#the song is a sad take on it while i personally enjoy the aspect in the book about how they used to be friends but hate each other

[purecommemasolitude]

And if I said Darry and Paul in the pre-rumble exchange

(Full song, English translation)

[deepmochi]

SYNASTRY: Venus in the houses (7th-12th) part 2

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Note: Honestly, I had a draft for the 2nd part, but probably I deleted by mistake, or tumblr did it (idk). Maybe, That's why I thought I already posted the 2nd part, but I was wrong.

Part 1 🩷

♡ Venus in the 7th house ♡

These couple usually views commitment as all or nothing, are you in or not? They have strong values about true love, and they will follow them. Love is viewed as a contract by their souls or hearts. If they break any aspect proposed, they know it's the end. They can be reflections of themselves either the good or the bad. When the contract is done, it's over. The Venusian sees the house person as a very stable being. They feel safe and prepared for them. These two may live together before the year of knowing each other romantically. The pair just feel ready when it's about commitment. The house natives perceive the Venusian as very "wife/husband" material for them. With this overlay, their personalities blend well and work together. It feels natural for both of you to be close and intimate together. For others is moving too fast, and for them is easy to become intimate with each other. The seventh house person fits well for the planet native. These two feel like it's a soulmate connection, very easy. You’re both drawn to please each other. It's a very strong connection for long-term relationships. It takes time for them to move on if they ever break up. If Venus has bad aspects, it can be a toxic relationship. The reason for this, it's that they prefer to stay together instead of being alone or start something new. Intimate gesture like hugs and someone hand guiding the other. Cooking dates and going out at night the most. "Here, I bought this?";morning texts: " how are you today? My day...." "Can I call you, I miss your voice"; " My mom ask if we can go to her party?" ; "we should go to that restaurant"; Formal clothes; "hey, look me, they don't know how worthy you are". They like to spend time with people they love. Balance. If Venus cooks today, the house will do it tomorrow. Wearing nice clothes and a good perfume to impress the other. Compliments and physical touches, especially kisses in the cheek. Cheesy things like love letters. Having "the song" or the place.

♡ Venus in the 8th house ♡

These two have a different kind of love. The Venusian feels like the house person bring something in them that they can explain. Sometimes, these people have taboos to share. Death has impact their lives. The house person may become obssess with the planet person. Sex isn't a way emerger together. Usually, they possess the same interest in taboo topics. In the beginning, Venus feels attracted to the house, but it's also scared of them. Their sexual energy is intense. The 8th house person wants to know the Venusian's secrets and fears. Both are possessive, but the house win the round. They detest when their partner don't respect them. Their relationship status will remain a secret for the public eye (in the beginning). They would share many things even traumas (if hardly aspected). The house native will protect the Planet from the world. Sex can be very intimate or aggressive (bsdm stuff). These people will not be the same they were when they met. For them, love is intense and transformational. The house feels that the Venus native is trustworthy, but they need to see their actions. Holding hands during intimate times. During sex they will talk and have intense stares. "I don't like that person, be aware of them", "Here, use this for yourself"; "if you need money, just let me know"; "don't lie to me, I know you are sad"; his/her hand on your thing while eyes are on the road; taking notes of your gestures. They have weird hobbies together and enjoy dark humor too. Moonlight sex and long sessions.

♡ Venus in the 9th house♡

These individuals perceive love as a new adventure and try to go with the flow. If they're mature, they prefer to maintain a very healthy relationship. Both prefer to travel and know about new places and cultures. Love is not as other say. They may prefer to do things their way. Venusian isn't instantly involve, but they see the house as interesting. For the house native, the planet is nice an attractive, but they will not force things. The house native could be older than the Venusian. The house person likes the planet manners and life vision the most. They see the commitment as an experience. Sometimes, marriage isn't obligatory requirement. They may enjoy walks, museum, and play board games. One could be from another country or have a different culture. Their relationship presents a new chapter in their lives and their families. Besides, they like to engage in intellectual debates, maybe they are into philosophy. If they broke up, they will try to be professional or move on. They can meet later in life after maturing. It's likely that you will work together or in the same environment. Having a child or more is possible, so use protection. "Look at here, we can travel here"; "aww, baby, you were right they declare that"; ["I really want to buy that book" / "baby, you have that book already"]; Saving for vacations; buying each other souvenirs or antique objects as gifts; reading books and doing small debates about it; *knowing each other during trips, universities, conferences, cultural events, and religious activities" Buying new book editions. They love to try new foods or learn about new places together. They could meet while traveling or in college.

♡ Venus in the 10th house♡

Coworkers to lover vibes. They are comfy with being mature. Similarly to the previous combo, the house partner is the older one or has more experience. This partner also has more dominant energy. They could meet in different levels. The negative aspect is that they could be very nitpicking and too logical when it comes to love. The planet individual sees the house person as straightforward and mature. Partnership is very important; it's like a contract. If one of the part broke a part of the deal, it's done. They can work together or met during college (last year), conference or work related things. They are straightforward and mature when approaching the other. If badly aspect it, they have an issue with power imbalance (not good at all). Big egos over emotions, this is the start of arguments. They plan their dates. The planet person accepts that the house individual cares for their image and professional life. The Venusian isn't afraid of being a home stayed wife. Here the Venusian knows and appreciates the house efforts to balance their stability. Nonetheless, the house person must value the venusian support. Doing plans after they leave the work; caring for the other in profesional settings; making food or leaving notes in the stuff *you can do it* in their computer. Making each other feel valuable "Here, i make you favorite food"; let's celebrate your new position"; *making time to luch together*; naming the other whenever they can "I'm grateful for my wife meals and support"; giving gifts and showing their s/o in public. Even thought people think they aren't super romantic, they will try to match things. It could be rings, watches or wearing the same brand. Looking good.

♡ Venus in the 11th house♡

Love depicts a friend to lover storyline where both care for dreams and humanity. It's very possible that they met when they were helping other people. The Venusian fits the house's ideal type. They seem more friendlier than other couples. You wouldn't think they were dating at first. They prefer to joke around, but they love each other. The Venusian share the dreams the house native have for life. It's also likely that they like each other in the future, even if they met since birth. They prefer to have experience with love before settling down. Its common to see them as "I thought they were only friends". The Venusian sees the house person as humanitarian, reliable and interesting. Stay protected because big family can be a thing. Moreover, the must clarify about what is a family. The house perceives the planet native as beautiful and too much to some people. Together, they will form a very unique pair and family. Regardless Venusian feel the planet as hopeful person. The eleventh house person sees a future with the venusian because they feel understood. Love for the house is independent, and the venusian can see this as as a relief. Making fun of the other in a non hurtful way. "I can't deal with you right now *kiss them*"; "Alexa plays titanic's song" *grabs the venusian and starts dancing*; *hugs their s/o when they're cooking*; being romantic when they're alone; sending spicy texts "come home, I'm ready"; talking about the future; matching devices or wallpapers; a lot of trust, they share passwords. Having the same or similar friends. They like to help other people. Donating for other people as a hobby or helping to people who need. Dates in the nature. Cleaning beaches, rivers or places.

♡ Venus in the 12th house♡

Love is simple but blurry. They can't get confused in how they love. The house sees the Venusian see them as the real deal. The planet perceive the house native as too good for them. There are some blurry aspects that they don't understand. When this synastry happens, it can feel too blurry for outsiders. Sometimes, they feel as friends and others as partners. At times, they hide their feelings without realizing or because they don't want to hurt the other. The house may hide their crush for the planet (too well). The Venus feel like the house person hides things for them. The house native don't want to bother the venusian. The house wants to give all they have to the venusian without having a concrete reason (maybe they are friends, but they are their #1 friend). This connection feel very special even divinely guided. The house is very observant with the Venusian Different backgrounds, it's possible that the house person has faith or not. One (usually the venusian) is more intuitive. Venus comes to open the house's eyes to other knowledge. The house will do all they can, so the venusian is happy. They can be soulmates (even non platonic). On the negative side, they don't have good communication because they avoid confronting each other. Both have experience paranormal activity, but only one believes more. The Venus person will try to invite the house to their home (pure opening of their soul). The Venusian can be quite delulu, but the house see it as funny or special. They met when something is ending for the Venusian. Romantic times, home dates, asking the other about things or traumas carefully, a special vibe around them. *Big smiles and shiny eyes*, "I buy you this; you tell me two months ago around 9pm" "aww thank you", "are you sleeping well?" - "yes" , *astrology or tarot talks* "can you give your birth time?" - "12:34 am" " it was bad?" "No, we match". Talk about paranormal activities like any other topic, special dates, random celebrations, secret spots, discreet dates, spirtual conection, they may understand the other, but can't explain it.

Take what resonates only. 💚

[minnie-cai]

i saw your art x physical therapist and tashi x makeup artist post and i know you’ll understand what im about to say: being a trainer/ makeup artist/ something along those lines and hooking up w two of your clients. is it a little unethical?? maybe, but you’re a grown up, and you can do what you want! and you really like both of them and they bring very different things to the table. but at the donaldson x duncan home, both art and tashi are having affairs and trying to keep it a secret from the other person and failing pretty hard. little do they know, they’re hooking up w the same person: you. and maybe, just maybe, they’re falling for you a bit. thoughts? feelings?

holy fucking shit i was smiling and nodding while reading this. yeah. yeah, you GET IT💜 i’m so writing something full-length about this about this but until then, have some thoughts.

not proofread, just shitposting. also, not a hairdresser. i can’t even braid hair. if you are one and throughout my thoughts on this scenario i fuck up, please correct me.

I think with Tashi it would be pretty quick with the physical aspect and emotional connection would come into play later.

She starts connecting to you when she realizes you’ve done something small for her that she doesn’t pay you for. Don’t get her wrong, she knows Art loves her and he’d bend over backwards for her approval and validation but he is too caught up in how miserable their routine is to keep noticing details about her. Art is her husband who had been pining over her for years but you know her coffee order and it’s on your table by your next appointment, casually waiting for her to take it, not making a big deal out of it. She tilts her head a bit and furrows her eyebrows, thinking of whether or not she’d asked her assistant for coffee but soon enough you emerge from your break with a small smile, untangling the cable of your flat iron.

“Morning, Mrs Duncan!” You beam and she gives you a small nod, clearly caught up in sizing the plastic cup because she feels like she’s gone insane. “I hope it’s not wrong.” You chime in on her thoughts, as if reading her mind. “You ordered this?” She asks pointing to the drink and raises her eyebrows when you nod, an almost repressed but impressed expression on her face. “Well, thanks.” She mumbles taking a sip and her spot on the chair, sitting in the same place she did every time.

