#the physical feeling isnt the same but it's a good brush

[rhahatl]

disembodied god

trying out some new brushes

[godsfavoritescientist]

How do I explain the ways in which the bill origins fic 'A Romance of Many Dimensions' by haley3 rewired my brain without needing to give paragraphs upon paragraphs of context. The fic is something like 200,000 words long. Almost every single good moment calls back to things that are set up earlier in the fic

[struwberrii]

kenma headcanons ⋆౨ৎ˚⟡˖ ࣪

like the title says,, here are my cute kenma headcanons from my head that i just made up just now, hope you guys like ᕙ( •̀ ᗜ •́ )ᕗ (mostly relationship stuff)

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hes super blunt and honest, a bunch of his classmates dont like him because he always tells it how it is

probably takes in stray cats sometimes and hides them from his family

lives in the same 3 hoodies

literally doesnt do anything if he doesnt feel like it, probably is behind on homework and stuff because of this

one of those people who say they don’t like the taste of water

HATES physical touch, but if you like it he lets you hug him or whatever you want

teaches you how to play his favorite games and also plays your games (if ur also a smelly gamer/j)

SLEEPER BUILD everyone always acts like hes so weak and scrawny like no he isn't the strongest but like he still played volleyball and practiced daily i KNOW he would beat me in a fight physically OR verbally and im literally taller than him (╥﹏╥)

i also feel like hed probably try and stay in shape after high school even though he doesnt have the best diet but i feel like hed still stay active yk?

probably writes you cute notes because he doesn't really know the words to say or hes scared of sounding stupid

loves doing small hands on things, like puzzles or lego building or rubix cubes

lays his head on your lap literally like a cat

loves when you brush/play with his hair

doesn't have the energy to argue over anything so he literally just lets you do whatever you want

if you suck at games he always carries you because hes just happy youre playing with him ദ്ദി(ᵔᗜᵔ)

gatekeeps you from his followers (they know he has a partner)

wears your cute hair clips to keep his hair out of his face while he games/streams

lives in fluffy socks

isnt very good at showing affection so he just showers you in little gifts and presents, even if its not super fancy or expensive gifts

i feel like he would give the warmest hugs

bluntly/genuinely compliments you

shares his food/snacks with you

probably has terrible vision and keeps his electronics way to close to his face

has the worst posture, you have to remind him to straighten his back, like it literally sounds like popping bubble wrap when he sits up straight

soda/energy drink addict

gets so aggressive on voice chat when hes gaming like hes airing out the whole server... EVERYONE is catching strays tonight

acts like he hates pet names but secretly loves it :3

[crispys-records]

travis is the whipped one in any ship hes in but i like to imagine hes especially whipped in zanvis.

like here he is pining for this hot emo freak with the most gorgeous eyes and beautiful laugh and he looks good in everything but especially all black and his voice makes u swoon and (ayesha erotica anyone)

travis gains more confidence once he graduates highschool. and when he realizes that zane lives on the same street as him, hes brought back to his immature highschool days staring longingly at any hot person who doesn't want anything to do with him who passes him in the halls.

hes 14 again, leaning against the lockers and talking to his confidence coach when he gets distracted. not by a hot girl, but by the prettiest boy hes ever seen, sulking to class with a glare that would make anyone faint. he clearly doesn't want a single person to go near him. and travis, ever the unconfident one, wants a piece of that. dante thinks its for a girl. like that hot katelyn chick travis used to stare at? its gotta be her. but sometimes travis will disapear after school, and dante will find him staring at something or someone behind the bleachers and he starts to piece together that travis's type in men is INSANE.

travis never ends up mustering up the courage, but now hes an adult. hes hotter, more charismatic, better. so he waltzes right up to zane's house, knocks on his door, and totally makes a fool of himself. zane sees right through it. he'd find it endearing if he cared, but theres better things to care about than some idiot trying to cozy up with him. So travis is mostly ignored.

zane's days are filled with monotony. he wakes up, gets dressed, works for several hours, and leaves the house for one reason or another. but at some point, travis starts appearing in his point of view, forcing himself into the routine. its not wake up, work, go out, sleep anymore. its wake up, work, talk to travis, sleep. they (reluctantly) exchange numbers. now its wake up, text travis, work, talk to travis, sleep. zane starts to miss when travis isnt there, starts to relish in those moments when they talk. his pride is too much, though, so he'll insist its because travis and aphmau are friends. hes adamant that aphmau's influencing him, that he and travis get along through no fault of his own. hes a tough, emo guy who hates the sun. he couldn’t possibly like a guy as bright as one. no matter how endearing he is. no matter how much he knows they like each other.

as their friendship grows, and they start to hang out with each other exclusively, zane realizes something. travis is popular. a lot of girls, and even some guys, fall for his stupid faux confidence shtick. in a way, it makes zane feel triumphant. he knows that its all an act. he knows the real travis. but it also pisses him off, how travis doesn't even brush them off when theyre together. theyre not in any kind of relationship, not like that. but zane knows travis likes him, so why isnt he saying anything? zane thinks about it more, and realizes that oh. he likes travis too. maybe even more than he realized.

its not long before zane's infamous glare reaches the others. people learn to steer clear of travis when zane's next to him. and as travis starts to second guess himself, zane grows more confident of his and travis's future relationship that hasnt even happened yet meanwhile, travis's confidence starts to slip again. why arent people coming up to him as much? is he unattractive? how can he impress zane without fans now? he starts to postpone his confession, worrying that he isnt worthy enough of zanes love and affection.nevermind the fact that zane's been more physically affectionate. zane leans on travis's shoulder now, grabs him by the wrist and pulls him along, plays with his hair when hes bored. travis is too wrapped up in his head to even realize that he has a chance.

meanwhile, zane, realizing travis wont be making a move anytime soon, wonders if travis even likes him anymore. why wasnt he paying attention to the affection hes been giving him? why wont he say anything? a quick conversation with aphmau later, and he figures out that if he doesnt make the first move, no one will, and theyll be stuck in this limbo forever. so zane does. he says fuck it one day and asks travis if he likes him. travis panicks, thinks that zane is disgusted, starts apologizing profusely, saying he was sorry that it was so obvious and how could he bother zane like that. hes rambling, he wont shut up. zane shuts him up with a kiss. and thats his answer.

zane is cool as shit btw hes so hot. travis is this pathetic loser and probably like taller than zane and is probably the top in the relationship but zane is COOL. he kabedons travis and says cool shit and takes the lead in the relationship. HES the handsome cool boyfriend and travis is the pathetic one. zane takes TRAVIS on dates. zane is the one who the pays the check at restaurants. god i love emo boys

[augustrambles]

DAY 1 KENNY MCCORMICK, general hc alphabet.

