#the the shouyou birth line

[soppymilkgin]

i need to lay down. in a pool of lava

[joelletwo]

notes on TIME. themselves now benoted and referenced out appropriately. much of them just banger quotes from the essay

kintoki (tokiko) (placeholder thought during the swords intro that inherently set up a link between time and castration to me bc i have spent weeks thinking about the meaning of kintoki as the noncastrated ideal/the imposter as such as his prosthetic appearance in mantama) (u may notice thats the same youtuber who did the Comedy video i linked ages ago. i have been getting much mileage out of him.) sword castration - "dispossession disrupts temporality."

takasugicentrism "Takasugi is driving the time loop." (i did talk about this in the tags.)

(everyone else finds ways to move on but gintoki hates to leave ppl behind.

does gintoki respect ppls agency. yes with otose shouyou takasugi. no with all his antagonists and other ppl who want to die? <- still unsure

gintoki simultaneously the witnesserrrrrrr (unacting observer or unflinching observer past where action can help him save someone) and the forgetterrrrrr (sop animation) gintoki doesnt have goals of his own (didnt fight to protect the country but everywhere his sword reaches is his country) (literally just vibing) (this one written at the end of the essay but i was still trying to do the same thing as this section. figure out the gintoki-side of why utsuro-sugi fill the other driving half of the manga. why are they that for him. what ARE gintokis motivations. and do we EVER see his interiority.)

progress/movement in personal time needs personal integration.

(divisibility disproves infinity of personal time; indivisibility in kile ouroboros sense of a perfectly integrated I = noncastrated impossible ideal of infinite personal time?) (post-note: perfectly integrated and indivisible and questionably possible I = line?)

(utsuro resists (could hyperlink the kintoki post again) integration/external impregnation; flip side, shouyou welcomes impregnation but cannot satisfyingly access its results; psychoanal mother 0-1 (from this video)? more gintama preoccupation w the possibility of mtf transitioning?))

when it is fished (unwillingly, I think) out of Takasugi’s eyelid. narrative time cannot move until Takasugi’s eye becomes Gintoki’s sword

(gintoki/takasugi pov [later swapped with shouyou/utsuro pov]) (again my eternal question. why do we get takasugi pov thoughts so many times. and do we ever get gintokis. and what the hell does that mean (evil things). i dont remember what i mean about shouyoutsuro. thinking that any time we see shouyou outside of a shouka sonjuku flashback is more about what utsuro thinks about shouyou than about shouyou? definitely about the final swapping and their weird four-way identity crisis math thing)

Thus half of the loop is about Gintoki always standing up again, always waiting for Takasugi to face him, and the other half of the loop, that is, its motivation, is about Takasugi working up the guts, or whatever he does throughout the series, to finally come at Gintoki* face to face. Gintama doesn’t actually timeskip until Gintoki kills Utsuro in silver soul. Birthing time looks like an escape from the time loop.

(ouro self-fertilization = the way out of ouro [THEORETICALLY])

(cyclical time is measurable -> iterable/buildable)

[koizumi time diagram (not the post but the comment)] <- not actually useful here just my landmark for characters engaging with their own story's fucked up experience of time and getting fun and mathy with it. nonperfectly coherent/stable timeloop with two phases self-satisfiedly diagrams out to linear time briefly intersected by an infinity sign which ive always wanted to use as a model for mapping out more complicated time stories

narrative time twists into defeatist cycles intentionality versus ruination, “I” as capable actor versus “I” as acted upon I cannot act, and yet it acts on me. My despair at the exterior world which rivets me to itself quickly translates to despair in, at, my self. his loss is even more infinite for the narrowness of its scope mathematically irrational (x(sin(1/x))) <- WHOA

part where i basically stopped taking notes and enjoyed the ride lol

(sakamoto "hope" argument -> i have used sakamoto before (very very ending letter monologue abt miracles) as the mouthpiece for gintama merging two paradoxical ideas (idealist pov and materialist pov) to reinforce each other rather than to disprove)

[ao3feed-daisuga]

Sunshine and the Blue Castle Prince

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by Brilan_Mosyn

Shouyou, eldest son of the Hinata Royal line and the Fae Prince Sugawara Koushi, is being sent to the fae world to fulfill his mother's end of the bargin that resulted in the birth of he and his siblings. Iwaizumi Hajime is a prince of Aoba Johsai and the guard of Crown Prince Oikawa. When he and Oikawa go to retrieve Shoyou, he doesn't expect to find a young man that will light up his world.