She wouldn’t admit it but she feels a bit bad when people take her stand-offish attitude personally. She doesn’t like it when they change their personality to be quieter or less sociable around her just because she wasn’t very talkative or was particularly professional, she felt like they had no backbone, that they were fragile to be affected by whether she approves of their behaviour or not. She enjoys the fact that you don’t. You’re still sweet as sugar and by that point you’ve just figured her out. In contrast to Art, she likes to spend her appointments quiet as you pamper her and hum. It gives her time to think peacefully, even with your humming.

On the other hand, Art sees you as a break from life.

When he comes in and he sits in that chair in front of you and starts talking about something random like the music you have on, his brain is empty. It’s like for the first time in so long he doesn’t have to think about anything else. The next time he’s doing his warm up before training, he’s listening to the songs you recommended to him instead of the brown noise his trainer has said he should listen to in order to focus and it feels good to add a little something of you in his day, it feels like color in his sad, beige gym and boring green juice.

[batsplat]

sampras tops generous agassi is insane LMAO. thank you for that lovely pt. 2 to the sampras/agassi rivalry essay!!!!!! i showed my friend your first post and she said, of agassi's biography quotes (specifically the "pete, always pete" motif): "OK THATS INSANE.... whys he writing like this is the song of Achilles or something. i could recognize him by touch alone core" andlksjfd and i found it very apt

please it's no trouble, I LOVE talking about them. and yes!! yes!! I LOVE how poetic about this stuff agassi is, how he really just like... gets the narrative appeal of sports, how he's so singularly capable of putting words to it. and how he talks about sampras! where he knows they're both alike in some fundamental ways, that there's something they've shared with each other that can never be erased... that sampras will always be part of his story, inescapable, inevitable. as always, pete. but also this fundamental feeling of separation. of alienation. of not being able to breach that divide

which is a PERFECT excuse to bring in perhaps my favourite interview agassi ever did, courtesy of der spiegel around the time of the release of the autobiography. it's quite extensive and the whole thing is very much worth a read. unsurprisingly given that it's a german magazine, a lot of attention is paid to agassi's relationship with steffi graf - and those bits are particularly sweet and sad

SPIEGEL: Both of you were drilled by fathers who wanted to control everything. Agassi: What is right is that both of us were in our fathers' hands. I told a lot of people that I hated tennis -- seriously and strongly hated it -- and they all tried to talk me out of it: "Ah, that is not right, Andre; in fact you love tennis, don't you?" Do you want to know what Stefanie said: "Don't we all?"

god.

there's also a fair bit about agassi's relationship with his father, so fair warning that those parts are all quite heavy. AND it's also very interesting on the actual writing process for the autobiography and how agassi's collaboration with moehringer came about. plus it takes some fun swings at chang and courier, for old time's sake. but to turn back to sampras, there's just something so striking about how agassi describes what it felt like playing tennis -

SPIEGEL: Mr. Agassi, is it possible for a happy person to win Wimbledon? Andre Agassi: For me, it's hard to imagine. SPIEGEL: Roger Federer seems to actually enjoy playing. Agassi: Yes, maybe. But, in my world, this is impossible. The maximum were short moments of peace during a match which we, the players, used to call "the Zone." But you couldn't plan it. It was never constant. And it went by very fast. SPIEGEL: Does a tennis professional have to be obsessed? Must there be some kind of trauma for him or her to be good? Agassi: While I was winning Wimbledon, I felt like I would die. I feared to fail; I feared embarrassment.

- and then later in the interview gives his thoughts on sampras -

SPIEGEL: For years, the rivalry between you and Pete Sampras was magical to a worldwide audience. Is there still a connection between the two of you? Agassi: There is a lot of respect. I believe that, without Pete, I would have won more and learned less. SPIEGEL: He appears to have been as driven as you were. He had to sleep in ice-cold rooms in total darkness. Was he obsessed or traumatized, as well? Agassi: We were all driven. And, of course, there is something strange about tennis: Egocentric and narcissistic behavior can win; torture and the isolation of players may lead you to the top. Pete and I shared our life and our fate; we were together all year long. But we were lonely. If there was not the net separating us, there was a wall.

and... yeah. "if there was not the net separating us, there was a wall". nyhhhhh this idea that to be a good tennis player, you need to embrace the worst aspects of yourself, that you need to make yourself suffer... egocentric, narcissistic - a sport of the tortured and the isolated... pete and I shared our life and our fate; we were together all year long. but we were lonely........ god. GOD. what more is there even to say!!

which is really agassi's gift, isn't it... putting words to the dark underbelly of the sport that everyone who's spent enough time in that world is aware of - but may never be forced to confront. tennis is hell, it can be one of the loneliest experiences imaginable - and so much of agassi's story is about attempting to stave off that fundamental horror. surrounding himself by as many people as possible, trying to live a real and full and loud life... because whenever he stepped on court he had to face The Horror once again. rivals who can share a life and a fate but can never truly understand each other, a net dividing the players that might as well be a wall... as always, pete - and as always, alone

[jetstarred]

what i listened to in october 2024!

total albums: 9 top 3 favs: chromakopia (tyler, the creator), lp2 (secret band), no place (a lot like birds) click read more for full reviews :3

VII Magia Infinita (2024) - Zeta (2024)

Fav song: III Sufrir - 2024

This album is short, at 30 minutes long with 7 tracks. But I’ve listened to albums with twice as long of a tracklist that were shorter in length, so for once I’m not bothered by how long this album is. It’s a beautiful post-rock album that does a great job combining the Afro-Caribbean sound into the music. The tracks switch between being full instrumental songs and having some vocals, although the vocals tend to let the instruments take center stage. This might be the first album that I saw performed live before listening to it on my own. During the last song, the entire band played different percussion parts, along with Hail the Sun’s drummer. It’s one of the most unique things I’ve ever seen and made me appreciate very heavily the instrumentation on that song, and this album overall. I’m very excited for Zeta’s upcoming album and hope very desperately I’ll be able to catch them live next year.

Rating: 7/10

LP2 - Secret Band (2019)

Fav song: Black Dolphin

This album might be the closest thing to metal that I listen to and really enjoy. This album sounds like I’m in a grungy edgy video game that’s inspired by Doom but meant to be realistic. Thank you to the members of Dgd for creating this side project because it expands on some of my favorite aspects of that band. Matt’s heavy “machine gun” drums and Jon’s crazy screaming that sounds like he’s gonna throw up are two things I wish I got more of in Dgd so this is perfect for me. All the songs sound really similar so if you enjoy this type of music, this is a great album for you to listen to. I do think there’s enough variety and special moments in each song to make them stand out and make this an enjoyable album for me personally. Overall, I really like this album and I think it’s a fantastic hardcore addition to my music library.

Rating: 8/10

New Hell - Greet Death (2019)

Fav song: Crush

This album is so crazy for me front to back. The beginning song is so intense in a melancholic way and it just stays that emotional the entire time. It feels so reflective and like just stewing in these feelings of longing and sadness that I’m pretty familiar with. The atmosphere doesn't let up, feeling almost like I’m suffocating on stuffy air. I can almost hear the wind rustling through the leaves.

Rating: 7/10

MG Ultra - Machine Girl (2024)

Fav song: Sick!!

This album is a lot of the same from Machine Girl. Which is great because I love their music! It doesn't feel particularly inventive or like they're trying too many new things. That could be a bad thing for some people but honestly I don't mind at all. This album doesn't blow my mind as much as some of their previous albums, which does kinda bring it down for me. But I feel like this is a solid entry in their discography with some songs that could become personal favorites with further listening. I will say I do like the vibe this album has, like grimy futuristic industrial, and how it stays in that zone pretty much the entire time. Overall, I do think it’s a solid album, although it didn’t wow me.

Rating: 6/10

Acceptance Speech - Dance Gavin Dance (2013)

Fav song: Demo Team

This album is insane for opening with Jesus H. Macy.  It’s truly a song that feels like they’re hitting you over the head while simultaneously getting you comfortable with hearing the familiar vocals from Jon, then giving way to Tilian’s singing. This was his first album with the band, and it feels like he came in with something to prove. This album feels like the band building upon what they did on the previous albums, especially Dbm II, but bringing a new polish that makes everything sound grander than it has previously. Every song feels determined, like they’ve come back with a vengeance. Which makes sense when you consider that they thought Dbm II would be their last album before breaking up. Back to the songs themselves, Acceptance Speech has become one of my favorite title tracks that I’ve discovered this year. I really love when a title track matches the overall vibe of the album it’s on, and Acceptance Speech delivers. It carries the exact tone of determination, vengeance, and having something to prove that I’ve already mentioned. I also have to highlight Turn Off the Lights, I’m Watching Back To The Future as a really interesting closer. It carries such a specific energy that is rarely found throughout the album. Overall, this album gives me a similar overwhelming feeling that Conversation Piece gave me, but in a less chaotic way. I quite enjoy it, even if Tilian is my least favorite of all the clean vocalists they’ve had. 

Rating: 7/10

How It Feels To Be Something On - Sunny Day Real Estate (1998)

Fav song: How It Feels To Be Something On

This album's atmosphere is so intriguing to me. It feels warm like a radiator. Definitely reminds me of sitting in the basement during late fall. Overall, I really like the music on this album. It has a groove to it that makes it very enjoyable. The vocals are also kinda unique compared to what I usually listen to in a way that draws me in. I will say that all the songs stay in this very similar sound which makes them blend together a bit for me. So while this album didn’t blow me away, I still thoroughly enjoyed it.

Rating: 7/10

Audible to Animals - Marigold (2005)

Fav song: Into Acceptance

This album is kinda in it’s own space. There’s moments where it reminds me of other bands, mainly Circa Survive. But overall, kinda unique in a way I really appreciate. I love Vadim’s vocals and how light and airy they are while not sounding very high pitched. Feels almost like he's talking in a melodic way. The music is also a little theatrical which can be hit or miss for me, and this time it's a hit. I like the choice to have two fully instrumental tracks sprinkled into the album. It creates a very specific vibe that also makes this album flow nicely. It almost feels like there's a story being told and I really like that.

Rating: 7/10

No Place - A Lot Like Birds (2013)

Fav song: Next to Ungodliness

This album gave me the same sort of overwhelming feeling Conversation Piece gave me on the first listen. It feels more frantic than Conversation Piece, making me feel like I’m panicking over some impending doom. Overall this album builds upon the sound laid out in Conversation Piece, making an effort to experiment a bit more with the structure of the album as well as the individual songs.