A. Admitting feelings.

he'd admit his feelings willingly, he defintely confessed first. he would make it a very special event however, he'd bring flowers and he'd bake a sweet you like just for you, show up at your house as he tells what you mean to him.

B. Bad Habit.

having a lot of physical attraction towards people, he loves you so much, he'd never love someone else like he loves you, but he does compliment others a lot, not just to be nice but because he finds people attractive. he thinks you dont really like that about him

C. Commitment.

he wouldn't expect to get married, have kids and all that, but if it does get to that point he's happily doing what he should to mantain the relationship. he loves you a lot, and he wouldn't leave you for anyone!

D. Damage.

its not actual serious damage, but since he's been with people whos used him just for sex, he'd find it weird if you arent over him 24/7 asking to be laid, he doesnt really mind though

E. Energy

he isnt energetic, but isnt inactive either, he does go to parties frequently however, but he always invites you! if you dont want to go, its a big chance he wont either. theres always a special occasion however where he does go with you, he texts you every hour though

F. First date

for a first date, he'd want it to be very romantic and all, maybe a movie date or dinner at a fancy restaurant (which you'd pay for) or just sitting at a grass filled garden, picking flowers and cuddling with him, whatever you'd like the most

G. Get away

he LOVES vacations, will go anywhere, out of the country or just a hotel near the state. if its with you, he'd even go to the moon so

H. Hygiene

he'd like to have better hygiene but due to the cough financial situation, he usually showers or brushes his teeth at your house, your parents are happy with it of course

I. Initiative

hes VERY initiative, always starts things, and barely gives you a chance to recommend going somewhere or do something.

J. Jealous

doesnt get jealous quite often to be honest, if anything you would get jealous of random girls trying to ask him out. but will not hesitate to beat ass for you

K. Kiss

he loves kissing you<3 he gives you kisses all the time especially during cuddle sessions. his kisses are either passionate or quick goodbye kisses.

L. Love

he's quick to say i love you, he'd go up to you when you arrive to the bus stop, even if you have one day of dating, and go 'goodmorning [name]! i love you" same with goodbyes, hes so sweet

M. Maintenance

while he doesnt use skincare products, boy this man LOVES to take care of himself, he loves to be treated like a princess and just lay on your bed with a facemask and cucumbers on his eyes. does not care if anyone makes fun of him

this made me want to play royale high i dont know why

N. NOPE

he doesnt have any turn offs really, just dont be a complete asshole and he'll like you

O. Opinion

doesnt get into much debates, but hes usually calm about it, unless its something about a celebrity or something, diss one of his faves he will go crazy

P. Pranks

he LOVES pranking, doesnt do it as often as he wants to, but theres something he loves about scaring the hell out of people

Q. Quirk

probably being very charming, he loves charming people so much! its like a hobby especially if theyre rich

R. Reliable

you can defs count on kenny! he'd do anything you want, cook? sure, wash the dishes? alright, take out the trash? he's used to it. hes like a little house wife

S. Scent

HE 100% WOULD USE COLOGNE. if its a gift from you, he would literally even use it to go to sleep, he luvs smelling good

T. Temper

not much of a temper actually, he gets mad when people talk shit about him or like when stan was crying because kyle was dying even though kenny dies everyday

U. Underwear

he doesnt wear undies.

V. Victory

lowkey a sore loser, he loves winning and he gets mad if people beat him, moves on quickly though

W. Wild Card

he has a birth mark on the back of his neck, it looks like a healed burn

X. XXX

probably suggests it indirectly on the first few dates, causing a giggle or two, and then when the relationship is establed already then he'll talk about it

Y. Yelling

doesnt yell unless hes mad, but would rather die than yell at you or his sister

Z. Zzz

sleeps a lot esp on school nights, but can and will pull an all nighter playing games with you or just texting eachother

[iluvnyasm1th]

random ninjagay headcanons

they r all under cut because its kinda long lol

kai: tries 2 make jokes but laughs at them b4 he can say them, has a bunch of merch of himself, carries bandages and bandaids 4 lloyd when he was lil bcuz his like gi was 2 big 4 him and he fell all the time, radiator, takes showers daily and nightly (zane had to convince him to only take them nightly)

cole: knows how 2 sew and fixed lloyds lil gi 4 him (he face plants bcuz of the tmrs tea incident and had 2 fix it all over again), he has had a bunch of pets and is a big animal lover, literally oblitareates everybody at just dance 2017, he has all of them memorized, has a rock collection (his favorite rock is named rocky lol)

lloyd: names eveyrything and anything, gets emotionally attached 2 stuff too easily, (cried all the times the bounty got destroyed), left handed weirdo, often fantasized about doing generic father son activites with his dad when he becoems good again, terrified of snakes, its the trauma, he gets sick a lot (my brother core), curls up and hugs his knees when he sleeps, hates vegetables (cole has 2 pin him down and force feed him any type of greens)

jay: horror movie fanatic (mostly why hes paranoid all the time), autistic about mechanics and video games, has a game reviewing yt channel, loves physical aftection but cuz of electric things others dont rlly appreciate it they try 4 him tho, hes so cold all the time, has won multiple gaming tournaments, vocally stims a lot and gets overstimulated easily, spends all of his money on random ass things nobody needs and tries 2 tell the ninjas it was a life long valuable investment, obsessed with orange juice, doesnt brush his teeeth, what does that make? yellow ass teeth

nya: loves going 2 the aqaurium, celebrates random national days, plays mermaid with lloyd whenever they go to a pool, will punch u in the face for anything and everything, loves sharing way too personal things, kind of a grimy girl, has a scrapbook thats rlly thick with pictures and scraps of paper or stickers