Words: 468, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

Fandoms: Haikyuu!!

Rating: Not Rated

Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings

Categories: Gen, M/M

Characters: Hinata Shouyou, Iwaizumi Hajime, Oikawa Tooru, Hinata Shouyou's Mother, Hinata Natsu, Hinata Nyoko-OC, Hanamaki Takahiro, Sawamura Daichi, Sugawara Koushi

Relationships: Hinata Shouyou/Iwaizumi Hajime, Minor or Background Relationship(s), Sawamura Daichi/Sugawara Koushi, Hanamaki Takahiro/Matsukawa Issei

Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Fantasy, Slow Burn, Fluff, Hinata is a fluffy ball of sunshine, soulmates?, no soulmate marks, Deals with the Fae, author is grasping at straws for these tags, Author Is Sleep Deprived, sometimes, Oh yea, Rarepair, cursing, Beta'd and edited, I don't want to die like a man, Other Additional Tags to Be Added

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[lovlettres-moved]

im p sure the songwriters made a mistake in labelling atsumu's low set theme as "birth of the serene king" and it was actually meant for kageyama, since atsumu already has his own theme titled "miya atsumu" (the one with the bass and the sax). but "birth of the serene king" only plays when the shot is literally focused more on atsumu (the "love" scene and the "i'm flattered shouyou-kun" scene) than it does with kageyama, so it's kind of confusing 😭

yeah i was thinking that too, but when i get the time i will see which themes they played during tobios moment when he brings his hands together, atsumus moment when he gives his "10 fingers are better than 5 fingers" or smth along those lines... ive forgotten. anyways yeah it could be very possible they made a mistake. also i think broken heart sounds very similar to the birth of the serene king so maybe we might have that confused

[dasarontohod]

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[bossladytae]

Audio compilation of Oboro’s voice (only by Inoue Kazuhiko; does not include Yuuki Aoi’s parts for young Oboro) from the Rakuyou arc. Transcription below (taken from Crunchyroll’s translations) of every single line he spoke:

"Even so, what has kept me alive when I should've died long ago is your blood flowing through my body. And the vow I made to you, one I will keep until my body rots away. Utsuro-sama, the enemy is not dead yet. During the operation to mop up the 7th Division, we detected an unknown unit moving around in the chaos. One of them was an experienced Yato fighter. We've received reports that the unit they led was likely comprised of Earthlings. They had a guide. Probably exactly who you think it is.

Sakamoto Tatsuma. He fought in the Joui War with Takasugi and the others. We've received word that a combined fleet with his and Katsura's people has left Earth. They were probably the ones who rescued the remnants of the Kiheitai.

So the one who leaked the information and saved the 7th Division and the Kiheitai really was him. The reason he approached the Harusame Elders and took part in the operation was to save his son? So he, too, is meant to be an obstacle on your path?

I can't let any of you meet up with the survivors of the rebel army. The students of Shouyou will never meet again in this life.

Good job leading them here. The Harusame have started to retreat. You all should leave, too. Hurry up and go. Your survival was unexpected, but the true purpose of this battle lies elsewhere. Compared to that man fulfilling his longstanding desire, what happens to the lives of insects that crawl on the ground doesn't matter. Because I know. That some insects will never give up, flapping their wings until they reach the heavens. I got my wings from the same man, so I know. I don't care either way. I merely wish to remove all obstacles in his way. I will use the last remaining flames of my life to burn your wings away!