Rating: 8/10

Chromakopia - Tyler, the Creator (2024)

Fav song: Rah Tah Tah

This album was a surprise addition to the list of Tyler albums I needed to listen to this year, and I think the fact I went through his discog for the first time this year helped me appreciate this album so much more. It’s such a clear product of Tyler’s continued growth and maturation throughout his musical career. This album feels more artistic and intimate than Call Me If You Get Lost, with a lot of care taken towards every element. It explores a lot more personal topics about Tyler’s life, with each song tackling a different specific topic. The music reflects this also, with a lot of elements taken from traditional African music showing up and mixing with the typical hip-hop sound Tyler has cultivated. The way this album flows is perfect to me, I genuinely have nothing negative to say about it. Spending time listening to this album and really getting familiar with it has made it become my favorite Tyler album, edging out Igor which has held that spot since I started listening to Tyler back in 2019.

Rating: 9/10

[goldenbloodytears]

Do u think Danny would be okay with having his SO be his partner in crime. I feel like it really depends but I think he would be open to it as long as like he was still the one calling the shots you get me? Been thinking about this one all day 😭

An ask in my ask box! Oh boy! Thanks Anon :) So this is actually a concept I've been toying with for a while in relation to the magnum opus fanfic I've had brewing in my head for five years. Gonna put a read more since this got long thanks to my rambling; warning for brief mention of partner murder.

Edit: changed some wording for clarity.

I don't think he would react well to an SO knowing his secret in a regular situation unless he was dead certain this person isn't going to betray him. So, obviously, becoming his partner in crime is going to involve blackmail. If his SO accidentally or purposefully kills somebody? Does some other crime or horrible thing they don't want revealed? That's going to be used. I think there's also just the inherent threat of personal harm... But I don't see him doing that unless pushed into the situation--I think if something did result in the death of the SO he would be sad about it... like very angry sad. Look what you made me do kinda. Like somebody just took a toy away from him. I don't really subscribe to yandere style headcanons for him personally, but I definitely think he is possessive.

Anyways back to my point... I think Danny would enjoy having somebody know. I think it must be lonely and a little isolating the way he lives... and humans are social creatures.

I think when it comes to his SO acting as a partner in crime, doing murders... my personal headcanon on the matter is he's... rather into it? I don't think he would go out of his way to influence somebody into murder/violence (what is he? his old man? lol) but I think there's a kind of... appreciation for a display of strength like that. Even if it was an accident. He's gonna clean the blood of them and it's the most sensual experience he's ever had--his head is gonna SPIN! I actually think he would be completely caught by surprise, like discovering a kink you didn't know you had (I mean that's exactly what it is, let's be real) He's been formed into this person to be okay with violence and it's not something he really gets to share/experience with people. He's not a veteran so he can't share "war stories" of his experiences, the closest he would get to this kind of thing for the average person is maybe hunting... but there's a keen difference in hunting a human than, say, a deer? I think having an SO as a partner in crime would be... like toxic good for him... I'm assuming the SO is a willing partner in crime. I can see him really enjoying somebody gassing up his ego (totally tempted to make a Harley/Joker comparison here). HOWEVER, I do think he would be an absolute pain in the ass about his works, his stories... I don't see him sharing Ghost Face with somebody, so it would be convincing him to either change gears to something else, or putting up with that.

One change I could see happening is having the SO, if they have writing chops or come from a journalism background, taking over the paper-writing/reporting aspect. The original background in-game (not the tome) mentions that some of the articles he's kept were not written by him, so as much as I feel like this is still an imperative part of his modus operandi, it's clear he still takes a nice fat dopamine hit for the sake of his ego from other people writing about him too... and therefore I could see him being flexible with it, because if the SO is his partner in crime, he can still influence what they write--he just doesn't have to work double shifts anymore LOL

Is it too cracked up to make a joke about Danny and his partner-in-crime SO getting a house in some random town and posing as a totally normal man and his spouse by day but then murdering people by night? IDK you decide. I'm kinda just picturing that one song by the Mountain Goats.

[dramashii]

A blessing in disguised; CW: Destined

I wasn't really planning on watching this. I saw it in my homepage while scrolling for dramas to watch. I didn't even read the synopsis nor did I see any trailers prior to watching the 1st ep. I simply clicked on it because I saw it was starring Bai Jing Ting and that is enough of a reason. 12 eps later and I am really enjoying this. You can say I was destined to watch this.

God-Sent Marriage

Destined is 40-ep historical romance Cdrama starring Bai Jing Ting and Song Yi. It's about two unlikely people who got married because of a misunderstanding. Now, they have to embark this crazy journey together called marriage while also solving family, business, and political issues. I've actually only seen this trailer first and I thought this was simply going to be a light-hearted drama. However, this exists, so angst will also be involved in this series.

Bai Jing Ting's character Gu Jiu Si and Song Yi's character Liu Yu Ru are polar opposites. Gu Jiu Si is so chaotic and childish, and doesn't really have many worries as he is the only son of wealthy merchants. Liu Yu Ru, on the other hand, has endured many hardships since she was young because of this she has developed a calm and level-headed personality. Together, they are a match-made in heaven.

This drama is a feast to the eyes. The cinematography is great.

I am a sucker for dramas were the leads get married first and then they fall in love much later on. The first 12 eps are literally an embodiment of this trope. You get to see how their dynamics change from being strangers, to friends, and then to sworn brothers (iykyk). I like how they compromise and at least try to make their marriage work. Liu Yu Ru was supposed to marry her first love, but because of a misunderstanding, she married Gu Jiu Si. She lamented over the what ifs with her first love for one episode and then moved on because she knows there's nothing that could be done, and it's better to try to get along with her husband (which is fair and logical).

The romance is great as leads are both nice to each other. I also enjoy that for the first time in a long time, I actually see a family in a drama that enjoys each other's company. Gu Jiu Si's parents have a great relationship with each other, they love their son, and dotes on their daughter-in-law. It's refreshing to see this.

Another aspect of this show which I enjoy is the different views on marriage. Historically, marriage is a life sentence. At a time when women were mostly at a disadvantage this could be a death sentence. This is exactly what Liu Yu Ru's mother is facing. She has no choice but to be under her husband's whims. But Liu Yu Ru is different because she married into a family that respects the women's contribution in the household. Her mother-in-law holds an influential position in their family business, and even takes Liu Yu Ru under her wing. She guides her and introduces her to the world of trade. Gu Jiu Su is also supportive and encourages her to have her own dreams and ambitions, and not to be shackled in their marriage.

The biggest criticism I have towards this show is the villain. He's your typical villain with a sad backstory who hates the male lead because he wishes to have the life he has. I spoiled myself as to what his motivations are and I am simply annoyed. I wish he would go away but alas, this is not a drama without annoying characters.

But overall, this drama is everything I want in a romance drama. I've seen the trailers for the upcoming episodes and the angst fest will begin. Hopefully, it will still be as good as the 1st 12 eps.

[grimalkinmessor]

Very interested in your "L gets Hanahaki" AU. Especially option 2 because that's the one that seems most like what L would take. Plus, it would likely end in Lawlight (albeit under threat of recurring terminal disease. Wait, does that mean Hanahaki is non explicit version of Fuck Or Die 🤔? Since failure to make the other person fall in love would eventually lead to death).

What sort of things do you think L would do, to make Light fall for him subtly? Does he refer to magazines for romantic advice? Or look stuff up on internet? Ask Wammy or Aiber (who is implied to be happily married even if he's involved in a morally dubious career path)?

I get Hanahaki is serious business TM, but L doing serious research and experimenting what methods work and what don't like a science experiment except it's about romance... It makes me laugh. It's creepy adorable? Sort of.

The possibility of "what to do if Light does love me back, I can't keep Kira... Or can I?" is also fun~

Would L make a 'Kira enclosure'? But if Kira is sad inside said enclosure... Light hurt and sad --> L hurt and sad. It's like hitting his own foot lmao.

Hanahaki is definitely non-explicit Fuck or Die. Love or Die. Except in this case it's Love and Die :3 Fun, isn't it?

And that's the fun bit, honestly—L trying various ways of wooing Light with varying degrees of success. L wouldn't ask Aiber for advice, though, because he's trying to get Light to fall in love with him, not trying to seduce him into bed. Or, well, not just that anyway.

Unironically I think Light would enjoy being wooed like a nineteenth century woman; flowers, poems and letters declaring undying loyalty and intent, expensive gifts and foods, the whole shebang. So I think L's best bet would be to take this and,,,,pervert it, a little bit.

But—first things first—L has to make Light register him as a romantic option, rather than simply an enemy to overcome. Luckily for L, he's already halfway there! He (rightly) assumes that, since no one else has ever had any luck gaining Light's genuine attraction with looks, pretty words, or outright affection, that Light wouldn't fall in love with just anyone, or he'd have a true partner by now. L, with his superior intelligence and moral standing, is likely the only person that could ever actually interest Light long enough for him to develop romantic feelings—and, despite how arrogant that is, he's right! :D So the first and biggest step here is for Light to stop seeing L as a looming threat. L would probably drop some comments here and there about not having Kira executed once he catches them, about how brilliant Kira is, about how it's a real shame that Kira is evil and wants to kill him because a mind like that could be very helpful to him. Drop a bomb in front of the Task Force and admit that he doesn't actually oppose Kira as much as he enjoys the chase and wants solve the puzzle regardless of the true outcome. A gamble, but one that would pay off in terms of Light's murderousness.

While L does that, he also begins to work on the 'wooing' aspect of his plan, by giving Light gifts 💖 BUT the caveat is that Light only receives these gifts directly after being nice or affectionate towards L. L even gives them out when Light is being real/sarcastic with him, to encourage him to not only want to be affectionate with L, but also to open up to him and show him his true (♡Kira♡) self. And then L also, at the same time he begins giving Light gifts, starts leaving romantically inclined things within Light's line of sight. A little heart eraser on their desk, a love song playing in the background while L works, several romance novels joining the book stack near their bed—all while L makes himself a larger figure in Light's life, forcing all of those associations to turn to him. Again, Pavlov would be jealous of the shit L is pulling.

(Watari is not exactly...happy about this turn of events, but he doesn't protest either. He wants L to live as well, he just wishes that it was a nice young lady instead of, you know, Kira.)

The funniest thing about this though, is that it would work. Light would be idly getting ready for the day, pulling on his fancy new clothes that L recently bought for him and liking how nice they look on him, and be mentally planning out a way to do something nice for L so he'll be in a good mood to have Watari order dinner from that nice restaurant again, and also so Light can watch L lick the chopsticks clean because he likes to watch L eat normal food—and then his brain would do the loudest fucking record scratch you've ever heard in your life because when exactly did he start planning his schemes around L's continued existence instead of his death?? When did he start feeling excited to see him, or fond of him??? Diaster!