zane: rlly quiet, he sneaks up on ppl all the time (he says its on accident but the ninja rnt rlly convinced of that), literally looks like the epitome of some guy, so confused when they text, he sent a list of tone indicators 4 them 2 use bcuz hes austistic and confused, night light, is air conditioner in the summer, often gets confilcted about being a nindroid and if he ever truly feels things, tells the same joke 100 times and still thinks its funny, he doesnt need 2 sleep so he kinda just cleans at night and keeps watch 4 the ninja in case sormthing bad happens, nya often has 2 like oil up his joints bcuz if they rnt treated after a while they get rlly squeaky

pixal: hangs out with zane a lot at night cuz no need 2 sleep, also looks like some girl, cooks a lot, she may be a nindroid but she does not cook well, she loves building random like yk hings where u put a marble in and its like a beautiful just like continuenous movement that knocks stuff over and triggers stuff yk? likes to doodle and lloyd hangs up her drawings on the fridge, has a secret cat hidden in the monastery that she named screws, jays allergic 2 cats, she avoids jay a lot bcuz of this and jay thinks she doesnt like him, also she just isnt fond of the little blue one

i have more about other random things if u guys wud like it

[honeylikesyanderes]

pros and cons of dating the yanderes pt. 2 (yandate edition)

not proofread-

was sick when i finished it so pardon me if it sucks

18+ mdni pls

this is kinda crack and kinda serious at the same time tbh

icarus

pros

can fly

is a pretty boy

loves flowers

loves giving gifts

has wine mom energy

is rich

has pretty eyes

loves giving you kisses and hugs

you get free stuff all the time from his winery

carries water for you when you go out in case you get dehydrated

always pays attention to everything you touch when you guys go shopping

cons

will gaslight you for no good reason

is toxic

may cuss out your parents just because

loves to cause chaos

favourite colour is bright orange.

doesn't like milk

can be a bit messy

doesn't like to clean up feathers from his wings that fall around the house

ren

pros

is a sweetheart

extremely supportive

likes kids

is loyal to a fault

would do anything for his mate

is affectionate

can cook

physically and biologically incapable of cheating on you

makes art for you all the time

likes to bake and cook for you all the time

packs lunch for you when you have to go to work

bakes you world-class cakes for your birthday, anniversary and any other important days to you

your parents/friends will love him

cons

likes to drink orange juice after brushing his teeth.

drew

pros

will do house chores without you asking

is a middle-aged cat in human form basically

will indulge you in your guilty pleasures

super tall so you'll always feel petite beside him

will always apologise when he's wrong

will always protect you

can and will talk you out of bad situations

has a lot of connections and is willing to use them to help you out

cons

is a lawyer.

is death and is therefore desensitised to death and other related matters

can't feel much emotions towards anyone that isnt you.

minor drinking problem (even tho he cant get drunk)

not super touchy or super sexual

atlas

pros

has a lot of money and influence

will always spoil you

overprotective of you

loves to read

will write you edgar allen poe type poetry

can teleport!!

will make good impressions with your parents/friends

will threaten your coworkers if they're mean to you

has nice horns

will buy you a custom gun because 'it'll look cute on you''

cons

will probably kill your exes (even if you guys are on good terms)

is triggered by specific colours

likes to put gin in his cereal

trust issues x30000

might become distant when he's going through a tough time

always carries a tiny alcohol flask with him everywhere (even tho he canonically cannot get drunk)

anger issues towards everyone that isnt you.

avanti

pros

always horny

has quite a bit of money

very cute and conventionally attractive

is a streamer and gamer

great with his hands/fingers

affectionate, fluffy and shy with you

will always flirt with you and keep your relationship interesting

has fluffy ears and tail

likes alternative music and is open-minded

very assertive and can communicate his needs/wants effectively

cons

may flirt with fans as fan service

just a flirty person in general

bad with boundaries sometimes

likes to lick you just because

is a cat demon fr

true demon form is super scary and you're not allowed to see

always horny.

doesn't like apple juice

[musigrusi]

More random Headcanons of 141

And since I'm a horse girly, we gon add unnecessary amounts of equines (including my own)

Soap is the kinda guy who would love animals like no other, but with the same amount of knowledge as a chicken has about being a shark, you get me?

Ask the man to feed a cat, yES he will do so, but don't be surprised when you find the cat eating pizza.

Bestie says he would be the second half to my demonic stallion (I agree wholeheartedly)

While Soap and my good-for-nothing horse (his name is Legolas by the way... I *had* hopes when I named him... not anymore) would be partners in crime by unintentionally causing the most chaotic of accidents, baby stallion (whose name was almost Hades but I changed it to Leviathan) and Soap would *intentionally* cause the most chaos fathomable to the laws of physics.

Ghost, man... I would put him in a horse therapy group. You know what you do during equine therapy sessions?

You pet them

You brush them

Sometimes you go on a quick spin on them (definitely am not bitter that my family didnt put me in an equine therapy program as a kid, not me, not at all)

Ghost has a handful of cats he just randomly collects from the side of the road too. They got their own cat room, cat TV, couch, a bazillion cat beds in all shapes and forms and... indoor grown, well trimmed cat grass.

Gaz... I feel like he's one of those guys that like animals but dont seek them out? But when they befriend one, it's for LIFE and they will do anything for em?

Which makes him best friend material for dumbass Leggy (or the very pissy matriarch of my collection, Titan)

Rudy has a Banana Ball Python he named "Pasta". Alejandro is deadly afraid of her while Valeria is besties with her (it started off as her befriending danger noodle out of spite for Alejandro but turned into a true and beautifully sinister friendship).

Graves' grandpa is an old farmer and the brat defo helped him out on the ranch before. Boy is a proper cowboy.

And for that exact reason I would dare him to work with Titan (my pissy mare).

Dude will either become her new favorite human or learn physics like never before. 20/80, not in his favor.

I'd put Shepard on her too, especially when she's in one of her shitty moods. Couple that with his old values of "you break em and build em back up" and you got his death reciept guaranteed.

