doing recon and looking for some pussy.
but he's not; he's actually really kind and smart and also really fucking hot. your tutoring sessions go on longer than scheduled because you spend more time staring at him than you should. you're actually kind of embarrassed about it until you catch him staring at you one day with a familiar look, one you'd given him many, many times when he wasn't looking.
from then on, things are pretty tense between you two, not in an angry kind of way, but more of an unprecedented level of horniness kind of way. and the growth of your friendship is temporarily stunted because of how badly you want to fuck each other.
but it all comes to a head at some dumb frat party. you're a little buzzed but still lucid enough to know that jason's out of place in this environment. he hates frats, hates the culture around it, hates the fact that he gets mistaken for one so often.
so why the fuck is he flirting with some random sorority girl who's trying way too hard to keep his attention. you're thinking to yourself, "he's not gonna fuck you." but you're not actually 100% sure about that, so you find your way over to him just in case.
his attention immediately shifts to you and little miss greek row makes herself sparse when she realizes his eyes are locked on you and only you.
you're making conversation, but it's kind of awkward; you were clearly green with envy over the prospect of him fucking someone else despite having no claim to him or his dick, and now you were just hitting him with a "sooooo fancy seeing you here!" and he's just looking at you; peering down at you with this look in his eyes that just so dark. unlike anything you've seen on his face before. and then he's finishing off his drink and asking if you want to go somewhere quieter.
ok, so boom. he's leading you up the stairs and into an empty room, and if either of you were sober or not blinded by an intense need to fuck the other, you probably wouldn't have hooked up on some frat guy's unwashed sheets.
and using "hook up" is generous because you're the only one that got anything out of it. he was pretty much hiking your dress up to eat you out before the door was fully closed, and he continued to stay there, between your legs, with his mouth sucking on your clit until someone knocked on the door and killed the vibe. #jasontoddcertifiedmunch
you thought the tension before was bad, but it gets so much worse. you start skipping your tutoring sessions, and the few you do show up to end early because you can barely look at him. you can't get the image of him licking his lips after eating you out out of your head, and it was beginning to drive you insane.Â
he was also going insane, but for a different reason. while you were scared that it ruined your friendship, he was craving you more and more with each passing day, wondering where you'd be if you'd gone all the way. he was on the verge of knocking out the teeth of the asshole that interrupted you and shooting you a "u up?" text in the middle of the night.
#this got way too fucking long#but i want to write a proper fic for it lowkey#jason todd#jason todd x reader#jason todd x fem!reader#jason todd x you#jason todd smut#jason todd imagine#red hood#red hood x you#red hood x reader#red hood smut#red hood x fem!reader#red hood imagine
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Crawl Out Through the Fallout with Me: Cooper "The Ghoul" Howard X Fem! Reader
A/N: never played an official fallout game in my life but i still love this man so it's time to bullshit some stuff, let's gooooooo
Word Count: 1.1k
Summary: After a fight with raiders, a argument between lovers ensues when one of them gets hurt.
Warnings: typical fallout vibes, mentions of fighting, blood and wounds, pre-established relationship, Cooper being Cooper but also being a bit ooc, this is cheesy as hell and def not canon compliant lmao
"Damnit, (Y/n), just what the hell were you thinkin'?!"
An upset voice rang out into the evening air of the Wasteland as a pair of figures rested up inside the crumbling walls of an abandoned building.
Lit by the fading light of the sun, (Y/n) hissed in pain as her irradiated companion tried to sew a sizable gunshot wound on her arm shut.
As he passed the needle back and forth through the gash, the girl rolled her eyes with an exasperated groan as a few rivulets of blood rolled down her arm.
"Gimme a break, Coop! Did you wanna be the one to be shot?! I don't- ow!- think so!"
During a journey to find their next cash-out, the partners were ambushed by a large group of raiders & fiends. After managing to get rid of most of them, one had managed to sneak up and send a bullet flying straight for Cooper.
Noticing the weapon before Cooper could even turn to see the shooter, (Y/n) dashed over and shoved the ghoul out of the path of the shot, causing her arm to be hit instead.
Now- a few hours after killing the remaining enemies- they took shelter in a decrepit shack in order to patch themselves up in peace and rest for the night.
"I'd still be better off than you are right now. I mean, for fucks sake, darlin', I'm a ghoul. I've been through worse than just being shot at."
"Well then, that's the last time I try to be helpful. Next time, I'll sit back and relax while you get absolutely slaughtered by raiders, how about that?!"
"Go right on ahead, see if I care! Now, hold still. Can't close this cut if you keep on squirmin' around." Cooper huffed as he gave the suture one final tug before snipping the end off with a pocket knife and tying it into a knot.
After he was finished, (Y/n) rolled the pain out of her bicep before reaching into her bag to grab a somewhat clean cloth to wipe up any remaining blood.
With a sputter of her lips, she got up from her spot next to Cooper to sit upon the old mattress in the other corner of the room in order to apply a stimpak to herself. It wouldn't be enough to heal the wound completely but it would be enough for her to be able to use her arm properly.
Satisfied with the sight of her flesh knitting back together, Cooper finally relaxed in his chair as he crossed one leg over the other.
"Now don't go doin' anything that stupid again, y' hear me? Don't wanna have to use any more stims than we have to."
"I just... don't understand why you're so worked up about this. Something like this was bound to happen eventually, it's literally a warzone out here. A scar or two isn't unusual." (Y/n) griped as she fell back onto the bed while crossing her arms.
"Yeah, for someone like me it isn't. But it shouldn't ever happen someone like you. You shouldn't have to get hurt like that..." Grumbled Cooper as he leaned back against the wall.
"I'm not made of glass, Coop, I can handle a few hits."
"Don't care. You're way too valuable for me to lose."
(Y/n)'s glare softened at that, realizing the true intention behind the cowboy's scolding was worry. As Cooper sets up a small lantern on the floor to combat the growing darkness, (Y/n) watches the man with a fondness gleaming in her eyes.
"Is that what this is all about? You didn't wanna see me get hurt?" Whispers the girl as she turns onto her side.
Although the action is rather subtle, the ghoul's body visibly tenses up as he fixes his gaze away from the woman across from him.
"I never said that."
"It's clear that you thought it, though." (Y/n) chuckled as she softly grinned at the cowboy.
Heaving out an irritated sigh, Cooper hunches over to look at her as he readjusts his hat.
"What do ya wanna hear from me, sweetheart? That I care about you? That I love ya? Well, if you don't know that by now, then you might be much dumber than I thought you were."
"Hey, I resent that! You'd be lost with me and you know it!"
"Sure I would. Just like how you'd do great out there if you were all alone."
(Y/n) shakes her head with a scoff before she gets up from the mattress to walk over plop herself onto Cooper's lap after he sits back down on the beat-up dinner chair.
As she shuffles into place, Cooper places his hand on the small of her back to ensure she doesn't topple over. He silently glances at her face, analyzing her now troubled expression as she fiddles with the lapel on his duster.
Mouth opening and closing as she tries to find the words to say, she presses her lips together before finally speaking her thoughts.
"Y'know, I worry about you too... I'm always so worried that there's gonna be a day where that one gunner you miss is gonna be the one that gets you." (Y/n) admits sadly as she rests her head on Cooper's shoulder.
Cooper's eyes widen slightly and peer down at her as he begins to rub a hand up and down her arm in an attempt to comfort her.
"Hey now, look at me. That'll never happen. Not on my watch."
"What makes you so sure?"
"I got too much to fight for. I already lost one family to this nonsense and I'll be damned if you get taken away from me too. I'll fight tooth and nail before I let anything touch me or you again, understand?"
"But why? What's so special about me?"
"If I allow you to get hurt anymore, I will never be able to live with myself again. I love you, so...so much, darlin'." Cooper states with a resolute nod.
(Y/n) eyes water and crinkle with a gentle smile before she leans up to place a couple light kisses upon his charred lips, which he returns immediately upon receiving.
"I love you too, Cooper..." Mutters (Y/n) as she closes her arm around his shoulders.
With a laugh rumbling in his chest, Cooper wraps both of his hands around her waist as he holds her as close as he can.
"Your sweetness is what's gonna be the death of me one of these days, doll... Not some dumbass bullet." Cooper jokes quietly, placing a kiss atop her hair & resting his head on hers as he rocks back and forth to lull her to sleep.
Listening to the calming sound of her breathing as she slumbers, Cooper thinks about how lucky a man like him is to have found a love like (Y/n) in such a desolate situation.
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BIMBOFICATION. ft. geto suguru
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authors note. IM BACK BITCHES. WITH THE HORNY SHIT AKAKKAKAKA . kinktober day one! masterpost here. â¸(ď˝ĄË áľ Ë )⸠content warnings. dumbification, reader is a bimbo - ditzy, hypersexual, huge airhead vibes be warned. they are obedient and listen to what geto tells them. reader wears feminine clothes, has a 'clit', and is referred to as a 'girl', no use of she/her (ahahaha i love gender things). cock sucking throat fucking all that nasty gluk gluk shit y'eard?
Youâre not stupid.
Forgetful, yeah! Occasionally uneducated, of course. But dumb? Youâd surmise that conclusion to be a bit of a stretch; despite how often you find yourself trying to convince people of the contrary.
It is typical of humans to forego their âcommon senseâ on occasion, though it never seems to be a problem when anyone else does it! When Gojo eats all his candy and doesnât share with anyone at the party, itâs cool; but when you do that, you get all kinds of pushback: âWhatâs wrong with you?â Nothing! The chocolate was gonna melt if you didnât do something about it! âWhat are we supposed to give to the trick or treaters now?â All the twizzlers you left behind, duh.
Shoko gave you a look and sipped her sake, Gojoâs pointed barks of laughter chasing you back to the comfort of the kitchen. There you see Geto; your boyfriend, whose presence settles amicably in the gaps of your expression when he looks up at you with that beckoning fondness. He crooks his fingers and you bound over quite thoughtlessly, much to his evident amusement.Â
Despite how much you insisted on matching costumes, Geto struck out of his own accord, the fake knife accompanying his Ghostface costume down on the counter. The real knife he was using to cut up the peppers is set aside as he busies himself with the sink.
Youâre wearing one of those sexy school uniforms. Mini bordering on microskirt, paired with a cute number that shows your midriff- the dip in your chest. Your gogo boots click noisily on the floor a little as you sidle up next to him.
Geto pats your head when you get close enough, hands damp after a fresh rinse, and you preen from the contact. âHey babyyy!â You gush a little, setting down the rest of the candy on the counter. âCan you get me a bowl?â He tilts head at you a little, looks down at the bag a second.