Meanwhile L hasn't thrown up whole flowers for days and he's feeling pretty good about himself >:3

As for the Kira Enclosure....well, you're right. Locking Light up in any sort of way is no longer an option. But L would see continuing allowing him to be Kira as a loss as well. So maybe L finds a way to pin everything on Higuchi or Misa, and calls for Light to come with him since the case is 'solved'. Maybe L would have both Death Notes by the end, or maybe he wouldn't, but he'd wrap Light up in enough manipulative red tape in front of the Task Force that Light wouldn't be able to refuse him and stay in Japan, so either way Light doesn't exactly have access to a Death Note anymore.

Oh he still might have a page or two that he can use hidden away, but L keeps a very close eye on him 💕 "Light-kun's beauty distracts me" is not much of an excuse when it's true, even if that's not the only reason. And if Light finds an occasion to use one of those pages on, say, one of the more elusive criminals that they're hunting? Well, L didn't see shit, if you're asking. No idea what you're talking about, Watari, that man obviously had prior health problems. His lab results were clearly faked you should probably crack down on that morgue's security—

...Ironically, L with Hanahaki is the one most likely to have a happy ending :3

[eloeloanna]

Asks for Tarot. Overall, your readings makes me totally understand why the break up happend, how messy it was and from the start really, which is quite sad to think about but anyway 1) Was there really ever close to a reunion, as the Beatles or just John and Paul. 2) What does your readings tell you about solo songs about each other. Like are there more or less than assumed.

Hey Anon! First of all, I want to apologise to you for taking so much time to answer. The thing is, I’ve been working a lot, and I like to just do it all at once so I can have more rest ❤️. And also, thank you for trusting me with these questions.

When it comes to your questions, I just did number 1. Why? Because I already made a songs post. In that post, I will be updating “alleged” songs that the fandom think that they are for each other. It may be slow, but I’ll try to do my best.

In that post you can see the readings of “If I fell” and “Now and Then”. “Now and Then” it seems 100% about Paul and there you can read the context.

Now…the answers!

This is for entertainment purposes only.

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Check my readings! here

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Was there really ever close to a reunion as The Beatles? (I made an addiction to your question, saying “while John was alive”).

I would say no.

What the cards start telling is that this topic was discussed, I don’t think between them. It was like, for example, Paul would talk to Linda about this. The way that they discussed this topic was very unrealistic, and based on the “good times”. But then they would remember what was actually happening. They were very much into their own problems, why they would do anything in the first place. The thing is, they would’ve enjoyed a reunion, they intuitively felt that, but also they weren’t very sure of this because I think the four of them were looking to express themselves in their own way creatively. I think there was actually one of them (or two, or three…🤣) that thought that they were in a good place and did some kind of proposal, but was rejected immediately. I think this person (s) were actually very convinced that this could work. The other part (s), thought that this was actually shady, because this person (s) would be just interested in the financial aspect.

Was there really ever close to a reunion, as John and Paul?

I read this in my 1980 valentine’s reading, but I wanted to ask again anyways 🤣. Just to have more information.

I think they were VERY eager on this to happen. They wanted it to be almost perfect, so they thought a lot about how they would approach each other in this matter. It happened that they thought so much about this that they always regretted on doing it. Until one of them did the proposition. And it’s so weird for me because it is like…it was a proposition with second intentions. It is like, yeah, he wanted to write songs, but he was surely looking for something else. So, this proposition was accepted and they were very happy that this would happen, it was like they were fully satisfied on themselves to be able to do that again, but also were very wary about their feelings, it was like they feared that “this would be IT”. They would write and everything would end. Would they be happy just writing? Of course, but it seemed that both also wanted to just, I don’t know, see each other, hug each other…just be together. The thing is, they both thought that if that would happen (the “just” writing scenario), they wouldn’t do anything. But would be “contempt” that at least they did something.

[z-mizcellaneous-z]

Alright, Zay, first! How are you? Hope you're doing good!! ✨️

Second, for the ship ask, how about SeroRoki?

heyo kiya! i am surprisngly alive (i stayed up until 5 am rereading fanfics and then my mom woke me up at 8 am to help with breakfast lol). hope that you're doing well <33 /p

and now:

SEROROKI

Who’s the cuddler?

Todoroki, 100%. Once he is first exposed to physical affection (platonic in the beginning with friends and whatnot) he begins to crave it constantly. He's actually insatiable. When him and Sero get together and Sero is like "oh yeah i dont mind physical affection" Todoroki basically fuses with him at that point, clinging onto Sero like a koala almost 24/7.

Who makes the bed?

Todoroki. I like to think he's a very tidy person who can very easily fall into certain routines. Sero on the other hand has the take of "im gonna mess it up again anyways, why bother".

Who wakes up first?

I'd say Sero. I feel like he'd be the type to have a sleep schedule so fucked up that he'd find himself waking up pretty early. He also likes to wake up before Todoroki when they're sleeping in the same room together to shamelessly stare at Todoroki (his gaze is still a bit too intense for Sero to stare into for long periods of times, so he enjoys these quiet moments of tender fondness).

Who has the weird taste in music?

Todoroki. His playlist is literally any and every song anyone from class 1a has mentioned ever, which leads to going from a sad heartbreak song to screaming for three solid minutes.

Who is more protective?

They're equally protective of each other, though Sero is more protective in the emotional "protecting your feelings/heart from the cruelty of others" aspect, while Todoroki is more protective in the physical "protecting you from bodily harm" aspect.

Who sings in the shower?

Sero. I'd like to think he's a pretty decent singer, but doesn't like to show it off at all. Except with Todoroki, of course. During some of their cuddling sessions, Sero will hum random songs that always have a very soothing effect on Todoroki.

Who cries during movies?

Sero. Todoroki would be the type to go "they aren't real people, so these experiences aren't either. there's no need to get upset" while Sero sobs over Bambi's mom.

Who spends the most while out shopping?

Todoroki. He's filthy rich AND the youngest. Man has little to no sense of what is considered too expensive; he simply finds the highest possible quality product and buys it.

Who kisses more roughly?

Sero. I think in terms of kissing and any more "heated" aspects of physical affection, Sero is much more intense with it, while Todoroki's just trying his best to not accidentally set off his quirk.

Who is more dominant?

Sero. What about him *gestures at Todoroki* tells you that he'd top/dominate ever?

My rating of the ship from 1-10.

Even though they don't have that many moments in canon, their dynamic in canon-compliant things is so

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[shibusawaz]

BSD Music Hcs - Armed Detective Agency 🫶

(Made using American music as a basis because I'm not familiar with the Japanese music scene. More based around general tastes rather than specific genres and songs)

Atsushi, Dazai, Kunikida, Kenji, Kyouka, Ranpo, Yosano, and Fukuzawa below

Atsushi

• He's obviously not going to have the most... well rounded taste in music due to his strict upbringing

• in fact, many people would likely make fun of him for having "basic" taste in music

• while I don't think he'd have gone his whole childhood without hearing anything, I think it'd be heavily restricted to radio hits and maybe classical music.

• So, Atsushi would likely have a lot of more popular, recent songs in his playlists.

• I think he'd be very open to new music, though. The songs on his playlist he hasn't heard listening to the radio are ones recommended by the agency members!

• He's always glad to listen to something that his friend likes, and he generally enjoys it too.

• However, I think he'd lean towards hip-hop (maybe rap. depends on his mood) in terms of favorites. I think he'd like the Weeknd but I don't know why

• I think he'd also enjoy indie music. since he didn't grow up hearing music as much as other people, he's more open to new sounds and experimental genres

• I don't think he'd like radiohead, though.

• He won't pay for spotify premium.

Dazai

• Probably pirates his music.

• Dazai is very hard for me to understand, so please excuse how short this may be.

• nobody really knows what he listens to, he'll tell different people he enjoys different artists.

• i think if he was alone, he'd listen to slower music.

• it doesn't necessarily have to be sad, but he'll be fine if it is.

• He listens to music with softer singing/lyrics to sort of slow down and process his day. It calms him and helps him focus on what's happened. Think Cigarettes after sex type beat.

• At work though? He listens to very upbeat music• His personal favorite is "Pump up The Jam" by Technotronic. It gets on kunikida's nerves. Dazai will sing it, hum it, blast it on the agency computer.

• Leave him alone!!! he's pumping up the jam!!

• He also takes recommendations from the agency, but they're never listened to or acknowledged publicly

• He's heard every song Atsushi recommends him, but indulges atsushi anyways

• Dazai would listen to their recs in secret though. and hold each one very dear to him.

Kunikida

• The one who's supposed to be in charge of the agency's background music.

• While he'd play clean music for the agency, I think his music taste would consist of very vulgar language

• Not intentionally, of course. The songs that fit his ideals for music will have their strange aspects and that's okay

• Any songs with themes against his ideals (Glorifying murder, probably whatever the fuck is going on in Mr. Brightside) he prefers not to listen to.

• I think he'd like romantic songs, but he'd keep to himself about it. He seems like a romantic at heart

• He also enjoys upbeat music to get himself into a working mood (if he isn't already)

• I think he'd enjoy the Red hot chili peppers. this came to me while writing and I'll die by it now

• When people recommend him music, he doesn't listen to it immediately, but once he gets free time he'll focus solely on the song he's listening to

• He'll tell a person their music is good no matter what, but if it's not to his taste he'll express that very politely

• Unless it's Dazai. Dazai will be cursed out very harshly if he plays "Pump up the jam" again

• doesn't pay for premium music services, but complains about ads regardless

• he has a playlist for every. single. mood. his music is meticulously organized

Kenji

• If anyone told you "they love all types of music," they didn't love as many as Kenji. He'll listen to anything

• i think his favorite music, though, is local music.

• He'll save any song made by someone from his hometown, no matter what it is.

• Local garage punk band? He'll buy the album. Recording from a town festival? He'll find an upload of it and save it.

• Super, super open about what he listens to. you can ask him about one song and be bombarded with favorites of his

• While he has very diverse taste, I think he leans slightly towards more upbeat country music.

• He grew up with early Taylor swift (please forgive me this is the only country artist I know and she's not even country) and the likes

• He has a habit of humming a different song while working every day.

• i think he'd have a playlist for everything, but he always forgets to add his new songs to them.

• He has a playlist for sleeping, mostly calm music with rain sounds. It's not something he necessarily needs but it's a small comfort

• You can't just "recommend a song" to Kenji. If someone tells him about a song they think he'd like, he'd pull out his ear buds right then and there and offer them one to listen together

• Very cheerful about recs, always enjoys them no matter what they are.

• doesn't pay for premium music, and doesn't mind ads at all

Kyouka

• I think, like atsushi, she doesn't really have the most diverse music taste but she's also a teenage girl so.

• I think the mafia influenced her taste a bit, but she's largely built her own playlist through trying new things.

• She likes popular music that's currently trending, but leans more towards softer/cuter music.

• I feel like she enjoys vocaloid, but isn't obsessed with it.