Alejandro loves cows. He wants a full ranch of em for the sole purpouse of cuddling, grooming and petting. I'm also feeling like he would be slightly intimidated by horses (lol especially the pissy one, who isnt tho. Also not helping that if he would be introfuced to mine... well I only have giants, no ponies or normally sized horses around my stables) so he'd either play farmer with a trusty old quad, should he ever settle down. Or he would get a sturdy lil Quarter pony, maybe even a Mustang (I totally see him as one of those "Wendy" girls, "wE hAvE suCh A StRoNg CoNNeCtIoN" those chicks? yeah he is one of em and he defo watched the movie Spirit, then went out and bought a Buckskin/Dun Mustang and named him Spirit too)

Since we're on the topic of "what horse do they ride", here's my own list: Alejandro and his sturdy lil Dun/Buckskin Spirit

Graves would ride his Gramps' old strawberry roan bronc named "Bob" who's probs been considered old before Graves was even born and yet he's still going strong

Shepard, god I hate this guy, he gets a good old American Saddlebred, Chestnut, constantly looks like she's on the acid trip of her life (I find saddlebreds' expressions so fucken entertaining, 10/10) and her name is "Sandy"

Soap gets a Haflinger to A) deal with his bullshit like a champ and B) add to the crazies. The name is probably "Alastaire". Haflingers only come in flaxen chestnut (varying in shade, rarely pure chestnut) so there u go for the colour

RUDY MY LOVE gets a Criollo, suitable in location and even more suitable in their firey nature. defo has an Overo/Sabino Roan+Buckskin Paint named "Fernandito". Fernandito is a cool dude, only scared of Chihuahuas tho.

Valeria has a GIGANTIC Lusitano Stallion, either pitch black with mean eyes or a golden chestnut Pearl with green ones (yes they do actually have green-ish eyes sometimes) His name is something like "Gladiolus" or "Cor Leonis" any FF15 fans eh?

Ghost... I think he probs walked in to an auction once bc he saw a sign and found a scared little ugly duckling, felt a connection and bought him for like 300 bucks (basically Leggy's OG story, that's why I thought these two would click) His name is "Spooky" and he's a blue roan dun with a white face and blue eyes

Gaz first took over his neighbor's shetland after she passed away and then decided, fuck it, and went out to buy another horse as a companion. Now, I would believe he's the kinda guy who would pay top buck for whatever he wants. And he decided on a top grade low 6 figure Warmblood he imported from Germany with the likes of Donnerhall, Franziskus, Totilas and Quarterback all stuffed into his pedigree which made one(1) dangly silky coated long noodle. The shetty is probably a lump of semi white-ish furr named "Chickeb Nugget" and the Warmblood is probably a basic ass bay, 4 white socks named "Kevin". He has an official name (something like "dancing shadows" or "Donner's Hall" or whatever other whackey play on speech the germans come up with) but that name was too official for Kyle so he only calls his 6 FIGURE HORSE "Kevin". Extra brownie points when he exclusively goes on walks with the two of them and gets dragged regularly by Nugget. Not even rides Kevin, let alone have other people ride or even compete him ... no, Kevin, top grade dressage horse, spends his days in the field, caked in mud and living his 6 figure life.

Also Gaz bought all the top grade gear and stuff for his furr babies. 6k saddle that he never uses? Check. Custom made Bridles that he too does not ever use? Check. A collection of saddlepads, leg protection and fly bonnets that would make This Esme go pale? double check. 12 thousand blankets for any change in temperature (even for the hermetically sealed Nugget)? Check. Monthly checkup by the chiro/massage therapist, visits to an aqua trainer, top grade supplements and only bio apples and carrots for Nugget and Kevin? Check Check and Check. A 80k horse box to drive them around once every blue moon? check, he also had it custop wrapped with their pictures on it.

Price gets an icelandic horse. They are pretty small ranging from 125cm to 150cm but incredibly sturdy and strong, meaning, the PERFECT CAMPING BUDDY. Plus Icelandic Horses can eat fish so Price has someone to feed the fish he catches to lol. I immagine that he got an averagely sized 140cm tall girl he named „Fish“ because A) he loves fishing and B) „Fish“ likes to eat fish (premium dad joke right there). Fish is a silver dapple (they are super rare and hella cool) with so much hair that Price either puts in an ugly ass braid or just all together ties it to the side.

For Laswell I’m torn between a tennessee walker or a friesan, so lets just say she has both. The tennessee walker is a proper golden palomino (a real ass barbie horse) and her name is Jodie. Jodie has one braincell. The friesan I immagine is a big boy, and since friesans only come as black, he‘s black. His name is „The dark Emperor“ and is primarily Kate‘s wife‘s horsey, they nickname him dumbo because he got unreasonably large ears. Dumbo and Jodie share her braincell and are the perfect „old married horse couple“.

König my man. His uncle took over the family‘s farm and König used to help out by driving the horse cart around and such. He found a Noriker mare at a market once and immediately fell in love and bought her. She now vibes at his uncle‘s farm with the cows and occasionally will help out with the local forest work (pulling tree trunks in remote areas). He named her „Sissi“, sometimes calls her „Punktle“ tho (little dot) and she’s a dotted thicc chick. They have a shaby old horse trailer that is basically a metal frame with old moldy wood and a rug as a roof, Sissi doesn‘t complain tho, she once trailered on the back of his pickup. She‘s also the town‘s favorite pony to ride when they do a town fare (She gets beer afterwards as a reward).

Roach found the shittiest OTTB out there and said „That one is perfect, I take it“. This thing has more issues than Payboy magazine. GIGANTIC and skinny as shit, suuuper hard to gain weight and has one mental meltdown after another but Roach deals phenominally with it. Her name is probably „Roach“ as an homage to his own callsign but also to „The Witcher“ lol. Roach is a dull brown kind of bay.

Farah gets an Arabian Mare no Qs asked. A dark liver chestnut, absolutely stunning, looks like she‘s coloured with dried blood and her name is Safanad after the mare from King Solomon‘s legend. Fiesty around anyone but Farah and loyal to a T. Absolutely hates the feeling of gras tho lol.