âBabe, didnât I tell you to get the big bag?â Geto asks and shuffles over to the cabinet as you wash your hands to pick up where he left off. âYeah! I did, doesnât it look big to you?âÂ
âYeah⌠of course it does. But remember that conversation we had about eating things that arenât yours?â He brings back the bowl, but also a sternness to his grin, which all of a sudden doesnât meet his eye. âWell yeah Suguru!â Youâre looking down now, cutting vegetables with sudden interest and precision, sweeping it up into little piles. âIt's not like I'm stupid âŚâ His figure lingers in your periphery as the words leave your lips, the air about him suddenly feeling ⌠tense.Â
Then his hand is on yours.
âLook at me honey.â He gives you a squeeze, and you go to look up on instinct. Hesitate. âWhat?â Your grip on the knife softens, and it soon clatters atop the cutting board. âWhat, I said.â
âI never said you were stupid.â Your eyes met his before you realized, and the indignant scowl you want to make shrivels up inside you like a dried cocoon. âYou just have a hard time saying what you mean right?â He blinks owlishly at you. âI know you donât wanna lie to me.â âBut Iâm not-â Geto interrupts with a shake of his head. âMaybe one time I could forgive you, but twice? To my face?â You feel the sun in your face, fire hot heat setting you ablaze with embarrassment, feigned ignorance. A nagging feeling to obey. âI⌠I..â
âYou?â He chimes cloyingly. You stiffen your upper lip. Hone your resolve.Â
âMânot lying! Now lemme go!â Your arm budges when he wants it to, so youâre not quite moving until a few agonizing seconds pass, when Suguru lets out a low whistle and sigh, shaking his head at you dismissively, before youâre allowed to resume cutting vegetables. He dumps the candy into the rest of the bowl and takes his leave, chattering with his friends in the living room before coming back, empty handed.
The silence is maddening. He comes back, shuffles around the kitchen, then stops somewhere just beyond your sight, and craning your neck to look back at him would beckon his scrutiny. So you refrain. Stir fry the vegetables, and refrain. Feel a bead of sweat crest on your forehead and slide down your cheek from the heat. Refrain.
The breath against your neck is sudden and swift as Suguru fixes himself behind you, knocking his head gently against yours as a grasping hand slides over your stomach. He goes for the gas on the stove before you can get a protest out, his other hand teasing the rim of your skirt, smoothing down a short pleat till his palm can grope your thigh.
âAfter a little deliberation ⌠Iâve decided I forgive you. For the lying.â His fingers dimple the skin he touches, sliding ever so slowly under the fabric. âBecause I know youâre not a silly girl. You can be quite attentive when you want to be, canât you?âÂ
âYeah⌠yeah I can.â Your breath quickens a little as you press your ass back into the thin fabric of his hood, the feeling of his cock growing to hardness making you quiver with anticipation. His right hand on your thigh stills, tracing around your side and to your hip - growing stiff and heavy. The left dips boldly under your costume, a finger or two stalling in the spot right above your clit.
âGojo and Shoko offered to get more candy - I can finish cooking after weâre finished here.â His lips press teasingly against the shell of your ear, and your resistance dwindles a bit. âRight now, all I want from you is a favor.â âFavor? I can do that - I can..â Geto chuckles. âI know you can sweetheart. Shh, sh. Itâs my turn to do the talking now, okay? Listen.â You nod sharply.Â
âTurn around.â You do. In an instant, stretching out your spine cat-like to press your chest up against him, your nipples hardening like pebbles beneath your blouse. You close your eyes and lean in for the kiss that should be inevitable - but no warmth meets your lips. Instead, an apathetic gloved finger. âMmph?â Your confusion is apparent. You blink your eyes open and are greeted by a wry smile.
âSometimes I wonder why itâs so hard for you to just listen. Then it came to me - an epiphany. Little girls like you just have a certain kind of skill set. Forgive me, okay? I just wasnât giving you the right direction. But itâs okay! Itâll never happen again.â With those words, his expression grows less compromising - resolute, grim, determined. Almost makes you want to leap out of your skin - the fright of him not being happy with you bearing down greatly on your mind.
His hands come up to your shoulders and apply downward pressure. âOn your knees.âÂ
You follow without hesitation.
His mirth wrinkles the corners of his eyes as you squirm down there. The floor is cold and your knees are getting dirty, and he knows that stupid look you make when youâre thinking to complain; though heâs never seen this level of restraint from you before. Youâre quiet as you dig your fingers into your skin, and he knows heâs proud.
âGood girl.â Something blossoms in your chest when he says that, profound yet airy, a lightheadedness emblazoned into your forehead while the blood settles in your cheeks. Then that damn hand comes down again; which you thought was gonna muss your hair a bit more, but settles rather firmly against the back of your head.
His loose costume heâs wearing isnât big enough to hide how hard his cock is, but itâs like heâs making you wait for it - want and yearn for it. Because he doesnât move for a moment, just gets used to the look of you down on your knees as your fidgeting starts to feel more and more uncontrollable.
âHey! Are you just gonna leave me high nâ dr-â A white finger presses to his lips as his other hand keeps holding your head. âQuiet now, girl. Be quiet.â
Youâre good! A little impatient, but youâre good, goddamn it! Trying to be, for him - the love of your life, whoâs got you down on your knees, fixing to ruin your pretty makeup for the afternoon.
Quiet.Â
Quiet.Â
Too damn quiet. Too much fucking silence. Heâs looking at you, you think - because your eyes are shut tight and the embarrassment is beginning to dawn on you, and everythingâs hot, and scary, and Suguru - is he mad at you?-
The sudden feeling of his hot hard cock flopping against your cheek makes you leap like a fish to water. Your eyes bulge open a bit, and your mouth gapes open in that instant, tongue lolling out for purchase on his heated flesh, heady scent weaseling into your nostrils and making your thighs clamp down around your own hand - which you hadnât noticed snuck between your thighs. Your twitching fingers reach up to grab it âŚ
âStop.â You whine loose and loud, eyes flickering up to his face to communicate your desperation, and confusion. âJust use your mouth.â His hand reaches towards the base of his cock and flops it onto your lip proper; and you suckle on the head like itâs the sole thing providing you oxygen. âSee? There are things youâre damn good at ⌠Oh fuck -â All you can hear besides his voice is your heart thumping in your chest and the saliva building in your mouth, the sloppy âschlorpâ as you take him to the base - deep into your throat - and back out again, the salty taste of his cock and precum something youâve missed terribly.
A little voice crawls along the back of your mind. At home, it says. This is where you belong. Or maybe thatâs Suguruâs wheedling. Words are falling from his lips, but youâre drowning in an effortless dream. âGood girl. ⌠easy ⌠taking me so well.â
The grip on the back of your head has grown tighter, as he shifts and adjusts his hips to help your further along. Your wet slurping is undercut by the sound of his balls slapping against your chin, fuzzy, familiar and pleasant.Â
Then itâs as stern as a pinch. You can feel his cock bulge out your throat, cheeks hollowed as you take him to the base. Tears sting your eyes a bit, but itâs a liberating pain. His grunts grow in their intensity, and you feel soaked to the bone, sitting on your hands so they canât jump up and fondle his balls - you wonât disobey! You refuse, refuse, refuse -
âClose, haah, close your eyes, precious.â Your tummy flutters as you weld them shut. Suguruâs hips stutter, pause, then pull back.Â
A schlicking sound, then your prize. You open your mouth as you realize heâs cumming all over your face - streams of it making it into your happily awaiting maw, while the occasional strand undershoots - getting some on your chest and cheeks. Suguru sighs happier than youâve heard in a while, and a part of you feels effortlessly at ease. Reset and pleasant and whole; besides the aching nag between your thighs. âYou can speak now.â You try, throat fucked raw and a little raggedy. âA-are you going to fuck me now? Please? I canât - I canât wait anymore!â Suguru smiles gently, but insincerely. âNo, of course not. This was a lesson, not a reward.â He tucks himself casually back into his costume. âBesides, we have guests, honey.â
You pout, feel like you wanna cry a little. âDonât give me those crocodile tears. Youâre a big girl, remember?â
â...I guess.â You sniffle. Suguru nods and helps you back to your shaky feet. âNot âI guessâ. You are.â He grants you a chaste kiss on your lips, licking a bit of himself off of you, then pulling back. âNow, go clean yourself up.â He starts towards the sink, eager to resume dinner. âThose two should be back any second now.â
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hey, totally ok if itâs not ur vibe, but iâd love to see an oscar fic where heâs helping his girlfriend or a childhood best friend when sheâs feeling a bit down.
i keep thinking about that man helping clean a depression room and telling his girl not to be embarrassed and heâs there to help and they get it sorted and he just holds her. makes sure sheâs eaten and drank something.
even if itâs just a drabble, iâd really appreciate it :) need that kinda care in my life rn, even if itâs fictional.
I made this girlfriend because it just felt softer idk
To Be Loved Is To Be Seen (OP81)
Summary: Oscar knows his girlfriend well and itâs obvious to him when she starts breaking down. Heâs happy to help or, more specifically, remind her how worth it she is.
Warnings: this one is HEAVY on the family trouble, depression, anxiety, VERY ANGSTY but def cutest HAPPY ENDING
Note: i didnât know if you wanted reader to be in a rut or have a reason for it so i just made a reason
Y/nâs first few months of university were hard. Not only was it due to the new course load, but also because of her parents lack of interest when it came to her life. It had been a gradual shift, starting from her last two years in high school and only getting stronger as time went on. They had always been there, overbearing at times, but, now, they posted pictures of their trips around the world, failing to answer her calls and texts. She felt selfish for wanting her parentsâ attention as much as she did, but it was hard to fight. There were situations she had never dealt with before, she wanted her momâs wise words and fatherâs funny remarks to get through it all. But, she sat alone in the darkness of her room without the guidance counselor she usually could count on. It felt as if she wasnât enough to keep them there anymore. It was heart wrenching and it stewed within her at such volumes, it became too much.
Thatâs when Oscar noticed. Her boyfriend had always been attentive, noticing small things about her that no one else did, but the second her smile didnât reach her eyes and her text messages became less frequent, it was almost as if he was staring her down in anticipation of some sort of sign. He didnât begin to realize it was related to her parents until he caught a glimpse of her phone when they were together, the screen open to her conversations with her mother and all of the recent texts going completely unanswered. He knew she had always had a rocky relationship with them, but she spoke about them with such respect, he knew it wouldâve bothered her to feel so unimportant.