• the same goes for K-pop, Kyouka wouldn't religiously listen to it but she would have a few favorite idols that she follows

• She gets very (invisibly) excited to show atsushi new songs she found, and sharing song discoveries is a favorite pasttime of theirs.

• Kyouka is 13. She's going through a phase where she needs angsty music in her life.

• I think one of her favorites would be "Sleep to Dream" by Fiona Apple. this is just the vibe

• She actually is allowed the aux at the agency! She's much too insecure about her music taste to put any songs on, though.

• Kyouka regularly asks her fellow agency members for recs, but never really gets back to them about the songs.

• It's best to assume she wouldn't ask them for more recommendations if she didn't enjoy the previous ones, though.

Ranpo

• Always understands the theme behind a song but doesn't really care. Ranpo really just likes funky beats.

• I think he'd listen to a lot of electronic music, or things that are electronic-adjacent, or things that I mistake for electronic music. Things like Major Tom by Peter Schilling

• He also listens to a lot of older and more familiar classic rock songs. This is Fukuzawa's doing.

• He doesn't really care to check the artist of a song, so his playlists are very erratic. He's got a bunch of the same songs by a couple artists, then the rest is Russian roulette.

• Only one playlist. Of everything he likes.

• He shares an account with Fukuzawa and Yosano.

• He could probably read a person's entire personality through their music, but he wouldn't

• In fact, if you want Ranpo to listen to something, you'll have to beg him and remind him constantly to listen to your song

• It's not that he doesn't care, necessarily, it's that he just doesn't consider trying new music very often

• Ranpo is someone who would be very comfortable with their taste and not seek much change from what's familiar.

• I don't think he'd enjoy higher pitched voices that cut over the music.

• That being said, Ranpo also has very strong authority over the agency's background music. He doesn't add much, though

• He completely supports the Pump up the jam agenda. He'll even sing it with Dazai, occasionally

Yosano

• I think she'd listen to primarily female artists, and keep up with what her favorite artists are doing

• One of her favorite songs has been Poker Face by Lady Gaga ever since she was young.

• I think she'd be very into having soundtracks from her favorite movies! She knows a lot of artists and songs through this

• outside of movie soundtracks, she'll listen to a lot of pop, but not present day pop

• I think Yosano would enjoy popular songs of an era well past their time

• this isn't because she's out of touch with trends, she'd just enjoy songs from around the 2010s more.

• Yosano also knows plenty of classic rock, but doesn't listen to it all that often. This is Fukuzawa's doing.

• However, she keeps up with Riot grrrl music almost religiously. It's one of her favorite genres.

• She has a separate playlist to play as background music in her office.

• Kunikida has no reign over this section of the agency.

• The doctor's office is a lawless land.

• He doesn't mind though, because she doesn't play it all that loud while she's working. In fact, if she doesn't have patients, she'll often just use her ear buds from the computer

• Yosano takes music recommendations, sparingly. If someone gives her consistently bad songs, she'll start lying to them about listening.

• however, she's always up to chat about lyric interpretations and news on artists for songs she does enjoy.

Fukuzawa

• He may be an "old man" to most people, but he's actually only 40-something. I can never put my finger on what year bsd takes place in, but regardless I think he'd enjoy 80's and 90's hits.

• He's not been to many concerts, especially in recent years, but when he was younger and not yet "involved in his career" I think he'd visit plenty of live performances.

• Everyone who works at the agency has heard Bohemian Rhapsody several times.

• He doesn't generally listen to new music because he's comfortable with his current tastes

• however, his "current tastes" consist of so, so many songs• if you asked him what he thought of any artist, he'd probably tell you he'd heard of them.

• While he's a very private man, I think he was also very excited to introduce Ranpo and Yosano to his music

• He didn't look excited to show them his songs, but inside he was genuinely glad to share the music he's loved so dearly for very long• I think all three of them have danced together, at least once. I know it's not in character but please indulge me

• Fukuzawa pays for spotify premium, but shares an account with Ranpo and yosano.

• The profile picture for this account is a cat.

• it took him a bit to get used to the digital music services, so he kept all his cd's. He's got a lot of them, and has even burned a few himself

• I think he'd burn cd's for the agency members as a Christmas gift. most of them don't own a cd player, but they appreciate it!

• He enjoys getting recommendations from other people, and will always give them honest feedback.

• he's a bit confused by more recent songs, but he enjoys the trends and innovations made in the music industry

[morphomixz]

Eclipsed in Paris (Miraculous x Reader) Pt 7

10:13:27 am, Saturday, April 20th, Paris, France

Two days have passed since the introduction of Rogue to the French public, and in two days speculation has already arisen as to who is behind the mask. Alya's Ladyblog has imploded with new information, and super "villain" attacks appear to be a daily occurrence. 

It's strange calling them villains. Yes, they are acting out with the powers given to them by moth-man, but their abilities are affected by negative emotions. If they are no longer sad or angry, jealous even, then their powers should theoretically disappear with the feelings. 

Anyways, with a new superhero on the loose, Paris has started to question if Rogue is with their normal dynamic duo or simply offered a helping hand to deal with Prime Queen. Chloe's been doing better since the whole subway train gum scenario. Her jacket may never recover, nor will her pores, but mentally she seems unscarred by the experience. However, I can feel something bubbling just below the surface. She's going to act out soon, I can feel it; someone unfortunately will be hurt in some capacity because of her actions. Moving on, however...

So far, I've fought a ratings-obsessed reporter and an ice cream man-monster thing alongside Ladybug as well as Chat Noir. She's yet to ask about Bazoo and the Bat Miraculous, but I know she's curious. Chat's asked twice now. The first time was right after Prime Queen was defeated and I got out of it because he had little time left in his hero form. The second time, was when Andre the "sweethearts" ice cream maker was de-akumatized. 

~ Flashback ~

"So, now that we have more time, mind telling me where you got your miraculous little bat?", Chat Noir inquired while trapping me in a corner. He clearly wasn't giving up this time and Ladybug had already run off to wherever she needed to be. "Only if you tell me how you got your's kitten" I replied in a teasing tone, leaning forward into the small gap between us, as my voice became lower. That apparently got him a bit hot under the collar because he began sputtering nonsense, his face glowing with the rosy flush before he turned around quickly, thus releasing me from the corner,  leaving the building we were standing on, and heading off to likely detransform just out of sight to head home. Silly kitten can play the flirting game, but can't seem to take it when someone starts flirting back. Or at least, I think it was him flirting. He reminds me of what having a little brother would be like. Embarrassing them for the fun of it, so none of the "flirting" meant anything to me. Besides, he's a superhero with a secret identity he can't reveal to anyone. How would dating even work?

~ End of Flashback ~

I enjoy being a superhero, at least I think I do. It's almost cathartic. With everything going on, only having one song finished for the album and needing eleven more, the makeup launch in a few weeks, modeling for Agreste fashions soon, designing my own clothing line inspired by Paris, and auditions for movie roles in two months; which got added to my plate in the phone call I missed during the Prime Queen debacle, there is virtually no time to be a superhero, but when I'm Rogue, it's freeing. I'm a different person, like my personality when I'm Y/N Bougeouis is eclipsed by Rogue and when I detransform, Rogue is eclipsed by the idol personality. Rogue is idle when Y/N is in control and Y/N is idle when Rogue is present. No side is completely myself, and both have true aspects of my personality, but neither is one singularity. 

12:56:12 pm, Monday, April 22nd, Paris, France

Going to school was getting old. Yes, it was exciting at first but the lustrous shine has faded. Now, I'd give anything to be back at the hotel or at work instead of in class, but I guess today isn't so bad. Marinette's dad is teaching the class today. Apparently, the baker who I met while exploring is her father so that actually explains a lot. 

"I'll let you in on a little secret. I always add cream to the chocolate to make the ganache extra velvety. Then I let infuse for one minute." Marinette's father said while demonstrating his actions. I stood off to the side next to Kim and Max, while Chloe and Sabrina stood near the back. Out of the corner of my eye, I could see Chloe becoming agitated which is never a good sign. Then she opened up her mouth, " Urgh! Do they seriously think I'm going to get my hands dirty, cooking like some maid? If I want a croissant, I'd just make my butler get it for me." came her entitled decree to Sabrina. She really needs to be hit upside the head sometimes. The sweet, pink girl; I think her name's Rose gave Chloe a gentle reminder that Mr. Dupain-Chang wasn't making croissants and that may have pushed her over the edge I think. Maybe I'll listen in slightly while focusing my attention back on Mr. Dupain-Chang when he said, "It's all done with a flick of the wrist. But you mustn't go too fast or you might splash yourself!" That's when Chloe's real entitlement showed through as she made the comment, " And soil my Chenal pants? Who's he kidding?" Jeez Chloe, if you're going to act entitled at least pronounce the brand name correctly...

M. Dupain-Chang had just said, "Look at this lovely emulsion." when I heard dial tones just behind me and saw Chloe dialing someone on her phone. This isn't going to end well, whatever it is that she's doing. Then, Marinette was sent out of the room with the mixture to take it to the kitchen to chill for a while, and as she left I noticed Chloe's smirk getting wider. Almost cheshire like. Mr. Dupain-Chang in the meantime began showing us how to whip egg whites, until the fire alarm went off... Chloe, what did you do this time?

Mrs. Bustier was the first to speak, giving direction as she said, "Quietly, students. Single file line, please. Just keep moving." Chloe lead the group out of the classroom, high and mighty with her head held high. I'm afraid she doesn't realize how heavy the head that wears the crown is though. 

Mr. Damocles had just finished claiming it was a false alarm saying, "So, some smart aleck had the bright idea of calling the fire department." which lead to a gasp from several students.  "Somebody amongst us thought it would be funny to waste the fire captain's valuable time," he said while ignoring the protesting of the fire captain, " Hold on! I want the guilty party to apologize to you." What is Chloe's angle with this? Marinette and Alya were speaking off to the side, likely about Chloe if I could assume when Chloe's own hand went in the air.

"Mr. Damocles, sir?" she asked in a pseudo-innocent voice. Ah, shit here we go. In a saccharinely-sweet voice, Chloe said, " I saw a student leaving the classroom right before the alarm went off. It must have been her." So that's what she's doing. Apparently, Mr. Damocles bought it because he immediately said, " Really? Who was it?"

Her voice turning accusatory in nature, she called out, " Let's see if she'll come clean. What do you say, Marinette Dupain-Cheng?" causing another round of gasps to go throughout the room. A grimace came across my face as I made eye contact with Chloe which caused her smile to drop for a moment before it shifted to an indignant expression. Accidentally making eye contact with Adrien while tuning out Mr. Damocles, it appears the same thought crossed our minds, and Adrien spoke out. 