Alex I immagine would get himself a Fjord and go camping with Price with it. He named her „Mjölnir“ after Thor‘s hammer, since Fjords are a Norwegian breed but can‘t pronounce her name so he just calls her Milly instead for short (And to save himself the embarassement). Milly is a simple creature, give her food, water, somewhere to sleep and she‘ll be beyond content. He defo got her a whole western rig, but rides her bitless in a ropehalter because he tried a bit once and she was so upset with him, she didn‘t accept treats for a week (Sounds familliar to me lol). Mjölnir is a typical dun, as all Fjords are, but I immagine her to be slightly darker and after living out his „Fjord roached mane“ phase, let the mane grow out into a messy fluff.

I went overboard again lol… never mind, I think I will do some more hc‘s along the lines of „What kinda X does Y have?“

Also, for all my non horsey people, here are the respective horsies in whatever order (Alejandro, Graves, Shepard, Soap, Rudy, Valeria option 1 and 2, Ghost, Gaz small horse, big horse, Price, Laswell, König, Roach, Farah and Alex)

Also bonus for those that scrolled all the way down, here‘s a pic of my Leggy gremlin

[hostilemuppet]

isnt he the guy who is like physically incapable of drawing more than one woman . why is he giving people critique

he actually listened to criticism and is working on diversifying faces

but regardless you cant deny he has genuine skill even if he falls back on the same facial features and his advice is pretty good, he wants you to feel more confidence in each brush stroke and not to run away from your fears, like backgrounds. or facial diversity

[cosmik-homo]

all the hater girlies on the dash going crazy from good omens meanwhile i created such an elaborate nest of blocked tags in the past year I have literally made it feel, to me, as if this simply isnt happening in the same physical universe as me and thus am not driven to madness when i decide to learn in vague brush strokes what is going on (and i barely, barely do). rip to you in your bad timeline but im not living there.

[angelicpersonals]

A personal mini rant

Under the cut is just a small vent. Going through some things lately. I dont recommend having like 28 different friend groups, it sucks. My actual friends please don't read this, this is just to scream into the void at strangers.

Since I got sick like 3 or 4 weeks ago, I dont remember exact timeline anymore. My mental health plummeted faster, it was not the greatest before then and slowly deteriorating but it got worse worse worse. I have not had the support I needed from family or friends. Lets be clear I "make a lot of friends" but its mostly shallow and one sided friendships. Its "easy for me to talk to people" because I force myself to push down the crippling anxiety and I put myself out there as the butt of the joke making a fool of myself PERFORMING to be likeable. I have heard these things repeated to me by 8 different people the last 3 days alone when I was trying to get emotional support for my depression and loneliness. As for those 3 or 4 weeks. I had to be strong and supportive to everyone around me constantly during it even while sick I'd pop online and was helping people in DMs. A few people cared about my physical health. But mental? even fewer. Everyone thinks I have tons of friends that im beloved and have a huge strong support network. I dont. my "support" network consists of a "Well shit that sucks im sorry. So anyways about me-" for 99% of the people in my life. Theres the slim 1% thats actually there. Yet everyone thinks im so popular and lucky acting like I have no problems and if I do complain about problems its not as bad as everyone elses according to so many people and im selfish for even having problems. Im NOT. The "popularity" you see is because im the therapist and comedic f*cking relief. its not genuine support, its not encouragement. "but they react to your stuff with emojiis" Oh WOOOW yes, like they do everyone elses even STRANGERS. that doesnt make me special. "but they complimented xyz" oh so the occasional / rare compliment on somethings visual appeal like how HOT it is, makes it a supportive encouraging friendship that motivates and inspires me and feels good? Shallow temporary praise means NOTHING. Thats NOT friendship. I have to claw tooth and nail for anything in my life even to be included in hang outs. I have to INSERT MYSELF. Im never invited. If I leave a call 99% of the time im not missed or noticed or just get an "oh bye" yet everyone will worry over eachother when others leave saying they will miss eachother, asking if smth is wrong, etc. If I publically talk about my emotions 99% of the time it will be ignored except for the rare person like K, S and R. R who went pep talking EVERYONE one day. K & S who has been there every time I vent publically in my own server. If I vent in private it gets brushed over like "Shit I feel that way too, sucks for you" or worse I've gotten "you're so selfish" lately when I have said I didn't want to play a damn VIDEO GAME because I am mentally unwell. I will drop everything im doing and go through everything step by step with people pull out all my experiences to try to offer advice or support trying to find the right words to say taking it serious EVERY TIME. Does that sound like a fair equal friendship? When im supporting everyone elses emotions, mental health, dreams, art, writing, etc and I recieve 1% of that same energy back? Dont come @ me with how lucky I am says I get everything in life when I get ONE GOOD THING, I hear it EVERY time where as for me its a REPRIEVE from all the shitty things a RARE reprieve. I have heard this from too many people the past few days. Being in 25k debt as a household isnt lucky Getting to see 10 - 20$ of my 100$ a month isn't lucky. Getting 1k a YEAR isn't lucky Having breaking down old shit being unable to repair, afford to repair or afford to replace any of it, isn't lucky. Having to put in so much effort and energy into everything all the time in every aspect of my life even my family relationships, with no to miniscule and rare return, isn't lucky. Having constant disabilities and chronic illnesses / inherited illnesses fucking me up every single day and struggling through them isn't lucky. Im tired of feeling invalidated and minimized and having my pain ignored. Sincerely Fuck you K#2. A, P, R.

[solardick]

Откуда- where from, from where.

Откуда этот человек? - where is this person from?

Из (iz, is) - is from.

Я из - i am from,

Моя мама из канады - my mom is from canada.

The peculiarity of using “is” instead of from. Changes things. And is also fun getting into the mind of a russian by simply pronouncing a few words. One feels the change in mind.

The one wouldn’t technically disagree with the statement of “my mother is the land.” From mother earth or motherland. Though i suspects this notion would ho by unnoticed by native russian speakers simply because that connection isnt drawn even though motherland and fatherland are apart of their everyday language.

One doesn’t hear that of Americans or Canadians at all. For all the disrespect people, give to their home. Littering and what not. Detaching from natural associations into somethign else. Beacsue “nature sucks”.

Aside form that. They have no word for The. But they do have one(s) for this and that. Lol fucken love it.

Finnaly eatched I am dragon. Its good. Would have enjoyed it more a couple years ago.