Apparently, he thought I was dead, but his blood coursing through my body told me to live and continue to serve him. Having covered up my betrayal, I strove to keep Naraku's fangs away from Sensei. I went against his teachings and didn't hesitate to dirty my hands with blood. I didn't mind, even though I wasn't by his side, if it meant I could protect him and his ideal. That's what I thought...or so I thought. I'm the one who got him captured. 

Even so, I believed he would come back. You and I are the same. We lost our teacher due to our weakness. One swore to never betray him again. The other swore to bring him back, even if it meant having to kill him again. Until the spirit your teacher gave you completely dies out, keep fighting. That's what we…Yoshida Shouyou's students are all about.

Come out. It's time.

I have seen with my own eyes, Sensei, my junior students that I'm so proud of. It dried up, huh? This blood has dried up, at last… Now I can finally go back. It has been so long. But this pain is nothing. Compared to your eternal suffering, my suffering must be no more than the fleeting pain of a needle prick. Hear me, Takasugi. Rather than Utsuro's minion, there's something I must tell you as Yoshida's first student… Just what Yoshida Shouyou… What Utsuro is.

Chopped into pieces, skewered, and burned, he died over and over again. But he came back to life each time, inspiring further fear and animosity. Even though he experienced suffering that would break anyone's spirit, he couldn't disappear. That is why he gave birth, in order to overcome the endless suffering...

Wrestling control of Altana from the Tendoshu's clutches to cause a universal war. That is his goal. Fighters, take down Utsuro. Yoshida Shouyou fought the Utsuro within himself and lost. But his battle gave birth to you. His spirit still lives on. 

Put an end to him, before everything ends. Don't hesitate. Don't be afraid. Fight as your heart wills you to. Since I lost sight of my own spirit, I couldn't fight for Sensei, that man, or for myself. 

If I could do it all over again…I…I…

...I would've loved to be one of you guys...”

[karasunosun]

TsukiHina Royalty AU Backstory

I detailed the royalty au more. @assholeprincetsukishima, please feel free to take Tsukki’s backstory and change it to your liking.

Shouyou

Shouyou is the first born son of the King and Queen. He belongs to the Hinata household, a royal family of the gold and white sun. His father was a kind King who brought peace to the kingdom when he won the crown. Shouyou’s birth was met with joy and celebration as the first born. The castle’s bells rang for hours on end to announce his birth. Without a doubt he was the king’s son with his bright red hair and cheerful smile. Shouyou was raised with the hope that he would never have to fight for his crown. His father worked hard to make peace with their enemies, just to keep him safe. The focus of his studies was more how to rule rather than how to fight. To balance this, others were trained to protect the young ruler. Shouyou has two older half brothers from his mother’s side who became knights in order to protect him. His maternal uncles were already experienced warriors who joined the king’s guard to defend them as well. His two paternal uncles swore an oath to protect him at all costs. He had a strong circle of allies to protect him as he learned and grew.

With his father working hard to make his kingdom safe, Shouyou spent more time with his mother and her family. He learned much from them, especially his maternal grandmother. He loved listening to her stories of family history, love, war, fairy tales or just plain gossip. He always knew that his mother and grandmother were different. Their intuition was incredibly sharp and the things they talked about were strange. The first time he got a close look into their magic, he was about seven years old. His father’s cousin had recently betrayed them and he was sailing to another kingdom to meet with their enemies. His mother was hurt by his betrayal since he had killed her brother and father in cold blood. They didn’t do anything wrong and it hurt. His grandmother took it the hardest since she had lost both a son and a husband. In their grief, Shouyou witnessed them conjuring a storm in hopes of sinking the cousin’s boat. It backfired in the worst possible way and to this day, his mother refuses to talk about it.

Growing up, Shouyou and his family experienced a lot of betrayal. His father’s cousin and middle brother betrayed them to steal the crown. They failed the first time but succeeded the second time with the help of their enemy, the Tsukishima family. Shouyou and his family had to hide in sanctuary twice, especially since his life as the first born was in danger. The people loved the Hinata family and that made the heir a threat to their enemies if they wanted to rule. Once Shouyou’s father defeated his cousin in battle and won the crown once more, the road was still rocky. Shouyou’s father forgave his brother and imprisoned the Tsukishima king until his death. The Tsukishima King’s heir died in battle and his line had ended. The next in line for the Tsukishima family had fled the kingdom and was not considered a threat. Years later, the brother betrayed the King once more and was sentenced to death. After that, there was peace.