Knocking on her door, his hands clutched the bag of her favorite food he had got on his walk to her apartment. He had planned this evening out for weeks, not telling her about it in worry that she would slip into a facade put together with a fake smile that made his skin crawl.
She opened it, her body tense and tired in a ratty shirt and shorts, âOscar? What are you doing here?â
It was as if he saw her front go up, her posture straightening and that haunting smile which told him all too well how much pain she was in. He smiled softly, âI thought we could spend the night together.â
She closed the door enough to only peek her head through, âOsc, Iâm so sorry, but I canât tonight. Iâm so busy.â
He stayed put, âThatâs okay. I can wait on your couch.â
âNo, Osc,â She said firmly, her face turning in the light and exposing the dark bags under her eyes.
He stepped closer to her, putting his hand on the door and looking down at her with a look that made her feel loved, âY/n, let me in. I know youâre going through it. Let me be with you.â
Her resolve cracked, her smile dropping for a second and water suddenly pooling in her eyes, âYou donât want to come in here.â
He leaned against the door and cupped her cheek, âIt wonât make me love you any less.â
With a sigh, Y/n pushed the door open, beckoning the boy into her home. He knew what to expect, he knew what it was like to reach the place she was in. So, when he saw the piles of clothes, half-eaten food on the counter with old dishes in the sink, and her little accessories put in the wrong places, something she would never usually do, he wasnât surprised. If anything, he was happy she had let him in, literally and figuratively.
She picked at her nails beside him, swaying on her feet as she analyzed his every move. Part of her was trying to ready herself for him to walk out the door, give up on her because of whatever stood before them, but he gently set the food on the floor and ushered her into his embrace. His cheek laid against the top of her head, nestled in her hair, as he tightened his grip around her body. She smelled his cologne and felt his sweatshirt which made him feel all the more warm. There was something about his presence, she would later learn it was how safe she felt, that made the turmoils of her mind quiet as she began to cry. Y/n had promised herself that she wouldnât cry for people who clearly didnât care, but as Oscar rubbed her back and whispered how much he loved her, she realized it was never going to work.
Her breaking down wet the material of his sweatshirt, but Oscar just held her tighter, whispering how it was going to be okay and this would all pass.
âYouâre so worth it all, Y/n,â He whispered, pecking the top of her ear as he smoothed down her hair.
She clutched his back before Oscar was moving her hands under his hoodie to feel the bare of his skin. He knew she loved that. And she did. Y/nâs tears began to dissipate as he told her why he was there.
âIâm with you in this. You arenât alone. Iâm here for you and I always will be. This,â He gestured to the space around them, holding her face in his hands and forcing her eyes to meet his, âdoesnât scare me at all, love. What does scare me, though, is the attempts at eating on the counter. Have you been eating other than that?â
She shook her head, âI tried. Itâs too hard. Iâm not hungry ever anymore.â
He titled his head with a small frown, âWell, maybe your favorite food will help, yeah? Weâll sit together and eat. We can go as slow as you want, or as fast. All up to you, baby.â
He kissed her forehead lightly before guiding her to the living room, one of the less dirty places, and setting her down on the cushions. He set it all behind him, not wanting to overwhelm her with everything he got, and took out what he knew she would want first. There was a dull sparkle in her eyes when he handed it to her, his heart lifted. It hadnât been there when he first arrived.
She opened it slowly, eyeing the food she once ravished in seconds, and taking a utensil to pick at it. He looked at her, waiting patiently for her to take a bite. When she did, however small, he did too. When she did again, he did too.
She stopped, âWhy arenât you eating faster?â
He smiled, âBecause Iâll take a bite when you do. I donât mind, Y/n. I told you Iâm in this with you.â
Her eyes gloss over as they dart between him and the food before taking another bite, giggling a bit when Oscar takes one of his own dish. She eats, he does too and their eyes never leave each other, offering unspoken support.
When the plastic boxes are gone and empty, Oscar has glasses of water randomly appearing in his grip, offering them to his girlfriend who has found herself tangled in that soft blanket he got her last Christmas. Her cheeks are a soft pink from the warmth of it coupled with the candle he lit in the midst of their dinner and she smiles when the cool liquid flows down her throat. Oscar stands over her, hands in his pockets and wondering how anyone could possibly ignore her texts. He wants to take a picture of her, remind her parents of the beauty they have in their reach. But, he also knows that any text he sends to them wouldnât be one he should send to his potential (very likely) in-laws. So, he stays quiet and looks at her with the love she deserves.
âDo you need anything else?â He asks, pushing the hair out of her face.
She shakes her head, âNo, Iâm good. What movie do you want to watch?â
He kisses her cheek, âItâs up to you. I wonât be watching.â
Her eyebrows knot together and she cocks her head, âWhy not? Is this some random pickup line where youâre going to tell me how youâll only be watching me?â
He laughs, his head back, as he walks toward her room, âNo, but thatâs a good one. Iâll keep that for later. You put on whatever you want, baby. Iâll be cleaning.â
She crawls to the corner of the couch, watching him begin to pick up her room, âClean? What? Why?â
He stops, turning around to look at her through the door, âBecause I want to help you feel better and I know your apartment is stressing you out. You shouldnât have to worry, love. Just relax. Iâll be done in a few hours.â
Her mouth is agape as he moves throughout her room, putting things away as if he knows where everything goes. He does, apparently. And when the shock of it wears off, a smile cements itself on her face as she turns on a random movie. She enjoys the soft humming of Oscar in the other room, answering his occasional question about the plot of the movie sheâs watching. When he moves to the kitchen, out in the open and available to see whatâs on the screen, Y/n falls asleep to the picture of her boyfriend doing her dishes and taking out her trash. Falling asleep with a warm heart mended by someone that has always loved her unconditionally.
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Sheâs awoken by the feeling of soft mattress beneath her and Oscarâs arms heavy around her torso. Heâs deep in sleep when she opens her eyes, has her completely enveloped in his grasp on her side. The room is dark, the window open and allowing for a cold breeze to flow through the room. She loves it. Itâs cold outside, but Oscar keeps her warm. Her hands move their way up to his head, playing with his hair and staring at the man who has treated her so gently.
Tears fall down her face all so suddenly, sniffling lightly but still waking Oscar in the process.
Heâs immediately worried, âWhatâs wrong?â
Her head drops to his chest, âI just love you so much and canât tell you how much it meant to me that you stayed here even after seeing the state everything was in, including me.â
His soft hands leave her body and pull her face up to him. His eyes are dilated as he looks at her, âI wouldâve done it yesterday and Iâll do it for the rest of our lives. I donât want you to struggle alone. You donât deserve that. Youâve done too much of that before you met me.â
If only her younger self could see her now. A younger girl worried sheâd never find a man who loved her by seeing her now wholly adored by someone who didnât just see her, but understood her too. She doesnât even need to utter the problem, he already knows and sheâs caught on to that since the moment he showed up at her door. His carefully chosen words about her worth and how easy it is to love her were all strategically placed in order to fix the cracks deep in her soul that have come undone at the hands of her parents.
âItâs just upsetting that they only loved me.â She whispers and for a second, Oscar doesnât understand what sheâs saying. But, the tense of her words dawns on him and the look on her face unleashes anger in his body. Loved. Itâs upsetting that her parents loved her. They no longer do in her eyes. She once had parental support, love, but itâs obvious how transactional, conditional it was now. She got a taste of what it was like to be loved by them, but it was taken away when she needed it the most. She had mentioned to him before that growing up, she felt as if they used her presence to shy away from the problems of their marriage. When she was out of the house, she thought they would separate, but the opposite has happened. She served her purpose, now they throw money at trips to fill the void of what they have refused to face. Disregarded and thrown away, thatâs the implications of what sheâs confided.
He nods, tears in his eyes, âItâs so unfair of them to treat you this way. Theyâre your parents. They should be there for you, but they have never known how to love and you were just an unnecessary victim in it all.â
She wipes the moisture from her face, âI should just move on from the way theyâve treated me. I should give them grace because theyâre my parents. I should just make peace with it all because this will never be fixed in the way I want it. But, I canât.â
Oscar kisses the top of her head, âItâs okay that you canât. Thatâs completely understandable. Giving grace just because theyâre your family members isnât right, Y/n. Just because thereâs a blood relation doesnât mean you can excuse their behavior. Theyâre your parents and they have neglected you for ages. You canât keep giving everything to them, only to get nothing in return. Parents or not, you distance yourself from people who bring you down as much as they do.â
More tears smear against his chest, âBut, theyâre my parents, Osc.â
Itâs as if he doesnât know what to say because he knows how much she praises their drive and determination, giving her a life of privilege. Though, he stands firm on the idea that no one should be given a second chance if they âloveâ this way.
âI know, Y/n, and itâs so horrible that youâve been put in this situation, but I think it would do you some good to let go of a part of them. Youâll go home and see them for birthdays, Christmases, but, in the time between, you donât have to chase after them. You can find love in other things, happiness in other things. Iâll even do some of it with you. We can take up painting classes like you always wanted, walks in that park down the street that you love, studying in coffee shops, and watching the sunset. Life without them can be freeing.â
Heâs right, she thinks. Life without them will be freeing. But, the story of letting go is never easy and finding yourself flipping to past chapters to hold onto something that isnât there anymore is usual.
However, as she lays tangled in the limbs of Oscar, she finds future chapters to be more exciting, more fulfilling. Her whole life is ahead of her, one including Oscar, and that sudden revelation fills her with an overwhelming relief. His listing of all the things she loves, wants to try desperately reminds her just how in love with her he is. Every action of hers is noted by him and sheâs spent years begging for that from her parents. She never got it, but maybe that was because something else softer lied in the cards for her. At times, her parents needed her, but they would always need something else more. Glamorous, shiny, new things that would satisfy them for a time. She would never be enough in the minds of them, but in the mind of Oscar, she was more than enough. It was clear she was everything to him.
A life with him would be different from the one handed to her on a broken, rusty platter. She wanted that with him and the way he looked at her told her he did too. Letting go of the dismissal of people she has killed herself for to make proud was maybe for the best, pushed her in the direction of focusing on Oscar and everything sheâs ever wanted. Was this her mending old, deep wounds?
Loved and cherished, she found sleep once more, rejuvenated with hope and a sense of moving on.