On towards, the subject of my recents talks have been, to better phrase. The archetypes of the collective unconscious. Or of the cultural unconscious. Or better stated yet, the archetype and the letter. A dramatic switching of languages or of alphabets seems to result in this. One can nearly, immediately feel the difference in consciousness. Simply by uttering a few words of a foreign language. Though how foreign russian is compared to english in diminishing in scale the more i learn. They are not so different. My learnings have been bringing me closernin the confirmation that there’s the power of magic within the very fabric of speech probably less so in the power of the written word for it adds so much more depth.

I have been looking for sources on this subject but they are all but non-existent to me. Save for a recent finding of an author whi has spent her time scientifically analyzing words. With a book tittles the gods of the word and a phonemic type dictionary. Which has my curiosity. Perhaps. A purchases are to be ordered. It fallows my chain in that every letter of a word has its own power. And that my current tarot layout system is a blending of languages already. For they seem to match that of the russian. Before i started a venturing into that subject.

They tried lassoing this mars/ moon aspect i have between the physical and the “spiritual”-conscientual” by bringing past manipulative bs in connections with my mother and the raping of my sex today into the self-destructive/ self estrangement. But fuck that. And fuck you. There nothing positive there. Mt decision has been made. Theres no changing that. Its done. Theres no going back. So fuck off. I have no love or compassion for that woman.

Theres a reason for the habitual things we do everyday without concession. The washing of the dishes. The brushing of the teeth. The fallowing traffic rules” the same things at the same. Time everyday. It weakens the bond of the chaotic rule. By self governing in place of allowing the outer to govern for us. To an extent that is. The belief in god is the same as the chaotic except for that theres a consistency in framing the mind which is synonymous with daily chores. It works as the same. As it does with the governing rule of political affairs for the lesser bodies of society. Whoch are the everyday person. The russians say it better with the everyday Человек.

The number 4 looking letter Ч. Is not such a far off shoot from card number 4, being by tarot and qwerty as the empress and the emperor. And we have a merging of the natural state and the rulling state. If one doesn’t solely associate these to mother and father. And i rather like letter Л (L) for it is the shape of the tongue in the motion of the letters prononciation. L is a rather curved letter compared to the sharp of the latin L.

Well dont think im going to work. No sleep. Slept poor’y yesterday. The day they stop fucken with me…. Another year gone. Will be the fay i may develop naturally. But. As a side teack of what would be. I wonder what not feeling defense feels likes….. uhm. Will never know. Always on the receiving end. Though “g’job” on bringin in the small minded narcissist teacher. To say its a personal vendetta. Based off a fucken high school prank. Which was actually pretty funny. Whole classes laughed. Was outnof character. But you know. People need to lose their entires laugh for doing a single thing out of character. Just how the worlds spins. Hypocritical since. Shems a prankster herself. Thought it was funny to stage a fake exam to waych all her student squirm over. And congratulations. Now i hate my little sister too. Guess there wont be a generational gap that connects me back to family. Oh well. Tough loss that is. …wish i was a narcissist maybe i could be like my father…. On second thought. Nope. I take join out of fucken with other people. My bad.

My spyche may be inside out now. But she loves me. Right, spyche? Yes, i do. That a girl.

Worst part about it is that i helped in saving more lives today in preventing accidents and hardship. As is ussualy the case emmidiatly proveeding my acts by other people. And the fact that i got shot in the head with a nailgun. Doesnt help your guys cause much. Harmless but it could have not been. Could’da.

Oh my goddess, tmblr isnt queer today.

Fun, fallowing the numbers of notes on all this pics. They fallow the same. Blaze! Fo sho. .. lost my script. What was i gonna say?… i forget. Was thinking about cherry and russian santa‘s daughter. And devil cards, and numberings and letterings. And, oh yeah. My ass is still a little sick but, seems at thr moment to be on the mends. Grateful for that in its own way. Looking at the silver lining. And personal motivation.

But its getting late. Im not sure about driving forklifts and using power tools in a few hours time. Considering this is the second night of poor sleep.

Though tmblr is still overly trashy.

Have t had coffee in awhiel. Hipefully she dismt put speed in it this time.

Themes of new film releases are. The cold and evil ballerinas. You got ghostbusters. And you got godzilla. Both involve defeating the cold using intense heat. Considering its gonna be plus 25 today and its not even june yet. Summer is gonna suck. Maybe theres a town in northern Ontario that needs a new denizen.

Well, ill try to enjoy the day today.

Ok work on the cards today, and make a new post. Maybe go get some weed to help with images. Its been awhile.

Other than that still havent found any meaning to the robin. Other than retreat. And even that isn’t a strong notion maybe they dint mean anything.

A robin, a redwing, a dove, a croh, and a bluejay in that order. The red wing the least significant. Which seems to work as a sign of respect and acceptance. Wait for one to move. While perched on your path. The most significant was the robin and the bluejay. But whatever.

[oetscop]

anyway uhhhh im struggling to focus bc my neck hurts like fuck so im gonna talk abt max and dizzy. and like elaborate on the whole "theyre the same person" thing

so max is my truesona right? his name (maxamillion) actually has a personal meaning to me. my whole life ive fought with identity and ive always had this sort of scattered sense of self. a lot of that comes from childhood neglect and housing instability growing up. every time i move or something bad happens i feel like i get splintered off into another jagged piece of myself, and as life goes on the older pieces get eroded away until i cant even remember who that person was.

i dont want it to sound like DID or something, because its not. its very different. these "other people" never exist at the same time as one another or anything like that. sometimes i can kinda call back how i was at those times in a nostalgic imitation sort of way, but like. its still me? i guess? i dont know.

maxxy is kinda based off the sort of shameless open bleeding wound of a person i was at one time. i was loud and wasnt embarrassed by it. i was open with what i enjoyed. i was clingy but oblivious and sometimes unrealistic.

dizzy is sort of like the more "rational" side of myself. he thinks hes smarter than max because he's been hurt more. hes more familiar with rejection sensitive dysphoria and has been through the same sort of really bad relationship and amicable breakup i went through, as well as the fallout that caused my entire friend group to splinter. hes apprehensive and distant and refuses to trust anyone to an unreasonable degree, hence the quotations.