Shouyou grew up to be a young strong adult learning about politics, history and diplomacy. His younger sister Natsu also grows up into her early teenage years watching sword fights in awe. Their father gives her a starter sword to practice with, wanting to teach her everything he knows. Meanwhile Shouyou’s mother notices that Shouyou ended up with their affinity instead of Natsu as she expected. She teaches him basics such as scrying and card reading. Despite this, they did not foresee that the King would fall ill shortly after Shouyou’s 20th birthday.

The King was struck with a high fever and kept coughing up blood. Nothing could help him at that point. He passes away a few weeks later but not before preparing everything. He declared that his younger brother will be lord protector for Shouyou. He will take care of the king’s responsibilities until Shouyou can be crowned after a period of mourning. He voiced his regret that he cannot witness what kind of King his son will be but that he was still proud of him. With his passing, chaos began once again.

Kei

Kei is the second born son of the Earl Tsukishima. He belongs to the Tsukishima family, a royal family of the blood red moon. He is the nephew of the Tsukishima king who ruled the kingdom before Shouyou’s father. The king only had one heir, which puts Kei’s older brother Akiteru next in line for the throne and Kei after him. Kei was born after the Hinata king came into power and had his first born son. His family was allowed to keep their lands and titles despite being long time rivals of the Hinata family. The kind king only wanted to make peace with his enemies, which Kei and Akiteru grew up seeing and admiring. Many of their family members wanted to put the old Tsukishima king back in power despite the fact that he was cruel towards his people. Kei grew up surrounded by plots and talks of war within his family. He just wanted the fighting to stop.

He and his brother Akiteru were trained to become knights per their mother’s suggestion. She had hopes that one of her sons could become king one day. Their father used to be a commander and fully trained them himself. The brothers enjoyed learning how to fight but they had no desire to rule.

As the boys grew, the king would petition for them to be part of his son’s court. The king wanted to make peace and wanted to offer the family a position in the court. The boys’ mother refused every offer, not wanting her sons to be affiliated with the young Hinata prince. She felt it would ruin her sons’ chances of ruling under the Tsukishima family. The Tsukishima king was still out there; his family was waiting for the right moment to strike back for the crown. The boys grew up strong, safely in their lands until Akiteru became of age. Then he left home and accepted the king’s offer to be a part of his court.

The Tsukishima family did not take the ‘betrayal’ well. Kei himself was conflicted. Akiteru didn’t tell him he was going to do this and leave him alone at home. At the same time, he was jealous. He wished he could leave and join the court as well. He’s heard a lot about the royal court and of the young prince his age. He’s always been intrigued about the royal family who brought peace and won the love of the people. With Akiteru gone, Kei realizes that now their mother is going to put all her hopes of her son being king on him. At first he ignores Akiteru’s letters and gifts until he slowly forgives him over the years.

The first time Kei goes to the castle is when the Tsukishima king stole back the crown with the help of the Hinata king’s brother and cousin. The royal family had fled to sanctuary while the Hinata king left to seek help from allies. Despite the castle’s beauty, the environment was strange. The court members were somber at the Tsukishima king’s return. Kei went with his parents to visit and meet his uncle the king for the first and last time. The king blessed him and named him his heir. His own son died in the battle to win the crown and had no more heirs. He names Kei as his successor and heir since Akiteru is now loyal to the Hinata family. Kei had hoped to see his brother during his visit but Akiteru was gone, protecting the royal family he believes is true.