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Written All Over Your Face dick grayson x reader
â summary: âWell, you know what they say, Love and Hate are two sides of a very, very thin line. For what I can see, you have a pent up sexual frustration written all over your face Dick.â
â warnings: SMUT. p in v, unprotected sex (don't be dumb and wrap it), enemies to lovers, heroe!reader, breeding kink, bulge kink Âż?, not proof-read, possessive behavior, begging...
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Being a heroe wasn't easy. Neither being considered a competition for Nightwing. The Ex-Robin. The Dick Grayson.
Both being ¨super-heroes¨ with no powers brought many controversial articles between you two, not only at the Gotham-Batman times, but also now at the new Titans times.
You never thought seeing him again and his boyish smile and attitude. No wonder why he has many girls falling for him, not only as Nightwing, but also as his real identity. But this rough times between the heroes, made the destiny bringing you together again.
Both of you had mutual friends, and when Dawn invited you to meet the new Titans, and asked you for help to train them, you never thought of seeing him again, neither of both of you training teenage kids how to become high quality-trained super heroes.
¨Sorry.¨ Were the last words you heard from Dawn, when she left you with bird boy at the training room, giving you an apologetic smile.
God bless her natural charm and being the trusting friend she is because you couldn't hit her face right now with the rage you're feeling.
¨Hi!¨ A green-haired boy said to you, he had the same, maybe not as pretty, boyish smile like Grayson. ¨Hello...?¨
¨Gar.¨ He told you, not putting down the smile.
With just a nod and a not so happy smile, your eyes moved into a purple-haired girl, who just smiled at you and said her name. ¨Rachel.¨ She hit the boy next to her with her elbow, murmuring his name.
¨Jason.¨ He said, ¨Is this your girlfriend Dick? Because she's pretty good looking for a guy like you. But yeah, what she's doing here anyways?¨
Oh. Yeah. Bird boy. He's here.
¨Yeah Grayson, whatâs going on?¨ Completely ignoring the fact Dick was about to answer Jasonâs question with furrowed brows and you obviously knowing why you're here since Dawn explained you. ¨And no, i'm not his girlfriend.¨ You looked at Jason with a smile which changed into a fake smile when your eyes returned to Dick. ¨He wishes.¨ You said, your head turning to the side, obviously trying to make him angry. At which he only scoffed, knowing you well enough to know what you were trying. ¨Yeah number two, maybe we can just pass at me explaining you why you´re here.¨
Number two? He WISHES.
¨I know why am I here. I don´t know if your little brain remembers you made Dawn bring me here to help you train this kids.¨ You got closer to him, not breaking eye contact. ¨And number two? pfft, If you were number one, maybe you wouldn't have been replaced by new Robin here.¨
That got him exactly where you wanted him. He might seem like a strong and rough guy, but behind all that image of big boy, thereâs nothing else but trauma.
You couldnât help but notice how his jaw clenched at the small giggle Jason let when you mentioned Dick being replaced. Side-eyeing him, Jason stopped. Dick sighed trying to calm himself down.
âFirst. I didnât know Dawn brought you here, she just told me about bringing the perfect person to help me train them, I was not expecting you.â You could tell he was still angry at the remark, so he wanted to correct you. âSecond. I didnât got replaced. I left Wayne by choice of mine.â
âAnd third. Iâm not longer Robin.â
It got into a really tense vibe between you and Dick trying to kill each-other with just your eyes, everyone in silence, clearly uncomfortable at this new encounter.
âCan both of you stop eye-fucking eachother and can we finally start the training?â Jason said, trying to bring both of you back to earth.
That clearly caught both of your attention to what Jason said, clearly annoyed at the wrong remark of how both of you were looking at each-other. âWeâre not âeye-fuckingâ each-other Jason, stop getting into otherâs people conversations.â With that, Dick started grabbing everything for the training of today, moving on. Jason just raised his arms at the air, (like when theyâre showing theyâre not armed), with a small smirk on his face.
âWell, you know what they say, Love and Hate are two sides of a very, very thin line. For what I can see, you have a pent up sexual frustration written all over your face Dick.â
That brought a hard, and big laugh to your face, how could Jason say that? This kids donât even respect their âleaderâ This was going to be a funny training.
After what seemed like 1 hour of training, and getting to know the kids, you could get which were the flaws and weaknesses. Maybe you couldnât understand quite well Rachelâs powers, but some time will do it.
You asked Gar where you could sleep the night, since it was already getting late and your most likely staying some days here, you'll also need some extra clothes at least for today.
Gar told you to stay in the spare room next's to Dick's, great, what a nice neighbor you have. He also gave you some clothes you could use tonight, tomorrow you could go back to your place and get some clothes, your skincare.... and I guess your super-hero suit.
When going out of the bathroom after a long shower (which you deserved), Dick was standing there, shirtless, all sweaty, and just with some grey sweatpants on... he looks.... nice, yeah. Obviously annoyed but when he saw you, his face turned into... panic?
He doesn't know what's happening to him right now, might be stress he needs to get relieved, yeah, sure, that's the reason he feels his pants getting tighter every-second he keeps looking at you right now.
¨Are you okay bird-boy why´re you just static over here, I know you have problems, but this a new one.¨ You looked up and down at Dick's figure, obviously checking him out, not like he needs to find out, noticing he´s quite handsome, not like you would tell him also, he's hot, and he knows it.
¨That´s... That´s my shirt¨ Was all that Dick could say, well, shit.
You knew the t-shirt had a distinct laundry soap scent which remind you of someone, and maybe a pint of perfume, but who could blame you?! Might be Gar's or Jason's!
¨And those... are my boxers.¨ double shit.
You could see he was obviously blushed and you're sure you are too, but what a coincide. It's like you could hear Rachel, Gar and Jason's laughing at the both of you.
¨Well... do want me to give them back at you?¨ You broke the tense silence, trying to take your, his, shirt-off, completely forgetting you're in front of him, you needed to find a way out of here.
¨No, no, no, stop! Leave it there, then you give it back to me.¨ He assured you, grabbing your hands and pulling them down with your, his? t-shirt. ¨And it looks better on you anyways.¨ That's all he said before speed entering to the bath-room.
¨Hey Dick!, Wait.¨ To say you couldn't feel the wetness of your pussy going out and asking for some relief, would be considered a crime. ¨What do you ne-¨ You cut him off by entering the bath-room closing the door in the process, both of your lips connecting in a perfect symphony like they were made for each-other. He left a sudden whine at the loss of the soft touch of your lips.
��Oh.¨ Was all he could say, you don't understand what happened to you, it wasn't definitely a normal behavior between you two. ¨Oh my god. I'm so sorry Dick, I don't know what happened to me, i'm-¨ You couldn't finish the last sentence when you felt his lips in yous again. A little hesitant this time, he stops, unsure of his actions, but he lose it all. ¨Do it again.¨
That's all he needed to continue kissing you, hands caressing you neck, positioning them as a chocking posture, later going to trace your jaw as he continues kissing you.
He started giving you kisses trailing down your chin, making you moan at the specific spot that made your legs shake, he started leaving love bites between your chest, later going down on you, pulling your t-shirt upwards, getting between your breasts and marking them as his.
¨Please Dick... Please make me feel good.¨ It´s like something got into him when his hands started roaming your body like crazy, pulling your shirt off, your hand reaching his sweatpants, and later his cock, noticing he has no underwear under neat it. ¨It's like you were ready for this bird-boy, ah!-¨ Even when you try to tease him, he finds a way to tease you back even in a better way, his fingers playing with your nipple had you giddy and trembling. ¨Be a good girl if you want me to fuck you.¨
All you could do is nod and start stroking his hard cock, already leaking pre-cum which made the stroking easier, playing with the head had him as a moaning mess.
âFuck, wait â shit. Mmâ fuck. Wh-where did you learn to do that?â He left a whiny moan at the lose of your touch.
âWell, the noises you make are a pretty good indication of how you like it.â He man-handled you, turning you around, making you see yourself at the mirror.
ââŚGod you sound so fucking cocky right now and itâs turning me on even more.â He ripped apart the boxers you were wearing. ¨Don't worry, I have plenty more.¨ Fuck him and his fucking pretty smile.
With no more waiting, he positioned himself, and started thrusting into you. He fits just right, and could touch all the places you couldn't reach.
âLet me know if Iâm doing anything wrong, okay? I want to make you feel as good as possible.â Even when he's fucking your brains out, he finds a way to be that kind and nice guy he is.
âO-Okay.â Was all you could tell him, before & after some moans and whines from both of you, one specific thrust had you seeing stars.
His hand lingered down your tummy and he moaned at the bump he could feel, when he was going in and out with his thrusts. ¨Oh baby, I'm going to make you mine, fill you up.¨
He started playing with your clit, it had you crazy all the feelings of his body, his thrusts, him.
¨´You´re so good for me, all for me... 'm gonna' fill you up with my babies, 'm gonna make you a mommy, full of my cum every-day just to make sure.¨
That was all you needed to cum, with just some last thrusts he came inside you too, fulfilling his promise of keeping you full of his cum. He waited for you to calm down, before he inserted two of his fingers, recollecting the cum that was falling out your hole, inserting it inside you again, making you moan at the sudden intrusion.
He got the tub ready, and got you inside it, in front of him while he cleaned your sore body while kissing it.
¨I can't believe it took me all this years to realize how I feel about you.¨ Your heart was anxious at how your confession would be received.
¨Doesn't take an idiot to figure out. You couldn't tell I was and I am in love with you because you were too busy trying to beat all that rivalry. I was in love the moment you kicked my ass for the first time.¨
You chuckled at the confession, and laid your head on his shoulder where you could see his dumb smirk. ¨You have that stupid smirk on your face again, can't you have a serious conversation with me?, can we fight again?¨
He laughed at your comment ¨Not a possible thing for me when you look this cute all marked by me and confessing your feelings for me.¨ The small pecks he started leaving on your neck and back had you giggling.
¨I love you.¨
¨I love you too, bird-boy.¨
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western au! dark!outlaw!Joel Miller x f!prostitute!reader playlist part two here
My contribution to dead dove December hehehe. I love dead doves so I'm very happy to participate! @romana-after-dark
Summary: You work at a brothel that operates above a saloon in your town. Joel is the leader of a group of outlaws that come periodically to collect payment and wreak havoc. One visit, you catch Joelâs eye and he decides he has to have you.
word count: ~5.6k
DARK, dead dove: minors dni!! rough smut, prostitution, reader gets called a whore, sexual slavery, being bought/sold, angst, being owned and considered property, descriptions of men being violent with each other, Joel is possessive and very dominant, reader is very submissive, stockholm syndrome. dubcon, reader obeys but she doesn't have a choice. It's only gonna get darker from here mamas. Unprotected sex, STDs donât exist in this universe, yeehaw. No use of y/n
A/N: Prepare for light old timey language. Yeehaw shit, in my heart I am a wild west man. Also I have no fucking idea what kind of money they used in the wild west so I just wrote gold coins lmao. Reader doesn't necessarily have a specific accent but she talks like an old timey western person, reader is just a girl in the world, god bless her. set in old west California LAWLESS LAND CALI WAS CRAZY BACK THEN BRUH
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You tried to even your breathing as you hurriedly did your makeup, slapping your powder onto your face frantically. The other girls scurried around you, the collective energy was tense and you all shared a feeling of anxiety that was rising as the minutes ticked on.