hes perpetually trying to knock max down a peg or snuff him out. he reminds him how annoying he is when hes loud, he constantly tells him that expressing any emotion about a situation is manipulative. a lot of his character comes from the song hope by roar (among others) and specifically the line "if your hearts upon your sleeve, amputate the arm." hes very motivated by revenge.

really he comes from a well intentioned place, but hes also aware that hes being harmful. he thinks its for the best.

and in his defense max isnt a good person either, not entirely. hes terrified of losing people, but instead of growing distant to avoid pain like dizzy, he becomes incredibly clingy. constantly disarming himself and asking what he would have to do to keep someone around. he has no sense of self and is willing to just drop everything for someone. even if they hurt him. hes also insecure and somehow also full of himself.

but like, they are also literally the same person. the same dog, i guess. but they can interact physically with each other. dizzy looks exactly like max, just with mirrored fur patterns and is more desaturated in color. his hair is also like....greasier. and matted. max has really soft hair but dizzy spends most of his time in bed or just at home so he doesnt take care of himself. sometimes max can convince him to let him brush it. they have a very codependent relationship with eachother. well, okay that makes it sound romantic. its more like a symbiosis sort of thing. parasitic perhaps. theyll kill eachother together but theyll die if theyre apart.

it actually started with like..giving max an A/B/NLM sorta thing (since i do that a lot actually! give ocs traits from a specific media i like a lot. one of my other sonas shrinks when hes upset like cassie from dragon tales) but it sorta just became what it is now. idk why?? i still sometimes draw max with a flower on his head tho lol. its hard not to involve that when hes my truesona and care and paul r like........the focal points of my entire identity and sense of self rn lol. but theyre also nothing like max so i scrapped that.

idk this makes liek no sense lololol. theres far more "versions" that i might flesh out in the future? but for now its just the two of em. hooty hoo

[magicalgirlpropaganda]

I think im demi or grey ace? Bcs I'm only attracted to one person every few yrs. Maybe not even bcs a lot of times i force myself subconsciously because i want to have a crush bcs other ppl do. I pretty much can not have a crush on someone unless i know we share the same kinks pretty much. I'm not physically attracted to someone but I am aesthetically attracted to people. Also the idea of vanilla sex genuinely seems traumatizing. Not overreacting, like genuinely. Like.. I can't explain it, but I just cant do it. I've never been attracted to someone's body, nudes annoy me more than anything unless it is someone I already really like (and even then, it's less im attracted to them and more that I like the idea of making someone else feel good about themselves). I also am aromantic so I don't feel romantic attraction. I like romance and romantic action, like I'll 100% go on a date and cuddle and spoil my partner, but the feelings are platonic.

God idk its frustrating when my mom constantly CONSTANTLY asks why i never have crushes. Because I just can't tell her the answer. My mom asks a lot of questions that I can't tell her the answer to because it isnt appropriate to. And I don't know how to tell her because she wants to be involved in my life and it's not that I don't want her to but that it just isn't appropriate for her to be involved in that part of my life since she is family. And I just wish she'd stop asking me why I haven't had many partners or why I never talk about crushes. I just kinda brush it off, idk what else to say. But she keeps asking.

[djpachipikachu]

prompted by no one at all /j HERE WE GO DISSERTATION ON ROTTMNT LEO’S AROASEXUALITY plus how it fits into graves leosagi bc theyre not romantic

alright so Already previously seen we know he gags and finds romance and pda and the idea of people dating to be gross and Sure maybe thats just a teenager thing (although his brothers never reacted the same way really) But heres my detailed description of his aroaceness that will barely be brought up in any art or writing ill make (maybe. it might be brought up in my fic but itll be a while)

- he rejects romance from a young age , his repulsion being brushed off as just being a little kid thing; he hates romantic plot lines in lou jitsu films, he is disgusted when they kiss on screen, he finds randomly interjected romances in the jupiter jim comics Insanely boring and very forced and unappealing

- growing up thru the series , romance has never been a focus for any of them at all bc like who cares But even when it wasnt a big deal he . still had that disgust . perhaps its just cause he wanted to be a stinky little rebellious teen ? perhaps he just found it funny to annoy ppl by fake gagging at romance movies ? his brothers also thought they were pretty stupid and cliche, he never rly needed anyone but his family anyways, he couldnt imagine somehow finding someone that was more important than any of them

(although when he’d discuss fictional crushes with donnie , he’d just pull up his favorite characters honestly. he didnt realise donnie was actually Attracted to atomic lass or cheery tomato or whatever, he rly did just choose the fake guys that made him happy to think about, isnt that just what all love was? they were fictional, so it doesnt reallt matter)

(its not like romance was ever important before but splinter keeps making jokes about all of them gettinf married sometime in the future and it fills leo with dread at the idea of it being inevitable)

- ALLONORMATIVITY !!! he and his brothers grew up mainly consuming media to know about society outside !!!! and almost Every media has romance somewhere in it. it’s exaggerated and conventional and flowery and unrealistically explosive . he knows hes aroace somewhat, he wasnt so sheltered from the outside world that he didnt figure out himself, but those Doubts wriggle in , all the “maybe you havent found the right one”s got to him sometimes

- he cant imagine being away from his family for any reason. romance cant be that good. (psst! all tmnt families grow up codependent on each other due to knowing nothing else aside from their family and fear of beinf discovered !)

- but as irrational as it is, hes afraid of his family and friends outside of it (not that he rly has any,,,) being split away from him bc romance takes priority. it always does in movies at least.