Not long after, the Hinata king comes back ready to battle. His allies consisted of noblemen, common folk and soldiers from neighboring kingdoms. His own brother who betrayed him came back to fight with him, admitting his own foolishness and wanting redemption. Hinata’s father defeats the Tsukishima king in battle and wins his crown once more. His cousin dies in battle, his brother’s titles are restored and the Tsukishima king is imprisoned in the tower until his death. Kei was now the next in line for their family. Kei’s mother makes a difficult decision and sends her son Kei away with his father to allies in a neighboring kingdom. He is to train and raise an army there in hopes of winning the crown once he’s older. His mother stays and makes another difficult decision. She swallows her pride and accepts the offer to be a part of the Queen Hinata’s court. It gives her the opportunity to spy on the royal family for her son.

Kei spent years in exile in another kingdom; training, learning and gaining allies for his cause. He comes of age strong but hesitant. He never forgot about his home and how kind the royal family was. He admired how they ruled the kingdom, doing everything for the people and bringing peace. Kei only wished to end the wars that have gone back and forth for years. Shortly before his 20th birthday, Kei received an urgent letter from his mother.

A lot had happened in a short amount of time in the kingdom. The Hinata king passed away from illness, leaving his youngest brother as lord protector until his son and heir Shouyou can be crowned. The youngest brother used his power as lord protector, convinced the court that the marriage between the late King and the queen was a farce and that makes Shouyou and his sister illegitimate to the throne. He then took the crown for himself as a true Hinata heir and imprisoned the young prince in the tower. The kingdom was outraged and retaliated out of love for the late king and his family. The new king had hoped that taking away Shouyou’s right to the throne would make the people loyal to him, but it backfired and now the people are against him. The Hinata queen reached out for help, fearing that her son’s life is in danger because of this.

Kei’s mother sees this as an opportunity and asks him to come back with his army. Through letters between him and the queen, a deal is made. If Kei assists in rescuing Shouyou from the tower and is successful, the queen offers him her son’s hand in marriage. If they marry, a Hinata and a Tsukishima could rule the kingdom together and end the wars with their unity. Both houses and armies can come together and win the crown from the usurper. Kei agrees to the plan and goes back home with his army ready. It was only a matter of time until he was to be engaged so he doesn’t hesitate. This way, everyone gets what they want. Kei’s mother will have a king. Shouyou’s mother gets her son back and he will be king as well. Kei gets to bring peace to the kingdom for good and that’s all he ever wanted.

[imagine-that-haikyuu]

here are the notes for the tsukki soulmate!au

my idea for this was originally VERY different and went down a more conventional route, but the idea of “incompatible” soulmates was there from the start. it wasn’t until i was rewatching season three and got to tsukki’s “blocking is systematic” line that this concept came along

i didn’t know whether i wanted to make the reader an artist or a writer. i settled on writer because it’s easier for me to describe disjointed writing—than to describe art in general, which i don’t have a background in. you can see what could have been artist!reader in the painting on the arm bit

but I realized that it would be very difficult to only describe parts of this poem and still have you see how it works in the end, so i decided to write the actual poem. It’s been well over a year since i’ve written one, and even longer since i’ve written one that i liked the beginnings of and want to come back and work on it

so this is very much a rough first draft of it, hence why it’s so obvious as well. it would take a very long time before a polished version would be done, and that doesn’t quite jibe with filling requests. that being said, i’ll probably be reworking this poem into something i can use outside the context of the series

takeda wasn’t involved in this at first, but i used his cog metaphor at first without realizing that the reader would have no way of knowing about it. but let’s be real! takeda is a modern literature teacher and that’s the reader’s thing, so him being their favorite teacher and helping out with his student’s writing makes a lot of sense. including a scene about it would have made this even longer, but i will say he has used the cog metaphor around the reader, because the they ask how to volleyball team is doing from time-to-time

also, he does not know that you and tsukishima are soulmates or at least he doesn’t ask. it’s possible that he’s seen words on your arms that are also on tuskki’s, so he might know. i like to think he doesn’t know anything about them, only that you believe yourself to be incompatible with them, and he won’t pry.