"Urgh, wait. Excuse me, sir!" he called out as Marinette appeared to pant. "It couldn't possibly be Marinette. Why would she disrupt her own father's cooking class?" he reasoned. Alya joined in with, " And I know for a fact that Marinette didn't even have her phone on her when she went out of the classroom." trying to further prove Marinette's innocence. Once again, the fire captain tried to leave but after hearing the claims of secondary parties, Mr. Damocles stopped him from leaving by saying "Just one more second. We're very close to discovering the truth." Jeez, this is going to be a long day. 

I tuned out for a while until Kim nudged me bringing me back into the mess in front of us. I could hear my cousin just finished saying, "What?! I'm not so sure my father will react kindly to me or my cousin being punished without any proof!" pulling out her phone in a threatening manner. She just dragged me into this, didn't she? Apparently, it got to Mr. Damocles because he immediately soothed her with an "Oh, no! Please, don't disrupt the busy mayor." before clearing his throat and saying, "The whole school is punished except for the Miss Bourgeois's!" which sent a flurry of whispers through the crowd and Chloe walked over to me saying, "That's more like it."

The rest of the school began their unfair punishment. Where's the justice in punishing everyone for one person's actions? So, I was working to help clean as well much to Chloe's displeasure.  Chloe was lounging around, rudely speaking to other students when they got close to her with their cleaning supplies. Apparently, Adrien finally got angry because he walked up to her, only to be smothered in  a hug by Chloe who greeted him with a " Adrikins!"Now, Adrien and I are not close by any means, but I'm always impressed by how he manages to get the truth out of her one way or another. Once again listening in, I caught her saying to him, "Of course, it was me who called the fire department. So what?" Now I'm angry. God forbid she actually takes responsibility and cares about someone other than herself. Adrien scolded her saying, " And it doesn't bother you that everyone's being punished because of you?" 

You can see no cogs turning in her head.  Her venom spread as she replied with a, "No. Why would it? They all seem to enjoy getting dirty making cookies. How's it any different than getting dirty, cleaning floors? They should be thanking me if anything." Yes, we should all bow and thank the gracious Chloe who screwed us all into cleaning the entire school because she misused the number for a fire captain by having the fire alarm pulled for her. Disappointment radiated off of Adrien as I walked up to the two's conversation, as Adrien looked her dead in the eyes and asked, " Chloé, how long have you and I been friends?" Where's he going with this? Chloe pouted her lips slightly replying with a, " Since we were adorable little tots, Adrikins."

He sighed which she didn't seem to pick up on before telling her, "Well, I'm sorry Chloé, but I can't be friends with someone who treats other people like this. You've gotta be nice to people!" Okay, that's a little harsh, even with her actions. She's a bit emotionally stunted. 

"N-Nice?" she responded clearly stunned and taking in his words. "N/N? Does he really expect me to?" she asked me. Adrien replied before I could saying, " Yes, nice. It's not that hard." before skulking off to Nino. "He's not the only one Chlo. I can't share or be on good terms with you until you show me you can be kind to other people." I said, before turning myself away from her, going to join Alix, Kim, and Max where they were cleaning to help out, leaving my cousin alone to process the words Adrien and I had said. 

4:25:33 pm, Monday, April 22nd, Paris, France

The ride home was quiet, and albeit very awkward between Chloe and I. Sabrina had been told not to come over today and Chloe appeared on the brink of tears. She stormed off to her room and the butler Armand (Jean according to Chloe), went off to check on her. It seems he cheers her up often according to the other staff within the hotel. I returned to my room to change into different clothing, lounge clothing consisting of black yoga pants, a wine-colored hoodie, and white socks, no shoes for now. I opened my sketchbook and began working on clothing designs for the newest Serpentine line that's supposed to come out when my phone began buzzing. It's Dante's new number. I quickly shut my phone off without picking it up. Maybe one day he'll get the hint that I just don't want to know him. Yes, at one point there may have been affection, but there was no love. 

Love... There's that word again.

Perhaps, this new line needs to be inspired by the allusions of love. Agape, eros, phileo, and storge. For Dante, I don't feel any of these currently, but for Chloe, I feel phileo. My hand began moving on the page before I knew it. Sketching out a dress, I shade it in a white-gold color, adding honeycomb patterns to the skirt in a slightly-yellow gold color. The top remained a solid white-gold with a semi-thick black line embellishing the waist, that had a small honey bee embroidered into it with gold thread. The design took two hours to fully flesh out, with accessories and all but when it was finished, it felt like Chloe. Chloe as a dress. One design down, however many are left to go, but this is where this design should go.

When I finally looked up from my design I realized I could hear music. Thumping music. I turned my phone on to see an invitation to a party being thrown by Chloe. Why is she throwing a party?

I changed quickly into an outfit that was a black blouse, my miraculous, white pants, and wine-colored boots. Making my way to the party, I noticed even Marinette and Alya had been invited. Now that's surprising. What was even more surprising was seeing Chloe and Marinette exchange cheek kisses as though they were friends at the prompting of Armand as well as... a yellow teddy bear? Wait... Is that Mr. Cuddly? Chloe's bear from when we were children? Anyways, it appears before I came down here she made up with Adrien which is good. When she noticed my presence she came over and offered me her cheek. Instead of kissing it, I pulled her into an unexpected hug. "We don't kiss cheeks in America Chlo, but I'm proud of you," I whispered to her before pulling back. She smiled softly before heading back to where Armand was likely for more advice. So, I joined the party, dancing with friends until Nino put on a slow dance song. 

Chloe didn't look so happy being asked to dance by Kim, but she excepted anyways with a look at the yellow teddy. Somewhere inside, I felt a pang straight to my heart seeing Kim hold her close. Maybe it's because I've never had friends before... That must be it. 

I joined up with a guy with blue hair whom I never met before, neither of us speaking a word but reaching an understanding that we wanted to dance with one another. He's cute, I guess. Actions are often louder than words, but personality is more important than looks. A bad personality can make the most handsome of boys ugly to one who once thought him attractive. Glancing at Chloe, I noticed her pulling away from Kim to storm over to Adrien and Marinette. My body language must have shown my concern because the boy I was dancing with pulled away, and sent me a soft smile, before gesturing for me to go after my cousin. "Thank you" I whispered to him before moving my way through the crowd. 

Armand cut in when Chloe was protesting the Marinette-Adrien dance, saying " If I re-say, Mademoiselle, or to..." only to be interrupted by Chloe telling him to move, before exposing Mr. Cuddly to the entire school. Mortification passed over Chloe's face as Armand's squeakily voiced the bear saying, "Oh, please, Chloé, dear! You've been such a good little girl! Mr. Cuddly is so very proud..." Oh shit... Chloe tried to hide the bear from view, but then Kim began to tease her, " Is that your teddy bear, Chloé?" he inquired. Oh no, Kim... Why did you have to say that?  I punched him in the arm after he finished speaking gaining a questioning look from him, only for him to be met with my eyes burning into his with my own personal disappointment directed at him. His eyes darkened at my look but it was too late. An uproar of laughter came from the entire party, embarrassing Chloe and then enraging her. She dragged him off into the kitchen, but the doors don't keep out the sound of her firing him.

Chloe snapped, " I've had it with your stupid teddy bear, your stupid advice, and you, Jean, whatever your stupid name is!" she spits with venom dripping off every word. Armand was devastated, trying to reason with her saying, "But, Mademoiselle, I was only trying to help." Chloe was seeing red because her next statement finalized his status, "There's no more Mademoiselle, no more help, no more anything! You are FIRED! Now get out!" she screamed before exiting the kitchen back to the party. 

When Chloe returned to her party, that's when it got weird. Sabrina almost assaulted her with a hairbrush, she ran to hide behind Kim, and a teddy bear? Why was a teddy bear clinging to Sabrina's leg? Watching the bear, I saw it attach itself to Kim after he said rather "valiantly", "If you touch one hair on Chloé's head, you'll have to answer to me." Then, a glazed-over look appeared in Kim's eyes and his sudden strange body language tipped me off about an akumatized victim. Sabrina had a dazed look just before I slipped away to transform into Rogue just outside the kitchen window. 

"Bazoo! Spread my wings!" I exclaimed feeling the leather take over the usual cotton of my clothing. I re-entered the party through the same window, surveying the scene, and saw Ladybug using her yoyo to toss my cousin into a ball pit. Has that always been there? Never mind, not important. What's important is the teddy bear.

As she spits out a ball out of her mouth, Chloe in her infinite stupidity asked, "About time, what took you so long?" to which she got no response. Turning my attention to Chat and Ladybug, it was time for "battle". Chat tripped up Kim with his baton sending the inebriated boy into the ball pit and the teddy went flying.

"That's a very slippery dance floor" Chat snickered to himself after the jock went flying. I retaliated lightly with a coy, "Or perhaps there were some mischievous interventions..." Ladybug had just managed to laso Despair Bear with her yoyo and yelled out to the frantic crowd, "Move aside. All of you!" before being tackled to the ground by the leather-clad cat man due to a chair suddenly flying through the air almost hitting her. That was a bit overkill but c'est la vie, when in Rome do as the Romans do. Turning in the direction of where the chair came from, I noticed Max had been the one to throw it. Is this bear seriously going to just mind-control my friends and Chloe's minions? I hope not...

A disembodied voice came from Max, "How about a little game..." before the voice of our dear akumatized villain shined through saying, "Of flying chairs." with an audible sneer in his tone of voice. It's clear where the akuma is so my powers are kinda useless. 

Ladybug tied her yo-yo around Max's leg,  only as soon as she did, Despair Bear left his leg. Despair Bear clung onto Alya next and the newest victim of the mind-controlling bear was forced to attack. She approached Ladybug and tries to attack her but I had managed to lock my arms around her and slammed her across the room, damage be damned. Hopefully, the magic ladybugs help with internal damage. Despair Bear was flung off by the force of the throw before claiming Ivan as his next victim, and Alya upon recovering from the toss was disoriented enough to ignore any lasting pain. 

Just then, Chat Noir stopped Ivan from crushing the three of us with a coffee table. How strong is he if he can lift that coffee table? It's supposed to weigh almost 120 pounds.  Wait where did the bear go?

A weird sensation came over my body as I realized Chat Noir had grabbed both Ladybug and my hands. "Uh, What are you doing?" she asked before realizing, "Uh, oh," I said as we both looked down to see the teddy bear wrapped around Chat's leg. "New plan?" I asked. "New plan," Ladybug replied. The butterfly symbol appeared in front of the teddy bear and when it finished listening to Hawkmoth, Despair Bear spoke, "Oh, pretty earrings and necklace" through Chat's body. 