- heres where my fic comes in , him and usagi are an unlabelled relationship but a qpr if a label Had to be given (they dont label themselves) and leo is openly physically affectionate with usagi (but he is affectionate with everyone in the same way) and Doubt crawls in

- fear that usagi sees his affection as romantic bc romance repulses both of them , fear that his usual affection isnt Big enough to show his Big Feelings bc he knows it isnt romance but like? surely just platonic feelings cant be this strong? surely he has to show it more? does he have to kiss him on the lips to show it? go on grand dates and outtings? does usagi expect that? (they both think kissing on the lips is gross, leo still has trouble unlearninf that platonic love is not inherently lesser than romantic, most of their hangouts are mundane and domestic errand running, usagi expects nothing more bc hes content with what they have)

- basically leo has only ever grown up with romance being shown as the end all feelinf above everything else when He Personally prioritizes his family so much more . so when he gets a feeling thats Just as big as how he feels about his family, but its obviously not a familial feeling, he just. Doesnt know if what he does is enough to show how important usagi is to him. he tries to follow what they do in movies but it feels unnatural and gross and uncomfortable and he doesnt Like it !

smth smth queer platonic love here have a writing snippet that can say it better idk

gestures loudly at him hes aroace he has big feelings and hes so freely affectionate with everyone he knows and everyone he loves is so important to him but its not that big of a deal really bc of course he loves his family more than anything of course he loves his best friend he loves a lot of things love isnt restricted to romance

born to infodump about aroace rottmnt leo and his rejection of romance while also suffering allonormativity forced to listen to a conventionally romantic song and interpret it as aroace

[prettyniji]

Hello! i love your works omg ‹3 ... may I request for Luxiem with their s/o who has the love language of physical touch? Fluff of course. But, if you uncomfortable with it, I'm very sorry, you can just ignore it. Thank you so much ‹3

authors note: thank you for the request !! i'm not uncomfortable at all my love language is physical touch hehe, i hope i did your request justice and you enjoy (づ๑•ᴗ•๑)づ♡

all writing is mine and mine only !! no reposting ,,, this isnt proofread very well sorry for any mistakes or typos !

characters: vox akuma; mysta rias; ike eveland; luca kaneshiro; shu yamino

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˗ˏˋ ♡ ˎˊ˗ luxiem with a cuddly s/o ˗ˏˋ ♡ ˎˊ˗

ʚɞ vox akuma ʚɞ

his love language is also physical touch so he would drown in the affection you show him!! after he finishes up his streams he would want nothing more than to be cuddled up with you and chat away the night he has mentioned how much he loves surprise cheek kisses, so make sure you catch him by surprise and plant a kiss on his cheek whenever you want to see his blushy flustered face he looks like this: ( ⸝⸝´꒳`⸝⸝) has his hands on you a lot no matter what he's doing, so if you want his hand to dance along your thigh mindlessly make sure you sit next to him while he works if you do the same and always have your hands on him while working, even if you don't realise what you are doing he can't help but let your touch consume his mind and he finds he can't focus on his own work because your hands are playing with his hair oh so nicely ଘ( ≧▽≦ )ଓ

more under the cut !

ʚɞ mysta rias ʚɞ

i think he is a closeted touchy person... he didn't realise how much he loves your affection until he hasn't gotten it while you're at work or out for the day

so as soon as you get home you find your perky boyfriend standing at the door waiting for you to thread your hands through his hair and give him your usual affection ( ᴗ͈ˬᴗ͈)ഒ

as your hands find themselves brushing all over his body; his arms, shoulders, neck and hips, he sighs and leans into every touch you give him as he listens to you talk about your day.

whenever you are both out with your friends together, often he finds himself struggling to speak and focus on his words as your hand plays with his fingers or your arm locks with his, trying his hardest to focus but how can he when your touch makes his skin tingle (❀´ ˘ `❀)

ʚɞ ike eveland ʚɞ

our novelist is more than often lost in his books, so it's very easy for both of you guys to idly show affection to each other, you playing with his hair and reading along with him (as much as you can, i imagine he reads very fast..)

sometimes he reads his novels or his own works out loud to you, his arm around you drawing shapes into your shoulder

his hands would only leave your skin to go to the next page of his book, in which they immediately find rest on your thigh, continuing his invisible doodles on your leg ଘ(੭´꒳`)°* ੈ‧₊˚

however, when he is too tired to read he asks you to read to him, drowning in your love and affection like a cat nuzzling into your side, your voice and hands bringing more comfort to him than anything else in the world

it's fascinating how fast ike can fall asleep when your hands are on him, the slightest kiss on his cheek or forehead will have him feeling soft and cozy enough to nap with you

definitely tries to pretend your touch doesn't affect him as much as it does, but its very clear that as soon as you peck your boyfriend's lips he is putty in your hands /ᐠﹷ ‸ ﹷ ᐟ\ﾉ

ʚɞ luca kaneshiro ʚɞ

i think we all can agree that when our 'big and scary' mafia boss discovers you are just as touchy as him, he is delighted and starts to act like a puppy, following you everywhere and telling you good things he did so you will pat his head, cup his cheeks and kiss all over his cute face

honestly the line between luca and dog starts to blur with how much he wants you to play with his hair and scratch his head, to the point that if he had a tail, it would be wagging so hard he'd fly away..

but we can both agree that he wouldn't have to do anything to gain your affection because, who can resist giving him all the kisses in the world? if you can then you have the same power as god ;;;;;

i imagine if you yourself are streaming or in a call with someone, he would be sitting so close to you, practically on your lap, and grabbing your wrist to pat his head, holding his cheek close to yours

luca would love for you to be chatting away at him while kissing him in between your words, cupping his cheeks and looking in his eyes, all while telling him about an annoying coworker or annoying work

he would easily solve that annoying work or coworker in the blink of an eye with how you kiss him, just say the word !!

ʚɞ shu yamino ʚɞ

we all know this sorcerer is up at ungodly hours streaming or doing... sorcerer things...?

so, in protest, you must sit beside him while he streams and run your hands all over his body, while doing work of your own

he would go crazy, wondering how you can have your full attention on him but also have no attention on him at all ;;;;

may end his stream earlier than usual just so he can feel you stroke his cheeks and sit on his lap, making sure that you aren't paying attention to anything in the room other than him!! because he loves drowning in your affection and being the centre of your attention hehe (｡˃ ᵕ ˂ *) ｳﾝ

would die for you to sit on his lap even when he streams, letting you play with his hands in between valorant rounds or as he talks to his genmates

but also wouldn't let you because he knows he would get shy and embarrassed and struggle to get his words out on stream ........... ૮(˶˃ᆺ˂˶)

when he tries his hardest to silently get in bed next to you, thinking you're asleep, he strokes your face and gives you a soft kiss, telling you how much he loves you and your affection, even if he gets embarrassed easily

thank you for requesting, i hope you enjoyed and have a good day honey ₍₍ (̨̡⸝⸝´꒳`⸝⸝)̧̢ ₎₎