The bar always went into a frenzy whenever Joel Miller and his men rode through town. You hadnât been working here for that long but youâd already been here long enough for their visits. His men were animals, every girl dreaded it when they came to the brothel.
Joel and his men are shameless, getting drunk in the saloon and picking fights, riding through town and plundering all the folks living there, demanding "payments" in the form of money, food, jewelry, anything they could find that was worth taking. Payments that the people of your town made so that he would let them keep living there. He made it clear that we could wipe out the whole town if he wanted to, leaving you a people without anything. And that's if he left you all alive.
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You hadnât been living in the town that long. After your father died, you set off west with a man who you thought had loved you. Things had fallen out with him when you finally reached California, and he had left you all alone in this scary new world.
Luckily the people of the town had taken you in, but your shelter and safety came at a price. When you arrived, you had nowhere to live, no money, nothing.
The town brothel seemed like the only solution. You had a place to live, a job, a community. You made peace with having to let men defile you. Most of them were nice enough and your pimp took good care of all of you.
This world was cruel, you did what you needed to do to get by.
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You adjusted your breasts where they sat in your low cut dress, pushed up by your corset. You fixed your hair and adjusted the garter on your stockings.
âWell at least we look nice.â A voice snapped you out of your deep thoughts.
You turned and tried to muster a smile for your friend, Anna-Leigh, who was pinning up her blonde curls.
She clocked your fear and reached out her hand to take yours. You couldnât look at her because if you did youâd cry, and you couldnât afford to smudge the black pigment youâd put on your eyelashes.
âI know you donât want to, honey.â She said softly, âBut weâve gone through this before.â Her southern accent never failed to soothe you.
You nodded,
âYeah.â You sniffled.
âTheyâre gonna do what they always do, we just gotta deal with it and then they leave.â She said firmly.
âAnd if they really give us trouble, Mr. Polk will put a stop to it right quick.âÂ
You nodded a little more confidently, remembering that your pimp, Mr. Polk kept a gun on his hip every hour of the day.
No longer able to delay the inevitable, you took a deep breath, and followed your friend and the other girls out of the vanity area and down to the saloon.
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Walking down the stairs, you analyze the chaotic scene. Youâve managed to understand how to navigate it so as to not cause any trouble. Keep your head down, be a good girl, let them do what they want and then they leave. Your pimp paid you all extra whenever Joel's men came through. Sometimes heâd give you all new dresses, it does make you feel better but it does little to ease the aching between your legs that persists whenever he and his men visit.
You all disperse and walk among the crowd. Usually most girls will immediately go and talk a man up but now you all just stand around awkwardly, letting men approach you and take you upstairs, or just take you right down here.
Youâre taken upstairs a few times by a few different men. And later on, youâre sitting in a very drunk manâs lap down in the saloon with your breasts out, smoking a cigarette. He's playing a poker game and slowly losing everything.
Your eyes scan your surroundings: men brawling, naked women bent over, their legs splayed open. The usual.
Through the clamor around you, you can feel his eyes on you.
Joel Miller.
You'd seen him before, and his cold gaze had made your skin crawl.
You knew he was dangerous and youâd heard the stories about him. Youâd never talked to him, only seen him when he came by. After making his rounds through the town, heâd just sit at the bar and drink as his men ran wild. To your knowledge, he didnât even have sex with any of the girls.
You tried to avoid his gaze but you could feel his eyes on you through the thick haze of smoke. It wasn't fair that he was so handsome, weathered from the desert sun. His soft brown hair was laced with gray, just like his short scruffy beard. He looked like could've been a man that was kind, if it wasn't for the dead stare in his eyes. Meeting his eyes you could see how cold blooded he was, how merciless.
After a while, Joel instructed his men to gather everything up. The barkeep and your pimp seemed like they couldnât wait to get rid of them, their regulars bloodied and slumped over, the bar a mess.
You were pulling the top of your dress back over your breasts when you spotted Joel speaking to your pimp, who was looking distressed. Your stomach churned. That couldnât be good.
You were on your way up the stairs when you heard your name being called, panic flooded your system.
You turned, frozen. Your heart was pounding as the other girls ran by you.
Anna-Leigh tugged your arm, "C'mon!"
You turned and the only thing you could do was shake your head.
"What's wrong?" She asked, confused.
Your pimp, growing impatient, walked up the stairs and grabbed your elbow, dragging you down.
"I know y'don't want to." He grumbled, "But I'm not bein' given much of'a choice."
Your feet dragged on the wood as you struggled to catch your footing. Did Joel suddenly decide he wanted to fuck you? Mr. Polk yanked you over to him.
Joel's broad form towered over you as you approached. You felt small under his gaze, you'd never been this close to him before. You took in his scent of desert dirt and sweat. His broad shoulders, hulking biceps and soft stomach stretched his stained white button down. The fringe on his cowhide jacket swayed as he took his hat off his head and ran a hand through his graying curls.
You stood looking up at him, eyes wide. He looked down at you without a hint of warmth and grabbed your arm roughly, spinning you around.
You gasped at his touch and anticipated to be bent over and have your skirt hiked up. Instead he just looked at you and turned you back to face him. He made an approving grunt and nodded his head.
"Yeah." His voice was deep and gruff, "This one."
He reached into his bag on the bar and pulled out a sack that he let fall open, gold coins falling out all over the counter.
You started to feel sick.
"Give you this for her." He said casually.
A spike of fear bolted through you.
"W-what?"
Your pimp sighed and turned to you,
"Go get y'things honey."
"What?" That felt like all you could say, "N-no."
You turned to see Anna-Leigh and the other girls staring at you. Your friend looked just as terrified as you felt. Tears freed themselves from your eyes.
"God damnit girl I said go get your fucking things." Mr. Polk yelled and gave you a shake. You looked at Joel who simply nodded his head up, as if telling you to go upstairs.
You sniffled and ran up the stairs, your sobs breaking through as you graced the landing and echoing as you flung yourself into your room.
-
You hiccuped as you threw your few belongings into a suitcase, everything blurred as you cried.
You were only able to get a few items packed before you broke down and sobbed uncontrollably.
You suddenly felt the arms of your friend wrapping around you as other girls gathered around you, all stroking and hugging you.
You blinked back tears and tried to speak but you couldnât. They just held you as you all cried. There wasnât really anything they could say to make things better anyway.
You gasped and shuddered, trying to catch your breath. Anna-Leigh took your face in her hands,
âItâs okay, baby, breathe.â She said, tears falling down her face as well. You shook your head and kept crying.
Your pimp appeared in the doorway, looking mournful as he held his hat in his hands.
âHow dare you!â Anna-Leigh screamed at him from where she held you.
âIâm sorry.â He said, looking down, âItâs either her or they take all aâyou. Destroy the bar, hell maybe even the whole town.â
You cried harder, realizing that there was truly no way out of this. If you didnât go with Joel, youâd be damning your sisters. You let out a final anguished cry before you got up shakily and continued to pack your things. You went down to the bar which was quiet, the men all watching with bated breath.
Mr. Polk escorted you down and you walked over to Joel again, whose smirk made you nauseous. You looked down at the floor as one of his men took your bag from you.
âAlright sweetheart.â Your pimp murmured, âYou be good for Mr. Miller now.â
You nodded as tears ran down your face silently.
âMove out.â Joel addressed his men.
It hit you again that you were really leaving and you started sobbing again.
âNo please!â You begged your pimp, âDonât let him take me please!â
Joel reached out and grabbed your arm,
âI ainât got time for this girl!â He sneered and ripped you away.
âNoâŚâ you cried as he dragged you along.
Anna-Leigh ran up and hugged you one last time. Joel let her, but made an irritated noise and squeezed you painfully when she took too long.
She pulled away and grabbed your face in her hands.
âYou can do this.â She said, her voice breaking, âYouâre gonna be strong.â
You hiccuped and shook your head,
âBe strong ok?â She nodded at you as Joel finally wrenched you away.
âThatâs enough!â He barked, âIâve already been mighty patient with you folks. Stop fuckinâ testing me!â
Everyone stared at him, silent and full of fear.
You could only cry harder as he dragged you outside. He picked you up and set you on his horse, untying its reigns from the post.Â
âHey!â You heard a voice call out and turned on the horse to see one of your drunken regulars, stumbling towards you,
âThasâ my favorite whore!â He slurred, âMy favorite fuckinâ whore, yâcanât-â he hiccuped and stumbled. The people of the town shuffled out of their houses to watch the action.
Joel smiled at the man coldly,
âThatâs your favorite whore, huh?â He asked, standing over him. He rolled him over with the toe of his boot.
âM-my whore.â The man warbled.
Joel didnât really know why but white hot rage shot through him. He inhaled sharply and stomped on the manâs face, hard. He heard you gasp from the back of his horse which only ignited him further.
âSheâs my fuckinâ whore now!â He yelled and spat in his face.
Fueled by rage and power, he turned to his right hand with an idea.
âGet me the rope, John.â
The man writhed on the ground, moaning and clutching his face. Joel approached the back of his horse with the rope, making you shuffle back in fear.
âRelax darlinâ this ainât for you.â He breathed and tied the end of it to the saddle. Then, he turned to the man and bent down, tying the rope around his hands above his head.
You watched in shock and heard people around you, whispering.
âAlright!â Joel said after he was done. He got up onto the horse in front of you.
âHold on baby.â He said softly and you reluctantly wrapped your arms around his middle.
Adrenaline coursed through him at the thought of the freedom of the mountains, of riding out of this stupid town with a pretty girl on his horse and a worthless drunk at his mercy. He turned to see John, who was giving him a knowing smile, the one he always gave him before they rode.
âLetâs ride.â Joel said, his voice gravelly like the desert sand. Before you could blink, they urged their horses onward and took off at high speed. You couldnât help but let out a little scream as you startled and grabbed at him.
