#the tranny tarr pit

[pastadoughie]

i am extremely sane & normal & i say this w/ complete sincerity as something i believe- its just that "normal people" (ppl w/o "severe" mental illness or trauma) are deeply cruel & bigoted because of their squemishness & disgust twards people who have anything less then perfect social presentation & lifestyle.

i know logistically i am someone who is "severely mentally ill", atleast, when i talk to psychs, they go wide eyed when i say certain things, dont trust me, ask me unprompted if ive had certain diagnoses or evaluations, i guess i meet *their* criteria. i have had little to no irl human contact in the past 6 years, & am deeply afraid of outside things, like supermarkets & trees & the sun. but like. its not like i fucking explode if you take me outside. ive done alot of tharapy & can atleast somewhat speak to people & maintain a level of composure. its just that i obviously try to avoid going outside because it feels agonizing & scary. but like. thats a logical fear??? i dont. have delusions or anything like that. i have reasons to be afraid of things. understandable logical things that could happen in real life. why are people so weird about it? is everybody really so sheltered? you have so little creativity you cant imagine why someone is upset by these things? do you just not care about your own safety?

of course under my circumstances im going to act a bit strange sometimes but you would too! its not something irrational & its not a mental illness!!!! i have simply had to go through more shit then you!! if you get into a car accident & then develop a fear of cars then that is a reasonable fear! because it could (and HAS) happened & it could hurt you!! & its not even something i can argue about because the mere fact that its an accusation against me discredits me before i even get to speak! its unfair!! you cant just accuse every tranny you meet of being a delusional freak because you dont wanna talk to them !

[pastadoughie]

unsure if i am ace or if im just a neurotic freak scared of anybody looking at me

[pastadoughie]

IDONT WANA BE A TWINKKK NYMORE!!

[pastadoughie]

they should invent front facing cameras that do not induce suicidal thought

[pastadoughie]

dysphoria jacket save me,,,,,,,,,,,,

[pastadoughie]

i tghink it wouldbe cool if the horrors could cease 4 justlike maybe a week or smthn like tghat would be rlly helpful

[pastadoughie]

after you hit a certain severity youre not allowed to talk about your issues anymore because every conversation about your mental health has to be immediately derailed by sheltered bitches so desperate to wipe your theoretical blood off their hands that theyre unwilling to care about you while youre still alive.

[pastadoughie]

does anyone else feel like theyre getting worse, like. that you used to be waayy more likable.

[pastadoughie]

lord i knknow i should escapetghis wretched lifeof isolatuon &ishouls see the sun morethen onse evry 3 months but ilook in the mirror &i still see a girl icant hanndrle being persieveefd

[pastadoughie]

wishh i was not so betitted get thease thangs offa me !!!!

[pastadoughie]

sometimess i wil like go & messagee my followrs 2 responnd 2 like a tag ramble they made ir snmthj &tghen they get scared & frightenned because tghey like? look up 2 me? you cannot fathom justhow much of a boringg miserable little man i am. if some1 milldly likable hannded me a pebble tghey picksed up off the street & askeed me 2 eat it i woul prolly do it. irll i have such unbelieveabley low stanndards you buyy me a slurpie once @ 7/11 & i will remembr u actaull years later from wghen we last spoke. my mostt mainstream intrest is fuckingg wizard101. ihave gotten in2 tghe very very shitty car of a guyy i met 17 min previouslyy @ fuckinggn 10pm at night w/ likee 0 convincinhgn. i listen to breakkcore & idont shower enough. i am a niche artistt on a microblogging platformm known 4 drawing fyckin stupid cats & reblogging posts abt dick & penis. i am like. so so so far removedf from any kind of aspirationnal figure. youu cojld spit in my mouthj & iwouldnt complain. im a fuckkin deeply mentally ill dude who sees the sunn once evry few months. pleasee do notttt idolisee meeeee omg get some1 better tghen a pervert mspaintt tranny artist

[pastadoughie]

andprobably wouleals9o stul getot stuck w/in likea fucknn casete player orsmtjn sthpid but likeonly 1s

iwshluld have a penis i woukdl takemuch bettr careof it then manyof u

[pastadoughie]

Made in Microsoft Paint (WIN 10) || 12-14-2024

IDONT WANA BE A TWINKKK NYMORE!!

[pastadoughie]

yknow howit is

i tghink it wouldbe cool if the horrors could cease 4 justlike maybe a week or smthn like tghat would be rlly helpful

[pastadoughie]

hearrtbreajing : uhave 2 eat & drink water& work& execersize &shower or elseull like litrally die&notjing evergets better onits own &if u donthav a diagnossis yet -witch urdoctors would geunuinely rathher watch youslowly rot awaay thhen evn attempt2 give yuou- thereis litreally nobody tghat xan or is even wilking 2 help u ever

lord i knknow i should escapetghis wretched lifeof isolatuon &ishouls see the sun morethen onse evry 3 months but ilook in the mirror &i still see a girl icant hanndrle being persieveefd