While Ladybug tried to reason with the controlled kitty cat, I tried to figure out a way out of his death grip. Hmm... If echo works to locate the akumatized object, the force from it should be able to send him back far enough even if I already know where it is. The problem is the floor to ceiling windows..."Everyone away from the windows," I cried out just before Chat in his daze said, "Cataclysm" I was about to us echo on my newfound friend when, Chloe stepped in to aid us? "Paws off, kitty!" she said as she sends his paws down into the couch, efficiently destroying it... This is a lot of property damage.

"Thanks Chloe," I said and Ladybug followed suit. Of course, however, Chloe being Chloe has to have the attention directed towards something she's done because she started bragging, and then complaining. You gotta love that girl sometimes.

"Hey, I was really nice, just then. Did you see? No?" Chloe exclaimed right before everyone else fainted out of shock. Was that from her actions or the fact that Ladybug and I were almost wiped out of existence?  "You're all so lame. I bet Y/N wouldn't have fainted." Chloe said in an exasperated tone. 

"Maybe you should use your lucky charm" I recommended to Ladybugbefore engaging Chat again with my boomerang which hit him in the head. "I think I might've just angered him more!" I yelled as Ladybug cried out for her "Lucky Charm". She got a fork. What are we supposed to do with a freaking fork?!?! "Rogue I need you to buy us some time!" she said, which I responded with a curt nod. 

"ECHO" I screeched as the windows begun to shake before shattering letting glass fly everywhere and the controlled Chat Noir went flying back into the bar area from the power behind the scream. Still in control of Chat Noir, Despair Bear rubbed his head before uttering, "You little brats!" and forcing CHat t ochase us out and up the stairs to the rooftop. 

"DO YOU HAVE A PLAN YET?!" I yelled behind me as I sent my boomerang to cut Chat off at the knees making him trip up the final stairs. "Okay, Rogue get Chloe on board with the plan." Ladybug directed. Jeez this isn't going to be easy.

Okay so it was pretty easy. Chloe was hiding behind an umbrella and was being attacked by the teddy bear still. She agreed pretty easily after Ladybug managed to attach the fork to Despair Bear. "Naughty, Naughty Ladybug and Rogue." he said as he forced the body of Chat Noir to fight Ladybug. 

"Okay, Chloe so when she gives the signal, I need you to spin the umbrella so that the teddy unravels." I told her before joining the fight by once again sending the boomerang into Chat Noir's knees. Note to self apologize to him and his knee caps later. "Chloe, would you be so kind?" Ladybug said and Chloe immediately began spinning the umbrellacausing the body of the bear to unravel leaving nothing but the head and a tiny butler. 

" Ladybug? Rogue? What are you doing?" Chat asked now completely free of Despair Bears arms. "Oh, nothing. Just saving your skin with the help of our new little sidekick." Ladybug replied before I made the comment, "Perhaps we'll replace you with her, kitten." which made him blanche before punching me lightly in the shoulder. "Why do my knees hurt so much?" he asked wincing at the pressure of standing. "I'll tell you later." I said quickly, flushing  before turning to the tiny man. 

A squeaking voice called out, "Give me your Miraculous! You haven't defeated me, yet!" iIght, Despair Bear still hasn't technically been defeated. "Watch your step Chat Noir" Ladybug said before I ended up picking him up bridal style and side stepping behind our villain to avoid Despair Bear's grip again. "This is humiliating..." Chat said while pouting at the position. "It's okay kitten, this is partially my fault anyways." I admitted before setting him down to which a confused expression came over his face, only to be replaced with one of determination. 

" I've got this guy under control." Chat said as he picked up and effectively trapped Despair Bear in his hands as Ladybug broke the thread that the fork was attached to from the body of Mr. Cuddly and then deevilizing the butterfly setting everything back to normal. 

Nudging Ladybug with my hip, I glanced over at Chloe. Ladybug apparently caught on to what I was indicating as we both moved to thank my dear cousin. "Thanks for helping us out there. That was really nice of you." Ladybug said to her. "Yeah, it really is a refreshing to have a helping hand." I added. " I know, wasn't it?" Chloe said with her chest puffed up with pride. This is gonna go to her head isn't it. Oh well...

Anyways, Chloe rehired her butler, us three miraculous holders had to run off to detransform, and Chloe had to make a phone call. I snuck back into my room to detransform through the window. To make sure no one would see I managed to get into the walk-in closet before Bazoo returned from the pendent extremely hungry. Heading down to the party area and back into the kitchen, I handed Bazoo several blackberries before realizing Chloe was up to something again. Only this time it required several booth like tables and Marinette's dad. 

"Great job, kids. You've done some really good work." Mr. Dupain-Chang saidas he maneuvered around the room looking at everyone's macarons. I made lemon-lavender macarons with Kim and he seemed kinda more touchy during our prep time. Our hands kept brushing against each others while decorating, he put his hands over mine  while mixing the batter, and he even wiped crumbs off my lips during our sampling time. I mean, I don't mind it but it was definitely a change since earlier today. 

Dragging me off by our linked arms, Chloe and I ended up to the side of the group with Adrien.

"That was a great idea of inviting Marinette's dad!" Adrien commented. "He's right, and it was something that made up for not being able to finish the lesson at school." I added in while glancing down slightly at Chloe. She replied quickly saying, "I know. This way, no one can be mad at me for calling the fire department. I'm really nice now, did you notice, Adrikins? N/N? Even Ladybug said so! Didn't she, Jean-Pascal?" Ah yes, there's the Chloe I know. 

"I'm proud of you, Chloé. I think you've proven that you're capable of making an effort to be nicer to everyone" Adrien told her. Here we are at full circle from this morning. "Aww, Adrikins! So we'll always be best friends, forever? Pinky swear?" she said with a glint in her eyes. Oh dear here we go. Adrien pinky swore with her before she left us behind while making judgemental comments about the other's macarons. 

"She'll never change." Adrien said before turning to me. "No. No she won't, but she's capable of it when she decides she ready to, and we'lll just have to be there when she is." I replied leaning into his side beforemoving aside when I noticed Marinette. "Excuse me, Adrien" I said before walking off to find Kim, Alix, and Max. Watching from my corner I saw Adrien and Marinette interact. One day, they'll realize just how much they like each other, and I don't mean as "just a friend". 

6:45 pm, Tuesday, April 23rd, Paris, France

Between superhero work, my aunt's intended image for me, my schoolwork, and idol work it's a wonder I haven't had a full-blown mental breakdown yet. I've gotten closer to Alix, Kim, and Max from school but they don't really understand idol work. Chloe seems to think it's the greatest thing on earth, but I'd like one day to myself. Anyways, I just finished up in the recording studio for the day and decided to take the stairs instead of the elevator. Honestly, the stairwell has amazing acoustics so sometimes afterward I'll sit in the stairwell doing whatever I want.

Today I decided to use the stairwell just for some fun. I was kinda hoping to scare someone because it can be creepy at night. One of my favorite things to do back in New York was to sit on my fire escape and do "siren calls". 

While I was singing, I heard a second voice. A masculine voice joined me with these "calls". The voice although mostly smooth, had certain moments of roughness like he'd been singing for a while and his voice was becoming tired. The voice continued to entrance me until I realized I had been walking back up the steps, closer to the voice, closer to whoever he was.  

Then the singing stopped.

The concrete walls of the stairwell seemed to dim, time was running out both in the day and to meet this gifted singer who joined my vocal runs. I heard a door click shut shortly after. 

Rushing further up the stairs I ended up back in the studio. No one was around. So I left. Hopefully, I can meet him one day. Clearly, today isn't that day.

Walking up the street to where the limo was parked I was in my own little world, or at least I was. I hit something warm. Oh, I ran into someone is a better explanation I suppose. It was the blue-haired boy from Chloe's party! "I'm so sorry, I wasn't looking where I was going." I apologized to him. "Hmm... It's alright" he replied, silently giggling to himself. "I'm Y/N, I think we've met before." I said offering him my hand. "I'm Luka, we danced together at your cousin's party," he replied with a soft smile. 

"Well, Luka. How much do you know about music?"

[idontwanttospoiltheparty]

kind of a random question but what's your take on plastic ono band, musically speaking? a lot of people seem to have very extreme opinions on it so i'm curious about yours :)

Hi anon!!! Don't worry, POB is one of my favourite albums to talk about tbh.

(I'm not sure if by "musically" you mean separate from the lyrics, but I definitely have more to say about it lyrically – please come back with another ask if you want me to delve more into some aspect :) )

I actually rarely listen to the whole thing, because sonically it's not necessarily my cup of tea and there are songs on it I find hard to appreciate outside their album context. Although, the last time I gave it a full relisten, I was actually pleasantly surprised by how much I enjoyed the sound of songs like I Found Out and Well Well Well.

I find the album on the whole an incredible and very concise presentation of a worldview that strives for personal independence, yet feels held back from achieving it for various reasons. It explores various aspects of "dependence", starting with parenthood and then moving on to religion, celebrities, drugs, among other things. It's not something I personally agree with, but the earnestness of the whole thing strikes a chord with me. It's also interesting to me that I've seen various accounts of people who made it out of high-commitment religious groups find the album really resonated with them.

One thing I find the most interesting about it is the fact that iconoclasm is one of the central themes of the album and, the way it opens with Beatle John Lennon screaming for his parents and closes with him singing a lullaby about his mother's death just after declaring he doesn't believe in Beatles and that the dream is over, the album is actually attacking John's untouchable image, forcing the listener to reassess their own relationship to John as a potential idol. In that sense, he's not only preaching, he's also being vulnerable to drive his point home, while simultaneously doing what he believes is necessary: "feel your own pain". I find the way the album plays with the fourth wall fascinating. It made me cringe at first, but I found examining why it made me cringe to actually be really fruitful. The album is challenging and forced me to reconsider it in a way I have rarely experienced with art.

On an individual song level: Isolation and Remember are among my absolute favourite John songs. "I don't expect you to understand / After you caused so much pain / But then again / You're not to blame / You're just a human / A victim of the insane" is a career highlight and the centerpiece of the album to me. It puts all the cutting and perhaps even cruel remarks made before and after into perspective. Plus I loooooooooooooove how that part completely shifts the energy of the song. The triplets in the last line are so good.

Remember is just endlessly sad to me, the interpolation of Bring It On Home lyrics is HEARTBREAKING. I interpret the song as being about reminding yourself why you have to leave a situation. In the context of the Beatles breakup, his use of a 1962 song of that nostalgic (to John) style about wanting someone to come back makes me a little fucking crazy. He took a song about regretting a split and changed it up into a reminder not to look back lest he come to regret his decision to leave.

Otherwise, I think God is incredible musically-speaking (shoutout to Billy Preston's beautiful piano playing!!!) but it's so much lyrically I don't listen to it super often. Love is very very pretty.