Your noise of shock was substituted by the agonized screams of the man being pulled by Joelâs horse. Begging and crying just like you had earlier.
You turned and watched the town get smaller, Anna-Leigh stood at the front of the crowd and gave you a pitiful wave. You looked down and saw the bloody body of the man.
You squeezed your eyes shut and turned back around, whimpering as you buried your face in Joelâs broad back.
Your tears stained his jacket as you rode away from the place that you had made your home. Towards a terrifying, shackled future.
-
As you journeyed on, you sat behind Joel on his horse, your hands clinging to his weathered leather jacket. His silence only made you more uneasy.
You feared for what the future held, gone was the stability of the brothel, the protection of your pimp. You were in a lawless land with a man who answered to no one. Youâd heard the stories about Joel Miller, about the things heâd done.
You didnât know how heâd treat a woman, if heâd be rough or gentle. Or if heâd throw you to his men. That was what you were the most afraid of.
You traveled for hours, eventually setting up camp as the sun began to set. As the air grew colder, Joel passed you a thick blanket to wrap around yourself. You sat in front of the fire with him as his men kept themselves occupied.
You brooded as you stared into the fire. You were still kind of in shock. This man had taken you away from everything, your life was gone. You didn't know if you were ever going to see your friends again.
You didn't realize, when you'd started spreading your legs for men, that this could happen. That you could be bought and sold like cattle.
You were scared for life with this godless outlaw. You didn't even know where you'd be living. Would you just sleep out in the desert like this? Would you spend the rest of your days being pounded by vicious men into the hard, dry earth?
"Want âsum meat?" Joel's gruff voice broke you from your thoughts. You turned to him apprehensively. He held out a piece of dried meat, offering it to you.
"Go on."
You slowly took it from him and took a bite like a scared wild animal. It was pretty good.
"Thank you." You said softly.
Joel looked satisfied with your response, you were both quiet for a while longer until you finally couldn't help yourself.
âIs this uhâŚâ You spoke and he looked over to you, the fire casting sharp shadows across his handsome features.
âIs this how you normally live?â You finally asked, hoping you werenât being disrespectful.
Joel shook his head after a moment.
âWeâre travelinâ now.â He said, âbut we got a place, nice and comfortable for a lady.â
You smiled a little bit at that last part.
âThank you sir.â You wished you didnât sound so scared, âI was just curious.â
âSâalright.â He grumbled out and began focusing on whittling a piece of wood.
-
The journey was hard but you tried your best to keep up. Joel never raised his voice at you, he didnât really talk to you all that much in general. He hadnât even touched you yet either. It seemed he was focused on getting everyone home.
His strength and capability drew you to him, but he still scared you.
After days of traveling, you finally reached where he and his men lived; a small grouping of cabins a mile or so away from a small village. It was just as well, since the sun was beginning to set over the horizon.
You still weren't sure what to think. Joel has been gentlemanly towards you so far. He still scared you though. His smoldering silence made you more uneasy than any unsavory man you'd ever encountered. He kept all his cards concealed, barely spoke, only when he needed to. His calm felt like that which preceded a storm, he commanded respect.
You didn't know what to expect from him.
You entered one of the larger cabins with Joel. It was nice, modest, and smelled of carpentry and tobacco. He set down his lantern on one of the wooden tables and dropped your things down with a slight groan.
His men unloaded everything, then they all nodded at each other and all left, closing the door and leaving you with Joel.
He moved purposefully, picking up wood from a corner and moving to the fireplace.
"Need to get a fire goin'." You heard his deep voice in the near darkness. The shadows thrown on his broad back made him seem even larger than he already was.
You didn't move, unsure of what to do, not wanting to make him mad.
After a fire was crackling he moved towards you silently, the wood creaking under his heavy footsteps. You resisted the urge to shrink away from him.
He was so close to you now, right in front of you.
"You were a real good girl on that trip." He said, his gravelly voice soft, the sound immediately went to your cunt and you were shocked at how aroused you suddenly became.Â
You weren't sure what to say, you kept your eyes down, your hands behind your back.
He held your jaw and tilted your face up to look at him.
"You need to keep bein' good." He said, his tone a warning, "You don't cause any fuckin' trouble, you do what I say."
You felt breathless, the feeling of his hand on your face setting you on fire.
"Yes sir." You said quickly.
He smiled softly, "Good girl." He said gently and, to your shock, leaned forward and kissed your forehead. You gasped a little.
"Remember," His voice was still soft and velvety, "I own you now." He gripped the back of your neck tightly, "That means you're mine and I decide what to do with you."
You swallowed the dry lump in your throat. You wanted to cry. You never liked being a prostitute, but at least at the brothel you were free, not a man's property. At least, you thought you'd been.
But Joel had paid for you fair and square. You were his now.
You whimpered a little at the thought and he grabbed your hair, yanking your head back,
"Answer me when I talk to you girl." He spat.
"Yes sir, I'm sorry!" you choked out.
Seeming satisfied, he let go and patted your cheek, then moved away. It felt like you could finally breathe.
"I'm gonna get us some supper ," He said, "You stay here, make yourself at home."
With that he was gone. You stood in the single room cabin, your heart rate finally slowing down.
You looked around, the place was big enough, it felt cozy. There were some old chairs by the fire with a small handcrafted table in front of them.
The other side of the room had a big soft looking bed, then there was an area to the right with pots, pans and other things for cooking. Besides a small room off to the side with a basin of water and a cracked mirror, that was it.
It wasn't much, but it was nice. It felt normal. There were blankets everywhere. Cotton, knitted, animal hide, what have you.
It all made you feel a little better, but not by that much.
Joel came back in and gathered fixings for dinner. He had you both sit in front of the fire outside along with his other men. You all sat on logs gathered round. His men were boisterous and shameless as usual, but they only did so much as leer at you.
The food was pretty good, and you appreciated the hot meal.
When you shivered a little bit, Joel slipped off his fringe jacket and put it around your shoulders. You looked up at him and couldn't help but smile a little. How sweet, how...considerate.
He looked down at you, and smiled back. The wrinkles around his brown eyes became more pronounced, making his normally dead piercing gaze softer, kinder. A warmth bloomed in your chest.
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After dinner was done, you both returned to his cabin. He cleaned up as you got comfortable, changing into a long, off the shoulder white cotton dress that held your breasts nicely.
You settled into his bed. It smelled like wood, tobacco, whiskey, him. The blankets and pillows were soft and you tucked your legs up, opening your diary. Beginning a new entry, you didn't even know where to start. Your entries were definitely going to get more interesting.
You wrote for a while before you heard a man enter the cabin. Looking up, you saw Joel and began to stand up but he put up a hand, stopping you.
You watched him walk over to the fire, his knees creaking a little as he bent down and threw a fresh log in.Â
He sighed and slumped back in one of the chairs, kicking off his boots, unbuckling his belt and unbuttoning his shirt.
You observed him for a while, his beautiful hooked nose illuminated by the firelight, his hair looked soft, his tough expression relaxed a bit.
You finally lost interest and returned to your diary, desperately trying to explain to it how you came to be in this situation.
Joel took swigs from his flask and worked on his whittling as you wrote. He liked the peacefulness, he liked that there was a pretty girl in his bed. You had come with him so easily, been so obedient. Sure, you'd been upset initially, but he hadnât expected you not to be.
You'd been good, so far. You followed his orders and you were thankful for all the things that he gave you.
Compliant little thing.
He suddenly got an idea.
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You had already covered two pages in writing when he called your name.
You sat up quickly and set your diary on his bed, slid off and walked across the wooden floor until you were in front of him.
âYes sir?â You asked, your heart pounding slightly.
âTake off your dress.â He said quietly.
The command caught you off guard and you froze for a moment.
âI-what?â
âTake off. Your dress.â He repeated flatly, âWanna take a look at whatâs mine.â
His words both made your stomach hurt and your pussy ache. It felt like your feet and hands were going numb.
You took him in, his hard stare, the yearning and darkness in his eyes. You realized you had been fooled earlier tonight by his chivalry.
You swallowed and nodded, you were used to this business. You took a deep breath and untied the top of your dress, letting the bodice fall loosely around your chest. You gathered the fabric and pulled it over your head. You weren't wearing any undergarments so as your white dress billowed to the ground, you were left completely naked for him.
You heard him make a noise of approval and he nodded, smiling.
"Knew you were a good girl."
He eyed you up and down. His gaze made goosebumps erupt on your skin, causing your nipples to harden as he examined you. He stayed in his chair, his legs spread. You could see his bulge straining against his jeans.
You could feel your heartbeat pounding in your cunt...maybe Joel Miller would be gentle with you?
He finally stood up. Looming over you, he ran his large, rough hands over your arms, then your stomach and finally, up to cup and squeeze your breasts.
You couldn't help but let out a soft moan, Joel chuckled softly,
"I know baby," He rasped, "You've been waitinâ so long, been so patient."
You nodded quickly, your eyes wide as you looked up at him. Your complete submissiveness to him was due to his power, but you couldn't help but feel a little excited for this strong, terrifying man to take you.
"Go get on the bed for me."
"Yes sir." You said softly and he let out an almost inaudible groan. You walked over to the bed and laid on your back, immediately spreading your legs.
Joel laughed a little and shook his head as though in disbelief,
"Damn, I picked the right fuckinâ girl didn't I?"
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He sat on the bed beside you as you lay, your pussy still on display for him, your arms on either side of your head.
Completely his, ready to be taken by him. It kind of shocked you that you had surrendered and accepted this role so quickly. But then again, you didn't have much of a choice, this was the easy way.
"Damn." He sighed as he let his eyes fall over you. He took his time touching you, slowly playing with you. You let your eyes flutter shut as you let him explore you, taking in his newest possession.
He touched you everywhere, except where you needed him most. You squirmed and whimpered, moving your hips to get his fingers anywhere near your wet cunt.
Joel quickly landed a harsh spank on your pussy and you cried out.
"Cut that shit out." He growled, "You're gonn' take what I give you and be a grateful little whore."
You nodded quickly.
"Say it."
"I'm-I'm gonna be a grateful little whore."
"Thas' right."
His thick fingers dragged through your dripping cunt and you let out a moan. He drew closer to you, inhaling the dizzying scent of your arousal and spreading your slickness up to your clit.
"Joel..." You whined and rolled your hips against his fingers.
"Good girl," He said huskily, "Jus like that."
He moved his fingers faster and you moaned and arched your back. No man had ever taken his time with you in this way.