basically i want to write a takeda thing and also he is the literature teacher students deserve

outside of takeda, furudate-sensei uses some very poetic visuals and has characters say surprisingly poetic things (“i’m hinata shouyou and i sprouted from the concrete” makes me so mad because i wish i had written it!!!!!!) i wanted to play around with the tsukki brothers given names as well as the imagery and symbols used for other characters. the moon motif is already used a lot—and understandably so—so the firefly and light concepts were things i wanted to explore

the systems having numbers was more or less my way of splitting the poems into parts without doing that thing a lot of poets--myself included--where you just write a number and then write whatever is part of that section and then move on to the next one

anyway, that’s it. i’m sorry i took the bad writing route by posting commentary and telling you things instead of letting you figure things out on your own or putting it in the piece from the start, but sometimes i need to scream out my asshole and sometimes things in my writing are not clear and i’m not going to be a jerk and not try to clarify for anyone who might need it

EDITS BECAUSE I FORGOT THINGS

i kept trying to use the “albatross around the neck” metaphor when i started the oikawa soulmate!au but it never worked no matter how i tried to frame it there. it ended up working better here

i wanted to account for the fact that tsukki’s sun sign is libra, and give a sense of “balance” that he would bring to his soulmate and vice versa. but as far as features in his natal chart (or any of the characters for that matter), i can’t know them for sure because that would require knowing a birth year, birth time, and birth location. which we don’t have. sensei probably doesn’t either and they wouldn’t need to??? as far as where venus would be in his chart (how we’d know what one is like in a relationship and what they like and need in one as well) basing it only on what we know of him from the series, i’d say his venus is either in taurus or in capricorn, but i didn’t factor in his soulmate’s venus sign because, well, that would be yours to fill in, friendo

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Fuckfather Supreme Meta, or that One Essay about How Gintoki and Shinsuke Can’t Accept that Their Dad is Sick

OK real talk, if Gintama was any other story about a deadbeat dad who one day violently disappeared from his kids’ lives and then magically reappeared in the future with a completely different personality, it would be a joke. In a more serious story, it would be one where the writer would be able to discuss a pretty stark topic through fiction- mentally ill parents and how children of mentally ill adults learn to navigate their parents’ illness. 

In the manga, it seems like the only two people who’ve really come to terms with Utsuro’s dissociative identity disorder are Nobume and Oboro. It makes sense, because their histories are deeply intertwined with Utsuro’s existence as an alter and the fact that he shares a body with several other personalities. Oboro deals with it by being the dutiful son- doing everything in his power to make sure his “father” is safe, even if it means killing the Yoshida Shouyou alter. To this day, I’m slightly confused on whether or not Sorachi intended Oboro’s almost-death in his childhood as a trigger for the Shouyou alter to assume control of the body, but with the information we have now, I’m gonna assume that, that was the case, even if Utsuro tells Oboro that “he” wasn’t the one who saved him that day. Nobume’s pretty standard in terms of understanding that the Utsuro alter is significantly more powerful in terms of dominance. She understands that it’s not his fault Shouyou lost out, but it is to their misfortune that they’re now stuck with the most violent alter out of all of them.

If this was a different kind of story, Sorachi could really meditate on a pretty tangible situation that affects many folks throughout both Japanese and international society as a whole. Though the stigma against mental illness persists, I know that the Gorilla can write it. Unfortunately, we don’t have a clear cut story that ruminates on mental illness, so we’re stuck with one dude’s surrogate kids tryna kill him while he’s in an alter state that doesn’t recognize that they’re his kids. 

But more than that, Gintoki and Shinsuke especially seem to think that their father is dead, whereas as Nobume and Oboro never show the kind of virulent determination to exterminate Utsuro for having “killed” Shouyou. I think that reflects just how badly Gintoki and Shinsuke have ended up comprehending the whole issue. I get that we’re at a pivotal moment where nuclear warfare’s about to pop off, but without the embellishments of science fiction shounen, all you really have is one parent who’s in a psychotic state with only one of the kids who understands he’s in a psychotic state, while the others are flailing around trying to beat down the psychosis with violence. Maybe it’s because Nobume was trained as an assassin early in life that she’s able to extrapolate the situation so clearly and concisely without letting it hurt her. Gintoki and Shinsuke, however, are knee-deep in their hurt feelings that this crazy thing killed their father that they don’t even seem to realize that Shouyou’s still there. 