Mother and Well Well Well are often a bit much for me, but I find the way they sort of weave primal screaming into the music cool. Hold On and Look At me are quite soothing.

Working Class Hero is probably my least favourite, it's just kind of boring to listen to, though I am thankful to have some John f-bombs so there's that.

[starrtoon]

I did NOT know that they had that kind of person on team with the Poison episode 😬😬 yikes.

I feel like there are a LOT of things that I could go on about it over (ya know...about the blatant blasphemy everywhere in it). The sympathetic lucifer story, the twisted Eden backstory, the angel's being Like That (I mean I guess you can look at it like "Some Christians act this way towards people because they think being Christian makes them better than others" but there is a better way to address that than the way this show is)....I fear that the day will come that they use a God/Jesus character and paint Him in a poor light while uplifitng Lucifer. I'm not sure if I would be more angry about that or sad/worried on behalf of the creators of the show.

I can see what feels like wasted potential in the more original aspects of the show. I feel like it could have been so much better if she had taken the original ideas/characters and the idea of redemption/forgivness and then placed them all in a fictional separate world that didn't include, as you said, the obvious blasphemy. I enjoy the music, the animation/art style (granted the pilot's animation was preferable).

....I feel like they were just trying to make St. Peter look like a stereotypical youth pastor. And one of the songs says "It'll take time to cover my vast multitude of sins" and I can't help but be like "that isn't hOW thAt WORKs"

I appriciate your response. It's good to see a lot of my thoughts were shared. I have difficulties pulling myself out of things when I get pulled in, so I've had some time to really think about the things that COULD have been good and the things that take away from it as a whole, what I'd have done differently, etc.

I've just taken to praying for the people who have worked on it and hoping they have the decency to not put "God" or "Jesus" on screen in the next season and make them awful. (Though I guess I did KNOW that they couldn't proceed with the show without taking a lot of things out the the Bible and twisting it around).

(I won't bother ya anymore with it btw. Some of it did just genuinely baffle me & I appriciate you taking the time to respond too me <3)

I'm sooo getting tired of media making satan 'misunderstood' lol. it got old fast, and there are some people who actually try to say the show is accurate 😭 I saw someone claim that it's true that satan wanted best for humans and that was why he was kicked from heaven. they clearly never read the Bible seeing that satan wanted to dethrone God.

yeah I could see they're trying to criticize Christians who basically do whatever they want (being hateful and evil in a different way) but still think they're going to heaven. but like you said, it coulda been done better than the show did lol

ikr, it had so much potential. and I do admit a few of the songs get stuck in my head from time to time, especially when a clip of the show appears on my tiktok FYP lol.

they probably took some doctrines from catholicism for that line XD don't they believe people will still go through some trails to pay for their sins even if they're saved? uhhh purgatory? lol

no problem! and oh gosh, yeah same, I hope they never add God/Jesus in it 😬 thankfully from the intro, it made it look like multiple angelic beings were technically the 'gods' who created earth. I'm sure they'd get a 'helluva' lot of backlash if they actually put Jesus in it.

also I don't mind if you wanna share more thoughts on the show or anything else. even if I take a while to answer asks, my ask box is always open 😊👍

[otenvs3000f23]

Hello everyone, 

I hope you are all enjoying our last few days of the beautiful autumn weather – certainly my favourite season, so I’ll be sad to see it go! 

I am not much of a musically inclined person, I never even learned how to read music in school! Nonetheless, I absolutely love listening to music, if you are anything like me, I have about a million different playlists for various moods, ‘vibes’, and activities on my Spotify. My family is in Vancouver, so I spend a good amount of time in the mountains, and I always find myself listening to ‘folky’ and rock songs that embody the whole “granola-girl” aesthetic whenever I am out there (I find it funny how I rarely listen to that playlist when I’m in Ontario). In my opinion, nature interpretation is all about gaining an appreciation for nature and being fully present and in tune with it. Listening to the music of the trees blowing in the wind, birds chirping, and the crunching of leaves beneath your feet is probably the best kind of music for being present and one with nature. Still, if I had to pick a genre of music that spoke to me most while outdoors – or elicited a feeling of being fully present – it would have to be contemporary classical music. The absence of lyrics allows my mind to take in all the beauty around me. The calming melody of the classical instruments kindles the sense of “presentness” that I find so important about being outdoors – and in any aspect of life. In the same way photos and social media can push for immediate interpretation (as stated in the textbook), I would argue that music has the ability to transport you to another realm of awareness and presence, one where you can tune out some of your incessant thoughts that consume your day, and one that can evoke feeling and emotion. I think it’s super cool that we humans aren’t the only species who communicate through music, for example, think of whales or birds, even insects have the ability to feel rhythm! There is a reason music can induce great emotion and memory, it is ingrained in our history as a species and we wouldn’t have it if it weren’t for nature and our great ancestors evolving animal vocalization into the sounds of music we hear today. If I had to pick some songs that transport me to a space where I can be fully immersed in nature – sticking with my contemporary classical genre – the following are what I would recommend: 

Sunken Dreams by Alban Claudin & Esther Abrami

Minerva by Akira Kosemura

Avril 14th by Aphex Twin, Daniel Hope, Jacques Ammon, Christoph Anacker, Jane Berthe, and Kaiser Quartett

I look forward to hearing what you have to say about this week's prompt because I sort of struggled with it haha!

All the best,

Olivia

[corduroydisco]

final reflection piece - december, 12 2012

for mrs. defeo + 17 year old me

Writing frees my soul of feeling burdened. All my heartbreak, sadness, anger, obsession, passion, fear is released when writing, allowing for new emotions to appear. Writing is my way of releasing emotions locked within the confines of my head and heart. Throughout this course I’ve been able to express myself through my writing, letting go of my daily stressors, and creating characters and scenarios that mirror my life, yet have their own unique aspects. Among these readings, I’ve found various similarities with the respective authors, in the way we both write and express ourselves.

Music is innately my muse for creating an idea, setting a mood, and writing a great piece. Each song tells its own story with every beat, rhythm, and word the artist brings together. The emotion, the history behind a good song shows and elicits relatability and emotion from a listener. Likewise in writing, I am the artist and the pen and paper are my instruments, the voice and story in my head fighting to be put out into the world are my lyrics. When I sit down and write, whether it be at Central Park, Starbucks, or my cozy, incense filled room, you can hear the Beatles singing “Penny Lane” and the keys of my Apple laptop clicking. My headphones are always in, a nuisance to my mother, but a way to tune into the stories I want to tell. 

Growing up to be keen on technology, sitting down and writing endlessly by hand is not a method that appealed to me. Often my hand cramping and pulsating after writing five pages of words turns me off from my emotions and they quickly are flooded by the pain and uncomfort of twisting my hand and stretching my fingers every five minutes. However, I do enjoy carrying a small notebook I bought in London to jot down ideas as I ride the New York City subway. That is my favorite place to kick-off ideas for characters while listening to music. I sit on the busy 6 train going downtown towards 68th Street-Hunter College looking at every person sitting around me and asking myself what struggles have they going through, how did they end up in the most cosmopolitan city in the world, are they in love, do they work downtown in St. Marks selling illegal things? These questions are of course influenced by the melodies playing in my ears. Currently, my favorite artists to inspire setting and characters are a Korean lounge/electronica band called Humming Urban Stereo. Their songs are all a mixture of different languages and genres with a laid back lounge jazz infectious beat and harmony accompanying lyrics. 

“Do you still love me tomorrow?” “Forever and ever, baby...”

The girl asking sounded petite and sweet and the man securing his love sounded gruff but lovely with a thick Korean accent. This small interjection of dialogue from their song “Rainbow”, which I listened to while thinking about my boyfriend,  inspired me immediately to write about a foreign couple who recently moved to England and to create a heart-warming couple, who contrasted each other, but were both lovely in their own respects and the dynamics of their relationships. 

Sometimes, I slip myself into these settings and live through my characters and other times I allow them to come to life and live through me -- in a healthy way of course. In this way I relate with Geraldine Brooks’ essay “Timeless Tact Helps Sustain a Literary Time Traveler”. I often like to write about foreign places, so I try to put myself in the shoes of a character in that time era or setting as much as possible. Brooks tells readers that in writing a novel about a young woman in a small community during the Dark Ages, “for most of 1999, [she] tried to live in 1666” (Brooks 19). The Stanislavski method that I take on while I’m listening to music helps me shape the character in my story by putting me in their mindset. While expecting to write a certain piece in a particular setting, culture, or personality, for weeks or months I decide to dedicate myself to music that connects to it while I write whether the character is the big man of the party or suffering from heartbreak or unrequited love or family problems. “Write what you know...the emotional truths that ...apply across the centuries...” (Brooks 23). We all know what it’s like to be heartbroken or to break someones heart, and sadness and how it feels like to lose something dear to us. These are the things that we write about since the start of humanity that do not change and cause relatability and reminiscence.  

Like in Gail Godwin “A Novelist Breaches the Border to Nonfiction”, you must go based on your own judgement and likes and dislikes in order to generate something true to yourself and something that will fully satisfy you. I accept criticism whether good or bad, but I don’t let it influence or take the wheel of where I want to go with a piece. Godwin’s professor told her to keep her personal experiences away from her work in nonfiction (Godwin 76). Then the critics of the book she ended up writing asked her to put more of herself into her nonfiction novel about the evolution of the symbolism and meanings regarding hearts and to simply not forget her own heart. I like receiving feedback from friends and family, but I do not take things to heart or let them affect me directly when I write. I choose and pick different suggestions that I agree on and stay true to the real backbone and mood of my story.  

Like Kent Haraf, I love writing nostalgically, having concrete things to remind me of certain feelings and experiences I had. The wall of my designated writing place in my house is completely covered in pages of my favorite underground New York art, music, fashion, film magazine, NYLON magazine. These different colorful and popping images and words serve to inspire me for different characters and their features whether they be a dark skinned, Swedish girl with plump lips or an Indian grunge hipster guy from the heart of Brooklyn. These are unknown, real, and interesting looking people, unlike the models from Vogue magazine who are just simply “perfect” and beautiful. These pictures that I had chosen carefully, “connect me emotionally to memories, ways of living, people and geographical areas that are important to me (Haraf,86).”

This course has brought my daily observations and inner thoughts together to create multi-faceted characters who come alive with the techniques I’ve learned in the class this year. I love to observe the world and try to take a little of it with me as I go along. I’ve always been fascinated with people and art, and I tend to find inspiration wherever I go. Writing comes naturally to me, and doing it more often this year has allowed me to tune into the depths of my brain and crawl inside my deepest thoughts. My love for music and ability to write anywhere I am serves me as great tools to express my creativity and uttermost desires, and insert these feelings into characters I freely mold. I look forward to continuing my journey in this class, and advancing in my fiction writing abilities.