You felt the pleasure wash over you and you let your moans echo around the cabin freely. You'd learned it wasn't a bad thing to be loud, your old pimp had always told you it was good advertising.
After taking in your reaction to that, Joel shifted his focus and curiously buried two thick fingers into your cunt. You moaned and gasped at the way he stretched you, it felt fucking amazing.
"Joel!" You cried out and rocked your hips in time with his hand. Following his movements and somehow doing exactly what he wanted.
He liked how responsive you were, how obedient.
He pulled his fingers out of you without warning and you whined at the sudden emptiness.
Joel got on his knees on the bed, towering over you. He pulled his shirt off and undid his jeans, pulling them down just enough to free his cock.
You audibly gasped when you took in the sight of it and he laughed a little.
"What? Not expectinâ me to be this big?"
"I-no-sir I didn't-I mean-" You stuttered.
"S'alright sweetheart." He murmured, "You wanna touch me?"
You stared at his thick manhood. You had no idea how fucking big it was, you reached your hand out and wrapped it around him, your fingers just meeting each other around his girth.
Oh fuck.
You whined and pumped his length, spitting on it and letting it spread over him.
His cock was beautiful, powerful and imposing, resting rock hard and heavy between his strong thighs. His balls hung heavy, his dark hair running wild up to his round stomach.
You sighed, contentedly.
Joel smirked, his large hand resting on the side of your head, cradling you as your hand worked him.
You looked up at him submissively, your eyelashes fluttering. Joel moaned at the way you pleaded for him without even saying anything. You were like a siren. He'd known you were the one the minute he saw you down in that saloon.
He suddenly pushed you back, roughly. Making you yelp out in surprise as your head hit the soft pillows. He looked at you hungrily and grabbed your hips, flipping you over so you landed on your stomach, bouncing up off the bed a little.
He yanked your hips up so you were on your knees, grunting and breathing heavily. You moaned and arched your back, spreading yourself for him.
You felt the head of his cock swipe through your folds and your heart raced with anticipation. He took a sharp inhale before slamming into your cunt with a snarl.
"FUCK!" You cried out, not expecting the sudden burn or stretch. Even with how wet you were, his massive cock split you open.
You gasped and whined as Joel kept himself buried in your pussy, groaning as he rocked his hips, getting harder and more forceful.
You let yourself become undone by him and he started sliding out and slamming into you more, getting faster and more enthusiastic.
He grunted and breathed heavily through gritted teeth as he pounded into you. He threw his head back, using his grip on your hips to move you and fuck your pussy. The way you moaned and screamed for him only spurred him further, abusing your cunt.
He was in control. He bought you, he owned you, you were his whore. Forever.
"Oh fuck!" He groaned, gasping as those thoughts brought him even closer, along with the squeeze of your cunt.
You couldn't even speak, your face was pressed into the pillow as you cried and drooled. You'd lost track of how many times you'd come, just letting yourself be used by him at this point. You couldn't deny that it felt amazing.
Joel leaned over and put a paw-like hand over the back of your head, crushing your face into the bed as he leaned over. Putting his weight on you, he used that to fuck you even harder.
Your cries were muffled and you almost couldn't breathe. Joel's thrusts became sloppier and you heard his breathing turn into desperate moaning. He finally came, thick ropes of cum shooting directly into you making you gasp and moan. The men at the brothel were never allowed to cum in you. If a girl got pregnant, she either got it taken care of or she was out.
But you were Joel's now. And Joel was the one who decided what happened to you.
He fucked his cum into you more, causing it to spurt out. Then he pulled back, you took a deep breath and relaxed onto the bed, his cock still keeping you plugged up.
"That's right baby." He murmured, "Good girl."
You let out a beautiful whine, your cunt tightening around his cock as he stroked your hair away from your face.
He sighed as he knelt over your limp form, his cock still keeping his seed in you.
You didn't move, When he finally eased out of you gently, you winced and cried out at the loss.
"I know, I know." He said softly, petting your hair.
He grabbed a cloth and wiped at your cunt, getting most of the mess cleaned up. When he decided that was good, he eased your hips down and turned you over.
You wriggled into a comfortable position, tucking your hair behind your ear and smiling up at him shyly.
He smiled at you again, the same one he'd given you at dinner. His normally cold eyes looked warm and safe.
You slipped your hands up around his neck, your eyes falling down to his lips under his scruffy beard.
He ran the rough pad of his thumb over your cheekbone,
"Such a good little whore." He said softly, then he leaned down and kissed you.
His lips weren't pressed against yours for that long but it still sparked electricity through you.
He pulled away and breathed out a laugh, "Alright, let's try an' get some sleep now."
"Yes sir." You said softly.
He put out the fire and the lantern and stripped off his pants before getting under the covers with you. His strong arms wrapped around you, pulling you into him, his softening cock pressing against your ass.
He buried his nose in your hair, each hand covering your tits, keeping them warm.
You nuzzled into his hold, you couldn't remember the last time you'd been held like this. You turned around and buried your face in his hairy chest.Â
You hadâŚliked that. You really liked it. You knew how wrong this all was. You knew that to him you were just a whore, his property, butâŚmaybe you could make peace with that? Maybe Joel Miller would be a good owner.
You hated that you were even thinking that.
His large hand rested on your back, holding you close to him as your exhausted mind finally succumbed to sleep.
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THANK YOU FOR READING I LOVE YOU
This is my first Joel fic AND my first dead dove fic which I didnât think Iâd be able to write but I had sm fun writing this!! Thank you to @toxicanonymity and @romana-after-dark and all the girlies with their scary Joels who inspired međ¤
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I made a small fic for this piece of art you did bc it stuck me with emotion and I couldnât resist
the art:
Time walked through the inn hallways, carrying a glass of water for the traveller, who had succumbed to magic exhaustion and was resting peacefully for the time being. He heard a keening sob, and then a sniffle and paused, the water splashing slightly from the abrupt stop. He followed the sound to the room where the sailor, the smithy, and the captain were staying. Worriedly, he knocked on the door with his free hand. âWhat?â Came a worn, small voice and the old manâs heart stuttered.Â
âCan I come in?â
âIââ A hiccup. âYeah.â
He turned the knob and opened the door, stepping inside and examining the room, seeing the familiar blue tunic of the sailorâs and recognizing Wind, sitting on one of the bedâs with his legs dangling on the ground. He met Windâs eyes and saw the tears and softened, closing the door shut as quietly as he could. âHey, whatâs wrong?â Time approached the kid slowly.
When all he got was a barely bit back sob he sat down next to the sailor and noticed he was clutching a telescope tightly to his chest, so tightly his knuckles were white. He didnât press, merely laid a hand on his shoulder. And Wind looked back at the old man with streams of tears falling down his cheeks and dripping down his chin, his eyebrows pressed and he released his tense grip on the telescope holding it up slightly. âYâknowâsometimes I stay upâŚA-and I think about what she went through.â
She. Time held his breath, wondering who this girl was but also finding himself nearly at tears seeing and hearing this. Wind hiccuped again. âAndâI th-think that.â
A sob tore its way out of the kidâs mouth and Time uttered something softly, a reassurance. Wind continued anyway. âIt r-really shouldâve been me.â
âNo. I donât know what happened, but you donât deserve whatever was so bad that she went through.â
âMy s-sister, she was kidnapped. She was only six years oldââ Wind gasped. âAnd she has nightmares of her time in a cell. I wouldâve been able to handle it, old man. It shouldâve been me.âÂ
And didnât that make Timeâs heart ache more than ever. He hugged the kid. âSheâs safe now, right?âÂ
âW-well yeahâŚâ
âBecause you rescued her. Who wouldâve been there to save you had you been in her stead?âÂ
He got no reply, just a muffled hiccup. Time wiped the kidâs tears away. âWe canât change the past. And no matter what your mind may tell you, even though your sister has gone through a lot, she still has you, right? Youâre both still alive.âÂ
He wasnât expecting a response. He wasnât expecting anything from the poor kid right now.Â
Kids. These are just kids.
Time waited patiently, keeping the sailor company as he took in what was just said and continued to cry, until Wind spoke, saying, âThis telescope is my sisterâs. She let me borrow it, before sheâŚYâknow got kidnapped but when I tried to give it back she insisted that I needed it more.âÂ
âI see. She sounds kind.â
âShe is. She helps out where she can and she comforts me when I have nightmares and Grandma isnât there to,â Wind sniffled, rubbing his eyes. âAryllâs the whole reason Iâm out there, looking for a new place to call Hyrule. I just wish she hadnât had to go through what she did.â
âI find myself wanting to meet her,â Time hummed. âIs she younger or older than you?âÂ
âYounger. When she got k-kidnapped I was about 11.â
And so the old man stood up, and smiled softly back down at the sailor. âWould you like to check on the traveller with me? I was giving him some water.â
âYes!â Wind smiled back, hopping up and following the old man through the inn.
I feel sick. These kids have gone through so muchâŚbecause I wasnât there. I abandoned them.
ASHAJAJAHFJF
Time comforting Wind is SO PRECIOUS!!!
Dad vibes DAD VIBES DAD VIBES!!!
Oh wind is such a selfless older brother, he cares so much and is so sacrificing out of love!
I adore that time doesn't expect anything from wind, just talks with him and comforts, and then gives him the option to help Hyrule totake his mind off of it. A nice distraction while also fulfilling the need to do more and helpâ¤ď¸
Oh but Tiiiiimmme don't you start feeling the same way!! Someone tell this man to listen to his own words!!
Thank you Uni, this was SUCH a lovely surprise!!!!!
#sweet uniquevoidflowers#eeeeeiiiiiii#i love this so muchđĽšđĽšđĽš#just the way you wrote them?! wind is so saaaad#i also wanna comfort himđĽş#and time wiping his tears away?!#AAAAAHDJSK#love them#FAMILLYYYY#ive also sobbed over my siblings#I feel you windy my boy#linked universe#linkeduniverse#lu wind#lu time#fics for oma
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Iâm sorry but can you write more stuff about Vox being a gaslighter? Iâm actually obsessed with your analysis
Thaaanks I'm obsessed about them too~ đŠľâ¤ď¸
So, Vox is like the ultimate gaslighter. Manipulation and brainwashing? That's his whole freaking business plan. I mean, come on, the Voxtek slogan is "Trust Us," and somehow, people actually do.