If it was any other story, the manga would end with the body being treated to a point where the rest of the alters are able to emerge and speak their truth before the fragments finally come together to make up the original host because I firmly believe we don’t know the true holder of the body yet, and that both Utsuro and Shouyou are alters that were birthed over the years of torture and violence he had to experience because of his immortality. Any other story, Gintoki and Shinsuke would make an effort to both stop the war from killing them and also save their father, but it seems like that won’t happen. With Oboro’s death and nuclear warfare literally over the horizon (it’s astonishing how close Earth is to becoming another Kouan), Utsuro will likely be beaten as the dominant alter before he dies and Sorachi will miss out on a prime opportunity to explore the dynamics between adult children and their mentally ill parents. If anything, Sorachi’s gonna throwback to the Kankou and Utsuro conversation from 581:

I’m afraid Sorachi will bring back the Shouyou alter at the tail end of the story in order to really hit it home about how fruitless Gintoki and Shinsuke’s efforts were in the end. He’s gonna have Shouyou smile as he’s dying, and afterwards, I’m afraid he’s going to complete the story with Shinsuke lol’ing away with the Kiheitai and Gintoki going home to have breakfast with the kids.

I simply won’t stand for it because these situations would ultimately devalue the entire point of Utsuro’s introduction into the story- the ultimate lesson for his children. Utsuro’s existence forces Gintoki and Shouyou to look at the man as more than just a father and a teacher. Utsuro forces them to recognize the multi-faceted aspects of the human mind, body, and spirit. He reminds them that even half-truths are lies, and then even if he spent years caring for them, he still had a past behind him and a future he was afraid of. I think that’s another thing Gintoki and Shinsuke were unable to grasp- Shouyou’s fear that his make-believe world wouldn’t last. His pretty face and gentle hand, along with his ability to keep them in line and still be playful were glorified and idolized to create a godlike man who died too young. Gintoki and Shinsuke put him on a pedestal for his sacrifice, and so he returned to teach them a lesson about what happens when a person overindulges in their memories. Admiration is, after all, furthest from understanding.

And more than that, the possibility to Gintoki having to kill his father again is so… awful. It’s literally torture. It’s also pretty symbolic in terms of the idea that children suffer the most when parents have severe mental illnesses. Gintoki, in the end, is liable to experience even more trauma, and if not Gintoki, then Shinsuke. Who really wins if that happens? Certainly not Gintoki and Shinsuke if they have to watch their sick and suicidal dad die again.

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Sunshine and the Blue Castle Prince

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by Brilan_Mosyn

Shouyou, eldest son of the Hinata Royal line and the Fae Prince Sugawara Koushi, is being sent to the fae world to fulfill his mother's end of the bargin that resulted in the birth of he and his siblings. Iwaizumi Hajime is a prince of Aoba Johsai and the guard of Crown Prince Oikawa. When he and Oikawa go to retrieve Shoyou, he doesn't expect to find a young man that will light up his world.

Words: 468, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

Fandoms: Haikyuu!!

Rating: Not Rated

Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings

Categories: Gen, M/M

Characters: Hinata Shouyou, Iwaizumi Hajime, Oikawa Tooru, Hinata Shouyou's Mother, Hinata Natsu, Hinata Nyoko-OC, Hanamaki Takahiro, Sawamura Daichi, Sugawara Koushi

Relationships: Hinata Shouyou/Iwaizumi Hajime, Minor or Background Relationship(s), Sawamura Daichi/Sugawara Koushi, Hanamaki Takahiro/Matsukawa Issei

Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Fantasy, Slow Burn, Fluff, Hinata is a fluffy ball of sunshine, soulmates?, no soulmate marks, Deals with the Fae, author is grasping at straws for these tags, Author Is Sleep Deprived, sometimes, Oh yea, Rarepair, cursing, Beta'd and edited, I don't want to die like a man, Other Additional Tags to Be Added

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