Oh, let's talk about Voxtek - he's the worst, most manipulative boss ever. He's always pulling stuff like withholding essential information for a task someone's supposed to do, then publicly blaming them for screwing up. And he's sneaky about it too, acting all concerned and disappointed instead of just yelling. It makes people feel useless and insecure, so they bust their butts trying to please him and win back their colleagues' respect, never daring to stand up for themselves. Plus, he's a pro at keeping relationships between higher-up managers tense and distrustful by spreading rumors and creating a competitive vibe. And don't get me started on how he's a total hypocrite - Voxtek, like every other company, preaches its values and missions to create this fake sense of safety and purpose, but then he goes and acts against them or lets someone else do so. It leaves people feeling confused and helpless because they can't play the game when the rules keep changing. Let me tell you, Satan might work hard, but Voxtek's HR department works even harder.
And manipulating people on a personal level? Way too easy for him. People who don't know him well enough think he's some kind of genius (bless their hearts), so they give him way too much credibility. It's crucial for him to be seen as competent because that's how he stays in control. That's why he loves to question the competence of his business partners (Not to be that guy, but those numbers don't look great. Are you sure you can handle this? I don't want to waste my money.) or Valentino (Babe, I've got this. We both know you're not great with financial planning.). Thought hardly ever works on Velvette because she's got zero bullshit tolerance.
Now, when it comes to Valentino, Vox has zero remorse about gaslighting him. To him, gaslighting isn't even violence; it's just a way of handling things, all neat and effective. Why bother yelling and arguing when he can just manipulate Val into agreeing with him? It's like what we saw in episode 2. And even when Val has every right to be angry because Vox acted like a jerk, Vox tends to devaluate his emotions (I don't have time to deal with another temper tantrum, Val; You're always so pissy, why can't you just chill?) or tries to make him doubt his own reality (Maybe you'd remember it better if you weren't high all the time.). He hates arguing with Val, but also is unable to admit that he's wrong, so in his mind, undermining Val's ability to call him out on his bad behavior is a way of keeping their relationship healthy. But it's risky because sometimes Val sees through his manipulations, especially when they're about his feelings, and then things get even messier.
I like to think they trust each other when it comes to serious stuff, like protecting each other from outside dangers, but at the same time, it's like Mr. Gaslight Gatekeep Girlboss is married to Mr. Manipulate Mansplain Manwhore - you never know if he's being genuinely nice or if he's trying to get you to do something.
#hazbin hotel#vox#voxval#valentino#hazbin vox#valentino hazbin hotel#staticmoth#headcanon#ask#you know i actually work in HR and sometimes i actively think about voxtek as an organization which is weird
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so, single dad kenan and oc are in an arranged marriage. their marriage is awkward but filled with undeniable tension and chemistry. kenan takes oc and his child to a summer holiday on the beach and kenan can't keep on denying how hot oc is, especially in her swimsuit. she is also feeling the vibes. one evening, she comes out from a shower in a towel and kenan's there, to her least expectation. and boom, some hot ass smut session.
A/N: WARNING SMUT !!
HEAT OF THE MOMENT - KENAN YILDIZ
You both finally give into temptation
Single dad! Kenan Yildiz x fem! reader
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The summer sun blazed high in the sky as we settled into our vacation routine. Kenan, his daughter, and I had arrived at the beachside villa a few days ago, and the atmosphere was as tense as ever.
This was supposed to be a break, a chance for us to get to know each other better after our arranged marriage.
But the truth was, our relationship was still awkward, filled with unspoken words and a tension that simmered just beneath the surface.
Kenan was a good father, attentive and loving to his little girl, and he treated me with kindness. But there was a distance between us that neither of us seemed willing to cross. That is, until this trip.
I had noticed the way his eyes lingered on me whenever I wore my bikini, the way his gaze would darken with something unspoken whenever we were close.
And I couldnât deny that I felt the same pull.
Kenan was undeniably handsome, his body toned from years of training as a professional athlete, and being around him every day was testing my resolve.
One evening, after a long day of sunbathing and playing with his daughter, I retreated to our shared bedroom for a shower.
The cool water cascaded over my skin, washing away the heat of the day and the lingering thoughts of Kenan. But no matter how hard I tried to push them away, they kept coming back.
Stepping out of the shower, I wrapped a towel around myself and walked into the bedroom, expecting to have a moment alone to collect my thoughts. But as I rounded the corner, I froze.
Kenan was there, standing by the bed with his back to me, sorting through a duffle bag.
He must have come in while I was in the shower, and he clearly hadnât heard me.
âKenan,â I said softly, my voice betraying the surprise I felt.
He turned around, his eyes widening slightly when he saw me standing there in nothing but a towel.
For a moment, we just stared at each other, the air thick with tension. His gaze roamed over me, taking in every inch of exposed skin, and I felt a shiver run down my spine.
âSorry,â he murmured, his voice rough as he forced his eyes back to my face. âI didnât mean toââ
âItâs fine,â I interrupted, though my voice came out shakier than I intended. âI didnât know you were in here.â
Kenan didnât move, his eyes locked on mine as if he was trying to figure out what to do next.
The heat between us was palpable, and I could feel my heart pounding in my chest as I stood there, rooted to the spot.
âY/N,â he started, his voice low and hesitant. âYou shouldâŚget dressed. Iâll give you some privacy.â
But he didnât move. And neither did I.
Instead, we just stood there, the tension between us crackling like electricity. The weight of the unspoken attraction that had been building between us since the day we met felt like it was about to explode.
âKenan,â I whispered, my voice barely audible as I took a small step forward.
That was all it took.
In an instant, Kenan closed the distance between us, his hands reaching out to pull me close.
The towel slipped from my fingers as his lips crashed down on mine in a kiss that was desperate and full of pent-up desire.
His hands roamed over my back, pressing me against him as if he couldnât get enough.
I melted into him, my arms wrapping around his neck as I returned the kiss with equal fervor.
This was what we had been dancing around for weeks, and now that the barrier was broken, there was no going back.
Kenanâs hands found the edge of my towel, and with one swift motion, it was gone, leaving me completely exposed to him.
But instead of feeling vulnerable, I felt empowered, wanted in a way I hadnât allowed myself to feel since our marriage began.
He pulled back slightly, his breathing ragged as he looked down at me, his eyes dark with lust. âYou have no idea how much Iâve wanted this,â he admitted, his voice hoarse.
âThen donât hold back,â I whispered, my fingers tangling in his hair as I pulled him down for another kiss.
I tasted the salt of the sea on his lips, mixed with the sweetness of his desire, and I responded eagerly, opening my mouth to him.
His tongue teased and explored, and I moaned, feeling his hands roam over my back, pulling me closer.
I pressed myself against him, feeling his hardness against my belly. He groaned into my mouth, his hands moving down to cup my ass, squeezing the fleshy cheeks.
I ground myself against him, feeling his cock twitch, and he broke the kiss, nipping at my neck.
"Fuck, you feel so good," he growled, his breath hot against my skin.
I laughed, a throaty, lust-filled sound, and pushed him gently away, turning so that my back was against his chest.
I reached behind me, finding the hard length of him, and squeezed gently, feeling him shudder.
âFeel free to explore," I whispered, and I guided his hands to my breasts, my nipples already tight and begging for attention.
He cupped my breasts, thumbs rubbing over the sensitive peaks, and I arched into his touch, gasping.
His mouth found the sensitive skin of my neck, kissing and sucking, while his hands continued to worship my breasts.
I felt his fingers tweak and pull at my nipples, sending sparks of pleasure straight to my core. I squirmed against him, wanting to feel him everywhere.
Then his hands left my breasts, trailing down my body, over my stomach, and finally, to the curls between my thighs.
I spread my legs, inviting him, and his fingers found my wetness, sliding through my folds with ease.
"So wet," he groaned, his fingers slipping inside me with no resistance.
I bit my lip, my eyes fluttering closed as he pumped his fingers in and out, the pace steady and deliberate. His thumb found my clit, rubbing small circles that had me bucking my hips, chasing the pleasure.
"Please, don't stop," I panted, my hands covering his, holding him against me.
He added another finger, stretching and filling me, his thumb never stopping its delicious circles. "You feel so good around my fingers, baby," he whispered, his hot breath in my ear sending shivers through me. "But I want to feel your tight pussy around my cock."
I moaned at his dirty words, the image of his thick cock sliding into me making my core clench. "Then take me," I demanded, my voice sounding foreign to my own ears.
He growled in response, turning me to face him, and then lifted me, sitting me on the edge of the bed.
I watched as he stripped quickly, his clothes falling to the floor, and then he stood before me, his cock hard and thick, begging for attention.
I reached out, wrapping my hand around his length, and stroked gently, feeling him throb in my hand. "I want to taste you," I whispered, and then leaned forward, licking a long stripe up his shaft.
He hissed, his fingers tangling in my hair, and I took him in deeper, sucking and laving my tongue around his head. "Fuck, that's good," he groaned, his hips bucking gently..
I took my time, savoring the feel and taste of him, before he gently pulled me away. "I need to be inside you," he said hoarsely, and I nodded, my body yearning for him.
He climbed onto the bed, lifting my legs and settling between them. I felt the head of his cock nudge at my entrance, and then he pushed forward, filling me in one slow, delicious thrust.
"Oh god," I moaned, feeling stretched and full.
He paused, giving me a moment to adjust, before beginning to move. Slow, deep thrusts that had me moaning and squirming beneath him.
His hands gripped my hips, guiding his movements, and I met his thrusts, rising to meet him with each delicious slide.
"You like that, baby?" he growled, his eyes dark with desire.
"Yes," I cried out, my fingers digging into his arms. "Harder, please."
He obliged, increasing his pace and force, slamming into me with a rhythm that had the bed creaking and my breath coming in short gasps.
"Tight little pussy," he grunted, his sweat-slicked chest gleaming in the soft light. "So fucking tight."
I tightened my inner muscles around him, feeling him swell inside me, and he cursed, his hips stuttering. "Fuck, you're gonna make me cum," he warned, his voice strained.
I wanted to feel him lose control, wanted to know I could affect him so deeply. "Cum for me," I pleaded, my voice high and needy.
His eyes rolled back, and with a few more hard thrusts, he stiffened, roaring out his release. I felt his hot cum filling me, his cock twitching as he pumped his seed into me.
The sensation pushed me over the edge, and I cried out, my orgasm washing over me in waves of pleasure.
Kenan collapsed onto the bed beside me, breathing heavily, his arms wrapping around me and pulling me close.
I snuggled into his side, feeling his heart slow, and a sense of contentment filled me.
"Well," I said with a satisfied smile, "I'd say our marriage is off to a pretty good start."
He chuckled, pressing a kiss to my hair, and we lay there, sated and relaxed, as the night closed in around us.
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